#vagueflicker

[that-dreaming-dragon]

Divinity

What is the divine?

Honestly, I'm not too certain. It feels like I'm talking about different thing when I speak of it in English than if I speak it in Chinese or understand it in a Japanese context. Or just my lack of context. I grew up with Asian culture, after all.

That's probably something to write about for another time.

The idea of spiritual creature, youkai and the like, or the idea of asian dragons who are occasionally some sort of divine, that does resonate with me on some level. Specifically my various draconic identities.

If I say my various non-draconic type (except Mew) are "down to earth", because they are, literally, my draconic types are "up in the sky". Well, I tried to make word parallel.

My kardiatype, the Japanese ocean dragon was a local guardian, hailed as a guardian, a deity, a divine entity. It's this sense of, grandness, but also protectiveness, sense of great responsibility, which arguably can probably just be regular "being a guardian" thing. The sense of awe and reverence towards my kardiatype is a interesting one. Noemata tells me that's how the villager treats him. But I myself feel like that towards him too.

Aurelion Sol exudes immense power. Awe inspiring and a literal cosmic being, one of the very synonym with divinity. There isn't much to say about this vaguetype.

Flammie can be seen as a divine beast of sort. On the Wiki of Mana, Flammie is described as

shy, though otherwise joyful and friendly creatures. They sometimes are special creatures created by the Mana Goddess or Tree to help protect the world, and other times just a normal, if somewhat rare, creature.

- From Flammie, Wiki of Mana

It really draw a connection, a resonance, with what Mew paratrope is for me. Perhaps there's a more complete way I can call these common theme?

My own sense of divinity is a bit tricky to say. Would I call myself deific? Hard to say. It's going back to the whole "RPG monster" thing. I'm a sort of spiritual entity. I would categorize myself as celestial being but not quite. I mean, I am embodiment of dream in a way. Or more like those river that took the form of a dragon or serpent? I'm not sure. Morikai (my kardiatype) was definitely the other way around, a dragon first and then tied to the element which he governs. I think I am so too, a dragon before a dreamling. Calling myself using words like "deity" "kami" "youkai" are all incorrect. Once again I'm looking towards my paratrope with Mew, the mythical category of pokemon. That's my sort of divinity, mythical, folkloric. I do utilize the label folcintera for myself.

Side note a bit, some folks dislike being referred to as entity or being. I think I like being called that way due to my own relation with my own form of divinity. Just like how I see myself as a category: monster, instead of as a animal, because I am not a animal.

[that-dreaming-dragon]

Gonna do it all in a short of writing info format, as if prompted. And people can do an Ask for further detail.

Numbers of Alterhuman ‘Type I have

I have, depending on how you count flickers, 8 identitype. And a couple hearthomes tied to the ‘types.

1 kintype, 1 hearttype, 1 kardiatype, 1 collectively linked vaguetype, 1 para-linked hearttype, 1 vagueflicker, 2 archetrope (1 paratrope, basically paratype + archetrope).

Awakening When

The “when” of awakening is always a weird one. I had always on some level know myself to be nonhuman identifying. But I learn the word dragon before 10 years old, learned what sort of dragon I am roughly a near decade after, and then have more discovery for new forms as a shapeshifter. My “awakening” of the kintype self is gradual. For my other identities, they all happened during my years within the alterhuman community, so within the recent 5 or so years.

The Sources

For myself, I’m not found within known media, or myth or folklore.

My hearttype is from fiction, as well as me and my headmate’s collective vaguetype. My flicker and the paratrope as well.

My kardiatype, that’s a tough one. The perception of realness lies within individuals. And to me, that was very real, in a way. I guess spiritually metaphysical folklore would fit.

My linked hearttype is from myth, more commonly tied to symbolic heraldry.

My other archetrope is also arguable, potentially historical, but it is a role.

Enjoyment of Alterhumanity

I very much enjoyed all the experience and exploration I had with my various identitype. It made life interesting, and contemplating existence is but a natural course of being. To put simply, I enjoy being a alterhuman.

Origin Theory

I don’t usually bother with identifying what or how or where my identitype came from. Nearly, if not all, of them are tied to one another, which also influenced their origin in a way. What do you say about a paratype that seem solely psychological, when it was based off of a metaphysical ‘type? All of my identitype are spiritual, psychological, metaphysical, and whatever other origin theory people use, there’s probably some paralell for me to draw as well.

Belief and Faith

This is yet another tricky one. I think on some level I’m a bit agnostic, but also I do believe in a lot of stuff. I’m brought up with buddhism, and some other folklore and beliefs that may have influence from taoism and shintoism. I believe in alternative universe amd multiversal world, and I do believe in magic and ghosts. I do not know if my belief has any bearing on my identities.

Queering the Queerness

I’m nonbinary solarian maverique.

I’m demipan, unsure the romance or sexual composition. I have inclination towards enbian, and I guess I’m diamoric.

I say I’m ambiamorous.

I don’t know most of my identitype’s gender or attraction type, though it seem like my kardiatype is somewhat masculine-neutral in a nonhuman way. My fictohearttype, I align with the idea of them being genderfluid, even if canon says man. Besides my archetrope, which is also masc-aligned but human way, the rest are vague nonhuman, if there even is gender involve for them. I don’t really bother feeling out the attraction.

Gearing Up

The only item that I can call gear, is my fuzzy fur tail that’s my(kintype) tail.

Gosh, must I write kintype as if it’s something separate from me every time??

I want to get more stuff in the future. I really want a Uzushio whirlpool forehead protector.

Queer Community

Heck yeah I’m lgbtq+! Kinda answered that up above, oops.

The Shifting

I experience many type of shifts, most often phantom shift. I’ve had mental—berserk shift, dream shift. Donno if I have had envisage or sensory shift, and I think I have had astral shift, but that is so confusing.

Alterhumanity Slice-Of-Life

On the daily, I am a near perma-shifted dragon. I don’t really know what it’s like to not live as I am, because I grew up with my draconity as a very constant thing, sometimes my family have inside joke about me being a dragon. Usually I’m even more creature-like when interacting with my partner, and occasionally have a hard time not growling or make creature noises outside. There is certain thrill with acceleration in a vehicle, especially with the windows down, or while being stealthy. Ocean draws me in, and despite occasional nightmare and potential added exhaustion, I always loved having lucid dreams. Not sure if that’s tied to my alterhumanity or not.

I donno, it’s hard to clearly see what is attributed from my alterhumanity, and what isn’t. Is my love of birds a paratype feeling? Is my penchant for stealth game due to my archetrope? I mean, my love for orange everything is definitely kinity related.

Early Bird or Night Owl

No idea. Many of my identitype operate outside this society or this reality. Even the human hearttype, I have no idea of their internal clock.

The Knowledge of Self, A Chronology

Since I can remember, I’ve always been a dragon. So roughly 3 decades.

For knowing about my kardiatype, I’d say roughly for 16 some years.

As for the rest, roughly within the 5-6 years.

Otherborn, a Discourse

Because of my kardiatype, I’m really uncertain if I may be born with my draconity and later realized, or not born with my draconity but had enlightened to the fact, aka awakened to my draconity. That’s a silly debate and only a source of insanity.

The rest of other identitype I’m not sure about. There has been seeds for some of them before I have the terms provided by the alterhuman community, but it’s hard to tell. I know I said the “awakening” to be recent, but I count the “naming the feelings” to be a sort of awakening. In actuality, regarding ninja, hearttype, which in turn is tied to the paratype feeling of kitsune, all these I’m uncertain if they had been there before I’m aware of them this life.

Dietary Preferences

I believe my love for seafood, especially raw fish/sashimi, is due to my kardiatype. My love for the Japanese cuisine could partly be attributed to the kardiatype, potentially my hearttype, and where my archetrope came from.

Friendship is Magic

I have alterhuman friends that later become irl friends. But majority of them are online. Tis the unfortunate thing.

Home is Where the Heart Belongs

As a dream dragon, my natural territory is the place between the awake and unconcious mind.

My kardiatype came from the ocean, and I felt drawn to the ocean because of that. So did possibly my hearttype. The two are also tied to the land of the rising sun.

Our vaguetype belongs to the star and cosmos.

My para-heartlink and paratrope feels more your typical “mystical creature in the woods” vibe, so perhaps that is their natural habitat.

“Here we are again” 🎶

When folks talk about “being a animal”, you have to assume they are talking about animality, because otherwise, human is also by definition, an animal.

But I’m a bit spiteful (or a lot) towards these sort of question that can be unintentionally exclusionary.

Simply, I am not, and a couple of my identitype are not, some are. My hearttype is. My kardiatype isn’t. My para-heartlink is, kind of. My paratrope isn’t, my archetrope is. Our vaguetype isn’t. Really not sure how to categorize my vague-flicker.

If you know the respective ‘type (hint, they are on my profile description), you will understand my cheekiness.

Alex's alterhuman ask game!

Reblog this post to let others ask you question(s)!

I tried to make this accesible to all alterhumans.

🌈 - how many _types do you have?

🌌 - when was your awakening?

👾 - is your _type real or fictional?

👽 - do you enjoy being a […] (therian, otherkin, ect. Just put your label here)

🧷 - what's the reason of your identity? You can say that you don't know. (Ex. "My theriantrophy is spiritual)

💚 - what are your beliefs? Does it affect your identity?

⚧️ - does your _type have a different gender/sex than you? Do you even know your _type's gender?

🧤 - do you own any gear? If yes, what is it?

🏳️‍🌈 - are you also a part of the LGBT+ community?

🌚 - do you experience shifts? If yes, what kind of shifts do you experience most often?

🌝 - how does your identity affect your everyday life?

💊 - is your _type more nocturnal or does it prefer daytime?

🤖 - for how long do you know about your identity?

🍁 - do you think that you were born with your identity or has it "started" during your life?

🧸 - does your _type affect your diet?

🛍️ - do you have alterhuman friends? If yes, in real life or in the internet?

🍂 - what is your _type's natural territory/home?

😺 - is your _type an animal?

That's all byeeee :3