#was supposed to post last night but i fell asleep hahaha

[einsatzzz]

Thank you for tagging! 😆😆 My friend and I have 10-13 OCs that we dropped into KHR, but 3 of them (Kana, Kurumi and Yui) are the main ones so I’ll be filling these up based on them (3-in-1 package!).

General Questions:

1. What is their name? Their pronouns? Age? Gender identity? Sexuality?

🍎 A cold but resolute asocial.

Name: Kanako Ninomiya (nickname: Kana)

Pronouns: Any (if still confused, Kana will just tell you to use the same pronouns as Kurumi for convenience)

Age: 15

Gender identity: ?*

Sexuality: ?

🎀 A charming and outgoing fashionista.

Name: Kurumi Ninomiya

Pronouns: Any (may depend on clothing, She/Her for convenience)

Age: 14

Gender identity: ?*

Sexuality: ?

⛓️ An eccentric and "fun"-loving genius jokester

Name: Yui Yorimitsu

Pronouns: He/Him

Age: 15

Gender identity: Cis/Male

Sexuality: ? (Has had both girlfriends and boyfriends so--)

*Their gender identity would be last thing you'll have to think about when they're coming after you, sharp weapons in hand---

2. Are they somehow related to another khr character? In what way?

Nope, they’re not related to any KHR character. They belong to a separate faction, a yakuza group called Oniyanagi, which is in a special alliance with Vongola (similar to Cavallone). The twins are co-heirs as the 10th Gen Oniyanagi boss, while Yui is their right-hand man.

3. What does your oc look like? Do you have any art of them?

Oh I have so many! Though, I already put their pictures on Question 1 🤣 but here are my most recent drawings of the twins! (Yui’s is still a WIP rn)

4. What are their relationships to other khr characters? Pairings you like with your oc? Adopted siblings and parents maybe? 

For context, the premise is that these three transferred into Namimori Middle School, shortly after Gokudera’s introduction. They’re meant to help Tsuna with his training as the next boss, but Reborn also treats them as students to be tutored as well.

🍎 Kana: Generally distant to the main KHR friend group and likewise, they’re distant to her as well, since they don’t know how to approach her (except maybe, Yamamoto). Lambo hates her and calls her “Evil Hag(Oni baba)”. She is very respectful to Reborn, though. For certain reasons that ended up with him getting beaten up by Kurumi, Tsuna is very scared of Kana. She’s not sociable but she also recognizes the importance of authority, so she speedran into becoming class rep soon after getting transferred in and next aimed for the Disciplinary Committee. After a certain incident, she ended up in Hibari’s hit-list/fight-on-sight list.

🎀 Kurumi: Contrary to Kana, she gets along well with the main KHR friend group, especially Kyoko, Haru and Yamamoto. Lambo especially loves her because she keeps on spoiling him and he calls her Rumi-nee too. Additionally, Adult Lambo has a puppy crush on her, for some reason. Tsuna is afraid of her at first, but they quickly become good friends. She even helps him out on getting relationship progress with Kyoko. Of course, it backfires, and there’s zero progress in the end. But did Kurumi have fun? Yes, absolutely! Don’t ask whether Tsuna had fun though.

⛓️ Yui: His relationship with the main KHR friend group is somewhere between Kana and Kurumi’s, not too close but not too distant. As fellow right-hand men and academic achievers, Gokudera has an ongoing beef with him, though it’s mostly one-sided because Yui is too laidback to take him seriously. He has also taken a liking to Lambo and would claim to wanting to turn him into a “mini-me”. Yui is also fond of I-pin and would lowkey treat her like a little sister. Tsuna has mixed feelings for him, but they generally get along.

5. Actually what's the family situation of your oc? Do they have siblings that's a background character perhaps? 

Kana and Kurumi’s parents are very loving and caring. Their father is the 9th Gen Boss (Kenzaburou) while their mother is the 9th Gen Mist Guardian (Kiyoko). They love to dote on the twins very much and would cover up for them a lot in case they cause trouble. On the surface, a very observant person may notice certain inconsistencies and missing details in the twin’s background information, but it would be wiser not to delve deeper. The only consistent truth is that Kana and Kurumi are connected by a messy tangled threads of fate.

Yui’s family situation is complicated, as he had to grow up under so much pressure and expectation from his parents. Additionally, his father is the 9th Gen Boss’ right-hand man. Currently, he barely lives with his parents at all and prefers to live in the main Oniyanagi estate with Kana and Kurumi. At this point, the twin’s parents treat him like their son. Whenever his parents come over to visit, he camps outside in the forest.

6. Does your oc have a mental illness? Neurodivergencies? Other disabilities? At what age did they get these disabilities if they weren't born with them?

Yes, they have mental illnesses. *checks backstories* We kinda, made sure of that. Though, I won’t be going into detail on them for now or the info-dump would be very long (lol).

7. If they had a super power what would it be? 

🍎 Kana: Shadow manipulation/Talent for Assassination

🎀 Kurumi: Superhuman strength/Can summon large amounts of Dying Will Flames from a young age

⛓️ Yui: None, but I guess being a mechanical genius counts. He has also become very durable with high evasion skills after spending time with the twins. You can imagine why.

8. Free Space!

Yui, Kana and Kurumi are practically platonic soulmates. That’s all, your honor.

Actually, the reason why the birb-related OCs stood out to me is because of their titles/aliases + animals we associate them with:

🍎 Kana: Night Crow Princess (夜烏姫君, Yogarasu himegimi)

🎀 Kurumi: Golden Eagle Princess (狗鷲姫君, Inuwashi himegimi)

⛓️ Yui: Intelligent Stone Monkey (霊明石猴 Reimei Shaku Kou)

I also made videos for them!

All 10th Generation Guardians - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B9fwY-EtnTE

Tomato Song ft. KHR Characters - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQWC9W2AMes

Quaso - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nB7P-X7pFcQ

KHR Specific Questions

1. What's their flames? And how many flames do they have? One? More? None?

Will list one for now.

🍎 Kana: Sky Flame

🎀 Kurumi: Sky Flame

⛓️ Yui: Lightning Flame

2. How do they use their flames? If they have one.

🍎 Kana: Unable to use it right now, for certain reasons.

🎀 Kurumi: Infuses it into her weapon, a greatsword.

⛓️ Yui: Uses it along with his robots who assists him in battle.

3. If they don't have a flame, how do they fight? Do they fight at all? 

Assuming this is pre-future arc, when flames aren’t that much of a thing yet:

🍎 Kana: Straight-up just goes in for the kill. It can be with anything but has preference for swords.

🎀 Kurumi: Hand-to-hand combat, but uses her greatsword sometimes.

⛓️ Yui: Still uses his robots to fights, but skilled with the staff as well. He is more of a support type of fighter.

4. If they can't fight for any reason, what's their preferred method of self defense?

🍎 Kana: “I can’t win anymore, but you can still lose” type of self-defense

🎀 Kurumi: Negotiation, last resort is to somehow continue to fight

⛓️ Yui: Either try to win by pure strats or---”IF IT SUCKS HIT DA BRICKS”

KHR Character Questions

1. How much does Tsuna want to protect your oc upon first meeting them? After knowing them a minute, is Tsuna now scared of them or worried about them?

🍎 Kana: It’s not a question of how much Tsuna wants to protect her, it’s a question of how much Tsuna wants to protect himself from her--- He is terrified.

🎀 Kurumi: Tsuna was initially wary/scared of her, but she eventually became one of the people he wants to protect. He’s most friendly with her.

⛓️ Yui: Tsuna can’t figure this guy out completely to be honest. He’s a bit worried.

2.a Does Reborn think they're pathetic or does he have a slight respect for them?

🍎 Kana: Reborn thinks she’s a very promising hitman, but eventually she’s the one who ended up with the least progress after a good amount of time, compared to the others. His impression of her is a weird mix of having respect but at the same time, he thinks she’s a bit pathetic.

🎀 Kurumi: Reborn respects her for the amount of growth that she has gone through and the effort she put in to improve herself.

⛓️ Yui: Similar to Kana, a weird mix of respect and being pathetic. Though, Reborn does think he’s the more reliable of the three, during tough situations.

2.b If he(Reborn) suddenly appeared out of a wall-hole, how would your oc react?

🍎 Kana: Thinks it’s normal.

🎀 Kurumi: Thinks it’s normal.

⛓️ Yui: Thinks it’s normal.

3. Would Hibari Kyoya be able to stand being in a room with them for five minutes? How long do they last in a fight against him?

🍎 Kana: It’s more of a question of “Would Kana be able to stand being in a room with Hibari for 5 minutes--” because being in a room with her is exactly what Hibari wanted, now they can fight and beat the shit out of each other without Kana trying to nope out. In a fight, they would be pretty even and it could last for very long.

🎀 Kurumi: She always tries to pretend like she’s a weak damsel in distress, because she doesn’t want to end up on Hibari’s hitlist. Five minutes in a room with him would probably pass by uneventful. In a fight, I think they’d be pretty even too.

⛓️ Yui: ”IF IT SUCKS HIT DA BRICKS---He wouldn’t even engage in a fight with him, he knows better than that. Yui is, however, willing to sacrifice Kana as bait to get away.

4. Would your oc go off rambling about crytids with Gokudera? If yes, which is their fave cryptid? 

🍎 Kana: No.

🎀 Kurumi: If she’s interested enough!

⛓️ Yui: Yeah, if Gokudera can set aside his grudge. They’re both nerds deep inside and can get along if both of them actually made an effort.

5. Would Skull try to flirt with them? Would he score a date? Pity date or genuine interest?

I haven’t known this character that much yet, so I’ll skip for now.

6. How loud does your oc cheer when Yamamoto hits a home run? What if the ball hit them?

🍎 Kana: Probably won’t even be there. Unless, Kurumi convinces her enough to come.

🎀 Kurumi: Yes and it will be a moderately loud cheer. Instead of the ball hitting her, she’ll probably just catch it no problem.

⛓️ Yui: He’ll just be sitting back and relaxing. He’ll just evade any ball coming his way to hit him.

7. Would your oc be able to last an hour watching over Lambo, I-pin and Fuuta? What if they all had sugar beforehand?

🍎 Kana: No. Maybe possible, if it’s just Fuuta.

🎀 Kurumi: Yes, she adores them!

⛓️ Yui: Yes, but he may or may not be the best influence.

8. What food would Sawada Nana cook for your oc? What's their favourite food? Drink?

🍎 Kana: A meal with a sweet flavor. She has a preference for sweets in general.

🎀 Kurumi: I think she’d be fine with anything Nana cooks, but don’t let her cook though. Her favorite cakes are strawberry shortcake and cheesecakes.

⛓️ Yui: He tends to skip meals a lot, often runs on energy drinks and dislikes veggies in general, so Nana will probably give him large servings of healthy food? His favrite food is spring rolls and dumplings, while his favorite drinks are banana milk and peach tea.

Please tell me if you have other questions!

I desperately want to know more about people's khr OCs! Specifically yours @lilacdon20 and also yours @masterdisastre !!!!

But really anyone is very welcomed to reblog this with ramblings of their OCs!

Yes You! The person reading this! I want to know about your OCs specifically!!!!

Also you are all welcomed to tag other people who's khr OCs you like as well!! ANYONE IS WELOCME! /pos

Questions, if needed because flustered or confused, are under the Read more!

First up! General questions!

What is their name? Their pronouns? Age? Gender identity? Sexuality? (if any of that matters lmao)

Are they somehow related to another khr character? In what way?

What does your oc look like? Do you have any art of them? Picrew also welcomed! Ai art... Not preferred >:/

What are their relationships to other khr characters? Pairings you like with your oc? Adopted siblings and parents maybe?

Actually what's the family situation of your oc? Do they have siblings that's a background character perhaps? (example: sometimes I give Kusakabe Tetsuya a brother)

Does your oc have a mental illness? Neurodivergencies? Other disabilities? At what age did they get these disabilities if they weren't born with them?

If they had a super power what would it be?

Free Space! [Anything else you want to talk about?]

Khr specific questions:

What's their flames? And how many flames do they have? One? More? None?

How do they use their flames? If they have one.

If they don't have a flame, how do they fight? Do they fight at all?

If they can't fight for any reason, what's their preferred method of self defense?

Free space! [insert any khr specific question you want!]

And last but not least and mostly for fun!!! Khr character questions:

How much does Tsuna want to protect your oc upon first meeting them? After knowing them a minute, is Tsuna now scared of them or worried about them?

Does Reborn think they're pathetic or does he have a slight respect for them? If he suddenly appeared out of a wall-hole, how would your oc react?

Would Hibari Kyoya be able to stand being in a room with them for five minutes? How long do they last in a fight against him?

Would your oc go off rambling about crytids with Gokudera? If yes, which is their fave cryptid?

Would Skull try to flirt with them? Would he score a date? Pity date or genuine interest?

How loud does your oc cheer when Yamamoto hits a home run? What if the ball hit them?

Would your oc be able to last an hour watching over Lambo, I-pin and Fuuta? What if they all had sugar beforehand?

What food would Sawada Nana cook for your oc? What's their favourite food? Drink?

Free space! [insert any other character questions you want!]

There is no pressure for anyone to answer of course. I just want to get to know more OCs and their creators. I'm talkative lately so I'll try to keep up with the reblogs as best I can :3

Multiple reblogs for multiple OCs are also very very welcomed!

[kyetalksshit]

Omg I came on here to post a cute lil blurb about how much I love my friends and was reminded that I'm SUPPOSED to be keeping a dream journal more or less hahaha oops

Anyways last night's dream was... a trip and a half tbh so let's recap it while I still remember (even tho it's almost 1am and I should be asleep but here we are)

There was definitely a smaller dream that i completely did not remember even when I first woke up, let alone now. But the last dream...

SO. I get home from work or wherever and I come back downstairs with my dog so she can go potty outside. I notice that there are a lot of people running in and out moving my roommate's stuff out of the house. I'm like omg thank the gods maybe he's moving out and I'll have the place to myself for a little while!!!

I ask someone in passing (I think it was his family or friends) "hey is he moving out?" And they're like "huh?? No, he's not leaving." I'm like 🤨

Then once the living room is cleared out, they bring in this HUUUUUUGE couch like one that has no business being that big. And I overhear someone (or maybe I just knew somehow? Idr) saying that he can afford to upgrade now that he's got this extra money (ie me paying rent). I then see a little dog that looks a lot like his dog that passed a few years ago irl but with a bit of husky? I'm like ?? Weird that he didn't tell me he got a dog but I've got pets here so ig it's not that big of a deal. I pet the dog and say hi.

...then I meet ANOTHER dog, this time a big St. Bernard/GSD mix named Tuck (who I know irl because of my job but in this dream he was now also my roommate's dog). I'm like?????? Wtf man

AND THEN I MEET A THIRD DOG. This one is a small doodle of some kind with wiry hair and smells awful and in dreamland I had a memory of this dog being at the house one other time overnight and I was complaining because it was very yappy. So knowing that not only were there suddenly THREE NEW DOGS in the house without my knowledge, but that at least one of them was gonna be yappy and irritating???????? 🙄😭

I'm irritated but letting my dog play outside and I guess my sister or friends or something are there too because I'm chatting with them about how annoyed I am and I drop my phone, only to pick it up and be DEVASTATED because the screen is SHATTERED literally shattered like to the point that touching it is making my finger bleed. I tape it and then my friend/sister is like wait a minute he has more pets??

I'm like IM SORRY WHAT and she points and says there's a bunny there and one, two, three cats. So that means he has 7 animals??????

Idr how but somehow I find out that he's had the bunny and 3 cats this whole time but made a point to hide them from me. Which is bad enough but three dogs ON TOP OF THAT???? Sets me off.

So I start bringing my dog inside (and now all his friends/family are gone and so are my friends and my cats somehow got out of my room so now I have to wrangle them too) and I see him laying on the couch under a single throw blanket, snoring. And I'm so mad. Because irl he keeps sleeping on the couch EVEN THO HES LIKE 50 and I hate it, so ofc I also hate it in the dream.

I start mumbling to myself about how irritating that is and then start directing that energy at him and getting louder, and he wakes up. I continue yelling at him louder and louder about how he is a grown ass man with a bedroom and a mattress upstairs and it's so frustrating to have to tiptoe past him all the time, and then I bring up how he has people over every single night (which irl he was, though recently it's been more sparse, which is v interesting that it lined up in the dream) and then say I mean you've been getting a LITTLE better on that but-- (about to transition into how LOUD he is on his own)

And he interrupts me by yelling "yeah that fell through, so THANKS FOR THAT!" (Like implying I did magic to force them out)

I go "I DIDNT DO ANYTHING?????? BUT IM GLAD THEYRE GONE"

And this red knotted string on the wall (like those Chinese good luck pendants) that in this moment i understand to be one of his wards, falls off the wall and onto his head. Like as if by saying "I'm glad they're gone" I hit one of his wards and it broke right in front of us and bonked him on his head (giving him nasty repercussions).

He turns to me so angry and curses at me in what my dream self interpreted as Arabic (his native language), like he was cursing me out but also trying to fling evil eye at me. I spit it back at him to deflect that energy, scoop up my pets, and storm upstairs to my room. And as I do I yell down "GROW THE FUCK UP." And then I slam the door behind myself, leaving him speechless below.

I remember collapsing on my bed with my pets and then going ok yeah no I need to move, I cannot stay here and live like this. And then of course I have a panic when I realize that my (shattered 😭) phone is still outside where I had it last and I do NOT want to pass him to go get it.

And then I wake up.

[achillieus]

let you down. (sebastian stan x reader)

summary: it's a universal truth but it's worth repeating; feelings eat us raw. or just an actor and a girl falling in and out of love over the course of three months.

(this was inspired by sebastian's visit to greece for his movie, monday, and is based on that, so that means in the story we’re in 2018. also i have this posted on ao3 too but while i’m writing the last parts i thought of posting it here too)

pairing: sebastian stan x reader

warnings: alcohol, sexual references, implied depression, don’t kill me because of the ending, sebastian and reader are the definition of right person wrong time, it's kinda slowburn because i love the yearning, also this part has some funny moments but overall it’s a big SOB

part: 6/6 (there will also be an epilogue)

(other parts)   (masterlist)

This is how it ends: broken hearts from crashed dreams.

Sebastian holds you until his muscles ache and your lungs burn from the feeling of too little oxygen. It is cold and dark, almost midnight, too dark, a starless night.

No more stars for you and I.

“Here,” Voice hoarse, eyes heavy-lid and itching from almost crying. He gives you one of the rings he wore in the movie. “I want you to keep this.”

Keep it close to your heart. Forget me not.

He takes a breath and a step back, tries to regain all the strength he still has, steady feet and shoulders fixed. He digs his nails into his palms, red marks in his skin, air catching in his throat, he’s on the verge of falling but he stays standing.

He remembers tears glistening down his cheeks, maybe they were yours not his, and the cold autumn wind hitting his face and he remembers feeling like he’s dying.

And then he closes the door of Argyris’ car and looks at you.

And his heart stretches and stretches and stretches and then somehow splits in half.

/

It goes like this:

There’s a ghost that lives in your apartment from now on. In the living room. Sitting on the couch. And it has steel blue eyes and a familiar heart. And it whispers a love story, half-finished, and you cannot make it stop.

The ghost touches your collarbone and he’s gone but there’s a ring in a golden chain around your neck and a white shirt forgotten in your laundry. And it smells like him. The clinging scent of his aftershave sticking to your pores. Eucalyptus. And no matter how hard you try to wash it off, it still lingers.

How could I ever forget someone like you?

The ghost lives here, but the place is empty, so empty. And it’s hard not to cry.

/

Sebastian calls and texts a lot.

He tells you he’s tired but excited because he started filming a new movie. It’s very indie and experimental, I can’t wait for you to see it. He tells you he’s missing his days in Greece like hell and that one night he dreamt of you. Didn’t want to wake up. What he doesn’t tell you is that he’s coming back in a month, Argyris needs him for some extra scenes. It’s nearly killing him but he doesn’t tell you. He wants to surprise you, see the pure light in your eyes when they’ll meet his.

/

You try sexting. It doesn’t go very well.

23:50, sebastian: if you were here in my bed right now what would you be doing

06:51, you: probably falling asleep hahaha

06:51, you: oh fuck was i supposed to sext back

06:51, you: sorry seb i just woke up and i have a class in an hour, love you <3

23:52, sebastian: fuck timezones

/

(three weeks and 10 seconds later)

“I can’t believe she doesn’t know you’re here,” Argyris shakes his head as he’s driving home from the airport, “If I were her, I’d kill you.”

“Good thing I didn’t fall in love with you.”

Sebastian laughs and looks out of the car window. The stars. There are so many stars tonight. He holds his breath; he’s finally feeling whole again. His heart isn’t split in two anymore.

/

You don’t know how long you stand there at your door, staring at him, but it feels like a century before he grins, almost laughs, takes your hands in his and you start considering that perhaps this isn’t a hallucination. Perhaps it’s real.

“Surprise?”

Something inside of you bursts, your organs twitch. You can’t think, you can’t speak, but you can move. You don’t lose any more time, you take a step forward, attach your bodies, your face buried in his neck, your fingers clutching into the rough fabric of his jacket. You breathe him in like an antidote.

“How?”

“Does it matter?”

“No.”

You kiss him and it’s like poetry, like art, like honey and you can’t separate yourself from him, not even hours later.

/

(looking back, these were the golden days)

You pretending to be mad at him for not telling you he was coming back and him pressing his lips on your skin, drawing patterns on your naked shoulder. A feathery touch.

Sebastian always touches you like you’re something made of gold and porcelain, something cherished that constantly needs to be treasured. And nobody has done that before. And you love him for it.

You try to decorate your Christmas tree together. He messes with the lights for a while, eventually gives up and goes on to eat too many reindeer shaped cookies.

He massages your muscles when you write a boring essay for college.

You go with him when he has to shoot a “driving a motorcycle naked in the centre of Athens” scene and you bite the inside of your cheeks to stop smiling like an idiot.

He gives you a dress he bought for you in New York.  

“You didn’t have to.”

“I know, but I wanted to.”

He calls you sweetheart in the mornings, still half asleep and later joins you in the shower.

“Why are you so hot?”

“Climate change”

“Oh, shut up”

It’s tender and it’s soft and it’s human.

And that’s the saddest part.

/

Soon you realize that him leaving two months ago was merely a rehearsal and you still haven’t said your actual goodbyes. Your chest starts to feel as if it’s full of crushed glass.

And it’s ridiculous because you fell in love with Sebastian sometime between the first ten days you spent together.

Who falls in love in ten days?  

Ridiculous or not, you know you are in love with him just as you know that sooner or later, whatever he is feeling will fade and wither. Maybe it’ll be in a week, maybe it’ll be in a month, maybe in a year if you’re lucky. But there will definitely come a day when he will step out of a gala or a party or a fancy gym in New York with a beautiful model in his arms and two paparazzi’s following him around.

What will you be then?

A past small cameo in his life. A side character. Will he remember your name?

He is your whole world.

(a bottle of cheap prosecco helps you decide that)

He is your whole world.

And yet, there will come a day when he won’t even remember your name.

/

It was difficult. No, it was the most difficult thing you’ve ever done. Telling him how you think it’d be better if you didn’t talk after he leaves.

“I don’t agree with this.”

“Seb, it’s for the best.”

Your body doesn’t feel strong enough to carry your heart. And you’re certain it will only get worse once he’s away. The world around you will melt. You’ll obsess over a phone screen and his messages. You’ll start chasing ghosts again. You can’t handle that.

“Why?” He says urgently and his fingers dance over the flesh of your palms.

“Because this”, you motion your hand between the two of you, “is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever had in my life and I don’t want it to become ugly.”

He nods, he understands.

“I love you, you know,” he says smiling and tugs you closer to him, “And I may not be here to show you but I think I’ll love you for a long time.”

Your hand grips his waist right to the bones and something flares in your eyes, something wild that wrenches you around.

“I know, I’ll love you the same.”

“Maybe we’ll meet again.”

“Only if I’m the luckiest girl on the planet.”

He laughs and you look at him, fully aware he’ll be ripped out of your life like a page from a cheap leather notebook. And when you kiss for the last time, there’s a hole forming in your soul.

And just because endings don’t leave visible scars to one’s body and soul, that doesn’t mean the scars don’t exist. You know they do, because you feel the aching pain of every single one of them.

/

(every night when you close your eyes you see him)

(every night you look at the stars and think of him)

/

A month passes and Argyris asks you if you miss him.

“I don’t think I’ll ever stop.”

“He said the exact same thing.”

You tell him not to mention Sebastian again.

Two months pass and you need to stop stalking his instagram profile.

Three months pass and you almost text him.

Four months pass and you go to watch Endgame with some friends and you cry. You cry when Black Widow sacrifices herself and when Iron Man smiles at his wife while dying, and when Bucky Barnes appears on screen.

The others don’t understand and you don’t blame them.

Five months pass and Argyris’ girlfriend wants you to meet someone. A charming boy your age with blonde hair and a lip piercing.

And he's cute but you compare him to Sebastian even before he has the chance to say his name. His eyes are not the right shade of blue and he doesn’t look at you like you’re made of the world’s finest jewel.

And he doesn’t know any constellation names.

And then more than a year passes in a second and you learn to not look for him. Not anymore.

/

It’s early March 2020 and despite the rising fear of the upcoming pandemic, you’re doing well. Scars are starting to fade. And after spending two weeks in Prague, your best friend being there with an exchange program, Sebastian Stan is the farthest thing from your mind.

Until he literally comes crashing into you. At the airport.

No, it can’t be him.

You have your suitcase on one hand and a bottle of antiseptic gel on the other. He has two bodyguards on his sides and a black hoodie on.  And while half of his face is hidden behind a mask, you can see his eyes perfectly. A frozen lake in December. You would know those eyes in your deathbed, at the end of the world.

Your vision gets blurry and suddenly you feel cold.

He won’t recognize me, he can’t.

But then he looks at you and every memory you had buried inside of you resurfaces.

He motions to his guards to wait for him and he starts walking towards you. You breathe slowly, one breath at a time. He takes his mask off and you hesitate to take yours, not sure if you truly want him to see you.

You exchange the typical and very awkward hi, how are you, i’m glad you’re doing okay and then he smiles and it feels comfortable. Familiar.

It’s the whiff of another time that you always kept around. A reminder that you were once loved by a god.

“What are you doing here?”

“Filming Falcon and the Winter Soldier”

If you hadn’t unfollowed him on instagram, you’d known.

“Ah yes I heard about that, congrats.”

He nods a thank you.

“And you? In Prague?”

“I was at a friend.”

He looks conflicted, hurt, turns his gaze to his shoes on the grey cement. You want to say something, but you feel like throwing up.

And then he laughs.

“I was right.”

You’re confused, he notices.

“Back in Greece,” he swallows, “I told you this would happen.”

“It would have been an airport, different gates for each of us, but same waiting hall. Or a Greek island, where we’d both be for the summer.”

“I would have found you.”

You remember and you cannot help but smile. He was right. He found you.

“I didn’t believe you then.”

I barely believe you now.

He touches your hair. And his touch is like a knife. And you want to cry. Magnolias under your tongue. A love long lost is whispering in your ears until it hurts to listen. He’s like a magnetic field and you feel yourself drowning in him.

“I bet they’ll ask me a hundred questions about you later.” He says and looks at the two men waiting for him.

“And what will you tell them?”

“That you’re most probably the love of my life.”

Don’t cry, don’t cry.

“There’s no way we’d meet here if you’re not.”

“Sebastian,” His name sounds like a prayer coming out of your lips and you're ready to tell him you love him and you can swear he looks like he’s ready to faint, “I-”

The guards yell his name. And it's the same feeling people have just before a car crash.

“I’m sorry, I have to go.”

One last look.

Don’t cry, don’t cry.

You repeat it over and over again. But you fail.

“No, don't cry” He smiles, one last smile, “Just look at the stars and wait for us to meet again, because we will.”

He caresses the back of your palm for a second and you think your ribcage is shattering but it’s only your heart drumming frantically. Pushing your fragile bones to break. 

You want to stop him, wrap your arms around his torso, never let him go. Not again. But you don’t.

You just watch him leave, one more time, your knees weak, your head heavy and dizzy. For the split of a moment he turns and glances at you but then he’s nowhere to be seen.

Perhaps it was all in your imagination. Perhaps it was nothing but a wonder.

You get into your plane and you silently sob.

/

And then it’s summer.

And you overhear he was seen with a girl, the day before your vacation starts and you find a picture of them together a week later, a pretty blonde girl clinging to his side with a colorful bikini somewhere in Spain. And he’s smiling. And you feel so ashamed. And so stupid.

They say time heals all wounds but they must be wrong because you can’t forget how he used to smile at you or how he used to call you the love of his life.

Was he joking when he said you'll meet again? You bet if you asked him now, he wouldn't even remember saying it.

I’ll love you for a long time.

So long for nothing.

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[gossip-girl-of-middleearth]

Hello! I hope this doesn’t make you uncomfy but I was wondering if I could get a bit of advice? From your recent posts, you said you left your home from toxicity and just bad things in general.

I’m in a similar situation, but my dad will be taking me away from my mom. And I just know it’ll be a shit show. And I’m absolutely terrified when we tell her and what the backlash will be afterwards towards my brothers and me and dad in general

How did you do it? How did you take the leap? Do you possibly have any advice on how to deal ?

Hello, friend!! ☀️

Thank you so much for reaching out, it means a lot that you value my advice <3

Hmm, okay from what I can tell of your situation, that is indeed a tricky one, but nothing can’t be overcome!

It’s important to remember, though, I was 19 when I left (now 20), so the way I handled things is going to be a lot different than how a minor can handle things (legally at least, feel free to replicate my insane stunts lmao)

Advice below the cut! (family violence trigger warning, I suppose?)

My entire family was and is extremely volatile, and I don’t speak to any of them anymore except for my older brother, but I’ll be cutting him off in 3 weeks too when I move.

Fortunately, my dad and brother were both kicked out of the house years ago due to violence, which left me with my mother, who’s quite insidious herself (just watch any Conjuring movie and that’ll give a good idea of what it was like living in that house lol)

I get the same feeling watching this scene as when I was around her in that house. Granted she didn’t try to change my gender, but the hatred for my father getting taken out on me is pretty accurate lol, paired with the immediate “motherly love” afterwards (she never hit me though, pleased to say — she wasn’t physically violent, just emotionally, financially, mentally and verbally. She did try to run my dad over once though, so, there’s that too)

Yikes…yeahh the same eerie feeling for sure, still makes all my hairs stand upright in memory.

(For further context this clip reminds me of my father and this one of my brother)

In the clip about my father, he definitely reminds me of Frank Gallagher, except he despises my mother instead of revering her. He’s a workaholic instead of a drug addict, too. But the mannerisms are the same. I always handled him in the way Fiona does.

Regarding my brother, I think everything about our family hit him the hardest, despite being the oldest. He developed a very violent streak, and has very poor impulse control. I love him dearly but he’s a snake in the grass, and has thrown me under the bus multiple times to get ahead in life. I mostly just pity him, since I know what our life was like growing up. But still, I can’t defend him forever, especially not at the cost of myself. Literally yesterday I woke up to a text from him asking me to come pick him up because he got arrested for starting a fight at a bar and smashing their windows.

When things started getting pretty bad with my mother earlier this year, I started to realise in my heart that there was no way I could go forth in life with her in it. I focused on the future relationships I would have one day when far away from this town — romantic partner, children, friends etc

I sort of realised one day I’d care about them a lot more than I care about my mother, because those future people would care about me. That in turn got me realising that I do deserve love, despite how my mother made me feel, and that I don’t want her to deprive another second of that in my life.

Something very unique that triggered this too was going to go visit an old family psychic, who’s basically just the Gandalf to my Frodo (ily, Chris <3). He very accurately predicted my birth years ago after my mother was told she was infertile — he got the date, year and time right three years in advance, and even knew ahead of time what my personality would be like, which he was spot-on about.

Well, I went and visited him a few months ago because I was lost with my direction, and he ended up pausing and had a sudden feeling, which led to him telling me that he’d just found out I would be having twin boys one day.

Normally I don’t buy into that stuff, but this Gandalf dude…well I knew he was right.

Knowing I’d have sons of my own one day took me from a scared daughter mindset and into a maternal mother bear in an instant, and I knew I didn’t want any children of mine around my mother or the rest of my family, for their safety alone, which made me realise, “Well, if I wouldn’t allow my own children near them, why do I allow myself?”

I started grey-rocking her in the lead-up to me leaving, which of course frustrated her (she’s a malignant narcissist), but it was a necessary step to start emotionally detaching myself from her.

It all bottled over one night after a pretty distressing argument (I had locked myself in my room to avoid it, but she was still at my door carrying on).

My cat, who’s been my best friend for years, was sitting on the floor next to me, and sort of looked up and I swear he spoke with his eyes, saying, “You know we can’t keep doing this, right? You know this abuse has an expiry date?”

I agreed with my cat and knew right then and there that I’d be leaving that night after my mother fell asleep.

Well, when she was finally done (with threats that there’d be more in stock in the morning, mind you) I went to bed early and set my alarm to 3am (was a little inside joke with myself, since that’s biblically the “witching devil hour”)

I started quietly packing my quilt and cat up (I’d already been secretly packing the boot of my car up with all sentimental and important items weeks in advance, except she caught on and took all my baby albums and more to her boyfriend’s house, so I don’t have any baby photos or information on me when I was a baby anymore, like first words, size and just general things I’d have liked to compare to my own kids one day, rip)

Once that was all in my car, I quietly said goodbye to the old family dog and cat (they weren’t mine to take, not that I could’ve anyways, since it was troubling enough taking Buddy, who’s actually my pet and not the family one). That was pretty heartbreaking, as I knew that’d be the last time I’d see them (I grew up with them and was the only one who took care of them — mother neglects kids and pets alike lmao).

Once that was over, I looked around my house with my hand on the front door and was very melancholy, but knew Buddy was right: it had all reached its expiry date.

I left very quietly and drove to McDonalds for a coffee, as I had a long drive ahead (I had organised to be a nanny in this rich family’s house far away in the city — two hours drive). Luckily they were away on their country farm 4 hours away, so I had time to sneak Buddy in.

The nanny thing recently backfired horribly because they discovered Buddy, which led to more AM escapes with my car, but I’m staying with my older brother and his gf for 3 more weeks only. Something I’ve been working towards for months now is moving to a wilderness island to live in my country’s equivalent of Bag End — a beautiful country cottage, amazing job and fantastic study opportunities.

Best feature yet: it’s 60 hours away from my hometown by car, and then you’d have to take a boat for 10 more hours!! They shall never find me hahaha

One of my friends has also told me recently that my mother has started spreading horrible, defamatory rumours about me around town, but I don’t care anymore because I’m almost out.

So, although I can’t offer any practical advice (idk if you’re a minor or not, but regardless it’s great your dad is helping you!) this is the best advice I can offer:

Find a dream and hold onto it, one that doesn’t involve your immediate family. For me it’s moving to that island and enjoying all the fresh air. It’ll push you forwards and remind you of what you’re fighting for when at your lowest.

Remind yourself there will be other people in your life, whether a spouse, friends, children or even a dog! (I’m getting a golden retriever next year 🐾) And then remember that you deserve all of them and the unconditional love they offer you.

Remember that if you don’t want your mother/family screwing those people over by proxy of her/their relationship to you, then there’s no way in hell you alone should put up with it either, as I guarantee those future people only want good things for you ☀️

There is a good life after abuse, I’ve seen it, and I know you can achieve it, too!

Be prepared for tons of backlash and bullshit — it’s inescapable when dealing with people like this, but I recommend educating yourself on narcissistic parents and tactics to deal with them.

Finding a good therapist who deals in PTSD regarding childhood abuse is important, too. I found an amazing one in the town I’m moving to, who had nearly the same upbringing as me!

So while I’m still struggling with a lot of fear (scared my mother will find where I’m working and living one day) and guilt (I feel horrible about leaving the family dog and cat behind, especially when they need veterinary help, only to then go and get myself another puppy) I understand I’ve done the best I can in a very abnormal situation, and that I can only do better from here.

Also, this song has been a saving grace when going all angsty over wanting to leave your current situation:

It’s from my favourite Broadway Musical, “Newsies”, and lemme tell you — discovering this as a 17-year-old when I was just starting to realise the severity of my situation was pure divinity.

Jeremy Jordan, my beloved Broadway Bard <3

When I finally get my cottage, I’m getting a wooden plaque with the name “Santa Fe” engraved on it, and am hanging it on my front door.

I wish you much luck and love, my little anonymous friend! And please know my inbox is open any time you need anything — vent, advice, a laugh or something else, ANYTHING, it feels good to know my past can maybe help someone else’s present ☀️

Please update me, too! I’m following your story along ardently now! (Also, be sure to take your sentimental items and store them somewhere safe away from your mother — ie baby albums, birth certificates, other paraphernalia/memorabilia etc).

Now, if you’ll excuse me, I must hit the road. DESTINY AWAITS!

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surveys by lets-make-surveys 1 - What did you do to celebrate your last birthday? Did you get any decent gifts? Guh I honestly barely want to recognize my birthday this year because 2020 has been a huge waste of my time...but fine, I guess I’m 22. It had been during the peak of the quarantine/pandemic, so we had no choice but to stay home. I just played the Switch all morning, then I think I watched my dad play video games, and then Angela and Hans sent over a box of sushi to our place. Real chill day.

2 - What was the last “random act of kindness” you experienced? It was my first day at the office today and I had to go up and down the stairs several times to bring packages to delivery riders, since I had to send those out to certain people. A member of the maintenance staff in the area was super nice and offered to carry some of the boxes for me, since he saw how much I was struggling with the boxes.

3 - Have you ever “paid it forward” by putting money behind the counter somewhere so the next person can get a free coffee or similar? Not yet. I’d love to be able to do that soon.

4 - What caused the last injury that made you bleed? Was it a serious injury? I was trying to open a bottle of soju last night but the cap just would not budge. Next thing I knew my finger was already bleeding. Never got to drink my soju :(

5 - Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? Are you close to that person at all? One of the delivery riders who took my package earlier. Bless his soul, he was very new to the delivering thing and I think I was his first-ever customer, and he kept asking for my help. I did my best for a while but eventually I had to tell him I genuinely did not know how to answer some of his questions as I wasn’t a driver myself.

6 - What was the last item you received in the mail? Something I had ordered online. It was the gift I’m planning to give my grandma for Christmas.

7 - When was the last time you received flowers? What kind were they? A year ago, I think. It was a single stem of a rose. We were saving up last year hahaha so I had gotten her a single stem as well.

8 - Are you a fan of salted caramel? What about other “odd” combinations like sea salt and chocolate or chilli and chocolate? Ooh, I didn’t know salted caramel was considered odd; it’s a pretty common flavor here and has even gotten more popular in the last few years. I like it as a flavor in desserts, like cupcakes with salted caramel frosting. When it comes to food, I’m generally open-minded and will try any combination that exists at least once; that said, chili and chocolate sound especially intriguing haha. I’ve only ever tried chili ice cream, which was delicious.

9 - Do you enjoy watching bloopers or outtakes from TV shows? If so, which series do you think has the funniest ones? Yes. Bloopers in general are great but it’s best when they come from shows that have a reputation for being more drama-heavy and serious - that said, Breaking Bad bloopers are the fucking best. ‘Bloopers’ from animated movies are hilarious too; they were always made so well too that as a kid, I legit thought the characters were actual actors as it never crossed my mind that animators would take the extra effort and time to make bloopers out of fictional characters and that they had to be real actors in some way lol.

10 - What’s your favourite dessert food? OMG macarons for the win. I’ve been craving them so much. Cheesecake is great too, and also cupcakes.

11 - Do you have any really dangerous wild animals where you live? Have you ever encountered any of them? Nope only stray dogs and cats, and probably some chickens somewhere.

12 - Have you ever dreamed of owning your own shop? What kind of thing would you like to sell? I’ve never dreamed of this; it’s never been a goal of mine and running a business doesn’t sound like my kind of thing.

13 - Are you a twin? If not, would you ever want to be a twin? If you are a twin, do you ever wish you weren’t? No. I’ve never really found myself wishing for it, either.

14 - Do you prefer wearing your hair straight or curly? Maybe just a little wavy. Definitely not in the extreme of either side of the spectrum.

15 - Would you ever want to go and visit the moon? If I had the chance and everything was paid for and stuff, hell yeah. It’d be cool to get to cross out one of my childhood bucket list items.

16 - What was the last hot drink you had? What about cold drink? Or alcoholic drink? My last hot drink was...probably the coffee I asked my mom to make last Friday, but I did wait it out until it was considerably cooler as I didn’t want to drink it hot. My last cold drink is the iced caramel macchiato I ordered tonight and still have with me at the moment. Then for alcoholic drink, I had soju mixed with Yakult about two weeks ago.

17 - Does anything on your body hurt or ache right now? My lower back, unsurprisingly. I also cut my right middle finger trying to open a soju bottle last week, andddd I gained a blister on my right foot today because of the shoes I picked to wear for work.

18 - When was the last time you struggled to get to sleep? Was there was a specific reason for that? I can’t remember exactly when, but it happened within the last week or the last two weeks. Sometimes I just drink too much coffee during the day that it affects how sleepy I’d ultimately feel at night.

19 - What three countries would you most like to visit? Morocco, India, and Thailand.

20 - Who’s your closest friend from another country? How did you come to meet this person? I don’t really have one anymore...I’ve grown apart from my internet friends from different countries a long time ago, and I also don’t tend to keep up friendships with my friends who’ve since migrated from the Philippines to another country. I suppose the one I’m on best terms with is Angel who migrated to Toronto around a decade ago; but I use ‘best’ very loosely as the most we do is comment on one another’s posts whenever we reach like a life accomplishment, like when we graduated college.

21 - When was the last time you had a cold? With everything going on in the news, did you worry that it was COVID? It’s been a while. I can’t remember; it was definitely pre-Covid.

22 - As of today (10th December, 2020) the COVID vaccine is being rolled out in the UK. Are you going to have it once it’s available to you (if it ever is)? A part of me is a little concerned because I know vaccines take years and sometimes even decades to be fully developed, but that doesn’t mean I don’t trust doctors and science. I very much do, of course. It’s just that I’d personally prefer to wait it out first to see if it’ll have any negative effects once rolled out on a massive scale.

23 - What are your favourite websites to browse when you’re bored? Wikipedia black holes are the way to go.

24 - Do you think people should have to pass a test in order to own pets? A local animal welfare NGO already does that; Nina had to go through several tests before she was allowed to adopt Arlee. There was a verbal interview, a written form she had to fill out, and a representative from the organization even visited our house to see if it was a suitable environment for Arlee; I’m sure there was a few more steps she was required to undergo. I certainly think it’s a good and responsible process. 

25 - When was the last time you fell asleep/had a nap during the day? Is this something that happens often? It’s been monthssssssssss. I don’t really take naps during the day anymore.

26 - Do you suffer/have you ever suffered with bad acne? What kind of things did you do to try and improve it? I’ve never had issues with acne and was always rather fortunate when it comes to my skin. I’ll have a pimple or two show up once or twice a year, but they go away within a week or so. Since I don’t want to jinx it, I just wash my face with water and I’ve never experimented with any skincare products ever.

27 - When you think about it, do you think it’s odd that we stop drinking human milk at a young age, but we happily drink milk from other species instead? Not really.

28 - How’s the weather where you are? Is this a good or a bad thing for you? These days it’s humid and hot during the day (as always), but now that it’s Christmas season the weather tends to plunge to like 24-26C during nighttime. I’d say the night part is good for me as I prefer being cold than hot, so I’m glad we’ll be having this weather until March at most.

29 - When was the last time you ate a pizza? What toppings did you get? Tuesday. Relatives came over then and my cousin got us pizzas. I don’t remember what toppings he got but both pizzas had stuffed crust in it.

30 - How often do you wear make-up? What kind of make-up do you wear? Wow, almost never. Gab used to put makeup on me but now that she’s gone, I don’t really see myself wearing makeup for the meantime as I definitely wouldn’t apply them onto myself. 

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1 - If you have caffeine late in the day, does it cause you to struggle with your sleep? Eh, sometimes. Sometimes it’ll do what it’s supposed to and make me stay up for a while, but other times it doesn’t work and I’ll end up getting sleepy the same time I usually start feeling so.

2 - When you struggle to sleep, what do you do instead? Watching videos has eternally worked for me.

3 - Who was the last person you spoke to for the first time? How did you come to speak to this person? Hmm I met my co-workers Ysa and Bea for the first time today, if it counts. I’ve only ever talked to them through Viber since we’re on a WFH set-up, but we had to go to the office today to fix up some boxes that we needed to get delivered. But the last person that I really hadn’t met nor spoken to before was Jhomar, the company messenger who takes care of pickups for the day. 

4 - If you have a pet, have they ever embarrassed you in public or in front of friends or family members? What happened? Kimi is typically unfriendly towards strangers, so as cute and cuddly as he looks he would probably bite your finger off. I’ve had to explain that to guests who’ve felt puzzled about his demeanor. He’s my little baby though and I wouldn’t say he’s embarrassed me because of it. Cooper on the other hand is hyper-friendly to the point that he looks aggressive and it has scared some people away; in reality, he’s always SO pumped to meet anyone and everyone and can never contain his excitement haha. He’s literally the nicest dog.

5 - Do you leave the house every single day? I never leave the house, except if it’s to withdraw cash or go to the Starbucks drive through to pick up a coffee.

6 - Would you rather spend the day at the beach, or a day in the snow in the mountains? I would normally pick beach, but I think the mountains would be best for me at the moment.

7 - Do you prefer tops that are plain, or ones with patterns/logos/slogans? Plain.

8 - Are there any TV shows from your childhood that you still watch today? I’ll watch Spongebob every now and then. When I’m bored and have enough time on my hands I’ll sometimes watch other shows from my childhood just for that nostalgia wave, like Barney or Hannah Montana.

9 - How many texts would you say you send on an average day? Used to be hundreds, but now it’s probably like...5, on average. Sometimes I’ll need to text media for work and that’ll come up to around 15-20 texts but that happens only occasionally, like once every two weeks.

10 - Do you enjoy buying gifts for other people, or do you never know what to buy them? I never know what to buy for people. I like buying gifts for a significant other, though. I tend to spoil one to no end.

11 - Girls - if you get periods, do you suffer from period pain or any other horrible symptoms? I get the hormonal symptoms, but the physical symptoms are almost never there. My stomach will usually contract in a way that tells me it’s coming soon, but it never really aches. Most of the time, I just cry and mope a lot and that’s how I know it’s on its way, ha.

12 - The last time you were in a car, where you were travelling to? Were you the driver or a passenger? I was headed back home. but I came from the office. I was the driver as always.

13 - Who were you with the last time you went out for a meal? I took myself out on a date.

14 - What book do you wish they’d make into a film or TV series? The Septimus fucking Heap series, please. They’ve been trying to get it made into a movie series for years but as far as I know the talks have always fallen through.

15 - The age old question - do you prefer coke or pepsi? That’s a big ‘or’ for me. I don’t drink soda.

16 - What���s the last thing you watched on TV? Is this a programme you watch regularly? Bea took over the office TV earlier and she had it set to a BTS + Taylor Swift music video playlist so that we had background music while working. No, neither are my artists of choice, really.

17 - Do you have a favourite documentary subject (eg. nature, celebrities, history, crime)? Pro wrestling (a seriously underrated documentary subject) and crime. Documentaries on anthropological issues or discoveries are great as well. I do love history, but I prefer to absorb it in text/museum form.

18 - Do you prefer sweet or savoury snacks? What snack would you say is your overall favourite? Savoryyy. I get tired of sweet snacks pretty quickly. My current favorites to munch on are any salted egg flavored chips.

19 - Does having to wear a mask stop you from doing anything, just because you dislike them or find them uncomfortable? It can be harder to breathe and I get exhausted a lot faster with a mask on, but I keep it on because I would want to keep other people safe and because it’s so easy to keep a damn mask on.

20 - Do you prefer zip-up or overheard hoodies? Either is fine.

21 - If you have a yard or garden, how much time do you spend out there? I prefer the rooftop, and if I do go there I usually stay for a few hours during the evening just to have some time to myself. Being in a house with four adults can get pretty overwhelming and taxing sometimes.

22 - When was the last time someone bought you flowers? What was the occasion? I think it was for Valentine’s Day last year. If not, it was for the anniversary which was a week after Valentine’s Day.

23 - How often do you get takeaway? What’s your favourite thing to order? I don’t really do takeout. I usually dine-in or have food delivered to my place.

24 - Do you own a lot of clothing items in your favourite colour? What is your favourite colour, anyway? I don’t have a lot of clothes in pink. It’s not my best color, but I like it in everything else hahaha.

25 - When was the last time you stayed overnight away from home? Was this with friends, family or in a hotel somewhere? What was the occasion? Idk probably a sleepover at Gab’s place early this year.

26 - Would you ever be interested in seeing a live magic show? Sure. Magic shows are already a staple at kids’ birthday parties here, and I’ve always enjoyed them especially since magicians are quite the comedians too.

27 - What’s your favourite period to learn about in history? What got you interested in this particular era? I don’t have a favorite period per se but I’ve always had an affinity for the royalty. I like reading all about them, no matter what period they reigned or what house/country they’re from. Historians have kept impressive and super detailed accounts or records for most of them, so reading about their lives has also allowed me to learn more about the culture they lived through.

28 - Do you still use or carry cash, or do you pay for everything via card? I heavily rely on cash and I actually realized how behind I am just today, when Bea ordered lunch for the office. I paid her with cash and she looked at me all puzzled and was like, “Can you do bank transfer instead?” another big girl stuff I had to learn lol. Everyone in college used cash pls forgive me

29 - Are there any TV shows that remind you of your grandparents for some reason? Not really.

30 - Have you ever had to wear a tie for school or work? If not, do you know how to tie a tie without looking it up? I had a necktie as part of my uniform in my old school. I never knew how to tie it and always asked someone else to do it for me whenever it came loose.

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1.) Listening to music.

There's just something about listening to my fave songs that calms me down, like, just hearing the first few beats of the song just instantly lifts my problems.

Currently, the song that I've been listening to on repeat is Tendou's I Just Can't Wait To Be King. I always get anxious whenever I'm commuting to work, so listening to this song throughout the whole time I'm travelling just calms me down and helps keep my anxiety away.

2.) Watching anime.

I just love how even the most mundane things in anime just looks so aesthetically appealing, and I'm very thankful to my brothers who introduced me to anime. Because if they didn't, I don't even know what I'd be watching in my free time.

I grew up watching, dragon balls, one piece, slam dunk, hunterxhunter, bleach, saiyuki, shaman king and at that time it was in Tagalog dub!😂 I don't know how I was able to watch those, because now I refuse to watch anime unless it's Japanese dub. 😅

3.) Writing stories.

Whenever I write my stories, I feel like I'm really inside the story, interacting with the characters, talking to them, hanging out, and being close friends, I just like the feeling. It's one of the reasons why I started writing fantics as well, my friend was the one who convince me to start writing because at that time I would share to her my ideas and she would tell me to try writing it. But I always refuse because I was more inclined to drawing.

Then when I finally decided to try it out, I posted my first story on fanfiction.net and I recieved my first review I was so happy that I decided to continue writing and as the years go by my writing style continued to change and thankfully also improved. If only I still have a copy of my previous works, you'll probably be cringing by just how awful it is.

I was more of writing character x character stories before, but when I discovered xreader stories somewhere around in 2015, that's when I decided to write more about it.

4.) Eating

I love food, my mom told me that when I was little, I would keep crying until someone gives me food. It's also my brother's weapon to keep me from getting angry with him, whenever he breaks or losses some of my stuff.

5.) Playing games.

I am a big fan of playing rpgs and simulation games. RPGs because the storyline just excites me, like whenever I unlock a new history of a certain character in a game, it only drives me to keep on playing because I really want to know what happens next, it is also one of the reason why I lack sleep, I'd be playing until 5am. 😅

Simulation games are also my faves because I just love the idea of seeing something so small become big, like, in simulation games you have to start from scratch and the longer you played the bigger you become. (does that even makes sense? Hahaha)

My Fave RPGs (they're mostly mobile rpgs)

• Crystal Saga (the old version, I want to play the new one but I don't know where I can play it - this is pc)

• Crusaders of Light

• MU Origins

• Zenonia 4

I think these three are under the rpg genre, they're like dating games. Lol

• My Candylove

• Henri's Secret

• Eldarya

My Fave Simulation Games:

• My Country 2020

• Maritime Kingdom

• Dragon City (I think it's under the simulation genre)

• Sim City (this one just stressed me the f*ck out, the citizens are so demanding sheesh)

[clickbait-david]

Night Interruptions

summary: in which y/n gets woken by knocks which are from fans having turned up outside David's place.

word count: 1,384

warnings?: nah?

a/n: so this was supposed to be posted last Thursday but a sister forgot and kept pushing it off so sorry its a tiny bit late. ALSO I don’t know when the next imagine will be up, ever since that trisha/david drama I’ve felt weird writing but I gotta get over it hahaha

It was posting night, one which occurred every couple of days but always was the somewhat same routine. It would start around 8pm that David would get out his laptop and make himself comfortable on the couch, knowing full well it'd be a long night.

You'd be in the kitchen area with Natalie both still eating and talking for awhile before Natalie would say her goodnights and be in her room until tomorrow, unless she was needed by David but he usually didn't disturb her on posting nights.

You would do a once over of the house double checking that nothing needed to be done before walking to David and giving him a quick kiss before venturing into the comfort of  you and David's bedroom, changing into a random top and some comfy shorts to sleep in as you sat yourself on top of the bed and opened netflix to watch a couple more episodes of a show you had been obsessed with right now.

This continued for a couple more hours before you'd feel yourself get tired and grab a spare blanket with a pillow and come to keep David company during the night, even if you were asleep and he was awake.

"Hi" You smiled a tired yawn leaving your mouth as you got yourself comfy on the couch and rested your head on David's side. In a way where he was still able to comfortably edit and you could fall asleep easily.

"Sleep well" He whispered pressing a kiss to your forehead as he grabbed the headphones next to him and put them on to get rid of the sounds of the clips repeating itself over and over.

You had drifted off to sleep somewhat quick and before you knew it you were dead to the world.

- - -

You had woken abruptly to the sound of knocking on the door and it seemed to be getting louder and quicker as the seconds went on. Confused as to what was happening you looked up to David to see him oblivious to the noise as he was now also passed out beside you, his laptop opened on the coffee table with the vlog now having been posted.

You didn't want to disturb him as it was only 4 in the morning and normally he wouldn't even be asleep at this point, so you got up and closed his laptop before walking back to your bedroom and grabbing one of your clickbait hoodies, the knocking still sounding through the house and you just hoped it wouldn't wake neither David or Natalie up.

Now walking through the house and to the front door your brain began to rack through the people it could be. Zane being drunk? Jason coming over after a fight with Trisha? It could be anyone really and as you opened the door not even thinking to check the peephole first you had been surprised to see a group of 3 young teenagers.

They didn't look any older then 15 and they also seemed surprised that someone had opened the door as the one knocking now had her hand paused near the door as they all stood somewhat still. "H-Hi" She spoke shyly a small smile on her lips as she sent a shocked expressions to her friends who were a few feet away from the door.

"Excuse me but what exactly are you doing here" You muttered a frown on your features as you now felt annoyed that these people who were obviously David fans had shown up to his house after countless times he had spoken about not coming to his house.

You had only been awake for a couple times when fans would come to his house but never actually were the one to confront the people who always seemed to come at awful times of the night so you weren't sure how to get them to leave.

"Oh we wanted to possibly get a picture with Dave" She spoke and you swear you almost laughed at how they didn't even realise how bad this was. To rock up at a person who you didn't even know house and ask for a picture.

"He can't do that, you can't just rock up here and expect him to come greet you with open arms" You spoke arms crossed as you made sure to be quiet to avoid David waking up. "Now if you could please it would be very much appreciated" You asked as they looked up at you and began to shake their heads as you raised an eyebrow at them.

You couldn't help but scoff as the girl who was knocking on the door went an sat down leaning against a wall outside as the other two followed along and sat beside her. "If you want us to leave, we're going to have to hear it from David" They spoke heads held high as you shook your head at them in disbelief.

You had no other choice than to walk back inside and wait to see if they would leave or if you would have to wake David up to call the security as you couldn't quite remember the number as it was so early.

30 minutes had passed and you decided to take a look through the peephole to see them still sat outside on there phones and you couldn't help but feel pissed as it was now just before 4:45am and you were tired and wanting to sleep.

"Dave" You spoke quietly shaking his shoulder gently hoping to wake him up peacefully and it took you a couple tries before he finally stirred awake and looked at you confused. "I'm sorry for waking you" You sighed as he grabbed his phone and saw the time.

"Why did you wake me up, it's way too fucking early" He muttered but you knew it wasn't anything personal. "You okay, did you have a bad dream or something?" He then asked as if he had somewhat come to his senses that you would only wake him up for a certain reason.

"There's fans outside sitting on the floor who won't leave" You whispered a yawn leaving your lips as you wiped at your eyes and knew falling back asleep would be hard to do as you had been awake for so long. "I've tried to get them to leave but they wont budge" You said as his expression of confusion turned to one of anger.

"Fucking hell" He muttered pushing a hand through his hair as he grabbed his phone and walked to the kitchen, assuming to call security. "How many of them are there" He asked you as he typed the number into his phone before it rang.

"There's three of them around 15 years old" You said as you sat yourself on one of the bar stools in his kitchen as he paced back and forth speaking to whoever on the otherline about needing security for the house.

"Fuck where are these peoples parents" He muttered as he had now hung up at the phone and walked to the front door but not opening the door as he himself looked through the peephole to only mutter some swears and walk away from the door. "I tell people a million times to not come to the house and what do they do, come to the fucking house" He yelled now obviously stressed and you didn't blame him.

"Babe they'll be gone soon and then we can get back into our bed and sleep in" You spoke hoping to give him something to look forward to.

You heard a text come through to David's phone 5 minutes later and a sigh of relief left his lips as he looked through the peephole once more before grabbing your hand and leading you to your bed.

"I'm guessing security got rid of them" You laughed as you know laid in David's arm already feeling your eyes begin to droop.

"Yeah at least Jason and I will have something to talk about on the podcast" He chuckled before pressing a kiss to the back of your head. "I'm sorry this happens often, hopefully people will finally understand that it is not okay" He whispered before you both fell back asleep.

[iraniq]

The Call of the North

! ! A. N.: I was suppised to post this last year... I didn't I am posting it now, you can see it's old info. Was about the meeting between Nightwish and Mars, that I hoped for, but didn't happen... Since the MAESTRO is having a birthday today... I am sharing my little baby ! !

******

- Hey... Babs!

  - Yes... Yes... Summer? - ypu yelled.

  - Yes summer!

  - No you are summer!

  - You have my last name, you are Summer too.

  - Ugh... I am Summer's... You are the... Nevermind. I would like to make a call.

  - ...

  - J! - you childishly tapped with yoir food on the floor.

  - What? How am I stopping you?

  - You have his number.

  - Oh... You wanna call the Maestro!

  - It's his birthday! - you smiled. - That's the law.

He gigled and gave you his phone.

*

Beginning of October

  - Hey... Hey... This place is huge, I I'll loose you all! - you slowly walked your 1'55m existance in the big reception hall of the hotel.

  - Hope so! - Kyle said, crossing his fingers.

  - The only thing saving you is your hair! 

  - Hahaha imagine if he cuts it off! - Kennon laughed.

  - No, my girl's gonna kill me! Get lost, both of you! - Kyle laughed. - Samuel, come here, OK may need photo proof of what may follow. Nice shirt too.

  - Thanks! - ypu waved a hand, looking away.

  - Where is this? - Kennon turned me around to see.

  - The birth places of 2 gods.

  - We kinda got that from the front. - Matty pointed smirking.

  - Photos only after you pay me.

  - We? To pay you... - Matty and Samuel both said.

  - Yes... As I recall pretty misses are paid.

  - Hell of a woman dude! - Kyle said looking somewhere behind you. 

  - Why? - I leaned closer.

  - She is tall.

  - Aha... 

You all proceed talking, got ourselves drinks and headed to the garden. You heard men laughing and someone spoke in broken English.

  - Nice shirt - a man's soft voice said.

  - How can you tell it's nice since you have no idea what's on it. - you drank of your juice, not bothering to look back, sassing, since Kyle, Matty and Samuel got on your nerves.

  - I know my Birthplace, it's not that's uncommon knowledge where I come from.

You felt your heart stopped and you chocked on your drink. He and his company laughed.

  - Hey, don't be rude! - a familiar voice said walking towards you.

You fast turn around and saw your brother. He had lightly hugged you, still half asleep from the jet lag.

  - Shush! - you quietly hissed. - Do you know who this is?

  - I don't care who he is, he can't talk to you like this.

  - He didn't say anything... Bad.

  - Hello. - Summer appeard out of nowhere.

  - Wow, two genius people togwther. - a woman's voice announced. 

The others looks at the corner, noticing a long haired man and the big woman Kyle admired.

  - Fucking shit... That's Nightwish! - your dorky fangirled and the rest went to say "hi". 

Eventually all moved to the couchesnearby. You slowlu walked there, Shannon was right behind you. Kyle was taking wild selfies with Floor Marco was explaining Jared how to grow a beard like his... Tuomas... He was just sitting there, alone... You tried not to stare, at least not to obvious.

  - I really like your shirt. - he suddenly spoke. He wasn't a man of many words, but every one was perfectly picked for the needed occusation. 

  - Thanks... - you mumbled. Shannon pinched you. 

  - What inspired you to make this.

You laughed a little bit uncomfortable, and accidentally got all the people's attention.

  - Am... - you looked at the shirt, it said 'Gods are born on 25th & 26th of December'. - Well since... - you were already freaking out, how were you supposed to explain this. You looked at J, he nod his head and you felt Shannon's hand massaging your back. - Since my husband is a god, or at least that's what his fans say...

  - Thank you! - Jared got up and did a bow, and everyone clapped. People think he is being attention whore, but he know you and Shannon were uncomfortable with a lot of attention on yourself, so he was there for you.

  - ... Well, since also you are born on that kind of date as well, and Nightwish were one of the 1st bands I listened and I like you like super much and I admire you and...  On and on... I decided to make it look this, and quite a lot of people miss... The obvious info.

  - What's the obvious info? - Floor asked. 

Shannon spoon you around and pointed at the back of your shirt where the cordinates were.

  - So why is he a god? - Emppu asked. 

  - Have you listens to their songs? - Johanna appeared from the nothing. 

You muffed a scream and jumped, turning to J.

  - I stalked them to see when they will get married so they can adopt me! - she laughed and then you realized you said this out loud. Jared shrugged, Shannon tapped your shoulder and when you looked at Tuomas he was holding his face in his hands laughing. - Ops... I didn't meet to say this out loud. - Mind the fact non of the band members, especially Tuomas liked the fans looking them like objects and that's exactly what you did.

  - Lovely! - Johanna looked the shirt closelt, theb turned to Jared. - You look like Him anyway, I can work with this. - she laughed and said  something in their language, then they all laughed.

  - So I miss what your shirt said. - Floor asked. 

  - These are the coordinates of their birth places. - Shannon turned you back around. - The 1st - he showed - is the birth place of the Maestro. - Shannon pointed at Tuomas and Marco cheered. - Kitee. The 2nd one, is Bossier, Louisiana. The birthplace of her husband... - Shannon pointed at his brother. - Also to my brother and me! - then Shannon pointed at himself. - All laughed. - Turned out geographical coordinates of birth cities are not that uncommon info. - he looed at you and frowned.

- Well where I come from they are... - you were about to rang, then you alk heared a loud voice coming towards you.

  - Oh... Shannon! - someone yelled. 

  - Jukka! - you squeezed his arm.

  - Leto, I can't believe I see you! - Jukka offered a hand to shake and Shannon accepted. They brwafly hugged - Will you come to our show tomorrow?

  - I am flattered, but we will be performing tomorrow night as well.

  - One boulevard away and like 30min earlier - you shoot the words and made an innocent grimace when the two men looked at you.

  - I am a... Fan of yours, Leto.

  - Oh my God... - you sat on the arm of the couch where J was sitting - Jukka is a fan if my brother... Summer, pinch me, I must be dead. - you breathed out and almost fell of.

Everyone suddenly was in a heated conversation with everyone

  - Fire, isn't she. - Johanna whispered to Jared.

- You have no ides! - J pretened whined. Tuomas tapped his shoulder and laugher.

*

End of December!

  - Yes? 

  - Hello birthday boy.

  - Oh, the Autumn lady! - Thomas laughed in the other side of the phone line.

  - Hyvää Syntymäpäivää! /happy birthday/ - you made a clumsy attempt to say it in Finnish, but failed. He corrected you and you had a small talk, he spoke to Jared too.

  - I am flattered, you called. 

  - Always! You are my eidos love

  He laughed.

  - OK, I wasn't supposed to say this either... I am sorry, it's disrespectful.

  - No, I am honored I am one of the people you look up to. - someone spoke to him - I will send your love to your eidos mom, I have to go. 

He hang up. 

  - So Mrs. Leto, are you happy now.

  - Yes! - you hugged J and kissed his nose - The potatoes are almost ready!

  - Oh... Potatoes again... - J sighed.

- Joseph! They are Finnish recepie.

****

@diyunho @nikkitasevoli @sougie @rhina988 @lovermrjokerr @pandaliciouz @itsmeauntie @echelongaga @darthjokerisyourfather

[mawwyyy-blog1]

Day 38: Quarantine

Well, hi! I’m Maureen Sta Ana, you can call me Mau/Mawwyy, 23 years age of existence and I just want to share how my day went since I am bored tonight. Lol.

Its 7:36 pm already and I’m finished eating my dinner but I didn’t take my bath. Maybe after I’m done writing this blog.

I suppose to start writing my blog yesterday but I didn’t have enough courage and energy to start with. So here it is.

I faced this day with a doubt in my heart because of my boyfriend. I don’t know why he has to stay up late at night knowing that I already fell asleep. And yeah, he reasoned out that he’s waiting for me after his game. But he didn’t give me a notice that he already done playing. Until now, we never had a chance to talk again. I tried to talk to him by messaging that he should eat his lunch, but he just gave me a dull and cold reply. But I am confident that we will talk later because we have a deal that we should end up fine at the end of the day. Well, I’m just waiting for him to message me first. Lol. And I love him so much ^_^ Hi Spring! If you have a chance to read this, I’ll marry you soon. I love you!

Nothing is new. Still, I didn’t do anything aside from playing Mobile Legends, watching random videos and vlog, sleeping and eating. This is another reason why I’m starting to write a blog because of boredom. Let’s see if I still got the chance to continue writing once I get back to work again.

I miss writing. In fact, I am smiling while I’m writing this blog even though I do not know if I’m writing sentences correctly and if I stand with a proper grammar. Lol. Well, this is another way for me to exercise my brain with English words since I do believe that after I graduated in college, my brain is in rust already.

I don’t know what else should I include in this blog hahaha I’m already out of words but I still want to continue typing. Lol. Since my phone is charging and I have no one to talk to, and no anime and movie to watch, I’ll just stay here for awhile.

Well anyway, I just want to share the songs that I have listened to today. In my Facebook account, I’ve posted lyrics says, “and I’m wondering what you’re dreaming, wondering if It’s me you’re seeing”, lyrics from the song I Don’t Want To Miss a Thing by Aerosmith. I just sometimes wonder if my boyfriend is dreaming of me and if he had given a chance to dream, is it me he have been looking or seeing for? Aside from what I am thinking, I’ve posted that lyrics because that is one of the favorite songs of my father. Isn’t it cute?

Another song that I have played repeatedly today is the After all by Peter Cetera. Well, this song has a special place in my heart because this is one of my favorite old songs and it is one of my goal to sing it in public and I’ve done it with my branch manager at my work. We’ve sang it on our Thanks Giving Party. And we won as 2nd placer. I miss the applauses of many people. And the feeling I have with when I sang it in front of my Ex Boyfriend (that time but I’m thankful that he came back to me). Lol. And in fact, I dedicate that song to him. “After all the stops and starts, we keep coming back to this two hearts, two angels who’ve been rescued from the fall” <3

And aside from just playing Mobile Legends and watching vlogs and videos, I’ve recorded in BandLab the song Only Hope by Mandy Moore. I just inspired by the song when I watched the Live Video earlier of Moira Dela Torre singing that song. If you want to listen it, just watch my MyDay on Facebook. Lol.

So much for this, I want to take a bath because it’s getting hot in here. And my back is already aching (signs of aging) Lol. Just want to say that whatever problems comes in our way, God is always with us. Let’s together pray for this pandemic to be over. We will get through this. Just have faith in Him. ^_^

That’s all for tonight. Let’s see if this will be my first and last blog. HAHAHA! Have a blessed day everyone! Goodnight and Godbless.~

#QuarantineDiaries

[chittapornswife]

seriously tho ur super cute when ur tired i'm emo 🤧🤧🤧 and i had pasta for dinner last night too~ "heart heart heart kiddy b" made me laugh omg please stay rested and i hope your day has been good so far 💖 if not, let me know so i can make it better 😘❤❤ -🐝

I always make sure to create the tags before I ultimately pass out when writing a msg lolol but I- 🥺🥺🥺🥺 I almost fell asleep & didn’t even post it until I was like “okay T GETUP” then I hit the post button hahaha & !!!!! We both had pasta then i love that we matched🥺♥️ DJDJ the “heart heart heart kiddy b” was because I didn’t have the strength to type a heart emoji LOL & I think the kiddy was supposed to be kissy 😗💝 my day was really tiring so not super fun :( but reading your msgs gave me some energy! I’m also making cookies with my brother real soon so I hope that’ll go well too :D I hope your day has been great too & if not then I’m sending all the love I have to you!🥺✨💞❤️💖❣️💫💗💘🌟♥️

[smellycinnamonthundahfudge]

tumblr fweinds

a year ago, i was tagged by @suplosers on two questionnaires and it is only now, a year later that i was able to answer em. i’m so sorry it took me this long but yah i’m just glad to get thru dis milestone, answering the first tumblr get to know ya post i was @ at... yaayyy ^^

rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people.

I tag: tbd haha i still have to dig thru meh notifs to see which ones apparently took an interest in me so i’d like to take an interest in as well haha but oh @you-guys--are-losers, ur doing this whahaha hope it’s not too much of a bother, no presh watsoever ;3

the last

1. drink: ughh it's dis shitty stuff called hydrite w/c is basically salt water cus im sick rn and it's supposed to rehydrate ur shts or something hahaha

but dat was like a week ago... as of da moment i posted dis, it’s coffee from mini stop dat i drank at like 530 in da morn while i waited until i could enter the school cus i had to commute 3 hours w/ lil to none sleep

2. phone call: my father or one of my best friends

3. text message: the last one i texted was my sister and the last one i got a text from was dis org in school about the location for recruitment/auditions/interview

4. song you listened to: billy jean by michael jackson and i listened to it for meh tomdaya fic hahaha. But i also listened to halo by beyonce, untouchable and dress by taylor swift, and some other songs magmt mentions in her tomdaya fic hehe a week ago

rn, a metal cover of toxic by our last night

5. time you cried: haha i don't actually remember the context of it (i could find out tho haha cus i sent da pic to my best friend) but i took a pic of it while i did it which was on... july 16 hahaha. Oh but w8 oh sht i think i cried after that fudge w8 i don't remember the date (i think i can find this out too hahaha) but i wrote a sortof goodbye confessions letter to one of my dear friends and i wrote there that i externally cried (b4 i just said internally haha) so i'm not entirely sure i cried but i think im pretty sure i teared up hehe

6. dated someone twice: hahaha i haven't even had a legit love interest yet 😆😂 buuutt my best friend and i have "dated" as in spent entire days together w/ just the two of us, we even went to mcdonalds for valentine's day and got each other gifts hihihi aahhh gosh i miss her :'(

7. kissed someone and regretted it: haha im not even sure if dis happened and i have no plans on asking her about it but i remember when i was a kiddo, when my sis came home for some reason i kissed her on the lips hahaha dont remember if accidental or i just brain farted heck i aint even sure if it happened but das all i can answer cus well like i said, see #6 😆😂😆😂

8. been cheated on: hhmmm probs not, i have no idea if ive been cheated on in an unromantic way hahaha but in da romantic way, like i said, no love interest hahaha

Oh w8 does being someone's crush (i aint sure but it seemed like it) and crushing on dat dude but dat dude crushing on someone else too count as cheating? 😆😂😆😂

9. lost someone special: yes, all of my grandparents are dead. I've also lost pets, and i fear i may lose some of my friends due to the distance among us in this time of our lives

10. been depressed: i always wanna be careful over how to define depression. Like wat constitutes it... but yes, i think i have. Not sure, mind you, but yes, at the beginning of gr 7 i was really alone, i think i was bullied and i think i was depressed and going thru a really dark phase of my life back then. But then again, i have to say, i'm not sure.

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: hahaha nope. I'm looking forward to getting drunk tho. Im currently underage so im not allowed to drink dat much yet but yeah i wanna know my limits hehehe i hope im da kinda gurl who can handle her liquor but i have drank and i have to say it made me all loopy and weird and just like woke or high or something hahaha so yeah man im excited to get trashed on my 18th bday hahaha (hopefully i get to do this tho huhuhu)

3 favourite colours

12. Pink

13. Blue

14. Gray

in the last year have you

15. made new friends: yyeeesssss and i'm so glad i have hihi. I have made friends w/ a select group of my blockmates and they're awesome and weird, i hope to strengthen our bond in da future hehe. Ooohhh and i sure hope that you guys are losers is my friend cus she's been rlly great :')

16. fallen out of love: i guess the closest i've come to falling out of love in a romantic way is moving on from da heavy crushin on meh crush. But i dunno, i still think he's a unicorn n pretty special to me so i dunno hahaha.

But bro, i do think i have fallen out of love. With tv shows, with characters. Like i used to be so passionate about a few shows and characters but now all i have towards them is regret heck i cant even remember wat dey are but i know dat der was love lost. I know it.

17. laughed until you cried: hahaha yaasss i think so. It's either when i was with my best dearest friends or during the class of dis really cool and funny as heck joker teacher who makes us laugh in EVERY SINGLE CLASS hahaha ahhh das guy's so cool

18. found out someone was talking about you: oohh yah yah i think so. Either from my best friends or from a few of my old classmates i care about and had gotten close with. Da best friend ones was about something in my past/history (g7) and the classmates one i think was just dem talking about me and they told me about it ooohhh i think it was my crush hahahaha. They told me dat my crush actually admired me a lot hehe. There was one time my friend (the one who told me about dis) was putting make up on me for a school film, and my crush was da cam guy and he told my friend i looked pretty. Sooo im pretty lucky dat- oh sht w8 i dunno if it's dis year but oh w8 no, it was on my bday last year (dec 20) and da same friend said she was sorry cus apparently da bois make fun of me or something and she was sorry cus she laughed along too hahaha but i didnt mind cus i know im weird and i dont even know what dey say about me in da first place hahahaha. Ok das it im done, i think ive overshared now hahaha 😆😂😆😂

19. met someone who changed you: my best friends. Ive thought about it based on wat sup losers said about change for da better and i dont rlly think of change as something dat happens quick, i think it happens over time and u dont even notice it. So ok oh sht i think im wrong cus i met my best friends 4/6 years ago hahaha but for reals tho, i was in a dark place and if it werent for dem i think id still be lost lonely and sad. Uuhhmmm in regards to answering the question correctly, i guess my blockmates count since they inspire/challenge me to be better. OH SHT W8 i def think you guys are losers and dead end street and tomdaya receipts and tout de suite have changed me hehehe. Da first 2 in dat dey inspired me to write more hehe. Da 1st one inspired me to do this so i think this counts as change hehe. And da last 2 changed me in dat bcus i met dem, i became OBSESSED w/ tomdaya hahaha.

20. found out who your friends are: yes, i have actually. And it's all because i am now currently a college freshman as well as my friends.

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: hahaha my fam i guess hahaha. But no one in a romantic context.

general

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: hhmmm i guess id say about 200 since i know 4 sections of around 40 ppl and da rest is like fam and ppl ive met once/twice or have passed by haha

23. do you have any pets: yaaaassss 3 doggos: albie, juju, and biggie girl. Juju has a pupper named tchalla called dat cus he black hehehe and biggie has 2 biglets named mermer (meredith) and crissy (cristina) cus they're sisters 😍😊😊

My fam have also had a buncha dogs n puppers before but they were either given away or passed away. My bro also has dis cat named bob and i think he counts as a semi pet since my bro's home is a fam home.

24. do you want to change your name: uuhhh i wish i had an alliterative name like superheroes. Buutt im pretty happy w/ my name :')

25. what did you do for your last birthday: oohhhh i think i was at my section's christmas party it was pretty nice n emotional and i spent da rest of da day w/ 2 of meh best friends who bought me cake n food when my own fam didn't 😆😂😆😂

26. what time did you wake up: 4 am to shit cus im sick, but fell asleep again and officially got up around 730 or 8ish

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: haha tryna stay awake cus i had to drink meh meds and failed oh so much and i think i was asleep by midnight hahaha

28. name something you can’t wait for: tomdaya content, chatting/being w/ my best friends, watching da stuff i wanna watch, tumblring, reading sht i wanna read, vacation, writing fanfics, learning how to do a buncha stuff (write screenplays, make films n gifs, draw better), my bday when i hopefully get to do wat i want haha, avengers 4 and smffh, and captain marvel and antman and the wasp too i guess haha oh and the incredibles 2 and httyd 3 😍😍😍 oohhh and crazy rich asians

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: on monday which was when i was at home and not at my dad's n sis' n i's apartment in manila for school/work

31. what are you listening to right now: commercials on da tv as i answer this long ass questionnaire hahaha

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: hahaha i had to think about dis one but yah i have actually haha he was my gr 8 class mate n i like to think semi friend back den at least haha. Oh w8 but he doesn't go by tom tho, it's just thomas haha

33. something that is getting on your nerves: myself hahaha my shitty lazy ass procrastinating self hahaha 😅🙍

34. most visited website: fb specifically messenger, youtube, and tumblr

35. hair colour: hmmm black w/ a bit of brown i guess (ASIAN, YO! 😆😂😆😂)

36. long or short hair: neither, medium i guess haha. I like how long hair looks but it's such a bother n hassle haha. So i def would prefer short hair on a practical standpoint hahaha (im actually thinking of shaving the hair above my nape, yknow on da back of my head hehe)

37. do you have a crush on someone: well i dont have dat much of a crush on da crush i mentioned before, like i said haha. I have a crush on tomdaya, does dat count? 😆😂

38. what do you like about yourself: hahahaha nothing 😆😂😆😂🙍

Naahh uhhh i guess i like how much i love tv shows, i love meh fangirl self, and i like how diff n unique n weird i am, how i stand out, n dat i think my dreams are noble n worth tryin out. N i like how supportive n nice i am n im just chill on da outside haha. N sometimes i like meh face hehe. And i think dat im hilarious n weird n ppl should appreciate me more hahaha das y i crave for more validation dan consulting researchers hahaha (no one laughs at dat jokes and it's like im da only one who finds it funny and come on, man, i managed to make a research joke. Cant ya give a girl a break?)

n i guess sometimes it's good how much i care but sometimes i wish my feels could just chill for just like a minute pls

Thanks, man. I usually just focus on meh bad qualities so thanks for dis question, man :')

oh and i like dat i can swim hehe

39. piercings: i have holes on my ears for earrings but i don't really wear dem

40. blood type: a, i think?

41. nickname: sam, sab, and i rlly want to be called smells cus it's like a more me version of mels from melody hahaha

42. relationship status: single, yo. Oh w8 but i am married to my bed and fandoms so dey always come first. Plus i love my friends 😍😊

43. zodiac: sagittarius i think but i dont rlly know/care about zodiac sht. Tho it's nice if it does match up hehe

44. pronouns: uhhh i dont know wat to put here but i assume dis refers to wat i wish to be referred by ssoooo she, her, and a genderless pronoun in my language siya

45. favourite tv show: ughh i cant choose. Friends, grey's anatomy, phineas and ferb, avatar: the last airbender, black mirror, doctor who, and all of michael schur's stuff, and modern family, grimm, person of interest, pushing daisies, scrubs, happy endings, forever, how i met your mother, gravity falls, sherlock, and yknow wat? Yah, supernatural too and the httyd shows and suits :') oooohhh w8 and how to get away w/ murder and i guess big bang theory as well 😃 the end of the fucking world, legends of tomorrow, crazy ex-girlfriend, the good place, timeless but it’s kinda depressing so speaking of w/c game of thrones and west world and a series of unfortunate events and stranger things and scorpion and lost in space and for anime, let’s go with yakitate japan and boku no hero academia

46. tattoos: none, but i rlly want one and even have a list of tattoos i want (pretty minimalist), i just have to think of da perf place tho (both where to put it and where to get it) and find out if i can still donate meh bod if i have tattoos, but one of da ones i rlly want is smileys on meh fingers hehe

47. right or left handed: right, but my ma says im kinda ambidextrous n i kinda wish i could develop it hehe

48. surgery: haha nope, never. But in terms of an interest, i love grey's anatomy 😆😂

50. sport: ooohh my main sport is swimming cus my siblings are all swimmers so i am too. But i have played other sports for school like badminton, table tennis, volleyball, some water game i dont remember haha, and a combat sport in my country called arnis

51. vacation: christmas vacay and i cant wait huhu

52. pair of trainers: uhhh are trainers rubber shoes? I have a couple, i guess.

GENERAL

53. eating: my dad (who cooked our meal), sis, and i ate afritada (chicken dat's tomatoey basically) for dinner

54. drinking: just water, but ugh i have to drink da hydrite sht again 😑😒

55. I’m about to: finish dis questionnaire n fall asleep haha

56. waiting for: sleep n happiness

57. want: to sleep n write n tumblr n watch n read n for all my problems to disappear

58. get married: yeahhh... but i think it's highly unlikely, man. So i aint counting on it but i do want it to happen, it seems nice having someone to spend da rest of your life with :')

59. career: hahaha i'm still just a college student, just a newly minted freshman actually. But i like to consider myself a fulltime fangirl hahaha

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: well, i havent rlly made out with anyone yet so im gonna have to say hugs i guess w/c ofc i love haha but i wish someone bigger than me could cuddle me for once in my life 😢

61. lips or eyes: lips cus they just seem so soft and sensual hehe. Plus i dunno man, eyes are kinda gross with muta (da sht in da corner of ur eyes when you wake up, it's a filipino word) and sht. And ya have to wear glasses/contacts if dey weak so it's just such a hassle. Tho i do recognize their importance n stuff 😊

62. shorter or taller: ugh TALLER. im a pretty tall gal so for once id like to be da lil spoon for once, for someone to be able to carry me and ya know all dat jazz. But i wouldnt give up my height for anything, makes me feel confident and better than everyone else mwuehehehehehehe

63. older or younger: uuuhhh for now i think it's a bit weird to date someone younger dan me, but for me personally, wat age i'd like to be, YOUNGER ALL DA WAY. it was just way less stressful and innocent back den, id give anything to go back 🙍

64. nice arms or nice stomach: haha nice arms if it means i can swing around them and they can carry me whahaha. But i do like em abs, i wanna feel wat abs feel like just once in my life hahaha

65. hookup or relationship: ooohhh i guess i fancy myself having a relationship for now hehe. Havent even had one yet haha.

66. troublemaker or hesitant: i am a hesitant troublemaker whahahahaha. Like i have all these ideas of thangs to do n sometimes i do dem but sometimes da situation n context scares me into not doing it like a wuss hahaha

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: haha nope.

68. drank hard liquor: haha nope but am looking forward to it hehe

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: thankfully i havent needed any yet whew

70. turned someone down: uhhh i guess the closest i came to "turning someone down" was being awkward around my crush haha but to be fair i think he was awkward too hahaha. And in an unromantic sense, i turned down a blockmate who offered to be my partner in an assignment becus i already had a partner hahahaha 😅

71. sex on the first date: haha havent experienced it if das wat ur askin. Maybe imma be dat kinda person after ive had a couple of relationships but for now i'll settle for someone actually being interested in me hahaha

73. had your heart broken: yes, by tv shows, and by da crappiness of life in general 🙇

74. been arrested: hahahaha nope but dat would be CRAZY hahaha

75. cried when someone died: yes, whether in real life or in tv shows, i have cried bcus of death 😢

76. fallen for a friend: look, man, my best friend's probably the most important person in my life who i couldnt bear to lose. I love her more dan anything in da world so i dunno if our friendship is something more dan da "typical" best friends i just know dat i love her n dat i dont wanna lose her n dat our bond's nothing like any other relationship ive ever had

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: hahahaha not rlly 😅 im pretty unreliable tbh and i make tons of mistakes and ill never be enough ever and just in general hate myself and have 0 self esteem hahaha 😅😅😅😓

But there's a chance i could improve tho, a very very VERY small tiny chance... but i guess i'll take wat i can get :/

78. miracles: hhmmm not in da way most ppl think about miracles in dat, it's da impossible event. I like to think it's a miracle that i have the family dat i have, da friends dat i have, and da life dat i have cus honestly i think i'd be dead w/o em. It's a fucking miracle i have things im passionate about and things that i love and im surrounded by ppl who i love and who love me as well. So yeah, i guess i believe in those kinds of miracles :')

79. love at first sight: hahaha not rlly. Look, man, im a fat girl who doesnt rlly care dat much about looks so unless a person manages to fall for someone while dat someone was doing something dat was a huge indicator of their personality and thus it's not only da appearance dat da person "fell in love w/", den i rlly dont believe in love at first sight. It's just infatuation, bruh. Love at first sight is cheap and u dont rlly know any thing about dat person other than the fact that they're pretty (why they caught ur eye in da 1st place imo) and nothin, zilch. Unless, like i said, they were doing something important to dem n indicative of deir personality. But even then, it wouldnt be love. Like i said, it'd be infatuation cus imo love is deep and takes time and cant just HAPPEN just cus u looked at someone and thought he/she was pretty 😒. True love would mean knowing dat person to deir bone but wanting to know more about dem. So to conclude a ted talk from a bitter person w/ a non existent love life 😆😂😂😂, love at first sight doesnt exist, is cheap, and is discriminatory to "ugly" ppl.

80. santa claus: hahaha i know he probs doesnt exist and is u know basically just capitalism n marketing hahaha. But i dunno, man, i kinda wanna believe he exists just cus it's more fun n childlike n innocent 😍

81. kiss on the first date: hahaha yeah i guess so but i think i probs would have had to known dat person for a while before we decided to date. I havent had a first kiss yet sooo i aint just willin to give dat out to someone i just met/knew for like a day or something hahaha (i have no idea how dating works) 😆😂😆😂😆😂

82. angels: huh... i like to think guardian angels exist cus dat means there are like angels of pure light sent down from heaven to protect us from any harm w/c is just nice to think about, yknow? Hehe. But angels in da catholic sense... i dont think i do, bruh. Sorry :/ *shrugs*

OTHER:

84. eye colour: uuhhhh brown, i guess? Like i said, i dont rlly care much for eyes hahaha 😅 ooohh but da purple eyes thang ive seen on da internet sounds cool hahaha

85. favourite movie: aaaahhhhh there's just so many good movies thoo

But agghh fine. Ive come to notice dat my genre's pretty lighthearted w/c is nice actually hehe

Spider-Man: Homecoming, Rogue One, 10 Things I Hate About You, Moana, Coco, Mulan, Avengers: Infinity War, White Chicks cus it's just so goddamn funny and iconic 😆😂😆😂😍, i'm not- ok you know wat, da Pixar movies in general ok? I mean, how can ya not? Oh which reminds me, Tangled, and The Princess and The Frog, oohh The Avengers is also a pretty solid movie, ooohhh Love, Simon, godhs dat was just such a wholesome sweet n nice movie :'), oh and den i freaking love the Scream franchise, man. It's so good :'), oooohhh w8 maybe The Dark Knight cus heath ledger was just da fuking bomb in dat movie, oohh and About Time's da sweetest time travel movie :') w/c reminds me dat the Back to the Future franchise was just such a classic, man :') oh and yknow wat? Unbreakable's actually pretty fucking cool, man. I get shyamalan know haha. Oh and yknow wat? 100 Tula Para Kay Stella is da 1st filipino film i actually liked so it has a special place in meh heart :')

ooohhh and Black Panther, man, gods how can one not bring up Da King™? WAKANDA FOREVER :') 😄

Oh and hey yknow wat? I have a sweet spot for the Sorcerer's Apprentice. It's kinda a guilty pleasure of mine hehe 😅

Whiicchh reminds me... the HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON FRANCHISE HAS GOT MY HART WHIPPED 😭😭😭

Oh and i also rlly like when harry met sally hihi :') and i guess the OG Star Wars trilogy's got a special place in my heart even if it is da way dat it is now 😢 :')

oh and i can't forget meh guardians :') Guardians of The Galaxy is such a solid film, bro. I loved it :') ooohhh and yknow wat? I actually rlly like Ready Player One, Baby Driver, and The Mummy (the brendan frasier one, who ya kiddin 😑)

oh and yknow wat? The Wedding Singer, 50 First Dates, and Music & Lyrics has got a special place in my heart, man. Gotta admit it :')

aawww and amelie, and begin again, and flipped and hercules, and room, and spotlight, and shape of water, and ladybird, and the princess bride, and the iron giant, and the lobster, and we're the millers, and what if and man up and shrek and kimi no na wa and a quiet place and inception and the lion king and to all the boys I’ve loved before and oooh tim burton movies are pretty cool, the animated ones, and I did spend a good amount of time obsessed w/ dis one so I guess cap civil war, and then big hero 6 and wreck it ralph, and the martian and inside out, and gone girl, and the lion king and forrest gump and spider-man 1 and 2, and les miserables and the devil wears prada and the book of life and the intern and the princess diaries and miss congeniality and aladdin and confessions of a shopaholic

And ok, ok, i think im done. Hahaha das it das my list of meh all time fav movies and i feel like rewatching all of em now hahaha 😍

[katieblooming]

I like, half typed a message last night and quasi fell asleep in the middle and woke up to it blinking “sent”. Yikes @self. Anyways, it was supposed to be like “I wanna send you my unconditional love and support and I hope you’re doing well and I know you’re crazy busy but you’re still wonderful.”

I totally nodded off on my phone the other night and almost messaged a random post to a random mutual hahaha. Whoops. It happens! I appreciate the thought so, so much.

[quest-draws]

Excerpt from The Story of the Seven: Reconstructed, an archival initiative seeking to recreate Madame Lucretia’s original notes with as much accuracy as possible. The following has been compiled by comparing post-Story accounts from dozens of dedicated chroniclers, with oversight from Madame Lucretia and the available members of the Starblaster’s crew. 

Excerpt begins 

Cycle 36, day 6

     We’ve finally found a sign of civilization, as well as plausible evidence that we are all blind idiots. As we flew over yet more icy foothills, Merle (Of all of us!) noticed that one of the mounds appeared to be smoking. Under more careful examination we realized that these ‘foothills’ were actually snowed-covered buildings, meaning it is quite likely the other foothills we’ve seen the past few days were also actually buildings. 

     We, the best and brightest of our deceased world, saviors of multiple realities, the last and only line of defense against the relentless malevolence of the Hunger, wasted nearly a week looking for signs of life when there were entire cities directly under our hull. At the risk of sounding pessimistic, I think this world may be fucked. 

     Now that we’ve realized our mistake, Captain wants us to backtrack and see if we can find a settlement closer to Lup and Barry’s original prediction of the Lights trajectory. However, Lup’s trying to convince him that we should do some reconnaissance in this village first. 

LT: Look, there’s no point going backwards in this fuckin’ blizzard if we can just-

CD: -We are way, way off, the- they’re your calculations? Do you- 

BB: [crosstalk] They’re our calculations, Lu

LT: [crosstalk] I know.

TT: [crosstalk] You calculated ‘em. calc-calculated the shit outta- 

[LT puts up a hand to silence the others]

LT: Look I’m not dunking on my calculations, cause they’re tight as shit, ‘natch; outside looks like someone put a flock of doves through a woodchipper. You wanna fly through that?

CD: [crosstalk] I’m not- 

MB: [crosstalk] Gross?

LT: [crosstalk] Been flying six days straight, you wanna keep, keep flyin’- 

CD: I don’t wanna fly through the scenario you just made me visualize, no. This is just snow. 

[MB raises his hand kind of awkwardly. Mags, c’mon, you’re not 12]

MB: Uuum, Cap’nport? No offense but you look kinda beat, are you sure?

CD: Wh- excuse me. Are you questioning my piloting abilities, Magnus?

MB: [crosstalk] ‘Course not, just-

CD: [crosstalk] I’ve flown us through, through literal eldritch death pillars - 

MH: [crosstalk] ...do look a little tired -  

MB: I know!

[captain gets out of the pilots seat, oh dear]

CD: What was that? Merle? 

LT: It’s been nearly a week, Captain. You haven’t slept. 

CD: Neither have you!

LT: Yeah, and I’m pissed about it! 

BB: look everyone’s a little frazzled- 

MH: I’m fine. 

BB: [crosstalk] Merle, oh my-

LT: [crosstalk] Merle!

TT: [crosstalk] Hahaha holy fuck Merle! Not the time?

CD: You know what, okay, fine! Okay, we’ll vote. Let’s vote. Who thinks we should go down there? 

[Lup, Mag  LT, MB, and BB all put up their hands]

CD: All right, and who says we should turn back?

[CD, TT, and MH put up their hands]

CD: Lucretia.

TT: Lu- Baby-Lu, fuckin’ put dowait I forgot to put myhandupfuck

LC: I’m not answering to that, but I do thin k 

[TT attepts to take my fuckin

Taako tried to take my journal, and while I understand his intentions it’s imperi

BABY LU NEEDS TO STOP WRITING OUR CONVERSATIONS IN REAL TIME AND PAY ATTENTION TO THE WORLD AROUND HER

BABY LU WILL GET HER JOURNAL BACK WHEN THE GROWN UPS DECIDE WHAT WERE DOING IN THIS FROZEN FUCKING HELLSCAPE 

     After my journal was so rudely stolen, we decided that it would be best to have some of the crew investigate the settlement while the others got some rest. Captain landed the Starblaster just out of sight (not far with the weather) and Lup, Magnus and I made our way into town on foot. We were ushered into the smoking building Merle first noticed almost as soon as we were in sight of it. It’s apparently some sort of tavern/town hall, with one long, open room punctuated by tables and some truly massive support beams. 

     Chiana, the innkeeper (or possibly Mayor? Chief? They are definitely some measure of authority figure) was quite unsettled by our sudden appearance. It’s apparently unusual for people to travel between communities at this time of year, especially in the middle of the night (which it apparently is. We seriously lost track of time with the storm blocking out the suns). They’ve insisted on putting us up until the storm settles some. We have of course accepted, but we decided that it might be best not to mention our true intentions here. They were spooked just by us appearing in a blizzard, we don’t need to bring up the rest of it. We notified Capn’port that we’ll be staying a few days to gather info, and since then Lup and Magnus have been having quite the time chatting with the assorted patrons/guests. 

     This really is quite a spectacular building. The ceiling is only about 7 ft. high (Lup and Mags can both touch the ceiling), but it’s so wide and long it doesn’t feel cramped. It’s hard to estimate how large it is exactly; the hall is a patchwork of additions, none of which quite match up. Here an extra nook were the hall was widened, there a slight indent were an old support must have collapsed. Wood flooring giving way to tile, tile being overtaken by carpet, and then carpet receding back to wood again. The support beams are the only consistent element, solid blocks of wood punctuating the room at even intervals. 

    But the room’s really dominated by the kitchens and the dance floor. The kitchens are spaced along the northern wall about 50 ft. from one another, one in each corner and the last right in the center. The latter is the only one operational at the moment, and Chiana’s not making anything more complicated than some mulled cider (which, for the sake of accurate chronicling, I must say is delicious). I thought at first the stove here was heating the hall, and while it’s fairly large on closer inspection that doesn’t seem plausibe. It’s far too warm, even in the farther corners. I suppose the surrounding snow might provide some insulation? 

     Besides that, there’s a raised dance platform in the center of the hall, in front of the middle kitchen. Lup’s dragged Magnus and a two middle aged women onto it, though there isn’t any music at this hour. She's currently waving at me to come join them. I’ve been nursing the drink Chianna gave me so I’d have an excuse to stay seated, but I think I’d better relent before Lup tries to physically drag me up there. They’re really acting silly tonight, but I suppose we all needed to blow off some steam. 

     Alright. Okay. I probably should have noticed this when I first started drinking, but the alcohol here seems to be quite a bit stronger then I’m used too? Or what Lup and Magnus are used too. I didn’t notice until I went out on the dance floor and I kind of tripped but at first I thought that was just me being clumsy or tired, but then when I started actually dancing it was worse like, I’m usually a good dancer. And Lup was acting especially silly and so was magnus, even though he should have a better constitution than us because he’s not a squishy wizard he’s a beefcake. Lup said that. 

Fuck okay I am definitely a little tipsy here I should stop writing. But I was going to write somethig down it was important? we were dancing, and then I was stumbling and I said like Lup I feel kinda tipsy but I only had one drink and she said Aaaaaww ‘Creesha, you are suuuuuuuuuch a lightweight lol but then she fell over and Magnus laughed and one of the ladies we were dancing with asked how much she’d had and shed had three, which made them laugh because apparently threes a lot here. And then we all sat down for a bit and we were talking about travelling and it was kind bullshit because we are trying to blend but we mentioned THE LIGHT THAT 

THAT WAS IT LIGHT LIGT light the light what was that aaaaah what was OH MY GOD I CAN’T REMEMBER THE REST FUCK I [[handwriting becomes illegible]]

okay okay I went back to talk again and I had a few more drinks because chiana gave me more drinks they are actually super sweet i mean chianna. Chianas super sweet. They actualysaw  the light when it landed sorta they saw a flash through the storm but not in the direction we came. Lup’s been trying to redo her calculations on some napkins she thinks the blizzard had something to do with it but shes still  really smashed I dont think now a good time for math Lup 

Lucretia darling are you gonna nag me or are you gonna oh my god I dont know how to spell half those words Lup Im a fucking drunk journalist dont pull the fucking jargon out on me

Barry please tell me what Lups saying in words drunk  journalist understands

A drunk? Lucretia? Whats going on?

Lup: Baaaaaarrry holy shit did you remember to to do the thing for the storm

BB: Lup? Lup you’re- Lucretia give your stone to Lup I can hardly understand her

LT: hiiiiiiiiiiiii barold, hiiiiiiiii, we fucked uuuuuup

BB: oh wow youre super smashed

LT we fucked up Barry! we didnt-interference! the storm created interference and we fucked up the direction and

BB Lup that doesn’t make anysense? our equipment relies mostly on magical energy unless the storm has arcane origins

LT: oh hey, MORRISON DOES THE STORM HAVE ARCANE ORIGINS?

Morison: MS: (shes one of the dancing ladies) I dunno where arcane is but the storms local. amma constein cursed the whole country side bout 20 years ago after liddy halloway dumped her

SEE BARRY

BB: okay yeah that would definitely throw off our readings but its not like we could have known that beforehand. I mean we know now, so I suppose its a good thing you guys went down there even if you also got fucking wasted, for some reason

?: whose fucking wasted (oh its taako

TT: heeeey chucklefucks whats this about you getting crunk on your uuuuh super important potentially, world saving info gathering mission?

MB taako taaaaaakoooooooo booze is super cool down here? I had a bunch

TT: eh yup I could guess

MB: but not like a super bunch? A little bunch. Its suuuuper strong its great

TT hahaha oh. oh you are so lucky cap’nports asleep. What about you, baby lu? tell me-tell me you, at least are treating this mission with the uh, gravity and maturity it fucking-fucking nesessitates fuck you taako im 58

TT whelp haha BB please just give m emy stone back  

im 5 fucking 8!!! Im not a baby godamnit. Im a grown ass women ill get as crunk as I fuckin wanna on this sweet ass booze and you cant have any taako you bitch hahahahha oh my god lucy someone please tell me shes still writing this down I nee

taakos a jackass im a grown fucking ass women an he wasnt even really a hundred when he joined cause hes a LIAR and A JERK comparatively in terms of relativ ageing im more an adult then him but he still calls me baby lu he could call me lucy or creesh like Lup calls me that i love her she? so nice Lup brought me another drink and we danced more but not well cause everthings floaty and I lay down so my head wouldnt float to high the ceilings still really low Lup lay down with e and magnus came in he was screaming cause he went out in the snow he was trying to do the dip thing were you go in a hot spring right after but theres no spring only cold magnus. everythigs only cold magnus why do you do this to yourself?magnus. chiana is making him sit by the stove in the kitchen and they wont give us any more drinks i told them i was 58 and also an alien but that didnt convince them which is probably fair. they dont know. taako knows he has no excuse

chianna gave us a room and its really dark its in the basement it super warm I think there actually is a hot spring but like underneath sorry mags that probablywhat you were thinking but still. super dumb. god Im gonna be so bad in the morning. the storms clearing up a little so well probably go then I hope captains not mad Im not sure he knows but we proly found the light so he cant be too mad. I  need sleep. I need to sleep. good night journal Ill miss you love Lucretia

Cycle 36, day 7

Firstly, I am never drinking again. Ever. Secondly, as soon as I get back to the ship, I am burning these pages. Posterity is not worth this level of embarrassment. 

Cycle 36, day 8

     Lup, Magnus and I had some trouble getting back. Though we weren’t nearly as intoxicated as the previous night, we weren’t precisely sober either. Between Magnus stopping to puke every five minutes, Lup’s persisting lack of balance, my truly excruciating headache, and all the motherfucking, goddamned snow, we nearly got lost on the mile-long hike back to the ship. The others had a field day teasing us, and I can’t even be mad at them for it. Looking over my own notes is literally, viscerally painful. To reiterate: I am never. Drinking. Again.

     I am not going to destroy those pages, however. It’s the only written account I have of what Chiana and the others told us about the Light, and it would be irresponsible to get rid of them before we’ve properly found it. Besides, Lup and Taako both practically begged me to keep it in. I don’t understand why Lup want’s this reminder of our idiocy to remain in tact, but damn she is hard to argue with. She’s also tried to insist that “baby-Lu” is a compliment, but won’t explain how so. I take back all the nice things drunk me said about her. 

     Maybe later I’ll go back and just stick a summary were those pages are, but for the mean time they’ll have to stay.

      I spent most of yesterday just resting, once we got back. I don’t think I honestly realized how tired I was until then. It’s only been 8 days since the last apocalypse, most of which we spent searching, frantic and blind in a literally cursed blizzard. Much as I hate to say it, I may need to take Taako’s advice and stop chronicling in real time. Just for a bit. I’ll pick it up again when we find the Light. 

     Time to go save another world.

End of excerpt. 

[editors note: Can I just formally request that, should we ever see Fisher and Junior again, I be permitted to feed these pages to them, in hopes that they might be erased permanently this time? Please?

- LC ]

[editors note: Madame Lucretia’s request is noted and denied.

- TT ] 

[jincherie]

Timid Mini Scenario | Sweets

Companion piece to Timid, set in the 2 months before they got the call about the cafe. Pairing: Jimin x Reader Genre: fluff, Hybrid!AU Words: not drabble length (2.8k+) Warnings: none Notes: As promised, one of the ‘drabbles’ I’m doing to fill in a little more of Jimin and the MC’s time together in Timid before the cafe is fixed and all that follows. Apparently I don’t know what a drabble is because this is entirely too long. I am writing another one that will come after this sometime soon (titled Uno, probably the same length).

Jimin accidentally eats all of your favourite cookies in the middle of the night and spends the entirety of the next day trying to keep it a secret.

Masterlist || Original oneshot. Timid | Companion short. Uno

The air was cool against the skin that was exposed where he lay in the bed, slowly causing him to wake more and more until he was blinking blearily, the dark ceiling greeting his sleepy eyes. The room was still cast in shadows, and it couldn’t have been any later than 1 or so in the morning. Why was he awake? Jimin sat up slowly, rubbing his face and yawning noticing his mouth was quite dry. He had no idea why he was awake, but since he was he may as well go and get a glass of water.

Coordinating his tired limbs to remove from the blanket was harder than he’d thought, and he would have fallen on his face had his arm not shot out to grip the bed post. He let out a soft breath, feeling his tail twitch behind him. He stood slowly, adjusting the waistband of his pants around his tail to a more comfortable position as he did so.

He had better luck navigating his way to the kitchen in the dark, eyes having eventually adjusted. If his silly human owne—housemate could do it in the dark, with her significantly weaker eyesight, then he could too. He tried to push the fact that he’d nearly thought of the woman as his owner from his mind and instead focused on reaching the kitchen and getting some water. He didn’t want to trip and wake her up, because then he’d probably have to explain why he was awake at such an ungodly hour and he didn’t even know why himself.

The kitchen was obviously a wider space than the hallway, so he had much less difficulty moving about in the dark. He still turned the light on in case, though. He was still half asleep and couldn’t account for his coordination skills right now.

He located a glass easily and filled it up, the cool liquid doing wonders for his dry mouth. He could feel his ears and tail moving happily. He finished the glass quickly and filled it up halfway, downing that in no time as well. Having gotten what he came for, he was about turn and leave when he sniffed out of habit and a the most appealing, delectable smell touched his senses. He froze in place, sniffing once more. That smelt amazing. He could feel his mouth beginning to water slightly. What was that?

He followed his nose to the pantry, sniffing once more to be sure it was in there before opening the doors as quietly as he could. They let out a tiny squeak in protest, but Jimin knew that you slept like the dead and although the sound of him crashing into a wall might have woken you, the tiniest squeak from a door on the other side of the house wasn’t going to.

Eyes searching the cupboard for the source of that delicious smell, they quickly located a box to the left on the very top shelf. His gasped softly. The cookies you had brought home yesterday! The ones you’d claimed to be your absolute favourite. How had he not smelt them before? Surely he would have noticed an aroma as appealing as this.

The longer he stood there taking in their scent, the more he longed for them. Surely it couldn’t hurt just to have a few? He knew you wouldn’t mind, you’d said everything here was his as much as it was yours. You actually encouraged him to take some things without asking every time, like when you’d made popcorn for a movie you were both watching and he kept asking each time before he took another handful. The thought made him smile. He was pretty sure you would support anything that made him happy, and these cookies… he was certain that even a couple of these cookies would make him very happy.

And so he decided, as he reached and brought the box down from the shelf, he was going to have a few, and then he was going to go to bed.

The box opened easily, and so did the plastic packet within. It wasn’t long before the first cookie was in his grasp and on its way to his eagerly awaiting mouth. The second the cookie hit his tastebuds he nearly cried. It was delicious, he’d never tasted anything like it. Usually he would take his time and nibble and savour his food, but he couldn’t help himself this time as he continued eating and the cookie disappeared within seconds. Licking the remaining crumbs from his lips, he reached for another one. Just a couple, then he would go to bed.

What felt like only a couple of cookies later he looked down and, to his absolute horror, found the box completely empty. He couldn’t believe his eyes. How had this happened?! He’d only had a few…

Directing his gaze down at his shirt he found it absolutely covered with the evidence of him scarfing down all the cookies, crumbs littering the chest area and collar of his t-shirt. A swipe of his tongue over his lips and a brush of his finger against his cheek found his face to be in a similar state. He felt ashamed. What had happened to his self control? They were just so delicious, he thought he’d been moderating how many he had, but in reality he’d just been scarfing them down without even realising. He was a mess.

Suddenly he realised the gravity of his situation. He’d just eaten the entire (and only) box of your favourite cookies! In the middle of the night no less! How was he supposed to explain this to you? Sure, he knew you’d be okay with him having a couple of the cookies, but all of them? At once? When you hadn’t even had a chance to have any yourself? He didn’t want to think about how you could possibly react to this.

A small part of him knew he was being irrational, knew that you truly wouldn’t mind that he’d had them all, but Jimin felt like he was in the middle of a crisis. He did not want to jeopardise how you felt about him in any way. What if you hated him after this? No, he took that back. He didn’t think you were capable of hate. What if you really dislikes him after this?

Panicking, he did the only thing he could think of and shoved the box and all the incriminating evidence deep, deep, deep into the kitchen bin, throwing some other things on top for good measure. He was going to bed, and he was going to sleep, and tomorrow he would absolutely not mention that he ate the entire box of your favourite cookies in the middle of the night.

.  .  . .  .  .

When you awoke the next morning, it was feeling refreshed. You hadn’t had a night’s sleep that good and restful in a long time. Stretching your limbs languidly, you let out a happy, satisfied sigh and slipped out of the bed. The floor was cool beneath your feet and you were thankful you wore socks as you made your way out of the bedroom into the kitchen.

The first thing you noticed was that Jimin wasn’t up yet, which was a little strange. He was usually up before you. You shrugged it off, however. Perhaps he was just enjoying an extra hour or so of sleep.

The second thing you noticed was that the bin was slightly overflowing. You stared at it a second. Huh. Well, you reasoned, you hadn’t exactly taken it out in a while, so it wasn’t really surprising. You’d have to take it out today.

Starting to hum a little, you went about the usual routine, turning the kettle on and moving to the pantry to retrieve the cereal. To you surprise, in your usual sweep of the pantry’s contents, you noticed that the box of cookies you’d left for Jimin was gone. You’d brought back two boxes of your all-time favourite cookies for the both of you to enjoy yesterday, and had shamefully already eaten the box you’d bought for yourself. You just couldn’t control yourself around those cookies, there was something about them that just removed all your inhibitions and turned you into a literal cookie monster. You hadn’t realised that Jimin had already eaten his. You made a note to ask him what he thought of them later, and if he wanted you to get more the next time you were out.

Still in a good mood, you continued making breakfast for both you and the cute hybrid currently staying with you. It was about half an hour before he finally emerged from his room down the hall, by which time you’d managed to have cereal and pancakes, along with some coffee, for both of you.

“Good morning!” you beamed at him, leaning against the bench.

Jimin returned the smile, before his gaze fell to the open pantry doors behind you and he shot ramrod straight. He quickly moved over and shut them, letting out a laugh that sounded more nervous than anything. His ears twitched restlessly. “Hahaha, silly! Don’t leave the doors open or you’ll accidentally walk into them sometime!”

You raised a brow, noticing the odd lilt to his usually melodic voice that accompanied his somewhat strange behaviour, but simply let it go. You smiled at him. “That’s true.” You laughed. “Thanks for looking out for me Jiminie!”

He grinned brightly at the sound of your laughter, cheeks colouring pink in happiness. He moved away from the pantry, taking his place at the table and giving you a happy look as you joined him.

“Thank you for making breakfast again.” He said, somewhat bashfully, before digging in.

“You’re welcome.” You smiled, starting to eat your own breakfast. You ate in amicable silence for a while before your thoughts wandered and you grew curious as to whether Jimin had as good a sleep last night as you did.

“How did you sleep last night, Jiminie?” you asked with a small smile, fully expecting him to flash one in return.

Instead the hybrid jumped, nearly choking on his food. You watched in worry as he coughed a little before soothing his throat with the drink next to his plate. “Uh, I, uh… It was good. Yeah, good.”

You watched as he pointedly avoided your eyes and focused on the food before him. He was acting weird, definitely, but you wondered why. You decided to ease over it for now, pretending like you hadn’t noticed his odd behaviour. You’d find out why he was acting strange later.

“That’s good,” you said, returning to your own meal and moving your gaze so he felt less pressured. “I slept really well too! I woke up feeling so good this morning. I haven’t slept that well in a long time.”

Jimin hummed, offering you a brief smile before stuffing his mouth with food. You wondered what could possibly be up with him.

.  .  .  .

The day had finally come to an end, and with it— your patience. You needed to know why Jimin was acting so strange. The whole day he’d been really weird. He’d nearly shrieked when you went to take out the trash, offering hurriedly to do it himself and not even waiting for an answer before quickly taking the bag from your hands and dashing off out the front door.

Around lunch time you’d been mumbling to yourself about making some cookies, since you felt like baking something. He’d picked up on your words from the other side of the house with his incredible hearing and come running to tell you cookies were overrated and you should be thinking more about making cakes and cupcakes. He had then proceeded to make a hasty escape, with the excuse that he had yet to make his bed.

Another time you’d gone to get your cup noodles out of the pantry for a snack and at the sound of your footsteps in the kitchen he’d come racing in. He’d hastily assured you that he’d make the noodles for both of you this time and proceeded to gently kick you out of your own kitchen. You’d moved to the loungeroom in shock. What was making him act so strange?

The final straw had been when you’d asked him at dinner if anything had happened that had made him act so differently. The poor hybrid had jumped, squeaked, and gone bright pink in the face before promptly ignoring your question and blurting, “You look really beautiful today!”

Not only had he completely avoided the question, but it had taken you an entire hour to recover from your flustered state at his comment. The time for answers was now, and you were going to get them.

“Jiminie~,” you cooed at the hybrid taking a seat on the couch next to you. He looked to you, a small smile on his face. You lifted the blanket, gesturing for him to come closer. He did, smiling shyly as he shuffled over and nestled into your side. He’d opened up a lot lately but still got a little shy at the prospect of cuddling with you.

You smiled at him, looping your arms around him and pulling him close, before pressing play on the movie. You had him right where you wanted him.

“Jiminie~” you cooed again, tightening your hold. He stiffened, seeming to sense that the situation was about to take a turn he wouldn’t like. You lifted a hand to begin gently petting his ear, arms still firm in their grip. “I know something is up with you~. Please tell me what it is~”

He seemed to be torn between succumbing to your petting and remaining in complete control of his actions. “y/n—“ he whined, straining lightly in your hold, the slightest rumbling bunny purr in his throat. “I’m- there’s nothing—“

“Don’t fib, Jiminie.” You crooned, fingers moving against his side. He jerked, a sudden giggle escaping him before he gasped. You continued. “Tell me what’s wrong, please~.”

He opened his mouth, a stray giggle escaping before he attempted once more to deny it. “T-There’s nothing—“

“That’s it! Jiminie, tell me what’s up and I’ll stop! Oherwise…” you left your sentence hanging and instead demonstrated with your hands, beginning to tickle him relentlessly. He shrieked, letting out uncontrollable giggles, writhing in your arms. You were a master tickler, he hadn’t stood a chance.

In just a matter of seconds he shrieked once more, “Ok-kay—pfhaha— fine I’ll tell y-you! y/n, p-please—!”

You withdrew your hands, staring at him and waiting expectantly. He had his eyes closed, and was leaning back against the couch, breathing heavily as he recovered from your sudden attack. He bit his lip after a while, seeming slightly distraught. He opened his eyes and glanced at you briefly before averting his eyes.

It was a couple of moments before he spoke again. He seemed to be deliberating on what to say and how to say it. “I…”

You waited, holding your breath. He closed his eyes and spoke in one big rush. “IgotupforsomewaterlastnightandateallyourfavouritecookiesI’msosorry!”

You blinked. “….What?” you asked.

Jimin glanced at you before looking away again, heaving a sigh. “I got up last night to get a glass of water, and I saw your cookies… the box of your favourite ones… in the cupboard… and I ate some…. I ate them all, the whole box… I’m so sorry y/n!!”

You blinked at him. Was he talking about the box of cookies… that you left for him? Specifically for him? Was this… why he was upset?

Jimin looked seriously distraught and you honestly wanted to facepalm. This soft, squishy idiot.

“Jimin, you know… those were your cookies? I bought a box for each of us and I already ate mine. That box was yours.” You said, looking at him and genuinely trying not to laugh.

The bunny hybrid froze, eyes finding yours. You watched as he processed your words, and consequently realised that he had been stressing about nothing. His face went pink, and he stared at you a couple seconds more, before turning and burying his face in your shoulder with an embarrassed groan. “Oh my god.” He mumbled into your shoulder. “Oh my god.”

You laughed and patted his back. “There there Bun, it happens to the best of us.” He groaned from your shoulder, pulling back to lean against the couch and cover his face in embarrassment.

“I can’t believe this.” he whined. “I’m an idiot bun.”

You giggled at his words, pulling him close again and kissing his head. “Yeah, you are, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.”

The pink blush on his cheeks didn’t leave for the rest of the movie, and neither did the small, happy grin.

[atopearth]

Ikemen Sengoku Part 1 - Oda Nobunaga Route

Yess it is out! Lolol, basic story is the heroine gets taken back to the Sengoku period when Oda Nobunaga is betrayed and supposed to die but she ends up saving him from the fire instead. (BTW, yes I play my games very late at night lmaoo)

Lol when she said she doesn’t want to know what his name is. The heroine seems pretty cool. Ohh I’m not well versed with Japanese history but I was aware of Mitsuhide’s betrayal, I just didn’t realise it only lasted for 3 days before Hideyoshi came back and took back control, I see, I see. And the post grad physics guy that came to the past with her actually was stuck here for four years before the time she came in. What a convenient time and location for her to pop up in to change a big part of history! I still find it hilarious that Nobunaga asked if she would rule by his side LOL. What a wonderful suggestion. And she replied by running off hahaha, he got rejected lol.

I see, Sasuke also came and changed Kenshin and Shingen’s lives when they were supposed to be dead by this time already. I guess this makes everything more flexible story wise then! An alternate history! I feel so sorry for the heroine though… She could have relied on that physics guy turned ninja but then Hideyoshi and Masamune found her and now she’s back to Nobunaga aiyaa. Sasuke’s right, love clouds your decision making skills. Unfortunately, this is an otome and I’m going to be choosing a route so Sasuke’s warning of telling the heroine to not fall in love with anyone here ain’t gonna happen. Guess we’ll just have to hopefully pick one that’s worth staying in this timeline for lolol. Lmao, the heroine is such a hard worker, she refuses to be a bum for 3 months (before she can return home to the real world through a wormhole) even though Nobunaga just wants her to be near him as his lucky charm. I would’ve been like sure, I’ll just explore this world for 3 months lmao. It’ll be like a holiday!

Anyway, I hate arrogant men like the Nobunaga in this game and since I like to keep good things for last, I’ll pick him first lolol. At least his character design is pretty, he’s my second favourite in terms of appearances! Masamune has got to be the best looking one kyaa~~ LOL at Hideyoshi saying he’d cut her if she disrespects Nobunaga again, the poor heroine. Omgg, can her situation get any worse? She’s going to war by his side gg. Nice knowing you heroine. Everything she says to him falls on deaf ears lmao. 

When the heroine was surprised that Nobunaga protected/saved her from an arrow, I was like why are you shocked?! He better damn well protect you! He took you here and you’re his lucky charm! He can’t be that irresponsible! Although it could be possible I guess… I mean, he is ruthless… I’m surprised the heroine wasn’t aware of what Nobunaga was trying to do by bringing a smaller force with him to destroy the enemy commander’s forces etc… Still must have been traumatising to have to witness this skirmish as a normal person who has never been acquainted with war in any way, even if it is a small skirmish. She does owe him a thank you I guess though lol. LOL that he wants her to warm his bed and lmao, she’s right that she needs to know more about her partner than the simple hobbies of quashing revolts and burning castles 😂😂😂 she’s so right but funny at the same time lol. 

Omgg, the heroine knows consent! I find so many otome ignoring the concept of consent all in the name of hot guys and it infuriates me sometimes so I’m glad our heroine this time is very spunky and stands her ground. Hahaha she’s so cute and optimistic about learning how they make kimonos back in this time. But I’m surprised that she told him she’s from the future and he believed it, but I am most impressed with Nobunaga’s bet with Go. Definitely a good idea in getting the heroine haha, he’s adapting to her personality well. I think I might enjoy this route more than I thought. Strip Go is an entertaining game after all 😂😂

HAHAHA, when the heroine was clueless and Ieyasu explained stuff to her because her clueless face was annoying and that she should be quiet and then she said “sorry for breathing” LOL, she is so hilarious, I love her. Poor heroine, she tried to run away from this hot spring trip with Nobunaga but everyone is out to capture her, lolol at Hideyoshi being the one to have packed her belongings for the trip hahaha. I assume Nobunaga was protecting her from that assassin who grabbed her leg, I mean I would assume that if you take on the role of an assassin, you wouldn’t regard your life as important especially when facing someone you believe to be a tyrant and enemy, you’ll never beg for your life from such a person. I love how they resolved their differences and they talked to each other of their worldly views and then he ended up snuggling up using her lap as a pillow and then tucking her into a futon with him later when she fell asleep 😂😂 he’s so good at this lmao.

I’m really enjoying this story. You can see why Nobunaga and the heroine come into conflicts a lot of the time when it comes to human life since he’s stuck in a time filled with killing as a normal circumstance whereas she hasn’t. It’s not that he particularly likes to kill but he understands that he needs to do so in order for his goal of unity across the lands to be achieved and he can’t allow any betrayal and treachery to even possibly occur. There is no mercy for anyone because once you show it, then people will know your weaknesses. It’s a sad world to live in..

I’m glad the heroine is such a cool girl, she got Kennyo to let his guard down so she could bite him and then run and she is aware that Nobunaga may not be a good person but she knows in her heart that she doesn’t want him to die and I think that’s enough resolve to wanting to save him. Omg, when he said she lost the game by default and so he can claim a part of her and he chooses her heart, I literally swooned! Gotta admit though, the heroine was so cool when she saved Nobunaga and threw the smoke bomb and spikes on the he ground to delay the enemies, she’s smart, witty, emotive and loving. I like her just as much as Nobunaga hahaha.

When Nobunaga started talking about his past and the heroine felt terrible that this period in time forced him into having to take measures such as killing his own brother to survive, it made me think a little about Soji from Rurouni Kenshin, he was also a kid that had no choice but to do what he had to in order to survive and that’s what set him off on to the path he went on from that day onwards.

The way that they got together was so cute though, I mean it was obvious how attracted they were to each other but seeing how much Nobunaga cared for her and cherished her made me all giddy! Lolol. Especially when he suggested another game of Go for her heart and she told him that everything was his already, that was so great~~

 I’m surprised that Sasuke is not planning to leave either because of whatever job he needs to see till the end, I mean, it literally means he’s never going back, he must either have a great sense of responsibility or this duty is something only he can perform and he needs to see it to completion. I wonder how he even got this job though…. 

I can’t take Nobunaga’s confidence, especially when he’s facing Kenshin, why is he so cool?! Not only is he gentle and reliable, he’s even starting to become even more considerate and understanding that it’s really hard to not see how perfect of a man he is. He’s playful but also serious, sigh, I don’t think the heroine or I really understood what we were getting into when I chose this route, I honestly didn’t think I’d like him this much, I can see why the heroine is willing to stay in this world forever for him, it’s a big sacrifice but you gotta admit, he’s worth it lmao. I just love how they both changed each other for the better (in their perspectives anyway) and as such well balanced individuals each in themselves.

This game is so good lol, it’s so difficult to find a heroine as likeable as the guy these days so I really appreciate the effort they put into her character as well because I love her just as much. They united Japan so fast! Hahaha, well I guess that’s okay too lol since it’s the romantic route, but going around the world does sound very ideal, especially with the charisma of Nobunaga to be coming along hahaha. Anywho, Nobunaga was much more unique, cooler and fun than I thought and I’m starting to think it’ll be hard to best him because the chemistry he and the heroine shares is too great and funny to beat, they’re like made for each other lol!

P.S I don't think I'm as fond of the dramatic route haha, too dramatic for me lolol with the running away from the storm taking her back to the present and him wishing for her to live. And the whole idea of them changing the past too much etc. But it was really cute when he was scared she wouldn't like it if he came back to her full of the blood of the enemies on him so he went to a river to wash himself first, he's so considerate and I guess a bit hurt after she pushed him away when he killed someone and yet could touch her so tenderly. It was the best when Sasuke showed her Nobunaga's everlasting love for her that could be shown in the present with him cherishing that toy bear she made and proclaiming his love for her. He's so cool.

I personally think the romantic route was much better in terms of sweetness and how fun it was~

[greysficsngifsnstuff]

Chapter 5

Author’s note: Hello everyone! So this is the last chapter in my little fanfic :( I’m so sad because I was having so much fun writing this story, but I suppose it has come to an end. Because this is more of an epilogue rather than an actual chapter, it’s a little shorter. I wanted it to be a lot of fluff seeing as it’s the last chapter, so beware, THIS CONTAINS ALL OF THE FLUFF! Thank you guys for sticking through me with this, I hope you like it :) fun fact: every time I was writing this story I had let’s hurt tonight by one republic stuck in my head, and I only realised how those lyrics mimic the plot, especially chapter 4. Go giver a listen if you wanna set the mood while reading hahaha

When Jackson woke just as the sun was coming up, the first thing he noticed was that he and April were still in the same position in which they had fallen asleep in just a few hours earlier. Her forehead was pressed against his cheek, one of her legs tucked in between his, an arm slung over his belly; and he couldn’t help the bliss that settled over him at the fact that they had woken up together. His eyes squinted against the light that was flooding in from the French windows, and he was grateful when he saw it was gonna be another typical day in Seattle—grey and rainy—so at least the light was duller than it could have been.

He used the hand that was looped around her neck and resting on her arm to squeeze her closer ever so slightly, breathing in the smell of her hair. At that small gesture, he felt her eyelashes flutter on his cheek. She paused for a moment, properly opening her eyes to wrap her mind around the situation, then made a small, hoarse noise in the back of her throat. She craned her head up so that she could press a kiss to his neck, then the corner of his lips, then finally his mouth. As she tried to settle her head back on his chest, he reached to hold her jaw with bent fingers and pulled her lips towards his for another kiss, where they both lingered for a second before she broke into a smile.

‘Hi,’ he said, his voice deep and rough.

‘Hey,’ she replied, her own voice all slow and thick with sleep. They kissed again.

‘Do you wanna get up?’ he said as she finally settled her head back onto him.

‘Not really,’ she said, nuzzling into him with a small, nervous laugh. Was she allowed to say that?

He laughed a little, too.

‘Me neither,’ he said.

‘It’s Sunday, I’ve only got the night shift. Do you have surgery?’ she asked, not making any effort whatsoever to move away from him.

‘Not today,’ he replied, absentmindedly tracing slow circles on the top of her arm with the tip of a finger. ‘I do need to go check in on my post-ops at some point today, though.’

She smiled in response. Though he couldn’t see her, he knew exactly what she was doing.

‘Good. Then we can stay in bed all day,’ she said. He gave a small laugh by breathing out a whiff of air from his nose.

‘You mean until Harriet starts crying?’

That got a giggle out of her. ‘Yeah, until Harriet starts crying.’

They laid there for about another hour in silence, drifting in and out of sleep. At one point, April used the arm that was slung over his belly to hug him for a moment, then adjusted her position so she could wind her other arm around his neck. When they both realised it wasn’t very comfortable, they both turned so they could spoon. Jackson shoved a pillow away from his head.

‘These damn throw pillows,’ he muttered, mostly to himself, and April giggled again. He settled against her again and used a hand to stroke her hair away from her neck to press a long, slow kiss to it. She pulled a clean gulp of air through her nose, angling her face slightly towards him. He went to hug her tighter by grasping her wrist and pulling her close, and she moved her hand so that his cupped the back of hers, then laced their fingers together.

Eventually, they heard Harriet’s whining come from the baby monitor. April sighed and Jackson gave her hand a squeeze, and then she lazily forced herself off the couch to go fetch the baby. While she was gone, Jackson got up and set up a pot of coffee for the both of them.

He was pouring the coffee into two mugs when April reappeared, carrying Harriet on her hip.

‘Good morning, sunshine,’ said Jackson. He went over and stroked Harriet’s head. April couldn’t stop the massive grin that spread to her face as she watched them. She and Jackson exchanged a charged look, and then as though they were reading each other’s minds, both leaned gingerly, tentatively towards each other for a kiss. For some reason that made Harriet start giggling. They both turned to her, laughing too.

‘Was that funny?’ asked April in a baby voice. Jackson chuckled at the baby and pulled April closer by the waist to kiss her again. Harriet burst out laughing, which in turn made her parents laugh, too. They played at that game a few more times before Harriet forgot to find it funny and remembered she was hungry and started crying.

April went to sit on a stool at the island and attached Harriet to her breast.

‘You sure you don’t wanna do that on the couch? You’d be more comfortable,’ said Jackson.

‘No it’s fine,’ she said, and smiled at him when she saw him bringing over the coffee mug for her. ‘Uhm, but it is Sunday, so I wanted to go to church… would you mind watching her? I mean I can take her if you want, but I was gonna go grocery shopping after—‘

‘I’ll go with you,’ he interrupted.

‘Oh, great. So I’ll leave her with you for church and then come pick you up and—‘

‘No, I mean I’ll go with you. To church, too, I mean,’ he said.

When April looked up at him she wore an expression he couldn’t quite put his finger on, but it was a mixture of surprise and gratefulness and love.

‘Okay,’ she said, trying only half-heartedly to suppress her smile.

‘As long as we can get waffles after,’ he said, an earnest expression on his face as he sipped on his coffee.

April laughed. ‘Yeah, we can get waffles after.’

***

On the ride home Harriet fell asleep in her car seat but woke up when April took her out, and fussed for about 20 minutes while she rocked in her momma’s arms in her room until she fell asleep again. By the time April made her way back to the living room, Jackson had finished putting away the groceries. Not really sure of what to do with herself, April went and leaned against the island.

‘Uhm, so, I wanted to talk to you about something,’ Jackson said.

‘What’s up?’

‘I’m not really sure how to bring this up,’ he said, not meeting her eyes. ‘But, I mean, I just—given what happened, all of it I mean—I didn’t know whether, uhm…’

April smiled gently. ‘What, Jackson?’

‘You’re not moving out, are you?’

They exchanged a charged look.

‘I want to stay…’ she said, not really answering the question.

‘I want you to stay,’ he answered.

Her expression softened, her eyebrows turned upwards ever so slightly.

‘Okay,’ she said, smiling. He looked down at his shoes, pursing his lips lightly as though subduing a smile.

He took a breath as though he was about to speak, shut his mouth again, then finally said, ‘Can I kiss you?’

She held his gaze for an instant and then nodded. Slowly and a little awkwardly, he walked towards her. He rested his hands on her hips and she pulled him down a little by the collar of his shirt, and they took a moment to stare deep into each other’s eyes, drinking each other in.

Then he pressed his lips softly to hers. They started off with slow, shy kisses at first. He moved his hands from her hips to her neck, sliding them up to run all of his fingers through her hair and holding a fistful of her red locks as he pulled her closer. She moaned softly into his mouth, dropping her arms down, first pressing them flat against his ribs and then curling her fingers around his shirt to press herself up against him. Soon their kisses became more desperate, him opening his mouth and her copying him in response. Reaching to grab her waist, he pulled her up onto the island and he slid between her legs so that he could move closer. He tore his mouth away from hers to brush his lips along her cheek and chin and jaw, finally coming to rest on her neck. He ran his tongue lightly over her pulse point, where he felt it hammering like mad, then nipped at it gently, sometimes with his teeth and other times his lips. She sighed and turned her head to the side a little so he could have better access. Neck kisses are her absolute favourite thing, Jackson remembered. He dug his fingers into the small of her back when he felt her wrap her legs around his waist. Moving back up to her mouth, he spoke against her lips.

‘Should we, uh,’ he got distracted as she took her turn to kiss his neck. ‘Should we go to my room? Or… or maybe your room?’ he said all breathless before she went to kiss his mouth.

‘We can, but our rooms are so far away,’ she gasped quickly so that she could kiss him again.

They giggled, their lips bumping against each other. He reached for her shirt and peeled it off her head. Grabbing her thighs he lifted her off the island, carried her to the couch, and dropped down with her clumsily. They lay there for a long while, taking their time with undressing each other and stalling the moments in between with kisses and strokes. It felt like they were exploring each other’s bodies with new fascination, yet at the same time the sense of familiarity that settled over both of them reminded April exactly of what Jackson had said to her the night before; a feeling of coming home.

When they were both spent, Jackson didn’t let himself fall asleep. After about half an hour he got up, saying he needed to go into the hospital to check on those post-ops.

‘I’m gonna take a shower,’ he said, climbing off the couch. April pushed herself up with one arm so that she was sat upright.

‘I’ll take one with you,’ she said.

She expected a response from him at that— a look, a cheeky giggle—but all she got was an ‘Okay,’ as though it was the most normal thing in the world. A habit, even.

They let the water hit them until the temperature was just right, just standing next to each other, never once trying anything more. Their body language wouldn’t have been different even if they were wearing clothes. Somehow that comforted April. It just felt so normal, so right, to be in such a physically vulnerable state in front of him after he had seen her in so many emotionally vulnerable ones.

When they were both soaked, April reached for the shampoo. She went to squirt some into her palm but Jackson placed a hand on hers to stop her.

‘Here, I’ll do it,’ he said with a kind smile. She returned one and turned around. He massaged the shampoo into her scalp, and she couldn’t help the soft moan that escaped her mouth.

By the time they had finished up in the shower, Harriet had woken up from her nap.

Jackson was brushing his teeth and April her wet hair when they heard her.

‘I’ll get her,’ he said, spitting into the sink.

April volunteered to go to the hospital to check how the ER was doing until Jackson was ready from his post-ops. Carrying Harriet around would give her the excuse of overseeing things without getting dragged into surgery.

***

April adjusted Harriet on her hip as the doors to the ER slid open. It was a Sunday afternoon, so the place was pretty quiet. She spotted Wilson suturing up an old lady’s thumb and a few nurses around, filling up charts or sitting with patients while they waited for an attending. She went up to Wilson and asked about the case, even about the course of treatment advisable, never taking a moment not to teach her residents, then to the nurses to check how each of their patients was doing. Almost all of them pulled her into a longer conversation she’d have liked to have simply because she was carrying Harriet. When she was done she searched around but she couldn’t find Owen. He probably still hadn’t come back to work.

‘April, what are you doing here?’ a voice said from behind her. April turned to see Arizona walking towards her. ‘Hi, princess,’ she said to Harriet, giving her belly a little tickle with a single finger when she reached them.

‘I just came to see how things were going,’ said April. Arizona picked up on how much calmer and happier April was since the last time she saw her, just yesterday.

‘Did something good happen?’ asked Arizona, folding her arms across with that infectious smile she gave when she was excited for something.

April could stop herself from grinning, and developed a sudden interest in her shoes so that the warm feeling that had blossomed inside her wouldn’t burst into the emergency room. So she could keep it all to herself.

‘Uh, actually, yeah,’ she said, still beaming. ‘I think Jackson and I are back together.’

Arizona’s eyes widened and she laughed a hearty laugh, covering her mouth with her hands. ‘Oh my gosh! Are you serious?’ April nodded, and laughed, too. ‘Awh, April, this is so great, I’m so happy for you!’

‘I’m happy too,’ April grinned bashfully. Arizona turned to Harriet, poking her belly once again.

‘And I’m so happy for you, little missy,’ cooed Arizona in baby voice. She leaned closer to pretend she was going to whisper something in Harriet’s ear, but it was just loud enough for April to catch. ‘Your mommy and your daddy finally realised how much they still love each other, and now you get to grow up seeing what it means to feel pure, unconditional love for someone.’

Harriet just stared back at her with huge eyes, then diverted her attention to the sound of the sliding doors of the ER.

Jackson walked in, his bag slung over his shoulder, and hitched it higher as he spotted his girls and Arizona chatting to the side before walking towards them.

‘Hey guys,’ he said. ‘Robbins.’

‘Hey, Avery,’ Arizona said, beaming at him.

‘Should we go?’ Jackson asked April.

‘Mhm,’ she said, nodding. ‘You done?’

‘Yeah,’ he replied. ‘Here, I’ll take her,’ he said, lifting Harriet out of April’s arms. ‘See you tomorrow, Robbins.’

‘Goodnight, guys,’ replied Arizona. She couldn’t help watching them as they exited the hospital. She was so genuinely happy for them.

Jackson secured Harriet in her car seat while April set the bags in the boot. They shut the doors and both crossed behind the car to get to their seats. April was about to walk past him when he stopped her by holding his fingers against her belly. Surprised, she looked up at him as he took a step closer towards him.

‘Hey,’ he said, moving his hands up to rest them on slope between her shoulder and neck. ‘You ready?’

She smiled up at him, pure love flowing in between their eyes. They were in the middle of the parking lot but they didn’t care.

‘Yeah,’ she responded, placing her hands on his chest. He leaned down and pressed a soft, slow kiss to her lips. ‘Let’s go home.’