#vantessa

[kaelsleftverdantsphere]

A pocket full of nightshade

This thingy is strongly inspired by my own experiences and numerous talks with my own father while still keeping Genn bareable (so, not as bad as my dad lol)

Sort of a vent fic, but hopefully not that bad, although really, read at your own risk

Dealing with neglect, loss of a loved one and all the trauma and familial tension that comes with those topics

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Tess found herself in a room that felt, somehow, way colder than she ever remembered it. The Stormwind Keep was not her favourite place for a wide multitude of reasons but the bonechilling cold of the stone all around, in a way so similar to her birthplace, was certainly one of them. It reminded her of all that could have been. Of all that she could have had.

She was lost in thought. Her mind in a whole different place, with Liam, within the walls that promised them safety... That inherently failed.

What brought her out of her own head was footsteps. Heavy footsteps on the cold, cold floor. She immediately knew who they belonged tho. Her whole body tensed as she turned her head to the source.

"Tess..." Her father's voice came in rough, but not a warning. He looked tired, his eyes telling many gutwrenching stories she did not want to get into. "You came."

She wondered for a moment. What should she respond to that? Of course she came, he can obviously see that. Why would he even say that? Is there nothing he would like to ask her?

"Yes... I did." She managed to get past her lips. "I heard that- Anduin is currently not present."

"Indeed..." He nodded, nervously looking around. "Is that why you-?"

"Not entirely I just... Wanted to see you since you never try to make time for me." She was frowning, she came here to pick a fight after years of searching for validation. But there was still a little girl behind all those thoughts fighting to run out and hug her dad.

He looked into her eyes before closing his eyes for a short bit. "I have a lot of work, Tess-"

"I understand that, but how long has it been since we've last properly seen each other? Not weeks, not months... Years." She was not able to control her tone well anymore. It was either crying or talking through bared teeth and she swore that she will not cry infront of him again.

Because after all, that's what always happened. They argued, she cried and ran away but- that's not happening this time.

"Tess... You are your own woman now, I can't keep standing behind you-"

"Oh yes, but the prince is not his own man? Is he not an adult? Why must you watch over him but not care for your own blood?"

"You know it's not like that!" He sounded... He sounded so very sad. And for a moment, she wanted to believe him.

"It is like that!" Her hands flew up in the air in frustration. "It's not even as if I need your attention or you to be there for me all the time I just want you to be my dad, light damn it!"

"I will always be your father, Tess, what are you talking about?"

"A father, yes, but any man can be a father... A dad is different. A dad sends you letters asking you how you've been, a dad visits you to tell you how you should take better care of yourself and tells your partner that he'll beat them up when they hurt you... A dad is not indifferent... A dad cares." She had to take a deep breath after vomiting all her words out with the speed of an average Kul Tiran. "Hell, even Shaw is being a better dad to Vanessa than you are to me! And they aren't even related!"

"I do care, Tess, it's just difficult with everything-"

"You keep repeating the same things over and over again. You really think that makes it understandable for me? The years of you just not being there? The years I had to take care of myself? Do you even know me anymore?"

He opened his mouth multiple times, a couple of huffs coming out but no words truly forming. He could pass for a wounded wolf now and... That hurt something deep within Tess.

"Do you even know your daughter?" She wanted to sound strong, but her words came out a whine. She was pleading, begging for an answer.

He looked into her eyes, both of their eyes stinging with barely disguised tears but both of them so light-damn stubborn. "Liam said the same thing to me once..." He whispered, his voice soft beyond belief from such a big man. "'Do you even know your son, dad? Do you care about him?' he said... He had the same biting tone you do, young one. And I could not blame him."

"Can you blame me?" She rubbed her eyes, trying to get rid of the tears welling up in them. "Can you look me in the eyes and tell me that my pain does not make sense and that I am to blame for the strain of our relationship?" She sniffled and straightened her back, standing tall and as intimidating as possible while sobbing.

"That is not what I said, child... " He looked away for a moment, carefully picking out words. "I don't want to blame you but... You don't speak to me when we see one another. You don't share your life with me. How am I to know you've been feeling this way?"

"So you're telling me it is my fault? I don't talk to you because you don't listen! You don't care!"

"I do! I have always cared for both of my children, what do you not understand about that?"

"Then why did you stop caring about me the second he passed?" Tears now streaming down her cheeks. "The second he was gone I was just as well... Nothing but a memory of a little girl you once loved as your own... "

"That is not true... I-I... I lost my son! My only son! You cannot even imagine how that felt!"

"I lost a brother! My closest friend! And I lost everyone else I have ever cared about that day!" She yelled at him, hardly concealing how broken her voice must have sounded.

"What are you talking about now?"

"The moment I lost my brother I lost my entire family, Genn..." She frowned at the oh so familiar man standing infront of her. "I am no orphan but on days like these I wish I could state I were."

He stopped, dead in his tracks, again, not finding a single word worthy of being said out loud.

"I am getting married, Genn..." She turned her back to the man. "I just... Wanted to let you know... That I am happy... And that she cares..."

And with that, she left. Walking away, holding her head high for as long as she could before the last piece of her strong persona shattered.

In the end, she could not help but blame herself for her father feeling so horrible. She left him there, so broken, when she should have held him above water... Or maybe she did everything right... Maybe he- Maybe he did deserve every drop of poison she had put into her speech and more.

For now, she was not sure.

[ardentpoop]

some of you guys talk about them like they’re Vantessa and Rockhard from latest dark-romance-booktok sensation “Your Maimed Heart Belong To Me”

which is extremely funny to me as someone who has a close eye on their respective roles in the story and how those roles influence fan perception so please keep it up my children

[foxy-vanessa]

@cmcreid-warriorprincess​ asked: 📱 - vanessa & tessa

What was my muses 5 last sent texts yours?

[ Vanessa to Tessa ] : Plz be safe. sending u all the good vibes and juju xxxx

[ Vanessa to Tessa ] : Baby, I know you want to save all the animals but I can’t have a kitten in my dorm.

[ Vanessa to Tessa ] : Maybe a hamster?

[ Vanessa to Tessa ] : brb looking up dorm policies

[ Vanessa to Tessa ] : No hamsters :((((

What was my muses 5 last unsent texts yours?

[ Vanessa to Tessa ] : I’m sorry I wish things were different

[ Vanessa to Tessa ] : I’m in this weird little town called Havensdale, you’d love it here.

[ Vanessa to Tessa ] : I miss you

[ Vanessa to Tessa ] : I hate my mom for doing this to us Tess.

[ Vanessa to Tessa ] : I love you. Come find me.

What was my muses last snapchat to yours?

What my muse saved your number as?

Tess 🥰☀️💕

What contact photo my muse has set for yours?

What ringtone my muse has set for yours?

She doesn’t have ringtones set for anyone. She’s a phone on silent 24/7 person.

How many times my muse has called your this week?

10

How many calls has my muse missed from yours?

4

[sunshinethevampireslayer]

@bad-kitty-katriel asked: 📱 - Tessa & vanessa

What was my muses 5 last sent texts yours?

[ Tessa to Vanessa ] Just Googled ‘smart & sexy grumps who don’t like to be woken from their slumber’ and it’s all pics of you, babe xxxxxxxxxx [ Tessa to Vanessa ] omg i just saw another world’s CUTEST kitten on this shelter website and i’m dying!!!!!!! we’re going to need some serious real estate to house all these babies xxxxxxxxxxx [ Tessa to Vanessa ] what do you wanna have for dinner tonight??? My treat!!! xxxxxxxxxxx [ Tessa to Vanessa ] Just texting to let you know that you’re beautiful!!! You’re strong!!! You have a cute butt!!! xxxxxxxxxx [ Tessa to Vanessa ] I love love love you, Nessy xxxxxxxxxxx

What was my muses 5 last unsent texts yours.?

[ Tessa to Vanessa ] i miss you so much [ Tessa to Vanessa ] i can’t kiss anyone without wishing it was you instead [ Tessa to Vanessa ] Hey, I don’t know if you check this number anymore or if your mom maybe destroyed it with fire (probably) but something happened tonight and i think I could have died and i never told yo [ Tessa to Vanessa ] Do you ever think about me? [ Tessa to Vanessa ] I love you 

What was my muses last snapchat to yours?

What my muse saved your number as?

My Girl🥰 Nessy❣️💕💞💓

What contact photo my muse has set for yours?

What ringtone my muse has set for yours?

“Kiss Me” --- Sixpence None The Richer

How many times my muse has called your this week?

12

How many calls has my muse missed from yours?

0

[paigerambles]

shutuprhian:

jesper-wylan :

and then there’s love. 

@trcshmouthrichie

[cherrywolf]

Meet Lucia Vantessa

[cmcreid-warriorprincess]

Havensdale Holidays <3

Part 1 - IC

  Who is your fave/s character of your own?

I have a bit of a list which I'll share but my #1 fave character of my own is Hailie Tyler. She survived a 1.0 Gossip Girl roleplay as an OC before being integrated into Havens. I love her gothy bi princess vibes with all my soul. The rest, in no particular order, are: Tessa, Stella, Paul, Ian, Jenny, Jess, Joey, Karen, Greg, Faye, Danny, Clary, Carrie, Amara & Andy.

  Who is your fave/s character of someone else’s?

OH WELL. Let's do this! My faves from y'all are Rachel, Claire, Charvi, Brianna, Maggie, Shelley, Leila, Maddie, Eleanor, Faith, Selena, Bonnie, Ruby, Juliette, Dexter, Vanessa, Katriel, Matt TO NAME A FEW...

   Fave interaction between your character and someone else’s?

I love every Greg and Juliette argument ever, they have been sincerely epic. ALSO, every convo that Mark and Ian have- especially their flashback where Ian is drunk and just met Ava, it's so fucking cute. That one Joey & Rachel para where he finds out she's a witch and she finds out he torched his gym, that's really emo.

   A ship you love?

Um, I love literally EVERY ship!!!!!! Gronnie, Fesse, Avian, Chana, Tayfred, Lulu & Andy, JESS AND GWEN TBH LOL HI, Olian, FAITH X DANNY, Carloex, Canny, VANTESSA to name a FEW. No one has to be this extra too.

  A crackship/rare pair you love?

Crackship/rare pairs I love include tbh romantic Ruby & Jess???? I'd swoon. Shelly & Cole??? I love them??? Claire Knighton marry every lady in Havens club. I love Ian and Shelley too hi. RACHEL AND JENNY WOW CHEF'S KISS.

  A plot/concept of your own and/or someone else’s you love?

I loved Ian almost turning off his humanity when he tried to bring Mark back BUT DIDN'T during hihghosts. Faye's car accident/amnesia fgreuihdjiks. UM JESS TURNING HER HUMANITY OFF THAT WAS MY FAVE. I've loved every Mark/Evelyn interaction when he's had his memory back!!! LEILA'S WHOLE HIGH SCHOOL JOURNEY TO BEING P-O-P-U-L-A-R. Um ???? Charlotte being turned into a werewolf to avoid death ???? Fave. OH the Karen / Charlie kidnapping shenanigans jesus. Rachel x Keith x Thomas MAGIC SHENANIGANS rip Keith. I could go on, I could go on. 

Part 2 - Not-So Secret Santa

Lauren!!! @foxy-vanessa Omg I'm literally still going on about how darn happy I am that Lauren joined this RP!!! She's brought so much fgruehidjks I love all her characters, especially her ladies lovin' ladies like hi, I'm swooning. My goal is to have all my gals flirt with her gals always. I love to read her writing so much and gosh???? I know she does angst SO WELL but that Vantessa fluff!!!! It literally makes me melt like I lit had to take Tessa for this (and now she's one of my fave charas). Basically, I hinted that Vanessa + Tessa were romantically into each other in bio and Lauren picked it up RIGHT AWAY and I was like !!!! yesss you get me. I love her OCs, I love her for taking iconic characters. I love all our connections. I love her beautiful aesthetics!!!!!! I'm just soo happy she's here <3333

[ian-magic-son]

@foxy-vanessa asked: headcanon + vantessa for Ian

Do you ever just have a real life OTP? Like, their relationship is just everything! Their love story? Inspired. Their every interaction? Beautiful!! That’s VantessaTM for Ian. Having known Vanessa since they were both in Havensdale, it was like there was just something he couldn’t quite figure out about her. Like there was some Big Something missing from her ongoing backstory. Sometimes she didn’t want to talk about. At least, not yet.

And then boom! Enter Tessa Thomson into our very own Havensdale Valley and everything suddenly made sense. Everything about a Tessa-less Vanessa made sense.

The tragic, romantic, star-crossed lovers backstory? Absolutely obsessed. Ian has been in full support of these two finally getting together from the moment he say those fluffy heart eyes they were giving each other.

He lives for the #updates.

[night-triumphantt]

I also want more lore abt the Orcs, I still don’t know what vantessa meant when she said that orcs like her weren’t allowed in the new United Clans

Hopes for Blades Book 2:

A more balanced exp system that doesn’t favour elves over humans and orcs

Uses for the items from Side Quests we got during book 1 that didn’t get used

Group shennanigans!

NO LI FAVOURITISM (there wasn’t much in book one and I’d like to keep it that way!)

Cool lore for the places outside of Morella!

More awesome CGs!

Please for the love of god don’t end it on Book 2 like the Elementalists please-

More info on the old elven empire!

Character development for the whole gang!

Kade to hit an enemy over the head with his lute

Feel free to add on!

[twisted-twirl]

Once you receive this you have to publicly post 5 nice things you like about yourself and send to 10 of your favorite followers (✿◠‿◠) (now you have to actually post something instead of lurking)

(Thanks Tessa! Alway happy to creep out of the shadows for a friend haha)1.  I like my eyes, especially when I decide to wear makeup and do it right.2.  I like my proportionally tiny waist.3.  I like my new short haircut, especially curly.4.  I like my weird-to-“normal” personality ratio.5.  I like my nurturing/caring nature.

[sunshinethevampireslayer]

tessa around any other girl: super smooth, accidentally on purpose flirting, *winks*

tessa around vanessa: stutters, stumbles, fuejidkls

[foxy-vanessa]

But I don't care what they say I'm in love with you They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth

[foxy-vanessa]

Part 1 - IC

Who is your fave/s character of your own?

Vanessa will always have a special place in my heart as the OG gay disaster, Katriel and Camilla have become favorites v quickly, Ricky is a lovable idiot, Sapphire is such a bad ass, Delilah too. Kara has so much sass. I love all of my children.

Who is your fave/s character of someone else’s?

GREG PORTER. What a disaster human, I love him. Also Ian Morrison. Rachel Gates is iconic.

Fave interaction between your character and someone else’s?

Anything between Blair and Delilah. Also Ian and Vanessa, Tessa and Vanessa. DAVE AND CAMS. Ricky and Erica, they’re so pure and wholesome.

A ship you love?

VANTESSA UNTIL I DIE but also Kat/Hailie

A crackship/rare pair you love?

OK hear me out.... Dave x Cams as a hateship. Ian x Vanessa as a brotp.

A plot/concept of your own and/or someone else’s you love?

Can I say the entire Vantessa saga? bc the entire Vantessa saga. also delilah trying so hard to be a mom figure to Blair and failing miserably.

Part 2 - Not-So Secret Santa

Paige, @cmcreid-warriorprincess, loml, I wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for you and your wonderful characters and luring me in with the grumpy gay disaster that is Vanessa Fox. You’re always here to talk plots and connections or provide fc ideas when I inevitably decide to switch it up. And you’re forever swooning over my activity even when it’s below average. ily endlessly.

[cmcreid-warriorprincess]

Vantessa 😍😍😍

[foxy-vanessa]

I hate it when dudes try to chase me But I love it when you try to save me 'Cause I'm just a lady

I love it when we play 1950 It's so cold that your stare's 'bout to kill me I'm surprised when you kiss me

[foxy-vanessa]

She says I smell like safety and home I named both of her eyes "Forever" and "Please don't go" I could be a morning sunrise all the time, all the time yeah This could be good, this could be good