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taash said "they were doing it" and people ran with the interpretation of an npc that doesn't know solas or the history of the elvhenan even when bellara interjected and said, no, that's not right. that's not how it was for the elvhenan. they formed bonds before they had physical bodies. and people ran to doompost or create weird anti-solavellan shit even though mythal & solas refer to each other as old friends and when she releases him there is no tenderness or love in it. it is the act of unchaining a dog from his post, the stepping down of a general. but to each their own ig.
#let the record show i think love was there. do I personally perceive it as romantic / sexual? no.#mythal's perception of love & care is warped in and of itself#i think they loved each other. but she loved what she could take from him and what he could give in terms of service#not because she was romantically into him#also i wish we knew more about her & elgar'nan. her regret prison form says she holds no love for him anymore#and it makes me wonder when that love soured. was it when she was blighted? before that? was that love also born of duty and companionship?#this is the last post i'm gonna make ab this i think#bc i believe people are too caught up in the modern western ideas of love as thing we give solely to our romantic partners#and we literally have a character go ”our perception is warped bc of the age we live in” and some of you are still being purposefully obtuse#and i think trick saying it's up to interpretation is basically admitting EA had them dumb down the game anyway#if everything ab the rise and fall of the evanuris in game#was condensed to five 2min cutscenes it says enough that whatever the writers wanted#was swiftly cut down by corporate dept. basically saying it's in the fans' court now#also bc it's an easy cop out around new players & non solasmancers who are indifferent ab him / dislike him#as a way to appeal thru a more sympathetic lense of look!! he loved and was led astray#not to mention the clear justinia / leliana parallels#and leliana gets angry if you imply she was romantically involved / in love w justinia#and the romance descr when you remake your inq saying the dread wolf could not predict what it would mean to fall IN LOVE#implying he had never fallen in love before or at the very least experienced a romantic love#also him saying drinking from the well would make you a slave and he gets really upset#yet ive seen takes of ”hes doing this for her cus he dgaf ab lavellan” ?? he got mythal killed when he told her ab the blight#whatever feelings of admiration he had for her have rotted. he is literally burdened by his mistakes and his choice in joining her#i feel like if i were a spirit bound and twisted into a weapon i would need my creator to tell me i am Free. i would need that closure#like when cole says its not abuse to bind him if he asks and solas said thats not always true???#if you perceive her interaction w him in vg third act as#anything more than the way justinia released leliana in inq then im sorry maybe youre just obtuse#solavellan#mythal#dragon age meta
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RAHH this took longer than I thought but HIII, this is basically a collab between me and @grimreaperauthority !!! The whole idea to give the grim reapers tails was Grim's idea!! Meanwhile my idea was to base them off on HTTYD dragons!! (I'm going through a rot okay)
I'll list off what dragon was assigned to each reaper when designing them:
Grell is a Monstrous Nightmare
Ronald is a Hideous Zippleback
William is a Deadly Nadder
Othello is a Changewing
Undertaker is a Boneknapper
Ludger is a Timberjack
Sascha is a Night Fury
Unfortunately I didn't get to drawing Alan and Eric, they'll be done in another post later on 💔🙏
Also yeah you're not seeing things, Othello is indeed on a roomba, vroom vroom
#This took forever but I have no regrets i'm proud on all of them#the one who took forever was UT because I spent too fucking long on him 😭😭😭#Also yes this does mean the reapers get the same abilities like the dragons (ex: Grell lights on fire. Othello can camouflage.. etc)#black butler#kuroshitsuji#black butler art#black butler fanart#kuroshitsuji fanart#kuroshitsuji art#grell sutcliff#grelle sutcliff#ronald knox#william t spears#undertaker black butler#undertaker kuroshitsuji#meyrin#meyron#you thought I wouldn't draw meyron here well you were wrong#othello black butler#othello kuroshitsuji#ludger black butler#ludger kuroshitsuji#sascha black butler#sascha kuroshitsuji#black butler reapers#black butler headcanons#MonoDukes art#fanart#art#pose practice
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survival chance: 42%
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#rottmnt#rottmnt movie#hamato donatello#future donnie#eye strain#tmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#digital art#fanart#digital illustration#travellerdraws#clip studio paint#rottmnt donnie#ugh i dont know what to tag anymore#just take it#probably gonna regret posting this later bc i just cant stand looking at it anymore#oh well#fuck it we ball#kudos to anyone who figures out the meaning of the number teehee
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havent posted any art in a while so heres a cleo
#zombiecleo fanart#hermitcraft fanart#hermitcraft#rain's art tag#i love cleo theyre so fun to draw#my improvement in art since last year can be tracked by how well i draw cleo but that also means i regret half of my cleo fanart ive posted
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Whenever I finish any show, book, or piece of media I’m always like “yeah that was good but it wasn’t as good as German science-fiction time travel thriller Dark (2017)”
#dark netflix#netflix dark#as much as I love arcane I’ve been like hm well it was no dark#I almost regret watching dark because I fear nothing else will ever be as thematically satisfying and intricately crafted#ALMOST#when I say intricately crafted I mean like a faberge egg or an insane piece of lace filigree or a luxury clock#absolutely criminal and diabolical of Netflix to cancel 1899. cause I know they were cooking up something on par with dark#talking
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the traveler, the star, and the fish
"why are there fish, nico?" you ask. well. lets jusr say. fish
sign that says id really appreciate reblogs of my art !!! /nf
#cat's rambles#cat's art#isat#isat siffrin#proud enough of it to put it in the sifrin tag . please dont regret this me#tw eyestrain#tw bright colors#i think those are the right tags yeah .#gonna ramble over here in the tags now#this was Originally a project for art class sigh#however i wanted to draw siffrin . n the theme was Fish today. so i added the fish#n then i made a poll and the consensus was to finish this!! so i did!!!#n im really glad i did :3 ive been trying out different styles of digital art recently and i gotta say i like this one. a lot#also the star shiningthing. im very very proud of that#pretty#i almost forgot sifs pin things sigh#is there meaning behind this you ask. well. maybe#okay yeah done talking in here. sign that says rb my art maybe#queue you
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Macaca and the Mayor, what's it like to be parents?
Bai Hae, how does it feel to have two more dads?
Do your parents even know that one of your babysitters is the mayor?
#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk#lmk fanart#lmk mayor#monkie kid mayor#monkie kid macaque#lmk macaque#lmk baihe#lmk hostess#lmk little girl#monkie kid baihe#monkie kid little girl#monkie kid hostess#blue and violet#To OP: I know you mean well with your ask but I am so sorry- there is no family dynamic between Macaque and Mayor and Baihe in this blog#I’m gonna ramble in the tags but please know I’m in no way shape or form dismissing your potential headcons-#-because I actually really love the family dynamic#Hot take: it was very bad of Mayor to just condone LBD possessing and removing bodily autonomy from a child#Of course Blue would never question LBD’s strategic choices in who to pick as a host-#-but I think we need to make it clear that their undying loyalty does not condone the trauma that was given to Baihe#So no Mayor is not a dad because they are actually really fucked up and feel no remorse for allowing Baihe to be used by LBD#Baihe has every right to be afraid of them because who wouldn’t#Macaque is a different case because lmao he’s just a bad dude and doesn’t regret being an arsehole 90% of the time#Not a good parental figure and fortunately for this specific story he isn’t one#Baihe and Macaque are ex-roommates turned friends in BAV and that's the extent of it#ALRIGHT END OF RAMBLE- PLEASE KNOW THAT DESPITE ALL OF THIS I STILL LOVE THE TRIO 'FAMILY' DYNAMIC LMAO- THEY ARE ALL SO SILLY#-THE THINGS I WOULD DO TO SEE CONTENT OF THESE THREE HANGING OUT TOGETHER IS CRAZY
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actually. I think it will be kinda fun to have such a long hiatus. just think of the bonds that will be forged in these trenches. the drama free discussions. the in-depth dissections of every snippet. it's about the journey not the destination and as long as the books get published in the end I personally don't really care when they do.
#something I always regret is not being more active between tlh releases#like I was there for right before & after the book came out but then I wasn't!! and yes it's fun when the fandom is really active#but that's also true for right now. the in between.#rushing only means it's over faster#the time will pass anyways we might as well enjoy the moment right now#bella talks#tsc#the shadowhunter chronicles#the wicked powers#the last king of faerie#twp#tlkof#cassandra clare
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I love that this fandom doesn't understand Baxter's character, I adore how they patronize him,a whole ass adult, for facing the consequences of his actions.
I love how people make him feel like a sad little baby when he leaves mc as if that's not something he made extremely clear. I love how people treat this 19 year old as if he's not old enough to understand the consequences of his actions. I love how Baxter is aware of his flaw's but feels like he can't break them because people only see him as a tool and this fandom reinforces that.
I love how people will get mad at Nico for doing the cardinal crime of being 6 years old but will baby a 24 year old Baxter. I love how people make him this charismatic rich guy when it's shown that he's a hot mess that doesn't know what he wants. I love that Baxter's whole character arc is about his self sabotaging tendencies and how everyone ignores that. I love that people fell in love with the mask he had for most of the dlc.
I love that this fandom lacks reading comprehension skills and understanding of nuance characters, great job everyone for not understanding how writing works :)
#our life#misty talks our life#olba#our life beginnings & always#our life beginnings and always#olba baxter#our life baxter#baxter ward#this is what i mean by “i don't haye Baxter's character” i think hes very interesting and we should look towards his dlc with critical eyes#because it's a fact that his dlc was rushed and that kab/gb lady doesnt care for him#it shown in the writing of his dlc#so that is interesting for me but is also interesting for me how ppl are quick to baby this man#like again baxter is fucking 19 when he leaves mc “but misty 19 year olds aren't fully growns up” hi 19 year old here#i know that bitch but im old enough to understand that my actions have consequences and affect others#which is smth Baxter is aware of as well#that's fhe thing that bothers me#hes young enough to make that mistake but old enough to understand it will impact mc view on relationships#romantic or platonic smth like that will affect you in some ways#and he knows because hes not a young teenager who still doesn't know how his actions impact people#hes legally an adult he can live on his own hes able to ride a car hes off to college#is not a grown up but is not a child either#as a 19 year old I would love of ppl treated him as a young adult making a dumb mistake#instead of a baby who didn't know any better#like even if he did regret it he knows that thats his fault#hes aware that hes doing this shit to himself and wont stop#thats the point of his dlc#anyways i should make a post on cove's autism
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i'm alive btw i've just been, um,
#osrs is PERFECT for adhd working. im deep in my queue rn and usually struggle to work without being distracted#so having a lil game i can clicky on but otherwise mostly not pay attention to rules and is helping me get thru work waaaay faster#but tht also means im um#up until 4 am in my free time lol#i grind all day while i work and then when im done i stay up till 4 questing#this is a regular schedule and i'm sure i will not regret it#oc: milo#fursona#sketchy#dragon#also im bringing back milo....#old reliable and deeply personal fits rlly well into ongoing identity issues#so expect to see a lil more milo than cow or tilly for a bit perhaps
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So I went and watched all the possible endings, and it confirmed something I had been thinking, which is that the redemption ending choice is, perhaps, the most immediately regretful one--but that they all come with some form of regret. In the redemption ending, Rook has to knowingly deny themselves the catharsis of retribution (should they desire it, which, at least for me it felt difficult not to) in order to offer Solas one last, painful chance to do the right thing. That willful denial of your own catharsis feels like an immediate regret. Giving Solas the opportunity to pursue atonement might very well be the best choice all around, but it is also incredibly painful to offer that to someone who has done so many terrible things (not a small amount to you personally). Why does he deserve another chance? Especially when so many dead (including a beloved mentor) lie in his wake? Which, I suppose, is the point: he doesn't. But you offer it anyway and it SUCKS ASS, because how could it not?
I don't know how this plays with other story choices (a sacrificed Davrin or a Harding who embraced her anger, for example), but within the context of my own choices, I can imagine an immediate satisfaction to either tricking or fighting him--especially the trick ending, where you can actively name drop Varric--but it feels like the sort of thing that would feel worse as more time passes. Once you've calmed down and are able to ask yourself if that's what the people you've lost really wanted. Varric, in Regret Superhell, didn't want vengeance. He just wanted his friend to walk a better path. And Harding always believed there was another chance for anyone, so long as you kept reaching a hand out for them--even when it sucked ass. So the redemption ending feels like a sort of indignance, an instant regret for not doing worse, for not getting comeuppance, for being forced to eschew satisfaction (related: I wonder if the Inquisitor feels those things as well coming out of this ending, considering how long they've lived under the shadow of Solas' actions). Conversely, the other two endings feel like an immediate satisfaction, because you got to trick the trickster with all the wits Varric taught you, or because you finally got to punch him in the face and it felt really good. But I feel like those endings would come with a creeping regret, something that sneaks up on you later, especially when remembering the fallen and what they would have wanted you to do. Ultimately, because of that, it feels like no ending is devoid of regret. Which I suppose, is rather thematic.
#i did actually watch the redemption ending on youtube with someone who had a male inquisitor and i felt less rageful about it lmao#it was the Convocation Of 3.5 Women i think that had me most like 'are you KIDDING me' about it#but also the areas where it feels bad or unsatisfying (to intervene like that i mean) are like. well yeah it would feel awful wouldn't it#to have to plead and persuade and TRUST someone to make the better choice by choosing the high road yourself#as it turns out the high road kind of sucks! it will probably feel better in the long run but at first blush it ain't fun!#so it's an interesting trade-off of regrets to be made between these endings. and really makes it clear that offering atonement#can kind of feel awful in your bones. even if it's the right thing to do. and so you do it anyway#*through gritted teeth* no one is past saving rook. i have to believe it or none of this matters#obviously user mileage may vary--if you really hated that guy maybe you didn't feel bad at all about choosing a harsher ending!#but this is based on MY pov and i know. if i'd chosen one of those ones i would have felt BAD about it#like i was letting down harding and varric#so i chose the ending that lacked personal catharsis because it's the one that honored my friends#which is interesting tbh as an exploration of regret as a theme#datv spoilers#rosie plays games kinda okay#that dragon sure does age
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my arts been doing bad on twtter. ive recovered in the past but i worry this time will be different. the idea of losing such a large platform makes me wonder if theres point in continuing even if i feel tremendously guilty admitting that.
as my therapist pointed out today: ppl still like my art. still when i think about it i think there are other artists for you all though. better ones have come along and better ones will still come.
im in my 20s and i haven’t really gotten a chance to live my life properly since the pandemic bc of it. still art is important to me and the idea of losing it has me feeling listless. what do i do when its been who i am for years.
im unsure tbh if im going to quit.
i draw what i like but i don’t see purpose in drawing for myself.
anyways this isnt that deep my therapist is just on leave next week and i wanna cut my hair again
#delete later#a morbid thought ig but the idea was always#well if i stopped what if i regret it 10#20 years later#but if i dont have 10 years#is there time to regret it if i stopped#idk what to do its like complete and sudden loss of motivation#ive been trying to pick myself up from it#but i just wanna lay here ig#theres also the question of a honed skill being discarded#though i mean there were lots of things i was skilled at as a kid that i discarded#swimming was one running was also another#ig i lost those more bc i developed a panic disorder#and like the worst place for that is maybe when ur in a deep pool center lane#maybe this was the thing that made me unique#but its also not a thing i advertise irl if anything i actively hide it and just lie#i havent made every piece ive wanted to make
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here together
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#lobotomy corporation spoilers#abram lobcorp#i didnt know that the song that plays during day 48 ending is called 'here together'.#couldnt hear it well because i typically have my sound low (sensetive to louder sounds) and also the dialog fucked me up#so when i pressed on it to hear it. to actually listen to it. then to see the name and remember what it Looked like#i got teary eyed. sorry.#it happened quite. afew times when finishing this shitty thing#i was thinking of how camren's not quite corpse looked as if it were reaching out to him inside the container#how it looked as if she had wings. abrams words. the line from one story that was--#something like 'we were hoping it was just one big prank and she would hop out fro. around the corner with a smile on her face'#how do you move forward when all you think you cause is pain? when everything else youve done only brought to bring people you love to thei#downfall and demise inside agony and fear as they lay dying. none of that was merciful. none of that was just. they were told to carry on#her dream and he views as if all he had done was to become cruel and wasnt fit and never even began to finish what she started.#it was so striking to me. the language he used. sleeping. alseep. waken. when all the others never sugarcoated it#in lobcorp they always said it straight. 'suicide' 'killed' 'dead'. but he used something far more.. peaceful? kind in wording in a way.#softer. describing death as if it were a merciful thing. an end that suits them and not something to be afraid of. to just... sink. to slee#to be with carmen again. to put everything to an end#the place they built with their hands. to have it just... stop. not in a way of repeating and staying in the moment#but of a permanent end. to 'sleep'. to die. to just.... stop. forever. to see no more. to do no more#to not be able to do Anything for when ever he had done Something it just cause agony. cruel hands partaking in acts he so deeply#regrets. everything is just regret. it sounds nice. to move on. to just move forward. but how can you move forward when all you think you#bring to those you cherished and couldnt leave behind is pain?#ill likely move this somewhere else as well. ive been meaning to talk about abram#the rest as well actually. mostly just the few final days w abel adam and abram since i am STUCK ON DAY 49#oh dear i uh typed a lot in the tags. oops
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We all know Timmy is Wanda’s mama’s boy but we need to keep in mind he’s still Cosmo’s kid too and that Cosmo would love him just as vehemently as Wanda
#fairly oddparents#not that anyone has portrayed him different#certainly not distance he loves Timmy he probably says it the most in the show and in fanon#but still- watching New Wish there felt like there was a disconnect with Cosmos character-like he wasn’t as well defined as he was in OG#that’s in part due to them toning him down from being an idiot plain and simple but I feel like it wasn’t fitted with something else it was#simply taken away#just to say he didn’t have as much of a presence to me in New Wish as Wanda did and I crave spinning Cosmo around in my brain#I want to see Poof being his Dad’s Boy yknow and I want to see cosmo doting and I want to see when he gets like. parental rage for the sake#of his kids#yknow? Yknow? part of him feeling detached in a new wish has translated into him not wanting to get as close to Hazel as he did Timmy-#to try and play it more like godparents are supposed to- just a presence for a couple months#but also because like. he got SO attached to Timmy and he’ll never regret it and he’d never do anything different#but idk. if it were me I wouldn’t have the capacity to go through losing my godkid again after becoming that attached#that’s not even mentioning that they don’t HAVE to be in hazel’s life the same way they were in Timmy’s because Timmy was going through#neglect and Hazel has loving family and friends all around her at all times- her blocks are mental#in that way cosmo and Wanda just have to do the Typical Godparent Job of aiding her- not becoming people she desperately needs in life#which also bleeds into why I think Peri was having such a. difficult time#godparents aren’t supposed to be attached the way his family was to Timmy and that how he learned it#but his first godkid is Not Easy and lends immediately to the issues Timmy was having where he HAS parents he HAS things (though . Timmy#was not rich and would sometimes not be fed… dev’s dad also forgets to feed him but dev is still able to eat you know)#and how he grew up with his parents as godparents and how he’s been taught are conflicting and it’s nature vs doing a good job quoteunquote#I didn’t mean to ramble so damn much in the tags I’m really sorry#told myself if I had more to say I’d write it down and post it later but I must be heard.
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I WROTE SOME WOLSTAR YAYYY (idea from this post)
tw: religious trauma, internalised homophobia & mild swearing
But What If
“Moony?”
He lays in the silence for a few seconds, part of him hoping he was heard, part of him wishing the darkness would swallow him whole.
“What is it?,” comes the answer, muffled by the sound of bedsheets ruffling with movement. Remus is now looking at him, face pale in the moonlight. He takes a deep breath.
“What if they're right?”
The werewolf furrows his brows, still half-asleep and confused. For a second, he thinks he might be talking about quidditch, or something related to one of their classes, but he doesn't find anything mildly coherent, so lets Sirius speak.
“Who?”
“The muggles,” he whispers back, letting his gaze wonder anywhere but the other boy's face. Right now, he can't bear to see Remus and talk to him at the same time without completely breaking down. And he doesn't want that. “What if there is someone up there? Not God, just... someone. Something.”
Remus, now aware of what's about to come, sits up on the bed and casts a silencing spell. He still whispers, however, when he asks:
“Does that scare you?”
Sirius closes his eyes, trying to distract himself, like one would from a bleeding wound.
“It shouldn't, shouldn't it?”
Remus forces himself not to give him a lecture, not to tell him about the church convincing its members trough fear and torture, about the inquisitions and persecutions. He figures Sirius already knows everything he needs to know. He's seen the books on his nightstand.
“It's okay to be worried,” he tries. Sirius doesn't buy it.
“Yeah,” he laughs, the volume of his voice rising along with his sarcasm, “especially if you've broken, like, every single fucking rule good people are supposed to follow.”
“But you love breaking rules,” Remus smiles, trying to ease the tension. “It's what you do, you can't be blamed for it.”
“But what if I can? What if these rules actually matter? What if I deserve to be punished?”
That's when Remus realises, he actually believes in what he says. He's not scared it might be true, he really thinks it is, that some day he will have to face everything he's ever done wrong, and deal with the consequences.
“You don't.”
The problem, he recognises, is that even though Sirius is an angel directly descended from heaven, in the mirror of his mind he sees a demon.
“No, you don't,” he insists. “If they are right, I will die and go to hell and you will go to heaven and I won't be able to see you again. They won't even have to torture me, I'll just be left alone on a corner thinking about you, and it will be enough to make me regret everything I've done, to everyone.”
He's crying now. They both are. Each one staring at a different point in the bed curtains, trying to make their breathing sound even.
“Padfoot...” Remus whispers. He wishes he could hug Sirius, but doesn't reach out. He can't.
“I don't want that, Moony,” the long-haired boy says, with a voice as thin as a thread.
“I know,” Remus answers. “It's okay. That's not going to happen, okay?”
He's not sure he believes it now. But he has to. He needs to.
“I'm sorry,” Sirius whispers, voice wet with tears.
“It's fine,” he keeps promising, and finally finds the courage to lay back down, next to Sirius, and pull him into a hug.
“I'm so sorry, Moony...” Remus hears as he buries his face in a sea of black curls, brushing against his cheek to remind him where he is, to make him forget about what could come after this. He is here, they both are. And that's enough for now.
“Me too,” he says. His shoulder is getting wet with the salty tears of a pair of sea-blue eyes, and he thanks whatever God is seeing them for it. He's grateful he can cry now, he can hug and he can worry and he can love. He's glad he's afraid of losing this, because otherwise he may not try as hard, feel it as much as he does now.
And that's good. That's the only good that matters.
“I love you,” Sirius sniffs, holding on to Remus as if he were about to lose him. And maybe he is. Maybe they'll lose each other, but for now they have the chance to fear together. And that's enough for now.
“I love you too.”
#hehe#angst#well actually#fluff and angst#wolfstar#i love themmmm#sirius black#remus lupin#sirius x remus#remus x sirius#religious trauma#cause you cannot convince me he wouldnt 100% have it#i mean please#ALSO#i know its not actually there#but just so you know a huge part of sirius thinking hes a bad person come from (you guessed it)#black brothers angst#like when he says he regrets “everything hes done to everyone” he is 100% thinking about reg#and also#internalised homophobia#but thats another story#lol forgot to tag#wolfstar microfic#anyway lol sorry#losver fangirls#losver writes for some reason#losver is sad#losver lowkey needs therapy
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Random ten doodles from this week (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧
#dragon ball#tenshinhan#tien shinhan#chiaotzu#chaozu#doodle#Im hearing that daima takes place before super#That doesnt really mean anything to me bc i havent seen that much of the series yet BUT i am regretful that mini ten wont have the super fit#Oh well.. Im excited to see him regardless uwu#Also the 2nd one is from a animatic im working on#Im past the drawing stage and now putting together the frames for the video#🥳🥳
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