#was too unhappy with how it looked

[harmonysixx]

Marin for the last 15 minutes of Marin-day 🌺

[turtleblogatlast]

Fun little silly thought I had about the Lair Games and specifically Leo deliberately losing is all the reasons he could have for doing so.

My favorite headcanon for his main motivation is that Splinter wasn’t proud of him anymore.

I imagine that, in the beginning, winning the Lair Games was Leo’s opportunity to shine. He wasn’t artistic or the baby of the family like Mikey, wasn’t a tech genius who created amazing inventions like Donnie, wasn’t the eldest who was insanely strong and dependable like Raph. So he had to shine somewhere else- anywhere else- and what better way to get attention than to be a winner? A champion?

And then he won too much. And it wasn’t special anymore. He got too big headed, too cocky, he knew this was his element and he ran with it.

Splinter’s words of congratulations slowly petered out. Suddenly, there was no real reason to win.

Winning feels empty when the only one cheering you on is yourself.

So- Leo schemed. And he’s a great schemer, fooling his whole family (and Donnie did deserve a win- people were way happier when he won.)

He even gave up his prized possession! His room!

Though he knows his brothers probably think it’s a bad prize. A terrible one, even.

Leo doesn’t sleep much as is, though. So Dad’s snores were more comforting than anything. It was reassuring to hear him so clearly alive and close by.

Even if the distance between them was larger than Leo’d like.

He’d just have to find something else, something more to show his dad that Leo was someone to trust, to be proud of, to love.

He gets his chance soon after, when he needs to pull off a plan against Big Mama at his dad’s side. Leo can only hope this victory is one that has a lasting effect when his father looks at him with pride once more.

Victory, for Leo, is a pretty loaded term.

[teethkid67]

trying reallyyyyy hard to push my shapes more as i figure out how to draw them

[grimbothefool]

There they are. look at em. my beautiful boys (and 2 rats), fresh out the microwave in my brain that i rotate my ocs in

[mousingsart]

heyyyyy, heard we were drawing rwd characters in slutty tops?

[grapejuicegay]

Sometimes I just start thinking about this moment - paired with Maddie's "I just think that maybe you're not sure of your own feelings yet. And if there's something that you need to tell Eddie, you will. Just, in your own time" - and then don't stop thinking about it.

Maybe I'm just reading into it but the way this moment moves. Eddie steps forward, Tommy steps up to exactly where Eddie was, Buck turns to look where Eddie was, doesn't find what he was looking for but still finds something good. It's not just ep 4 and 5 where the focus on Eddie blows me away, it's also this.

[gaydexvocaloid]

walk on and on!!

[vaguely-concerned]

just going about my day idly contemplating how some of the ways hawke can interact with a romanced anders are not at all unlike how they interact with leandra (and a bit of carver too, especially with a purple hawke), and then thought about my hawke in the timeline where he romances anders and was hit straight in the face with 'was he ever actually in love, or was he just desperately trying to renegotiate with his mother's ghost in any way he could' and now i need to lie down. this is the power of dragon age 2

[pynkhues]

The problem is that Claudia isn't a mirror, she's a child, then a woman, and when she is reflecting them, I do think Louis tends to see Lestat in her and not himself.

(Same Anon you were answering) Yes! Complete agreement on Louis looking for a mirror of himself in Claudia and not seeing many of the ways she takes after him. Personally I think he’s also resisting seeing her more Lestat-ish sides until he’s forced to face them. Part of the problem is that he’s only looking for the more savory parts of himself in her, not the ones he’s less than keen to admitting to and I think that’s tied to…the social and moral acceptability of loving Claudia. It’s not the best way of putting it but it’s something I’ve been thinking about for a while but I’m still struggling to express: how important I think it is to Louis that Claudia is someone that he can and should love unconditionally and without the shame and baggage of loving Lestat, both as his child and as an innocent -or as much an innocent as a vampire can be.

(x)

Yeah, I totally agree.

To add to your point about Louis and unconditional love, this might sound like a bit of a stretch, but bear with me, haha, but I think it kind of ties into this throughline of Louis placing an enormous amount of responsibility on himself to be the primary resource/provider/carer for those he loves, and as a part of that, being in denial of their needs when they need things he doesn't want to acknowledge, or has no skills or resources to meet?

I've been percolating on this a bit during my very-slow-rewatch of the series, but I really do think we see the foundation of that in the pilot where Louis' not only obviously taken on the entire financial burden of the de Pointe du Lac family, but is simultaneously trying to oversee (with Florence) Grace getting married, and the care of Paul. I talk about it a bit in my Grace post, but I think Louis shutting down Grace when she brings up the prospect of seeking help is a really telling character moment.

Not only is it indicative of his shifting role in her life between brother and father, and his paternalistic tendencies generally, but I think it also reflects his denial of the idea that caring for Paul is something he can't handle himself. It's coming from a genuine place of love, but the reality is also that none of them are equipped to help Paul in the way that he needs it, and Louis will downplay that because he doesn't want it to be true.

What Louis wants is to be everything to everyone all of the time, and I think there is a part of him that resents them for it. I mean, he basically literally says that to Claudia's face - he does see her as a burden, and that frustrates him, but at the same time, he wants that. He wants burdens, he wants people to need him, and when they need something he can't give them, well, he resents them for that too.

I think we see it a lot with Louis when it comes to Claudia, but I think we see it with Lestat and a bit with Armand too. He wants to be the person they need most, and what that looks like changes based on the person and relationship dynamic. Like I'd say it manifests very differently for Loius The Father vs Louis The Husband, but I do also think it's there with all of them, and when it's a need he can't meet whether that be growing up, or romantic love, or mental health, or healing a trauma, he denies it until he's forced to face it, and then he usually resents them for it.

I think his love for Claudia is in a lot of ways a really intense version of that specifically because she is his daughter, and the idea that he can't provide what she needs or be all the love that she needs or truly protect her is elevated by the nature of that specific dynamic. It's all fed by paternal guilt and parental ownership and the idea that by the simple fact of being his daughter, she's both his reflection and his responsibility no matter how old she gets, or how much she wants to change their roles.

[setyourfireonme]

have you heard that if you don’t post anything for a long time you’ll end up posting two-year-old sketches? you’re welcome

[mossy-paws]

personal art

My Little Mind Space

[ghcstcd]

WIP // when you add a slightly lighter shade at the beginning of your rendering, and it instantly carves out the tiddy. tee hee!

[aq2003]

there comes a beautiful time in life where i have to ask myselg th question, "did i accidentally project too hard onto the character that i only relate to a little bit and in doing so hugely missed this one entire aspect/interpretation of the characters . am i stupid"

[mobblespsycho100]

not my previous opinion on firefly coming to bite me in the ass JAHDJSHJD

[lulu2992]

Inktober 2023, Day 30: Rush.

Hope.

[roscoehamiltons]

also saw that it’s speculated (by f1-insider.com) that carlos signed w williams for next year so now I’m worried again about where valtteri’s going 😔