#wait nvm I just thought of some more ok I’m on board.

[episodeoftv]

EDIT: ending this early bc I’m impatient. Here’s the tiebreaker poll!

If we do Most Episode s2‚ I’ll allow episodes to be resubmitted‚ except for the top 8-16, which will join the new bracket later. It will be a smaller bracket‚ definitely no more than 128‚ but probably capped off at 64.

Also this is just deciding which bracket to do first‚ I anticipate doing some of the runners-up later. (If this poll doesn’t have a clear sweep I’ll do a second poll with the top 2/3)

[autisticbokutoenthusiast]

playboyy ep 12 stray thoughts

- “damn i hate myself” real

- first soong being cute ����🥹

- you know shits about to get emotional when the soundtrack switches to yoiyami

- “you called me a friend when you weren’t pretending to be nant” AND WHAT IF I LOSE MY MIND

- zouey and nont besties agenda

- OH GOD ZOUEY BACKSTORY wait noooooo

- i guess the evidence is staying hidden then like boy are they in their failvestigator era oh nvm they found something (that they already knew but still that’s more than they usually get

- promnont !!!

- hold on they finally showing zoueyteena. they can never just give a quick handy either always gotta be invoking the religious implications of a renaissance painting… good for them (yes i include the popcorn scene in this) also top zouey truthers this one was for you!!!

- what are you hiding under that tarp zouey 🤨🤨 i think it’s of nant

- hold on teena’s necklace lmao. is the t for troy no it’s for *too sleepy to finish the bit*

- NO GET A JOB!! STAY AWAY FROM HER!!!

- finna beat the shit out of jason lee give me 10 seconds i could take him out

- what does he mean by keep an eye on…

- oop that scarf zouey in his horse girl era

- THEY DOING WHAT TO WHO?!?!?

- she is not scared of them at all like two absolute kitty cats of toruturers MEKEKFKKRKRJFJFJF NOT THE DUSTERS I CANT

- the drop of sweat deserves an award for perfect timing and i’m being so serious about this

- AHH PROMNONT i can’t handle them being affectionate like it makes me lose my oh not the fuckass product placemntsjdjjdjdjrjrjjejdjr you know what i got me some promnont crumbs i’ll take it

- so i’m gonna see this scene expanded in fic later right 👀 i’ll give a million kisses to anyone who decides to do it

- they can never argue using simple sentences it’s always “i feel bad that you feel bad that i felt bad” and “im mad that you got mad that i got mad” and “if you have a problem that we have a problem than the problem is you’re invalidating my feelings” “i didn’t think you would think about me thinking” like besties….

- see but zouey was kinda right… why is he being made the bad guy, first and captain kinda pissin me off

- girl YOU got him expelled. captain needs to be fr

- NONT WITH THE BIG PANT CROPPED SHORT COMBO THATS MY MAN

- these college athletes are plain evil

- puen lowkey the only one in this show consistently talking sense. i hope he gets his licks back on these bum bitches cause i’ve had it with them

- the coloring the coloring the coloring the coloring the coloring the projection the projection the projection

- THE. HESS BOARD BEING PROJECTED PLAYBOYY SURREALISM FOR THE WON ONCE AGAIN

- captain talking big game for someone who took sneaky clips. hoping this shows growth on his part cause deep down im still rooting for him

- captain sweaty blow up the whole establishment i support you

- NO CAPTAIN THATS NOT WHAT I TOLD YOU TO DO THATS VERY MUCH MOT WHAT I JUST SAID YOU LITTLE BASTARD

- ooo the outro track finally making sense!! kejrjejdnjdj

- i love the when soong carries first

- oh more food, user @jeffsatyr i’m so sorry

- firstsoong enthusiasts we are so back oh there goes firsts fuckass dad

- captain needs to stop picking fights AND CAPTAINS A YANKEES fan i can’t defend him anymore

- puen fight back!!! he was going easy on captain cause he’s a nice little boy oh shit now aobs gonna kill captain isn’t he…

- captainkeenpuen enthusiasts don’t lose hope!!! we can still win!!

- aobpuen enthusiasts were so back

- THE COLORING THE COLORING THE COLORING

- the characters and 'accurately assessing the media their in' saga continues

- porsche looks like such a baby here. jump listen to porsche pls do not see him again

- cry by johannes bornlof is playing they fr pulling out the nuthphop ballads for the other couples today

- puen is my boy and i will lay down my life for him actually

- NONT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT IM GONNA WALHAT WHAT WYHAHW ok sorry yall him with the gun did sumn to me

- nont once again will not be caught slacking holding someone at gun point be damned AND ITS CAPTAIN WITB THE STEAL POLL?!?!?!?

- nont… i need to know how he picks outfits like did he want the color to match the gun????

- nont chuckling in the corner... i fear he’s lost it

- playboyy once again with the themes of tech and privacy

- captain is lucky puen is lowkey a pacifist

- nont and captain: torturing aob and puen for info about the murder, zoueyteena: painting time !!

- oh my god yall im getting chills like fr speechless i am so…

NUTH MY BABY BOY

- nuth coming through with his amateur directorial visions let’s gooooo

- nont being like “please do a little bit of torture, just for me, please 🥺”

- he playing the funeral violin oh it’s not ending well oh god

- jason lee you will crumble i am so serious about this count your mother fucking days

- nuth scurrying away in the back… also nont where is your marksmanship now

- puen keeps suffering tremendously and he doesn’t deserve a single second of it. free my boy he fr has never done anything wrong

- i think i was right and nuths screenplay is autobiographical

- THEYRE PLAYING AMBIVRLANT THOGUHTS AGAIN NUTHPHOP PIANO BALLAD ENTHUSAISTS WE STAY WELL FED

- nuthphop my beloveds i love them so fucking much you don’t get it no wait why he deleting them oh shit ! phop play shitty games win shitty prizes dawg

- welp

yall this might be one of the strongest eps in a hot minute i loved this one had me at the edge of my seat the whole time

[luminous-shifting-vibes]

actual fucking quotes from the shiftblr coffeehouse discord server

out of context of course, what do you take me for? a sane person?

"they made lightning mcqueen hot"

"inch resting"

"Nix: Cars (2006) several people are typing..."

"im evaporating"

"enjoy precipitation"

"tow mater is more attractive than lightning mcqueen/hj"

"lightning mcqueen looks like he would call me a slur"

"why did I come back to a discussion regarding the attractiveness of vehicles"

"lark is the braincell of shiftblr tbh"

"you all need some grass in your life"

"me over here simping for block men and now literal cars"

"didn't nick wilde commit fraud canonically"

"i have no strong opinions on whether or not nick wilde is attractive"

"I AM AROMANTIC AND I AM NOT IMMUNE TO NICK WILDE"

"I am bisexual and I. Am not into Nick Wilde based on a simple fact he looks like he will drink all my pepsi and call me names"

"What is shiftbkr but not a bunch of simps"

"cries in Bianca Monroe"

"listen i have a folder called gayass

it is mostly pictures of kyoka jiro and virgil sanders"

"Nick Wilde x Reader where he steals your car 📷 carjacker to lovers AU 📷"

"he says "mama i like to step on keyboard""

"MY MOM JUST WALKED IN AND I HAD TO TELL HER I WAS LOOKING AT LIGHTING MC QUEEN HUMAN FANART"

"crab walks away"

""Y/N..." Nick whispered into your ear. "Your car...is a Honda Civic, right?" You looked up at Nick with a baffled expression. "Nick, my beloved? Whatever are you talking about?" "Just asking..." He said as he let you out of his embrace. "Hey, wanna see a magic trick, babe?" Your eyes sparkled. "Really, Nick? Of course!" Nick smiled. "Ok, close your eyes!" You giggled and closed your eyes, waiting for Nick to tell you to open up. Instead, you heard the loud rumble of a car starting up, and you open your eyes. Nick has stolen your car, and he has driven off into the sunset..."

"did y'all know his name used to be canonically Montgomery--he changed it to lightning mcqueen to get rid of his past"

"That is my exit number"

"cars trauma arc"

"wait do y'all know about car jesus" "as if jesus wasn't a ford focus in the bible"

"oh yall do not want to know about the trauma in my cars dr lmao"

"Dewit tau style babey make Lightning McQueen outlive everyone and stalk their reincarnations"

"Do they baptize other cars in like gasoline then"

"there is a pope car in the cars universe which means car jesus died for cars sins"

"NOT THE BOOMER MEMES"

"-lays facedown on the floor while caramelldansen plays-"

"like im serious how many of you guys endorse me falling face down on my floor" (NOT THE SAME PERSON AS PREVIOUS QUOTE)

"I will be Tall and no one can stop me"

"is a soft floor?"

"stop I thought faceplant meant like a succulent in the shape of a face instead of falling onto your noggin for a solid 10 seconds"

"Touch some grass??? What about eating grass"

"what if for every employee of the month i just printed out really horrible boomer memes"

"what ab smoking grass /j"

"Can the grassdirt smoothie be a special in the cafe"

"PLEASE IM ROLLING ON THE FLOOR REWRITINH THE DECLARATION OF INDEPENDENCE WHIKE SPEEDRUNINT MINECRAFT"

"you have to get good dirt from like the middle of a pennsylvanian forest for it to taste good though"

"I ate a four leaf clover as a kid cause i thought it would make me lucky"

"guys how do i see the mee6 leaderboard"

"I used to think i was half dragon and I ate plants out of sidewalk cracks"

"i think i punched someone"

"my parents told me to stop doing that so I looked at them and ate a flower"

"I ate grass when I was 9 bc I read warrior cats and thought I was a medicine cat ....................."

"bees are just spicy flies"

"I had a mental breakdown when I was three cause I didn’t know how to turn off a phone"

"My mom drank a bee once"

"when I was a baby I kinned ink sans."

"bro who here find the yellow hat man from curious george fine as heck 📷📷📷"

"mY LUNGSSSSSS"

"no one topping Him"

"I like em big"

"I think Moto Moto has no game like move over hunky boy I could beat you 1v1 Roblox Arsenal 📷📷📷"

"If you didnt have a crush on springtrap, jeff the killer, or Underfell/Gaster/Error sans don't talk to me /j"

"LOOK THEY'RE BOTH DILFS WITH ABS THAT WOULD FIGHT GOD"

"ZORO IS BANNED"

"Guys please help I found my old fnaf fanart from when I was 8 I'm in literal tears"

"OH NO BOT MY FIFTH GRADE HAMILTON PHASE"

"The worst attraction ive ever had has to be Sombra Overwatch"

"My family is like "save all ur art so I can sell it when you're famous" I literally could not sell this if I tried"

"screaming puppet"

"I just remembered Ive drawn overwatch/hamilton crossover fanart"

"my hermit crabs ate each other again"

"we're cannibals ????"

"having me here is a curse you have inflicted on yourselves and I for one am glad for it <3" "scitters around like a crab in anticipation"

"CARB DAY"

"WE NEED TO HAVE A WATCH OARTY"

"hey y'all ill be right back i have to throw away a crab carcass"

"if I watch cars I'm going to start laughing in the middle of it nonstop just because the word cars is funny and also cars are funny like how do you move silly little metal box with rubber circles"

"Lark asleep post catboy pitbul"

"Mwista Wowldwide! Nya!" "hermit crab 2: electric boogaloo"

"Is that why your name is chaos"

"manifest the crab power!!"

"cool dex fact: i can't read 📷"

"sighs adds to worship these entities list"

"with a knife <3"

"yeah and if he betrays me I could probably throw him across the atlantic ocean"

"give me his eyes"

"my good citizen i am a- wait no im nonbinary nvm"

"it worked on a fish idk what to tell you"

"what is gender??? Is that a board game?? If so can I be apples to apples that one's my favorite"

"CHUTES AND LADDERS"

"anyways actually my gender is Candyland"

"Oh god romes the destroyer of friendships/j"

"i am a simple gay i see math i run in the opposite direction survival instincts 101"

"math my beloathed"

"algebra makes me want to rip open a bag of swedish fish and swallow them whole"

"cackles in they're au characters and this will be very fun"

"pog !!!! me too ksajgks one of my drs is a sanders sides au"

"Is that bipper"

"tumblr sexyman"

"Good because he’ll fuck u up if u hurt a child"

"I want a wing-suit"

"looks like a bean would poison someone"

"my hermit crabs are cannibals what can i say"

"sonic the hedgehog kinnie"

"get yourself a man who is capable of the most ungodly actions but won't do them because of their morality owo"

"tell him he can steal my wallet"

"eyes"

"idk about y'all but I need blueberry sweet tea to live"

"y'know the red souls from soul eater i really want to eat those"

"but like only respectable crimes like stealing from elon musk"

"You can go cultbashing with he!"

"He acts like a flamboyant gay man, but if a flamboyant gay man was straight."

"Simp Satan 📷"

"definitely arson"

"They look like they enjoy lemon squares and other lemon desserts"

"Satan is all-powerful but he spends most of his time building honeymoon locations because he is convinced that the protag loves him"

"bc shes the reincarnation of his dead wife or something i guess"

annd here's a quote from our very own dream (@shiftingwastaken) that sums this post up:

"shiftblr but context makes it worse"

[byul-bit-arae]

Astro Coffee Shop AU

Astro drabble inspired by @alternateastro ’s coffee shop au 

Um hi 

So you are this struggling college freshman 

It’s just your first year but you already learned that caffeine is your friend

And that’s probably the main reason you got excited when you heard a new coffee shop opened on the way to the bus stop you usually board from to college

The coffee shop is really cute and has a welcoming feel to it

Also it opens as early as 6am so it’s perfect for grabbing a cup of cappuccino while waiting for your bus that takes off at seven

A tall decent young man that is around your age is always there, a warm smile on his face as he serves you, probably his only customer at that early time since the shop isn’t that popular yet nor is in a remarkable place 

Cha Eunwoo, his name tag says

Eunwoo is quite friendly for a barista whose shift starts at six in the morning and even bothers to start small conversations with you as you sip on your cappuccino by the counter

About two weeks in and you’re addicted to their coffee

You didn’t know if it was just you, or that it had some really special taste to it 

There was just something about it that you couldn’t get enough of, and most importantly, couldn’t go on your day without

Waking up at five thirty, getting ready, leaving your house and passing by the ‘Dream Store’ to have a cup of coffee and a small chat with an ever so energetic Eunwoo became a part of your routine

Until you ‘accidentally’ wake up late one day 

Maybe your alarm went off by itself, maybe it really rang and you turned it off and went back to sleep, maybe you didn’t even set it in the first place, what mattered the most is that it was a quarter past six and you were still in your pjs

You jump off your bed and quickly wash your face before grabbing the first combination of clothing that looked reasonable.

Smashing a bit of makeup on your face, you decided there was no time for more than a natural look for today, 

a bb cushion, brown eyeliner pencil, transparent mascara and and a warm orange gradient lip was the best you could achieve 

Throwing on your hood over your ‘whatever’ looking hair you grabbed your bag and sprinted your way out

You glanced at your hand watch to check if you had atleast a few spare minutes to order a coffee for take out but then you stopped at your tracks 

Because it was freaking 5:40 in the freaking morning aka an hour early 

The Dream store wasnt even opened yet and you felt like an idiot because your shitty clock was probably running out of battery and was showing the wrong time 

Groaning you glanced again at the cafe to see that the roller shutter of the front door was half rolled up

And that meant that atleast someone was inside

Looking around you one more time you figured out there was no other safe place for a lonely nineteen year old girl to stay in while waiting 

So you just decided to sneak inside and just hope it was Eunwoo getting ready to open the shop

You weren’t really that close to him but you just thought he wouldn’t be that freaked out if he saw you at such an hour 

Entering the shop you quietly muttered a “hello” as you heard faint sounds coming from the staff area 

“Eunwoo shi are you here” you dumbly murmured then figured out it was better to just take a seat and wait for whoever was there to appear

But you kind of accidentally doze off over the table because you woke up in such a hurry that you were feeling a bit drowsy by that time

Rocky takes off his sailor moon apron and hangs it after finishing with decorating the pastries and cleaning the kitchen

He leaves the kitchen and checks the café since he heard some sounds coming from there 

“Eunwoo hyung you’re here earl–”

He sees you sleeping on one of the tables and sort of just-

–For a second but not enough for you to wake up then purses his lips, not knowing what to do

Rocky always disappears so early in the morning after he’s done with his work so he doesn’t get to interact with any customers, and even when he comes in the afternoon to test out new recipes with Bin, he doesn’t leave the kitchen. 

So he gets so frustrated seeing you there bc um help what am I supposed to do with this creature it looks like a human

Luckily Eunwoo comes in just at the right time and is rather confused as of why rocky is still there 

Also why is he standing still like a statue 

“Good morning minhyuk, what are you still doi–”

Eunwoo looks at the same direction as rocky and takes a step back in surprise

But he soon recognizes your sleeping figure and is way more confused now but decides to wake you up anyway

You slowly open your eyes and find none other than the most beautiful angel you’ve ever seen in front of your eyes that you can’t help but yelp bc are you already dead and is this heaven 

You blink for a few seconds and look around the place then at Eunwoo and the other guy 

“…w-welcome to Dream sh-shop !!!!” Rocky says in a super nervous tone that his voice cracks as he tries to sound the brightest he could “is that how you do it” he whispers to Eunwoo bc he honestly had no idea how things went outside the kitchen

Then Eunwoo kindly introduces you to Rocky to break the awkward atmosphere

And hey Rocky is quite cute and hyper 

And that’s how you start meeting the boys one by one 

And you just have to embarrass yourself each time 

Like that other time you were soooo sleepy that you were walking with your eyes closed

Maybe bc you had so much work and didn’t get enough sleep 

But that didn’t really matter bc you knew the way too well that you could manage 

You instinctively make a turn to the left to enter the coffee shop

But then you just bump into the glass door like an idiot

Bc it’s usually always open

Truth is Bin came earlier than usual that day 

And usually whenever he comes he always closes the door

Since he claims it’s way too cold in the morning

And Eunwoo is like uhh ok nvm 

And since Bin always comes later you never really saw the door closed 

Being still as sleepy as heck you groan as you lazily push the door open with literally your whole body, pouting since it was too early for embarrassing yourself yet here you are

You enter the shop to see an ever so amused Bin holding his laugh 

“Welcome” he says quietly and you awkwardly smile with half closed eyes 

And wth wth wth why are all the ppl working here so cute 

And that other time you got dismissed early in the afternoon so you decided to pass by 

And you go up to the counter only to be faced by like a giant five year old 

And you’re like “uhh excuse me where’s the one in charge here?”

And Sanha just blinks for a second before blurting “it’s me!” 

And you’re like “but you look so young ??????”

And Sanha just smiles cutely then takes your order

And from that day you always stop by whenever you have time in the afternoon

Bc Sanha is just too adorable and his smile gives you so much energy to go on with your day

And that OTHER time the Dream Store was having that spring cleaning thing and there was actually a notice on the front door but you’re too reckless to realize that and just legit barge in to JinJin dancing with a broom to Plz don’t be sad by Highlight while singing with a really, really High pitched voice

And you never felt this attacked honestly

JinJin is caught off guard and immediately restrains himself 

“My apologies. How can I help you? I’m Park Jinwoo, the Dream Store manager”

And you’re like ????? Okay ????

AND THAT OTHER TIME you were with this senior of yours in art school 

He’s reaaaally kind and cheerful and you’re actually good friends

So one day he invites for coffee in what he claimed to be his store

And you’re shook af on the way bc uhh isn’t this the way to Dream Store?

You two enter and everyone, legit every single member of the staff (aka astro) stops wtv they’re doing and 

“Y/N iS MJ hYunG’s gF ????!!!!?!!!”

And you’re like um wat 

And this is how you get to know all of them

And you never felt happier tbh 

Bc they are all so lovely 

Also bc you get to prank them 

You figured pranks were a thing after getting to know them all 

Sometimes you drop by to do your assignments there

Bc your house is too boring

And as an art student you need a lot of inspiration

Also bc MJ is there and is always ready to help you with studies

Other times you help them with serving bc the shop is getting more popular by the time bc of the quality of the food and the hostility of the staff

Also you’re prolly the only one Rocky allows to touch the pastries

He lets your help him with the decorations and even keeps your suggestions of new desserts in mind

JinJin seeks your and MJ’s help before making any changes in the store’s decor or theme 

You secretly help JinJin to become faster with the drinks 

And ofc you help with advertising the store 

Like you legit tell everyone you meet about it 

You’re basically just really happy you got to meet these cuties bc your life would 794261% be hella boring without them

[s3hsw-replies]

davidmont skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “Why tho”

to eat these is weird, i cannot even imagine haha

lmao at least it’s not Carolina Reaper. :D

rollo-rolls skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “This is why fugly-dress-lady rejected Kirkor. She is married to the...”

Kurde, to chyba ja i mój przyszły mąż. Tacy piękni ;__;

przynajmniej on jest w chuj bogaty, a to jest zawsze jakiś plus. :D

willky12 skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “This is why fugly-dress-lady rejected Kirkor. She is married to the...”

Death by Meteor I say

lmfaoooo imagine you get sack like this on Christmas. ;-;

soloriya skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “This is why fugly-dress-lady rejected Kirkor. She is married to the...”

i sooo hate this dress!

lmfaooo me too, especially this baige-ish color. it looks like dirty potato sack lol

lavisims skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “Why tho”

*eats all the plants*

lavisims skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “Why tho”

Why not! xD

lmfao the raw vegan deteted xD

soloriya skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “Why tho”

i love when they eat these!

I was surprised she ate it autonomuosly tbh, I thought they can’t do that.

willky12 skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “Why tho”

Because she can lose weight 20% faster with Greenleaf.......pass me the Greenleaf!

lmfaoooo you reminded me all those fake medications which are meant to help losing weight haha

willky12 skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “Gnight ^^”

Lovely, good night!

thank you! I love this pinkish sky *.*

willky12 skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “this is why some skirts need tights.”

depending on your (point of) view haha!

lmfaooooo Paris Hilton approved xD

willky12 skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “when you try to wear these fancy clothes but your dresser is like...”

That is her cheap ass version of a rowing machine, she's just working out :D

she has to work out if she wants to win all those fights xD

willky12 skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “tfw you have a lot of sliders and you hit that randomize button.”

Burn it I say :P

NooOOoo he’s my precious Louis ;-;

my-simension skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “tfw you have a lot of sliders and you hit that randomize button.”

I can't stop looking at him. �� �� ��

he’s the best sim ever made in whole history of that game xD

my-simension skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “this is why some skirts need tights.”

omg are you wcif friendly? xD jk

tbh I am and I know where I got like 99% cc from. :P

my-simension skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “when you try to wear these fancy clothes but your dresser is like...”

Ok this post made my day <333

lmao, Calla was furious becase she just wanted to wear her fancy, black, expensive clothes ;-;

my-simension skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “tfw you have a lot of sliders and you hit that randomize button.”

ily Louis<333333

we all love Louis. <3

my-simension skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “tfw you have a lot of sliders and you hit that randomize button.”

lmaooooooooooooooo! I need this sim, Eve! I hope you saved him!!!! XD

You know I didn’t but I’ll try to recreate him ;-;

my-simension skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie

Cool shots <3

my-simension skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “Gnight ^^”

Pretty pic <3

Thank you, you’re too kind. ;-;

my-simension skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “Gnight ^^”

Waaaiiit! The night is still young!!!

Lmfao I was so done with tumblr yesterday because my dash was so dead.

declarations-of-drama skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “this is why some skirts need tights.”

or don't need tights, depending on your level of extrovert-ism :3

at least she has a nice ass to show :3

pottery-sims skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “tfw you have a lot of sliders and you hit that randomize button.”

One time I randomized and the head took up nearly the entire top half of the screen and the arms and legs looked like centipede legs and I have sense decreased my slider range

hahaha now we all know we shouldn’t hit that randomize button xD

pottery-sims skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “when you try to wear these fancy clothes but your dresser is like...”

I always forget to export the Nraas settings too lol every time

lmao and it’s pain in the ass because it’s a lot of work and I still can’t remember 99% of SP settings ;-;

treason-and-plot skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “this is why some skirts need tights.”

bushy bu......nvm.

I WAS WAITING AND EXPECTING FOR THIS COMMENT YOU DIDN’T FAIL MY FRAND

itsoceansecret skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “this is why some skirts need tights.”

yes

I still can’t decide what kind of meshes I like more - “empty” inside or “full”.

treason-and-plot skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie

oooh yes much atmospheric bushy bushiness

I should have added some emotional text like NOBODY LOVES ME AND MY HEART HURTS

treason-and-plot skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “who’s more disgusted? ��”

I'm disgusted we didn't see Calla's boobies. SMDH

YOU SAW HER BUTT CRACK, THATS ENOUGH

treason-and-plot skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie

if this was RL her boob tube would have fallen down by now. Just saying.

lmfao and Kirkor would be like yaaaas beat me with those boobs

treason-and-plot skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “��”

*creys*

*sad music*

treason-and-plot skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “nothing to say, really”

what's she gonna wear next to try and tempt him? Pasties & crotchless panties?

lmfao I saw crotchless fishnet lingerie on the shopwindow of my local sex shop yesterday xDDD

treason-and-plot skomentował(a) Twój post “Is that true, guys?”

*HEAVY SARCASM*

treason-and-plot skomentował(a) Twój post “Is that true, guys?”

I haven't heard anything about this.

lmfao my dash wasn’t flooded at all ;>>>

treason-and-plot skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie “wake up hooman, where iz mah food?”

She might start eating her face if she's not careful.

I WOULDN’T BE SURPRISED TBH

treason-and-plot skomentował(a) Twój post “ok, so, I want to start playing ts2 and have few wcifs/questions. is...”

I would have been lost without the Insiminator. http://www.insimenator.org/index.php/board,698.0.html

thank you, bookmarked!

treason-and-plot skomentował(a) Twoje zdjęcie

your bush is very pretty today :P

awww thank you, I trimmed it a bit *^.^*

@davidmont @rollo-rolls @willky12 @soloriya @lavisims @my-simension @declarations-of-drama @pottery-sims @treason-and-plot @itsoceansecret

[namjoonchronicles]

Handcuffs & Pretty Boys - [EXO] Chanyeol Detective!Au #23

[Part 22] [A/N] Can someone tell me where this gif. come from? I found it on Google.  OK NVM. It’s from their unreleased ‘Love Me Right’ MV

At this very moment, it is very unclear which side you're on. Although Chanyeol seemed to trust you with everything he has, Joonmyeon is your boss for almost three years--this coming February. For now, everything Chanyeol says made sense, but you're not you if you don't listen to the both side of the story. You are your father's daughter after all. No matter how much you disliked that fact.

"Didn't I tell you not to come home until you found Sanha." His voice was like a low grumbling thunder in the dark night skies with no stars and drizzling rain. It is as cold as himself, and you swirled your guava juice around, clicking your tongue. "If you loved him so much, you should have fetched him from prison." You brazenly say with a monotonous tone. Irking your father as he shrugs the thick coat of his shoulder to hang on the coat hanger by the main entrance. "You think so lightly of him being out there, vulnerable and without protection, but Sanha's only a child so I suggest you find him and bring him home at once." He pulled the chair to sit.

"...I'm trying. I'm trying very hard. This is just a pit stop until I resume the search." You lulled your head down, resting your chin on the heel of your palm. Your father took out a black file out of his briefcase, and pushed them lightly towards you. "Are you leaving the country again?" You take the file but didn't read them right away. "Should anything happen to me, this is where you start." He suddenly said. Before every outstation, your father will bring you a black file. It contains names and numbers. "It must be far away seeing how thick this file had gotten." You flipped lazily, and then closed them.

You looked at him, looking down at his phone, scrolling. You always look at him, but this time, you really looked. His hair has gone full grey. His wrinkles are showing on his forehead's crease. And as he scrolled, his wrinkly hands gingerly scroll down like it would explode anytime. Then, you realized his movements. It is not as fast as you remembered when you were young and you couldn't remember the last time you hugged him. And then it struck you.

That one day, this human being will no longer be with you. How will you cope then?

You stood up from your stool and put your arm around his shoulders. "What is it." He grimly say. You shook your head and blinked the tears away. "Thank you for taking care of us as well as you could." You said. Your father didn't turn around to see you, but he patted your wrist gently. "I'm getting older my daughter. And because of that, sit down. I need to talk to you since you're the first born." He said, weakly. And you did as told. "You know my job requires me to hide our family from everyone. I have one foot in hell, the other in heaven..." You understood that metaphor. Law. Sometimes you have to defend the guilty party and sometimes if you're lucky, you get a client who has been wrongly accused.

"As a judge, I only see what the lawyers show me.The others, are intuitive." Father smiled but it was broken. "What is it, dad?"

"In my line of work, I've either executed, or imprisoned an innocent man; and vice-versa. I have one case, I particularly remember." Father looks up to you with sad-sad eyes.

Traffic lights changes to red, then green, yellow then back to red. And the cycle repeats. With this many people around, is it possible to look for Sanha? You've started to see glimpse of him but it was never really him. You start to question what's reality and what's not. You passed convenient stores, after convenient stores, youth clubs and his common hang out grounds, but of course, he wasn't there. You didn't want to bother Chanyeol so you messaged Sehun instead. But he came in a heart beat even when you hoped he didn't. Sehun gave you a warm embrace you've been yearning for awhile. He's very tall, so it felt nice.

"I know from your face that you haven't eaten, shall we get something?" He said, already moving towards a store but you held onto his wrist and smiled, shaking your head. How could you eat at times like this. Sanha's nowhere to be found, your father's relying on you. Family comes first, right? They always do.

Sehun walks beside you, quietly. His steps has gone smaller than they used to. He felt it was necessary, considering how small your lunges are. He shoved both hands into his front pocket, looking every where else but you. Sometimes he wonders if he's just a giant mutant, because everyone else seemed so small. Especially you. He kicks the air and his breathing shallows. He blinks at his Timberland boots and hummed. "What was Sanha like?"

You were taken back at the sudden question. As your mind tries defrost themselves from the cold night weather, the ground wet from the drizzling rain that has so far, stopped, the puddles of water formed beneath the holey pavements where the pedestrians filled. You gaze up to the dark clouds that has hid the cluster of stars with its thickness. A moon peeping through it's edges. "He's vibrant. He had this cutest smile that shrinks his eyes and his lip tails goes up all the way to his ears, it seems. Scientifically not proven but, that's how I'd describe it." You described him with fondness in your eyes.

"He would scream bloody murder to a cockroach the size of a penny, and he won't enter the bathroom until I capture it. And he's hungry at 2AM, always. That's why he doesn't like boarding school. The kids there call him 'The Binging Ghost'. So he was home-schooled instead. He is about your height, maybe taller. I'm not sure. And he plays the guitar and is super clingy." You nodded. Sehun stops in his steps, looking dead straight ahead. "Does he also have golden brown curly locks and looks very worn out?" He spat in one breathe. You glanced to the same direction he was looking at. Sanha?

Sanha, turned around and strides away. You had to go through a line of people trying to get into a club, and almost immediately, Sanha disappears. Into the line, he was let in by the bouncer. Sehun tapped your shoulders and asked you to follow him. "I know the other way around." He raised his voice a little. Together, you leave to a dark alley right behind the club. "I should have thought about this earlier." Sehun hissed, scolding himself. "This is where all the 'lost boys' are." As you both walked further and further away from the entrance, the club neon sign was getting clearer: Pan.

"I worked here but wasn't very  long until a client permanently took me out of this club and into a more decent setting. Which wasn't very decent. I'd suggest you to wait here but, it's dark and you're alone." Sehun sounded flabbergasted, already trying to yank open the back door but you held him. "...What did you do here." You looked up, eyes glassy from holding back your tears.

And Sehun's answers. Sehun's answers silenced you. And with that, you walked away, never making it inside. You found yourself a hawker stall and ordered rice wine. Sehun was off somewhere and as if he heard you, Chanyeol came sliding in, snatching your glass from you. He downed it like a man would and grunts, to shake off the bitter sweet taste, guaranteed to hammer him the next morning. You, however, weren't that drunk to begin with. You're just sad. "I knew you were going to look for Sanha, but I didn't know that you're willing to die doing so." Chanyeol eyed you and your two bottles of rice wine. Two empty bottles of rice wine. "

"You know, Chanyeol. How it feels to lose something that's important to you?" You smiled, insincerely at him. "Of course. Four years of that, and my family members." He easily answered. "...you'd be so nice, if only you talked less." You shot.

Chanyeol rolled his eyes. "Are you trying to spend the nights on the street tonight or what." He set one palm flat on the blue fold-able table, roaring at the hawker owner for a glass of rice wine and a bowl of Udon noodles. The bruises on his knuckles are still red and blood pools at the edge so you took a closer look by grabbing it suddenly, startling Chanyeol as he swatted your hands right away, frowning. "Chanyeol." You scolded.

"Sorry, that was...reflex, I can't help it." He scratched the back of his head.

For some reason, it got you worried. Really worried. And the next morning, your worries became relevant. Because youcame to work to see Chanyeol getting cuffed. "Detective Park Chanyeol is arrested for causing a terminal death on a suspect with register number AC153846373. I will read your rights to you." The officer declared and you shot your gaze to Kim Joonmyeon who hasn't said a word since this morning. And when he caught you looking at him, he walked away. Chanyeol was brought into the patrol car. He didn't put up a fight, but you could see how confused he was. You didn't waste anymore time and stormed to Jononmyeon who was getting a drink with his plastic cup.

"How could you be thirsty at times like these, what's wrong with you! You know Chanyeol will never be so dumb to have caused fatalities when he's conducting an interogation. Why aren't you saying anything!" You roared and Joonmyeon threw his crumpled plastic cup to the wall and pushed the still-full water wending machine. You covered your ears at the loud sound. "They have a footage of it, and they'll send it over. There's nothing you could to an evidence like that." Wolf glared at you and walked away without cleaning up the mess.

Wolf wasn't in the office for the rest of the day.

A police officer came with a hard disk drive. "I'm sorry..." he bowed at you who was alone at the office at the time.

"Is Director Kim around? Director Kim Joonmyeon?" "I'm afraid he isn't...is there something I can help you with?" "If you could pass this to Director Kim Joonmyeon, I have a patrolling schedule to obey so I have to be on my way." "Sure...of course."

But that was hours ago. You kept glancing at the hard disk abandoned on Wolf's desk. You slid your hand to your phone and entered the messenger. Yixing sent an 'OK' sign. "Go." The whole office flickering lights eventually provided a moment of black out that enables you to switch a hard disk with the same kind of disk but from previous interrogation. The lights return normal just in time and you left the office with the real hard disc. It was odd enough that it had to be delivered from else where when the interrogation room surveillance camera can be accessed from this very office at its own.

There's something fishy going on here.

[Part 24]

[poignantsinlife]

Mega rollercoaster ride

4th of March

This will probably be the longest post I have ever written. January was extremely long yet nothing much had happened. February was very very short and right now it’s the 4th of March, and every else happened before today since the start of February, was a hella of ride. Everything below is as raw as I can go, meant it from the bottom of my heart.

At the start of February, everything was good except maybe my parents. My uncle cheated on my mother with another woman. And even until now, he’d still refuse to leave the woman, refuse to leave this house. He says he has two hearts, one for my mother and another for the other woman. He promised to support my studies still tho.

The thing is, i don’t care whether he can support my studies or not, I don’t care right now if i have the money to go for university or not. I can wait, i can take a gap year. All I want to happen is my mum’s misery to stop. To have someone to teach you how to be a person and how to love properly since you were so young, then have that same someone to cheat on their own partner, was a torture. Stop talking about honesty, about trust, about a person’s good heart, when you did the total opposite. Don’t be a hypocrite please. I’ve looked up to him, how he is successful in his career, how wise he can be. Then knowing he cheated, breaks apart down. So what if you’re successful in studies or career? None of it matter if you don’t have a heart to love righteously.

My own dad cheated on my mum, my mum cheated on my own dad, now my uncle cheated on my mum. It’s a vicious love cycle, love’s not real here. Love’s never real, i don’t know how am I going to be now, now that I have 3 parents who cheat on each other. How am I going to love now? I’m going to trust God on this, i’m giving him the driver’s seat. Take control of my love life God, you do it best and you’ll hold everything in place in just the right time.

Everything was good with Nick in the start of February, even as he was in Malaysia for 2 weeks. He would call me “bii”, he would say he misses me, he wants a hug. He would ask me about my day, tell me about his day, send me regular snapchats, and he would still tell me how he felt on a day. Things started to spiral down (again), when he came back to Singapore for a short while before he go off for internship again. He came back for a week, yet for the first few days he was busy with his family. I understand that he was busy with his family, yet I hoped I could see him even for a few hours, like just 3 hours of lunch with suffice because then, I knew he was in Singapore yet I couldn’t see him when I missed him a lot. I started to feel like I was getting put on the sidelines again because not only was he busy with his family solely, he was busy meeting his friends first... So i started to get insecure.. because I thought I would be the first on his list to meet when he is finally free.. but no.. Which I why I prayed for 3 days about Nick, asking God and talking to God.

The last post I had was since the mid of February, so i’ll continue on from there. And like I was saying, I decided to pray to God for 3 days, and i’ll see what he has to say to me. For the first night, I prayed and it was a positive answer. In 2nd night, I asked God whether I should continue trying my best for this relationship. If yes, give me a dream of Nick. For this night, God didn’t give me a dream of Nick, just a dream. The first thought that came to me was, “No, let Me do the rest”. I smiled as I thought about it. For the third night, I asked God how long my wait will be? If its a long wait, give me a dream of Nick. If my wait is not long, give me just a dream, and if I should just give up, don’t give me any dream. For this night, God gave me a dream without Nick, means my wait isn’t long, but I still got to continue to wait. 

For these 3 prayers, God gave me a sign. I believe it really hard on this cause I know God talks to people through dreams. God gave me a sign, which is to continue to wait because he’s the guy for me, but yet don’t do anything else, let God do things for you. So I stop, I stop doing so much things already. So when he came back to Singapore for a short while, I wanted to make another set of letters for him, since he was about to finish them, yet I don’t want to make an extra effort just because i’m tired.

There was this day on Monday when we say we could probably meet on Wednesday and hang out together. But we didn’t know where to go, so things were still foggy them. Then comes Tuesday, where I was busy and he was busy. He would be around my area at 5pm and I told him maybe I could see him for a while if I make it in time at 5pm at my area. That was 11am in the morning, and he brutally told me “not possible”, then it was only on Wednesday that I found out that he was going to my area with his friend instead, whom doesn’t know that we both are talking. :( I mean, the least he could do was to tell me that he would be with this guy, then i’ll understand.. Yet from 11am, he didn’t text me, didn’t snapchat me or didn’t ask me how i am for the whole day. I knew he was busy with his friends so I didn’t complain, but I knew that no matter how busy he gets, he’d still snapchat me pictures of what he is doing and such things.. He was supposed to go for his martial arts at 7:30 pm but he skipped it to have more time outside with his friends. He knew that we were going out the next day, but he didn’t ask me what we were going to do on Wednesday throughout the whole day, yet he could just snapchat me at 12am, telling me “Good night” as his caption. I was so sad, cause I was really tired and I wanted to sleep, then he scolded me for not sleeping early again and accused me of using him as an excuse and say that i’m scrolling around but in actual fact I’m really just waiting for him to be free so I could discuss with him about Wednesday. My heart broke was he scolded me when I already told him I was waiting for him. :’( Time comes to 1am yet we still havent decide where to go. He got tired so he said to discuss the next morning when we wakes up. 

Morning comes and we haven’t got any idea on where to go. There were no nice movies, so I suggested to go for a walk at the beach or east coast, he said it was too hot and he can’t walk a lot because he injured his leg. Okay cool. So I suggest to just have a meal at 18Chefs or Greendot, and he says it was boring. Okay, till 3pm we didn’t have any plans yet. I’ve been throwing so much ideas but he rejects all. He then tells me that maybe he should skip his martial arts lesson, obviously you should cause at 3pm i’m still home and doing nothing, but yet i understand that he wants to go for the class so much. So I just told him, “don’t skip la, your last few lessons before you go for internship”. he said, yeah and that he really wanted to go. I thought that if he went, I could go Jurong to run some errands at about 7:30 pm. But during 3pm I gave up trying to think of places to go, so i just said “nvm ah i just go Jurong do my things.” only then did he suggest for a movie, then continued to say, “ok nvm I meet you at Jurong for a quick meal” so thennn it started raining heavily and he said that his feet is full of plaster, cannot touch the rain else would get messy, so I said i’ll meet him at the east, at Paya Lebar. 

I ended up seeing him only at 6pm and I swear that as he went out of the gantry, I was so. so. so. happy to see him even though what I am looking at is my greatest misery. I cried internally when I see cause I’m just so happy to see him again :’(, i wanted to hug him as he comes closer but he walked to another direction and asked me to follow. We only had 1hour 30 mins of time together and during the whole time we were together, he didn’t hold my hands nor stand close to me or anything :(. Then he went off for his martial art lesson already. I sent him to the bus stop where he took the bus. As he queued to enter the bus, I cried again, not because I won’t be seeing him for the next 6 months, but because I wasn’t his priority.

He could go out with his friends the previous day and could skip his martial art for them, yet he couldn’t spend his whole day of time with me and skip martial art for me. With this, I really broke down cause I now know how much I mean to him, I don’t stand a chance to be compared to his friends at all. Things were made harder for me as I thought I knew he loves me but i’m not his priority, and as I thought about what God told me with the 3 prayers I had. He told me he’s the right guy for me, told me to wait, but God, i’m tired. I put so much effort into this relationship with Nick, but I’m not his priority. 

I’m exhausted, tired. I just wanna my feelings to stop, I just don’t really want to see him again cause I know i’m not his priority. I stopped everything really, I’m done putting in effort, but I will still continue to wait for him God. So help me with this. 

I stopped sending him good morning messages when I wake up and think of him, he doesn’t do that to me at all. I stopped talking to him every hour cause I think there’s no more point. I stopped questioning myself whether is he wearing the bracelet or not, I stopped questioning myself whether he had read the letters finish. I stopped putting effort already, i’m tired, but I miss him so so much. What am I doing wrong again?

敢给，就敢心碎。If you’re willing to give, you are willing to get your heart broken.

男人没有一个好东西的。

On 1 March and 2 March, I spent the whole day making a welcome board for my sister’s wedding on 3 March. I spent the whole day of 1 March making drafts, trying out different flowers to draw, and finally making a final draft to draw on the actual board. Then on 2 March, I had some time to myself, so I used the gold adhesive foil that I bought, to cut out my name in calligraphy font, then pasting it on my phone. I kinda like it, but it wasn’t a clean cut cause I used pen knife to cut, it wasn’t that accurate, but I guess it’s still nice when you look from far. Afterwards, I drew the flowers on the watercolour board, put in so much effort into it, slowly painting the flowers and as slow as I could so I do not make any much errors. I had no experience in painting on a large board, this came out just surprisingly nice, and i’m extremely happy that everyone loves it!

This was the final output:

The work of my own, i’m proud. My sister didn’t ask me to do this. I saw a similar board on Instagram and I thought that hey, this is something I could do for my sister’s wedding, so why not? As I do this painting, I enjoy doing it a lot, at the same time I also grieve, cause my sister is getting married. I won’t be living under the same roof as her already, I won’t be having someone to scold me anymore, but yet, I know deep down in my heart that she loves me a lot, that she cherish me a lot. I am very happy, and very very willing to draw this for her, is the last thing I can do for her before she actually gets married off. 

I remember during Chinese New Year on 17 Feb, I remember vividly what my cousins told me. They said that they asked my sister once, “Who will you miss the most when you get married?” My sister said, “My sister lor, she is a very kind girl. I love to talk to her, although she may not seem like she’s funny, but she’s actually a very funny girl.” Wah I broke down right there when my cousins told me what my sister said to them. I’ve always thought that I wasn’t very close to my sister, even on the surface, we don’t seem very close. We don’t usually share our problems with each other, she doesn’t share her things with me, and I rarely share my things with her. I’ve always thought that our sister bond is not strong. But hearing what she said, about her missing me the most when she gets married, made me cry like a baby because I never knew I mean so much to her. This is the reason why I was so so so willing to make her a welcome poster for her wedding, because after all the things she done for me (buy me clothes, bring me places, encourage me), the least I can do for her is to make something for her, something that I used my heart to do.

On 3 March on the wedding day, I woke up 5:30 am so get ready, wore my outfit and such things to prepare for the groom to pick my sister up from our house, to leave home by 7pm because it’s a Chinese wedding tradition. I offered to accompany her in the morning because I kinda wanna see my sister get ready, with her gown on and her make up done by a professional makeup artist. I have never done such things before but I finally got the chance to hehe. So we brought everything to her husband-to-be’s house and got ready there. As time passes by and ready to leave, we went to the venue and I realised that my board that I made for her was placed at the entrance of the venue, with a small easel, placed on an elevated grass patch. To see my work there makes me really proud, thinking about how many people will judge my work, whether they think it’s nice or not I do not care, but the most important thing was that I feel proud that the first thing people see when they enter, is a welcome poster made by the bride’s sister hehe. My sister also said that she’s gonna keep the poster. :)

Then comes the afternoon when it started to rain super heavily. It rained heavily three times and the last rain was the time when I actually remembered about the poster that was placed out in the rain. I don’t know whether was there anyone who brought the poster in, then my mind started to think about the worst possibilities. Since the paint is watercolor, what if the rain caused the paint to drip down onto the bottom of the board and everything I drew before could not be seen anymore? My sister can no longer keep the poster that she said she wanted. She won’t be able to keep the poster, she’d be disappointed and sad cause she really liked it. Then comes the self blaming, fuck, why didn’t I take responsibility of it? It’s your work, Rena, you should have thought about it the first time that it rain and should have taken it indoors. That board is your work, that board is for your sister’s wedding, that board.. is what I painted with my heart so I could give it to my sister, the whole point of this board was to give it to my sister. I was literally in a despair, reallll reallll despair.

As I left the venue to the house for little while, I took a look at the poster, hoping that nothing bad has happened to it. To my surprise, nothing bad happened. The colours just faded a little, nothing worse happen to it. I was extremely relieved, you have no idea how relieved I was, but yet I kept blaming myself, I should have taken responsibility for it, it’s a gift for your sister, Rena. How could you just leave it out in the rain when you clearly know it’s watercolor paint, ffs.

But eventually, I’m just glad it was okay. My board was placed at her new home, at the top of her bed, and my board is featured in the wedding montage in the first few seconds of the video. I’m extremely proud, and extremely happy that my sister loves it :) This is what happens when you put heart and soul into something to give to someone, they will always appreciate you for that. 

They say people only remember the bad things you did and will forget about the good things you did. I have a question, were the good things you did sincere? Did it came out from your heart? Or was it merely just for self comfort, or self dignity? People will always remember things you do for them, when they see your sincerity. 

On 3 March after my sister’s wedding day, I had to go collect glasses over at my ahyi’s (my mother’s sister) house, cause I left my sister’s glasses with her and forgot to take it back. I got there and got the glasses, along with my aunty who accompanied me. Then there my aunty was, talking to my ahyi. I was looking at their mini aquarium and I don’t know how it started, but my ahyi told me that all the yi zhangs (my mother’s sisters’ husbands) dote on me a lot, especially this house’s yi zhang. He dotes on me so much as if i’m his own daughters, encourage me for my school.. tells me that I can do it and such things, always take the effort to ask about how my school is. I get so envious of my cousins because they have such a wonderful father who loves them so much, who provides them unconditional love, something that I never receive before - an unconditional love from a father.

Then there was my aunty talking to my ahyi about me. My aunty said that she was very happy that this house’s family have been providing me unconditional love, because she knows i’ve never gotten the chance to have a complete and loving family. I teared a lot but i blinked my eyes to not cry. I can’t cry in front of them, I don’t want people to see me cry because i’m in a sad state. It’s not that I don’t want sympathy for people, I just don’t want to break their heart cause they see me cry over my life.

No matter how incomplete and not loving my family is, I am always grateful for the people who stood by me and see me at my worst emotions, seeing me cry, seeing me pissed and angry, and I will always thank them for giving me support whenever I needed. Thank you. :) You’re the kind of people who gave me the reason why I never give up of people.

The month of January and February, i’m the most grateful towards my aunty. Without her, I don’t think I could pass by these 2 months easily. I had a lot of assignments to do, so busy with school i’d come home after submitting my work in school. Sometimes I’d stay in school till 12am to finish up my work and submit, the longest was till 1am. Instead of scolding me, she encouraged me and told me I could do it. I was so stressed out, so tired, so lost. She’d come to hug me and sayang me, pray for me and always tell me she loves me. 

I had problems with him i’d also share with my aunty. I’d cry in front of her and she’d always sayang me. She’d know when I cry at night before I sleep, she’d know when i’m sad, always takes the effort to observe my emotions, and is always happy when i’m happy. My aunty is the most understanding woman in my family, which is why i grew up to be understanding as her too.

Right now at the brink of losing a man at home, probably our family wouldn’t be able to pay my aunty anymore, so she’ll have to go home i guess. Who knows probably even before I graduate she won’t be with us anymore. But even if our family can no longer pay her, the least I want our family to do is to hold her till my poly graduation. She’s the most important woman in my life - over my own mother. This is as raw as I can go, I love my aunty and i’d do anything if I could just have her at my graduations and at my wedding in the future.

The older you get, the more shit you have to deal with, and the more first hand life lessons you get. Things will get harder, shittier, worse, unbearable, hopeless. Among all the heart breaks you get, remember to learn how your heart works, it’s the greatest life lesson. Amidst all these emotional roller coaster, remember to learn and grow stronger from it, learn from your mistakes and change your attitude. To me, the only way you’ll get through life is to, learn.