#very constructive use of my time

[chimeraartist]

happens every time 😔

[pokemonblack3white3]

Girlies I have got to stop feeling guilty about creating art I enjoy

[lesamis]

swam the most beautiful swim of my life today ✨

[moeblob]

i have no idea where the compulsion to giver her a pokemon came from ??? but her and her minccino gotta go make sure her husband stays safe.

[lmaster37]

hmmmm "i will" by mitski as a loumand song.... armand both pre- and post-SF trying to convince himself he's doing the right thing, he's doing this for louis, he's doing this for them......

armand who considers himself fundamentally unlovable outside of his utility to a partner...... for whom love and servitude and ownership and debt are all mixed up in ways informed by centuries of abuse

who is applying what little he has received in the way of love (both real and perceived) to his current relationships, but who has never felt loved without being owned, who has never once even considered that Respecting Boundaries is an important part of loving somebody, who is used to his lover being his owner being his maker being his god, and who applies all that to his relationship with louis because it's the first time he is suddenly in the dominant position in a relationship and he is Not equipped to handle that in any way even approaching a healthy relationship

"i will see your body bare and still i will live here" considering that the highest form of devotion because surely only somebody who truly loves him could stomach to see him undone, to see him brought low, even if they were the one to undo him. is it not the most honest expression of his adoration for louis to see him brought low and rebuild him ?

"and all the quiet nights you bear, seal them up with care / no one needs to know they're there, for i will hold them for you" armand who is intimately familiar with the ways that memory can hurt you, who is desperately trying to pretend that forgetting is the same as moving on, who is taking on all the burden of this relationship and still louis is so ungrateful, how dare he accuse armand of doing this for his own benefit when it was all for louis, when armand has stayed awake a thousand days to soothe his nightmares, smooth over the edges of every hurtful recollection, when armand bears louis's traumas for him, how dare he—

"there's no need to be brave / while you sleep, i'll be scared / so by the time you wake, i'll be brave" armand who is building up an increasingly fragile house of cards, who is layering lies and adjustments and changes and more lies over each other, knowing that it's not sustainable, knowing that with every passing day it becomes harder to tell the truth, knowing that this will collapse eventually and the fallout is only growing. and then louis wakes up and everything is fine, darling, don't you even worry about it

(can you tell him that i'm so normal about him)

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

Asunder

slow-paced high fantasy

a woman who has a contract with an eldritch entity allowing her to see the dead & survives by taking various jobs

when a job searching for stranded smugglers in a cave goes wrong, she ends up with the soul of a dying stranger bound to her shadow

along with a scholar and her old childhood friend, they travel to his home country to find a way to unbind him and save them both

dark fantasy world with gods, demonic entities, arcane magic, and semi-sentient beasts used as transport

[kiadanta]

Kia is staying with my partner while I'm abroad on holiday and she's not best pleased, poor baby. She's safe, she's well cared for, she's with someone she knows and likes, and she's getting attention, she's just,,, in a weird place without me, and not really impressed about it.

She's starting to chill out and settle in though! Slowly.

Ft @rinnaden

[cherry-bomb-ships]

I didn't want to say anything because I'm still refurbrishing my f/o list and it's not done by a long shot, but two big announcements. One, I have moved Mojo Jojo up to being a main f/o. On the same level as Jamie. This is a bit of a big deal to me because no f/o has EVER been on the same level as Jamie, and even if I know no f/o will ever be like him, I can't deny that Mojo has definitely become very very close to my heart 🥺💖🥺💖🥺💖 So he's officially my second EVER main f/o!! Yayyyy 👏💖👏💖👏💖

Second off, a new f/o has joined the ranks! I'm sure you noticed over the past few days I've been posting about a certain villainous penguin... well, he's now an official f/o! >0< I couldn't help myself I just really like him! And I want to get more self indulgent this year, so. Yeah. Feathers is now an f/o :3 💖💖💖💖

[moongothic]

Not really into IRL AUs but if Crocodile existed in our world he would be running a sand mafia and you can't convince me otherwise

[shiryawashere]

[[PETTY INCONSEQUENTIAL COMPLAINT GO]]

One thing that never fails to grind my gears re: other people (or let's be honest, cis men) in mmo games is that I will be out here playing the most feral big-fanged beefy cat mommy and everyone I interact with will still refer to me as he/him by default

listen I get that y'all like to play lizardgirls in swimsuits and more power to you I don't judge but is it really that outlandish to expect that if I don't know, the character's sex is likely to match the player's (or even if it didn't, my character is a woman!! and you're talking to her!! if I hear one more 'my good sir' I will riot*)? How about y'all get a lot more comfortable with the concept of being misgendered in a videogame and maybe you'll realize other people exist smh

*note that if I point out I'm a woman it's always accepted no problem I just wish I didn't have to choose between asserting my gender or tolerating being misgendered in every other interaction

[rubythecrimsonwriter]

As someone who has lived in the south where the water trough is anywhere from mildly annoying to actively terrifying, who has lived on a fairly decently sized island where it is indeed absolutely terrifying to be cut off from the mainland suddenly with little to no help from the government for an extended period of time--

After No Man's Land and all the issues that arose then, I'd like to propose the new way of interring their dead would be mausoleums. Possibly especially with Gotham canonically existing on a system of caves. An island made of caves on the East Coast that gets battered by hurricanes almost every year is just asking to get sunk a la Atlantis but its fucking Gotham and i think the Gothamites would raise it from the sea floor again out of sheer spite.

But with mausoleums you:

Dont have your son crawling six feet through packed dirt after inexplicably coming back to life

Dont have long buried coffins and corpses getting flooded/shaken/otherwise disturbed and shunted into the water system/streets/underground reservoirs (or Lazarus Pits, since there's one of those down there too, as if Gotham didn't have enough things wrong with it)

Continues the Gotham aesthetic

Have more places for various characters to have a private mental breakdown in

Have more places for various characters to find ominous warnings etched or graffiti'd on the walls

Have more places for things much older than the mausoleums have been En Vogue™ for to inexplicably appear and send shivers down the spine

The Gothamites are very firm about not really being part of the US. The US kind of looks at the South like we're really fucking strange, and the South looks at New Orleans like they've taken the South and concentrated it, carbonated it, and shook it really hard.

I want the same vibes for Gotham. This is their home. They are weird and stubborn to a fault and everything is on fire and the government is corrupt and the people aren't always good but nobody else understands. No one else ever could. Who else has seen the lights for rescue appear on the horizon only to see the light of death on the waters, ensuring no help would ever come? They are resourceful and violent and resentful but the gods won't help you if you cross one of their own.

[7fff00]

unfortunately sometimes i am still like, fuck, i know i resented and feared my mother a good 90% of the time [ERROR: UNDERESTIMATE] because she was ""emotionally"" ""abusive"" or whatever,¹ but at least i understood her psyche intimately and felt really close to her, even if it was often close the way a slap in the face is close…

i mean obviously i then immediately squint at this thought and go, welp, that's unhealthy! but like. even though intellectually i believe really deeply in like. Understanding And Respecting That Other People Are Wired Differently i still sometimes feel really deeply alienated by feeling as though i'm running into brick walls where i instinctively expect other people to have endless wells of deep nuanced emotions that they can & will articulate, and instead they just. don't go any deeper, as far as i can tell²??

obviously that sort of inevitably ends up sounding like a weird humblebrag about how exquisitely ~sensitive~ i am, but like, that very much is not my attitude and not my point, my point is that it's so fuckin lonely to feel like you're disconnected from people, maybe especially when like, simulacra of people are right there, so it feels like connection should be possible and then just—repeatedly—isn't—

…anyway tl;dr cloth mother / wire mother lmao

⸻ ¹ sorry for the weirdly facetious scare quotes, the terminology is in fact precisely accurate, i just also for very textbook reasons always have trouble with it! ² yes obviously 'doesn't fundamentally have any capacity for deep nuanced feeling' and 'their awareness of their own feelings is muted by some sort of blanket like "depression" or "their upbringing discouraged even experiencing their own feelings, never mind expressing them" or, you know, one million other possible examples' and 'they don't share their intimate thoughts with you for a range of possible reasons including the fact that you're Bad‚ Actually just being fundamentally reflexively reticent people' are pretty externally indiscernible from one another! i don't pretend to know which etiology is accurate; and in any event it doesn't actually matter why anyone's walls are impenetrable—they bruise me regardless because i'm Bad, Actually

[road-hauler]

loved this so much I made my own version

[trannakinskywalker]

Listening to Vivaldi's cello concerto in g minor while planning my next therapy appointment because I want to work on time management (I am not studying for my final that is tomorrow)

[bitegore]

baru cormorant seems to me to be a series that suffers miserably for me having read machineries of empire first. unfortunately everything BC is doing strikes me as something MoE did better and more believably and with much a greater and more grounded eye for how systems, complex system interaction, and oppression like. work

[sysig]

Did you expect Rescuing Rusty in 2023??? (RR is @zeejax‘s ♥) (Patreon)

Trick question! Even I wasn’t expecting Rescuing Rusty, but since it was up next on my fics to vet for construction, I had to give it a reread!

Didn’t it turn out lovely 💕 There’s not a lot of sky-related imagery in RR, but I couldn’t not go with this colour - it’s an even richer rust colour IRL :D

The spine ended up being big enough that I was able to sneak in two bookmarks! One for Zoom (the black) and one for Rusty (the red)

Even though they sit separately, Rusty’s still crosses over Zoom’s hehe ♥