#venting again⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ���

[wishing-on-a-snowflake]

google what to do when you block your irl bff on tumblr to set boundaries and explain that to her on whatsapp but she asks if youre gonna get her another follower

[wiredsmi1e]

i wanna write & work on stuff but my brain won't let me work on anything that isn't comm related rn without making me wanna have a whole melt down bc my parents have YET AGAIN made me feel like im never doing enough or even TRYING at the matter so now im so stressed out i don't feel like i even deserve personal time to just unwind & do what i WANNA do rather than only working on comms & housework/shit to benefit her & my dad

[wishing-on-a-snowflake]

HI I'M ZAHRAWR AND I BROUGHT LOLLIPOPS !!

yeah so im putting mine under the cut but npt @pumpkin-gizzards @drunk-24by7-delulu open tags !!

tw below the cut is lowkey sort of molestation?

okay so last year we had this big athletic test and my unathletic lazy ass didnt really wanna do it so i wasnt really participative during practice (we were in groups but it was still individual) so when i didnt practice for this one thing while the teacher was talking this guy bumped into me on purpose but with his ass so his ass touched my ass and i screamed because THATS WHAT YOU DO WHEN PEOPLE INVADE YOUR PERSONAL SPACE but yk what happened?? i got scolded. the teachers didn't ask what happened. the teachers didnt care. they told me to be quiet. and the boy's excuse? "i wasnt participating in practice".

its my business not his

that doesnt excuse what he fucking did.

hes apologised for being a bitch but honestly? i dont think i can forgive him for that. not yet. hell i dont even consider him a friend. sorry this turned into a rant ill tag it

Candy bowl for Christmas but with ✨ TRAUMA✨:

Hi I'm Ysabelle/Bella and when I was 4 I was taking a bath with my brother and we're playing peekaboo when he surprised me and I hit my head to our toilet bowl,I had to go to surgery because I slashed the side of my left eye,The Doctors had to stitch it back together and I had thread on the side of my face😀😀,And I Brought Mars bars!!

Your guy's TURN!

@sapphic-soool @shipspainfulships

@ultravioletbrit (anyone can do this so feel free to say your trauma!!)

[ybklix]

𐙚 𝐰𝐞𝐧’𝐬 𝟏𝐤 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭 ꒱౨ৎ⋆˚｡⋆

♡ inside ybklix’s mind ♡ a series of fics based on songs! ๑ ֹ ₊ㅤ ۟ (MDNI)

── .✦ MASTERLIST

+ INFO UNDER THE CUT ‧₊ ᵎᵎ 🍒 ⋅ ˚✮

hi, tysm for all the love and support and most important for reading! ♡

smut with a little plot !! 🍒₊˚⊹˙✧˖�� sorry

bang chan ♡

synopsis: After a public and embarrassing breakup, the people cheer and expect your new album, so your team gets you one of the best producers and managers in the industry to guarantee your success; however, after meeting him, he awakens in you an unknown side and an incredible sexual appetite. pairing: producer!chrisbahng x popstar!fem reader ꒰୨୧◞ 。READ HERE - SOON⠀.ᐟ

lee know ♡

synopsis: Amidst the tension and displeasure, after a fight, your boyfriend Minho finds you doing something that awakens every sense in him, he knows he should leave you, you both don't do well for each other, but he can't resist you. pairing: dombf!minho x fem!reader ꒰୨୧◞ 。READ HERE - SOON⠀.ᐟ

changbin ♡

synopsis: Things get steamy after meeting a quite extravagant and peculiar guy, owner of one of the city's best and most exclusive nightclubs. pairing: rich!changbin x fem!reader ꒰୨୧◞ 。READ HERE - SOON⠀.ᐟ

hyunjin ♡

synopsis: Two hopeless best friends questioning each other about love and relationships around Valentine's Day, what starts out as a drunken venting turns into a hot, hardcore demonstration of love. pairing: bff!hyunjin x fem!reader ꒰୨୧◞ 。READ HERE - SOON⠀.ᐟ

han ♡

synopsis: Nothing hotter than fucking a superstar on the sly, exploring unknown worlds not only socially, but taking you into his own space where only pleasure exists. pairing: rockstar!hanjisung x groupie!femreader ꒰୨୧◞ 。READ HERE - SOON⠀.ᐟ

felix ♡

synopsis: A mystery in the hot sun overwhelms Lee Minho's guests for what would be an unforgettable summer. An immature, tormented young artist, a few crimes, and a French chateau come together with a naive man, Lee Felix, whose game of hide-and-seek may end fatally. pairing: shywriter!felix x fem!reader ꒰୨୧◞ 。READ HERE - SOON⠀.ᐟ

seungmin ♡

synopsis: Seungmin discovers a secret about his father that fills him with rage and revenge, leading him to you, one more pawn in his game who for some reason becomes addicted to you and enjoys every moment of what is supposed to be fast. pairing: kim seungmin x fem!reader ꒰୨୧◞ 。READ HERE - SOON⠀.ᐟ

i.n ♡

synopsis: You can't help but get hooked on the guy you met one night and it seems increasingly impossible to see him again. pairing: fuckboy!jeongin x fem!reader ꒰୨୧◞ 。READ HERE - SOON⠀.ᐟ

ty❤️

[cin3maa]

☆Everything seems to be in order...☆

✽ ᡣ𐭩ˋ°•*⁀➷ 🌸

Ah! Welcome, may I see your authorization? 🌷

✰✰✰ Everything seems to check out! Now, what was it you said you were here for again..? Right! My name is Cinema, but you can just call me Cinna or Cin. Please keep all personal belongings put away and we can begin with the tour of The Greenhouse! ✰✰✰

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As FishCity's botanist, I am set with the wondrous task of ensuring habitability and tending to the many plants. No, no.. They aren't for sale. Anyway! Feel free to explore on your own now if you'd like!

quick disclaimers and important info:

-i can and will draw selfship with my wife rise!donnie so if you dont want to see that, unfollow/block OR block the tag #selfship and you wont see any of it!

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My pronouns and what to call me! 🌸 What's playing in my headphones? 🎧 700 DTIYS 🎨 #rottmnc - more coming! 🐈 #tmnt cin - me! 🎬 Donnie with other purple characters! 💜

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The Mayor

The Train Conductor

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i probably wont draw your oc

i wont do canon x YN requests unless i specify otherwise - i will deny/ignore you if you request it anyway. i understand you like the characters (i really do) but i just dont want to draw this kind of content as of now and i ask that you respect that.

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my commissions arent set up at the moment

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-> boundaries

t/cest in/cest & proshippers fuck off. seriously, block me. this includes casey jr x turtles. dont joke about this shit either

^I do not count april but i probably wont draw any april x turtles anyway (he's married to me)

vivziepop (hazbin/helluva etc)

if you send me your art in my inbox and it doesnt pertain to me (like it just has nothing to do with me, just using me for clout?? idk its happened) i will probably answer privately. i love ur art but you cant just use me as a way to post it! if you want to show me something(again, if its just something unrelated and you want to show me)id prefer you tag me

i do not support ai art. if you support it or are neutral please block me. if you want to start making real art but dont know where to begin or need free resources, check out this post. (or this resource post)

if we're not close be mindful of what you send in my ask box lol. i am a minor. it makes me uncomfortable if youre sending me suggestive images or something like that (especially if i dont know you very well)

DO NOT VENT IN MY ASK BOX. i dont really know how to respond.. im witewawwy just a girl im not your thewapist im sowwy💔💔

i frequently call rise donnie my wife/bf & draw selfship (sometimes) so if that bothers you im sorry ;w; when i do draw selfship i try to tag it properly so it can be filtered !!!

im still an inexperienced artist, so i probably wont be able to give very good advice if you ask (ᵕ—ᴗ—)

feel free to tag me!

dms are open

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project sekai (if you want to play just ask for my id<3 im almost always up to it! i main jp but i do have en.)

vocaloid/utau/synthv & jpop

^ i am kakizaki yutas #1 fan !!!! listen to his music right now

hoyoverse (genshin, star rail, zzz, hi3)

little nightmares

skullgirls

YTTD

osomatsu san

metal family

bee and puppycat

jshk/tbhk

tadc

psych

ddlc

ptp

mitm

sotl

breaking bad

heathers the musical

...and more but this list is already getting long

stuff in here is subject to change! thank you so much for reading! (youd be surprised how many people dont)

[jennaajoseph]

❛ Hooking up with Rusty Sabich. ❜ ⸻ headcanons.

── ﹙౨ৎ ⋆｡˚ MASTERLIST&INFO.﹚. ☆

౨ৎ ⋆｡˚ PAIRING. ⸻ rusty sabich x gn!reader.

౨ৎ ⋆｡˚ CONTENTS. ⸻ cheating, manipulation, hidden relationship, gender neutral reader.

౨ৎ ⋆｡˚ A/N. ⸻ the inspo for this was @/gyllenhaalstories 's most recent story with rusty sabich called "alibi" ! Thank you Laurie :D

౨ৎ ⋆｡˚ CREDITS. ⸻ photos - me & pinterest (cropped by me) , divider - @/cafekitsune.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ﹙©jennaajoseph﹚

✦ he will definitely use some manipulating tactics to keep you with him. if you feel feel overwhelmed with your relationship with him, and want to possibly end it, he'll always find a way for you to change your mind. fake promises, gifts, words of affirmation, ect.

✦ rusty seems like a clingy person, so when you two started hooking up, he began to text or call you pretty often. lonely, bored, horny, or he just wants some comfort. he'll always contact you.

✦ confusing behaviour. there will be days when rusty calls you only for sex, and days where he wants to take you out to a romantic dinner randomly.

✦ most of the meetings will take place in your apartment, since he doesn't want to get caught in any public place.

✦ if you happen to work with rusty, you'll definitely tease him in his office when there's no one nearby. he doesn't mind as long as no one sees you two.

✦ he'll always make lots of complements about your appearance.

✦ rusty is pretty much confused about his feelings. he knows that something in him loves you, but on the other side, he still thinks about his wife.

✦ rusty sees you like a very understanding and loving person, that's why he comes with everything mostly to you. something went wrong at work? he's stressed? everyone is against him again? his wife is acting up? everything is overwhelming him? he's there immediately.

✦ you would hear rusty vent to you quite a lot, always asking if he's a horrible person, seeking comfort in you. you always reassure him that he's not that horrible.

✦ rusty will also seek validation and complements from you.

✦ despite you and rusty's relationship, he's always trying to take care of you when you two see each other. sometimes treating you almost like his girlfriend.

[kitti-luvs]

「You won't have to worry about being alone ever again my darling !! i'll never let you leave me ♡」

I'm dahlia and welcome to my obsessive love-focused lovecore + vent sideblog (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)

Trigger warning for:

mentions of stalking, self-harm, body dysmorphia, kidnapping, abuse, and violence

About Me .ᐟ

𐙚 Dahlia (lily, lia) 𐙚 21 years old 𐙚 they/doll/bun 𐙚 INTP, Taurus, 5w6 𐙚 no darling as of now

yandere types: RDMS, ODIAF, CSWI, DSMT

DNF/DNI:

minors*, ageless account, nsfw, homophobic/racist/transphobic/etc, dont respect neopronouns or xenogenders, ddlg, proship

*adult DID/OSDD alters in minor bodies allowed, just remember you're bodily a minor and act accordingly

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[obsessed-yan]

౨ৎ just a little vent ౨ৎ

so like sunday night i decided to download n make a profile on hinge (i frequented hinge, bumble n tinder a lot when i was younger (too young when i rlly shldntve been on those apps but thats another vent for another day)) mostly to maybe try and find a new person to obsess over in place of 🍫 since it seems like he wont work out..sadly :(

when i woke up on monday someone made a kinda cute response to one of the things that was on my profile so i matched with him and we talked most of the day monday, he even said that if we wouldnt work out in a relationship hed stay matched with me in case i was able to go to a con he was going to go to in march cuz hed love to say hi to me

our conversation wasnt rlly all that special but he was cute and seemed nice so i wanted to continue to talk with him until smthn bad happened or smthn

tuesday came around and i nvr heard back from him, tuesday night i thought maybe he did send me a msg but my phone removed the notification like it does sometimes so i went n checked in the app n nothing

i was getting annoyed with all the other notifications that wasnt him so i uninstalled it again; i thought abt giving him another day to respond but didnt see him saying anything..it rlly sucked

like wtf yknow? it makes me kinda wonder why he nvr replied like did i say smthn wrong? did he find someone else? did he lose interest?

the fuck?

once he found out how crazy i am he probably wlda left anyway though..meh

[sminiac]

౨ৎ⋆ ˚｡— So Yours !

⋆ H. Shota + Reader

Ex — Incredibly emotionally charged, like— me venting in way because how does one ever cope with the fact that the very thing you seek to hold for eternity is actively slipping through your fingers at such a devastating and unforgiving pace, lol ???? In other words, a lot of nonsense, I just wanted to write hehe

Puppy love was born from the inability to comprehend love to a bone withering extent, one that couldn’t convince you to stay and endure the scary feeling of encountering the unknown, but what you’d come to find even if not in the same circumstances is that Shota’s worthy of the hurt and the suffering, at least, you know that much.

He always made it all worth it, every bite of your tongue and the push of sucking things up and soldiering on- especially with how he is now, bathing in the bright sun like it exists only for the use of spotlight on his existence. He doesn’t hiss from the sting in his eyes or the insufferable warmth it wraps him in, he just takes it all in, what you don’t know is that it’s more so for the sake of keeping you in the shade you’ve claimed under the large tree that rustles and shakes in the soft brushing of a warm breeze.

“Okay, now you go.” He urges with a boyish grin, one that reminds you of midnight cicadas and warm evenings, he’s beautiful all the same, a mix of youth and the growing tinge of maturity sculpting out his face right in front of you.

Even if his very presence tended to make all things more bearable, you groan, already defeated. “This is stupid,” you announce, swift in your annoyance and your fingers haven’t even curled into your palm yet— much less even made a guess of what Shota could possibly pull on you this time. “I’m losing either way.” You admit humorously, a pitiful expression on your face that makes his heart stir out of place. It’s a shame, really. You got all pretty just for him and the hot day you’d endure together, but soon it would be ruined by the steady rush of water that’s been your saving grace for the past few days, if it wasn’t there surely Shota would have noticed your unusual and insistent curiosity of how many more parts of him are just as well built as his arms.

His hands remain still in front of his chest, a slight unsure slip to his smile as he thinks over the possibility of you losing, how you’d dwell in your silent grudge all the way back to town with soggy clothes and hot feet. He wishes that prior to taking a seat with you in the lush grass that you’d both agreed to 1/1, that way the process wouldn’t be so long and torturous for you.

It could’ve been over and done with, but here he is, on the cusp of taking for the win.

His arms hesitantly lower, all of his concerns and pointed guesses of you post river piecing together right before his eyes, the unpleasantness of knowing you’d be upset and that he could’ve very well prevented it striking him anxious.

Before you have the chance to question the lack of movement his hands zip back up to place in front of yours, there’s not a shift in his outward appearance that tells you what he’s thinking about, but then again, it is always hard to tell.

“You lose I jump, okay?” He says.

“That doesn’t make sense, what happens if you lose?” You question, more aloud than directly to him, your mouth running and the pool in your mind of retained thoughts is shallow.

The likelihood of you winning is slim to nothing, but he doesn’t put that out for the universes hands to grab at. “I jump anyways.” He answers blandly, as if it were the first solution that should’ve came to your mind and nothing but. Just like him though, you didn’t want that possibility falling from your grasp.

“Then the entire game would be in my favour, and that’s no fun—”

“And,” he adds abruptly, boldened and louder than his previous words. “you give me a kiss. Up here.” His index finger pokes out and taps twice at the centre of his forehead before returning to his position.

Your silence makes him a little uneasy, but was there really any need for him to be stressed over such a simple matter? He doesn’t think there’s anything wrong with his request. You’ve kissed him before, and exactly where he wants it to happen again, what could be so different about this one?

Awkwardly, he clears his throat. “Are we going to shoot? The sun is making me warm.”

Your eyes slightly widen before you’re apologizing, scatterbrained and nervous as you’re adjusting yourself, knees bumping and faces equally as hot as the other’s. If the water beside you wasn’t so loud he’d surely hear the aggressive thumping of your heart.

The both of your fists are hitting against the surface of your open palms, softly announcing “Rock, paper, scissors.” together.

You don’t even have the ability to decide on how your fingers will position themselves before mindlessly they splay flat over your palm, simultaneously Shota’s fist stays balled as it lands against his skin on 3.

His lips part as he looks up, watching the way you hesitantly shift to your haunches.

The motion of your hand is slow as it hovers over his before it comes down to cup over his fist. “I win.” You announce, equally as amazed by your inexplicable luck.

You really don’t know what to expect, when he’d want his kiss, if he was being serious or just trying to get a good laugh out of it, but it startles you when he raises to his feet, grabbing at the bottom of his t-shirt and clumsily wrestling it off before his hands are at his belt. You swelter under the bright glint of the metal, how his slender fingers pry it loose until his jeans are kicked off and now you struggle with keeping a healthy balance between looking at him chest and up, and whatever lays behind him in the distance.

The inkling you had about the rest of him, you were right. He does have a nice body that’s more than just the defined clumps of muscle along his limbs.

The entirety of him is nice, so unbelievably, achingly nice.

“Can I.. have it before I jump?” He asks, a small smile on his face that reveals his teeth as he talks.

You nod, asking “You scared?” as you join his side.

The two of you loom over the water for a second, the current isn’t whipping or dangerous any, but the pool of it certainly had some depth. “No. It looks inviting, I’ll be fine.” His fingers twitch being so close to yours when standing beside you, they always do, like it’s a gravitational pull that taunts and laughs at him for inevitably reverting back to being so cowardly around you.

He doesn’t need to look to know the lack of distance there is between you and him, he’s never needed to.

“Are you scared?”

Your lips purse, eyes avoiding his as your fingers poke at his arm, just under his elbow is where they press firmly against him.

“Not at all, but I… I think I am a little jealous.” Your feet shift until you’re both facing each other again, an even smaller amount of distance between you now, your hand wrapped gently around as much of him as you can fit. “You hate swimming like this, I know you do. You don’t have all of your stuff.” He reasons, unable to say a thing about your other hand moving to cradle the side of his face—he only guides himself into you—or how your eyes focus on the movement of his lips. But, he does fully acknowledge that the only thing that’s possibly capable of cooling him off now is if he jumps.

“Y/n?” He asks so softly his voice almost cracks, a little confused, and nervous, and completely unsure of your intentions but he’s confident that he doesn’t want to pull away just yet.

Quickly you press out your words before any hinderance is allowed to occur, “Sho’ if I wanted to kiss your lips instead would you let me?” You ask. Shota struggles with understanding for a minute, so he stares blankly at you for quite some time, big pretty round eyes that don’t look so dark in the sun just barely moving as he looks at you, deconstructing your sentence before he’s decidedly nodding his head.

At first it’s slow, because it’s you, and yes, whatever you want he’ll do, but then it really hits him, and now he’s nodding profusely and comically fast. “Mhm, ye-yeah, yeah. Yes. Please. Y/n, please.” His voice ripples out into a tenderly familiar laughter, one that sounds warm and inviting, one that’s him, that makes you realize even if this kiss is to be different, and has the ability to dictate the direction of your friendship, it wouldn’t be the worst thing to go out with a bang like this.

Your weight rocks into the tips of your toes, it keeps you surprisingly steady as you bring yourself closer into his bare chest. Shota’s the one who steps further into you when he notices that you aren’t close enough, and he doesn’t want you tripping over yourself so he makes the barely noticeable adjustment for you.

“Know I should be nervous, but you’re so mine it doesn’t scare me.” You whisper, the breeze carrying your voice like it’s always been apart of you, you’re one with the chirping birds, the life of water, and the green grass that tickles your skin Shota’s always thought.

You smell like summer and you look like it too. He’d want nothing more than to last in your eternal beauty.

His lips bump against yours as he talks, folding you into his embrace in such an intimate manner, noses bumping and hair mixing into each other’s.

“Why would you be nervous? I’ve always been so yours.”

[deathofapiano]

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౨ৎ huge hazbin hotel, helluva boss, bsd, saiki k, omori, little nightmares, toh, south park fan (dazai's literally my pookie)

[lainsshop]

Talk to Her ౨ৎ

Pairing: Alastor x Radio Host ! Reader

Tags: tbh, I don’t really know..

Song: Talk To Her - The Marias

A/N: I don’t know about this one.. but I’ll accept any feedback to this!

A/N 2: This was made weeks ago and I honestly didn’t liked this but I’ll heard out your feedbacks! Plus Happy Valentine’s Day mwah!

Now, the Pride Ring had a well known radio host, The Radio Demon aka Alastor. Locally known in the Pentagram City but of course not everyone knew about him, cough cough Lucifer cough..

But there was another Radio Host in that same city, you.

Alastor never knew about you until you randomly appeared here on hell and everyone started to talk about you. You were a modern sinner, you died just one year ago and you already had your own broadcast? Interesting..

Obviously, Alastor was kinda.. intrigued by this since he thought he was the only one making broadcast in that city.

You could say he was a tiny bit jealous at that since you were you were the new talk of the city! How could he not! Of course, he won’t admit it cause of his pride and big ass fragile ego- okay okay, maybe he’s not like that..

He decided to hear one of your broadcast this midnight, Gods knows why you decide to do it at those hours but it’s cause it’s more “comforting” to you.

It’s just you talking about your human live, what happened in Pentagram city, gossip but it was mostly your thoughts and you alone in that studio of yours.

It was finally midnight, Alastor was in his radio tower, black coffee in hand as he waited for you to start your broadcast and..

“It all comes and goes in waves, everything looks the same.. the cornfields, the cows, the flies, the coughing, the musky air that fills our rows and permeates.” You started out. No introducing? That’s interesting. He thought.

“Even through the ash infested vents from the fires, eating away at the barks of trees like this moment.. eating away at the last dose of happiness lingering on the dust of our bones.”

Looks like you were talking about your human days. “That night, wrapped in crispy motel sheets..” I chuckled a bit remembering that time.

“I clenched my body and pretended I was an embryo in my mothers womb, funny, isn’t it?” You commented. “It was the only source of warmth and comfort that could sing me to sleep.. But now, I see the sheep out the window on green pastures, I hope they have water..”

“I sometimes imagined myself.. being reincarnated as one.. and jumping over those low wire fences to freedom, I wonder how far I could make it without a human catching me.” You sounded a little bit sad when saying that.

“Taming me, bringing me back to their living painting, a life to look at as they wash the dishes.. smeared with my mothers milk that they stole from me..” Silence could be hear after you said that, people thought it was over but you spoke again

“It’s raining finally,” I won’t lie that some sinners did looked at the window when you said that but remembering that in The Pride Ring it doesn’t even rain.

“And the van was slowly drifting into the other lane, I was driving, everyone else was asleep, sometimes coming up for air, their heads poking up like groundhogs,” You laugh a bit.

“Before sinking back into their holes but it’s not all dark and grim.. there are moments of hope, they came to me when it’s quiet.. they came to me when everyone is synched in their levels of happy, which- it didn’t happen often.. but when it did, it was.. nice.”

“I wonder if we’ll look back and think that these miles of cornfields.. these anguished breaths, these forced smiles, these moments that were gone, the momentary calms.. and the thousands of lil bugs pressed against our windshields,”

“God, those are the worst.” You said complaining about it.

“But they were all worth it..” You said. “I honestly don’t know.. where I’m supposed to be right now, like yes, I’m in hell for a reason but.. what’s my place here?

“There’s a hollow thought that takes control of me..” You said before the broadcast finished. Alastor didn’t expect this, he thought it was another cheap mediocre podcast under Vox’s stupid name but no.. you were different? Refreshing? He couldn’t find the words but you were now even more intriguing!

The next day, everyone from the hotel was having their usually morning routine before Charlie spoke up about this Radio Host that she heard about while her and Vaggie went to gather sinners who wanted to redeeem themselves. She can’t lie that she mentioned it only cause Alastor also has a radio broadcast.

All of them talked about it, about how maybe you would consider to redeem yourself or how it would be nice if you and Alastor should collaborate or or or- yea.. that’s just Charlie saying stuff at this point but! Collaborating wouldn’t be a bad idea, right..?

“You should talk to her!” Charlie says to Alastor. To be honest, he also wanted to met you, you seem interesting plus it’s not like you see someone broadcasting while using a radio unlike.. others. So he did, he went to meet you cause now you were a new source of entertainment along with the hotel!

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havent eaten all day but whatever

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remember how i said i was ok?? i was in fact less ok than i thought!! its fine im fine ill be fine

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when you get backstabbed on the last day of school but you dont even know who it was exactly+you were just aggressively expressing your feelings but now you have to apologise+your teacher is also asking you about some stuff because of an event before the last day of school that upset a lot of your classmates including you and you've been leaving said teacher on delivered for over 24 hours+all of this on the last day of school so now you genuinely cant smile or laugh for too long because it just feels so wrong to be happy

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