#want to dye my hair anyways. at this point i'd take whatever color i can get if not purple LOL
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I have Got to get more transgender
#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ#transmasc#trans ftm#transgender#i like 2 say i'm very trans already but unforch i am Not Really. mostly boring ftm Guy Ever#so tempted to cut my hair again but my sense of what i look like is already so fuzzy i dont think it'd help..#want to dye my hair anyways. at this point i'd take whatever color i can get if not purple LOL#it's almost everything i could want and yet ... still me. still the same life. stuck.#soooo high functioning like you wouldnt believe EXCEPT istg i need an emotional support human who will guide me through tasks#such as 'pay with your Moneys Card at the Store'#or... idk that's it really. maybe go grocery shopping without feeling like i'm not meant to be there also#or like. exist in general maybe#reasons why not emotional support Animal: creature cannot understand capitalism. and also is not as necessary as a service dog specifically#idk! every time i come on here i fall apart (in text) and then pull myself back together for another day of ... this i guess.#i'm not even having like crying breakdowns or anything to go along with it i'm just held inside this shell of a body. typing away again#i'm soso tempted to make things worse. progress wouldn't matter anymore... at least maybe it would feel real that i'm like this#i wish my face fit on my body right. and also that i did not look quite so much like a vaguely gnc lesbian#like at LEAST let me look butch as hell but no. curse of sad hair & uncertainty#miss my little mullety thing from that brief period in october... miss my short hair from back in 2017 ...#just dont feel satisfied with what i am now. in general.#top surgery is literally Within my reach but i'm not sure about cost and i need to wait because of doing guard now......#my list of do i want t i kept for the past month turned out to be a bunch of maybes#partially cause i got sick. partially cause it stopped being shark week and i forgot about it#as always happens...#still unsure in my new(er) name. only heard it once#didn't feel the same way as with my old one? but idk. just don't know.#missing guard also but feeling conflicted about not having time for other hobbies...#since winter season is over i've had so much time to play guitar! that's insane! mostly cause i stopped playing for unrelated reasons...#just tired again. wonder if i need more sleep than what i always get. kind of restless.#there's nothing else to say i guess. just wish i could be a person the way everyone else seems to be.
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Harvest, cocoa
harvest - what fictional character do you most identify with? why?
hmm that's difficult i mean right off the bat basically all of the charmed girlies just bc that's been so ingrained in my youth n just like whole life really I Actually Wrote a um. it was an application for a private high school and it was like name a person who you most identify with historical or fictional & i actually wrote mine about piper halliwell kfkdkskkfjg. um. I Did Not Get In. but whatevs. i do really. i do identify with all of them or maybe just project onto them w/e who's counting outside of the charmed fandom tho Another formative piece of media for me that i Loved was the summoning trilogy by kelley armstrong those were my favorite books in elementary school (that and wings by. i forget who that was by. with tamisin (tamasin?) and jak) anyways have not touched that series in Forever bc you know it's like a kids series or whatever but my friend was really bored i think in the beginning of quarantine and read that series and was like wow you got most of your personality from these books huh and i was like i did????? so um. in those books id probably sit somewhere between chloe and simon also maybe the reason i never liked enemies to lovers that much was no one could ever live up to chloe & derek (real ones know) so yeah. there is actually a margaret in that trilogy she's an ancient crotchety old lady she's a necromancer like chloe but (spoiler) she's evil but even if she wasn't she was a dick so. yeah!! but yeah prue's kind of sense of duty and feeling like you know. like you can do the best job ipso facto it is automatically your job to take control, piper's maternal instinct coexisting with her tendency to be a snarky pain in the ass, phoebe's desire for something bigger for something magical in the world knowing that there must be something lying in your future even if you can't quite see it yet, paige's optimism and dumb sense of humor even when it feels like you keep losing no matter what, chloe's rampant inner monologue that just kind of you know projecting your life into a story to try to contextualize it and like her you know. there's a scene where she's like. it's not important the evil lady running the show is like well aren't you the little instigator and chloe's like technically i'm not the instigator bc i never explicitly provoked anything rather things started happen once i arrived which would make me the catalyst But i don't think pointing that out would win be any brownie points. that is kinda how my brain works. n simon's great blend of kind of vain self confidence and dry humor coupled with you know like loyalty he protects the ones he loves.
cocoa - if you could have any type of hair, what colour and cut would you have?
i actually really like my hair it kind of looks like an early s4 phoebe except i think mine is a little longer bc i always try to grow it out don't take care of it get it cut and start the cycle again but like. i do really want a fun color i just hate the idea of committing to a fun color and wearing it every day and the process of growing it out idk. if i were to dye my hair i'd probably either go for a fire engine red which i've done with cheap hair dye for a couple halloween costumes or like a denim blue nothing too electric. but i really like being blonde i think it does best suit my personality 😗✌️
#my recollection of the summoning trilogy is just the strangest piece of patchwork#idk how many times i reread those books but like#they were bangers!!!#there was chloe the necromancer and liz was a poltergeist (after her death)#and both simon and um. god what was her name it was like trixie or something i swear. they were both witches#rae was a pryomancer#and derek was of course a werewolf and we got the werewolf transformations at they were just like grotesque body horror#the way it was meant to be#yeah ❤️#bangers#the follow up series wasn't was good i didn't care for any of the supporting cast there#anyways lmao thank u so much for the questions !! 💞💕💞💕❤️#💌
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any thoughts/comments on hair dye? i'm a newbie and all my knowledge comes from youtube LOL. i know arctic fox is bad?? ngl i only like good dye young because of hayley williams but yeah i'd love to hear your thoughts on hair dye!
I'll be honest, the most research I ever did for my hair was before the first time I bleached it . Most of the time I just kind of... go for it
So *warning!* I am not a professional and please also know that I give very little fucks about what I look like and am not afraid of trying whatever I want with my hair.
Also, cause it does make a difference in hair care, I am white. This means that I have only ever done things to white people hair and have *absolutely* no knowledge of any other kind of hair except my own, which is semi curly/wavy, thin stranded but a decent amount of it, and fairly healthy to begin with (though I've been dying it since I was 15). Also, I am naturally a dirty blonde so my hair is somewhat light to begin with.
Below the cut for completely non-professional hair dye advice!
SEMI-PERMANENT/PASTEL DYES:
I'm not sure what you mean by Arctic Fox is bad - I've actually used them and so far they're one of the best, so I'm guessing it has something to do with the company itself that I haven't heard about? I really like their colors, it smells good, and it's not crazy overpriced. The other brand I like is One n Only Argan Oil - that's what I first started using when doing pastels. A popular brand (at least here in the US and specifically at Sally's where I shop) is Ion. I'm not a fan, I found the color weak and faded really quick. I just bought this unicorn color today because it looked pretty, so we'll see how that goes.
These are just the non-permanents that I use for pastels/non traditional colors. They don't hurt your hair so honestly, pick one up and slap it on and the worst it'll do is nothing!
You can also leave this stuff on your hair forever. Usually the longer you go, the brighter it will be. You can also cut the brightness by adding plain, white conditioner (don’t fall for the hair dye company tricks! You don’t need their “diluter”. Just use conditioner!)
PERMANENT DYE:
Permanent dye is a whole other thing, so if you want that, make sure you read the box and get the appropriate developer! Or, you could use a box dye from the grocery store. I may be a pretentious little shit about my hair dyes now, but I used box dye for YEARS when I was dying it red. If you want a straight, traditional color that you don’t have to think about, box is your way to go. A beauty store will have colors that you need to measure and add developer to. It’s more intense, but you can also mix and match!
BLEACH:
If you're going to bleach, be careful! If your hair is very dark and you're trying to go pastel, I wouldn't recommend doing it at home. Also, if you have pre-box dyed hair, bleach might react weird (hello me trying to bleach box red dye out of my hair...). I would specifically not recommend trying to bleach over dyed black hair.
If your hair is lighter, or has already been bleached and you wanna go even lighter, I would recommend starting with a bleach bath, which is the bleach, developer, and shampoo. It's a lot less harsh. (Google for the ratios!)
For example, I did a bleach wash today! I don't have examples of my before color this time, but I've used them in the past to do this:
(this is taking out pink dye from my hair a while ago, though it had already faded a lot, you can sort of see where my roots are, they’re more yellow. You can see the pink isn't completely gone, but my hair also isn't fried.)
Also, if you’re leaving your hair bleached and not dying over it, don’t forget toner! And even if you are dying over it and your bleached hair is very yellow, you may want to tone anyway just to get some of the brassiness out, so it doesn’t come through your dye.
SUPPLIES:
I can't recommend a measured mixing bowl enough, though you can always use a food scale if you have it. Gloves, too. I've recently decided to use them (for a few years I just walked around with pink or blue or purple hands for a few days after...). I know professionals use those brushes to put dye on your hair but... honestly I just use my hands
And then, of course, make sure you repair some of the damage you've done! You can't get real olaplex at home, but I do these Aphogee two step treatments. They're honestly a pain in the ass to use, but they work.
OTHER RANDOM ADVICE?:
- it’s always easier to section your hair! Put it up and do your under layers first, then work your way to your crown
-nail polish remover is great at getting out dye stains. From countertops, sinks, the floor, cabinets, the wall behind you somehow, your own skin...
-you always need more dye than you think you do. Always overshoot, the last thing you need is to run out halfway through, especially with permanents.
-taking out color: you can do this with semi-permanents with a cleansing shampoo (I use Redken) mixed with either crushed up vitamin c or baking soda. Less harsh than bleach or color stripper
-speaking of taking out color, blues are always harder to remove than reds. As I am currently dealing with. I knew better, and yet I chose to dye it blue, then purple anyway...
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SORRY THIS IS SO LONG AND AGAIN, I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL. I have just been fucking up my hair for years at this point and this is the little I’ve learned along the way.
Honestly, if you have a specific question of something you’d like to do, you can message me and I’ll try to give advice! But without knowing what you’re looking for, this is all generic. And if you were just looking at brands, well... I’m sorry if you read through the rest of this for nothing! Your answer is in the first paragraph lmao
#hair dye#ask#anon#please#i cannot stress the warning enough#i am not a professional#and use hair dye as a way to feel in control of my life#i rambled too long about the nonsense i do to my hair#and i'm sorry
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