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Lover’s Eye | ksj

Lover's Eye

— They say the eyes are the windows to one's soul. His just also happen to open the door to your heart.

Word Count: 5,448 Pairing: Kim Seokjin × Reader Contents: ANGST, roMANCE, FLUFF, dRAMA, PINING, star-crossed lovers 😭, oh the woes of being a woman in a historical period, misunderstandings being cleared uwu, KIM SEOKJINNN, Historical-ish AU (but with fictional places bc i didnt want to think of being historically accurate lol)

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A/N: IT’S LATE but happy birthday jinnie 😭💞💖💗 I wanted to write something for him, but I didn’t want to write about him leaving for the military bc it’s a bit on the nose, so here you guys go instead! it’s an old fic idea that i recently revamped lol 

Fun fact! The concept is based on the Georgian tradition of having an accessory (necklace, brooch, bracelet, etc.) that depicts an image of the eyes or an eye of a secret lover, spouse, or other loved ones. This is often common for those in secret affairs, protecting their lover's identity but at the same time be able to express their love (and I think that's pretty uwu if ur star-crossed lovers ✋😭💞)  

Anyways, I hope you enjoyed! 💗💗💗

Your paradise is an old ruin on the outskirts of the city—a once great fortress now left to rot a hundred years after its last great feat—but in that crumbling mess of stone and moss are remnants of beautiful memories you constantly rekindle for some semblance of a warmth long gone. The pleasant weather emanates most of the feeling—warm sunlight peeking through the overgrown trees and cool breeze caressing stray hairs away from your face.

It’s a spot under one of the trees where you usually tuck yourself into and leave the rest of the world behind for your own peace of mind. It offers the perfect amount of light and shade, and the wind doesn’t become too distracting as you dawdle about. 

This place, after all, is lawless, and you do as you please. At times, you’d bring a book and a pen with you, idly writing your thoughts and doodling in the margins as you read. Other days you’d stroll through the abandoned halls and let yourself be lost in imagining what took place centuries past. Most times, however, you’d sit under your favorite tree, take out a pencil or maybe that small, worn metal box of your paints, and bring something to life onto your paper—like now.

Accompanied by nothing but the distant sounds of small land critters reaching your ears, your hands move the pencil about the paper at a leisurely pace without much thought. Time passes easily this way, you taking your time to draw out figures—a person, apparently. 

Oh.

Your hands come to a stop as you finally realize what—who—you’ve drawn instinctively. A man stares back at you with a tousle of dark, fluffy hair atop his head, brushing gently over his brows. His plump lips were drawn to a small smile, and his eyes—oh, his eyes—were dark in color but the expression in them remains soft and kind, piercing right through you—through your heart. 

He looks beautiful—but you don’t think you could ever do the real thing justice. 

At your own making, Kim Seokjin stares back at you—nothing but charcoal on paper; a mere likeness you cannot feel the warmth of, and an endearing gaze you can only recall in your memories.

You find yourself fishing for something beneath your lace blouse—a familiar small, gold locket whose four corners your fingers know very well to hold. Opening it reveals an eye that, unlike the sketch you’ve drawn, is a bit more lifelike with its colors. The dark chocolate iris has light reflecting off of it like starlight, making it stand out amidst the rest of the miniature canvas. 

Flitting between the sketch and the locket only leaves you more despondent in a feat of having his image engraved in your head lest you ever have the misfortune of forgetting it. 

You couldn’t help but ponder to yourself, reminiscing the seven springs since you’ve last seen the man. 

“Do you like it?”

Voice falling short of a whisper, struggling to find it in you to look at his face so you resort to asking for a verbal reaction. You watch as he endearingly compares the two lockets—one with his eye’s dark chocolate hue and the other with the (e/c) of yours. It had been fairly difficult to paint on such small canvases, but you managed to accomplish the feat.

“Absolutely, my love,” he croons, pressing a kiss atop your forehead before he clasps his locket around his neck. Without any hesitation, he does the same for you. Not long after, his fingers secure a gentle grip on your chin and guide your head upwards. For the first time since you two snuck off to meet tonight, your eyes meeting his, two almost-crescents twinkling as he gives you a smile—tender and loving with the hint of bittersweet sadness. “You’ve captured my handsomeness in the eye alone,” he jests despite himself, pride in his tone as he pulls you into an embrace. “How fortunate I have such a talented woman to immortalize me.”

You couldn’t help but laugh at his antics. “But of course,” you hum against his shirt, as you hug him just a little bit tighter. “You’re my only muse.”

The shake in your dwindling voice doesn’t elude your lover, making him pull away and, this time, cupping your cheeks to give them a pinch. “Don’t frown now,” he tuts, his thumbs playfully drawing a smile onto your lips. “You swore you wouldn’t.”

Seokjin’s eyes ruin his light-hearted facade—just as crestfallen as yours. For his sake, however, you do your best to oblige a smile, only to have them force tears from your eyes. A shaky sigh leaves his lips as your tears start flowing one after the other, and so he pulls you into his arms again, letting his shirt stain with your tears. 

You take every second to engrave the feeling of his arms—his warmth—around you. “Come back to me,” your words are muffled by his shoulder but he hears it all the same.

“Of course,” he affirms, giving you a squeeze as he buries his nose into your hair. “I very much intend to.” 

Kim Seokjin was an orphaned boy, found unconscious by the river outside the town and gladly taken in by the local baker and his wife who have been childless well into their years. He grew to be a handsome man, fawned over by even the ladies in your circle who often bemoaned about how unfortunate it was that he didn’t have anything to his name outside the bakery he’s set to inherit from his adoptive father. 

You, however, accomplished what they couldn’t. 

See, Kim Seokjin—one of the most revered bachelors in town—is your little secret. The man you sneak around with. The man you exchange knowing glances with. The man you’ve shared your heart with. 

It was most unfortunate that the two of you were born into different classes. You are the third of four daughters in a particularly well-off family who owned and managed a relatively large farmland. Though your family ranks low amongst polite society, your mother, nearly driven mad into perfectionism, strictly wanted all of her daughters to marry well. This became the very reason why you’ve kept the fact that you and baker Kim’s son are lovers.

It was most fortunate, however, that your two elder sisters successfully secured themselves husbands for their future and the family, especially when your late father succumbed to his illness during one particularly harsh winter. Occupied with the adjustments of passing the family business to your eldest sister and her husband, your mother’s pressure with suitors eventually loosened (just a little) when it came to you and your youngest sister, who shared your distaste with the forced matches. This made it all the more easier to see Seokjin, who often came around under the excuse of his father’s bakery that got their supply of dry ingredients from your family’s company.

It was him who found the ruins—him who brought you there one night and the two of you spent the night watching the stars. 

It was him who revived your love for art—him who gifted you a makeshift palette of paints and urged you to paint when you were told to forget about your passion.

It was him who left you—him who decided to seize the opportunity to be an apprentice to the royal chef and asked you to make something for him to remember you by (hence, the lockets).

The two of you swore you'd stand the test of time, distance, and everything else the universe will throw your way. Of course, such things were always easier said than done. Misfortune found its way to the path and now… well, now you’re quite unsure of what it holds for you—or him.

Here you are, seven years have passed—no Kim Seokjin aside from the ones you've put on paper and canvas. 

Does he still look the same after all these years? 

Did he keep his locket close to his heart, too?

Did he ever stare into the likeness of your eye and reminisce?

There are times resentment gets the better of you—questions of his love, of why he hasn't gone back to look for you, of if he ever even loved you any more—and time, itself, has made you weary, spent your tears, and tired your heart. It's gotten easier to bury memories of him, but times like this come where it rises from the depths in which you've left it. You walk the line of acceptance and delusion, indulging in your greatest "what if" while knowing the truth of your folly.

A sigh escapes your lips as you start to feel the tears stinging your eyes. You keep them at bay as you try to get yourself together. "That's enough for the day," you tell yourself, gathering your materials and slipping them into your satchel. 

Another day ends with you leaving the ruins—your paradise—behind, along with all of the memories of your first love. 

"A ball?"

Before you, your youngest sister, Emma, nods enthusiastically as your eldest sister, Jane, offers you a kind smile. "We thought it'd be lovely for you to join," she says, squeezing your hand, pleading. "Anne will be here by then, too, and we'll be complete."

Your heart aches for your sisters, but while you love them very much…

“You know my sentiments about polite society,” you couldn’t help but sigh, sarcasm dripping in “polite” as you know well of the vipers that hide beneath their pristine facades. 

See, the truth of you and your relationship with Seokjin was discovered six or so years ago by your mother. The resulting conflict led to your disownment and the death of your reputation in the eyes of the social circle, who stared at you with scrutiny, jealousy, and disdain wherever you went.

Emma and Jane looked at you in pity—something you absolutely distaste, but you know it would never leave their eyes even if you told them to. Still, however, your eldest sister brings out a piece of paper—an invitation. “It’ll be fine,” she assures you, “It’s a masquerade ball.”

“No one would know,” Emma eagerly supplies, wielding puppy dog eyes and a pout against you. 

You look at the two of your sisters—who have missed you since all these years, who have given you support in secret, who have urged you to return to the family since your late mother’s passing two years ago. You only manage to meet them a day every other week, your stubborn drive to make something of yourself occupying most of your days with your jobs. 

The cursive words on the card look back at you, almost expectantly. Wearing a mask sounds promising, but the luxury of it all—finding a gown to wear, attending the extravagant party, following the strict etiquette—is all too much now for the simpler life you’ve lived in the past years. They remind you of a suffocating, restricting part of your life.  

On the other hand, however, your heart strings are tugged for your sisters.

With a sigh, you set the invitation down and turn back to your sisters who anticipate your response. “How am I even supposed to afford a decent dress for myself?” you say, brow raised, but the signs of defeat bring grins onto their lips. 

“We’ll gladly take care of that, dear,” Jane assures you as Emma excitedly giggles, leaving her seat to hug you.

Their warmth coaxes a smile from your lips. Anything for them. 

“Anything for them, you say?” you grumble to yourself with a muffled groan as you stand amongst a crowd all chattering amongst themselves, while you stand there all by your lonesome. 

The night of the much awaited ball, you stayed at the estate for the first time in years. The maids delivered to you a beautiful gown of gentle green with delicate white lace trims. Along with it was a white mask with vines and flowers sculpted around it. It took a while for you to get ready, but by the end of it, your hair was beautifully pinned up with a few pearls and faux white flowers.  

The four of you—your second elder sister having arrived with her husband a few days before—meet at the living room, all happy smiles at the notion of being together again. Of course, having their husbands in tow, all of you had to split between two carriages on the way to Fairford Manor. 

Which brings you here now.

Alone, because as all of your sisters have gotten married (yes, even your youngest sister has now also found herself a man), that means as the song for the waltz played, all couples go to the center and dance together. 

“They say the chandelier was a gift from Queen Irene herself. Isn’t that fascinating, my lady?”

You hold back a grimace. “Quite so,” you politely say in feign interest, so as to not offend the man next to you. You don’t know who the old man is, but while he's been nice to have struck a conversation with you, if you planned to spend your evening with history lessons, you’d go to a library.

“Have you eve—”

“Good evening.”

A tall stranger approaches you both, clad in a black suit embroidered with silver thread and a black mask covering his full face. Your brows raise as the man offers you his hand. “If I may,” he courtesies, “I’d like to ask the lady for a dance?” 

Looking around, it seems that the second dance has indeed begun. A part of you is relieved at the sweet release from boredom, but then again, you don’t know this man either. Something does, however, urge you to take his hand before you can even think about it. 

For a moment, his hand in yours leaves you befuddled. Warm they were, and… No. Nonsense.

“I’d be delighted to,” you force a smile, now that you’ve doomed yourself to accept the invitation.

The two of you join the circle of people who came to dance to the next song. While your hand remains in his, you gingerly—awkwardly—place your other hand on the man’s shoulder. His other hand found purchase at the small of your back, as you both began to follow the tune and waltz. You thank your body for remembering the arduous years of having to study dances—you’ve yet to step on your partner’s feet!

You find yourself looking up to meet eyes with the stranger. The close distance has allowed you a better look into his eyes, and they knock the air out of you. Dark irises you’ve seen so many times before stare back at you with a knowing familiarity.

Is it—can it really be him?

“A frown doesn’t suit you, my lady,” he says, and his voice alone—soft and light-hearted as always—dooms your suspicions. With the mask obscuring his face, you find it hard to decipher his emotions. Has time rid you of knowing what his eyes speak after so long?

Your heart races and aches in a flurry of emotions, but for his sake and yours, you resist the urge to storm out of the ballroom. You wonder if he can sense your panic—if he could see your eyes glassy with unshed tears. “So, you’ve come back,” you dully say, tearing your eyes from him to spare yourself any more pain.  

“A bit later than intended, I know,” he tells you as he guides you through the dance. 

Too late, your pain screams. Too late. Too late—

Your teeth bite down at your lip, and you sentence yourself to silence until the last note of the song. Without another word, you hastily courtesy and leave him on the dancefloor, glaring at the marbled floors all the way out of the manor. Hushed whispers follow you, but they are nothing you haven’t privy your heart to. In fact, you’ve expected the gossiping—but him? Kim Seokjin, your first love, right before you when you’ve spent seven years without him? 

He’s a blow to your heart you hadn’t anticipated—a bomb amongst mere arrows. 

A sob finally escapes your lips as you reach the stairs that lead to a pathway to the gates, forcing you to shed your mask when they stick to your skin and get in the way of your tears. The cold night air nips your skin, but you’ve been shaking for far longer than the moment you stepped outside. 

Your melancholy has you nearly stagger off the stairs, but a hand grabs a secure hold of your elbow before you could fall. You pathetically look up to your supposed savior—Kim Seokjin, sans the black mask. How fortunate.

“(Y/N)—”

“Don’t,” you grit through your teeth. 

It’s a surreal sensation—bittersweet, really—to finally see the real thing when you’ve spent years longing for your drawings and paintings to become it. Yet, here your old flame was now—alive in a way your art could never atone—and all the yearning turned into a forest fire across your whole being. 

Soft thumbs wipe away your tears, a feeling that makes you instantly flutter your eyes closed. “It’s unfair,” you find yourself whimpering your thoughts aloud. “Why does it feel like I’m the only one suffering?”

Years of scrutiny and hopelessness all reap the seeds of misery they sowed in you, all of them coming alive to ensnare you and drag you to the depth now that the sole reason for it all presents himself to you—the man you loved, the man you left your family for, the man you stayed in this damned city for even as it rots you from the inside out.

“What makes you say that?”

Seokjin’s words coax you to open your eyes. Through blurred tears, you come to realize he’s closer now, his eyes swimming with tears like yours—the sight of which softens your furrowed brows. Still, it’s not enough to satiate the years of contempt that brewed within you. “Time seems to have been kinder to you, is all,” you bitterly say, taking in his suit ensemble that you could immediately tell was expensive. 

Your words hurt Seokjin, you know it well, but in a childish feat, you hope it does. “I’ve worked hard for it,” he argues, a frown tugging his lips down. “You know nothing of what I’ve been through.”

“So do you,” you say, reaching to remove his hands from your face and walking down what steps remain on the stairs.

You have no doubts of his accomplishments. He had always been able to do what he set his mind to and do so flawlessly. Perhaps, it is this that also prods at the green-eyed monster within you, who envies to see that while you may have both suffered, he’s more triumphant in his feats than you were.

Ever the better person out of the two of you, Seokjin tries to bring you to reason. He follows you out to the manor grounds. “Then make me understand,” he pleads, managing to take your hands into his and effectively stop you in your tracks yet again. “Don’t run away from this—from me.”

Seokjin’s eyes never leave yours and you find it hard for yourself to look away now. Damn it all. His eyes have always done away with you and your stubborn resolve. 

“Mother found out,” you find yourself telling him, lips quivering yet again.

Through the next months after Seokjin’s apprenticeship began at the capital, you would get your news of him through his mother, who always had that knowing glint in her eyes about the two of you before he had left. Both your worries and excitement could fill an ocean, and that made the two of you much closer as you both waited for every letter from Seokjin. 

It was a year or so in, however, your mother discovered his letters to you. You remember the sheer dread that washed over you when you saw her at your vanity table, reading the letters Seokjin directly addressed to you.

"Mother…"

You stood frozen by the door, part of your nightgown bunched in your hands as you watched your mother grip the letter tightly with only one thing in her eyes—fury. The moment she looked up and met your eyes through the mirror, chills ran down your spine. "What did I lack for you to have done this treachery to me, (Y/N)?" she said, voice eerily steady and sharp that it makes you flinch.

Willing yourself to step forward, you try to gently reason with her. "Mother, love mustn't have boundaries," you say, “Seokjin is—”

"Love is an illusion, (Y/N)," your mother spat, standing from the chair with such force that it toppled over. “These,” she waves a letter to your face, “These are nothing but lies.”

"It's not—"

"This boy may have you fooled, but not me," your mother claims, tearing the letter in her hands before your eyes, the sight of which sets you a blaze in panic.

"No!" you cry out and run to her, grasping her hands to try and save the other letters from the same fate. "Stop it, please! Stop!"

Your mother looks at you in outrage as you cry over the torn pages of your lover’s words, clutching the letters you managed to get a hold of close to your heart. "You'd waste yourself for that baker's boy?!" she bellowed, "What else can he give you aside from his looks, hm? Nothing!"

"I don't give a damn about what he can't give!" you scream back, anger now flowing through your veins. "I love him and he loves me—unconditionally. I'm not throwing what we have away simply because he doesn't fit you greedy ide—"

A slap damns you to silence. 

"How dare you?" your mother sneers, seething. "How will you live then, hm? In the slums with nothing to eat?"

Her underestimation of commoners infuriates you. "The Kims get by just fine mother," you hiss, standing to stare her down with a glare. "Your obsession with luxury blinds you to the beauty in their simple lives."

Your mother glares back, crossing her arms. "Then I'll simply have you see things my way," she declares with such sureness that it unsettles you.

"What do you mean?"

"No daughter of mine marries a commoner," she says the words with such disgust that it stabs your heart with pain. "You'll marry Lord Jung's son, and then you'll see just how much better life is!"

Jung Hoseok, you remember him. A kind, bright boy you played with as a child—son to one of your late father’s greatest investors. He’s heir to his father’s brewery business. You can see why, in your mother’s eyes, he’s a perfect candidate for marriage. 

Even so, you can't stomach the thought of betraying Seokjin—let alone attempting to unlove him. 

"Then, I'll be no daughter of yours."

Your mother's visibly taken aback, her furious eyes that had seemed so sure before falter upon hearing your words. "What?"

Tears sting your eyes as you shake but you stand your ground. "If it disgusts you to have a daughter who loves a commoner, then I'll do you a favor, Lady (L/N)," you tell her, fishing for a coat in your closet, as well as the satchel that kept your locket and the makeshift palette Seokjin gifted you among other things. 

"You would leave the family for that boy?"

You could no longer bear the noose this life has around your neck. "A single inch of Kim Seokjin has made me feel more love, seen, and supported than you ever could," you claim, as you don on your coat. Another glare and you finally tell your mother the truth that you and your sisters have all been thinking of for years. "Your expectations and dreams have doomed us all to terrible, unhappy ends."

In many ways, your mother had killed all of you.

Jane, the eldest, while her husband was a good man, lives in his shadow. You like to think she was a genius, if she hadn’t been shackled to be a woman like all of you were. She longed to take care of the family estate and business herself, but that power’s been passed to her husband.

Anne—sweet Anne—who loved to read about plants, was married off to a count from a neighbouring kingdom. Your mother didn’t care about the rumors of his infamous infidelity—-didn’t care that your sister was doomed to be all alone, so far from home.

And, young Emma, whose imagination knows no bounds, wanted to write stories, but mother burned her manuscripts when she found out about her intentions to publish them.

"Everything I do, I do for all of you," your mother growled.

"You do it for yourself," your words smack her nearly as hard as she did. "You'd rather have our hearts and souls die to fit your perfect picture, than be happy."

"Happiness isn't everything—"

"I'd rather die than live without happiness."

This shocks her enough into silence that it gives you time to storm out of the room—of the estate. 

Seokjin’s eyes were wide as you told him of what had transpired that night. He seems as if he had something to say, but he withholds his words until you finish your side of the story.

The two of you walk in the night, side by side with a distance drawn by an invisible line between you both. “I came to the bakery the moment I left,” you tell him, “but even then, my misery doesn’t end.” 

That night, certain of your disownment, you made a run for the Kims' bakery. Imagine your surprise when you found the establishment abandoned. No more bread of all shapes, forms, and flavors displayed. No more gentle conversation between Mr and Mrs Kim. No more kind smiles to welcome you into the abode. 

Everything was gone. 

“I don’t know what happened,” you say, shivering yet again—this time from the cold. Seokjin wordlessly sheds his black overcoat, the silver threads embroidered into it glinting in the moonlight as he did. For a moment, you’re silent, words unable to escape you as he drapes his coat over your shoulders.

This makes it all the more difficult to meet his eyes, you forcing yourself to look at the forest ahead. “I…” you wet your lips as you ease your breathing. “I barely had any money with me, but one of our old maids thankfully took me in.”

Helen remains to be someone dear to your heart. “It was also her who helped me find something to make a living with,” you say, a soft smile on your face at the memory of going through town with Helen to look for jobs. In the end, she was able to help you become an assistant seamstress to a kind over to a dress shop. 

After months of working, you finally had enough to look for him where you last knew he was. “The first of my plans was to earn enough money to go to the capital,” you murmur, your smile fading at the memory of what took place there when you arrived. “Alas,” you bitterly laugh, “you weren’t there anymore.”

It took you days to even manage to ask a member of the royal kitchen staff about what happened to Seokjin, and as it turns out, he quit from his post some time after you were disowned. Next to you, Seokjin grimaces, sighing as he shakes his head. “I,” he stammers, “I had already been under a lot of pressure, and…”

It seemed to be his turn reminiscing. “My parents came to the capital all of a sudden,” he began, “they said Lady (L/N) told them to get out of the city at your request—said that you were getting married to another and you didn’t want anything that reminded you of me.”

Your heart dropped at the news. When did your mother orchestrate such a scheme?

You recall that before that night, the last you had seen of Mr and Mrs Kim had been a week or so. Had your mother known about you and Seokjin for much longer before you discovered her in your room? 

Tears return to your eyes, and you find yourself clutching Seokjin’s coat tightly in your hands. A newfound hatred for your mother burns in you, but a part of you still found fault in Seokjin’s predicament. “Seven years,” your words tremble. “I’ve waited seven years for you to come back—stayed a commoner here even as they slander me behind my back because I didn’t want you to not find me. Why didn’t you come for me sooner?” 

Until the end, you were your mother's disappointment. Even your youngest sister, who had no plans of getting married, was now with child, having gotten married to the heir to a publishing company last summer. You, on the other hand, denied any man who came to ask for your hand—who all told you how fortunate you were that they’re even asking a desolate spinster like you. 

You could feel Seokjin’s gaze from beside you, but you couldn’t find it in yourself to look into them and see what they held. A sigh resounds from him, so filled with regret and anguish. “I lost my way for a while,” he confesses, “when I heard your supposed husband was an heir, I was angry. I poured my heart and my time into making something of myself—I got back to the royal kitchen, I got employed under a ducal family, and then I delved into business.”

He looks up at the moon, like it’d give him more strength for his confessions. “I planned to come back here and show you all of that, I…” he shakes, “I wanted you to regret leaving me.”

You find it hard to imagine Kim Seokjin, who was always so mature and certain of himself, be so unsure and lost, and yet the emotions his words carry are proof of it. A part of you feels betrayed that he thought you would believe such a thing, but you know well how emotions can cloud a person’s reason.

The two of you came to a stop when he stood before you, seizing your hands yet again since the manor’s staircase. A hand came to tilt your chin towards him. “When I finally came here,” Seokjin earnestly looked at you, “I can’t begin to imagine the relief and joy I felt to find out you never got married at all, but I… I also know what a fool I’ve been.”

A glint of that well-known determination is in his eyes as he fishes for something pinned beneath his waistcoat. “When I saw you at the ball, I knew I had to at least try if I had even a small chance to be with you again.”

In his hands was his locket, one that revealed your eye in the midst of it. At that moment, your eyes yet again shine with tears—this time, happier than the previous ones. Your heart swells, not enough to quell your pain, but still enough to comfort your broken heart—to embrace it and say “I’m here, I’ll never leave again.”

Before you is a familiar view, you now realize it as you look around what surrounded you both. Walking down the memories of the past lead you to the place where you both shared most of it—the ruins. 

A small smile makes it to your lips. “Do you remember the last time we were here?” you ask him, and watch as he, too, came to recognize where you two were. The smile that befalls him is precious, as he nods. 

You find yourself squeezing his hand in yours, taking a step forward to lessen the gap between you both. You stare into his eyes—see how softly and kindly they gaze at you. “You are my only muse,” you say, echoing the words you told him seven springs ago as your fingers reach for the locket you kept tucked between your dress and corset. “The one who gave me strength amidst my misery.”

Seokjin encloses his right hand with yours, both of them containing your respective lockets, as he rests his forehead against yours, eyes fluttering close. “You’re my muse, too,” he swore under his breath as he leaned in and captured your lips in a tender kiss. 

You smile, the cracks in your heart slowly but surely being melded back together from his warmth.

Here you are, seven years have passed—Kim Seokjin very much alive and within arm’s reach, proving what you thought during that dreadful night to be true. You can never unlove him.

𝓽𝓪𝓰𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓽 : @mwitsmejk​ @dreamamubarak​ @bloodline1632​

[mister-lady]

Heyoo!! Here's the fic I was talking about! It is mostly a fair amount of angst, nothing crazy, its mainly just me venting to Janus vkvkjrfj. Usual apologies for the ugly spacing, I'm too lazy to fix it all but it happens whenever i copy and paste the fic for whatever reason.

HEY. IF YOURE READING THIS IT WASNT DIRECTED AT YOU. I REAPEAT, IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I ASSURE YOU IT WASN'T DIRECTED AT YOU.

Ship: stolen hats and gloves (Janus)

Warnings: hint at s*lf h*rm in one sentence near the end.

Here :)

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Matt had been in his room alone for a rather long amount of time now. He would come out and eat a little bit or to go to the bathroom and other nessecairy human needs but other than that he was all bottled up in his room. His roommates wanted to give him some time to himself incase he needed it but they started to realize that time didn't seem to be helping. Janus had volunteered to go and check on him and make sure everything was okay. However, Janus couldn't help but feel oddly hesitant to doing so.

Matt groggily lifted his head up as he heard the sound of knocking on his door. "Go away." He said loud enough for the person on the other end to here.

"I think we need to talk." Matt quickly recognized the voice as Janus's.

Matt was about to argue and tell him to leave, but he knew that that wasn't going to work. He groaned and got up and opened the door to let Janus in.

Janus let himself in and sat down at the edge of Matt's bed. Matt walked over and layed on his bed next to Janus.

"What do you want?" Matt mumbled, sounding more upset than he had intended.

"You've been up here for almost three whole days Matt, we're getting worried about you."

"I don't see why. It's not like three days is a lot. Plenty of people go away for three days."

"Matthew we care about you. We were worried when you didn't even come out at all on the first day."

"I don't see why you're worried. No on else worries. I've had times where I left for almost a week and you know who cared? No one. No one asked what happened. They said hi when I came back then acted like I never even left. So why do you care so much?" Matt spoke rather harshly. He didn't mean to vent out all his feelings onto Janus, but he couldn't help it as it all spilled out.

"Well perhaps they didn't think anything bad happened. Did something bad happen?" Janus understood Matt's pain, but he wanted to get a proper view of both sides.

"No, but it was a fucking week. Sure nothing bad happened but if one of my friends left for a week I'd shit myself." Matt's voice cracked as he tried to choke back potential tears.

Janus was taken aback, surprised to hear Matt cursing. He gently placed a hand on Matt's leg. "I'm sorry those people didn't seem to care. If you were gone for a week I assure you I would certianly be worried for you."

Matt rolled over and buried his head into his pillow. Janus reached over and carefully rubbed his back. Matt didn't expect the sudden comforting contact to make him start to cry, but it did. Janus carefully picked him up and pulled him into a hug, causing him to burst into tears. Janus gently murmured words of comfort to him.

"I dont get it." Matt spoke, his voice shaky from crying. "Why do you care so much? I hate my feelings so badly and you dont seem to mind them at all, if anything you seem to know when the slightest thing puts me off and I dont know how you put up with me"

"I put up with you because I love you. And no offence, you're not too good at hiding when you're upset. I like helping you feel better and you're feelings are never an issue to me."

Matt's grip tightened as he wrapped his arms around Janus. He was an absolute mess and he hated it.

"How come you don't just ignore me like everyone else?" Matt asked shakily.

"Ignore you?" Janus sounded a little surprised at the statement, not expecting Matt to say that he gets ignored.

"Well, technically yes. You're one of the only people that actually tries to talk to me. Everyone in my past has just used me for 'I love you's  and always asked me for comfort and that was it. Theres few rare people that actually talk with me and care about how I'm feeling. And then whenever I do try and start a conversation with someone they always conveniently leave or go and talk with someone else or hell, they dont even pretend to go offline and just ignore me straight up. I can barely tell if they do it on purpose or if they're to stupid to tell." Matt didn't mean the insult at the end but as he lashed out from anger and sadness it spilled out with it too. He couldn't help but feel as if a weight was being lifted off his chest as he spoke. After a slight pause he added, "I'm not even sure if they love me anymore or if they're too kind to hurt my feelings." Matt didn't realize until he finished speaking that Janus had started rubbing his back again and had planted a few kisses on his cheek and neck.

There was a small pause of silence, but thankfully not a bad silence; a rather soothing and comforting one instead.

"Matt," Janus started, "I'm so sorry you have to be treated in such harsh ways. Whether they do it on purpose or not you still shouldn't have to endure such a feeling. I know you've talked about feeling being ignored and I'm sorry you have to feel that way and I promise you I would never ignore you. And you shouldn't have to be someone's comfort toy. You deserve to feel as loved and be told your as loved as much as they are. You know, it's probably best if you tell them this."

"I know… I've been wanting to for a while but I don't want to hurt they're feelings and I'm afraid about sounding like a major douche."

"So it's okay if you're feelings are hurt in the long run but not if theres are for a bit so everything can be worked out?" Janus quickly, but kindly countered.

Matt couldn't help but crack a small smile. He had a fair point there. "But what if they don't mean to upset me?"

"Accidents happen and you still need to communicate it. Communication is what relationships are based around and without it, well, people can get badly hurt." 

Matt knew Janus was right but he couldn't help but feel a little bad about it. He gave it a thoughtful pause before agreeing. "I suppose I should try telling them"

Janus gave an encouraging smile and kissed Matt on the forehead. "Good."

Matt smiled and buried his face into his chest. "Thank you." He muttered.

"Of course. Now, is there anything else bothering you?"

"I mean… there is but you already helped me so much I don't want to bug you anymore."

"Matt I wouldn't ask if anything else was bothering you if I didn't want to hear it. Do you think I would've come to help you if I didn't want to?"

"Maybe you're just really nice.."

"I don't think even a really nice person would do something like that. It takes a person that cares, and you know I care so much about you."

Matt let out a content sigh at the reassurance and rubbed his hands up and down Janus's arms. "I love you"

"I love you too. Now, what is it that's bothering you?"

"Well… it's just.. I told some of my friends certain ways that I use to cope so they don't freak out or get upset if I start acting weird or differently and.. they were fine with it and I was glad and they still treat me the same when I do it but.. I use it to cope and I only need to use my coping mechanisms if I'm upset or mad over something and depending on what I'm using to cope depends on how bad it is and I understand if they aren't in a good enough mental state to also deal with my problems as well as theirs but they have never asked what was wrong whenever I use it" Matt only then realized how much he had talked again and even after the relief that came with spilling out his bottled up feelings he still whispered out a "sorry".

"First of all, you don't need to be sorry at all. Second of all like you said they might have their own things going on and can't really hold the weight of others problems, but I understand what you're getting at. Normally if someone is upset you would ask if they're okay and I'm sorry that they don't seem to do the same to you. You deserve to be cared about and worried over and you deserve to be asked if you're okay-" Janus had been cut off of what he was saying as Matt interrupted him to spill out more thoughts.

"Speaking of that, people only ever care about me when I'm sad! They only say they love me if I'm not okay and they only say I'm cool or special or I shouldn't hurt myself when I'm sad and it's stupid. Don't get me wrong I appreciate it so much but when I'm not sad they don't care about me at all! I mean nothing to them unless I'm balling my eyes out." Matt's voice had more anger in it this time, but there was still a deep look of sadness on his face.

Janus couldn't help but give him a sympathetic look. "Yes, I agree that does sound rather strange, though I'm sure they still care about you even if they don't express it"

"I hope so" Matt muttered.

"I will always care and worry about you Matthew and I love you more than I can ever say. I really am sorry you seem to have some rather troubling sounding friends and if you ever need to talk I'm here. Promise me something will you?"

Matt looked up at Janus for the first time during their whole talk , "I can try."

"Promise me if you're ever upset you won't bottle it up and you'll come and let me know? You know that you mean the world to me and I worry over you when you're not in my arms so you can only guess how I got when you locked yourself up here."

Matt frowned a bit and felt his eyes water up st the words that came out of his mouth. Janus had such a deep and sad and caring expression that Matt couldn't help but feel touched. "Okay, I promise." Matt said.

Janus gave him a tight comforting squeeze and covered him in kisses, causing Matt to giggle and smile.

"Thank you for everything you've ever done." Matt said, with for once, a hint of joy in his voice and a smile plastered on his face.

"Anything for you, love."

Matt blushed a bit at the nickname and placed a gentle kiss on Janus's forehead. "I'm going to get you back one of these days"

"If you say so~"

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Hai:D me again uwu

I loved ur last post with the badass s/o bc i kinda hate seeing them with an always innocent reader or s/o 😭 like there ARE SO MANY PERSONALITIES THAT WE ALL RELATE TOO then just "cutesy, soft, gentle" etc.

Sooo how about a female reader who is- wait ..wait hold on...

*proceeds to push micheal put the way*

.. A female reader who is lesbian and falls in love with star? :D I want to see thw boys reaction but mainly star, you can add micheal if you want but pretend like micheal and star never dated tho :^ unless you want some angst in it 😏 i dont mind uwu

Star x Female!Reader

a/n: no because I have no idea what authors think about when writing those stories?? like what if YOU were in the reader’s shoes would YOU act like that?? no. no, you wouldn’t so cut the bs and add some SASS. Ngl I have a feeling that some authors have some misogynistic views embedded into them because I genuinely can’t think of any other reason as to why they keep writing the reader so innocent?!?

You were aimlessly walking around the boardwalk bored of all the rides you had already done. Observing your surroundings as you make up a fake personality for each person you pass by. Your friends were gossiping next to you but you weren’t really focused on what they were saying. When your group agreed to take a break they all decided to leave to get ice cream but you chose to stay and rest your feet instead.

distracted by the moonlight hitting the ocean you didn’t notice the group of guys slowly approaching you. “what’s a sweet thing like you doing out this late~?” well that certainly brought you back to reality. “It’s only 10 pm idiot.”  you snarked back a reply as you turned around 4 guys stood next to you. “oouuhh~ this kitty’s got claws!” one of the curly blondes replied.

They all seemed really interested in making you like them but something else caught your eye or should I say someone else? unfortunately, one of the guys was blocking your view and wouldn’t move out the way. “move you're blocking the view” as you pushed past him you saw a curly-haired brunette that wore a long white dress. “Good evening my lady~ what’s a delicate flower such as yourself doing hanging around these parts” you said as you picked her hand up and placed a light kiss on it while maintaining eye contact.

EVERYONE was dumbfounded. “did she seriously just push me aside?!?” David asked himself while Marco was on the floor laughing his ass off. Star was practically giving you heart eyes as she mustered up the courage to say something. “oh! uh- well I was just taking a walk… would you like to join me?” “it would be my honour”

“Oh! I forgot to introduce myself... I’m Star what’s your name?” “it’s ______ but you can call me whatever you’d like” as you finished your sentence you could tell her face had turned a few shades darker.

right, when you and Star were about to turn around one of the guys said something. “Hey! where do you think you’re going sweetheart?”  the look on Star’s face was nervous, it made your stomach sink.  “We were about to go for a walk”  you replied for her, David gave you a deadly glare that you gladly returned."Neither are you invited” and with that, you quickly took Star’s hand and left.

You guys spent the rest of the night walking around and making conversation about your hobbies and interests. Taking her on every ride she asked for and spoiling her the whole night made your heart race, especially when she would look at you after she made a joke to see if you liked it or not. Both of you decided to gift each other a ring, every time you held hands the cold metal would rub against your fingers.

Star was smiling you were smiling, and everything felt perfect. Well, that was until you guys had to part ways. "It was lovely hanging out with you today" you said with a smile on your face "Yeah I really enjoyed it... would you like to meet me by the merry-go-round tomorrow?" Star said shyly barely maintaining eye contact "sure, same time?" "Yep!" and right before you turned away she grabbed your face and kissed your cheek.

After you had left to go meet up with your friends, Star was stuck having to fight herself out of the guy's grasp. "Dude she was so hot! I would let her choke me!" Paul blurted out as everyone else started asking questions. Micheal kept quiet the entire time as everyone fussed over Star and you.

"do you think she'd be down to-" "Don't even think of finishing that sentence Marco." Star retorted knowing he was going to ask something inappropriate. "I mean it's not like she’s in love with you, it was just one date." Micheal said. "How would you know? you weren't invited. Besides I'm going out with her tomorrow as well." Star defended. "Can we join-" "No. this is MY date, not yours." She said interrupting Paul.

The boys retired to their nest while Star started getting comfortable in bed. It took her a while before falling asleep that morning because she was too excited for the next day.

Part 2 :)

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Congratulations on finishing Subaru's Dark Fate route. For me it was his best route. We got so cute moments, fluff, angst, character growth and just etc. So I want to know ur opinion about his route. Like your favorite moments, his vampire end. I remember u stating somewhere that DF stated Subaru & Yui's marriage but it was extremely cute that they were about to have a child. I love to hear from you since baby Subaru is my favorite & yours as well. Also congratulations with your OC's route.

While I did enjoy his route a lot, I was still expecting a little more...action? I don't know why, but I felt like the Founders were less prominent in this route compared to some others. :/ Especially with Subaru not shying away from a fight, it felt surprisingly tame at times. xD I was really just waiting for him and Shin to throw hands, haha.

It definitely delivered in the fluff department though so personally, I felt very satisfied with it. uwu His Vampire Ending in particular had some lines which just made me MELT.

I did sweat a little when the child was mentioned because I actually had something similar planned for my own OC's route but I'll try my best to make it different. Thank god the game hints at the SubaYui child being a boy because my idea involved a daughter so that's one thing at least.

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YOSHAAAAAA!!! I’M A THRIST MAMA READER ABOUT INARIZAKI WHICH BY THE WAY I LOVE UR RECENT HCS! I LOVE IT! I LOVE IT! can i request another inarizaki related?👉👈🥺 a one-shot will do about full of crack and plantonic relationship! It’s about 3rd years’ graduation!

◣ sora’s memo◥  Thank you uwu, I’m glad that you enjoyed my previous hcs. This is actually longer than I expected lmao. I also added some slight angst because I feel angsty the time I wrote this but that’s only a little angst, if your squint you’ll see it. Anyways here’s your request! I hope that you’ll like it and will enjoy uwu. Stay safe and take care always my loves~ (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ 

Our last bonding together

word count: 3,534 words

genre: fluff, crack, and slight angst

⚠warning⚠: slight swearing and UNEDITED

Today will be the last day that Kita and his fellow third year teammates would be having a lunch with the whole team. This would be also the last time that Kita will be giving advice to the team as their captain. The role of being the captain will be pass down to Atsumu. The other teammates were worried at first but when Kita told them the reason why Atsumu was chosen to be the captain made the team at ease.  Kita believes in Atsumu’s potential as a captain which made the blonde boy more relaxed.

Tomorrow is the graduation of the 3rd years, so technically, tomorrow is their last day with the team but you being their manager you requested a lunch with the team today to celebrate their graduation and also bond with the third years before they part ways. And you being the manager that they all precious, (even Suna but he is just lowkey) agreed to your request but they have a condition (mostly it’s Atsumu). The get together will be on your house and you will cook for their lunch. Osamu volunteered to help you so he could improve and learn some tips from you in cooking. Since your house has a large backyard and also had this ‘outdoor kitchen’, you happily agree to their condition.

So now, here you are in the know preparing the ingredients you need for the foods you will be cooking, you also have received a message from Osamu that he and his twin are almost there in your house. So, you quickly the vegetables you need and started to cook the rice. More minutes passed by, with you chopping the vegetables, you’ve got another text from Osamu that they are already in front of your house. You washed your hands and went back inside your so you could go to the front of the house. When you opened the gate and saw the gray and blonde headed twin standing outside. Osamu is wearing the red track jacket of the team and under the jacket is a plain black shirt paired with a pale blue ripped jeans and a black high cute converse while his twin brother, Atsumu, is wearing a plain white shirt under his track jacket and it is paired with a black ripped jeans and white shoes.

“Hey, y/n! wassup”

“good morning, y/n, I brought the other ingredients you needed”

The twins greeted you when you have opened the gate and Osamu showed the plastic filled with the ingredients you have texted to him to buy on the way.

“Hi guys! Welcome to our family’s house and thank you, Osamu” you welcomed them and made way for them to enter. The twins went inside your house and as soon as they entered, they were fascinated with the interior and on how huge your house is.

“Wow, y/n, you never told us that you have this huge house” Atsumu said as he roams his eyes around the living room of your house. You chuckled at his reaction while Osamu rolled his eyes on his twin brother’s remarks.

“Well you’ve never asked me though” you answered making the blonde boy scrunch his nose with your answer. Osamu looks around your house and noticed that he has not seen your parents or anyone around the house except but you.

“Where are your parents?” the gray-haired boy asked you.

“My parents is at work today whule my older brother lives in his dorm in Tokyo then my other older brother is staying over with his friend today” you explained making the twins nod their heads.

“How about maids? Don’t you guys have maids?” Atsumu asked out of curiosity. You shook your head as answer to his question.

“My parents don’t want to hire maids because they want us to learn to do the house chores and not rely on other people to do it, so when do general cleaning, it’s like the death of us” you explained.

“well that’s kind of brutal but at the same time good for practicing independency” Atsumu commented.

“So where are we gonna eat our lunch?” Osamu said as he noticed that the inside kitchen is clean and there are no plates on the table in the dining area.

“We will eat our lunch on our backyard.” You answered the boy as you lead the way to the door that will make you three go to the backyard of the house.

“Where do you cook?” he questioned again.

“There’s a kitchen outside” you said which left the twins amazed, especially Osamu. He wished he could have two kitchens, that would be his paradise. With your lead, the three of you have reached the backyard of the house. You and Osamu went straight to the outdoor kitchen while Atsumu roamed around as he is so impressed with how wide your backyard is.

“WOW Y/N! YOUR BACKYARD IS HUGE!” Atsumu commented as he run around the backyard like when Rapunzel first timed to leave her tower. Osamu hummed as an agreement to his twin’s statement.

“Yeah, Y/N your backyard is huge even this kitchen.” He complimented the interior of the house, making you smile. “If ever I would have a kitchen like this, it will be heaven” Osamu joked making you chuckled and just shook your head with the twins’ fascination on your backyard and outdoor kitchen. Either more, you and Osamu started to cook and prepare for the lunch while Atsumu is still acting like a child and continued running around the backyard. You and Osamu started cooking for the team’s lunch while Atsumu explores your backyard, he also plays the role of the taste tester.

Soon, the member of the team started texting you as they have arrived r your house, you told Atsumu to open the gate for them and lead them to the backyard. Osamu is setting the table while you are doing the finishing touches of the food. You now hear the noises of boys talking to each other and being fascinated by the house and backyard. You now put the last food you and Osamu cooked on the huge and long picnic table.

“Woah, that’s a lot of food!” Akagi was astonished when he saw the foods on the table. You and Osamu greeted the whole team and they greeted you back.

“Suna, suna, look how big y/n’s backyard, we can play volleyball here!” Atsumu said as he run across the yard while Suna follows Atsumu with his eyes and stood beside you.

“Yeah, you have a big house, Y/n” Suna complimented as he roams his gray narrow eyes. You just laugh it off the comment and said a shy thank you. This is actually your first-time inviting friends in your ever since your 1st year of middle school. You never invited your friends or classmates in middle school but since the whole Inarizaki volleyball club is precious to you, you gladly invited them to your house.

“by the way, Y/N, where are your parents?” Kita asked you, making you to look at the captain from your back.

“oh, they are at work, Kita-san” you answered and the boy just nodded.

“well, let’s now eat these foods before it gets cold” Kita stated as he took a seat on the table while the other followed their captain. You called for Atsumu and Ojiro, who’s roaming around the backyard, and told them it’s time to eat. The two immediately went back to the long table and took their seat.

“Thank you for the food!” everyone thanked and they started digging in to the foods while you observe their reaction as the they take a bite to the foods you cooked. Even though you had made them a bento box before, you’re still nervous to what would be their reaction with your cooking now.

“this curry taste good!”

“hmm! You’re really good at cooking, y/n-san!” the team complimented. This made you feel relieved, knowing the whole team liked your cooking.

“Well, I wouldn’t be able to finish cooking these foods without the help Osamu” you acknowledge the gray headed man, who’s busy eating beside you. Osamu looked at you and gave you a soft smile which made you blush a little.

“I’m glad I could help you, Y/N-san” he winked at you that made you blush even more, if that could even happen, and this made his other teammates ‘ooh’-ed. Osamu rarely flirts with you, it’s mostly Atsumu who always gives cheesy lines that’s why you’re not used to it if Osamu flirted with you.

“Osamu, you’re such a flirt!” Atsumu commented at his twin’s remarks.

“So, what did Atsumu do here in your house? Did he help you guys?” Aran questioned you both Osamu.

“He didn’t do anything” Osamu bluntly answered Aran’s question which made the whole team let out “knew it” like they’ve expected it from Atsumu.

“HEY! I helped you guys, I brought out the things you need that was left inside the house” his twin brother protested as soon he heard Osamu’s answer. “I even grilled the yakitori and yakiniku” he added which made you shook your head as a denial.

“you put the yakitori and yakiniku on the grill the left!” you complained while the whole team watches as you and Osamu teams up against Atsumu.

“Oh, that’s why the other yakitori and yainiku look slightly burned” Ginijima sudden realization as he looks at the grilled chicken meat, pork and beef.

“Yeah! after putting them on the griller, he left and started roaming around the backyard again” you affirmed making Atsumu whined.

“Yah, Suna backed me up here” Atsumu calls Suna, who’s enjoying the tempura. Suna just gave him a glance and continued eating.

“You’re alone there, Atsumu” he said and took another bite of tempura making you chuckled.

“Atsumu, you should have helped Y/N and Osamu” Kita spoke making Atsumu looked at him with disbelief while you just chuckled.

For the whole time, you and the whole member of the club ate lunch and joke around each other. Suna always roast Atsumu whenever the blonde guy tries to say a joke and Osamu sometimes join Suna in roasting his twin brother which could lead to an argument with the two. When they sense the twin would start arguing, Kita will interfere and the twins would immediately stop.

After eating lunch, the other members went to the backyard and they started playing and chasing each other, while you were left behind to put the dishes on the sink. Osamu and Kita volunteered to help you in washing the dishes and cleaning up. You happily accepted their offer and assigned Osamu in washing the dishes then Kita on cleaning the table up while you dry the dishes.

After cleaning up, the three of you joined them who’s now playing dodgeball. The three of you stood beside Ginjima and Riseki, and watch Suna and Aran teaming up to make Atsumu lose the game.

“Why are you guys only targeting me?! hit Akagi-san too!” he complained as he kept on dodging the ball while Akagi is just following Atsumu goes back and forth.

“Our goal is to make you out of the game first, but–“ Suna halted then threw the ball to Akagi, catching the boy off-guard and getting hit by the ball. “you suggested to hit Akagi-san first, so I will take your request” Suna continued making Akagi groan while you and the other team let out an ‘ooh’.

“this is getting more interesting” you commented while Osamu hummed. He is very happy that his brother is getting teamed up by his other teammates.

“nice one, Suna!” Aran cheered while Atsumu tilted his head and sighed.

“I really feel like Suna hated me” Atsumu blurted making Osamu replied on the background.

“Your thoughts are correct! He does hates you” Osamu replied which Atsumu glared at his brother. Seeing Atsumu distracted with his brother, Suna gave a signal to Aran to throw now the ball and the boy did throw the ball, hitting Atsumu.

“why you– ow!” he was about to attack his brother but Atsumu got attacked by the ball, making the two boys he is playing with, scream with delight.

“NICE SHOT ARAN!”

“WAY TO GO ARAN!”

“NICE KILL”

You and his teammates applaud at his shot, while Aran and Suna high fived each other. Kita clapped at them like he was impressed with the teamwork his teammates did. Meanwhile, Atsumu glared at his twin brother while the gray headed boy smirked at his lost.

“YOU DISTRACTED ME, YOU SCUMBAG” Atsumu blamed his as he dashes towards his brother and catching yours and the team’s brother.

“well it’s not my fault that you get distracted easily” Osamu retorted making Atsumu growls at him. Meanwhile, you and team, who’s already used with how the twins fight, didn’t even budge to stop them because you guys know that they’ll be just insult each other.

“oh, you’re growling now, what are you? A dog?” Osamu provokes his twin brother more. You guys watched them silently like you guys are watching drama on the tv, enjoying the twins fight.

“Do you guys want some popcorn?” you offered to them and they nodded jokingly. Sometimes, you guys let them fight each other but when the things heat up, you and Kita will mostly the first one to step in. But for now, you will just watch them do their childish fight.

“I would love that, y/n” Suna replied making you chuckled.

“why you dickhead!” Atsumu stepped closer to his brother while Osamu looks at him boringly.

“Yes, my dick has a head, does yours have one?” Osamu answered back.

“HEY! I’m older than you for minutes!” Atsumu remarked and pointing his index finger to his brother.

“Well then act like one!” Osamu replied back. The team chuckled at Osamu’s remark while Kita just shook his head like he is so done with the twins.

“You guys, stop chuckling” Kita warned you and the team which made you all quiet and look somewhere else.

“And you two, stop fighting” Kita stepped in between Atsumu and Osamu, making the two boys stepped back from each other.

“When will they come that you two will stop fighting each other” Kita said with a stern voiced as he looks at the twins.

“well if he could–“ Atsumu stopped midway from his sentence when Kita gave him warning look.

“The two of you, stop fighting, let’s just enjoy this day altogether and have fun” Kita told the twins while those two nodded quietly at their captain with a pout on their face. This whole scene was nothing new to your eyes and the whole team’s but it still amazed you all on how these two get easily controlled by Kita. That’s why you sometimes called Kita as the mom of the team just because on how could handle the two boys and made them shut up. After the small fight of the twins, you guys continued to play around on your backyard until it was time to go home.

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Today is the graduation of the third years, all of the team were at the gymnasium. The ceremony hasn’t started yet so you guys decided to meet up with Kita before it started. You guys waited for the third years to arrive on the gym, maintaining the silent, sometimes you Atsumu will talk but mostly everyone is quiet as they wait. Even though Kita had told you guys that they would be still there for the team, you guys can help but to sink it in that they will not be playing on the court again with the whole team.

Today is the day that reality hits you that this would be officially their last day being with you and you can’t help but feel sad. You wouldn’t be greeted by easy going Akagi, you wouldn’t anymore see the scary looking aura but has a soft personality Omimi. You wouldn’t ever hear Aran’s random dad jokes whenever you bumped on each other on the hallway or when they were on the break during training. Lastly, you wouldn’t hear those blunt yet wise remarks and advices from Kita every time the team are feeling doubtful. With those of realization, you can’t help but feel empty.

But on the brighter side, you feel proud and thankful with them, because they built this powerhouse team. Without them, this club wouldn’t be this stronger than ever. You’re proud of them as they would be chasing and be living their dreams. And you know that even though they are not around anymore, they will still be there to support the team.

Another minutes have passed of waiting when the gym door opened and the third years start entering. All of you gathered around the third years and congratulated them. The third years thanked you all and give the whole gym a last glance.

“I can’t believe this would be our last time stepping on this gym” Aran said as he looks around the gym.

“It feels like yesterday when I first stepped in here as a new recruitment of volleyball” Akagi reminisced while Omimi let out a hummed and Kita a silent yeah as their agreement. You can’t help but looked at them with a sad smile as you observe them.

“C’mon, let’s not be dramatic here and just think that you guys would just take one step up to achieve your dreams” Atsumu cheered his seniors up, shocking the whole team with his words.

“Wow, Atsumu coming from you” Suna commented making Atsumu crunched his nose.

“That’s his way to cheer his self-up when he feels sad” Osamu retorted making Atsumu glared at him. Atsumu opened his mouth to say something but Kita cleared his throat to warned the boy, making him shut his mouth again.

“Atsumu, you should be more mature, especially now that you’re the new captain” Akagi commented while Omimi hummed as an agreement. You can’t help but chuckled because of Omimi’s way of agreeing on things, you sure will miss his silent affirmation with what others will say.

“Yeah, you and Osamu should fight less and be a role model on your juniors now that you guys are seniors” Aran stated while the two just looked each other for a while then Atsumu let out a ‘tch’.

“Anyways, Atsumu, I believe you’ll be a great captain of this team. You guys should train well but at the same time take care of your health. Don’t depend on Y/n too much.” Kita said as he looks on each one of you. The team listens to their former captain attentively as they know this would be the last time, they would here these reminders from him.

“Atsumu and Osamu, don’t argue too much, don’t provoke each other” he reminded as he looked at the twins sternly.

“Don’t worry, Kita-san, if they ever started fighting, Y/n would be there to stop them” Suna said with a teasing tone on his voice as he smirks at you.

“Why me? I’m your manager not a referee!” you rebutted as you place your hands in the middle of your chest while Suna chuckled.

“You, Suna, stop provoking the twins to fight too and if they fight help y/n with stopping them” Kita scolded Suna making Atsumu smirk at the middle blocker. You and the other laughed at Suna’s reaction and on your thoughts, you are already teasing the boy when he got scolded by Kita.

“Anyways, we need to go now the ceremony will start any minutes now” Akagi said making your smile disappeared and this didn’t go unnoticed by Aran.

“C’mon, Y/n don’t be sad! Hear I have joke” Aran comforted you while the other boys quietly groaned when they he said he has a joke. You just nodded as a sign to continue what his joke is.

“here, why did a girl volleyball player lose his waitressing job?” he asked you, a smile was slowly growing on his face as he think of the joke.

“why?” you asked with a smile also growing on your face while the rest of the team just listened to his corny joke.

“because someone told her to serve the food” he answered as he let out a laugh on his own joke while you just chuckled and the rest of the teams looks at him with disbelief but they also had a smile on his funny.

“see you are smiling again” he stated when he saw you smile at his jokes.

“I know this day is quite sad but let’s look at the bright side! We could still visit you guys anyways” Aran said to you and you just nodded at him as an agreement.

“Well, we will get going now! See you when we could see you” Akagi bid a farewell and smiled at them. The other third years also bid their goodbyes before exiting the gym while you guys wave at them and told them to take care.

Another chapter has come to an end but this is also another chapter that they would be all facing together.

[clearlyshyobservation]

Kokichi is dying (V3 chatfic, no particular ship)

TW: Infers abuse, talks about ableism, neglect, panic attack pretty much, depression, self loathing. never being good enough

i am so sorry but vr au's need to be sad, love yall :)

(Background info: This is set in a vr au, they are not with their fake memory parents (Ie; kaito's kind grandparents) but rather why they really have)

(Also i have no fucking clue what ship i was going for???? pretty sure they are all on the table, and kokichi talks like an idiot in this and i love it. Gonta's writing is based off of his Japanese talking style, so no more caveman talking).

USERNAMES:

(Space monkey: Kaito, Detective pikachu: shuichi, Elton john: kaede, Antman: gonta, Mr. Gonstealyoman: korekiyo, Atua's bitch: angie, emoboi: ryoma, be-boop: kiibo, bread roll: Maki, cum dumpster: miu, mommy: kirumi, Gremlin: Kokichi)

TLDR: Chaos ensues, slight angst

Gremlin: omfg im fucking sicK im gonna fucking die i bet this was kaitos bitch ass fault for coughing on me with his tuberculosis headass gROSSSSS I HATE EVERYTHINGGG

Space Monkey: i-

Space monkey: I didn't get you sick dumbass,,,, my tb is fugckin cured bi-

Bread roll: he's dramatic and gross dont believe him

Gremlin: yall mean for what?

Gremlin: i have a life taking disease and yall laughing i- 

Gremlin: see you at my funeral bitch

Detective pikachu: What are you sick with then

Gremlin: anythong bitch, im the universe

Antman: He sounds delusional, thats not good

Detective pikachu: He's always delusional, he's Kokichi

Mr. gonstealyoman: I guess this name is better than my old one

Mr. gonstealyoman: thank you kokichi :) I am glad we have come to an understanding

Gremlin: kay sexy

Gremlin: IGNRE WHAT I JUST SENT

Gremlin: IGNORE IT IGNORE IT IGNORE ITTTTT

Antman: who was that for???

Gremlin: NO ONE,,, 

Gremlin: Okay,,, maybe sexy tall men in general lowkey

Gremlin: okay,,,, maybe anyone over 6 feet 

Detective pikachu: i feel excluded

Detective pikachu: good, i don't like you kokichi, your an ass

Gremlin: u sound jelly shumaiiiiii

be-boop: perhaps he is telling the truth, you know,

be-boop: according to my data, in chapter four Shuichi stated that you will never have friends, and no one will ever like you

Gremlin: SHUT THE FUCK UP STOP MAKING ME FEEL BADBSKVKHDVKDSKJV

Antman: do you need me to come over? I can make you tea?

mommy: Do you know how to do that, Gonta? I can teach you?

Antman: Gonta does know, thank you very much. 

Antman: Gonta is not a child, Tojo-chan, please don't regard me as one

Antman: Gonta can cook, can clean, can be gentle, and has his own mind

Space monkey: but we're just making sure man, cuz, you know,,,, chapter 4

Antman: I am capable of things just like you!!!!!

Antman: Gonta doesn't know why you guys treat me like a child :(

Gremlin: yeah, hot stuff over there is basically a prodigy homies

Antman: Gonta is dumb though, don't say that.

Antman: Gonta is no prodigy, in fact, he is below average in everything

Gremlin: Whats ur test scores bitch

Antman: Gonta got a 98 on my english test,, but i wanted a 100, which would make Gonta actually smart :( 

Antman: Gonta is not good enough to be friends with you all

Antman: I can do basic stuff like tojo said...

Antman: maybe i do need help?

Antman: im not sure anymore:((((

Gremlin: THEY ARE ABLEIST GONTA,,, THEY FEEL SUPERIOR FOR TREATING UUUUU LIKE A CHILD

Detective pikachu: You sound really delusional Kokichi, maybe you should get sleep

Gremlin: S T F U, IM SPITTING ST8 FACTS BITCH

Detective pikachu: Sure you are. Now get some rest. 

Gremlin: GRRRR WHY WONT YOU LISTEN TO ME YOU IDIOTS??

Bread roll: Cause your stupid and aggressive

Gremlin: your personality, basically?

Bread roll: shut up at least i have a boyfriend

Gremlin: Technically, you just stole my frienemy 

Gremlin: Yall do be avoiding each other doe

Space Monkey: WE ARE NOT

Gremlin: Yeah yeah

Gremlin: yesterday i saw you to enter the same cafe by accident, duck your heads, then sit across the cafe from each other, all while  avoiding eye contact

Gremlin: Soooo,,, things not going well in paradise?

Detective pikachu: you're nosy

Gremlin: says the literal detective 

Space monkey: everythings fine your just a dickkkk

Gremlin: "oooo! Im momo-chan, i say bad word and go brrrrr"

Space monkey: im going to fucking stab him 

Gremlin: You cant, ive already enslaved you with my chaotic, yet cute hijinks, havent i~

Space monkey: STOP STOP NO NOT THE SQUIGLY

Gremlin: is it the sex? WHY DONT YOU MAKE EYE CNOTACT WITH UR LADY NO MORE 

Space monkey: ITS NOT THE SEX I HATE YOU

Gremlin: im free by the way at 8 ;)

Bread roll: STOP trying to steal my boyfriend kokichi, ive told you this before

Bread roll: NO

Bread roll: BODY

Antman: Gonta interrupts to say, Gonta loves you kokichi, and we should get flowers together, than maybe we can prank some people :D 

Bread roll: Ive never wanted to stab you more, gonta

Gremlin: I'd enjoy that very much, fine fellow ;)

Gremlin: but idk,,,, can you like take care of me first, cuz IM SICK BECAUSE OF KAITO TUBERCULOSIS ASS

Space monkey: I DONT HAVE TB ANYMORE

Gremlin: SURE YOU DONT 

Space monkey: I DONT

Gremlin:  BUT GUESS WHAT

Gremlin: YOU STILL SMOKE DUMBASS AND THATS NOT GOOD FOR U OR YOUR TUBERCULOSIS

Detective pikachu: He smokes?

Atua's bitch: he does, i walked in on him in the bathroom lmao

Atua's bitch: he was scared shitless and threw it out the window, needless to say atua does nt approve

Gremlin: DO YOU EVEN HAVE THE VACCINE????

Space monkey: Uh,,, i was taught vaccines were bad, so no i don't have the vaccine

Gremlin: I HATE OLD PEOPLE

Gremlin: ABOLISH OLD PEOPLEEEE

Gremlin: THEY SPREAD MISINFORMATION AND IT PHISCALLY HURTS ME TO SEEEEEE

Space monkey: your dramatic, it cant be that bad

Gremlin: say that when you catch it again

Gremlin: i swear you coughed on me like,,,, 5 weeks ago tho

Antman: OOOO! Fun fact: Tuberculosis can lay dormant from 3 months to a few years! 

Space monkey: u guys are just trying to scare me

Bread roll: Just checked the chat after using the br and,,m YOUDONT HAVE YOU VACCINES???

Detective pikachu: Im sorry, but kaito, please,,,,, for the love of god get vaccines

Space monkey: alright alright, ill do it cuz you guys are all on my case and i don't like being the villain :(

Gremlin: Im so happy i have gonta with me rn, he is making me tea while yall rot in your distant ass relationship (THIS IS FOR YOU KAITO)

Space monkey: Im going to destroy your bloodline in about three seconds if you dont stfu right fucking now

Gremlin: Hhehe i have an inaprwopwiate joke uwu

emoboi: STOP PLEASE DEAR GOD

cum dumpster: wHAt Is iT YOU WHORE

Gremlin: i was gonna say wouldn't he need to like,,,, have sex with my family to weed out my bloodline or something??

cum dumpster: i-

cum dumpster: Why am i acting surprised, ive watched porn with more extravagant plots than this

cum dumpster: ie; are you guys FUCKING? RIGHT INFRONT OF MY SALAD??? is one i will cherish with my soul

emoboi: hehe why did she point out the salad

Space monkey: I hate u kokichi, i truly do

Gremlin: I bet if you got the chance u would kiss me space boy :P

Bread roll has left the chat

Space monkey: o god is she ddoing one of those bf loyalty tests or smthing???

Space monkey: now im nervous lmao

Gremlin: why you so nervous stupid~~~~

Gremlin: It not like ur cheating on her homie

Space monkey: It's just a placebo effect

Gremlin: My brain feels fried Momo-chan,, i don't understand big boy words right now

Space monkey: Basically, if you take a pill that doesn't do anything but you don't know that and believe it does, you will scientifically start to feel better

Gremlin: first and only time saying this, but thank you 

Space monkey: HEHEHEB YOU SAID THANK YOU YOU SAID THANK YOUYOU SAID THANK YOUYOU SAID THANK YOUYOU SAID THANK YOU

Gremlin: Kaito,,, imma need you to do me a favor and look up on your ceiling

Space monkey: i hate you, idk what it is, but i hte you

Gremlin: good <3

Space monkey: HE REPLACED ALL MY THE STARS ON MY CELING WITH FUCKIBG DICKSSS

Space monkey: THIS IS THE LST FUCKING STRAW IM GONNA LOSE IT

Space monkey: IF MY GRANDPARENTS SEE THIS BULLSHIT THEY ARE GOING TO KILL ME, SLAP ME, MAYBE BREAK MY NECK AND DESTROY MEE

Space monkey: Im GENUINLEY panicing HOW TF am i gona get this off my wal???? They are going to bbat me senselpess help me shUichi

Detective pikachu: o god, i can sense the sheer pain and scaredness in  that tet, 

Detective pikachu: are you for real gong to get hurt or are you pulling a kokichi?

Space monkey: FUCKING HELP ME IM NOT FUCKING JOKINGKABKCB HELP THEY ARE NOT HOME RN THEY ARE LIKEE,,,, 40 MINUTES AWAY PLEASEE 

Gremlin: okay,,, maybe this wasn't the best prank.,,, i guess i'll help clean up cuz im not that much of a sociopath

Gremlin: tbh my parents can go shove it too lowkey terrible 0/10 

Space monkey: AHHHH IM SO SCARED PLS PSL GET HERE FAST

be-boop: Of course, i will come, i will survey the outside of the house

Antman: Gonta is coming too! We will get this done in under 40 minutes!

Space monkey: OKAY

Gremlin: Lowkey, if i cough on you ignore it bitch your the one who made me like this

Space monkey: W HA TDONT COUGH ON ME IM NOT SICK ANYMORE

Gremlin: I will give you TB again just cuz your making me suffer

Space monkey: Suffer what??? putting dicks on my FUCKING WALL???

Gremlin: Guilt, idiot, im feeling guilty. 

cum dumpster: oof thats new

emoboi: yeah i wasn't expecting it

Mr.gonstealyoman: Me neither. It is rather peculiar seeing it being texted by him because he is always feels not guilty of his bad actions.

be-boop: I do believe he means it, though...

emoboi: impossible.

cum dumpster: i agree, literally impossible.

Gremlin: I HAVE A FUCKIBG SOUL YOU CRazY CONSPIRACISTS

Antman: Quick question, shuichi can i stay with you again? It'll be dark when i get home and gonta can't do that so,,, please help

Detective pikachu: my parents are like blank slates, who eat slowly, watch tv slowly, and never look at me. Im sure they wouldn't mind :P

Antman: ALRIGHT! :D LETS GET MISSION: MR. MOMOTA ROOM REPAIR DONE!

Gremlin: ooo! I like the name! IM INNNN! 

Detective pikachu: On it!

be-boop: Ready for look out!

Space monkey: I love you guys :)

AN: Im lowkey sorry i ended this chaotic mess with angst,,,, but like fr i love it i love angst,, i hate reading it but love writing it

[serowotonin]

𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗺𝘁𝗵 𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗿.

― ❝ 𝒐𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒓𝒂𝒈𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒆𝒔 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒃𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒏 𝒆𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒏𝒂𝒍 𝒘𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒓... ❞

pairing. knight!aomine x prince!kuroko word count. 812 genre. medieval au, angst warnings. war, death, angst basically

note. happy holidays @monhiio​ !! srry this was a bit late but surprisee~ im ur secret santa O.O i tried a different writing style than what i normally do soo,,, i hope u like this and again i wish you a very merry christmas uwu.  p.s. im sorry not sorry for angst

“you can do better than that kuroko,” aomine taunted as he swung his sword at the smaller man. 

kuroko didn’t respond but instead went for a sharp jab which aomine dodged with ease. the momentum of the move carried him to the ground where aomine easily pinned him down.

kuroko was huffing, obviously tired from all the sparring. aomine noticed and suggested they call it a day.

“no. one more round,” kuroko responded, a glint in his eye.

with a smirk, aomine helped him off the ground and got into fighting stance.

“as you wish, my prince.”

thus the two continued sparring as they usually did. when it got too dark to see they finally stopped and went back. the prince to his chambers and his knight to the showers.

✥﹥━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━﹤✥

warmth. that was what kuroko felt when he got into the bath the maids had prepared for him. it was also what he felt when he was around his trusted knight but of course, that was a different warmth. the warmth of the water was only physical, touching his skin and making his blood run faster. the warmth of aomine however, filled his heart. it radiated throughout his body and made him whole and complete and full. the water’s warmth could never compare. 

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lessons in the morning, court sessions in the afternoon, and happiness in the evening. this was the life kuroko knew. for years it’s been this way. nothing stays the same forever though… happiness was bound to be stripped away from those who treasured it too much. 

“the kingdom of rakuzan has decreed war on us your highness. their armies are gathering at the eastern borders as we speak. their numbers far greater than what we have...

if we don’t send reinforcements to the east immediately, there may be no hope for us.”

and his happiness, the time spent sparring with aomine, aomine himself, was now being taken away. 

✥﹥━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━﹤✥

cold. was the palace always this cold? was the grassy hills that laid by its surroundings always this cold?

“how goes the war in the east general momoi?”

the general paused, hesitation clear on her face.

“its… its not going very well your highness…”

the summer sun shone feverishly on the land and yet, it was still dark. still dark and so very cold.

“i see.”

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fighting was all aomine knew how to do. all his life he’s trained to be a knight, and once he did become one, he trained to be the best. there wasn’t anything he particularly liked about being a knight. he did enjoy fighting though, especially when it came to opponents who were strong. 

being a knight was more than fighting. aomine knew this. yet, the only thing that kept him going was the clang of his sword against his enemy’s and the dance they took as they struck and evaded in deadly manner.

in this war though, it wasn’t the thrill of the fight that kept aomine going. it was the cold emptiness within him and the hope that warmth might once fill him again. 

✥﹥━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━﹤✥

words weren’t exchanged much among the two. there just wasn’t anything to say. but when their eyes met among the sea of metal, grime, and blood, no words needed to be said. the relief worn on their faces was enough.

relief, like happiness, doesn’t last. 

✥﹥━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━﹤✥

the moment aomine saw the familiar hue of light-sky hair and the deep, unwavering eyes that accompanied it, a fire ignited inside him. 

in the mess that was the warzone of his heart, aomine now had one purpose and one purpose only - to protect.

and protect he did. not one arrow nor sword came into the young prince’s path. not even a speck of dirt so much as made it past the monster of a knight he had protecting him. 

the fire raged.

more enemies were cut down than there were incoming. at this rate, the battle should soon be settled.

when the dust settled and the roaring of the battle quieted to a whisper, most of the rakuzan knights lay unmoving on the ground. those that could move, pleaded for mercy and retreated back to their camp. one however, didn’t have the energy to retreat. he did have enough energy for one last strike though.

aomine turned to give his prince a wide grin which kuroko acknowledged with a small smile of his own. a second later, there was a sword protruding from aomine’s chest. 

✥﹥━━━━━━━━━━━━━━━﹤✥

the last strike is often the most painful, but as the sword was pulled out from his chest, aomine still bore the wide grin he gave his prince. 

the fire calmed into a small flame that flickered in the winds.

“kuroko,” the fallen knight whispered as his prince rushed to his side. “i’m sorry…”

with that the flame died, leaving behind an eternal winter that froze the prince’s heart. 

note. sklkssg im sorry idk how to write death scenes 😭😭 hope u liked it tho👉👈 alsoo special thanks to best girl @shescassiopeia​ for helping me with this and to the admins at @knbsecretsanta​ for organizing this whole event ~~

[realitv]

———  BASICS! ♡

(PEN)NAME! ♡     claire

PRONOUNS! ♡     they / them

ZODIAC SIGN! ♡     aries bay bee

TAKEN OR SINGLE! ♡     I Don’t Need Friends They Disappoint Me

———  THREE  FACTS! ♡

1! ♡      i used to roleplay on youtube. yes, youtube. think late early aughts and early 2010s. you’d set up your channel with all those fancy fonts (yes, the fancy fonts that now made a come back here); use picnic to edit your pics, set an autoplay video up for ur channel, and rp using dms or comments. it became popular to keep comments on approval and only approve things like: CLAIRE ISH MAHH BIIIISH. xDDD <3 NO ONEZ CAN TOUCH MAH BISSSSH <3 <3 xDDDD LUV U 4EVER. after the channels became what they are now, i hopped around on proboards before coming to tumblr. 

2! ♡     i speak three languages. english, conversational french, and rudimentary german which i am relearning. i used to speak it fluently as a child. i hope to one day be able to communicate with my tante elisabeth and my cousin utta, as they only speak german (they... are... from germany LMAO) but until then i’ve been relearning with my aunt karin. it’s so weird because i feel like i’m very different when i speak french or when i speak german. like. english me is very different from french me and french me is very different from german me. i don’t know how else to describe it. i’m way more flirty and suave when i’m speaking french but i’m very serious and to the point in german. i find when i speak english i’m a little more aloof. i don’t fucking know. 

3! ♡     the longest i have ever written a character is six years. most of my mutuals probably know me from that account (lady a. c/omstock of bioshock in/finite). i still write her on discord, so technically i’ve been writing her for 7 years. she’s just very draining to write these days as she’s just so goddamn fucking sad all the time and i prefer writing her on a smaller scale with very close friends privately. i still love her and her development and everything i’ve done with her, she’s just Ultra Ultra Depressed and i find myself having to get into that same headspace when i write her on tumblr, hence... why i do not like doing that any more. trauma muses, baby: it be like that.  it’s actually really funny bc i consider lady amelia c my BRAND. depressed edwardian milf. that’s the brand. media was an EXTREME departure of my brand of muses. i’ve written belle, sansa, lady c - all three of those ladies really follow the ‘porcelain to steel’ trend. media is neon chaos. 

———  EXPERIENCE! ♡

PLATFORMS USED! ♡   uh. youtube, as i mentioned. rolepages (don’t ask), and a lot of proboards forums. i miss those. they were so Spicy. now just tumblr. i’ve Been Around lmao. 

———  MUSE  PREFERENCE! ♡

GENDER! ♡    i simply Do Not Care. i used to feel really insecure about the way i wrote men but i’ve since gotten over that and now i’ll write anyone who strikes my fancy - but i do defo have a type and it’s Sad Ladies From Period/Fantasy Dramas. 

LEAST FAVOURITE FACE(S)! ♡    honestly everyone overused irks me. remember when everyone was using nina dobr/ev or natalie do/rmer. can’t do it. i don’t know what it is. something irks me. 

MULTI OR SINGLE! ♡    i wish i had the strength to write a multi muse blog but i can’t. :(

———  FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT! ♡    

FLUFF:  i want to say i don’t like it but i love happy endings and domestic bliss bc that’s comforting and i like happy endings. but depending on the character i’m very selective with who i will write it with. media? I Simply Do Not See It (unless im writing with nee). it’s something i enjoy, but not something i write often on this blog; as i’m more horror oriented at this point.

ANGST:  i enjoy angst; but again, it really depends on the character. i had this really great thread with g where christine and amelia had an argument that resulted in amelia breaking down into tears as she was so angry. i really enjoyed the raw emotion i could write in that; and with a character like amelia, it was a great way to release a lot of pent up energy and add some character dev. for someone like media, tho, media doesn’t show emotion. media refuses to show emotion. it’s not Their Thing. they can show emotion and do emote, but it’s muted and rare. if, again, i were to write angst, it’d be with nee; since law is someone who reminds media how human they truly are. 

SMUT:  depends. i’ve written it privately. it’s not really my thing but i don’t mind it. i prefer to write it privately with people i know very, very well. i’m not adverse to reblogging a smut meme or sending one in tho lmao. 

PLOT / MEMES! ♡  i love plotting. i’m not good at i but i enjoy it a lot and will do my best to help think of dynamics, settings, and plot threads to do. as for memes? i want to love memes. i think they’re a great ice breaker - i used to be able to reblog a meme and write a really nice drabble response (i always write drabble responses lmao) but now it’s like... I Simply Cannot. i look at memes and my muse jumps ship like its 1912. i think it’s because i have an easier time responding to memes with people/muses my muse has an established/talked about dynamic with; instead of me trying to write a 4 para drabble for a muse that my muse has yet to interact with. idk.

tagged by :  stole it from nora uwu tagging :  steal it nasties.

[revasserium]

hi rain!! hope you're doing well 💗💗

thank u darling! 

you write beautifully, o my goodness

aww thank youuuu <3 

Hi! Just wanted to ask if it was okay to send in a request?

hi love! requests are currently closed! but once they open up again, do feel free! 

Whenever I have a bad day or just want to spend some time in a specific kind of world, I find myself coming back to here. I always end up feeling better. Thank you 😊

you are so, so sweet and lovely <3 thank you so much! and i’m glad you enjoy my writing ! 

thank you so much for your sunset masterpiece with Kageyama !!!!

ahhh that one was fun to write ! im glad u liked it !!! 

so this is how summer ends breaks my heart😭😭💔💔 I enjoyed reading it nonetheless 🥺 - 🎏

hehehehhe idk i always rly like the angst ones?? they just hit dif ukno? but im glad that it made u feel some kinda way :D 

just want to tell you i adore your writing so much; probably my favorite in the hq fandom. i’m just a casual reader and lurker of fics, and i usually just leave a like since i’m quite shy. (idk where this came from since i write too and there’s nothing more i can enjoy than hearing from my readers) but i would like to tell you you’re amazing at what you do, and i can’t wait to see more of your works. sending you love! stay safe always.

thank you T^T it rly means a lot -- i know i’ve been gone, but coming back to these messages have been the light of my life <3 

just want to say i love every writing you have every posted and i hold a lot of them dear to my heart but your sugawara smut are the best ones in this entire site OH GODS i wish i could ask for more but i know you're already working hard to write all of these beautiful, breathtaking pieces so thank you for your hard work and please don't forget to take care of yourself! ♡

you all are TOO kind to me T^T take care of yourselves as well -- all my love darlings 

dropping by your inbox to give you a big hug and best wishes because you are awesome!

muah!!!! x 

hi rain, love you and hope you’ve been okay. miss you but take your time, will still be here when you feel ready to come back ❤️

all my kisses! im back now and better than ever hehee 

hi i love u and u inspire me sm, can i be 🎨 anon 👉👈

oh my lov ur too cute! <3 

hi rain, thinking of you today ❤️ miss you heaps but I hope you’re taking some well deserved time off for yourself :) remember that you are loved and you have deeply affected so many lives by your writing 🥺 xx

muah x 

hi rain, hope you’re doing well wherever you are in the world ❤️❤️ miss you loads, I read at least one story of yours every night haha helps me to relax :)

oh im so glad!!! :D 

you may not care, but i often check your blog if you have a new post or just answering any asks. your writing and also the way you answer questions is so eloquent . just wow.

i do care! i care a great deal <3 and ur message means the world and then some to me uwu thank u so much for taking the time my love 

Hey Rain! Make sure to take care, don't forget to drink water and eat something! I'm here to vent if you need it. -Emmy

<3 muah 

Your fics make me feel all warm and fuzzy. Every time I read them I feel like I'm cuddling a huge fluffy teddy bear or something. Your writing is so genuine and so deep, it's really inspirational!

thank youuuu im glad that u liked them T^T i promise i will strive to write more, even better fics in the future <3 

ya know I think about that ushijima fic you did about ice cream at the most inconvenient times of the day I tell you. god i just black out

yo HIGHKEY. ushijima. can like..... get it. 

hi! i just read 'even so' and i'm so in love with your writing so it's time to read all your works uwu if you can, try using google docs to write! it saves your history so you can go back if you lose something or want to go back to something you wrote. take care bub

im def gonna experiment with a ton of dif things to make sure that none of my writing gets lost in the future! :D 

i have no way to conjure my thoughts about universal truths. like it was truly a masterpiece. im sorry for my lack of feedback but my emotions can't be put into words on how im feeling.(although i think that's probably one of the best responses you can get from an audience) just know that you're doing fucking amazing and always inspiring me to write

ahhh thank you!!! 

I just want you to know I was reading everything u have ever put out for naruto & I am head over heels in love thanks bye ily

im legit head over heals in lov for naruto tho okay like hes MY FAV 

[ayyyoonohwhatimean]

morning time! w/ jaehyun+ you being sick

heyyaa! back again with a new writing. hopefully you guys would appreciate and like it though. thanks for reading!  if there’s any mistakes, I’m so sorry! xx - N.

morning time! w/ jaehyun + you being sick (jaehyun x reader)

mode: fluffyyyy fluff, slightly comedy and tiny angst! 

fuck i love him so much 

(before we start, i’m actually terribly sick rn :( and pls listen to paris in the rain by lauv while reading this! it gives me soft fluffy vibes)

“cause anywhere with you feels right, anywhere with you feels like paris in the rain” 

okay so let’s get itttt!! 

so both of you were in his room still sleeping soundly, wrapping each other’s arms around each other’s waists 

sleeping beauties aw

his room filled with you guys’ photos, his favorite LPs standing nicely on the shelf with the classic vinyl player and his speaker that he would use a lot to play your and his favorite playlist whenever you’re together

it’s simple and minimalistic but yet homey. you loved it. 

you usually would be the one that wakes up earlier than jaehyun but well not this time 

you looked at the clock standing behind the bed, oh shit it’s 10AM

your head felt so heavy and your throat feeling so uncomfortable and funny as you were trying to get up 

it was hard for you to get up so you just went back to bed feeling uncomfortable and sick

you looked over jaehyun, he’s still sleeping so comfortably, his pouty rosy lips and red cheeks with some of his dark brown hair covering a lil bit of his forehead and his eyes still shut 

“damn he’s such an art” you thought to yourself as you smiled sheepishly 

you moved to your right side and you felt jaehyun pulling you closer into his arms as he’s nuzzling into your neck 

you moved your head a little bit to look over him as he opened his eyes slowly, “hey babe morninggg” his deep morning voice echoes beautifully in your ear along with his soft smile as he looked at you and his eyes that seems to be made of stars 

your heart felt like it’s about to drop (fuck my heart would too :’))) 

no matter how long you guys have dated, it would always feel like the first time and day you went on a date with him; the nervousness, the tingling sensation, the sparks and everything. 

you replied back to him, “hey good morning sunshine”, your voice sounding hoarse and slightly unclear, starting to concern jaehyun 

he straightaway got up and put his hand on your forehead and neck, feeling them to check how high or low your body temperature feels 

“babyyy, I think you’re sick. your body feels way too warm and your voice concerns me too” he said as he rubs your back gently up and down 

“I don’t knowww, but as I was trying to get up earlier, I just felt so uncomfortable and sick. My throat still feels funny and uncomfortable and my head feels like spinning around” :(( 

he caresses your cheek lovingly with his soft delicate fingers,“let me fix it” and then proceed to leave a short but yet still meaningful and sweet kiss on your lips  

you tried to avoid from him kissing you, “heyy you’re gonna get sick!” but it was too late haha 

he laughs and smooches you all over your face like crazy, “it’s okay as long as we get sick together” 

you tried to act like you’re vomiting after what he just said and chuckled softly 

“I’ll be right back, princess. I’m cooking you something since you’re sick and I’ll get some of the medicines for you from the box outside, yeah?” he said as he got up from the bed and smiled at you 

“but babeeee, don’t leaveeee meee” you said, trying to pull his arms and stopping him from leaving the room

“babyy, but you need to eat and I need  to take care of you” he cooed 

“but take me outside with you too, I’m gonna be bored here all alone” crossing your arms as you sit and cooed back 

he giggles to himself afterwards, “you’re making me crazy, god i must be so in love with you” 

YES IT’S CHEESY BUT IT’S JUNG YOONOH IK YOU LOVE IT 

AAAAAAAAAAHHHH uwu 

you giggled too, opening your arms to jaehyun showing him as a sign to pull you from the bed, “take me with you, my man” 

he pulls your arms gently and carefully as if you’re made of glass so fragile and precious, “alright, my woman” 

he went to the kitchen to start cooking and you went to the living room which facing the apartment’s kitchen 

you rested your back on the couch with your head on the soft grey pillow as you’re trying to find something interesting to watch 

SO YOU GUYS WANNA KNOW WHAT HES COOKIN 

COOKIN COOKIN COOKING TIME 

so he’s cooking some rice for both of you, seaweed soup and some chicken soup with mixed vegetables as well as herbs that’s good for the immune system (you gotta eat healthy ok its good for ur immune system)

while he’s doing his thing cooking at the kitchen, he would look over to check on you and what you’re up to 

 he noticed there wasn’t any blanket on the couch you’re resting on so he went back to his room and got you his fuzzy blanket in case you suddenly got cold 

“hey baby, fevers can cause you to either feel really hot or cold. so, in case if you suddenly feel cold, wrap yourself using this fuzzy blanket, okay?” caressing your hair as he walked over to you to give you the blanket 

you smiled looking at him and nodded, “thank you, love. what are you cooking? It smells so good already I’m hungry dude” 

“I’m cooking...something special for us! It’s a surprise hehe” he grins cutely, like a child (isn’t he cute ugh) 

after he’s done with the cooking, both of you finally got to eat yayyyy 

sitting on the kitchen counter area facing each other, adoring each other’s presence as both of you were enjoying the meals he cooked for you and him 

jaehyun. he’s just so great, so good to be true. he’ll always be the one to pick you up when you’re down, the one to help you out when you’re having a problem whether it’s a big matter or even just a small matter, the one to light you up when everything seems to be dark to you, the one to guide you when you’re lost, the one to get concern about you even if it’s not about something to get/be concern about, the one that only stays when nobody stays with you, the one that falls asleep only after you fell asleep first because he wants to make sure that you’re safe in his arms while you’re sleeping, the one to hold you when everything seems to fall apart, the one to comfort you when you’re upset about your life. he’s your star, your world, your everything. he’s your home. 

and, 

you’re his home, too. 

you’ve always prayed for someone, like, him. :’)

ALLLL MYY LIFEEEE I PRAYED FOR SOMEONE LIKE YOUU AND I THANK GOD THAT I THAT I FINALLY FOUND YOU *sings*

FUCK I’M GETTING SO EMO SHIT 

ALRIGHT ALRIGHT EHEM MOVING ON

I love him with all of my heart 

ok so after you guys have finished eating, cleaning and shit, you went back to the couch with jaehyun behind you 

he put a box which contains all kinds of medicines (his and yours) in it on the table before finding meds for your fever and sore throat 

“here, take your meds and here’s some water so that you would feel better baby” he turned to you as he gave you one of the fever pills and lozenges for your sore throat with a glass of water on the table

you took them from his hand the pills first so that you could proceed to swallow it 

to be honest you’re not really good at swallowing pills bcus you’re afraid and you just dk how so what you usually do is chewing em (don’t judge me)

yes you’d rather take em like you’re eating a normal food instead of swallowing em like how you’re supposed to do 

jaehyun noticed how you’re not swallowing the pills the way it should be done and laughed, “you’re supposed to swallow them, you dumbass” 

after you’re done drinking your water, you hit him lightly and said “heyy, I’m not a dumbass!” 

“yes you are boo” 

“you’re a dumbass too dude” 

“heyyy! since when? I’m a very smart and genius guy plus I’m good at almost everything” he said as he rolled his eyes to you 

“since when? remember when you lost in the very first missions and other mission as well in the nct life in chuncheon and hongcheon?” you pulled your tongue out as you teased him and laughed 

“sshh, do you wanna lose your voice?” him asking you with his arms crossed and his kinda-cute-failed-angry facial expression

“aw, someone’s upset huh” you cooed, before taking one of your sore throat lozenges and put it into your mouth 

 he laughs as he slowly tryin to attack you by tickling you

“yo no stop it omg ahhHHh JAEHYUN-” 

“I can’t hear you i’m gonna tickle you until you lost your voice and can’t talk and tease me anymore” 

you proceed to attack him by tickling him too and the house filled with both of you’s laughter (uwu) 

jaehyun tries to protect and avoid himself from getting tickled by you with the pillows on his hands

when you both are finally done, you both just kinda look at each other, admiring every single details of each other’s faces 

jaehyun climbs over to you on the couch and puts his head on your stomach full of happy smiles 

“you know what, I like me better when I’m with you”, he whispers to you with his arms wrapping around your body tightly

“I like me better when I’m with you too” <3 

[paradise-creator]

Hello!! Um, if possible, may I get a haven box matchup for BNHA? I am having a hard time deciding between romantic or platonic but um..lets go with romantic? I am demisexual and bi-romantic!! My pronouns are she/they and u can call me um... 🐰 anon maybe? If its not taken!! Oh, and thank you in advance!! Take ur time, lovely!! 🥰🥰

So, physically, im kinda chubby and pear shaped. I have pink hair in a kinda scruffy pixie cut. Im a little tall at 173cm. I like pastels and dusty, faded colors, and my aesthetic is a mix of whimsical and comfort! I have blue-green eyes but tbh they look almost more grey, and theyre kinda droopy and sleepy.

I am..an awkward person. Like, I am really timid and softspoken. I stutter a lot, and I get nervous a lot, and I have trouble speaking up. A lot of the time I don’t say much at all because I don’t wanna talk over others. Um, well, I do have generalized and social anxiety though, so that probably contributes to my meek demeanor. I’m also very clumsy and perform poorly under pressure. Im a bit of a mess I guess, but I’m working on getting better, so I’m a bit proud of that at least.

I’m an infp and a cancer, and that combination is..pretty fitting for me. I’m very sensitive and emotional, and I am constantly daydreaming. My imagination is very active and I often have my head in the clouds, and I’m a bit idealistic. The anxiety I struggle with conflicts weirdly with how idealistic I can be, though, because I often find myself fearing for the worst while hoping for the best.

I care a whole lot about people who are close to me, though its only a small circle that really manages this. Im the token mom friend in my group, and I tend to take care of my friends and always try to be a support for them. Being honest, I can be kind of nosy when something is troubling someone, but it’s with good intentions?? Im sure it’s still annoying though.

I’m a lot more open with people I’m close to. When I’m comfortable around someone I’m a super goofball, and quite playful. I like to play small pranks and get up to mischief, but I draw the line at anything that is even slightly harmful, or anything that causes any emotional distress. I am very silly and I don’t mind being a goof if it makes people I love smile or laugh!!

I’m not very practical, and I’m not good at making decisions. I’m notoriously indecisive. Despite being kinda overemotional and timid, even I have times when I’m stubborn and headstrong. Specifically, when it comes to protecting my loved ones, my beliefs, or animals.

My interests lay on the creative side of things!! I do digital art, baking, embroidery, I play the ukulele, and I like to write! I also love self care and just taking it easy, so I often make my own bath supplies and candles. In particular, bath bombs, bubble bath, body butter, stuff like that!! I just like smelling nice and feeling clean and soft! I kinda have low self confidence, but that sort of thing makes me feel better. Also, I may seem a bit “uwu” I guess lmao, but im actually super into horror, angst, etc, at least in fiction! The music I listen to tends to be more along the lines of alternative rock, pop rock, and metal, but theres times when I just wanna chill to some indie or lofi too!

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Hello and Welcome my Starlight!

The Haven box includes:

- Match up

- Sun drop

- Old habits die hard

- Out of your shell we go!

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I'd match you up with

Uraraka Ochaco, Uravity

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Sun drops

- At first I thought of Deku (And Sugawara/Yaku but then I remembered they were in the wrong Fandom)

- I was going to pair you up with Deku but then I remembered Uraraka

- Then insert me having an indecisive moment as I choose carefully on who to pick

- Uraraka won! (obviously-)

- OKAY HEAR ME OUT THIS DYNAMIC WOULD BE ADORABLE

- Uraraka is a very bubbly and friendly, she will definitely help you with social situations

- She is good at reading people, this would definitely help

- with her around, it's never gloomy

- She would always be there to sit down and listen no matter what

- This right here is the "UwU couple"

- Uraraka and you would just Y E S

- Though she is very bubbly, she tries to help you cope with everything

- Like she will stay quiet just so you can talk

- She even tells her friends to let you voice out your opinion! (If she saw that you wanted to say smth that is)

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Old habits die hard

- When you first met her friends , she was so nervous that she acted like a robot at some point

- CUDDLES FOR DAYS

- She would often play with your hair and it calms her down

- CHEEK KISSES

- She loves to nuzzle herself in your arms

- Since she is shorter than you, she always finds herself back hugging you and attempting to put her head on your shoulder.

- This one time she tried putting her head on your shoulder with the assistance of her quirk but it ended up badly ckhdisbdjdihsbw

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Out of your shell we go!

“C’mon lovely! It’s just my friends,” Uraraka said as she wrapped her arms around her girl’s waist. “B-but, you know how I am with other people!” The taller female retorted. “And what if-“The green-blue eyed female started. “No more what ifs! They are really good people, they won’t judge us,” Uraraka then said as she held the taller’s hand. “If you are uncomfortable, I won’t force it,” She added as she smiled softly. As the taller female looked down at her with loving eyes, she decided what to do. “Fine,” She muttered. “Hmm? What was that?” The Auburn haired girl said. “I said, fine, let’s meet them,” She said a bit louder. Uraraka squealed and smiled brightly. “Don’t worry! There’s only 4 people. Just to keep it simple and all,” She then said as she hugged the pink haired girl and chuckled. “You sure though? I know how your anxiety gets, please don’t push yourself,” She added. “I’ll be fine as long as you are there,” Uraraka’s lover said as she wrapped her arms around the shorter. She then placed her head on her head briefly.

And soon enough, the Dekusquad was all together. “Guys, this is my girlfriend!” Uraraka said happily. But really, she is nervous. She was afraid of what her friends would think of her. Would they accept her as is? Will they leave her? Her fears were quite obvious to her lover. So, the green-blue eyes female held her hand as they waited for their reaction. “Ribbit! That’s so cute. Ribbit!” Asui started as she smiled. “I hope you two would have a wonderful relationship together,” Iida then stated with his robotic arm swing. “What Iida said,” Todoroki added. “I hope you two are happy always,” Midoriya said as he smiled. Uraraka was almost brought into tears as her friends supported her and her love. “I hope you all don’t mind me here,” The pink pixie said as she looked away. “Of course we don’t mind! Right, everyone?” Midoriya said. “Ribbit! You are always welcomed,” Asui said as she smiled. “Thank you all so much! This really means a lot to me,” Uraraka said as she hugged Tsuyu. “Yeah… Thanks!” The taller said as she joined in awkwardly.

“How long have you two been together, Ribbit! If you don’t mind me asking,” Asui said as she let go of the two. “A few weeks now,” Uraraka said with a smile.

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Author's note

First off, Thank you so much for requesting! I hope you enjoyed this match up. Secondly, I don't really understand the whole demisexual and biromantic, so I apologize if this was not what you wanted. I can change it if you like- And of course you can be 🐰 Anon! I'm also a INFP-T and a cancer~

[unrivaled-super-hottie]

QZGS Masquerade 2019 Reveals

The guesses are in for Masquerade and now it’s time to reveal everyone! There were 22 guesses (+1 late guess I tossed in for fun), and one author remained unguessed throughout the whole event!

(Please note the collection will be de-anoned by 11/15 at 11:59 pm EST so if you still want to keep your fic on anonymous to the general public who doesn’t know about masquerade, please add it to the general anonymous connection on AO3 in addition to the masquerade collection)

Read below to see results/statistics for all the fics

(later on i realized i forgot to ask for a discord ID/ao3 name on the form but luckily I knew the first place at least)

First off for the guessers:

The one who guessed the most authors correctly: TheDefenestrator [ni(redacted)@gmail.com] with 16/21 correct guesses

Honorable Mention:  Dayadhvam [da(redacted)@gmail.com] with 13/21 correct guesses

The average number of correct guesses was: 4.826086957

Median number of correct guesses: 4

Both of them left cool deductions so please check out the raw spreadsheet at the end of this post!

Now for the fic which will be revealed in order of most to least guessed

disclaimer: In my comments, when I said I guessed someone, I’m referring to my active speculation I made as I read a fic before I checked the form submissions. I did not actually make an official guess that was part of the statistics

Number of Correct Guesses: 9/21 (43%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as: Lauchis and eloboosting (2 guesses each)

Correct Author:  Battle_god_Ye_Xiu

Host Comments: Look i guessed this was you almost immediately because  I saw Zheng Xuan tag + the words “soft family” (you like using soft a lot, with ur “uwu soft angst” )

Number of Correct Guesses: 9/22 (41%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as: Autumn_Rain, DesertRain, Syncogon (2 guesses each)

Correct Author: desikauwa

Host Comments: Everyone said you have a really distinctive style and I agree, especially the paragraph length + dialogue. I enjoyed the rarer Fang Rui content!

Number of Correct Guesses: 8/22 (36%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:  swanfrost (3 guesses)

Correct Author:  Shirou_UOHS

Host Comments: Shirou I think your writing is really distinctive and I guessed you right away because you love sibling stuff and YOU LITERALLY DREW FANART OF THIS AND POSTED IT ON THE SERVER. SO SUSPICIOUS. I think you would have been guessed more, but kiri (desertrain) gave you some cover because both of you use “gege” in your fics and you were guessed a lot for the other fic. 

(Also for the swan as most incorrectly guessed, RNG was 2/3 of those guesses so not as accurate..)

Number of Correct Guesses: 7/21 (33%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:  fayah (4 guesses)

Correct Author: sakuchii

Host Comments: So many people guessed me for this one! Probably because Su Muqiu/Ye Xiu, jokes on you all I wouldn’t be that obvious. I didn’t guess this one to be you off the bat but apparently you had something stylistically distinct because a lot of people did correctly guess!

Number of Correct Guesses: 7/21 (33%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:  syncogon (4 guesses)

Correct Author: Dayadhvam

Host Comments: Most people concluded that this fic was written by someone familiar with Chinese because of the references so I’m not surprised Synco was the most guessed. This was one of the fics I knew who wrote it almost immediately as I read it because Journey to the West references!! I remember one of the first posts I saw from you in the server was you explaining LJY’s old username. I laughed that your profile pic on discord this whole event was Innocent Eye Fang Rui, I wonder if that helped anyone guess/suspect? 

Also can I say the dialogue for this was great and this was my favorite fic out of the masquerade

Number of Correct Guesses: 6/21 (29%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:  Shirou_UOHS (5 guesses)

Correct Author:  DesertRain

Host Comments: So many people guessed this off the usage of “gege” which was why Shirou was guessed so often! (Also Shirou under suspicion for Ye Twin fic I’m guessing) For the first 4 guesses you had a 100% guess rate even by RNG and it made me laugh a lot, congrats on not ending up as most guessed despite your early lead!. Also “no beta we die like su muqiu” is the best tag you win just for that

Number of Correct Guesses: 6/21 (29%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:   Missing_Ninja_History (4 guesses)

Correct Author:    eloboosting

Host Comments: I think this was one of the easier fics to guess because so few people in the fandom write porn. Gma (Missing_Ninja_History) was probably guessed the most because she recently posted TKA nsfw rare pair fic lmao. Also Tread (havingonlydreams) was guessed twice since she wrote nsfw hanzhang before. Zoe ( Battle_god_Ye_Xiu) tried to convince everyone this was possibly her fic but absolutely no one believed this except 1 random rng guess.

I may or may not have been converted to HanZhang by this fic.

Number of Correct Guesses: 5/21 (24%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:  senata_isivelia (3 guesses)

Correct Author:    qyff

Host Comments: I think your style was somewhat distinct but SO MANY people guessed you for another fic! Not one of the ones I was 100% sure of off the bat, but is it weird that I suspected you just for the triple question marks? haha

Number of Correct Guesses: 5/21 (24%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:  Dayadhvam,  qyff, and  rimenorreason (2 guesses)

Correct Author:  Swanfrost

Host Comments: I thought your summary style should have given you away so much more! The block quote + one line zinger is so you. Also I was happy to see so many good gen pieces for masquerade! The fluffy feelings here also vaguely reminded me of your other fic, I guessed you pretty much off the bat when entries were coming in

[From this point onward, we’ve reached the top 50% of well-hidden authors!!]

Number of Correct Guesses: 4/21 (19%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:   DesertRain (4 guesses)

Correct Author:   Missing_Ninja_History

Host Comments: This was another one of those fics I guessed off the bat because of your copious use of dashes and the “Happy birthday, Qiu.” near the end. That last part basically ruled out most of the more Chinese-knowledgeable writers. I also felt under 2k words would be a breeze for you so the early submission just gave me the strongest gut-feeling this was you. Felt so validated when I checked the forms and was correct haha 

This was also a somewhat popular guess for the two authors that didn’t have previous fic history

Number of Correct Guesses: 4/21 (19%) 

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:  qyff (10 guesses)

Correct Author:   qq_riri

Host Comments: So this was THE most successful fake-out fic out of the bunch, because qyff is so well known for liking MF + QYF. I just read from you that you did this on purpose and it worked so, so well /slow clap

Number of Correct Guesses: 4/21 (19%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:   jellysunfish (4 guesses)

Correct Author:   DancingBloomTKA

Host Comments: The way you formatted BOLDED poetic lines in between your storytelling was really obvious, even if you tried to hide it with adding the spacing lines. I think Jelly was guessed because they also do this, but you do single lines so I immediately suspected you!! I just didn’t expect you would join the event with IRL and stuff keeping you busy, I’m glad you did! 

Also I totally noticed in the server you asked “Who’s the “Time to let my inner demons out” in Dying Flame? Li Xuan?” How shameless, asking about your own fic. I feel this should have made more people suspect you rather than throw them off, but alas I don’t think many people noticed this except me.

Number of Correct Guesses: 3/21 (14%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:   swanfrost (3 guesses)

Correct Author:   wackernagel

Host Comments: This was a really cool rarepair! Unfortunately it also was one of the things that outed you haha. That and you accidentally kinda said when you finished your fic and your wordcount woes and tried to bluff it off with editting but apparently some people remembered

Number of Correct Guesses: 3/21 (14%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:    Missing_Ninja_History (6 guesses)

Correct Author:  Lauchis

Host Comments: This was the third most misdirected fic. Maybe because Gma (Missing_Ninja_history) wrote Wu Xuefeng rarepair before? I like how you stole Tread’s headcannon post but Tread (havingonlydreams) was suspected for so many other fic instead that everyone just chose to blame Gma. Also thank you for using the title I was trying to bait people into using!!  Unfortunately we only fooled one person with this :(

Number of Correct Guesses: 3/21 (14%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:   senata_isivelia  and DancingBloomTKA (4 guesses)

Correct Author: rimenorreason

Host Comments: Since you and Senata both had no fic history, a lot of people actually did tend to guess which two fics you two wrote but mixed up the correct order haha. I didn’t guess this one right at all tbh :’D

[From this point onward, we have the top 25% most well hidden authors]

Number of Correct Guesses: 2/21 (10%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:  lauchis (4 guesses)

Correct Author: Fayah

Host Comments: This was mine! I did a few things to throw people off - I never wrote Tang Rou before so I picked her as a subject. I just rushed this in 24 hours and hoped that was enough to make my writing not sound so much like myself. I also never use long (parenthesis) lowercase titles so I hoped that it helped throw some people off too. Vaguely I tried to implicate Syncogon because she wrote WangRou before and the lyrics were from the TKA live action which I haven’t watched but she has posted about listening to the OST repeatedly.

I never expected lauchis (who also ships wangrou) to join the event and give me even MORE cover. Thanks lauchis :)

Number of Correct Guesses: 2/21 (10%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:   Fayah and Autumn_Rain (3 guesses)

Correct Author: Syncogon

Host Comments: This was really obvious to me and I was surprised it wasn’t guessed more because you’ve actually written fem!YX fic?? And talked about this fic in the server. YOU’VE ALSO LITERALLY USED THE “Alternate Universe - Always a Different Sex“ TAG BEFORE!!!!!! This guess rate is a true miracle, this wins the “most surprised that it wasn’t guessed more.” Maybe because you have 41 fic and people gave up before going to page 3 and seeing your very first fic that was fem!YX 

Number of Correct Guesses: 2/21 (10%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:   Battle_god_Ye_Xiu, qq_riri, sakuchii  (3 guesses)

Correct Author: senata_isivelia

Host Comments: I figured you would do well since you had no other fic. I also helped secretly beta this fic though I don’t know if that actually would have affected people’s guesses. Not surprised that Zoe (Battle_god_Ye_Xiu) got guessed frequently for this because YuHuang. One of the times you got correctly guessed was from RNG but I’m really surprised someone did guess you accurately!

Number of Correct Guesses: 1/21 (4.8%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as: fayah (4 guesses)

Correct Author: havingonlydreams

Host Comments: I’m so surprised everyone thought I wrote Liu Hao fic??? I’m honored because I enjoyed the perspective, but still baffled. Tread, I’m really disappointed you weren’t 2nd place because you really deserve it - you had some Zhang Jiale level luck in this event. The one person who guessed you cited RNG as their reason. 

Number of Correct Guesses: 1/22 (4.5%)

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:   havingonlydreams  (8 guesses)

Correct Author: Autumn_Rain

Host Comments: This is probably the strongest accidental masquerade misdirection that happened because I know you had no clue Tread (havingonlydreams, who is strongly associated with Thunderclap) would participate. I did not expect to see/read this pairing but it was a really fun fic!

Only one person (Fenes/The Defenestrator) guessed correctly and saved my ass from having a two-way tie for first. Congrats on the Zhang Jiale award!  

Number of Correct Guesses: 0/22 

Most Incorrectly Guessed as:   Autumn_Rain (5 guesses)

Correct Author: jellysunfish

Host Comments: Our masquerade winner! I think your spacing made people think Autumn_Rain. I definitely couldn’t pin you down either, so congrats! I’ll DM you when I start working on the art :)

[Raw Data Spreadsheet + Deductions if guesser chose to include]

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And the winner of free Nitro is Syncogon!

Thank you so much to everyone who participated! I hope you had fun. Also feel free to slide me your feedback/suggestions/if you would be interested in doing this again next year :)

[cloudbeom]

Fanmeet

warnings: rude fans

Genre: Slight angst; fluff; crack

Summary  : when BTS has a female member, public shows are both a problem and a blessing

A/n: I had so much fun with this just the thought of y/n and the boys doing a fansign gives me the uwus as well anon! Enjoy! (Requests are still open)

Add on : sO,, if anyone is wondering what ‘Ethereal’ is, it’s a solo song the Igirl made! I just thought it was fitting bc Jimin goes Serendipity, Gukkie goes Euphoria, Tae had Singularity, Jin has Awake and so on, so i thought, why not??????

Add on pt 2 : when you see (Y/member’s last name), it means ur ship name! LMK what YOUR ship name is!!

masterlist

"Be polite, smile a lot, don't give personal info, don't be rude even if the fans are rude to you, show interest in them, don't make things look so serious, and don't disappoint" the event manager said, Bangtan all nodded enthusiastically

"We haven't got our seat arrangements yet" Hobi wondered out loud

"Let's rock paper scissors it" you suggested, placing your water bottle down as everyone smiled and gathered around, the staff thinking that it was only fair rather than assigning random seats.

"Win or lose, rock paper scissors!"

-

"Hello ARMY!" Namjoon said as he walked out, waving at the fans who were screaming when we got out, standing close at the front "Welcome to our love yourself fan sign!"

"We are so glad you could come here today.." Jimin said, smiling "There are so many of you~ I can't wait to meet you all!"

"I hope we will have a great time meeting each other today" Yoongi said, "It's been so long and you all have been waiting"

"I'm so excited!" Jungkook said, looking at the screaming fan girls "I see so many pretty girls in line already!!"

J-hope started dancing "I wonder if I'll meet my soulmate~~?" He said, making almost the whole area of Army to scream. Tae chuckled "One of them are the screaming ones" He said, looking at the girls and waving at them.

"Without wasting anymore time! Let's start, shall we?" Jin said, winking charmingly and caused two or three girls to almost pass out. Yikes.

The seating arrangements were, Tae went first, followed by Jimin, then Namjoon, next to him was Jin, then it was Jeongguk, and then me, and Yoongi was next to me, followed by Hoseok last.

There was a short 5 minute break for the fans who was getting ready to meet the idols. While the break started, You looked at Yoongi and grinned.

"What's wrong with you?" He said, chuckling as he grabbed his marker pen.

"I'm just very excited, I feel so nervous to meet them" You said, laying your hand on the table.

"Aren’t they supposed to feel that?" Yoongi replied, looking at the fans who were checking their albums and making sure everything was okay. "This isn't your first fan sign after all"

"It's not my first, but I'm sure as hell not good at it" you sigh, taking a sip of your water "I just hope whatever bullshit I deal with today is not as bad as last time"

"You improved a lot, y'know" Jungkook said, lightly squeezing your hand under the table "Plus, you're in the middle of Yoongi Hyung and me, if any fans are threatening-looking, I know for a fact that Yoongi hyung will give them a proper ass-whooping" He said which made Yoongi nod casually as if it was normal, and that made you laugh.

Not long after, the first row of fans started coming.

"Hello!" you said and the first girl smiled when she reached you, you grinned and took her book from Yoongi and flipped it open to the page you were supposed to sign, there was a sticky note there, and a question.

Who's your favorite member?

I chuckled, writing 'all, can't choose :)'

When you turned to the girl, she was blushing like crazy, you held her hand, "Are you okay-"

"YOUR MY BIAS AND MY BIAS WRECKER AND MY BIAS BIAS BIAS WRECKER AND I LOVE YOU" She said, squealing, alarming the boys and your manager, but they laughed it off, seeing it wasn’t a threat. You chuckled at her behavior and squeezed her hands, glad there were fans like her who loved you.

"Thank you so much, but don't tell anyone that, especially Jin" You whispered secretly and closely as if it were a secret, and she started giggling "Promise me okay~?"

She interlocked her pinkie with yours, and you both laughed as she was told to move next, you handed Yoongi her book.

"(Y/N) SSI!" A fan yelled from below, you smiled as you looked at the crowd who were filming you and decided to do a heart aegyo just before the next fan came to you.

"Anyeong!" The next fan smiled, handing you her album "Can (Y/n) ssi tell me how she stays so beautiful?"

You chuckled "Beauty is in the heart, I would thank my stylist for the appearance" you said, signing her book and writing notes on it.

"But how does (Y/n) Ssi handle being in a dorm with seven handsome oppas??" She asked, you leaned in closer to her and grabbed her hand.

The girl giggled at my response "What's your name?" you asked

"Jae Hwa" She smiled, you wrote it on her book, with a couple of side notes.

"Well, Jae Hwa, you are very lucky because I might invite you to the dorm one day so you can feel it yourself" you winked, she squealed and thanked you for making her day as she moved along.

"I wonder where my favorite red hoodie went, last time I let (Y/n) ssi stay with me, it disappeared" Jungkookie said to the mic, pretending to think as fans started laughing.

“Implying something, international playboy?" you asked, raising your eyebrows jokingly as you propped your elbows on the table to lean front and look at him "I'll give it baccckkk, you stole my heels and I didn't even whine about it!"

Army's laughed at Jungkookie's embarrassed expression, hiding his blushing face, you patted him on the shoulder and chuckled as the next fan came to you, a present in hand.

"(Y/n) ssi, this is for you!" She said, placing a flower crown on my head "I love Ethereal so much (Y/n) ssi, You are such a great singer!"

"Thank you so much~" You said shyly, opening her book and saw her note

When is (Your rap name) going to have another collab with Agust D? I Love you both TT

You chuckled, writing ;Please wait for it noona, and I love YOU!!

She giggled as she took the book back, waving at you and you waved back.

Another fan came along, but she passed you, with a light but audible scoff. You sighed, it's not the first time, but is sucks A LOT to be hated on by ARMY's who only loved the boys.

Yoongi had noticed the sad look on your face and gently took your hand under the table while talking to her, his jaw clenching and you lightly squeezed his hand, telling him it was okay and was fine with it.

"Why did you skip (Y/n)?" Yoongi blurted out, the Army looked confused.

"Yah, who is (Y/n)?" She asked, but before Yoongi answered, she moved on to Hoseok, who greeted her with a sunshine smile, either oblivious to the situation or was trying to retain a good image.

The Army below seemed to notice and was smiling and doing hearts at you, while some of them were blowing kisses "FIGHTING (Y/n) SSIIIII!!" they yelled, as if feeling your pain, you gave them a heart back, telling them you truly appreciated their support.

The next fan came to you and Jungkook, a bag in her hands "Here! This is for (Y/n) unnie and Kookie oppa! Eat a lot and share okay!" She smiled, giving us the bag. Inside were full of sweets and chocolates that made your and Guk’s eyes lit up, enough to make you both forget about the nickname she had called you.

"Ahhhh, Kookie needs to cut off his sugar, thank you sweetie!" You joked, taking the bag and putting it under the table, Kookie whined like a baby

"Buttttttttt!" he said, pretending to cry as he pouted "Noona, (Y/n) is so mean to me" He said, turning to the girl as she giggled at the both of you, the army screaming  '(Y/KOOK)!'

Jungkook proceeded to talk with the girl, and you looked at Yoongi, who had was smiling at a camera, and decided to join him, the Army smiling when we both did and aegyo together "Thank you (Yoon/n)!" She smiled as you blew a kiss to her.

"(Y/n) ssi" The fan that gave you and kookie the sweets said, smiling at me, you gave her my full attention. "My name is Seo Yun" "That's a beautiful name for a beautiful girl" you smiled, signing her book and answering her question

If (Y/n) and her hyungs had a fight, who apologizes first?

Both of us. But usually it's me because I can't stand fights TT

I gave her back her book and she smiled "(Y/n) ssi is so caring!" She gushed, you laughed and patted her cheek.

"I just think that everyone in this world deserves chances" you said, she smiled and thanked you, moving onto Yoongi.

Surprisingly, everything went swimmingly after that. You received more gifts than you received during your first fan sign, and you had only encountered less rude ARMY’s than you had thought you would, thankfully security had thrown them out and Yoongi didn’t have to do what Jeongguk had called ‘ass whooping’. And in the end, you and the boys were enjoying every second of their fansign.

You yawned and covered your mouth as you laid your head on Jeongguk’s shoulder, he lifted his shoulder and your head fell, you repeated your actions but Jeongguk had shrugged you off again “YAH KOOK!”

Jeongguk had a playful ‘come get me’ grin, but you were having none of his bullshit, so you faced Yoongi, and he had a ‘don’t even think about it’ glare

“Are you tired (Y/n) ssi?” An ARMY asked you, and you shook your head, picking up your microphone

“No no, my head is just heavy” You said casually, making Jin snort.

“Everyone, what do you call a sleeping bull?” He asked, making ARMY curious and you rolled your eyes playfully.

“A bulldozer” Jin laughed, and Jimin bit his lip, as if telling himself ‘don’t laugh, don’t laugh’

“What do you call a sleeping Dinosaur?” Jin asked again, looking at Jimin this time, Jimin picked up his mic.

“Enlighten me, hyung”

“Dinosnore”

Jimin, being Jimin, actually burst out laughing at the stupid joke and your sighed loudly, why is it always like this at fan signs? you could’ve sworn he told that joke already before.

You we’re having so much fun talking with ARMY that when the last person came, you actually felt really sad.

“No, NO COME BACK :(” You cried when she moved to Yoongi because time was up, Yoongi took the album from your hands and you hissed. “I will miss all of you!”

You pouted as you sat there, waiting for the last ARMY to move down the stage so you can do your last group photo and say goodbye.

You actually enjoyed today and that was why you were so sad to leave them, most of them had been really nice to you and gave you great gifts, so when everyone finished taking a photo and wanted to leave, you had shouted in the mic “ARMY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!” which they replied with screams twice as loud.

Namjoon had to drag you so you would stop blowing your signature kisses to them and you cried dramatically as Namjoon (With the help of Hoseok) pushed you behind the curtain backstage.

and as you walked down, you could hear still hear the ARMY’s shouting that they love you as well.

You placed a hand on your heart, ignoring the boys laughing. Yeah, you’ll look forward to fan signs from now on

[taiyodoroki]

@hosttrick​ replied to your post:

tell us abt ur ships foole

@dragonwilled​ replied to your post:

tell us… abt the ships…

@verumheart​ replied to your post:

tell me frond

tell me and ship with me

// are you sure you want that...?

most of these could be both platonic and romantic, but i’ll list my preferences owo

kingdom hearts ships first!

aquapollo (aqua ; romantic) - i already liked the idea of it, but after chatting to @spellweaverbladed​ about it, call mcdonald’s cause badabababa, i’M LOVIN IT!! it’s just.... aqua’s been through so much... this ‘misguided master’ has so much pressure on her, needing to carry on eraqus’ legacy... and. then here’s apollo, who’s trying to get out of phoenix and kristoph’s shadows, trying to carry on dhurke’s legacy... oh god please lean on each other i nEED IT

terrapollo (terra ; platonic) - terra’s already the big bro type, and this tol boi with my smol son? like?? PLEASE PROTECC HIM??? apollo would also be like. REALLY beneficial to terra, helping him with his inner turmoil and self hate. imagine the two doing chords of steel exercises ooo..m .g...

sorapollo (sora ; can’t decide which i like more lol) - okay so like. we all know apollo “grump” justice but... what if... we gave him a precious sunshine boy..? who counters his gloom and doom with cheeriness?? and then when sora’s sad, he gets tHE I’M FINE?? LIKE. PLEASE SUPPORT EACH OTHER I’M SUCH A SUCKER FOR HEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND

honourable mentions (aka let’s not make this post too long) - apollarx/apollrena (apollo and larxene/elrena), xipollo (apollo and xion ; not romantic jUST SIBLINGS NOW I DON’T MAKE THE RULES THANKS @verumheart​)

fire emblem now! (mainly 3h hELP ME)

kampollo/corpollo (kamui/corrin ; equal parts ; i’ll need to find a better ship name i think lol) - this is mostly because of @darkswore​, aka @pariahlaw​, aka my sister luci. they’re both really, REALLY selfless, and fight for the greater good in their own ways. please.... help your dragon wife love reach peace... please do it apoll o

apollix (felix ; romantic) - prickly boi + prickly boi = ??? lemme tell you. it equals PRICKLY COUPLE. not to each other (okay maybe a little) but to other people. they don’t judge each other they judge other people together. to be fair my pre skip apollo is a ray of sunshine, only becoming grumpy post. but yanno. also what if.... felix shows his vulnerable and soft side... to apollo? and the other way around too? please??

sylpollo (sylvain ; can’t decide again lmao) - apollo smacking syvain upside the head because DAMN SON STOP SKIRT CHASING pre skip apollo kind of ehh with the whole thing, much more lax about sylvain than others, and then post skip, turns lax into indifferent. (okay he hates the skirt chasing but he doesn’t say everything cause everyone does already??) but sylvain’s got that... thing happening and i just want someone to understand how alone he feels sometimes, and what better person for that than apollo, an unwanted orphan?

sylpollix (felix and sylvain ; either way but let’s say romantic I’M TRASH I KNOW) - okay before you roll your eyes and stop reading this post hEAR ME OUT!! i’ve already explained the dynamic between apollo and felix, and apollo and sylvain, so?? what if you took those.. and.. put them toge the.. r ...? just a trio and they all love each other v much and.. maybe? hold hands a little but felix will never admit it the absolute bastard

lysipollo (lysithea ; platonic LOOK WHO ADOPTED ANOTHER SIB) - much to lysithea’s chagrin, apollo is going to protect her wITH HIS LIFE!! well if one is recruited onto the same team hehe whoops... but the angst factor if they dON’T-

honourable mentions - apoleonie (apollo and leonie), apollgard (apollo and edelgard, wow that angst just slapped me thanks 3h), apollgate (apollo and the gatekeeper.... ily gatekeeper.... call me sometime), any child unit and apollo bc you know he’ll adopt them on the spot

i have more but.... this is already long af LMAO so enjoy just kh and fe for now uwu;; thanks for listening to me gush about these ships omg

anyways tl;dr most of my ships can be both platonic and romantic, also i’m a sucker for people supporting each other and showing their vulnerability and being loved despite their flaws

[seoulscenarios]

Romeo, Romeo wherefore art thou Romeo?

Genre: light angsty fluff, high school au, female reader insert

Member(s): Stray Kids’ Minho (ft. Jisung and the lads)

Word count: 2991

Warnings: light swearing, light pda at the end

Summary: you and Minho had been best friends since you could walk but it seems only you had developed a crush on him. Will a late class and a small two man production of Romeo and Juliet change his mind or does he really not like you? Featuring the rest of the crackheads with their leader, Han Jisung, love is in the air at school and a certain someone is just oblivious to it.

Authors note: based off the following request “All time fav cliché best friends to lovers with Minho (stray kids) angsty fluff where reader (preferably female) thinks her love is one sided, but turns out it’s not. Good ending”. I hope this is something to what you wanted and sorry it’s not heavy on the angst pls enjoy !!

-You and Minho had een best friends for years and you always had the tiniest crush on Minho but it escalated a lot over the summer as Minho glowed UP

-Wow u are whipped

-However whipped as you are for him he never seemed to reciprocate it

-Ever

-You even went out with on valentine’s day 3 (three?!) years in a row but his thick skull didn’t acknowledge it and just thought it was another friends doing friends things

-So, you moved on

-I mean he’s your best friend you can’t let your crush get in the way of things

-You were there for him whenever he argued with his parents or friends, he was stressed about school or failed a test and uwu

-You’re just the bestest of friends and everyone is jealous (tho most think you are dating)

-So,,,,,

-You guys always hang out in school together bc you’re in the same friendship group

-And youre in most of the same classes, so you normally walk together

-WELL

-Minho managed to make the BOTH of you late to ur first class bc his dumb ass slept through his alarm and u had to basically drag him out of bed lmao

-So u rock up late for class

-Ur teacher is NOT impressed

-So as a punishment they give u a script of a play and told to learn it by next week

-U groan when u see the title of the play

-Romeo and Juliet

- Oh no

-This won’t end well

-You glance at Minho to see if he has any reaction bc,,,,, hello ur dying on the inside and probably the outside and you can hear Jisung and felix trying to hold in their laughs at u

-(you make a mental note to beat their asses later)

-And Minho

-Is very unfazed as he flicks through the script

-Ur kinda disappointed

-I mean it’s not fair how you’re a literal MESS trying not to let the floor swallow u up in embarrassment tbh

-So,, the two of you practice outside of class at ur guys’ house and you can’t help but notice how utterly unfazed he was by this whole ordeal

-Ur both literally reciting the most well-known love story on this planet and yet,,,,, nothing

-Not an ounce of feeling that he likes you

-I mean,,, he’s not a bad actor and his romeo makes u SWOON but honestly you swoon for irl Minho not just romeo Minho

-As you stutter over some of the lovey-dovey lines u hear Minho laugh a little and tells u to redo it

-his little shit

-After a week of practice, you guys are ready to perform this goddamn piece

-I may add that ur teacher only gave you the condensed version and not the whole play

-It just so happens that the condensed version only focuses on romeo and juliet’s love

-Bc English teachers amirite?

-So the two of you turn up to class ON TIME this week, not wanting to get ur ass beat again

-And ur just the tiniest bit nervous bc !!!! hello !!!! ur performing with ur crush !!!!

-U glance over at ur seatmate Jisung who gives u a big thumbs up

-BREATHE Y/N

-Everything is going well, u don’t stutter and Minho is just the perfect romeo

-Until the final scene I may add

-As you lay “dying” as Juliet, Minho runs onto the scene and spots u laying down

-He walks up to u and goes to kneel

-BUT

-Before you both knew it, he stumbled

-And fell

-Right

-On

-Top

-Of

-You

-Lips centimetres apart from each other

-OWO what’s this

-U swear the whole class are holding their breaths and can hear ur damn heartbeat

-U stare at Minho in shock for what must have been a minute

-Neither one of you tearing ur eyes apart from the other

-It wasn’t until you hear ur teacher cough slightly that the two of you snap out of it and Minho pulls away

-He finishes the scene off with no problem and honestly,,,, u don’t even register it’s over until Minho offers his hand to help you stand up

-You grab it, flushing a hella lot bc,,,,, u nearly kissed ur crush in front of ur whole class RIP

-Ur teacher was impressed with u guys and let you off the next assignment ur class had (if only u were aware of this then u would hear the whole class esp Jisung groan)

-As u go back to ur seat,,, ur eyes drift back to Minho and ur thoughts go back to that last scene and his lips……

-“yah Y/N ! u and minho were so close I swear you were gonna kiss you shoulda seen ur face!!!!! I thought for real that Minho was just gonna plant one on you !”

-Smh Jisung

-Poor baby,,, u just sit in shock trying to concentrate

-Hint: it doesn’t work

-Ur plagued with thoughts of Minho for the rest of the day,,,,, I mean you already were but now it’s like sensory overload but with Minho

-But u know he doesn’t like you

-Lmao why would he

-He surely would’ve spoken to you about by now esp after that near kiss in class

-But this dumbass is still oblivious

-School ends and ur trying to forget about the near kiss

-But in this, you forget that Minho has a habit of walking you home

-So there he is

-Leaning on your locker waiting for you to turn up

-YOU SWOON BC NO ONE SHOULD LOOK THAT HOT IN SCHOOL UNIFORM FOR PETE’S SAKE

-His blazer was off, shirt sleeves rolled up, blonde hair tousled and wavy (ladies, imagine Minho like this I’m crying)

-U feel ur heart literally stutter

-I swear that’s a medical condition Y/N

-“Let’s stop by the convenience store, my treat” he smiles down at you as he moves out the way so u can get to ur locker

-Dude,,,,, u need to stop before I melt into the floor

-“Uhhhh I can’t I have,,,,,, a study session at the library gotta work on some literature stuff u know ahaha”

-Minho frowns but doesn’t react massively

-Secretly he thinks its hella cute that ur tryna avoid him but that’s for another time

-“Okay, don’t study too hard and I’ll treat you another time. Text me when you get home”

-UWU

-Anyone who overhears this would be like wow 10/10 relationship goals tbh

-U however, a self-proclaimed dumbass, don’t dwell on it too much

-You guys tend to grab food after school together

-ANYWAYS

-Minho pulls you in for a hug before leaving

-Oof ur heart is stuttering again

-How you made it to the library for ur study session is a wonder tbh

-25 minutes later finds you groaning into ur books cursing minho’s name

-That’s when u realise 2 things, 1) that wow ur a FOOL bc there is no literature homework bc of ur work from earlier and 2) Minho is very bad for your health and u gotta avoid him for ur own sake

-U walk into school with this resolve

-It doesn’t work

-Minho is in practically every single one of ur classes

-So u practically have to run from each class to avoid him

-Which leaves Minho very confused

-He doesn’t walk with anyone else from class or treat them like he does to you

-Which makes Jisung very jealous,,, bc why can’t Minho treat him like this

-Little did you know Minho has a PHAT crush on you and Jisung is PLAGUED by the both of u gushing about the other

-Jisung is MEDITATING

-So when you start avoiding him even more Minho is extremely put out bc what does he do now who does he spend time with now

-(jeongin: we’re still here hyung!!!)

-Being the good friend he is, he gives u space but is still v sad about it

-And honestly, ur sad too bc as much as you love spending time with Jisung,,,,,, he’s no Minho lmao

-One night after school Minho is kicking round the football field with the others and that’s when he realises

-He’d much rather spend his time with you

-It’s not that he doesn’t love his friends, he just happens to love you even more

-But how can he reach out to you when ur avoiding him still

-Jisung notices how glazed over Minho’s eyes and knows

-*cracks knuckles* it’s time

-Jisung sends Minho home telling him to grow some chest hair n text u lmao

-Minho does go home but does not text you bc he’s just a nervous boy

-Jisung to the lads: “now he’s gone, we gotta make a plan for the two lovebirds they’re so BLIND I’m sick of it I might just confess to Minho myself”

-Chan: “……….”

-Jisung: “that was a joke old man, let’s focus pls ladies”

-So the plan

-Was it an elaborate one?

-Definitely not

-Lmao have u seen these kids they’re a bunch of crackheads

-Baso,,,, they’re just following the classic let’s text them separately to meet up as a front but SIKE it’s just the two of you alone

-Fool proof right?

-Somehow it is???

-Shocking??

-The two of you don’t expect anything is going on

-So it’s the weekend when the plan is put into action

-It’s been 17 days since you last spoke to Minho not that you had been counting haahaha okay yesyouhaveitsnotlikeyoumisshimoranything

-You wake up to a text from Jisung saying that him, felix, hyunjin, and changbin were going for ice cream and whether you wanted to go

-Which duh??? Ice cream???

-U needed it so you dragged yourself out of bed to get ready

-Little did you know that Minho too had received a text from Woojin saying that him and the others (a.k.a the family,,,,, Woojin, chan, seungmin and jeongin) were going for ice cream

-And Minho wasn’t passing up the chance esp when there was a high probability that chan would pay lmao

-*in the master gc of getting Minho and Y/N together*

-Jisung: excellent

-So 1pm rolls by and ur there at the ice cream parlour waiting for the others to rock up

-U go to order bc honestly boys take so long to get ready istg

-As you give ur order a voice behind goes “and a matcha ice cream as well please”

-U FREEZE

-Why of all the ppl to turn up

-It’s the one ur trying to avoid

-U turn to face him

-“Minho?”

-“Y/N?”

-Felix, somewhere: beYONCE?

-Ur in shock bc 1) why is here? 2) who allowed him to look so good in white ripped jeans ur DYING HERE 3) where is everyone else?

-That’s when u realise

-Jisung is a snake and ur friendship is over

-Y/N is taking applications for a new friend who isn’t called Han Jisung thank you

-Ur heart is stuttering bc Minho looks so boyfriend ur not okay

-Safe to say those 17 days did NOTHING in swaying your crush on him

-“Is that all?” oh yikes yeah this isn’t a drama scene Y/N where ur crush confesses to u, someone has to pay at this point and the queue behind the two of u is getting impatient lmao

-You whip around blushing “uh yeah that’s everything” u reply stuttering and trying to whip out ur card

-Before you can, Minho’s arm stretches out in front of u and taps the machine in front of you

-Istg u feel butterflies in ur stomach at Minho being in such close contact with u

-U can feel the heat radiating on ur back

-You get ur ice cream and u go to leave the shop but Minho grabs your arm

-U turn to him questioningly to be met with slightly hurt eyes

-Did I do that to him?

-Yes u fool

-“Sit with me. Please?”

-How can you refuse that

-……………

-It’s so awkward

-“Are you okay? Why are you avoiding me? Did something happen? Just let me know if you’re okay?”

-Owo my heart

-“uh,, no nothing’s happening….. I’m just busy u know??? Hahaaha school is really kicking my ass”

-Minho just nods and takes a spoonful of ice cream so u do the same

-“Just let me know if I can help you in anyway, I’m always here for you. Don’t suffer alone, I hate seeing you so down?”

-………….

-…………

-Honestly,,,,, u just about melt at this

-Putting ur spoon down and u look at him

-Now or never, Y/N

-“Okay…. I’ll let you know what’s the real problem. It’s you, mr lee Minho.”

-Minho is SHOCKED why is he the problem

-“uhhhhhh”

-“Please let me finish or else I’ll never have the courage to do this again. You have no right to be stealing my heart yet again by nearly kissing me in the middle of class. Do you know how embarrassing that was, I really just wanted to kiss you and I would’ve combusted if you did but you didn’t which made it worse. Why didn’t you kiss me? I’ve literally been sending you signals for nearly two years, and that’s saying something because I saw you in your awkward teen phase and still liked you, and you haven’t even responded. So I avoided you because my heart keeps stuttering whenever I’m near you I’m surprised you can’t hear it. I mean you’re so hot I just wanna kiss you, especially since that day all I can think about is your lips as you were SO close to me this is the worst time to confess but I really like you Lee Minho.”

-And breathe Y/N

-And Minho is no better

-How dare his crush confess before he can smh

-He sits in shocked silence trying to process this information

-You, however, are dying

-That’s it, he’s not replying he doesn’t like you Y/N LEAVE

-So u try to

-But as you stand up so does Minho

-And his hand shoots out to grab your shirt and he just plants one on you ????? in the middle of a damn ice cream parlour?????

-UWU

-Ur in shock

-The man of your dreams,,,,, kissing you ???? more likely than you think ??? so u kiss him back ??? ofc u do how could you not

-It tastes of matcha and strawberry ice cream and something,,, so inherently Minho u just wanna keep kissing him tbh

-Y’all break apart and honestly,, you sit back down in shock

-“That…. Was some confession Y/N”

-“Shut up!”

-“Hey, it’s okay babe. I like you too. Sorry my confession isn’t as grand as yours but,,,, I like you and always have done”

-….

-Oh

-“So please, Y/N, be my girlfriend” his hand stretches across the table nervously

-You smile as u see his hand creep across the table and you reach for him, intertwining your fingers

-He smiles back even bigger and pulls you out of the shop

-You guys had a lot of time to make up for ajbfaiubsag

-So,,, Monday rocks around and you walk to school with Minho this time, rather than mooching in with headphones in

-You guys walk to your normal spot before school starts and Minho is telling you some story about Felix, Changbin and Hyunjin when u hear a scream and lots of wolf whistles

-Spoiler: it’s Jisung and the lads

-“YOU OWE ME MONEY I TOLD YOU THIS PLAN WOULD WORK THEY’RE HOLDING HANDS! I AM THE DOCTOR OF LOVE, HAN JISUNG”

-You laugh as you take a seat next to him as chan grumbles about his wallet being drained AGAIN by his kids’ appetites

-As the hollering quietened down Jisung taps ur shoulder

-“Sooo, you guys are official now? After years of pining ???”

-Rather than deigning Jisung with a worded response a wicked plan forms in ur head

-You tapped Minho’s shoulder to divert his attention from Seungmin

-As he faced you, you grabbed his tie and pulled him in for a kiss

-He was a little shocked at how brazen you were bc hello this is school and these are ur friends but honestly,,, he freaking LOVED it

-He smiled into the kiss and one hand rested on your waist as the other rested on your jaw pulling you deeper into the kiss

-“there ARE CHILDREN HERE OH MY GOD” u heard chan yell distantly

-You couldn’t help but break apart from Minho, laughing as you catch chan covering jeongin’s eyes in distress

-You turned back to Jisung

-“Does that answer your question?”

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Mutuals Appreciation Post!!!! Aaaa~ <33

If you aren't listed here, KNOW THAT I STILL LOVE YOU. PLEASE BE MY FRIEND <33

@mahonoquirk Jupi-Senpai, where do I begin?! I just wanted to say that I lOVE YOU. You were one of the first few I've interacted with and I was super scared we wouldn't do much and that I would be too weird for you, BUT TURNS OUT WE GET ALONG JUST FINE AAAAA- You are so sweet and caring and super??? Funny??? And creative!! I just wanted to say thank you again for the theme you gave to me!! I seriously appreciate it. <33 

I LOVE TOSHI. Her backstory is really sad (her pARENTS) but she is still moving forward, trying to make everyone happy??? She's so adorable and quirky and can be a really tough smol girl. uwu I love her interactions with my Izuku~ Their relationship is so big brother/little sister-like aND IT'S JUST??!? AAAAAAA I LOVE THEM THEY'RE SO CUTE!!!!! <33

You and your muse are just pure and so fucking good and I'll die for both of you hH I love you, thank uuuuu

@herohidden We haven't spoken OOC much, but you seem like a very lovely mun! You're so laid back and super sweet too. Please, if you ever have the time I would love to get to know you via message, because you're a pretty amazing person!!

I lOVE your OC!! Again, a very sad backstory but he's so precious and must be protected uwu His Quirk is amazing!! Very scary and creative!! I've seen your other verses too and I would love to interact with him in the other ones as well! His interactions so far with Izuku is just mPH 👌 SO MUCH ANGST IN ONE BOY, HOWWW

I love you, mi amigo!!! Take care and hopefully we talk soon!! <3

@lovesick-fangirl-roleplays You're the most adorable mun I have eVER SEEN. You're so nice and easygoing to me via message and I enjoy our little conversations! I'm also glad we have the same fascination for pocky, lol. >w> I was actually super scared to talk to you at first since you mostly like romance rps and I thought I wouldn't do good on them?? And while I haven't done them yet, I look forward to them!! More confident too!! Really!! <33 U sweet bun.

I love all your OCs, but especially Kira! She's so brave and strong, and I love the Twilight thing you brought into her. Twilight Princess is actually one of my favorite games ever!! And I'm loving the causal and calm interactions she's having with Izuku so far!! He's so friendly to her and she's the same!! I can't wait to see there the next thread goes~

Running multimuse blogs is quite the chore, but you're doing an amazing job, sweetie!! Keep up the good work, mi amigo <3

@koru-kogeru I remember talking to u a little when I did our starter ask, and you're a very sweet person! Nice and very cheery and cute, my friend. uwu Like I said for the other mun above, I wish to talk to you more!! I really wanna get to know all my mutuals!! But from the little bit I know from you, I can tell we're gonna be very great friends!!

Your portrayal of Shouto is 100% on point!! I can hear his voice in your writing, and the perspective of the writing really fits his personality!! Your threads can be funny, beautiful, and very emotional, and I'm happy to find a mun like you who has all those great things! I really wanna continue our thread together!! My Izuku and your Shouto are gonna have qUITE the relationship. uwu They both have good no nonsense attitudes hUHU

I can't wait for our and our muses' friendship to unveil!!! <33

@shcdowbeast / @kigennokanata Ur such a beautiful raisin, boo. <33 Such a good fwiend and a great writer!!! I really enjoy talking to you!! Whenever we talk, I feel like we're chatting over tea, right near a garden. uwu I wanna get to know you more! Drop bY MY MESSAGES -

I haven't interacted with your other OC, but hopefully we can do a thread with her soon! I really like her!! But for Kuro, cAN I JUST SAY I WOULD DIE FOR HER?? Her shape shifting Quirk is so cool! It's like there isn't anything she CAN'T turn into! I saw ur latest reply to our thread. Her powers are so amazing!! I especially love it when u send in asks of her shape shifting into things and interacting with Izuku!! Ahh, their relationship has so much potential!! I can't wait to see where it goes!!! <33 Cuz like Izuku really respects her and wants to be a good friend to her aAA <33

You're amazing and your OC is super interesting!!! Aa, love u, boo!!

@fireflythief / @blxxdyquirk MY FRIEND YOU AND I HAVE BEEN TALKING NONSTOP ON DISCORD AND I CAN SAFELY SAY U ARE MY BEST FRIEND AND I LOVE U AND WANNA PROTECT U FROM THIS SITE'S ANY AND ALL BULLSHIT- You are sUPER sweet and adorable and so fucking funny with the stuff you share and the things you say!! >w> We have so many plot ideas and I've shared so much with you and I'm glad I've met you. I love u so much, amigo. I hope u have a happy and safe rest of the day/night <3

I seriously love Hotaru! She's very nice and I love her tough attitude. I can't wait to do threads with her. uwu But the real shit shines with SACHIKO. I LOVE HER AND SHE'S JUST SO AUGH 👌 👌 K I LOVE HOW SINCERE SHE IS WITH IZUKU EVEN THOUGH HE FUCKING HATES HER GUTS ATM AAAA I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WHERE THIS GOES OWO

I LOVE U FAM, LET'S CAST HAPPINESS ACROSS ALL OUR MUTUALS BLOGS <33

I love all of you!! You guys seriously inspire me and I couldn't ask for any more from any of you!! You're all creative, sweet, caring, amazing, and jUST 👌 👌 👌 I WOULD DIE FOR ALL OF YOU AAAAAA HERE'S ALL MY LOVE AND SUPPORT <333

Again, for those who aren't on here, I'll let u know right now that I appreciate you guys too! YOU'RE ALL AMAZING AND I APPRECIATE EVERY FOLLOWER I HAVE, EVEN IF WE HAVEN'T PROPERLY MET YET!!!

I LOVE YOU ALL AND HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DAY/NIGHT