#wanted it to be more useful in the case my art DOES somehow get stolen/reposted. those r the only 2 places i post my art

[generic-doomsday-villain]

im so sad the blood.exe series only had like 9 videos (ppl who think lesbians can like/be men + vice-versa, proship, & endo dni)

[gamebunny-advance]

Hm...

Thinking about that time someone literally copied one of gijinka designs for social clout, then just flat out denied it when I called them out.

At the time, I had buckled under the belief that “I’m probably being paranoid. There’s so few notes on this thing, and it’s so old, there’s probably no way they would have seen it.” and I had deleted the call-out. 

Honestly, I still get really aggravated when I feel like someone is “stealing” from me (and it happens a little more than you’d probably think), but I just don’t feel justified in calling anyone out because it’s mostly with fanart, and neither of us are profiting from it, so neither of us have anything to lose or gain from it except a bigger number next to a little heart icon.

I guess what upsets me about it is them getting recognition for something that isn’t theirs. I put in the work to make the thing, but they get to knock it off and get even more recognition from it? That’s just unfair. But in a way, all fanart is like that, right? It just seems more okay to do it when it’s a character from a company or something, because they’re not really being *hurt* by fanworks but hurts when fanartists copy other fanartists because we occupy the same space and thus are in competition with each other.

Tangent aside, my feelings basically boil down to: “Am I really gonna start drama with someone for saying they stole the design of a character neither of us own”? At the time, I’d decided, “no,” so I just kinda let it go. There really wasn’t anything for either of us to lose or gain by pushing it further.

But I recently saw them getting called out for other shit, so I got reminded of that incident.

I 99% believe that they stole the design from me, but because they made their design more “woke” and maybe because I didn’t watermark my original one, that somehow made it “okay” for them to do.

I don’t really wanna start shit now because it’s been over 2 years since it happened, but I would just feel a little better if the “proof” was out there. I’m not gonna repost their art here, but if you go to my main blog, @gamebunny-color-sp​ and search “kirby character design”, I’m sure you’ll find what I’m talking about if you’re really that invested in this tale of mine.

That said, I am going to talk about the differences between the two like you’ve seen theirs already.

Now, I’ll concede that puffy sleeves/shorts is a kind of obvious thing to do for a Kirby gijinka. He’s a round ball made of smaller balls, and those very easily translate into “puffy” features. And big ol’rubber boots is another easy way to translate his feet. I’m not gonna be mad at every Kirby gijinka that has puffy sleeves and boots.

But why the cape? No Kirby forms really wear a cape unless you wanna count Meta Knight, but he wears his very differently. My reasoning was that, besides the hat, I wanted him to have something that would show his copy ability. It’s actually a carry-over from an even earlier version of the design I’d made where I actually played with that idea.

But you know, a cape still isn’t an *uncommon* design choice. It’s basically a staple of the hero archetype, so whatever. A cape doesn’t necessarily mean that they got the idea from me.

But what gets me, is the yellow stripe motif. I don’t think there’s *ANYWHERE* that Kirby is associated with yellow stripes, or stripes at all for that matter, and yet (un)coincidentally, both of our designs have them.

When I first started making gijinkas, I really just did whatever I wanted without too much concern for if it actually fit (arguably, I still do that *cough*bigtittyrob*cough*). You can see that in this old timeline I had made, chronicling my iterations of this design.

Why was my first thought to give him blue accents? Who knows. But it’s also where the yellow stripe on his cape started and had carried over to each new design, just because I liked it and thought that it still went with the yellow star motif that I’d added. So for me, it was just an evolution of my bad design choices getting better.

But, if you didn’t already start with the stripe motif, why would your Kirby have stripes at all? And it’s not like stripes are uncommon. I realize that. But there’s just no logical progression to it unless you just happen to think in the same stupid ways that I do/did. If you wanted to accent the cape, wouldn’t you just add it like a border, like I did with my first 2 designs? Or add more star motifs to it? Why the stripes? And why add 2 except to make it seem more different than mine? There’s other little things, but I think my point is clear: there were just too many “coincidences” for this to not have been a case of plagiarism.

Like I mentioned earlier, I’m coming out with all this because the person in question got called out on a pretty vicious forum site, so they’re probably dealing with a lot right now. They’ve basically deleted/private all of their social media accounts, so whatever ‘clout’ they’ve gained from my design, and possibly others’, just up and disappeared, but I don’t feel any catharsis in that because that really has nothing to do with what happened to me. And you know, the person who did it is younger than me (I’m 23), and this happened literal years ago. They probably just didn’t know any better at the time and were still in the mindset of “stealing is fine if I add positive representation” like a lot of kids still have these days.

I don’t really wish ill will on anyone that does me wrong. I just want things to be set right, but given how long it’s been since the incident, I’m probably never gonna hear, “Yes, I stole your design. I’m sorry.” from them. My catharsis is in now standing my ground and saying, “Yes, my design was stolen, this is why I think so, and even if I’m the only one who cares, at least it’s out there.”

I gave in back then because I didn’t have much confidence in myself. I thought I was wrong because I know I can get over-emotional and that I was too small to be seen by anyone and thus couldn’t be stolen from. But I feel like I know my worth a little more now, and I’m not going to let this happen again if I see it. At the very least I’ll blog about it vaguely like I’ve done today to let off steam.

[josiebelladonna]

first order of business.

as much as i love ao3 and will defend it forever, their blocking mechanism-

sucks.

it sucks.

when you block someone on there, you’re just preventing them from commenting, you’re not keeping them from giving kudos or making a bookmark.

the story of the last two years have consisted of a horrific pandemic, nightmarishly sized wildfires, an ungodly heat wave and me getting heat exhaustion, us being on the brink of ww3, hotly contested elections (especially out here in california), every social media site ever destroying itself with homogeneity and money, art being crushed, my stepdad dying, one of my uncles being diagnosed with colon cancer, every other person losing their minds over everything, and the fucking insurrection, and yet, somehow, she towers above it all.

so, if you haven’t checked out the “timeline” page on my blog, the main reason why she and i had a falling out in the summer of 2020 was that i may have voiced an opinion about something somewhere down the line that felt as though i was attacking her. however, i have no memory of such a thing—i usually remember when i make opinions, too, because i think them out and i stand by them—and if that was the case, please keep in mind that i criticize the thing, not the person, and when i do criticize the person, it’s because they said or did something to me that genuinely upset me. there’s a huge difference between saying “this thing sucks and i find it problematic”, and “this thing sucks and you’re disgusting for writing it”. (be careful what you wish for when you say “let’s see YOU do better” to me, too, especially now). very boring reason, but it happened.

during anthrax’s live-stream from wacken that july, she and i were live-blogging the whole thing on here and on facebook. and when she was blogging about it, she said things like “ugh, haters!! haters ruining my fun!!” when it was basically just me and her as far as i could tell. but i was having a ball, though: i was singing along with joey and cheering out the songs like i would have at an actual concert. light and good fun when we all needed something to have fun with in the summer of quarantine. and afterwards, it felt like she and i had bonded of sorts.

but then… i saw she had blocked me on here. at first, i thought it was just some tumblr weirdness because that shit happens all the time, but then i saw it with wattpad and instagram, and i saw that she had deleted the bookmarks of my fics on ao3, too. needless to say, i quite confused, like “what happened? what did i do?” (in fact, go back to that time in my archive: i literally said that)

you want more proof? i cried. i was actually in tears. it was like, what the fuck? i thought we were having fun together, and this whole time i thought we were having fun, too. she tried to excuse herself about it later on, too, but there was something off about it, though.

so, naturally, i started looking back at her behavior towards me and then i started noticing some things and just out of pure curiosity, i took a sample of something she wrote and put it through a little website from my school days used to check for plagiarism and the thing lit up like the 4th of july. i saw my own writing being reiterated back to me.

listen… there’s a really good reason why anyone who makes something on here make such a fuss about not reposting anything. but let it be known that there’s yet another distinction between reposting without permission and then taking something that person made and scratching out their name and passing it off as your own. that’s plagiarism and that is literally what she specializes in.

and let it also be known that she does not reach across the aisle about that, either. i caught her bitching to someone months ago about this: op was complaining about posts being stolen and she said—i’m not even kidding, she actually said this—”if you’re talking about the person i’m thinking about, i can’t believe it! why can’t we have a community? smh!” (the joke was on her because i know when shit is up but i don’t go around bashing people, though—i have too much shit to do).

this is what has led me to this conclusion: she thinks that just because it’s there on the internet, on a fanfic site or tumblr or wherever, that means it’s free for people to take and make a community out of it that way, which is just

stupid.

there’s no way around it: that is the stupidest thing I’ve ever seen. why? communities don’t work that way. she tries to downplay it, saying that something “inspired” her- yeah, don’t piss on my leg and tell me it’s raining. it’s parasitic, is what it is. all i see here is a veteran writer whose tap suddenly shut off at some point before she joined wattpad and she has been trying desperately since 2019 to prove to herself that she’s still got it, which—she doesn’t. i’m terribly sorry to anyone who follows her to burst your bubble like that.

but it’s why she’s been churning out spin-off after spin-off à la disney or marvel or, hell, j.k. rowling (it’s the kiss of death, if you ask me), and why reactions to updates now are incremental at best, and why she’s glommed onto templeoftheslavegarden and her complex universe and has called her a friend that way. friends don’t leech off each other, nor are they codependent. that’s what it is, actually. really, read up on codependency: she checks out all the boxes (got all up in arms with me when i accused her of plagiarism and then put my foot down about it, has a victim complex, has no discernible boundaries, is a mega-diva being a catty bitch and she can’t even do that right, had/has pointless anxiety whenever i was/am around, has anger issues, often put herself down in front of me, and it often felt like she was editing herself whenever i was around, too). it seeps through in her writing, and that’s probably why, on its own, it got on my nerves really quick—if you don’t believe me, look at the transition of like loving the dead to life after death. it’s the most glaring example of this. it’s not “being real”, either, it’s being pathetic. having a so-called “raunchy side” also requires that you don’t brag about it, either (that’s the thing: i never make fun of her because of her sexuality. i make fun of her because she’s constantly bragging about her sexuality, because it’s just so corny).

someone who’s healthy like me can write a romance that doesn’t have nearly the level of drama within, and when there is, i do what i can to make it natural. if melodrama is a sign of immaturity, then tell me, what does this indicate?

it would also explain why whenever i mention her in any way, she always updates her fics as if to prove me wrong or shut me up. have you guys noticed that? i remember one time back in august, i talked about her fic, set me on fire, how it felt like she abandoned it because she hadn’t updated it in 6 months and then literally the next day, she finished it. it was so transparent to me, like… who are you trying to fool here? me? i clearly don’t even give a shit—i haven’t given a shit since alex entered the picture, either. your audience? phew, that’s a middle finger if i saw one: really, if i was one of her readers, i’d actually be super-insulted that she’s hinging fic updates off some delusion that some other writer is out to get her—and i’d be relieved if i saw someone like me making jokes about her and the whole thing.

and even just the way she phrased it annoys me: “talking about the person i’m thinking of”. hm. about that.

when you’ve been bullied like i have in the past, you’re going to learn to say their names so the teachers, the parents, your friends, whoever, are going to know who did this to you. it’s radically different here on the internet because you have people who have absolutely no chill (ask anyone who’s ever had a death threat in their inbox to understand what i’m talking about). but it’s still necessary, though, because when it’s someone who has directly threatened you by taking and passing it off as their own, you gotta know who it is.

by phrasing it like that, it tells us nothing. the person you’re thinking of? huh? who are you thinking of? really, who are you thinking of, FromtheWasteland/DaveighMustaine/xxgreendruidessxx/whatever your fucking name is? who’s tormenting you? who’s giving you shit? who’s so horrible that you feel so obligated to hold back on regular updates, short-change your readers, and have nothing to show that anyone is doing anything horrible to you other than your own big mouth? really… what’s my name? i also changed my name on wattpad so she can’t find me, either (muting will keep them from interacting with you but they can still read your writing—and that pic of alex i’m using as my pfp almost feels like it’s taunting hers of peter, and oh my god, it’s so weirdly satisfying) and i’m doing all of this to show you all the truth. like i say on my timeline page, she has never apologized to me and she continues to leech off of me, and other writers, too, like… aside from temple, i wonder who else has fallen to her. but it’s mostly at me, though, even with how much she supposedly hates me and refuses to be honest with me (then again, that’s codependency—they can’t tell the truth even if it saved them). if she copies any writing from me, you’ll know—and don’t be surprised if she has a meltdown, either. i won’t be around to see it 😉 (i’m not doing anything wrong, either—as far as wattpad knows, i’m just minding my own business, which… i am). it’s like what megan thee stallion says, “i had to block you but you still gotta watch this shit.”