#urgh sorry idk i just woke up

[lyss-butterscotch]

Everytime i open instagram it makes me unreasonably angry to like some art then realize its reposted with the TINIEST effort to credit the og artist. Even if the artist is on the SAME PLATFORM theyd just put Cr: artist or dont say anything at all. It makes me angry how easy AND ENCOURAGED it is there to take someone elses work and noone would bat an eye

[riverstardis]

shock to the system:

oh that’s weird it does like the build up to the intro but then it cuts out?

oh sebastian grayling i forgot it was time for him

oh there we go there’s the intro

aww elle and dervla

lmaoo elle suggests putting the new f1 on dog sitting duty when he finally arrives and dylan’s like “do you think i’d trust an f1 to look after her?” sjskkf

alicia snuck out before cal woke up😬

elle asks ethan to mentor sebastian because she needs a “good reliable doctor” but says he’s too busy with a ctr review. dylan volunteers to mentor him… you may regret that bestie

elle’s like “but you’re a senior clinician?” since when did the seniors not have mentees?? maybe it depends on whether there are any (named) registrars actually there at the time? maybe it’s a registrar if possible like lily was rash’s mentor but like when paige joined there weren’t any registrars (technically there was matthew but he was paeds) so maybe that’s why she then got a consultant as a mentor? oh and archie was still off after being stabbed when mason started. and iirc alicia was initially meant to be bea’s mentor but ethan ended up taking over? idk how it actually works in real life though

cal bought alicia a toothbrush to keep at his to save her rushing off in the mornings and says he’s free tonight and she says she can’t because she’s washing her hair💀 jeez cal take a hint man

cal walks away looking so thoroughly traumatised that ethan asks him if he’s okay😭😭 he’s like “i’ve just been turned down…” and ethan goes “by a member of the opposite sex? no… WAIT do i hear the walls of jericho falliiing!!” DJSKFKKF

“so this is what it feels like? no wonder you prefer books to girls” 💀💀

ethan’s face falls so fast when he realises cal’s talking about alicia😭 though surely he was also there in the flat while alicia was there with cal?? i suppose he was probably already asleep when they got back, and i’m sure he’s used to cal bringing girls home at all hours

“she stayed over last night but she’s not playing ball today” “it’s not a game is it cal?” “see that’s where you’re wrong, little brother, it is all a game. and it’s a game i really like to win.” urgh🙄

sebastian’s so annoying

oh this actress played yaz’s mum in doctor who!

lmaoo robyn feels lightheaded and jacob catches her and sebastian’s like “hospitals change, nurses don’t” and makes like a drinking motion and jacob turns on him like “are you forgetting that i’m a nurse?”💀💀💀

cal keeps checking out his patient’s girlfriend and louise says to alicia that he’s like a dog on heat but that he doesn’t get that kind of reputation for nothing

cal implies that alicia’s jealous and she’s like “i’m the one who turned you down remember” he’s like “so you were turning me down” and she says it’s just not gonna happen is it “because you’re cal, the guy who sleeps with everyone, who flirts with patients’ girlfriends. men like you are the reason women don’t do relationships.” SJDKKFKG YESSS DRAG HIM

he’s like “wow. well maybe i’m like superman in reverse, take away the disguise and you’ll find clark kent” orrr she could go be with ethan and get clark kent without having to work through an arrogant disguise? she just goes “you wish mate” sjdkfkkf

cal’s clearly starting to actually like alicia at this point but like, if he just hadn’t slept with her in the first place when he knew full well she liked ethan not him he wouldn’t be in this situation would he?

oop cal saying alicia can keep believing that he’s the reason they wouldn’t work but really she would run a mile whoever he was. and asks her when was the last time she was serious about anybody😬

aww alicia’s mum rings her in tears about her dad and alicia’s crying by the end :( and ofc cal has to talk to her “turns out he’s just like every man in my life. but you know what, you’re right. maybe i am a bit messed up. but so would you be if you had two parents going at each others throats and a dad going through a mid life crisis.” “i’m sorry i wasn’t thinking” “yeah. so just do what you’re here to do and stop playing with my head, okay?” :(((

hmm was it sebastian saying “my dad’s gonna kill me” that made dylan consider giving him a second chance?

and then he immediately goes and resuscitates a patient with a dnr😭

ethan says he heard there was nearly a bit of an incident and alicia tells him that cal’s patient thought he was flirting with his girlfriend and ethan says it wouldn’t be the first time and alicia says to cut him some slack because he feels bad about it and ethan makes a jab at her sleeping with cal and says he has enough notches on his bedpost?! jesus christ that came out of fucking nowhere guess he’s hit his limit huh😭

yknow i’m not sure that’s even specifically because of his own feelings for alicia because he did a similar thing with lily when she slept with cal but he only saw lily as a friend, and it wouldn’t exactly fit with the fact that he willingly conceded his awards night ticket to cal because he “knew his place”. i think it’s more to do with him having a friend who he feels is on “his side” who can see through cal’s charm so he maybe feels betrayed when he feels like they’ve “fallen for it”. clearly that’s not healthy😭 get this man some therapy asap

aww seb finds dervla hurt :( he treats her in the staff room🥺

oop the patient’s girlfriend thinks cal and alicia are together and she say’s they’re not but it’s complicated and the gf is like “it’s only as complicated as you make it” and alicia immediately goes to speak to cal nooo bestie don’t listen to her she doesn’t know the full story! you don’t seriously think starting a relationship with someone while knowing full well you have feelings for his brother is going to be anything but complicated, do you?

cal suggests they just be messed up together😭

elle telling dylan how great sebastian was with dervla… maybe he should go be a vet instead of a human doctor?

ohh yeah it’s deffo the ‘arsehole dad’ card that’s winning dylan over

seb tries to hug dylan and dylan goes “there is no physical contact. ever. do you understand?” and seb says yes… dear reader, he did not, in fact, understand

i keep saying that cal must’ve known alicia liked ethan and i do think he did subconsciously at least but i think maybe he didn’t quite want to believe it or something which is why he doesn’t realise what he’s getting himself into? like i would not be surprised if he just couldn’t fathom the idea that any woman would pick ethan over him. the problem is that ethan couldn’t fathom that either😭

[xmalfoyweasleyx]

I hate that girl - F.W

Summary: Fred doesn’t really know how to cope. He hates y/n and everyone loves her. But is the feeling truly hate, or something else?

Warnings: Mean Fred, eating, semi-smut it's just oral: male receiving, a little hair pulling and stuff like that :)

A/N: Maybe I'm going to write a PART 2, with the rest of the smut? Idk? What do you guys think? x

Words: 2,1k

It was summer, finally, my favourite season. I sat at the table with my family at the Burrow, enjoying my moms dinner.

“So, y/n is coming tomorrow mom, you remember?” Ron asked while trying to put a big piece of meat in his mouth.

“Of course I remember dear!” Molly smiled.

“Pfffttt ohno” I sighed, making the whole dinner table glare at me.

“Don’t be mean Fred, I really don’t know what’s wrong with you” Ginny said angrily.

What was wrong with me? That girl was wrong.

I hated how my whole family fell for her trap. Like she’s so innocent. They all believed her act. But I knew the truth, I hated the girl. She wasn’t sweet and shy and helpful. I just knew it. She couldn’t be. I didn’t believe it.

I never liked the girl. She visits us every year, being very good friends with... yea, almost every person here.

She was a liar, I saw it in her eyes. The girl was always like: “Molly can I help with the dishes” or “Hey George, I looooveee the new joke product” with her silly sweet voice.

No I didn’t fall for that. She didn’t even say those things to me any more, I've already scared her away. Well, great. That’s great.

“I really don’t understand why you hate her that much Freddie” George sighed when we were back in our bedroom.

"Well and I don't understand why you like her that much Georgie, are you in love with her or something?" I accused him.

"It seems like you are the one in love with her, silly brother" he answered laughing.

What the hell??

"WHAT? For God's sake! Why would you even think that?!" I screamed defensively. George only laughed.

"I give up" he smiled. Leaving me extremely irritated.

Me in love with y/n, like I said, I hate that girl.

*

I almost threw up seeing the girl acting like that.

We were all welcoming her in the living room. She hugged Ginny, then my mum and Ron and... you know how it goes.

Then she hugged George giving him a kiss on the cheek. Urgh disgusting. It was my turn. It was clear she didn't really know what to do. It was pretty awkward.

"Fred" she nodded staring at me full of doubt. She gave me a sad look and I almost fell for it.

I knew my sister was looking at me with eyes full of anger without even looking her way. I couldn't take it any more and just left without saying a word.

"I'm sorry about him" I heard George saying to her. "It's okay" she answered softly.

*

It was quiet at the burrow, everyone was already asleep. I've always been the only person in this house that stays up this late.

I was getting tired so I decided to get ready for bed. Even George had ignored me all evening, I don't get it, why are they this mad? I mean, okay, I wasn't very nice to y/n. But I can do what I want and I can dislike who I want, what do they have to do with it?

So I opened the bathroom door and before I could process what happened, my face was already bright red. Y/n was changing, her, apparently pretty, chest was bare in front of me.

The first thing I did was slap my hand to my face, trying to close my eyes and hide the redness. What the actual fuck, did I just see the girl naked?

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE THIS LATE" I screamed.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I should've locked the door, I'm sorry" she answered embarrassed.

Okay how could I ever get this image out of my fucking head?! Yes, she did have an impressive body, and...but... BUT NO FRED, NO.

"Stop apologizing all the time, for god's sake, it makes me crazy" I hissed angrily.

She didn't really answer and she ran past me, I didn't even see the look on her face. Maybe that was a good thing, because I knew I may have been a bit too mean this time...

*

"Fuck Fred, keep going" y/n moaned, she looked like a mess and her perfect boobs bounced up and down when she rode me. It was the hottest and the best thing I've ever felt. Moans and grunts left my mouth. "Fuck I'm cumming baby" I grunted.

Suddenly a loud knock on my bedroom door woke me up. Y/n wasn't there any more.

Shit, was this a dream, an actual sex dream? About her?

"FRED WAKE UP IT'S ALREADY 1 PM, WE'RE GOING TO SWIM!" I heard my little sister scream at the door.

I freaked out immediately. I could never face y/n again after this, why did it happen? Why is my brain like this? And then I had a little problem down there too, I had an obvious boner.

"I'm coming Gin wait a minute" I answered nervously.

An hour later, I finally reached the lake that was a mile away from the burrow. The others were already there.

Great, swimming.

The dream was still spinning around in my head. I was so confused and like it couldn't get any worse, they decided to swim. Why today?

This was the worst moment ever to see y/n in her bikini. I saw her from a distance. God she looked hot. Her perfect boobs in the red bikini top, and damn it, that ass...

Bloody hell, STOP IT FRED, I just got rid of my boner, I don't need it to come back again.

"There you are Freddie, finally!" George smiled when he saw me. Damn it.

Y/n looked up too, still smiling at me even though all the mean things I said or did to her. Her hair was in a perfect bun and I could see her red bikini better now. I never really realized how sexy and good she looks until now, until the moment I walked in on her changing this night. Or maybe that was the problem, maybe I always knew, but shut it out?

But what if this was her trap again? The trap everyone fell for except me. I couldn't allow myself to fall for it, I promised myself!

I walked up to them and tried to get out of my confusing thoughts. "I'm sorry I didn't realize I slept for so long" I answered trying to sound okay.

"Guess it's because you were still up pretty late" y/n joked. Her pretty smile appeared and out of nowhere my legs were weak, like jelly.

"Fuck y/n SHUT UP, SHUT THE HELL UP" I snapped out of nowhere. My face went red and the others looked at me in shock.

It was quiet, y/n gaped at me, speechless.

"I.. I-" I tried to apologize when I saw y/n her hurt eyes, but nothing came out. My heart broke when a tear fell down her cheek. Maybe I was wrong about her.

I was the bad person in this story, not her.

She ran away and I heard her sobbing behind me.

It wasn't a trap, she never acted like she was an innocent sweet girl, she really was an innocent sweet girl. It wasn't her trap, it was my own trap, a trap I made up in my own head.

*

I heard sobs coming from her room. I stood behind the door. I promised my siblings I would apologize, because it was true, maybe I was wrong about her.

I opened the door slowly.

"Fred, please go away, you don't have to act like you're sorry because I'm crying. I know you hate me." she sobbed when she saw me.

“N-no, I, I don’t know what’s wrong with me” I stuttered.

She looked confused. Her red eyes really broke my heart. It was my fault.

I sat next to her on the floor and put my hand on her leg. She seemed shocked.

“Why do you hate me?” she whispered.

I sighed. Not really knowing what to answer.

“I don’t hate you, I just had the wrong idea about you y/n, I’m stupid.” I answered.

It was weird, she was still in her bikini and this was so not the right moment, but I felt that bulge in my swimming trunks appear again. I guess it’s because of the dream that was still so damn clear in my head. And of course, the fact that my hand was stroking down her bare leg.

Before I could cover it up, her eyes were already on it. Fuck.

We both didn’t utter a word. It was silent.

“You have a problem down there” she whispered, breaking the silence.

I gulped, trying to not get red.

“Is that why you hate me? You just want to fuck me?” she grinned extremely bold.

I wasn’t really used to being this speechless. But she was right. So, so right. So I just nodded.

Suddenly she was on my lap. My breath hitched in my throat. Her, so perfect, boobs now pressed to my bare chest.

“You make me crazy, I can’t even explain how crazy y/n” I finally said.

Her hands were now stroking my hair. Shit. My tummy tingled. Was George right, am I in love with her?

“So you just decide to be mean Freddie? Ignore me? Hurt me? Why?” she squeaked, searching for a rightful explanation.

“I... I’m sorry, I don’t know what I feel. I’m so confused but I know I was wrong about you now. I’m sorry for hurting you.” I apologized.

“It’s okay Freddie, I understand, we have enough time to find out how we feel” she promised me while lightly stroking my cheek with her small fingers.

A wave of electricity went from my feet to my head. So is this what being in love feels like? I wasn’t sure, maybe it was something else. I’ve never experienced this before. But one thing was sure: my pants got too tight now.

And that’s when I felt her move slowly. She moved the (oh so thin) fabric of her red bikini against my clothed cock. I could feel everything that was underneath and a shock of pleasure went through my whole body.

She kept grinding down on me, a soft whimper left her mouth and a grunt left mine.

I slammed my lips on hers. They moved perfectly in synchrony. They were soft and sweet. It was perfect.

I’ve kissed before, a lot. But this. This was different. The passion was overwhelming.

Her tongue explored my mouth while I helped her hips grind up and down.

She stopped the kiss and her beautiful y/e/c eyes locked with mine. In an instant, she was already on her knees in front of me, pulling down my swimming trunks.

"Can I?" she asked politely. I nodded eagerly.

She kissed my tip gently making me gasp a little. Her beautiful, soft hands stroked down my thigh.

"I'm pretty sure you're finally gonna stop hating me after this" she promised.

"You already succeeded princess" I praised, making her eyes go wider because of the nickname.

She started to kitten lick my tip slowly and my hands were already in her hair, making a ponytail with my hand.

She took my whole cock in her mouth, all at once. A grunt escaped my lips when I felt my tip hit the back of her throat.

"God y/n where did you learn this" I moaned huskily.

A smirk appeared when she started to bob up and down. I tried to control myself but I couldn't resist from pulling on her hair a little, guiding her head up and down. It was clearly something she liked because a moan left her mouth. The oh so sexy sound and vibrations made me grunt loudly. "Fuck baby" I moaned

I tried to hold it in but my hips started to pound a little into her mouth, making her gag on my cock.

"I'm gonna cum" I stuttered. One second later her mouth was already gone. I whined with a frown.

"Now already Freddie?" she smirked.

"Please don't stop, your mouth is amazing y/n" I asked trying to not sound too desperate.

She didn't answer but put her lips back, taking my cock in her mouth again. Now she started to suck fast and harder, making me go completely crazy.

She was so beautiful and so so so sexy. I couldn't hold in any longer. My head fell back and my eyes scrunched shut, a loud moan slipped from my lips when I came. I've never felt this amazing before. It was perfect. Y/n stuck her tongue out, showing me she swallowed all of my cum.

"Good girl" I praised huskily.

"Did it feel good?" she asked. She looked a little insecure now.

I grabbed her hips and placed her on my lap again.

"So good, I think I might be in love with you, and not just because of this moment, but for so many reasons y/n" I admitted.

"You.. you do?" she whispered getting red and shy. But the little smile on her lips said enough

_____

[alwaysahiccupandastrid]

His Dark Materials - Season 2 Episode 7 *FINALE* (Thoughts and Rambles)

We have a LOT to unpack here oh my god oh my god

When I say I was screaming and yelling during the episode, I mean I was LITERALLY screaming and yelling

This post is mostly screeching and capital letters, you’ve been warned

“So cold” “life or death meant nothing” - well shit. Accurate description of a Spectre attack damn

I didn’t know what those creepy noises were at first and I was sat here absolutely TERRIFIED because it was creepy as fuck. Then I realized it was cliff ghasts because they said something that I recognized from the book and I was like “oh shit”

Pan and Will talking is the sweetest omg

The fact that Pan told him that Lyra thinks he’s as brave as King Iorek Byrnison :’)

“She’s the best friend I’ve ever had” “You’re her best friend too” - STOP, MY HEART

Lyra was awake and heard the whole conversation :3

“I’m no longer an aeronaut” :( “I’m an insect” - LMAO

Hester and Lee’s banter remains my favourite thing and now it’s bittersweet tbh...

“You could never be an insect, Lee” “Okay, hare” - bless them

Marisa finding where Lyra was staying and then finding Lyra’s coat?? And crying with it pressed to her face?? :’(

In case I haven’t mentioned it already, I am incredibly gay for the witches/their aesthetic/costume. Absolutely beautiful queens, all of them

Oh hi, it’s Mary and the two kids!

The fact that Mary helped them find their adults :’)

Also, “We like you miss” - BLESS

I’m kind of confused as to whether the blue flower petals are important or if it’s just her smelling them? IDK

“I’m close to my father, it’s time I found him” - OOF OKAY UMM ARE YOU SURE

“I let my best friend down” - Noooo Lyra, no you didn’t! :( Your dad is a terrible parent and killed him, that’s not your fault!

“Maybe this is how I let you down” - Well done, Asriel and Marisa, you’ve fucked up a perfectly fine child is what you’ve done

Will telling Lyra that she hasn’t let him down :3

That witch turning up because she was trying to warn Marisa about the spectres, only for Marisa to torture and kill her... oof

FUCKING MONKEY I CAN’T DECIDE HOW I FEEL ABOUT HIM

“She’s MY daughter” - Okay, damn, lady...

“EVE. She’s the mother of all” - OH FUCK YOU TOLD HER. OH FUCK OH FUCK OH FUCK

THE SPECTRE ATE HER DÆMON OMG NO THIS IS HORRIFYING WTAF

Seriously, the way the witch went so grey and lifeless and just fell to her knees and down... Urgh, my stomach is turning

Just when I thought I hated the monkey again, he starts whimpering because he’s afraid of the Spectres :(

“Stop whimpering” - DAMN MARISA YOU ARE A STONE COLD BITCH HUH

Pan being the damn voice of reason and telling Lyra they should stay with the witches like yes, Lyra, listen to him for once!!!

Okay but why are the Magisterium soldiers lowkey dressed like German soldiers from one of the World Wars???

I’m not really surprised that BBC left out the detail of Ruta and Asriel fucking when she found him to be honest XD

So the witches think that the Æsahættr is a person but it’s actually the KNIFE. AND THEY DON’T REALIZE. RUTA YOU DON’T NEED TO GO ANYWHERE, IT’S LITERALLY RIGHT THERE

“...That’s not my dæmon.” “Run.” - OH SHIT OKAY MY WHOLE BODY JUST TENSED UP

So umm Lee got shot and FUCK NO FUCK NO I’M NOT READY FOR THIS EMOTIONALLY THANKS

I LITERALLY DO NOT WANT THIS TO HAPPEN OKAY

“You’re either with me or against me” Umm he’s your dæmon?!?!

THE WAY SHE SCREAMED AT HIM OH MY GOD SHE’S FUCKING TERRIFYING HOLY CRAP

“What are you frightened of?” - oh, I don’t know, Marisa, maybe because YOU FUCKING SCREECHED AT HIM. MAYBE HE’S FRIGHTENED OF YOU

Also I love the detail of Marisa getting onto her hands and knees, sort of crouching and mirroring the monkey’s body language. I just love the parallel

The way the monkey flinched from her when she went to touch him omg :( No dæmon should be THIS afraid of their person (or at all?!?!)

Honestly, I find this series’ portrayal of Marisa fascinating tbh

“We have to do whatever it takes to keep her safe” - Umm, like maybe drugging her and hiding her in a cave for months? 🤔

Also in case I didn’t say this before, the fact she has complete control of the Spectres is fucking scary and always has been from the very first time I read the books

Okay so Lee is fully aware that he’s going to die if he stays behind but he does it because he knows that it’s the best chance of making sure that Lyra ends up under the knife’s protection (because Jopari will find her). All Lee wants is for Lyra to be safe and that hurts my heart so much, he loves this child so much :’(

“I love that little girl like a daughter” - LEE STOP MY HEART IS ALREADY BREAKING AS IT IS

NO NO NO NO I AM NOT AND NEVER WILL BE READY

Oh hey Red PAN-da (sorry I know I keep repeating that joke but honestly LOOK AT HIM)

“Once I change, you’ll stop changing” - OH SHIT. So we’re having THAT conversation then

“What do you think you’ll be?” “A flea I hope” - LMFAO I LOVE IT

“Is it Will that’s changing you?” “I think” - FORESHADOWING FOR AMBER SPYGLASS ANYONE?!

All the meanwhile, while Lee is dying and shit is going down, Ms Mary Malone is just chilling in a cave on a mountain by a waterfall, just reading

I literally struggled to watch Lee’s final scenes. I literally didn’t want to watch it because I cried reading it in the book, and I knew I’d be the same here

The fact that Lee HATES taking away people’s lives but he says “it’s theirs or Lyra’s”... I love him. He loves her so much.

“Think about anything, think about bacon!” - LMFAO I LOVE YOU HESTER YOU ABSOLUTE GEM

THE BULLET CLIPPED HIS SCALP AND I HAD A HEART ATTACK 

“This is my fault, isn’t it?” - NO HESTER NO DON’T YOU DARE BLAME YOURSELF DARLIN’, YOU ARE THE BEST AND WE LOVE YOU AND LEE LOVES YOU

I do this everytime I read the book and I did here even though I know what happens, but I was praying mentally that maybe Serafina would reach Lee in time... just maybe...

I’m really sitting here crying over Hester and Lee on a Sunday night, love that for me

Hester limping :(

“Don’t you go before I do” - FUCK YOU BBC AND PHILIP I’M SOBBING MY EYES OUT

“Oh how far we flew” - STOP IT. STOP IT RIGHT FUCKING NOW I SWEAR-

I literally yelled and cried out “NOOO” when Hester faded away and Lee died. I am so upset even though I KNEW it was coming. I am literally not okay.

Oh god no Will, now is not the time to be walking away from Lyra and that witch 

Also why is that witch asleep on guard?? Come on, love, do better, it’s not like these are the two most important children in all the universes.... 

To be fair to Marisa, I’d feel pretty invincible if I were climbing up a mountain while the Spectres were guarding me/on my side

WILL AND JOHN FINALLY MET AHHHH

“I was told I’d find my father here”  - YEAH AND THAT’S HIM WILL ASDFGHJKL;

I’m low-key disappointed that there’s no brawl between Will and Jopari here. Like they instantly recognize each other and... hmm. I know there has to be changes but still.

“Your mother, Will, where is she?” - Awww. John really didn’t stop loving her :’)

“My son... is the Knife Bearer” - oooooohhhhhhh

“You have a dæmon” - that’s right, Will. Don’t worry, you’ll get one next season

The way I audible went “oh shIT” when Mrs Coulter found Lyra fast asleep. Like I said, I knew what was going to happen but STILL

I’m not really surprised that those Spectres killed the witch who was supposed to be guarding Lyra and Will tbh like that’s what happens when only ONE witch guards two teenagers and that witch falls asleep

The way that Lyra panicked when she woke up and saw her mother stroking her cheek omg 

Off topic but I’ve only just realized that Jopari has a fucking man-bun LMFAO OKAY

The fact that Jopari tried to get back to Will and Elaine but couldn’t will always hurt me

“And you chose these people over your family?” - I MEAN-

“I’ve thought about you every day.” - Awww

So John tells Will that he has to go to Asriel and bring him the knife, and he tells him all about the war that’s coming and I have LITERAL chills because I’m so ready

“And then we go home?” “... And then we go home.” - RIP MY HEART OUT, IT WOULD HURT LESS

“I’m not strong enough” - yes you are, Will! I promise you, you are! And Jopari says, “Both of us were brought here” - exactly! You were brought there for a reason by fate or whatever you want to call it!

“Your duty was to be my father” - WILL REALLY CAME FOR HIS DAD LIKE THAT I GUESS

“Look what you’ve become without me” - Oh my god, just when I thought I wasn’t going to cry again

JOPARI HUGGING WILL, SEEING THE SOLDIER AIMING, AND THEN PUTTING HIMSELF BETWEEN THEM SO HE TOOK THE BULLET INSTEAD OF WILL ASDFGHJKL;

So in the book, Jopari is killed by a scorned witch who had once asked him to be her lover, but he had turned her down (because of Elaine and Will obviously), and she kills Jopari in front of Will and then he kills her (I think?). But here it’s just a soldier leftover from the Lee vs Magisterium fight, so... yeah. Kind of a little peeved about the change personally but whatever I guess.

“The night is full of angels, they will guide you now” - AHHHHH

Also, might just be me, but maybe that line would have been slightly more impactful if the scene had taken place at night

This show really said “fuck healthy parental figures” I guess

Except Will’s mum, she’s the best and if anything were to happen to her we’d all riot

SAYAN KÖTÖR FADING AWAY NOOOO I HATE SEEING DÆMONS DIE

Okay, last little gripe, but I just wanted to say that in the book, Will doesn’t realize it’s his dad until literally the last second before his dad dies - like they both realize and then BAM, Jopari is killed. And while I do love the father-son reunion, I am kind of annoyed by the change because it was such a huge punch in the gut in the book that Will searches for so long for his dad, only to lose him the second he finds him.

Serafina finding Lee’s body and kissing his forehead was yet another punch in the gut, thanks Pullman/BBC/BadWolf

The fact that Will had to bury his dad :(

Also, WILL WEARING JOPARI’S JACKET OH MY GOD MY HEART

Oof that shot of his amputated fingers...

So the narration, when it started I thought it was Jopari at first, like from one of his letters... but then as it continued, I went “hang on”, and then I said outloud “wait, is that ASRIEL?!”

DID MARISA REALLY PUT LYRA IN A FUCKING TRUNK?!? BITCH ARE YOU OKAY?!?

Will putting his hood up like his dad did just hits differently

Okay so um ASRIEL HI I WASN’T EXPECTING TO SEE YOU THIS SEASON OH MY GOD THE SCREAM I LET OUT

HIS MONOLOGUE BY THE WAY IS FUCKING ART AND A MASTERPIECE BUT I WAS TOO BUSY CRYING OVER JAMES MCAVOY TO WRITE THE WHOLE MONOLOGUE DOWN

Oh, hi Stelmaria!

It always makes me scream that this man is not only Lord Asriel now but he’s also fucking Mr Tumnus and MOTHERFUCKING BILL DENBROUGH LIKE HOW IS THIS MAN INVOLVED IN SO MANY OF MY FANDOMS?!?

ANGELS ANGELS OH MY FUCKING GOD-

“We stand with you, Asriel Belacqua” - AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

“Let us prepare for war” - FUUUUUUUUCK

(I was deadly serious when I said this was just me screaming and crying by the way)

I’m still reeling over the fact that Marisa put her daughter in a fucking trunk. Like I get you can’t exactly carry a drugged child about in the open but Jesus Christ, love, really?!?

Also Ruth Wilson / Marisa Coulter in a headscarf? *chef kiss*

The way that the screen went to black as she put the lid on the trunk down - SHIT OH SHIT GOOSEBUMPS

THE CREDIT SONG IS SO BEAUTIFUL BECAUSE IT HAS FUCKING ANGELS NOW I’M-

I WASN’T EXPECTING THE POST CREDITS SCENE OH MY GOD

ROGER?! ROGER! IT’S ROGER I’M NOT OKAY-

BBC YOU CANNOT JUST DROP THAT ON US LIKE THAT FUCK-

“What is this place?” - I’M SCREAMING SO LOUD I CAN’T HOLD IT IN

For anyone unaware, the reason I’m screaming so loud over the post-credits scene is because in TAS, while Lyra is drugged and in a groggy sleep, she has these visions of Roger talking to her from the Land of the Dead, which then later leads to her and Will actually GOING to the Land of the Dead and... well, the rest is even HUGER spoilers but YEAH I’M NOT OKAY.

Honestly, I’m just so happy and emotional because I’ve been waiting over a decade for a decent adaptation of not only NL but for TSK and TAS too, and we’re 2/3 there now. Just one more book/series to go... I wish we could have it now. I really hope that filming for the final one starts ASAP because if we have to wait two years just to see the conclusion to this series, I might cry.

This series is so amazing, and this season especially has been so incredible to watch. It’s been the highlight of my week for seven weeks, and I have no idea what I’ll do with my Sundays now that it’s over. I’ve asked for the DVD for S2 for my birthday already (since it comes out 29th December and my birthday is 13th January... just saying), and words can’t describe how much I do love this series. I know it sounds hollow since I say it about so many things I’m into, but this was such a huge part of my childhood and it’s one of my favourite fantasy series of all time. It’s truly one of the most incredible pieces of literature and now it’s making for incredible television... I love it so much.

[kojinnie]

dearest kojin!

first of all, i assume you are very nice to be around. that you have a calming air around you and it'll help me feel safe and sound with you. 💗

second secondly, i think you are very hospitable. if someone comes to visit you, you will take good care of them.

and lastly, i assume you are mentally very strong and determined. if you set yourself a goal, you will eventually reach it.

sorry if this doesn't make any sense i just woke up ahah

love you kojin, i hope you're doing well. 💗

My sweet Lisa-bo, consider me FLATTERED. Uhm, accurate I guess? I wanna say so but don't wanna sound vain like "My moots think I'm nice and hell yeah I'm gonna bask in it!" which is exactly what I'm doing rn, urgh.

Am I calming? Am I? I think so, I don't make a lot of noise unless provoked. And bet you I can make you feel safe! I kin with Azula from TLOA for a reason 😡🤘

I can be quite hospitable, but it usually needs to pass through a lot of inner debate, like "Does this person think I'm okay? If I be friendly towards her will she think I'm annoying? Okay I'll judge by the way she responds to my hello..." which often resulted me in being guarded and formal with new people. EXHAUSTING I KNOW.

People have come up to me and say that I'm a strong person, so I guess it looks like so? I mean I try to be, but there are times when I just wanna burn a house down and let Lawyer!Reiner defend me in court and hug me while I curse/cry myself to sleep. Idk. Life is tiring sometimes. Anyway thanks a lot Lisa, please send my love to Kathe too 😚

What's your assumption of me?

[easypeasybreezy]

Would love to know about: nopenopenooenononono, what the hell and sigh idk

Thank you! Oh boy, there’s a lot here lol. 

Let’s start with what the hell. That is a sabriel, slight crack fic where Gabe asks Sam to scratch his back. That's literally it. Here's a preview-

“Gabriel, what are you doing?” Sam asked, confused at the sight.

“I’ve got an itch on my back!” he replied, continuing to writhe against the bed, “I-urgh- can’t reach it. I need you to scratch it.”

Sam sighed. “You woke me up for this? Can’t you just snap something up to do it?”

“It’s not the same, Sam! Please?” said Gabriel, his voice growing desperate.

Yep haha. Now sigh idk. That was like a, reaction to s14. They had to get Gabriel back to fix heaven, and Sam and Rowena were gonna do a spell to wake up him in the empty. Basically they needed someone with a strong emotional attachment to Gabe for it to work, and Sam was it. It may have ended up Sam/Gabe/Rowena.

Nowww, the nopes. Yeah, idk where this came from. Its the one attempt at smut I have haha 😅 And would you know it, the pairing is Loki/Sam. It's just pwp, probably never gonna be seen.

Sorry that took awhile, I was working on it lol.

[njmphadora]

RULES || copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours, and when you are done tag people and also tag the person who tagged you… and most importantly, have fun!

tagged by @fleurrdelacour (omg malia ty angel <3333 ps some of your answers made me giggle a lot ty for that :*)

tagging: @fleurrdelacour & my five most recent mutuals - @emma-watson @gatsvy @flintxsilver @newtscamamder @quillandwand (obvsly u don’t have to) (just would be nice to get to know you guys better) :)))

a - age: twenty b - biggest fear: needles/papercuts/anything that slices through skin really c - current time: nine thirty pm d - drink you last had: fruity tea i don't remember what flavour e - every day starts with: coffee and special k f - favorite song: i literally just don't have a favourite i'm sorry g - ghosts, are they real: umm i p sure they're not ??? idk i'm really not spiritual or anything h - hometown: london, uk :) i - in love with: my byf and my bf and honestly all of y'all on here ^_^ j - jealous of: blair waldorf k - killed someone: lmao no i'm wEAK l - last time you cried: sunday (oops) m - middle name: rachel n - number of siblings: three half-siblings o - one wish: to live a less stressful life p - person you last called/texted: my boyfriend lmao he's pretty much the only person i respond to most of the time (i'm terrible) q - questions you’re always asked: WHat is this lie ?? who would be interested in me??? honestly tho none tbh... r - reasons to smile: because life keeps turning and things get better and my boyfriend idolises me and if that does't make life worth living then what would and tbh the people i've met on here... they make me smile so often... thank y'all :) s - song last sang: "i could have danced all night" from my fair lady bc i changed the word danced to slept because i was sleepy t - time you woke up: 8:30am kill me u - underwear color: black and blue, all my colourful ones are in the wash aLAS v - vacation destination: i'd frickin love to see new york tbh w - worst habit: probably ignoring people lmao lmao lmao (laughing through my shame) x - x-rays you’ve had: urgh they always xray my chest when i have a cough so i've had a few of those but that's it y - your favorite food: spagbol or biscuits (if there's tea involved) z - zodiac sign: aries

[xxlyyxx-blog]

convo w fij via tele

him: morning al

me: morning too. wait ah, i scan my tele at pc first and print out the orders dulu

him: i didnt know you can do that with tele. i can see someone woke up early today. congrats

me: didn’t know about it either. told ya i installed them a day before you did and its all for work purposes only. well thanks?

him: aah so tele allows you to do anything other than letting me flirt w you? 🤔

me: wait! aah, someone just admit that he’s flirting with me

him: or you actually knew but pretends to know nothing?

me: idk. thought you just wanna talk to me. yknow, like catching up with old friends kind of convo. am i wrong?

him: you’re exactly right. but…theres a but

me: but what?

him: a lil bit of me trying to flirt. hahahahaha idk what im doing 🤦🏻‍♂️

me: wont get hooked no matter how hard you tried. dont think too much then, just go w the flow. im not even bother

him: well theres no harm trying right? hahahaha yo just pretend we never talk about this.

me: why?

him: bcus it starting to feel awkward hahahaha

me: okay then. lets talk abt smth else

him: hows your day going?

me: good. you?

him: it went well so far. just cant accept the fact that i have to start working malam ani. can you give me some ideas on what songs should i download? 🤔

me: its okay. you still got plenty of time to chill. hm lets see, what genre are you into btw?

him: when everyone else is sleeping thats is when i start my shift. except for you tho, bcus you dont know how to sleep early. gimme any. as long as bukan dangdut or bida bida. latest one pls

me: now youve learned smth new about me then

him: gotta dig more

me: *bagi ia list lagu*

him: damn girl. plenty of good songs

me: you havent even listen to them yet

him: well i know some 😒

me: such as?

him: lana del ray, max, yuna

me: then i dont have to tell you anymore

him: urgh. aku minta suggestions. bukan kan kau marahi hahaha. have you eaten babe?

me: im not even mad 😒

him: bah awu awuu, antam pulang karang

me: sorry if im bored type of person to talk to

him: no you’re not. dont look down on yourself. have some confidence. youre just playing hard to get. hahahaha

me: im not. apa tahu mu ah

him: eh tahu lah ku. kau ani inda pandai break kah?

me: what do you know about me then? pandai eh. wai?

him: hm i can see that you’re beautiful? well I did asked, but it was skipped

me: dude, ppl can tell that youre blind or in love. cut the shit off and pull your shit together

him: hahahaha in love. thats way too far for now. blind? not really. i know what im seeing

me: im talking abt my personality not my appearance since you said you know me

him: i know. but i refused to talk about your personality. bcus you too refused to show it to me. hahahahaha

me: okay then. told ya theres nothing nice to show

him: there is. if not, you won’t be in relationship before. thats mean someone can see smth in you. its just they dont know how to appreciate it. that is what ive thought about you

[hayjeon]

I'm gonna pass out bc i was masturbating at night just now when my roommate was asleep and I didn't realize how loud the volume was even tho i had headphones in and im so afraid she woke up. And I just came on this blog and read that ask about that happened to you djsjshdkskfjd. Omg i feel so bad, so sorry if this is tmi

Urgh!!! How do I answer this D: So def I don’t want to hurt your feelings so pls just read this with discretion...but I need to address this...I was disturbed because my roommate and I had never had that discussion before about sex or masturbation. But if you and your roommate believe that you’re comfortable enough to do that then I guess it’s ok. But things like that are incredibly private parts of our lives so unless you have permission or a healthy discussion, it’s a bit intrusive (?). It’s fine if you want to do it in secret, as in trying your hardest to be discrete or whatever but honestly it’s just super weird and places your roommate in an awkward situation if you do it with her in the room too. My roommate was just...a little loud(?) she was breathing really loud and her bed and whatever pair of pajama shorts would make such a repetitive noise it woke me up and kept me up til she finished. And because I didn’t want to make it awkward I couldn’t say or do anything besides just lay there and try to fall asleep. It’s just disturbing because it’s a part of her life we haven’t agreed on sharing together as roommates and it happened out of the blue, and almost every night. imo, for you, I just suggest being very careful and if you really think she found out, talk to her about it or even just stop doing it in your room. I know it’s hard but that’s part of the agreement you have when you agree to share living spaces with another person. Do it in the shower!!! Or do it when she’s not home!! Trust me if i can do it, you can too, and she can too. I just imagine that if it’s something I’m not comfortable doing in front of family, then I shouldn’t do it at all in front of my roommate out of respect for her. Dirty laundry and a little mess is okay, but cursing and refusing to cooperate and masturbating in front of them is not something I’d do out of my own will. Idk it depends on how you think about it :/

[i-smile-so-i-must-be-fine]

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say? hmm i probably wouldn’t complain to say she’s my fiance 

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed? engaged

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care? probably 

4. Is your last name longer than six letters? 6 letters exact 

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober? sober 

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up? more than a few times 

7. What does your last received text say? yea will do 

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed? we’ve been together a year and 3 months so a lot in that space of time 

9. Where was your last kiss at? my bedroom 

10. When is the last time you saw your sister? i don’t have one 

11. What do you drink in the morning? sometimes tea and sometimes red bull 

12. Where did you sleep last night? my bed 

13. Do you think relationships are hard? not if you work on them 

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? nope 

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems? none at all.. sounds perfect 

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy? rain if im not going out

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you? a fair few people 

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants? neither 

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now? i hope we will be married by then 

20. Does anyone like you? i hope she does.. been together for quite a while so i’m guessing so 

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S? absolutely still do so now @searchingtheskyforstars​

22. Is the last person you kissed gay? absolutely 

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand? yep 

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo? i have 8 

25. In the past week have you cried? maybe 

26. What breed was the last dog you saw? staffy cross 

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower? out 

28. Have you ever kissed a football player? urgh 

29. Do you think you’re old? a little 

30. Do you like text messaging? yea 

31. What type of day are you having? its been okay 

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced? nope 

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather? middle 

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you? my son 

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling? relationship 

36. Are you a simple or complicated person? complicated 

37. What song are you listening to? nothing atm 

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it? most of the time  39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you? absolutely  40. What made you start liking the person you like now? her personality when we started talking, she just made me smile from the start and then we met.. and i just thought shes hot.. and it just all made sense the way she was with my son  41. When did you last receive a text message? 2 seconds ago  42. What is wrong with you right now? nothing  43. How well do you know the last female you texted? very well  44. Does anyone disgust you? a few people  45. Would you date someone right now if they asked? already taken  46. Are you in a good mood right now? its an ok mood  47. Who was the last person you talked to in person? possibly my mum  48. What color shirt are you wearing? grey and black  49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear? idk  50. Anyone you’re giving up on? does myself count?  51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for? nope 

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t? ive given up on several people  53. Do you like rain? yea  54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks? not really  55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them? yea  56. Do you like to cuddle? my cuddles are the best  57. Are you shy? sometimes  58. Do you get along with girls? yea  59. Have you dated the person you texted last? still together  60. What do you carry with you at all times? phone, ipod, bus pass, money  61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you? as long as shauna is with me  62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months? have done  63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship? yep  64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute? sooo cute  65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week? my girl just been amazing 

66. How old are the last two people you kissed? 2 (on the head) and hes my son 20 

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?   neither    68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?     not really a fan of either  69. Do you have any stickers on your car?     can’t drive  70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?     neither  71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?     iphone  72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?   its been a while   73. Do you like diet soda?     no  74. What color are the walls in your room?     white  75. Are you 16 or older?     older  76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?     i have done in the past  77. Do you have a job?     nope   78. What are your initials?     JC 79. Did you ever have braces?     no 80. Are you from the south?     no

81. What does your last status on facebook say?     when charlie refuses to sit on the potty because its wet and raining outside  82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?     nope  83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?     mum  84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?     gymnastics  85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?     can’t remember  86. Do you smoke?     used to 

87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?     flip flops  88. Is your phone touch screen?     yep  89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?     straight 90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?     erm can’t remember  91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?     pool 92. Have you ever made out in a car?     i’ve kissed someone in the car  93. …Had sex in a car?     no  94. Are you single or in a relationship?     relationship  95. What were you doing last night at midnight?     playing a game  96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?     bonfiree night  97. Do you like the camera on your phone?     its decent 98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?     no 99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?   yep    100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?     probably  101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?   funny story i actually was pregnant    102. Name your favorite Kesha song:   not a fan of her music   103. Do you have any tan lines right now?   its fading    104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?     no