#unsent email

[emeraldanthonygarcia]

Do it. It's more freeing than getting home after a long day at work. It's more therapeutic than a hundred doctor visits. It's more relaxing than watching that "let's play" you've been half-heartedly enduring because you heard the game was good(looking at you fire emblem engage! Your gameplay looks fun as heck, but your story is terrible!)... I'm ranting, I don't apologize. My point is write IT, whatever 'IT' is you don't have to post it. It can be your little secret. It doesn't even have to be on your computer! Use your pens/pencils/crayons/markers. Use your tears, use the blood of your enemies! Just remember to have fun with what you write.

Don't you sometimes get an absolutely extrodinary, mind blowing, such an awesome idea for a story, but you just don't have enough skill level to pull it off?

[unsentmails]

They’re just blowing smoke

I’ll say what they won’t,

I know everything they don’t.

[froget-me-nots]

just wrote an email to someone in my group project and DIDN'T end it with an offer to do the entire project myself. win.

[spotforme]

feeling like i'll fall asleep next to the washer if i stay here any longer because i can hear water, i hear water

[ateacuptalking]

hear me out: it’s becca bell to andie bell after… ya know

i will NEVER get over the bell sisters

"when all i do is think about the past and haunt a house nobody lives in"

except it's regulus to sirius after he left

[hepbaestus]

I'm actually a dumbass.

I completely forgot to send the learning contract, the main thing that I need to start research for my dissertation (or IRP as my uni calls it), to my supervisor.

I hate my brain.

[ateacuptalking]

SPOILERS FOR AGGGTM & AGAD!!:

sighhh just reread the agggtm books.

the bell sisters have my entire heart. how they both felt so alone at their lowest point. how andie was doing everything for sal and her sister just so they could have a happy life, but then one watched/let her die and the other was killed and framed because of said death. no one got to have their happy ending D:

AND DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THE PARALLELS BETWEEN ANDIE AND PIP!! they deserved sm more ARGGGGHHHHH! THEY WERE JUST TRYING TO DO WHAT WAS RIGHT AND KEEP THEIR LOVED ONES SAFE, BUT OFC PROBLEMATIC MEN HAVE TO TRY AND RUIN THEIR LIVES (I'm looking at you max hastings and jason bell) and so they are fucking fearing for their lives, but literally can't do ANYTHING until it gets to the point of deciding either kill or be killed because the justice & police system SUCKS.

(also i'm in no way saying what andie did to nat da silva was right, i love nat, but still there was so much going on in andie's life that unignorable and i think about that 24/7)

[aeide-thea]

lol schumer sent me back a really mealy-mouthed response to my signature on an anti-KOSA petition so i went to his website and sent him another email about it. will this have any impact? probably not, but it was satisfying.

also lol i c/p'd what i'd written before sending bc i was curious abt what i'd been angrily yelling into the text field and it's uh. longer than i thought and also almost sounds adult??? wild.

There is no way for websites to distinguish between adult and minor users without forcing everyone who signs up to provide their legal ID, which will put an enormous amount of sensitive personal information about our identities and preferences in the hands of corporations who have done nothing to demonstrate they can be trusted with it. No social media website should be able to connect posts that reveal e.g. a marginalized sexuality or gender status back to the poster's offline identity. You wrote: "[T]he KOSA would require social platforms to provide minors with options to protect their information, disable addictive product features, and opt-out of algorithmic recommendations." Frankly, these are options that should be provided to all users of these platforms, regardless of age; making these tools available across the board, without inquiring into users' age or identity, would protect children and adults alike. That's legislation I'd support. I take this issue very seriously. Internet freedom was critical to my self-discovery as a teenager, and I'm vehemently against seeing that stifled for future generations (not to mention for those of us still using the internet today!); in addition, past well-intended legislation like FOSTA/SESTA has had a crippling impact on freedom of expression and safety, while not, in fact, accomplishing its intended purpose; please see https://aidsunited.org/fosta-sesta-and-its-impact-on-sex-workers/ for a discussion of this. Similarly, I have no confidence that KOSA would even protect the minors it's intended to help—what would stop them from just entering their parents' information to create accounts on age-restricted websites? Please do more than "closely monitor [the] progress [of this bill] through the Senate": please do some real thinking about the implications of this bill, especially for Americans in red states getting snowed under by homophobic, transphobic, antichoice legislation, and speak out against it. In what's nominally the land of the free, we deserve better than legislation intended to suppress and surveil. Thanks very much for your attention to this issue.

[badger-with-a-boa]

I'm shaking

FROM SO MUCH EXCITEMENT

[nohkalikai]

this is the week where i live out being a tantrum throwing petulant bitch baby who refuses to do all tasks

[crestofshame]

Just had one of the scariest online experience of my life

[defsiarte]

gonna piss myself. gmail my enemy

[system-reset]

unspoken truths

hi [mother]. it's me, your eldest spawn. I'm 19 now, and I'm sure you've erased me from your memory by now. you won't ever recieve this email, but I figured I'd write it anyway. so... here goes nothing.

you told me growing up that you loved me. you told me that love was unconditional. it was supposed to be. a mothers love is not meant to have prerequisites. but the truth is you never were a mother, and your love was just a contract with rules. you were a puppetmaster. you built a shell for me, and when I grew too large for it you denied me further care.

what you wanted wasn't a child, you wanted a clay soldier you could mold into any shape. and when I had learned enough about the world to begin to understand my place as my own person, you grew cold.

we were sat in the car one day, and I asked what your biggest mistake was. you told me "it's sitting in the back seat." you meant me. I want to believe you're ignorant of the damage that did. I want to believe you're unaware of the pain you caused when you called me retarded "as a joke" at the dinner table every night. I have to believe you don't understand that you broke me, because if you do know then... you must have done it on purpose.

people used to ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I'd tell them pretty lies, "an artist," I'd say, but really? all I ever wanted was to be enough for you. all I ever wanted was for you to care for me like a mother cares for her child. but you never did.

sometimes people ask what one thing I'd do if I had no restrictions. if I could do anything, without worrying about the limits of physics. I often say silly things like "shapeshift" or things that could benefit everybody like "end world hunger." but the bitter truth of it is that if I could do anything I wanted, I'd get away from you.

because, though we're distant geographically and we don't communicate with one another, though you have found peace in a life without the burden of a child whose mind is his own, I can never escape you. half my thoughts are still just the awful things you said to me, bouncing around in my skull. I still feel worthless. I still feel like I'll never be good enough. I still feel like a mistake.

so while you sit there with your one remaining marionette, I want you to think about all of this. I want you to think about the damage you've done. I want you to feel like you've fucked up significantly. because you have. and you're still doing it.

I may not believe it yet, and you may never believe it, but I am enough and I am worth the effort it takes to love.

[unsentmails]

dear you,

i hate you for leaving, and i hate me for crying.

[thatforgottenbasilisk]

. the projected-to-be 6 chapter afohiko fic is now over a year old with no updates. :/

... i did say it would take a while

[spotforme]

i've decided now's the perfect time to start making comics