#welcome to my twisted mind or whatever

[eugenoid-draws]

Vent art, kind of

[meatsex]

I don't know you, but I saw your tag on the "kinnie with a job" post and I'm so fascinated by this glimpse into your life. Do you want to elaborate on that experience?

ohhh i forgot i wrote that, its not as exhilarating or exciting as it might sound, its just shit from my personal life, but i have a reason to be mad, and actually these two parts of the tags dont correlate at all, so im sorry, either way:

summer 2017, i had finished playing lisa the painful, i really really connected to this one little guy, i did so much art of him, i still do, the app vent was going around, and kin culture there was crazy (if you were there you know), there wasnt any other kinnies abt this dude so it was #serious shit to me, im pretty sure at some point i began to just make up "kin memories", i probably wanted to dye my hair blonde, in retrospect i just really wanted control over being THIS guy

anyways, the other part of the story

i was dating this one guy, i think we had been dating for a year or more already, probably more, for reasons my feelings began to shift, i actually got really interested in one of his friends, i eventually told him about this, and i dont recall whatever the response was, but nothing really changed

in parties and get togethers i began to actively make moves towards his friend, i dont think i ever got to kissing him or stuff like that, but afterwards my still boyfriend would ask me shit about it and like, hype me up on it, im pretty sure he told the gc too because they would joke about him being a cuck, i dont know, i never found out

eventually we broke up, it was like whatever, if anything he broke up with me at a really bad time of my life but otherwise it didnt destroy my world or anything, we stayed friends and i even saw him a couple more times after that

then the 2020s come up and i find out that after we broke up he became an incredibly disgusting sex pest, asking friends of the gc or trying to make moves on them left and right, even if they had boyfriends, he also in general became a really disgusting and selfish person, i think the worst part of it all is hearing about it and being like "well fuck, im sorry, i wish i could say more but he legitimately never treated me this way", so honestly, i hope he kills himself i dont care

maybe after all of that i moved his brain so bad that he became an awful person, who knows, now hes a game dev for a project that might or might not make rounds, who knows, i dont care, i could make a callout on him but its redundant irl stuff, and i dont have hard proof or energy to put into it

(edit) i just remembered he also might have spread pictures of me, personal pictures of the kind a couple takes for themselves, so yeah i actually hope he kills himself

[tracktraced]

Have you ever seen someone die (but you didn’t cause it)?

nyeah. more people than i probably should've, if i wasn't gonna do anythin' to stop it. but what's done is done

[wuntrum]

social anxiety at the post office has escalated to the point of having dreams where i go to drop off packages at the post office and they tell me i can't drop off that many at a time and i've been doing it wrong this whole time. 😭

[iinryer]

showing up at abby @butchdiaz ’s door with a crate full of incomprehensible scribblings going. hey. i have an idea. it’s evil. and then they made it REAL and EVEN BETTER THAN I COULD HAVE IMAGINED!

[horsegirlalexkralie]

his ass is NOT following fire magic safety protocol

ive been reading way too much with hat atelier lately .. more fantasy au sketches below the cut

if u cant read my handwriting feel free to ask .. theres no real story here yet but alex is some kind of magic council nepo baby & tim is his appointed bodyguard & they are adventuring and kissing

[husbandhoshi]

Hello! New here on the page. Your comeback post caught my attention, and I would be willing to read 30k words

omg hi!!!! thank you for the input 🩷 yall r def helping me get thru the final touches before i post!!

[lelianaslefthand]

was like 'oh im gonna redownload ts4 so i can play dolls with dragoned aged characters' the BASE GAME took over THREE HOURS to download. 21GB....3 hours.... we're maxing out at like 3 mb/s which led me down a rabbit hole that ultimately led to fuck all bc i cant fit a better wifi adapter in my computer bc of the massive fawking graphics card which is the reason my internet is fucked in the first place BUT! ☝️ that might not even be the issue bc its only when im downloading games that takes for fucking ever and its not the external ssd im using bc i went down That useless fucking rabbit hole too, the drive is fine. also, this is a relatively new development within the past few months so my theory is that god is testing me to see what will make me snap and it knows i have a sick emotional attachment to my computer so its being used as a weapon against me

[drunzthinker]

thinking about all the work and research drunz did and how punz was with dream every step of the way and how they both knew everyone hated them and all they have left is each other and then it all led to nothing bc they both died and the server reset 😁😔

[designernishiki]

when i started following you i was a firm bisexual kiryu believer and now with every post about this man im more and more leaning into “oh so hes just a gay man heavy in denial. okay”

all according to keikaku

[vitospaghetta]

Who would you say are the single most impactful and important characters in Leon's life? That helped him for the better and his growth. If it's alright to include both OG and Remake into this equation? ^-^

OG Leon: Chris, 100%. I've been holding my friends verbally hostage for years about how I will never quite get over how Chris gets Leon to smile at the end of Vendetta. Despite everything -- despite how close to the edge Leon was between the lack of agency over his own life, the survivor's guilt, the grief, the betrayal -- Chris managed to show him that he does put real, tangible good into the world, and that there are people who carry the same burdens he does, and that a problem shared is a problem halved.

On a much darker note (so CW: suicide mention), as someone who's struggled with depression for a very long time, I've always seen it as important to educate people on what drives someone to kill themselves. Those who haven't suffered from it themselves often don't understand that it's not sadness that drives someone to suicide, but hopelessness. It's the inability to imagine a future you want to live in, the allure of a potential end to your suffering, a self-perceived act of mercy. Leon's in that headspace when we see him in Vendetta. He's questioning the point of going on, his life feeling like a constant cycle of pain that he has no true escape from. He's officially lost the ability to see a meaningful future and that's dangerous. The fact that Chris was able to drag him off his bender and therefore out of that mindset by giving him just enough hope to cling onto moving forward is easily the most important impact anyone has ever had on Leon's life. If it weren't for the events of Vendetta, it probably would've been only a matter of time before Leon ate a bullet or carelessly drank himself to the point of falling unconscious and aspirating.

Remake Leon: Ashley. RE4R is definitely a narrative in which two characters grow through their experiences with each other, and I think in a very similar sense to Chris' influence on Leon in Vendetta, Ashley gives Leon hope. She's representative of the good in the world -- her trust in him, her kindness towards him making him feel something other than the pain he's felt for years -- and his ability to salvage it. She's a means of processing the survivor's guilt he still has over Raccoon City, a means of almost bargaining. At the start of the game he says that "this time, it can be different." If he can save Ashley, then maybe the pain he's experienced was worth something. Maybe not everything is lost. Maybe he can still help people in a way that feels rewarding. I think she shows him all of that and more; he's just unfortunately a long way off from fully processing his trauma at that point in his journey.

[unholyverse]

anon no offense but you kinda led me nowhere with that

[undead-potatoes]

Not loving this increasingly weird behavior in fandom where they'll look at a female character behaving in certain ways and go "ooooh that's so hashtag girlboss, feminism wins uwu", but then you look deeper into it and she's actually just behaving out of fear or deep rooted trauma

[fern-mage]

ok i decided im going to share my fucked up drawings here as well now sometimes. heres some of caillen. first image is him in the faewild with one of his worst enemies where upon entering the faewild his hair got a little shrek 3 style. second is his professionally taken baby photo

[hauntingblue]

Just thought about something for a second: shanks is so fucking sketchy. He warned shirohige about blackbeard and to stop ace and look at what happened. Also now he is talking to the gorusei about luffy (probably about his fruit (joyboy/nika if I assume right) bc he was the one who found it) and now imu is after him, shirahoshi (poseidon) and vivi (who knows something about the weapon mariejoa holds bc of her family's history with the place), blackbeard is still a menace but because of having two fruits or because of being a d? Both? And what does that make him a menace at ancestral weapon level (like the others)? I have so many questions. Why does shanks like luffy but still warns the gorusei about him. Why do they respect him. Why did they let him stop marineford. Why is he so powerful. Why is he a yonkou. Shanks is key to all this and I DON'T KNOW WHY

[nectar-cellar]

Does Mortimer know about Vlad? If so , what does he plan to do about it?

i am delighted to receive your inquiry anon...

allow me to tell you about the alternate universe that exists only in my mind...

bella disappeared (ALIENS?), came back with no memory of her past, and then took a long journey from strangetown to pleasantview to bridgeport where mortimer now lives and works, and where cassandra attends college. on bella's road trip to bridgeport, she drove thru moonlight falls where she met vlad and told him about her odd predicament.

so vlad vaguely knows about her piece of shit husband but bella didn't tell mortimer about vlad. pardon my language 💋

if mortimer knew about vlad, he would feel angry, possessive, and vengeful. he would probably try hard to prevent bella from leaving him, not because he loves her, but for his own ego. he'd be more upset at bella than vlad.

as a general rule, vlad prefers to stay out of human affairs that don't concern him. but if bella really wanted it, vlad could surely find a way to give ole morty a big scare, for funsies.

thank you for the question!

some more thoughts about my version of the goth family below the cut

mortimer is a successful cutthroat entertainment lawyer in the city which is how he made all his $$$. he first met bella when she was an up and coming fashion model from a working class background, while he was already established in his career. even though she didn't know it, bella had a promising career as a model which could have led to further tv appearances and business ventures. he saw her potential star quality and he convinced her to drop out of the spotlight to be a stay at home wife and mother instead, out in the pleasantview suburbs. naive, starstruck, and still unsure of her place in this glamorous new world, bella fell for his charming facade and the picture-perfect life he promised her. as their marriage went on, she started to realize who he truly was, and as a result she grew resentful of him and felt trapped in a gilded cage. although some part of her enjoyed motherhood, another part of her felt like this choice had been made for her by her husband's wishes, and wasn't something she might have chosen for herself if she could have a do-over.

BELLA worked as a model for a short time when she was quite young and she is only really known in niche fashion and social media circles. you can still find grainy photos and videos of her runway work and her magazine campaigns on the internet if you search for them. she is remembered for her great runway walk and her timeless, elegant beauty. her striking appearance and her mystique (what happened to this rising star? why did she disappear from the fashion world and the public eye?) has contributed to her small cult following.

MORTIMER had already been seeing DINA CALIENTE on the side for a while so bella's disappearance wasn't that hard for him to deal with, although it was great for his social image to play the heartbroken husband. his wife hated him and she was getting old anyways, he had to find excitement and romance elsewhere.

CASSANDRA has fond memories of her mother. as a teen, bella often took her out to the city to go shopping, to the spa and the salon, and out to lunch with her fun and fabulous friends while her father was at work. they bonded over fashion, which mortimer never particularly cared about or understood. to cassandra, bella was the cool fun parent, while mortimer was the strict fun-police. even though her parents doted on her and gave her everything she wanted, cassandra always thought something between her parents wasn't quite right. bella's disappearance has left a hole in cassandra's heart that feels like it will never heal.

and during all this, alexander is too young to really know what's going on, nor does he have as close a bond with bella as cassandra does.

so yeah <3 goth family drama!