#wack-ashimself

[siryouarebeingmocked]

I’d bet money that the only economic systems twitter OP and wack-ashimself could actually name would be capitalism, socialism, and communism, and their actual definitions would all be wrong.

I’d love to know how capitalism sabotaged mercantilism, or feudalism.

If you ever find yourself going “the only problem with X is that we couldn’t keep Y from making it fail”, you might want to sit down and have a think. Especially if your side’s previous line was “real X has never been tried!”

@capitalism-and-analytics

[thisgingerhasnosoul]

https://www.tumblr.com/wack-ashimself/736525735988232192/weird-how-rich-and-powerful-people-are-saying

someone else for the blocklist!

YIKES. Putting it on the list.

[chocolate-and-discourse]

@wack-ashimself this is a side blog and I’m not going to derail that post in the notes with my main, so I have to reply this way.

To start, and number one, the word psycho is an ableist slur, don’t use it please, but I agree that killers are generally bad for society.

Secondly, yeah medication is a highly personal choice and I want to make it explicitly clear that no matter what someone’s diagnosis is, if they believe medication is not for them they should have the agency to turn it down. That being said, the post we started this conversation on literally had links saying that people with ADHD are at a much MUCH higher risk of death than the average population without treatment. Sometimes that treatment is going to include medication, sometimes it won’t. If you personally don’t want medication, no one should be able to force you to take it.

Thirdly, medication doesn’t turn anyone into “defaults”, medication doesn’t make people neurotypical. If someone is on the correct medicine for them, it makes them functional. They get done in their lives much more of what they want and need to get done with it. For some people, medication can be the difference between life and death.

Fourth, ADHD has absolutely always existed. Diagnostic tools have gotten better in recent years, while simultaneously our capitalistic society has further punished neurodivergencies. I personally believe that in a perfect world, whatever form that would take, neurodivergent people including autistic people and people with ADHD would be valued by the unique way that we experience life, and the stressors that cause such a high suicide rate would be deminished If not completely eliminated. But I’m an idealist perhaps.

Fifthly, if you’re saying a diagnosis of ADHD/ADD just means you have an “excited kid”, you fundamentally misunderstand ADHD. Not your fault entirely, considering most portrayals of ADHD in the media are of the “ooh shiny squirrel” stereotype. This wouldn’t be so bad if it weren’t a reply on a post exactly clarifying what ADHD entails aside from it being known as “trouble sitting still disorder”. I implore you to look into the experiences of people, especially adults, with ADHD. This fundamental misunderstanding is EXACTLY what OP was talking about the entire post. ADHD isn’t just being an excited kid, it makes everyday living hard, it’s a disability because of that.

TL;DR- ADHD is more than being excitable, it makes living life difficult for those who have it, and for many of those people treatment is the difference between life and death. Sometimes that treatment will include medication, which doesn’t turn anyone into “defaults”, but helps them function. Many people want medication, some dont, and that is a personal choice. Being of the opinion that you, personally, don’t want to take medicine doesn’t make the condition you were offered medicine for not real. ADHD has always existed.

[paragonrobits]

wack-ashimself mentioned you on a post “Okay, the saddest scene I have ever seen in animation. Period.”

@paragonrobits okay they did not show this in the animation but that is really screwed up

i wish the Spikes had been truly shown and followed up on the Hulk bringing them to an environment where they could live in peace, but i get they had a limited time to adapt everything.

some other stuff left out of the Planet Hulk adaptation:

Miek is a much sadder character in the comic, with one thing after another breaking him down more and more, until he eventually pupates into a massive and towering hive king, only for his hive queen to die from spike infection, rendering his people functionally extinct. Combined with his hatred of the colonizing imperials for profiting while his people die, and him learning all the wrong lessons from Hulk’s bitterness and spiteful attitude, Miek becomes a hateful person lost to absolute despair and hopelessness

there’s a few bits where Banner shows up in Hulk’s mind, though it’s unclear if he is actually trying to take over, or if Hulk is dreaming all that: Hulk has an extremely jaded view of Banner as mindlessly hostile towards him, so it could be either, and in all of them Banner treats Hulk as a monster who can’t behave, and nothing more than that

the possibility of Hulk being the Worldbreaker is given more emphasis in the comic; there is a LOT of ambiguity throughout, with a lot of his statements being just vague enough that he could be making threats, or just being very bitter. the fear that he CAN’T be anything but a destructive monster clearly weighs hard on Hulk, though, and its part of his character arc in the comic proper

[theclockworkjudas]

Rantings of an anti masker, part three, as tumblr keeps freezing when I try to edit the one with the wrong image

Tadah

@wack-ashimself

[withoutrunes]

https://www.bitchesgetriches.com/dont-boo-vote-if-you-dont-vote-no-one-can-hear-you-scream/

@wack-ashimself

[kaiju-z]

hey, uh, for everyone following me, may I name someone to avoid on tumblr?

“ wack-ashimself”

Was browsing the dnd tumblr tag and I saw a weird post by this idiot ranting about how “South Park got it right” about something they probably didn’t get right. Aaand uh, lots of contradictory bullshit on his tumblr, so please block ‘em to avoid all the nonsense he spews and tags so that people, who probably will never see his shit otherwise will see it.

[lapisbitch]

I wont ask anon, cuz I have integrity. Question-how do you know you're asexual? And do not answer 'How do you know you're gay/bisexual/straight?' Simple, for all them-if you like something, you go for it. For asexuals, they are NOT attracted to anyone, physical. So....mentally? Can being attracted in other ways bring a different attraction? Also-how can you say you are not attracted to anyone? Have you met everyone?> Experienced every individual body? More curious than anything, & could be wrong

ohhhh dear it sounds like you’re kind of confused about how sexual attraction works. to set things straight, i’m demiromantic and demisexual, but generally talk about asexuality more & you addressed asexuality specifically so yeah but y’all should know there’s also a difference between sexual and romantic attraction/orientations.

first off there’s two kinds of sexual attraction: primary and secondary. primary is attraction based off looks, first impressions - it’s the ability to objectify body parts and the ability to want to have sex with strangers without even knowing their name. i have never experienced this kind of attraction, and never will. i know it exists, because i have talked with people who do experience it.

secondary sexual attraction is when you form an emotional bond to the person themselves. it’s when you learn about the good and the bad parts and everything they do kind of makes you fall in love with them a bit, and then they’re attractive. this is the only kind of sexual attraction i’ve ever experienced as a demisexual. it’s like, i’m not attracted to them cause they’re cute - they’re cute cause i’m attracted to them.

most allosexuals (people not on the ace spectrum) experience both, or one or the other, depending on the person. most full asexuals never experience either. some grey-aces experience one or the other from time to time. literally the only reason i know what sexual attraction feels like is because there’s, like, three fictional characters i’m attracted to and that’s it. but there are asexuals and demisexuals who have never experienced sexual attraction and might never experience it - they might be just as confused as you are, but that doesn’t make their experience any less legitimate.

“Also-how can you say you are not attracted to anyone? Have you met everyone?> Experienced every individual body?” this is irrelevant since i’m incapable of objectifying bodies, regardless of body type, race, gender - unless it belongs to a person i’m attracted to. if it’s someone i’m attracted to they could have literally any body and i would be attracted to them - it’s not their flesh vessel i’m attracted to, honestly, it’s the celestial being inside of it.

"And do not answer ‘How do you know you’re gay/bisexual/straight?’ Simple, for all them-if you like something, you go for it." simple! if we don’t like something, we don’t go for it. i used to make excuses for myself like “oh the dating pool’s just terrible around here, oh it’s just so much work i don’t have time for relationships, oh i’m sure i’ll grow into it, in ten years i’ll probably be picking up guys and girls in bars…” the truth was, i had never experienced sexual attraction. this is the mindset that leads so many asexuals to believe they’re broken for most of their life, because they don’t know they’re missing something - the itch for sexual intimacy, the desire to touch somebody they see across the room.

darling, i understand you’re curious, and i’m honestly in a good mood for educating and answering questions right now (even though i was gonna go to bed an hour ago, whoops). i’m very secure in my demisexuality now, after three years of questioning and a year of firmly believing, and i have a basis of what you call “mental attraction” to compare my overwhelming non-attraction to the rest of the population to. but there are asexuals who are insecure about their identities, who think some of the same things as you - “how do i know if i haven’t tried it yet? maybe i’m just being a prude? i haven’t met everyone, maybe i should just force myself to try something and then maybe i’ll like it?” and if i fuCKING HEAR OF ANYONE GOING AFTER THOSE ASEXUALS AND INVALIDATING THEIR IDENTITIES OR TELLING THEM THEY NEED TO TRY SEX IN ORDER TO LEGITIMATELY SAY THEY DON’T LIKE IT OR IN ORDER TO EARN THEIR RIGHT TO BE ACE, I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD I WILL RIP YOUR NIPPLES OFF WITH MY FUCKING TE E T H

in conclusion i’m glad we had this discussion, feel free to ask me more in the morning if there’s anything you need clarified, and don’t mess with my ace babes because i am super fucking protective ok goodnight

[wack-ashimself]

For the first time in my entire life, things are actually starting to make sense. Not entirely (or even close) of course, but more than they ever used to. This is a good thing. A good feeling. It's like....we were trying to put together a puzzle with the pieces at hand, right in front of us, then we realized we're actually are working on 10 different puzzles, simultaneously, and tho it doesn't appear so at first, they are all completely separate final pictures. Each one with a story and its' own importance; it's own value. And we do need to see each one for what they are as individuals, and, their meaning as a whole.

[wack-ashimself]

I woke up today to the sunshine on my face,

which was weird because my curtains were closed.

But I smiled at the light thru the dark,

as if its' value was never diminished.

I took a deep breath, ready for the race,

as if I was the only one running, unopposed.

Finding my focus, my gaze, my spark,

Tho my path to who I am is still unfinished.

I'll set some world record in Guinness,

be it lobbing awkwardly thru a park,

people starring, I am being nosed,

so I exit with quite a bit of haste.

But aren't we all running for the finish?

We want to hug, but always go for the bark?

A shield? Protection? Like we were still embryos?

So we look to another and just copy and paste...

Because if you can't find your own smile, it's still easier to wear someone else's instead of a cry....

-self motivator

[wack-ashimself]

*Literally me. "He said the 'f' word." That's all he says. -platonic s1, e10

[wack-ashimself]

This is why I said for a long time now don't take pride in something you never chose. That you never had a saying. And that does go in regards of age, sex, sexuality, race, nationality, and even religion. If you really think about it. Take pride in accomplishments that you have chosen in this lifetime. Because those are you. You are your choices. Anything else is outside of you.

[wack-ashimself]

I'm kind of glad nobody who knows me in real life follows this page. I can be a little bit more open. About personal stuff that might piss off other people. When I'm not even trying to piss them off. I'm just trying to reflect.

I lived in Los Angeles for three years. It was one of the biggest learning experiences of my life. I do not regret a single day. However, I saw some of my own personal darkest times. And I keep trying to contemplate what really brought me down to that level. Even though it happened over 10 years ago, I finally realized what it was. And maybe why I also didn't want to acknowledge it.

How easy it was and quickly it was, cuz it was fucking quickly, some of my closest longest friends and tightest family members basically wrote me off as soon as I moved there. I don't know if it's because it was easier for them to deal with me moving, they were mad at me for moving, or they just wanted an excuse to ghost me forever, but outside of one friend and 2-ish family members, nobody in the 3 years* who I was close to tried to maintain contact on any real level. A text every 3 months to me is not maintaining contact. My brother didn't talk to me the entire 3 years. Except maybe once in a live Christmas video chat with my whole family. Seriously. Nobody knew why. So reflecting on all that, that's what made me reach my saddest darkest deepest place. It's because I felt alone, like totally alone, isolated in a city of millions, and...WHY?! I didn't burn any bridges. I just moved away. And I still to this day don't know if they took offense to me moving, or the used that as an excuse, or a blend of both, or a fourth reasoning I don't even understand, but not knowing why MULTIPLE people I loved and cherished were so easy to ignore my existence the second I went 3,000 miles away in almost unity hurt more than all the times my heart got broken by every girl I've dated. I have journals from over the years of these thoughts, but I'll never read them. Probably can't with my terrible writing. And I want them somewhere I can find them easier. Anywhere I am. So here we are.

I've made mistakes. I'm not proud of them. The only Pride I could take in is learning from them. And maybe helping other people not make the same mistakes.

*and add insult to injury, how many of those same people wanted to hang out and be cool when I moved back. What the fuck dude?

[wack-ashimself]

Life's a laugh, and most people missed the punchline...

-me

[wack-ashimself]

'War Crimes' is an oxymoron.

War, in of itself, IS a crime. And war's biggest criminals seem to never go to jail...

[wack-ashimself]

OMFG. I'm famous. haha. <THIS IS GONNA BE A LONG ONE. I am recalling things I've never posted online...>

So there's only been 2 times in my life I felt 'cool'.

1-You would think all the times I met famous people and (sometimes) talked to them. Nope. It's when I earned an imdb credit (and in turn page) for a voice over I did for a BAD movie (that's why I have never mentioned this publicly till now. And I ain't posting my real name on tumblr. Sorry. It's my only anon site). I wasn't even paid. Given free drinks tho. And an experience I never had before or since (recording was AWESOME. I would love to do professional VO work. TOUGH market tho; actually worse than the acting market. Seriously). It was fun...not gonna act like it was a good movie, tho. AND I got to go the premiere: red carpet and all. It was....one of the better times in LA.

2-When I worked for a few months at a club as the front door greeter (Ids, keep the line, report shit, and once it's going, patrol the club). I got to wear my SUPER TACKY BEJEWELED with an eagle fashion jacket, fedora, and I looked fucking cool; no one had to tell me. Also, best I have ever been treated by strangers IN MY LIFE. They treated me like a demi god (all cuz they thought I could hook them up/break the rules. I did not). It's weird when people (who I KNEW were mostly assholes) fake being nice to you, even trying to bribe you, all because of your power. It honestly made me feel bad for famous/powerful people. Sincerely. You wouldn't know WHO you could trust. That IS tough. Eventually, the gigs died down. All the people I started with originally quit or...no they all quit. I was gonna say some just didn't show, but that's quitting in a different way. I stayed the longest. It was...usually fun. 1/2 of the nights were dead so you're just standing there with your dick in your hand (always hated that expression). The LGBQT parties, tho..... THEY WERE FUCKING NUTS! IMO I had not seen a 'party' party till those parties. I mean, the one on new years eve...it was an EVENT. OMG. I felt bad for the cleaners. And I still remember 2 of the most insane things that if I had not seen, I would not have believed while working there. I do wanna say I don't think these happened necessarily at LGBQT parties. One time, a guy was knocked to the floor, and like SIX people beat the ever loving fuck outta him, and it took a while for it to be stopped (they didn't hire the most guards...) Ambulance had to come and all. Had to work on him immediately, on the ground, once outside. I had only seen a beating one other time like that in my life. The second is a more humorous, but a still violent story (these wouldn't happen at cannabis only parties....). I saw, I fuck you not, 2 people in powered wheelchairs fight. First in the chairs, then one knocked down, fighting on the floor. OMG. They tried to chase each other down at some point. Finally, one left, and the other REFUSED to get back in his chair. Like fought off 2 people trying to get him in his chair. It was a LONG 5 minutes. Finally, the manager (one of them. They had so fucking many. All paid shitty) said 'if you don't leave, I am calling the cops.' Never saw a handicapped person move so fast from the floor to the chair to out the door. It was....you can't make this shit up, kinda stories, ya know? I may have HATED city life, but, I lived a whole LIFETIME in the 3 years I was there. I have so many stories, I genuinely forgot a lot of them...sucks, but sometimes (like these) they'll...pop up.

But NOW, #3 cool moment in my life...

SO, why, today, am I famous? My friend pointed out that on 102.5 WIOG's wikipedia page (ya know, where I worked 5 1/2 years), among the famous known DJ's, MY NAME IS UP THERE.

NO, I swear on my soul, I did not do that. <OR, if I did, I was a new level of black out I have never reached before. Joking.> Cuz...I don't google myself often. Like I did last year for the first time in...3 years? I am starting more and more, now. <cuz my wack885 name which I use on everything is being lambasted by trolls on fucking youtube of me bitching when they choke on overwatch (it's from THEIR viewpoint and you SEE them suck, but they upload it to mock me for pointing out their suckage.> So now I HAVE to look up my real name, wack, and wack885 cuz fuckers have no fucking life. I never paid attention to them; I have no idea how long this has been going on.

ANYWAYS,

The weird part of my name on the radio wiki is....the names they mention around me are all WAYYYY before my time. It's like all classic radio djs I remember...then me, 2nd from the end, outta no where. I mean, no one I WORKED with was even on there, and they were on the morning show.... So it's def a gag/troll thing, but...thanks? lol Because of it, I actually added 'wack' to the 'wack' wikipedia (there's a lot of em').

(Anyone know how to use wikipedia? I actually just created an account. I know nothing. I need to link my name in the article to my name in the 'wack' page. How do I do that? I know I have to edit, but how do I impose the link? Thanks in advance.)

<Yeah...after ALL that shit, I end on a 'help me with my wiki'. But that's me. I'm wack ;) >