#we are all stories in the end

[kyriefae]

I love Doctor Who for many reasons. Some of them silly, some of them less so.

Overall it's a show that deeply encourages and values empathy and the pursuit of knowledge over violence, over making assumptions of others, over asserting power or pursuing it altogether.

I met a particularly unsavory person irl via work recently and something about her stories...the way she scapegoats strangers so intuitively to break the silence. Her value set appears completely devoid of the good I mentioned above. While her character overall may still hold some decency that time would reveal, I've lived long enough to understand the value of the stories we tell to others and how that reflects on us in turn.

I am so relieved to have something like Doctor Who in my life because I've met so many people over the years who would instill a lasting edge of cynicism in me if they were all I knew.

"There's no point being grown up if you can't act childish sometimes."

Watching this show in all it's eras feels like being home; feels warm and inclusive. It's not a home I had but it's a home I have. Additionally so, it's like the audience, cast, and crew are telling a joke together and it's meant to make us all laugh (keyword ALL). The warmth I feel often comes from knowing most of my laughter watching this show has never been at the expense of someone else.

I've heard it plenty of times...if someone has to insult or belittle others it's a sign they feel small and seek to lash out. That's all well and good if you're on a cloud above but if you live in a world where others routinely use this method, albeit often as a form of social bonding, the wariness sets in and the weight of a deep sadness can intensify; calcify given enough time.

Doctor Who alleviates that sadness for me.

Its like a long essay written in favor of humanity. I'm reading it over and over again finding bits and bobs to take back with me before I return to the everyday; to that world full of small people desperate to feel big.

To those of us that relate to this show, I hope you know know how amazing I believe you are. 🥰 I hope these words can resonate with you because I think this show highlights a quiet wisdom we've earned one way or another in our lives.

We share in that wisdom not because we want to feel superior but because we want to believe in the good in people. I myself can not confidently inform you of any inherent good or selfish drive (and I studied philosophy for pity's sake) but I can say when we have a shared space as vast as Doccy Who to entertain us and provide us with endless horizons of exploration, we begin to share in a common mind. We bond with each other in ways that last. We grasp at the opportunity of building a legacy worth standing.

Just make it a good one, eh?

[eccogirl]

[ered]

Here’s my take on the whole audio books vs. reading:

Oral tradition of storytelling predates written ones by millennias, and honestly, which one you like is just a personal preference.

The actual difference is

when listening, you have no idea how to write characters’ names

when reading, you have no idea how to pronounce characters’ names

hope this helps!

[akanemnon]

We didn't even get an answer, and we never will (at least it's not determination)

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[egophiliac]

tsum events really are just the best, huh

[lotus-pear]

i love you royal trio (minus akechi)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

None of our hands are clean

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[youchangedmedestiel]

Imo the best ending to Supernatural would have been to just stop with them alive on a random hunt or them finding jobs and living the life they just wanted or whatever.

And then the story just fucking STOP, because Chuck is not here anymore, so they are no longer part of a story they are finally free. And we could still write and read fanfic about how they live after they won.

[royalarchivist]

Bad: I don’t think people understand the effect QSMP had on some of the streamers in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. [...] Imagine that you were given a friend to play Minecraft with — like your best friend — BUT if this person dies, if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Can you imagine what that’s like?

Bad: If you did not live through the QSMP, if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience the Eggs were. They were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with.

Bad: I’m not saying I regret it. To this day, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. [...] I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, it was just that fun.

Earlier today during his stream, Bad shared his experience and thoughts about the Eggs and the significant emotional (and traumatic) impact they had on him and his fellow QSMP members.

This clip a very edited-down version since his commentary was ~13 minutes long, so I highly recommend checking out Bad's VOD if you have the time. (Timestamp: 47:36 - 1:00:14)

[ Full Transcript ↓ ]

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Bad: To be fair Chat, I really think the QSMP... I don't think anyone really can relate to it, Chat. It's something that's so... I've told people this before, like– but it's hard to understand. Right? Like...

Where was I? Sorry Chat, I'm losing my train of thought. Look, let me explain Chat– here's the dealio, ok? Here's the dealio, and this is what I mean when I say like, it's important to keep this in mind, Chat. Ok? It's important to keep this in mind:

I don’t think people understand the effect that the QSMP had on like, some of the streamers, in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. This is the analogy I’ve given to every person who I’ve like, shared this with. Imagine you meet somebody– [He hears a strange noise] What the fudge was that? Did you hear that?

Anyway– Chip! The story I was just relaying to Chat, Chip, was this: I was sharing this story with them, I said–  I was giving them an analogy. 

Imagine Chat, for example, imagine that you were… playing Minecraft, with like– you were given a friend to play Minecraft with, Chat, like your best friend, and [unintelligible] were like, “Hey, you get to play Minecraft with this person, right? BUT if this person dies – they’re currently your best friend, Chip – but if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Ever again.” Can you imagine what that’s like, Chip?

I don’t think a lot of people understand like, what that does, right? I’m not gonna say that like, it creates this situation, Chip, that like, messes with your head, but it– Chip – but it totally, totally does, Chip. It messes with your head! It literally puts you in a position where you’re second-guessing and thinking about everything, Chip! You’re thinking about EVERYTHING Chip! Ok? And that’s the problem, Chip– is you turn into a paranoid monster because of it, Chip! Like, you don’t understand Chip– I was- I was so afraid of every dirt block, I used to carry a shovel with me Chip, and I would specifically right-click dirt blocks that looked suspicious because mines, Chip– mines could not be shoveled! Like, I was crazy, Chip! But here’s the problem, Chip: that craziness is still there. I’m genuinely like–

I remember thinking Chip, that I would one day– I was like, “I’m going to move past–” here, let’s go up here, Chip. I remember thinking one day Chip, I was like, “I’m gonna move past the underground base, one of these days. You know, one of these days, I feel like I’ll be able to grow and achieve the desire to build a base that doesn’t have to be underground.” But I don’t think it’s possible now Chip, because I think… I just don’t know. I feel like the paranoia– there’s still like, residual leftover trauma from that situation, Chip.

But here’s the problem Chip: I don’t think I don’t think– I don’t think people understand it. Like, I just really don’t. But I also don’t blame them Chip, ‘cuz I don’t think it’s possible to fully understand it if you haven’t lived through it. Like, if you did not live through the QSMP… I’m talking about the QSMP, I don’t- I don’t know if that was obvious– if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience like, the Eggs were. Right? I don’t think people realize it. Like, they were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with, Chip. So, it’s just one of those things that–

[He’s interrupted by a loud rumble of thunder above them]

Did lightning just strike here? Is it thunderstorming out…? But anyway, Chip. That’s the food for thought.

But that’s the problem– Like, every time it rains in Minecraft, I have to like, look at the sky, and I get this weird, like, second--hand vibe because of the trauma. The trauma, Chip! The trauma is real! But that’s the point– I’m not saying I regret it. I, to this day Chip, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. 

[He falls down] Dangit, don’t come over here Chip, ‘cuz I’m coming back up! Ok.

I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering  and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, Chip, it was just that fun. I really wi– I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible, Chip, to give people that same energy, like that same experience. You know what I mean, Chip? I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible again. Like, EVER.

Because… because like, one: I will say on one level Chip, I will say on one level, like– it’s sort of emotionally like… It’s emotionally devastating, and I think to actually go through that– and this is where like, if I ever do end up going to a– see a therapist, if I ever do end up going to see a therapist at any point, I’ll talk it over with them and be like, “Hey, what do you think about this?” Because I genuinely think on one level, like– it’s created this fear of forming attachments because of like, how things can go. You know what I mean? Like, the fear of getting attached to something and then potentially losing it. Like, it’s- it’s a genuine thing. I think people forget about that.

Like, at the end of the day, everything was RP, right? On the server. You know what I mean? Like, everything was RP, Chip. BUT at the same point, even though it was RP Chip, it was still like– there the reality of you were still playing like, with another person, and you were still getting that experience, and it felt like you were genuinely attached to someone and you didn’t want anything bad to happen to them. It was GENUINELY stressful, Chip.

But at the same point, I don’t regret it, and I don’t think it was a bad experience. I’m– 

Sometimes in life Chip, you go through stuff, and maybe you have a certain amount of like, things that like, can happen, that you’re like, “You know what, maybe this wasn’t a good thing that this happened,” but at the same point, you still aren’t necessarily upset about it, because… it’s like growing as a person, right? Here’s the thing Chip; even bad situations, Chip, can lead to an overall good outcome. Like–

Even if you’re going through something bad Chip, just because a bad thing happens doesn’t mean that only bad things have to come from that. That’s one of the things I tell people all the time, Chip, is that if you go through a bad situation, you can learn from it, and you can use your experience to help others. And you can be that– you can be, at the worst-case scenario, you can be someone for other people who are going through that same experience to lean on when they go through that.I think there’s a certain amount of comfort that comes from that; from knowing no matter how bad your situation is, you’re not the only person who’s experienced it. You know what I mean?

[vaguely-concerned]

sometimes I think of all the on-the-surface warm, well-meaning but deeply ineffectual advice and attention john gives harrow through harrow the ninth (make some soup and get some sleep! get a hobby! don't be so hard on yourself! self care harrow! as long as I need take no actual responsibility in this relationship whatsoever I would have loved to be your dad!) set up against the stark truth that with his other hand he has been staging her attempted horrific murder again and again and again like a living nightmare on the logic that it will 'put her down or fix her'. and then I find that I wish there is a hell. a special hell where twitch streamers turned necromantic death emperors go

[dykedvonte]

I think depictions of Anya being cruel to Curly or drawing out his suffering are artful and chilling but completely miss the point of the story and her character.

I'm not saying she doesn't deserve to have that "I told you so" moment with him but not in something callous or cold. Even if that is how it happened, she'd immediately feel guilty cause at that point she's not tormenting her tormenter or even the person truly at fault. She's doing something cathartic, similar to how Jimmy likely hits Curly to release rage he can't against the rest of the crew. She'd see herself as no different when she'd come back from the moment and see Curly cowering at her. She wants someone to take responsibility but how does being cruel to the defenseless help? Why would she want the power Jimmy has over her over Curly?

The idea of her extending someone else's pain is just so against the struggles she already faces and how she can't even bring herself to cause someone pain even to help them. Her very desire is to release herself from her own suffering and I doubt she'd even fine some sort of guilty release in being cruel to another.

[cubbihue]

Peri was very upset about a lot of things that happened. Within a span of a week, he felt like his entire life has changed for the worst!! He had a dumb bulb on his wand, Timmy was still moving away, and he had to go to a school far from everyone he knew!!!

Of course, the cause and trigger of those emotions was Timmy. But Peri can’t blame his older brother for any of that. So the next logical conclusion for a small child to reach was to blame his parents instead!!! And boy did he blame a lot on his parents.

Many of Peri’s actions in his childhood stems from misplaced grief and anger. By the time he was old enough to know better, Peri got a mixture of stubbornness and a bruised ego to admit he was wrong for how he reacted.

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[1uckygold]

Ominis: What are you doing?

MC: Shh, I need complete concentration. I'm trying to pick a lock.

Ominis: Are you using Alohomora?

MC: No, I want to learn how to do it without relying on my wand. What if I forget it and we need to rescue someone from being locked up?

Ominis: I highly doubt any of us would be foolish enough to—

Sebastian: *banging on the door* Oh, Merlin! MC, something just brushed against my leg!

[nestaians]

that post reminded me; nesta did in fact work in the cabin

nesta chopped wood, cleaned the dishes and probably cooked for them or least help in the kitchen

bc it was mentioned feyre does not know how to cook

but it is not seen as work by feyre, who shared about their life in cabin from her pov nor inner circle question it

they all make it seem like nesta and elain did nothing, like feyre hunting was the start and the end of any kind of work and feyre alone took care of them when they were in that cabin

they literally act as if all nesta and elain did was spend feyre’s money on luxuries

which is a lie bc feyre had an attitude about her sister wanting to spend money on new shoes bc the old ones was completely worn out and had holes in them

let me make it clear: feyre chose to go hunting

it has never said “nesta made her do it” and nesta is only like 2-3 yrs older than her, she was a child too but everyone is quick to forget that

in the beginning of acotar we see nesta try to look out for feyre and feyre had an attitude about it

if u have multiple siblings it makes sense why nesta is more everything of and with elain than feyre when you read their early acotar scenes. u are obviously going to be closer to the one who is accepting

it was their father who should be blamed but nesta is held accountable and blamed, till this day, for his failure as their parent

feyre painted him but not nesta. not until she “got better” srs words fail me on this

inner circle are a group of 500yrs old with all the knowledge in the world and they don’t see how stupid they are?

holding a grudge and beefing with a 20-21yrs nesta, who -in their world- is just a baby, over feyre choosing to hunt. what a bunch of pathetic losers

there’s something sad yet makes sense about nesta’s character is that she never argues or tries to prove that she did in fact work when they shit on her

feyre listening to mor’s story and the horrible things she went through and feyre immediately thinks “i get why rhysand can’t forgive nesta” as if they are anywhere near the same thing!

feyre is such a nasty person for it, for how she made nesta out to be again and again, you can’t change my mind, she is

to make it worse bc i can, before feyre went back for tamlin, she and nesta were better, in a way

feyre and nesta talked, feyre learned nesta knew she was taken and that nesta went to wall for her. nesta supported feyre and what she wanted to do

and after feyre was turned, when she was with rhysand, she undid all that progress by making nesta seem like a selfish person who does not care about her

feyre was also nasty for saying her sisters only cared about money and social standings

who knew you were taken and risked her life in the middle of winter to go to the wall for you? who supported you and your love for a fae? nesta! she cared about u!

who brought you paints? elain!

is feyre resents them for not doing more then she should just say so

feyre made it worse by bringing 3 faes, who humans fear for very good reason, into their house and let one of them invade nesta space, insult her and parroted feyre’s views on their life in the cabin

there is obviously more things like feyre constantly making nesta do things she does not want to do and making her be in presence of men she does not want to be in but that isn’t related to this topic

feyre has to sets things right, she set nesta up for failure in the eyes of her new family and now wants nesta to be a part of that said family that does not like her nor are quiet about it

nesta and feyre’s relationship is never going to actually heal without feyre taking accountability and apologising. it can’t be just nesta, it shouldn’t be just nesta who has to do it

nesta did work in that cabin. nesta did look after feyre. nesta did care about feyre

feyre wasn’t alone in looking after them, nesta and elain did too, they just had their own different ways of doing it

feyre had thoughts about her sisters marrying off and then it just being her and their father and she can paint, but then who would cook? who would chop wood for fire and keep them warm?

the reason they survived in that cabin bc they had each other. they did it together

but it’s not seen like that by feyre’s pov, by inner circle, by most of the fandom

nesta deserves better

[egophiliac]

bring your son to work day

[saccharinerose]

Furina: Anyone I've ever worked with probably couldn't wait to get rid of me... Since I'm just an ordinary person now. They'll probably just laugh in my face if I go asking them for help... :(

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