#we love to yap though

[chapollynh]

I finished DS9 and here's my first offering to the fandom.

The show is just SO GOOD!! I wanna talk about it so bad, so I will spam the tags quite a bit... My bad. Also, the people who said Bashir would get better - you were right, he became a lot more fun! Plus he's got a teddy bear, that's peak character right there.

[snail-day]

Based off of this ask. Angst -> Fluff

Fighting with you sucks.

Satoru hates fighting. Hates how sharp his own voice sounds. Hates how your eyes narrow when you’re angry, especially when he knows he’s the one who made you look at him like that. When you both get too prideful. The both of you begin to throw words like fire.

And yeah, maybe it doesn’t happen often. Maybe you two don’t really blow up at each other unless something’s been simmering for a while. Something unsaid. Something he was too stubborn - or scared - to bring up. But when it finally bubbles over, it’s like throwing gasoline on the fire.

You say something. He says something back. Then suddenly, it’s not even about the original issue anymore, it’s everything all at once. All the little moments that built up to this one. He watches it happen like slow-motion glass shattering, and Satoru still can't stop himself from throwing the next stone.

Then silence.

You pull away. And Satoru lets you, even if it makes his chest ache. Even if it makes his hands shake a little while he’s pretending to scroll on his phone or clean something up. He tells himself he’s giving you space. That you need time. That he needs time.

But god, the second you talk again, really talk to him, it’s like the air comes back into his lungs. He's like a puppy who's released from time out.

He doesn’t even know when it happens, only that he’s behind you now, arms wrapping around your waist with the kind of desperation he tries to mask with theatrics. Kissing your shoulder, then your neck, then wherever he can reach. Smothering. Voice muffled against your skin as he sing-songs, “My loveeeeee, my loverrrrr, my love my love my love...”

He squeezes you tighter when you don’t push him away. Teases your little huffs and sighs and small little toru stop noises. He doesn't stop because you gave him the okay the moment you uttered a single word.

“Do you love me?” he murmurs, quieter this time, slight teasing. Slight insecurity lingering. “How much?”

You roll your eyes. Say something like “Not after that performance,” but he hears the warmth behind it. Still, he needs more.

“Only a little?” he asks again, nosing at your jaw, lips brushing your cheek. “I just... I need to know you’re still here.”

He’s not trying to forget the fight. He’s not even trying to fix it, really. He just needs to feel that you’re not going anywhere. That after everything, you’re still his. That he hasn’t loved too hard and burned it all down.

[charlesemersonwinchesteriii]

George Henry Hodgson + food

Even beyond his famous monologue, Hodgson is at the heart of the show's cannibalism and starvation theme. He is the first to inform us that there is something wrong with the food supplies, the first to suggest the possibility of cannibalism, and the one we see fulfill Ross' prophecy about eating their own boots. And in the end, fittingly, he himself is devoured.

Created for @theterrorbingo prompt: Rot

[itsindiana]

i think we don't talk about what the driving force behind each batcher is enough. like if u think abt it hunter often acts out of fear ( not cowardice , fear that his ppl will get hurt duh ) , while crosshair often acts out pain , tech acts with logic , wrecker with love , and echo ? echo acts out of being true hater

[lemonyinks]

Because they are on my mind, please accept one of my favorite Wangxian moments of all time.

Chapter 87

In my opinion, this is one of the most important Wangxian scenes in the whole novel. It is very special to me. It made me tear up when I was doing my read through.

Time and time again, Wei Wuxian has fallen, he's gotten hurt, people have failed him. The people who were supposed to be there for him have either left, he's lost them tragically, or they've betrayed him at some point in his life. His life has been one of loneliness and loss.

He has never had someone who he could rely on so heavily. He has never had a solid safety net before, someone on equal footing to him that he could fall back on and rely on. If anything he has spent his entire life being a safety net for other people. He has spent his whole life being strong for others.

Now, however, Lan Wangji is that safety net for him.

For the first time in his life, he has someone to truly catch him when he falls. He can let himself fall and still be safe. That "thank you" isn't just about Lan Wangji catching him after he fell from the tree, its about everything.

[sainz100]

via this 2017 article covering Daniel's thoughts on routines & coaching & more ahead of the 2017 Singapore GP

[clumsypuppy]

Waow

[zvahlne]

i thought about aphmau & levin & malachi & now i need to lie down .

[chaosxcrushed]

There's a certain CCCC summary video that we really, really like. We think it is a great video for people if they want to grasp the story more clearly, if they're confused, or if they're listening to the album for the first time.

That video being Chonny Jash and the Weight of the Mind on Youtube by W3tBl@nk3t. We think they cover it really well.

However, I'm sharing this for a different reason; they say few certain things that really struck with us until now, that I'd like to share with the fandom. Sometimes, we see people really just.. Miss the point of CCCC entirely, and I'd like to shine a light on what was said here. If you'd like to hear this for yourself on video, the timestamp is 35:57-36:45.

“..I bet we all could relate to that, they are the prime example of the side of you that suffers and the side of you that hates yourself for suffering:

The side of you that just wants to slow down and feel everything even to the unhealthy extent of not being able to do anything else(1), but also the side of you that so desperately wants you to get over it(2).

Sure, laying in bed all day every day to rot isn't healthy, but neither is boiling things down and invalidating your own emotions. Both are paths to inevitable disaster, and that's what Chonny is doing here. Keep in mind that the idea behind this album is being whole, and that means neither of these sides are entirely in the right or the wrong; this album is about inner compromise and acceptance(3).”

1.) The side of you that suffers; Heart. He is representative of Whole's emotions, he holds them. Your emotions can go haywire, especially when one's mentally ill and has no way of their feelings being validated. An emotional person like Heart suffers under the weight of crushing, devastating feelings. He wants to feel things out, have time to just process everything, even if it takes them days or weeks to get over it. It's not healthy, but feeling is what he does, and he wants to help because he knows he has importance. Solely focusing on just your emotions isn't the best thing to do, however.

2.) The side of you that so desperately wants you to get over it; Mind. Many people have been there, have wanted themselves to stop wallowing in their own emotions and just do something else, even to the point where you think feeling things out is unnecessary. This is also unhealthy, but not intentionally. Like Heart, Mind just wants to help, everything he does is in best interest. This is what he thinks will get them to move on the quickest; to leave behind emotions and focus on anything BUT that. Also not the best thing to do.

3.) This album is about inner compromise and acceptance; About being whole. Neither of Heart and Mind are right nor wrong. They have their own ways of doing things, of what they think will help their whole self out the most, but both are unhealthy despite the good intentions. They fight over who's wrong or right, when they shouldn't even be doing so in the first place. It's your thoughts against your emotions, basically; your feelings contradict your thoughts, and it leads to an inner war of sorts. This won't make things better, which is why you can't have Mind over Heart or vice versa; you'll need both of them. In the album, they are only able to be whole when they get along. They harmonize, they 'combine', they see eye to eye with each other and work together instead of fighting over and over. Inner compromise is achieved with this, and acceptance can lead them away from any disaster that there's to come.

What we're trying to say is that mental health is a large thing tackled within CCCC, and yet we see a lot of people who overlook it; thus, end up missing the point of the whole album. We see a lot of people believe Mind's perspective a little too much and treat Heart quite harshly, or the other way where people demonize Mind and say that Heart is perfect, when it's not really that in the slightest.

This is not a hate post towards people's interpretations of CCCC or how they view characters, I'm just saying that people can tend to overlook what's in the very narrative, and we see a concerning amount of people do such.

Anyways. Stream CCCC and put your Hearts and Minds in the get along shirt. Have a nice day.

[lynn-tged-posting]

tged webtoon ep 163 spoilers and thoughts that are making me procrastinate on like all of my work but its totally fine below the cut

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i am so serious i was completely tricked into thinking this would just be a light episode with some ominous foreshadowing but still some answers for how to defeat fate. i thought we'd be in silly haha territory now and that soon we'd reach the end and everything would be wonderful now and they can finally have what they want. I WAS PROVEN WRONG

YOU. YOU TRICKED ME FROM THE GETGO BY SETTING THE MOOD OF THE EP TO BE SILLY OFF THE BAT. YOUR STUPID CUTE HAIR BEING MESSY WHEN U WAKE UP AND THOSE SILLY ASS D*SNEY ANIMALS. YOU YOU YOU YOU RAPHAEL YOU FOOLED ME

it's super cute and funny that his singing and his general demeanor is so fairytale esque that animals and people just love him even though he tried to destroy what they were working on . he looks adorable with messy hair. i wanna see it more. cute and blond. but also. FUCK YOU

like we went from that to this and i was like "oh my god they're gonna have a bonding moment" and i was so so happy i just,, i really thought,,,,

like he looks so pretty here!! and then javier says something so sweet and so javier-brand of affectionate and they're being funny about it and it's so cute and they're all smiley afterward in the reflections of the water so its like "awww stupid fucking idiots being happy at each other without even really knowing it i love them so much" AND THEN.

STUPID FUCKING OMINOUS REFLECTION GOT ME ALL WORRIED. BUT THEN I THOUGHT OF RAPHIE AT THE START AND WENT "nahhh thats just. yknow. the normal foreshadowing at something bigger. they haven't even gotten answers yet. it's fine" oh lynn. oh girl you had no idea.

like they're so close to the truth cmon they wouldnt dump what they need to do to stop fate AND whats going on w javier at the same time right? ha. ha. ha.

ominous panels aside POOR LLOYD,,, OF ALL THE SECRETS HE COULD HAVE CHOSEN,,, he had no idea its not fair </3 we got blushy lloyd as a result i love this panel btw he's very very cute. super duper bug of him. i really like that the artist has been drawing the two of them at this angle a lot recently they look so stupid i like it a lot

ALSO JAVIER DO YOU. HAVE SOMETHING YOU WANT TO SAY. WHY DID HE ASK THAT I. JAVIER U CANT JUST ASK PEOPLE HOW DEE- WHAT THE FUCK

and then we got hit w javier being worried and i was like "man me too buddy, im worried too but im sure itll be oka-"

DEATH FLAG. WHY. WHY DID YOU HAVE TO THINK THAT LLOYD OH GOD. i read this and my worry that was briefly washed away IMMEDIATELY came back . tged is very good at giving me tonal whiplash. i dont think thats a bad thing but also its not good for my health either so. /lh

AND THEN WE GOT HIT WITH THE JEWEL OF TRUTH SECTION AND. AAAAHHH AAAAAAAAHHH the darkness that lloyd is in, he's all alone when he hears this god i . oh god i have so much to say okay

it's kind of hard to go shot by shot with this section because all my thoughts are overlapping with each other but ill try my best???

he's immediately pushed into communication between just him and the jewel and shrouded in a very very isolating darkness. there's so so so much empty space and all my yapping about how much lloyd has been isolating himself for the sake of finally protecting his loved ones kind of comes to a head here. and then we hear the truth...

lloyd is a BUG. the fact that he EXISTS is a problem that has been the catalyst of all the pain and work that he and javier have had to go through, so so early in the story. he's essentially being told that its HIS fault fate is threatening their lives. AND WOW THAT HURTS. how do you cope with being told that?? how do you manage that???

and on TOP of it all, in order to fix it, he has to choose. rid the world of this bug, or let the bug take over. THAT'S SO EVIL

the only way to protect his loved ones is to forfeit his protection over them, giving up his life. and yet the only way for him to continue being there to protect them is to lose the life of the one he absolutely loves most, javier. WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT

the moment he hears this he falls to his knees. im so fucking ill IM SICK . THIS IS SICK AND TWISTED!!!!!!!!!!!

some more thoughts on the language and just. inherent despair of this section:

i think the choice of calling lloyd a bug is so so so heartwrenching. i don't know if it's an intentional thing by the writer/adapter or if it's just something they defaulted to since the world is considered a system, but either way it makes me so damn emotional

i'm a computer engineer, so i take some computer science classes too as part of my major, and one of those fun facts that you learn in those classes is that debugging/bugs became common terminology in compsci for a very silly reason. "bugs" as a word to describe error and defects had been present before, but it became conflated with programming due to a team of programmers actually finding a moth, a true to life Bug, interfering with their computer and thus messing with their program.

see, the JoT could have called lloyd anything. an error, a mistake, a problem, hell even a glitch would have worked. but they specifically said bug (and again whether or not thats intentional is up for debate but i will treat it like it is)

and the thing about bugs, the thing that haunts me now, is that without them the rest of the program (theoretically) works fine. if that moth hadnt entered the computer of those programmers, then their code would have been operating smoothly. the system would be chugging along well.

the knight of blood and iron would be functioning just fine.

yeah it'd be sad, yeah javier would have lost everyone, but it would have gone exactly as the program was written. the memory allocated for the class lloyd_frontera would be freed, and the story wouldn't have had to call on it, ever. but lloyd, the bug, the moth, stuck around. errors ensue.

and often, bugs are HUMAN error. it's a problem in a human design, not a natural glitch or mistake. the moth wouldn't have been able to enter that computer if it was built differently. bugs do not appear naturally. and they do not go away until you go back to where the bug appears and FIX IT. lloyd cannot fix the story, he can NEVER achieve the happy ending he's always wanted, because the program will always be bugged because of HIM.

suddenly too, all the little changes that have happened in the story thus far make so much sense. all of those events happening EARLIER than they should have completely tracks.

the choices lloyd made - to defeat neumann, defeat lacona, go to cremo, go to the capital - pushed javier's presence ahead, and i know that's like really really obvious, but coupled with this bug analogy i feel insane because

something that's very common in programming in general are function calls, where on the side you have the function written out all complete, and in your main code you can just say the name of the function. when it compiles, itll know what to refer to when it sees the name in your main code.

something else thats very common is conditionals! y'know, your classic "if (comparison here) then do (this thing here) else (do this thing here)", you might have seen this before (or not, im not sure how well versed tged tumblr is on programming which is why im explaining this)

and u think back to javier being there EARLY and oh. ooohh....

if (javier.location == magentano.event_location(banquet)) {

kyle_betrayal(alicia);

}

this function, this betrayal, was called early. THIS WAS CALLED EARLY because a certain character object, lloyd frontera, changed the state of javier's location way sooner than it should have happened. a bug. a bug. a bug. a bug made the code jump to this conditional. he's been a bug this whole time

and you think to when the glitches on javier first started appearing and oh. oooohhh. the object referred to as javier, disabled the "protagonist" variable on him and passed it onto lloyd. but that won't do, because all these functions for the ENTIRE STORY rely on javier's class object. how can it call on lloyd instead? lloyd should have been freed, aka the memory storing his little array of data, should have been REMOVED. CAUSE HE WAS SUPPOSED TO DIE

theres more examples of this throughout the whole story that maybe ill list another day (as much as im yapping about it, its really not that hard/deep on figuring out where things were called early lol) but yeah yeah yeah. yeah this is so so evil and i cant believe i didnt put two and two together earlier. this analogy is SO EVIL WHY WOULD THEY DO THIS TO ME

apologies for the jargon btw. i have no idea if i explained this right or if anyone else really knows what im talking about but i've been losing it over this for the entire weekend ALKDFJLSDKF

WHATS WORSE IS THAT IVE BEEN CALLING LLOYD A BUG FOR LIKE. ACTUAL MONTHS. I WOULD REFER TO HIM AS A CREATURE AND AS A LITTLE ITTY BITTY BUG AND NOW I FEEL SO SO TERRIBLE BECAUSE HE REALLY WAS A BUG. I MADE A SHITPOST AND EVERYTHING (that ill prolly post later) THAT I HAD NO IDEA WOULD. AGE POORLY SOB SOB SOB

I AM SO SO SORRY LLOYD. I DIDN'T KNOW I DIDN'T KNOW I DIDN'T KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sniffle,,, sob,,, anyway,,, thats enough yapping about bugs and programming and lloyd being a bug,,, back to the anguish

the following section is just. god ow ow OW. the shaking linework, the shadows setting in at the top with the dramatic bottom lighting, and the blur on javier as he loses focus and starts truly, truly panicking makes me INSANE. artist you're making me CRAZY!!!

javier truly has no idea either but god dammit he's trying his best to help, but how can lloyd explain this to the man whos completely and utterly loyal to him to the point of sincere devotion? if lloyd tells him, whos to say that javier - the martyr that he is - won't just give up his life for him? god that's so... GOD. GOD GOD GOD WHY AGHHH

AND AGGHHH AGGGHHHH THE FLASHBACKS TO THE P PANELS OF SUHO WORKING SO SO HARD TO REACH THE LIGHT. GOD FUCK. FUCK FUCK FUCK

ITS DIMMER ITS HARDER TO REACH AND OH MY GOD THE PANEL OF LLOYD REACHING UP EVEN IN HIS PANIC TOWARDS HOPE. THE THOUGHT THAT "ITLL GET BETTER ONE DAY" COMFORTED HIM AND KEPT HIM ALIVE BUT NOW ITS BEING RIPPED FROM HIM I FEEL ILL. EVIL EVIL EVIL EVIL

this panel of that light going out . not much words on this i just feel sick to my stomach. why would u do that.

and finally at the end of the chapter we have this incredibly HAUNTING panel of lloyd panicking. the despair here is UNREAL. the lineart is shaken and messy and scribbly, and the focus on his face and his hand gives the panel a very claustrophobic and hard-to-breathe feel and it makes mE SICK!!! IT MAKES ME SICK!!! SICK AND TWISTED!!!! JEWEL OF TRUTH I HATE YOU!!!!!!!

anyway that's all my thoughts for right now . i really really hope they figure out a loophole or something . if they dont im actually gonna keel over and die /j not literally but yknow what i mean

SICK AND TWISTED!!! is my final word on this ep

thanks for joining me in hell ill see yall next week salute emoji

[dimensional-dimentio]

The plain grey background was getting boring so I designed a bedroom. You'll mostly be seeing Dimentio seated at his bed, but you get to see this since I'm proud of how it came out. I very rarely draw backgrounds so I was struggling the entire time,, orz

Here's a version with Dimentio in it to make the sizing more clear. It also serves as a reminder that he is short. \o/

What? Dimentio looks different? No he doesn't, I don't know what you're talking about. I'm extremely consistent with my art and the way I draw characters. /silly

[iscariotapologist]

how do you reconcile your faith with the existence of other religions? specifically when a religion cannot be reconciled with christianity without purposefully misunderstanding misrepresenting it. I'm asking as someone who considers herself a christian, but finds it very difficult to justify choosing this religion among all the other ones (is it more 'right'? does it make other religions wrong? etc.)

i think that with religion we are all just reaching for something that is reaching for us and also is all around and within us, but which is not fully comprehensible, and resists being contained. i very much do not think there is one ontologically "right" faith. all i can do is try to listen for where this thing is most loudly calling to me, and right now that is the episcopal church. but i cannot extrapolate this calling onto anyone else, i only know for myself. i certainly didn't join tec because i think it's the most objectively correct....but because the thing was SO unmistakably loud in there (much to my surprise) that it was impossible for me not to follow it in. (that being said i do think they're objectively more correct than for example the westboro baptist church &co, i don't mean to say that every idea necessarily deserves equal credence. but i digress)

i'm not sure every faith can be reconciled with every other one in the sense of being able to square away conflicting beliefs with each other. certainly it's good, necessary even, to pursue interfaith dialogue and community. but some things are going to be pretty diametrically opposed, and if our reconciliation starts to look like misrepresentation, we need to find a different way to practice it, or learn to allow room in ourselves for contradictions. christianity has of course a long and extremely violent history of that kind of theological arrogance going unchecked, and the onus is on those of us who claim it to recognize this and not continue that trend by trying to contort other beliefs to fit our own (i'm not trying to say that's what you're doing btw).

it might be helpful to visit some other places of worship if you can :) see where that thing finds you.

[nithica]

iiii wannaaaaa talk about something. i have opinions. so ok here goes and please,,,, i’m just sharing my perspective and i don’t want to shade anyone so don’t take it personally :(

but i’ve noticed that a lot of people want to find a community here, they want to find friends and maybe even validation and that’s totally normal. we’re a social species, and it’s also normal to have your own group of friends whom you mostly interact with.

but if you want a community, and if you have a voice in that community especially, you also have a part to play in making that inclusive and welcoming to all. whether you want to be in that position or not, it’s just simple math that someone with 3000 followers has a bigger impact on a community than someone with 100.

and as someone with a small blog (~100 followers), it can be hard to get interaction at all. now, this post isn’t for me, because i’m here to yap and do my thing and i genuinely could not care less if my kashima fic gets 15 notes or 150, as long as i have my little people in my phone and a space to out my silly little thoughts; but regardless, i AM familiar with how hard it is to get any interaction whatsoever besides mutuals and i know that unlike me, there are people out there who DO find this hard and struggle with that fact. so this post is more for them.

no one is obligated to interact with anyone. absolutely not. but something’s been bugging me here about this topic. if you want a community to be inclusive and welcoming, you have to actually put work into creating that space.

that means that sometimes you will have to step out of your own bubble to support, either people you don’t know, characters you don’t know nor care about, or even WLW ships when you’re straight, or on the other end, straight ships when you’re queer.

i know that i yap a lot and talk to everyone whether i know them or not, and maybe some people are uncomfortable with this, but i’d rather those people block me than that there are people out there who feel like they are excluded from “my” community (“my” because, i don’t know if i’m in one lmao), because they don’t have many friends (yet) and don’t get any interaction.

those people will, eventually, inevitably, stop trying to be a “part” of this community because, well, they don’t feel like they are part of it.

maybe i’m harsh i don’t know, but i think sometimes we kind of lose track of what a community is.. or what it means to be in one. some people have to try really hard to get even 5 notes on here at all, and they aren’t any less part of the community, but they probably don’t feel that way. so idk i think if you want to be in one you also have to try your best to actively make people feel included and WELCOME most of all (again, outside of your own bubble).

ANYWAY IM JUST YAPPING SORRY.

[ophriel]

Freewill in Hazbin

okay, real question here. Does anyone understand the concept of freewill in Hazbin Hotel???

Okay, I think it's safe to assume that Adam and Lilith have freewill considering Lilith could reject Adam, which is a choice she made herself. But then Eve doesn't have the ability to choose???

And why was the way for Eve to get freewill through Lucifer was through eating the forbidden fruit of knowledge of good and evil, which is an odd way because it implies that freewill in Eve case is that she doesn't have the knowledge she can choice then that would implied Lucifer didn't gave her freewill, she had it all-along he only gave her the awareness that she can choose.

Biblically, Adam and Eve were given freewill by God Himself as love cannot be forced it have to be a choice (which they chose to disobey...). Though in Hazbin Hotel the angels seems to be the one who made the humans and earth, which is honestly a whole can of worm, but okay sure we'll work with that, so we're just gonna assume the angels is just kind of given authority to create based of God's design (one of them being freewill). Adam and Lilith right out of the bat had freewill but then after Lilith rejection Eve was created without freewill or maybe without the awareness of choice so then Lucifer comes in and see that is wrong because again being able to choose is very important. But then use the fruit of knowledge of good and evil which is already identified to be a sin if they ever choose it, Lucifer may claim that he only wanted humanity to continue doing good with that freewill (which is biblically true, the wanting of humanity to use freewill for good).

However, maybe part of him did it to get praise or even worship because maybe he's so tired of being seen as the one who's imposing heaven's will, which can play more accurately with his role being the king/sin of pride I guess? Which, uh, if Eve just lack the awareness of choice Lucifer's action might come as him playing as god and doing it in a wrong way (that literally introduced evil) which I think could be counted as blasphemy 😰

So, I guess with this theory does make the reason Lucifer fall make more sense because, it came from pride (or wanting pride), even if he was hurt from all of the shamed he got from edging close to going against heaven's will 😭💔, so I guess it's kind of like a yes he was being/trying to act against heaven so yes he's kind of wrong but he doesn't change and continue to do things that eventually lead up to the apple as a last resort to trying to get praised or something to feel proud of?? Which I supposed is a complicated pride

But you know, even if this makes him more wrong/bad, it at least could make things more sad, like how Lucifer in the show barely shows a lot of pride but shown to be more shameful and regretful which kind of create a

"what's the point of feeling proud of myself again when the last time, when I was sure something great would happen, I've ended up cursing humanity, giving them the illusion of autonomy while actually making them more bound to sin."

"claiming it for good of when the fruit I've given resulted in death."

being told what he does is dangerous over and over again, but never listened to their warnings, but in the end they're correct.

Instead of freedom being granted, it's stolen by sin, binding humanity into sin.

It wasn't freedom Lucifer gave, he gave them chains while telling them it was wings.

But anyway these are just thoughts, I know Hazbin isn't meant be accurate but shushhh.

[clumsypuppy]

learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way

[aug-guts]

so yesterday was my senior prom, and I went with 2 of my best friends (one of which is my ex, but that's a whole thing im not gonna get into here) and met up with a pretty big group- roughly 15 ppl counting some friends who didn't start with us but hung around for most of the time

and near the end, when ppl who were only there for pictures and prom court were heading out, the dj was getting to the end of the song suggestions and apparently decided to play Despacito.

interesting choice for a school with a nearly 50% Mexican student body after only playing white girl pop, country and club music the whole time, but okay. wtv. I was thinking abt Voltron Heros anyway. I have issues (autism)

Now my ex, who is the one that got me properly into vld back in 2020, my best friend, who has had to hear everything about it pretty much since then and one of my other very close friends, who introduced me to vld in 2018 all knew that's what I was thinking before I even started singing it, solely from how I reacted to the intro.

now, I'm dancin around and singing a parody song made 7 years ago completely from memory, quite literally surrounded by friends who all know (to varying extents) how much of a nerd I am, but no one. and I mean no one. was prepared for the moment Despacito ended and I shouted to my group "IT WOULD BE SO FUNNY IF THEY PLAYED GASOLINA TOO" (only the original 3 ppl mentioned truly knowing what that had to do with anything) and immediately after a laugh from one friend and an exasperated groan from another I KID YOU NOT. Puerto Rican rapper Daddy Yankee's 2004 hit Gasolina starts blaring

AND WE ALL LOST IT