#we need a stress relief

[95-6qrsk2rx9uq42069nnnnnjthewolf]

i think tim is high maintenance the way a boarder collie or austrialian shepherd is. like you have to make sure they're not only given space to expend energy but you have to specifically let them get the herding instinct out and challenge them intellectually or they start destroying ur home

[cloudyydraws]

mini redraw of the 3rd anni kanade card.. im obsessed

[whatwooshkai]

14

"Now, I want you to understand we don't normally do this," the mech says, peering over his optical enhancers at Heatwave. "We're really going out of our way to make an exception for you."

Heatwave resists the urge to roll his optics, hearing the gentle chastisement of his guardians in his processors. He can't fuck this up, especially without them here to pick up the pieces. "I understand," he murmurs, resigning himself to staring at the glyphs on the nametag on the mech's desk.

He'd gestured to it when he'd invited Heatwave in, as if expecting him to read it and then address him as such. A really stupid thing to expect of mechs normally, but beyond that considering what Heatwave's in here for.

"That being said," the mech starts again, pushing the optical enhancers back up his nose, "we cannot provide all the accommodations you're requesting."

Heatwave vents deeply. "Yeah, yeah- wait, what?"

The mech is looking at him like he's a sparkling throwing a tantrum. "Respectfully, Heatwave, you're here for firefighting. The best we can do for you is audio recordings of lessons and tests, but that is it. I'm sure you can find a friend to translate your homework and readings for you, but we simply do not have the resources to pour extra effort into a single student."

Heatwave's jaw snaps shut with a click. "Any quick coding program could make an audiobook of the textbook," he hisses through gritted teeth. "I don't understand-"

"Well if it's so easy, do it yourself or find someone else to," the mech interrupts, his optical enhancers flashing white as they catch the light. "Now, do you understand, or will you waste more of my time?"

Heatwave's optics cycle wide. Desperately, he tries to keep himself in the chair before he does something that'll have consequences a lot worse than them not meeting his requested accommodations.

It's fine. It's fine it's fine it's fine. Heatwave can handle this, like he's handled everything else. What's one more thing?

Besides, his roommates aren't so bad. Maybe he could talk to one of them? Chase, probably, even though he's got a stick up his exhaust pipe he can be weirdly reasonable about stuff. Yeah. Yeah. He's got a plan, he can do this.

"I understand," Heatwave growls. He needs to hit something. He needs to hit something so bad.

And if this mech doesn't dismiss him right now it's going to be his face.

"Good," the mech hums, tapping at a datapad. "Feel free to pop by if you have any real problems."

Heatwave's fuel pump abruptly cramps painfully, and yeah, the consequences of his actions and all that. He doesn't say a word has he leaves, tasting blood as his new fangs puncture his glossa.

He digs crescents into his palms.

Hope whoever's in the sparring room doesn't have anywhere to be.

[shima-draws]

SO validating to know that I wasn't making it up in my head about my previous boss just. Completely screwing me over. Bc she's doing the same thing to my coworker right now and while I feel terrible for her we're both like. Yeah no it's not just you she's been awful to me too. Handshaking in solidarity out here

[thethingything]

okay so the effects of the ibuprofen start wearing off after about 8 hours, at which point our symptoms start getting really bad again, but at least once it kicks in we get relief pretty quickly and it seems to work really well.

we have a rash on our face that's been really red and sore and a few hours after taking the ibuprofen it looked like it'd almost completely vanished, but it started coming back again once the meds wore off, along with our sinuses and eyes getting really painful and our mouth getting so dry we can't swallow food without having water with it.

we've also got blepharitis in our left eye which we've had for a few days because we get it almost every time the rest of these symptoms flare up. holding a warm, damp cloth against our eye for a bit seems to help, but we also have to keep cleaning our eyelids which seems to also relief some of the irritation and pain.

I'm trying to take more breaks in the middle of doing stuff to get up, clean our eyes, drink a bunch of water with electrolyte mix, get a warm damp cloth to help with the eye and sinus pain, moisturise any especially dry skin, etc, and it sucks that managing a symptom flare that's absolutely wrecking our energy levels and ability to function requires using more energy to get up and do stuff that helps (and to remember to do that stuff) but I am proud of myself for how well I'm doing with it

[quietlyblooms-gone]

guess who went from having a bad day to being made a key-holder and getting a raise!! this gal!! did you know i thought i was doing a bad job somehow!!

[lbhslefttiddie]

my teacher for weather and climate gave us a main textbook which is the one we reference and need to read throughout the course and then three EXTRA optional textbooks for supplemental learning, with varying levels of technicality for those interested, and in the links she provided every single one was available online for free (in the creative commons sense, not the piracy sense, since obv that could get a teacher in trouble) and i could kiss her on the mouth

[service4cops]

He's an expert negotiator and will negotiate just about anything . . . except, where he gets to dump his load and what he expects you to do with it.

Yep, in my mouth and I'd have to swallow it, ALL of it. Those were his terms and they were non-negotiable.

(I could live with that)

[kayvsdoodles]

💜👀

[insert-game]

feeling Bad and worried about my job and the future

[straydogged]

:3

[shouts-into-the-void]

Re-downloaded Mystic Messenger since I have a bunch of free time now (for better or worse) and I forgot how annoyed some of the choices made me. Like, what do you mean if I don't want to get Jumin's route I have to be a massive bitch about his awful dad???

[fchsadfa]

"Don't compare yourself to others" but some of my classmates have settled on their overall theme for the end of term show. And are planning and creating each week's assignments with an eye to that overall theme. If I was smart, I'd be doing that especially since I can't access the studio on the weekend due to work due to gotta pay for car due to I have to drive an hour each day each way for this class.

But also there's so much to learn! And I want to play around!

I've already noticed that techniques we cover in say, week 7 would have made my week 3 project much easier to make (if only I had known then what I know now).

I have time still to sort it all out (affirmations). It's not the end of the world if it's unfinished/ not perfect/ gets a worse grade (AFFIRMATIONS). Things will seem better in the morning after I sleep (reminder to self). My creativity will start to flow again when I take care of myself.

I'm stressing about money and relationships and health issues and world events, and it's not that those things aren't important and deserving of time and attention. But if they continue to impact my learning then I'll have to ask for help (reminder to self).

I'm thinking about how to bring everything that I'm learning and everything that matters to me together. And now that we're in the second half of the term, also thinking about how to continue on after I leave the school.

[anew-flame]

Remember how it used to be

When the sun would fill up the sky

Remember how we used to feel

Those days would never end

Those days would never end

Remember how it used to be

When the stars would fill the sky

Remember how we used to dream

Those nights would never end

Those nights would never end

It was the sweetness of your skin

It was the hope of all we might have been

That fills me with the hope to wish

Impossible things

But now the sun shines cold

And all the sky is grey

The stars are dimmed by clouds and tears

And all I wish

Is gone away

All I wish

Is gone away

All I wish

Is gone away

[luv-again]

omg,, i might have... finished my week's worth of school work ???

[airenyah]

Hey, so I finished Summer Night some time ago and overall really enjoyed it. And thank you for answering my last ask too. I was pleasantly surprised by how well the various plotlines were picked up and solved towards the end. One of them being Jewel's figuring out his sexuality and thinking he had a crush on White- I thought that was supposed to be sort of a comedic scene, so I was surprised and impressed how Jewel brought it up in the conversation with White in the later episode, and White apparently noticed it too?! and how well it was handled. For some reason, this show tackled these sensitive topics that young people experience quite delicately and I was very happy with that. I also noticed that I very much prefer the shows where both heterosexual and gay/lesbian relationships exist within friend groups rather than the standard 2 gay relationships format. (It feels more realistic and I LOVE friendship dynamics, so there's that.)

You were also right about WhiteIvy!! They had such good dynamic, basically a bickering couple, one of my favorites! Usually I choose friendships over romanctic ones and end up liking friendships more (Like THK, my most fav relationship is KantStyle), so this was the exception! I have no idea why they kept teasing the audience with so many good scenes - I mean the chemistry was OVERFLOWING? HELLO? - with White and Ivy, only to give us nothing in the end.... But the last scene with two of them together, the way White didn't really confirm they will only remain friends gives me this hope (lol) that they will meet again a few years later after they graduated universities and started working, reconnect and end up dating when they're a bit older. Where can I order season 2 of Summer Night to GMMTV..?

I also ended up liking all main characters (except Nana but I don't think she's one of the main). Despite everyone having their own flaws and making mistakes, they were likable and easy to sympathize. I didn't think I would like Star in the beginning, but her relationship with her mother reminded of mine with my mom and I couldn't help but feel for her too. Also the actress killed the fight scene with Lune. That was very realistic acting on her part. She had really great chemistry with all characters too- actually let me scrap that and say all four - Star, White, Lune, and Ivy all had great chemistry with each other that I could've accepted any pairing with them (except LuneIvy, just not enough screentime together). Like half way through I was pretty vibing with LuneStar and then came the classroom scene where White was cheering up Star who was feeling left out and that scene made me want to watch these two together for at least a little while. And I heard before watching the series that people were shipping LuneWhite and I just thought that was BL fans talking as usual and a bit of a bait from GMMTV for that accidental kiss? , but then White and Lune had this quite some tension(!) during the fight that I could definitely see why people liked it.

I digress a bit but I lowkey (or highkey?) digged the fashion of the girls that I want to imitate their styles, especially Star and Sera's when summer arrives. I don't want to sound shallow, but they were all so attractive I was like let me take note on their styles every episode haha. Speaking of attractive, I got to say White was so good looking to the point his look was distracting sometimes lol. Style from THK was so good too, crop tops and his cocky attitude, he's THE icon but White was another different kind of attractive, much softer and grounded. I heard that Dunk was shooting these two series back to back actually and was surprised how much different impressions he can give. I'm excited for Dare You to Death that's slated for 2025 lineup, I know that he's going to give a totally different vibe with the new character.

P.S. I saw you reblogging Theory of Love many times. It's also my all-time fav BL series along with Not Me. <3

yaaaaay glad to hear you enjoyed the show!! i think a lot of bl/gl fans watch the shows only for the gay, but personally i don't mind het romances either. IF done well, but then again, the same counts for any QL too 😂

so true, so many things kept coming back. i watched the show with my mother back when it was airing live and i think this is actually something we discussed at the time?? i have vague memories of it

i LOVED that white noticed by himself and was so chill about his friend being queer!!!!!! i mean white would know a thing or two about questioning your sexuality huh 🤭🤭🤭

WHITEIVY!!!!! OH MY GOD I ADORE THE TWO OF THEM SOOOOO SO MUCH!!!!!!! whiteivyscenes are the superior scenes of the show i said what i said

i had a smiliar (ish) experience like you when it comes to whiteivy. from the trailer i was actually expecting ivy to be white's "spare" love interest for when lune and star get together, but then the show started and – SURPRISE!! – ivy is gay for star?????? and it's a plot that goes over multiple episodes???? and white and ivy supporting each other through their unrequited feelings for star???? when i saw that i actually went "oh my god please do NOT let them end up dating, i much prefer them as friends!!!! please can we just have a het-pair that is besties without any romance between them just bc one is a guy and one is a girl and they're 'left over' without a love interest 🙏"

in part that came also bc whiteivy's friendship dynamic reminded me a lot of my own irl. i grew up with a lot of guy friends (in a group i often tend to be friends with more guys than girls) and a lot of the time i have a bickering dynamic with them where you're playfully mean to each other (i do this bc i'm lowkey terrified guys will think i'm in love with them if i'm too nice haha) and so when i saw white and ivy's friendship in the early episodes i was like "OMG CAN I PLEASE HAVE SOME REPRESENTATION OF MY IRL M/F FRIENDSHIPS?? 🥺🥺🥺"

but then?? some development happened?? and dunk and lookjun had such fantastic chemistry with each other???? so i just couldn't help but begrudgingly ship whiteivy more and more????? (here's a relic from that time djkfkjdfg) to the point where i was suuuper supportive of them getting together by the end of the show???? AND THEN THEY JUST. DIDN'T!!!!!!! top 10 anime betrayal of 2024 tbh. here's a quick summary of my fall from grace, it's hilarious actually

THIS IS THE ONE MAJOR CRITICISM I HAVE WITH THE SHOW TBH, LIKE!! WHAT WAS THE POINT OF ALL THAT DEVELOPMENT IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA PULL THROUGH???? i would have totally been fine with whiteivy staying platonic till the end, but in that case the writing should have gone a little different tbh. something like that sandnick kiss scene in only friends would have totally worked here, you know what i mean? but the way the whityivy relationship ended just leaves you feeling very unfullfilled tbh. and it makes you feel like "oh why did i waste time investing and sitting through all of that when it didn't even go anywhere?" they could have easily left it strictly platonic and i absolutely would have LOVED the writers for that non-romance m/f besties representation. ah well

i also liked all the characters except for nana!! but tbh, the issue was less with the character and more with the actor's performance. i know that was her first role and tbh, imo that role was too difficult for her. she could have had a loooot of fun with this role, constantly jumping between being the sweetest girl and letting the bitch that she is shine through at very deliberately chosen moments to the point where you as a viewer are intrigued bc you can't tell what she's playing at and if she's good or bad. unfortunately, the actress only played "the obvious" as my camera acting teacher would always say, and that got pretty boring real fast. it was clear from the start that she was the bad guy, and that sort of performance also didn't fit with the way the characters reacted to her. bc everyone didn't seem to think much of nana, except white who was like "i have a bad feeling about her" which is something that would have been MUCH more interesting if nana had been super nice and charming towards him, you know what i mean? bc you could have gotten that tension between nana being "nice and sweet" and white's uneasy feeling. i hope i'm making sense 😅 i'm also doing this from memory, so i don't have any specific example rn bc all my brain space has been taken up by thk

YEAH ALL THE MAINS IN THIS SHOW ARE SO SHIPPABLE!!!!!!!! it's something i greatly enjoyed. i too would have been cool with any pairing between the four mains tbh

YEAH NO THE WHITELUNE WASN'T BASED ON NOTHING HAHAHAHA. it's not even the tension during the fight scene, but also, i mean, the way white was looking at lune during the entire first episode???? like pls dunk, you're bl actor is showing 🤭🤭🤭🤭 NOT TO MENTION WHITES WEIRD OBSESSION WITH BEING LUNE'S "FIRST"????? and that's just the first three episodes

also i love how they brought back white's obsession with kissing lune at the end of the show kdfjkjdfkjsgfsd. again, let me just state: white is a disaster bi who has a lowkey crush on lune and absolutely NOTHING can convince me otherwise, least of all the series itself

yeah, dunk was shooting these series back to back! in fact, dunk actually missed the first few days of thk shoot and only joined from Q5 onwards because he was still busy filming summer night (summer night finished shooting at the end of july, around the 28th of july iirc, and thk started shooting on july 18th). iirc he had a break of one day between the final shooting the of summer night and his first day of shooting thk (pretty sure he went to get a hair cut on that day 😂)

I'M SO FUCKING HYPED TO SEE HIS PERFORMANCE IN DYTD, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW!!!!!!!!!!! i've been talking about wanting to see dunk in a serious role for a year now and gmmtv is actually giving it to me, i'm so blessed <33333 (it's episodes 9 and 11 of hidden agenda specifically that made me want to see dunk in a serious role for a full series)

regarding theory of love... idk how long you've been following me, but those who were around for all of 2021 will know i have a very special relationship with that show, esp the khaithird plot. i'll put that lore under a read more bc the ask is already long enough as it is jdfkjfdsjkgs

that series came to me in late 2020 at a time where i had just ended my friendship with my own personal irl-khai aka my best guy friend at the time who i'd been in love with for 1-2 years, a relationship that just got more and more unhealthy for me. i'm gonna spare you the details, but basically he kept treating me like a girlfriend but continuously insisted we were just friends (it was an accumulation of small things, that individually i'd be like "ok but friends can do [thing]", except alltogether it wasn't quite right). oh and there was also the infamous roadtrip with me, him, and two other friends, one of them being the girl that he had a crush on and i had specifically told him a few months before the roadtrip that i wasn't sure i could still go on that roadtrip if that girl came along bc i was in love with him and didn't want to watch him chase after her without a way to escape or get a break for three weeks straight and him insisting that he was totally over her, only for me to almost get a first row seat to their love story during that roadtrip anyway (i'm saying "almost" bc at first that's actually what happened, except funnily enough shortly after the roadtrip the girl my irl-khai had a crush on ended up dating the other guy aka the fourth person who'd come along. that guy is a close friend of mine and him and her hadn't known each other before the roadtrip, and once they started talking during the roadtrip they immediately hit it off and so while for the first half of the trip i was miserable in a front row seat for the irl-khai plus his crush show, during the second half of the show i actually got to watch my close friend plus my irl-khai's crush fall in love with each other, which was extremely hilarious. karma's a bitch, my dear irl-khai <3)

anyway, so yeah. that roadtrip happened end of summer 2019

then march 2020 i watched why r u. my mom insisted on watching it with me. my mom then ended up watching love by chance on viki bc she saw it had saint in it. my mom then watched multiple other thai bls (at that point my mom had actually watched more thai bl than i had kjfdksjkjdskjsg)

then, at the end of summer 2020 i broke up with my irl-khai the night before he went on an erasmus semester (it's kinda ironic that i had to break up with him when we weren't even dating in the first place....)

and then, about a month or two later my mom sat me down for a thai bl, with the words "you HAVE to watch this. it reminds me so much of your story with [irl-khai]"

and my mother was right. i could very much relate to third and it was soooo cathartic to watch khai suffer. i could let out all of my frustrations and anger with my irl-khai out on the fictional khai without making the drama in my real life worse

and in 2021 the khaithird plot became extremely important to me in my journey of getting over my irl-khai. i watched it at least 20x that year. in fact, in april of 2021 there was a time where i watched the khaithird plot ten (10!!) times in the span of only 14 days. i watched the khaithird over and over again every single night for two whole weeks. "fake protagonist" (the thai version) was my no.1 song on my spotify wrapped that year. to this day tol is my most rewatched thai bl at 27 rewatches (tho over the years bad buddy has become a close second at around 24 rewatches that i've counted on mydramalist and that makes me happy bc it means i really am well and truly over my irl-khai and i don't need tol anymore the way i used to 💪 jkkjfdks)

so yeah. theory of love and esp the khaithird plot is very dear to me. it really did help me a lot 😂😂 in fact, so i knew my irl-khai from my youth group, right? we went there together for years. and in summer 2022 i went on this retreat with a bunch of friends from said youth group, including my irl-khai. it must have been like the 3rd time i had faced him since our "break-up". and in mental preparation as well as a reminder to stay away from him, i actually rewatched tol right before i went on this retreat 😂

so that's my story with tol. it will forever have a very special place in my heart