#wearp 4x04

[g4l-p4ls]

wynonna earp 4x04 without context

[superherocapturedbydemons]

HOW DID WE MISS THIS MFKCJDB

[scrofantastic]

They’re going to be okay 💛

[extraordinaryillusions]

Get yourself someone that looks at you the way Wynonna looks at this gun.

[captain-sapph-fic]

petition to have more scenes of wynonna talking to inanimate objects

[superherocapturedbydemons]

A MOOD

I take back all I said about wanting Nicole to have a storyline she can just chill in the background and have sex with her girlfriend but please don't hurt her more

[74flawsasofyesterday]

[fairytaleasoldastime]

They can’t get enough of each other’s tacos.

[wayhaughtwives]

I love them 🥺😍

[earpcaps]

[ficusboi]

[g4l-p4ls]

Wynonna being a little too relateable by losing track of time and having no idea what year it is 😂

[superherocapturedbydemons]

[zofiecfield]

an honor and a privilege (Wynonna Earp ficlet)

As has become her custom over many restless nights, she slips out of bed silently. She checks the traps, savoring the bite of the cold, glad for a different reason to be awake. Inside, she sheds her layers, warms the tea, and settles by the fire. Pen to paper, for the hundredth time.

Waves,

It is a privilege to love you and an honor to be loved by you.

An honor to be trusted, an honor to be asked for forever.

A privilege to say yes.

yes.

Yours, now and always,

Nicole

It is a privilege to love Waverly Earp. No, it was a privilege to love her. Past tense. A privilege she had earned. A privilege she had lost.

Lover, wife, someday mother.

They built a bridge, side by side, a labor of love to carry them to that future. She craves it, feels it like a shadow, always present, always apart, never quite hers for the keeping. They built a bridge in the light, but she made deals in the darkness that wouldn’t end, utterly devoid of hope, promises that sickened her then and bring to her knees begging now. She is desperate to shed what she has done, desperate to peel it off, layers of skin that writhe. Acid in her stomach, on her teeth, corroding the metal. Every step now, she can hear the flakes of rust as they come away beneath her and plummet. If they continue to walk, hand in hand, across this bridge, it is only a matter of time. The bridge will crumble and she deserves the fall, she knows, but hand in hand, she won’t fall alone. She can’t forgive herself the risk.

Lover, wife, someday mother.

She could break Waverly’s heart in one fell swoop, tell her the truth about what she’s done, tell her what is coming. She could let the future take its new shape, ugly and so much dimmer than it had been, barely masked as it is now. But, her own heart is already so heavy, battered and homesick for a time that was and a time that was going to be. Her own can’t bear to watch another’s heart shatter.

So she breaks it slowly, fractures it with each hesitation, with each answer she avoids. Worse this way, surely, more painful now and in the long run, and harder to forgive. Worse, surely, but it buys her time. She digs in her heels and begs for enough friction, enough strength to halt what she set in motion, to turn back and return to her course. Heels worn so thin already from the miles walked alone, body so tired from the weight born, heart already resigned.

To be loved by Waverly Earp forever would have been an honor and a privilege.

She folds the note into neat quarters. Runs her nail over each seam, over and over until the paper gives way. Leans forward and feeds it to the flame.

Steps on the stairs now. Hand brushing across her shoulders, lips to her neck. Come back to bed.

She leans into the touch, takes the hand, follows her upstairs. To do this every night, to walk hand in hand into peaceful darkness, heaven she had dreamed of, heaven she had nearly held.

She blinks back the regret, the longing for this moment in another time. Breathes deeply and tries to be here, to be present. Tries, for one more moment, to forget.

[iamthegaysmurf]

Not sure if you'll answer this, but: thoughts on season 4 of Wearp thus far? On ~that~ scene?

You know... I am actually feeling pretty good about S4 so far.  Which, to be honest, is a big surprise, trust me.  lol

Not to say that there aren’t definitely still some issues.  But I am saying this in comparison to S3, which...  quite frankly...  I am still super salty about.  So taking that into account, I feel like this season has been an improvement?  I am allowing myself to be very cautiously optimistic at this point.

I will say that pacing felt all over the place to me in the beginning.  Enough so to give me whiplash in a few places.  But I feel like part of that was a desperation to get the loose ends from S3 tied up so that they could finally settle into the new storyline for S4.  Not the best excuse in the world, but given the shorter season format, I suppose some of that is unavoidable.  The most recent episode -- 4x04 -- seemed like it was beginning to return to the clearer pattern of storytelling that was more reminiscent to the earlier seasons, so... I guess we’ll see how the pacing will progress from here.

Since you specifically asked about ~that~ scene, I guess I will start there.  I think it was beautiful, and emotional, and genuine, and I feel honored that we got to be a part of something like that.  It was respectful in all the ways that a scene created with the Male Gaze™ in mind is not, and that alone was incredibly important.  

Other things I am rather pleased about:

- Wynonna’s emotional growth.  I could cry with how happy it makes me to see her unafraid of embracing her feelings, and even going so far as to share them with others.  Letting people in and learning to lean on her family is only going to make her even stronger in the end.  I just want to hug her and tell her how proud of her I am.

- We are finally getting the Wynaught BROTP that we’ve been waiting for since the very beginning.  They had made so much progress in S2, and then the writers came in during S3 and forced this bullshit narrative of pettiness and sniping comments that were aimed to hurt rather than their typical banter that was meant to be playful.  It was the worst regression I’ve ever seen, and made me quite angry to see them constantly getting fucked over for the sole purpose of “ooo...  drama...”  I mean, seriously.  Fuck off with that shit.  

But for everything they did wrong last season, they are doing all of it right this season.  Canon Best Friends!  Emotional vulnerability with each other!  Genuine love and relief when they were reunited!  And I feel like it’s going to be Wynonna that eventually breaks through to Nicole (re: her PTSD), because Wynonna is in the unique position of having gone through similar traumas before, and will be able to understand Nicole’s struggles in a way that no one else quite can.  ((More on this in my next point.))

- Nicole’s PTSD is very real, and is not being swept under the rug.  That’s not to say that Nicole isn’t trying to ignore it and clearly deflects the subject any time it’s been brought up, but that doesn’t mean the show and the other characters are ignoring it.  The fact that she can’t return Waverly’s “I love you” right now, and how she’s using kisses and sex to distract Waverly every time she tries to bring it up...  Speaking as someone with experience, Nicole’s blatant avoidance is a very real thing that happens, regardless of how unhealthy of a coping mechanism it is.  

And as for what I said about Wynonna before...  By no means do I think that Waverly isn’t doing a good enough job of trying to be there for Nicole.  She’s tried on several occasions to coax a conversation out of her, but at least when Nicole shuts her down, she doesn’t just give up.  She recognizes her distress and tries to give her what she needs in the moment:  going with her to check the traps, or telling her to go back home and check on Rachel because she can tell how distraught she is about it, or even allowing Nicole to work out her feelings through physical means.

But I think in this instance, it's going to be Wynonna that eventually gets through to her.  Because sometimes -- no matter how much they love you -- it is not always your romantic partner that can help the way you need it.  Sometimes a best friend is the one that has to break through and help you open up to the others that you love.  And with Wynonna...  All of that shit she went through when she was younger -- when people thought she was crazy -- she's able to see what's happening to Nicole in a way that no one else can.

Other things I am less than pleased about:

Basically, the primary thing here is the potential for another possession storyline.  How many times do we have to watch the same goddamn trope over and over again?  

And now we have two separate possibilities for it running at the same time:  

1) Eve is definitely loose and will definitely show up again at some point.  Currently, I think she’s posing as Amon.  But who’s to say how long that will last?  How long before we have her strolling down the street as Nicole again, or Waverly, or even Wynonna herself, and suddenly, every single scene we watch is just a whole bunch of “well, one of the people in that scene wasn’t who they said they were, so now nothing is real.”  UGH.  We’ve already done this with Mikshun and Maeve and, to an extent, with everyone being glamored by vampires and under their sway.  I am intrigued to see what kind of storyline possibilities Eve could present, but if this is where they go with it?  NO THANK YOU.

2)  Nicole is now... what?  Possessed by a Creepy Clanton?  Sold her soul to further the line of the Clanton heirs?  *sigh*  Here we go again...  

Anyway.  Sorry for rambling.  Apparently I’ve had a lot of feelings about this season thus far that I hadn’t really processed into coherent thoughts yet.  Lucky you, I guess.  lol

[74flawsasofyesterday]