#venti is burnt out and it makes me sad

[dteamhugs]

this is gonna be venty and negative but I need to get these thoughts out there or I'll explode

seeing these youtubers on the set of the minecraft movie reminded me that we'll most likely never get anything like that (or at least not in the near future) with Dream Team mostly because of the controversy surrounding Dream :') being a fan of this guy is perpetually longing for what could've been had he not become the scapegoat of the Internet and that sucks assss

the squidcraft thing didn't help either. recently it feels like everywhere I turn i just get reminded of how Dream’s image in the minecraft community will never be the same as before everything. there's lots of bitterness and hate everywhere and sometimes it just drowns out the positivity, especially within the larger dsmp fandom. I really wonder how he manages it because just being a fan it makes me sad.. whenever I get a notification from an update account I'm anxious whether it's another controversy. I'm still here because I'm stubborn as hell and determined not to let the hate drive me away from the thing I love but it's been like 4 years of this and I just feel so tired at this point. Still here, but tired and definitely burnt out

if feels silly to say something like this after everything considering we're definitely on the calmer waters now but it's hard to pretend that nothing happened and now that the major stuff is over everything can go back to normal cause it just can't...

I'm definitely not leaving this fandom anytime soon but. man.

not much substance to this, just wanted to rant a bit

[starleska]

*pokes head in* hey guys!! did i miss much? i missed you 🫂💖

bit of a ramble/venty-type post under the cut:

my apologies for being away for a bit. i had a pretty major trauma anniversary clashing with some painful interpersonal stuff, and i realised being online all of the time was really sapping my mental health. i spent a few days disconnected from social media, and it helped tremendously. then i decided to try an experiment: what if i logged on to my usual socials each day, and scrolled until i came across something saddening, angry, or discourse-heavy...and then logged out, not to use it for the rest of the day?

i did exactly that, and was astonished. every day, it was within ten minutes. the first day, it was within 2 minutes. the second, it was within 7. the third, it was within 5. this has really caused me to re-evaluate my relationship with social media and fanworks creation. i was in the middle of an extraordinarily painful, ridiculous dispute that just wouldn't happen in real life, all while creating at an impossible speed and burning myself down to the wick everyday, convincing myself that it was fun and i was enjoying myself. now i've had time to be free of those self-imposed responsibilities and disconnected from algorithms engineering me to be sad and angry. disconnected from awful, painful imagery and discussions every second of the day...and it works!!! my mind feels so much freer. i've been writing, and drawing, and reading, and meeting with friends. life's been moving forward in a good way. it's been interesting, not having the weight of social fandom begging me to Make Stuff. i'm still very sad about recent events, but i think it was a wake-up call that i just. need to step away more often. be more present irl. take better care of myself physically and mentally, including walking away from situations which aren't good for me. and if you're feeling that kind of hair-trigger anxiety where you're exhausted, burnt-out and always doomscrolling...maybe try giving what i've done a shot. the first 24 hours really are like a withdrawal, but you feel so much better afterwards 💖 but yeah - i'm glad to be back, although i'm going to try to be less active. Twitter was the main offender - i've always found Tumblr to be a much nicer, more curated space where i'm less likely to be exposed to triggering material, but this shouldn't be my life. the thing i missed most was chatting with you guys, and seeing your lovely, silly posts and art. i don't want to be connected 24/7 anymore, but i do want more moments like that 🫂

[error-was-here]

Pt2 of cuddling Genshin characters at night (gender neutral reader)

hightkgngofkgjglh why did the last post get so popular ,thank y’all so much tho ♥ (also wrote this during load shedding)

Characters: Heizou and zhongli

Part 1- Venti and Kaeya :

Part 2- you’re here

should I do a part 3 for lady Ningguang or/and Amber ? Also I changed the picture designs so their visible on white backgrounds

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Heizou

Let’s be honest ,he probably has been tired all day from all the work he has , just is burnt out and wants to see you and sleep. So this is a perfect combination for him

“____? can you please give me some cuddles.” He asks

“Hm? Sure Heizou ,come here.” You say

He groans as he makes his way to you ,you pull him into a hug putting your head on his shoulder ,when he unexpectedly smothers kisses along your neck

,and when you jumped at the sudden attack of kisses he will constantly teases you about it.

“What? Is this too much for you babe?”

But damnnnnnnn if you too sleep like this and you have a job that you have to get ready for in the morning

he ain’t letting you go unless you push him off the bed-

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Zhongli

after a long day at the funeral parlor he comes back to meet you on the bed struggling to sleep so he says

“Hmm? Something the matter?”

“Kinda ,you just help me sleep if I’m being honest ,so that’s why I’m still awake I guess”

Bro blushed super hard and felt bad at that comment ,so he goes on the bed to cuddle you in a position where he hugs you like you’re a teddy bear and he is a 5 year old child

But in this case he is a grown man and you’re his lover ,not a teddy bear (so sad)

But now every time he is late he apologizes profusely and give you kisses , just because of that one time.

also he would definitely give you morning kisses ,lots of cuddles and maybe breakfast (if you’re fine with him using your mora)

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Hope y’all enjoyed this

also tell me if you want part 3 for Amber and Ningguang

[flamechasr]

1 , 20+21 for any of Afterglow as Tsugu , 25+27 for miss Lumine , and 31 !! >w< ilyyyy

(1) — a memory on your mind currently

dark warning?? // MUELSYSE ; i had a nightmare where i was drowning and it felt so real and so scary because i can't drown. it's physically impossible. but it was as if the water was trying to kill me, and i was helpless against it. i think i was really, deeply afraid that the ocean would one day turn against me, and i would no longer have a home, or anywhere else to go and. Yeah i just keep thinking about this.

(20) — a positive memory of AFTERGLOW

i will answer this for the whole band!! uhm..... is it cheesy to say like... the whole journey of us becoming friends and becoming a band rising to stardom. because honestly there were so many good things that happened because of us being together and also choosing to stay together, despite everything, it makes me sob to think about and i'm not even a crybaby like himari !!! JOKES. i love you!

(21) — a negative memory of AFTERGLOW

not a memory per se but i had this deep-seated fear that you guys would end up forgetting about me or leaving me behind, since i didn't bring much to the band and always felt invisible. dhsjdsd i was. Very insecure about a lot of things despite acting positive, it was mostly to cope with my own fears. it's really irrational because you guys were always there for me and reassured me that i Wasn't unimportant and i cried a little and you joined in and then we all did..... so silly but i love you guys!!

(25) — someone you wish you were closer to or knew better

i have 2 canons for lumine, as the traveler and abyss princess, so i'll answer with both!! (spoilers) TRAVELER ; it's hard to say Names since i kinda wish i knew everyone better because i was always hopping from place to place, never being able to stay for too long, but probably childe. i never trusted him and i didn't really want to make amends since he betrayed us, but we had a weird rs where we actually saw each other often - for spars - but didn't talk much. look it's his fault because he only ever talked nonsense and didn't really want to answer questions. i knew about his family stuff, and i definitely sympathized with him, but ultimately i felt that he was delusional (literally) and his morals were also in the wrong places. you just don't wanna get too close to people like that. i do wish i understood him though, and i'd have probably tried harder to fix our rs. ABYSS PRINCESS ; i get somber thinking about ways i could've fixed my situation, if i was maybe closer with the archons. venti in particular, because i kinda thought of him as a strange person. i met him briefly in a bar during my time in mondstadt, he looked sad right until he saw me staring and then he smiled so wide and i immediately knew this guy was a faker. would i have been friends with him? no. two people can't be in grief together. at the same time i shouldn't have dismissed him so easily since he probably knew the most out of all the archons.

(27) — your partners and something you loved about them

TRAVELER ; just one, ayaka my forever girl i miss her so bad i wanna die. jokes. she was so kind to us and daresay the most beautiful girl i had ever laid my eyes on. i really regret having been so mean to her at first. i was just, like, tired and burnt out of everything at that point. despite it i'm so grateful she still chose my company for the festival, and even listened to my woes. she's a really good listener, i have never talked that much about my Issues and Problems and actually felt heard. what else ... she's the definition of grace, a real princess, i knew i was in Deep when she danced for me in the middle of the forest. the day before i left inazuma, she told me she loved me and i was Shocked. i didn't want to say it because it would be selfish, declaring love when i had to leave her, but it made me really happy. because there's nothing to not love about her and i'd come back to her again and again. her interest in international food was very endearing and gave me a reason to visit inazuma often to let her try the latest recipes i got from all around teyvat ABYSS PRINCESS ; also just one, i met dainsleif in khaenriah not even knowing where i had landed, when i just crashed into teyvat. honestly he was pretty annoying at first because he insisted on bodyguarding me everywhere, claiming he's actually “keeping watch to make sure i don't cause trouble”, but i realized soon that protection was just how he expressed his love and like that's really cute. my world crumbled when the cataclysm fell and he even let me cry into his chest, even though he was dealing with his own grief. he's just really selfless and kind and never gave himself enough credit for it. he took care of me when i got drunk off my ass, though he'll chastise me about how it's reckless, he'll tuck the blanket over me anyway, it's these little things that made me realize that i loved him too. my favorite thing about him is that he's really easy to fluster but he won't show it, like, if i pecked him on the cheek he won't blush or anything but his heart would start beating so fast (i know because i felt it). he's also very weak to sweet words, and returns it with his wholehearted devotion. i... really, deeply regret what became of us. i still loved him even when we parted ways, knowing it's for our own good. i don't know if he despised me after.

31 answered here!

[bahbzxxx]

(Part 1 of a random bs au I have in my head)

IMAGINE: A modernish big and scary musical capital Mondstadt that is home to one of(if not the biggest), most reclusive musical legends of all time, Barbatos! Granted, he’s a little bit jaded and grouchy because of how much the music industry has burnt him out(and he still likes to play absentee archon once in a while) but he’s still worshipped. He basically owns the music industry lol

Unfortunately, there’s been a dip in talent recently. Whatever’s going on, Barbatos doesn’t know. But, he’s gotta do his job and restore Mondstadt to its former glory and find more artists! So ,He decides to host a new competition: a cheap knockoff of the x factor., in the hopes that he can put together a new band of fresh faces. What could go wrong? So many people would sell their limb for the opportunity to see him, let alone have the chance to perform for him.

Meanwhile, you are a little musician who has just moved to big scary Mondstadt not too long ago. You’re not too popular- you take up gigs at a few local cafes consistently, which gets you a few regulars and new fans every night. You’ve got yourself a cozy lil apartment with a really nice roommate(I think it should be Kazuha, he just radiates nice roomie energy) and he also does a few gigs with you too! On top of that, you’ve also made a handful of other friends, so you’re in a good spot!

One night, you end up performing at a certain bar. Once again, people are quick to see your talent, and they react positively. (Someone managed to throw their bra at you though so… maybe you were a little too good lol) Especially the green-clad idiot in the back with braids in his hair. Drunk to the utmost degree of course. In fact, he is so starstruck by you. He cannot let you just slip away, this is a once in a lifetime opportunity!

He introduces himself as Venti, and he treats you to a drink before you two end up having a really good time talking about utter nonsense <3 You do learn that he’s a musician just like you!

Like an hour and a few drinks later(you at like 2-3 and him at…um. I’d rather not say), The very nice red headed bartender who kept checking in with you every two minutes asking if you were ok kindly told you that he was two seconds from kicking your new friend(but not you) to the curb, so you both give the poor man a break and leave. You offer to walk Venti home(for obvious reasons)but he tells you he’s fine. Before you can officially bid him goodbye, he asks you if you’ve heard about the competition that the archon was so graciously hosting. You, being so new and naive, hadn’t heard of it at all! When you tell Venti that, he just laughs and then tells you all about it.

And wow…it’s like a dream come true, isn’t it? A chance to be somebody larger than life? A chance for all of Teyvat to hear your melody?

And a chance to meet Barbatos? An ARCHON?

You ask him when it is. When he tells you that it’s the next day and that you simply just show up and hope for the best, you frantically thank him and then rush home to start preparing. Also to get some sleep?

And he didn’t even get your name yet :(

(So I hope I didn’t literally steal someone’s fanfic lol)

[kagakuoniryu]

TAKE MY MOMEY✨💳✨💳✨💳✨💳✨💳✨

Zhongly, diluc, kaeya, venti, xiao, lisa and jean reactig to their s/o practicing self/human/fruit-ninja

in front of them or with them in the same room (Sh in every form bc I love angst :')

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OBV YOU CAN IGNORE THIS REQUEST OR SOME CHARACTER

TY.

(SORRY FOR THE TW)

Synopsis :

Reader practice SH around their partner

Characters :

Zhongli

Diluc

Kaeya

Venti

Xiao

Lisa

Warning :

Mentions of self harm, angst obviously, reader cutting (zhongli, venti) /burning (diluc) /freezing (kaeya) /starving (xiao) and sleep depriving themself (lisa) ,

A/N :

Don't worry about triggering me, I need way more than that, but people who are easily triggered I won't recommend reading since I talk about most form of SH, even some that may be considered as anxious behavior so everyone is warned now! By the way the headcanon/scenarios may be short, I'm not particularly inspired by this subject and there is a lot of character, I also took out jean, I genuinely didn't knew what to write for her, I'll hope you'll still enjoy it

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Zhongli :

Zhongli is a very observant man, he can and will see if you try to self harm near him, however he can't stop you when he isn't near

And I know for a fact, that for some people, self harm is almost addictive, a way to relieve themselves

So usually you self harm in secret in the bathroom or when he is at the funeral parlor with hu tao

He only see what happened after

He is wise and know lecturing you like a child won't do any good if only make you feel worse, so when he see the damages, he only guide you toward the first aid kit and bandage to heal you

"Darling, I know it's hard for you, and right now you use this to cope with things that I may have no idea about, but please, don't do this, a human life is already short enough, I don't want to loose you sooner than I should, we have all life before us, so I promise things will get better, give yourself time"

Pressing his forehead against yours, he kissed you gently while his thumbs stroke the back of your hands

But if really he had to come home while you're doing it

He will walk toward you slowly and make his presence known so you don't get frightened before holding your hand in his to make you release the sharp object you used to hurt yourself

And then again he will only tell you he feel sad you that you needed to do this ; he will never try to make you feel guulty, he know that's not the right solution and he is patient enough to make things right for you

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Diluc :

I'd like to imagine that to parrallel with diluc vision his s/o hurt themselves with something hot

It's technically considered by many psychologist that a shower, starting from a certain temperature is considered self harm, even if unconscious

So usually dilic find small burn on your skin when the two of you cuddle or just sleep together at night

And he don't like it

He'll start to reschedule his days to spend them with you and to know what's going on, if someone is bullying you or something

He don't think about self harm as an option in the first place

But even while following you around during the days after a few weeks he continue to find new burn on your back, arm and legs

And since he usually take his shower before you during the evening he don't get to see how hot us the water

But tonight you both were supposed to go on a date together and you were both late so to gain some time you took your shower together

You were the one in charge of the temperature of the water and you mindlessly set it as hot as possible for a human to bear

When only a drop touched diluc's skin he finally knew where you would get all your burns

He didn't say a thing, he knew this was something either unconscious or you didn't wanted to talk about, otherwise you would have done so, instead he start to make a point about the two of you showering together "to be more romantic" was his excuse when he mostly wanted to make sure you didn't burnt yourself more

And if it doesn't work or if he can't always shower with you he'll make modifications in the bathroom to either prevent you from setting the water that hot or to let you set it that hot but only acceptably hot water would come out in order to prevent your burns and if you ever tell him the water isn't as hot as usual he would only answer that the water is the same, you just got used to the temperature

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Kaeya :

I feel like to kaeya, a good parrallel would be his s/o having no regard when it comes to their body temperature

They could be in dragonspine, freezing to death and they won't search for a source of heat, they just don't care

And at first kaeya thought he finally found someone who can "handle the cold" as he say it

But when you are too cold for too long you start to get hypothermia

At first it was just your skin being really red due to the cold

And other times he would find burn, but not burn made by heat, burn made by extreme cold

He understood it was really serious when your limb started to turn blue from the lack of heat, at any moment you could loose use of them and even then when kaeya proposed you a fire to sit by and a hot drink you refused

He insisted though, trying to coax you with charming words and all

But still, you stood your grounds

It doesn't mean he will let you hurt yourself, if his charms aren't doing the trick, holding you on a blanket to make a burrito out of said blanket with you inside will

He then place the burrito right in front of the fire, and, understanding that you weren't immune to the cold, just using it as a way of self harm, he will from then on check on you and won't let you go to a cold place like dragon spine alone

It's quite the hard way to ensure your security but he cares and that's what matter

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Venti :

As far as venti could remember being with you, he always saw you playing with scissors, blade and sharps tools all the time

He thought it was just an habit you took with wielding your weapon all the time on adventure or just to occupy your hand

And the new cuts on your skin were just accident, after all playing with blades mean you can get cut from time to time

And since he is talking almost non stop he almost never hear the whimpers of pain you let out from time to time

Until it was the anniversary of the death of his long lost dear friend

For the whole day it was rare for him to say anything, and he didn't reacted much either, he looked like a shell of himself

But still, as always, you played with a blade, this time a knife you found laying around or maybe a dagger rosaria gave you for your own birthday

And today venti was clingy, staying at your side at all cost, one leg thrown over yours, he could almost sit on your lap at this point

And when the blade cut you skin, you couldn't back down the little sound you emitted, almost mute

But venti heard

He looked at your wrist and saw le blade was pressed against you wrist

He then realized that all you previous cut were way too clean to be just accident

Each time they were on purpose

And this time weren't an exception

When you noticed venti was looking you froze, not wanting to alarm him more

Gently his hand took knife/dagger from yours, setting it as far as possible

He kissed the freshly made wound, and all the other who left scars on your skin before holding you quite close to him

"no playing with blades from now on, it's an order from the all mighty lord barbatos, he decided you must live, and give him affection, now go on"

It may looks like he was playing, but the sound of his voice was sad

You better give him his affection before he start pouting though

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Xiao :

Xiao doesn't know how a human being is supposed to take care of themselves

He know they need to eat, sleep, and be entertained, but he doesn't know how much they need each thing

That's why he doesn't see the problem when you started to starve youself on purpose, not because you wanted to loose weight, but because in a way, not eating was a way to maintain control over your life, at least in your mind, even if you were in constant pain from the lack of food and more tired

Xiao genuinely thought that just eating a bowl of almond tofu with him from time to time was enough for you to live

But that's until you really wanted to go and see parts of liyue that are difficult to access because of the high montains and you brought xiao along

During the ascension you felt weak, it's been at least 2 or 3 days you haven't eating because xiao didn't either

And the final stretch where you escalated the last peak where when all your strength gave up on you

You fell of the montains while screaming, fortunately xiao manage to catch you before you even reached the ground

Under the shock you said nothing, obly gripping quite hardly xiao's neck

He tried to put you down but you immediately fell, your legs giving up on you

Finding you state quite concerning he immediately brought you to madame ping, even if it meant going to liyue harbor

She quickly examined you and eclared you weren't sick, but you were still in pretty bad conditions without eating for says straight

Xiao wanted to tell you how worried he was and how humans are weak and how starving yourself in hope of being thinner was stupid, but seeing your face he knew it wasn't for these reasons, you were doing it to punish yourself fir something, you were hurting yourself voluntarily and you didn't gained anything from it

Instead of telling you how stupide you were, he just hugged you

From then on he came one tile each morning, each lunch time and each evening making sure you ate something, yes even if you weren't hungry, and yes even if that's only a small portion of food

Xiao in my opinion can't cook for the life of him so instead he ask yanxiao or cloud retainer to make you food

He even brought one time to eat with the fellow blue adepti, hoping her appetite would encourage you to eat along

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Lisa :

Lisa is someone who love to sleep or take a nap

And for a long time she insisted for the two of you to take nap together after your afternoon tea

While she layed down next to you and fell asleep you usually sneak around the library to read whatever you wanted and cale back before she wake up

At night, in the confort of your shared home, you usually only slept an hour of two

You weren't an insomniac, you just forced yourself to stay awake

You called it being productive and a night owl

Professional would have called that retarding the next day to gain control over your life

And more commonly people called that self harm but in a passive way

Lisa didn't noticed for a long time

The long time it needed for your body to not be able to stand anymore with only coffee and so little sleep

One second lisa was talking, her back facing you

The second you fell on the ground with a loud thud and she ran to where you were

She brought you to barbara in the church, where you were declared sleep deprived and that's why your body collapsed like this

Lisa was genuinely concerned but a bit mad at herself too, how could she not notice the way you lived was unhealthy when she lived with you

You slept for almost 24 hours which was concerning in itself but you body needed it

When you woke up lisa came quickly before hugging yiu as if her life depended on it

Frol then on she forced you to lay down and close your eyes, and would let herself fall asleep only if she kbew you were too

You two could only hope it won't lead to the both of you being sleep deprived

~hope you'll like it~

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Headcanon

Scenario: Levels of Intimacy

Characters: gn! reader x Diluc, Kaeya, Albedo, Childe, Zhongli, Xiao, Chongyun, Venti, Dainsleif

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Diluc

When you first start dating, is a man of few words, but definitely shows that he cares. Is the type who sends you flowers but doesn't say anything about it.

Gradually warms up a bit more as time passes.

Is not a fan of public displays of affections but you'll notice that he'll touch you in subtle ways. Touching your lower back to steer you to the right path, touching your shoulder to get your attention, touching your arm when he just feels like it.

You'll catch him looking at you once in a while and when you ask what's wrong he shakes his head and will say something like, "Nothing, just got distracted,"

When you're alone, will lay his head on your lap for whatever reason. Will usually be reading a book and the next time you glance at him he would have fallen asleep, peaceful look on his face.

People will notice that his mood changes when you're around. He's a lot less on edge and will take a more relaxed stance.

People will also notice the gentle look on his face when he talks to you, compared to the stiff look he gives others.

Will give heaps of forehead kisses.

Kaeya

Has no problem showing affection right from the beginning.

Cheek kisser. Anywhere, anytime. Whenever he feels like it, for no reason at all.

When you're out in town, the type who will sneak up behind you, cover your eyes with his hands and ask, breath above a whisper and near your ear, "Guess who?" you know who it is every time.

If not that, then he'll just hug you from behind and "Caught you, you're coming with me," mischievous glint in his eyes.

People will notice how he can't seem to take his eyes off of you.

Is somehwhat flirtatious but always reminds you that you're number one. "I might look like I'm joking, but trust me, I'm serious about you,"

When you're alone, is the type who will take you in his arms, drop you in bed and just cuddle with you while playing with your hair.

Albedo

Doesn't say much when you first start dating. Actually you don't even know when exactly you guys started dating, you just had a hunch that it was happening because he starts to give you kisses on the top of your head whenever you would part ways with him.

When you ask about it, "Hm? Dating...? Yes, I suppose that's what you call it. I'd rather call it as an exclusive privilege to you,"

Asks for your company whenever he can. You don't do much, but just watch him work. He's happy with just being in the same room as you.

Will sometimes be conscious about the fact that you might be bored "Here, would you like to try?" is just an excuse for him to guide your hand on how to do specific alchemy experiments.

When he feels tired and burnt out will just appear next to you and hug you round the waist, rest his head on your shoulder and murmur "Just a small break,"

When you're out in town together and someone comments about it being rare to see Master Albedo accompanied by someone, he would reply back gesturing at you, "They are... My life partner. So, it's only natural you'd see us together."

Life partner=his word to indicate that you're dating

When you're alone, would ask you to fix his hair or tie his hair up cause "you're the only one who knows how to do it properly, aside from me,"

Childe

Absolutely cannot keep his hands to himself.

Always greets you with some form of hug, usually bear hugs or let me nuzzle into your neck hugs.

Would glue you to his hip if he could.

Visibly happy in public with you, dotes on you and asks you what you'd like to do today.

People can literally see hearts hovering around his head when you're around.

Hand holding a must.

Will not let you do any manual work or labor. Got something to carry? Will take it from you. Need to wash the dishes? Just use his vision. Having trouble with that jar? He might break it for causing you so much trouble.

When you're alone, will always be the big spoon and trail kisses on your neck.

Has a permanent smile plastered on his face when he sees you. "You're just too cute!"

Zhongli

This man is gentle and yet manages to be firm about what he wants, which is you, and no one else.

Does not show a wide range of emotions, he's either calm and collected or agitated and cautious, depending on situations that concern you.

Agitated and cautious because he feels like you're such a fragile thing.

Will enjoy watching your face light up at his suggestions and will get that soft hint of a smile on his face. "Strange, this effect you have on me. Quite an extraordinary thing, and that would be saying a lot considering I've been around for thousands of years,"

When he accompanies you out to town will walk a step behind you but regularly check on you by standing next to you, and reaching out to touch your shoulder that is further away from him. Thus you're momentarily in a semi-side hug. "Everything alright?"

When someone in public comments about you and him making a cute couple, he feels a sense of pride and confirms it. "It is as you say. I wonder from time to time how I've managed to have someone like them stay with me,"

When alone with you, is the type to pull you on their lap and keep you there for as long as he can while he works.

Xiao

Is totally a cold one even if you start dating. But it doesn't mean that he doesn't care, he just has his own way of showing it.

However the more you grow on him the more you find out that he gets flustered unusually easy.

When you suggest a date, for example, his face will get that subtle hint of red. "I-I don't have time for that,"

Sometimes he would say he wouldn't want to do something with you, but then when he finds out you went and did it by yourself he gets moody. "Huh? You already went to get ice-cream?!" will glare at nothing in particular until you say you can go with him next time. "Fine..."

Has periods of being worried that you're tired of him. You know when it happens because he gets quiet, and he will suddenly just grab your wrist, look at the ground, and mumble "... I know I'm not the best at showing and saying how I feel but..." you understand anyway, and are happy with just that.

Is actually extremely possessive. Usually will not hold your hand when walking around town but when a man somehow approaches you he's there in the next second and pulls you into a back hug while staring the guy down.

When you're alone, loves to have you lay your head on his lap and have quiet conversations with you.

Chongyun

is a shy boi and rather unsure of himself.

will gain confidence along the way.

“U-Uh, would you like to hold hands, maybe?” you tell him he doesn’t have to ask at all but he still asks the first few times anyway

Is very thoughtful about your schedule and workload, will constantly worry about you when you seem like you’re tired or overworked

When he knows you’re too tired he gets this sudden assertive side of him “That’s enough for today isn’t it?”

Will add a kiss to your temple, on the side of your forehead.

Sometimes will start to panic about something and turns to you for help. It’s actually something easy to solve so you help him and he would sigh and say “What would I do without you?” and leans in for a hug.

When you’re alone, has a surprisingly assertive side that pulls you in for a hug whenever he feels like it. Sometimes you’d fall together in bed and just cuddle while talking.

Venti

“A-ha! There you are!” will open his arms and wait for you to come to him. If you do, he does his trademark laugh and hug you tight. If you don’t, will stare at you with a questioning face but break into smile and say “Oh, too shy cause we’re out in public? Come on, it’s just a hug!” 

Has no issues telling everyone in town that you’re a couple. “Oh yea, have you met Y/N here? Cute right?...And all mine!” Cue the trademark laugh again.

loves to sit on the sofa, lean his back on the arm of it and have you in his arms just looking down at you do your own thing, mostly reading. If not, then just taking naps with you there.

When the two of you are alone, he sometimes gets this sad or thoughtful look on his face, which is super rare on his usually cheerful demeanor. You would ask what’s wrong and he would snap back to reality saying, “...I was just thinking about...how it would be without you,” jumps back quite quickly and grins, “but that’s not gunna happen, you’re stuck with me till the end!”

Out in public when someone comments you’re such a cute couple he would readily agree and give you a side hug, arms round your shoulder, cheek pressed up against yours. “We’re the cutest you’ll ever see!”

Dainsleif

the definition of protective is this man

is very subtle with his touches, affection and words, but despite that you can feel his unparalleled loyalty to you and is surprisingly gentle.

loves to greet you with a one handed hug and a kiss on the side of your lips.

Out in town, will start off just walking beside you but you wouldn’t even notice when he had slipped his hand in yours. His type of hold is the type of hold that makes you feel like he’s never letting go until you do.

While out adventuring with you, will have these moods where he’s just clingy. Will pull you by the wrist, trap you in between him and a tree and lean in for a kiss on the lips, gently.

Will pull back a moment later, cheeks flushed pink and apologize. “Sorry, I don’t know what’s gotten into me,” 

loves to have you lean on his shoulder when you rest, and will watch you doze off peacefully.

[astranne]

I've thought too long and hard about it. Tighnari and Albedo ik i said Diluc but THEIR DYNAMIC 🙁

Imagine they meet on a research team (modernly speaking) and they're paired up and they start talking and get to know eachother sm better and decide to stay in contact

Science nerd duo >

Tighnari asking Albedo for help with his plant creations cause Albedo can help. And Albedo asking Tighnari to help research Dendro reactions and he brings Collei to meet Klee 🙁🙁🙁

Albedo working his damn ass off to find at least a medication for Collei to feel better and for it to slow down a considerable rate.

ALBEDO TELLING KLEE TO BE CAREFUL WITH COLLEI SO SHE DOESNT GET HURT 🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁

Tighnari bundling Collei up in like 30 snow coats because he doesnt want her feeling stiff (shes stiff anyways cause he put 50 scarfs on her).

Tighnari would be so helpful in Dragonspine too since he has really good hearing he would be able to hear an avalanche and hear if Fatui are coming or if monsters are ahead.

Collei and Klee going to Starsnatch Cliff or playing in Diluc's winery (them drinking grape juice and having a sleepover🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁🙁)

Tighnari and Albedo staying up super late and passing out and Collei and Klee making them breakfast. Burnt, unseasoned, and probably on fire but at least the coffee's good.

I HUST LOVE THE POTENTIAL PLATONIC FANILY THEY HAVE GOING ON 🙁🙁🙁🙁 LIKE KLEE CALLING TIGHNARI BIG BROTHER AND ALBEDO GETTING JEALOUS AND COLLEI HAVING TO CHEER HIM UUUPPPP IM GONNA CRY

-🪶(Sobbing)

FISCHL BRAINROT TIME-

very sorry it took me so long, but i forgot to finish this and post it adfbsdsf ANYWAYS more brainrot under the cut as always

science nerd duo <3 generally, nerd duo <33

random thought, but imagine them meeting as kids, or like,,, young teenagers- or just, tighnari meeting a younger, naive albedo who is still with his master and tighnari teaches him more about the plants in teyvat, while albedo rambles about alchemy-

anywhore, yes, tighnari never asks for help, not a single person besides albedo. because tighnari knows that albedo WILL be able to help him, he knows that albedo will always find a solution. with others... he's not that sure. tighnari just trusts albedo and albedo trusts tighnari too <33

also, collei and klee would have such a beautiful friendship because i said so. klee wants to go fish blasting again and nothing will stop her but- collei thinks fish blasting will hurt not only the fish but also other animals and the nature so klee will never do it again

(jean would like to know what sorcery collei used)

klee is now the bestest friend of collei and will take super duper care of her, since she's a knight. and she will also protect collei from her super mean sickness. and to cheer her up, she will never go fish blasting again because that makes collei sad.

yes.

and while collei and klee run around in mondstadt (because amber is busy as outrider and klee wants to show her new friend around in her home (she will show collei the best places which also include the big kitchen in the giant house of master diluc (where they're getting spoiled by the maids and eating cookies)), albedo and tighnari work on a medication for collei, together with the help of barbara (since she's a healer) and sucrose. they're close to something that can slow the sickness down, but didn't find a true cure yet.

but albedo promises to find it for collei and collei believes him (she thinks that besides tighnari, albedo is probably the smartest person she knows, even tho she knows many people from the akademiya)

ALSO, diona meeting collei and them bonding together with amber as bow girls yes please! they also steal venti away and go with him on an adventure, trying to find chests and the animals and plants you can normally find in mondstadt. they also meet razor, bennett and fischl and it's just this random, big ass group walking around in mondstadt, scaring the fatui and monsters away. venti is the responsible adult (for once) and actually stays sober because these children are very chaotic.

and at the end of the day, he takes them back to dragonspine where abledo and tighnari are already waiting for them.

also, collei meeting lisa again and getting adopted by her and jean (she is now known as the daughter of the true love pair in mondstadt (we believe in a power lesbian couple)) and tighnari running from dragonspine because his big brother sense were tingling. he will and can fight lisa and will win. (and if he's close loosing he just calls his friends from sumeru who love collei with all their heart) collei is a sumeru child, not a mondstadt child and she won't get stolen away.

collei just runs in the chaos and spends her day with amber <3

ALSO- the little family with albedo, klee, tighnari and klee is just aisdfasjdbf CUTE. (this is also me rooting for dense boys because i believe that albedo has a crush on tighnari and doesn't know what to do with this and actually thinks he's sick) while tighnari tries not to die every time albedo smiles-

yes, klee and collei and their nerd dads who are crushing on each other but will probably never end up together because they're dense af

OKAY BUT NOW- now i want cyno randomly showing up because he's crushing on tighnari too and wants his fox boi back in sumeru so he can (secretly) court him and stake his claim (because WHY is tighnari so dense???) but then hears how tighnari and albedo practically live together in dragonspine with their kids and cyno is like: "NO, NO THIS IS A NIGHTMARE-" and then runs to mondstadt only to find out that they are in fact living together but not because of the reason he thought. (he actually feels kind of bad but then he sees how albedo and tighnari act around each other and he agressivly tries to court tighnari back to sumeru, while trying to find a cure for collei on his own (he fails lmao) WHILE also trying to shake off this random mondstadt menaces who are also known as children. (razor doesn't like this man who looks similar to him (he smells weird (he just smells like the desert and razor never smelt that smell)), bennett doesn't like him too because razor doesn't like him, fischl distrusts him because her friends do and diona just dislikes him because she's a cat and is picky about her friends) and then there is also klee. klee who always tries to blow him up because she has to blast something that doesn't hurt 'collei's animals and flowers' and appartently he's a good target.

PHEW okay, that kinda escalated lmao

but yes, now i have tighnari x albedo brainrot, with cyno crushing on tighnari and doing everything to get him back to sumeru while the children of mondstadt + collei just create chaos <33

thanks again for sending this <33

[irethepotato]

To ashes

Warnings: Angst/no comfort, major character death (gn!reader, Kaeya), murder, grief turns into madness, spoilers about the genshin webtoon and Kaeya's backstory, minor gore

Characters: Diluc, Kaeya, gn!reader

Diluc x reader

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I am so sorry about what I have unleashed.

This is inspired by a thread on @clouds-rambles

Thank you soo much for letting me write this

When he came back from his nightly duties, what greeted his sight was not his lover patiently waiting for him with a book in their hands, but a ransacked mansion, them on the floor with a deep gash on their stomach.

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"I'm sorry, love. I don't think I'm going to make it." They whispered out weakly, coughing out blood. Eyes full of love and sadness peering into tearful crimson eyes full of grief and regrets. "I love-"

Before they could even finish their sentence they took their last breath.

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"NO!" Diluc shouted out, his voice carrying desperation. "No-no-no-no-no."

"I can't lose you, please, please come back! Please, please, please Barbatos give them back to me!"

He cried out as he cradled the body of his beloved in his arms. Pleads, begs and bargains flowed out from his mouth like a waterfall as tears roll down his face like waves.

How can he let this happen?

If he was faster

If he was HERE instead of going off to do his nightly duties

He could've protected them

They could've been still here, waiting for him to come home so that they could've welcome him with open arms

To ask him about his day as they tend to his injuries that he may have

To talk to him about their day.

Breathing

But he wasn't here.

He wasn't here for when they needed him the most.

----

Their body are getting cold. He remembered how much they hate the cold, always cuddling up to him to absorb the warmth he gave off.

They didn't like the cold.

He has to warm them up.

----

Venti woke up abruptly to the sound of the wind, pleading for his help.

He hears them, he listens them

And his blood run cold

Immediately he sets off to find the cavalry captain

Before it's too late

----

It was too late

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At first, when the bard who he always saw chugging wine like it was water at the tavern rushing up to him, telling him that Diluc needed him, he thought the bard was just drunk like always.

Since when does the Great Master Diluc ever needed him?

But then he saw the clarity and panicked in the bard's teal green eyes. The desperation in his voice.

A heavy pit formed in his stomach. His instincts screaming at him to take action.

He immediately knew this was serious.

"Where is he?"

When the bard informed him he was at his manor, he left the bard in a hurry, not letting him finish what he was saying.

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The door to the manor was left ajar.

Something was wrong.

His footsteps echoed throughout the manor.

Something was wrong.

There was broken glass, the chairs were turned over, the lights were off, the only source of light was the dawn morning. The manor was a mess.

Something was wrong.

Diluc is on the floor, kneeling with his claymore on his side, back facing the front door.

Something was wrong.

"Diluc?"

....no answer

He switch on the light

Something was wrong.

He tried not to breathe through his nose as he made his way to the light switch. The air was rancid of burnt flesh.

Something was wrong.

Something was wrong.

Diluc was surrounded by ashes and blood.

What happened here?

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He didn't nor did he care how long he was in this position. The world seems gray and quiet.

Blankly staring at his ash and blood covered hands where he once cradled his beloved.

It took him a while to notice something was shaking his shoulder.

He turned.

Kaeya was there.

Memories of Crepus's death came rushing to him like a tsunami.

KAEYA WAS THERE

Why?

Why is it always him?

Why is he always nearby whenever someone he cares about, someone he loves, dies?

Why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why, why-

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He's the grim reaper

That's why. That's the only explanation.

He was a creature from the abyss after all.

Who will he take next?

He has to stop him. Before he takes the others.

Taking away the warmth he once had and replace it with cold.

Cold, his beloved always hated the cold.

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It was a tragedy.

The atmosphere at the funeral was solemn as they descend the body in the ground.

The sky was heavy with dark clouds threatening to rain down. It was as if the Archons are saddened by this day.

They say that it was one of the maids that one who found him.

They say that Diluc was the one who did it. Claymore dripping blood as he stood over Kaeya's body. Muttering "I have to protect them." over and over again like a prayer as the whole room permeats a smell of charred human flesh.

Jean stood near the grave, tears rolling down her face as she grieved for her friend. Lisa was next to her face down to hide her grief as she held her hand for support, Amber next to her as she sobbed onto her shoulder.

Her mind kept replaying the interrogation conversation she had yesterday.

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"Master Diluc, last question, where's y/n?"

"Warm, they always hated the cold." He whispered out weakly. Blank crimson eyes never leaving the ring he held in his palm. "They were cold, so I warmed them up."

[archived-kin]

to save or sacrifice

this isn’t formatted like my usual writing posts since i don’t think it’s really long enough to qualify as one - i just wanted to post something real quick in the middle of this break i’ve taking

anyway remember all those theories that there was gonna be a point in windblume or the next archon quest where we have to decide beside sacrificing mondstadt to save venti or sacrificing venti to save mondstadt??? at the time of writing that hasn't happened but i thought i’d have a go at writing a little snippet of what might happen

i also made up this entire thing so if the ‘choose between venti and mondstadt’ thing does end up happening, this has nothing to do with it

pairing(s): venti/gn! reader

warning(s): description of blood/severe injury, mentioned death/depiction of corpses, general sad hours

Things were never meant to turn out this way.

It had just been a trip out of the city to take in the views from the peaks of Cape Oath and Starsnatch Cliff. It was meant to be opportunity to relax, to take a break from the constant hustle and bustle of commissions and bounties and everything else in between. Hand in hand with your lover, the two of you had enjoyed a long walk in the wilderness, wandering off the path and getting lost here and there, but never minding because you had each other’s company…

And now you stand in the middle of a ruined city, and the sky is falling.

There are bodies in the streets - bodies of people you do and don’t recognise, some maimed beyond recognition and some lying in such perfect repose that they might simply be sleeping among the rubble. Your city has been razed to the ground, houses burnt to ashes, until you can’t even recognise your own home.

Your chest is tight, legs aching as you run through the streets, searching for someone, anyone still alive, hoping against all hopes that your friends are safe somewhere. In the distance, you can see the hands of the Archon statue in the city plaza amongst the smoke and dust, raised high as if trying to catch the plummeting heavens.

Venti’s hand is in yours, squeezing tight as he sprints alongside you, his breaths coming in short, sharp bursts that disappear into the howling wind as soon as they come. He flinches at every body he passes, recoils at each ruined building, until he’s gasping for air through heaving sobs, but he refuses to stop moving, clinging onto the same hope as you do.

The two of you are adrift in an ocean in the midst of a storm, and this is the only way you can keep afloat.

You come to a stop in the plaza, staring up at the Archon statue’s blank face, eyes closed in repose even as its city burns around it. The smooth stone is untouched by ash or blood - and a painfully familiar figure stands in front of it.

“Good afternoon,” He says cheerfully, as if you’re simply a friend that he’s meeting for a stroll. “How nice of you to join me.”

“Kaeya,” You whisper, and the very wind around you seems to quieten at the name. He raises an eyebrow, smiling blankly. “Why…?”

“I am the last hope,” He answers flatly. “No stone can be left unturned.”

He reaches up to his eyepatch and pulls it away from his face, tossing it aside carelessly. You feel Venti tense beside you, squeezing your hand so tightly that it hurts. Slowly, surely, Kaeya opens his left eye.

Blue. Deep, shimmering blue flecked with gold - something beyond a Vision, beyond a Gnosis, beyond anything you could imagine. This is the power of the Abyss, the power of the deep, endless nothingness, the darkness that swallows the light at the end of the tunnel.

Kaeya looks at you, at the tears coursing down your face, at the way your body trembles, and gives a single, short laugh. “You know what you’ll have to do, don’t you?”

You stare at him. He turns and, without another word, walks away.

A moment later, Venti’s knees buckle beneath him, and you turn to catch him as he sinks to the floor. His arms wrap around your torso in a desperate embrace, his body shaking with barely held-back sobs against yours.

“My city,” He gasps, voice breaking. “My people.”

You gently pull him closer and set your chin on his head, not saying anything in reply. The smell of smoke on the wind is getting stronger.

Venti raises his head and meets your gaze with wide, haunted eyes. The expression on his face is one you’ll never forget for the rest of your days.

“You know what you’ll have to do, don’t you?” Kaeya’s words echo in your mind. You’ve known for a long time now. You know what’s happening, no matter how desperately you try to deny it, and it is your fault for not warning everyone of what was to come, your fault that the city has fallen, your fault that so many lives have been lost—

“[Name],” Venti whispers, face crumpled, “I don’t want to die.”

—and perhaps it will be your fault that the city will never be rebuilt.

The storm wails around you. Mondstadt is falling.

What choice will you make?

[honeybeanboo]

genshin boys with eating disorders : pt. 1

DISCLAIMER: okay first off! i have an eating disorder and i wondered what my favorite characters would be like in my situation! i am not pro-ed whether it be BED, ednos or anorexia or others. i'm using this for comfort and please do not use this post to further your own disorder!

CHARACTERS:

albedo ✔

bennet ✔

chongyun ✔

diluc ✔

kazuha

kaeya

razor

childe

venti

xiao

xingqiu

zhongli

MAJOR TW //

eating disorders, mental health challenges, bodyshaming, dysphoria, self harm, fatphobia

┅ albedo ┅

❂ restrictive eating disorder

❂ started + time had: before the traveller arrived, he's had it for a year or so

❂ who knows: sucrose suspects although doesn't hasn't told anyone yet

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the nature of albedo's ed is forgetfulness and recording

he works in his camp all day, at his desk, doing experiments which in itself takes up a ton of his time! what started the behaviors was simply overworking himself and to the point where he was almost getting sick [ :( albedo ] the alchemist would forget to eat, multiple meals a day he would skip, chemicals in the vicinity making it unpleasant to eat, so he would opt for nothing at all

albedo doesn't recognize what he's doing as an eating disorder, he pushes the thoughts away when they remind him of what he's doing and that it's wrong,,, over time, he would end up having a small breakfast and wouldn't eat until dinner, subconsciously slipping into a routine and writing down each meal he would have, taking care to never fill more than half his note-page

chemicals in his lab constantly are bubbling and changing, so even when he decides to eat, they interrupt him and he constantly leaves unfinished food on his desk for sucrose to find later and wonder why he always leaves it there

- has always been secluded but avoids mondstat more and more, sending sucrose into town for errands and stays in dragonspine to do experiments -- this leads to never getting new clothes and in turn, him working to stay in the clothes he has

- denies everything if mentioned, seems confused at the mention

- very protective of his notebook

THIS MAKES ME SAD ALBEDO SOBSD

┅ bennett ┅

❂ restrictive eating disorder

❂ started + time had: around the time he became friends with razor and met fischl - around 6 months

❂ who knows: fischl definitely knows but chooses not to say anything due to how bad she is with talking about feelings :(

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the nature of bennett's ed is dysphoria and responsibility

as we all know, bennett has always had horribly bad luck and although he doesn't know it, a lot of people admire him for his perseverance, albeit avoiding his company

he almost always finds a way to overcome the overwhelming hopelessness and guilt of always relying on other people for help and bringing them down with him, but as he enters his 15th year, it gets too much :(

when he met razor, and befriended him, the boy was something of a miracle, he stuck around, he helped bennett and taught him survival tactics :D he was bennett's best friend but bennett felt so incredibly guilty about relying on him for protection, friendship, and good food, he began to turn it away and began to disappear without warning to neither fischl or razor

he would go out adventuring, trying to bring back things to cook for lisa, for razor, for fischl, for kaeya, for diona, he felt like a burden and gave back as much as he could to make up for the consequences his company brought

≡ trans bennet headcanon: he's always been told he's small and thin by his dads, even before transition, so after he began to do more physical activity and bulked up a bit, it weighed on his mind

- dysphoria plays a lot into bennett's ed, not wanting to fill out the curves he always hated

- after a particularly bad batch of eggs he had cooked up, he threw up in the cat's tail's bathroom and that in turn started a small purge cycle before someone in town noticed and took his to the doctor which scared him enough to make him stop

bennett i will just sob and cry on the floor

┅ chongyun ┅

❂ restrictive / purging eating disorder [overeating in beginning]

❂ started + time had: started during his intense studying period for his exorcisms (can't remember the specific method he mentions) - around 2 years

❂ who knows: no one, although an older woman that works at Wanmin Restaurant is worried about him

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the nature of chongyun's ed is control and work

chongyun has always been unstable, whether it be physically or emotionally, due to his build-up of ying energy, so it's no surprise when he bubbles over during the crunch of studying. his teacher pushed him harder and harder each lesson and the things he had to do to keep his stirrings in check weren't the healthiest, one of which was eating specific foods in excess

he bubbled over one day and had a full on mental breakdown, but with his family not near the place he took lessons, he turned to the thing he thought was making his ying energy multiply, not the workload but instead the food

the exorcist's disorder waned off when he met xingqiu, it being the happiest time in his life, a friend to talk to about practically everything, but then when his exorcisms began to only cause distress to the people he thought they would help, his energy became too much and he began purging, which helped enough for him to continue [ :( i'm so sad ] the popsicles help to calm his stomach after a purge and he came up with a low cal recipe to eat tons of

- the calories didn't matter much to him, but xingqiu was very into numbers as well as books, so it began to weigh on him

- he passed off any bad mood as just tiredness from his work

- xingqiu, my man i love him but he's completely oblivious although slightly worried about "burnout" for his friend

┅ diluc ┅

❂ restrictive eating disorder

❂ started + time had: around when him and kaeya were fighting, like really fighting and he hurt him badly - 3 years

❂ who knows: a lot of people suspect, but either dismiss it, or are too scared to confront him due to his intimidating nature T-T

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the nature of diluc's ed is discipline and control

diluc tends to be very critical of himself and very hard on himself, which you may not know just from talking to him, or even from being a friend of his, as he tends to keep a lot of stuff to himself - if he makes a mistake, he takes all measures to make sure it doesn't happen again

when he and kaeya were fighting and things got violent, he burnt him quite badly right on his eye which is the reason why the captain wears his eyepatch - this scarred the brothers' relationship badly and diluc quite took literally took those scars unto himself,,, he would let himself be burned easily by his elemental powers, constantly feeling the immense guilt of their tension :[ he healed easily, but would do it again and again

although kaeya forgives him, diluc continues to remind himself every so often that he is the reason for problems, taking the responsibility to fix them, even though they may not even be his! he acts alone and aloofly even when the other person doesn't blame him in the slightest [ TT ]

diluc doesn't drink, he doesn't want to lose control, he never wants to loose control, which is why people almost never see him eat

he eats in small portions and toughs it out, disciplining himself, trying to prove himself worthy to no one but himself

- people have offhandedly mentioned that the bartender never seems to eat or drink - "hardly seems human sometimes"

- when he was caught by the traveler being the darknight hero, this worsened this "discipline" for himself, the man not thinking himself worthy if he was defeated so easily

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and that's part 1! i'll make a part two soon because this is really fun and i really enjoy making these- i will include a more wide range of eds in the second part which will be kazuha, kaeya, razor, and childe

bennett's really made me sad dang

anyway bye!

[aesopsbaby]

Sup, hope u doin well. Could I get 500 special? The kins are : Kris (deltarune), max (camp camp), Larry (Sally face), karkat (homestuck), shinso (mha), Edgar (bungo stray dogs), suna (haikyu), Norton (idv), venti (genshin impact) and husk (hazbin hotel). I am intp, tran boi who is unfortunately also bisexual. Thx and have great day

500 followers Special:Calling people out for their kins >:))

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You've always felt that you're not good enough. That you'll always be the "second choice".

You blame yourself,for everything. Even if it isn't your fault entirely,you still shoulder all the responsibilities.

You shouldn't have to feel the need to blame yourself for any minor mistakes.

You always lose to that one person and it makes you so helpless,you constantly berate yourself over it and you are just filled with self-hatred.

No one ever told you that it's okay. No one ever told you they care for you. Or you've just never heard it much.

Why do you feel the need to take the blame? Could it be your form of coping? In order for others to not feel hurt,you take the blame. You get hurt for them. And that's alright for you because as long as others are happy,then you're fine.

But in reality,you aren't. You've bottled up all your emotions and every now and then,all those emotions just comes pouring out and you start to fall apart. But even then,no one ever showed you any care nor affection. So you grew up thinking you never deserved it.

Therefore,because of that,everytime you are showed affection,you get shocked and tense because you just don't know how to react to it.

Rest. Take a break,you deserve it <3

What's your sleep schedule like-?

You gives amazing advice to others but you are never able to use those advice for yourself.

You have such a negative image of yourself,you see yourself so differently from others and you overall just hate yourself. But really,you just hate the image you created,not you.

Who hurt you-

Anger issues ✅

You just want to get better at handling your emotions,you despise how you act.

Trust me,you're doing well and I'm proud of you ♡

You've never had someone tell you they believe in you nor that they are proud of you. If someone tells you something like that,you'll never be able to believe it because they are just "lying".

Trust issues as well 📈📈📈 You push people away because you just can't wrap your mind around the fact that someone actually is willing to care for you and stay with you. You can't believe that someone would actually love you for you.

Gifted kid burnt out,huh? :(( You're enough,stop thinking otherwise.

Constantly in a state of "I'm about to lose my shit right now."

You grew up way too fast and always feel the need to be mature. You never let yourself rest.

Ah yes. Mother Mother,free therapy.

You constantly put on a chill or happy facade,in order to push everyone and their worries away so no one has to be "bothered by you". You don't feel sad anymore,but rather tired and dull. You don't feel anything.

You don't even know who you really are anymore. You've put up with those front for so long that everything doesn't feel real.

You just wish everything could go back to the way you loved. You hold onto the little bit of the past you missed so much that it hurts.

You also seem like someone who would love The Front Bottoms music,,,

I would have recommend Mccafferty's music but,,,we all know what happened,,,<\3

You don't feel special,and you don't think you'll ever do.

I'm here if you need me and I hope you know that so many people believe in you ♡ You can achieve your goals and even if you can't,we're all still so very proud of you.

[lombax-lombardi]

Ghosts~

Summary: Old ghosts come back for a last goodbye.

Genre: Feels. With Fluff.

Ruby already ran out of the lab, after saying goodbye to the others as she needed to see her friend, dragging poor Ventus behind her.

Oh what he does for her.

“R-Ruby! Y-You should be resting” he huffed, only to catch her eyes when she turned around. Oh what a lovely green they were.

“Come on Venty! I need to see Direheart and tell her everything is okay! So she doesn’t have to worry about me anymore. AND I NEED TO SEE GRANDMA!!!” She said wearing a large grin on her face, which ultimately cracked his defenses.

He couldn’t say no to that face,

“Okay okay...but after that you are resting!”

“Yeah yeah yeah come on!”

In that moment, Direheart was seeing the last of her alternates take their loved ones and leave, Seven slinging her own Ruby over her shoulder. “See you some time okay Dire?”

“Yes yes of course” The former spirit said with a slight bow of her head, the old mage Sophia standing across from them with Aqua and Terra.

“Make sure nothing weird like this happens again okay?” The robot doctor nudged the Keyblade Wielder in the arm, the white haired female rolled her eyes, the slight tinge’s of earthy brown slowly fading again.

“I cannot promise. But I will try.” She said with a smile, however the doctor was not finished. “Now if I find out you aren’t resting, I will come back. Seriously, please rest. You need it.”

Direheart briefly rolled her eyes at the doctor. “Yes yes Seven I will rest. Just get home already, I am sure a certain someone misses you”

“Yeah yeah. See ya!” The Doctor gave a wave to the others and jumped through the last open portal, Direheart raised her hands to close it, resting a hand against her head.

She was very weakened.

Terra immediately rushed to her side, holding her up with his arms, she gave him a tired somewhat annoyed look. She hated being treated like fragile glass.

“I think you should take her advice now....” He said, pulling her closer to him , she put a hand against his chest as to stable herself.

“Yeah yeah...,” She said with a sigh, taking a moment to think on everything that has happened only to hear footsteps in the distance.

“...What...What is that?” She asked, Terra lifted his head. “Well one of those footfalls is Ven and the other....”

“Ruby!” Sophia gasped, Aqua raised her brow, but felt a small smile crease her lips. So Rii must have done it.

“Is it really her...I would double check but...my magic...” Direheart grumbled, Sophia took a few steps forward. “I know it. I know it is her.”

“Grandma! GRANDMA! DIREHEART!”

“TERRA! AQUA!”

Tears prickled the old mages eyes, Ruby was finally free of the horrible fate thrust upon her.

It was finally over.

“Grandma! I’m okay!” The smaller mage ran over, leaving Ven standing next to Aqua as she rushed over to hug her Grandmother.

Sophia welcomed her Grandchild’s embrace, holding her tightly. “Oh my darling little angel”

“Grandma...I can feel you trying to change shape~” The smaller mage chuckled, the older mage’s tears fell faster. “I am sorry sweetheart I am just so...so happy to see you again~ You’re safe~ Oh my precious baby~”

“Grandmaaaaaa~” Ruby cried out, obviously not used to such smothering. But who could blame Sophia? 

No one would.

Aqua smiled. “I am really glad Lady Sophia is happy. She finally has something, something to hold on to” she commented, Ventus threw his hands against the back of his head as he watched. 

A smile appeared on his face.

Things were good.

After a few moments, Sophia released her grandchild, whose head turned to see Direheart, weakly standing. Her smile turned into a worried frown.

“Direheart! A-Are you o-okay?”

The former spirit gave a small nod. “Yeah I-I’m okay....I’m glad you are...free little one....Is Rii...?”

Ruby’s smiles returns. “Rii’s fine~ She’s resting now, I-I had to come see you but Venty wouldn’t let me leave!” She puffed her cheeks out, Aqua turned her head to stare at Ventus, the blondes face turned bright pink.

“Venty huh?” Aqua chuckled, ruffling his head, Ventus groaned. “Aquaaaa!”

Direheart gives a smile. “I’m glad everyone is alright....I-I need to rest....”

“Are you sure you’re okay?” The smaller mage asked, Direheart gives another nod. 

“Don’t worry Ruby. Terra will take good care of me” That comment made the taller man’s face tun pink, earning a very tired chuckle from the former spirit.

“Rii says you owe her too” Ruby comments, Direheart groans. “Yes yes. Thank you for telling me....Once again....I’m glad you’re safe...”

Ruby once again gives a wide smile.

Ah. That smile. Direheart did miss that smile.

The smaller mage watched Terra easily pick up Direheart in his arms, obviously with the intent to take her to rest, Sophia gives a small smile.

“I am sure Eraqus would be proud of him.” She whispered to herself, wiping the long fallen tears from her face. The feeling of loneliness settled in the old mages heart.

True she had her grandchild back, who was making friends as a fast rate and possibly may or may not already have a boyfriend, but Sophia could not help but think of what has happened.

What has been done to her family.

Her children. Long gone. Gone to the world beyond.

Her love. Also gone.

She may not be alone, but she does feel it.

The old mage takes her leave to hide the ever growing sadness on her face.

Later on into the night, as the town was sleeping soundly, the old mage was wondering on her own, stopping for a moment.

“......My children....it is over. I hope you find rest...especially you my darling Sapphire...I should have transformed you into a weapon. But alas you wouldn’t hear the end of it, I had no choice. And now you’ve...burnt.....” She said, placing down a small urn in front of the flower gardens.

“You see these flowers my dear? They remind me of you and your sisters. How I miss them, I want you to know I’m not sad. I am truly happy your daughter is free now. Free from the chains my dear”

The tears started to flow again. 

“....I miss you my children. I miss you so much. I miss you...I miss....I miss my love...Oh. I wish I had the chance to tell him how I felt....” Falling to her knees she let her sobs wrack her body, fingers clasping her robes.

She didn’t hear the footsteps behind her, until she felt something touch her shoulder. Her hood fell from her head, revealing her long violet hair.

Turning her head, dark green eyes shaking, catching some very familiar looking clothes.

“....Sapphire?”

The glowing figure who stood before the old mage gave a smile. “Hello Mother” she spoke, the old mage rose from her feet to hug her daughter.

She still felt solid, her heart still lingered. For a while anyway.

“I-I thought you...You....”

“I stubbornly refused to leave Mother.” Sapphire chuckled loudly, earning a small one from Sophia herself.

“...You saw everything?”

The short haired female nodded. “Yes Mother. I did. I’m proud. I’m very proud” Sophia wiped her tears away.

“....Tell that Ventus to look after my baby girl alright?” The violet eyed female smiled once more. “If not. I’ll come back”

“Daughter....” Sophia couldn’t stop the giggles building up, her daughter giggled as well. 

There was silence.

“I only have a little bit of time left Mother...but before I go...The others miss you. We will be waiting for you” Sapphire pressed a hand against her older Mother’s face, stroking the falling tears from her cheek.

“I know my darling...I know.....” The old mage cradled her daughters hand with her own.

“....There’s someone else who wants to see you. I would have brought my sisters but I can only bring...one person....” The glowing figure took a few steps back, motioning for another figure to come forward.

Sophia’s heart froze.

Her eyes stared onward.

“Eraqus...?” she breathed out as the figure standing next to her daughter, gave a small warm, fond smile.

One she was very familiar with.

Once more the tears fell as she rushed over to embrace him, ever mindful she only had a limited time.

“......Sophia....You haven’t changed”

“Eraqus...I’ve missed you so much.”

“...I’ve missed you too....”

Old Ghosts have habits of coming back, but Sophia, needed to see these ghosts. 

One last time.

[sailorklutzwrites]

What do you do the day before you die? Especially when you've known the day your whole life. I knew I would die young. I didn't know how but my date, just like everyone else's, was tattooed on the inside of my right arm, July 21 2018. It was the date of my 22nd birthday. How do you even try to do anything with your life when you know it will be cut short. There was no point to try in school, there was no reason to go to college. Having friends seemed...cruel. So, I did what I always do. I lived the day like I didn't know what was coming. I woke up, went through my morning routine, ate a simple breakfast, walked the family dog. It was kind of sad that both my parents were going to outlive me by almost 50 years. It was hard for them to except when I was a kid but as I got older it seemed to sink in, they excepted it and made the best of the time they had with me. They were good parents and I was their only child. They didn't deserve this heartache. After I walked our dog, a 2 year old female red nosed pit bull named Freckles, I went into my room to hide from the world. Okay, well, this never used to be a normal day for me but as my date neared I secluded myself more and more. What was the point? I would never be able to do anything worth while with my life. I didn't have enough time. So the day before I would die I laid in bed listening to music until I was called for dinner. My parents wanted to spend the night with me. They let me have the day to myself out of respect but they could let their last chance to spend time with me slip away. From there, it was a little different from the norm. We went to my favorite restaurant even though I just wanted to stay home. We went to the arcade where I was allowed to spend as much as I wanted playing games. It seemed so trivial but I always enjoyed the games at the arcade and I thought maybe I could get some tickets to give my parents something to remember our last day. I did get a lot of tickets so I got my dad a model car set and my mom a stuffed yellow monkey. After we went home and they hugged me for a long time and told me how much they loved me. They went to bed and I could hear my mom's sobs from her room. They didn't except my fate as much as they tried to make me think they did. I laid down but I couldn't sleep. What if I didn't wake up. I didn't want my parents to find my dead body. I couldn't do that to them. So, at a quarter to midnight, I left. I put my headphones in and left them a note explaining I couldn't let them find me if I died at home. I walked to a top of a large hill. At the top there was an area looking over the entire city. It was beautiful, especially at night. I sat on a bench and decided if I die tonight I might as well have a nice view. I listened to music until I slowly drifted to sleep wondering if I'd wake up in the morning. I woke up to the blaring light of the sun rising. I felt a sharp sting in my neck. Sleeping on a bench wasn't the smartest idea. I tried to crack my neck but it was too stiff so I settled for massaging my neck until the sting dulled. At least I didn't die in my sleep. I might as well go get Starbucks. I stood up and and walked towards the oddly low fence blocking people from falling off the cliff that provided this beautiful. As I got close my clumsy ass tripped over my flip flop almost sending myself off the cliff to my inevitable death first thing in the morning. I barely caught myself on the fence not quite ready for what was to come. I caught my breath and stopped a mini panic attack from surfacing before I took in the view one last time. I started my walk to the nearest Starbucks to start the day off with one of the few things I could still enjoy. I ordered a venti white chocolate latte and sat in the cafe listening to the casual conversations of those around me. All with long lives ahead of them. To die at only 22 wasn't a common occurrence although it definitely wasn't unheard of either but I could tell they didn't have the demeanor of someone who would die soon. You could alway tell when you met someone who'd die soon. There was either a sense of expectance and calm to them or fear and anger. All these people were light hearted and happy. At least on the outside. I finished my latte and walked out the door. I was lost in thought figuring out what I was going to do next. I hadn't left the house much in the last year but I was now spending my last hours out and about. Suddenly, I was off my feet the wind knocked out of me. I gasped, my last years of life running through my mind and regret flooding my entire being. I should have lived instead of drowning myself it pity before it was too late. I braced myself wondering for the first time if it would hurt to die. But there was never any pain. I slowly opened my eyes not realizing I had even closed them. I was just out side Starbucks sitting in the sidewalk. But it felt softer than sidewalk. "You should be more careful!" my cushion gently moved me off of him and stood reaching his strong hand towards me offering assistance. "You could have been badly injured." The man who stood before me, a girl branded to die on this very day, was the most gorgeous man I'd ever seen. His sandy skin made his perfectly groom long dark beard seem almost exotic and his soft forest green eyes gleamed behind slick black glasses conveyed the kindness inside of him. His hair was a playful mess of dark brown curls that almost seemed like intentional chaos. He waved his left hand in front of my gaping face. "Are you okay?" Snapping out of the trance he put me in I took his hand, nodding. "I'm okay. Thank you but what happened?" "Uh, you almost walked in front of a bus. You would've been seriously injured. Are you sure your okay?" "Yea, it's just that." I looked away feeling hot tears threaten to escape down my rosy cheeks. I couldn't believe this was happened now, after this beautiful man helped me. Why? Why was I on the verge of tears now of all times? Why was I regretting now? "Today's my day so I guess I'm a little out of it," I reached my arm towards him showing him the curse I wished I could hide. I forced back the tears. "Come with me!" He grabbed my hand ignoring my red eyes and confession completely. Since it was the last day I'd live anyway, I followed. We ended up at an ice cream parlor a couple blocks away. "My treat!" "Oh no, you d-" "Really it's no biggie! Get whatever you want!" I could tell there was no changing his mind so I ordered a scoop of strawberry cheesecake on a cone and he ordered a double scoop of butter pecan. After I thanked him he smiled at me, "sometimes things don't always turn out the way we think they will". "What do you mean?" I wrinkled my eyebrows trying hard to understand. "You'll find out" he walked away waving as he ate his double scoop. It was a strange encounter but I was grateful for his help and kindness. I enjoyed the last ice cream I'd ever have. By this time it was late afternoon and I had walked around all day just listening to those around me living their lives. I was tired so I decided to go a field near my old house. It was just a random lot no one used that had been for sell since I was 4. I laid in the grass and closed my eyes thinking maybe it'd be an undiscovered species of poisonous bug that'd kill me. I hoped not. I hated bugs. I was lost in thought for hours before I my mind became so worn out I dozed off. I suddenly jerked awake unsure what had awoken me. The world was quiet and the moon was high in the sky. I subconsciously checked the clock on my phone, 1:24am. Damn, it was late. I didn't think I'd sleep that long. I stood up and brushed the grass off my clothes before I realized. 1:24am July 22nd 2018, it was the day after my death stamp indicated. They were proven 100% accurate but here I was, alive. I looked to the top of the sloped field to see Mr. Gorgeous who had bought me ice cream. He smiled knowingly as I tried to comprehend what the hell was going on! Why the fuck was I still alive and better yet, did he follow me? "I know this is a lot to comprehend but we should really get going." Mr. Gorgeous was bent down with his beautiful face just inches from mine. Oh man those eyes were stunning. I hadn't noticed before but there were tiny, almost unnoticeable, speckles of burnt orange around the pupils. They reminded me of a dense forest in the beginning of fall when only bits of leaves had begun to change. "Man, Iris, you're really spacey!" His voice snapped me out of the trace his eyes had trapped me in. Why was he so entrancing? "Wait a second, I don't think I told you my name." He smirked at my shock as he straightened his back. "I know you have a lot of questions but we really need to go" he reached out his right hand and that's when I realized. The day before he used his left hand to help me up but I didn't think much of it until now. There, on the inside of his right arm, read June 12 2016. I wasn't the only one to live past there date or even the first. I silently took his hand still trying to understand what this meant. Were the tattoos wrong or did someone mess with destiny? He must have know I needed time to think because he just guided me to his car opening the door for me before getting in himself. We must have been driving for a while because when his words brought me out of my racing thoughts the sun was blaring in my crystal blue eyes. "We're here." He turned off the vehicle and looked at me seeming worried. "I know you're wondering why your alive. It's really hard to explain but basically you're immortal. Actually we both are. In rare cases there are people born with a death stamp depicting an all too early death, some of us don't die on those days but our old lives do come to an end. You're going to notice things changing. You won't have to sleep as much, your senses will improve, you'll stop aging, you'll heal faster, and some of us develop extraordinary strength or speed. More and more of us are being born every day. Basically what I was told was the human race is mutating or further evolving." He looked at me trying to gauge how I was taking this. I wasn't ready to die, this was great but I'd never see my parents again. It was clear this was something we had to keep secret. "You know, you never told me your name" I know it's random but he hadn't and he was as shocked by the question as I was that it had come out of my mouth. "You're right! I'm sorry, It's Ren." He laughed, " I wasn't expecting that." He let out a deep sigh and looked at the ground. "This is the first time I've done this. We get sent to keep an eye on people who have count down that shows them dying at a young age like you. That way if they don't die, we can help them and answer their questions." "That's...really great. I don't know what I would've done if I'd been on my own" I couldn't imagine being more confused than I was at the moment but I at least had answers. "Okay, well this is where we stay for now. We have a bunch of safe houses. Unfortunately, some people know about the mutations and want to run experiments to try to replicate it in those who weren't born with the gene. Apparently some of the first people to evolve agreed to cooperate with scientist but they went too far and innocent people died, both those with the mutated gene and those without. That didn't stop them so there's a bit of a society of us that protect the evolved people. This is the next step for humanity to live on so we don't want the mutated gene to die out just because those without the gene are greedy." Ren led me to a beautiful farm house. We seemed to be out in the middle of no where. "So what next then?" I starting to feel uneasy at the thought of such a huge change. I know, I had taken things really well so far. I mean, I thought I was going to die but now I learn I'm immortal so that's good news. Despite that I'd never see my parents, I'd be living with strangers, and apparently scientists want to dissect me. "No one is here right now and no one will bother you till tomorrow. I'll give you some space and you're welcome to anything in the kitchen. Tomorrow you'll mean the watcher of our base. Her name is Karen and she pretty much finds information on anyone who could be evolved and sends someone to keep an eye on them. She'll let you know more and you can choose if you want to stay here and help us find and protect more of the evolved or do something else." By the time we finished speaking we had entered the farm house and went the stairs. "Well, here's your room. Get some rest and let me know if you need anything. The kitchen is downstairs on right and you have your own bathroom attached to your room. Karen will stop by when she gets back tomorrow." "Thank you" he returned down stairs and I entered my room. I didn't really take in my surroundings as I flopped on my new queen sized bed. I was exhausted, confused, a little sad, and most of all I was relieved. As I slowly drifted into a deep sleep full of vivid dreams I thought about how lucky I really was. I now had a chance to really live my life. Not many get a second chance like this.

[bahbzxxx]

HC: Despite his carefree appearance, Venti has one of the most extensive skin care routines of anyone in Teyvat!

How do you think he gets his cheeks to be so perfect and soft and squishy, huh?

(Aka He lays around in Vanessa’s tree for hours a day with a face mask on and apple slices over his eyes while little wind spirits fan him. Cider in hand of course, because alcohol really clears those pores!)

He’s working hard ok??? Do you not feel the winds at work??