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cursezoroark · 2 months ago
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OoooOoOooo.....you wanna make an oc x canon ship with Taka sooooo bad.....join meeeeeee/ silly.
But uh. Yeah. Unless Mercury does get hit with sledgehammer I don't. Know if it'll work hgvhvgvgvcg. It's really dependent on what you do with them lol.
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SEE ok the thing is. I think Taka does like Mercury romantically. The entire time in the desert as I was playing I was thinking “is he flirting. Is he flirting in a rlly sad way.” And then the train car scene happened and I died. I was charmed. I’m so easily charmed by sad pathetic men. I give him a little kiss. I knew he was getting stabbed later though so rip to him.
But Mercury is like. poison in a bottle that isn’t neutralized yet and they Know they would probably be bad for him. They probably have an idea about it. But they don’t engage w it because 1. They’re in the fucking desert and got electrocuted to hell and back + wow that’s a beheaded person! they need some quiet. And 2. They actually like Taka as a person, and wants them to be on their level. They don’t think they’re good for him in that manner. They like having someone that knows what it’s like to (REDACTED) so. rare scenario where they’re unsure how to approach this.
ah but don’t get me wrong they do find him attractive. But not in the sentimental value (as of me writing this). I don’t know I can’t rlly see Mercury fully going all mushy romance rlly. U have to work rlly hard to charm a charmer. Either have smth severely wrong w u (Flora lmaooo) or be someone painfully earnest. Which Taka is slowly turning to be. But again, Mercury’s a person I slam down who doesn’t “want to be tied down”. Whether or not that changes (and even if it’s w Taka) is up in the air.
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pallases · 2 years ago
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okay guys i have calculated it all out and even if i get a big fat zero on this race i will still earn a b in the class assuming i get 100% on the other remaining three assignments two of which are a given for 100% and the last of which is like. even if we get a 75% on it (which i do not really see happening) i can still scrape by w a b-
#personal#the engineering chronicles#tbh makes me feel SOOO much better like it will still suck to get a zero on basically our final exam (but it isn’t like weighed like a#final exam we can fail it and still pass as long as doing so doesn’t bring our team assignment average down below 70% which it doesn’t in#these calculations) but like. at least it will not lead to me failing the whole class yknow WRDJFN#on the flipside if we get 100% on the race my grade will boost just enough to take it from an a- to an a. but i do not foresee that#happening LMAO we would have to earn first for that which. our robot is barely functioning atm as it is#whatever i had going on last week was FINE it was not perfect but it was working. then we redesigned and it has all gone to hell 😐 AND we#all have like separate redesigns now which! we cannot do for the race! they need to be identical!#and BEFORE the race we need to submit an assignment that’s like. ‘here’s what our final identical robot design is’ w a SHIT ton of cad#models and drawings. and the race is on saturday. and as none of us have decided on a design yet that works for all of us. we have not#started this giant assignment yet. which. hello#it’s so bad. don’t even get me started on my unrelated exam on friday and also a final paper again on friday… 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 death#this class has actually taken over my life like most of the time it literally feels like i am not enrolled in anything else. which is like i#am SO lucky none of my other classes are giving me trouble but also. it makes me wonder. how i would be doing if i had chosen another major.#not even one outside of stem like linguistics is my only non stem class this semester and i am straight up vibing in everything except this#robotics class. and that can be said for most of the engineering classes ive taken where they’re really the Only classes that give me any#problems. like how stress free would i be rn if i had picked chemistry or applied mathematics or smth 🤨#but also i don’t regret it. i mean i am learning so so much that i never would have imagined knowing how to do a year ago. but also. AAAAAAA
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kindacreepy-kindaugly · 8 months ago
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#the dream we had last night#idk if any of it was rly anything more than the mishmash of thoughts n feelings n themes that dreams usually are#cause in the dream we.....begged whoever remembers it to tell us who it was. when it happened. WHAT happened#n there wasn't rly an answer but this. flashback or dream inside the dream.#no identity just this....shadowy person n i think he said things that we couldn't remember when wakin up#n i know it coulda been parsed from different unrelated memories but we felt it. no pain but the rest.#n it's rly rly rly fucking w/ me not knowing if it was just a senseless dream or if it was a message#it's not a who or when but it could be part of what#or it could be nothing i don't fucking KNOW#therapist asked us last time if we have any thoughts on what might've triggered the sudden increase in the intrusive thoughts etc#n we just said we don't know. cause we don't rly but. she didn't ask if it coulda been cause of what we talked about the time before#n idk if that's cause she didn't wanna put any unfounded suspicions in our head#or cause she suspects that was the reason but it wasn't safe for us to know#or i guess it coulda just been that she didn't even make the possible connection at all but idk that doesn't seem very likely#god i wish this was all just about me though. at least i was a grown ass adult when any of it started#i'd carry it all w/ a smile if it meant none of the kids had to. but it doesn't work that way does it#i just.....don't know if my entire role here is to be a substitute for the feelings. or am i meant to become a gateway to the real thing#could we just remember the what n maybe when but not who? that way we could at least start processing it w/o messing w/ the balance too much#also could we at least. remember if the bordering on paranoid delusions beliefs are smth we were actually told.#or are they just the result of a kid tryin to make sense of things that they had no chance of makin sense of#nothing fucking makes sense#spdrvent
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httpsserene · 6 months ago
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𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐨𝐰𝐧 - 𝐥𝐬. 𝟏𝟖 | 𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝟒𝟎𝟒: 𝐏𝐍𝐅 |
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𝐞𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝟒𝟎𝟒: ��𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 - 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐞
summary: after all of the trials, tribulations, and failed relationships of your life, you deserve your happy ending. content warning: soft launch and hard launch. sibling dynamics (bullying). reader's mom. puns. happily ever after. elden-ring dlc spoilers! (ik it came out very recently but we’re pretending it’s older in this universe). profanity. a couple suggestive lines. attempt at humor. alcohol (reader gets drunk on nye). pairing: lance stroll x fem!black!reader
from serene: the insane amount of work i did to make fake clips of a twitch stream…there’s most definitely an easier way to do it. unrelated: i did not think a lewham win was in the cards this year, but i'm so fucking happy that he did win silverstone! of any race, i'm glad it was that one. finishing up toasty part two today, so expect it to drop tomorrow or the day after that! and most importantly, enjoy this final installment of error 404: plot not found xxx
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twitter • ynplays • december 27th
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instagram • ynfanaccount • december 27th
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ynfanaccount: the three most popular clips from yn's twitch stream today! can you see a theme?
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user1: lance liked this!!!
➥ user2: do you think he watched the stream :(
➥ user3: girl. i think he watched IRL. that was definitely a man's voice in the third clip! you can kinda hear him at the very start!
user4: don't know what's worse: yn lying to us about having a date for nye or yn gaslighting us into believing that was her sister smh
➥ yoursister: i'm not even at her house rn 🤔
➥ ynplays: whaTCHU OUT HERE BEING MESSY FOR??!
➥ user4: exposed by your own sister
➥ user5: L + ratio
➥ user6: ynnnnnnn who was thatttttttt
user7: so we can all agree that she was talking to lance in that last clip :o
➥ user8: um no. he's still in canada. yn seems like the type to have already moved on to a different man 🙄🥱
➥ user9: who the fuck are you? you must be new around here if you're deciding to talk crazy.
➥ user10: and how TF do you know that lance is still in canada? r u stalking him or smth? last clip, turn up your volume, clear as day you can hear yn almost say his name
➥ user11: worst take i've heard so far @/user8 delete your account 🤡🤡🤡
igstory • ynplays uploaded!
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[caption1; when he gifts you flowers just because >>>>] [caption2; wild baby sega posing pretty in the snow 🥺]
yourbestie: answer my fucking facetime neOWW YOU WHORE
yourfriend1: "he" as in lance stroll, the f1 driver that flew all the way from canada to see you and prove that a long distance relationship with him is worth it and he also begged for you to cuddle him live on your twitch stream, gifted you flowers just because? ynplays: he *allegedly begged for me to cuddle him. you couldn't really hear it on the stream 🤓☝🏽 youfriend1: OMG ITS ACTUALLY HM INN YOUR HOUSE U LYING SNAKE yourfriend1: oh your sister is going to kill you rip 😔
yourfriend2: oh wow lance...i didn't expect him to be a returning love interest at all (sarcasm) yourfriend2: put my niece on the phone 🥱 ynplays: sega is not your niece ynfriend2: PUT MY FUR-NIECE ON THE PHONE BEFORE I STEAL HER 👺
yoursister: omw. ynplays: m not opening the door yoursister: okay? lance will open it for me ynplays: not if he doesn't want me to die he won't ynsister: if he wants to live, he will. also you gave me a key ✨
lilymhe: can't wait to see you in the paddock next year 😘 ynplays: wtf. you know who i am😨 lilymhe: alex gossips VERY loudly with george liymhe: also i love the unedited skincare & makeup videos you make, they feel like girlhood honestly ynplays: going to faint rq brb
instagram • lancestroll • dec28th • where i'm supposed to be ⚑
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lancestroll: reconnecting
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estebanocon: seems better 😁
➥ lancestroll: yes you were right okay thank you
➥ user12: right about what?
➥ user13: think it's a refrence to esteban's reply on lance's previous post!
fernandoalonso: that pizza looks mid.
➥ lancestroll: what
➥ user14: IJBOL 😂😂😂
➥ user15: it feels like i just heard my parents using slang
➥ user16: that's my favorite rookie 🙂‍↕️
user17: okay yn's best friend liked!
➥ user18: soft launch radar: SCREAMING 🔊🎚️
➥ user19: does this count as a sl? it's more like a deluxe edition to an album
➥ user20: it's giving album repackaging
➥ user18: i think it's cute that he's still doing a sl !! i'm just happy they're getting back together 😌
user21: LANCE the bouquet you gifted her was sooo pretty!
➥ user22: my boyfriend has to step the fuck up (the location on this too 😭😭😭)
➥ user23: bro there's no conformation he even gave her those 😒
➥ user24: are you blind 🤨? you need to get your eyes checked fr @/user23
➥ user21: ain't it funny? how the non-believers have fallen so low into their delusion...
twitter • december 28th
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instagram • ynplays • dec 30th • happy ⚑
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ynplays: yes, i have a date for my new year's party: it's the 31st! 🥳🥳🥳
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alexandrasaintmleux: i can treat you better than him 😩
➥ lilymhe: she's mine 😡
➥ ynplays: but pookies :( don't fight
➥ alexandrasaintmleux: okay kitten whiskers :(
➥ lilymhe: hmph. as long as you don't forget that you were daddy's first 😤
➥ user25: if i didn't know the shrek reference i'd be calling the cops
yoursister: you will send that poor man to an early grave
➥ yoursister: at least you're raising his blood pressure and not mine
➥ yourbestie: i'm just happy i'm not getting the video game rage texts anymore
➥ ynplays: haters (i love you both)
➥ yoursister: it takes the same amount of energy to love or or hate and i will always chose hate when it's you (i love you more)
➥ yourbestie: it's a consequence of cutting my hair off when we were three (ditch your man so we can have a sleepover please)
user26: lame ass dad joke in the caption
➥ ynplays: i thought it was funny 😕
➥ yourfriend1: it wasn't 👎🏽
➥ yourfriend2: should've asked the gc b4 you posted 🤷‍♀️
user27: so we all just ignoring her asking him for nudes…
➥ user28: and what about it???
➥ user29: you're just mad you don't have anybody to send you smth naughty
➥ user30: you notice how he didn't say no tho 👀👀
user31: nonchalant boyfriend core
➥ user32: nonchalant boyfriend & gamer girlfriend >>>
➥ user33: like, he just always in his own world, he rly quiet fr unless he know u
➥ user34: he funny asl tho if he know u type shit
user35: adding this to my lance stroll x reader fic
➥ user36: you couldn't WATERBOARD this info out of me 😭
➥ user37: lance stroll boyfriend aesthetic
➥ user38: ...aye dm a link to that fic LOL ☠️☠️☠️
igstory • ynplays uploaded!
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[caption; ui i Lov myy bfrikenddd!!!?! happy new yrsss, ocme give me a KISS labbceyyyy]
lancestroll: i leave you with your sister for 2 seconds to use the bathroom lancestroll: you're super adorable when you're drunk lancestroll: i'll get you some water and come give you a kiss mon coeur lancestroll: you're so pretty
user39: something tells me you will not be able to stream tomorrow
user40: PUT THAT DOWN !!! ts is bigger than your HEAD GIRL
instagram • lancestroll and ynplays • january 1st • my heart ⚑
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lancestroll and ynplays: you guys haven't seen us together since last year 🤪😅
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📌 lancestroll: yn's still passed out from last night but she wanted me to tell you guys that she will still be streaming tonight
➥ lancestroll: (you didn't hear this from me but she is definitely not going to be able to 🫥)
➥ user41: LMAO tell her to rest well
➥ user42: make sure she drinks lots and lots of water
➥ user43: thank u for the update messenger bf lance!!!
lewishamilton: happy it worked out for you man
➥ lancestroll: me too 😁
➥ user44: ik lewis mad as hell he didn't find yn before lance LMAOO 😭😭😭
twitch: now when are we seeing you two play overcooked on stream?
➥ lancestroll: she gets mad at me in animal crossing so i don't think it'll be in my best interests to play overcooked with her
➥ user45: yeah that game tears marriages apart
nhl: can't wait to see you guys rink side together - admin
➥ user46: nhl admin is one of us
yourfriend1: WHAT A HAPPY NEW YEAR 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽
➥ yourbestie: glad to start the year knowing i will NEVER have to sit through another vacation fling ever again
➥ yoursister: well,,,what if i want to find love on vacay?
➥ yourfriend1: NO
➥ yourfriend2: UH UH
➥ yourbestie: H-H-HELL NAW ❌❌❌‼️‼️
user47: i love when soft launches only last for a few days
user48: i saw this and smiled like i had anything to do with them getting together
➥ user49: nodded my head like i know them personally 😌
instagram • ynplays • january 1st • where love grows ⚑
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ynplays: yeah yeah yeah stream is cancelled tn (my head is about to combust) to make up for it, canada vlog is premiering tonight 💁🏾‍♀️
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lancestroll: do i get vip on twitch yet?
➥ ynplays: i'll teach you how to mod too
➥ user50: modern day love story 👩🏾‍❤️‍💋‍���🏻
➥ user51: discord mod and kitten ts
➥ ynplays: 🤢🤢🤮🤮
lilymhe: i got early access to this video, we are NOT the same xxx
➥ alexandrasaintmleux: i got it too, so we are the same x
➥ user52: damn they really tussling over yn???
➥ user53: can't blame them, i would do the same 💆🏾‍♀️
yourbestie: i feel like i should've gotten more screen time in this vid 🤔
➥ yourfriend1: speak on it bc when she wasn't with lance she was with us being annoying asl🥴
➥ yourfriend2: are we losing the friend group leader to a man? never thought she'd fall so far from grace...
➥ ynplays: friend group leader is CRAZY n y'all just happy to use me for clout huh 😤
yoursister: didn't realize we were returning to clickbait storytime yt era
➥ yoursister: sucks to see how unreletable you've become 😔
➥ ynplays: im going home and stealing ALL my clothes back
➥ yoursister: i misspoke, i apologize for my words *plays ukulele*
➥ user54: believe it or not this is love 🤓
yourmom: lance, thank you for giving my daughter the love and care she deserves x
➥ ynplays: mom this is my post???
➥ lancestroll: of course ma'am. i'll love her tirelessly
➥ ynplays: i'll love you endlessly baby 🥹
user55: HAPPY NEW YEAR YNNNNN
➥ ynplays: thank you my love! i wish you the best year everrrr
➥ user56: happy new year yn stans we up haters stay down
user57: i didn't think we'd get a vlog!!! ilysm ynnnn
➥ user58: best content creator out rn hand down
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niki-phoria · 2 years ago
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Hi hi hi !! Can you do a scenario where chishiya's gn! s/o (who's normally sweet and sunshiney) finally snaps and cusses someone out or smth? I thought it would be p funny lmaosjsks (also unrelated but like who's ur txt bias)
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i'm so obsessed with doctor chishiya you don't understand
pairing: chishiya x gn!reader (they/them pronouns used once) genre: fluff word count: 1.3k
warnings: not canon compliant, pretend this is before chishiya also starts sacrificing people ig ??, canon typical violence, death, cussing, i can't actually remember how arisu arisued his way out of this game so this could've actually gotten all of them killed lmao, i am incapable of writing fics if they don't end in a confession idk
a/n: thank you for requesting !! i couldn't really figure out how to make reader sweet so i just made them super cooperative (if that makes sense lmao) i hope you like it !!
also i am a beomgyu stan at heart but kai has had a GRIP on me since cysm something in that studio choom fancam changed me idk
requests open !! read my rules first
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a group of people are already awkwardly standing around when you approach the building. a ‘ding’ chimes as soon as you enter the doorway, confirming your participation. you grab one of the phones on the table and sign in before moving to lean against the wall. chishiya stands next to you, subtly judging the people around you. 
“registration closed. game: dead or alive. difficulty: three of clubs,” the announcement begins. “rules: players must choose between two doors to exit the building. game clear: players exit the building safely within the time limit. game over: players enter the wrong room or run out of time.”
a clock hanging on the wall lights up with a timer counting down from two minutes. the people around you begin to panic. 
“life or death?” a woman reads. she’s wearing an apron covered in flour, nervously looking around the room. “how do we know which one to choose?” 
“just pick one,” a man argues. he’s in jeans and a stained shirt that reeks of alcohol, even in the borderlands. his words slur together a little. “we’re all gonna die anyways.” 
“nobody has to die,” you interrupt. “we can work together to win this one. we still have one minute and forty seconds left.” you glance between the two doors. they both look the same- artwork printed on the top half of a door labeled either “life” or “death.” 
“it’s life,” a man wearing a business suit says. his voice is deep and confident. there are no wrinkles or imperfections in his clothes though he looks tired. he peers at you through thick glasses perched on his nose. 
a high school girl nervously runs towards the door, swinging it open and stepping inside. less than a second later, a laser shoots through the ceiling and her body falls to the ground. your body stiffens next to chishiya. you stare at her corpse in shock until he starts pulling your arm, shoving you through the death door and slamming it shut behind himself. the room sets alight as soon as he does. 
“why would you do that?” the woman wearing an apron yells. “she was just a kid!” 
“these are death games,” the businessman apathetically responds. crooked fingers raise to push his glasses up, staring at you. “sacrifice is always necessary.” 
“we’re running out of time,” a teenager mumbles. he still has a bike helmet strapped on. “we need to choose another door.” 
time continues to tick down. panic engulfs the room. the woman nervously glances between the two doors before she closes her eyes, placing her hand on the handle of the life door and swinging it open. after a few seconds she lets out a relieved gasp. you’re quick to follow her out of the room, shutting the door behind you. 
the next room looks exactly the same as the others. a gray room with two doors, one labeled ‘life’ and the other ‘death.’ the timer is becoming faster now. 
“we should take turns choosing doors,” the woman suggests. “i picked the last one, it’s someone else’s turn.” 
“that sounds fair, right?” the high school boy anxiously fiddles with the clasp of his helmet. he glances at the time before turning to you. “i think they should go.” 
you flinch a little from the sudden suggestion but nod. “okay.” before you can leave to open a door chishiya pulls you back by your arm, leaning in to whisper in your ear. 
“pick death.” he has no expression when you look at him but gives you a small nod towards the door. your hand shakes a little when you set it on the handle, swinging the door open and stepping into the room. after a few seconds of nothing happening, you let out a small sigh of relief. 
“who goes next?” you ask, looking between the teenager and the businessman. 
“your friend should go,” the businessman says. “he said something to you before you picked the door. what was it?” 
“why does that matter?” 
“he hasn’t said a word since we got here. for all we know, he could be a part of the games.” the woman shrinks back away from you at his words. you scoff. 
“you really think whoever is running these games is sending in spies?”
“he’s right,” the teenager says, moving to the other side of the room next to the woman. “how do we know who you are?” 
“we’re running out of time,” chishiya says. only thirty seconds remain on the timer. he grabs your hand, moving to the ‘life’ door and opening it. after a few uneventful seconds, the others rush into the room behind you. 
“he’s gotten every single answer right,” the businessman argues. “how?” 
chishiya sighs. “the building is shaped like a square. there’s one room in the middle and eight rooms surrounding it. the girl who opened the first door led to the room in the middle. if we stick to the edges of the building we’ll be able to complete the game.” 
“how long have you known how to win?” the woman yells. “why did you let that girl die? how can we trust you?” 
“i wasn’t sure until the second room.” 
“if you’re so sure, then open the wrong door.” the businessman says. “if you’re right, then the middle room will have more than one door and we’ll be able to see inside.” 
“are you a fucking idiot?” the words leave your mouth before you realize what they are, only spurred on by the anger coursing through you. “seriously, who do you think you are? you’ve done nothing but guess your way through the game and now that we have a strategy you’re complaining about the plan working? shut up and listen for once. he’s saving your lives!” 
you take a breath to calm yourself, almost shrinking back to chishiya’s side. he glances over his shoulder at you, silently reaching over to take your hand into his. the group stares between you, chishiya, and the businessman but you ignore them. the warmth of chishiya’s hand in yours calms you. 
“it has to be death,” he says, turning back to the group. “open the door.” nobody moves until you drag him with you to the door, swinging it open and entering the next room. 
you follow chishiya through the rest of the rooms until you end up at the final room. “wait,” he pulls you back, next to his side. there are only ten seconds on the timer. “the ‘life’ door leads to the middle room but the ‘death’ one goes back to the original room.” 
“the entrance and exit must be the same.” you rush to the door, quickly throwing it open and running out of the room. the fire barely misses you as it scorches the room, setting it alight in flames. you pant, leaning back against the wall of the original room. 
your phone chimes in your pocket. “game cleared. congratulations.” 
chishiya’s hand remains in yours, leading you out of the building. the cool night air feels good against your skin. he squeezes your hand, letting himself slightly relax. “thank you,” he whispers. “for standing up for me. for trusting me.” 
you nod, pulling him into a hug. chishiya stiffens a little, awkwardly standing in front of you before hesitantly wrapping his arms around you. “of course i trust you. i love you.” 
chishiya presses a kiss against your forehead, pulling you a little closer. “i love you too.” 
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ciciciron · 6 months ago
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When the when the autism kicks in and suddenly it's 1 am and I have a completed Lear design despite the fact he doesn't show up in my au until the sequel fic
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Naturally the best course of action to take with Hoopa!Lear was to make him more emo, and also pink, and also tan because I felt like it. Severe infodump under the cut cuz I am so. about him
Brief overview of the au- it just involves a lot of multiverse bullshit, as well as pokemon-human hybrids known as either gods (for mythical or legendary pokemon, created by being blessed either by an Arceus or fusing with the pre existing legendary) or demons (people who sell their soul when they die and tangentially become part Pokemon because fun character design). The story follows this guy named Akagi as he works to defeat his father once and for all...to put it simply.
Lear, or actually Lyer because he's from the first universe in context of all of this and therefore I have to use the Japanese name, was originally human just like most of the gods. This relates to the bigger picture but like 10,000 years before the story takes place there was this big event that left half the world destroyed and time all fucked up, bro almost died lmao loser but Hoopa fused with him to save his life
He then spent the next 10k years doing fuck all but being silly and visiting random universes until it was decided he was to be plot relevant where all he did was make travel easier which some how proved him more useful than any other traveling companion the mc had before
He only agrees to it because he's searching for the prison bottle so he can actually unlock his full power instead of just being 5'2" and able to teleport. And it's convenient enough that their destinations line up pretty well and he's more protected this way
Also not to get too angsty because it'll be at least a year before I can write any part of this story because I physically cannot work so out of order but given the fact he never had his character development in masters and has also genuinely lost everyone he's ever cared about because that long ass stretch of time (where bro didn't age, I'll add, he's still 17 here smh couldn't even drown the pain with alcohol or smth) he's even more difficult and it takes a lot more for him to accept that he doesn't have to suffer alone
(Also lowkey oc x canon but you cannot come into my house and insult my gay furniture when I have good lore reasons)
Also unrelated but when I was autistically scrolling the tags for him on Tumblr I learned that other people have made Hoopa!Lear design's and I was so like...that was so fun to see hehe it inspired me to finally draw mine. I've been obsessed with him recently which came out of no where- he wasn't in the story at all until a month ago
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allthemurders · 4 months ago
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i found your sarah barnaby whump posts and I'm desperate for more do u have any more ideas or thoughts ahdjsj
HELLO HI I AM ALWAYS DOWN TO TALK ABOUT SARAH BARNABY WHUMP!! i have So Many thoughts and ideas hehehehehe
ngl it’s been A While since i last watched midsomer tho, so my memories of it are all a bit hazy and i’ve probably misremembered some plot points / timings / etc. this is also why some of these ideas are Extremely Vague hgkfjdjfhf
(i’m gonna put it all under the cut bc the post got fairly long, wHoOpS)
ep-specific whump:
s19 ep5 - death by persuasion : the aim is a little off with the warning shot during the ball, and sarah gets hit. or she gets hit by a mirror shard. either way, she’s in a regency era ball gown and she is bleeding out while john frantically tries to help her. (this naturally gives her ideas for her book, much to john’s concern)
s20 ep2 - death of the small coppers : i was So sure sarah was gonna end up getting caught helping birgitte with her investigation and that some sort of whump would play out with that. i have no real thoughts of what or how or why exactly, but i Need it. possibly could have birgitte & sarah being caught snooping and subsequently getting whumped together??? helping each other stay strong throughout it, then working out an escape plan and getting themselves out before john & jamie can even attempt to rescue them??? also unrelated but sarah should’ve been there for the jamie whump scene at the end i stg
s21 ep2 - the miniature murders : THE MURDERER WAS LITERALLY IN JOHN & SARAH’S HOUSE WITH SARAH & BETTY. WHY DID NOTHING HAPPEN WITH THIS?????? MIDSOMER WRITERS HATE ME I STG 😭😭 anyways what if john & jamie rush in, john telling sarah to take betty to play in her room, but sarah doesn’t get the opportunity to leave?? the murderer grabs her in a panic and pulls a knife (or possibly a dangerous improvised weapon of some kind, i’m hazy on the details of this ep) and takes her hostage. jamie hurries betty upstairs on john’s orders, trying his best to console her and answer her questions while also massively worrying about his adoptive mum sarah. john is left to talk the murderer down on his own
s22 ep5 - for death prepare : things go massively wrong when sarah is on stage. i’m talking “murderer walks on stage in full costume with an actual extremely lethal sword or a period-accurate gun” kind of massively wrong. “the last guy he wants to kill is also on stage” kind of massively wrong. “sarah just gets in the way of his revenge and ends up with a severe wound” kind of massively wrong. (john and jamie get there in time to see it happen but too late to actually stop it. they both blame themselves for not getting there sooner)
s23 ep1 - the blacktrees prophecy : so many vague and depressing thoughts about sarah having a Bad Childhood™ with far too much pressure on her to always be perfect, because nothing was ever good enough for her mum no matter how hard she tried. (*literally looks so upset by the thought of her mum coming to stay that john thinks she’s straight up died* / “oh, i’m just touching up a few patches [of paint on the walls]. you know how my mother likes to point out every little imperfection” / “the house is, er… looking lovely” “well, i’m sure she’ll find fault somewhere”). HER SCENES IN THIS EP PHYSICALLY HURT ME HONESTLY. SHE IS SO STRESSED AND TENSE,,,,,,,,, and then basically as soon as she finds out her mum’s going to her sister’s instead you can See this massive weight has been lifted off her. like ik there’s a couple hours between her finding out and the actual scene at the end, bUT STILL. IT’S LIKE FLICKING A SWITCH???? SHE’S SUDDENLY HAPPY AND JOKING WITH JOHN AGAIN??????? sorry this was basically just me repeating canon but i have too many Feelings about it 😭😭
s23 ep3 - a grain of truth : look honestly i don’t really remember anything about this ep other than that sarah was at the place where a murder happened or smth and iirc exactly zero whump came out of this. some whump should’ve come out of this. also weren’t ppl being poisoned with ergot or smth?? why was sarah not poisoned with ergot??
non-ep whump:
john gets a call from betty’s school saying that it’s getting pretty late, will he or sarah be picking her up soon? and he’s a little confused, because it’s meant to be sarah’s day to do the school pickup and it’s not like her to forget, but he figures she must’ve been waylaid by something. he calls her, but it just goes to voicemail. he calls again; still nothing. he’s concerned now, wondering why she isn’t answering, but he knows she sometimes gets stuck in unplanned meetings for ages, so it’s like a low-level concern as he leaves work early to pick betty up. his worry absolutely skyrockets when he finds the front door kicked in, the living room trashed, and the house empty despite sarah’s car being parked up outside. a ransom note and proof of life photos arrive the following morning
john & sarah are held captive together for some reason. john’s being Extremely Annoying in order to get the captors to keep their focus on him, because he’s willing to take all the consequences of their anger if it keeps sarah out of harm’s way. one of the captors eventually hurts sarah to try and keep him in line, and he just goes absolutely feral
sarah should get to watch someone being killed. as a treat (..ok probably not for her, but it would be for me ✌️😎)
tbh most of the rest of my misc ideas are just various other forms of “sarah gets Beaten Up!!” or “sarah gets held hostage to get john to cooperate!!” s o o o yea that is basically all i can think of atm 👀
tysm for the ask, and i really really hope you enjoyed this whump as much as i enjoyed thinking about it!! ✨✨✨
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fuchsschatten · 6 months ago
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Yippee, gonna watch the first episode of Twilight out of focus now!
The start is already iconic, with the three rules and the adorable plushies and also, everyone/the animation is so gorgeous???
And the main two are already too cute, when one giggles and thanks him and he has the tiniest hint of a blush awww
Also - can we talk about how they are set to not consider each other as potential partners (though it feels like there's more emphasis on the not being a predator bit) and the first ep is fittingly called "If this love is over before it even begins" geeez
(as usual will wait to post this till i'm done so this will be sort of live reacting i guess but without the multiple post spamming)
...i was really determined to not see them as AshEiji *too* much, but by the end of the opening i am not sure if that'll work xD but whateverrr, all the more reason to love them i guess?
AHAHAHAHA the film club chef got hooked on boyslove and that's why he wants to make a bl movie, i can't, that's the best thing ever - i already love him :'D
unrelated to the chef, Mao is a really cute name (that i won't have issues remembering yay)
HE WANTS TO DO THE MOVIE TO GET CLOSER TO MAO AAAAA
also the outing scene was very wholesome and we need more of this in anime tbh
like, especially the way of addressing the issue that bl/general public spread misinformation and hate, since the predator part is smth lots of bl mangas used (maybe still use? haven't been up to date with most of the things on the market in ages tbh)
WELL DAMN! Mao is actually quick with realizing his feelings??? In the first episode??? I know that doesn't mean we get them together sooner, what with their pact and all, but that's huge!!
But poor baby :(
And will make every part of filming and learning more about each other that much more fun :3
OOP i already forgot about him being taken oh no~ i was imagining all kinds of bs reasonings why they couldn't get together but that didn't register till now xD
Well! This will be great, I just know it haha
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pastel-rights · 1 year ago
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Call me stupid but I am confused of your family tree? I know Sam is like your brother but who is your mom and the others family members?
oooo I'm assuming you're asking about. the Pines family sona tree since that's the sona ver that has Sam as a brother to which...
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it's time to introduce you to the family, anon! /j
okay so. there's me. obviously. Yasmine Pines. hi. hi!
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i'm 19. i have a twin brother, their name is Dipper. Or is it Inkwell? I call them Len because it's completely unrelated to their actual name and it's funny. something something penmanship something something reference to quilled ink pens something something.
anyways this is my brother!!
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they're also 19. they're older than me by 5 minutes and they always joke about how those were the best 5 minutes of their life but guess whO GETS TO PICK OUT THE ICE CREAM CAKE- /j
then there's my uncle!! they have a phone for a head. they also own freddy fazbenders and I think they've been charged with like 4 counts of arson at one point and physical assault but-
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actually, correction. they USED to own freddy fazbenders. now some. half guy half girl gender unknown person named *reading smudged handwriting* ... err... Tammy something or another owns it and my uncle is just an eternal second in command. at least I still get half off the already half off pizza at
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so that's cool!
oh I also have an aunt!
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sometimes we go and get ice cream while she throws cans of terrible cat food at the local people she hates and tries to summon satan but it never really works because we only ever have rainbow glitter on us and apparently satan isn't a huge fan of rainbow glitter.
oh and i
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there's ma and pops.
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i haven't really... seen them since i moved to Oregon.
I can't really remember their faces all that well and whenever I ask Grunkle Stan, he always gets really. upset?
He doesn't like talking about them. He doesn't even like mentioning them.
...
i kind of miss them somedays.
but i'm told i shouldn't return home.
i'm used to Oregon anyways! all my friends and other family members are here!
...
yeah!
anyways have this shitpost family tree i prepared for smth in the past sooo-
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osc-confessions · 2 years ago
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I want to make an object show but without the object and show aspect do you understand me or am I insane?
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Actually no let me explain this before I sign off- so I was playing gasa5 (not a typo it's a gasa4 fangame) as one does and I just kinda sat there thinking about my own story when I picked up an item and the icon for it was some random object oc (or it looked like one) and I got reminded this fandom exists so I thought back to an old spite-idea ("I can fix hfjone I swear" type deal) and now I wanna make a hfjone-esque story that maybe leans into the meta side more (personal preference also it got dropped for pure story which- good for them but also damn theme go byebye :C) but I'm awful at doing assets or just drawing objects as a whole so I would somehow need to do humans in an object show vibe buuuut uh no I don't want competition Or well I do but strictly the aftermath of one that went hfjone-style except a tad different I can't articulate it sry but uh yeah I think at that point I'm just writing smth so unrelated to the OSC that it isn't an osc related project and therefore any digs or references to it won't feel right :/
YOOOOOO I am thrilled and honored to have received this ask, as someone currently working on their own object show for a year and a half!!! I will provide as much insight as I can!!!
You absolutely don't need to follow the competition format to make an object show. I would love to see more media that branches out and redefine the genre in new ways. People went wild over shows like The Nightly Manor or Modern Objects for the one episode it existed, so you'd 100% have an audience for it too.
If a show in the traditional youtube style isn't your preference, or within your artistic abilities, I'm delighted to inform you there are many object show-adjacent formats you could use for your project, such as object comics, object camps and even formats I haven't seen in the osc before - who says you can't make an object audio drama, for example?? When choosing a medium, it's important to select one that'll serve the story you have planned, but there are options in that regard!
And as for diverging from the osc entirely, to make your thing? If it feels right, go for it! I also write for a webtoon that's completely unrelated to anything osc - that's been super fun for me to do as well. What you're describing sounds awesome no matter what categories it falls into. If you do make it, I'd love to watch it (or even potentially help with it - dm me at @fract-all if you'd like! /nf /lh)
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evansbby · 1 year ago
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what is it with men, they ask you questions but then they don’t wanna discuss the answer, they just ask you another question???? DOES ANYONE ELSE GET WHAT I MEAN//
YESSS BESTIE HOLY SHIT I’VE BEEN DYING FOR SOMEONE TO TALK ABOUT THIS!! It feels like I’m talking to a fucking computer or something😭😭😭 they ask the question, i answer, they say something like ‘yeah’ some bs like that, i try to engage more in the conversation and then they just ask something else COMPLETELY unrelated to the other question💀 LIKE WHY???? Just hold a conversation pleaseee🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 it’s all I’m asking for😭 or when I ask a question they answer so dry and short and then I have no idea how to response and I just sit there like…how am I supposed to respond when I have nothing to work with, it’s actually so annoying😭 why are men like this??? I just feel like I’m talking to much about myself and I try to let them speak but then they just keep asking me shit💀 Just talk about yourself pleaseee, like i want to get to know you. It just feels like I’m putting in all of the effort and I’m not receiving any of the same vibes back. Just show me some interest in the conversation and then ask me something else.
OR (this is a rare case) but I remember once I was ACTUALLY talking to a guy online and he just out of nowhere asked me if I liked sucking dick…..what?😭 i was like, wtf are you on about??? It’s like they get horny and it’s the only thing they can think about. Before I could even comprehend what tf he was talking about he was asking me about my bra size and it just turned into such a weird conversation💀 i blocked him right after though😭😭
Anyways, moral of the story is that men can’t hold conversations and just turn it into a fucking interview or some shit. He’s a walking green flag if he can actually engage in a conversation.
Men are actually a conundrum fr 😭😭😭
I totally get you though! It’s like they won’t even try to give a conversation a chance to flourish, bc their idea of a conversation is just drilling you with one question after another 😭😭
And don’t even get me started on the one word answers 😭😭😭 like??? And then when you stop replying to them bc they’re giving you one word answers, they’re like “why are you ignoring me” LIKE BRO??? bc you aren’t fucking talking properly bffr 😭😭😭
Also lmfaoooo horny men are crazy whilst texting bc they’ll be getting all hot n heavy, probably jacking off meanwhile the girl is on the other end really not giving a fuck, probably doing her nails or watching a video on YouTube or smth 😭😭 sorry you had to deal with such a gross man lol good you blocked him!
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emerdoodls · 1 year ago
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hi this is so unrelated to anything else i've ever posted BUT i need to talk about this and there are only 14 of you who follow me so basically nobody will see it so i'm less self conscious ab posting it.
BASICALLY my grandma likes to buy me childrens books for the class i will theoretically be in charge of in about 2 years (more like 1.5 which is so scary) but this time my grandma bought me a book called "Tomorrow's Alphabet" and i was sort of expecting it to be like a very progressive alphabet book. it is not. genuinely it took me way too long to figure out what was going on. idk if i'm just dumb but here's some examples from the book:
A is for Seed, tomorrow's Apple
F is for Wheat, tomorrow's Flour
G is for bulb, tomorrow’s Garden
E is for Campfire, tomorrow's Embers
Q is for Scraps, tomorrow's Quilt
U is for Stranger, tomorrow’s Us
yeah and those sort of sum up how the book works but part of me is just baffled by it yk?? it's just so strange. i guess i can see what it's trying to do but like?? idk if it's anywhere near developmentally appropriate for the grades i am hoping to teach (k-2) but i'm leaning towards no since my sixteen year old brother was getting super frustrated trying to figure it out??? idk maybe it would help with cognition or improving schemas and connecting schemas that children have or something but idk. the whole [letter] is for [thing 1 (that turns into thing 2)], tomorrow’s [thing 2 (actually starts with [letter])] would probably not be great for most students?? oh well. it'll still go in my classroom, but probably in a bin marked as "tricky books" or smth
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m1ckeyb3rry · 5 months ago
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The Karasu brainrot is too real….no I agree they added a little extra spice in the way they drew Karasu (I esp love the panel where nagi asks him if he and Otoya knew each other before bllk and he goes “no dumbass” like THAT EXPRESSION ugh >>>>)
Omg that title sounds like a banger..!!! Tbh I love the like nature vibe a lot of your titles give but oh god I think I got too comfortable with the crack/happy moments that I forgot about angst..gotta mentally prepare myself for that….
TRUE Brock is sooo malewife coded LMAOOO the first few seasons were really peak the comedy and humor was also so out of pocket sometimes like the characters straight up roasting the crap out of each other
Something about just reading “team z but not THE team z” made me laugh for some reason LMAOO honestly I forget so often about how there were technically four other team zs like….someone needs to reveal the other first selection stratums im dying to know…at least we have team v tabieita confirmed!! As they should
I love stupid emojis they enhance the twitter feel by like 200%
Anri and ego as parents I can’t even imagine that like whoever is the child would definitely need some help LMAOOO hiori having tabiy/n as his OTP because he desperately needs new parents is so funny
SO TRUE ugh I know there’s only so much an author can do in the scope of one work but seeing unlikely interactions is sooo entertaining to me…that’s esp why I love the game snippets too because some of the combos are so random or there’s just not enough time in the main plot for you to see them interacting!!!
Ok so far I haven’t seen much….i think the only thing was a new visual I saw briefly in passing but it’s so funny you’re right on the mark it’s Isagi Rin sae and aiku ofc….but the title for the new season is officially called bllk vs. u-20!! I fr am dying to see tabieita animated along w the other third selections characters like yuki hiori and Nanase!! So hyped the art seems to look a lot more intense too
- Karasu anon
karasu brainrot too real…and PLS that was the exact panel i was thinking of!! like otoya looks cute ofc but at least to me it feels like the majority of the detail was put into karasu LMAOAOA but like no complaints from me 🙂‍↔️🙅🏻‍♀️
HAHA i feel like i do tend to use plants/animals a lot in my titles!! idek why…but YES angst will always make a debut 🤫 although i’m worried that once i start honing in on an au it’s going to make more sense for another character 🤔 kinda like how hollyhock is such a perfect au for otoya 😩 like imagine i come up with smth and then karasu doesn’t even make sense as the male lead 😭💔 trust i will still write it but it would be crazy
BROCK THE MALEWIFE he needs to go to barou’s respecting women boot camp and then he’s set!!! and YES bro they are all such shitheads it’s so funny
LMAOO yes like she would be on team z but not the one we actually care abt just a random team z 😭 it’s so interesting to think abt which players knew each other from the first selection!! this is kinda unrelated but it just made me remember in the third selection when karasu scores and isagi is like “he’s…a villain 😰” but then shidou says smth like “nice job karasu-chan 😄” LMAOAOA shidou x karasu besties era?? maybe the real reason karasu is in the shidou system in pxg is because they’re both chill like that
hiori doesn’t care abt “healthy relationship dynamics” in the sense that he does NOT gaf if y/n and karasu are actually into one another he literally just thinks they would make excellent parents so they’re automatically his otp 😓
no i get it completely like there’s only so many relationships you can write while still advancing the plot which is why extra content + epinagi are so fun to read!! plus i love when fics expand on unexpected friendships too…not that i rlly read them that frequently nowadays but as a rare pair enjoyer both romantically and platonically it’s always fun to see new interactions like that
JFJCSJXJSN tbf rin sae isagi and aiku have a colored spread in that part of the manga too i think?? so it makes sense but even still 😔 AT LEAST PUT NAGI IN THE PROMOS HE’S THE FIRST BLLKER TO SCORE AGAINST THE U20s 😭💔 barou also does score but they definitely are going to make the barou entrance a cliffhanger for anime onlies so i can see why he’s not included as much…icl i’m actually more hype to see barou’s goal than rin’s breakdown/berserker flow because barou’s goal had me sm more hyped
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binders-and-beanies · 9 months ago
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Mental health updates under the cut I guess (tldr I’m still not ok but am taking steps to keep myself safe or whatever)
Told my supervisor I’m in crisis and he was super understanding n supportive n whatnot. We both are trans and have mental health issues and work in an lgbt center so one would hope it’s safe to be honest abt that kind of thing but it was a relief bc it also opened up a conversation abt scheduling moving forward n me having like 2 or 3 days off a week as opposed to the current 1 or 0. Esp since higher ups want me to work less anyways im like that’s totally fine bc i have a million things to do outside of work all the time.
Other thing I did was cancel a workshop I was gonna lead next week and it was a really hard decision. I would have been proud afterwards and I’m worried abt having regrets but I’ve done the same workshop before so it’s off the bucket list or whatev. Person in charge of that was also super supportive for similar reasons as above. It doesn’t solve the problem of there always being too many things stressing me out, and I don’t wanna set a precedent that I can just not do my responsibilities, but it eases a big part of the stress this month specifically.
Ppl in my life are saying they’re proud of me for setting that boundary and it’s weird to be praised for bailing on smth when I’m also feeling big guilty abt it but I gotta remind myself that being flakey is absolutely normalized in society and if ur average person can do so on the regular then I’m allowed to take One step back once it’s gotten to the point where my safety is questionable. I’d like to get to a point where things don’t get that serious in the first place but I’ve also never rly appreciated feeling blamed for being in this kind of position when the kind of things I’m busy with are mostly 1) things that are required for survival and 2) things that make it feel worth surviving. As if this is smth i do to myself bc i just <3 capitalism or smth
Im stressin tho bc as mentioned earlier my job is at risk for unrelated reasons which also means a lot of other things are at risk. This is happening at the same time I’ve just lost my insurance and have my biggest ever college bill to pay. And now I don’t know where I’ll be living or what that will mean for my finances either. It would also mean it takes even longer to qualify for any kind of credit, and therefore an apartment.
Even if nothing happens and I just keep working here for another year as planned it’s like can I not get JUMPSCARED w my livelihood being threatened like there’s literally always at least one Huge actual life or death problem as well as many other less catastrophic but extremely stressful things to deal w. I’m tired of living like that w no relief and I hate that the best case scenario is this fear ends up being for nothing. I hate that I’m thinking abt what I’ll do in x y or z scenario for this summer and my masters if this falls through, instead of enjoying the relief of one less thing on my plate.
I hate that this is how I’m doing the day after my birthday. I had a fun birthday weekend and am grateful for the people I spent it with and the places I went but it didn’t feel like genuine celebration it felt forced, like I was doing it because I Have to have a good birthday. Bc if one of the most important days of the year isn’t joyful then where’s the hope of any other days getting better. I did enjoy it I just couldn’t Feel the enjoyment bc I’m so stressed and I had major breakdowns before and after my bday. It sets a bad tone regarding aging and I want to celebrate progress but it’s hard when the future is more terrifying every year.
I feel like even if all my problems were magically solved, my ability to feel joy is permanently altered and it’s hard to imagine feeling anything more positive than just like, relief and rest. Idk I say all that to say I’m proud of myself for taking steps to make life more livable just like I’ve always done but it also feels kinda hopeless like nothing I do matters if it’s gonna be constant stress regardless
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feraelancunin · 9 months ago
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7, 8 and 15 for the Durge Past Life Questions!! :D
7. Did they have any connections or companions outside of the local underworld? If so, what were those connections like and if not, why?
You've read a bit about that already, but I will share the idea on tumblr, and expand on the idea a little bit.
As a teenager, somewhere like 16-18 years old, Ferael had a girlfriend. unrelated to any murdery/underworld stuff. She was a wizard apprentice. They probably met a few times when browsing books or smth - Ferael is a sorcerer, yeah, but a well read one lol. Hm. Given the timeline she was probably the last person to actually ever learn Ferael's original name One night, the gf bumps into them while they are committing a murder. Whoops. She's right fully terrified, she tries to run away, they manage to catch her. They try to reassure her that she is safe, calm her down, they'd never hurt her. Doesn't work. Not thinking straight, she threatens to tell everything to the Fists. Dreadful realisation. Ferael can't let her go. They can't trust her anymore. She knows too much, down to their now seldom used name. There is no compulsion from Bhaal. No threat, no push needed. Ferael makes the choice to end her life on their own. Haha. :> Additionally, Ferael grew up in an Outer City within a small Eilistraeean drow community. They probably never visited that place again. Unless that's where their family is buried. I've been toying with an idea of a relative or a friend of their adopted mother meeting with them on accident, while they visited their family's grave. 8. What was their relationship with Orin like? Did it change at some point?
jess are you asking me if there was bhaalcest of the orin variety in my verse? oh gods. you are absolutely asking me about the bhaalcest. well. i will get to it. As far as I know, there isn't a canon age for Orin, but I do hc her as younger than Ferael, just by a couple of years (Ferael is in their early 30s during the game). Ferael gladly took on an older sibling role after ending up at the temple. Kind of a reverse situation, Ferael was the baby of their adoptive family (until very soon before they killed all of them :DD) I am not yet sure as to when exactly Orin and Ferael's relationship soured... but well it definitely did. Ekhem. As to uhm. The Bhaalcest. Yeah. Sure did happen at least to an extent. Not settled how far it went lol. Ferael was disgusted by the idea of this sort of take on a sibling relationship. Orin did attempt to push those boundaries - efforts usually not reciprocated, would even end in violence. ("Get the fuck off me" *thunderwave*)
I've very recently been thinking about expanding on Orin and Ferael's relationship throughout the years, but I have yet to expand on said relationship more than what I wrote above. Very busy with school atm :') 15. Bhaal handcrafted Durge. Do they enjoy and worship their appearance, or did they have a rebellious phase, trying their best to change their Lord Father's grand design?
WELL... Ferael is trans so they definitely do change Daddy Bhaal's design somewhat lol. Trans Durges are kinda fascinating to me, tbh. Such a devoted, dedicated spawn, yet they choose to change their bodies by quite a lot hihi. I do wonder - to what extent would Bhaal have disapproved :D Beyond that - Ferael definitely did a lot of small things to make their body their own. Piercings, a tattoo (not some sort of an edgy one, btw), even daily make up or taking care of their hair. At some point, they would have dyed their hair white to look more like an actual drow lol
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writingbrainrot · 11 months ago
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Hey does anyone who has aspd have tips for how i can best communicate with bio dad who has undiagnosed aspd.
I am audhd and also a system with c-ptsd/ctx
Unrelated to the aspd symptoms that i personally think bio dad very clearly shows, he tends to also end up toxic due to the childhood trauma he went through.
I could explain to bio mom who has bpd why what she was doing was hurting me after a lot of effort and heartache because her neurodiversity manifests so that her emotions are how she processes and understands the world.
Bio dad enters his shell/becomes defensive at any "stop that" or "no" which triggers my SA trauma so it ends up escalating and i end up getting really serious autistic meltdowns.
It's almost like he has emotional responses to the world but tries to logically pick that apart but has a boatload of alexithymia.
I can't figure out which communication method will make him "listen to me to understand instead of listen to me to respond because unless i explicitly ask for a response, then i don't need one, especially when i am upset and dysregulated and crying" (yes i've told him that i need him to do so in these words, this is a paraphrasing quote that i've tried to write accurately)
Because from what i can tell his fight or flight or freeze gets mildly activated at any percieved critique and then he treats me like a threat and in the past compared me to his abusive mother despite me being his underage child at the time which struck me as odd and is why i remark on it. He seems to still be doing that but just like then he denies accusing me of being a bully or thinking of me as a threat. Despite his body instantly changing, his tone going very short and aggressive, starting to insult and raise his voice etc etc which i conclude is him being defensive.
But as i'm sure you understand i need to be able to tell him "hey stop, you're hurting me" and he stops instead of trying to debate if he has actually hurt me (which i have also expressed he shouldn't do as that causes things to escalate for me)
So the tldr is:
What communication method/script works best? Ik one person with aspd is only one person with aspd and doesnt represent the whole neurotype but i have literally no insight into how this neurotype processes the world, thinks and feels compared to my neurotype so i need something, anything, to start bridging the gap/translating what he is saying to smth i can understand and translate what i want to say into smth he can understand.
Why i'm bridging the gap instead of going low or no contact is because i am disabled and physically dependent on him atm, as soon as i get a chance to change that i will but atm im incapable of doing so. Ik this sitch is horrible for both of us but i literally have no other option than try to make it work atm/ctx
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