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GET THESE BITCHES A ROOM
#god these past few chapters really reminded me how feral yoojin is#hes not holding back the s-classes they are all holding HIM back and LOSING#GET THIS MAN LOCKED DOWN STAT#[lowkey spoilers ahead->]#BECAUSE WHY THE FUCK HE JUST JUMP SHJ AND START PULLING HIS HAIR LIKE THAT OUT THE BLUE CALM DOWN GIRL#I KNOW WE FACING ANOTHER BREAK UP ARC BUT PLEASE CALM DOWN YOU’RE SCARING THE KIDS AND SONG TAEWON#GIRL YOU ARE CUTTING YOUR HAVNDS ONTHAT S-CLASS HAIR ITS NOT WORTH IT PLEASE#everyone just panicking around him was the cherry on top too like 😭😭😭#they really all watching this tiny ass man pounce a man 2 meters tall and hanging on like an angry chihuahua#absolutely BEFUDDLED BECAUSE WHO TF DOES THAT 😭😭😭#HOW DO YOU EVEN REACT IN THIS SITUATION GIRL I WOULD BE LOST TOO 😭🙏🙏#WHATS FUCKED UP IS I SAW FANART FOR THAT SCENE AND THOUGHT IT WAS JUST A JOKE OR SOMETHING NAH IT’S CANON LIKE?????#whats absolutely wild is seeing the build up in yoojins thoughts being like#‘i should pull this bitch’s hair out- make him bald see what happens’ completely thinking the man is joking#before he fucking POUNCES LIKE AN ANGRY TINY DOG#FULL COMMITMENT AND EVERYTHING#CHAIN THIS BITCH UP PLEASE 😭🙏🙏#tsctir#jinjae#sctir#han yoojin#sung hyunjae#tsctir spoilers#also anyone who recognizes what i based that first image off of gets a gold star
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when your main characters start dating after years of writing so they finally get to be like this
#rare WIP preview from me#this is in like. 10 episodes. lmfao#its been really hard working this far ahead#my editor isnt giving me any feedback and my friends are very busy so it's felt quite lonely#which is fine! for my friends I mean. but its my editors job to give me feedback...#but the webtoon editors are extremely extremely extremely overworked and my series is set to end so I understand its low priority#its not her fault its webtoons fault. however. its still demotivating...#oh well l m a o#I should be much further ahead ngl LMFAO I want like 12 done but I come back in 2 weeks.#we'll see#when I get really stressed out I go full gamer mode#and usually I'll sink like 60 hours (like 5 days) into a game and then I'm good and move on#but this recent game that grabbed me is. its too much actually#bit uncontrollable ngl I think its an ADHD thing I mostly have just quit playing videogames at all#cause its like yeah being stressed cause theres too much work to do is not going to be helped by losing a week and a half to a game...#and yet.#anyways the game is satisfactory#my friend bought it for me and we've been playing together#and our shared file has. 100 hours on it. and we still havent beaten the game#we're close to beating it and it's not like we're rushing or anything#cause its fun to fuck around and zap eachother or whatever#but it's got me doing math. the exact kind of math I love to do. optimization#and its reminding me yeah in another life id have been an engineer#I'm glad I'm an artist but its always weird like yeah this is easily a path I could have gone down#'artists hate math' speak for yourself doing math calms me down! I love math!#I love math and I love business. I'm almost the perfect artist but I hate advertising so. we can't have it all#anyways theyre so fucking cute its sickening. I love them so much. I could cry#WIP#lineart#time and time again
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https://x.com/mireiaok/status/1757150447284977795?s=46&t=Y0Md76L8FR9umM1nmCkHnQ
the guy with the glasses’s reaction 😭😭😭
The man was getting first class entertainment I'm jealous 😭😭😭 Gavi's so energetic even as a spectator he can't just sit still and watch I love him 😭😭
#it kills me how Felix tries to calm him down after he got too excited with the hdp 😭😭😭#I think we (and Spain) should really consider making him assistant coach until he recovers#at least he'll make the games fun again 😭😭#I really missed his big ass personality ☹️#pablo gavi#baby waby#joao felix#fc barcelona#also you can really tell Vitor isn't used to his antics yet 😭😭
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do you think Branch would still feel somewhat uncomfortable around his Bros in the future? Due to being so unfamiliar with being a part of a family? 😞😞😞😞
even tho they seemed like they were willing to try at being a family again at the end of TBT but obviously 20 something years is a Hell of a long time and in Branch's case it was pretty much his whole life.
so do you think there'd still be a level of tension and uncomfortability?
like maybe we see the other Bros just playing happy families seemingly easily slotting back into their old dynamic while of course having fun sharing the newer parts of their lives with each other.
but maybe Branch would still feel somewhat uncomfortable about it even if he isn't exactly sure why or maybe he even straight up has a touch of imposter syndrome feeling like he doesn't belong in the family or any kind of family for that matter.
given he spent nearly his entire life as a loner so I can't imagine suddenly being expected to slot into a a big family would be all that easy kinda different from the other Bros where they all mostly grew up together.
and even after splitting apart went on to still have close people in their lives Bruce obviously had his wife and later children Clay had Viva and the rest of the Putt Putt Trolls.
and while Floyd doesn't have any cannon relationships I imagine he was a fairly sociable person who at least had close friends over the years.
only exception is JD given he also lived mostly alone for all those years with only Rhonda for company but he still Grew up with the Brothers and their Grandma up until he was likely a late teenager/young adult.
so I feel Branch would very likely be the one who'd have the Hardest time adjusting to just suddenly being a part of a large family again or any kind of family at all really.
what do you think? do you think there'd still be some awkwardness/uncomfortableness from Branch when it comes to his Family in the future?
I find this stuff interesting to think about lol I Really got my Fingers crossed we do get that Christmas Special in the future and they explore something like this since it'd be a pretty good chance to do so if it does take place around Bro zone's first Christmas back together as a family.
Branch straight up lived by himself as an orphan for most of his life so having him just be all okay and easily adjusting to having 4 Brothers back in his life would be disappointing tbh.
#brozone#trolls brozone#trolls 3#branch trolls#branch#trolls dreamworks#trolls band together#trolls branch#dreamworks trolls#trolls#I really gotta see Branch struggling to adjust to the whole family life in a future Holiday Special as it'd be Emotional AF.#like the Bros are all around for Christmas Dinner and Branch just gets overwhelmed with it all since he's so used to the peace and quiet.#that he's had for all those years and he just kinda breaks down eventually thinking back to all the Christmases he spent alone.#and maybe he sorta tries to give up on his Bros stating that it was a mistake for them to be there.#and that he just isn't the sorta person who's meant to be part of a family and he in a teary eyed but calm way asks them all to leave.#tho the Bros don't and instead keep trying to get through to Branch who's just adamant that them trying to be a family again was a mistake.#and they should just leave. anyway like I said a Bro zone special has a lot of emotional potential.#and I really hope we see Branch struggling to adjust in the future to suddenly having a family for the first time since he was a little kid#it'd be so sweet and emotional 😢😢😢😢
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I have to ask: solavellan or solrook?
Nah, secret third option: Rookvellan.
Rook and Lavellan get together to spite Solas—they're turning that regret prison into a cuck prison.
I'm just saying, I think the idea of "solavellan vs solrook" is missing out on the potential MESS of a love triangle with Lavellan at the center. Why pit Rook and Lavellan against each other for Solas—who, let's be honest, doesn't deserve either of them—when they could kiss instead? Hmmm??
What's Solas gonna do about it? Cry?? Good!
Okay, I'm mostly kidding.
But seriously? I have no foot in that race. I'm not a solavellan girlie, and my current Rook is Carver who bullies Solas as much as the game will actually allow him to, so...
I have read fics for both, though. I have this thing where I'll get curious about certain ships, especially ones I see pop up a lot while I'm browsing. Then I read a bunch of fics on AO3 for "research" ...term used loosely, it's mostly just for fun and to see what the hype is about, what tropes writers attach to the characters/ship, etc.
But yeah, I'm still not the best person to ask about that. I'm just an observer.
#asks#dav#datv#veilguard#solavellan#solrook#i actually read a solrook fic a while ago that was really good like very entertaining with a likable rook#the rook and solas banter was fun. i binge read all the chapters..... but then we got to the smut#and i was like oh... damn it why's solas always such a dom. it wasn't badly written by any means but dom solas just isn't my thing#i can't take him seriously as a dom okay so I dunno what I expected... what you're the dread wolf? an ancient elven god?? and???#yes solas is a very interesting and complex character and i understand the appeals of solavellan and solrook respectfully....#i'm just saying... being a sub builds character solas. maybe you should try getting pegged by lavellan or rook and you'll calm down#god i hope no one ever reads these tags because i've seen how intense people get about solavellan/solrook#and i dunno if they'll appreciate me being so unserious about all of this haha
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ARCANE DAY
Episode 4 and 5 in the tags and:
SALO BEING A VIKTOS FOLLOWER??? CRAZY. ALSO BOTH VIKTOR MISSING JAYCE AJDHSKSJ also cait has kinda calmed down... and I am sure she misses vi so I KNOW this is going to happen to her soon.... we aren't getting much of her feelings yet... she's still too onto Jinx to catch up on where ambessa is going...
DID JAYCE JUST KILL SALO??? WHAT HAPPENED IN THERE
Also vander not recognizing vi at first until she gives up fighting.... incredible ALSO vander and silco being miners and vi wearing her gauntlets that were initially thought out for miners.... damn
This is my favourite episode so far....
Episode 6 here:
Sky really being there..... of course she is....
Ambessa training caitlyn.... of course thats her new daughter akdjskms Tunnels in your eyes.... GIRL!!!!!!! THAT'S WHAT YOU DON'T NEED RIGHT NOW also the guy outside is a mage... ambessa is such a hypocrite
Vi and Jinx vs ambessa and cait.... this was always about class war don't get it twisted SINGED!!! TRAITOR!!!!
ARE THEY GOING TO SEE VIKTOR???? I looove how viktors touch on their faces leave "scars" so recognizable
Did isha just take the gem from vi's gauntlets??? Omg I wasn't expecting viktor to build a hippie commune to be honest omg he looks so good.... with the blonde underhairs.... and I do believe that's the same blanket....
And of course viktor knows who vander is.... nvm he diesnt know omg viktor asking for Powder.....
We are getting viktor horsegirl montage.... omg the vander momtage I can't..... omg they wanna stay.... singed is gonna fuck all this up NOOOOO 😭😭😭 they are already there I am going to kms
CAITLYN STOP THIS MADESSS!!! ✋️ CAITLYN!!!!! VI KILL THIS MAN!!! OMG CAITLYN...... mongoose... yeah.... and fuck you too.... CUPCAKE!!!! ABOUT TIME!!!! CAITLYN I SAID STOP THIS MADNESS WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT!!! And jayce too 😭😭😭 we're never making it out of the fissures
It's such a shame the spit on here won't work like on challengers.... one can only pray I guess
Jinx experiencing the "there's nothing more undoing as a daughter" moment.... incredible
"Your absence provided a vacuum I was able to fill" TO VI???? I KNEW THAT HAND HOLDING IN THE COMMANDER SCENE WAS SUS AKDHKASJ maddie exists and ambessa knows that and still.... it was not filling her mother's void...
YES CAITLYN!!! YES!!!!! VI is so hot I am distracted... ambessa was right.... now what the fuck will jayce fuck up??? Thats the question... NOT ANOTHER CHILD!!! jayce is a menace... the guys smiling at jayce are viktor... maybe the child even....
JINX KILL THAT MAN!!! NVM VANDER KILL THAT MAN!!! JAYCE YOU FUCKING MORON!!!!! JAYCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE WHEN I GET YOU JAAAYCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Isha what are you going to do omg 😭😭 did she kill vander... another powder... my god another week...
That was such a good fucking episode too.... and caitlyn didn't go insane when finding Jinx that is a step forwards but viktor can't be dead... no fucking way... he was giving himself away for the people and he was going to finally die by saving vander and look at what we got... no wonder viktor hates his guts. Jayce you were so good in act one.... what happened..... alright. Christ.... another week....
#FUCKING MADDIE?????????????? NO FUCKING WAYYYYYYYYYY#fucking maddie??? yes she is fucking her. christ. jinx was right vi should have hit before all of that.... maddie bet her to it 😭😭😭#i have tears in my eyes aldjaodjsk no fucking way what the heeeeeeell ooooh my goooood nowaaayyaaayyyaaaayyyy#and cait looks so pretty....... she is still focused on jinx.....#omg isha..... jinx gave up jinx??? what...... ambessa is making hextech... so jayce is still missing.... well she is trying#and mel is still missing too.... christ and ekkos friend is sympathetic to jinx... mmhmhmmmmm also ambessa clocks everything aldjakaj#cait has calmed down.... what is happening... she is now only violent towards jinx i guess. ambessa is opening that wound over and over oof#THE MIDDLE FINGER AKDBAKSBKANSKA sevika is unifying the underground i knew it!!! yes!!!! jinx show up!!!!#cait paying homage to her mother while rictus beats up some guy.... her suffering meking her an enabler to those actions... yeah#oh no..... they know.... isha lighting the fire like jinx did.... sevika getting her arm cut... ISHA BEAT HIM UUUP!!! JINX!!!! omg singed..#enforcer vi becoming part of her hallucinations... its so over... also silco... jinx kill this man. not ambessa... omg jinx run....#she likes iiiit yeeeeahhhh.... ekkos friend... . and THE BROTHEL LADY... SHE KNOWS WHO SHE IS!!! SHE IS SO GLAD!!! WARWICK!! FUCK SHIT UP!!#OMG HE RECOGNIZES HER!!!!! HE SPEAKS!!!!! WHAT A FUCKING MASSACRE OUTSIDE BUT HE DOES RECOGNIZE HER!!!!#CALL VIIIII THROW A PARTY WE ARE A FOUR PEOPLE HOUSEHOLD NOW!!! FIVE WITH SEVIKA!!! COME ON AT LEAST TRY!!!#his eyes changing color... singed you are nothing compared to a fathers love... jinx complaining about not really having killed powder....#she didnt and vander recognises that.... amazing omg........#THE CAIT IN BED HALLUCINATION AND JINX THERE!!!! its so weird seeing them both like this.... jinx wanting to help him.... ofc...#THEY GOT VANDER???? also you know whats funny... the cape makes cait look like silco... it looks red even#why is singed based.... OMG MEL!!! HER BROTHER!!!!! OH MY GOD VIIII LOOKS SO GOOOD!!!! HER GAUNTLETS ARE PAINTED BLACK TOO AKDBAKS#bitch mittens (not even diy) damn vi she got you hard THE BITCH SLAP omg vi... your big sister duties...#singed actually venering vander.... do not help the opressor singed!! i just said you were based!!! IS MEL PREGNANT?!?!??!#she does enjoy her puzzles..... oh of course he is an hallucination.... the first time he appeared behind her....#silco and vanders old hq..... omg MORE DOOMED YAOI...... vander apologised but silco didn't read the letter 😭😭 as vi reaches for jinx omg#vi wearing her enforcer plaque without the plaque.... slay but why. no vander no loke he is a dog akdhaksj IS VANDER THEIR ACTUAL FATHER#NO FUCKING WAY A LOVE TRIANGLE AND EACH ONE GETS OME DAUGHTER AIDHOQSJOSAKL i need a fucking moment....#well its not vanders.... BUT THE SAME CUP AND STRAW FOR POWDER OMG!!! THE FATHERS THAT STEPPED UP!!!CONNEL GET RECKT!!!!#bedrock and blisters my fucking god. vander and silco wanting to build a better zaun for her daughters... AND JINX AND VI ARE GONNA MAKE IT#vander looking at the woman she likes whos hair is purple: ive always liked the name violet. im going to be sick!!!! my god!!!#MY GOOOOOD!!!!!!! VANDER HUGGING VI!!! THE SHOT OF HER OFFERING JINX TO JOIN WILL END MEE!!!!#watching arcane
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i feel like reading/watching mbf immediately means knowing who i am as a person and... i cannot allow this
#you all know that i can't stand gatekeeping and how that's why i bring up what i like all the time in various contexts#but the surprising thing with mbf for me is that i can't talk about it as freely to people who don't know me#because i can't find a way to translate it without having to offer some crucial segment of myself#i enjoy sharing ideas and thoughts more than anything else but i don't like sharing me the person behind them#because i really cherish my individuality as something important in spite of where it takes me sometimes#i don't want to tarnish it!!!! i don't want even the smallest piece of it to be missing because i wouldn't know what to do anymore#i'll stick to typing out thoughts here and to my mom and to my med textbooks#but i must say it feels strangely refreshing to have something that is only my own this way because i always have to put myself out there#and this way i am not giving anyone the opportunity to twist it into something terrible about me#my spontaneous outbursts might ruin this for me though#letters from stephanie*#i dislike that i can't step outside of my own experiences with this like i usually do because art should be shared#this is suchhh a crazy person post#i think i finally get what my dad means when we fight about how i shouldn't say everything i think all the time#he doesn't want me to filter myself he wants me to preserve who i am from harm because stepping up sometimes won't help#who i'm trying to help but it will ruin me in some way even if it just makes me upset#i think that's how he manages to be calm without betraying himself?#he isn't lying he's just saying what he thinks when it matters and to those that matter#like most of the time i am right to single myself out but there is a particular shade of grey when i shouldn't do it#idk this is literally donna telling the dr YOU CAN STOP NOW.#realistically i just need someone to calm me down when my passions turn against me#overly personal post once again i am sooo sorryyyy look away
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Shifters - Part 3
In which they discover the dose limits on the experimental potions and some tension comes out as a result.
Part 1 Part 2
Some relevant reading as referenced in the argument:
"When you returned to the Ragnarok for one..."
"...or after you returned from your trip to the moon?"
"You asked the same of me once..."
"You really do have the most beautiful eyes, you know..."
(Part 4)
#ffxiv#gposers#ktisis pose#reshade#RalmaPresets#visual novel#wolnpc#wolgraha#R'alma/G'raha#R'alha#more fantasia shenanigans#this one got out of hand for sure lmao#it really should have been prose but here we are#i actually learned a lot about posing expressions by doing it this way so in the end i'm glad that i did#this is also where my wolship almost broke up actually#i was writing the script#and after R'alma got angry and started yelling#i realized that things were going to go VERY badly VERY quickly if they didn't calm down#so I stopped writing dialogue and had G'raha take a breath#oh boy am i glad that i did lmao#anyway. this is part 3 of 5 for this series#and then I still have several other VN series that jump off of this one#told you guys I have a lot of backlog to share here#I hope you guys are enjoying it
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good lord my inbox is a mess lmao
#listen. i'll give my opinion if you all really want it#(but i have a feeling i should be taking all these asks in bad faith because you are trying to be obnoxious)#(but you know. benefit of the doubt.)#anyway. i'm inclined to believe joe is at least slightly left of center due to his previous posts about#blm abortion and gun control#but he's also a rich white man#with very little stake in all of this#so i wouldn't be shocked if he votes for trump in the end#regardless like...i grew up in the midwest surrounded by football culture my whole life#i would be extremely naive to go into this fandom thinking that all the players have the same progressive beliefs that i do#i'm not here to act like they're all flawless human beings whose beliefs and actions we should emulate#that is very much not why i'm here#i'm here for the Narratives#and because these guys are pretty to look at#and it's fun to imagine them sucking and fucking and being emotionally tender with each other :)#turning off anons until everyone can calm down and grow up a bit 👌#if you are one of my anons who sends me joe'marr moments i've missed or haven't seen yet#and don't want to reveal yourself#you can still send me stuff and i'll protect your identity 👍
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(not quite logging back in just venting dont mind me <3 ill reply to everyone later mwah)
#i guess the worst thing about allllllll the times my mother tells me im crazy is that i know she's right lol#like the instant overwhelming need to sh whenever she says it or in fact every time we fight should be enough to confirm it 🤡#like i legit wont calm down until i physically hurt myself preferably also drawing blood. this is not Sane Person Behaviour#anyway whatsapp just spent a few minutes crying curled up on the floor in the kitchen pulling my own hair trying to ✨Not SH✨#because its stupid idiot motherfucking summer and everyone will See#and ended up doing it regardless lol#and its so funny cause like literally the moment i do it im perfectly fine and mentally and emotionally stable again 🥰😇#anyway i love my mom she's great but she did ruin my entire life and me as a person too#and basically all my adult problems can be easily traced back to my psychological nightmare of a childhood#except i cant blame her for that either because she didnt have it easy and she raised me on her own (and unmedicated too)#while my dad didnt really even get many occasions to ruin me on a fundamental level (like he sure did use those few chances he had but yknow#not nearly as many as my mom got)#so i cant just blame my mom and let feminism lose like that#anyway. she should never have had children and i there's nothing i regret more than her husband dying instead of me#ok logging back off byeeeeeeeeee
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i need everyone to understand that i am trying my best and i hate every second of it.
#🪟#[three of swords]#sorry i just need to complain don't worry about it.#everyone hates me and if they dont they will and i am going to die because of it and they're going to kill me and i will deserve it.#sighs okay i know that's not true everyone's telling me that's not true and i know. i know. it's just the avpd i /know/.#yes we have a facet who is self awareness i know im being irrational. however i am like mental illness personified so it's. hard.#we're trying so hard. oh my god it's so difficult and our trying looks like nothing is happening and it's never going to be enough and#okay. i /know/. not true. it's constantly just spiking and then trying to calm myself down. i wish the self-awareness made it easier!#it's a constant ''[REALLY BAD THOUGHT]'' ''no it's okay.'' ''[REALLY BAD THOUGHT]'' ''that won't happen'' ''[REALLY B#having to constantly catch myself. is that normal that can't be the normal experience this is excruciating.#if it turns out im holding more than one disorder im going to. okay i'm not going to do that. but i will handle it very badly.#nothing's even happening!! but whenever i think about us talking to people i want to vomit from anxiety? but i know it's not that bad but#im a skill with too many points. im only supposed to withdraw when our social battery is overwhelmed. im meant to remind us to take time#for ourselves when we need to. and i do that. but something fucked me up. im bad now im wrong im a detriment im too overwhelmed when i#shouldn't be i just keep wanting to withdraw and our intrusive thoughts get so /bad/ because of me and all im doing is hurting the system..#im trying im trying im trying i know facets in the system want to socialize good god im trying to let them.#but also i need to walk directly into the ocean until i fucking d#NO fuck AUGH it's so hard!! okay okay that's it im sorry im sorry i just had to. talk about it. don't worry this is fine it's fine.#sigh. okay. it's okay. i'm okay. god this'll probably last until tomorrow im sorry. and i know people are willing to wait for us#they shouldn't have to they should jjust fucking OKAY someone else take over please..
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im someone who stuggles not to let his curiosity and drive sometimes (often) cross over into an overwhelming and maladaptive need for answers, for explanation, for certainty. someone who, historically, sees making art as a primarily intellectual exercise. this is not inherently a bad thing, we all have our temperaments and this kind of attention can be a strength. but, you know that artist who makes a painting, and then only wants to show it while explaining it to you? thats me, sometimes, more often than i like. every story i used to write had another hundred page document behind it, explicating every single choice -- often i would simply read that, instead of ever actually write the story itself. the explanation precedes everything. the answers alone are the experience.
david lynch's work and philosphy has been and is a vital foothold in my efforts to learn to love the questions as our breath. learn to appreciate intuition and dreams, trust them instead of fear them. learn to see that the world has so much confusing, uncertain, strange beauty, that can be terrifying but turns sublime when you cease rejecting it from fear. when you embrace the unknown and dont try to immediately & anxiously explicate it all away, a whole new world opens up to you. that you need the darkness in order to dream, and you need dreams in order to live fully immersed in what the world has to offer. a foothold in learning to be okay with abstraction, with imperfect subjectivity, with uncertainty. to know it is not anthitetical to truth and meaning. know that to skillfully make ideas come alive into a work *is* to rationally pin them down, but that you cannot lose sight of the intuition they were born as.
his artistic intuition reminds me of what i need to have -- the trust and humility for experiencing the inexplicable and understanding that to be enough. a devotion to ideas and their realisation. a balancing force, for my endless inquiry -- to not forget to live the question in my the search for an answer. to allow some thing to go without clear or universal explanation, allow for some things to remain unresolved, allow for others to have that be their resolution. it's why his work equal parts captivates me and disturbs me -- i am very bad at this. but feel in my heart a need to get better at it. to be a better artist, a better thinker, a better searcher, a better person. you need to feel it, intuitively, quiet your endless noisy need for an answer and simply let it fill you up, let it resonate intuitively, and find in that how life makes sense to you and you alone. mediation, mindfulness, humility to sit with abstraction without trying to pin it down. more and more i try to understand this. some things don't need to make perfect sense. some things dont need answers, or their answers are not the point. some things dont need anything but to be experienced as they enter you -- like dreams do. that can lead you to the answer, and that can also be enough in itself. that can be just an intrinsic value in being alive to experience it. and so often, it is all in conversation with the search for joy. it's why he feels so captivating, so unique, so tremendously alive. why people use the word "visionary" when talking about him. because he knew how to use his medium in all the potential he could see, so that it let you live in the strangeness and questions. he understood them as sublime, he understood them as enough, he understood them as a joy. he understood them as beautiful. and his memory will remind me to do the same; always to seek the space to dream.
#(in dreams / oh in dreams / the snake will find its tail)#i am! a guy! who likes! answers!!#someone who resolves his fear of monsters in the closet by picking up a flashlight and brazenly throwing open the door!!#but at my worst i am also extremely anxious and thus avoidant!!#so i will resolve my fear of monsters in the closet by opening the doors wide and then simply pretending to see whats inside#searching for answers without the bravery to sit with questions#this makes me worse!! it makes me worse!!!!#thank you david lynch for reminding me over and over again that the way to stop being afraid of the dark#is to not stop at all#but instead embrace that disquiet. open the closet door wide as it will get. turn off the flashlight#and simply sit in front of it#observing -- simply observing -- whatever shapes emerge#letting them fill you up#and then doing something with them#also... man#lynch is one of the few things my mom and i almost completely agree on and could connect through#despite everything i feel like she gets this necessity for humility and curiosity and quieting down your need for answers#and not to get overshary on the tumblrs but it is a source of friction at times#because of my me and like. the abuse. i dont want someone whose failure of self knowledge gave me cptsd to tell me i should *think less*#but idk it's precious that through lynch we find a common ground in which to agree about it#i think i get what she was trying to tell me a little better now. or maybe what she would've liked to be trying to tell me#idk tldr i had a violent childhood where nothing made sense and everything was scary so now i struggle not to be desperate for#certainty and knowledge as protection. and the way i always found that was through art and philosophy so. yeah.#lynchs work helps me like... calm down a bit about that and do it better#to learn to love the strange and the confusing and the disquieting not see it always as a threat#to sit in the dark and see it for what it is. painful and beautiful. tender and hard. its deeply relieving. its good#hole in the world dude im gonna miss him really bad all i can feel rn is sadness gratitude and joy#forever in dreams#david lynch#mine
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I apologize if this is like weird or anything so just ignore this if it bothers you, but all this talk about palewear and quadrant holidays is reminding me of this one joke I saw once where it was something like "marriage counselors are just Ashen prostitutes," and now I can't stop thinking about what it would look like in Alternian society for prostitutes of the conciliatory quadrants.
Like every time I just start cracking up bc like how would that even work. If you have an established business how do you advertise that. If you're trying to attract clients with how you dress in public what's the difference between wearing something that *suggests* your line of work vs the conciliatory equivalent of standing in the middle of Walmart in lingerie. I guess how you'd view stuff paleways would depend on how important you'd headcanon papping as a biological need vs a social expectation but the fact that it's literally supposed to be the most emotionally intimate, or at least requires the most trust, is like. How the fuck do you even have a one night stand. Like how does that work. I'm giggling just thinking about it.
Anyways sorry for rambling in your inbox but tl;dr What are your thoughts on conciliatory prostitution?
this is the funniest ask i’ve ever gotten
i would say the line between therapists and conciliatory prostitution is the fact that therapists are more of a health/medical thing… by definition a therapist usually finds a mental medical problem of yours and helps with it the way a doctor would help with something physically
IRL, getting bandaged up by someone can be either professional (ie at a doctors office) or unprofessional/erotic, (ie after a battle your crush is tending to your wounds and keeps making eye contact and leaning in very close…) so in human society there are already cases of things that can be medical or romantic depending on literally just context and vibes
a therapist is going to be in a clinical office, their room is not going to lend itself to a troll’s comfort in a way that screams romance— a therapist is NOT going to be anywhere near a pile, for instance, though they might prescribe that activity to their patient lol
meanwhile an actual conciliatory prostitute… you’re right that it would be a little strange, and maybe hollow, given that proper moirallegiance is supposed to involve the most amount of knowledge + trust out of any other quadrant.
but, consider that matespritship— and human romance, here— involves trust and emotional attachment as well, usually! and yet prostitution still exists…. because it’s about the physical aspect of romance alone, for people who need to get that energy out occasionally
so let me postulate that conciliatory prostitution would be the same— focused only on the physical parts of the relationship.
therefore, a pale prostitute would really be more like a masseuse than a therapist. they’d ask you questions about your life, of course, get you in a pile and listen to you talk for a bit before massaging you and getting your tension out; you know, there’s got to be foreplay. but it would likely feel somewhat hollow and businesslike as opposed to… you know, an actual pile session with a moirail. sort of the same as concupiscent prostitution
#should this be tagged nsft? LMAO. ig ask to Tag#papping is definitely a biological thing imo because the whole point of it is to calm people down; most ways of calming people down are#like going ‘shhhhh’ is just a thing we all do that magically calms babies somehow for some biological reasons so i assume pappings the same#meanwhile i think it’d be really hard to suggest your profession in public… there’s any number of reasons someone might ‘dress slutty’ lol#quadrants#op#wow this got long sorry#long post
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CATEGORY FIVE DYKE MOMENT™️: i want kissie 🥺
#this is not bait but also it isn’t not bait#thinkin thots#i’m in a mood and my dykery is a hurricane and it *will* blow through this place#ever so slightly being like ‘are we just close friends 🤨’ in a classic display of lesbianism#like we’re not together technically but also like we *might* be in the future?#soi guess technically we’re friends?#but my brain is like ignoring all the shit that has been said to me that has made it pretty obvious that we are probably gonna be more than#friends in the future#bc i am a useless lesbian unfortunately#godddd i am such a huge dyke#i need them here saying things to me in that way that completely calms me down in like five seconds#this isn’t a spiral or anything i’m genuinely just like 🤨#‘but what if they’re just really nice?’#lesbians be like ✌🏻🤪✌🏻#was gonna be like ‘should i post this/leave it up but also i think it would be really funny for the future if something does happen for real#scott pilgrim i’m in lesbians with you type shit#and i’m over here like ‘haha gal pals!’#SHUT UP YOU STUPID DYKE#i feel like none of this needs confirmation and it’s not even serious imaoooo#anywayssssss#disclaimer: this is a funny haha no one needs to come in my asks being like ‘you’re over reacting’ it’s not that deep babe x
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Emoji movie rewrite
Movie starts with a heart being drawn in a piece of paper. The pen falters before the heart is fully drawn, so it's almost like a crooked M.
This little heart animates and opens its eyes.
This BIC pen paper heart finds itself in a place not unlike the movie Soul (2020)'s zone plane. As in, it's a place where its characters interact with each other but are also active in other things.
The characters are emojis. Yes. But every emoji. I'm talking 😃 emojis and :D emojis, :-) emojis, and even the cute Japanese (⋋°̧̧̧ω°̧̧̧⋌) emojis.
The human face emojis are there, the full bodied ones, the hand emojis will high-five the prosthetic arm emoji at one point of the movie.
There's no separation of emojis by what message/emotion their technically supposed to transmit. They just make a face in the zone and their job is done.
The heart emoji also changes colors frequently.
Every symbol that ever was to transmit a thought exists in this universe.
Our protagonist M-heart walks around confused because they can't enter the zone. Very quickly a full cast of characters jump in to find out who this newcomer is and are happy to help them on their quest to find meaning.
I'm not sure the order of who they meet, but I think the full-body emojis would be fun just to get a tango dance scene from these two in 4k 💃🏻🕺🏻
The multi-colored heart emoji would bring a moment of "I'm almost like you, but not like you at all."
There is no villain. The fun will be meeting colorful new characters who represent the joy of EXPRESSION and OPEN COMMUNICATION. How wonderful it is be seen and heard for exactly who you are. Which is why this quest is so important for M, and becomes more urgent as they lose hope of ever being able to reach that joy.
Eventually they travel to places with the bigger "emojis". These don't need dialogue, but Words, Emails, Hand-written letters and Books sort of fly up in the sky. They come across mute giants painted in cave walls that inspire M to persevere, because just by existing it means that they already are filling some innate purpose.
The climax is M's fight for existence. The "real world" Person A starts scrunching up the paper with the heart and flings it to the trash.
M's push against it is what makes the paper bounce off the trash and tumble at the feet of Person B, who picks it up and unfurls it. Then smiles at Person A. Bam. Connection.
Cuts back to M, finally floating in the zone. Like the Beast's transformation.
Movie ends with them floating back down, looking more solid and happy. And being cheered and celebrated by all their new friends.
Dance party a la Shrek ensues while the credits role.
#also#the movie should have closed captions no matter where it's shown#ideally the japanese emoji would only speak japanese and the closed caption would be the translation#so it would be super cute if the emoji started talking really fast#and suddenly the closed caption starts piling up on the screen#and one of the other characters try to calm the kawaii emoji down like#slow down we can't read everything you're saying#and it's this fun meta joke about how even the closed captions are a character in this#also every movie should have closed captions#anyway#this is a good start to my resolution of sharing my brain words with more people.#happy 2024#the emoji movie#writing
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it really means the world to me to know i’m my nephew’s favorite person
#and i don’t mean in a oh he said i was way cause like he has but he’s also six so he says someone new every week#and sometimes he just wants to annoy his parents or grandma#i mean it in a we were helping my sister and brother in law move today and he cried when there wasn’t a car available#for us to drive from apartment to apartment together#and in a he asked for me to carry him into the house#and in a he hasn’t seen his sister in a while and almost started crying earlier talking about her and i was able to cheer him up#and in a when he’s really throwing a fit i’m the person they ask to come help and calm him down#and i don’t love it purely for the like the pride aspect tho i’m definitely proud of it#but he’s also six and been through way more than he ever should have and i’m so glad that i make him feel safe and loved and listened to#i never want my own kids but if i can be a safe place for the kids in my life that’s all i could ask for#liz rambles
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