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SO-28: An Animal and a Human Being...

If there's a lot of engagement on this, this post is liable to get real long, beware before you expand.

No art, but I am working on it and I will add it retroactively. I hope.

Welcome to the Engagement Lounge, for Elephant vs. Elephant Man (257|28) an instalment! Short comments can go in the replies, but there's a 475 character limit. Longer ones will need a reblog. Remember to @asksoldieron if you're reblogging someone else's reblog, so I can see it too!

I would expect the rest of these updates to die even more quietly than usual, under the circumstances. This one's going to go up a little earlier and quieter because I'm going to do some physical therapy this afternoon. It's not helping much, but there's not much else I can do.

Nevertheless, I'm finishing out this six, and then I may vanish until after the election. There was another significant WordPress update, which changed how fonts work. I'm going to have to do some more reformatting, and figure out how to deal with the internet being devoid of unpaid help for someone like me.

So, I was a big fan of In Search Of... as a kid, and this is a reference to their episode about the "Elephant Man" AKA Joseph Merrick. They did it up reenactment-style and had actors read the words people wrote about his situation. Merrick himself didn't seem to have much to say. But what stuck with me was the nurse's reaction. Here is a Victorian-era hospital nurse, she has seen some shit. When Mr. Merrick showed up at her hospital, she freaked out. She was terrified. Sickened. He was too much for her. And then she felt like dogshit. She pulled it together and got back to doing her job - it just took her a minute - but she never shook off being ashamed of her initial reaction.

Erik is no stranger to pain and disability. On some level, he knows what Crackles are, but he's never seen the mental aspect. It's too much for him. That can't be a person. The person is somewhere under all that, and he needs help!

Marc does need help - and part of the reason this six took so long is I detoured and wrote 90+ pages of his backstory in instalment form so I'd be sure what his deal is - but he doesn't need help like that. He's different, and he didn't choose it, but he is what he is. I like doubling and mirror-images, so he's also pretty freaked out by what he sees of Erik. He didn't know they were forcing Erik to work for them, and hurting him the whole time.

By the end of it, they're both a little wiser, but neither one of them may quite remember it.

I'd also like to note - ya know that thing cats do, where they moosh their face into your hand and help pull back their own skin until you can see the whites of their eyes? Then they drool on you? Why is that cute? It is extremely cute, I agree, but now that I had to figure out how to describe it as best I could, for when Misha does it, it sounds horrifying. That's hilarious to me.

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Transcript of Richard talking about the confession in his panel at the Darklight Con

The person asking the question: “um so I had a question, specifically about um season 15 episode 18. So, um it’s been mentioned before that um, you had worked on the confession scene for a few weeks before it was filmed. And, I was just wondering if maybe you could talk a little bit about, maybe how things changed with that scene? Um-”

Richard: “are you talking about 15x18?”

Person: “yeah.”

Richard: “And uh specifically, you want to talk about the scene between uh Misha and Jensen?

Person: “yeah, I was also wondering if maybe you could talk about if it, um changed over time as you worked on it with them before filming or?”

Richard: “Yeah, so it was obviously a big deal scene for Misha’s character, and for the, you know ultimate moment of his relationship with Dean. So, it was discussed a lot b-between myself and Misha. Uh between Misha and Bob Beren, which I had nothing to do with those conversations but I know they took place. Between me and Bob Berens, who wrote the episode, and between the group. I talked to Jensen separately and then we all talked together. Um, the biggest… uh a lot came out of those conversations and- and sometimes it’s hard to remember the nuances of what we discovered. But, one of the things we worked on.. It was very collaborative. That whole sequence. And…. when I say “collaborative”, I knew that Misha had a lot that he wanted to say as an actor. Bob had a lot he wanted to say as a writer. And, I was doing my best to give as much room to tell their stories as possible. Um, so, you know in the blocking in it, and and and the way we staged it was very much about trying to give Misha enough space to approach Dean. And, a lot of distance that they could cover as they came together to have those moments. I *sighs* I think the biggest thing that came out of those conversations... was, we literally arrived in that room, and we moved that location from one room to another room. Because of, issues with another episode. We realized

“oh my gosh, we can’t shoot it in this room. because in a previous episode, this door gets torn apart. So, we can’t shoot in here cuz this door will be gone theoretically. Um, okay, well, let’s move rooms.”.

So, we moved rooms and we’re thinking

“great no problem!”.

And, then when we were prepping the room to shoot that day, we realized, there’s no… there’s no sigils in this room that would keep Death out. The other room had sigils already burned into it, so it would’ve been an automatic barrier. Here we were, in this room going

“ uhhh. Ok there’s no sigils.”. And, the idea was,

“Well, Misha can you just-” which we do in the show a lot

“can you just cut your hand and, do a blood sigil?”. And he’s like

“Yes, that makes total sense.”. And then the conversation between Jensen, and uh, Misha and myself became

“ok what do we use what do we use what do we use? Do we take a bottle and have you smash a bottle and then cut your hand with that? What do we use?”. And, Jensen said,

“Well, Dean always carries a blade, why when I’m sort of, not silly by, Deaths grip, why don’t we have Cas come take the blade out of my pocket and he can use it and we go from there?”.

“Great, done, we’ll do that.”.

*video buffers*

Um, that was a big change which led to a very specific change which was very cool. We realized, and this is just hours, as we are you know shooting the scene- we realize while we were shooting the scene and we were making these decisions.

”If Misha’s gonna have blood on his hand, he should put his hand on Dean’s shoulder, and that will mimic the handprint, from all those seasons ago when, Misha raised Dean from-

*video buffers*

And, I can honestly tell you, it was one of those moments, where Misha, Jensen, and I had, I think the... that it would be considered a tie. Cuz we all went

“Bloody hand!” it was just one of those moments when we were working it out, cuz we were all knee-deep in it. Because we were talking about it for weeks, and here we are on the day of shooting, and we’re solving this problem that had come our way, and we’re in a different room, “okay bloody sigil? Okay blade. Okay cut your hand, um.”.

Then it became

“Oh my god! This is a phenomenal opportunity to do something cinematic, to do something that is character-centric. That has resonance to the fans, and for the actors, and the characters that will be a beautiful throwback to a beautiful moment in their relationship.”.

And, so, we all agreed, we all loved it, and we all made sure, that Misha cut, you know, use the blade in his left hand to cut his right hand so he could do the same grip. And that’s how that idea was born. And, I think that it was a very powerful.. Powerful uh… moment, and it was born, that very day.”

Person: “wow. It was definitely a great call back to see. It was awesome.”

Richard: “And, I, ya know I agree. An, it was great to have everybody’s best heads working on the scene. So that things like that can be, uh welcomed into the conversation. And these surprises can happen, you can- you can… adapt with them. You don’t go,

“Oh, that’s a great idea, too bad we didn’t think of it sooner.”.

Like, we were all so attuned into what the scene was that we were ready for, something like that to come our way. And then we can use it, and the scene added another layer because of it.”

Person: “Yeah, awesome!”

Richard: “Yeah, thank you for the question.”

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Soulmates: Chapter Twenty-Five – Oh, Baby!

Summary: Ava goes into labour less than an hour after being on live TV, and Jensen scrambles to get to Atlanta before she gives birth to their fourth baby.

Characters: Jensen Ackles x Ava Ackles (OFC), Chris Hardwick, Norman Reedus, Jeffrey Dean Morgan, Hilarie Burton, Jared Padalecki, Misha Collins.

Warnings: TW: Pregnancy, TW: giving birth, TW: breastfeeding, language, fluff, daddy Jensen

Word Count: 3.7k

A/N: Apologies if anything is inaccurate. I don’t have kids! I have also taken some major artistic licences with The Walking Dead storylines! As always, this hasn’t been beta’d. All mistakes are mine. Text in italics is the TV show dialogue. Pictures were taken from Pinterest.

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October 2018

Jared and Misha had been in Jensen’s Vancouver apartment watching the season nine premiere of The Walking Dead. After the main show, they were settling back in to watch his wife on tonight’s The Talking Dead via video link from Raleigh Studios in Senoia, Georgia.

Ava was due in less than a week but could go into labour at any time as this was baby number four. This was the first pregnancy that had lasted an entire filming season and was the hardest for her.

Not only was it tiring growing another human, but it was also tiring being a working mom of three girls whose husband was working in another country. Her constant backache was depleting her energy faster than she could replace it, and she’d been filming what were probably her most emotional episodes ever.

It was safe for Jensen to say she couldn’t wait to go into labour. Especially as he was the one who wanted them to have one more child.

“Now, as well as having showrunner Angela Kang, Norman Reedus, who plays fan favourite Daryl Dixon and King Ezekiel himself, Khary Paton, in the studio tonight, we also have two very special guests joining us by video link from Senoia, Georgia. We’ve kept this a secret because… well, let’s just say we weren’t sure they’d be able to join us. So, without further ado, please welcome the very beautiful and very talented Ava Ackles, who plays our favourite badass heroine, Caitlin Grimes, and the man we don’t know if we love or hate, Negan A.K.A, Jeffrey Dean Morgan!” Chris Hardwick said with enthusiasm.

He, the audience, and the studio guests cheer loudly as they appear on the screen. “Welcome to the show, guys! So great to see you both again!” Chris greeted.

“Thanks for having us!” Jeffrey says, and Ava smiles brightly.

“For anyone who doesn’t know, Ava is pregnant - you’re still pregnant, right? Baby Ackles hasn’t made an appearance yet?”

“No, I am still very much, very pregnant!” Ava chuckled along with Jeff and everyone in the studio.

“She’s huge!” Jeff laughs.

“Literally the size of a house!” Ava agrees.

“We’ve been friends for a long time, and I’ve seen her during all her pregnancies. This is the biggest I’ve ever seen her!” Jeff continues.

“Oh, thanks, Jeff! I love you too!” Ava rolls her eyes at her old friend.

“Can we see the bump?” Chris asked excitedly. Ava shuffled forward on her seat and stood with Jeff’s help, turning to the side and pulling the floaty material of her dress taut. A loud cheer erupted from the studio as she sat back down.

“See? Huge!” Ava laughed.

“Do you know what you’re having?” Chris smiles.

“No, Jensen and I didn’t want to know. We’ve only found out the sex of one of our kids, and that was when I was pregnant with Amelia two years ago. I’m not saying I regret finding out, but it took a little of the surprise out of it, you know? There aren’t many real and genuine surprises anymore, and it makes it the most amazing experience to not know whether you’re having a son or a daughter,” Ava smiled serenely.

“Aww, that’s so sweet! When are you due?” Chris asks.

“Officially, in about a week, so I could pop any time!” 

“And pop she might!” Norman laughs in the studio. “We only wrapped the season finale on Friday, and for those last two weeks of filming, whenever Ava made a face or rubbed her stomach, everyone held their breath!”

“Yeah,” Angela joined in. “We were all waiting for her to go into labour every second of every day these past two weeks!” she laughed. “We’re all glad she made it to the end, and they don’t have to film scenes in a few months!”

“How do you think I feel right now?” Jeff laughed.

“Excuse me? What about me? I’m the one carrying around a beach ball filled with concrete all day, and I need to give birth to it!” she chuckled.

“Ava, can you tell us if they’ve written your pregnancy into the show?” Chris asks with a grin.

“You know I can’t tell you that! Come on, man!” Ava jokingly whined.

“Alright! You can’t blame me for trying!” he laughed. “That’s all we have time for tonight. Join me next week same time, same place with Greg Nicotero, Tom Payne and a surprise guest!” The crowd oohs. “Come on guys, you should know by now that’s not always a bad thing. Look at tonight’s special guests! I wish Ava, her husband Jensen, and their family the best of luck with their new arrival. I hope you’re not waiting too long to meet him or her!”

Shouts from her cast and crew mates on the couch add their best wishes for Ava, and she blows kisses and thanks everyone above the roar of the studio audience. “Goodnight, everybody! Take care of each other and remember… don’t text and drive!”

Senoia

“Hey, you doing okay, Ava?” Jeff asked as she rubbed her stomach.

“Yeah, I’m so glad this season is done now. I’m officially on maternity leave, and hopefully, I can get a few days’ rest before this one comes. Thanks, Jeff,” she smiled as Jeff helped her off the chair and handed her a water bottle. Jeff, his long-time partner, and Ava’s best friend, Hilarie, were her on-call birthing partners. She and Jensen asked them to be there for her when she went into labour and until Jensen could get to her from Vancouver.

She knew she’d be filming until the eleventh hour, which meant she’d have to stay in Georgia until after the baby was born. There was no way she could travel to Austin to have the baby at home; she couldn’t fly, and a fourteen hour car journey was completely out of the question. So, a Georgia baby it would be! She knew Jared had his private jet on standby for Jensen to use the minute she called. Supernatural had also begun filming six weeks earlier than usual to allow Jensen extra time off whenever he needed it for her or the baby.

Ava smiled as she remembered Jensen and Jared taking a week off to come down to Georgia two weeks ago when she was filming the “Heads on Pikes” episode. She’d filmed her fair share of emotionally exhausting episodes this season. Her TV brother, Rick’s “death”, the loss of her character’s unborn child with Daryl, ultimately ending their relationship when he left the group, and finally, the death of her son Henry in the pike episode. Two of them fucked her up pretty bad, and the after-effects still lingered. Still, she was always thankful she had such a considerate husband and friends who would stay by her side during the rough times.

The PA was taking her microphone off when she had a sharp pain in her lower abdomen.

Well, there goes my plans to sleep for 12 hours straight! Ava thought. “Uh, Jeff?”

“Yeah?” he replied as he walked over to her.

“I just had my first contraction,” she smiled.

“You’re kidding? Really?” Jeff asked, and she nodded. “Alright, what do you need right now?”

“Uhm, call Hilarie. Ask her to call my sister and tell her I won’t be picking the girls up tomorrow. I’ll call Jensen. My go bag is in the dressing room. Before we go anywhere, I want to get this makeup off and put on my comfy clothes. I’ll meet you back here in about fifteen minutes?”

“You got it, sweetheart!” Jeff smiled and kissed her cheek.

Vancouver

“Looks like this is gonna be a great season for The Walking Dead!” Misha smiled.

“Yeah, I’m really looking forward to this one. It’s got a whole new vibe since Angela took over,” Jared agreed. “What’s that smile for, Ackles?” he chuckled at his friend’s goofy grin.

“Ava’s calling,” Jensen smiled. “Hey, baby! You looked beautiful tonight. How are you?” Jensen asked, and Jared and Misha felt the instant change in atmosphere and watched their friend’s face drop before it turned into an awed smile.

“Okay, Princess. I’m on my way. Do you think you can hold on till I get there?” he smiled and burst out laughing. “I know! I know, I’m kidding, baby! Alright, Ava, breathe through it. That’s my girl… I’m leaving right now. I’ll be there as soon as I can. Tell Jeff to let me know what room you’re in, Okay? Okay. See you soon, Momma. I love you,” Jensen smiled and ended the call.

“Ava’s in labour! Her waters just broke!” Jensen announced to his friends.

“Alright, Daddy! Let’s get you to the airport!” Misha smiled as he pulled Jensen in for a hug.

“Are you serious? She was literally on live TV not a half hour ago, and now she’s in labour? I always knew she was a boss bitch, but this takes the cake!” Jared laughed as he pulled Jensen into a hug. “Good luck, brother!” 

“Thanks, Jare. And thanks for letting me use the jet,” Jensen’s voice cracked as he tried to control his emotions. 

“Anytime, man. You know that. Go! Be with your wife and have that baby already!”

Emory University Hospital, Atlanta

“Alright, Ava, you’re fully dilated. With your next contraction, it’s time to push!” Dr Robbins smiled.

“No, I can’t! Jensen’s not here yet! I need to wait!” Ava begged as tears stung her eyes.

“Ava, sweetie, you know as well as I do. Hell, you know better than I do,” Hilarie chuckled, “that babies don’t wait. You have to push, babe.”

“But Jensen…”

“Will be here as soon as he can,” Jeff consoled her. “Come on, Momma, haven’t you been complaining for a month now that you’re ready to meet this little one?” Jeff chuckled at her defeated sigh and nod. “Well, now it’s time.”

“No!” she whined. “Jensen needs to be here. He hasn’t missed any of our babies being born!” Ava was tired, grumpy, and hormonal. She didn’t want to do this without her husband.

As the next contraction came around, Dr Robbins tried her hardest to build Ava up and get her ready to push. She really didn’t want to, not until Jensen was here. She tried her hardest to fight her body’s natural instincts, but nature has a funny way of not giving a shit about what we mere mortals want. Jeff grabbed her hands again, and Ava squeezed them as she bared down. Hilarie was down at the business end with the doctor.

“Come on, Ava, push!” Dr Robbins yelled.

“I am pushing!” Ava barked back as she gritted her teeth and pushed with all her might.

“Good,” Dr Robbins soothed. “Now, it’s time for some short, sharp pants to give the muscles time to stretch. That’s it, sweetheart! You’re a pro at this!”

“By baby number four, I should fucking hope so,” Ava panted, and laughter rang through the room.

“Stop pushing now, sweetheart. We don’t want a tear. Pant through it,” Dr Robbins said. “Good. Keep that up until the next contract-”

“Ava, baby! I’m here!” Jensen flew through the door, startling its occupants and tripping over his feet.

“Where the fuck have you been?” Ava fumed at her husband. “You landed almost two hours ago, which was looong before I had to start pushing!”

“I’m sorry, Princess. There was an accident on the freeway, and I was caught up in… oh my God, you’re crowning!” Jensen smiled as he reached his wife’s feet. Hilarie squeezed his forearm with a soft smile and moved out of the way to let the anxious father-to-be take centre stage. She rinsed a washcloth in cold water and wiped the sweat from Ava’s face, neck, and chest.

“Pleased to meet you, Daddy! I’m Dr Robbins. We’re glad you could make it. Momma up there was getting antsy and refused to push until you arrived! Obviously, her body had a better idea!” she giggled.

“I’ve never been at this end before, always up top,” Jensen smiled in fascination as he looked on in wonder.

“Well, you’re about to have a front-row seat. Ava sweetheart, are you ready to meet baby? We just need a couple more big pushes, and then you can meet this little angel.”

“Okay,” Ava nodded and gulped. “I swear to fucking God, Jensen, I am never doing this again!”

“You said that last time!” Jensen grinned. “Ouch!” he chuckled as Ava reared her bare foot up and kicked his chest with every ounce of strength she had to spare.

“You want me to add having sex to the list of things I’m never doing again, too? ‘Cause I fucking will!” she retorted. Jensen and Jeff shared an amused look at each other.

“Wrong time to joke about that. Got it,” Jensen stroked her leg and kissed her knee. “I know this is our last one, Princess. So, let’s do this. You’re the strongest person I know. You’re a great mother, and this little one is so lucky to have you as their momma. Come on, Ava, you got this baby girl. I am right here, and I am so fucking proud of you,” Jensen cooed up at her.

Ava nodded at her husband and pushed with all her strength. Jeff bit back a yelp when she crushed his hands and hunkered down. He knew better than to show discomfort when a woman was giving birth. Hilarie smirked at her partner’s obvious discomfort and took the opportunity to ready her camera.

“There’s the head! Just a little more, Ava! You’re doing great, sweetheart! You’re almost there. We need one more big push!” Dr Robbins calmly said as she smiled up at Ava.

“Okay,” Ava panted. “I got this!” she ground down, squeezing Jeff’s hands impossibly tighter and yelling out in a mixture of tiredness, pain and the sheer force of her push.

“Shoulders are out! Torso… legs…” Dr Robbins was cut off by Jensen’s gasp.

“It’s a boy,” he muttered dumbfounded, barely noticing the camera flash in the room.

“What?” Ava asked, too caught up in the release of pressure from her lower abdomen and relief at hearing her baby's first cries.

“It’s a boy, Princess,” he repeated in pure wonderment. He smiled at his wife and moved to the top of the bed to hold her. Ava’s hand covered her mouth, trying to hold in her sobs.

“Are you sure? If you’re messing with me, Jensen, so help me…” Ava shut up as the doctor raised her baby up for her to see.

“Congratulations, Momma! You have a beautiful, perfect baby boy!” Another camera flash went off.

“That’s a penis!” Ava said in shock, and everyone laughed.

“Hell yeah, it is!” Jensen yelled with glee.

“We have a son!” she sobbed.

“Alright, Daddy, do you want to do the honours and cut the cord?” Dr Robbins asked with a smile.

“Absolutely,” Jensen chuckled, not taking a second to think about it. “I did this for all three of my girls. I’m sure as shit doing it for my boy!”

“Language, Jensen!” Ava scolded. “Not in front of the baby!”

“Really? After the tirade you’ve just been hurling at me? I’m sorry, son, but as you get older,” Jensen said as he cut the cord, “you’ll realise that Momma has a much bigger potty mouth than Daddy does!” he cooed at the tiny boy.

As soon as the cord was cut, Dr Robbins picked up their tiny bundle and placed him on his mother’s chest, ready for that first precious skin-to-skin contact to start the bonding process.

“Hi, baby boy. I’m your momma, and I’m so happy you’re here. Your daddy and I waited a long time for you. We never thought we’d be lucky enough to have a son! You’ve got a lot of big sisters, so you’ll have to bear with me while I figure out what to do with you,” Ava cooed as a fresh wave of tears ran down her cheeks. As soon as the newborn heard his mother’s voice, the tiny bundle stopped crying and settled with a sigh against his mother’s shoulder.

“Jensen? Is everything okay?” Donna asked when she picked up the phone. He knew it was late, and he was probably worrying his mom, but just like Ava’s parents, they’d forgive him for the early morning wake-up call as soon as he said his next words.

“I have a son,” Jensen said.

“Oh, my baby boy has a baby boy! Alan! Alan, wake up! It’s a boy! Put this on speaker so you can hear… Congratulations son! How is he? How’s Ava?”

“He’s perfect. Ava’s perfect. Everything’s perfect. I can’t believe I have a son!” Jensen sobbed. “She did amazing, mom. She was crowning when I arrived, so I didn’t miss it. He’s beautiful. Eight and a half pounds and twenty-one inches long. She went into labour at about 10:30 last night and was born at 4:12 this morning. Ava’s doing great. She’s trying to feed him just now before they both get some well-deserved rest.”

“10:30?” Donna said, shocked. “Right after Talking Dead went off the air?”

“I know! Can you believe it!” Jensen laughed.

“Congratulations, son,” Alan said, his voice thick with emotion. “Does the little guy have a name yet?”

“No, I uh…” Jensen paused and chuckled. “I didn’t even consider boy names! I was ready to suggest Maisie or Avery!” he laughed with his parents.

“We’ll look at flights to Atlanta and get the first one out,” Alan said. “Maybe my grandson will have a name by the time I get there, and we can have a proper introduction. And son?”

“Yeah, Dad?”

“Congratulations, kid. I’m proud of ya,” Jensen could hear the smile in his father’s voice.

“Proud of me? I didn’t do anything!” he chuckled.

“Yeah, you did, and you’re about to do more. You are a wonderful man, husband, and father. I know fathers have a special bond with their daughters, but you are about to experience a whole new level of fatherhood. That boy will look up to you, copy everything you do and learn everything from you. I have no doubt he’s in the best hands,” Alan’s voice cracked, and Jensen shed even more tears.

“Thanks, Dad. That means a lot to me. I’ll see you guys soon.”

“We love you! Do you need us to pick anything up? Or check in with the girls?” Donna asked.

“Nah, we’re good. I’m gonna head home in a couple of hours to shower and see the girls. If Ava’s up to it, I’ll bring them back with me to meet their brother,” he chuckled again at the knowledge he had a son.

“Well, give Ava our love, and we’ll see you all soon, son,” Alan said.

“Well, that’s the family updated. Everyone sends their congratulations and can’t wait to meet their grandson and nephew. Our parents are getting on the first flights they can to Atlanta.” Jensen smiled as he returned to Ava’s room, seeing his son feeding from his mother’s breast. My son! My boy! That was something he never thought he’d have after the strong feminine gene that seemed to run in his wife’s family. Their families couldn’t comprehend it either, asking him several times if he was joking.

“Yeah, I didn’t think we could keep them away from this surprise!” Ava giggled softly. She was glowing, gorgeous and serene. Pregnancy had always looked good on her, but nothing seemed to make her shine brighter than nurturing and nourishing the babies they created.

“So, we need a name for this little guy. It didn’t even occur to me to think of boy names,” Jensen chuckled as he pulled a chair over to her bed to watch in awe as his son had his first meal. 

“Yeah, me neither, but I’ve been thinking a little, and I wanna run something past you,” Ava smiled.

“Okay, shoot,” Jensen said as he ran a finger over his son’s rosy cheek.

“Well, I’d like him to have my dad’s name as his middle name,” Ava began.

“Absolutely!” Jensen agreed without hesitation.

“And I was thinking of going with a ‘J’ name. He looks like you, so he looks like a ‘Jay’.” She smiled at her baby boy, and Jensen smiled lovingly down at them. He gently gripped her chin and tilted her face to meet his, pulling her in for a soft kiss.

“Hmm, what about Jamie?” Jensen asked.

“Too Game of Thrones,” Ava responded. “Jackson?” she suggested.

“He doesn’t look much like a Jackson,” Jensen said, tilting his head to look his son straight on.

“You’re right. What about…” she paused and scrunched her brow in concentration. “Jacob?”

“Oh, I like that one. Let’s keep that as a maybe,” Jensen smiled as Ava lifted their newborn onto her shoulder to gently wind him.

“What about Jayden?” Jensen puts the name he’s had in his head since he walked back into the room on the table for discussion. Ava smiled with glee.

“Yes!” she said as she lifted her son from her shoulder and nestled him back in the crook of her arm. “Welcome to the world, Jayden Robert Ackles! Mommy and Daddy love you so much, and your sisters will be all over you, spoiling you rotten! You, baby boy, will be the luckiest little brother in the universe!”

“Damn right!” Jensen smiled as Jayden settled down to sleep.

“Hey,” Ava said softly. “How about you get that shirt off and have some skin time with your boy? I’m gonna get a couple hours of sleep before he needs to be fed again.”

“That’s a great idea, Princess!” Jensen responded as he pulled his black t-shirt off and carefully lifted the baby onto his chest. He settled them both in the rocking chair and softly sang Simple Man. Ava smiled as she snuggled into the bed and watched contentedly for a while before she drifted into a deep sleep.

New Message in Brothers in Arms chat:

Jensen: There’s someone I want to introduce y’all to.

Guys, meet my son, Jayden Robert Ackles. Born October 30th, 2018, at 4:12am. 8.5lbs, 21in. Momma and baby boy are perfect.

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Hi, Ary, very inactive ex-mutual(i think???) here. Good to see you thriving! ♥ It's been a while since I've dipped my head into cockles stuff. Could I perchance maybe ask uuuuum tf is going on??? lol I see Mish apparently confirmed he used to stay over at Jensen's in Van, and heard newbs were apparently freaking out about it and getting a bit messy, which I get that, business as usual. But I'm also seeing shit about spin-offs? And Jared getting in a twitter fight with Jensen, causing/resulting in stans to going feral and sending hate?? I know you're not as big a fan of Jar, but that's part of why I figured I'd ask you, you usually have a really level head about this kinda stuff. If you don't wanna answer publically, or at all, that's totally chill!

Hey, Rhi! We're still mutuals! Of course we're still mutuals! When I saw the notification of your ask, I was like "Hey! I haven't seen you in a while!" and my husband was like "???" and I said "Tumblr" and he said "Oh."

It was a wild time haha.

In any case, welcome back to the dumpster fire! We are obviously still a mess. So to catch you up, I guess I will start by summarizing both before and after the finale (not sure where you left off so this might be redundant for you) ... basically, it became obvious as the end of the show neared that Jensen was not on board with the plan for the finale; although Jared never stopped singing its praises.

We got confirmation of this during a zoom interview where Jensen said that he actually went into the writers room as well as called Kripke to basically voice how he didn't agree with the direction the final season was going, but he was shot down on all fronts. In another interview, he was asked "What would you tell your younger self going into this career?" And Jensen responded with: "I would tell myself to just keep your head down and do the work" meaning, "Don't try to change things because you can't." I also think that this whole situation is what he wrote "Let Me Be" about for his first Radio Company album, but that is just my own speculation. All of his reluctance, even though he always followed it up with "But I eventually saw the value in the script" or "I came around in the end" (which never sounded sincere, and I don't think he was really trying to sound sincere) made us all very nervous about what was to come for 15x20; and of course, when the last two episodes aired, we saw just how badly they fucked it up.

After the awful finale, the entire fandom became aware of the CW's heavy handed role in the thing, basically squeezing all the life out of SPN to shape it into a ramp from which Walker could launch itself. They not only erased all the love and joy and representation that Cas's love confession gave us, they also tore apart the things that made sense about the bond between Sam and Dean, making it really just about Sam-- and therefore Jared, which of course, Jared seemed to be fine with ... even though no one else was. Misha barely said anything during the finale, and a few of the other actors talked about the show ending in various posts, but Jared tweeted up a storm ... and Jensen? Jensen just sat in sexy-silent resentment of the whole thing. He didn't tweet, he didn't post, he didn't say a word once he no longer had to, and I think that's because he was already going full-steam-ahead on his plans for redemption.

Which brings us to Chaos Machine-- Jensen and Danneel's new production company that is being run by a queer creative director and has a mantra of inclusivity and representation woven throughout it's fabric; and apparently, the first story that Jensen wanted to tell through this new platform is the origin story of Sam and Dean's parents; so last week (?) he announced the upcoming production of "The Winchesters" -- the untold love story of John and Mary. Obviously, John is not the most likable character from the show, so the idea was met with a lot of resentment when it was first announced, but Jensen has gone on to say that he is excited to take on the task of telling the "true" story behind these characters-- the one that makes sense with the pre-established canon and doesn't reject it. So, given that, the idea is being mulled over with a bit more optimism from the fandom.

Who isn't being optimistic though?

Jared Padalecki.

When Jensen made this announcement on Twitter, many of his friends and coworkers congratulated him, but not Jared. Jared responded with a passive aggressive: "I'm happy for you, man, but I wish I didn't hear about it through Twitter." This of course, sent all the die-hard Jared fans into a tizzy and they immediately began asking him if he was serious (hoping it was just a joke-- we all hoped it was because there would be fallout no matter what one's opinion on Jared is). Instead of leaving it there though or just deleting that tweet, Jared went on to tweet some more, saying that he was being serious that he didn't know about the plans for the prequel, and that he was "gutted" that Sam apparenlty wouldn't be included (mind you, this a prequel to SPN... meaning BEFORE Sam and Dean were even born, so how could Sam be included? But Dean is apparently narrating this story so maybe Jared thought Sam should be helping to narrate it? I don't know). But Jared being Jared couldn't just leave that there, he then went on to tweet at Robbie Thompson who was announced as a writer for "The Winchesters" so then Jared went off on him too, calling him "Brutus" and a "coward" acting like Robbie betrayed him (speculation is-- Robbie refused to write for Walker, so Jared is pissed that he essentially chose Jensen over him). He did fairly quickly, remove that tweet attacking Robbie, but of course the damage was done at that point. And it truly only took his first tweet calling out Jensen for some people to be like "Jared-- that sucks if you didn't know but why are you saying any of this publicly?"

As you might know, Jared has had issues in the past with posting hurtful things on social media, and has even used it as a tool for attack before-- calling out customer service agents and public workers that he felt have wronged him, which is bad enough ... but for him to then do the same thing to his best friend of well over a decade? Many people who had once liked him or at least gave him the benefit of the doubt (I used to ...) stopped after this latest twitter tantrum.

However, some people have suspected for some time that J2 had a falling out either shortly before the finale or just after. Their public/social media interactions have seemed awkward, stilted or even non-existent in moments that they normally wouldn't be. In the past year, when Walker premiered, Jensen didn't say much about his friend's new venture other than a "Congrats. buddy" here and there. Later, we learned that Jensen refused to work on the show ... Jared said he make him do it, drag Jensen to the set "kicking and screaming" which made many fans quirk up an eyebrow because, why would Jensen put up a fight unless the two weren't as close as they used to be? And then Jensen moved his family to Colorado (either permanently or for an extended period at least) which is notable considering how he moved to Texas seemingly to be closer to Jared, even buying a house that was near his. All this was just speculation though; but it wasn't until Jared's tweet complaining about not knowing about the prequel that the theories behind them falling out, became less theory and more fact.

The day after his twitter tantrum, Jared tweeted again-- not retracting his statements or apologizing, but instead saying that he and Jensen "talked" and were "all good". Jensen then tweeted too, parroting this statement to some degree, which only made the whole thing even more sour in the mouths of the fans. The fact that Jared didn't apologize for his outburst and throwing his friend under the bus, and also the fact that Jensen-- Mr. Sexy Silence, Mr. Never Tweets, Mr. Tech-Ignorant-and-Proud, actually had to POST SOMETHING saying that he and Jared made up, it just screamed OPTICS. It was obviously the work of agents and PR firms and lots of people going "Look, if you two keep beefing, that will mean the death of both of your projects. Even more people will stop watching Walker, and this SPN prequel will never get picked up due to the scandal." So, the two "made nice" publicly to quell the chaos, but in my opinion, it's all too little too late. Jared started a storm that he can't contain now with a little tweet, and it seems like he knows that too because before he talked about him and Jensen making up, he asked that people "not send threats". He could have just as easily said that he shouldn't have made this a public issue and that he's sorry, but instead, he continued to play the victim and stoke the flames by alerting us all to the damage he's done.

Now, like I said before-- I used to give him the benefit of the doubt. I don't think he's an awful human or that he deserves to be attacked or anything, but he is an adult man with very poor judgment and an obvious selfish-streak a mile wide. He should know better, and he should have more respect for his so-called "friends" and "brothers" than to make them targets to public ridicule. I have a hard time believing that Jensen still sees Jared the way he used to, and I wouldn't blame him a bit for wanting to pull away-- especially when he's moving on to so many new and exciting things. Jared certainly deserves happiness just as much as anyone else, but he went on twitter and basically asked for a scandal, and he got one.

The question is now-- was there a motive behind it? Was just looking for a reason to bring his and Jensen's falling out to light-- while making himself looking like the victim in the process? Or did he genuinely not know about the prequel and just decided to go about "not knowing" in the most toxic and hurtful way he could manage?

In any case, that is the drama ... that is the J2 insanity in a rather lengthy nutshell ... that is the tea ... and I hope it all makes sense.

But the good news out of all of this is, Cockles is thriving-- they are happy and in love and Jensen calls Misha "Babe" and Misha misses waking up to see Jensen in the morning, and they are just as cute and wonderful as can be.

So, I will end that there. I am so glad to see you back, and I hope I answered all your questions in a way that made sense ... I tried anyway!

💖💖💖

[nancylou444]

In my opinion, the problem with the angels, being a result of the writer's strike and Erik Kripke, needing a way to get Dean out of Hell, wasn't the issue that angels got introduced. Sometimes you need a bit of a short cut to get from one point to the next. I think the problem was that they as in Castiel massively overstayed their welcome. For Season 5, they worked fine. They offered a very unique conflict with the topics of belief and non-believers and how despair can make you cling to ridiculous hopes. I just think that Kripke could have maybe polished the whole true vessel stuff a bit more to show what makes Sam and Dean so unique, and why they have to be picked.

But yeah, in the storyline, they were supposed to be in, aka season 4 till 5, maybe till the begin of season 7, if you really wanna stretch it, they worked. But as soon as Castiel got resurrected with that weird trench coat scenes (seriously, why the heck would Dean keep this coat around; I could see him maybe burn it in sort of a symbolic funeral), it was over. Like that was the moment, where Castiel was beginning to seriously overstay his welcome and the writers scramble their brains for some new ideas. I am not gonna lie, I did enjoy Gadreel's introduction, but that's probably because I love story arcs, where Sam is evil or gets possessed, so I am biased in this field.

But when it came to Castiel, the writers seem to no longer know what the heck, they wanna do with him. He got extremely dummed down, reckless and a hypocrite (now that wouldn't be a problem if the writers actually chose to make that a character trait and not some accident). Honestly during the latter seasons, I became increasingly annoyed with his scenes, because I had no clue how the heck they were advancing the plot along. It all felt like pointless detours. If anything, shouldn't the angels have just evicerated him for casting him out? Like shouldn't it all have been on sight? Honestly, the writers legit can only bring him back, because Gadreel is there!

But for me, the moment where I really started to hate Castiel, where I was like Okay, you lost any saving grace, was the moment where he allowed Lucifer to possess him. Especially given that he did it, because he couldn't stand being on the sidelines. He had to play hero and did so by releasing his own murderer and Sam's tormentor. My brain legit just went What the fuck? Did your memories hit a hard reset or are you just that stupid?.

Leave alone, that Misha cannot act as Lucifer at all. At least with Mark and Jared (especially in season 5), you have the feeling that this is the same character, who just happens to be in a different body. With Misha, I am like Am I watching Lucifer or did one of the Leviathans accidentally yeeted its ass out of purgatory again? Because that is the only comparison, I can draw. Honestly Casifer is so badly acted, it makes Season 11 such a slog to get through. I am literally dreading the episodes he appears in. And problem is, I don't think I can skip them. Ugh.

But yeah, in summary, what Kripke used as a short cut got expanded upon way what was necessary and ended up overstaying its welcome. Hope you don't mind me adding my two cents to this. :)

So much agree with this. 💖

I liked Castiel up to when he died in Hello Cruel World. He had redemption before he walked into the water.

Dean (and Sam) should have salt and burned the trenchcoat NOT cleaned and neatly folded it THEN moved if from one car to another. Remember Baby was put away and they were using random cars, so IF (and that's a mighty big OOC if) Dean was 'saving' the trenchcoat, why not leave it safe in Baby's trunk?

Castiel should have stayed dead with the angels storyline in general ending with his death.

Bringing him back was a disservice to a great character because his return only led to fanservice. What purpose did Cass' return bring to the show? What purpose did the continued existence of angels bring to the show?

Bringing Claire and Lucifer back for the sole reason of giving Cass a storyline shows that he had NO reason for still being in SPN.

Having Cass say 'yes' to Lucifer makes you wonder if season 4-6 Castiel was a different character from Cass, since Castiel would never have fallen for that bullshit. Castiel was a badass warrior angel, Cass was an eunuch.

Killing Cass in All along the Watchtower only to bring him back AGAIN continued to make a mockery of an once great character.

Misha acted in his first go around, but once Singer bought him back, MC had job security so that's why we got Lucifer!Cass, Empty!Cass and whatever he was in the AU.

Kripke's shortcut was fine BUT he allowed Misha's "popularity" to dictate killing Anna and promoting Castiel to top angel. I'm sure if he had stuck to his original angel plan, angels would have been a done deal a long time ago.

[wayward-dreamer]

A Man of Action

Square/s Filled: Intercrural Sex (Kink Bingo), Director!Jensen (AU Bingo)

AO3 Link: Read Here

Pairing: Director!Jensen x Female!Actor!Reader

Word count: 6,516

Rating: Explicit - 18+!

Summary: While directing his episode of Supernatural, Jensen and Y/N, the female guest star of the week, can’t hide their attraction for each other any longer. A little fun in his trailer is nearly over before it starts, but they find ways to keep each other satisfied.

Created for @spnkinkbingo​, @spnaubingo​

Warnings: Swearing, Dirty talk, Smut: Oral Sex (Male and Female receiving), Intercrural sex, ‘Sir’ kink, Implied protected sex in the future.

A/N: My first Jensen one-shot! *cue nervous laughter*... A HUGE thank you to my sister from another mister, my twin @downanddirtydean​ for being beta on this one! I love her to bits and she really helped me get over my lack of confidence in this one-shot. I hope you guys like it! Happy reading and enjoy! :)

Dividers by @talesmaniac89​

Y/N lightly bopped her head along to the slow melody playing from her earphones, as she flicked the page of the book she was reading. Crossing one leg over the other, she steadied the folding tall chair she was sitting on. Glancing up from her book, she smiled as she looked around at the set, waiting for the signal that they were ready to resume.

Y/N watched the crew, hard at work as they fixed lighting, checked the sound and redressed parts of the bunker. Her eyes scanned over the many people who worked tirelessly to make this show, feeling grateful to be even a small part of it herself.

This was her second time on the Supernatural set. She had guest starred in an episode last season, with Kim Rhodes who played Sheriff Jody Mills. Kim had quickly become a great friend, showing the ropes of the set, as did everyone else. She laughed as she remembered messing up her first scene with the stars of the show, Jared and Jensen, and how they quickly reassured her that she didn’t do anything for them to be mad at. They loved to have a laugh as much as the next person and were more often than not the ones who did most of the messing up of takes on purpose.

The first time was quite civil, but considering this was her second episode, Y/N was no longer off limits from the guys’ antics. Jared in particular was a giant goofball, doing everything perfectly on his coverage, and then purposely being bad on hers. Jensen was a little subdued this time around, as he was the director for this episode, but that didn’t mean they hadn’t had any fun.

There was an attraction between them. She felt it from the moment she laid eyes on him when she walked onto the set the year before. He was incredibly kind and absolutely hilarious, and not to mention insanely good-looking. They had talked and laughed about so many things in those 8 days, and she felt herself beginning to feel things for him she probably shouldn’t have. This time around, he may have been directing, but they still talked a lot. He showed her different parts of the stages during lunch breaks, walked her to lunch every day for the last 7 days, and made her feel so welcomed.

Y/N sensed that maybe the attraction wasn’t one sided as she often caught him looking at her, but she couldn’t be too sure and didn’t want to make a fool of herself in case she was wrong in her assumptions.

Y/N smiled as Frida, one of Supernatural’s assistant make-up artists, approached her. Her make-up bag, as well Jensen and Jared’s, were all hanging off of her as she returned a genuine smile to Y/N. She took out her earphones and closed her book, shifting in her chair to face Frida properly.

“Touch up time, already?” she asked, pushing her hair back slightly.

“Yep, we’ll be good to go in about 5,” Frida replied, taking out a brush and running it lightly through some powder. She applied it to Y/N’s face and then worked a little on the touching up the eye make-up. “Looking forward to it?” she added with a laugh.

Y/N cringed, lightly shaking her head. “Dear god, give me strength to get through it.”

“Get through what?” she heard a familiar voice ask.

Y/N’s eyes flicked up to look at Jared as she sat down in his chair, next to her. “To get through your unrelenting need to ruin my coverage.”

Jared laughed, clapping his hands. “It’s just too easy.”

“I know how Misha feels now,” Y/N laughed, closing her eyes as Frida worked on her eyelids.

Frida laughed along with her, nodding. “And Alex too.”

Trish, the head make-up artist, came up behind Frida and took Jared’s bag, getting him ready for the next scene.

“Pretty sure he’s still scarred from that time everyone was out to get him to crack, even Misha,” Trish added, chuckling.

“We’re up and running in 2!” they heard one of the assistant directors call out.

Frida finished up with Y/N as Trish finished touching up Jared’s make-up, allowing Y/N to get up and walk over to the war room set. She walked past crew members and smiled at them, a quick ‘hey’ to each of them as she did. She loved this set more than any other she had worked on. It was only her second time here, but it felt like home, with everyone always welcoming her back with open arms. She didn’t think she would be back a second time, but she was incredibly glad that she was. She loved her character, Lyla, so much and she was over the moon to explore her again.

Y/N felt the butterflies in her stomach erupt as she spied Jensen, in a deep conversation with Bob Singer as they looked over some of the dailies on the screens in front of them. He looked amazing, dressed as Dean in his black t-shirt and blue jeans, the white and black flannel draped over a chair close by. He was frowning but nodding along as Bob explained something to him, his scowl making him look even hotter if that was possible.

Suddenly, Jensen turned and walked towards her, his frown immediately morphing into a genuine smile as he approached her. She felt her heartbeat pick up, but she tried to calm herself down as she turned to face him.

“Okay, so we’re getting your coverage first, then Jared’s. I know he’s meant to go first, but making him wait tends to make him cooperate,” Jensen informed her, laughing lightly.

“Going easy on me, huh?” she joked, smiling up at him.

“A little, but you’ve handled it pretty well so far,” Jensen said, folding his arms across his chest. That gesture had killed her every time he did in the last several days, and this time was no different.

“Meh,” she shrugged, laughing. “I can throw it back at him if and when I need to.”

Jensen gave her nod, smiling with an approving look. “I won’t even try to stop you.”

She laughed as she shook her head, Jensen’s relaxed laughter joining hers.

She cleared her throat as she calmed herself, looking up at him. “Do I look okay, Mr. Director, sir?”

Jensen looked into her eyes, finding himself getting lost in Y/N’s beautiful features. He certainly wasn’t good at hiding his feelings for her, not the first time he met her and definitely not now. She was stunning, but she was also open and generous, kind and a total badass. He really wanted to ask her out and see where things went between them, but considering they were in their last day of filming, and she was more than likely leaving the next day, he knew he had missed his chance.

“You look great,” he told her, honestly and hoping she’d see how he meant it as more than just a director approving of her look for the episode.

Things moved pretty quickly from there, as Jensen left to sit behind the screens at video village, the cameras turned on and framed Y/N in the shot with the rest of the war room behind her, Jared stood to the side making sure to hit the mark and be in her right eye line. Everyone buzzed around them before José came in with the tail slate and called the take.

“Action!” they heard Jensen call out.

Y/N instantly fell into character, looking at Jared as ‘Sam’ and smiling. “How does Dean feel about this?”

Jared didn’t move considering the camera wasn’t on him, but he delivered the next line. “It took him a while to get used to the idea of Jack, but he got there eventually.”

Y/N nodded, staying in character. “You know what you’re doing, teaching Jack the ropes of this life… that’s amazing.”

Jared scoffed. “It didn’t exactly work though.”

“He’ll come back, Sam. He will. He just has to figure out what’s going on with his powers and he’ll come back to the bunker.” She finished the line but frowned, thinking it over. “Wait, sorry. Is it “come back to the bunker” or something else?”

One of the crew members quickly looked over the sides, and then shook their head. “It’s ‘come back home.’”

“Fuck, okay,” she groaned, annoyed with herself. “Sorry.”

“You’re fine, Y/N. Just take it from the same line,” Jensen reassured her, and she took in the patience in his voice. He was so damn good at this and she felt incredibly safe with him as a director and as an actor. She recalled how many times someone was awful to her just for messing up slightly, and how crappy she felt afterwards. She had never felt that on the Supernatural set, and she was so thankful for that.

“Let’s keep rolling,” Jensen informed everyone. “Y/N, when you’re ready.”

She nodded. Waiting a few seconds, she then continued. “He’ll come back, Sam. He will. He just has to figure out what’s going on with his powers and he’ll come back home.”

“It’s ‘to the bunker’,” Jared said, trying to be serious as he tried to mess her up.

“You’re an ass,” she laughed, shaking her head.

Jared laughed that mad laugh she had actually come to love very quickly, and she joined in. They descended into a fit of giggles, knowing full well it wasn’t that funny, but it somehow got to them anyway.

Jensen watched the screen in front of him, his eyes never leaving Y/N. Her laugh was infectious, and she looked even more beautiful when she did, making his heartbeat wildly in his chest. Knowing he had to break up the laugh fest, regretfully, he stood up from his chair.

“Alright, we’re good on Y/N’s coverage. Let’s move on and then we can break for lunch,” he announced.

The bell sounded as every present crew member hurried around the set, getting set up to shoot Jared’s coverage.

Y/N looked up and saw Jensen glance over at her. He smiled that smile she found herself wanting to see every second of every day, making her feel lightheaded and the butterflies flutter in her stomach again. He truly was a sight to behold and she only hoped that something more came of her time on Supernatural.

They managed to get through Jared’s coverage pretty quickly, Y/N doing off-camera dialogue for him as he had done for her. The bell sounded again, and Jensen called lunch. Everyone walked towards craft services, chatting about different parts of their lives. Jensen was talking with Bob, but after quickly making some decisions, he moved away and walked up to Y/N.

She looked up at Jensen as she felt him next to her, smiling brightly. They walked side by side through the lot, past all the pick-up trucks, SUVs and large trailers that housed the different departments of production. For the last 7 days, this had been a regular occurrence, him walking her to the lunch tent. On the 8th and final day of filming, it was no exception. She could feel the attraction between them, and a part of her hoped that he might ask her out, but she would even settle for a casual hook-up at that point.

“Ah, fuck,” he muttered, as he suddenly stopped short while looking down at his phone. “My phone’s about to die. Mind if we make a quick detour to my trailer so I can charge it up?”

“Lead the way,” she said, smiling as she gestured for him to go ahead. She followed him to his trailer, stepping in behind him.

As he looked around for a charger, she turned to every angle of the trailer, taking it in. It was big and spacious, with a large flat screen and comfortable couch, a bed at the other end and a nice kitchenette, but that was it. There was nothing outlandish and unnecessary in there.

“Nice to know there’s no aquarium in here,” she laughed, folding her arms.

Jensen scoffed a laugh as he shook his head. “Yeah, they really went overboard with that one.”

Finding a charger, he plugged it in and put his phone on charge. He turned to her, arms out as he brought attention to the trailer.

“So, this is it,” he said, his hands coming down and straight into his pockets. “As glamorous as you pictured, right?”

“Oh, much more than I was expecting,” she said, pretending to be serious. They looked at each other and laughed, as she shook her head. “I like it. It certainly doesn’t scream lead of a TV show slash on and off director.”

“What does it scream then?” he asked, looking down at her as she moved closer to him.

“Just a regular guy underneath all that star power,” she replied, her hand coming up and softly grazing his covered bicep.

She looked at him, her eyes never leaving his. It was clear to both of them that there was something between them. The minute she stepped onto set earlier than week, Jensen knew he was done for.

“Can I ask you something?” he wondered, his tongue darting out and licking at his lips, nervously. That little gesture had nearly sent her to her knees so many times that week, and in that moment, she felt like she would if he did it again.

“Shoot,” she told him.

His hand came up and took hers, his fingers intertwining with her delicate ones. “When can I see you again?”

“I don’t know. I’m leaving at noon tomorrow,” she said, moving closer to him and taking in the smell of his cologne.

“I can’t stop thinking about you,” he whispered, his head dropping forward to rest his forehead against hers. “Tell me I’m not fucking insane, and you feel something for me too.”

“You’re not,” she whispered in return, shaking her head against his. “The only thing fucking insane is that we didn’t do anything the minute we met.”

That was the only in Jensen needed. His hands cupped Y/N’s cheeks and pulled her face up, his lips pressing into hers in a rough but sensual kiss. Her hands roamed his chest, fisting his black t-shirt in her hands, trying to bring him in closer. They pulled away for a brief moment, breathing into each other heavily as they tried to catch their breath. They quickly stripped out of the clothes they were wearing, careful not to tug harshly as they were the costumes they’d have to put back on. Cupping her face again, he smirked as he moved them over to the couch.

“On your knees,” he instructed.

She huffed a laugh as she grinned. “Yes, sir.”

He quickly unbuckled his jeans and pulled them down, sitting back on the couch as she moved down to her knees in front of him. She tugged at his boxers and pulled them down, his hard cock springing free. She gasped as she smiled, her hand slowly wrapping around the shaft.

“Put my cock in your mouth, baby,” he demanded, his hand coming up to her hair and wrapping into it, tugging her closer.

She hummed as she moved closer, her tongue licking a stripe up his shaft. “You gonna direct me, sir?”

He groaned as he bit his lip, smirking. “Yeah, and if it’s anything like it is on set, I know you’ll hit your mark.”

She sucked at the tip of his cock, her tongue circling the head before she moved down, taking his length into her mouth. She bobbed her head, her spit coating his cock as she built up a rhythm.

“Fuck,” he growled. “Your mouth’s so fucking perfect, Y/N.”

She looked up at him, taking him deeper into her mouth.

“Hold still, darlin’,” he muttered in his sudden Texas drawl, his hand gathering her hair into his palm, the other cupping her face.

She stilled her movement, as he began thrusting up into her mouth at a fast pace. His cock hit the back of her throat, causing her to moan each time it did.

“Fuck, baby,” he groaned, looking down at her. “Look so good with my cock between your lips.”

Her saliva covered his cock, the glugging sound loud as he slipped in and out of her mouth. She looked up at him, her eyes glistening from the pressure of his hard cock against the back of her throat. His hand pressed down on her head, making her take his length into her mouth all the way to the base, holding her in place. She moaned to avoid gagging, thankful she didn’t have a gag reflex. He pulled her up, his cock leaving her mouth with a wet pop, a harsh breath leaving her lips as air came back into her lungs.

“Can’t wait to fuck you,” he said, cupping her face in his hands and bringing her lips to hers.

He lifted her up and carried her to the bed, throwing her down on it. She squealed as she bounced on the mattress, a naughty smile on her face as she looked up at him.

“God, you’re so fucking hot,” she muttered, as her eyes raked over his body.

“I should be saying that about you,” he smirked, getting onto the bed and holding himself up above her.

He leaned down, kissing her passionately, before trailing down her jaw, neck and down to her breasts. His flicked his tongue over her nipple, his hand coming up to roll the other between his fingers.

“Fuck,” she moaned, as his felt his other hand move down her body.

He smirked as he sucked her nipple, feeling the slick between her legs. He released the nub and looked down at her, his fingers running through her folds and finding her clit. She moaned loudly, forgetting where she was for a moment, as she felt his fingers circle the bundle of nerves.

“Shh, baby,” he whispered, as he looked down into her eyes. “Can’t let the crew hear us.”

“Jensen… fuck me,” she whimpered, as she cupped his face.

Taking one of her hands off her face, he pinned it to the bed above her head. A chill ran down her spine as she looked into his eyes, now dark with arousal.

“Say it properly and I will,” he ordered, his voice gravelly and demanding.

She gulped but smiled tentatively. “Please fuck me, sir.”

“Good,” he said, before he leaned down and kissed her lips, once then twice.

They continued their passionate embrace, Y/N’s arms wrapping around Jensen’s neck as one of her hands combed into his short hair at the nape of his neck. Their lips moved against each other’s roughly and sensually, as they became desperate to feel more of each other. He held his cock and ran it along her folds, her wetness slicking his shaft and a clear sign that she was more than ready for him. However, his movements suddenly stopped as an unfair realization came to him.

“Shit,” he muttered, pulling his lips away from hers. He looked down at her as an annoyed expression graced his face.

“What’s wrong?” she asked, suddenly worried she had done something wrong.

“I just remembered… I don’t have any condoms,” he replied, grimacing as he held himself up above her. “I don’t do this… well, ever. So, I don’t have anything.”

Her frown matched his. “I’m not on the pill right now, either.”

He nodded, trying to smile reassuringly and hide his disappointment. She knew that he was though, because she was too. She was desperate to feel him against her and inside her.

“I guess we better get to lunch, then,” she muttered softly, pushing herself up on her elbows. Her face was close to his, causing her to lean over and kiss his plump lips, softly.

“I just want to feel you,” he whispered against her lips, leaning in.

“Me too,” she said, in an equally hushed tone before his lips claimed hers again.

An idea suddenly came to him and he just hoped that she would be okay with it.

“Trust me?” he asked, softly as he looked into her eyes.

She smiled up at him, nodding slowly. “Yes, sir.”

He smirked as he helped her lie down on the bed again, bringing her legs up to rest her ankles on his shoulders. He shifted back until he was standing, her behind now on the edge of the bed.

Jensen smirked as his eyes darkened, taking hold of his cock and slapping it over her mound a few times. He moved Y/N’s thighs closer together, until they met around his cock. Slowly, he began to thrust, sliding his cock between her thighs in a gentle and sensual pace. She moaned softly, the new sensation of feeling his shaft against the skin of her inner thighs awakening something within her. He groaned, biting his lip at this new found arousal as he continued to move between her legs.

“How do I feel, sweetheart?” he asked, looking down at her.

“So good,” she moaned, looking at him. His ‘sweetheart’ gave her Dean vibes, which was definitely something she was adding to her list of kinks.

He picked up speed, his thrusts between her legs now a moderate pace. He gripped her thighs tight in his hands, which would no doubt leave bruises that she would get to admire later.

“Fuck,” he growled, his jaw clenching as he felt the pressure around his cock. “You feel so fucking good, baby.”

“Shit,” she hissed. A small laugh left her mouth as she shook her head. “If this is anything to go by, I can’t wait for you to fuck me.”

He chuckled as he nodded. “Can’t wait to fuck you either, Y/N. Can’t wait to feel you around my cock, taking me so well.”

“Jensen,” she moaned softly. She remembered to keep quiet in case of wandering ears of crew members.

His hand came up and back down on her thigh, smacking her hard enough to make her yelp and get her attention. He looked at her with his darkened eyes, stern and somewhat frightening, which only aroused her more.

“Last time I checked, I’m still your director,” he groaned, grasping her thighs tight. “Touch yourself.”

She moaned as her hands came up to her breasts, her fingers tweaking her nipples as she looked up at him. He grunted as he watched her, one of hands slipping down between her legs. His fingers found her clit, rubbing them in tight circles around the swollen nub.

“Fuck! Jensen,” she moaned, breathlessly. “Make me cum.”

He chuckled as he shook his head, his fingers slowing down to a torturous pace. “Not yet, baby.”

“Please,” she begged, her chest heaving with her shallow breaths.

“You have to ask better than that, Y/N,” he informed her, the smirk still on his face.

“Please,” she whimpered. She moved one of her hands down, trying to touch her clit but he smacked it away, not giving up the control he had in that moment. “Please, sir… please make me cum.”

“Let’s make a deal, baby,” he suggested, an eyebrow raised as he continued to thrust between her thighs. He groaned, knowing he was close to his own release. “Make me cum first between these perfect thighs, and I’ll let you cum… all over my face.”

She moaned loudly, nodding frantically. The idea of his mouth on her where she wanted him most was too much to bear.

Pressing her thighs together firmly, Jensen’s thrusts became quicker and erratic, getting closer to falling over the edge. He growled as the pressure around his hard cock built, feeling it pulse with his impending release.

“Fuck,” he groaned. His hips faltered as he gripped tightly at the flesh of her thighs. He threw his head back, as he let go of her legs, and grasped his cock in his hand. He pumped his hand along his shaft, biting his lip as he looked down at her spread out on his bed. She sat up on her elbows, smiling up at him as she moved his hand away, taking over for him as her hand moved up and down along his cock.

“Oh fuck, Y/N,” he let out a guttural moan as her hand picked up speed. Ropes of his cum spurted out of his cock, landing on her stomach. She continued to pump him, making sure he gave her everything he had, relishing in the warmth of his release against her skin.

He breathed heavily, his hand cupping her face as he smiled at her. “Your turn.”

Moving his hand to her shoulder, he pushed her back lightly, smiling as she laughed. He got down on his knees, grasping her hips and pulling her to the edge of the bed. Y/N laughed as she slipped down, moving her hands up to her breasts and pinching her nipples. He smirked as he looked up at her, his tongue licking a stripe up her folds. He moaned at the taste of her, feeling how wet she was already from just fucking her thighs.

“Oh fuck,” she moaned loudly, as she felt his stubble against the inside of thighs. She bit down on her lip, trying to keep herself quiet as he continued to run his tongue along her folds, the vibrations of his moans running through her.

“Taste so fucking good, Y/N,” he muttered against her mound, looking up at her. “So perfect.”

He moved his mouth to her clit, moving his tongue in tight circles around the nub. Her hands came down and grabbed his short hair, clenching tightly as she pressed her lips together. His hand came up, slowly inserting a finger into her wet entrance, moving it in and out of her. He added another finger and began to thrust them back and forth, the pads of his fingers hitting her g-spot every time. She whimpered as he picked up speed, his perfect mouth sucking at her clit as he continued to move his fingers.

He released her clit from his mouth, kissing her inner thigh as he moved up her leg.

“So fucking beautiful,” he muttered against her skin, placing small nips along the inside of her thigh.

He looked at her, the smile never leaving his face. She pushed herself up on her elbow, her other hand still in his hair. Leaning up, he kissed her roughly as he continued to thrust his fingers into her. She moaned into his mouth, tasting herself on his tongue. She felt the familiar feeling of her release approaching, the coil winding tighter and tighter.

“You ready to cum for me, sweetheart?” he asked, his breath fanning against her lips.

“Yeah,” she gasped, nodding as she looked into his eyes. “Make me cum.”

“Make me cum… what?” he asked, his voice gravelly. A deep rumble erupted from his chest as he laughed with a mischievous grin.

She whimpered, gripping his hair harshly. “Make me cum, sir.”

“Good girl,” he praised, moving his head back down again.

Jensen moved his mouth back to her clit, his fingers picking speed as he hit that sweet spot inside of her with precision. Y/N looked down at him, still leaning on her elbow to give her a better view. She held his head in place, fearing he’d move if she removed her hand. He licked at her clit, the sounds of her wetness and his ministrations reaching her ears and causing a string of soft moans and whimpers to leave her lips. His mouth sucked at her, his tongue moving around the nub tightly and his fingers thrusting, faster and faster. She bit down on her lip, nearly drawing blood as the coil in her belly snapped. A harsh, strangled whimper of his name left her lips, as she came hard on his tongue and fingers. He lapped at her folds, taking in her juices before he moved his head away, smiling at her.

With a quick kiss to Y/N’s thigh, Jensen got up and fell back on the bed next to her. She breathed heavily as she looked at him, trying to catch her breath. Turning his head, he looked into her eyes. He turned onto his side, moving closer to her. His lips hovered close to hers, his eyes flicking between all the features of her face. She moved in the rest of the way, kissing him softly. Their lips moved passionately against each other’s, not wanting to let go. As much as he didn’t want to let go, he knew they had a schedule to keep today before they wrapped later that night.

“We only have 20 minutes left,” he mumbled, regretfully against her lips.

She nodded, sadly. “We should go.”

They both got up from the bed, cleaning themselves up and getting dressed again in relative silence. The only sounds were the rustling of fabrics and shoes on the floor of the trailer. Y/N fixed her hair as much as she could in the mirror, her eyes continuously flicking over to Jensen as he did the same, fixing the mess she had made of his short locks. With one last look at each other, Jensen opened the door of the trailer and looked around, letting her out first when he saw that no one was around. They walked to the lunch tent, receiving a few questions on their whereabouts. Jensen was quick to tell everyone he took Y/N to see some of the fan favourite props of the show, and Y/N was glad that people believed him, for the most part.

They ate quickly, both of them silent as they sat across from each other. Y/N didn’t know if they weren’t talking because they are was awkwardness after what happened, or whether it was because he didn’t want to accidentally say something about it in front of the crew. Quite frankly, she was fine with not talking about it just yet. She wasn’t sure where they go from here. Did Jensen want to see her again? If so, would it be just to sleep together finally, or did he want more?

She didn’t think she wanted to know the answers to those questions. Not yet anyway.

Little did she know, the same questions were running through Jensen’s head. He enjoyed what happened back in his trailer, but sue him if he didn’t want more with her. He wanted to go the full home run with her, but if he was being completely honest, he wanted to see her again and again. He wanted to ask her out and see where they go from there.

He knew he had to take a leap of faith and ask her before she left town, because who knew when she would return.

They were back on the bunker set, this time in the war room to shoot the last scene Y/N would be in. It was interesting that Y/N’s character leaving at the end of the episode was the second last scene they were filming, but that was where it happened to land. It was like it happened organically, which was rare for their set during filming.

Jensen was standing at the head of the map table, Jared next to him as Y/N stood across from them. Video village was set up at the other end of the library, giving them more room in the war room for lighting and boom mics. Things were quiet as they fell into their characters, Y/N slinging the duffle bag over her shoulder, as the assistant director called ‘action’.

“Thanks for your help. We really owe you one,” Jared said as ‘Sam’.

She smiled at him, shaking her head. “You really don’t.”

Jensen gave her that signature ‘Dean Winchester’ look, the one that said he was thinking about how to approach a subject. “You know where to find us if we do.”

“You’re buying the six-pack next time,” she said, chuckling slightly.

“Done,” ‘Dean’ said, smirking at her. She smiled at Jensen, finding that her genuine smile to him seeped into the scene.

“See you boys around,” she said, nodding at them. She turned on her heeled ankle boots, walking towards the staircase. With one glance over her shoulder, she gave them a small wave which they returned. She took the stairs all the way up, hearing the AD call ‘cut’.

“Alright, let’s see,” Jensen muttered as he walked over to video village.

Y/N walked down the stairs and over to the map table and placed the duffle bag on it. She waited to hear whether they would have to do another take or not.

“Alright, check the gate! Moving on!” Jensen called out. “That’s a wrap on Y/N Y/L/N!”

He quickly came out from behind the screens, walking over to her and Jared. All the crew around her clapped, as she gave them a small curtsy, laughing as Jared came over and hugged her.

It wasn’t the usual treatment of guest stars, as they usually came in and did the work and then left but considering there was buzz that her character might make a return, they wanted her to feel at home with all of them. They were kind to people with even the smallest of roles, so Y/N always knew she’d be in safe hands with the Supernatural crew.

Y/N hung around to say goodbye as they shot the last scene between the boys. In that time, she sat with her laptop, hoping she could change her flight to leave in a few days. With luck, she managed to find one leaving Vancouver in 5 days’ time, giving her plenty of time to stick around and explore these feelings she had for the handsome green-eyed actor. She couldn’t wait to tell him.

Given that Jared and Jensen had such a great shorthand with each other, they worked quickly to get the work done. Jensen called a wrap on the episode, and they all congratulated him on the amazing work he did. Everyone began to pack things up, the make-up ladies heading to their trailer as Y/N walked with them. She removed all her make-up, freshened up and then got changed into her clothes she wore to set that morning.

Y/N said her goodbyes to Trish and Frida, followed by the rest of the crew and Bob Singer. Jared swooped in for another big hug, nearly breaking her in half with the pressure of his arms around her.

“Jesus, you don’t know your own strength, you know that?” she said, cringing in slight pain as she turned and twisted, trying to get feeling back in her body.

“Hey, not my fault you can’t handle it,” he laughed, patting her back. “Alright, I’m out of here. I hope I’ll see you soon.”

“Me too,” she smiled, as he enveloped her in a softer but still warm hug. She decided to leave out the fact that she wasn’t going anywhere just yet, wanting to tell Jensen first.

Jared walked towards the parking lot, heading for the SUV that Cliff was waiting by. They were no doubt waiting on Jensen, who had been finishing up some paperwork after wrapping the episode. Y/N slung her bag over her shoulder, walking towards his trailer in search of him. Reaching the door, she knocked a few times and waited. The door opened, a tired but smiling Jensen greeting her.

“Hey,” he smiled, leaning against the door frame.

“So… I have some news,” she told him, a smile playing at her lips.

“Oh yeah?” he asked, his eyebrows raised as he folded his arms across his chest. His arms were exposed thanks to his black t-shirt, and she suddenly felt like her skin was on fire. She tried not to show her disappointment when he put on his jacket and grabbed his backpack, shutting off the light in the trailer as he closed the door.

She nodded, stepping down from the stairs to the trailer and turning to him. “I changed my flight. I’m leaving in 5 days.”

Jensen felt his heart skip a beat with that news. He nodded, the smile growing bigger on his face. “Well… you want to come over tonight? We can pick up where we left off.”

She bit her lip, nodding slowly. “I’d love to.”

Keeping up the pretence that there wasn’t anything going on, Jensen went back home with Cliff driving him to his apartment. Y/N called an Uber, knowing that if she had joined them Jared and Cliff would question what was happening. She and Jensen hadn’t spoken about it, but they both knew that there wasn’t anything to say to anyone until they figured it out themselves. For now, she wanted him in ways she’s never wanted anyone else and she was more than ready to see what he was capable of.

Reaching Jensen’s apartment, Y/N went up to his floor and down the hall, knocking on his door, noting that it was the right one from the text he had sent while she was in the Uber. The door swung open, and she grinned as Jensen smirked at her, letting her in. She took in the apartment, with its beautiful view of the city lights twinkling at night, a large screen TV and comfortable couch, and his guitar on the wall closest to her. However, as nice as it was that wasn’t where her mind was in that moment.

Turning around, Y/N looked at him, his eyes reflecting the same things she was feeling. They moved towards each other, their lips meeting in a rough, but sensual kiss as they wrapped their arms around each other. Pushing and pulling at each other’s clothes, their lips continued to move against each other, not wanting to stop.

“Thank god you changed your flight,” he mumbled against her swollen lips. “I can’t wait to fuck you.”

“Then what are you waiting for?” she asked, grabbing his shoulders and jumping up, wrapping her legs around his waist.

His hands immediately supported her as he carried her off to his bedroom.

By the time they came up for air, the sun was rising, and Jensen had to leave to go to work for the first day of the next episode. With a promise of returning later that day, he told Y/N to stay at his apartment, telling her she could use whatever she wanted before he had to leave.

As she stood on the balcony and looked out at the view with her morning coffee, she had never been more thankful to a job she had taken. She made some great friends already, there was a buzz that she may come back for more episodes, and she had met the most incredible man who she couldn’t wait to explore more with.

She found herself repeating Jensen’s words from the night before as she smiled into her morning cup of caffeine.

Thank god she changed her flight.

-x-

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[mangher-a]

"MISHA! I SAID STOP!" Eyes flash yellow as she barks at the other, who ( for some reason ) seemed to be losing his cool far more than usual. Which, in truth, was putting it lightly. Loni had actually been concerned she might need to shift to get things under control, but without noticing it DOMINATION had come into effect- the full force of it directed towards none other than Mikhail himself. "What the fuck is wrong with you? You're acting like- like..." Like he was losing control of his own sanity. Something she knew the feeling of all too well. "Talk to me, Mikhail... please. If something isn't okay, I'm here for you. Just... tell me though."

@maljefe

. ミハイル .

It's an odd feeling, being trapped by something invisible. One moment he's ripping things apart, his mind filled with flashes of images he tried to forget; memories he didn't need here, in this life --- like he was trying to fight off something or escape something one couldn't see. Had he gone too long without destressing, or was it something else that had triggered the episode, he didn't exactly know. Because he never learned how to work through things such as emotions.

He felt stuck. Rooted in place, his whole body shaking while his eyes dart from one place to another, like he's expecting an attack. All he can see is the shadow of his own father skulking around, waiting to jump. But through the ringing in his ears and blurred vision he sees and hears Loni. It confuses him, but also makes him worried because the shadow is still there. Slowly disappearing, but still there. He's panting, he blinks. Muscles in his arms ripple and it looks like he's trying to change.

Everything's on overdrive, but the odd feeling of... something, something invisible wrapping around him and stopping him from moving is both welcome as it is scary. He doesn't understand. It kinda reminded him of something from far back, something soft and nice, in an odd way. Something he already forgot about.

He couldn't remember their face anymore, but the feeling was there.

Mikhail blinks slow, staring at Loni, though not really seeing her for a moment before reality starts to sink back in. He still shakes, though not as violently as before. She was there, she was fine. Nothing bad had happened, he didn't hurt her. The realization has him let out a shaky breath. And what he gandered he'd not hurt anyone, it was mostly materialistic damage, things that could be replaced.

Misha looks more so confused when Loni talks, and he lifts a shaky hand up to wipe away blood that's dripping down his cheeks. The thing is, when he looks at his palm, there's nothing. It's wet, yes, but he's not bleeding. It slowly dawns on him that the hurt he's feeling is not physical. He keeps rubbing his face, feeling the scars on his face, remembering the fights and situations he had gone through to survive. His breath hitches, followed by a broken sound that he hates, causing him to snarl and snap his teeth at in agitation.

He hates this.

He hates this.

He hates being weak. He is not supposed to be weak. He can't show weakness. It's bad, it's bad, bad bad bad bad---

Misha stumbles when he tries to move away, to probably run off somewhere, to hide, to cause more damage to the surroundings or himself. But he feels weak. Like everything had been zapped out from him by something. The oppessive feeling was still there, lingering.

He ends up on his knees, on the ground, coughing until it seems like he's almost hacking up a lung. He can't, he shouldn't, he needs to--

It's all a garbled mess at first, the words more or less nonsense.

I'm sorry.

I didn't mean to.

I had to.

Didn't mean to.

Killed everyone.

Everyone's dead.

My fault, my fault, my fault, my fault,----

"It was my fault!" he snaps, at some point having gripped Loni's arms, staring at her, still wild but utterly broken. "I did it! I did it, it's my fault! It wouldn't have happened if--!!"

His grip briefly tightenes, then loosens again as he just collapses, most likely pulling Loni with him. His face pressed against her stomach as he sobs. Arms around her.

"I miss everyone-- I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have, I should have done better, I didn't--- I--"

should have died a long time ago.

The last part was left unsaid, and all that filled the silence was the cries of a man who for the first time is experiencing the comfort he's lacked his whole life.

[verobatto]

Destiel Chronicles

Vol. CVI

It was a love story from the very beginning.

Cas vs AUCas

Hi there! Okay I wanted to finish season 13 in one meta but the last episode has a lot of juice inside so I decided to give it one exclusive meta hehehe.

I will talk here about Cas and his alter ego in the AU world, assign to it a little of daddy issues.

Let's start this...

"Luke, I am your father."

Lucifer finding Jack and trying to convince him about his origins and trying to drag him more and more to connect with him and his hidden intentions, are a reflection for the incoming issue with Chuck and humanity.

So, as always, Lucifer will try to use the manipulative speech with his son by throwing statementa that could be seen as morally accurate.

LUCIFER: Your name is Jack.

JACK: And yours is Lucifer.

DEAN (stalking over in anger) No. No, no. No. You don’t talk to him. (pointing at Lucifer) And you, don’t listen to him. (pointing at Jack)

LUCIFER: (sounding reasonable) Um, don’t you think that’s his choice?

And everyone in the room would say 'he's right' Because that's how Lucifer uses manipulation. He can sound reasonable. And that's the danger of leaving him at his please.

Look at this twist of semantics...

LUCIFER I mean, the point is...humans are not perfect. They’re hardwired to fall. And when they do, they need a fall guy.

CAS (to Jack) That’s a vast oversimplification.

LUCIFER (annoyed) Okay, so true or false, Cas -- um, for almost, like, ever, I’ve been locked away in a Cage?

CAS Yes.

LUCIFER True! It’s true. So how did I do all this evil for all these centuries, I wonder?

As I said, Luci's speech is dangerously logical. Letting Lucifer freely speak, is more dangerous that fight him in a physical battle.

But we know Dean, Cas and Sam won't fall for it.

Remember this is a B-L (Bruckleming) episode, so we will have here a failed attempt of redemption arc for Lucifer. I know Leming was pushing for it, but it wasn't a welcomed idea between writers so... That's why you had Luci crying his tears in front of Gabe, as if he was regretting something, he didn't. Because he is Lucifer. So, goodbye to that idea.

Good performance from Mark Pellegrino tho.

Mary punching Lucifer in the face, closing a circle from 12x23 when she confesses she always dreamt with punching the devil in the face. She did it in that episode but I think this punch was way better satisfying for her.

Jumping to another little take for a foreshadow...

BOBBY Just got news about Charlie and Ketch. Goin’ after the execution squad went sideways. They’re the ones who got ambushed.

This is the cliffhanger or twist of the story we will have in 14x09, when AUMichael posseses Dean again.

Cas vs Cas

Settling the continuity of character development, we had a very visual way to show how much Castiel had grown throughout the seasons.

Before this encounter, we had Castiel coming back to soldier mode, as Dean requested him with the 'whatever it takes' speech.

This time is Dean himself the one asking Cas to use torture over a person, just like he did with Donnie. The only good thing in this scene is Dean and Castiel communicating without talking.

Gif set credit @becauseofthebowties

This preamble was needed to lead us to the AUCas vs Cas scene. In which AUCastiel represented what the Empty was for Castiel at the beginning of this season. AUCas was, certainly, a Castiel that never met Dean Winchester in this reality. Taking that as our base in this discussion, AUCastiel never fell, and he followed Heaven's order blindly, symbolically represented with a Nazi suit.

We could infer Castiel could be like him if Dean had never born and Apocalypse was successful.

But let's check AUCas dialogues...

AW-CASTIEL I haven’t seen many like you. But... But you have to understand that everyone has a breaking point. A...point of pain. Particular, primitive fear, maybe. But it’s a nerve so...raw that your will -- grit, they cease to be factors. And then all your little secrets, they flow from your mind, to mine...until your mind no longer exists.

This speech AUCastiel says to AUCharlie, just like Castiel reading Donnie's mind or torturing that young man, are all foreshadows for what will happen with AUMichael trying to decipher Dean's deepest thoughts and secrets. "What do you want?" Which will be the topic in season 14.

And now, CAS vs CAS...

AW-CASTIEL More than one of us. Fascinating.

CAS (looking at his double) I’ve gotten used to it.

Two Castiels, like the Empty and Cas, or like AUMichael and Dean inside of Dean,'s mind.

AW-CASTIEL You align yourself with the h-humans.

Humans were considered as garbage between these angels in this AU, so, the sole idea of looking at himself in our Castiel been allies with humans it's disgusting.

Gif credit @inacatastrophicmind

CAS I vastly prefer them to angels.

This is a lesson Castiel had learned after meeting Dean and realizing Angels were wrong

AW-CASTIEL Don’t think that you are better than me. Well, we are the same.

This is very interesting, because AUCastiel maybe also has that idea of rebellion inside of him, as he saw it fulfilled in Castiel.

CAS Yes. We are.

The confirmation here is infering Castiel recognizes what kind of angel he was, what kind of angel he could be if he had never met Dean, and at the same time, he is killing that part of him, and accepting who he is now. This will have it's continuity in season 14, and it's conclusion in 15x18, always linked to that dark side he defeats, symbolically represented by the Empty, and the last word said by Jack, his son, bringing him back to life.

Miscellaneous: DESTIEL INTIMACY:

Gif set credit @inacatastrophicmind

This tiny scene here is very important. Castiel approached Dean without talking and opens Dean's backpack to take off the handcuffs. And Dean just let him. There's no sign of surprise in Dean's face, he just let Castiel to sink his hand in his backpack showing us the amount of intimacy between these two characters. The trust and the long term relationship. This is something only a person that is very very close to you is allowed to do. And is so romantic and really meaningful. Is foreshadowing too 14x03 when Dean asks Castiel to get inside his head. Because he trust his angel with his life.

To Conclude:

This episode was a preamble to daddy issues in season 14 (Chuck and John) and it also showed an interesting interact between AUCas and Castiel, textually representing his growth of character.

Hope you like this meta, see you in the next one.

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If you wanna be added or removed from this list just let me know.

If you wanna read the previous metas from this season here you have the links:

Vol. XCIII, XCIV, XCV, XCVI, XCVII, XCVIII,CXIX, C, CI, CII, CIII, CIV, CV.

Buenos Aires, April 4 2:01 PM 2021

[casmybelovedass]

The Destiel Folder: Season 6

[Season 4; Season 5] Man, this season... an emotional rollercoaster

Episode 3:

Cas admits he and Dean "share a more profound bond." (15:35) uuuhmm okay

"You think I came because you called?" (16:31) cut to "I always come when you call" later on in E21

"When a claim is laid on a living sould, it leaves a mark, a brand." ... like a handprint maybe? (22:33) Cas basically called dibs on Dean and admits it

Dean, I get it, Cas looks hot when he fights, but you don't have to look at him like this (24:42)

The amount of eye-fucking in this scene (25:56) almost 30 seconds (of Dean checking out Cas) of Old married coupleTM moments. Dean is worried about Cas dying again by the hands of an archangel. He just got attacked and wants to go out. But Cas has to go save the universe from a holy war. Basically a wife asking her soldier husband not to leave for the war.

[(26:28-26:30) Dean was totally looking at the BOOTY]

NOW FOR THE JUICY STUFF: Cas and Balthazar obviously had a history. More than brothers or war buddies. We could parallel them to Dean and Lisa: both old flames coming back after a long time and all.

Also, Balthazar can sense something is going on between Cas and Dean. It's so clear he can (35:26). ICWAW, we would assume Balthazar was an ex, getting jealous over Cas' new love interest

Episode 6:

"You asked me to be here, and I came", OH what about the whole 'I don't come because you call' thing? (13:40)

How domestic is this moment. Cas pouring Dean a drink, trying to comfort him (14:03). He hates seeing Dean like this, and hates even more the fact he can't do anything about it

Cas knows Dean is hurt enough already, and doesn't want to get him involved with a war that's not his to fight (14:20), but still wants to help

Episode 7:

Second time Cas starts stripping in front of Dean and he just stares (2:32)

Look, all I'm saying is... they really don't have to stand THAT CLOSE to each other (4:07)

Episode 9:

[Not a destiel moment but Dean struggling to say the words "gay guy" is too fucking funny to me (33:45)]

Episode 10:

Dean, will you not check out the angel in front of your brother, please? (11:54)

Dean is visibly uncomfortable at Cas watching porn practically NEXT to him, and having a BONER practically next to him. Understandable, but still... kinda gay (15:58) Look at Dean's face, my God (16:07)

[I'm screaming Dean looks like he's wondering what it'd be like to kiss Cas (25:29)]

"CAS?!" (26:23) the way Dean gets progressively more worried about Cas fading/being taken away and shit, kills me

[Cas is so fucking confused as to why Dean would suggest he'd let him have an hour alone with Meg (39:25), either that or he's embarrassed he might've actually wanted to. Meg and Castiel were cute together]

"If there's anything we can do-" "There isn't. I wish circumstances were different. *stares at Dean with puppy eyes* Much of the time, I'd rather be here." (39:46)

Also, Dean stares at Cas for 15 seconds, but averts his eyes when saying "We're your friends"? (40:01) Denial? Something's off. ICWAW, this would indicate tension, unspoken feelings

Just... the way Dean looks at Cas, and when he flies away (40:17) HIS EYES

Episode 11:

Balth jokingly calls Cas Sam's 'boyfriend', and Sam reacts normally, letting it fly over his head. When later in episode 17, Balth calls Cas "the angel in the dirty trench coat who's in love with you", Dean gets pissy. Just like later in 10x5. Touchy much? (13:48)

Balth admits he doesn't like Dean, and that "screwing him would delight me", but calls the one brother who threatened to crisp his wings, a "capable young man" (14:46). Jealous much? ICWAW we would read some sort of romantic rivalry between those two.

Episode 14:

This face... where have I seen this face before?

Oh yes, here

Dean looks at Lisa, the so called "love of his life", the same way he looks at Cas. Fuck my life

Episode 15:

"Cas" (Misha) starts stripping and Dean... stares... again (9:23)

"Well, Cas... now that you have your sword, try not to die by it." (39:53) Is it a saying? Or a reference to Dean being Michael's Sword? As in "He is gonna be the death of you"? And Balth looks at Cas THAT WAY?! (40:01) You can't tell me there was nothing between these two. Kill me now

Fucking stop being an old bitching married coupleTM already (40:25) you are hurting me

Episode 17:

Balth 'jokes' about Cas being in love with Dean (18:48) ICWAW we would read this as an ex being petty about the new love interest and teasing said love interest about it

Wow, jealous much, Dean? Again, ICWAW, this would totally be seen as jealousy for your crush's ex (27:30). And Dean, you're staring at Cas' lips again (27:37)

[Sam: "So, you killed 50,000 people for us?" Cas: *looks at Dean* "... No, I didn't... They were never born." (37:49) This is so stupid, but... sure, Cas... sure. That's what you ment.]

Cas makes a small speech about fighting for freedom, choosing your fate and all, while looking at Dean (38:55). OKAY SUBTEXT!!!

[As soon as Dean mentions boobs, Cas is gone (39:36) LOL]

Episode 19:

"It's not like Cas lives in my ass. The dude's busy. [...] Cas, get out of my ass!!!" "I was never in... your-" (4:28) and then they stare... Were you having unholy thoughts guys?

"Without your power you're basically just a baby in a trench coat" #MARRIED (10:38), "My friend is very sick." "I have a, uh... painful burning sensation." OH COME ON!!! (11:22)

"You know who whines? Babies. *pats Castiel*" (14:28) I'm sorry, pats him wHERE??!!

Dean saves Cas again (19:38)

The way Cas says "Dean, Dean!" (23:09)... I'm so fucking weak, and look at those EYES! (23:41) kill me now

"The kid... The little kid, he's one of them." "... Unbelievable." "Yeah, I know, Cas. You told me, all right?" (37:48) #MARRIED

Sam and Bobby immediately think Cas might be betraying them (39:31), while Dean won't even immagine the possibility. "This is Cas we're talking about!" (39:52)

Episode 20:

Even tho Dean can sense something is off with Cas, he won't bring himself to admit it. And the eye-car-sex. That. (4:44-4:53)

"You're distracted. [...] Is that all you're holding, huh? See... the stench of that Impala's all over your overcoat, angel." (6:20) this has such sexual undertones. ICWAW, it would be MENT as having sexual undertones. Also Crowley ships it

Dean protects Cas even tho clear evidence is there, and even feels bad about lying to him (12:06). And Cas feels oh so bad about Dean trying to be loyal to him, even when he was starting to suspect (13:18)

Dean still refuses to acknowledge the possibility of Cas' betrayal (19:56). His speech about Cas... I'm weak. "He broke ranks, gone to the mat, cut and bleeding for us, so many frigging times. This is Cas!" (20:10). ICWAW, this would be read as Dean having feelings for Cas, and as those feelings were getting in the way of his best judgment

Cas goes against the King of Hell to save the boys... but Dean first (21:48), and Dean defendes him against Bobby and Sam, apologizing for doubting about him. Cas hates having to break their trust

The look on Dean's face as he realizes Cas had been lying the whole time... BROKEN (23:35-23:49)

Cas doesn't want Dean to have to sacrifice more than he already had for him (25:19), and when Crowley shows up, Cas' first instinct is to look back at Dean protectively (25:30), and does that again before following Crowley (26:17)

Cas wants Dean to be happy, stay retired, even tho he was so longingly looking at him moments earlier (29:09)

"You gotta look at me, man. [...] Look me in the eye and tell me you're not working with Crowley." (32:38) the absolute desperation in both Dean and Cas, how HURT they look. THEIR EYES! Dean looks devastated

"I did it to protect you, I did it to protect all of you!" (33:09) one of the many "you, all of you" no-homo saves Cas pulls while talking to/about Dean

"I had no choice!" "No, you had a choice... You just made the wrong one." (34:21) how fucking hurt Dean looks. "Where were you when I needed to hear it?" THE EYES

"I was there... Where were you? *flashback to Cas looking back at Dean*" I'M DEAD

"It's not too late. Damn it, Cas. We can fix this!" "Run. You have to run, now. RUN!" (35:33) and they do, but Dean looks back at Cas, and the way they look at each other... STOP (35:47-35:52) ICWAW, this whole scene would seem like someone trying to save their loved one, and OH boy, that stare exchange would seem either a silent confession or a reminder of their feelings for the other

Cas visits Dean in the night, even tho they clearly don't trust him and don't want him there, and Dean leaves it be (38:06), and even apologizes for having to angel-proof the house against him

#MARRIED (38:28), "I'm doing this for you, Dean. I'm doing this because of you." (38:35) ICWAW... do I even need to point this out?

"Next to Sam, you and Bobby are the closest thing I have to family..." the look on Cas' face as Dean says this (39:15) "... that you are like a brother to me." did Cas' eyes just get more glossy? Poor baby. Also, ICWAW, by the way they interact, this statement would feel wrong on so many levels

"You're just a man. I'm an angel." ... why does it feel like Cas is telling that to himself more than to Dean? (39:43) "I'm sorry, Dean." (39:55) Kill me

Cas questions his decisions, asks God for guidance, the moment he understood he hurt Dean. He doesn't want to hurt Dean, but will do what he has to do to if it means he will be safe

Episode 21:

[Not a destiel moment, but "fragile masculinity" much, Dean? (4:20) "I was too busy having sex with women." (why do you feel the need to specify 'women'?)]

This Dean-Balth bickering has such current-former love interest fight vibes (8:52). Come on, ICWAW, this would totally be the case

Here's another Cas/Lisa parallel: how Dean acts here, looking for Ben and Lisa (13:11), and how he acts in S8 while looking for Castiel ("WHERE'S THE ANGEL!?")

Cas saves Dean again (21:46). "I didn't ask for your help." "Well, regardless. You're welcome." #MARRIED

They are both on the verge of tears... "I thought you said that we were like family." (22:22) They hate this situation. They hate not being like always, close, friendly, family

"Dean... I do everything that you ask... I always come when you call. And I am your friend." (22:39) the way he says 'Dean' and how his voice trembles. Dean is basically almost crying now (23:45)

"Dean, I said I'm sorry and I ment it." "Thank you... I wish this changed anything..." "I know.. So do I." (37:45)

[Alright. I do believe Dean really grew to love Lisa during that year they spent together, but I don't buy the "I always loved you, ever since that one hook up on that one weekend we knew each other for" shit. Dean wanted to give a try to the whole 'apple pie life' he'd promised Sam, with a good woman he knew Dean had feelings for.

If he grew to love Lisa over a couple of years after 1 hook up, I'm sure he could do the same thing for Cas after over a decade (he for sure would have already If Cas Were A Woman)]

Episode 22:

["You've always got little old me." "Yes... I'll always have you." (30:26) These two... Come on, they HAD to be ex lovers!]

"We were family once. I'd have died for you. I almost did a few times (Cas did actually, twice). So if that means anything to you... Please... I've lost Lisa, I've lost Ben, and now I've lost Sam... Don't make me lose you too." (39:55) ICWAW, this would be seen as a straight up CONFESSION

The hurtful look on Dean's face when Cas says "You're not my family, Dean.", and the terror when he thought for a second that Sam might have killed him (40:39)

["You will bow down and profess your love unto me, your Lord... or I shall destroy you." ... okay, Cas, honey, I get you are tired of waiting, but this is not the right way to get a confession out of Dean (41:20)]

[Season 7>>]

[you-cant-spell-subtext-without]

hello hello hello!  and welcome to Season 12 of Supernatural. 

I admit that initially I STRUGGLED WITH SEASON 12.  I LOATHED the British Men of Letters (other than Lady Antonia Bevell; her hot working mom energy can get it); I have...mixed feelings about Mary; overall it was not a stellar season for me the first go-round.  HOWEVER I shall now give it a second chance,  and look for the subtext within the bad (and if my theory tracks, there will be much subtext as...there is much bad).  Maybe I’ll even develop Ketch appreciation.  **ONWARDS ONCE MORE INTO THE BREACH, MY FRIENDS:

When we last left Dean, I neglected to mention that Amara brought his mom back (this is how much I repressed Mary Winchester I guess?)  We cut to Mary, confused, in a nightgown (I get this is part of the character and that’s why she is wearing it sO wE kNOw iTS rEAlLy MaRY WinCHEstEr because of her nightgown and not Sam Smith’s exquisite face, but honestly WHY - LIKE DID SHE WEAR THE DAMN THING IN HEAVEN THE ENTIRE TIME TOO?).

DEAN [breathing heavily] 

Mom. Listen to me. Your name – your name is Mary Sandra Campbell, okay? You were born December 5, 1954, to Samuel and Deanna Campbell. Your father, he bounced around a lot for, uh, work, and you bounced right along with him, and you ended up in Lawrence, Kansas.

MARY 

How do you know all that?

DEAN 

Dad told me. March 23, 1972, you walked out of a movie theater – Slaughterhouse-Five. You loved it, and you bumped into a big Marine and you knocked him flat on his ass. You were embarrassed, and he laughed it off, said you could make it up to him with a cup of coffee. So, you went to, uh, Mulroney's and you talked and he was cute and he knew the words to every Zeppelin song, so when he asked you for your number, you gave it to him, even though you knew your dad would be pissed. That was the night that – that you met –

MARY 

John Winchester.

DEAN 

August 19, 1975, you were married... in Reno. Your idea. A few years later, I came along, then Sammy.

***DEAN DESCRIBING EVERY DAMN DETAIL OF THIS HAS MURDERED ME.  Also, I know John Winchester “told him the story,” but something about this retelling - these are NOT John Winchester’s words (other than maybe “big Marine”).  The emotions, the feelings, the “you talked and he was cute” Dean is describing is Dean’s retelling, the version he created in his mind of this damn meet-cute, this little love story he played over and over in his head, and that makes me feel warm and tingly and also want to ingest sharp knives.  

***Everyone already knows about the damn Zeppelin reference but just in case you wanted to be tortured, please recall that later on we will get

THIS FUCKING SHIT

Nothing to see here other than Dean using a reference from this LOVE STORY on Cas.  I HATE it here in super hell.  Next rounds on you, Sam.

Anyway, Mary has caught on:

I paused here just now because I had a tHoUGHt.  This season is all about exploring Dean and Sam in their role as sons (this is discussed at the SDCC panel prior to the season; btw they are all free on Prime and I recommend watching before you start each new season for little “reveals” behind some of the plot lines).  We know Sam has no relationship to Mary really, he was a baby when she died, but Dean was a little boy - with a personality, character traits, identifying characteristics that his mother probably knew like the back of her hand.  That’s why my first run-in with Mary left a bad taste in mouth during this season - LIKE THIS IS YOUR KID, and there is NO inkling or recognition until THIS moment?  In a show that just spent an entire season exploring the “unexplained connection” between Dean and GODS SISTER, there no immediate “OH” from his own mother?!

But then I realized why she only connected at this very moment.  This particular moment - and not the moment where he lists the factual details about her before the story of the night she met John.  That little story with all those cute details - that’s the part of Dean that Mary knew before she died - when that part was ALL of Dean.  Before hunting, before John’s quest for revenge turned him into the person he is today, before he saw himself as a blunt little instrument.  That’s why initially Mary has no recognition that this is her son - because the Dean she knew was sensitive, and kind, and OPEN, and liked love stories, and laughing, and warm hugs and maybe flowers. Because if you think about it WE DONT KNOW THAT DEAN.  We only know Dean AMD. (After Mary’s Death).

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So maybe Mary represents Dean Before Mary’s Death, and whatever part of that Dean remains, no matter how deep he has been buried.  The part that connects with people; the part that doesn’t want to be alone.  The part that helped Amara.  The part that loves Cas.  And that’s why Amara brought her back.  

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Ok, if I think of it this way, I may like Mary a little better now.

BUT ALSO MY BABY:

Cut to Cas.

[THE MAN WALKS OVER TO THE EDGE OF THE CRATER MADE BY THE LANDING AND SEES CASTIEL PULLING HIMSELF OUT.]

MAN 

Holy mother.

[CASTIEL STANDS UP AND LOOKS AROUND]

CASTIEL 

Where am I?

MAN

Uh...Earth?

CASTIEL 

No. How far am I from Lebanon, Kansas?

MAN 

Uh... Th-three hours, maybe. Wait, wait, wait, wait. Who – What are you, man?

[CASTIEL WALKS TOWARDS THE MAN AND TOUCHES HIM ON THE FOREHEAD. THE MAN DROPS TO THE GROUND. CASTIEL LEAVES HIM THERE AS HE DRIVES OFF IN THE TRUCK]

***I spy a Season 11 random parallel

And Cas says, “Earth - 

***Also, I often wonder if in his mind’s inner GPS, Cas bases distances on how far he is from Dean. 

In the meantime, Bad Things Are Happening to Sam.

***Toni Bevell, don’t join the British Men of Letters you’re so sexy hahah

Other than noting that this is yet another too oft- repeated Sam, the Victim, Always Gets Tortured scenario, I see no point in recapping these parts.

I will just continue to post Toni Bevell hotness for these portions of the episode. Ok?  Ok.  You’re welcome.

BACK TO THE BUNKER:

I already posted this sweet baby reunion in my final Season 11 analysis/recap, but lets see it again at another angle and from Mary’s perspective CAUSE CLEARLY she has...*thoughts*

Poor Cas had no idea he was about to MEET THE PARENT 

It melts my little heart that Dean uses Cas’s full name to introduce him to people.  Especially members of his family who are trying to kill him.

Anyway, then we get a much longed for gem of typical Cas deadpan:

(*I still miss Casifer a little bit though*)

And then we have 

A MOMENT OF CONNECTION!  

At the SDCC panel, Misha specifically noted that both Mary and Cas are outsiders, so this tracks. 

They head to the garage:

[Exhaling sharply, Mary walks towards Baby. She runs her hand lightly over the car.]

MARY This was John's car. Oh, she's still beautiful.

DEAN Hell, yeah, she is.

MARY Hi, sweetheart. Remember me?

[MARY LEANS DOWN AND LOOKS INTO THE CAR SMILING. SHE STARTS LOOKING AT THE FRONT SEAT BUT HER EYES AND HER THOUGHTS LINGER ON THE BACK SEAT. DEAN LEANS DOWN LOOKING AT THE INTERIOR OF THE CAR WITH PRIDE. DEAN LOOKS AT HIS MOM AND REALIZES SHE’S HAVING VERY SPECIFIC MEMORIES OF TIME IN THE BACK SEAT. DEAN LOOKS AROUND THE CAR, AND LOOKS AT HIS MOM.]

***this is where you truly see that Sam Smith is a genius because she took those directions and put them all into THIS:

And then THIS:

DEAN 

Oh…

[MARY LOOKS UP AT DEAN. DEAN REALIZES HE MIGHT HAVE BEEN CONCEIVED IN THAT CAR, STANDS UP QUICKLY AND LOOKS OVER THE CAR. DEAN SWALLOWS HARD, AND GLANCES AT CASTIEL WHO GIVES HIM A QUIZZICAL LOOK.]

DEAN 

We should go.

***At this time I would like to remind everyone that Cas is also generally in the back seat of this car.  

MOVING ON

Meanwhile-

Back at the bunker, Cas is Continuing to Connect with his boyfriend’s mother:

[EXTERIOR DAY; INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS AND THE NOISE OF VIDEO GAMES ARE HEARD. THE CAMERA PANS TO MARY WHO’S WATCHING THE SCENE. CASTIEL IS PICKING UP COFFEE.]

CASTIEL 

Thank you.

[CASTIEL TAKES THE COFFEE TO MARY AND SITS DOWN.]

CASTIEL

This must be difficult for you. I remember my first moments on Earth. It was jarring.

MARY 

One word for it. I grew up with Hunters. I've heard of people coming back from the dead before. But to actually do it... after 30 years. A lot's changed.

[MARY LOOKS AROUND.]

MARY A lot.

Cas:

This is usually a look Reserved For Dean, so its interesting Cas is looking at Mary here [they also weirdly joked about Cas hitting on Mary at the SDCC panel and now I'm giggling because if Mary represents the soft part of Dean this all makes PERFECT SENSE).

BONUS

Actual footage of Sam in super hell

The Cas/Mary bonding worked BTW:

[INTERIOR: GREGORY IS SITTING IN FRONT OF HIS DESK WITH CASTIEL, DEAN, AND MARY STANDING BEFORE HIM.]

DEAN 

So, you dug the bullet out of his leg, no questions asked?

GREGORY 

She offered me 100 grand.

MARY 

And you took it?

GREGORY 

Student loans were a bitch, okay?

[ANGRILY CASTIEL STARTS TOWARDS GREGORY.]

DEAN 

Cas! Cas! Cas! Don't hurt him. Not yet.

**Disclosure: I do not accept the “Cass” spelling and take creative license to change it in the script whenever it appears**

GREGORY 

All right, look, she didn't give me her name. When we were done, the driver bailed, I got paid, and then some other chick shows up, and they all drive away.

MARY 

And that's everything you know?

GREGORY 

(insincerely) Yeah. Totally.

****Um, Mom that’s my boyfriend you don’t order him around like tha-

Oh, well, ok then.

***This is important, because Cas doesn’t obey anyone (other than Dean) blindly ever since he invented free will and all that.  Hence Dean’s surprised/impressed look to Mary above.  

Meanwhile:

I recall that I spent most of my first watch of Season 12 gushing over Toni Bevell, so I’m glad to know this won’t be changing.  You’ve been warned.

Next up, Sam is again sex tortured, Cas is a Helpful Boyfriend, and for some reason, Rick Springfield.  

[ltleflrt]

So, just like everyone else, I have Thoughts.

This is not the ending I wanted, but it was mostly the ending I expected.  Do I think the overarching themes were dropped and time was wasted?  Yes.  It’s not my story to tell though, and this is the ending they gave us, so I’m going to try and be positive about it.

It’s not terribly surprising to me that Dean dies on their first (as far as we know) hunt after they gain their freedom from Chuck’s story.  Hunting is very dangerous, and the Winchesters no longer have Plot Armor from Chuck who probably protected them from the “minor” things so that they could fall to his bigger ideas.  Dean should have died from heart failure in S1 because of an accidental injury received during a random hunt.  The last 15 years have been a gift of time for him, and I think he was aware of that at the end.

The only thing he was worried about was Sam.  Despite how many times they’ve been resurrected, there had to be a last time at some point, and they both knew it.  So he made sure they got to say a proper goodbye, something they both missed out on with so many people taken too early from their lives.  He made sure Sam knew that he was at peace with what was happening, and gave Sam the tools to make peace with it as well. 

I loved this scene.  I was sobbing uncontrollably, and will eventually need to muster up the courage to watch it again to catch all the nuance.  But I still loved it.  I would have preferred Dean to die peacefully at an old age, but he’d have to stop hunting, and I just can’t see him walking away from the life.  He’s too much of a Big Damn Hero.

Sam’s grief was cathartic to watch, because Me Too, Buddy.  Then we got to see him moving on, healing.  I think that hunt he got the call for on Dean’s Other Other Cell was probably his last one.  I think he loved hunting, but loved Dean more.  And just like Dean tried to do with the loss of Cas, Sam went on to live a good life in honor of Dean.  One last lesson learned from his big brother.

My eyes were so full of tears that I couldn’t see the family pictures very clearly, but that may have also been deliberate.  Dean Jr looked enough like Eileen that I’m going to hold it in my heart that she’s who Sam married and settled down with. 

Dean may have been the brother who dreamed of his childhood family life, but he also always loved hunting.  Sam was the brother who hunted because it was there, but always craved normalcy.  I’m so grateful that he finally got it.  And the Winchester Legacy lives on!  Is Dean Jr a Hunter?  A Man of Letters?  Some of both?  Doesn’t really matter.  He’s another Winchester left in the world, passing on everything Sam (and indirectly, Uncle Dean) gave him to newer generations. 

Remember that time Sam asked Dean if anyone would ever remember them?  What legacy were they leaving behind?  They carved their initials into the table to leave their mark, literally, but that was such a small thing.  Leaving behind a child who knows their stories is so much more epic, and fitting.

As for Castiel, I do need to be negative for this one thing, but I will jump right back on the positivity train once I get this out of my system.

I really wish that Misha had made it clearer that he wouldn’t be in ep20.  I was enjoying the episode, but as time went on and I realized opportunity after opportunity for him to show up was passing, over and over, until there were mere minutes left in the show, horror grew within me.  If I hadn’t been expecting to see or even just hear his voice one last time, I wouldn’t have been hurt at all. I don’t think I would have even have been disappointed that we didn’t get to see Dean’s reciprocation, because I know Dean loves Cas, and I had been resigned to very quiet romantic text all season long.  The ILU was unexpected, even though I’d seen spoilers that hinted very strongly it was going to be there.  I would have taken that as icing on the Destiel cake, so long as I knew what to expect of the end of the story.

Literally all they had to do to fix this for me?  On the very last shot, Dean and Sam are on the bridge looking out on Heaven.  Off screen there’s a wingflap sound effect that gets both their attention.  And their faces light up with joy.  The End.

C’mon Dabb&Co, do better.

Anyway, other than that, I do appreciate Castiel’s ability to find joy in his love for Dean.  The fact that it’s confirmed that at least recent seasons the romantic tropes were deliberate still brings me immeasurable joy.  Knowing that Jack rescued him from the Empty and they went on a mission to rebuild Heaven for Humanity and specifically Dean makes me tear up just thinking about it.

He had an absent Father, who at every turn disappointed him.  But he still believed in Heaven.  He still believed in the original mission of caring for Humanity.  And with Jack he gets to be the present father, and together they built something wonderful and awesome (in the traditional sense of the word, and Dean’s typical definition too lol).  I’m so happy for both Castiel and Jack that they get to be a family.

Anyway, those are most of my thoughts.  I will probably have more as I continue to process my feelings.  I still love this show, and welcome discussion about it as long as it doesn’t devolve into wank.  My heart hurts, and letting go of bitterness is the only way I’ll be able to heal. 

And reading all the Destiel Happy Ending codas.  Looking forward to reading all of those!  I’m actually working on one myself, for the first time ever.  I don’t usually read or write canonverse for SPN, but that was because canon was always changing so much as the show continued to air.  Now that canon is complete, I welcome all the fix-it fics and alternate endings and post season stuff XD

For the record, I still don’t see this as Bury Your Gays, since the characters still exist beyond death, and Castiel was rescued from the Empty.  Chuck’s books are closed, so we no longer have a window into their worlds, but we know without a shadow of a doubt that they have time for more stories to unfold in their futures.  All the time in the universe :)

[ariana-amidala]

A Very Weird Fever Dream Pt.3

OOP. Actors version of the episode now. It will go back and forth from the episode filming and the actors in the next chapter. 

The lights on set were way too bright right now to focus on who or what was telling you what to do. The impala on set was also starting to lose it’s ‘facade’ of the show as we ended a scene. Getting out and laughing along with the boys before grabbing the snacks on a plate left for you all, Jensen had walked off because Danneel was calling him and Icarus was on the call now talking to his owner, Misha had gone to the bathroom, Alex had left with his P.A because he had an interview for his other show ‘Arrow’ happening and he was also finished filming for today. That left Jared and me to wait for Jensen and Misha to come back from whatever they were doing.

“I swear these days get longer and longer,” Jared said sitting down next to you letting out an aired laugh.

“Welcome to season 15.5 of Supernatural,” you said laughing and taking a swig of water.

“I kid you not every single shot in that car will not be used,” Jared said laughing and eating his granola bar.

The show wasn’t going to be picked up again. The old actors were completely done with it and so were the old crew. At least we thought so, some of the newer writers who came on during season 14 had written enough to keep the show going until what seemed like season 30.

“You know it feels weird without the old cast here,” You had said looking at the floor where you were sitting and tracing the initials carved into it. “They must’ve loved the show too much to go on for 15 seasons,”

“I feel like we’ll also be here for 15 seasons before we drop and go home to families,” Jared said laughing. He was right though, the old cast had husbands and wives and kids to look after and other shows and movies giving them offers where they could be with their families. You laughed at that. They were not you.

“Still up for bowling if we finish early?” You had asked him as he got up saying he needed more food.

“Do we ever get off early anymore,” He joked. “But yeah, if we get off early,” You smiled at that.

“Hey what we talking about,” Jensen said walking up towards us.

“You up for bowling?” Jared had asked him as they passed each other.

“Wait we’re going bowling,” Jensen said pausing mid walk to turn to Jared.

“If we get off early,” you said to him.

“Does that still happen around here,” he jokingly said handing you a water before sitting down next to you where Jared was situated.

“Do you think Misha would want to go too?” I asked. Misha was a great person but he was still pretty shy because he’s still new.

“I think he would,” Jensen said stuffing his face. You scrunched up your face.

“Dude chew and swallow before you speak,” You said lightly punching his shoulder.

“Sorry,” he said with a mouth full of a rice Krispy treat. You shrieked hitting him again.

“Hey guys,” a voice said from above stopping you and Jensen’s shenanigans. It was Misha.

“Hey Mish,” Jensen said to his buddy.

“Favourite angel!” You had exclaimed getting up and hugging him. “Do you want to come bowling with us?”

“Today?” He asked back. You nodded.

“If we get off early buddy,” Jensen said. Misha nodded.

“Can I bring West?” Misha asked. Cliff always went to get West when he was finished school and bring him on set to be with Misha.

“Of course, he’s welcome anytime!” You’d said. West was the coolest kid on set and he was always hanging around you.

“Great, that’s great,” Misha said. You would’ve asked Alex too but he still wasn’t back.

“Are we still off?” Jared asked walking back to the three of you.

“Yeah, Alex isn’t back yet,” Jensen said. “I think we’re waiting on him,”

“I think so too, usually we would be back now,” You had said.

“Wait where did Alex go?” Misha asked. The three of us laughed. Misha and Alex looked so similar all the time so it was hard to tell who was who.

“Arrow interview,” you said. Misha laughed. Alex was always doing an arrow interview these days.

The boys continued talking for another few minutes before you could feel your eyes slowly starting to dip close. Jared had noticed that and you could see a very blurry vision of him with is confused face. You had given him a very weak thumbs up telling him that you were fine.

“You okay?” Jared had whispered behind you. You let out a quiet squeak.

“I think so,” you said. It came out more of a question though.

“I think you're tired,” he said.

“Thanks Sherlock,” you joked quietly.  “All nighters aren’t fun,”

“Another one?” He asked. You nodded.

“Procrastination buddy,” you said leaning your head on his shoulder.

“Hey kid you good?” Jensen asked now looking at you.

“Yup,” you said trying to sound more awake than you were.

“Okay mid-day Padalecki nap,” Jared said as he pick you up.

“Stop procrastinating,” Jensen hollered as the both of you had left.

You couldn’t tell when you when out but you did for sure. The last thing you had heard was Jared telling you that you guys had a whole hour left. When you didn’t respond to what he said returned off his trailer lights and you heard the door shut. Too tired to get up and say that you were fine, you drifted off into the abyss of sleep.

[impatient14]

Not to be “annoying on main” but like most things here in the year 2020, a lot of the nuance and reason surrounding the fandom’s fight over Dean’s queerness is lost to the wily temptress that is extremity, and I want to throw some stuff out there in case anyone is thinking the same things and just needs to hear that someone else is too.

To my followers and anyone who dares look through my blog (honestly don’t recommend it), it’s obvious I’m someone who enjoys the Dean/Cas pairing. And when I say enjoy, I mean I absolutely get feral about a wide range of topics that involve their relationship, depiction, and reception. I’ve always kept my opinions within the confines of my blog, though, and I’ve never--not once in the decade of my life on Tumblr--gone into inboxes to send hate or even indirect someone with hate or drama on my blog. That shit just ain’t kosher.

That being said, some of the anti-destiel arguments out there have merit.

Like, for example, Destiel shippers not liking the show. Personally, I did like Supernatural originally, but I also recently recommended new watchers who came for Destiel to just watch certain episodes. I’ve stopped watching Supernatural several times throughout my Supernatural journey (which started in real time with season one), because the writing can be down right awful. There were lots of great examples of writing too, but it wasn’t consistent enough for me to keep watching in real time. So I'd watch a season behind on Netflix. At some point, things got bad enough (the bro-dependence, recycled or unimaginative plotlines, the terrible treatment and fridging of female characters) that I did keep coming back for Dean and Cas only (and honestly, it was sometimes only Castiel). 

Another worthy anti-destiel point for consideration is the fact that other than destiel shippers, a lot of people who watch Supernatural don’t care about Castiel. This seems to be correct. I’d wager to say that the vast majority of Supernatural watchers did not invest even a portion of time, energy, or emotions in Castiel that we did. That’s cool. I’ve been a casual viewer of a show and been blindsided by things that their fanon saw coming a mile away. Everyone has different perspectives, and the idea that Castiel isn’t integral to the plot when you remove the possibility of Destiel is absolutely correct.

However.

Why did they keep bringing him back? It’s true that he could easily be written out when his relationship with Dean is bro-ified, but his deaths never took until the end (and even then it didn’t). Sure, it could be “pandering,” but if only 1% of the Supernatural fandom ships destiel (as stated in one argument), it seems like a strange choice monetarily. Misha, as a series regular, wasn’t exactly giving out his services for free (eyyoo), so producers and the network wouldn’t give a second thought to the vitroil and threats creators and actors would get if Misha were written off. (Side note: I categorically *hate* the social media accessibility that lets people directly interact so negatively with creators to the point of dangerous conditions. It’s the most ugly and embarrassing side of fandom.)

It could be argued they kept bringing him back because they knew hellers and Cas lovers would continue to buy his Merch and what not, but I can’t imagine the small percentage of viewers who are invested enough in Castiel to buy his Merch would compensate for Misha’s annual salary. (But honestly, numbers aren’t my thing so *shrug*) But it could also be argued that the perceived destiel headache for creators, plus the retention of Misha’s salary, would be enough to get rid of him if not for a crucial role he plays in the show. Creators have repeatedly said that Cas’ whole character revolves around his relationship with Dean, so that means the writers felt that the Cas/Dean relationship was important to the fabric of the show--in whatever way you’d like to see it. Does that mean viewers have to see it that way? Definitely not. But that’s not the story the writers are telling you they’re writing--

Oh, that sounds familiar!

All the textual gay jokes, narrative devices, and creator interactions (not just Misha, but writers, producers, and other actors too) created the metaphorical pink elephant, not the shippers themselves. And to be told otherwise is some gaslighting bullshit. I agree some fans take it too far and freak out at the mere mention of a non-destiel reading, but the foundation for a destiel reading is based in text, not just in the shippers heads. The relationship between the Supernatural creators, actors, and fandom is undoubtedly toxic, which is why I think it makes it easier for them to deny various romantic interpretations of Dean and Castiel's relationship, but (and i hate to do it) in their defense, they definitely wrote enough into the text to justifiably claim Dean's a nohomodudebro. However, they've also written enough into the text to legitimately doubt (not definitively deny) his heterosexuality.

IMO (for the maybe two people wondering) Dean became bisexually coded in a very complicated conglomeration of a homophobic “its funny to be gay” kind of way, the chemistry between Jensen and Misha, countless production decisions, and Castiel’s growing and canonical love for Dean---which all makes the matter impossible to ignore. On more than one occasion the writers made choices that welcomed a destiel reading--not confirmed--but welcomed (which is, wait for it, queerbaiting!). I’d be shocked if no one read Dean as being queer coded and secretly in love with Castiel, who btw, is absolutely 100% romantically in love with Dean Winchester. The writers kept making decisions that fed hellers so well because Castiel is in love with Dean. It’s not just Misha who has confirmed it btw, but the writers themselves. You’re allowed to read it differently, just like destiel shippers read Dean differently than the writers have claimed, but you don’t get to tell other people they’re wrong--just like destiel shipping should never have gotten to the point were anyone who didn’t see destiel was reading the show wrong. However, the difference between saying Cas’ love is platonic and saying Dean’s love is queer is the difference between having zero textual evidence for a platonic reading of Cas’ love, and having lots of textual evidence for Dean’s heterosexuality. (Personally? My headcannon for Dean fluctuates between “so closeted he doesn’t even know he’s actually bisexual” and “very much aware he’s also into dudes but is pushing it down because : Winchester ™.” However, I’m more than happy to admit that my headcannon can’t be reasonably confirmed as fact. It can, however and like most headcannons within the destiel fandom, be comprehensively and intelligently argued to the point of exhaustion.)

The only reason to deny that 1.) it’s reasonable to read Dean as being queer-coded, not canonically bisexual, but queer-coded via textual and production decisions, and 2.) Castiel is romantically in love with Dean-- is if you’re someone who can’t give credit to the opposition just because they’re the opposition. Just because I hate Trump and think he’s the spawn of Putin’s asshole doesn’t mean I can’t admit he did *some* good work for criminal justice reform. The credibility of your argument goes to crap when you can’t admit when someone else has a good point- even if you don’t agree with their overarching theory or idea.

Obviously, the state of the Supernatural fandom is pretty much what it will be forever. Getting thousands of people to admit that its normal to find evidence to support an argument you don’t agree with (something philosophers do all the time because there is no such thing as truth and the world isn’t black and white and its shades of grey that make the rainbow bright and on and on and on), is definitely not in the cards for us. But, this is just me, throwing my altogether unnecessary opinion out there. 

(If you’re one of those people that like to troll people just for having an opinion and expressing it respectfully, please consider not doing that. I am but a baby in a trench coat.)

[mila-dans]

Here it is:

“Baby, I know it hurts right now. Trust me I know because your pain hurts me more but this pain will leave our soul and all that will remain is love.” - Supernatural quote of the day (8/8) (327).

“The Famous Final Scene,” - Bob Seger & The Silver Bullet Band (one of the greatest rock writers of all time). 

This is the end.

Is it, though?

Sure it is.

Supernatural has been on for 15 years. Older than a majority of its viewers. One sci-fi show has not only been on but has SUCCESSFULLY premiered every year since 2005. This show is about two brothers fighting evil. That was the tag line, the selling point. Yeah sure its expanded and extended on the synopsis but not too much. Since season 4, we've had two brothers and an angel (another brother) fighting evil (disguised as good). Currently, we have two brothers and an angel (three fathers) and the son of Lucifer (son of the Winchesters (all three)) fighting evil (which happens to be the model for good). This is what the show is. Monsters, Demons, Angels, Hunters, rock music, that sweet 67' Chevy impala, a few fifths of whiskey, whole lot of women, and many references to the X-Files. Is this an accurate depiction of the show "Supernatural"?

Yes. And this show will end.

But, what will live on is so much better.

We aren't here for the props or costumes. The plot consistencies or the little smudge of extra makeup that is required to make the show perfection. We are here for not just the show...

We are here for the actors, the directors, the writers (sometimes), the makeup department, the lighting coordinators, the set designer. WE ARE HERE FOR THE PEOPLE

We are the FANDOM. We are the FAMILY.

Nothing will change that. The show will end. We know that. It's a hard to swallow pill and that's okay cause we are all taking those meds (along with some others)! We are like a net, hanging on to one another, becoming connected and interweaves. When the net gets a dip in it, when someone struggles to hang on, the rest of the net, the rest of us pull harder, become stronger. We have each other's backs. We may not like one another, we may hate one another's preferences or ships and some of us may even go extra lengths to satisfy whatever desires the show leaves us with but are any of those wrong? No. But to me, the show is too important to be nitpicky about who gets set up with who or what becomes canon or not. This show is a rock to me. It is a constant that I needed in my darkest times. But now, now I’m okay. I’m okay thanks to the show, but especially thanks to the fandom. To think that I only discovered the following in the past year out of the three that I’ve been watching it is bizarre. I feel as if I was welcomed into the family just the same as someone would’ve been if they saw the show when it first aired.

It’s crazy. All of it. Knowing that these characters will cease to exist in their true form and place brings me to the edge of insanity. But, I’ve got to remember, just as you have to remember that this is not the ending. Just A ending. This is just the ending of the production and creation of Supernatural. It is not the ending of the actors, the fanfics, the gifs, it’s not the ending of the fandom.

When you take away the aspect of having to film the show and produce a profitable episode, you become left with what the show has built. Love. Love of every kind. Love towards the show, to Misha, to Baby, to their wives and families, to everyone. This is the legacy the show has left for us to cherish and continue on with.

Always Keep Fighting. Love Yourself First. You Are Not Alone.

So many good things came from a single idea that came from a single man. Look at where we are now. We have the masses that aren’t just mindless followers supporting Jensen because he’s attractive of loving on Jared just cause he’s their type. No. We have a family that loves one another. This show has not only itself gotten me through hardships, but it gave me a family to motivate and push me forward. This show is the reason that I started praying again because for years I felt lost and discouraged but each night, just like when I first started, I pray for the crew, the actors, and so on and so on and all of their families. I call their kids out by name when praying. They are that important to me.

These men and women are not idols to me, they are not superstars. They are men who have made mistakes. Men who are far from perfect and that’s what I love about them. They don’t try to be something they’re not. To be upset with them because of bad actions is to hold them up to the standards of perfection which is impossible for any mere mortal to adhere by. Jared has gone through depression, anxiety, whatever you want to call it, he has been through hell and thanks to his family, he has come out the other side. Alex, Jim, Mark (2x), Kim, Ruth, etc., etc., are my family. Sure I might faint if Jensen looked directly at me but HAVE YOU SEEN THOSE LIPS?! Matt Cohen knows. 

We have built a family and we will stay a family when the show ends. Family is forever. Real family that is. What we have is real. Just like what the boys have been saying in the promos. “You ask what’s real? We are.” And it is true.

Morn for the loss of the show called Supernatural. Remember the speech Sam gave in “Metamorphosis” and then the one he gave in “Prophet and Loss.” Remember the pizza man and why six is afraid of seven. Remember Dean and his love for pie along with his love for Baby (And “PUDDING!” of course).

But now, go and watch the gag reels. Watch the convention videos and Misha’s directors cut of the show. Watch the reality that came from fiction.

We now only have the reality, the truth, the love, and the family to hang and hold onto. Don’t let it go. Don’t let that emotion fade. Let it grow. Save it for later when we hope and dream that one day it may return. We have hope, let’s use it. We have love, let’s give it.

I love my family. One of the best, if not the best, family I’ve ever had. Thank you for making me a apart of your family. Thank you for welcoming me into your home. thank you friends, thank you family.

LONG LIVE SUPERNATURAL

[verobatto]

Destiel Chronicles

Vol. CVIII

It was a love story from the very beginning

Another Destiel Separation

(12x23)

Hello my friends and welcome to the last meta from season 13!

I would love to see the script from this episode because I always said they robbed us the goodbye scene between Cas and Dean, but well...

Let's start...

Mary and Bobby, Destiel mirror and the calm before th storm

First, we had a random werewolves hunt. In which we had a little of comedy and a sneak peek to what Jack's training is. Dean says it's a werewolves hunt and let the kid to answer they will need silver bullets. Just like a resident to his doctor in charge.

Team Free Will 2.0 working together with great results, is showing us the calm before the storm.

Jumping now to the scene between Mary and Bobby, we have here another Destiel mirror. With Mary (Dean) and Bobby (Castiel).

They come from different worlds, and once Boby starts to walk in this new universe, with Mary, he begins to embrace it. Just like Castiel did with humanity, asking in season 8 to be a hunter and to stay in Earth with Dean.

BOBBY: (...) Anyways...without an archangel, it's not like we can go back home. And I'm not sure I'd want to. I...I like it here.

We've been robbed: 1

Remember that scene in which Dean shows Sam so much faith on Jack (the faith that he took from Castiel) and thought about retirement? A happy ending? Yeah, let's cry here and struggle with the idea that we've been robbed...

DEAN: Hey, you remember...remember when you asked if we could stop it? All the evil in the world?

SAM: Yeah.

DEAN: If we could...really change things? Well, maybe with Jack, we can.

SAM: Maybe you're right. But then what will we do?

DEAN: Mm. Yeah. This. (Dean holds a beer he has been carrying and Sam looks down at his) A whole lot of this.

But on a beach somewhere, you know?

Can you imagine?

You, me, Cass, toes in the sand, couple of them little umbrella drinks. Matching Hawaiian shirts, obviously. Some hula girls.

SAM (scoffing) You talking about retiring? You?

DEAN: If I knew the world was safe? Hell, yeah. And you know why? 'Cause we freaking earned it, man.

Gif set credit @inacatastrophicmind

Dean thinks in a happy retirement with his brother and Castiel. Because this was in his heart. This was Dean's wish. And this should be his ending. He is the one saying it. They deserved that ending because they freaking earned it. Dean didn't mention Jack, because this is played as a foreshadow in which Jack will have a very important role to keep the world safe as Dean wants: Jack will be the new God.

The scene in which Jack has a nightmare and Dean goes to calm him down, we hear him talk about his own nightmares about people he couldn't save, this shows THE GUILT HERITAGE inside of him, and how this will lead him to say yes to AUMichael.

Jack follows Dean's toxic behavior

Jack goes to avenge Maggie's dead by his own, just like Dean did to face Loki. (Following Dean's toxic bwhat and not his advices).

Then we have Dean shooting at Jack by the back, as a foreshadow of how he will deceive Jack to out him inside the Ma'lak box in season 14.

The manipulative speech Lucifer gives to Jack is a parallel to the one that will give fem!AUMichael to Jack in episode 14x09. The words are similar: talks about power, their difference with humans, their supremacy over humans, and how they should be together to conquer the world because they're family.

The comparison with Star War Anakin, is to place doubts about Jack's future, because everyone knows Anakin turns into the dark side.

But then Sam praying to Jack (just like Dean to Cas) is showing us the faith Sam has on him too.

Jack revails Lucifer's true intentions and true self in a very spectacular show of his powers.

A Sacrifice for family love

Lucifer kidnaps Jack and Sam because he knows about their bond: Sam occupied in this season Lucifer's place as a father. Lucifer knows it and that's why he decided to took them with him and play a sadic game.

How Sam and Jack were willing to give their lives for each other is the same scenario of Dean giving his life and body to AUMichael to save them. Both sacrifies are for Love, FAMILY LOVE. As Michael will tell Sister Jo in 14x02.

The scenes are mixed between the church in which Jack and Sam are deliberating who will do the sacrifice and Dean about to offer his own life like the sword to Michael.

And Jack saying...

JACK: I love you. I love all of you.

Third time we see it int he show (Castiel and Mary in season 12), is telling us that had always been a family love confession. Just like Dean saying yes to Michael.

Gif credit @bennylafitte

Gif credit @hallowedbecastiel

We've been robbed: 2

The scene in which Dean starts saying he is Michael's sword, is short but very meaningful. Castiel flicks his eyes to him surprised about the offer Dean is making to that monster. He tries to stop him but Dean feels he is trapped and he has to make that sacrifice for Jack and Sam.

The fandom were heartbroken by then about Castiel's feelings, and maybe writers should make it even more noticeable in the script: I'm talking about the fact that Castiel's fall was because he fought against Heaven's Orders, that implied DEAN SAYING YES TO MICHAEL. It means, he went against destiny and embraced free will, following Dean and looking at him as a role model.

He was really angry when Dean almost say yes in season 5, if you remember that scene, Castiel literally kicked Dean's ass.

But this Castiel is different from that one in season 5. He is against that decision but even so, he remains quiet, to a side, watching the man he loves and the one for who he left everything he was for millennials, being snatched by Michael from his side.

When Michael takes control of Dean's body, Castiel can sense it, because they're bonded.

But you know, I still feel there was a scene missing: the one in which Dean says goodbye to Cas. (And I really thought there would be a kiss scene erased there... I explained this here.)

This was another lovers separation, my friends... Sighs...

To Conclude

The last episode from this season was messy and sometimes confusing. It was written by Dabb, and he tends to do that.

In the middle of the messy plot, we can talk about Destiel parallel (Mary and Bobby)

Jack mirroring Dean's toxic behavior and another lovers separation.

Hope you liked this meta, see you in the next one!

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