#unlike what i did with ultra moon

[white-poppie]

ST✩RBOY: random hxh hcs

Now playing- STARBOY by The weekend ft. Killua, Kurapika, Chrollo, Illumi Tw: dissociation

💿 Kurapika

The most perfect man there is to exist!!?!!

So I know Kurapika had to almost grow up by himself, so I think he can handle household chores very well.

I would like to think that he somehow discovers baking. I just know he would be good at it <3

I just know he has super pretty cursive handwriting -sighs dreamily-

If you hug him, I know he would be so hesitant, but would slowly nuzzle deeper. If you were close to him and finally hug him, he would literally try his best to hold back tears (Please tell him, it's okay to cry!)

He smells so good omfg. I can't decide between Vanilla or some earthy smell, either way, it's so comforting yet at the same time it's like *eyes roll to the back of head*

You can read this for more scent hcs: Serenade my Senses

Call him pretty boy and he would be so shocked the first time, but as he gets used to it, he gives coy smile <33

I like the think it takes him a long time to get comfortable, but when he does it's so soft that it feels like breathing air. He is so touch-starved tho, so I can imagine him getting clingy after a while. (same bro same)

He is the knuckle and neck kisses type of dude *cue the flusters*

He hates Andrew Tate and his fans like he would go spit on them if could, this guy has the most healthy masculinity in all of anime and I love him for that.

Doesn't really understand the concept of memes tbh, he needs some explaining but he will laugh a little when you send them, he will once in a blue moon send memes but only the cat ones.

(realises how much I wrote for him while about to write more. This man has me on a chokehold frfr)

💿 Killua

He has trans-supporting t-shirts for him and Alluka. They are all matching.

Takes Alluka to pride parades! He has them sat on his shoulder the entire time too!!

Cant comfort a person even if his life depends on it. If you are crying he is just there like 🧍, awkwardly offering you some chocolate robots tho.

He just can't sit without moving every second! Literally a cat 😒

Older! Killua around 16-17 is a massive flirt! He is so quick to pull out reactions from anyone and takes a sick pleasure in it too??

Calls himself 'The Rizz lord' unironically.

His top Spotify artists would be Chase Atlantic, Mother-mother, The Scotts, Nirvana, Mitski and the Arctic Monkeys. Basically really an alt-rock/indie thing going on (us bro.)

💿 Chrollo

Mansplain, Manslaughter, Manwhore, Manipulate, Malewife ™️

Reads macabre literature like Crime and Punishment, No longer human, if we were villains, the secret history etc.

Tbh I feel like unlike how the fandom portrays him, he is a rather normal dude.

Gothic Academia ultra pro max.

Did the Soldier/Poet/King test, wanted 'king' but got 'poet'

Doesn't have pets because he thinks he can not take care of them

He loves animals tho, idk he seems the birds type of guy.

He likes the 'ominous' kind of birds more; like Ravens, Crows, Vultures and eagles.

Listens to Lana Del Ray and Maneskin, no questions asked.

Is scared of diving into conspiracy theories because he knows he would get sucked into the black hole because he is very interested in morbid things.

He is a DC fan, especially Gothan chronicles. (is that what it's called? Yk the things related to Gotham: joker, poison ivy, harlequin etc.)

Tried journalling once, failed terribly, and stopped after a week.

💿 Illumi

Oh wow, he is a difficult one to write about, but you guys love him, so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I hate to say this, but I think he frequently dissociates, usually for very short periods of time, he doesn't even know it tbh, just thinks he is out of the element.

He is subconsciously under a lot of stress so his mind tries to flee from it by dissociating.

I wrote a little more about this here: Stuck in a vicious cycle

I think he likes potted plants, especially succulents. He is patient so I can see him take care of even the very difficult ones.

If he is going on a mission, he would go to his mother (because he cannot trust his siblings and father in this matter) like 'take care of my child.'

She actually manages to keep it alive somehow??

I think he knows how to do origami (he saw a child making a paper crane once and got curious.)

Illumi genuinely doesn't know how to care for his hair, he just follows whatever his mom tells him to do, so thank Kikuyo for those luscious tresses.

He has a hyper-fixation on mushrooms (not the psychedelic kind you weirdo). He knows the names of a lot of mushrooms.

Just imagine him and Hisoka taking walk and he randomly spots a mushroom and mumbles to himself 'Coprinus comatus'

and Hisoka is like:

(yes it's a bad meme, but it's the effort that counts)

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[demonslayedher]

Things that went through my mind while watching this episode: --The other day, my fellow otaku colleague sent me a screen cap of her dictionary looking up the word "abazure" and I was like, "I know what episode she's on."

--And, after finishing this season, she announced she has a new favorite character. You can all guess where this is going. We gushed about how wonderful Mitsuri is, like, an hour after I wrote some otherwise unprompted Mitsuri gushing. Mitsuri is so worth gushing about. And Ufotable has done her such justice!!

--First off, Love Breath. Just. So good. And they basically handed the ending them to her this season as her own personal theme music. Speaking of sounds! Cat noises on the Love Breath. And you know that part at the beginning of the ending theme when she looks in the mirror and pats her cheeks? You can hear it.

--Speaking of the ending theme, one of the demons she is shown defeating is mostly in shadow, but you can still make out stripes on him similar to Akaza... but more similar to Speedy from the Rengoku Special. Rengoku nod!?!? Also, although they aren't the same character design, in part of Mitsuri's flashback she pictures a mother and son very similar to the pair she saves in the Gaiden. Rengoku nod!?!? --'k but also... the Rengoku Gaiden had Rengoku give her a haori, and that thing got totally obliterated in that attack she took with her face. That attack also tore her uniform in many places, and that is made of material that can at least withstand a normal demon's claws and teeth. Underneath, however, she doesn't even look bruised, which goes to show how strong her constitution really is.

--OKAY BUT ALSO... right after we see her say she'll treasure the socks, Iguro says, "don't bother, if they tear, I'll just give you new ones"? We see that despite how frayed and torn her uniform is, THOSE SOCKS ARE STILL IN TIP-TOP CONDITION.

--Iguro, what are those things even made of?????

--Love?????????

--So for as much as Muichiro gets to show his ease in battle by verbally messing with Gyokko (at least once he has the double whammy of memories+mark), Mitsuri is so physically capable that it totally makes up for her less-than-stealy frame of mind. Our girl can be right in the middle of battling an Upper Moon and be like, "wHaT DiD tHat cHiLd jUsT cALL mE!?!?!?!? Oh wait yeah not a child BUT STILL"

--And I love that Zouhakuten is so ULTRA-SERIOUS that he takes her totally at serious face value as an opponent instead of caring one way or another about her personality, which surely must have thrown other demons off in the past since she's so unlike other Corp Members they might have faced before.

--And then you got Hantengu, running from his responsibilities as the #1 Most Relatable Demon.

--Some other animation moment I loved: NEZUKO'S FACE as she looks at Mitsuri with admiration. I can't get enough of those two. I'd like to think that if Mitsuri and Nezuko met when Nezuko was human, mature elder sister Nezuko would be just as enamored with her. Like, that day Nezuko tells an adult off for hitting a child, say Mitsuri comes to her rescue and also stands up to the guy, but then when Mitsuri is lightheaded with hunger Nezuko uses that chance to treat her to a snack and chat with her, Takeo is probably watching this all go down and feeling very overwhelmed seeing that chatty side of Nezuko, so when Tanjiro comes by he might be like, 'help,' but then Tanjiro probably starts going into fanboy mode right alongside fangirl Nezuko and Takeo would be doubly overwhelmed.

--Also, I loved that Tanjiro (who already finds Mitsuri amazing) is like, "wow, whoever made that sword is amazing," which makes a very nice through-line about Tanjiro's admiration for the swordsmiths. If we look back at that scene in the opening when Kotetsu is showing him the swordsmiths at work, there's such a nice chance in Tanjiro's expression as he feels extra resolve as he appreciates how this is how the swordsmiths fight.

--Another part of the animation I love in this episode: How you can feel the shifty G-forces as Genya struggles to hold on to the twisted trunks of wood, and then all the strength of his jaws as he pulls at the bark. I also love how this is really the only explanation we ever get of his powers, and we're all supposed to be like, "Huh. Okay."

--What I don't love about this episode is that we don't get to see Tanjiro & Nezuko's faces--or Genya's face, for that matter--when he throws the tree. Those were some good faces.

--While I am sad at Ufotable for taking that out, we have to appreciate all blessed new material they gave us for fleshing out Mitsuri's background. We all fell a little in love with Mitsuri's dad, didn't we? Since we've never gotten it in any canon material, I do have to wonder how her parents reacted to her joining the Demon Slayer Corp, and how that even came up in the first place.

--I ate sakura mochi while watching this episode, tee hee hee.

[embellishedbookworm]

i got lost in thought, thinking about the silly pokemon bad guys, like, what do they want? it's a dumb question but for a long time, it wasn't too hard to answer.

giovanni wants power, and money can buy a lot of power.

archie and maxie want to make the world a better place, they're just really dumb.

cyrus wants to hit the reset button on reality because he really just hates people, and yet is charismatic enough for losers to follow him.

ghetsis wants to rule unova through his puppet king, and is willing to use any motive to make the whole king thing happen.

lysandre wants to kill everyone who isn't part of team flare, because he only lets in the beautiful people?

lusamine? wants. i don't know, i guess it depends on if you're playing the ultra games or not, because either she's being poisoned by an ultra beast, or trying to use them to make the world a better place?

but don't forget guzma, leader of the people the pokemon trial system has failed, who wants to change the region, not unlike the local professor, but just in a different way.

rose, oh god what even is chairman rose doing? weird power company stuff? did he just have a legendary plugged into the grid like some kind of limitless power supply? does the darkest day recharge the thing? is that it?

i don't actually think this kind of guy really exists after sun and moon, because, i mean, team yell isn't led by chairman rose, they're not even connected, and like, team star is just school bullies. there's not even really a charman rose here. no, the professor isn't like that.

bonus points go to volo, who i do know about, but i don't actually know his whole deal. we'll get there when we get there.

i guess it really did peak with cyrus who was willing to use the gods of time and space to hit the magical reality reset button. ghetsis is more of a recognizable asshole, and lysandre is just straight up a fascist, but once you've met the gods of time, space, antimatter, and creation, where are you supposed to go from there? i guess that's how you end up with swordbert and shielbert. i'm subtracting points for swordbert and shielbert. a lot of points.

[redlibra14-2]

My theory in regards to the loyal 3

Warning: TEAL MASK and INDIGO DISC SPOILERS

Ok so I just found out about this pokemon called Pecharunt and it looks awfully familiar. That's what I thought to myself upon hearing its name and seeing what it looks like. But upon further inspection I realized that it resembled the chains on the bodies of Okidogi Munkidori, & Fezandipiti. At the same time, a dark thought began to occur to me. I thought surely this can't be for real. But when I went to consult Bulbapedia about this pokemon, I found a bit more that supported my theory. Ladies, gentlemen, and people in between and out, I propose to you that Pecharunt is a parasite.

Yeah what we may be looking at here, may make you have 2nd thoughts and may even make you feel sorry for the Loyal 3. To start off with, as I just brought up, it looks like the chains on the bodies of the loyal 3. It's also the signature ability that all the loyal 3 members share.

Another clue that points to parasitism is how Pecharunts poison seems to enchance the abilities and desires of both people and pokemon. But it also causes them to be subjugated and controlled by it. The dex entries for the loyal 3 confirm this to be the case, as after each of them gained the chain on their bodies, it boosted their abilities and made them manipulative and aggressive. Part of Pecharunt's name according to bulbapedia comes from the word Petulant, which is defined as sulky or having bad manners according to google. Which I guess is why Pecharunt is also part ghost, as some ghosts and spirits tend to be wicked. Peacharunts own ability, poisone puppeteer and signature move, malignant chain also support this.

There's also how their categories are the Subjugator Pokemon for Pecharunt and Retainer pokemon for the loyal 3. Subjugator is defined as to bring someone or something under someone's control. Retainer is defined as something that is holding something in place. Meaning that this could possibly imply that the loyal 3 were once normal and innocent pokemon. And either they came across Pecharunt at some point before Ogerpon's story, or it found all of them and put those chains on them making them fall under its control and amplifying their abilities. Probably even causing their corruption to begin with. And this corruption would set off the CHAIN of events leading up to their encounter with Ogerpon and by extension the events of the Teal Mask as a whole. See what I did there?

The mochi also may possibly be related to the Herba Mystica somehow, as the Loyal 3 can become gigantic. Just like how the Herba Mystica made the titan pokemon that we face in the main story larger too.

So yeah, that's my theory of how the Loyal 3 maybe helpless victims of parasitism. And I can't help but feel how this parallels what happened with Nihilego and Lusamine back in sun and moon, as the poison there also similarly amplifyed Lusamine's wicked personality. But unlike Lusamine, it seems the Loyal 3 are too far gone and the chains are part of them now.

Also keep in mind that this isn't me suggesting a connection between an ultra beast and the loyal 3, just stating a parallel here nothing more.

[holdmytesseract]

How about

Congratulations! Magnus Martinsson (or Tom or anyone really) line - "I guess it's the price of love, I know it's not cheap." Song: Ultra violet by U2.

a/n: Getting inspiration for this took me a little while, but in the end I had an idea - and I absolutely love it! 😄 Hope you like it too, nonny! And thank you! ☺️

Warnings: police things, mentions of injuries, guns and some violence, fluff

Word Count: 1070

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Lyric-Drabble-Mania Masterlist

Based on this song:

Lifesaver

"Mags, what's wrong? You've been so quiet the whole day..." You asked your colleague and boyfriend, while putting on your bullet proof vest. The man with the curly, blonde hair huffed out a breath, worried blue eyes meeting yours. "I... I don't want you to go with us to the cash handover." You frowned. "Why?" Magnus sighed, running a hand through his luscious curls. "Because it's dangerous, min älskling. I don't want you to put your life on the line." The frown on your face turned into a compassionate look. "Oh Mags... I understand you, I really do, but it's my job. Just like it's yours." You stepped closer to him and placed your hands on his bullet proof vest clad chest. "Besides, I could say the same. You put your life on the line as well. Not just me." "I know, but-" "No buts. It's our job. We have to do it. Both, me and you; keep each other safe. We can't retreat from this." Magnus hung his head, but started to nod. "Yes, you're right."

An hour later, you were huddled up behind a tree; gun drawn and heart pounding in your chest. Magnus was only a few feet away from you, hiding behind a thick tree as well. You were silently watching the cash handover and had the order from Kurt to stay put and only intervene if something would go wrong. You and Magnus were so to speak the backup. You really hoped, that neither of you had to act and intervene, but of course, it wasn't going how you wished...

The two men you were after - who held one of your colleagues as a hostage, looked through Kurt's plan. Suddenly things went out of hand and they were escaping with screeching tyres. Then you heard a gunshot, firing from beside you. Magnus. He had hit one of their tyres, making sure they didn't get far. You looked over at him, who gave you a nod, panting. "Let's get going! I'll be right behind you, just checking in on Kurt and the others." "Alright." You nodded and started to run through the woods, into the direction the car headed.

You found it about five minutes later. They crashed, drove against a tree. You approached the damaged car cautiously, step after step. Carefully checking the front and back seats, you found just one of the two men. The driver. He was unconscious, with a gashing wound on his head. The other man was gone. All you had left to check was the trunk. That he was hiding there was most unlikely, but maybe they hid your colleague in there. After ordering an ambulance over your walkie-talkie, you circled back around the car and quickly opened the trunk. Nothing. A sigh left your lips, before you took a deep breath.

You never felt pain, though. The bullet never hit you. Confused and blinking you opened your eyes, which widened immediately. It hit Magnus.

Just as you wanted to close the trunk again, you heard a gun click behind you. Shit. "Det är över! Kasta din pistol och vänd långsamt! Händerna ovanför huvudet!" You had no choice. The man was right. It was over. So, you did what he said and threw away your gun, lifted your hands above your head and turned around slowly, facing him. The man had his gun pointed at you, hand shaking. You felt your heart speeding up once again, breath labouring. You were trained for this and yet you fought the urge to ran – which would have most likely been your death sentence. Words were all you had left, so you decided to use them. "Det behöver inte gå ner så här. Vi kan-" You tried to talk sense into the man, but he didn't listen, interrupted you immediately. "Ja det har." He rasped, before readjusting his aim, ready to shoot. After that, everything happened so fast. The man pulled the trigger, causing you to close your eyes, ready to feel the impact from the bullet. Then you heard another gunshot - and Magnus's voice, yelling from somewhere near you.

Your brain needed a moment to catch up, everything around you happening in slow motion. Another one of your colleagues had shot the man, while Kurt came running towards your hurt boyfriend, who laid on the hard ground in front of you, bleeding. Magnus had thrown himself into the shot. He had risked his life in order to save your life. In that moment, you realised. "Oh gods," you mumbled, stumbling forwards to your knees beside Kurt, who already was about to give Magnus first aid. "I-Is he...?" Your words got stuck in your throat. You weren't able to say it. Kurt shook his head. "No, he luckily isn't." You then checked on Magnus body as well, tears blurring your vision. The man had shot him in his shoulder and he had hit his head as he fell, as a wound on the back of his head told you. That was why Magnus was unconscious. You were like petrified, didn't know what to do. You were shocked, staring at your boyfriend's wound, which was bleeding - a lot.

Everything happened in a blur from that point on. About an hour later, you found yourself sitting on a chair beside the hospital bed, Magnus was laying in, eyes fixated on the man you loved, waiting for him to wake up. He did, luckily, after quite a while...

The blonde-haired man blinked his eyes open, groaning. "Mags... Hey..." You whispered, smiling. He needed a minute to adjust. "What happened?" You pressed your lips into thin line, smiling an uptight smile. "You got shot. Threw yourself in front of me, saving me." A loopy smile crept up your boyfriend's face. "Right... I remember." You shook your head, frowning. "Why did you do this? You could've died..." A small laugh escaped his lips. "I just did what you said, min älskling... Keeping each other safe... I kept you safe." Damn... You inhaled sharply. "Y-Yes, but-" He meekly shook his head. "No buts. I had to. Besides, I love you - and sometimes you do stupid things when you're in love, you know..." Magnus smiled again, dazzling blue eyes meeting yours, as he reached for your hand. "I guess it's the price of love... I know it's not cheap - but I am gladly willing to pay it as often as I have to."

Translation:

> "Det är över! Kasta din pistol och vänd långsamt! Händerna ovanför huvudet!" means in English "It's over! Drop your gun and turn slowly! Hands above your head!"

> "Det behöver inte gå ner så här. Vi kan-" means in English "It doesn't have to go down like this. We can-"

> "Ja det har." means in English "Yes it has."

> min älskling = my darling

[usafphantom2]

Growing up at Beale Air Force Base, CA there were black projects and then there were Deep black…. projects …I’m just finding out about many of them now.

“The goal is simple, but the problem is titanic. Get photos of the top-secret Red Chinese hydrogen bomb tests near the Mongolian border deep inside Asia, then get them back, without being detected “ to do this, they needed a MD 21. Which is a cousin of the SR 71.

In the Back Lot of the Pima Air & Space Museum You Can Discover History.

1547 Hrs. December 20, 2009. In the Back Storage Yard of the Pima Air & Space Museum Outside Tucson, Arizona.

Most of what is lying around in the dusty expanse of the aircraft graveyards around Tucson, Arizona is readily identifiable

But there… What is that strange, manta-ray shaped, dusty black thing lying at an angle just on the other side of that fence? It may be an old airfield wind vane or radar test model. But it also may be…

I quickly locate a spot where the entire fence line opens up. I skirt the fence and in a couple minutes running around the sandy airplane corpses I’m inside. There, sitting right in front of me on its decrepit transport cart and dusted with windblown sand, abandoned in the Sonoran Desert, is one of Kelly Johnson and Ben Rich’s most ambitious classified projects from the fabled Lockheed Skunk Works….

I just found the CIA’s ultra-secret Mach 3.3+ D-21 long-range reconnaissance drone. The D-21 was so weird, so ambitious, so unlikely it remains one of the most improbable concepts in the history of the often-bizarre world of ultra-secret “black” aviation projects. And now it lies discarded in the desert. The story behind it is so bizarre it is difficult to believe, but it is true.

July 30, 1966: Flight Level 920 (92,000 ft.), Mach 3.25, Above Point Mugu Naval Air Missile Test Center, Off Oxnard, California. The MD-21 takes off.

Only another M-21 is fast enough and can fly high enough to photograph this, the most classified of national security tests. Traveling faster than a rifle bullet at 91,000 feet, near inner-space altitude, one of the most ambitious and bizarre contraptions in the history of mankind is about to be tested.

Tagboard�� is its codename. Because of the catastrophic May, 1960 shoot-down of Francis Gary Powers’ Lockheed U-2 high altitude spy plane over the Soviet Union the CIA and is in desperate need of another way to spy on the rising threat of communist nuclear tests. Even worse, the other “Red Menace”, the Chinese, are testing massive hydrogen bombs in a remote location of the Gobi Desert near the Mongolian/Chinese border. It would be easier to observe the tests if the Chinese did them on the moon. Flat, triangular, black, featureless except for its odd plan form as viewed from above, like a demon’s cloak, it has a sharply pointed nose recessed into a forward-facing orifice. That’s it. No canopy, no cockpit, no weapons. Nothing attached to the outside. Even more so than a rifle bullet its shape is smooth and simple. This is the ultra-secret D-21 drone. The D-21 is truly a “drone”, not a remotely piloted aircraft (RPA). Its flight plan is programmed into a guidance system. It is launched from a mothership launch aircraft at speed and altitude. It flies a predetermined spy mission from 17 miles above the ground and flashes over at three times the speed of sound. It photographs massive swaths of land with incredible detail and resolution. And because of its remarkably stealthy shape, no one will ever know it was there

Despite a successful launch the D-21 drone was lost. In the middle of 1972, after four attempts at overflying Red China with the D-21 drone and four mission failures, the program was cancelled. It was imaginative. It was innovative. It was ingenious. But it was impossible.

So ended one of the most ambitious and outrageous espionage projects in history.

Written by Tom Demerly

Posted Linda Sheffield Miller *disclaimer I did not write this I am paraphrasing.

@Habubrats71 via X

[teamgalacticfangirl]

What Does Cyrus

Mean to Me?

⚠️Warning: Mention of Suicide⚠️

Well, this is my final post of 2022.

About 6 years ago, I received Pokemon Ultra Moon and a 3DS for Christmas. I hadn't asked for those; my mom got them for my and my brother to spend more time together (except he got Ultra Sun).

Of course, I played it, because I have always loved playing video games. And, like all the other girls I knew who played Pokémon, my favorite character was Gladion... but only in the main game.

Before I continue with my story, I should tell you that my grandmother (I live with my mom and grandma) had taught me to always hate villains. I was not allowed to sympathize with them or anything like that. I was only allowed to watch or read forms of entertainment in which the villain is potrayed as unlikable. As a result, I grew up with this mindset.

The post-game of Ultra Moon, however, had me reconsider my mindset. Well... not immediately; there was Archie, Maxie and Lysandre, and I didn't really care for them. However, there was something about Cyrus that I really liked. His intelligence, his implied connection to Rotom (Rotom was my favorite back them), and his mysterious and intimidating personality really intrigued me and made me like him. A lot. I've always liked smart characters. I realized I liked him right after I was sad about the Galactic Key breaking and Cyrus leaving. One of my most fond memories of gaming is that encounter with Cyrus.

Flash forward a few years, and I've learned about Cyrus's backstory and upbringing. At first, I was like, "Aww, poor guy," but then, I realized, "Hold up, this guy reminds me of myself." He's disturbingly relatable for me, because I was also the asocial child genius with parents putting impossibly high expectations on me. I also had a nihilistic view of the world for some time (I don't have that anymore), and Cyrus does too. So, yeah, I found Cyrus really interesting and relatable.

I never opened up about liking him, because I didn't know what people would say. Do people like Cyrus? Would I be made fun of if I said I liked him? Is it normal to like him? What would my grandma say?

As you can probably tell, I used to be very self-conscious. I did not like being made fun of or being ridiculed because of things I liked. So I kept quiet about liking him for a very long time. I regret that, however.

Because there was something about Cyrus that saved my from dying by my own hands. Cyrus was always fixated on his goals. He never gave up. I was suicidal at the time I played the Sinnoh games. However, Cyrus's persistence, and the fact I looked up to him, saved me from an awful fate. That's why I've decided to open up to everyone about this. I actually opened up about this recently, within this year. That's why I'm writing this, to really show how I feel about Cyrus and what he truly means to me, and what better time to write something like that than at the end of this year.

I hope, that in 2023, I can post even more interesting things about Cyrus, and I hope there is something about him that can help you.

[funeverythin]

An Essay on why the Ultra Sun/Ultra Moon player character is the strongest Pokemon Trainer;

To understand what makes them so powerful, we first have to look at the Trainers they have battled, mainly Giovanni and Red.

First off is Giovanni. Giovanni is (and I am quoting from Bulbapedia) "The Self-Proclaimed Strongest Trainer", and while it is easy to scoff at, it is clearly for a Good Reason. In Team Rainbow Rocket, which IS the version of Giovanni that the Protagonists faced, Giovanni has won the events of Pokemon Red, Blue and Yellow, meaning that he has actually Beaten Red (who we will get to later.) Next, his Team is alright. There are some Pokemon that are alright, but what really makes him a Threat is his Mewtwo. Mewtwo is a whole beast, it's a Man-Made Psychic God, I think we all know that, I don't think I need to explain why this is a Threat, Especially since it has been banned from competitive Pokemon, ever since Gen 1, Not to mention that Giovanni can Mega Evolve it. Finally Giovanni has every other main Pokemon villain working under him up to Gen 6, and while their willingness is questionable, since Giovanni had pulled them out of worlds they personally had ruined, all of these Villains had beaten their Protagonist too, and Giovanni is their Leader, who knows how many times Giovanni had to put the other Villains in there place, to keep them from taking over Team Rainbow Rocket.

Moving onto Red, this will probably take less convincing since he has actually became Champion, and while Red obviously has his fair share of losses, there is one Battle that proves they are deserving of there reputation. According to Pokemon Origins Red has caught Meetwo, however, unlike Giovanni, Red didn't have the Advantage of meeting Mewtwo in fresh from the Test Tube. Red has beaten Mewtwo, in a Fair Battle. It's unknown how much preparation Red would need to beat Mewtwo, but if you treat the Pokémon Origins Anime as Canon, then it is probably a few hours to no time at all.

The only other Character to have beaten both Red and Giovanni is the Soul Silver and Heart Gold protagonist, and Giovanni is much weaker in that game than in Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon, accomplishing none of the Before Mentioned Feats, still though, there is an Argument to be made that the Heart Gold/Soul Silver Protagonist could keep up with the Ultra Sun and Ultra Moon Protagonist, but any doubts of their power is washed away when you see the Pokemon they have beaten.

The Ultra Games Protagonist has beaten EVERY main-story legendary, Including Kyogre and Groudon (who each threatened to destroy the world), Palkia and Dialga (who threatened to destroy Existence.), Reshiram and Zekrom (Who... are actually a lot less impressive in Comparison, but still.), and Xerneus and Yveltal (who threatened to destroy the world, one being a Literal Death God). While some protagonist have beaten 1 or 2, the Ultra Games Protag has beaten EVERY LAST ONE. I haven't even mentioned the ones from the Ultra Wormholes. And all of these are puny in comparison to Ultra Necrozma, which (if Arceus didn't exist) would be Pokemon's God, "let there be light" and all.

Speaking of Arceus, you could argue that the Legends Arceus or BDSP are stronger, since they Successfully caught God, but I wanna disprove it, as Arceus themselves claimed to be nearly testing the protagonist during the Legends Games, and BDSP can die in a Fire.

The USUM Protagonist, has successfully beaten every last one of these, and never even bothered removing that psychotic smile from their face as they did it.

[junipaca]

ok i haven't finished the ruby sapphire and the fr lf emerald arc BUt i can rank my favs in terms of writing and character. 1. DPPT. its so good and genuine. i loved how character centric it was to the three, the silly bonding and friendship and how much they grew to rely on each other. the archetypes is sooo good and they take the time to get out the character's traits and quirks. i don't feel a hint of inconsistency tbh. all the trainers start off with little pokemon for the majority but eventually build their team and its rlly nicely drawn out. And then when the big conflict looms it LOOMS. dia pearl and platina are so good. Lady and her two bodyguards :]. 2. BW. im not including bw2 in this specifically cause it didn't get out to me AS much. altogether its a nice wrapup. I adore Black's entire character and White was such a compelling mc. N's enterance in this is SOOO good like yeah i rlly wish they emphasized some parts. but they did good on him!!!! BW2 i have trouble getting as connected to the characters but i also get they needed mcs to be the vessel and continue bw's entire finale. i did enjoy them nevertheless Whi-two is my daughter. Lack-two is interesting and i would love to see him more in missions. i feel like he rlly shines when he's taken aback or slightly confused by interactions (he doesn't understand emotions! its rlly neat how they put him there and its just. how he is. nothing rlly to change but its fun to see him interact with others). 3. S&M. my god. all that in 30-40 chapters. considerably shorter than rlly past arcs but MAN it feels longer. lillie's arc is rlly rlly nice. FABA was such a twist that i gasped. I enjoyed the battles and the general vibes of the ultra beasts arc. I enjoyed Sun's entire motivation for getting 10 million yen, because it made a lot of sense after a bit. Moon is literally me (poison type lover). Guzma's scenes are rlly nice to me, and the pacing felt rlly laid out to what was given for them. Overall a good 7.8/10 i was enjoying that!!!!! (i was secretly hoping for battle tree cameo so i could see red and blue again because i missed them sm but i know its unlikely because they're more dexholders than gameverse's champion and viridian gym leader but a guy can dream. i miss them. i miss Yellow actually where is he.)

[ziggy-goat]

Pokemon Ultra Sun & Ultra Moon vs. Pokemon X & Y (1/4)

It's a bit of a rant time but a good rant

So, it's been about...13 or so years since I played a Pokémon game, my last game being Pokémon White for the DS, so it's fair to say I haven't been keeping up with the whole Pokémon scene really. I didn't upgrade to a 3DS when it came out, I don't have a Switch so I didn't have access to the new Pokémon games but I at least briefly looked at the new Pokémon when the new games came out and it just didn't spark that new excitement I used to have. However, now that I have my own income, call it a weird itch when I decided to pick up where I left off and bought a 3DS and a copy of Pokémon X and Pokémon Ultra Moon. I was excited to try and recapture the childhood nostalgia of staying up, grinding my party up and going on a wild adventure to defeat the big baddie of the game and beat the Elite Four. I slotted in Pokémon X and started playing. And then within 3-4 days I set it down again because I beat the elite 4 and the game. Yea, so Pokémon X did some different things this time around, one of which was making it so that leveling your Pokémon is WAY easier this time around with the EXP share leveling ALL of the Pokémon in your party at the same time whenever you beat an enemy. This caused something that has never happened to me before. I was dangerously close to the point where my Pokémon would start disobeying me if I didn't beat the next gym. And that was just from paying the game NORMALLY. At the end of the game my party was a Delphox, Mantine, Mawile, Garchomp, Scolipede, and a Pangoro. And the highest level Pokémon on the team was the Mawile despite hardly using the thing. Due to the nature of the new EXP share system and Leveling speeds being different for every Pokémon, no matter what I did, the Mawile just ended up being a higher level than everyone else, finishing the Elite Four at level 82. 20 levels higher than the Champion's Pokémon. As a result of this over leveling shenaniganry, the Elite Four felt more of a push over than an actual challenge unlike pokemon games of years past. I still remember grinding my teeth from pokemon Ruby & Sapphire's Elite Four would kick my ASS every time. It felt like I had to build up a supply kit of Revives, Full Heals, Full Restores, and Berries just to beat them, and many times they'd still run me over. The Champion Diantha hardly came as a surprise to me and yet also was a huge push over. In fact, the only real challenge came from the final fight with Lysandre.

[puppypaw-wc]

today i learned that i hate the fact that every pseudo-legendary pokemon is found like super late into the game.

like,,, i don’t even know where you find dratini in original red and blue (in the let’s go games you can find it by surfing on the route above cerulean city), in gold, silver and crystal larvitar’s post-game, i don’t know where you get bagon or beldum in the hoenn games, nor do i know where you get gible in the sinnoh games, or deino in the unova games, in x and y goomy’s on the route leading to the town with the sixth gym, in the alola games jangmoo-o’s found during the final trial, so the very end of the game, and idk where you get,,, whatever the first stage of dragapult is in sword and shield.

I JUST WANNA USE GOOMY-

[tyrantisterror]

A Semi-Spoilery Ramble about Prehistoric Pokemon in the wake of Scarlet/Violet

You know me, I love the “Prehistoric Monster” trope, and Pokemon has played with it since the very start of the franchise.  The prehistoric pokemon are my favorite semi-official category of pokemon, and I love how the franchise has slowly built its own mythologized Monstrous Prehistoric Age over the course of its lifetime.

The newest entry in the game series doesn’t have any traditional prehistoric pokemon - that is, there aren’t any that you resurrect from fossils Jurassic Park style.  However, in Pokemon Scarlet, you encounter paradox pokemon that are explicitly from the prehistoric past, and this is where shit gets REAL intriguing.

See, up till now prehistoric pokemon have only be represented by facsimilies created in the modern era.  The Jurassic Park reference isn’t shallow - just like in Jurassic Park, the pokemon resurrected from fossils aren’t 100% accurate replicas.  Most of them have rock-typing as a result of being brought back from fossils rather than purely biological remains, while the Galarian prehistoric pokemon are horrific chimeras made by a careless scientist who’s doing an even worse job of resurrecting these fossils than normal.  The point is that we’ve never actually seen a true prehistoric pokemon.

...or have we?

Ok, so, Mega Evolution is introduced in the Kalos games, and is revealed in the Hoenn remakes to have been caused by energy released from meteors that landed in prehistoric times.  Why is this important?  Well, Aerodactyl’s mega form is speculated to be closer to what it looked like in prehistoric times than its normal form.  Likewise, the legendary pokemon, Groudon and Kyogre, undergo a process very similar to Mega Evolution, even requiring specific stones to activate it, but the process isn’t called Mega Evolution, but rather Primal Reversion.

This brings us back to Pokemon Scarlet.  Due to literal time travel shenanigans, a bunch of pure prehistoric pokemon are brought to the present, all of them being explicitly more dinosaur-y, or, if we’re really being honest, retrosaur-y, with lizard tails and Godzilla spikes being a common design motiff - even among non-reptiles, like Great Tusk (i.e. prehistoric Donphan), Scream Tail (prehistoric Jigglypuff), and Slither Wing (prehistoric Volcorona).

But the one that I want to highlight is Roaring Moon, i.e. Prehistoric Salamence.  See, Salamence also has a Mega Evolution form, and both it and Roaring Moon have enormous wings that connect to form a crescent moon shape.  In many ways, Roaring Moon looks less like a prehistoric Salamence and more like a prehistoric Mega Salamence.

Or, to put it another way: Like Mega Aerodactyl, Mega Salamence is closer to its prehistoric counterpart than normal Salamence is.

And this raises some fun questions.  Is the meteor radiation what made prehistoric pokemon so gnarly?  Was EVERY pokemon permanently mega-evolved in prehistoric times?  Could it even be what made pokemon have super powers unlike those of mundane animals?

Or, given the fact that mega evolution comes from meteors, which are normally the kryptonite of prehistoric monsters, did rise of mega evolution wipe out the prehistoric pokemon, with paradox pokemon like Scream Tail and Roaring Moon being the super-powerful brutes that wiped out the Tyrantrums and Aerodactyls of days past, before the radiation became less prominent and they evolved into their less powerful, more docile modern forms?

And what about Dynamax?  WHAT ABOUT DYNAMAX, GUYS?  Also caused by strange radiation, plus the fact that it kaiju-fies pokemon, with kaiju OFTEN being prehistoric monsters as well - the fact that Gigantomax Charizard looks like a hybrid of both Mega Charizard forms... Where does it fit?

AND!  Dynamax/Gigantomax energy was caused by Eternatus, an otherworldly pokemon that came from the stars and seems VERY similar to the Ultra Beasts, which explicitly come from other universes, while the meteors that created mega evolution seem to have some connection with Deoxys, an explicitly etraterrestrial (and possibly extradimensional) pokemon.

AND! AND! We have Legends Arceus reminding us that there are pokemon evolutions that went extinct much more recently, as well as Legendary pokemon who naturally (well, for a given definition of “naturaly”) warp time and space routinely.

It’s building to something!  There’s some really cool lore developing now about the prehistory of the pokemon setting and I am fucking here for it!  Give me that good Prehistoric Fantasy shit!  Inject it into my veins!

also Violet says the future is all robots, which is cool I guess.

[werenotadulting]

Routine Procedure pt. 5

Over the next couple of days, it was actually abnormal for Kate not to give me some special attention down there during a diaper change. Just woke up? Let's try using my vibrator on your soaked diaper. Need a change before lunch? How about reverse cowgirl while laying there on top of your fresh diaper. Time for your night diaper? Bedtime blowjob.

Don't get me wrong, Kate and I have always had a very good sex life, but this past week was unlike any other.

On Saturday, in the middle of a mid-afternoon change, was when Kate suggested we try getting out of the house for a bit.

"You really soak through these diapers quick, Mike. We're gonna have to see about getting some more soon."

"I suppose we should, right? I mean, they're working infinitely better than that condom thing," I said as I was laying back while Kate took care of wiping me down.

Despite what she had said about showing me how to change myself, she didn't seem to mind taking care of it, and I was in no rush to put a stop to it considering what was in it for me.

"That's very true. There was only that one minor leak you had last night, which I'm sure we can find a way to prevent in the future. I'll put in an order for some new diapers tonight, so they get here by Monday."

Kate secured the last tape and ran a finger along the elastic leg gathers. "You know, that new game store opened up in the mall on the other side of town. What do you say we stop over there and see how it is?"

I froze. Being diapered at home was one thing. Going out in public though.... Kate seemed to know exactly what I was thinking.

"Mike. Earth to Mike. Remember what we talked about? No one is going to be paying attention to the size of your butt or the sound of your pants. And guess what? Even if they do, who cares? You have a medical need to wear diapers. Just like people who have trouble walking use canes, it's a medical thing. You didn't ask to be incontinent."

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I looked at myself in the mirror. My jeans appeared to do their job of concealing my diaper.

"You know," Kate popped up behind me in the reflection, "if you're so worried about people seeing, they do make onesies for adults. Just a thought."

I scoffed at her, and we headed off to the mall.

About 30 minutes later, we arrived. I couldn't help but notice that it seemed like there were a heck of a lot more people there than normal. Another 10 minutes later and we were finally able to find a parking space towards the back. As I got out of the car, I made sure my shirt was pulled down as far as it could go. It was all I needed for my shirt to ride up and expose my plastic waistband.

Kate grabbed my hand, but not before giving my padded butt a firm slap. The corner of her mouth turned up ever so slightly, and we walked hand-in-hand up to the mall.

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You know that feeling you get when it feels like someone is watching you? Yeah, it did not go away no matter how much time passed as we meandered through the mall.

Our first stop was in the food court, where we grabbed a late lunch of chicken and waffles. Kate went to order the food while I found a spot to sit down.

"All ready," Kate said as she walked up with a tray piled with chicken. "They accidentally made your lemonade a large, and I wasn't about time tell them they were wrong."

"It is the best homemade lemonade in town," I said, grabbing my plate off of the tray.

Kate set the tray down, then went to grab a couple of napkins. A few moments later, I noticed my shirt rising up and the back of my diaper being pulled open. I spun around and swatted the offending hand away, which turned out to belong to Kate.

"What in the hell do you think you're doing?!"

"Giving you a diaper check, what else?"

"We are in the middle of the mall!"

"It's been awhile since you had your diaper changed, and I know you are bad at knowing when you're at capacity," Kate gave me a 'prove me wrong' look.

"I'm fine!! Just... not out in broad daylight, please?" I pleaded.

"Well I didn't even get a chance to properly check just now, but if you say so...."

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After stopping in a couple clothing stores, ("Hey, we should think about getting you some new jeans. Those ones seem a little tight all of the sudden.") we finally made our way to the new gaming store. It was like a one-stop shop for gamers, with board games, collectibles, and video games. Towards the back, there were tables setup, where people could break out their games or card decks and hang out for a bit.

Once we had searched down all the aisles, we found ourselves in the back next to the gaming tables.

"Hey, we're looking for two more for Ticket to Ride! Do you guys want in?" said a blonde girl from a table in the corner. She and another girl were setting up the board, getting ready to start.

Kate's eyes grew to the size of saucers.

"Oh heck yes! I never lose at this game!" It was true, she did never lose, and she never let me hear the end of it whenever we played.

An hour later, and it was clear that it was between Kate and Melanie, the blonde girl, on who would be crowned victorious. The other girl and I had all but given up. Seeing that there was no way I could complete all my routes, I had long since resorted to my usual strategy of trying to sabotage Kate.

"Annnnnd 110, 111, 112. I have retained my crown," Kate gloated.

"Oh wonderful," I said, "I can't wait to hear about this all the way home."

"Well played, you two," Melanie chimed in. "Don't worry about cleaning up, we are actually waiting for some friends to come play a round."

"Oh thank you, that's so nice," Kate said as we both stood up to leave.

"Of course! It was nice meet....." Melanie trailed off, staring at my crotch.

Both Kate and I followed her gaze, and it was then that I saw that I'd had a major leak.

Large wet spots had formed down the inside of my jeans, as well as two half-moon  shapes on my butt. Looking at my chair, there was more evidence of my accident, there for all to see.

It was obvious to anyone looking what had happened.

I was speechless.

"Oh shit, we're so sorry! Let me just wipe this up..." Kate said as she frantically wiped the seat down with a tissue.

The girls were equally dumbstruck, as they watched Kate lead me out of the store waddling behind her.

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The feeling of eyes on me increased tenfold on the walk through the mall to the car. Without a jacket or anything to cover up with, we moved as fast as we could, whispers and giggles following us out.

In what seemed like an eternity later, we finally made it back to the car.

"I'll get the seats cleaned, don't worry baby, just get in." Kate pulled open her door and got the car started. I didn't need to be told twice, as I practically leaped into the car.

"That...I...I'm so embarrassed...." I was starting to get choked up, tears forming in the corners of my eyes.

"Hey, hey, there there sweetie, I'm sorry. That can't have been fun, I know. It's not your fault." Kate was rubbing my back, the car still in park.

"That doesn't make it any less humiliating! And it's not even like I had a little accident, Kate, my diaper leaked!" I was almost yelling, my emotions getting the better of me.

"Shhhh baby, it's okay, take deep breaths, it's going to be okay. We didn't know anyone there, no one important saw, you'll be fine."

I was still upset, but I listened to her, taking steadying breaths that at least got my heart rate under control. Seeing this, Kate started to back out of our parking spot.

"Let's get you home and into a bath, baby," Kate soothed. We drove on in silence for awhile as I continued to calm down.

I think," Kate broke the silence, "that we might want to consider getting you some thicker protection. Just to be safe, you know? What do you think?"

"I think that means I will definitely be waddling, and it will be obvious to everyone what I'm wearing," I said, staring out the window.

"Well, do you prefer people maybe noticing that you walk a little funny, or running the risk of leaking like happened back there?"

"I don't know Kate, I just...I don't want to think about it."

"I'll take care of it then, babe," Kate said, "those hospital diapers are notoriously cheap anyway. We'll find something that works better for you. And I'll look into some of those onesies, so you don't feel so self-conscious about your diaper sticking out."

"Yeah, whatever," I said, as we continued down the highway.

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Kate knew exactly where to look when she logged on to order new diapers.

Let's see, she thought, I think probably a case of ABU Simple Ultra. Maybe a mixed case with some fun prints? No, it was too soon to go all-in like that. I'll just add in another pack of PeekABUs. That's 90 diapers, so at 2-3 diapers a day, that should be good for a month. Better throw in some boosters, too. And set up a recurring monthly order, yes please.

With that order placed, it was then to the ODU website, where she settled on several of their basic onesies.

"All in good time, Kate," she muttered to herself as she looked longingly at all of the cute designs. She could just picture how adorable Mike would look in that dinosaur onesie.

She was so horny right now. The sight of Mike in his wet jeans, his face burning bright red. Her hand slipped down the front of her shorts.

Oh fuck, she thought, he was so humiliated. She rubbed her clit to the image of Mike standing there over the pee puddle on his chair while those girls looked on.

Had she taped on his diaper perhaps a little loose before they went to the mall? Yes.

Had she intentionally ordered Mike a large lemonade? Also yes.

Had she suspected during her impromptu diaper check at the food court that Mike would protest and insist he was fine? Triple yes.

Had she known those flimsy hospital diapers would fail sooner rather than later, and she could talk Mike into something a bit thicker?

Ding-ding-ding, we have a winner.

Kate closed the laptop and got up.

She had a diaper boy she needed to fuck.

[autumn-writes]

Can I request a MtF S/O coming out to Chihiro, Mikan, Ibuki, Chiaki, and Gonta? (separately)

hello! thank you for being patient with me < 3! here you go mod chihiro!! i hope you'll enjoy this :>! this is also my first time writing something mtf so if i got anything wrong i'm so sorry :(!

MtF S/O coming out to Chihiro, Mikan, Ibuki, Chiaki and Gonta

chihiro fujisaki — the ultimate programmer

very nervous when you tell him that you two have to talk. his mind immediately goss to negative thoughts and he starts to worry :(

are u okay?? are u mad at him? are u about to leave him?!

he is so nervous up to the time that you two start to talk

he was ready to start bawling and asking you why you want to leave him but then—

"chihiro, i'm a transgender woman" "y/n why do want to lea— wait, what was that?"

you repeat once more that you are mtf and he visibly relaxes

"ah, i was so worried i did something wrong!! i'm so proud of how strong you are to come out :)!"

he's very supportive and not at all judgemental. he's quite curious about being mtf though. what is it like to hav transitioned from a male to a female? you don't get bullied whenever people find out, right? you better not be getting bullied cause chihiro isn't the strongest but he's friends with a biker gange leader and the school's ultimate moral compass :) (yes they are besties you cannot change my mind)

Chihiro's love for you doesn't waver at all!! In fact, he ends up loving you even more :)!!

mikan tsumiki — the ultimate nurse

just like chihiro, she's very nervous from the day you tell her you two need to talk till the day you two actually talk

she's fidgeting so much when you two are about to talk, she's ready to start begging for forgiveness for whatever she may have done wrong

"y-y/n i-i'm so sorry for whatever i di-did wrong!! i pr-promise i d-didn't—" "mikan, sweetie, relax. i just... finally found the courage to tell you that i'm trans ^-^"

she stops apologizing as soon as you tell her to relax and her face visibly lights up as soon as you tell her the news. you... you trust her enough to tell her something so important?? she's over the moon!!

she's bisexual but she has a preference for females not saying she wouldn't love you as a guy no no that's not it!! she's just happy that you had the strength to transition from male to female :>

baby is also very, very, VERY supportive of you! she's sure to show you that no matter what, even if you may have been a male at the start, that doesn't mean her love for you is going away < 3

ibuki mioda — the ultimate musician

was very willing and excited to talk when you mentioned you had something important to say

unlike the first two, ibuki can sorta read people very well! she can tell what type of person they are and knows when a situation is gloomy enough to need uplifting or jokes, or when a situation is sappy, so she could tell that when you told her you needed to talk, it wasn't going to be anything devastating

"hey hey hey sugar to my plum!!" she would greet you have excitedly as always, giving you a big hug and a a few kisses as part of her greeting. she could tell you were nervous from the moment she saw you fidgeting so she had to relieve some of the tension!

"sooooo what was this super duper ultra mega important thing you needed to tell me??" she asks and waits patiently for you to start talking. she listens intently and lets her jaw drop open when you confess to being trans and ask if she still accepts you despite this

girl literally scoops you up and starts swinging you from side to side in the air

"awww c'mere you little cutie!! of course i still accept you :)! banana or not, balloons or flat, i still love you just as much!!"

very very supportive, she's happy that you came out to her cause she knows that telling people information such as that takes a lot of courage and she's proud of you for it < 3

gonta gokuhara — the ultimate entomologist

immediately agrees to talk to you cause he's a gentleman and he can't say no to you :)

"gentleman listen to y/n talk! listening to loved one talk is proof of gentleman love :)"

so the day you tell him the news arrives and gonta and you are just sitting in the living room while he's trying to show you a butterfly that he placed in a container earlier this morning

you clear your throat and quickly grab his hands, you know that gonta most likely wouldn't reject you for being trans but there's still that underlying worry (that is utterly useless cause this is gonta we're talking abt bby boi wouldn't even dream of hurting you)

"so gonta uh... i was once a guy :)" "y/n... was guy...? but s/o is girl? gonta is confused, sorry!"

you'll have to spend a few minutes explaining to gonta what being mtf is and have to tell him how becoming a girl when you were a guy was possible

once he understands he's like ":0 gonta still love y/n! being boy before is okay, what important is y/n and gonta love each other :)"

please this boy accepts and love you so much he's so quick to protect you whenever someone makes fun of you for being trans and he's ready to show a more scary side to him

no one is going to mess with you, and that's because you got a wonderful gentleman who loves and accepts you to death :3

chiaki nanami — the ultimate gamer

is very calm when you tell her you two have to talk about something and immediately accepts

she has a feeling that this conversation you two will have will be something rather important so she tries not to distract herself with a game when you two speak

intently listens to you speak when you say that you're transgender and asks some questions to clear up her questions in mind

once that's over with, she expresses her acceptance as love by giving you a tight but loving hug and a kiss to the cheek

"i... hope you know that no matter what you are, i'd still love and care for you dearly. i love everything about you, y/n"

offers to play a game with you after your confession and even lets you win! (though you pout when you know she's purposefully trying to lose, it warms your heart to know that she's making you happy)

very supportive girlfriend! 10/10 would love < 3

ah I can't believe i'm almost done with requests!! i'll have a big announcement once i'm done with all of them so do watch out for that < 3!

please do take care of yourselves lovelies! autumn loves y'all very much!! stay safe and healthy my beloved maple leaves :)!

[demonslayedher]

What’s the difference between current Muichiro and Yuichiro? With their personality I mean. Ik Mui was nicer as a kid, but after his memory loss he kinda acted more like Yui, but I don’t think he completely adapted his personality.

If Yuichiro had lived what type of pillar do you think he would be ?

I’m going to answer these two Anon Asks together. I’ll come right out with the Pillar question and say I don’t think Yuichiro ever had the same potential Muichiro did and he knew it. Even if he did possess the same innate skills, his worldview was self-limiting, so even if he had joined the Corp and they worked alongside each other, I doubt he would had reached the same heights as Muichiro.  When we see things from Yuichiro’s point of view, we don’t necessarily see jealousy, we see intense worry. Yuichiro has already lost his parents and is rightfully bitter about it, so Muichiro is now the only one in the world who is precious to him. His dumb little brother is too kind for his own good, and because the world is not kind, Muichiro is bound to get hurt, and probably killed in a quick and heartless way. Although he tried to hide Muichiro’s potential from him by tearing him down and calling him useless, we see in his narration that he sees Muichiro as being a chosen one with infinite ability. But Yuichiro does not see the same in himself--he feels so powerless to protect Muichiro that he has no leeway whatsoever to be kind to him. 

While Muichiro is the more innately sweet one of the two, he’s not a pushover. Despite being timid and feeling suffocated with how much his brother must hate him, after Amane’s visit, they get in enough of an argument that they stop talking to each other. Muichiro feels Yuichiro is wrong, and wants to be out there helping people, and is excited about the prospect of being a swordsman. This agreement is enough for him to feel some resentment toward Yuichiro, however awful the situation must had felt for both of them. 

And, once Yuichiro is attacked, Muichiro unlocks his anger-driven power. 

This is why it makes sense for him to take on so much of Yuichiro’s influence when he loses his memories, so much so that he recognizes the resemblance as he’s recovering what he lost. Subconsciously, this was how Muichiro learned to handle an immensely unfair situation; to put up walls and take out your anger on people around you. And when he initially takes up the sword, he is relying on how his body remembers the anger. 

But, Yuichiro knew Muichiro’s potential better: as his chosen brother is a kind person, he will unlock unlimited capabilities when fighting for other people. This is especially clear when Muichiro attains his mark, and starts seeing other people as valuable and worth risking himself for. (Up until that point he had often assigned higher value to himself due to being a Pillar, and therefore the most useful person to keep alive. Interesting way of subconsciously twisting Yuichiro’s assessment of him as useless, and deeper drive and last wishes for Muichiro alone out of the two of them to live and be safe.)

So while Muichiro did seem to pick up a lot of traits from Yuichiro, especially the sharp tongue (though Muichiro is the wittier one with it) and harsh assessment of others, he had the seeds of anger in him all along, and recovering his memories allowed his sweeter side and honest desire to protect other people back out to the forefront. As Yuichiro’s priority was always only to protect Muichiro, it’s unsurprising that they would bring this disagreement to the forefront when they meet again in the afterlife, but unlike before, Muichiro sticks up for his views, and they argue their way through to true communication.  (Side note: Yuichiro’s feelings towards his ultra-talented twin and Kokushibo’s feelings towards his ultra-talented twin are a very stark constrast.) Now, going back to the idea of an AU in which Yuichiro lives, he would probably cause a lot of trouble for Muichiro with all his worry and priorities being out of line for someone in the Corp. With Muichiro having a good baseline of happiness and bonds throughout the Corp, he’d probably have the confidence to argue back and tell Yuichiro not to be so concerned about him, and they’d probably bicker all the time and get heated enough that they don’t talk to each other sometimes and then everyone has to watch both of them mope and be sad about it. So, great, two young Tokito’s to be a little worried about...  It was would be funny to see Yuichiro be an average Slayer while Muichiro alone is a genius, hahaha, especially when they get confused for each other. As for Breath style, I could see him being Mist as well, or Wind (from which Mist is derived). On that note, I can see Yuichiro and Sanemi getting along really, really well. But the other idea is how it would be interesting if Yuichiro picked up Moon Breathing like their ancestor. 

But...

But........ The only way I can see this going is Kokushibo quickly assessing which of the two is talented, and though he might be intrigued to see his progeny use his Breath, he’d probably consider Yuichiro useless and kill him off in a quick and efficient manner while saving Muichiro for later. And there goes this potentially happy AU, whoops. 

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Moon Knight: The Dangers of Being a Symbol

*Spoilers ahead for the Moon Knight series on Disney+ and minor spoilers for the comics*

The MCU has yet to show any signs of slowing down in 2022. Not only is Dr. Strange in the Multiverse of Madness less than a week away from release as of this essay, but Moon Knight has it’s 6th (and I think final?) episode of season 1 coming this wednesday. Going into Moon Knight I didn’t know what to expect. I like to consider myself a pretty big Marvel fan as I’ve been reading and drawing the comics and playing the video games since I was a kid, even before the MCU started rolling out with the first Iron Man in 2008. But even so I knew basically nothing about Moon Knight for some time and when he DID occasionally surface on my feed somewhere (be it a trailer for the show, a screenshot of the comics or a weird shitpost about him bullying Dracula for money) it usually left me with more questions than answers. After checking out the show and reading the comics I can safely say that being left with more questions than answers is . . . . . KINDA the appeal of Moon Knight . . . and it works shockingly well.

What I once wrote off in my own head as “Marvel’s answer to Batman” suddenly became not only a complex and original character and world in its own right, but quite possibly the most refreshing and original superhero I’ve watched/read about in recent years. Moon Knight is unlike anything I’ve seen before in this genre. It is an absolute mindfuck; with a narrative as fluid as vodka that is so topsy turvy that it constantly leaves you questioning what is and isn’t real. I haven’t had a superhero bend my imagination to this degree in quite some time and I definitely recommend it to any readers who are interested in a surreal adventure. I’m thoroughly enjoying “Moon Knight: The Complete Collection” and encourage others to check it out.

On top of all of that though, Moon Knight offers some keen insight on the superhero genre itself. It dissects the very idea of dressing up in a costume to represent a higher concept of justice or hope or what have you . . .and what that does to a human being. Moon Knight is certainly not the first superhero comic to tackle the topic of mental health but it DOES stand out for putting it in the forefront the way it does. To delve further into this point, we should get the synopsis for what Moon Knight is all about out of the way:

Marc Spector is an ex soldier turned mercenary who one day takes up a job from his employer to accompany a team of archeologists and raid an Egyptian tomb. Things quickly go south, however, as it turns out Marc’s employer had plans to kill everyone at the site and take the treasures of the tomb for himself. Marc tried to stop him but failed to protect any lives and ended up getting mortally wounded in the process. On the brink of death, Marc suddenly hears a voice. It is the voice of Khonshu, the Egyptian God of the Moon to whom the tomb belongs. Khonshu offers Marc a deal: If he swears to be Khonshu’s fist of vengeance against those who would hurt the “travelers of the night” (which is a fancy way of saying the innocent), Khonshu will save his life. Marc agrees and is reborn as “Moon Knight”, The fist of Khonshu with abilities like super strength and fast healing and weapons like clubs and moon shaped blades.

So on the surface it sounds like a generic superhero origin story, right? Just a simple explanation for why this guy has his powers and weapons. However, those who are familiar with Moon Knight will know that I left out a very important detail that gives Moon Knight an edge over other superheroes with his storytelling.

Moon Knight . . .has Dissociative Identity Disorder. Different personalities are in control of his body at different times. He isn’t just Marc Spector the disgraced mercenary. He’s also Steven Grant the charismatic millionaire.  He’s also Jake Lockley, the ultra violent cab driver. And apparently Moon Knight and Khonshu count as separate personalities too: making for a total of 5. 

Having such an unpredictable and often unwieldy mental illness causes Moon Knight to have a rocky relationship with his friends and superhero allies. It challenges the relationships he holds most dear on an intense level, to a point where he often scares away the people who matter most to him. 

So this just begs the question . . . why did Khonshu choose Marc Spector to be his fist of vengeance? Did Khonshu know Marc was such a damaged human being? The answer . . . is a resounding yes. Khonshu chose Marc BECAUSE he is damaged. It is his broken mind that convinced Konshu he would be an ideal candidate for the role. But what makes a damaged individual fit to be a superhero?

Despite me selling what sets Moon Knight apart from other super heroes, he isn’t THAT much different from them when you stop to think about it. Khonshu represents something that a lot of gods from a lot of different pantheons represent. He also represents what a lot of superheroes represent with their costumes and their storylines.

He represents an idea. A concept larger than any human being. He represents a specific philosophy: a distinction between what is right and wrong and how to respond against evil. In turn, his chosen avatar also represents this. Moon Knight becomes Khonshu’s brand of justice made manifest.

But how does a human being go about representing a concept that is larger than themself? What does it do to a person to serve an unknowable god or to serve ANY kind of abstract concept? What does a person have to be to give themselves fully to that philosophy and to that cause?

the answer . . . is crazy. 

Khonshu wanted Marc to be his fist of vengeance because Marc meets what a person would have to be in order to do so. Not only does he have the combat training from his time as a merc . . . but he’s mentally unstable enough to be easily manipulated by and he’s self loathing enough to do anything for redemption. 

Sounds really fucked up, doesn’t it? It’s a mentally ill man being used like a puppet by a sanctimonious and abusive God. The man loyally endures it for the most part because, despite the fact that being the fist of Khonshu cost him everything, he feels as though there’s nothing else going for him. He would rather be Moon Knight than Marc Spector.

This right here is the reason why Marc often finds himself on the opposite end of where the rest of the Marvel heroes are. He has difficulty earning their respect because of all this.

But honestly . . . . aren’t all superheroes slaves to their code?

Think about Batman. Batman made a swear on the deaths of his parents that he would rid Gotham City of the evil that took their lives. He takes his oath VERY seriously. But despite his training and his gadgets and his brilliance as a detective, Batman has set himself up for failure. He will NEVER rid the world of evil. For as long as there are those with evil intent in their heart evil will always be committed. Batman fights a battle he cannot win. He knows that. But it doesn’t matter. He has committed himself fully to his ideals and will not compromise anything for his mission. It’s no secret that his one man crusade has taken an enormous toll on everyone he loves. It gets his sidekicks killed and it breaks the heart of the one guardian figure he has left. But even so, he cannot stop. And his mind suffers all the more for it just like Marc Spector’s. When you really boil it down, the only difference between Batman’s mission and Moon Knight’s mission is that Moon Knight’s mission talks back to him.

Same can be said about Spider-Man. Peter Parker suffered immeasurable loss the day his Uncle died and it was his fault for not doing the responsible thing. Now he has committed himself fully to his mantra “with great power comes great responsibility”. From then on, Peter is punished for trying to have a life outside of his mission. His loved ones die at the hands of his villains, he spends less precious time with his Aunt May and often times he has to break up relationships with the women he loves because association with him ruins their life. But can Peter ever give up? Can be ever put himself first for a change so that he can be there for the people he truly cares about and live a normal, happy life? Of course not. For he has great power; and with great power comes great responsibility.

Much more often than not heroes are born from tragedy and commit themselves fully to a failing mission in a desperate need for redemption. But they are still human beings. Bound to make mistakes. Bound to be wrong. Bound to hurt others even if they don’t mean to. How can flawed beings take on such absolutist ideals? They must give themselves absolutely. To do so is to be mad. To give so willingly to such a mission it appears to some degree you must be broken from the start.

That’s why Khonshu loved that Marc was such a damaged individual. Khonshu knew that no well adjusted person would ever seriously take this responsibility.

We’d like to think that superheroes are the best of us and that they are awarded their power specifically for that. But honestly, they’re mainly just . . . . sad. You never hear about a superhero free of baggage and just wants to do good for good’s sake. Even boy scout heroes like Superman and Captain America have SOMETHING that is conditioning them into sacrificing their chances for a good life, whether it’s being the sole survivor of a planetary genocide or being a man who was pulled out of his time and now has nothing else to live for . . . but the mission.

All of this is why I REALLY appreciate the current take on Moon Knight. It isn’t your typical “lucky guy comes across fantastic power and decides to fight crime” story. It fully explores the more grim implications of all this. Khonshu isn’t like the wizard Shazam where he chooses champions for their nobility. The writer doesn’t pretend Khonshu is this pinnacle of goodness or ethics. Khonshu is a monster who uses individuals as tools for his agenda. And Marc isn’t his champion because no one else is worthy of such power. It isn’t Mjolnir. Marc is his champion because he doesn��t resist Khonshu’s will . . . no matter how much it piles on to Marc’s already immense guilt.

The saddest part is . . . Marc never really deserved any of this. He made a poor choice when he was a child and it ended up costing him more than he realized. That’s it. With proper care and love he could have been a healthier person. But instead he is burdened with carrying the blame for his masters, be it the Moon God . . . or his mother. The happiest ending for Marc is when he doesn’t have to be Moon Knight or any other of his personas anymore . . . but I doubt that will ever come. It’s always about the mission.