#utterly drained

[xysidhequeen]

I was in a car for 14 hours because, if anyone is unaware, I recently became aware of the fact that the man who was my father in everything but blood passed away in 2020. I am NC with that side of the family, and for my own physical and emotional safety, I had to cut everyone off. I couldn't chance reaching out and leaving a trail for my abusersers to follow. Not when I already had to change my number three times and move four times just to ensure they couldn't find me.

That didn't mean I couldn't visit his grave, though, and I did. It was. Hard. Seeing his grave made it real. Up until that point, I could tell myself it was a trick or it was the wrong man, until I saw that grave.

But, I spent 14 hours in a car, had to see the grave of someone I loved. Perhaps the only family member on that side I still loved at all. And now I'm once more stuck in insomnia. It's been, 30hours no sleep because my body can't handle stress in any capacity and is now throwing a full blown tantrum.

There's not much of a point to this post. I'm not aiming to garner sympathy or pity. I just needed to talk about it even if no one sees it. I don't like to talk about my issues to people close to me, I don't like to complain. Sometimes, it's easier to let these things out when I'm hiding behind a fake name and a fake face.

[spirallingintotheabyss]

Hello beloveds I am back <33

[beaft]

they should invent a me that isn't exhausted all the time

[mishoru]

Don't you think I look pretty curled up on this bathroom floor?

[snarkspawn]

light of kshahrewar ✨

[defiledtomb]

ok who woke the bear

[starless-aria]

Oh.

Oh no.

She's in heat-

[pupperish]

I think people need to realize that Killua and Gon are pushed to be the worst versions of themselves during the Chimera Ant arc

[silntfangs]

So I leave for Disney on the 16th and will be back on the 28th. I will try and do all replies across my blogs and queue them just in case I don’t bring my laptop. I’m always available on discord. If you want it, just message me for it!

[knifegremliin]

god i don't understand how people can just go out and do things and not be completely and utterly exhausted when they get back

[slyandthefamilybook]

I forget how because I was pretty drunk but last night some guy roped me into a discussion about Israel while we were outside having a smoke. I eventually cut him off (something to the effect of "wwhyyy are we talking about Isssraaael iss New Yearsss!!!!!") and he was decent enough to drop it but man. I'm tired of having these conversations

[mercymaker]

love is truly the dumb fuck juice of all time because a man can literally tell you 'i have violent thoughts of harming you' and your ass will be twirling hair and kicking feet like 'but would we kiss after that or?' like

[whyoneartheven]

Happy thanksgiving everyone!!!

I had a very, very long day today, so I’m not tagging anyone, but if you see this, I wish you the happiest Thanksgiving!

To all my wonderful friends and mutuals here, thank you guys. Y’all are awesome people :)

[angelstrawbabie420]

hmm i think i am not coping. very well

[jacksmusesdrv3]

Something really bothers me about these remarks, as it’s a reference to the Soviet regime’s arrest-and-relocation (to Siberia, for... slave-labour). The point of concern is- we know this was a regime notorious for its extreme surveillance, where even so much as talking the ‘wrong way’ would have you whisked away in the dead of night never to be seen again

There are times when Ouma talks about being the ‘head of an organisation that controls the world’, but he also mentions being on the run within that world, and his actions in the game show that he’s extremely good at the hiding in particular. But the cherry on the cake-

-is how he seemed to gamble on there being tiny surveillance bugs-

-and turned out to be right.

If even the world Ouma lived in was one where things like that existed, what could that have meant for him, as he navigated it?

[feral-and-or-horny]

I am in one of my moods where I comprehend the scope of every horrible thing that can happen to me and then realize how many of them are entirely possible because people are shit and I live in a place I barely tolerate and regret not spitting on when I moved to Georgia