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strangewonderful · 4 days ago
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hi dee, as we close out another year of knowing each other, i'd like to say that this year has proven quite a lot for us. we can spend a year apart just as we can together. we will always find a way to laugh. we will always come back from our tiffs and trites. but namely, i'd like to tell you that this year has proven a lot of you and that there the capacity you have for all things you let your heart take you into is greater than the galaxies and lores you've introduced me to. you have taken off this year in the rpc so beautifully and i still recall a time you shook your head left and right and told me you couldn't do this, and you weren't a write. i hope that what you leave 2024 with is a new hat (on top of the many i have always known you to have): a writer
✨SIXTEEN CARRIAGES✨
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estellan0vella · 7 months ago
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Is This Love? ❀ includes: Gojo, Geto, Nanami, Choso, Sukuna, Toji, Yuta, Yuji, Megumi & Toge (REQUESTED) Masterlist
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Gojo
Gojo's laughter echoes in the quiet room, his blindfold dangling from his fingers. He watches you try to reach the high shelf, a playful grin dancing on his lips. Suddenly, he realizes the warmth in his chest isn't just amusement—it's affection. Your determination, your kindness, the way you look at him with unguarded trust. It's like a veil lifts from his eyes. The invincible Gojo Satoru is vulnerable, caught off guard by love. He steps closer, gently taking the book from the shelf for you. "You know," he says softly, his voice uncharacteristically tender, "I think I'm falling for you."
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Geto
Geto watches you from across the room, your head buried in a book, completely oblivious to the world around you. His heart swells with a mixture of pride and affection. He’s always admired your strength and resilience, but now he realizes it’s more than admiration. He loves how you handle every situation with grace and intelligence. As you look up and catch his gaze, giving him a warm smile, he feels a rush of emotion. He smiles back, a gentle determination in his eyes. He’ll protect you, cherish you, because he loves you.
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Nanami
Nanami’s day is meticulously planned, every moment accounted for—until you walk into his life. He watches you laugh at one of his dry jokes, and something shifts. The weight of his responsibilities feels lighter when you're around. He notices the small things—the way your eyes light up, the way you care for others. He’s always believed in logic, in structure, but you make him reconsider. His heart flutters in a way that's both unsettling and exhilarating. He catches himself smiling more, thinking of you. It’s clear now: amidst the chaos, he’s found his sanctuary. He’s in love with you.
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Choso
Choso feels an unfamiliar warmth spread through his chest as he watches you tend to his wounds with gentle hands. Your touch is careful, your eyes full of concern, and it strikes him how much he cares about you. He's been so focused on vengeance, on protecting his brothers, that he never considered this possibility. But now, with you so close, he feels it—the undeniable truth. His heart beats faster, his breath catches. He’s found something worth fighting for beyond his brothers. You. He’s in love, and it's both terrifying and beautiful. "Thank you," he murmurs, his voice filled with newfound emotion.
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Sukuna
Sukuna watches you from his throne, intrigued by the way you navigate the world with such tenacity. You’re different, unafraid to stand up to him, and it amuses him. But today, as you speak with passion and conviction, something shifts. He realizes he loves the fire in you, the way you challenge him and make him feel alive. His smirk softens, and he stands, approaching you. “You’re interesting,” he says, but there’s a deeper, unspoken admission in his eyes. For the first time, the King of Curses feels something more profound than amusement—he feels love.
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Toji
Toji’s eyes follow your every move, the way you handle yourself with confidence and grace. He’s always seen you as a comrade, a trusted ally, but today, something changed. As you laugh at a shared joke, your eyes sparkling with joy, he feels a warmth in his chest he hasn’t felt in years. It dawns on him that he loves you, not just for your strength but for the way you make him feel human again. He reaches out, brushing a stray hair from your face, his touch lingering. “You’re something else,” he murmurs, a soft smile playing on his lips.
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Yuta
Yuta’s heart pounds as he watches you from across the training field, your movements graceful and fierce. He’s always been reserved, haunted by his past, but you bring a light into his life he never thought he’d see again. The way you encourage him, and believe in him, it makes him feel whole. He catches your eye and smiles, the realization hitting him like a wave. This is love. Pure and simple. You’ve given him hope, a reason to fight beyond his own redemption. He walks over, his heart in his throat. "You make everything better," he says softly, meaning every word.
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Yuji
Yuji’s laughter echoes through the training grounds as you playfully tease him. He’s always enjoyed your company, but today, there’s a new feeling in his heart. Watching you laugh, so full of life, he realizes he loves you. It’s sudden, but it feels right. He loves your kindness, your strength, and the way you make even the toughest days brighter. He stops mid-laugh, his expression turning serious. “Hey,” he says, taking your hand. “I think… I think I love you.” His cheeks flush, but he holds your gaze, hoping you feel the same.
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Megumi
Megumi is reserved, focused, always carrying the weight of responsibility. But you, you slip past his defences effortlessly. Your laughter, your kindness, they fill his heart. One quiet evening, as you both watch the stars, he realizes. Love. It’s gentle, unexpected, but undeniable. He wants to protect you, to be the reason you smile. The thought of you in danger terrifies him. He reaches out, taking your hand in his, a silent vow of his feelings. You squeeze back, and in that moment, he knows he’s found something worth fighting for.
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Toge
Toge watches you laugh, his heart swelling with a warmth that’s new and exhilarating. His cursed speech has always been a barrier, but with you, he doesn’t need words. You understand him, see him, in a way no one else does. He realizes he’s in love during one of these quiet moments, your presence filling the silence with unspoken affection. It’s a profound revelation, one that makes him smile behind his collar. He reaches out, his fingers brushing yours, and in that simple touch, he conveys everything he feels. "Salmon," he says softly, his eyes shining with love.
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moonlightsturns · 28 days ago
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Center Stage Support
inspired by the best ofc: @muwapsturniolo
The faint hum of activity surrounded you as you sat in front of the mirror, carefully tying the ribbons of your pointe shoes. Your reflection stared back at you—a mix of nerves and determination written all over your face. Tonight’s recital wasn’t just another performance. It was the culmination of months of hard work and dedication, but it was also something more personal. You weren’t just showcasing your love for ballet; you were representing the beauty of being unapologetically yourself.
The stage had always been your safe haven, a space where your culture and artistry could intertwine in ways that were undeniably yours. But this time, the stakes felt higher. Why? Because Nick, Matt, and Chris Sturniolo were sitting somewhere in that auditorium.
A few weeks ago, you never would’ve guessed the triplets would agree to come. The idea popped up during one of your usual late-night FaceTime calls with Chris. He was lounging on his bed, scrolling through his phone, while you sprawled across yours, venting about the endless rehearsals that had taken over your life.
“So wait,” Chris interrupted, “you’re telling me you’re this tired because of ballet?”
“Yes, Chris,” you said, rolling your eyes. “It’s a recital. Not that you’d know, since you’ve probably never been to one in your life.”
“Okay, ouch,” he shot back, laughing. “But no, I haven’t. Are they, like, super boring? Or…”
“They’re amazing,” you said firmly. “But you’ll never know unless you come. I mean, unless you’re scared of sitting through something classy for once.”
That got him. Chris smirked. “Scared? Me? Nah. Send me the info. I’ll bring Nick and Matt too. Make it a whole thing.”
You didn’t think he’d actually follow through. People always said they’d come, but life got in the way. It wasn’t until earlier tonight, when you peeked through the heavy red curtain, that it hit you—they were really here.
The boys were sitting in the middle of the third row, looking as out of place as you’d expected but unmistakably supportive. Nick was holding a slightly wrinkled bouquet of flowers, probably bought last minute at a gas station. Chris was glancing around the ornate auditorium, clearly taking it all in, while Matt was busy fiddling with his blazer, looking like he wanted to escape.
Despite the nerves that always hit before a performance, seeing them there steadied you. They showed up. For you.
The lights dimmed, and the room fell silent as the first notes of the music played. You took a deep breath and stepped onto the stage.
Everything faded away—the murmurs of the audience, the flutter of the curtain—until it was just you and the music. The routine was second nature by now, each move ingrained in your body. A graceful arabesque here, a smooth plié there. But tonight, it felt different. Each movement wasn’t just an expression of technique; it was a reflection of who you were.
Your culture and identity were in every deliberate motion, every defiant pirouette. Ballet wasn’t just an art form for you—it was a way to prove that beauty and grace weren’t confined to a specific mold. You weren’t just performing; you were making a statement.
From the corner of your eye, you caught glimpses of the triplets’ reactions. Chris was leaning forward in his seat, his mouth slightly open in awe. Nick, ever the composed one, had a small smile on his face, though his eyes gave away how impressed he was. Matt kept nodding at all the right moments, like he was silently hyping you up with every leap and turn.
By the time the music swelled to its crescendo, you felt weightless. The final move—a flawless fouetté en tournant—was met with thunderous applause as the lights dimmed and the curtain fell.
Backstage, your fellow dancers were buzzing with excitement, but your mind was somewhere else. You couldn’t stop thinking about how they’d shown up, how much it meant to you that they were there.
When you walked into the lobby after changing, you spotted them instantly. Chris was the first to see you, practically bounding over. “That was insane!” he shouted, his voice echoing off the high ceilings. “Like, what?! How are you this good?!”
Nick followed, holding out the bouquet. “These are for you,” he said, looking a little embarrassed. “I, uh, didn’t really know what flowers to get, so…”
“They’re perfect,” you said, grinning as you took them.
Matt stood slightly behind the others but nodded earnestly. “I don’t even know anything about ballet,” he admitted, “but that was incredible. You crushed it.”
Chris wasn’t done. “You didn’t tell us you were, like, professional-level good! Seriously, you should be in some fancy company or something.”
You laughed, feeling your face heat up. “It’s just a recital, Chris. Chill.”
“No way,” he insisted. “When you’re famous, I’m telling everyone I saw you first.”
Nick chuckled. “Yeah, we’ll be bragging about this for years. ‘Oh, you know her? Yeah, we were there before she blew up.’”
You rolled your eyes playfully but couldn’t stop smiling. “You guys are ridiculous.”
Chris grinned. “Yeah, but you love us.”
And you did. Seeing them there, cheering you on, made everything feel worth it.
As the four of you walked out into the cool night air, Nick glanced at the program he’d been holding. “Okay, but real talk—what’s an arabesque? Is that the thing where you, like, balance on one leg?”
You laughed, shaking your head. “Close enough, Nick. Close enough.”
Chris turned to you, his expression softer now. “Seriously, though. You were amazing. Thanks for inviting us. I don’t think I’ve ever been this impressed in my life.”
Hearing that meant the world. The recital wasn’t just about showing your love for ballet—it was about sharing a piece of yourself with people who truly cared.
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rougepancake · 1 year ago
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All I ask of you
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Ft. Gyutaro x Afab!Reader
Phantom of the opera au
Warnings: Yandere themes, slightly ooc Gyutaro. Not proofread. Listen to the soundtrack while reading. Enjoy!
Summary: He’s hideous. Hideous and alone. And he wants you more than anything.
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Forever.
Gyutaro has been watching you for what’s felt like forever.
He watched you grow up in the opera house. He has heard your beautiful voice sing the melodies of the various plays you’ve performed. He’s witnessed you dance and play with your friends for so many years now.
And it was beginning to drive him insane.
You just knew of his presence, not of his entire being. You thought he was an angel, when he was, in fact, far from being considered such a divine being.
But you didn’t know any better.
He was front and center at all of your shows, hiding in plain sight so you wouldn’t figure him out. He truly loved the way you sounded up on the stage, and how your glorious presence lit up the room whenever you entered. It was as if you were a ray of sunshine finally breaking in and shining into his mundane world, causing him to feel things that were quite foreign to him.
Seeing you perform was not enough. He needed you. He needed to feel your skin against his in a dance that was only performed by two people who were maddeningly infatuated with one another. It plagued his thoughts, being all that he could think about for days.
And then, he had his moment.
“Sing for me, angel of music.” He whispered from behind the large mirror of your dressing room. It was littered with various bouquets from your admirers, and the colors only accentuated your features further.
You had been doing your vocal warmups, and the sudden voice had startled you, resulting in your voice cracking horribly.
“Angel? Is that you?” You rose from your seat and walked towards the mirror. It was an innocent question, simple, really, but it sent Gyutaro into a spiral.
“Yes, my dear.” His voice was raspy, and he was hidden from your sight, silently urging you to come closer to the mirror. He spoke with urgency in his tone, and his breathing sounded strained. He almost sounded… desperate…
“Angel, did you see my performance tonight?” Your eyes lit up as you spoke, and you couldn’t keep your excitement hidden. While you couldn’t see him, you hoped he could see you. It made you happy, after all.
He’s been with you your whole life.
“Come closer to the mirror, Y/n.” He beckoned, and his figure came into view. He moved as if he were your reflection, unsure and anxious, but he looked into your eyes with such determination that it only excited you further. “Let me take you away.” His hand extended to you, and you felt inclined to reach out and take it.
Oh how you wanted to run away with him, regardless of the doubts that crept up in the depths of your mind. You thought you knew him. He was an angel, after all. He’s guided you your whole life, and has yet to lead you astray.
“Take me away, angel.” You whispered and took his hand, shivering at how cold it was against your skin.
And take you away he did.
He took you away and refused to look back, out of fear that he’d wake up and see that it was all a dream. His grip on your hand was tight, his bony fingers interlaced with your own as he led you through many tunnels and passageways that you didn’t even know existed until now.
“Where are you leading me, angel?” Your voice was filled with awe, and you sounded as if you were filled with such a childlike wonder that you forgot to be afraid of what might happen to you.
“Somewhere safe.” He answered shortly. “Somewhere where there’s no need to hide behind stupid masks and pretty faces.” He said the words with such disdain in his voice that you couldn’t help but feel bad.
But then his mask fell to the side, and he turned to look at you.
Dread filled you, causing you to freeze in place behind him. It was a fear unlike any other, and you couldn’t help but stare at the various marks and scars that graced his features.
His eyes lit up in pain as he stared at you, finding that his words were failing him. However, he couldn’t give up now. He had to take you with him. He wouldn’t be able to live with himself if he didn’t.
You were past the point of no return.
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catmansquad · 1 year ago
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The Sidhe (1)
You should really know better than to trust a handsome stranger…
Fair Folk Miguel X M!Reader
Bisexual Miguel, Possessiveness, Seduction, Fae Morality, MXM (Riding), Intoxication
Your first thought was that he was handsome. Perhaps more than just handsome. In a sea of ordinary faces, his stood out; this broad shouldered, giant hunk of a man sitting alone by himself in one corner, bathed in the golden rays of the setting sun that spilled through the window behind him. He looked absolutely divine. How was it that everyone else in the entire club was oblivious to him? Your eyes briefly met across the crowded room, the little smirk curled onto his lips and he looked away, back to the drink in his hand. But that second or two of the gaze of his beautiful brown eyes had been enough to hook your interest. If he was lonely, then you’d be the cure for it.
‘You seem lonely, mind if I join you?’ Those had been the words that started it all, and he hooked you with a warm smile, gesturing to the empty chair opposite. You had quickly decided that he was even more handsome up close; rugged, tanned and with an amazing smile. ‘Who do I have the pleasurable company of today…?’ He rested his hands under his chin, smiling, and it only grew fonder as you gave him your name. ‘Mm, charming… I’m Miguel. Nice to not be so lonely anymore….’ His voice dipped to a low purr, there was a soft, slight accent to his words. It was almost implacable. You swallowed nervously, feeling the heat already building in your cheeks. When had you last had another man in your love life, let alone one so handsome? You were determined to get off on the right foot with him. ‘Can I get you another drink, Miguel…?’ ‘Mm, if you’re offering, I wouldn’t mind. Get one for yourself, why don’t you…? I’m quite partial to something sweet and fruity.’ Miguel spoke like he was at utter ease with the world, his voice soft and honeyed, yet his tone carried easily over the music of the club.
Hours and several drinks later, you had learned that Miguel only rarely visited the city, that he had a homestead in the wild woodlands beyond the city limits. ‘Has… Anyone told you that you’re really…. Uh…’ You stopped yourself short, and watched Miguel give you another charming smile. ‘I’m really….?’ ‘… You’re really handsome, Miguel.’ His smile only grew more entertained at your flustered state. A soft chuckle escaped him and he rested one hand on the table, palm up and beckoning his fingers gently, until your own ghosted across his palm and he took your hand. He was warm, so warm, and the soft stroke of his thumb made your own cheeks blush. ‘Heh. You’re good looking, too… You want to do this again? I’d like to do this again.’ You were enraptured by his smile, his beautiful eyes, the way his hand caressed your skin. ‘… Please…’ Your voice was a breath, then he released his hold on you and stood up. Your eyes went wide for just how tall he was, and he moved with beautiful grace, standing beside you, looming over you like a stunningly handsome giant. ‘I hope I’ll see you here again, dathúil, mm? Maybe next week…?’ His smile caused some very impure thoughts to bloom like a brilliant flower inside your head. You brought your frantic nodding under control into something far saner and more rational. Thankfully, Miguel only seemed to find it amusing and gave a playful wink. ‘See you then…’
He lingered in your dreams every night you slept; the handsome man who lounged at that table, the man who reclined shirtless on your bed, beckoning with a wry smile, the man who walked hooded and cloaked in emerald green through misty woodlands with the playful smirk visible beneath his hood. A whole week of those enticing dreams, and the return to that same club could not come soon enough. Yet once again did you find Miguel sat at that same table, resting casually in the chair, top two buttons of his shirt undone, the hint of his muscular chest on display, and that smouldering look in his eyes that beckoned you without words. ‘A pleasure to see you again, dathúil. I was starting to worry you’d… forgotten all about me…’ He ran one hand softly through his silken locks as you took a seat opposite, dearly wishing you could feel his hair, too. ‘Is that… Gaelic?’ You guessed and he nodded with a playful smile. ‘Mm, Irish Gaelic… “Handsome”.’ He purred the last word and you felt your cheeks blush from the look he gave you. You took a hurried gulp of the drink Miguel had bought for you, a duplicate of his own and you gasped for the strong, fruity sweetness that clung to your throat like a thick syrup. Covering your mouth, you coughed several times to clear your throat and found Miguel giving you a pitying smile in return. ‘Careful now, it’ll knock the wind out of you…’ Miguel sipped his own glass, humming pleasingly before he swallowed. ‘It’s… So sweet…’ You rasped, breathing deeply. ‘I am quite partial to sweet things in life. Are you as sweet as you are handsome, mi amigo…?’ He licked his lips at the taste of his drink, smirking again at the confusion that built in your eyes as you processed his change from Irish to Spanish. ‘That depends, “amigo”…’ He snickered at your response, placing his glass down to rest his chin atop his folded hands, smiling at you still. ‘Uh-huh…? You want me to be enchanting? I can be very enchanting, I’m already very handsome… Heh… is dathúil é sin a dhéanann dathúil…’  He clicked his tongue with a playful wink, and you found comfort in the glass of sticky sweetness one more. ‘Wh-wha…?’ He chuckled again, enchanting you deeper. ‘”Handsome is that handsome does.” Don’t you agree?’ His tongue ghosted across his teeth, and your mind wandered into just how his lips and teeth would feel on your neck, leaving lovebites, marking you as his- and you would go so willingly, to wear them all with pride.
‘Come away with me…’ With glasses drained, he had whispered in your ear, hand ghosting up your spine to tangle in your hair. His voice was a gentle, enticing purr. You were turning to putty in his warm touch, his embrace stirred feelings in you that you hadn’t felt for any man in a long while. ‘Come back to my home, dear one… With me, for tonight…’ His teeth nipped gently at the shell of your ear and you muffled your little moan into his neck, he hummed in delight. This close, he smelled so delightful; the freshness of forest pines, summer flowers, and something uniquely masculine that was solely his, it created an intoxicating blend that left you utterly pliant. ‘We can have a lot of fun together... What do you say?’ Miguel, moved to kiss your cheek and you felt all tension leave you body, save where it was solely focused further south. This man was simply too attractive to drive you so wild so easily. ‘… Yes…’ You breathed, clinging to his shirt, feeling his muscular arms beneath the shirt tense as you gripped them. Miguel stepped back just enough that you could see the mirth in his eyes. ‘I thought so… Shall we get you home, before I have to carry you…?’
Miguel’s home was beyond the city limits, to the wild places of the woodlands. At the end of a dirt track, Miguel held the car door open for you and you stepped out onto the dry ground, surrounded by woodlands with a path beyond that could only be traversed by foot. ‘I do so hate driving…’ His tone was unusually bitter, he glared at the run-down, muddied car as he slammed the door shut and locked it. ‘Noisy, filthy, polluting machines…’ His irritation faded as he entwined the fingers of one hand with yours and gave it a gentle squeeze. ‘I’m just up this way; my cozy little cabin… Away from the aches and pains of the modern world. A natural place, very peaceful.’ He leaned in again, another soft kiss to your cheek that threatened to make you melt again. On his next attempt, you turned your face to intercept his lips with your own. He hummed in surprise, eyes widening briefly, then you found your back pressed suddenly against his car as he sandwiched you there, kiss deepening as he pressed your hands up either side of your head. Pressed this close against him, you could feel him swelling against you. Finally, he broke the kiss and relinquished his hold on you, licking slowly across his lips as if he wanted to recall the taste of you forever. You were dizzy, reeling, that delightfully intoxicating sent wormed its way through your brain from the closeness of him. ‘Mm…. Was that a promise of what’s to come? Heh… Let me show you my home…’ He held your hand still as he led you down the woodland path.
Miguel’s home was a lakefront cabin deep in the woods. With a garden of beautiful flowers and crops, a chicken coop, and a small shed to one side. The cabin itself appeared old, yet cozy and secure against the seasons. Inside, the gloomy interior was illuminated by the faint light of the moon trickling through the windows; shelves lined with books, hunting tools on the walls,  a writing desk, a stone fireplace with a cooking pot, a rocking chair before it and a bow and quiver displayed on the mantle above. An great oaken bed occupied the far end, draped in woven blankets. With a soft creak, the room was illuminated by a gentle, reaffirming glow of the lantern Miguel carried. ‘Home…’ He sighed in delight. ‘My home… It may not be as grandiose as the fancy apartments of the city, but I built this with my own hands…’ You took in the room once again, still heady with his scent, longing for his touch once more. ...’s really nice. Cozy.’ His smile was alluring, seductive as he crossed the room to place the lantern down on a table at the foot of the bed. He lingered there, with one hand held out, and you were almost compelled to follow and take his grasp. He pulled it close and kissed it softly. ‘I… Want more than just kisses with you tonight.’ He spoke softly, barely above a whisper, but you were all ears for his silken tones. His touch was heady, you swore his skin glistened in the light, and the scent of him was so sweetly intense that you wanted to bury your face into his neck; inhale it, lick it from him, rip his clothing away and grind against his body until you and your clothing smelled of him. You wished you could bottle that scent and save it for later. You didn’t realise how close you were until you found your hands on his shoulders, pressed against his chest. His eyes glinted with more than just mirth. ‘Mm… mi vida…. Is that what you want?’ You kissed him again, hands gliding down the front of his chest, unbuttoning the shirt as you went until it hung open and his bare chest was on display for your touch, and how you touched him; caressing his broad pecs, running over his hard abs, feeling him shiver and gasp at your touch before your hands settled on his sinfully narrow waist and squeezed gently, your fingers tingled softly from where you had caressed him. ‘Mmm… Maybe you’re as eager I am…’ He leaned forwards again, teeth nipping on your lower lip before sighing your name softly. ‘I have no protection to offer you… If we make love this night, it will be pure, natural bliss… Knowing this, do you still desire me…?’ His eyes were half-lidded, searching your face for your opinion. Some tiny voice of doubt, ever present, in the back of your mind urged caution, care. You took his hands in your own and nodded. ‘I want to be with you tonight, Miguel….’
His kiss was once again deep and passionate as he reclined back atop the soft blankets of his bed, allowing you straddle his waist, hands softly resting on his broad chest as he hummed in delight, his own massive hands spread across your back, pulling you closer against him, you fidgeted softly in his grasp, grinding against him and the building tension drew low moans from your both. His tongue flitted across your upper lip as your kiss parted and his brown eyes glinted in the lamplight with desire for you. ‘Mm… Why am I the only one half-naked, dathúil?’ His large hands ran down your body to grasp at your ass and squeezed hard enough to draw a needy whimper from you, grinding down onto him again. ‘Heh… We should both be very naked right now.’ He released his grip and pushed himself up leaving you scrambling to grab his broad shoulders for support. You blushed deeper as Miguel stole another kiss from you, humming in delight once again. ‘Ride me…?’ His purr was as much a demand as a question. Your hands ran down the glistening skin of his chest- fingers tingling at the touch of him, ghosting across his abs to where that soft trail of dark hair led below his waistband. A pleased growl rumbled in his throat as you unbuttoned his leggings and began to tug down the zip. You learned soon after that Miguel preferred to go commando.
‘Ó mo ghrá…’ His voice was a husky rumble, hands spreading your cheeks, squeezing flesh as you sunk deeper onto his throbbing organ. You had imagined that he would be proportional to the rest of his large form, and your imagination had proven insignificant for him. He had been caring and gentle, and despite how your hearts thundered with the desperate need, he was patient enough make sure you adjusted to each inch of him, waiting for your consent to ease himself deeper into your body. Maybe he was bigger than any man you’d had before. He certainly felt better. ‘F-fuck, Miguel… You’re… Just so much…’ He chuckled softly, one of his huge hands rubbed a small, soothing circle on your back, his other moving to grip one hip. ‘Uh-huh…? Just breathe. You’re doing so well… Got plenty more lube here if you need it… Mmm… Am I bigger than your past boyfriends…? Fitter? Better looking…? Mm, I bet the stretch feels amazing… ‘cause you certainly feel amazing around me…. Hnnn…’ You sighed in delight, eyes drifting shut and swallowed, nodding in confirmation. ‘M-more…’ Your little moan as met with Miguel’s sigh of delighted relief as he ease himself in completely, leaving you firmly in his lap as he throbbed with longing inside you. He brought his arms to bear across your chest in a firm hug, placing longing kisses on one shoulder then the other. You took deep breaths, willing yourself to relax, so achingly hard. ‘F-fuck, Miguel… I… I can feel you in my stomach.’ You felt him swell slightly inside you, throbbing harder as his mind sent your compliment straight south. His kisses became more intense, teeth grazing over you skin, and one of his hands ran down your chest to rest over your stomach, fingers spread out in a display of his massive handspan. ‘Heh… You’re amazed at this? Just imagine how good it’ll feel when you start riding…’
‘Ay cariño… Cariño, si… Si… Si…’ His grip on your hips was firm, guiding you as his husky rumbling only drove you on further. ‘Hey, hey… Calm down, just relax. Don’t go like that, you’re just gonna wear yourself out…’ He patted your sides softly, guiding you back down on him. True to his words, you could feel an ache starting to develop in your legs. ‘… Shall we try this another way, handsome?’ His hands left your hips and you felt him move underneath you as he pushed himself up, broad chest against your back as he sat up, voice a whisper by your ear. ‘… How about you lay down, just relax…. Think about me, mm… Let me take care of you…?’ His gentle kiss on your neck drove all doubt from your mind and you nodded in agreement, hearing him chuckle softly, hips rolling up into you. With some great remorse you lifted yourself from his intimate embrace. Silently mourning for just how empty and unfulfilled you felt without him. He gave you a brilliant smile before rising from the bed, allowing you to rest on your back on the soft blankets, warmed by Miguel’s body and looked up to see him looming over you. You breathed calmly, taking in the sight of his muscular physique, that dangerously narrow waist, that twitching organ of… considerable girth and size, and his eyes which seemed to glint crimson in the lamplight- he blinked and they were gentle brown once more. ‘Yeah… Just lay back and let me take good care of you.’ The bed creaked under his weight as he supported himself over you, guiding your legs to rest atop his shoulders and giving you a keen smirk. He pulled needy whines from your throat as he eased himself back into you, nearly folding you in half as he pressed in, reaching so much deeper than before as he filled you again. ‘Ohhh…. Dios mio… So good…’ Such pleasing tingles spread from where his skin met yours, and none were more pleasing and intense that the tingles that spread through your insides. Miguel looked down at you with a pleased hum in his throat, eyes half-lidded again, still smirking in triumph. ‘I’m going to rock your whole world…’ He assured you, smirk growing as you felt him throb again. From his first thrust, the pleasing tingle doubled in intensity, and he set the pace for the night to follow.
The bliss you had felt had whited out your world, your next clear memory was of waking bleary eyed, warmed by the lingering pleasure, the soft blankets draped over you, and the golden rays of the sun pouring through the window. You sighed across the soft pillow your head rested on. How was it possible to be so utterly relaxed? None of your partners before now had ever made you pass the threshold of ecstasy so hard that you felt like your soul had taken leave of your body. You felt a hand softly run through your hair, and lifted your head from the pillow; Miguel stood beside you, dressed in nothing than white cotton leggings, smiling fondly down at you. You drank in the sight of him; positively glowing in the light of the sun, his gentle smile, his impressive physique, the tattoo of a spider in its web on his neck, and the one of the black serpent that spiralled down his right arm. ‘Good morning, dathúil… You sleep like a little angel, all bundled up. Mm… Did I take you so high in pleasure that you’ve only just touched the earth again? Heh… I’ve drawn a nice, hot bath for you, so you can get cleaned up and soothe all those aches and pains I might have caused you…’ His hand ran down your neck, your shoulder and down your arm until he grasped your hand and leaned down to kiss it, eyes glinting as he looked up. ‘… I’m not going to carry you, beautiful, so you can either have the bath or lay here, but the water is cooling by the second…’ He kissed your hand again with another delighted hum before releasing you. You squirmed beneath the blankets, shivering at the weary ache in your lower body before pushing yourself up from the bed. A hot bath sounded great right about now.
The bathtub was exceptionally large, like it had been carved of smooth stone and decorated with planks of pattered wood. The entire cabin was off the grid, so Miguel had to have gathered and heated the water likely one bucket at a time. Given the size of the tub, likely designed to allow a man of his impressive stature to stretch out, it must have taken him an age to fill. Having seen that and refusing now would have been an insult to all his work. Your toes curled as you dipped one foot into the hot water, sighing at the pleasing heat- the water was indeed hot, but no scalding, for all the steam that rose from the surface. You sunk down into the water with a relived groan, taking in the sight of the numerous labelled brown bottles and handmade soaps of various flowers. Life off-grid had a certain joy to it, if you knew what you were doing. You, yourself, grown up in the busy city with the ease of convenience, probably wouldn’t even know where to begin without electricity, water on tap, nearby grocery stores, and a stable internet connection for your phone. You had easily managed to neglect the last houseplant your mother had given you into a dried husk, managing to grow your own crops was probably beyond your abilities.
You thoroughly enjoyed your bath, the soothing hot water, the sweet scent of lavender from the violet soap you chose. Finally at risk of turning into a human prune in cooling water, you pulled yourself from the bathtub and dried yourself on the fluffy towel that had been left for your benefit. Clean and dried, you fastened the towel around your waist and peeked back out into the main area of the cabin, searching for Miguel and hoping you could recover your scattered clothes and get dressed before he saw you. A small fire had been lit in the fireplace, and the space before it was occupied by the broad form of the man in question, his broad back, clothed in a white shirt, to you as he busied himself with whatever task. The floorboards creaked underfoot with nearly every awkward step you took, and you heard Miguel chuckle softly after the third one. Yet he did not comment or turn to you, and you gathered your clothing in a hurry, to vanish back into the bathroom and dress properly.
When you emerged again, towel in hand, Miguel wasted no time in stealing it from your grasp, a sweet kiss on your cheek as he pressed a plate of scrambled eggs and a fork into your hands. ‘Mm… Just for you…’ He purred, carrying the towel to the rack that rested beside the fire and hanging it to dry. ‘B-breakfast, too…?’ You spluttered, taking in the sight of what rested in your hands. Miguel glanced over his shoulder, eyes glinting with mirth again. ‘Indeed it is. Well spotted. You don’t need to thank me, dathúil, I’ve already passed along your thanks to the chickens… Heh.’ He picked up his own plate, already tucking in. The eggs were still hot, well-seasoned, and delightfully filling to your hungering belly. Miguel was confident, handsome and attractive. He was a caring and attentive lover, and a good cook. What would you owe him in turn? What was the downside of this man who was almost certainly too good to be true? His dark eyes looked over you, he hummed softly in thought before swallowing. ‘You don’t owe me anything.’ He spoke up, distracting you from your thoughts and nearly leaving you choking on your food. ‘I… I wasn’t-!’ ‘Heh. I could see it in your eyes; not used to being looked after. Cared for. Just relax, enjoy your breakfast… I’m not going to hurt you…’ He returned to his own food with a soft chuckle, and after a moment of surprised hesitation, you followed suit.
‘Can I-?’ Your attempt at helping were stopped as he softly took your empty plate from you with a gentle smile and a soft kiss to your cheek. As you blushed again, he chuckled softly. ‘No, no… You have done plenty for me already; you have been charming, attentive, loving… I want to take care of you, mo ghrá…’ The way he so casually purred into smooth Irish threatened to make you melt, and the little nervous chuckle escaped you, running one hand through your hair as your cheeks burned and blushed again.
Once again had Miguel refused your attempts to clean up after yourself, and you were left to examine the contents of his home; the soft woven blankets that had kept you warm through the night, the comforting heat and crackle of the flames in the fireplace, and the bow and quiver mounted above it. The arrow with the feathered flights of unknown birds, the bow carved with unknown etchings. Finally, you turned your attention to the writing desk, well used, the smoothed surface marred by scratches and faint stains of ink. Hints of an author who had spent many long hours sat here working on their latest creation. Miguel didn’t seem the type to sit and write, and you instead turned your gaze to the shelf above it, heavy with books, all by the same author. “The Winter Whimsy”, “The Fairest Folk”, “Wandering the Faelands”, and “The Tuatha, The Sidhe, and The Fae” Then there were far more numerous shorter novels, romance novels. You pulled one from the shelf and raised an eyebrow at the cover image; of a woman lost in the bare embrace of a muscular man. “Taken by the Fae Warrior.” You returned it to the shelf and ran a finger across the rest of the books. “Captured by the Fae Prince”, “Romance in the Wildwood”, “At the Mercy of the Faery King.” Among many others, all romances, all involving Faery folk. Gabriel O’Hara.
‘Who’s Gabriel?’ You couldn’t supress your curiousity as soon as you realised that Miguel had been lurking almost against your back, peering over the top of your head. He had been as silent as a shadow until you finished examining the book, then you felt his hands rest on your shoulders like falling feathers. ‘Mm….?’ ‘Who is Gabriel?’ ‘He is the man who wrote all the books you see. He is the man who sat at this desk many a night; scribing, typing, yawning in slumber, and pulling his hair in frustration.’ Miguel spoke like he was spooling the beginning of some great story, before catching himself, throat clearing softly. ‘… He’s my little brother.’ You turned to face him, meeting his gentle brown eyes and nervous smile. After a moment of silence, his smile faltered before returning. ‘…Hi.’ What did you do to land such a gorgeous man? The thought swirled across your brain along with several others, all focused on the man before him. A magnetism that made you want to press yourself against his body, kiss his lips, his cheeks, his jaw, his entire body. Taste his tongue, feel his muscles, and surrender to him into the utter bliss that only he could provide you; his strength, his heat, his seed- He kissed your cheek softly and you melted into his waiting arms, the gentle tingling where his lips met yours, that heady scent that threatened to leave you boneless and thoughtless again. ‘Stay with me…?’ His eyes were enchanting, voice soft, but it was so much more of a question then a demand. You were pulled to him, and only tore yourself away as thoughts of your life beyond this cabin. ‘I need to go… I need to go…’ You repeated it like a mantra, reassuring yourself until you managed to gather the willpower to pull away from him. Miguel’s eyes searched your face, then it was like he remembered something- like a front he was supposed to be maintaining. His smile faded, he blinked and his hug slipped away as his arms fell back to his sides, allowing you to stand on your own feet once again. ‘Yeah. Let’s get you home, handsome.’
As the busy city returned, you found your eyes drawn more to the man in the driver’s seat than the view before you; how his expression turned sour, how his nose and eyes wrinkled in irritation as if he could smell the full pollution the city made. ‘I-I’m just here.’ You spoke up as the street with your apartment came into view. The tires crunched on the road as the car slowed. ‘Thank you, Miguel. You’ve been… You’ve been wonderful. Very good to me.’ You opened the door and had two feet on the road before his hand grabbed your wrist, fingers gliding softly across your skin, that soft tingling remained. ‘I hope we can do this again…’ He called your name softly, then his fingers slipped from your grasp and he returned both hands to the wheel. ‘Yeah, it’d be nice.’ You met his charming smile, and closed the door. You watched him drive off before heading inside, and softly calling out as you shut the door to your apartment behind you. ‘Sprinkles!’ You hung up your coat, surveying the eggshell blue walls of your apartment. ‘Sprinkles, I’m home.’ The jingle of a soft bell, and your cat emerged from beneath the coffee table, the little bell collar falling silent as she lingered at a distance before you. Smiling, you crouched down, holding out a hand for your cat and frowned as she sniffed at you, then her tail went up, back arched and fur bristled before she hissed. You drew your hand back sharply as she made to claw at you. ‘Sprinkles, what the fuck-?!’ Your cat had never reacted so violently to you before. She had always been friendly and eager for your company. To a point. She was still a cat. Friendship and affection was at her discretion. You watched her slink away, slipping beneath the shadows of a table and watching you with a little growl in her throat. ‘Is this because I didn’t come home last night? You had food, water, and a clean litter box.’ You shrugged in disbelief at your cat’s odd behaviour before deciding that it was time to get changed into some clean clothes and get on with your life.
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Tag for @miguel-ohara-lover, who was looking forward to this.
Part 2 coming.
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moonmaiden1996 · 3 months ago
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His New Muse Part 1
I am beyond devastated that Kaos got cancelled, but the story and character where so good I will not stop writing.
Orpheus plan is set in motion
Orpheus had long believed that his heart could never be whole again. The pieces of it lay scattered, remnants of the love he had lost, the life he could never return to. Riddy had been everything—his muse, his obsession, the centre of his world. But that was a long time ago, in another life. After she slipped away, he wandered through life like a ghost, empty and disconnected, searching for something to fill the void.
Then he saw you.
It happened in the most ordinary of moments. You were walking through a crowded street, your attention focused elsewhere, oblivious to the world around you. Yet in that brief second, time seemed to slow, and Orpheus saw you—truly saw you. It wasn’t just your beauty that struck him, though that certainly caught his eye. It was something more, something that stirred deep within him, something that awakened a part of him he thought had died.
It was your smile, a fleeting expression that hinted at some private joy. The way your hair moved in the breeze, catching the light, or perhaps it was the graceful way you carried yourself, exuding quiet confidence. He couldn’t quite place it, but in that instant, Orpheus knew: you were different. You were special. You were what he had been searching for.
And from that moment on, you became his world.
Orpheus wasn’t impulsive this time. No, he had learnt from his past, from the mistakes he made with Riddy. He had clung to her too tightly, suffocated her with his overwhelming need for her to be his everything. But not with you. This time, he would be patient. He would approach carefully, deliberately. He would make you want him as much as he wanted you.
That was where the obsession started. It began as something subtle—harmless, even. He couldn’t stop thinking about you. In the quiet hours of the night, his mind wandered back to your face, the way your lips curved when you smiled, the warmth in your eyes. He found himself imagining your voice, the sound of your laughter, wondering what it would be like to hear you say his name.
And so, he watched. He found himself in places he knew you’d be, always on the edges of your life, never too close, but never far enough to lose sight of you. At first, it was enough just to observe—to see the way you moved through the world, to learn your habits, your routines. It was like studying a piece of music, learning its intricacies, its subtleties. You became his composition, and he was determined to perfect every note.
The first time he spoke to you was at the café you often visited to read. Orpheus had positioned himself nearby, pretending to be engrossed in his own book, though in reality, he was waiting for the right moment. When he finally approached, his voice was soft, his smile disarming.
“Mind if I sit here?” he asked, gesturing to the seat across from you.
You glanced up, your eyes meeting his for the first time. The moment was electric. There was a flicker of something in your gaze—curiosity, perhaps—but you didn’t linger on him for long. You nodded politely, offering a brief smile before returning to your book.
It wasn’t much, but it was enough for him. Enough to plant the first seed.
Orpheus knew how to play this game. He wouldn’t overwhelm you, not at first. He would be charming, mysterious, just enough to pique your interest. He would weave himself into your life slowly, like a song that you couldn’t quite get out of your head. He would make sure that you thought about him, wondered about him, until he became impossible to ignore.
Weeks passed, and each encounter brought you closer. Orpheus was careful to keep the balance—never too eager, but always there, a steady presence that you began to rely on. You found yourself looking forward to seeing him, his easy smile, the way his voice wrapped around your name when he greeted you.
There was something about him that made you feel at ease, like you could let your guard down. He listened intently when you spoke, his attention never wavering, making you feel as if you were the only person in the room. And yet, there was an intensity in his gaze, a heat that simmered just beneath the surface. You could feel it, even if you didn’t fully understand it.
For Orpheus, this was all part of the plan. He was in control, guiding you down the path he had carefully laid out. Every conversation, every laugh, every shared moment—it was all part of the symphony he was composing. And soon, you would be unable to resist its pull.
But the obsession grew. No matter how much time he spent with you, it was never enough. He craved you—your presence, your touch, your voice. He found himself thinking about you constantly, replaying every interaction in his mind, analysing every word you said, every glance you gave him. He wanted more. He needed more.
He started to fantasise, imagining what it would be like to hold you, to kiss you, to claim you as his. The thought consumed him. It wasn’t just about desire; it was deeper than that. You were his new beginning, his second chance. The more time he spent with you, the more convinced he became that you were meant to be his. He had to have you—all of you.
One evening, after another long conversation over coffee, Orpheus walked you home. The air was crisp, and the streetlights cast a soft glow around you as you chatted about nothing in particular. But beneath the casual conversation, there was an undercurrent of tension, something unspoken but palpable.
When you reached your door, there was a moment of hesitation. You turned to him, offering a warm smile, but Orpheus saw something else in your eyes—something deeper. He stepped closer, his voice dropping to a low murmur.
“I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you,” he confessed, his gaze locking onto yours. His words were smooth, but there was an edge to them, a rawness that sent a shiver down your spine. “You’re all I can think about.”
Your heart raced at the intensity of his gaze, the vulnerability in his voice. You felt drawn to him, like a moth to a flame. Without thinking, you closed the distance between you, your lips meeting his in a soft, tentative kiss.
But once you kissed him, something inside Orpheus snapped. The restraint he had been holding onto so carefully shattered, and he deepened the kiss with a hunger that took your breath away. His hands moved to your waist, pulling you closer, as if he couldn’t bear to be apart from you for another second.
When you finally pulled away, both of you breathless, Orpheus rested his forehead against yours, his eyes half-closed. “You have no idea what you’ve done to me,” he whispered, his voice rough with emotion.
You felt a thrill of excitement, but there was something else there too—a flicker of uncertainty, a sense that this connection was more intense than you had anticipated.
For Orpheus, the kiss was only the beginning. Now that he had tasted you, now that he had felt the warmth of your lips against his, there was no turning back. His obsession had taken root, and it was growing stronger every day. He would have you—all of you. He would make sure that you needed him as much as he needed you, that you couldn’t imagine your life without him.
And he would do it carefully, methodically, just as he had planned from the beginning.
But you, blissfully unaware of the depth of Orpheus’s fixation, couldn’t see the darker undertones beneath his affection. In your eyes, he was simply a man who had fallen for you—perhaps a little more quickly than you expected, but wasn’t that part of the romance? You thought of his intensity as passion, his closeness as care. Every glance he cast your way, every lingering touch, only made you feel more desired.
You didn’t notice the way his eyes would follow your every move, how he seemed to know exactly where you’d be without asking. When he showed up at your favourite spots unannounced, you thought it was fate. When he remembered details about your life that you barely mentioned, you assumed it was simply attentiveness. You didn’t realise that each of these moments had been carefully curated by him—an orchestration you were unknowingly playing a part in.
To you, Orpheus was a man in love. But to him, you were the melody he needed to possess, and he would stop at nothing to ensure that you were his, and his alone.
The idea of love, for you, was still innocent—a fairytale. But Orpheus knew that this story wasn’t quite as simple. This was a love story, yes, but one that you hadn’t fully grasped yet.
First Chapter- Please let me know what you think. The next chapter will be a lot more....graphic and intimate.
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mythicalmisery · 1 year ago
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"How Many Fingers Am I Holding Up?"
Characters: Dick Grayson, Jason Todd
CW: alcohol (abuse), emotional angst, minor injuries
The moon hung low in the night sky, casting a silvery glow over the Haley's Circus grounds. The tents and booths stood tall, their vibrant colors faded by years on the road. Old paint chipping away on battered wood that was disassembled one too many times. It still felt like home to Dick even after all these years as he walked through the aisles. He came to a stop as they reached the big top, the heart of Haley’s circus and where his life changed forever.
The circus settled in Gotham for about a two-week-long residency every year since he was a child. Even so, he hadn’t been able to bring himself to visit for quite some time. That fact probably wouldn’t have changed for years to come but this visit to Gotham happened to line up perfectly with the anniversary of his parent’s death. However bittersweet it was, he knew he wanted to be here. The last place he ever saw them. Felt his mother's arms wrap him in a tight hug. Felt his father's laugh shake his whole body when he would sit on his lap. He flinched when he felt Jason clap him on his shoulder, shaking him out of his reverie. 
“You good, Goldie?” The younger man asked before taking a swig from the whiskey bottle in his hand. Face scrunching briefly as the burn made its way down his throat. The crumpled, cliche, brown paper bag over it crinkled in his grip. The whiskey wasn’t considered high shelf in any way, but it got the job done. 
“Yeah, Jay. I just…” He didn’t finish the sentence, wasn’t entirely sure how. 
“I know, let's go inside before the security guard makes his way back though. I’m not saving your ass if we get caught.” 
They slipped through the tarp doors, instantly getting hit with the overwhelming smell of sawdust and stale popcorn. Dick reveled in the memories it brought with it. They made their way to one of the sections of wooden bleachers facing the center of the ring. Dick laid down on one of the benches, facing the ceiling, while Jason sat down beside him. He leaned back with his arms sprawled out at his sides and his legs kicked up in front of him. He handed the bottle to Dick after one last swig while subtly trying to get a read on the older man. 
He had just gotten out of the shower and was going to turn in for the night when he got a notification. He was pretty surprised to see it was a text asking if he wanted to grab a few drinks with Dick. It was rare these days for Jason to hang out with Dick outside of vigilante business, even more so for the man to voluntarily request to get wasted. He quickly ran through the list of possible birthdays and holidays in case he forgot an important date before he realized the significance. A small part of him selfishly beamed at the fact that Dick had come to him instead of Wally or Babs. 
They sat there on the bleachers for most of the night, passing the bottle back and forth. Jason didn’t say much, letting Dick reminisce about his circus days and first family. Offering an occasional laugh or acknowledgment here and there, never enough to interrupt. He could tell the whiskey was getting to Dick as his words became more and more slurred, the boy wonder was typically a beer man and it was showing. He’d be lying if he said he wasn’t feeling it himself. After one particular story about the first time his parents let him try the tightrope, his smile faltered and that look appeared again. That haunted look he noticed outside when Dick saw the tent for the first time again. He glanced over when Dick started to move, brows furrowed with a sense of determination? anger? he wasn’t really sure. He quickly stood up, wobbly and lacking his usual grace from the alcohol. He steadied himself as best he could before climbing down the wooden bleachers.
“Dick, what are you doing?” Jason asked, concern lacing his voice and probably his face as well. 
“I want t-to do it, Jay,” Dick slurred. He was halfway across the tent now, walking - more like stumbling - towards one of the two giant metal beams at the side of the ring. “I want to walk the tightrope again.”
Jason knew it was a horrible idea. Dick was fucking plastered, and as talented as the man was, attempting such a feat in his current state was reckless at best and suicidal at worst. “Dick, come on, this isn’t the time.”
But Dick was already climbing the ladder by the time Jason got to his feet. His leg slipped once, twice, and Jason cursed under his breath. The golden boy was going to get himself killed, and then in turn Bruce was going to kill him. He really wanted the second time around to last a bit longer than this. 
Dick finally reached the top of the ladder, pulling himself up onto the small platform while ignoring Jason’s shouts from below. He closed his eyes as the memories flooded back, and for a moment, he felt like a child again, as if the weight of the world was lifted from his shoulders. He could hear the imaginary applause of the crowd, the cheers of his parents as they encouraged him. He could feel the warmth of the spotlight again as it followed him. He slowly opened his eyes back open, reality crashing back in as he was met with darkness. The only spotlight there was the pale, cold, light of the moon shining through the cracks of the tent. His eyes steeled as determination set in. With a roll of his shoulders, he took his first step onto the tightrope. He balanced precariously, his arms outstretched as if seeking the approval of an audience that existed only in his memories. 
Jason watched in silent terror as Dick made his way across the tightrope, his heart in his throat with every wobble. His shouts clearly hadn’t gotten through to the man and climbing up after him wouldn’t solve anything. Even if he was fast enough to climb up there in time, he didn’t feel like wrestling with a drunk Dick Grayson on the small platform twenty feet in the air. The acrobats were the last act of the night, so the safety net was folded up and tucked into the corner of the tent. If Dick fell, it would be a long and painful drop to the ground.
Dick gets about halfway across the rope before the emotions and alcohol finally take over. His muscle memory can only help so much when his brain is soaked in 90 proof. His balance falters as he teeters on the edge of disaster. He can hear Jason yell out from below as he finally gives in and leans to one side. His stomach twists with that familiar feeling that free fall always brings him as his foot loses contact at last. He expects the crash to happen in a few seconds, arms braced around his body. Some self-preservation fighting through the seemingly dead embers of his brain. 
He gets the wind knocked out of him as something slams into his side, sending him rolling against the dirt-covered floor of the circus tent. It takes a few moments to realize that the object was in fact a body that had tackled him in mid-air. He looks over to his side with wide eyes as he takes in Jason’s body next to his, gasping and groaning in pain from their impact. His own body is slightly numb from the alcohol and adrenaline, but not enough to ignore the protests his back and shoulder scream at him as he tries to move. He goes to speak but he’s met with a coughing fit instead, threatening to turn into him vomiting all over himself. He can just barely hear Jason yelling over the ringing in his ears. He’s able to make out a “You fucking idiot!” and a well-deserved “What the hell were you thinking!?” 
Jason looks down at Dick as he’s finally able to get a handle on his coughing fit that wracks his body. There’s really no point when Jason is two seconds away from strangling the life out of the man himself. He’s furious. He’s about to rip Dick a new one until the golden boy finally makes eye contact with him. Tears are welling up in those blue eyes, not from the physical pain, but from all that emotional turmoil that had driven him to even complete the reckless act. Dick was hurting, and the last thing he needed was to be scorned right now. Jason was the last person who could judge Dick for acting out and being reckless when he was hurting in this way. Hell, Jason was practically the poster boy for emotionally unstable and unhealthy coping mechanisms. 
The tension in Jason’s body softens and he surrenders with a sigh. “How many fingers am I holding up?” He asks, partially teasing. The other half actually worried. 
Dick blinks through the tears, trying to focus on Jason’s hand. “Two,” he replied, his voice barely above a whisper.
Jason can’t help but smile at Dick’s response. “Close enough, Dickface.”
They laid there on the circus floor, side by side, for a few minutes as their breath gradually returned to normal. A comfortable silence as Dick put himself back together and Jason kept him company. Dick eventually broke the silence. “We should probably go home, Jay”
Jason nodded, helping Dick to his feet. He could hold in the groan he wanted to let out but not so much the pained wince of his face. Dick noticed and instantly had that oh-so-very Dick Grayson guilty look he liked to sport, forever the martyr. “I’m fine Dick, really. Let’s just get home so we can sleep it off. Gonna be a hell of a hangover,” Jason interrupts before he can start word-vomiting his predictable apologies. Dick just gave in and weakly nodded, clearly not looking for a fight at the moment. Jason put his arm around his shoulders when he noticed the slight limp to Dick’s gate as he tried taking a few steps. 
“Thanks, Jason” Dick weakly stated.
“Sure thing”
“I don’t mean for this”
“I know Dickie, I know…”
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erotomania-if · 3 years ago
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Welcome to your life as a film star!
At 19 you broke onto the scene after your debut role in a low-budget independent movie became a film festival favourite across the globe. Sky-rocketing you into the public eye and opening doors into the industry most could only dream of, you decided to grab the opportunity, moving your whole life across the pond to America, determined to follow this path wherever it would lead.
Now, at 24, it seems like you can do no wrong. A popular and well liked household name, with a string of acclaimed performances under your belt, you’ve quickly become one of your agency’s favourite stars. And, with your biggest role to date just within your grasp, it seems that your shine is only going to continue to get brighter.
Behind the scenes, however, is another matter. 
After a whirlwind romance, and an impulsive Vegas wedding, with Tinsel Town’s most notorious trouble-maker, it took less than a year for you to walk in on them in bed with someone else. It’s been a month since the woman sold her story to the press and, since then, life has felt like one long damage control event as you try to figure out how to get through this with both of your careers intact.
Shouldn’t be too hard, right?
Features 
Customise your name, gender, appearance, filmography and personality.
Explore 5 romance options, 2 of them gender selectable.
Navigate the press, your fans, your agency and your loved ones, while you try to keep your house of cards together.
Throw parties, attend an award ceremony or two, head to Vegas for the big fight, star in a movie, do interviews... the world is your proverbial oyster!
Please keep in mind that this is meant to be a **fun** project, a place to play around with coding and try to find out exactly how much variation is too much, all to better help me with my demo for my main project. This is going to be a perpetual WIP, the main thing I’ll be focusing on first is the character creator, and getting to know the characters a little better. Then, this story will be updated in chunks rather than chapters, hopefully with plenty of feedback from the people who choose to come along with me on this lol. Also this is 18+ 
So, for those of y’all choosing to stay.... 
Character Descriptions Under the Cut!
RO’s
Hope Holloway, 29 (m / f / nb)
- The Spouse - 
With platinum blonde hair, pale skin, and a myriad of tattoos, they look every bit the celebrity wild child the general public knows them as. A lean 6′1, and infamous for their quick temper, they’re the charismatic frontman of the band Lost Hope, a gossip page favourite, and the person who broke your heart. 
Will you be able to work through it? Or has your whirlwind romance finally reached its end? 
American / Caucasian 
Christian/Christina Russo, 35 (m/ f)
- The Co-Star - 
5′10 with sun kissed skin, big brown eyes, and lightly tousled shoulder length hair, your two time co-star, and one of the biggest headliners in the industry, has taken the public shipping of the pair of you by fans with nothing but grace and good humour. A dedicated single parent, talented actor, and well-known hardworker, there’s plenty of reasons to admire them. 
And, if the gossip pages are to be believed, you’ll soon be working together more closely than ever. 
British / Italian
Samata Boateng, 26 (f)
- The Documentarian - 
An athletic 5′2, with rich brown skin and braids that fall to her waist, she has already proven herself capable of hiding her more cutthroat tendencies behind a smokescreen of sweetness and smiles. Frequently the smartest person in the room, her determination knows no bounds and, unfortunately for you, you’re the person now standing between her and her next big break. 
Will you manage to keep your act together? Or will this documentary prove to be your downfall?
American / Iranian / Ghanaian 
Jamie Walsh, 28 (nb)
- The Stranger - 
A complete unknown. Appears to work at least a dozen different service jobs that keep your paths crossing, sometimes in the strangest of places. 5′9 with perpetually unkempt hair and a penchant for black clothing, their world could not be any more different than your own, a fact made only all the more obvious by the fact that they seem to have no idea who you are.
Will you set them straight? Or will you play along and indulge in the charade of normalcy for just a little longer?
American / Irish
Anjelo Manu, 25 (m)
- The Bodyguard - 
Hired by your Agency in response to some of the more concerning fanmail that’s been sent your way since the story broke. Despite his relatively young age, standing at 6′4, and nearly 300lbs of pure muscle, this mountain of a man came highly recommended and is known professionally for being quiet, polite and unerringly dedicated to his job. 
He may be your employee, but with his kind eyes and surprisingly gentle nature, will you find there’s more to this man than meets the eye?
Tongan / Japanese
Side Characters
Harriett ‘Harry’ Langford, 24 (f)
- Your PA -
You’ve known Harry your whole life, your best friend through thick and thin, when you made it into the big leagues it only made sense that she would come with you. A constant lifesaver and your proverbial rock during the low times, you don’t know what you’d do without her by your side through this.
Molly Russo, 5 (f)
Adorable and charming, truly a miniature version of her famous parent, she lives her life the way only a five-year old can, believing she is the centre of the universe. For better or worse, and whether you like it or not, she seems to have taken a shine to you in particular.
Mack and Cheese, 6 and 2 (m)
Hope’s not-so faithful hounds. Both Rottweilers, Mack is calm, gentle, and a trained guard dog, while Cheese is... none of those things. Truly the idiot child of the family but no-one would have him any other way. Except, possibly, Mack.
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strangelysamantha · 3 years ago
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hey, i have a jj maybank request! fem!reader, possible angst!
so basically, y/n is a pogue and gets along with the other pogues (john b, pope, sarah, kiara & cleo) except for jj. y/n is always bright, a total sweetheart and bubbly and jj…hates it.
john b recently opens up a surf board shop on that stranded island that they’re on?? and he leaves y/n and jj alone to polish some boards hoping that they’d get along. jj complains about every little thing y/n does and starts calling her names. she gets really upset and storms out the shop to clear her head. she goes by the water for a swim but a dangerous tide picks her up and jj notices and saves her?? hopefully this makes sense!
the deep end ☆
jj maybank x fem!reader.
warnings: mentions of drowning, jj being an asshole, swearing.
words: 1,674.
summary: jj somehow finds everything you do annoying to the point he criticizes everything you do. john b thinks of a plan that will ensure his two friends will befriend each other. it was working at first, until it wasn’t.
request? yes!
a/n: y’all have such good ideas what the?! thank you for the request! if you enjoyed please like and comment. this is angst with fluff at the end. <3 BTW i am from missouri and have never surfed so i hope i got the polishing of the surfboards correct. :)
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john b always had a plan, well usually he did. if two of his friends were fighting, he would always find a way to get them to get along. he knew that stranding kiara and sarah on a boat together in the middle of nowhere would force them to fix their friendship. so, with that knowledge, he knew that he could do the same thing with jj and you.
you were always nice to jj, he just seemed to get annoyed with you all the time. you didn’t know what you had done, if you had even done something. he just always felt the need to critique you. it became harder and harder everyday to ignore him.
since washing up on the abandoned island, john b was ecstatic for his brand new start. unsurprisingly to anyone, his first idea for creating a new civilization would be a surf shack. he started building it right away. you would occasionally help, but he was determined to do it on his own so he would always send you away.
“okay! john b what would you like my help with? i can do anything you need. just let me know.” you smile brightly at john b, while he stared at you. “listen, i love you. but, i don’t need your help at the moment. you should talk to everyone else.” you frown at his words, “fine. but you better get me the minute you need assistance.” he nodded. “will do.” and with that, you left joining the others.
jj was talking to cleo before silencing upon your arrival. “hey everyone!” you smile at the group in front of you. “hey! how’s john b?” kiara asked. “i think he is good, he’s actually pretty much done.” you play with the bracelet on your wrist. kiara nods, “that’s great.” pope smiles, “statistically speaking, we can’t ensure that his shack will be entirely safe as he built it all on his own.” you stare at pope. “true… we’ll let’s hope it doesn’t collapse on him.” pope smiled at you, glad you listened to his random fact.
jj groaned. “awe, how sweet pope!! you found a girl who wasn’t disgusted by your weird and useless knowledge.” you gasp in shock, “jj! shut up you are so rude.” jj laughs, “it’s just a joke, why do you always have to be so offended?” you glare at jj. “jj it’s not funny, you’re just a dick.” pope sighs. “it’s okay, don’t worry.” you frown in popes direction. you quietly pull away from the group. you walk to an area of sand, plopping yourself down. that’s when john b approached you.
“hey, remember when i told you i would come get you when i needed help?” john b smiled at you. “yes! do you need my help?” you tilt your head to the side, waiting. he nods. “i need you to wax up some of the boards i made.” you nod. “okay! sure.” he walked you to his shack, helping you set up. you began waxing the board, paying attention to the direction and the amount of wax you were applying. john b waits a minute watching you, before he decides to leave.
after a minute, you see jj approaching the shack with john b who held a smug smile on his lips. you shake your head, confused. “friends.” he looked between you and jj. jj held an unamused look on his face. “as my close friends, you will wax these boards for me. you can’t stop until you guys fix whatever feud is going on between the two of you.” john b stands his ground. jj scoffs, “we don’t have a feud.” you nod your head in agreement. “jj is right, his hatred is definitely one sided... it is not a feud.” you laugh softly seeing jj send a glare your way. “yeah okay. whatever guys. just fix it, and if you even try and leave, i’ll send cleo after both of you.” your eyebrows lift in shock. you mutter a quick okay, returning your attention to the board.
jj stares at you, watching you apply the wax. he couldn’t help but get upset. everything you did just made him annoyed. he grabbed the wax, working on the board right by yours. silence falls over the two of you. it’s not awkward or weird, it actually feels quite normal. until jj interrupted it so he could judge you.
“youre doing it wrong. i mean come on.” you stare at jj, “jj please just focus on your own board.” you shake your head, continuing to polish the surfboard. he glares at you. “whatever. just keep doing what you are doing, and then john b or i will fix it after you.” his attention turned back to his board. you rolled your eyes. “i will, thank you.” he breathes in, inhaling the waxy scent. “you are so annoying you know that?” you ignore jj’s words, focusing on the board. he continues, “i mean everything you do. everything you say, it pisses me off.” you nod slightly. “you done?”
“no, actually i’m not.” you bite your lip, fixating on the wax that is spreading along the smooth surface. jj stops waxing the surfboard. you look up to see he is already staring at you. “you know, you act like you are better than us, i mean why do you hang out with us anyway?” jj waits but continues when he realizes you won’t reply. “you are fake, you are so upbeat and bubbly that it’s annoying. you are a double sided two faced bitch who says anything to get in good graces.” you inhale, looking up at him.
“listen jj. we are stranded on this fucking island. TOGETHER. so either drop it and move on, or just shut the fuck up and stay away from me.” you place your hands on your hips, breathing slightly staggered from anger. “everyone speaks so highly of you saying how great you are; but the only jj i’ve met is a total douche. if you hate me so much then just stay the fuck away from me. if you continue you’ll just be wasting your breath and energy anyway.” jj holds back a laugh at your sudden outburst.
“you really think if i had the choice, i would want to be here? especially with you?” jj asked, you already knowing the answer. you stay silent. “exactly. no one can deal with you for that long anyway.” you roll your eyes.
“whatever jj. you win.” you toss the wax to the side, frowning. you don’t turn back to him, you just ignore him. you start to walk towards the beaches seashore. it was getting slightly hot, so you decided to take a dip into the water.
you were salvaging the few moments of freedom you had, before you got john b’s and cleo’s wrath from leaving the scene before mending the friendship with jj. it was practically impossible. what did jj have against you? you tip toed into the water, getting deeper and deeper. you floated at the top of the water; the coolness feeling great on top of your hot skin.
jj truly had the biggest nerve, your mind was overwhelmingly clogged. you felt seaweed scratch against the bottom of your foot, this caused you to jump, your adrenaline levels rising since you thought it was a fish. you try to remain afloat, but the high tide caused the waves to crash right over you repeatedly, being faster and higher than ever. you went above water trying to shout for help, but your mouth was filled, causing no sound to come out. you thrash against the water, kicking to stay afloat. your throat was burning, your legs tired from kicking, and your lungs filled with liquid.
a pair of hands wrap around your stomach, dragging you out the water. you were placed on the warm sand. “shit.” jj stared at you. your head felt light. jj’s hand began pumping your chest, curses falling from his mouth. “come on, just breathe. please.” you cough, the salt water exiting your lungs, and dropping onto your neck. you gasp for air, opening your eyes to be met with jj’s face. you breathe heavily for a minute.
“jj… thank you.” you sit up, pulling him into a tight hug. your hands wrap around his neck, one of them grabbing his hair. his arms held tightly around your waist. his chest was heaving heavily, shaking slightly. “i hate to be so cliché j, but you genuinely saved my life.” he frowns at you. “i almost lost you.”
jj’s confession confused you. “what?” you say softly, your hand combed through his hair. “look. the reason i’m so mean to you, is because i knew that if i was nice to you, my already intense feelings for you would only amplify.” you frown at him. “you’ve had a crush on me this whole time?” jj nodded. you went to talk, but your friends interrupted the moment.
john b rushed to your side, kiara and pope swiftly behind him. “what happened!! we were watching from over there.” john b pointed in a direction farther away. “one minute you were swimming… the next you we’re gone!?” you wipe your neck, trying to dry it off. “jj saved my life. i almost drowned.” you frown, the group in front of you nodded. “im so glad you are okay.” kiara bent down pulling you into a hug. “i’m glad you are safe now too.” pope joined in on the hug; as well as everyone else.
sarah, kiara, and cleo bend down, reaching for your hands. they help you up, dragging you to your feet. they walk you away from the crowd, bombarding you with questions. “so when you were drowning what did it feel like??” you turn around watching jj, you smile slightly before turning to them. “oh get ready for the amount of details i’m going to give you guys.”
possibly a part two…??? not sure yet :) <3 also!! i’m proofreading this tomorrow since i’m not entirely sure if it has errors or not! ily!!
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witch-hazels-musings · 3 years ago
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It’s 🍪!
You have this ‘My Sunshine’ (?) fic where the reader is an absolute ball of sunshine and I LOVE it! Could you do a part two with Zhongli, Childe and Albedo please?
Mwah!
My Sunshine
( what an incredible choice of characters! Thank you for adding to one of my favorite fics!! ) 
Warning -> SFW, Fluff
Character X GN Reader | Anthology 
Includes: Albedo, Childe, Zhongli 
Albedo 
It was the way you greeted the world around you - with pleasant smiles, patient hands, caring and compassionate eyes. You saw the world for what it could be, the beauty of it and while Albedo searched for the answer in the universe, you already seemed to have found them 
He noticed you on his wanderings through the city. His hands were already moving to draw your expressions in a hope to capture everything that he possibly could - how could he capture the intensity of the sun itself, of a flower basking in the afternoon glow, or a firefly so vibrant that it burned orange and beautiful 
You were bouncing on your toes, smiling kindly at the people who walked by while you patiently waited for anyone to stop by. Not many people purchased flowers every single day, but you found it wasn’t hard to proposition people with your generous smile and pin-point compliments. 
“My! I have never seen something so beautiful in all my life.” You began, bending to rest your hands on your knees while catching the attention of a small young girl who had been glancing at the array of flowers at your side. She looked at you confused, a bit nervous but didn’t back away. 
Reaching for a small white flower, you trimmed the leaves and hummed a little tune before turning back to her. “A lovely flower like you must attract so much goodness. Even this daisy is impressed by your radiance!" She giggled and you continued, "Would you do me a favor?” You smiled at her, eyes showing only the purest of shine. The little girl nodded her head and you began again, “Could you carry this flower and help it grow? If it's you, I'm sure it'll turn just as beautiful?” 
The little girl wrapped her small fingers around the stem, her smile and giggle so powerful that Albedo was sure you cast a magic spell because as he watched her gallop away back to her parents, the flowers near you began to glisten and the sketch on his page came to life. 
He was unsure how to make a connection with you, so more often than not he would find himself purchasing flowers he didn’t really have the necessity for - but perhaps if he gathered enough up, he’d have a bouquet glorious enough to equal your soul 
“Mr. Albedo, pleasure seeing you again.” You brushed off your apron and turned to him. Your eyes closing and head tilting, a standard greeting of yours. “I have some rather rare flowers in stock today if you’d like to take a look.” 
“I am actually here to inquire if you had any Asters; the research institute has just run out.” 
“Hmm, let me check for you.” You bowed slightly before disappearing behind the many stalls and carriers of your wares. He scanned the flowers as he waited for your return. Gloved fingers inspecting the petals of flowers and, in his wandering thoughts, he began to investigate which one reminded him the most of you. “Mr. Albedo, I am sorry, it seems we are fresh out.” 
“I see …” 
“Ah! However, I needed to gather several other plants today. If you come back tomorrow I will set them aside for you.” You waved at the other worker as if to inform them of your intentions and quickly reached for the basket near the stall. 
“Actually, would it be too much of a bother if I were to travel with you?” 
You paused, staring at him with eyes wide and mouth slightly parted. What was this feeling in his chest, it hurt. “I would never pass up an opportunity to share in your company! What a splendid day this is turning out to be.” 
“Thank you, I will keep out of your way.” 
“Not too much I hope. So, Mr. Albedo, are you ready?” You turned to head toward the front gate and he followed after you. 
“Yes, and please, just Albedo is fine.” 
“Alrighty then, Albedo.” Ah, yes, that’s why his heart hurt. 
There you were, the wind wrapping around you as you stood in a field of flowers - the reflection of light difficult to pinpoint for as bright as the sun shined down onto the plane below, you were just as intense and, in fact, you may be the most luminous creature to ever exist -- how could he possibly reach something like you 
Childe
His world had never been bright -- from the snowy landscape that threatened every day to freeze the warm hearts that beat on its surface, to the dark void that he fought through as an adolescent, to the harsh and demanding ladder he climbed in service to his cause -- he’d never known the light … his had been seized so long ago 
So when he found a flicking candle, a small flame in his dark corridor, he walked to it - ran for it - and to see the glory reflected on the other side was something he fixated on until he could hold the candle safe in his arms 
He clenched his jaw and sighed. These boring briefings were never something he cared to participate in. He was more for action rather than words, so instead of listening to the updates from the short, purple-haired harbinger, he instead gazed out the open window at the city below. 
Liyue had shifted from a temporary destination into a permanent one as the tasks and duties continued to lengthen his stay. At least he didn’t mind the city, not like some of the other places he’d stay at. Just as he was about to drift back to the boring discussion, he heard a voice drift up to him. A lively, giddy voice that stole all of his attention and focus, but as soon as you entered into view his minimal interest piqued into desperation. 
“Wait up! You can’t tell me that this isn’t a beautiful day, just take it all in!” You spread your arms wide and spun with so much energy that the inertia made you stumble, luckily you caught yourself before running into some poor passerby. Childe smiled and rested his chin on his palm as he looked down at the loveliness that was your everything. 
You laughed, and the way your hands flew to your lips to cover the sound made him jealous of those fingers. You spoke, words falling off of your tongue like sugar and he grew antsy at the thought of not tasting it. You existed, and he needed a piece of it. 
Waving to his subordinate, he spoke in a hushed whisper, and while the meeting continued to drone on, he made his first step at capturing a star. 
The more information he gathered, the more interactions he had with you - the more he fell into your luster, the richer his feelings grew for you 
His actions were that of a child just looking for a comforting glow in their endless darkness, hands cupped to keep it alive, breathing held for fear of accidentally blowing it out - stay, please stay 
He called your name, the sound of his voice dissipating in the open space as he searched for any sign of you. 
“Hey there!” You called out to him, and when he looked up toward your voice, he smiled. Your legs dangled off the tree limb, your hands wrapping around the bark as you balanced there. 
“How is the view?” He asked, crossing his arms and staring at you from below. How did you get up there, he wondered. 
“Beautiful, I can see so much from up here. It’s like a whole different perspective.” You breathed in deeply and lifted your arms to reach for the sky above you. “How about you join me?” 
“I’m not sure I can, I don’t even know how you got up there.” 
“Sheer will and determination!” Giggling, he thought maybe you were actually a mythical creature in the fairytales he used to read as a kid. There was no way you could live in this world and be so positive, it had to be you were something beyond this world. “I’ll come down to you.” Twisting, you wiggled onto your stomach before letting yourself drop onto the ground below. It was further than you thought and as soon as your feet hit the earth, your body became off balance and tumbled backward. 
Childe easily caught you, his sturdy chest supporting you and arms extended so your hands could have something to grab onto. 
“Ooh, that was exhilarating.” Tilting your head, you turned to look at him and for a moment he felt his lips scream for yours. He wanted to let you go, but how could you when you fit so perfectly in his arms. “Childe?” 
“You’re something else.” This was dangerous, you were dangerous, and now that he knew what it was like to feel the brightness of the light, he would never let the dark creep back in. 
He needed you - it was apparent - and he hoped one day you’d realize you needed him too. A light like yours truly needed to shine in the darkness of places, so choose his, please choose his 
Zhongli 
There is no one in this world that would understand luster better than he - no one who could see the shine inside a being as clearly as one with eyes who’ve witnessed the birth and eventual death of the universe. The great Morax, the ruthless Rex Lapis, the gentle and patient Zhongli are one and the same, and the visions they’ve witnessed cannot be forgotten 
So, to see a person with purity so refined, that even the dullest observers could clearly recognize, he found it nearly impossible to look away 
He heard tell of a new performer joining the Pearl, someone who had shown great elegance and glorious promise at wowing the crowds. As a man who fancied the arts of all kinds, he was intrigued by the rumors and whispers. So, when the schedule showed the name of this new performer, he made his way to the boat drifting on the sea. 
His lips tasted the sweet flavor of tea but his eyes soaked in the delectable movements of your body. The graceful bow of your spin, the bending and twisting of your limbs as you moved just enough to tell your story on the swaying stage. He felt the history in your dance, the pride in your fluttering fan as you moved it across your face, the snap of truth as you forced it up toward the sky. He was transfixed, as he was sure all were. 
When you finished, you began to greet the many interested patrons eager to hear the sound of your voice. There was no way he could have known how transfixing you would be when he heard it. 
“What a stunning performance.” Zhongli mused, his head bowing, a mirror of your own gesture. 
“That is great praise from someone such as yourself.” You smiled and he was reminded of glaze lilies. 
“Pray tell, what was the inspiration for your dance?” 
“Ah, an insightful question, not unexpected I must say.” You laughed and moved your hands to your chest, elegant fingers resting over your heart as you answered his question. “The light of a soul has so much insight, don’t you think? If the soul is radiant, the vessel's beauty is so easily seen, and if there is beauty shining so brightly that it can communicate out to those who look, it may shift just the tides of the future.” You laughed again, a bit more unreserved than the last, and somehow more telling to your honesty. “I’m sorry, I hope that answered your question.” 
“Splendidly, and then some.” He found himself transfixed, captivated by a spirit shining before him. 
Spending time with you was as refreshing as standing in a mountain stream, as filling as a warm meal, as bright as the basking stars that littered the sky above and reflected in your eyes even in darkness 
“Zhongli, hello again.” He wandered into the garden, the gentle bubbling of the water as it fell along the rocks provided a lovely background to your visage. Carefully, you rested your fingers against the pages of your book as you looked up at him. The shadows of the shifting trees let highlights of the sun dance across your face and he couldn’t help but capture this image in his mind. 
“Good afternoon, you seem to be enjoying the day.” 
“As I always am. Nature has provided such elegant and lovely conditions that it would be a waste to not thank it, don’t you agree?” 
“Wholeheartedly.” He smiled, his hands gripping tighter around each other as they rested against the small of his back. It was incredible how nervous you made him; for a man who was a powerful as the mountains that looked down over the city, you made him feel like a tiny pebble in the stream begging to be touched by you. “May I join you?” 
“Absolutely, anything in this world can be improved by good company, and yours is always my favorite.”
“As yours is mine.” He sat on the stone bench next to you, his hands resting on his lap as he looked out across the scenery. You moved closer to him, your arms touching as you shared in the company of each other and, while his eyes drifted to your face, he watched how your smile and good nature made the flowers bloom. 
You were a compliment to his life. A perfect addition to the drift of time and as he looked at the future that stretched before him, he found your red wrapping perfectly around his amber 
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peachycoreroo · 4 years ago
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angel | kuroo tetsurou
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summary: the only thing that came to mind when you heard the word angel, was your crushes ex girlfriend. so what do you do when suddenly you’re the angel or how a book can bring two people together
pairing: college!kuroo tetsurou x fem!reader
genre: smut, a lotta plot tho, basically pwp
word count: 7.9k
warnings: dom!kuroo, fingering, oral fem! receiving, praise, both being extremly needy, it’s not really kinky, slight breeding kink tho, a few spanks, vaginal penetration
authors note: pls don’t even ask about the book thing, this entire thing is based of one of my dreams and i had no idea why the book appeared, but it did and i didn’t wanna leave it out soooo, ye<3 here’s a link to my masterlist
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you sighed, as you continued typing your essay. maybe coming to the coffee shop was not the best idea you had, since it was friday and apparently every college student on campus decided it was coffee time after their lecture, but you didn’t expect it to be so overflown with people.
sitting at the far back, you realized that you were not going to get any work done with how loud everyone around you was being, so you just sat back and observed the people around you, while drinking the cheap coffee you ordered earlier. observing and analyzing the behavior of those around you always came natural to you. some guy watching his girlfriend as she was deciding what to order, even though she was taking way too long, with love. a friend group of a few pretty girls walking past a table full of sexist pigs who thought the only way to get their attention was by whistling after them as if they were dogs.  and your crush looking at you.
wait.
huh?
quickly averting your eyes back to your laptop, you could feel your heart rate pick up to an unnatural speed. pretending to suddenly be terribly busy with drinking coffee, a million thoughts ran through your head. you were quite positive that you’ve seen his girlfriend sitting right next to him, so why was he staring so intensely at you?
it’s not as if you never talked. kuroo tetsurou was easily the most interesting person you have ever had the pleasure of having intellectual conversations with. you were taking some business classes in your third semester, since you thought they would be of value for your future. that’s where you met him. kuroo sat next to you since the first day of the lecture but you were way too intimidated by his attractiveness to start the first real conversation beyond greetings, so when the opportunity had arisen, you snatched it right away.
after one of the lectures, he left his phone on the desk and since he was already gone, you took it and hurried after him. just as he was leaving through the huge main doors of your university, you caught up to him and grabbed his arm. embarrassingly, not being the most athletic made you look like a creep as kuroo directed his confused stare at your form, hunched over, breathing hard but still latching onto his arm.
“uh, hi? y/n, right?”, the tall boys’ confusion lightly seeped into his questioning tone as his eyes moved between you and the hand you used to hold him back from walking further.
taking one last deep breath, you forced yourself to stand up right and look into his eyes, but oh, what mistake that was. funnily enough, you never actually looked directly into his eyes, so you didn’t expect to suddenly have to divert all your focus on trying to keep the gasp, you wanted to let out, in your throat. in your memories, from the milliseconds you had the courage to look into his eyes when he greeted you, his eyes were brown but all at once you were confronted with the most beautiful hazel eyes you have ever seen.
as a consequence of having to put all your mental capacity on not gasping out loud or even worse, admitting how attractive he was, the words that came out of your mouth only furthered your embarrassment.
“you. phone. lecture. forgot”, you stumbled over your words as if that were your first attempt at communicating.
feeling your already hot face burn brighter as tetsurous confusion further solidified on his handsome face, you only hoped he thought the running was responsible for you looking like a sweaty mess.
you forced yourself to let out a short laugh as you broke eye contact to gain back your composure. “sorry, I didn’t expect the running to get to me that bad. maybe lev is right, I should try some aerobics with him”, starting to mumble towards the end, you shook your head. “anyway, you forgot your phone on the table in our lecture just now. i didn’t want to hold onto it till thursday and didn’t know where else to find you, so i ran after you. m’ sorry if I kinda freaked you out”, you quickly added while holding out his phone to him.
as you never really talked to the tall man before, your head snapped up to look at him when you heard his deep chuckle. was there something that’s not attractive about this man?
taking the phone from your hands, you were finally able to experience the first full sentence kuroo tetsurou ever directed at you. “well, thanks. i definitely didn’t wanna be without a phone two whole days, so i appreciate you running after me with such determination”, he remarked, as he observed how out of breath you still were, grinning.
“oh god, you know, never doing anything nice for you ever again sounds good right about now”, you groaned, lifting a hand in front of your face to stop him from studying your slightly damp face.
nothing on this green-blue-brown floating rock in space that is also known as the earth, could have prepared you for what you were witnessing next. with your mouth slightly ajar, you looked at tetsurou as he leaned over, clutching his stomach, while letting out the funniest laugh you have ever heard in your life.
in your mind, you saw a quick flash of a scene from ‘the lion king’, in which one of the hyenas was laughing exactly like that. you briefly wondered whether kuroo was influenced by that scene as a kid before you couldn’t keep your laugh in anymore after the initial shock subdued.
“my apologies, the situation was just way too perfect for me to not tease you. i’d be honored if you’d grace me with your kindness again, my highness”, he slightly bowed while, once again, flashing you that sly smirk that made you wanna punch and make out with him at the same time.
you tried to match his energy as best as you could with your head jumbled from the proximity to the man you have been sitting next to every tuesday and thursday from 10 a.m. to 12 p.m., but looking back at the interaction, you couldn’t wrap your head around tetsurou wanting to continue talking to you after that conversation.
“i’ll consider it, peasant.”
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after that, you and your smart seatmate talked a lot more. you found out that he was majoring in sports management and minoring in chemistry even though it was so different from management, just because he liked it. lev, your best friend at college since the first day when he didn’t see you from his 6’5” point of view and knocked you over as you were looking at the menu in the very coffee shop you were currently sitting in, turned out to be one of kuroo’s old friends from high school. which let you to find out the most unfortunate information about kuroo tetsurou thus far.
as you were walking to your next lecture with the dark-haired man, lev joined in with a tall, blonde, and gorgeous woman by his side. you immediately recognized alisa, lev’s sister. even though the silver-haired boy was ginormous, he couldn’t hold his liquor very well, which resulted in you having to drag the giraffe of a human home after a party quite a few times. there, you met alisa.
wanting to go in for a hug with the beautiful blonde, you froze at once as you tried to process what you were seeing. tetsurou had an arm wrapped around her petite waist, the other one placed on her sharp jaw, as he softly pecked her lips.
lev excitedly started telling you about a new side job he got as a model and while you supported him with your whole heart and were genuinely proud of him for landing that job, you could only zero in on the sight in front of you. your eyes hyper focused on the way his large hands were gently grabbing her waist, your ears on the soft ‘how was your day?’ and flirty ‘better, now that you’re here’ exchanged.
putting on your best poker face and directing your attention to the excited titan beside you, your own reaction startled you. even more surprising was who you were jealous of. you did have a small crush on alisa at the start, who wouldn’t? she’s tall, beautiful, fun, loving, caring, alas she was way too similar to lev to develop a full-on crush on her. then, it dawned on you, that the one you were jealous of, was not tetsurou, but in fact, alisa.
of course, you thought your seatmate was attractive from the first moment you saw him, but how you managed to develop a crush on him without even realizing it, was beyond you. ugly, jealous thoughts made their way into your head about one of the most loveable people you met. those disgusting thoughts slithered their hands around your throat, trying to suffocate you and so you buried that small crush in the back of your mind.
after that encounter you kept your distance to the handsome male. it was better for you, your sanity and everyone involved. in no way were you ever going to go between a loving relationship because of your own selfish feelings.
for crying out loud, you didn’t even know kuroo that well while alisa was like a sister to you. however, you weren’t able to tune out the insecure voices in your head. of course, he liked tall, model-like women who resembled angels not only physically but also with their personality. who were you to compare yourself to her? not even you yourself liked who you were, so why would one of the most attractive guys you ever saw?
you deserved someone good, but alisa deserved the world, so you just wished that tetsurou was the best for her.
and while kuroo tetsurou was a lot of things, he wasn’t ignorant, so when you decided to sit down in another seat in the lecture a few times or made up some excuses as to why he couldn’t walk with you to your next seminar, he knew something was wrong.
which brings you back to right now, with you staring at your laptop, hoping that the boy you’ve been trying to avoid wouldn’t come over to check on you. alas, your luck was apparently all spent, because you could see a tall, dark figure drop themselves on the bench in front of you.
“y/n.”
at the low tone of his voice calling your name, you lifted your gaze from your laptop to look at the boy you were trying to stay clear of.
“hmm? oh, hey tetsurou. didn’t see you there.” bullshit, he thought.
“yeah, ’m here with alisa. just a quick break before she has her next lecture.” while saying that, kuroo focused on your expression, trying to gauge your emotions and maybe get a hint on why you were actively keeping him at arm’s length.
after taking a swift look in the direction the happy couple was sitting just a few minutes ago, you nodded and kept your eyes on your coffee.
“that’s nice, you should probably go back now though. don’t want you to waste precious date time”, you said cheerfully, but weren’t able to keep out the slightly bitter tone out of your voice. that’s exactly why you were trying to stay away from him. the sight of the merry couple only fueled your toxic thoughts about two people you cherished and even though you wished for them to be happy together, the insecurities deep inside you wouldn’t let you.
seeing the slight change in your voice and expression, kuroo cocked his head to the side. did he say the wrong thing?
“she’s already leaving, so i decided to catch up with you for a bit.”
fantastic.
“well,” you remarked while closing your laptop and starting to pack your things, “I also need to get going, was nice seeing you though.”
“i’ll walk you”, was in fact not what you wanted to hear. but the universe hated you for some reason. you looked back at him and waved your hand dismissingly, trying to speedily think of a reason why he couldn’t accompany you: “uh, you see, i, uh... i’m visiting my parents this weekend, so i’ll just take the train. ’m not going back to the dorms.”
even if kuroo would have been stupid and oblivious, which he was not, your hurried attempt at getting rid of him just confirmed all his suspicions. but the ex-captain wasn’t going to let you run away from him so easily.
“no problem, i’ll walk you to the train station. the field i practice volleyball in with lev and a few others is nearby. ‘was gonna head there anyway, let’s go.” this time, he didn’t let you enough time to object, so you were stuck grabbing your things and following him, regardless of what you wanted.
to your surprise, kuroo didn’t say a thing on the way to the train station. you expected him to force you into a whole debate about whether pluto was a planet or not, but he just stayed silent. was that a bit of your luck shining through, or was he angry?
not wanting to push your luck any longer, you stayed silent as well, as you waited for your train at the designated platform. guess you had to make a surprise visit to your hometown because of your little lie, but maybe that was exactly what you needed. some time away to clear your head.
but just as you got excited for the spontaneous trip, kuroo finally dropped what has been on his mind the whole walk or rather, the whole three weeks you’ve been running away from him as if he was on fire and you couldn’t wait to get away from him as far as possible.
“y/n. why are you avoiding me?”, he questioned, looking at the rails ahead, instead of you.
“w-what? i’m not, why would you think that?”, you quickly sputtered out, hardly able to convince yourself of your own lies.
tetsurou gave you a look of complete skepticism, quickly shutting down your protests. “don’t play dumb with me, ’m not stupid. i know you’re not sitting down way further in the back or running out of the lecture on accident. you’re doing this on purpose. even just a moment ago you didn’t want me to escort you. tell me why.”
luckily, the train arrived just on time, so you quickly hoped on with a fleeting 'see you next week' and hoped he would just assume you didn’t quite catch what he said because of the train.
he didn’t though. he knew that you heard him.
the short spontaneous weekend trip turned into you staying for almost two whole weeks because of a cold, so your mom wouldn’t let you return without someone taking care of you, not knowing you had some big news waiting for you once you got back.
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“we broke up.”
wou were currently in the library after returning to campus, trying to catch up on some lectures you missed, when alisa entered. together, you were walking around the english literature section, catching up when she dropped the bomb.
“wait, what? how? when? why? huh? what did he do?”, you asked dumbfounded, feeling bad about your two friends, who were so clearly in love, breaking up. but even more than that, you could feel disgust creep up your spine because deep down you knew you were sickly happy about the fact that kuroo was now single. what a shit fucking friend you were.
“relax”, alisa chuckled. “he didn’t do anything, we just kinda came to the agreement that we don’t love each other the same anymore. i felt like he was always distracted the last weeks we were together, always deep in thought, and i decided to concentrate on my graduation and career as a model. it was a great college relationship and i still care for him, we just… we broke up about a week ago.”
“well, as long as you’re both happy with the decision”, you sighed while picking ‘pride and prejudice’ by jane austen from a bookshelf, not feeling like such a piece of shit for being lowkey happy about it anymore, but you still knew you two would never work. even if the breakup was mutually decided, tetsurou was still her ex.
hearing alisa giggle, you turned your gaze from the book in your hand and wondered: “huh? why are you laughing?” the tall blonde only grinned and continued her way down the aisle. completely confused, you followed her with the book still in hand.
“what the fuck? kinda acting sus not gonna lie.”
“wow, I thought you had better jokes than that y/n”, she teased, sitting down at a nearby table.
breathing out some air out of your nose in mock anger, you sat down beside her, tipping your non-existent fedora. “sorry i’m not up to your comedy standards, m’lady.”
alisa laughed loudly before noticing the book you were still holding, her laughter turning into a knowing grin. once again, you shot her a confused look: “what is it with you today? your mood swings are confusing the shit outta me.”
“you know, that’s like one of tetsu’s favorite books.”
“what? 'pride and prejudice'?”, you inquired, puzzled. why was she telling you this? “are you like, having some post-breakup nostalgia or?”
she laughed once again, waving her manicured hand dismissingly and shaking her head: “it just kinda popped into my head. i never read it, but he once wanted to read it to me. it did not end well; i couldn’t take it seriously and had to laugh the whole time. he just gave up and sulked for the rest of the evening.”
“yep, definitely pbn”. the girl shoved your shoulder slightly while snickering before taking out her laptop and working on something, leaving you alone with your conflicted thoughts.
as fate would have it, you didn’t really talk to kuroo for the last two weeks of lectures. finals were catching up and you had a lot of exams, leaving you with no time to catch up with the tall boy. plus, you were still trying to avoid him. you weren’t about to give into temptation and try your luck with alisa’s ex, which was much easier if said temptation didn’t walk around looking fine directly in front of you.
but with the weekend starting, you agreed to go to a party with the haiba siblings to treat yourself to a break from typing essay after essay. it was obvious that kuroo would also be there and this time, you wouldn’t be able to avoid him. the running had finally caught up to you.
before the party, you decided to go to the library to work on one of your essays, but with how much work there was left, you simply forgot the time. at 10 p.m., your phone rang.
“hello?”
“girl? why aren’t you here yet? and why aren’t you answering our messages? we texted you like a million times”, levs’ questioning voice echoed through the speaker.
quickly checking the time and number of messages you got, you gasped: “oh god, so sorry! i was at the library working on my shitty marketing essay! ’m gonna be right there!”
ending the phone call, you quickly gathered your things and rushed to your dorms. stripping on the way to the bathroom in your one room apartment, you hopped into the shower, feeling as if you were trying to break the world record for the fastest shower known to men.
as you were stepping out of the shower a few minutes later, someone knocked at your door, startling you. did the haiba siblings come to pick you up? with a hasty ‘’m coming’, you hurried to the door in only a towel.
“hey, I just got out of the shower, I just need…” faltering in your sentence, you gripped your towel tighter, trying not to freak out. because there were no alisa and lev in sight. just kuroo tetsurou. while you were standing there. with only a towel on. fuck. “that’s uh… you’re not alisa and lev.”
“er… n-no, no i’m not”, kuroo stuttered out, at least having the decency to avert his eyes to the ceiling, realizing what you had or rather had not on after checking you out. collecting your composure, you shot him a tight-lipped smile and stepped aside to let him in.
“come in, I just need to get dressed and do my makeup. you can wait inside.”
walking past you, the dark-haired man pretended to scratch his head to hide his red ears and quickly surveyed your room. “that’s…”, breaking off his sentence instantly when his voice cracked, he cleared his throat before trying again. “nice room.”
while kuroo tried not to have a mental breakdown and remember what he came here for, you picked up your disregarded clothes from earlier of the floor, being mindful of not to flash the man, and made your way to your wardrobe, chucking in your dirty laundry and scanning your variety of clothes to pick out the most flattering outfit for the party. “uh, yeah, thanks. so, uh, what did you want? ee would’ve seen each other at the party later anyway.”
but there was no answer, making you frown. just as you wanted to turn around, calling his name in confusion, you felt a pair of strong arms wrap themselves around your waist loosely, causing you to choke out his name.
kuroo leaned his head down towards your neck, slowly inhaling the scent of your strawberry bodywash before sighing contently. his soft, plump lips slowly trailed up to your ear, creating goosebumps on their way, before lowly murmuring: “you smell delicious. i could eat you up.”
you could feel yourself shiver at the low timbre of his voice and the indication of his words, as your heart rate picked up to the point you had the feeling as though you were going to die right then and there. how did his demeanor change so suddenly? it seemed as if you were in a room with a completely different person.
the ex-captain smugly grinned as he felt your breath quicken and chest heave without him even doing much, tightening one arm around your waist, while his large hand on the other arm splayed itself on your stomach, slowly sliding down towards where you wanted him. “hm? can I do that baby?”
just as quickly as the thoughts of ‘stop, this is so wrong. what about alisa?’ appeared in your mind, they immediately disappeared with the sweet melody of kuroo calling you baby.
not being able to keep a little whine from slipping out at the pet name, you nodded, your cheeks unbearably hot. but that wasn’t enough for him. tetsurou wanted your verbal consent, even if his half-hard cock already slightly twitched at the small noise you let out without him even touching you properly, screaming at him to finally fuck you.
avoiding the area, you wanted him to touch the most, his hand grabbed your thigh, causing you to squeeze your legs together in search of relief. he tsked at your lack of words and lightly spanked your thigh before tightening his grip around the fat, earning him a surprised squeak from you. “no, use your big girl words baby. i want to hear it.”
the instant tetsurou startled you with the spank, you hurriedly grabbed onto his forearms, lightly digging your nails into the muscles. already, everything was getting too much. his smooth voice seducing you, his dominant touch jumbling up your brain, his urgent need to hear your consent, his pleasant scent of a mix of his cologne, mint and husk surrounding you. him, him, him. you wanted more. you needed more. the slick between your legs grew embarrassingly fast, smearing on the inside of your thighs, showing off kuroo’s effect on you evidently.
“please… please touch me tetsu', I need it”, you whimpered out impatiently, making him close his eyes to stop himself from cumming already, your needy voice going straight to his dick standing at full attention. and even though the menace in him wanted to tease you and hear you beg more; he knew that he didn’t have the willpower to deny himself of having you any longer.
as you felt the tall male finally place his hand underneath your towel and cup your pussy, your head rolled back onto his shoulder, giving him full access to your neck. while dragging his middle and index finger through your folds leisurely, his lips and tongue placed hungry kisses on your neck.
“fuck, angel, you’re soaking wet. Is that all because of me, hmm?”, he lowly murmured against your neck, while his fingers simultaneously slowly circled your clit. you couldn’t stop your eyes from lolling to the back of your head or the small whimper that left you, even though the ‘angel’ left a bitter taste in your mouth. as much as the pet name made your stomach all tingly, you always compared alisa to an angel, so it didn’t quite sit well to be called that by her own ex.
but as you felt his middle finger enter you, all thoughts flew out of your head. The only thing on your mind were the raspy praises against your neck and his finger moving at a torturous pace inside you.
“please tetsu', more, I need more”, you complained whiny, because as much as it was all overwhelming, it also wasn’t enough. kuroo could only grin at your eagerness, but couldn’t blame you, since his own patience was speedily wearing thin.
with an uttered ‘everything for you angel’, he added his index finger into the mix, curling the two digits and, not wasting a moment, pumping them into you at a rapid pace, eliciting a quiet moan out of you. the ex-captain noted that you weren’t much of a moaner and mentally made it a challenge to have you crying for him by the end of the night. so, without much warning, his long, thick fingers started hammering against your g-spot while his thumb circled your clit at the same time, making you squeeze your eyes shut with your mouth opening in a silent scream, your hands searching for stability on the closet in front of you.
“c’mon, y/n, baby, i know you want it, fucking give it to me. ‘been fantasizing about this so long, just wanna make you feel good and fall apart for me. show me how much of a good girl you are.” his smooth voice flowed into your ear, seducing you to fully give into him. you felt as if you were being lured by satan himself and you were just a weak little human, not nearly strong enough to resist the whisper of the devil.
with a series of soft, high-pitched moans, you came on his fingers without any warning, your legs giving out at the intensity of it all. tetsurou only tightened his arm around your waist, picking you up without any trouble, making you clench around nothing at his display of effortless strength as he withdrew his fingers from your dripping hole. you thought you heard a small ‘good girl’, but you couldn’t tell for sure with the way you were still floating on cloud nine after he brought you to your orgasm that quickly.
panting and shivering at the goosebumps erupting, you lifted your gaze up at him as he placed you on your bed, only to find him already staring at you with low lids and completely black eyes, the beautiful hazel color of his eyes lost in all the lust and desire that took over his expression.
refusing to break eye-contact, kuroo lifted his with your essence-soaked fingers to his plush lips, wrapping them around the digits and sucking lewdly at them. once again, you felt yourself clench around nothing, rubbing your thighs against each other to get some relief, when you saw his eyes roll back as he tasted you.
the next thing you knew, your back hit the bed with the broad man lying between your spread legs, making you yelp. you could feel the atmosphere around tetsurou change once again. he was a lot more feral than he was before, as if his patience were running out.
his biceps wrapped around your plush thighs, holding you in place since the feeling of his breath against your cunt made your hips twitch up at their own accord, exposing the strong want you had for the man between your legs.
“’m gonna fucking wreck you angel”, he growled against your slit, before diving right in, licking and sucking messily at your clit, your pussy lips, everywhere he could reach. and as much as it shouldn’t feel pleasurable with him being as aggressive as he was, it felt fucking heavenly. you couldn’t help but arch your back, hands flying down to tangle in his messy rooster hair and tugging at the surprisingly soft strands, causing him to moan hoarsely against your sensitive pussy, the vibrations only egging you on. something about kuroo tetsurou losing his usual provocative, teasing demeanor as he ate you out felt so raw and animalistic, that it made your head spin and toes curl.
his large hand crept up your torso and he finally removed the towel that barely hid your breasts from him before palming one, drawing a content sigh out of you at the attention. but as much as he enjoyed listening to you whine and sigh because of the pleasure he was causing you, he wanted, no, needed to hear how much you wanted this, how much you wanted him.
“tell me how it feels angel, tell me how good it feels. ‘wanna hear your pretty voice, baby”, he huskily mumbled against your clit, making you arch your back at the delicious vibrations echoing through your core. but as much as you enjoyed hearing his dirty talk, you felt insecure about yours not turning him on.
preparing yourself mentally as good as you managed with the way he ate you out like a man starved, you allowed yourself a glance down only to see him expectantly observing you. the erotic sight only coaxed another high-pitched whine out of you, your head lolling back against your pillow.
at the next harsh suck on your sensitive bundle of nerves, your hips thrusted up against his skilled tongue and you finally gave in to your desire of wanting to tell him how good he was making you feel. only him.
“fuck, tetsu', d-don’t stop. feels so good, you feel so good, only you, please, please, please”, you needily moaned while grinding your hips up, simultaneously pushing his head deeper into your pussy and if kuroo had any self-control left, it was definitely gone now.
his toned biceps tightened around your thighs. his large hands squeezed your breast and hip harshly, leaving bruises for you to discover tomorrow. his able tongue messily switched between being shoved deep inside you and swirling your clit and you could feel the bed shake with how forceful he was humping the bed just from eating you out and hearing you talk like that. every little thing contributed to your orgasm washing over you like a tsunami. you were fairly sure you even blacked out for a few seconds because the next time you focused your attention back on tetsurou, he was frantically unbuttoning his jeans, with his shirt already off, whipping out his cock.
you felt your eyes widen as well as your pussy clench, you couldn’t remember the last time you were this horny, but you also weren’t sure how the fuck you were supposed to fit a cock this big and girthy inside you. meanwhile kuroo took off his boxers and contently sighed as he finally started stroking himself, giving himself some relief but it wasn’t enough. not by a long shot.
zoning in on your face once again - sweaty, low lidded eyes, blown out pupils- the impatient boy leaned down and kissed you for the first time that evening. after everything that just transpired between you two, the kiss definitely felt the most intimate, but it was also what you were craving the most from tetsurou for months now.
you didn’t know how to possibly express all the emotions you were currently overwhelmed with, so you tried to translate it all through the kiss. kissing back harder, all teeth and tongue, wrapping your arms tightly around his neck, pulling him impossibly closer, pressing your thighs against his hips, hoping it was enough to convey what you wanted to say.
apparently, it was, because you could hear kuroo lowly growl against your lips before starting to dig his fingers into your hips and grind against you, finally letting you feel him where you needed him the most.
“n-not enough, tetsu'”, you eagerly whined, raising your hips, hoping it was enough to convince him to finally fuck you like you craved him to. but as thin as his patience was at the moment, kuroo tetsurou would not be kuroo tetsurou without his teasing antics.
he slyly grinned, pressing feather-light kisses down from your lips to your throat, making his way to your breasts, where he teasingly kitten-licked your nipples a few times, letting you think you were finally getting what you wanted before he raised his head and stared you down with his almost pitch-black eyes. “mmm, I know you can do better than that kitten”, he gruffly remarked while continuing to grind against you slowly, making you jerk and mewl every time you felt the head of his cock bump against your clit. “what do you want me to do, baby?”
how he still had it in him to tease and deny you, was beyond you, because you were on the edge of breaking down from how bad you wanted him. “’want you to fuck me, tetsu'”, you confidently said while gazing into his eyes, or at least, you tried to sound confident, but you were only able to whine and moan at this point.
kuroo closed his eyes and felt himself twitch against your pussy. you were going to be the death of him. sitting back up on his knees, he grabbed his cock and lined it up with your entrance, making you spread your legs automatically wider at the sight.
with one sharp snap of his hips, you both groaned simultaneously, your groan high-pitched, his low and guttural, at the feeling you’ve both been craving for. “fuck, you’re on birth control, right?”, he asked, straining himself as to not just start pounding you into oblivion or cum right on the spot.
“yes, shit”, you breathlessly answered, putting your hands against his toned abdomen as to let him know to wait, which only made him clench his abs at the feeling of your soft hands on his exposed skin. “j-just give me a sec, need a moment”, you murmured avoiding eye contact, suddenly shy at the fact that you were just lying there with kuroo balls deep inside you.
sensing your mood shift, the tall male grinned his cheshire-grin at you and teasingly remarked: “why? am i too big for you, huh?”, hoping it’d make you laugh and relax a bit, soon realizing that the idea completely back-fired on him.
as you started to laugh at his arrogant remark, hitting his abs slightly and telling him to shut up, your core clenched in-sync with your laughter, making you freeze at the sudden loud, almost pornographic moan escaping tetsurou’s lips.
looking up at him, you finally realized how much he was holding back as to not hurt you or make you uncomfortable. the handsome boys’ wild hair was already sticking to the sweat forming on his forehead, his jaw clenched painfully, nostrils flaring, eyebrows furrowed, biceps bulging with how hard he was gripping the sheets beside your hips to restrain himself. the thought of him wanting to fuck you so bad but holding back for your pleasure and well-being, was enough to make you clench down on him again, rolling your hips up against his and declaring: “’m ready, tetsu'. please, f-fuck me”.
with your words and the grinding of your hips, kuroo really couldn’t hold back the little stutter his hips did against yours but fuck, was he embarrassed by it. he felt like a teenager, touching real boobs for the first time all over again, knowing he wouldn’t last long. not with how long he had fantasized about this and with how you reacted to his every move and touch, squeezing him so tight, he felt like he wouldn’t even be able to move.
“’m gonna break you”, and with those final words, his large, veiny hands gripped your hips in a bruising, vice grip, pulling out so only his tip was inside your messy, drooling cunt, before snapping right back in, making you choke on your breath at the impact.
as much as kuroo wanted to bust inside you right then and there, the strong urge to see you lose yourself on his cock while he ruined every other man for you was much more prominent. so, the ex-captain rutted in your pussy like his life depended on it, wanting your moans and mewls and whines to never stop. there was so much that was running through his head while being empty at the same time. the only thought was to bring you both to earth-shattering orgasms, but he also wanted to spit in your mouth, choke you, spank your thighs and ass till you wouldn’t be able to sit tomorrow. he wanted to come on your thighs, your tits, face, but he also wanted to breed you.
you two were definitely way too young for children but he couldn’t get the mental image of you, stuffed with his cum with it running down your legs out of his mind, only making it harder for him not to cum immediately.
but you weren’t doing better either. the pace that kuroo was fucking you at, had you seeing stars, riding you up higher on the bed with every thrust and your eyes rolling to the back of your head. you gripped the sheets, his hands, his forearms, your breasts, anything, to try to stabilize yourself as you approached your high embarrassingly fast without your clit even being touched.
just as the thought crossed your mind, you felt tetsus’ calloused fingertips, from years of playing volleyball, circle your clit, causing you to throw your head back with your lips open in a silent scream.
“fuck, you’re so fucking tight kitten, so much better than i ever imagined. cum for me, wanna feel you cream on my fat cock, wanna see you lose your mind baby, give it to me”. at this point, he basically started rambling on about how hot and tight you were, how he wanted you to cum around his cock so badly, how you were gonna make him cum so hard, how you were making such a mess for him, what a good girl you were.
just as you felt yourself almost falling over the edge at the added stimulus to your clit and the filthy praises that were coming out of his mouth, you yanked the boy down by his arm, wrapping your arms around him firmly and kissing him so hard, you were sure you both would have bruised lips later.
with the new position and the intimacy of being pressed up against each other, one more thrust, and you were gone. cumming around his cock so hard, you couldn’t remember the last time someone made you cum that hard, if ever.
the pornographic moans of his name along with some ‘fuck’s and ‘so good’s, the jerking of your body against his and the vice-grip of your pussy on his dick as you came. it was all too much for the poor boy who didn’t even cum once the whole time, while you already had three orgasms under your belt. the last straw was your quiet, little ‘cum inside tetsu', want you to fill me up’ and so, a few short, sloppy thrusts later, kuroo buried his face in your neck, groaning loudly as he came inside, spurting hot, white cum against your abused walls.
the feeling of being filled up to the hilt by kuroo tetsurou was intoxicating. you whined, wrapping your legs around his hips, caging him in so he couldn’t pull out, not wanting the moment to end.
you both lied there, trying to catch your breath. as he pulled out after a few moments and got up to go grab a towel to clean you up, your hand caught his. “don’t go, where are you going?”, you whined needily, wanting to cuddle, to worn-out to care about the mess gushing out of your hole onto the bed sheets.
chuckling, the tall boy leaned down, kissing your forehead: “’m not going anywhere angel, I’m just gonna grab a towel and clean you up”. with that he retreated to the bathroom in search of a towel to use.
you, on the other hand, suddenly sobered up from your drunk-on-lust high at the pet name, making you realize what you just did. fuck, you just banged alisa’s ex-boyfriend. they weren’t even broken off for that long and you already betrayed her.
feeling like a bad friend and complete whore, you didn’t even register said ex-boyfriend was back, making you flinch at the sudden contact of your sensitive pussy with the wet, rough towel.
“relax baby, it’s just me”, he teasingly chuckled, while cleaning you up. when he didn’t hear you chuckle or bite back at his teasing, his expression morphed into a frown, lifting his gaze from your core to your face. “what’s wrong?”
“nothing, thanks.” but of course, you were lying. the panic that slowly settled in your chest was threatening to suffocate you. hell, you weren’t even able to look at him properly.
you felt kuroo grab your chin with his fingers gently, turning your head so you had to look at him. tetsurou was completely serious, he only hoped you weren’t regretting what just transpired between you two, as he repeated: “what’s. wrong?”, emphasizing those two words so you knew there was no point in lying.
feeling your eyes water up, you cursed yourself for showing weakness, since you weren’t one to cry often, especially in front of other people. “what are we going to tell alisa?”
that caught him off guard. “alisa?”, he repeated questioningly, as if he didn’t know what you meant. how could he not know? was he that stupid?
you sat up, rubbing at your eyes frantically with the rising anger inside your chest. “yeah, alisa. your ex. the one that’s like a sister to me. how am I supposed to look her in the eyes after what we just did?”
kuroo wasn’t stupid. you could vouch for that any day. you saw him in your lecture, and you had studied a lot with him, but right now, you were sure he was the dumbest person you ever knew, even beating lev. because even after explaining, he still only looked at you with a confused gaze, saying: “i don’t quite follow?”
groaning, you ran your hands through your hair in frustration, declaring: “you’re really smart, but you’re being so fucking dumb right now. how the fuck am I supposed to talk to one of my closest friends after I fucked her ex-boyfriend, who she loved by the way, not even that long after they broke up?”
finally, it clicked in kuroo’s brain. but the last thing you expected, was to hear him laugh. your head snapped up at the sound, glaring at him you almost growled: “what the fuck’s so funny, you fucking bedhead?”
“oh wow, throwing in the insults huh?”, he said between chuckles. “it’s funny because alisa was the one who encouraged me to come here tonight, though I don’t think she wanted us to outright fuck but, you know.”
what now?
“what do you mean she encouraged you to come here?”, you interrogated perplexed. suddenly he was acting all shy and sheepish, rubbing the back of his neck with his big hand, avoiding your eyes.
“well… we’re still friends, so we were talking about our lectures a week ago and she suddenly mentioned how you also were a fan of 'pride and rejudice'. i just… got kinda excited at that, since alisa wasn’t really interested in things like that, so i started asking her about it. she then called me out on my crush on you, saying she already knows why i was so distracted the weeks leading up to our break-up, thinking about you.”
while listening, your anger slowly morphed into nervousness at kuroo openly admitting he also had a crush on you, but you wanted him to finish his story before addressing the elephant in the room.
“i apologized immediately, thinking she was angry at me, but you know her. she was so sweet, saying she would only be happier if it worked out between us. after, she tried to set us up to talk to each other, but you avoided me like the plague, so she told me to come here before the party since you were running late, to confront you and settle it once and for all but uh…”, he sheepishly smiled, “i kinda got distracted when you opened the door in only a towel, so… that didn’t go as planned.”
sitting with your mouth agape in a ‘o’, your brain tried to process all the information, not knowing what to say to his confession and explanation.
“soooo… she’s not gonna hate me and cancel our friendship?”, you carefully pressed, just to be sure. “no, I don’t think she will”, he chortled.
“oh.”
with that, the room was suddenly extremely silent, making you and kuroo even more nervous. clearing his throat, he couldn’t take the silence anymore. “are you gonna give me an answer to my confession, or am I like, totally embarrassing myself right now?”
“uh, no, yeah”, you softly giggled at his obvious anxiousness. taking his face between your hands, you looked right into his hazel eyes in the dim lighting, before gently smiling at him.
“i like you too, nerd.”
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the next morning, you woke up to your phone aggressively vibrating on your nightstand beside your bed. you blindly reached out, picking up the call without even opening your eyes, clearly still half-asleep.
“hello?”, you groggily asked your caller, wondering who the fuck was calling you this early, when lev’s voice filled your ear. “y/n? hey, we we’re worried about you yesterday. why didn’t you show up? it was so much fun”, the big, over-grown baby whined.
looking down at the reason you weren’t able to attend the party sleeping soundly with his head on your chest, you smiled, carding your fingers softly through his raven-black hair.
“just… reasons”.
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mystic-shadows42 · 4 years ago
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Holding Out Hope
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A/N: This was just a simple quick write so there are probably mistakes.
Pairing: Clark Kent x reader
Warnings: Language
Summary: Clark has a hard time trying to find his place in the world but when he takes a job he’s unlikely to stay in for long, there’s an unexpected person there that he can’t simply walk away from.
Joe.
That’s what he said his name was. When you first met him, you didn’t think it suited him. He was a tall dark-haired, muscular, blue-eyed man with a gentleness to him.
Right away he stood out.
Joe was brought onto the crew by your father, the captain. He was quiet but observant. He always listened and remembered things that other people would long forget about.
He wasn’t the type of man you’re used to seeing on your father’s crew. He was actually nice and not handsy like the others.
You met him on his first day and told him of the small shop you worked at and he made it a habit to go whenever he was back from his fishing trips.
During his visits, you’d both make small talk. He was private about his life but was definitely curious about yours. You wanted to respect his privacy so you told him the truth of yours.
You were the youngest child of four. All of them had left to start their own lives elsewhere but would call occasionally. The home life wasn’t too great. Your mother had left and your father was a drunk. He would only stop drinking when he had to work and needed more money for it.
There were times when you’d ramble on and sneak a look over at him to see he was hanging on to every word. 
Occasionally, you’d treat him to lunch but even then you could tell he was still putting up a front as if he couldn’t simply relax. Sometimes he’d even leave abruptly after apologizing profusely.
It was understandable but after what seemed like the umpteenth time you started to think it was because of you. Perhaps you weren’t as good company as you thought.
Joe must’ve noticed your uncertainty because he would sometimes surprise you with gifts. Needless to say, it didn’t take much for you to fall hard for him. 
There were obvious signs there for something to flourish between you both but he was always the one to pull away.
So when you were on your break outside the shop with him you asked him what you’ve been dying to know.
“So, I have to ask. Why have you stuck around doing this job? Most people leave after the first week.”
He looked away and smiled then looked back at you. At his expression, you nudged his arm playfully.
“I find that staying here a little while has its benefits.”
You gave him a look which he knew what you meant. He didn’t give you much to go off of.
“My dad doesn’t pay you enough to think like that.”
“It’s not always about the pay.” He threw you a look that simply melted your heart. “Would you believe me if I told you the best part of my day is coming into the shop and seeing you?”
You slightly tilted your head not expecting the deemed quiet man by the crew to actually say this to you. Joe was far too handsome to be into you. Just by looking at him, you knew he didn’t belong in a less than ideal place with nothing to offer him whatsoever.
“Well, I don’t actually believe you.”
He had a faint smile on his face. “Open your hand.”
You held out your hand and he took something out of his back pocket and placed it in your hand.
“A gift?”
He nodded and gestured for you to look at it. You opened the small bag pulling the strings apart to see pearls inside.
They were beautiful and bigger than any you’ve ever seen. You inspected them more closely.
“These are South Sea pearls. I only know because my father obsesses over finding some one day.” You looked up at him astonished. These pearls were worth a good amount of money. “There’s no possible way you found these fishing.”
He put his hands over yours covering the pearls.
“I’m going to be leaving soon. Use these to get out of here.”
Your heart sunk at the news of him leaving soon. He was the whole reason you got excited for the day and dressed up. 
Just seeing him affected your whole day in a better way.
“I can’t. This is too big a gift to have.”
“They’re yours now.”
He said it so calmly as if obtaining them wasn’t a big deal. Even though you knew people would kill just to get their hands on them.
“How’d you get them?” 
“I flew,” he said, a small smile gracing his face before he turned his back to you.
“Joe.”
Even as you said his name he didn’t react. He hardly ever responded to it. You always suspected he was hiding something. Nobody simply ignores their name when called.
“Wait!”
He turned and you ran to catch up to him.
“At least tell me your real name.”
He sighed and you knew then that he wouldn’t. It did hurt a little that after all these months of knowing him that he didn’t even trust you enough to know his name.
It made you sad that nothing significant ever blossomed between you both though you knew he could feel the connection too. You didn’t think it’d hurt this much to lose a person you hardly knew anything about.
He lowered his head when you started to drop yours in disappointment. He looked genuinely concerned. It was hard to determine if he would even miss you or even thought of you the way you did him.
“I promise you that one day when I’m not running anymore. When I find out who I truly am, then I’ll find you and tell you my name.”
You shook your head. “That’s impossible. How will you ever find me?”
“Don’t lose hope.”
He moved closer to you and leaned down a little to be leveled with you. Your lips parted and your heart started to race at how close he was. He had his eyes closed already so you closed yours as you moved forward.
You were finally going to kiss.
“Hey, dipshit! It’s time to go!”
You groaned and opened your eyes to see he already opened his and was watching you.
“I have to go.”
You reached out for his hand and saw him smile down at your joined hands. He gave yours a small squeeze in reassurance.
“Captains tired of waiting! Hurry it up!”
His hand slowly slipped from yours. He smiled sadly and turned his back to you as he began walking away.
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In your time of finding a place, you were tracked down by a determined reporter named Lois Lane. Her presence took you by surprise especially when she shared her story with you.
He was going by the name Liam. She told you briefly of her findings and how he saved her life with his ‘abilities’ yet somehow you began to think over your encounters with him.
The constant short meet-ups with him weren’t excuses. He was actually going out and saving someone’s life.
It just all seemed fitting for him. 
A savior.
Lois had questioned you explaining that his time fishing was the longest job he stuck with and she suspected it was because of you. She kept smiling at the stories you’d share of her with your encounters with him. 
There wasn’t much to go off because he was so discreet but it was the way he made you feel that made it seem everlasting. That much she could tell in your eyes and words alone.
Before she departed her last words to you were that he’d definitely find you again.
The idea lifted your spirits but you certainly missed his company.
After about a month and a couple of weeks you still hadn’t found a place to settle in. Nothing ever seemed like home to you.
You felt like a ghost going from place to place. Seeing a new area was nice but there was still that never-ending feeling of being alone.
The thing you missed from your old town was the view of the ocean. So that’s what led you here, to the beach.
You were walking aimlessly on the shoreline when you looked up after a huge sudden gust of wind hit you.
You gasped at the sight of ‘him’ standing just a few feet in front of you. He was smiling once he saw your reaction. He looked the same, only he was clean-shaven and he seemed more relaxed.
He began making his way to you still having his bright smile on his face. You immediately dropped your sandals and ran into his arms. He hugged you to him feeling his deep chuckle rumble through his chest.
“I told you I’d find you.”
You pulled back but still stayed in his arms.
“Now I know how you got here. You flew,” you chuckled remembering his words from before. He brushed the hair in your face back and smiled. 
“Yeah, I did.”
“So are you going to tell me what your name is or do I have to keep calling you Joe?”
“My name’s Clark. Clark Kent. As you may have heard, I’m not of this world but raised into it.”
“I’ve heard some stories.” 
You didn’t quite know what he was or how he came to have these abilities but all you knew was that you cared for him deeply. Nothing else mattered.
“How are you liking your new life?”
“I felt like how you used to. Not really belonging anywhere. Going from place to place. Missing you and our annual strolls.”
He rubbed your arms once you started to get goosebumps. His touch felt safe and warm. Something you could get used to. Everything about him captivated you in every way.
“Close your eyes.”
You took a deep breath and closed them. 
After a couple of seconds, he told you to open them. All you did was stare at him admiring just how handsome he truly is. He chuckled seeing your entranced state and told you to look down.
Confused, you looked down and saw that neither of you were on land anymore. You were both floating and had a vast view of the landscape.
Naturally, you gasped wrapping your arms around him thinking you were going to fall. You could hear him laughing but the thought of being so high up had overtaken your thoughts.
To capture your attention, he turned your face to him and looked down at your lips as if silently asking for your permission. You nodded and that was all he needed to kiss you. 
His lips were soft but the force was rough. You both had been desperate for this moment. It had been put off for far too long.
“I’ll never let you go. Never fall, never get hurt, and never leave you all alone again.”
His words were tender and sweet.
“Would you like to come to Kansas with me?”
This time you were the one with the permanent smile on your face chuckling. You had unshed tears in your eyes at how happy you were.
“I’d love to go to Kansas with you, Clark.”
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adorerdraco · 4 years ago
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It’s Only Quidditch ✧ Draco x Slytherin!Reader
Request: can i please request you and draco being in slytherin and dating for a while and you two are on the quidditch team with him so maybe you two are in a match together but you get hurt and he gets worried and has to win the game and visits you after and maybe even wrecks the person who hurt you hehe just fluff and angst
AU AROUND 6TH YEAR NO VOLDY
Warnings: angry!draco, vengeful!draco, VIOLENCE, kinda graphic details like blood and injuries, lil bit of angst
Words: 3.9K (love making these long for no reason)
A/N: ANGRY DRACO IS SO HOT IM SORRY WOW BUT I HOPE THIS IS GOOOOD PLEASE ENJOY MY MADE UP CHARACTER AND MY SUPER LONG QUIDDITCH GAME THAT CONFUSED ME AFTER A WHILE OF TRYING TO WRITE LMAO and i made gif :)
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November had begun and with it came the new season of quidditch at Hogwarts along with very poor weather and over-bundling nerves. Tensions had always gotten high around this time of the year amongst the teams and all animosity between the house’s respective players was on the forefront as the competition was building. It was like clockwork every year; captain’s starting strenuous training schedules, begging Snape to help book the stadium even if it was already occupied, spying on other teams to figure out their strengths and weaknesses. Not to mention the arguments that would happen regularly in between the first couple of games when you and your teammates would be accused of cheating or using dangerous and illegal moves. Which did happen to be true most of the time.
It was safe to say that it was the most eventful time of the year, and as suffocating as it sometimes got - you looked forward to it every time the new term started. It was in quidditch that you found yourself feeling the freest in, zipping around the stadium in a flash of green with the wind blowing through your hair and crisp autumn air biting at your cheeks. But most notably, it was in quidditch that you met Draco Malfoy and had quickly evolved from teammates to friends, to him now being your boyfriend.
You made Slytherin’s team your second year as a Chaser, a shiny new broom being given to you on the first day of scheduled training when Lucius Malfoy had made a generous donation that came along with a new platinum blond seeker. With the two of you being the latest additions to the teams, your captain, Marcus Flint, had decided to leave the dirty work for the two of you to do in the downtime every one else was able to enjoy. Marcus never changed that as the years went on.
So you and Draco would be sent off to other teams’ practices nearly every other day or week, depending on how secure Flint was feeling, both of you huddling closely together for sometimes hours behind the thick wooden benches as you watched and studied tactics with conversations in between. You would joke around a lot and call him your partner in crime which he would always roll his eyes to and make a snide and playful comment about even if he secretly loved hearing it. And the two of you stayed partners in crime for a while, neither of you ever making any move towards the other besides lingering touches and longing looks, and very rarely, a shy compliment.
It wasn’t until last year when you were hiding behind the bleachers, bored out of your mind watching Ravenclaw have a flawless run through around the stadium when you were graced with the dumbest idea.
“They’re playing good today,” you drawled out, “too good that it’s boring.”
“You reckon they studied so hard and found the key to quidditch?” He snickered as he played around with a pebble on the ground with his wand.
“We should help them out,” you suggested as Draco turned to raise a puzzled eyebrow at you. “Prepare them for the unexpected, nothing too crazy.”
You took out your wand from your pocket and pointed it towards one of their Beaters that was sitting idly by on their broom, a faint “confundus” leaving your lips that caused the broom to jerk swiftly to the side and nearly topple over its rider.
“You’re a genius,” Draco laughed quietly, repositioning himself so that he was right beside you with his wand directed out into the field. He spotted one of the bludgers flying towards the same Beater and instead of colliding with the bat, he used a charm to direct it into the back of their broom and then doubled it back around to try and hit one of the passing by Chaser’s that moved at the very last minute. 
You were a giggling mess, gripping tightly onto Draco’s arm as you watched everyone begin to look around wildly for the wild bludger with panicked expressions. What either of you didn’t realize in the middle of your joyed hysterics and Draco’s smugness for causing the angelic sounds, was that the bludger was flying idly still in front of the bleacher’s as his wand was still trained on it without moving it around anymore, his focus completely gone and concentrated on you.
It wasn’t until you heard someone yell out a, “Is that Malfoy and Y/L/N back there again?!” That made you get up with a sudden jolt, grabbing onto your accomplice’s hand as you ran towards the set of stairs that descended out of the stands. All you heard was distant angry insults and threats quickly fading out of ear-shot while you ran, laughing uncontrollably alongside Draco with his hand still tightly gripped in yours. 
When you finally reached the entrance of the empty courtyard of the castle with flustered cheeks and wheezing chuckles, you looked down at your joined hands at the same time he did and after a few seconds of realization and lingering adrenaline, you quickly moved into each other with a yearning kiss that changed everything from that day forward.
Draco stood beside you while you sat on a bench outside the locker room, your head resting lazily on the side of his leg while his fingers carded soothingly through your hair. Marcus was pacing in front of you, using his broom as a walking and pointing stick whenever he wanted to add any calculated words to his very hostile pep-talks that left everyone feeling more irritated and stressed.
Today was the last game of the season and the most important, it was the game that ended the season with a shimmering Inter-House Quidditch Cup and it just so happened to be against Gryffindor, making the stakes much higher than they already were. The matches against Gryffindor were by far, the most dangerous as they weren't afraid to play roughly either if push came to shove. The determination to beat each other and to win was critical on both sides and the day always ended with some sort of injuries.
“I don’t care how dirty we have to play today,” Flint fumed to the team, “I don’t care how many fouls we get, as long as we win.”
“Relax, Flint,” you sighed deeply. “We have the best players on our team and we’ve been working our arses off all season, we’ll be fine.”
“Still, I want to see blood out there,” he muttered back, walking towards the entrance of the field as Madam Hooch started calling your team out to start.
You stood up with a huff, Draco frowning when he noticed how tense you looked when your eyes worriedly met his.
“All right, love?”
“I'm just nervous,” you shrug, “I don’t want to mess up.”
The silver-haired boy moved to stand in front of you, placing two strong hands on either side of your arms to stand you in place so that he would be the only thing your wandering eyes were able to focus on.
“You are the best Chaser that Slytherin has ever had, no, that Hogwarts has ever had and I know for a fact you’re going to do amazing out there,” he cups your face with care, brushing a few stray hairs out of your face as he spoke. “You’ve got this.”
He pressed an encouraging kiss onto your forehead and then your lips, smiling at you supportively before taking your hand and hurriedly walking the two of you out into the field where the match was about to start.
Almost the whole school had shown up in an overcrowded sea of red and gold for Gryffindor. There were red sparks and small fireworks of lions that were charmed to roar when the animal would open its mouth. On one end of the stands, however, was the entire student body of Slytherin that was throwing green and silver ribbons and sparklers from their wands, yelling loudly in support as if their life depended on it. Over the rails, they had thrown down a large poster of a snake that moved around sleekly over large green words that read, “SLYTHERIN FOR THE WIN.”
Rain was lightly drizzling from the grayed dense clouds above, a sharp chill in the air from an approaching winter that always seemed to give the worst weather during the last couple of games of the year. You didn’t mind it since the cold had always felt nice against your sweaty skin during the game and it served like a small revitalizing shock that gave you a surge of energy to push forward with. 
Madam Hooch quickly went over the rules, set free the bludgers, and the snitch, forced the two captains, Wood and Flint, to shake hands and by the time she had counted down from three to one - brooms were soared into the sky with such speed it looked like a tornado had formed as she threw the quaffle up into the air.
A roar of cheers erupted from beside you as you got ahold of the quaffle, dashing past your House while you headed straight towards the Gryffindor’s goal post and managed to make the first shot in within the first five minutes of the game putting you at 10-0. You spotted Draco flying around above, smiling down brightly at you with triumph that only fueled your confidence as you darted forward to catch the ball again. You were, just as Draco had said, the best Chaser on the team and in all of the school. You were fast, agile, and smart when it came down to it and you were the reason why your team had easily wracked up 40 points with thirty minutes down in the match. Marcus was always trailing behind you with focus, shoving anyone who tried to get to you or pulling them back by their robes that landed Slytherin a couple of fouls throughout. 
You didn’t like to play dirty, but when Katie Bell had rammed into your side either accidentally or on purpose, it knocked the quaffle out of your hands and into one of their other Chaser’s, Rowan Rees, a muscular and tall seventh-year boy that had made the team that same year. With Katie still closely trying to cut you off, you veered sharply into her with your shoulder before breaking away from her and heading towards your goal post where they were trying to shoot. 
“ILLEGAL PUSHING FROM Y/L/N, FOUL AGAINST SLYTHERIN!” 
You rolled your eyes at the announcer, completely ignoring the boo’s that had filled the air as you whizzed past the other houses even though it was you who got hit first. Just as Rees had raised his arm to score, you flew over him, swooping your arm underneath your broom until you felt the quaffle back in your palm and ripped it from his grasp. The match was becoming more intense by the second, Gryffindor was promptly catching up in points because of the penalties they were awarded from the illegal moves your team was making and it left you feeling more pressured that it was nearly a tie now, Flint reminded you of that every chance he zoomed past you.
Unbeknownst to you, Draco was watching you cautiously from across the field most of the game when he noticed how close everyone was trying to get to you. You didn’t see the way you were almost tugged back multiple times or were missed by inches when someone was about to push you. Or how the Beaters were deliberately directing the bludgers in your direction. You also didn’t see how irked you had made Rees with your constant scoring and with the sporadic few times you had cut him off or almost bumped into him - but your boyfriend did, and he was much more focused on your safety now than the Golden Snitch he or Potter hasn’t spotted yet. Instead of searching for it, he was purposefully maneuvering himself around in front of the other Chasers to throw them off their focal point towards you so that you would have a clearer path to fly through.
He watched as you pulled your broom upwards to try and twist away from the area but Rees had reached out and pulled at your ankle, sending you out of your seat as the quaffle fell while you tried to rebalance yourself. That was all the encouragement the blond needed when he hurtled down into the mess, kicking at the back of Rees’ broom and sending him quickly spinning on a dive before he could try and move any further. 
“FOUL AGAINST REES AND MALFOY FOR KICKING AND TUGGING!”
“MALFOY!” Flint roared as he flew past, “Potter’s spotted the snitch! This isn’t your place, get out of here, NOW!”
And when he looked up, sure enough, Harry was going around desperately with an arm outstretched towards the small glint of gold that was moving too fast. 
“Go, I’m fine!” You shouted out to him when you flew back up with the ball back in your arms.
It was like slow motion when he forced himself to leave your surroundings, everything around him was moving fast and intensely with everyone screaming wildly that he couldn’t think straight. In a daze, he haphazardly sped towards Harry but noticed the panicked look on the seeker’s face when he had lost sight of it again which directed his attention right back to you. You were right in front of the Gryffindor goal post, arm stretched over your head and releasing the quaffle with a harsh throw.
“Y/L/N MAKES THE GOAL, TEAMS ARE AT A TIE-”
It wasn’t until the very last minute that everyone, including you, had realized the flash of red that came hurtling into your side at full speed, Rees colliding so loudly with you that it echoed around the stadium in a powerful clang and crack.
Draco watched in horror as you were thrown off your broom, your now unconscious body falling like a rag doll with a speed that sent his stress levels into overdrive. He had never pushed down on his broom so fast, immediately abandoning his spot to bolt towards you even as Marcus was screaming at him to not go. 
A few feet above the ground and before you met it, he managed to loop his arm around your waist and heave you onto the front of his broom with a slight struggle as it was now raining hard and clouding his vision. He saw Madam Pomfrey and Mcgonagall rushing into the field, hands holding tightly onto their hats as they worriedly rushed towards the area where your broom had fallen and where Draco was hovering over with you. 
“TEAMS ARE TAKING A 10 MINUTE TIME OUT!”
Marcus had flown down towards him, face twisted in fury and annoyance as he approached. 
“Is there a reason you’re not being a seeker, today?” He spits, “because I’ve been seeing you do everything but your job.”
“My bloody girlfriend just got knocked out!” Draco seethed at him. “I’m not going back into the game, I’m going with her to the hospital wing.”
“Like hell you are,” Flint scowled, “if you leave, you'll forfeit us the game. If you stay and let Potter catch that Snitch so it’ll be over quicker, I will personally make sure that this is your last year on the team. You’re going to win this for us.”
“Mr. Malfoy!” McGonagall called up to him, waving her arms hastily. “She needs to go to the infirmary, immediately!”
The two Slytherins were staring each other down aggressively as Draco contemplated the threat he was just given. There was nothing more he wanted to do than to throw a hex at Flint and leave with you, but he just swallowed thickly and nodded at him before descending towards the ground and letting you off carefully into the hands of Madam Pomfrey. A surge of fear ran through his body when he finally saw you clearly; a harsh red mark was making its way up to your neck, the corner of your bottom lip had split and doubled in size, there was a small scratch on your cheekbone. It made him feel queasy, but he tore his eyes away from you and hopped back onto his broom while glaring angrily at Marcus and the distant group of huddled Gryffindor’s. 
He was blinded in rage when the match resumed and even more enraged when Flint had cheered loudly when the announcer granted Slytherin a penalty for the injury Rees gave you, allowing them basically to get a free score in against Gryffindor. Draco let his eyes wander around for the snitch for the first time that day and he could hear his heart thundering in his eardrums in distress as the rain continued to make his search worse. All he wanted was to get out of the game to check up on you, and then he'd come back to the stadium to throw his fists into Rees’ face with maybe a few hits in on Marcus.
Just as he was losing hope, he saw a flash of gold whiz past him with a loud buzzing that shocked him into alertness. He didn’t care that catching the snitch would win the game, or the cup, or give him all the glory, no - this was his ticket out. He dived towards it with his arm outstretched, hand thrashing around in the wind as he tried to eagerly catch it. In seconds, Harry was right beside him, bumping him with his shoulder to try and throw him off the path but Draco only pushed back harder. There was a flurry of shouting as everyone watched, the announcer was yelling into the mic about the seekers going head-to-head, bludgers were flying past him. 
It was pure chaos and urgency, Draco could feel the fluttering of its wings beneath his palm and when Harry pushed into him one more time, he felt the coldness of the Snitch get trapped into his enclosed hand, the vibration of its wings sending a current of relief up his arm that spread throughout his whole body as he soared up into the sky while brandishing it to the schools’ painfully watchful eyes.
“MALFOY HAS CAUGHT THE SNITCH, WINNING SLYTHERIN THIS YEAR’S INTER-HOUSE QUIDDITCH CUP!”
Draco hurriedly made his way down to the field where the rest of his house was pooling into, celebrating proudly and calling out for him to praise, but when he landed on the ground and was met with half of the Gryffindor team including Rowan Rees - all his wrath came flooding back into him. 
Angelina, another Gryffindor Chaser, had nudged Rowan with her shoulder, pointing towards the Slytherin Prince that was stalking towards them.
“Malfoy,” Rees started bitterly, “sorry about the girlfriend, I was only trying to knock the quaffle out her hands.”
“After she had already thrown it?” He glowered, walking closer up to the boy that was beginning to straighten himself out and flex. “Looked a little personal seeing how she was dragging you through the dust the whole game.”
“Accidents happen, mate,” Rees shrugged, “it’s only quidditch, you won didn’t you? Maybe you should be thanking me for giving you that extra push to win the game.”
A clear line had been crossed and everyone who was listening knew it. But before Rowan could say anything to try and drag himself out of the hole he had just dug himself into, he was being tackled into the ground with Draco above him throwing punches wherever he could land them. There was loud hooting and laughing coming from the Slytherins that gathered around the fight, cheering loudly for their House superior.
Rees was thrashing around on the ground, trying frantically to throw off the extremely infuriated boy that was repeatedly pounding into his face with bloodied and bruised fists. Oliver Wood ran up to the sudden brawl, Fred and George following closely behind him as they all started trying to rip the fighting boy’s apart from each other. Oliver had gotten Draco off briefly, allowing Rees to try and get a hit in but it was dodged at the last second as the blond quickly leaped up to his feet. The fight immediately ended when a muddy shoe had collided with Rowan’s jaw and Draco stepped back satisfied with the damage he had done, roughly shrugging off the grip Oliver still had on his arm.
“It’s only quidditch, right?” He spat venomously from above the Gryffindor who was holding his now battered face in pain. “That’ll teach you from putting your hands on a woman too.”
“Mr. Malfoy!” Madam Hooch bellowed as she broke through the crowd in a frenzy. “50 points from Slytherin, go wait outside Professor Snape’s office for further punishment, go right now!”
Draco did go, and instantly, but he didn’t go down to the dungeons to hear about the lengthy detention that he knew he was going to get and the scolding for being reckless and stupid. His feet carried his sore body up the many stairs that led to the hospital wing, his pace picking up swiftly when he saw the large double doors of the infirmary ajar and he was able to hear a faint and familiar voice speaking indistinctly. 
He threw open the doors, walking straight in as if he owned the place and ignored Pomfrey’s requests for him to leave as he made a beeline towards your hunched figure that was facing away from him. 
“I need to see her,” he said to the nurse quickly when she stopped in front of him. “I’ll leave soon, please.”
At the sound of his voice, you hastily turned around in your spot to face him, a yelp escaping your lips for moving too quickly through your injuries. Pomfrey stepped out of the way with a sigh allowing Draco to jog over to you.
“I’m going to kill him,” he scowled when he reached you. You were wearing a sling, a deep purple and yellowed bruise quickly set itself over the side of your arm and the same cuts he saw from earlier were still scattered over your features. His fingers ghosted over your skin and he let out a deep shaky exhale of anxiousness before moving his thumb up to graze your cheek tenderly.
“What happened to you?” You asked quietly in shock when you noticed his mud-splattered clothes and tattered fists. 
“Long story,” he drawled. “Don’t worry about me, are you okay?”
“I’m okay,” you muttered with a slight shrug that made you whimper lightly. “Did we win?”
He nodded quietly, his eyes still scanning sadly over your face with a frown. “I swear, I’m going to kill him.”
“Only if I can help,” you sniggered faintly, trying to make light of the situation and succeeding in doing so when you saw he had cracked a small smile. With his hand still on your cheek, he bent down to press a firm kiss on the top of your hair and then warmly on the side of your mouth that wasn’t bleeding.
“I’ll just let you finish him off then,” he mulled amusingly when he pulled away.
“Finish him off?”
The doors of the hospital wing were thrown open again, a sea of red flowing inside as they carried in a pummeled Rowan with a busted lip, bloodied nose, black eye, and deeply bruised jaw. You looked briskly between Rees and Draco, both of them staring daggers at each other and it rapidly clicked in your mind why your boyfriend had looked like he just walked through a battlefield in your absence.
“Oh.”
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TWO GHOSTS IV | MATTHEW GUBLER
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It’s been 15 years. 15 years has to be long enough . . . right? Read PART 3.
Set 15 years after the end of Ever Since New York, so give that a read first!
Word Count: 3.9k.
Warning: Usual angst, porn, and poor communication amongst characters.
SOUNDTRACK:
Love Affair - UMI
Debt - Eliza McLamb
Sometimes Sunshine - Seasalt
A nonstop flight, from New York City to Los Angeles, is three hours long. On a good day. And May 16 was supposed to be a good day. A great day. The best day of Matthew’s life. He tries not to think about it, not to reminisce too often. About the way he walked through the airport with a little jog, a little pep in his step. And the way he smiled through security, and constantly checked behind him as if you would magically appear. The roses he bought for you in a gift shop near the terminal.
See, a nonstop flight from New York City to Los Angeles is three hours long. On a good day. But Matthew wasn’t looking for three hours. He wasn’t asking you for a few hours of your time, or even a good day. He was asking you for a lifetime.
And that day, he had booked you two a connecting flight that totaled over six hours, with a two hour layover in Colorado. There was a little ice cream shop in the Denver airport, and they served blueberry ice cream. Matthew remembered it was your favorite, and saved just enough money to get your tickets and an entire pint. He couldn’t shake the thought of flying across the country with you, seeing a few small parts of it at a time. A few small parts at a time, until someday, you two had seen the whole world together.
He bought a blanket for you and, while waiting at the terminal, he sat it in the seat beside him, keeping it warm for when you would arrive. He had a little itinerary written in his notes app, and so far everything was going to plan. He had a bouquet of roses in his lap, and he killed time by looking up engagement rings online.
He didn’t start to worry until maybe, an hour, an hour and a half before the plane was set to depart. He called you, just to check in, and it went straight to voicemail. But he was still hopeful. There was very little that could destroy his peace that day. His hope. His happiness.
He tries not to think about it. The way the seconds inched by like a caterpillar moving across the limb of a tree. Slowly, painfully. The way his hope dwindled, and dwindled, and the insane amount of times he heard,
Hey, it’s [y/n]! Leave a message!
He can’t think about it anymore. The way he spents those six hours alone. Bawling his way through flight after flight, and eating a pint of blueberry ice cream by himself. He spent hours on his own. And weeks, months, hell, he spent years thinking that maybe, just maybe, you would find your way back to him.That the universe would magically correct itself.
And you’d come home.
Fifteen.
It took him fifteen years to find you again. It took fifteen years for the universe to bring you back together, and Matthew spent the first five thinking it was all some really shitty nightmare. It took him fifteen years to get close to you, to hear you say his name again, to get inside of you again.
And he managed to fuck it all up in a matter of twenty-four hours.
His body is paralyzed. His mind is moving a mile a minute, and he can’t take his eyes off the ceiling. His chest feels tight, like he can’t breathe properly. He knows he should not feel sorry for himself. That he, alone, is responsible for this wreck. But he can’t seem to shake it. He can’t seem to move.
“What the hell did I do?”
A knock at your door wakes you up. You don’t remember falling asleep, you don’t know how you were able to. But now, it’s all you want to do. You want to stay in the bed, in a state of unconsciousness and dreariness where you can’t remember your mistakes. But someone is knocking. Incessantly, loudly. And they won’t stop.
You roll out of bed, and drag your body across the floor. Zombie like, your shoulders are slouched, your eyes are hooded. Your feet shuffle along the floor like they’re weighted to the hardwood. Your footsteps are slow, hesitant. You don’t know what you’ll do if Matthew is on the other side of that door. You just . . . you don’t know. The very thought of it is making your stomach churn, and you suddenly feel very, very nauseous. The banging continues, and it’s as someone is using all their force. Like they’d break the door down if they could.
“[y/n]!”
You instantly relax at the sound of her voice. You speed up, hurry to the door, “[y/n] [y/l/n]! I know you can hear me! Open up!”
The door swings open and you catch her with her fist in the air, ready to strike the door once again. She’s pissed, doesn’t try to hide it, couldn’t hide it even if she tried.
“Good morning,” you rasp.
“It’s one in the afternoon,” she corrects you, pushing her way into your home.
“Please,” you say, shutting the door behind her. “Come on in.”
“Y’know,” Everest starts, clasping her hands in front of her as a wild look graces her face. “You’ve always been one of the good ones . . . hell, you’ve been . . . great, if that’s the word. You’re better than the others. The ones that really write my checks. But, um, you’re testing me, [y/n].”
You don’t even have to ask.
“Now, if there’s is some magical relationship blooming, or a monumental disaster about to strike, then you need to tell me now, so I can fix it. I’m a fixer, you know, that’s what I do. So, why are you making this so hard for me?”
“If it . . .” you clear your throat, cross your arms as you stare at her feet. “If it makes you feel any better, um, this is hard for me, too.” You attempt to joke. But you just sound sad.
“Yeah?” she raises her eyebrows. “So hard that you come out of his hotel in tears? And what the hell were you doing over there anyway? Was there a plan? Did he call you to come over?”
“I don’t see how any of this matters.”
“It matters because I woke up at seven in the morning — on a saturday — to all sorts of choas and speculation, and picture evidence of you doing exactly what I told you not to do!”
“Yeah, well, I’m a idiot. Don’t worry, that’s been established.”
“The internet is undefeated. Okay? People are . . . great at making up stories, making assumptions. And as your publicist, I need to know the whole story, the real story, before it gets twisted even further.”
You sigh, and walk over to the couch. As you sit down, you pull a pillow into your lap for just a little bit of comfort. “What do you mean the whole story?”
“Wrong choice of words,” Everest says. “The important parts of the whole story. Like are you dating him? Are you fucking him? If so, how long has this been going on?”
You can’t make eye contact as you speak, “I . . . fucked . . . him . . . a few times, a long time ago . . .”
She nods. She motions at you to continue, “. . . And?”
“And . . .” you breathe out. “I fucked him, again. Recently.”
“Last night? At the hotel?”
“Last night . . . not at the hotel.”
“Sooo, when? — Oh, my God,” she lowers her eyebrows at you, purses her lips. “You didn’t.”
“Oh, I did,” you nod. It’s a shameful nod. “You know they say there’s no sex like sex in a dressing room.”
“They also say polka dots are making a comeback, you believe everything you hear?”
“Sorry.”
“So you fuck him in the dressing room, and?”
“And . . . we go our seperate ways . . . again. And, then I realize that’s a lot easier said then done, so I . . . I go for him. I go for him . . .” Everest can hear the way your voice is cracking, the way the weight on your shoulder is slowly pushing the air out of your lungs. “And, uh,” you clear your throat. “Yeah. Yeah, it didn’t work out. Hence the . . . photos of me crying, I guess.”
“Mm,” she nods, crosses her arms. “And the other girl?”
You freeze, cut your head up at her. “What other girl?”
“What do you mean? The girls that came out right behind you. Same sad face? Kinda got a Natalie Portman look to her?”
“I . . .” you shake your head. “I didn’t know she came out after me, I must have left by then.”
“Who is she?”
You give her a shrug, “I don’t know.”
“His girlfriend?”
You huff, “Guess so.”
“Ah, so, some people online actually got it right. Huh, look at that.”
“Look, if the point of all of this is to keep me away from him, you can stop now. I don’t plan on seeing him ever again.”
The doorbell rings, as if on queue, and Everest instantly gives you a look. “What?” you ask. “I don’t know who it is. Your guess is as good as mine.”
She scoffs at you, and turns around, marching towards the door with a certain determination. She pulls it open, and immediately puts her hand on her hip. “You gotta be fucking kidding me.”
“Oh,” Matthew gasps. “Uh, oh . . . fuck . . . sorry, I must — I must have the wrong house.”
“You sure do, Romeo.”
You stand from the couch, your face laced with shock and anger and confusion, “What the fuck are you doing here?”
“Don’t engage, [y/n], what the hell?” Everest interjects.
You roll your eyes and cross your arms over your chest. “How the hell did you find my house?” you direct at Matthew.
“Oh, what?” he scoffs. “Like you’re the only one around here who can play stalker?”
“Go home, Matthew.”
“Five minutes. I’m asking you for five minutes. You can time me if you want.”
“Go back to California, Matthew.”
“Look, I know I fucked up. I know, but —“
“Do you?” you snap. You take slow, calculated steps towards the front door, and your voice is lowering to a rumble. “Do you know that you fucked up? Because, if you did, if you truly knew just how badly you fucked up, then you would leave. You would get on a fucking plane and leave, and you would never come back!”
The way Matthew is looking at you right now.Like he can’t fathom what’s happening. Like he is trying his very best not to feel defeated. “Can I . . . can I just —“
“No.” Everest says. “You heard her. Fuck off, string bean.”
You walk away, retiring to your kitchen. You try to keep yourself busy, but you’re trembling like mad and you can barely breathe.
Matthew leaves. You know because you hear the door close. Everest comes into the kitchen, and you feel stuck. Frozen to the spot and position you’re in. Your back is to her, and you can’t begin to imagine or guess what look is on her face right now.
She’s quiet for a moment, eyeing you with her arms crossed at her chest. She leans against the entryway and sighs, “Tell me more.”
Ramona walks up your driveway, and it isn’t until she looks up from her phone that she sees Matthew. She notices him, and he notices her, and Ramona tries to act like it didn’t happen, But when Matthew opens his mouth to speak, she blows past him, “I’m not supposed to talk to you.”
“I know,” he says instantly. He is well aware, but it doesn’t stop him from running in front of her, blocking her from your front door. “I know, I know. I’m sorry, but . . . please, can you give this [y/n]?”
Matthew holds out an envelope. It’s bright red, your name is printed on the front of it in his handwriting.
Ramona glances at it, but she quickly glances back up, “Do I look like a mailman to you?”
“She won’t take it from me. She won’t talk to me. She might take it from you.”
“Yeah, or she might fire me for even taking it from you in the first place.”
“[y/n] wouldn’t do that.”
“Yeah, yeah, she’s usually pretty amazing, except for when you’re around, or when you’re brought up, or when you’re fucking with her head. You make her a different person, dude. I want no part of it.”
He nods, looks down, “Fair enough . . . I’ll put it in her mailbox.”
“Yeah, why don’t you do that?” She shrugs, and she continues on by him.
“Damn . . .” Everest says. “You ghosted the guy at the airport?”
“Basically,” you shrug.
“Well, fuck,” she scoffs. “That is some serious great gatsby shit.”
“Yeah, we’ve always had a flair for the dramatic.”
The doorbell rings, and you both turn your heads sharply towards the entrance. “You don’t think he would come back, do you?” Everest asks as she walks to the door.
“Well, he never listens much to anything I say, but he’s probably a little scared of you.”
She laughs, and when she opens the door, she tells you it’s only Ramona, who walks in quickly, looking for you. She gives you a soft smile, and joins you in the kitchen as Everest follows close behind.
“So,” Ramona pips. “What’s the game plan?”
“You and [y/n] come to my office in the city and we’ll figure it out. Hey, did you pass him on your way out?” Everest asks her.
“Uh, who?”
“Matthew,” you tell her. “He was just here, you didn’t see him?”
“He was here?” Ramona questions, putting on a look of bewilderment. “When?”
“Just now. He left right before you got here.” Everest explains.
“Holy shit,” Ramona says. “What’d he want?”
“[y/n].”
“So,” you interrupt. “Your office? Now? We can go ahead and get going.”
“Whoa, whoa, whoa,” Everest stops you in your tracks, throwing her hands up. “Not so fast, you . . . you need to shower first.”
You look down at your outfit. You’re still dressed in Claire’s clothes and they’re completely disheveled. You haven’t showered or brushed your teeth since the last time you had sex, and the very thought makes you feel dirty. You look exactly how you feel. You sigh, “Fair enough.”
“We’ll wait in the car,” Everest nods, and motions to Ramona to follow her.
“What are we gonna do with her?” she says to Ramona as soon as they’re out of the house and walking down the driveway.
“I don’t know, she’s my boss . . . I can only help so much.”
“Yeah, well, I’ve known [y/n] for a long time now, and she’s never needed saving. But, something tells me we’re going to have to keep her away from this one.”
“From Matthew?” Ramona stops in her tracks.
“Well,” Everest stops, turns around to look at her. “She’s a grown woman. She’ll do what she wants. But, that zombie in there,” she motions to the house. “Who walks around the city in her pajamas for a man, is not [y/n]. Atleast, not the world’s [y/n]. People love her. She’s one of the few celebrities that’s kind and passionate and isn’t problematic. I’m just being proactive here.”
“Proactive?”
“She says she’s done with him. She told him she’s done with him. Now, we will just keep her on that path. Few months later, she and the rest of the world forget this ever happened and everything is back to normal.”
“You sound very sure of all of this.”
“Yeah, well, I like my schedules and I happen to like [y/n] so I better be sure. Come on, our ride’s further down the driveway,” Everest continues walking. While Ramona is stuck in place.
“Hey! Uh,” Ramona stutters, suddenly, loudly, causing Everest to turn around once again. “I think I left my water bottle in the house. I’ll meet you in the car?”
“Okay,” Everest eyes her. “It’s just around the corner. And tell [y/n] to hurry up.”
“I will!”
Ramona waits for Everest to continue down the driveway, and when she’s just far enough, Ramona turns around and acts as if she’s walking back up to your front door. When she’s positive Everest has made it to the car, she runs over to your mailbox. She opens it slowly, so it doesn’t creak as loud. The bright red envelope is the only thing in there, and she takes it out quickly. She looks at it for a moment, asks herself what the hell she’s doing. But she doesn’t have time to think right now, you could walk out at any moment. She closes your mailbox, shoves the envelope in her bag, and walks down the driveway.
Matthew Gubler, himself, is a disruption in the space-time continuum.
When you start tallying up the days, it just doesn’t make sense. Some days, every second feels like it’s crawling by. You’ll be in class, at the head of the class, and you’re surprised when your lesson plan ends atleast ten minutes early. And some days, time moves too fast. You find yourself running late for things, events, important people or things, which isn’t like you.
You call it Matthew Brain, and you keep that term to yourself. It happened fifteen years ago. And it’s happening now. It’s a slow, steady descent back to earth, back to reality. Time isn’t real with him, and you think that’s the reason you can’t remember much of your senior year. It’s a rush, a high to even be near him, and it’s the ultimate collapse when he’s gone. Really gone. Out of the life, for the second time.
Time has reset.
And what feels like one month with Matthew Gubler, only turns out to be four days.
You’re on a journey back to earth, and you haven’t even reached the bottom yet. It’s coming, but not now, you thought. You have time to prepare. And this time you’ll be ready. Ready to hit rock bottom, and spend another fifteen years digging yourself out. You have time, you’re sure of it.
Then Ramona comes into your office. She notices you crying, and you have to twirl around in your chair while you wipe the tears away. “Shit, Ro,” you try to laugh. “What’s up?”
“Uh, your afternoon class?” she reminds you. “With the girls at the community center? . . . What’s wrong?”
“Nothing.”
A lot. Not anything that you can really talk to Ramona about. And each day is something different. Like today, you’re feeling like a fucking idiot. You feel unbelievably stupid and lost and question why anyone in their right mind would choose to learn anything from you. You feel defeated, and you can’t get the look on that girl’s face out of your head.
You turn to Ramona with a soft smile, “I’m fine. I forgot about the class, thank you for reminding me. I just have to grab a few things before I go.”
“Well,” she sets her bag down in one of the chairs on the opposite side of your desk. She takes a seat in the other, “You’ve got some time, I haven’t even called the ride yet.”
You eye her, suspicious furrowing your eyebrows, “Oh, don’t do that.”
“Do what?” she seems genuinely confused.
“Sit there and feel sorry for me. I don’t need pity. I’m alright.”
“I’ve never seen you cry before . . . I’m just worried.”
“And I appreciate that, kid, I really do. But you don’t have to be, alright?”
“. . . okay.” she shrugs.
“Anyways,” you change the subject. “How much time do I have until I’ve gotta be out of here?”
“Um, I can call you a ride now, it should be here in about, ten minutes?” Ramona pulls her phone from her pocket, and holds it up as she dials the number.
“Sounds good,” you nod.
She leaves the room to make the call, and when she closes the door, you release a big sigh. As if you’d been holding it in the whole time she was here. You get up from your chair, and walk around the desk. Not paying attention, you stub your toe into the adjacent chair, so hard that the chair falls to the ground.
“Ow! Son of a b—“ your yelp is cut off by a painful groan, and your reach down to hold your foot. You look out in front of you, and Ramona’s entire bag has spilled out across the floor. “Fuck,” you mumble and instantly begin to clean it up.
It’s bright red. And it sticks out like a sore thumb. You reach over to grab it, but only because you recognized his hand writing. You run your fingers over your name, and your head is starting to hurt from the amount of pure confusion.
The door swings open, “Okay, they’ll be here in fifteen, but you have some wiggle room —“ Ramona stops when she sees the item in your hand.
You stand up straight, look her in the eye. She’s shaking. She’s trembling, and there are already tears in her eyes.
“I . . . can explain,” she says.
“Then explain.”
“Matthew . . . wanted me to — to give that to you.”
“When?”
“When, um, when he was at your house on Saturday.”
“You said you didn’t see him. You acted like you didn’t even know he had been there. You took this from him?” your voice goes up at slight octave. Not by much, but it stills cuts Ramona like a knife.
“No! No, I didn’t take it from him. I told him to put it in the mailbox. Which he did, but then I . . .”
“You? You what? Went into my mailbox and took it? Are you kidding?”
“It was crazy! I know! It was absolutely insane of me! But—But Everest was saying all these things about protecting your image, and being proactive, I just wanted to help. I thought —“
“Everest? Everest knew about this?”
“No. No. I took it when she wasn’t looking, and I just, I thought maybe if you didn’t know about the letter, you would be able to move on, y’know? Heal.”
“That was not your decision to make.”
“I know. [y/n], I’m so sorry. I can’t — I can’t even begin —“
“You’re right,” you interrupt her. “You can’t.”
You look down at the envelope in your hands, and shake your head. “God, Ro, I can barely look at you right now.”
“I’m sorry . . .”
You nod.
“I’ll . . . go wait for the car,” she nods, sadly and apologetically exiting the room.
You close the door behind her, and press your back against it. You slide to the floor, and bring the evelope close to your face. The day is not over, and you may need all night to take this in. You are not mentally prepared for whatever is in your hands, but, you rip it open anyway.
There’s a thin piece of paper inside. You pick it up, and it feels so frail that you worry it might rip. You set it on top of the envelope, and examine it. Your eyes dot over the page, until you realize, it’s not a letter at all.
American Airlines
[y/n] [y/l/n]
Seat: 14A
May Sixteenth, 2002
It’s a plane ticket. From fifteen years ago.
One you’ve never seen.
One you’ve never touched.
And now that it’s in your hands, you wish you never knew it existed.
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husbandohunter · 4 years ago
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Moments of Despair #2 [Genshin Impact/Albedo x Reader]
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Synopsis: "The alchemist who relished in his gifts only to fall from grace."
(A series of works where the boys deal with the passing of their beloved).
Diluc’s despair
Warnings: angst, tragedy, major character death and psychological horror (correct me if otherwise)
(A/n): I decided to take a slightly different approach this time. Regardless, it’s still killing my heart TwT.
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Out of the many wonders of Teyvat, one thing Albedo loved most was how you were so different from him. 
Difference ties to the unknown, one that must be discovered. He was drawn to you the first time he had laid his eyes upon your form standing at the heights of Mondstadt's cathedral. The Sisters scolded you from below, but all you did was reply with a wink amidst their chaos before soaring into the skies and letting the wind carry your glider. Reckless they said. For him, your recklessness was intriguing. 
As the sun's light blinded his vision, everything he saw seemed like a glass barrier. For the ground was where he thrived and chalk was his core, it became the basis of Albedo's very existence. Even the geo Archon granted him a Vision of the same element to affirm his identity. The earth will forever be attached to his feet as he will keep on his stride until every last truth of Teyvat have all been realized. You, on the other hand, hailed from a place where he couldn't quite reach. What lies beyond this glass ceiling? Albedo found himself gradually holding onto a string of curiosities, a string he could touch but was not able to feel. 
'Interesting,' he thought quietly, while the breeze slip between the fingers of his outstretched hand. 
He was a character of logic, possessing sharp eyes that could pierce through the depths of the most complex formulas and a mind to predict their outcomes-  as long as alchemy was still related. All impossibilities thrown in his way only paved a path for him to become the well known genius he was now. Whether it was alchemy or  investigations with the Knights of Favonius, Albedo never failed to deliver the answers. But despite it all, he always found himself endlessly contemplating over things that were considered intangible. He wonders why you smile when there was nothing to laugh about. How could you tell between the complexities of the human heart? Albedo can't seem to put a finger on it. 
'Why? What drives you? What are you thinking?' 
The Chief Alchemist couldn't resist being fascinated by your unpredictability. It reels him in similar to a fish being baited out of the waters. However, unlike those creatures, Albedo only tightened his grip on the strings as if they were a lifeline, determined to find out what they truly felt like to the touch. 
"I can't really say it's much of an answer," you hummed, clasping both hands behind your back before declaring with a grin, "To put it simply, you just gotta follow your heart."
'Follow your heart...' What does it mean to follow your heart? 
"I'm afraid I still don't understand," he replied in a thoughtful manner. The statement never really resonated with him and it certainly weren't the words his Master taught when he was in the early stages of being created, "But it does suit you very much." 
"Really? But still bring your head with you," a playful laugh escapes and you add while pointing a finger, "At least, it's what everyone tells me these days." 
"Hm," Albedo then affirms with a nod, "I can definitely see why they would tell you that." 
"Hey! What's that supposed to mean?" 
The days go by and his repetitious march towards the truth remains the same. However, there was never a dull moment when you were at his side. Perhaps that was the reason why Albedo became so attracted to your aura. The way you'd follow around his experiments, eyes so full of enthusiasm at every step of the activity. Sometimes the events can get a little too out of hand in which he needs to step in and save you from getting stuck in slime condensates...constantly. Albedo grew fond of your childlike excitement even when you weren't entirely sure what was going on. He normally distanced himself from socializing as it never sparked his interest. Frankly, he was too much of a genius for mundane conversations. Your presence was rather refreshing in this case. You were an oddball, just like him, and for once the alchemist felt like he didn't need to place that glass barrier between the two worlds. 
"You seem to be in a very good mood today Mister Albedo." 
He was a man of subtle expressions yet anyone could notice the small gleam in his eyes whenever he saw you walking in the hallway. Sucrose often remarked with a giggle after she noticed her teacher holding his documents upside down. But who could blame him? Joy, fun, laughter. He was able to experience those emotions all because of you; his beloved. You were the colour to his canvas and the meaning to his flower. You were a force of nature. Like a warm breeze gracing upon the terrestrial lands, you move him. 
Thump- thump- thump- 
Strings around his world began to weave one whole picture while they also tugged inside his chest. God had finally blown the breath of life into mankind's body, it was only a matter of time before Albedo came to follow his heart too. 
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"Alright, just one more detail aaaaand done!" 
You gave a small tap using the tip of your pencil and leaned back to examine your artwork. 
Masterpiece! 
On days when Katheryne had no commissions assigned to the guild, Albedo would accompany you to the Whispering Woods and conduct his sketches there instead. He was aware of the discomfort Dragonspine brought as the temperature wasn't ideal for anyone except for him. You eventually learned that your lover was not only intelligently different from the rest but physically too. Albedo, aside from the Cavalry Captain, was mysterious in his own way. He was hard to read yet never came off as intimidating, no one knew of his origins nor they knew how he came to Mondstadt. You wondered why someone like him would have wanted to get involved with your shenanigans. Rosaria often gave warnings regarding the alchemist's 'hidden intentions' in which you'd roll your eyes in response. The Albedo you knew was far from that. He was a big brother to Klee, a man passionate about his work, he was the one golden star among the many silvers in your sky. He was your lover. 
My Albedo. 
Brushing a hand upon the drawing you made of him, you glided down the lines of his cheek before resting your finger on the mark by his neck. You gazed at it with fondness. Truly a masterpiece indeed. 
"You do realize I'm still here?" 
The paper nearly flies out of your grasp and you snatched it back to your chest, "HUH A-ALBEDO, WHEN DID YOU APPEAR???" 
"I was with you the whole time," he states. The corner of his lip tug upward ever so slightly, "You said you wanted to sketch me." 
"A-Ahahaha, so I did," you reply while scratching your head bashfully. 'I thought I was looking at a sculpture!!'  You rushed to cover your face with the sheet. It wasn't that you forgot he was there, rather, you forgot he was still a living and breathing specimen who just witnessed your little serenade. As Lisa had once said, Albedo was easy on the eyes. His graceful features made him seem almost like an oil painting that could only be found in  halls of the most prestigious households. You made sure to capture everything, every detail, every curve just like he had done with your portraits. Only now you noticed the sun already began its descent below the lakeside, dusting the landscape with hints of bright orange as it marked the day's end. If only time could slow down. But duty calls upon your next journey and there was no telling when you'd return. At the very least, a simple portrait would suffice to fill in the temporary gap of his absence. 
"Can I see it?" 
You glanced his direction while keeping the drawing close to your nose, "Are you sure about that? It might not be up to your expectations." 
"I'm sure," Albedo affirms with a straight countenance, "I can already tell you've put a great amount of effort, otherwise you wouldn't have taken this long." 
"Yeeaahh I kinda lost track of time. I guess it's only fair that you get to see the finished product," you say and shoved the drawing in front of him, "Tada! I present to you, my masterpiece!" 
Albedo takes it out of your grasp and you watched the way his eyes expanded upon sight. 
"Well? Whaddya think?" 
Words could not describe the mixture of emotions that erupted within him. Was it distinguishable or abstract? Albedo spent his time pondering between the two answers as he examined the drawing closely. Despite the lines being slightly jagged and the unevenness in the placement of his eyes, he managed to make the shape of the entire image you were trying to convey. Perhaps it was all thanks to his well trained artistic vision which gave him the ability to do so. Or maybe he was simply biased. But there wasn't a shred of doubt that this was indeed your craftsmanship. 
"You even added flowers in the background," he pointed out with amusement. 
"It's the thing you make when using your elemental burst, I couldn't fit your hand in the picture so I decided to put it somewhere empty," you informed, "Out of everything, that one took me the longest." 
"And the rabbits?" 
"They resemble Klee's bombs!" 
He lets out a chuckle, "I see." 
Albedo kept his attention downward until he was mindlessly staring at the paper in hand. This was a memory made to be carried as you moved on to your next journey and it saddens him that he could not accompany you. If only time slowed down. Albedo wanted to hold onto the memory forever, because he knew once he gave it back, he wouldn't be able to see you for an uncertain amount of time. 
"Do you really have to go?" 
His voice was barely above a whisper. Guilt crept into your heart and you gingerly layed your fingers on his gloved ones, bringing down the paper that blocked his face. A pair of teal orbs held a reflection of your image as the sun's rays casted from the side. You returned it with a reassuring grin, hoping to soothe his worries somehow, "I just need to pay a visit to my father since he's been very sick lately. I'll be fine, so don't worry too much okay?" 
Albedo turns over his palm and gave your hand a squeeze, "How long will it take?" 
"I'm not sure but it will be a while. Snezhnaya is pretty far so..." you trailed off, "But my time in Mondstadt, with Klee and with you, I will never forget! I won't even if I tried." 
When you were met with no answer, a breeze came in to fill the melancholic silence. He too will not forget and he would ensure that it was the same for you. Slowly, Albedo brought your hand up, past the center of his heart all the way to cupping his cheek. He allowed himself to indulge in your warmth, tangling the strands of his hair with your fingers while closing his eyes. Sweet flowers. You always carried the smell of sweet flowers. 
"Albedo?" You gawked, "What's the matter?" 
"...There are certain aspects where drawings can't imitate,"  he says, grip tightening ever so slightly, "How I feel against your skin, the shape of my jaw, your warmth radiating with my own. These are the things I want you to remember." 
Breath leaves your slightly parted mouth. It was unfair how straightforward Albedo could be when showing his affection. Doing as he pleases without anyone's approval to the point it would even catch you off guard since he often absorbed himself in the arts of alchemy. But during times when Albedo did choose to express his feelings, you knew they came from a place of pure genuinity. The thought made it hard for you to tear away from him, "Did you ever find out what the strings felt like then?" 
Albedo returns his gaze, long golden lashes hovering them as he smiles softly, "...I have." 
As he began to reveal his stories, the dusk sky continued to flare across the landscape with colours of passion. Red, it was the thread that had led him to you, the same string that weaved him together as a whole. Albedo lays a kiss atop of your pinky, there was a reason why Mondstadtians called him the Chalk Prince. You didn't know the intention behind his sudden affection but he knew. It was a promise, one to ensure that the thread would also have you return safely back into his arms. 
Oh how he hated the colour red. 
"Al...bedo..." 
With speed he never knew he had, Albedo scoops you into his embrace and held you close. How did everything happen so fast? He curses his mind as it proceeds to scan your injuries, drawing a conclusion where he wished to be wrong for once: 
You were beyond help. 
"Ah..haha..." you managed to laugh through bitter tears, "You don't have to say it. I know." 
His breath hitches, trying to make sense of the feeling that was slowly tearing him apart from the inside. It's not real. Of course it wasn't, it couldn't be. What other possible answer was there to explain the numbness stinging his fingers? The reason for his shaking? Everything felt so cold. Your body hardly registered to his to touch, you were losing so much blood. You were losing. He was going to lose you. 
"No," Albedo shakes his head, "We still have time. I'll go find help." 
Please, hold on. 
He forced himself to think. The ruin hunter ran off shortly after it had ambushed you, by now the Knights would eventually noticed and apprehended it on sight. They couldn't be too far. All he needed was to carry you back to safety and everyone can go home. Albedo darted his eyes all over the place, breaths becoming shallower with each passing second. Where? Where to go? Which route was best to not overexert your wounds? Think. Think. Think. Why couldn't he think? 
"A..." You watched him in your helpless state. Every part of you throbbed with pain but it pains you even more to see the renowned genius who stood atop the pedestal of elegance and grace so utterly, undoubtedly lost. This was not the goodbye you wanted, though death already had you tight in their grasps. Not yet. Using the last particle of your strength, you tried to stay alive as long as possible. Just a little bit more time. 
Albedo freezes when a trembling hand extends itself to cup around his cheek. Every single thought he had in mind vanished and was replaced by a loud ring resonating in his ears. Dreadfully, mechanically, he turns his attention to where you lay. 
"Don't cry," you whisper, "I love you, don't cry- okay?" 
Albedo grimaces, shutting his eyes closed as he allows the pent up sadness to flow out of him completely, "I can't," he said in a shaky voice, "Please. Stay." 
"I'm sorry," Your vision blurs and he hugs you even more. Drawing your final breath, you relay your most cherished words through a broken smile, "But no matter w-where I go...I won't for..ge.." 
The moment your hand fell, Albedo finally understood the difference between death and loss. 
It was...suffocating. Having the air trapped in his throat, begging to release yet it hurts to speak. The never ending stabs that pulsed within his veins rushed forth like the scraping  blizzard of Dragonspine until his whole body lost all its senses. The world was shattering. He could no longer feel your weight. He could no longer feel. 
(Y/n). 
Albedo glances at his blood stained fingers where the thread had been severed, wide eyes drowning in sorrow. What a horrible feeling. Was this a warning sent by the gods? For stepping into the boundaries of knowing too much? Ah the curse of knowledge man must bear when eating the temptatious fruit. It was the result of choosing to love you. With life, death is inevitable and with love, it will eventually bring pain. Everything had a price to pay and as an alchemist, Albedo knew that better than anyone. 
"...Meaningless..." 
But he refused to accept it. 
Cradling your corpse, he leans in and places a kiss on your forehead, lips quivering as they lingered for a second too long before gathering the strength to stand back on his feet. Nothing will stop the alchemist from reuniting with you. If the laws wished to take you away from him then he will use everything in his power to fight against those laws. 
"This is not goodbye..." Albedo said to the sleeping girl, "And it will never be." 
When the sun sinks below the plains and the stars lose their light, the sky had been replaced with a palette of darkness. It was time to go home. 
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"Have you all heard about the rumours?" 
A group of knights gather in the corner as they whisper about. Sucrose stops on her tracks and hides behind a wall, clutching the book close to her chest in an attempt to stay hidden. 
"Another criminal disappeared from the dungeons? Crazy..." 
"More like creepy. I was told that place might be haunted by some dead prisoner's ghost. Even the Church is hopping onto this case." 
"Well I hope it doesn't get any worse. So many of us started going on night patrols..." 
Their voices faded out of range as the anemo user backtracks her steps carefully. Several months passed since the news of mysterious kidnappings have been announced to the public. Rumours of their whereabouts swirled around the city and much to her discomfort, Sucrose happened to catch every single one of them. There couldn't possibly be evil spirits lurking in the Favonious Headquarters right? She silently shrieks at the thought, shaking her head furiously to stop her mind from going too deep. No, I have to find him. Without wasting another minute, the anemo user sprinted towards the stairs all the way up to the second floor before stopping directly in front of her teacher's office. Despite the adrenaline that occured at the same time, she made sure to knock. 
No answer. 
"Strange, he told me he would be here today..." Sucrose muttered to herself. But suddenly she heard the sound of objects shifting from the otherside, signaling that there was indeed someone occupying the room. Without realizing, she held her breath out of anticipation. 
"Come in." 
The door creaks as she opens them, giving her enough space to slip between the gap, "Mister Albedo?" 
"You're early today," The Chief Alchemist noted from his desk, "Is there something the matter?" 
"Y-You mean you don't know? There was just another case about a person disappearing from the dungeons," Her tone became more frantic as she rambled to herself, "The kidnapper never leaves a trace and no one knows how they were able to get out. Even when we ask the guards what happened, they can't seem to remember as if...as if someone casted a spell on them!" 
"A spell?" He inquires, "I suppose that could be a possibility." 
"I think so too. I-It's the only explanation that makes sense! I mean...ghosts don't exist after all," Sucrose nervously looks down at her shoes while giving her book a squeeze, "But why? Who could be capable of such advanced techniques? No matter how hard I try, I can't seem to understand their intentions." 
"...Yes. It is a very strange occurrence indeed." 
Noticing her teacher's withdrawn attitude, Sucrose couldn't help but feel flustered at her own behaviour, "Ah my apologies Mister Albedo, I didn't mean to go off track. Have there been any progress on the investigations so far?" 
Albedo briefly glanced at the various documents splayed across his table. His reputation as an incredibly intelligent individual had reached far and wide through Mondstadt. This led to the authorities requesting his assistance regarding the recent matters, despite him specializing in the alchemical field, he was also the Captain of their Investigation Team. Although, Albedo detested partaking in things he deemed irrelevant to his research; 
"I'm afraid I would need more evidence to draw a conclusion." 
"Eh? You still need more?" 
He could not deny that the given authoritative position had provided much benefits to his own accord. 
"My expertise lies in the subject of alchemy," Albedo reasoned and proceeds to intertwine his fingers in front of his mouth, "Humans on the other hand, are very unpredictable in nature. Even the essence of their existence is hard to obtain." 
"Essence of their existence?" Sucrose repeated softly. She wanted to ask what he meant but the blank expression was evident  enough to signal his impatience. At least, that was what she thought, "Nevermind! I have something that might help," taking out a slip from her textbook, she handed it to him, "It's the report Captain Kaeya gave me. He said that the culprit might be a traitor coming from the Knights of Favonius." 
He narrows his eyes. 
"I-I think he might be right! Just think about it, we haven't found anything at all for the past few months but when we do, I sometimes feel like we're just running in circles...oh what if it's becau-" 
"Sucrose." 
"Y-Yes?!" 
Albedo calmly looks at the flustered girl, not realizing how sharp his tone was, "You're overthinking again. Perhaps it's best that you take this day off." 
"But I came here to help," she insisted, "I know it hurts to lose someone you love! Don't you understand that we're all worried about you? And Klee, she..." 
"..." 
"Please Mister Albedo, if there's anything I could do-" 
"No need," he cuts her off once again, "Your stress levels are too high. We can't go any further if you continue to act like this." 
"Oh," her ruby eyes casted to the side, "I understand..." 
"Good. Now, if you would excuse me," Albedo bid her farewell and watched as the door clicked behind her, observing every detail until he was sure that the absolute silence had returned. He picks up Kaeya's document. Such remarkable handwriting. But of course, appearances are only meant to be displayed on the surface for the Captain was a sly man, wearing a mask to shield what lies underneath. Just like his letter, they were full of innuendos and condensed meanings, orchestrated together until the truth spoke loudly to Albedo himself. 
"So, that's what he thinks." 
Perhaps the alchemist should have been a little more discreet. 
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There was a certain place in Dragonspine that no one dared to enter. But those who have, they never return. 
"Hm, no response. Now as for the next step..." 
And he was the reason why. 
Taking the sword out of the transmutation circle, Albedo turned to the snowy hill nearby and activated his alchemy. A small portion of it dissipates, revealing a trench that went so deep underground that even warmth couldn't outplay the sheer cold. It was the perfect hiding place for the evidence to lay out of sight and an environment where only he could handle. The alchemist tossed the leftover along with the others before exiting quietly, summoning back the ice to bury his victims once again. Another day, another experiment, another stain goes to his title. The path he walked upon was one littered with corpses and the sins he committed. But despite the bones crunching beneath his feet and the weight of the dead hanging on his shoulders, the alchemist was numb to it all. Like an entity floating in space with nothing to hold, he became unable to feel. 
"I'm back," When reaching the center of Starglow Cavern, Albedo puts his hand on the icicle and caressed it's hard cold surface, "Did you sleep well?" 
The girl did not respond. Her eyes were closed and her skin was as young as ever. She was frozen in time. 
"You must have." 
Albedo felt the sword beginning to shake in his grasp as it resonated with his energy. Dust particles emitted from the hilt and slowly made their climb to the side of his arm. Still, Albedo's attention did not waver, "To this day, I've been thinking about what you told me the first time we met." 
"..." 
"Follow your heart. I couldn't understand it at first but after being around your presence, I believe I can finally recognize what that term means." 
He closes his eyes as he envisioned your lively form running across the landscape. Albedo, Albedo! The sound of his name was mixed with your laughter while Klee came into the scene and caught the dandelions with you. A content smile formed on his countenance as he watched from afar, even if it was just a memory, "It's everything. The breakfast we ate together, to the nights spent camping outside, and the silly moments we shared, they bring all these colours that I never knew existed." 
"..." 
Albedo curls his fingers against the ice as he continues to lament, "Perhaps that's why I began noticing the strings around me. The closer I was to answer, the more I felt it was necessary to discover what they are. All this time, you were the answer I was searching for," Moist begins to build up in his eyes but they freeze up once reaching the corners. How cruel. Despite what he went through, he wasn't even granted the liberty to cry, "Because with you, I'm able to feel them." 
He wonders what you would think if you saw him right now. Albedo peers at his reflection casted on the crystalline surface, the frame of his face had been decorated with streaks of purple and red, spreading out like tree branches as they both fought for dominance. The teal coloured orbs you once adored were beginning to transform to a colour that reminded him of his darkest days. This was Albedo's true nature- a monster, a being that wasn't human, the essence in which you never had the chance to see. 
"I know I may not be the same as I was before," he added, "But if that is what it takes to follow your heart, will you let me feel the strings again?" 
Would you still love me the same? 
"..." 
"If so, then please understand my actions," Albedo takes a step back as he held out the sword in front of him. At last, the preparations have finally been completed. He plunges the blade to the ground with full force and the surrounding area begins to shake under the power accumulated through many, intentional sacrifices. To revive the dead was a forbidden art as it came with heavy consequences. If it weren't for Albedo's talent and quick wit, the process would have consumed him long before executing the last stage. He winces, the pain was excruciating. It was hard for him to ignore the sound of his skin cracking below his ears and all the way to his nose as they fall off in the shape of small rock-like chunks. Everything hurt so much that even death sounded like a sweet dream but Albedo couldn't afford to give up. He had already come this far, his hands completely washed with sin and his reputation already broken beyond repair, Albedo had nowhere else to go. This was his last destination. 
"Soon-" he pants between choked breaths. Soon your eyes will open. He could drown in your embrace, one that was warm and not cold. Soon he will be able revive those cherished memories from a frozen past. It was all he could think of right now. Your existence was the reason why a part of him felt whole and your death made him realize how painful it was to tear away those pieces. Albedo refused to let go of those pieces, they had already become a part of him. And if this path ended up tearing him even more, then so be it. 
"I should have stopped you the moment you were born." 
The intruder snapped him awake and he swung around to where they stood. But before Albedo could make out who it was, they lunged past him with incredible speed, kicking the sword off the ground while severing his two arms once and for all. They flew to the side, blood dyed purple trickling from the edges of his joint as he struggled to stay upright. 
"Dains...leif..." 
Dainsleif watched the alchemist fall onto his back as the light around him slowly faded away. He turned his gaze to where the objective was and noticed a girl encased within the ice. The man sighs out of relief when she shows no signs of life, he came just in time, "So this is how it ends." 
Albedo weakly stared at the blonde man. He attempted to say something but the blood caught in his mouth prevented him from that. 
"Save your breath, you won't be having any," Dainsleif remarks in a cold manner and glared at his bloodied form, "The renowned Chief Alchemist of Mondstadt and an important member of Ordo Favonious. Hmph, what an interesting turn of events. Out of everyone, I never thought you were the type to act so foolish." 
Foolish...what a foreign name to be called as. He never heard anyone tell him he was foolish. 
"Truly a pity," With a flick of a wrist, Dainsleif brought his sword to Albedo's neck. It was unbelievable how he had the endurance to go through all that pain while still breathing at this point but what is there to be expected from a monster? "Remember that all actions have consequences." 
The alchemist watched as his life flashed before him, the weight of his sins had finally caught up. He had always seen the world as a platform for his objectives and results were merely a natural cause after attempting many experiments. But death as a consequences was an unbearble realization upon his final moments. He abandoned his title, his pupil and his dearest sister. In the end, he was still unable to fulfill his duty. 
"I just..." Albedo mumbled, his words slurring together, "wanted..." 
As the ashes turn to ashes and dust becomes dust, chalk returns to the earth, forever yearning a place that can never be reached.
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bakubub · 3 years ago
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In which racer!kuroo is your roommate, and seems to only like it when you treat his wounds... (word count: 1.9k)
Ngl quite proud of this one!!
Warnings: 18+, a whole lot of swearing, a whole lot of blood, innuendos and implied nsfw, reader almost vomits (NOT from pregnancy chill, I know we're all scarred but its going to be just fine) and if you're squeamish perhaps skip the scene where reader stitches his wound?
Also bit of a disclaimer: I am in NO WAY a med student and literally all of my knowledge is from movies and other fics... so if you acc know what to do in this situation this may be a torturous for you :D
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All due credits go to @aikk00​ for this AMAZING fanart!!!!
I watch as my roommate enters the penthouse, once again scratched up and bleeding, covered in so much blood there is no possible way that it was all his- if it was he would not be standing.
I launch myself off the couch- where I was sitting for the past hour nervously waiting for his return- and slip my arm under his, supporting him as we inched towards the bathroom.
"I can do this by myself you know," he grumbles, his grimace revealing just how much pain he was actually in.
"Mhm, I'm sure you can. Just like you boiled that poor egg by yourself last week, hmm?" I say sarcastically, trying to keep my mind calm and clear, because oh my god it looks really bad this time...
"Oi, its not my fault it fuckin' exploded," he mutters, voice laden with pain.
"You put it in the microwave because 'the shitty water wasn't doing its job.' Of course it would explode," I say, gently seating him on the closed toilet seat and taking out my supplies that I unfortunately have become rather accustomed to using. He's made it a habit to get himself injured.
"Where's the injury?" I ask, setting down my half-empty bottle of antiseptic and box of bandages. He peels off his shirt, cringing at the pain it brought him as the fabric was stuck to the gash that went from his left pectoral down to the middle of his chest.
"Pissed off a bidder after winning a race, fucker took out a knife once he realised he couldn't beat me up," he huffs out, arrogance still lacing his tone even with sweat dripping down his brow as he leans the back of his head onto the tile wall behind him. His Adam's apple bobs down his bloodstained neck as he speaks, and I quickly look away, focusing on the injury at hand.
Not his blood soaked, but nevertheless well defined pectoral muscles, nor the abs that my hands occasionally brush up against and know how hard they really are, and definitely not the trail of black hairs that lead down, down, down...
"What's wrong, the view too hot to focus on the work at hand?" He asks suggestively, raising his pierced brow, even in this state.
I'm quick to reply, having gotten used to his flirtatious remarks from the second I moved into his penthouse, "nope can't even see the view from that massive head of yours. Not to mention your permanent bed head."
He huffs out a laugh, then proceeds to flinch from the pain it must have caused.
"Stop moving, idiot. You're going to exacerbate the cut!" I say, quickly grabbing a damp towel and beginning to clean up his abdomen, whilst simultaneously pressing another rag to his wound to stop the bleeding.
“At least you admit that there is a hot view,” he says in his low voice, gazing at me from his position.
I simply roll my eyes.
No falling in love. That was the deal we had made on the day he offered me a place to stay in exchange for my services as a maid and apparently, a nurse. I cook, clean and basically keep the house running while this moron goes out and acts like the idiot he is. In my defense, dorms are expensive as hell, and his penthouse is nearby. Plus, I don't have to pay rent. It's a win-win situation.
But the feelings stirring up inside my heart might just ruin the dynamic we have going on and simultaneously take out a whole lot of cash out of my pocket.
At least, that's what I keep telling myself.
Once his skin isn't completely saturated in blood, and the wound has (thankfully) stopped bleeding, I add some antiseptic onto a make-up pad and begin to dab at his wound, earning winces and slight grunts from the massive man.
"The cut looks deep, Kuroo. You need to go to the hospital," I say, worry lacing my tone as my eyebrows crease and earn yet another huffing laugh.
"Do you want me to rot in prison for the rest of my life?"
I roll my eyes at his response, deliberately dabbing just a little harder which earns me a yelp and an attempted glare in my direction.
"First off, illegal street racing won't send you to prison for your entire life, just for like, half a year. Second, this wound needs stitches, and believe it or not, I'm not a fucking licensed medic. In fact, the only experience I have is with you!" I say, immediately regretting my choice of words as I wait for his remark.
"That's what she said," He says, chuckling at his own innuendo.
I sigh in frustration, pouring more antiseptic to make sure there was no chance of infection from whatever grimy ass knife stabbed him, and beginning to gently scrub the wound with a soft towel, so as to make sure there was no debris left in there.
"You're gonna have ta do it," he mutters, his hazel eyes boring into mine.
"I- I can't Kuroo, you can't possibly think-"
"Fine. I'll do it. Go get me a needle and thread," he states, struggling but nevertheless, sitting upright on the red stained toilet.
I stare at Kuroo in disbelief as he utters these words. Was he dumber than I thought? Does he have some sort of head injury too?
I examine his face and all I come up with is unnerving determination. I exhale out of my nose sharply, "fine, dammit. I'll sew your fucking wound shut."
I am extremely handy with a sewing needle and thread, used to really be into embroidery back when I had the time so...it should be fine.
He just shrugs, leaning his head back against the tiles and closing his eyes.
"Fucking asshole. Can't believe I'm saving your damn life," I mutter, leaving the bathroom to dig through my wardrobe for my sewing box and taking out a gold silk thread that I was saving for a special project.
Well, I guess that will never happen.
"Hey, I found some silk thread. It's literally known for its strength and durability in high temperatures, so it should work like a charm!" I say, walking back into the blood stained bathroom and trying to psych myself up.
He grunts in response. I sigh as I begin with mopping up the excess blood and sanitising the needle and thread before chucking on gloves.
I wipe the antiseptic over the wound once more, and examine it carefully.
Well, if his condition worsens, I can always knock him out and call an ambulance...
I decide, screw it, and thread the needle, pretending it was just another embroidery project.
It's okay, it's okay, it's okay, I chant as I puncture his skin with the thin needle.
Kuroo gasps in pain, and I place a hand on his knee, telling him to suck it up and deal with it, half talking to him but also to myself.
To my surprise, he listens, stretching his head back once more and gritting his teeth.
"Don't do that, here put this in-between your teeth," I say, grabbing yet another towel and shoving it into his mouth.
He obeys as I continue to stitch. I feel my gag reflex kicking in as I think about how stitching skin feels as though I am stitching leather, it feels hard and tough while pushing the thin needle through.
Must hurt like a bitch.
Once I've completed my neat stitches down the wound, without vomiting, I tie it off as I would with any embroidery, and clean the area free of any remaining blood. After rubbing some antibacterial ointment over the gold stitches, I stick on a particularly large bandage over the wound and start tidying up.
"Thank you," Kuroo mutters, still seated on the toilet seat and practically panting for breath.
"Ah, the criminal knows his damn manners!! Now get up and get in the damn shower. You ruined my pristine bathroom!" I complain, putting the last of the materials away before walking to the door.
"Wait, I- I can't get up." I turn around and look at him incredulously as he utters his next few words, "will you... shower me?"
My eyes just about pop out of their sockets at his request. "Are you insane?! I'm not your mother, nor your wife! Call your pudding haired friend and tell him to come shower you!"
He shakes his head, a rare pleading look taking the place of his usual arrogant smirk, "Kenma's too lazy to shower himself, Y/n, please!"
I contemplated it for a moment. Sure, I've seen him naked before, accidentally of course, and so what if I have to scrub him clean. God knows he can't do it himself with that damn injury.
Fuck this shit.
"Fine, get up right now." I bark at him, leaving to change out of my blood soaked pjs into a pair of shorts and a tank.
"...I just said I can't."
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"Ow, y/n, you're scrubbing too hard!" He complains, his exfoliating glove around my hand as I rub his toned back clean of any dead skin-cells and blood remains.
"But look how much stuff is coming off!" I say gleefully, enjoying this a little too much.
Kuroo, seated on the built-in bench in the open shower with his red boxers on, looks back to see the satisfaction dripping from my features.
"Are you secretly a sadist?" he whispers. In response, I begin to rinse off his raw back with hot water, causing him to screech like a cat.
"It burns, it burns-”
“Shut the fuck up, moron! It's 4 in the morning, you’re going to annoy our neighbours. I tried very hard to get in their good graces, and Mrs. Suzuki still doesn’t like me! She definitely thinks I’m some kind of hooker…” Kuroo laughs at this, and I can’t help but watch as his whole face brightens up from his usual emotionless expression. I find myself smiling in response.
I grab his expensive shampoo and pour some into my hands, beginning to massage it into his scalp. With wet hair, his raven strands are for once flat on his head and reach down to his defined jawline. Kuroo groans under my touch, leaning into my fingers. I snatch my hands back and pour hot water over his head.
"ARGH! Y/N!" He screams, hastily getting up and wetting me in the process.
"Ah- what are you-" I don't get to finish my question as he grabs my arm and yanks me next to him under the hot water, soaking my clothes and my hair.
"You asshole!" I screech as I reach up to pull his hair in defiance, but he only grabs my arm and hooks it around his neck, leaning down to look directly into my eyes.
Our noses brushing against one another, he mutters, "You look pretty with your hair wet and your shirt see through."
It takes me a moment to get past the compliment and to hear the perverted comment that he just uttered.
He sees my look of confusion and laughs, bends over, clutches his stomach and laughs, before bellowing in pain because of his injury.
Smiling smugly down at him as he grimaces, I force him to sit back down and continue massaging the shampoo into his hair, warning him that if he so much as moaned I would leave him in here, dripping wet and in pain.
"That's what he said," is his reply.
I smack his head in response.
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