#unrealization: emilia

[styxisms]

@unrealization said: "You left me here behind, do you not care?" - Witch of Pain verse Emilia to Subaru / prompt

Seeing her had always provoked a strong reaction from him. Joy, adoration, awe, and even insecurity. Emilia could always make Subaru feel so much even with just a glance. He didn't think he had ever been in love before. But it must have been love. A spectrum of emotion that he had only read about in stories or seen on tv. Something profoundly intoxicating and nerve-wracking at the same time.

But seeing her now did not inspire that. Shame. Guilt. Fear. Subaru's dark eyes widened and his legs trembled. Seeing that Emilia had survived the attack by the Witch Cult should have been a relief. It should be joy coursing through him. He had bled trying to save her. And after running away, he forced himself to bleed almost daily for it. Some accidents. Some intentional injuries. Battles with himself at night when he couldn't sleep. When he felt like crying but only stopped to keep from worrying Rem. Seeing her standing before him should feel like a weight lifted from his shoulders.

He loved her. He did. Maybe he still did. Maybe more than he loved Rem. But there was something in her eyes. Something cold and distant. It scared him. He didn't want to know what she had gone through. It was all his fault. Natsuki Subaru, a failure yet again. Running away. From school, from danger, from suffering, even from the people he supposedly loved.

"Emilia...tan?" The pet name even feels dirty in his mouth. He has no right to call her that. He wanted to scream that he did care. That he loved her. That he never wanted to leave. But it was all hollow. Because she was right... He had abandoned her.

"You're alive.... I.... I never wanted to...." He could lie. He could pretend this was about the argument that they had. "I didn't want it to be this way.... I didn't have a choice." Of course he had a choice. And the one he made led them here.

[mathes0n]

Played the mod Portal Revolution and it was pretty good!! This is the dynamic between the main characters to me

[katotaines]

LET’S GOOOOOO!!!!! 3 SEASON HERE WE COME!

[trixierosewrites]

Snippet Sunday

“I’ve tried to imagine fucking you,” Emilia said, looking up at her. “I’m not surprised.” “I tried in a handful of ways. You on your knees, dress soiled, lipstick smeared half down your face. Me on my knees, looking up at you, beautiful, radiant. None of them fit. Fucking you would be like fucking a marble statue.” Marissa smiled at her, a well-practised, easy smile; symmetrical, showing a gleam of teeth, and perfectly satisfied. She was the kind of beautiful that was untouchable, unreal. She was the kind of beautiful that would shatter into equally beautiful pieces. She was not the kind of person that fell apart. “Shame.”

This is another excerpt from The Wasp! we get a little bit of emilia (the woman in the yellow lipstick) and marissa (the pov character from the previous snip) interacting, as well as a bit of marissa's fucked up view of the world via her view of beauty :3

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[theroyalsims]

Bigger and Badder Laptop...

Hi, guys. Giving my Simming laptop some much-needed pampering (read: bigger hard drive, among other things, because my Mods folder is UNREAL.)

I'll be largely absent for the rest of the week. That being said, since I might not be able to release content this weekend, I'll do a double release next week to make up for it.

As for my story, please, please be a little more patient with me. I have screenshots. Tons of them. (That's pretty much all I did over the break). And I'm super excited to share the rest of the story with you! We'll even be hearing from Rennaux and Tartosa! Also, I'm itching to marry off Emilia's boys and girls. There's just too many people in the palace as it is!

Anyway, rambling done! Hope to see you when I see you!

[girderednerve]

thinking about the vampire show. still

okay so louis & claudia come into paris in the back of a van that's also transporting the venus de milo, & then when he visits the louvre with armand in 2x03 'no pain' he sees her again & says "remember me?" as armand is walking towards the gallery. i like this because it is fun but why specifically the venus de milo. am i meant to think about her armlessness, which lends her the irrefutable quality of an object; the repeated references in the books to vampires' marble-like skin; her contested interpretation; love returning 'home'? right after louis says that ('remember me?') he makes that little comment to armand—'classic lioncourt'—and dreamstat materializes. there are probably other things to think about too, like i bet there is some kind of specific reference being made but i am simply uncultured & missed it. anyway yay art

so in 1x01 lestat cajoles louis into his home, puts the visiting miss lily to sleep, kisses him passionately, then drinks his blood; we see them do their sexy little christ-pose hover, then we cut to louis falling asleep, lestat reaching over to heal the puncture wounds on his neck, and then there's a cut to louis putting his cravat on while he tells us in voiceover that he didn't think of himself as homosexual. we also see him in the confessional, obviously: 'i run to bad beds. i laid down with a man. i laid down with the devil.' but the problem i am having is that did he in fact have sex with lestat? i gather that in the books the vampires don't have sex the way humans do & all of it is about blood sharing, so i agree that in the vampire sense they did, but louis wasn't a vampire! did they have sex? that's the interpretation he went with at the time, but it's not obvious to me that that's what he actually described as happening. the question is complicated on two sides here, both the 'what even is vampire sex' query & the conventions of broadcast television. i think both of these problems are interesting but mostly i am asking because the first time i watched it i went 'oh my god lestat waited to fuck him until they were married, EDWARD CULLEN ASS' and laughed for like five minutes. and i want everyone else to have this thought with me

related point i have a lazy theory about this show which is that every episode contains a line of background dialogue that expresses that episode's thesis. i haven't decided what all of them are but i think all or most of them have one, and i think the first episode's thesis comes to us from bricktop: "you can't put a dick in an asshole without asking, that's against jesus." yes ma'am it is, i love you, thank you for so memorably expressing the fundamental question this episode is asking, which is: did louis consent? what did he consent to? & we see louis claim that he did consent & that his consent mattered, even though he still describes lestat as a predator ('i was being hunted, and i had absolutely no idea', 'he would not let me'). he consented, at the time, to having sex with lestat, but he didn't know what that meant to lestat (like, specifically in terms of what they were doing); he consented, at the time, to being turned into a vampire, but he didn't fully understand what that would mean (not sure this is possible to convey until it happens? but also lestat did not really try).

other lines that i think are thesis line candidates include 'the king's hair has betrayed him' in 2x07 (but i acknowledge that i might be totally wrong about that & just enjoying the pun) and 'god will forget when you die. no, god will remember when you die!' from emilia in 2x01, on memory, death, and god (reading it against lestat's 'nous sommes les dieux' later in the season), also perhaps about bargains. not sure that's a theme. but that's just my opinion man. if you disagree or have other lines you think are episode-significant please tell me!!

it has been said many times before but the casting on this show is unreal, currently by this i mean 'how did they get two different but completely perfect claudias, wow'

speaking of claudia, her little back-and-forth with louis about emily dickinson in 1x06 is so high-quality, very charming & also a funny way to explain that claudia is a lesbian. i love gay people [okay i am not actually committed to insisting that claudia would describe herself as a lesbian especially given that rice vampires are as a rule all, um. nondiscriminating. but let me have this]

i love louis in 1x04 saying about claudia 'all vampires are born from trauma' in a level, conversational voice, like he's saying something cliché not worth exploring further. right now it is my favorite line read in season one but that will change in five minutes probably. my favorite line read in season two is armand saying 'his worshipful mercy', assad zaman genius

[dailydoseofrant]

Kingdom Of The Wicked Reveiw

"In the end, the monster we feared didn’t come from Hell. He came from privilege."

Oh, this review is going to be a wild ride. The range of things I feel for this book is very unreal. Listen, the atmosphere of this? The settings? The premise? I couldn’t get enough. Dare I even say close to perfect? And the plot had me so very invested in every single way. But this actual story and the plot conveniences, the characters and their lack of critical thinking, the obvious plot twists? The Lord might be testing me. The whiplash I felt while reading this was a full experience and deserves a star rating of its own, truly.

When you open this book for the first time, the prologue will transport you to a stormy night in 19th century Italy, where two little twin girls are being gifted very special necklaces while slowly learning their witch powers and history from their grandmother. There are seven demon princes but only 4 the witches should fear, but somehow their necklaces will keep them safe, even though they are instructed to never place them together.

"One will crave your blood. One will capture your heart. One will steal your soul. And one will take your life."

Then the story actually takes place ten years in the future, where Emilia and Vittoria are now eighteen-years-old, but we see how that night has shaped their lives for the last decade in so many different ways, but for sure centering on those necklaces that were entrusted to them. Both girls are trying to help their family with their restaurant, find and follow their dreams, and lead normal lives, but they soon find out that normal and safe and happy was never in the cards for them.

Again, I do not want to give much away, because I think I very much benefited from not reading the synopsis of this story. But the gates of hell are weakening, and their city and family are no longer safe. Not only do they have to worry about hiding the fact that they are witches, but now they have to worry about demon princes, witch hunters, and other creatures that go bump in the night! But Emilia is thrust in the heart of it all, with her witchcraft on full display, when she makes a deal with a demon when she is most desperate.

Together, Emilia and Wrath (be still, my BDB heart) are forced to work together to investigate brutal and mysterious murders that are happening, but they are both looking for clues for very different reasons. My favorite part of this book was truly going alongside Emilia and seeing all these different settings. From secret casinos, to her family’s kitchen, surprise palaces, spooky beaches, to the scary and dark corridors within the church, I couldn’t get enough of all the different adventures in all the different places.

"Grief carved me in half. And fury honed the pieces into a weapon."

I really loved the depiction of grief and depression in this book, too. How the weight of sadness can be unbearable, especially alone, when your world and future are taken from you right before your eyes. I also think Kerri Maniscalco did a really good job portraying not only the different stages that can be held within grief, but to also tell the reader that there is truly no wrong way to grieve. Heartbreak can be sadness and pain, but it can also be anger and revenge.

I also did really enjoy the romance and I think if you are looking to indulge in a new OTP that will remind you of 2015 then you are in luck with this one! I did enjoy Wrath a lot more than Emilia for the most part, but I feel like the plot convenience (and Emilia acting stupid) was the downfall of this book. I am not good at unraveling mysteries, but I truly unraveled this one instantly, I only wish Emilia could have a little sooner and it made the reading experience a bit annoying. Also, she gets upset at the strangest things, and wholeheartedly accepts the wildest things for no reason. I truly feel like her character was mostly used to move the book along conveniently instead of actually making her feel like a main character with depth and identity.

Also, I’m just going to say it, the grandmother in this book is one of the most infuriating characters I’ve read about all 2024. Like, regardless of prophecies, how are you going to be this mysterious with eight-year-old little girls and then really not fill them in on any blanks for the next ten years of their lives too? The grandma is really written to look like this cool and wise character who helps save the day, but I truly could not stand her or her shocked reaction when things would fall apart around her.

On top of the mysteries in this book being a bit of a letdown, I will also say that I felt like so many big events in this book kind of happened just for (hopefully) set ups for the next installment. I’m all for setting up things in early books, but it just kind of feels bad when absolutely nothing happens regarding these big chapters after the scene has ended. I feel like if this book felt more cohesive throughout, instead of just setting up for what is to come, I would have gotten so much of a higher rating from me, but I have to rate and review off the material that is given to me and it made for a bit of an infuriating reading experience.

"Man had a funny way of blaming the devil for things he didn’t like."

Overall, I couldn’t put this book down. Truly. And I would bet you a great sum of money that I will also pick up the next one, because this book ended on a very perfect cliffhanger set up that I greedily want to know everything about. This book really did give me nostalgic feels for some reason, it made me very hungry most of the time, and it made me truly never want to put it down. The writing is so easily consumable, and I really did fall in love with the setting and plot set up. I only wish it felt a little bit more like a full story and not just a set up book. I still predict that this book will do really well, and I think most people will have a very good reading experience with this with.

Rating:

3.5/5 - 4/5

[sherwoodknights]

SP 1999 EPISODE 1 LIVEBLOG

Opening titles slap pretty hard

Starting with a flashback, nice

IS THAT MARGUERITE AND ARMAND'S PARENTS? DID THEY SOMEHOW MANAGE TO MAKE ST CYR EVEN WORSE THAN BEFORE? WHAT THE FUCKKKK

"Learn from this!" Sir this is going to bite you so hard in the ass its unreal, and you deserve it

Why are they putting down newspaper lmao

Oh that's why okay

Is he a league member that theyve captured? Are the French actually semi-competent in this adaptation?

YOU DO NOT IMPLY THAT CHAUVELIN HAS BEEN RIPPING OFF TOENAILS AND THEN CUT TO THE NEXT SCENE WHATS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE

HERE COME THE LEAGUE LETS GOOOO

*does a gay little run that pisses you off*

Emilia fox will you marry me

OH MY GOD IT WAS ARMAND DOING THE GAY LITTLE RUN, BBC ARE FUELING MY GAY LITTLE ARMAND THOUGHTS

Excuse me bbc it has been almost 10 minutes and I have seen no Marguerite at all, you are depriving me of my wife

FUCKING HELL THATS FULL ON TORTURE THIS IS DARK

Richard E Grant you smooth mfer

They weren't joking that man really has no toenails left jesus

Forget my earlier comment, the French are still incompetent I guess

Oooooo chavvy wants to go to englandddd

Does this mean we get Marguerite soon? Please say we do

NOOOOOO DONT ARREST ARMAND LEAVE MY SON ALONE

DAMN ARMANDS GOT BITCHES

At least they're letting him get dressed before they arrest him

Awwwww he saved her, that's my boy

GET YOUR HANDS OFF THAT LITERAL CHILD YOU GROWN ASS SOLDIER FFS

Mr No Toenails is so gonna die

"Don't trust her" STOP BEING SO FUCKING OMINOUS BEFORE YOU DIE

MARGUERITE!!!!!!!!! Ough she's so gorgeous I want to dieeeeee

Oh fuck he totally took the guys words as "Don't trust Marguerite" goddammit

OH YEAH PERCY HOW DARE YOUR WIFE WHO YOU MARRIED WANT TO DANCE WITH YOU WHAT A TERRIBLE INSULT

Suzanne and Andrew <333333333

Percy Blakeney making sex jokes is something I never knew I needed

Marguerite St Just I would die for you

The only version of the pimpernel poem that rivals the musical in campiness

Chauvelin has no rizz, no matter how hard he may try

NOT PERCY SPILLING WINE ON CHAUVVYS CRAVAT

Percy basically just said "the cravat is the powerhouse of the cell"

Man's just wrote a dissertation on cravats

Ooooooooo the Prince is sassy

WHO JUST SLAPPED MY WIFE WHO DO I HAVE TO KILL

ANGELE ST CYR? OH FUCK THE GIRLS ARE GONNA BE FIGHTINGGGGG

Not this guy challenging percy to a duel while his voice sounds halfway to cracking through the whole speech

I could watch Richard E Grant's Percy all day oh my god

The guy they're about to guillotine looks like a sad puppy

Sleebpy Marguerite

They are literally so close to actual communication and talking through their issues that it HURTS, STOP BEING IDIOTS AND GET OVER YOURSELVES SO YOU CAN STOP BEING MISERABLEEEEEEEE

Ah here comes the Armand blackmail

Oooooo they're letting the marriage issues out at parties

HERE COME THE CHAMBERTIN JOKES

They're being so mean to him and its amazing

HOLY SHIT THEY HAVE HER TELL PERCY ABOUT ARMAND AS PERCY AND NOT THE PIMPERNEL! GO BBC YOU DO THAT FUNKY FAITHFUL ADAPTATION STUFF WE LOVE TO SEE IT

ST JUST BACKSTORY HAND IT OVER I CRAVE ITTTTTTT

PERCY YOU FUCKING LOSER HELP YOUR WIFE UGH YOURE SO MEAN TO HER

(I know he's going to do something but still I wish he could just tell her)

You go babygirl rip that letter from your husband up

Chauvvy with the hair down and morning hair <3

Get Chambertin's ass, Margot

MARGUERITE NO DONT TELL HIM THE HIDING PLACEEEE

Is she figuring it out? Did the injury give Percy away to her omg

SHES GOING TO THE STUDY BOYS SHES GONNA FIGURE HIM OUT

SECRET PIMPERNEL COMPARTMENT LETS GOOO

And that's where the episode ends!

So far I'm loving the show, following the book pretty comprehensively, and has managed to get plenty of the plot into a single episode, can't wait to see more

[ruiination]

@unrealization (Ram):

The attack came without warning. From the perspective of Ram, anyway. She did what she could. She was too weak to really take part in the fighting. She helped the few people that were in her reach. The children from the village were hidden, along with Emilia in a separate location. She had only moments locked the future ruler in the hidden room. She had protested, but Roswaal-sama’s orders were absolute.

His name clung to her mind like a leaf of spinach between her teeth. The attack came without warning, but not for him. He had the witch’s book. He probably knew what would happen before he left. Despite that, he still went away. Ram was less than surprised, but trying to fully understand his sick mind was exhausting.

Rem was fighting the cultists outside, and Ram was exhausted just thinking about it. Her whole body ached. Despite the chaos, exhaustion was all she felt. Her mind was free of laughing Oni gods, or the thirst for battle. Rem was a tactical advantage, but the strategy fell to Ram. How would they survive? All their lives were in her frail hands. Roswaal-sama likely would not be returning. Rem could not fight forever. Emilia seemed determined to stay in harm’s way.

Everything was going against them, but Ram was as cunning as she was beautiful. Besides, she had to live up to Rem’s expectations.

As she made her way toward the foyer, the hall came to a sudden fork. She was moving as quickly as she could while conserving her energy. More of a light jog than a full sprint. For now, she had to reach the courtyard. The innocent children hidden in the garden shed would need to be taken to the secret escape tunnel with Emilia. At the very least, their presence might compel the half-elf to finally move. Then she would be free to help Rem with the intruders. The maids would not abandon the house. Right before the fork, her vision suddenly went black. In fact, all her senses were momentarily numb. She was sure a yelp of surprise and frustration must have sprung from her lips.

When the spell finally cleared, she felt the cold steel of a dagger at her throat. A grinning cultist mere inches from her face. Something about him was immediately disgusting. His sneering, perverse expression unmistakable from that of a ravenous animal. It was only natural that a few of them would have gotten into the house, but his presence made her worry for her sister. She felt for her, and her energy was there. As raw and furious as it had ever been. Her fiery gaze settled on the intruder.

“Welcome to Mathers Manor,” She said coldly, “I’m afraid my master is away and thus, not receiving guests.”

She swallowed harshly, feeling the sharp edge of his blade digging into her soft flesh. She hoped to tear him apart quickly so she could conserve enough energy to help Rem. Her next words where firm, smoldering with rage at the violation of her house.

“You need to leave. Now.”

"Aw, and after I came all this way?" Subaru's voice dripped with malice. They both knew he wasn't here for Roswaal. Why would he bother with worthless NPCs like that? He was after the only other person worth his time. And even now, the maids were trying to stop him. Wouldn't it be easier to just give in?

Ah... But isn't think what NPCs do? It's useless to try to consider logic or motivations. They were nothing to him. Worthless pieces for him to discard. Just like everyone but her. He could still remember the pain of his last death. No matter how many times he died, he never got used to it. And it was this girl that had killed him. After he had been so close. A phantom pain of his broken arm returned to him, so he tightens grip on his dagger.

"But honestly, Pink-chan... I'm way more interested in the princess you have here." He pressed the blade to her throat, enough to tear the skin but no further. Not fatal but enough to let beads of blood begin to spill on pale skin.

It felt nice to be able to harm her. If he had her, the other maid would cave. He knew that had to be the secret trick to this whole mess. Regardless, he had all of time to keep trying. This was his first try in this specific route. Even if she slipped away, he would always win. That was the strength of the hero of the story.

"If you give the half-elf to me, I'll leave and everyone else will too. You and the others don't have to die." It hurt to not use a name for her, but he had to keep his calm. If she sensed even a hint of weakness, it would be over. These maids were the kind good at combat. Though... was this one? Aside from a sneak attack, she never actually helped the other one fight.

"Do you think you can beat a Sin Archbishop, Pink-chan?"

[riarevenge]

EMILIA!!!!!! how are you baby???? I MISSED YOU! did you listen to unreal unearth yet????

i missed you too munchkin!!!!🥲🫶🏽 i am currently (i’m supposed to be sleeping off my night shift before my next one tonight but hozier takes priority) !!! did you??

[zakuryoishi]

does it really take that long from emilia romagna to milano worst 10 days of my life (i lived in fear of having to send the comm again like) (i have 40 euros now. unreal)

[styxisms]

@unrealization

She had refused to believe it. Even when blood stained the halls of the manor, Beatrice hid in the library. There was a part of her that perhaps wished to be found. There was no fear. That Person had still never come. Maybe the one holding the knife would be them. But it was more likely that she would die before ever meeting them. She was unworthy. Forgotten. Entirely alone. And even though she knew better, she refused to believe her big brother was dead. It wasn't possible. But when the door opened and the silver haired half-devil walked in alone... She had to accept it.

"So... big bro is really gone too." Beatrice mumbled to herself. Another drop in the endless flow of time. Waiting forever. Alone. Every single person that was in this house had been lost, in one way or another. It fell into silence. Until today.

"It took you a long time to get here. Were you unable to find the door, I suppose?" Despite Emilia's affinity for Spirits, she was not as good at finding the door to the library as Subaru had been. Subaru the loud and annoying human. Him, the two maids, and Puck were probably all dead. The current Roswaal may be dead too. In fact, until today she assumed that Emilia had died.

"Betty isn't in the mood for guests, I suppose." She wanted to disappear.

[peaamlipoetrydoctor]

Am (Once Again) Writing

(Seem to be going thru a purple phase with titles - how about that?)

One of the loveliest things about the past few years, doctorating and afterwards, has been finding people I can connect with around inquiry, around art-stuff, around writing, and even, also IN writing.

Big <3 to Marna who has made a lovely online space where we write, separately but together, every couple of weeks.

Here's an extract from our latest co-writing moment, about the process of conjuring unrealities into being, of allowing the unrealities conjured by others to live and be loved within my own imagination, about the line between protecting and releasing to make-alive:

Tending the small fire of possible future lifeworlds, I lay myself as a guardrail around this terrain of my imagination, hewn from amid the rocks and the neglected wasteland of my childhood dreamlife, gone untended for so many years. I plant my body in a semi-circle to shelter the flames from doubt, from the haughty gaze of others. I curl around the hearth of my dreams while they are small, tender and not yet strong. Set in place, here, my mind wanders into possibility… characters from other people’s inner worlds and some who presently draw breath into lungs only within the shelter of my mind.

I drift towards sleep. When I wake, there they are, at the campfire beside me. Sam and Amanda, gentle souls hiding from and finding each other online. Bee and Nick in love across parallel universes. And my own real/imaginary people – Netty and Harris, Torstein and Raoul, Mallory and Emilia, Bramble and ARNI. Chillin’. Making the most of the downtime before the story picks up again.

[caitlinclark]

emilia is so pretty it's unreal

[youwerenevermine]

Emilia Clarke wearing Alexander McQueen, via naokoshintu’s Instagram (October 12, 2021)

[viggo-mortensen]

The unreal beauty of Emilia Clarke as Daenerys Targaryen in Game of Thrones (2011-2019)