#we'll see i guess ✌

[hiding-under-the-willow]

"And on the pedestal, these words appear: My name is Ozymandias, King of Kings; Look on my Works, ye Mighty, and despair! Nothing beside remains. Round the decay Of that colossal Wreck, boundless and bare The lone and level sands stretch far away.”

Or. In other words. I want everything Abbot built to crumble. Starting with Johnny getting tf out of there.

[orcelito]

Yesterday i left early by 45 mins and today I stayed late by 45 minutes. Balance exists in the world

[murumokirby360]

My first ever Android Smartphone - Busted (Cherry Mobile Jelly) [feat. my Paper Dolls]

DeviantART version → [CLICK ME!]

Hello, August... 🏫🎒 It's been a rough and depressing month for me from nothing to earn funds for myself, to struggling with my life staying at home. 😟😞 Although I do occasionally go outside to get some fresh air when the sun is bright, it remains the same. 😔 I'm still stuck on my mom's slow-performance laptop, and I can't make item reviews because of the aforementioned laptop. 👩💻 Meanwhile, I'm still browsing some job openings, though the only problem was the "lack of trustworthy". I did apply once and I was going to go anyway, however, my mom investigated the details of where the venue at for a schedule, and it turns out that the job that I applied for was a sham... Yeah, I dodged the bullet on going there owning to my flashbacks of what happened in 2019. *Sigh* So much for that... 😟 I wish this type of fraud job would be ended by the time the government and authorities caught red-handed on fake application jobs. Right now, I've already applied for a job by submitting a resume to legit hiring via email, and to this day nobody answered my call. I'm still a helper for my parents' small rug business, although they didn't give me a raise, but small treats and food. Also, I'm selling my scrap computer parts, unfortunately, nobody seemed to be interested in my items... Bummer. 😔

[I want a end my life... But, I refused to kill myself. Not yet... 😟😞]

Should I keep posting and sharing my items on tumblr? 🤔 I'm still thinking about it, but for now this could be my last item... As we hit the first "Ber" month (September 📆), I need to take a break from posting it until my custom PC desktop brought back to life with a brand new GPU Card. 🖥️🔧

Anyway, let's head back to my last item (before I go *semi* hiatus):

• What I have here is my first ever cheap Android Smartphone after I graduated from vocational college [Computer Programing] in 2014. 👨‍🎓🏫💻 This here is the "Cherry Mobile Jelly". 🤖📱 Actually, it's now simply called "Cherry" which we'll get to that later. Nonetheless, I bought this cheap and small smartphone for ₱ 2,299 💵 from a local trustworthy cellular phone store at the mall, I should it picked the blue color because I loved that color for life 💙, although it is out of stock so I guess I'll settle with green anyway. 🟩📱🤷‍♀️ (After all, green signifies an android phone, right? 🟩🤖📲 Nonetheless...) As for the specs of this phone, it is pretty low-profile standard considering that this is a budget-friendly smartphone. Here, go see it by click here → [CLICK ME! #1]. Unfortunately, as you can see, my first cheap smartphone ended in 2015 due to poor quality, as I accidentally fell off my phone numerous times causing it to crack the touch screen (not to mention, the battery phone had bloated.), and my Jelly phone ended its life. It was only a matter of time before my old phone was replaced by the outdated "Samsung Galaxy S Duos 2" [GT-S7582] (which was also decommissioned somewhere in 2019). As for the so-called "Cherry" brand, they're still producing smartphones albeit a small ranges because they've already expanded to daily electronic appliances (e.g. slim smart TV, washing machine, air purifier, etc...). Pls, click here to see → [CLICK ME! #2]. One more thing, the only feature really I missed from using the old Cherry Mobile Jelly is the ability to watch TV by raising the mini antenna and opening the TV app, as you've seen on my snapshot. 📺📲😊

• When it comes to comparison with my current Tecno Spark 20 Pro [CLICK ME!] smartphone, well... You noticed the BIG difference. 📱📲 To be honest, I missed holding a small Android smartphone, as holding it could be a very advantage (which is like holding an old MP4 player) over a tall and bulky smartphone, like my aforementioned Tecno mobile brand. 😊 And surprisingly, they're still producing small smartphones albeit in ✌"Made in China"✌ and they're using a vanilla yet recent Android Operating System, unlike Samsung, Huawei, Oppo, Xiaomi, and other giant smartphone brands with their state-of-the-art features and current running Android OS. Maybe someday I'll get my hands on the small Android phone for a nostalgic sake? Who knows? 🤷‍♀️ For now, though, I guess I'll stick with the taller smartphones. And as for my first ever owned cheap Android phone, it's already a relic of its time. Time for you to return to the memorabilia box. 🙂

Well, that's all for now. If you want to see my previous topic, then please → [CLICK ME!].

Tagged: @bryan360, @shadowredfeline, @leapant, @lordromulus90, @coda-archive, @sammirthebear2k4, @alexander1301

[yoiku]

Ah i went longer than i thought so i'll put it under a

Got my invitation to an evaluation process that's supposed to give some clarity on my capability for work, on that lovely official government and welfare level. It's going to take 6-11 days of filling forms and talking with a plethora of people from different areas of expertise. I am going to be absolutely knackered. Part of me wants to be hopeful that I'd get some viable options to aim for from it, but at the same time I fully expect to be met with a group of social and medical professionals that are truthfully only interested in making the statistics look nice. I was told they often work with neurospicy people, which i guess is supposed to make me feel reassured. I dunno. I know they will try to get me to go study for "a new career path" again firsthand. But I dont have the spoons to go to school again. Maybe if it was something that lasted a year at max and could have reasonable pacing. Oh, and actually interest me. The only thing that comes to mind that I'd love to learn how to do aside from any art stuff and could maybe be a job i'd be able do, is building and taking apart computers. I like tinkering. and it's kinda on the cusp of not being too taxing physically. I actually had some plans of my own i wanted to look more into with the people there, but the most recent government decisions concerning unemployment welfare just fucking gutted all of it. Honestly the things those rich right wing shitstains sitting in government have been deciding this year have made me think of giving up on any future plans and just waiting in welfare limbo until i am allowed some sort of retirement. But i guess that would mean I let them win. If I one day end up committing tax fraud just because I am not allowed to even try to make some scraps of income on my own on the side while i struggle with unemployment and health issues, then my consciousness is crystal clear. I am trying to survive and have something to live for ✌

Anyway hopping back on the rails, we'll see how all that evaluation goes. Fingies crossed it's at least worth something.

[lightlycareless]

Naoaki getting on my last nerve fr bro first of all he got in yn face after learning that she was tending to her actual husband and freaked out then proceeded to try and kiss her after learning about his brother being sick and his wife being with him and not gonna lie that reaction was suspicious as hell it gave off "I have to rush this up quick to have an advantage" kinda vibe do you get me? Honestly honestly if I was yn like if I was in the story this wouldn't happen yk like the minute he tries to kiss me I'd put my hands up and start swinging call the cops or something Cuz we ain't cheating in here even if naoya's a piece of shit we don't do that in this household also why he keeps tabs on her when he's not there? He thinks he's yn husband💀😂 like I'm reading and I'm ashamed because it's so embarrassing who does he think he is just because yn be friendly and all blush and bashful doesn't mean you can think you're entitled to know what she doing where she is and all that and I know I just know mf is lying because in one of the previous chapters he texted naoya something condescending about yn like watch your wife or put a leash on her I don't really remember but something like that. Also I feel so bad for naoya no matter what he does he fails and he tried his best he really did :( first time in 38 chapters that I want naoya to get what he wants and for yn to see him and his efforts and consider it because honestly the way you portrayed his heart break I think my heart broke too like she was hard so on him really really hard so I guess now I'm a naoya defender now but still he can't be forgiven until he apologizes and makes amends with yn for the things he put her through that was not cool i guess I'm yn naoya defender let's go ✊✌

Heya anon!!!

We all turned into Naoya defenders at this point tbh.

I have to admit that as much as I adore Naoaki, that move was distasteful, ill-timed, unrequited, so on and so forth 😂 would make anyone believe he's jealous of the time Y/N is spending with Naoya tbh. And he probably was lol. He's really protective of her given all that happened, so I can imagine he wasn't all too happy of learning what was going on, even afterwards.

Doesn't excuse his behavior, but yeah lol.

As for Naoya... same. I kind of felt bad for him but at the same time I was like "sir... what were you expecting?" he's still out there blaming literally anything else but the root of all evil. Y/N wasn't just acting like that because of her family, it was the culmination of everything!

Hopefully, we'll see more stuff regarding that next chapter :> I hope everything I've written makes that one scene worth it!!!!!!!!!

Anyways, thank you so much for reading the story!!! We're getting very close to my favorite... arc I guess. ajkljsglaskgl It was the slow build up, but it just had to happen for everything to make sense hehe.

Have a wonderful week, take care, and hope to see you soon!!

[mellow-melodies]

Dec 15, 10 PM

Ayyy I'm back at it again, trying to journal digitally. Haven't done this in a while so hi. To anyone reading this (gosh I hope no one's reading this /hj) hi.

Not doing much atm, watching arcane alone in the living room while messing around on Quotev and Tumblr. Good news is I got a shower today. I'd been too tired to take a shower for a few days so I was glad I could.

I feel a lot calmer now, guess just a shower can do wonders. Today's been..kinda shit honestly but it's okay now.

I kinda miss journaling on Quotev, might do that today too, but it kinda takes a lot of brain power to write in two journals. We'll see ig. The journal I had over there inspired me to journal here, actually. Piece of lore you didn't know but now you do. Really I was afraid Quotev would shut down and I wouldn't have somewhere to journal anymore. Thankfully it's still up; it's got lots of important shit for my writing and characters too, and I don't have the mental energy to move it somewhere else, believe me, I tried. So Quotev better not fucking die on me.

Also was wondering if I should redecorate this blog? Probably will. I've got a few ideas but nothing specific. I just think it could look a little nicer or at least different. I've left this blog alone so long that this isn't really my style anymore. I'll probably stick with the same general grunge/nature vibe, but maybe I'll lean a little more into a cryptid thing. Idk yet.

Also I swear I will kill something if my parents call transgender men "disheartening" or "unnatural" or "sad" one more FUCKING TIME. What's really disheartening is how they can't accept anything fucking different than they are.

Watching the Isha Fucking Dies scene and I'm totally not about to cry. Before my sister pointed out how in her memories the under city looks so bright and clean and happy because that was her view of it with Jinx. Jinx made her world look so much brighter. Dude it's killing me /hj.

And "That which inspires us to our greatest good is also the cause of our greatest evil" is such a good fucking line.

11:10 PM

Another thing I found was super interesting was how Powder in the other universe was so afraid of losing herself and what made her who she is by chasing her dreams. I just never thought of it that way. I take myself on adventures and find myself along the way. It helps me learn about how I react to things and what I'll feel. I almost feel like opposite of what Powder described, like if I don't have something new to do I'll never find myself or figure myself out. If I'm not interacting with new things there's nothing new to discover or observe about myself. And I like that I'm always changing. I didn't always like it, but I do now. If I wasn't always changing, I think I'd get bored of my own company pretty fast. And right now all I have is my own company, so I have to keep myself entertained somehow.

I'm not a lesbian but when Mel transforms into a mage....augxvugvdyvcgwydg holy shit holy shit wtf she's so pretty ohmigosh. (I'm definitely a lesbian.)

1:00 AM

Showing my sister The Art Of Murder since I really like it and I'm hoping she likes it :333 She seems to think it's funny so that's a win in my book. She was laughing at some of Sosuke's lines.

~ 3:00 AM

Just gonna post this whenever. Keep forgetting to so yeah. Peace out ✌

[lady-of-the-spirit]

I am this close to just naming the second protagonist in Ryoko's story "Ten" because I cannot think of a name for them and can't think of a name that would suit them better AND for the hilarity of the ageless immortal former Queen of the Heavens warrior death god Ryoko to be like "this is my traveling companion, Ten." And point to the tall scrawny person beside her who just waves and smiles and is happy to be here.

("I'm her best friend," Ten says.

"You are my traveling companion," Ryoko says stubbornly, glaring at them. "At best you are a colleague."

"I'm her best friend," Ten grins and whispers to the person they're speaking to. "She'll admit it one of these days. Yesterday she actually gave me a glass of water instead of telling me to get it myself or getting a glass of ice.")

[altruistic-meme]

SO BASICALLY

I went to my oldest sister's house to watch a show with her, Liz, and our mom. (who I have not seen in 2 weeks, due to Circumstances and Stuff. very important.) and literally almost as soon as I got there, Liz decided to launch into the story about how she got a job (we won't get into the fact that. she's suppose to HAVE a job with her bf and no one knew she was looking for one) all without even saying hey to me.

which is fine, whatever. so once she's done with that part of the study, she mentioned a bookstore. my mom asks what bookstore. she said [name of store] and my mom said she didn't know that one. cue oldest sister and Liz launching into a back and forth explanation/ conversation of the bookstore.

au some point during this, my mother lands forward and says surely to me, "hi" do I say "hello" back because, keep in mind, I have not seen my mother in 2 WEEKS and literally the moment I walked into the house, Liz decided to launch into a story, so I didn't get to greet my mother who I haven't seen in 2 weeks. so perfectly normal interaction.

only Liz evidently loses her mind at the fact that for .2 seconds, she wasn't the center of attention. because as soon as I say hello back to our mom, she goes into her bs "nevermore then, since you obviously aren't interested in what I was saying then I just won't talk to anyone at all" tactic to turn all the attention back on her. because since my mother quietly said hi to me while liz and oldest sister talked between the two of them, suddenly that means no one was paying Any Attention to Her At All and that means she gets to have a bitchy attitude.

so she and my mom go back and forth for a minute about it, like always when liz decides to use this tried and true manipulation technique that she uses all the goddamn time when attention shifts away from her for a half a second, and liz snaps something about "no, go ahead and talk to your favorite"

which is ??????? because literally what the fuck???? like um first of all, yeah, maybe she does want to talk to me some since, once again, it had been 2 WEEKS, and she sees you all the goddamn time. second of all, she literally ONLY said "hi", and proceeded to prove that she HAD been paying attention to you so when she said it, by repeating back what you had just said!!! third of all, it was just an uncalled for?? thing to say??? like??? she listened to your story that you decided tl wait until I showed up to tell, and didn't even fucking greet me when I came inside, and she took a moment to say hi when you were talking with oldest sister??? and you're going to fucking say "talk to your favorite" as of saying "hi" to me somehow proves she likes me more than liz.

anyway I'm still like "what the actual fuck is wrong with her" because. really. there was no reason to get the attitude she did, be a bitch the way she was, and to say such bullshit things with no,, actual reason for it.

so yeah my sister has lost her shit apparently

[aficklemuse]

I see we are starting discourse about people coming back to tumblr from other websites. I'm not sure if it's going to be as dramatic as some think. I still to this day hear people saying things on twitter like "tumblr is dead." So they may not even realize there is a tumblr to come back to. We'll see, I guess. All I know is I'll be here until they pull the plug on this popsicle stand. ✌

[imjustaneggsandwich]

I find myself scroll on through the bpd, adhd, depression, spiritual side of tiktok most days. And honestly.. I believe doctors are so quick to diagnose an individual with bpd. To me, as I watch these clips, it just sounds like we're all really traumatized man...we all have fucked up abandonment issues, trust issues, self loathing, lack of self worth, we don't see our purpose most days... it's hard to carry a healthy monogamous relationship in this world of social media so some of our souls are tormented due to the unconditional love we desire to give one person. Amongst all the other scatter in our brains we battle with on our own, right? So I guess if we're technical here, aren't we all a little bpd, then? I firmly believe my generation was purely traumatized. Not all, I guess. But the ones I see, we got the short end of the stick and have had to break generational curses and stop toxic cycles.

I'm a firm believer of energy and the spiritual awakening. I never believed in a "death" and well, that's all folks. I think we're all many different kinds of entities and for whatever reason I, myself, am on earth this time around.

I truly feels answer's to that👆 is right before my eyes but they're just out of my reach, they're still slightly blurry. Make sense. Like I am so close to knowing, I can feel it. I feel charged by it. It's like a movie you watch a 1,000 times and some unknown reason you forget the title or a favorite part 0r character. It boggles your mind, right? You start to obsess over it until you find your answer?

Maybe, I don't know. I wrote this during my lunch, which is now over. Perhaps we'll continue later.

Tootles. ✌

[pixelins]

Been doin a whole lot of college work lately but i have a big hand in next week which i c a n n o t w a i t f o r ✌ thinking of goin back and re-drawing some if my way old pixel stuff just to start the year off? Any suggestions? Oh also im planning on learning cross stitch this year we'll see how that works out i guess