#was it tedious? yea
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
The boys are back in town (to kill you!!)
Still versions under the cut!
Here's V1 Bloodmoon, 👇
And here's V2 Bloodmoon! 👇
#xero creations#I CAN'T BELIEVE I FORGOR 2 POST THEM SOONER THATS SO TRAGIC HDJSBDJDND#they lichrelly got turned into silly little discord stickers b4 i set them loose on tumblr smh /silly /silly#AHEM. YEA THO THESE WERE SUPER FUN LMAO#i've been wanting to wade into animation for a but now so i figured that some simple 2 frame gifs is a fair starting point !!! im rlly-#-proud od how these turned out but also i'm soooo fine on doing fully colored animations for the forseeable future BAHAHA#v2 bloodmoon gave me sooo much hell with having 2 actually match up the lines 😭 BUT IT WAS SO WORTH IT . again#i am So proud of these. it was tedious but damn its nice to look at them schmove LOL#sun and moon show#the sun and moon show#tsams#sams#sams bloodmoon#tsams bloodmoon#sams bloodtwins#tsams bloodtwins#v1 bloodmoon#v2 bloodmoon#gif
378 notes
·
View notes
Text
Prizes for a raffle I did on Bluesky recently! For synthyx (first image) and bombaboo (second image)
#kir0nixx art#tried a new shading style for the second one and hhhhhhhhhhh#but also. hhhell yea its very cool#just. Tedious#also fuck yea cockatiel character#all my school project cockatiel drawing paying off#in that i can draw someone's character pretty decently#art#digital art#furry
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
how many times do you think this kind of thing happens
#art#my art#gintama#yamazaki sagaru#sagaru yamazaki#shimura shinpachi#shinpachi shimura#if u tag this as ship i might actually come to ur house & commit atrocities by the way. dont.#id in alt#let me know if the ids are insufficient or tedious to read in alt by the way! i'll change to adding them in the post itself if so#but yea . to me off-work zaki is a critter who needs to be studied#& to answer my own question it happened at least three times bc i have two other shitty comics like this one drawn already LMAO#i'd been drawing artfight attacks all day then got distracted
40 notes
·
View notes
Text
once again coming back to apologize for my inactivity, I've not only been depressed but also burnt out of tumblr 🫠 I haven't been motivated to check tumblr and haven't really cared (as much as I love it here) to just reblog and wtv. Today was a really hot day (for me) and if the rest of the week or month looks like this, then definitely do not expect anything from me (especially as we ease into spring and eventually enter summer), hot weather is my mortal enemy and it's like im fighting demons nonstop whenever summer/late spring rolls around so... yea.
on top of that I just haven't used my laptop in a couple of days LMAO after the play on Saturday, I was absolutely knocked out for all of Sunday and the last two days I've been playing red dead redemption 2, which I've really been enjoying 🙃🙃 which means eventually when I get back to tumblr will probably be rbing rdr2 stuff lmao
cut is just me rambling about the next two games I'm planning on playing after rdr2
also I currently have a line of games (and by line, I mean 2 games LMAO) I'm seriously looking forward to playing on my Xbox/Laptop-
First game is skyrim, I LOVEDDDD playing it on my switch, but I haven't played it properly for sooo long, but I recently saw that skyrim is free on gamepass and will definitely be installing it on my laptop 🥹 Granted, my character in skyrim is veryyyy op and it'll be upsetting to have to restart but whatevs! I just have to do what I always do and power thru battles that are intended for higher levels- and also grind pickpocketing cuz I can NOT live without that skill LMAO
Second game is a well-loved game of mine, ARK, I've played well over 500 hours on my phone and well over 250 hours on my switch (which ofc I enjoyed infinitely more, but nothing beats the nostalgia of mobile ARK LMAO), and when I TELL you I was elated to see it for free on gamepass, I mean it cuz I was SOO giddy, of course I know rdr2 will take bloody forever to finish (at the rate I'm going) but I'm just so excited to play it, especially since I think all the expansions are free as well, which means I can play genesis without paying for it (since I bought the other expansions on my switch- aberration FTW btw)
#anyways! my little life update i suppose#i feel bad letting this tumblr die down#but life is life and such means that i cannot exist on tumblr 25/8 like i used to#on a diff note. i wont be posting anything about rdr2 cuz im just too lazy#and its on my xbox so trying to get screenshots from point a (xbox) to point b (laptop) will def be too tedious for me#i have to say that i am NOTT a controller savant. ive always been better at playing on keyboard and mouse#so trying to play a game like rdr2 on a controller with barely any grasp of aiming on controller...#yea its just SUCH a fun time for me 😞😞 usually i never have aim assist on but with rdr2... i have to have it on to even figure out where-#-someone is cuz i can barely bloody see with how slow the aimed sensitivity is#“you can change i-” I DID. ITS ON THE HIGHEST SETTING AND ITS STILL TOO SLOW FOR ME 😭#im not even bad at aiming or finding ppl or wtv. i had a 2 or 3 K/D ratio on cod mobile (i was a mobile gamer for so long 😭)-#so again its just that im not well versed in using a controller cuz i normally do nott have the problems i do on keyboard and mouse-#-that i do on controller#yapping
8 notes
·
View notes
Text
welp it's still wednesday, so i'm using the excuse to post topology practice on main side :p
surprising no one, i'm using june as a lab rat xD
#she has p standard round/soft face but a defined nose tip#which is the part i struggle with the most#so she's a fitting subject for practice xdd#oc: june trevelyan#wip wednesday#but ye ive been having fun with this! :>#i still find it really hard to place stars/redirections purposely#and especially like. putting them somewhere else when they're already there#and properly defining the sharpness of edges...#and also getting the shape how i want. yea it looks like a face but it doesnt look like /june/ yk#but overall i think i'm getting decent at putting loops are supposed to be & getting clean topology :]#it's tedious af but i unironically love the technical puzzle-y parts of 3d modelling
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
Human’s inherent desire for understanding, and why angels are a perfect lure. (Rambling)
Humans have studied the art of the mystic for centuries. Before science, literature, and math, there were stories. Because storytelling is what guides us to experience, to learn, to make sense of both experience and knowledge.
Even when we do science, we say: “First, extraction of the sample DNA from the flesh was conducted through the process of centrifuge. Then, PCR was run to amplify the amount of recovered DNA. Restriction endonuclease enzyme was added to the sample, fragmenting DNA into smaller strands. The product was evaluated through agarose gel electrophoresis. 80-150V of electric force pulling the pieces toward the bottom. The shorter the pieces are, the faster they go. So, the DNA separates more, and paints a ladder of bands. You cannot see them. As the last step, you must stain them with fluorescent dye, and only under UV lights can you observe the crude data.”
Temporal. Sequential. Meaningful. This is a story called “DNA fingerprinting”.
The story of magic and godly realms and religion is of the same. They carry teachings (and entertainment). They last through centuries because there is something in them that humanity sees.
Humans are driven by a maddening sense of curiosity and exploration. To make sense of it all. To separate organs from man, to separate cells from organs, to separate DNA from cells, and to do it again, at a smaller scale with enzymes. There is an inherent desire to learn until all is deprived. To become passionate is to be consumed wholeheartedly.
So we sent people to explore the Arctic, the ocean, the sky, the universe. And when they perish, we send more.
The study of death is the same. To see beyond the veil is something impossible, because the dead cannot return. (Well, they technically can, depending on how you define death. If death is the stopping of the heart, then I suppose we are dying, in microdoses, every second of our lives. If death is the cease of memory and autonomy, then I suppose we are dying, in microdoses, every night in our beds.)
(I digress.)
The study of death is attractive because it looks into what we are sure we cannot possibly touch. So we only hope to examine what we can. The maggots that gnaw at the meat, the stillness of limbs in silence, the invasive infestations of bacteria and mold and creatures of all kinds.
The corpse is an afterimage of an experience of both life and death. We can only hope to study the husk and the life that sustains on that husk, hoping it is close enough to touch death.
It is similar to the study of the supernatural in that way. Magic only exists because we do not understand it. That’s why it is so captivating. The creation of a potion in a cauldron is the same as biochemistry. The transformation of forms and elements is the same as fusion physics. The impossible feats of flight were achieved by aeroplanes and carefully measured aerodynamics. There are ghosts born from boring undetected monoxide poisoning.
When we understand, magic loses its… well, magic.
It is similar to the study of religion in that way. Because we are desperately lonely, and we must make meaning, and so magic shall suffice in place of what we do not know and to fill what we do not have. I do not study religion, but I know at least a part of this is true – at least in its origin. The stories of gods, angels, demons, palaces in the sky, monsters in the ocean, a form of thousand eyes and arms and all-knowing and all being and loves like nothing else because we are greedy organisms that crave validation and safety and love and love and love. And we can learn anything it wants us to learn, make it through anything if love and peace are waiting for us at the end of it all. (Though religion, in all its implications, forms, and renditions have changed since then, as well as the interpretations of survived passages.)
I am not a believer in a higher being, nor am I a student of religion, so I cannot speak of all of it. I cannot claim understanding.
I think this is also partially why angels compel me so. They are the beyond. Above reasoning, above logic, in the same realm as the untouchable pureness of undiscovered science, death, magic, and religion.
What stories flow within its (his?) veins? What stories lie dormant in its (his) throat? What stories are etched on the body, the wings, the blade? What stories speak of the beating of its (his) heart and the bleeding of its (his) light? What of the cells, the molecules, the very physics (magic) that binds it (him) together?
Do you speak of the stories of love and despair and violence and hope as we do?
Please, do not answer me.
Because to know is to kill. The utter destruction of the imagination and wonder and passion. To purposefully look away from knowledge is the complete comprehension that understanding makes something die. It brings dullness to love.
So, please, let me see you in my mind’s eye, and nothing more.
#az thoughts#angelcore#rambling again and has to get this out of my body#yea its bc gabriel got me thinking again#long post#writing#spilled ink#<- recently learned this tag exists#im a fan of a few really strong lines but this is honestly a bit tedious to read#if you're reading i really hope you enjoyed lol#az personal
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
Preventing myself from freaking tf out by remembering that even my hormones don’t want to be in my body even my body is trying to prove that it’s Wrong and it’s funny that everything agrees with me except my mom and the government
#boyfriend I’m ok I promise lol#context for my dear friends here on Tumblr I got diagnosed (?) with a complex ovarian cyst today#it hurts and I’m upset about it because it’s Just Another Reminder that this body is female!!!#I used to say ‘yea it may not be the body I’m supposed to have but at least it works just fine’#no I have chronic issues with synthesizing hormones or something#like this body knows the hormones and shit are wrong and keeps rejecting it but that doesn’t Help any#and being on testosterone will actually probably be very helpful to my literal health y’know#because otherwise I’d have to be on bc my whole life to prevent unnecessary pain and shit#and I’ve already lived that it caused Other issues lmao (irregular menstruation even when on the pill blood clot risk No period for >6-#-months sometimes etc.) so testosterone will. be very healthy for me to be on once I get there.#but before I start now I have to figure out so many Things and my hormone levels will have to be So totally tested#which was gonna be needed anyways it’s just gonna be annoying#and I would be so ok with just having a hysterectomy (partial or complete) and taking gahrt being done with it#but NO no of course not. never would it be that easy. my MOM-#it’s fine like of course she doesn’t want her 18 year old unmarried childless daughter to have a hysterectomy that makes sense#doctors would agree with her and they’d be Not Incorrect#but I don’t want or need bio kids I’ll end up getting a hysterectomy anyways#but I had to explain Every Little Bit of the surgeries used for ovarian cysts they’re all so easy (like laproscopies and such)#it’s just tedious that she doesn’t know how to do research so it’s All on me to explain it but she also thinks I’m an idiot#like girl pick a struggle#either listen to me or don’t make me do your research#I’m gonna explode I’m fine. I’m gonna take a shower and then write an essay and apply to beta-reading jobs and go to sleep#speaking of. if anyone knows anyone who’s hiring beta-readers uhh give them my tumblr let them Hime#*hmu#I would love to be paid extra for reading and commenting on books lmao#especially if I’m gonna be paying my own hrt without my insurance (which is paid by my mom) then. well.#my $12.50 an hour for 8-12 hours a week job isn’t gonna cut it
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
once again minecraft fans be mad for all the wrong reasons
#minecraft#june speaks#dawg if u wanna be mad about the vault block be mad that we had to wait ages just to learn the key is used for what seems to be midgame gea#not that the vault performs an incredibly basic multiplayer feature that shoulda been added ages ago#it only feels like a disappointing feature cuz they took so long to tell us ''oh yea it unlocks player-specific loot containers''#which is a good fucking feature even if it's not particularly interesting! i'm very glad they added it!#this game really does need some multiplayer QoL changes when it comes to the gameplay n this is a great step towards that#it's just stupid to have to wait two months to learn that when by all means we were made to expect it did something more interesting like#idfk. open a secret area or summon a boss. which maybe it could still do! we just don't know yet. update's not fully announced yet!#personally imma save my negative feelings (beyond being annoyed having to wait that long for something that simple) for AFTER the update#at which point if the vault doesn't ever give better loot or if the keys never get any more uses i'll feel a justified mild disappointment#which like ngl. even that's motivated purely by my position as a seasoned player#i'm certain that as-is the vault is amazing for new and learning players in every possible regard. it's a good block n a great feature#but even considering that i feel like it's reasonable to want to be catered to a little bit as a seasoned player yknow?#beyond insanely tedious self-imposed tasks there's not a lot to minecraft's endgame. beat it a hundred times n eventually you get bored#which i think is why a lotta other people get so annoyed with some of these updates too#there's just not a lot bein added for the sake of catering to old players who want new experiences most of the time#anywho that's my bi-monthly minecraft rant outta the way lol
1 note
·
View note
Text
pro tip for yakuza 0: as much as the cabaret club has a special place in my heart, if you wanna make decent money as majima later in the game, fighting mr shakedown is a way more lucrative source of income if you can manage it
#especially if you’ve put completion points into buffing his financial output and all that @ the shrine#fighting him is a bit hard at first but you really can get used to it decently easily I think. his moves are very predictable and easy to#memorize and weave around#I’m a little biased though becuase im playing rn with totally maxed out abilities hdjhcjd but yea#even before I maxed everything out. as long as your abilities are decent I think it’s tedious but manageable#depending on how good at fighting you are personally#to put it in perspective i make about 1-1.5 billion rn each time I fight him and win as compared to about 100 million per cabaret club run#once I get back to kiryu. oh man is he gonna be making BANK#anyway this is how I’ve been funding my ridiculous number of equipment searches#rambling#and my. 94 weapons and 65ish(?) gear items
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
Hi internet people i hope you like looking at the creatures because I have another one to show you guys today
(..and yes it's about my Weatherhumans again, dang it)
Behold *drum roll SFX* ---
Tornado-chan!!! :DDD
Yea that's oil on her clothes and face and stuff, what're you gonna do about that hmmm???? 🤨🤨🤨
(more info about her below the "read more" stretch WOOOOP)
And yes I'm finally uploading the proper Weatherhuman images onto Tumblr now yaaaay *confetti noises* (don't worry I'll post the others I've originally posted to Twitter, on here too in a "bit")
Cough cough anyways have the dumb factoid page I made about her..it's messy as all hell but hey it works I guess xp
(and by doing that whole "controlling the tornadoes" thing, she controls them with one of her hands. Maybe if it's like an EF3+ or a strong twister, then she'll have to use both of her hands but idk, lol)
God I love writing factoids with my friends, it's so fun and whimsical teehee B)
OH AND ALSO BEFORE I drop off the face of the Earth and do more internet things again..have some bonus images of her!! Yay :D
(art by Soupy (top image) and Brutus (bottom image))
She's. Being freaking BAKED dude B,| la creatura gets what she deserves
Okay this is from uhh middle school and it's the original concept I made for her (in blue ink; drew her during lunch) alongside the hair-redesign-ideas my irl friend Zarina made (in purple ink). She was supposed to be one of those stereotypical "anime kawaii desu yandere trope" girls but I eventually changed her up to be a greaser because well. UhhhhMM yea 🥲 (the outsiders book and movie I love and miss you waaah)
The "#1" redesigned hairstyle was used again for another tornado-based character, buuuut I'll tell you more about that character later,,, woooooop
..Okay wow uh cool thank you for reading bye!! *dies*
#flowerposting#doodle#weatherhumans#flower art REAL?! (yes)#now to do the tedious task of posting the other gals ive posted to twitter onto here now..ugh#anyways moral of the story: read the outsiders (and cry) and uhh greasers are 👍👍 yea
3 notes
·
View notes
Note
I hope ur having a good day today. I always respect and admire your art and efforts to be good in other things. I wish you the best of luck on your apps and everything else you're working on. I'm mentally sending you good vibes, my dude
Aw thanks :-]
#after 11hr of traveling im now home so at least theres that. id say im in a better place but ya kno rural Ohio lmao#i feel so so bad tho bc i left my boss to submit our manuscript and most of it she would have had to do anyway but i feel like i just#like ditched her so i was stressing abt it literally thr entire time :-P but whatever its done now#it's funny. i was thinking abt it and id say most ppl kno me primarily as a science person like thats my defining thing but here im#primarily an art person. idk i guess in daily life its just embarrassing to say i like to draw bc i feel like to say that i have to b#perfect at drawing so i tend to be like. yea i like to draw and thrn offer no info so no one asks lol. but i guess i downplay science stuff#too. bc i feel like i cant say it unless its something hard and science is mostly just boring tedious tasks. not really that hard. idk im#just a lil crazy like that. sigh.#but im home now so i should try to chill a lil. lol my mom when she picked me up: yay u can watch depressing shows with me!#bc my dad hates that stuff and i eat it up lmao#unrelated
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
I beat SXSG! Super fun like I remembered for Sonics' sides, and Shadow's story was amazing!
Also, I took plenty pics and vids but because of the completely useless pathetic idiotic gabage stupid dumbass shitstain worthless fucking moronic disgusting humiliating emptybrained waste of life that is the "owner" of Twitter, who isn't even worth pitying at this point and should just croak, I can't upload them without an annoying and long process. Like. I can but
Wait. Maybe I can't actually since there's no wifi here.
Dangit.
#super fun tho!#alls I needs to do is s rank rooftop for classic and planet wisp for modern! then finish collecting the red rings and chao then#finish the rest of the challenges! I'd s rank them but....naaaah. s pretty hard#and Im ngl the ring collecting one in chemical plant legit had me tweaking out so hard LMAO#I already got most of the chao tho and red rings!#oh but yea. not s ranking all the challenges cause its really not worth it since theres no reward#like pride for s ranking an actual level is one thing#trying to s rank some tedious challenges is another#thats for the sonics tho#for Shadow i still have quite a few things to do#but nothing too strenuous aside from radical highway who can go FUCK ITSELF#WHYS IT SO HARD DUDE >:^(#butts talks nonsense
0 notes
Text
These two finding the place where they had their talk to be the height of their Kyoto trip is making me lose my mind
#prince's gaming tag#yes i took these pics with my phone bc getting screenshots from the ps4 is tedious#but man i love them#yea yukari you never realized how beautiful the sunset at kamogawa river was before#AND YOU SAY THIS WHILE BLUSHING TOO!!!!!#starting to think it wasnt just the sunset you thought was beautiful
0 notes
Text
got tagged by @greypetrel for WIP Wednesday earlier this week so. consider this a wip whenever x'D Had to clean up a couple things before i felt ok showing my progress lolol but! I am still working on this :]
hair is very low on my priority list rn lol, and color won't come into play until i'm at least 80% done with everything else. I am mostly trying to figure out how to arrange the clothing & extras layers to make them work together properly (gonna maybe do that with hair later too to make them fit with horns better, but not rn). Also me @ all the picrews with sparse beard options: watch me
#wip whenever#my art#can you tell i had way too much fun with the facial hair and the horns jkfjksdf#and the ears too#had to hold myself back from not making more lmao#(i might tho)#still missing sections for body scars and different accessories among other things#and i am also considering splitting some of the left/right stuff like the horns for more customisability#i wanna do stuff like horn accessories too but that would be tedious and/or messy in the menu i think...#but yea! if you do try it out and notice anything wonky please tell me!#and also i am. open for suggestions 👀#cant promise anything but i am very bad at making accessories n stuff lol so knowing what ppl might want would help!#oh or hairstyles#since i havent started those yet & there are. so many options
18 notes
·
View notes
Text
König is addicted to kissing your cervix
cw: könig x afab!reader, p in v, unprotected s, oral (reader receives), aftercare
König is massive — no shocker: 6'10, built like a mountain, burly arms, meaty thighs, thick cock.
It made sense that he'd fill you up easily, albeit with a lot of struggle. It'd be a long and tedious process to make sure your cunt was stretched enough that it wouldn't tear from his sheer size.
His flat tongue lapping at your folds; deep growls making your clit throb and the sheets soak under you as your slick dripped down the curves of your ass. God — just from eating you out he makes you cum so hard to the point your knuckles would turn white from gripping the sheets and your vision blurred with hot white stars.
Your chest heaving — breaths short and erratic as König groaned against your slicked cunt.
"Relax, Schatz."
König's raspy voice made shivers crawl down your spine, whimpers spilling out your lips as he pulled away and his thick hands grabbed at the flush meat of your hips.
A gasp choked out your mouth when his broad hips forced your legs further apart, eyes rolling to the back of your head feeling his throbbing tip rub against your sensitive entrance, fluttering around nothing but the teasing roll of his hips.
"So needy, ja? Tell me how desperate you are for my cock, mein liebchen."
"Please... Please König—"
Your nails dug red crescents into könig's muscular shoulders, shuddering as he slid inside, feeling every inch of him fill you up and split you open. You groaned as his hips pressed flush against your ass, a deep growl forming from König's chest as he babbled slurred praises in broken german about how tight and warm you were.
The bed would creak from his sheer speed, a mix of groans and whines coming from the both of you as his cock kept slamming into your gummy cervix — your belly protruding from each thrust as you cried from the mix of pleasure and pain.
"Köni— König! Ah—"
Tears flowed down your face as a sheen of sweat covered your body, lips parted and drool leaking as lewd smacks and moans filled the air.
Each time his tip would kiss your cervix your hips would buck up, eyes squeezing shut for just a moment before König would growl at you to open your eyes.
"Don't shut your eyes mein schatz. Look at me — Look. At. Me."
He would say each word between a powerful thrust, one hand gripping your cheeks and forcing you to look directly at his hungry and desperate gaze.
His thrusts would grow sloppy and more desperate as he neared his climax, your knees bent next to your head as he grunted between each ruthless slam of his aching cock into your sopping wet cunt.
"Scheiße— Scheiße, du bist so gut... Ugh— so good liebchen."
Your thighs trembled, body growing sore and a swelling ache forming in your abondmen from the amount of times he's slammed his massive cock against your poor cervix. But you couldn't care about the bubbling pain at that moment — your mind to fried and hazy with the thought of his cock to care about the tingling pain growing in your belly.
After he slammed his hips one last time, pumping hot white ropes into your cunt and groaning seeing some of his seed spill out your twitching folds he'd gently pull out — voice soft and gentle as he peppered you in kisses.
He'd bring a damp cloth and wash you up properly all while whispering how good you did, his warm lips making your skin shiver as his other hand rubbed at your sensitive tummy that endured his merciless pounding.
"Feeling okay, schatz?"
"Yea... but you have to stop kissing my cervix so much." You'd whine softly, earning a chuckle from König as he kissed you.
"I'll try, mein liebchen."
(spoiler: he doesn't)
「 Masterlist ❤︎ 」
thank you to my equally insane bestie for beta reading this also 🤭
#cod x reader#x reader#cod modern warfare#cod mw3#reader#x you#cod#reader x cod#afab reader#cod mw2#konig x y/n#konig fluff#konig call of duty#konig modern warfare#konig mw2#konig headcanons#konig cod#konig x you#konig#konig x reader#smut#cod smut
439 notes
·
View notes
Text
Red Nail Polish [Stan Bowes]
Smut / tiny bit of angst
Your boss never really spoke to you that much. Not really. So, you weren't particularly expecting a call from him at 12am asking you to come over.
This request is from AGESSS ago but I finally found some inspiration. Anon who requested it, if you're still here this is for you<3
Fair warning I haven't seen Pose for a bit so it might sound a bit ooc sorry.
Warnings: once again too much plot for a smut fic lol, brief 'sir' kink, Stan being kinda pathetic, oral (m), reader is a little mean occasionally.
18+! MINORS DNI READ MY SFW WORKS
No one's perspective
⊹˚.⋆ ₊꒷ᘏᘏ︶ଓ︶꒷꒦⊹˚ᗢ₊꒷︶ଓ︶꒷
Stan never spoke to you. Tell a lie, he did. Occasionally. Brief hellos while he walked to a meeting maybe. Small talk maybe going over whatever he asked you to do.
There was never more than that. No lingering glances in your direction, no knowing smiles. Seemed like nothing. That's all your relationship was.
You worked like this for a few months.
Never speaking much together. Maybe you gave him lunch if he asked. You always found him cute though. The way his hair just sat the same every day, the way his eyes always gave you the same soft look when he walked past you. It was, slightly perfect. Too perfect.
Men have their secrets, you assumed he probably had his. That's probably why you liked his eyes. Too much of a past to stare at, too much to get into with your own boss who you barely spoke more than... 4 words to. You couldn't really casually go up to Stan and ask him, "Hey sir how's your home life? It's going good? Yea, your eyes say otherwise." You weren't insane!
The hours were long.
The weeks were tedious.
Eventually getting a few more words into Stan. Small conversations over lunch that didn't amount to much. The man found himself enjoying your company. "You do anything over the weekend?" He asked, adjusting himself in his chair a bit. Did he look uncomfortable? Probably.
The silence was nice, so you were slightly taken aback by his out of nowhere question. "Uh, went to see a production of Two Gentlemen Of Verona. That was nice."
"Oh, nice. On your own?"
On my own? What was that meant to mean?
"Yeah."
"Right."
The rest of lunch continued. Stan seemed off. On the edge of his seat, literally. He was uncomfortably perched on his chair, attempting to attain something just out of grasp. You noticed his fidgeting; flicking of his nails, slight playing with his food, eyes flickering around to avoid your own eyes. You wanted to pry but also figured you didn't talk enough to ask if he was okay. Stan would probably say that he's fine and you'd get right back to the slightest bit of uncomfortable silence.
Back to work.
Back to small smiles, little questions, and writing notes to yourself. For the next couple of hours. Boring and repetitive until 5:30pm. Everyone caught themselves up and left immediately. You found yourself a face in the crowd, heading towards your car before Stan got a moment to say 'Have a good evening' to you.
It was a lonely evening. He was used to hearing the TV play some children's shows for a while, hearing the little ones talk excitedly about what they did at school. Just being excited for no reason. But, no, he was greeted with silence this night. It was deafening. He had to be alone with his thoughts. It was another quick meal in the microwave. He had to face the rare few dishes still lingering in the sink. Mouldy food starting to stick to the porcelain. Only served as a reminder of the reality Stan currently lived in.
A lonely movie, lying on the couch in whatever clothes he could find. Staring up at the ceiling, blank-minded, thinking nothing. The movie waved past his ears. "Can I talk to you?"
Stan's phone call at 12am wasn't what you were expecting. You were half lying in bed, reading still. Very close to finishing the book, and that was what you were focused on. "Sir... Stan, it's 12am."
"sir...hey, call me that again," he murmured under his breath, closing his eyes. Lost in his thoughts of your voice. Maybe you shouldn't've been giving in to his desires. Stan had mentioned his wife, and his kids multiple times. He told you plenty of stories, but he seemed slightly out of it tonight.
Despite your lingering thoughts, you said 'fuck it' and responded quietly, your book closed on your lap. "Why sir? Something happened?"
"Yeah, actually. I, um, I was wondering if you could... come over."
A chuckle. "Stan.. it's midnight."
"I know. I know...just, please. I wouldn't ask if it wasn't important." Stan eventually told you his address, and you made a quick mental note. Agreeing eventually, and you hung up. Maybe you should pack an overnight bag. Yeah, maybe you should.
The drive took more time than you expected. You didn't properly change out of your home clothes either, just slipping on some underwear and trousers that weren't so... messy. Knocking quickly with the overnight bag still in the backseat of your car. "Ah, hi." Stan looked a mess, more than you felt right now and it almost broke your heart.
"Hey...why did you want me to come over?"
Stan took your hand, led you inside, and closed the door once you stood in the living room. It was certainly more messy than you would have expected. A bit of trash, a messed up couch, a random movie still playing dully on the TV. This... certainly wasn't what you were expecting. "Stan?" You asked, peeking out to the hallway.
"Sorry...sorry." The man sniffled. He quickly ran a hand over his face then took a few steps back into the living room. "Uh, come sit down. I'll, get you a drink." The words, the steps and his look only added to your confusion. Sure he was certainly...alone now, but the mess, and his clothes.
You took a few steps towards Stan and immediately held onto his arms. "Stan. What's going on?" Cutting him off of any words he was about to say. Stan looked at you, then at your hands on his arms. Then back into your eyes.
"She's gone."
Eyes wide. "Oh." How do you comfort people again? More specifically, how do you comfort your suddenly divorced boss who definitely hasn't been invading your thoughts recently? His eyes found the floor, like it was the most interesting thing in the room and said nothing for a moment.
People like hugs right? That should work. Enveloping Stan in a hug, your arms around his neck. Holding him close for a moment as he reluctantly wrapped his arms around your back. Awkward, but somehow comforting. It went on for a little bit too long, and once you pulled yourself away, his eyes found the floor again.
He wasn't really thinking much. You blinked and he kissed you. Wait what? His hands on your cheeks. This was not happening. Before he continued to kiss you, you took a step away. "Stan-"
"Fuck. Sorry." The man uttered, sitting on the couch instead. He looked quite sorry for himself. A bit of a pathetic sight really. It tugged at whatever empathetic heartstrings you had left. Stan clearly did something, and you probably should've left right then and there. I mean, were you really thinking about this? There are multiple reasons for his wife leaving, presumably with the two little kiddies. "Look, I just.." He trailed off once he saw you settle between his legs.
"um.."
"You're obviously feeling upset, and I know you did something but I don't really know any other way to comfort you." You muttered, taking a loop in the sweatpants and pulling it so the waistband became looser. Stan brought his hips up for a moment so you could pull the fabric from his hips and let it settle around his ankles.
"you really don't have to.." He protested. Stan's protests were weak. He clearly hadn't been touched for a while. Or he was incredibly attracted to you. While yes technically, you didn't have to, you felt some semblance of upset for Stan and his situation. And you figured this would be the best way to temporarily help him out. Fuck it, you might get a raise out of this tomorrow once the man came to his senses, you didn't know.
Stan's lack of pleasure for a while was obvious. He was achingly hard already, and you had barely slipped your hand into his boxers. Bit sad really. But you digressed. Slowly touching him under the fabric for a few moments, hearing his breathing get heavier, and occasional little moans escaping him. Eventually, though, Stan pulled your hand away just to tug his boxers down his legs to join his sweats.
Ah, you knew what to do now. You muttered nothing to yourself, as you rested your fingers around Stan's cock again. Taking a breath, leaning in. Your tongue resting on the underside for a moment. "Ha.."
"You okay?" You asked, pulling yourself away for a moment, looking up at Stan.
"It's uh, it's been a while.."
"Figured." Ouch. That stung in Stan's heart for a moment. The feeling immediately replaced once your lips were wrapped around his dick once again. He couldn't decide whether or not he wanted to watch you or let his head fall back against the couch. So, he eventually decided to let his head fall against the couch as you started to take more of him down your throat. One hand resting next to him on the couch and the other hesitant to rest on your head. He didn't know what type of person you were, so he could've tried to push you down and you would've hated that.
But, you just continued without a care in the world. Eyes screwed shut as your cheeks hollowed with every movement. You pulled away from time to time to breathe, revelling in the sound of Stan's small groans, whimpers and gasps. They were the sweet sounds and made it all the better. The sounds of a lonely boss who you honestly, were still decently interested in.
Yea. You were definitely going to get a raise out of this.
Stan let out another groan, keeping his fingers taut against your hair. As soon as you felt the telltale sign in your mouth, you pulled yourself away, heavily breathing still. Starting instead to jerk Stan off quickly, keeping the same pace for another few moments, until he came in your hand. Dripping down his cock and your fingers as Stan bucked up to ride himself through his orgasm since you didn't seem to help him.
"a-ah shit. I'm sorry.." He muttered once he realised he made a mess of your hand. Coincidentally, a tissue box was by the TV stand, so you stood up, cum over your hand and grabbed the box, bringing it over to Stan. Not as satisfying as Stan had hoped, but it was something and it made him feel a little better.
Silently, you cleaned your hand up, throwing the stained tissues in the bin quickly. Stan followed, slowly cleaning himself up and dressing himself back up. Cue awkward silence for a few moments. "Thanks."
"Yeah. Course."
Another few moments of silence between the two of you, ads playing in the background on the TV. Looking around the living room as you just sat there for a moment. Stan finally said something, just your name. Looking over to you with a hopeful look. "Can we...can I..take you somewh-"
"No." Stan blinked and then looked over at the wall, feeling slight whiplash at you saying no immediately. "Whatever the fuck happened... whatever the fuck you did... It clearly only just happened. And I don't think that's a good idea."
"You just-"
"Yeah, I'm fully aware of what I just did Stan."
A beat of silence. Both of you felt like at least one of you said something wrong. You figured it was Stan. Who goes and suggests a date to their secretary right after their wife left them? "...a few weeks?"
"Try a few months sir." You knew exactly what you were doing with that word. Stan knew too. There was no need for you to call him that right now. Glancing at each other.
But you got up silently and walked out to your car, leaving Stan in confusion for a couple of minutes. Once you came back in, overnight bag in hand, Stan got the idea. Well, he hoped it was the right idea. Being led through the house until you were in his room.
You were sure this was going to result in way more than a raise by this point.
⊹˚.⋆ ₊꒷ᘏᘏ︶ଓ︶꒷꒦⊹˚ᗢ₊꒷︶ଓ︶꒷
Tags: @babygorewhore / @taintandviolent / @oceanblvd111 / @nahoyasboyfriend / @slutforgarlogan / @briaroftheroses @american-horror-whore /. @evanpeterspeter / @feefymo / @fear-is-truth / @lacucarachapisser / @saintlucretia / @jazz-berry / @t8-ak47 / @lemoniiiiiii / @xrag-dollx
#stan bowes#stan bowes x reader#stan bowes smut#stan bowes x you#stan bowes x y/n#smut#Pose#Stan bowes pose#pose 2018#pose fx#evan peters#evan peters x reader#x reader#angst#slight angst
108 notes
·
View notes