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I drew the most miserable Heart in the world in like 3 minutes yesterday and then completely forgot about him until now......
#why is he so ||-(#wettest cat#I can HEAR the cartoon womp womp sfx#occuart#doodles#chonny jash#cj heart#was I going thru it that hard damn#i opened my art program and started hearing distant sobbing??#eh probably nothing
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listen. listen, there's a kind of intimacy in having a dedicated rivalry, okay. who else is going to know you like this!!! also it's funny
Ascanio Maria Sforza: la parabola politica di un cardinale-principe del Rinascimento, Marco Pellegrini
Julius II: The Warrior Pope, Christine Shaw
and on della rovere’s soldier comment:
Popes, Cardinals and War: The Military Church in Renaissance and Early Modern Europe, D.S. Chambers
and finally! regarding the delightful Mess of political-family relationships, including the marriage comment (altho the montefeltro family that giovanni married into did have sforza family ties, since giovanna's mother was battista sforza, but this is about the more immediate alliance based relationship and della rovere's hand in the rejection of a milanese match for his brother. and. this is not even remotely a serious comic, but now I am once again thinking about insular all these families are. the fucking medicis are here too, if you go half a step to the left on della rovere's family tree)
Julius II: The Warrior Pope, Christine Shaw
Giulio II, Il papa del Rinascimento, Giulio Busi (Bianca Maria Visconti is Ascanio's mom. btw)
panel inserts of the cards they're playing with are all from the Visconti-Sforza tarot deck! (I used public domain scans/photos for the comic itself)
ko-fi!⭐ bsky ⭐ pixiv ⭐ pillowfort ⭐ cohost ⭐ cara.app
#weeping. ascanio's dialogue covers up della rovere's sleeve collar. i spent all that time drawing details on it and FOR WHAT#(it was fun)#there was another deleted bit where ascanio has some petty line like 'i bet arguing makes you hard' but then i realized#that's something that lucullus would probably say to crassus and also i need to set that line up for ascanio#we gotta. we gotta character build (lays down face in the ground) we have to provide the character set up for it#it's really more of a line for cesare to drop at some point over how much rodrigo and ascanio argued#shout out to the time rodrigo threatened to throw ascanio into the tiber river or that time ascanio like. decided to physically get into#a fight with juan borgia#and they were still gambling partners after that????? damn okay. sometimes the vice chancellor can be (checks note) im not finishing#that statement#komiks tag#italian renaissance tag#ascanio sforza#giuliano della rovere#i WILL get a relationship dynamic tag for them once i can figure out something punchy and fun. anyway!#ehgh. I NEED. to go to milan. and go thru the archives. let me in. LET ME INNNNNNNNN
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I'm afraid the baby fever has come back enough that I am wanting to write smth that is. Domestic. Still got my dad vash fic from b4 that I've been sloooooowly working on, but that starts off pretty depressing lol and I kinda just want some vw domesticity. You know. Anyways I have started planning a wolfwood pregnancy fic today. Because i can.
#speculation nation#pregnancy ment/#like man i gotta deal with the baby fever somehow and that turns into me coming up with. aus.#im primarily an action writer dont get me wrong i love blood and violence#BUT ALSO............ i cant help it. i wanna write about babies. sooooo bad.#admitting to myself that i have an interest in babies/parenting and working thru the internalized shame about it all.#which is INSAAAAAANE given how normalized baby shit is in our society at large.#but for a lot of queer folks it's a breaking of societal expectations to resist that kinda thing. which like im 100% in favor of for ppl#but for a lot of queer folks they resist so hard that they turn around and make it sound like it's Terrible and Awful just like. in general.#and yeah i grew some fuckin internalized shame about it. like ppl derogatorily referring to cishet people as 'breeders' like???#what about us queer folk that Do want kids??? it's kind of alienating.#and sooooooooo even though im still a little embarrassed about having these interests. im pushing through it.#and so im gonna do a damn baby fic or two and ill have lots of fun with it bc it's my own damn fics.#ill also go back to my blood and violence too but sometimes a guy's ovulating and just wants to think about babies. ok.
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#killer bee sweepppp sndnsj#anyways killer bee bc hes so fuckin irritating i dont even want his tailed beast i would just kill him#jiraiya bc he mughtve once been funny but in his old age he let himself go. just an old creep now pip pip#kushina bc her rage and resentment over failed dreams is understandable but her abusiveness is not#fugaku bc those two lines under his mouth piss me tf off and hes the reason itachi had to do that. also he was mean to bb saske insta-die#those two elders are fuckinng everyone else over to satiate their need to conquer their own trauma. like is it enough. could it ever be#danzo idk his pissy litle voice and the fact that he tries so hard to be cool but hes just not. obviously hes living thru his little boytoy#hiruzen he just pisses me off. like in general. like ur not the hero and u had ur son murdered bc ur obsessed with a little boy. so#sakura dont get me wrong shes the epitamy of complicated mostly shes just annoying bc she wants to be different but then it doesnt happen#gai i like gai dont get me wrong but he does get annoying sometimes and i have issues with him and tenten idk#obito is literly incel annoying like he used rin as his sunshine power a complete lack of self awareness and hes that type that like uses#girls as like little cheerleaders like theyre just supporting characters for His Life and not actusl people#rin is so annoying too tho like damn girl i Understand the torment of having to hype up a mid guy that cheesed on you. like that was legit#probly harder for u than the exams but shes annoying bc she then used that role and idk something grody about her manipulating them but ma#naruto
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been thinking about how hard MSQ must be on the body, especially for someone who isn't exactly in the best shape of their life. must be hard to keep up with the warrior of light! which ended up in a couple studies of how Negi's carried his weight through the whole adventure, with a couple extra mostly-non-spoilery notes on each expac~
#ffxiv#ffxiv art#ffxiv miqo'te#miqo'te#ff14#negi bloodpath#images should be id'ed ik my handwriting is hard to parse lol#essentially though. i wanted him to go thru a Journey body-wise because i always drew him kind of the exact same and i wanted to figure out#how exactly it would Affect him to have to catch up with the wol because for a time it is Very hard for him to do that.#with Sagra being a seasoned warrior from the Steppe and him “just�� being a little herbalist failed conjurer he has like#a hard time feeling like he deserves to be by his side? and feeling like he deserves his place in the Scions#because so far he'd only been assigned to a couple lower stakes jobs#and then to Sagra and then it got. very serious very fast!#but after a while he figures like. well god damn it if no one else will do it. i fucking will.#and i'll do a GREAT JOB OF IT!!!#overpowering his anxiety just out of pure spite#then shb happens and kind of puts a wrench in that but he does get better. sheer force of will he does get better.#but that's too much to get into in tags LMAOO and we haven't rped it yet so it's still In The Air#taking between patch time to cement him before dawntrail comes he's gotten really good after ew but he deserves to be PERFECT by dt!!!!!!#my little fucking man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#my art
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LUFFY!!!!!!!!! I HAVE BEEN CONVERTED!!!! LUFFY BELIEVER FULL TIME!!!!! LET US WORSHIP THE SUN!!!!
#luffy deflating like a balloon..... be serious 😭😭#MOMO NOT BEING ABLE TO HEAR LUFFY!!! oh kaido going for the others now..... law could hear his voice too???#NAMI BEING THE FIRST TO STEP UP!!! CHILLS!!! THIS TIME STEPPING UP TO WITNESS THE HORRORS!!! YEAH!!!#yamato really does carry the spirit of oden straight up.... motivating his son and everything...#i feel like i am going insane... I CAN HEAR THE DRUMS!!! nami telling luffy to not die and fulfill his promise WHO ELSE HAD A PROMISE????#is this why his fruit awakened.... because nami reminded him of the promise... omg..... THE DRUMS!!! CHILLS!!!! THE SMILE!!!!! IM SO HYPE!!#talking tag#watching one piece#episode 1070#i am smiling so hard rn. contagious#also the cp0 that died for this ajdja.... suffering from success....#THE BOUNCING SOUNDS!!!! THE DRUMS!!!! THE SMILE!!! SANJI JUST VOLTING AWAKE??? see the clouds over his shoulders remain.... as i was saying#you know this has me realising maybe shanks isn't all that bad and stole the fruit from the gov so they couldnt get hold of it#hiyori saying how oden kept hia promise but also how he wanted to keep the promise of opening wano for joyboy#THE KANJURO THING!!! HIYORI WATCH OUT!!! oh its gonna burn orichi by accident YEAAHHH!!!!!!! FUCK YEAHH!!!!#the animation is so fun.. luffy just junping around and shit while hia destruction power is MASSIVE#this is so!!!! kaido complaining about being bored and having fun thru fighting AND HERE COMES LUFFY WITH HIS LOONEY TOONS GOOFY FIGHT!!!!#they knocked this shit out of the park!!! also END CREDITS????!#episode 1071#momo saying kaido got fat 😭 actually kaido got pregnant <3 yamato you're going to be a big brother congrats!!!#the eyes 😭😭 damn luffy flew away and exploded... 😞😞 skipping rope with kaido omg.... everyone should go outside and see this...#we are welcoming here in the luffy believers... barto is gonna enlist hundreds of new members#law is luffy believer number 1 damn the speech he is giving kid... omg kaido bonked him ajshaksjak that was so good he needed witnesses..#nami worried abojt luffy being dead and when he appears she is just like WTF IS THAT!!!!!! HUH???!!#wait a second ooohhhh kaido is goong down too fuck yes akdjaksj momo and yamato peeking over the island jahdksk#THE DRUMS BEING HIS HEART I CANNOT GET OVER IT!!! Kaido shoukd be puking up his insides by now but alas this is so fun BOIOIOIOIOING#FIRST TIME SOMEONE ASKS LUFFY WHO HE IS AND HE DOESN'T SAY MONKEY D LUFFY FUTURE KING OF THE PIRATES. HE SAYS ITS HIM. STRAIGHT UP!!!!#NVM HE SAID IT!!!!! GOD IS THAT YOU????!!!!#episode 1072
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Watch me catch up with 4 semesters material
#biochemistry is pretty interesting but im just on Cell Biology 🧫 so i guess the hard stuff is further down the road#random#i have applied for study centre change to another college bcs the one i chose before didn't had biochem lab or faculty so like why was it an#option#but i applied for the change and it will be effective within a week im sure#until then i have to prepare ALL the damn assignments and ask to cover the lab work of all 4 sems its gonna be tough but so am i#i am out of assignment papers and do not have the guts to ask my father to get me some bcs 1. he's busy 2. the market is far away#3. why didnt i tell him to bring some papers from office on Friday#but I'll still try and ask him to see what he says#if i don't have assignment papers I'll just Study and understand concepts (hell it takes so much time but theyre easy and fun)#the reason its taking longer to understand stuff is because its the first time im hearing any of that#I'll keep random posting lmfao and subject you to the insanity i go thru
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well. I finished the final part of SotO. the only highlights being:
1) it's over. Maybe now we can go back to Cantha for a while.
2) snargle is also popular in nayos



And that's about it.
despite having a pretty solid start, i gotta say that SotO is probably the weakest expac in the storyline, and i will not be playing thru it again. Like. I'm just gonna chalk it up as Not Canon (or at least Mostly Not Canon) for my commander
#gw2#guild wars 2#gw2 spoilers#soto spoilers#idk how they did it but anet managed to drag out a barely there plot for like. a year?#while playing thru it felt like 10 years because of how fuckin bored i was through about 70% of it#i dunno if they hyped nayos up too much or what but. it was a bit of huge letdown#like i loved the scenery. it just felt empty? but also way too busy at the same time if that makes sense#and the story instance where you go up the tower was so damn laggy that i actually almost died during the final fight because#the frame rates dropped severely.#my god the awful frame rates...... and i have my graphics set low-low mid#apparently zojja was at the final eparch fight??? didn't see her but then again it was hard to see anything lol#anyway. i'd recommend just skipping this expac unless it's on sale or something. or just watch a playthrough of it
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I'm just constantly on my bullshit these days. brain said fuck you feel everything and think about everything
#nerd alert#i feel like im going thru my midlife crisis early#im 28 years old thinking 'i need to get in better shape so i dont get all run down as i age'#like damn i should get on a workout machine so i can both get swole and also so i dont like. idk end up using a walker at 50#my dad had really bad knees and had at least one knee replacement probably both bc of his 30yrs of factory jobs lifestyle#and because one time he had to snatch his step-grandson out of the path of a moving vehicle and fell hard on his knee when he did#and also probably my insistence on riding around on his back like a pony when i was like 3. i have vague memories of that#sorry dad#anyway i dont have a factory job or kids but i probably will end up diabetic and i just. wanna keep my physical health as long as i can#im like lowkey paranoid about death and it would be cool to worry less about my body breaking down through my own negligence#ik disability can happen to anyone for any reason but i wanna do what i can to keep myself able-bodied#like if i become physically disabled then i become physically disabled but i dont want it to be something that i couldve prevented#just by being less negligent of my own health#that said. i just need a whole new set of teeth like at this point it feels like thats inevitable
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Uh 2, 6, and 10 please I would rlly like to see ur take on these :>
2. Who is the (overall) smartest in stan’s group?
So I’m gonna talk myself thru this answer actually— Ok, My first instinct is to say Kyle bc his whole deal is wanting to learn things and (usually) is the voice of reason, he’s always been gifted with wit and Cartman’s had to play catch up since (they’re evenly matched now, but still. the fact that Cartman’s had to develop himself meanwhile Kyle’s always been Like That says a lot). But, Cartman is Kyle’s weakness.
I’d say then, Stan is contender for the smartest because he’s a skeptic that easily sees through people, whereas Kyle is the more emotionally gullible of the two. He doesn’t take Cartman’s shit and for that reason I don’t see them paired up often bc anything Cartman would try to pull, Stan would shut down unless his image is involved ofc.
Cartman is the most gifted of the group, with a wide array of talents he can master within days and often spearheads plans for the guys with unmatched confidence. He’s uniquely attuned to the world of SP, he knows people and is good at anticipating what they want/ what they’ll say. in the words of Matt, he’s “an evil little genius”. But, Kyle is his weakness+ in conjunction with his broken mind— paranoia, one-track mind, lack of self respect, keeps him from reaching his full potential. Perhaps it’s for the best.
Kenny has been shown to be a revolutionary scientist in PC, which shows that mixed in w/ that horniness is the potential for a scientifically inclined brain. He’s the only of the 3 who’s most decent hearted, and has dignity. He takes his role as vigilante seriously, the true martyr of south park (eat your heart out Kyle Brofloski). He’s not obsessed with self image (stan) or with one of his friends (kyle and cartman). Perhaps Kenny’s the secret genius of the 4.
6. Is creek really that great?
Yeah, I think it is. Trey took Craig and Tweek’s dynamic in a way no one say coming, he cheekily canonized them and didn’t stop at that. He showed them facing couple issues authentic to their characters and doing their best to rise above it bc they’ve grown to care for each other. (Put it Down, Budda Box)
Shippers might be loath to admit, but creek is an ally to the Kymans. Trey is out here writing so many of his couples The Same Way and I’m just here for the ride dude— Duo who’re at odds, physically fight, develop a bond neither of them particularly wanted or saw coming, but managed to fit in each other’s lives and haven’t left since.
Creek is based. It’s overwhelmingly shipped, but like, it’s also a ship that’s misunderstood? It’s good.
10. if you had to match each kid in craig’s gang with the kid that was the most like them in stan’s gang, who would be the most like who?
uhhh what ok uh. Clyde is Cartman (fatass solidarity) Craig is Stan, Tolkien is Kyle… well fuck I wouldn’t say Jimmy is Kenny bc they’re kinda different. I don’t like this question actually, ble
#south park#asks#I like the creek we got in canon and I don’t see fanon adhere to it… like at all#Creek ain’t a perfect couple by any means they go thru some hard times but it makes their make-ups all the more sweet#like of the times their relationship was spotlighted they’re at odds (as it was when they first encountered the other).#if it ain’t creek misunderstanding how the other processes emotions it’s creek breaking up over the dumb superhero stuff#or craig finding tweek needy in buddha box#but they genuinely have come to care for the other and wanna make it work and it’s implied they stayed together in PC which I find adorable#huh now that I think abt it it’s like garrison and rick too… rick is more emotionally stable#and reels in garrison when he spirals#yet tweek/ garrison is the more sensitive and therefore romantic of the two#make no mistake tho they will fucking ruin you if you cross them. they can pull punches#wait shit that reminds me of kyman too… damn trey y do u write ur gay relationships The Same Way
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deleted my twitter app (not account) bc i really can’t handle the intense no-nuance high-stakes takes right now. not that here is all that much better but it’s definitely less of a time sink
#i just.#ok.#i just think if ur gonna go scorched earth on prioritizing high minded ideals over outcomes ur not actually as morally pure as u think u r#and I also think if ur gonna do that u gotta say with ur CHEST the collateral damage you’ll sign onto#both by abstaining from concrete action now and by destroying infrastructure in the name of a brighter future#im not even gonna tell you ur wrong. but i want you to say who u think is worth sacrificing#i have awful news for you the folks who don’t make it thru the revolution are very rarely the rich and healthy and connected#it’s gonna be folks who are desperate enough to fight and folks who can’t handle more instability.#poor folks. sick folks. disabled folks. disenfranchised folks. unhoused folks.#you think you can build a functioning mutual aid network from scratch during a revolution serving tens of millions?#i know it’s a nice thought that the failures of US welfare programs are Just Capitalism. and that’s a huge chunk#but it’s also because IT IS DIFFICULT. and that’s WITH billions of dollars and a chokehold on the global supply chain#im not saying any of the options are good. but when u call for revolution u gotta acknowledge ur stealing from today for tomorrow#and look hard at the folks who stand to lose the most. say you’re fine with martyring them - whether or not they agree#I’ve got myself all worked up now and i wanna post about it. to maybe share some god damn perspective.#things are bad! things are not good. unsustainable trends abound. but wow for all ur whining online#about how everyone needs to know EVERYTHING about ALL ISSUES in EVERY CONFLICT or else you are EVIL#ur missing the forest for the trees my dude. takes are easy - policy is hard#get fucked. don’t get people killed.
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looking through other peoples wols' playlists and stealing ideas
#someone on spotify has some of the early rwby soundtrack like... that fucks so hard honestly#i had them shits on repeat in 2014!!!!!#some of them dont fit my wol but its a good addition#carley talks#esp seeing songs i have in my liked playlists already like damn. thats a good one#i need to just go thru my own songs and add them.#hard mode is limiting the fall out boy / mcr songs. theres already like 2 of each
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"That's not how systems work. You're taking this too far. You don't know what its like to feel so out of control, to have memory blackouts, to wake up years later, to have someone in your system grieve someone they didn't know was dead."
Bec. Becayse... hecause i didnt talk about experiencing it? Or. Because i said that i like my system or that i have a majority positive experiences over negative ones?
Because i did. I absolutely have been thru every single one of these things and I've had multiple people talk down to me as if I'm stupid and perpetuating false information, or just simply being super disrespectful. I never assume, i never make blanket statements, and i go forward knowing that everyone collectively is new to studying this stuff in a modern way, though its been around for a while.
All i want is to demedicalize a part of the community (because OBVIOUSLY some will have need for the medical part) and be honest about myself, and listen to others being honest about THEMSELVES.
Systems are. Extraordinary. Every single one of them, and every individual within them. Talk about your experiences, be annoying. Talk too much. Talk only about the good. Talk about how you adore them. Talk about the bad. Talk about any part of it you deem important even if others think its silly, or cringe, or wrong or bad or stupid or anything else. Whatever YOU think of it, it must be.
I promise you aren't the only system experiencing whatever it is you're experiencing and that there is a community for you. Find the people who will listen, and speak.
#system babbles#mild rant?#idk im vaguing again but like. fuck off this is literally my tumblr blog thats what we do here.#we diary post.#im angry still bc im literally going thru some of this system stuff rn like being a system is so fucking hard and their words are ringing in#my skull. from multiple people who decided i was toxic for being myself in this new age. my new way#anyway please goD god damn it like. just be nice fr like wht why why why stopppp splitting yhe community up so much#literally please god damn relax fuck we're all literally just surviving i had such a nice evening with my headmates#we're going the fuck through some stuff rn and we really need our community but we keep. being reminded. of things.#actually plural#osdd system#did#dissociative disorder#system positivity#kinda personal#kinda negative#idk posting bc ✌😚✌ im just really frustrated rn
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UWAAARGGG EPHAEL AND HESTIO IVE MISSED THEM!!!!!
#SO UPSET I FORGOT ABT THEM APPEARING IN THIS SCENE#I WAS TRYING SO DAMN HARD TO CHARACTERISE THEM FOR MY FIC? THEY WERE IN THIS SCENE ALL ALONG?#but also uwaaahhh..... them sneaking food to tesilid 😭😭😭😭😭#I LOVE YOU GUYS....#i am talking abt the new webtoon episode btw#LIKE REAL TEARS IN MY EYES#I SPENT THE PAST 2-3 WKS THINKING ABT WHAT IF THEY DISAPPEARED IN THE TIMELINES WHR AILETTE DIDNT EXIST#LIKE YOU MEAN TESILID LIVED IN A WORLD WHR HE DIDNT HV PPL TO EVEN SNEAK HIM FOOD?!?!??????#novel tesilid is really going thru the WORST bloody time ever#webtoon 48#webtoon update
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fuck roadys istg can't fucking leave us alone for a single month god forbid we mind our own business
#mari rambles#astrid acting soooooo saintly#sena we fucking see you saying junminjae makes sense only#literally hypocritical fuckers who cant be assed to assess their own problems#making a hobby out of bullying other people who dont give a shit about what you do#literally how hard is it to leave us alone#theres a thing called a block button and a mute button#NOT THAT HARD TO USE THE DAMN THIBG#INSTEAD OF SENDING PEOPLE AFTER INNOCENT FANARTISTS#I DO NOT GIVE A SHIT WHAT UR OPINION IS#burn in hell you assholes#yall are worse than a goddamn preschool#even preschoolers and kindergarteners dont throw fits#THIS OFTEN#you wouldve thought they know to give up this shit by now#genuinely where do you get off going thru our accounts YOURSELVES#and then getting MAD ABOUT IT#we dont fucking interact with you people for a REASON#god i woke up an hour ago and i already have a headache#fuck them to hell and back#will delete later
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ok ok I figured out the Mia plot stuff, now I'm brain storming RE8 stuff for the AU
#i should definitely just be writing the 2nd chapter instead of getting so far ahead of myself but like.#writing hard. brainstorming easy and fun#there's no god damn way luis will let them move to any cold village in the middle of nowhere#initially i was thinking that would just be it and luis fathering the mold baby is like. a butterfly effect thing or whatever that radically#alters Everything and just straight up prevents RE8 from happening at all. but now i am having some Ideas of how it could still unfold 👀#ethan and luis going thru hell fighting monsters together to rescue their daughter mmmmmm
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