#unfortunately i dont take anons seriously :3

[deepseasmetro]

yeah that seems like tme 'ally' behavior. dismissing trans women when they tell you that they're concerned about violence. no one cares that you're a kinkster though the fact that you put that above the safety of trans women is telling. i hope every trans woman or trans femme who knows you now knows that you don't care about their safety.

is this true girls. be honest with me. are you scared of me and my poop mines :'(

[toxi-works-at-culvers]

Uhm, question(s) about your William if you don’t mind me rambling a bit!! Please forgive me if I say some lore inaccurate stuff.. I don’t know your Williams lore head to toe (unfortunately)

How the hell did he hide (if he did hide his pregnancies, I’m going to assume yes because homophobia and what not) a whole — no I’m sorry — three whole pregnancies??? I’ve thought about it a bit too because my William is also a trans man… but seriously… like there’s so much to consider 😭 I know there’s a few obvious answers like “Oh, you know he wears baggy clothes to hide it” but you can’t hide like fatigue and nausea, for example, if that makes sense. Also how did Henry feel about his pregnancies? (if he was aware of them, of course. Excluding Elizabeth because.. ahem.. that’s totally not also his daughter in this case.. cough cough)

Again sorryyy for rambling 😔 I just have a lot of questions, yeah? English isn’t my first language ignore my booty sentence structure pls

HIII NO WORRIES ANON UR GOOD!!! sooo i sort of already did talk about this before HOWEVER i certainly don't mind going over it again. i will paraphrase but you can find the original text Here!

because william is fat, it takes longer for any signs of his pregnancy to be visually noticeable, and so he remains in the public eye during that time and continues performing until he cant anymore.

once he's unable to perform AND it's noticeable that he's pregnant, he shifts to doing more behind the scenes stuff. mostly staying at home and coming in to do paperwork or other shit around the restaurant before any employees arrive to see him and then leaves early/late.

henry and clara both help to cover for him. most people dont ask henry because he'll just give them a glare but if they ask where william went he'll say he's been feeling unwell. clara also does the same. the pregnancy is never announced. unless clara somehow finds a way to look believably pregnant to divert suspicion. shrugs

and if william ever got spotted, a lot of people in the community probably wouldn't even realize. its 1970something after all, and men can't get pregnant right? william is a man. we know this to be true. it could never happen

william could explain nausea with bad food or simply being sick i think. fatigue gets the sick excuse as well. or he could say he's simply tired from all the things he has to manage at the diner. those are admittedly a little less believable but, ah, oh well

as for how henry felt! he was aware of all of them since he and william are both personally close and work close. he acommodates by finding a replacement performer and bringing stuff to william. i think he is prettyyyy neutral for the most part? the first pregnancy with michael, he might be sort of disgusted (he was raised as a christian and all) but opinions sort of change over time. it becomes normal to him. elizabeth is both a terrifying surprise that could fuck everything up and a joy/blessing to him at the same time. he sort of likes getting to care for william while he's pregnant. Normal Boy Best Friend Behavior. Of Course.

& ITS OKAY ANON I LOVE RAMBLING & YOUR ENGLISH WAS PERFECTLY FINE!! THANKS FOR THE ASK :3

[dipperscavern]

you’re one of my fav hotd blogs i’ve come across (sorry for the absolute spam of likes and reblogs i bring to your notifs) congrats on 1000 followers 🥳 it’s so incredibly deserved for all your stark thoughts

i would like to request a fortune telling !

i’m like 5’2, i have thick, collarbone length dark brown hair and i have blue eyes. i’m unfortunately very pale bc im an anxious cryptic who doesn’t leave their house and im covered in random freckles and scars. i actually have a harry potter shaped scar above my right eyebrow from splitting my head open as a kid, so there’s that. i’d describe my voice as kinda sing-song and very femme, but also a little on the deeper side. i am aussie and i do have a very classic aussie accent though so i fear i jus sounds goofy ash

im have an aries sun with a pisces moon and a libra rising, so essentially im a very passionate crybaby who serves looks and cunt™��. i’d definitely consider myself an ambivert who gets along better in smaller more intimate groups and i prefer to be a leader rather than a follower

i love to cook and bake and create things with my hands, notably woodworking and collage art. i’m definitely an opinionated person who knows what they like and don’t like and i can be very stubborn about that, but i always love a good compromise, especially if it’s to keep the peace. i’d say that i’m a very empathetic person and i care deeply about other people and bettering the world

also i’m queer so you can pair me up with whoever tbh

- 🪐 anon

stop youre so sweet, thank you sm!! come, seven (rings), & let us take a look into my little crystal friend 🔮

ah, yes, this fellow….. always clipping doorways 🙄 anyways! i see warden of the north, cregan stark. you preferring not to leave winterfell is completely fine with cregan, although he might drag you out of your sanctuary to visit the wall (at least once). and scars!! i feel like one of y’alls favorite things to do is share scar stories. passionate crybaby is okay with cregan, let the tears flow 🎀 no but he’s seriously so good at being able to calm you down & fix things, you dont even remember what you were crying about in the first place. being a strongly opinionated person that prefers to be a leader rather than a follower is the exact type of person cregan wants as his lady stark, and he’d always admire those qualities about you. and your empathy & kindness melts his heart <3

& since you added being queer, i’d like to say i also think rhaenyra would fall in absolute love with u 🫶🏻

[topicaltropic]

🤝re rons arc!!! IDK what your thoughts about it are but i found the way it was resolved very uncompelling </3 especially re: Terry having to act responsible for Ron (which is!! pretty bad for a kid to do no matter how much their guardian loves them!!)

like, its interesting that the problem was there, I just wish theyd acknowledge it more instead of treating it as resolved.

if its ok to ask, what do you dislike abt it?

OH MY GOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ANON !!!!!!!!!! 🤝 !!!!!!!

Okay. Reading from it meta textually you could really say its from tower of terry that they really began to transition from simple comedy podcast to dramedy. Consequently, its the arc where in trying to find that new balance for the show's settling focus that results in the most (to me) tonal dissonance. The rest of the podcast gets its footing for the right amount of being seriously unserious and unseriously serious through tower of terry, but Ron unfortunately sort of gets left in a limbo where the unhappy middle-ground is far too light hearted for tower of terry, and far too dark for the everything with his anchor.

I would honestly pinpoint this interaction as the root of the problem and what kickstarts everything im going to be complaining about with Ron's arc:

Its a silly one liner for a comedic podcast, yet in the context of the story, Ron is being abjectly cruel and has retraumatized his kid. Nothing of consequence happens except terry flipping him off and storming away. To briefly compare: Next arc they come up with a jokey plan to put grant in the minotaur to kill it. Darryl pays the full weight of that action with grant coming out completely traumatized for the rest of the series. As the tone of the narrative changes, the same actions now have different weights of importance. It could be interesting if this was used to serve a purpose narratively, but frustratingly, its more like Ron slipped through the narrative cracks and landed out of bounds, going over the negative amount of points to glitch over to the maximum like some sort of game exploit and now he never has to pay the piper.

But puting the meta aside, even more maddening is how Ron wins Terry over in tower of terry.

What does Rons father not being proud of him have to do with Terry's grief? How is Ron telling Terry he loves him in this moment impactful, when hes the person whos hurt him in the first place? What sucks to me is that this is the first moment of many where every emotional moment between these two it's all always centered on Ron and his trauma and leading to Terry becoming the one who has to take on the role of being the mature one in the dynamic and providing support to ron and becoming his emotional crutch. Like you said anon if this was explored or addressed it could've definitely been interesting except that unfortunately the creators never even saw it as a conflict to resolve in the first place seeing as the narrative itself perceives it as something positive .

To touch briefly on Ron and his father: i dont think this story is equipped to handle the heavy subject it envokes. Uncomfortable subjects have lots of merit to explore or examine, but this story uses it more as hurt for the sake of hurt. Me tearing up and feeling upset from this isnt because im being moved, it's because its touching nerves and to put harshly, doing cheap emotional signals.

I truly dislike how Ron either unintentionally by the character or the player steps on and uses Terry for his growth. Rons trauma overshadowing Terrys struggle in his grief, Terry having to put his own trauma aside for Ron, basically forgiving Rons for the pain hes caused him because Rons being abused is incredibly dissatisfying to me. A lot things in their relationship to me is deeply unearned.

[harufluff]

hi haruuu!! may i please order no.12 from the fluff prompt list? ik ur busy,, pls take ur time!!,!!<33

also, do you write nsfw? personally i dont really like nsfw,, (asexual tingz) js asking incase i need to block anything 😭😭

🫧 anon <3

hi @flabebesflowers…i don’t write nsfw as i am still a minor. i also don’t really feel comfortable writing on that subject after that. thanks for the request!!

also wasn't really sure who you wanted so i chose felix lol…

‘sugar pie, honey bunch’ l.fx

warnings - none!!

genre - fluff, idol!felix x nonidol!reader, #12 “I never thought I’d be so lucky, especially not in this lifetime.”

series coming soon!! lol thanks for the request...

sleeping in is a rare thing for you sadly. there was always the stress of “did i forget to do something?” “there’s something i have to do tomorrow, i just know it. ahh but what was it??”.

but mornings that you’re able to be with him…oh got those felt like you were heaven. the boy of your dreams. the one and only lee felix.

on mornings that felix were there with you were also rare. due to his seriously hectic schedule, with comebacks, practice, award shows, any other kind of show etc, most of the time you would wake up to an empty side of the bed.

well too bad for past and future y/n because present y/n has the love of their life by their side. last night felix came home and the two of you played mario cart for 5 hours.

but now the two of you are laying in bed together peacefully sleeping. unfortunately felix was still on the idol sleeping schedule, so despite being tired, he woke up before you.

his eyes blinked open as he realized you were still asleep in his arms. he smiled in content, knowing you were tired from the night before. it was hard for him not to wake you up to tell you how cute you are, so he did the second best thing...

'y/n...i know youre not awake...but i hope you know how cute you are right now.'

he teased your sleeping self with his words. oh god did he want to take a picture of you. but would he risk the chance of you waking up and you teasing him about being whipped for you.

‘i hope you know that your the love of my life, and every morning i get to wake up next to you is a good one’

‘i hope you know that i never thought id be so lucky, especially not in this life time to have you in my life.’

‘i’m so fortunate to have people i care most about around me, but i really cherish the time i get to spend with you’

you started giggling and blushing at his kind and sweet words that were directed towards you and only you.

‘YOURE AWAKE?!?’

you climbed onto him and sat on his lap while he continued to lay on his pillow. he held your hips to make sure you wouldn’t fall.

‘i love you sugar pie’

‘i love you too honey bunch’

©️Harufluff 2023 | Do not copy, repost, or claim any of my works

[the-jesus-pill]

wanted to share an experience i had as an ex christian, probably apostate? idk man i was complaining in a friend's server because a christian friend of mine has been repetitively excluding me from things simply because i am not a christian, and because im queer and trans, and then is upset when i don't really feel like inviting her to stuff. i referred to christianity as a joke, and my friend who owns the server i was complaining in deleted my messages and dmed me to inform me i "complain about christianity too much and i'm probably hurting people's feelings and i need to stop it now" (it had been 3 months since i last complained about christianity in that server) i have had multiple people come to me and tell me i can't hate christianity, despite the fact that i am a victim of abuse, mental and physical, in the church, despite the fact that i have religious trauma. apparently, their right to religion means i can't dislike them? i dunno i was told i "cannot call christianity a joke", and then earlier this morning i witnessed a 12 year old child asking a bunch of older christians for forgiveness for being "selfish" enough to ask for prayer for themselves. if christianity is not the biggest joke i've ever seen, i dont know what is.

Yikes, that's awful. I'm sorry that happened to you. The friend of yours who is excluding you based on your (lack of ) beliefs and queerness? She's not a friend at all. I suppose she's not very fond of the 'do unto others' rule either.

Regardless, you have the right to dislike christianity, especially after having lived through it. Your feelings, your trauma is valid and no one gets to tell you otherwise.

Unfortunately a lot of outsiders (read: people who have never been too close to the religion) don't get what the fuss is about. Most of them see christians as these benevolent, charity-working, praying saints whose biggest flaws are perhaps being a little too prude sometimes and they will fail to understand the amount of lies, gaslighting and manipulation that comes with their beliefs.

In their eyes, christians did nothing wrong and hating on them is "unfair" or "uncalled for".

Sometimes it's just willful ignorance.

I would reconsider putting yourself in a space where people have continuously invalidated your feelings, or at least distance yourself emotionally from them. Of course the choice is up to you in the end, but I advise to think about your mental health. It's better to have fewer friends or work on finding new ones than having friends who refuse to take you seriously or stand up for you.

I hope it works out for you anon! There will always be better people out there who will support and love you the way you are!

[sttoru]

I'm a writer too, and I just have to say: it's just writing, dear. You're just writing some very good silly things and posting it on Tumblr, of all places. It's just some writing, no big deal here. You might feel like it sucks. But honestly? Nobody cares. It's Tumblr. No one has big expectations for anything here, or they shouldn't have, at least.

(By the way, I don’t mean all of this in a bad way. This is just how I, myself, cope when I feel bad about my own writing. I usually minimise it, try to brush it off, and pretend it's nothing. And it actually is.

I usually feel insecure about posting because I feel like nobody is going to read or like my work. And... so what if they don't? I'm already expecting them not to read/like the moment I post something. So, what am I worried about? Worried about them not reading or liking it? When that was precisely what I was expecting to begin with? If you think about it, insecurity makes no sense.

+You are popular. Maybe not as popular as some others. But you have more than 2000 followers, correct? Imagine a room in which you expose your writing. There are people who come and go, leaving notes on your things (that have a lot of notes, from what I have seen). Some of these people decide to stay inside the room. There are two thousand people who chose to stay in the room and support you. That's actually a lot of people, isn't it? And I'm pretty sure they wouldn't be there if your writing was bad.)

anon im gonna have to tell u here … ☝🏽 u seem like a very healthy person bcs ur coping mechanism and thoughts on this are what i strive to have sobsobsob. . . ik its simply silly little ideas of mine that i publish on a random app, its just that i have anxiety / am anxious about the smallest of things and stress very easily ,, even abt things that dont matter at all (ex. tumblr fics) like i tell my brain repeatedly ITS NOT THAT SERIOUS !!!!! (sometimes it works ngl and i just laugh at myself) but sometimes it still wont listen 😞

as for interactions, most of the time i dont mind if my works get little to no interactions (unless i spent like 4+ hours on a reaaally long fic and get 0 feedback like !!! i wanna improve & know whats good and what not bcs writing has been one of my biggest hobbies since i was very young :<) — what bothers me most is that my english doesn’t make sense sometimes. or if i use a word twice in one sentence. or if i misspell a word and it makes me look dumb— but then again like u said !! so what if people read those mistakes? unfortunately, my anxiety always has me in a chokehold . i try to not take my insecurities seriously and downplay it most of the time but it just comes back again and again,, basically a never ending loop ARUGHH

lastly.. yeah, im gonna try & do what you said and just hope my anxiety reduces with time !

this felt like a v refreshing therapy session, thank u anon ilysm u r an angel :3 hope u have the best day of ur life forever & pls stay hydrated !

[thisdreamplace]

Hi :)

I wanted to ask you what you'd do in my situation. Last year I started working while also studying engineering in college. It turns out that I was quickly burnt out and started doing a shitty job both at my uni classes and at my job, which I hated because I'm a perfectionist. I failed many classes and unfortunately the kind of career I want requires a degree, and this year I thought the wisest thing to do is leave my job. The decision has been made and my parents are open to support me, but I'm scared. I got so used to my financial freedom and now I'm not only scared about my finances but also other areas of my life, I'm freaking out 😭 my boyfriend and I are in a LDR and my parents will never give me money to visit him lol and like I know he could visit me but that is making me feel so guilty, like it's unfair and I wouldn't be bringing anything to the table. I'm seriously freaking out. This is the kind of situation in which most people in the community would say that "circumstances don't matter" but ugh, they matter so much to me right now. I'm feeling like I want to isolate :( but I also like... really need to quit the job and endure anything that happens until I graduate. This is making me hate uni so much :((( I'm even worrying about sunscreen, that sh** is so expensive

hello <3

so much of your frustration is coming from this need to control, this need to see how everything works out right now. but everything is going to work out, and this is the moment where you let go and relax into all of those uncomfortable feelings of the unknown and let it be as such, knowing that it all works it outself out. so i guess, in other words, i would focus my energy on relaxing into the unknown tbh. what else is there to do ? worrying so much isn't solving your problems. and you could be putting your energy into love. like, making comments such as you would feel bad if your own bf came to see you and you bring nothing to the table ?........... does he only love you because what you can produce in this world ? or does he love you for being yourself ? i think that, he would be understanding of your situation and that wouldn't be an excuse to stop you from being together. and that you could spend more time realizing existing is your right to be loved, and to be taken care of. not only by him, but by this entire world. by god. yourself.

and i get it, because i couldnt keep saying "circumstances dont matter" after a certain part, not the way its said anyway. circumstances dont matter in that way that, this moment, this phase in life is fleeting and it's not your forever. so i would honestly focus on what i want to, doing what i can to make it through this less desirable time. it matters, because you feel it inside yourself but, it's not your end. it's not your forever, so remember that. i understand your battle right now so much, but i promise you things always work out. even if it doesnt seem like they are, they always are. so this is your chance to take the opportunity life is presenting you, to take a step back, let go of control, and trust in what's happening next. you're choosing to put your education first, and there's a lot of good in that. embrace putting yourself first here, and allow all those ideas of problems to fall away, becoming what they may in the meantime. it's simply not your job to grasp on so hard here. that only makes it more painful. i truly believe that life presents these moments to us, to give us an opportunity to trust in true love (taking care of all areas of your life, the god within who carries you through it all) and stop being controlled by fears.

anyway, i hope this is helpful and makes sense <3 im rooting for u dear anon ! xo

[historixally-accurate]

hee hoo its late at night but im still awake so im repsonding teehee. youre probably gonna see this during breakfast, so. good morning! ohaiyo早安 selamat pagi <3

YOURE A NATURAL ENGLISH A1er?!?!?!? god damn but also lowkey me too LOL. i dont remember much from when i was still wriitng narrative/discursive essays, but i found it easier than others for the most part. holy yap. ill gladly listen to you yap too its only an equivalent exchange...we're both a bit insane for men halfway across the world who love to go fast in a video game.

your primary school sounds like a nightmare. goddamn. i guess my prisch was also pretty pressurising, but from the sounds of yours, suddenyl i think it wasnt that bad after all... psle huh, crazy times. seems so long ago help now i feel old. i hope youre gonna be okay in your current school :,) the sg school system really doesnt let up, but its really, really important to know that youre never alone!

thanks for the compliment about marker mediums, though i dont think its actually that bad unless you have markers that are seriously in need of rescucitation. like on their last legs. unfortunately i cant send a picture of that kazuha because going anon removes the image sending feature, so maybe someday in the future. once i work up the courage to actually talk to you under my handle >_>

OH WOW you really have a hbg themed phone thats so cool u_u i agree with your family, thats swag as hell. the slingshot feinberg quote sent me for absolutely no reason, im shaking w laughter rn and frantically trying to suppress it so i dont wake my family. send help😭😭 and youre so real for the daily usage of the word "mongey". its only NOT invaded my daily speech because im purposely avoiding thinking about it...if i bury myself in doing sports surely the bigbigmongey brainrot wont get me smile (no this isnt copium wdym) this is ignoring the fact that without thinking i keep saying "what the sigma" and "what the skibidi" unironically btw. both my friends and i know im cooked as fuck

i actually did NOT know there was an upcoming BAC stream. im like a fake ahh fan... ill do my best to be there but uh. my duties arent over, despite it being the hols. this sucks :^(

mad respect to you, actually playing the game you watch. my lazy ass would NOT get off my ass enough to do this ever smh. im sure getting knocked off by a piglin is a pain every speedrunner can relate to . same goes from hitting the cope. except for me, if that shit ever happens im skipping the cope and striaght up hitting the bong. for SG legal reasons this is a JOKE! MOH please dont find me

hey you take lit too ? aura level just went up dawg. youve just caught a fat lit lover right here. im a guilty guilty poetry lover. sorry i just love both poetry and prose it makes me go WidePeepoHappy

lowkey though if you ever decide to take a HBG members legs may i suggest mr lewis fulham ive heard him being desrcibed as a birch tree so that means hes tall right. ill even aid and abet! im sure he wouldnt miss a few cm

bro did NOT just do the clash royale laugh at me😒😒my friends keep telling me im firmly chaotic evil. like damn where is the democracy bros didnt even give me a chance to squeak out a fart before straight up attacking my reputation😟 they my opps frfr

i get it when you say you get pressed cause whenever things dont go as theyre supposed to i inwardly get more and more tilted LMAOOO dw ur not the only one.

i would loooove to watch hbg do more sports related content because i find it hilarious that the one time at twitchcon (?) during poundy's football match there were SO MANY INJURIES... tf you mean couri broke his mf elbow in a sport supposedly restricted to legs. as a sportsperson i really do love playing sports wahaha <3

i cant tell if youre serious about liking amath but damn if you like amath thats really good smile :) much more formula based but overall more predictable.

question for today... what made you decide talkingmime was your favourite hbg member? kinda curious and wanted to give you a reason to yap more about him . feel free to type out a response the lnegth of the mekong river, i promise ill read it i love to read (maybe that why im such a good lurker LMAO). personally im still undecided on who my favouirte member is, but since ive talked so much about mr condiment cringe man 21custard i guess ill just say i like him cause of his goofy ahh humour and memes. im just a sucker for people with good vibes/dryass humour/an entire arsenal of your mom jokes. dont ask about tgat last one. im currently trying to know tekniik better and im falling victim to more deez nuts and your mom jokes than ive ever experienced before. i love it btw

holy yap i think ive talked too much.....never trust anything you say after 9pm....i think they were right the demons got to me. namely my unhealthy terminal obession with fart jokes. same to you, hope you have a beautiful mongey pyun pyun morning <3 always happy to give you an essay response. arigato for readin ;)

-sgmcsr anon

hi anon!!! sorry for the late response, I just got sick and I WAS SLEEPING FOR HALF THE DAY TODAY. let's get cracking

about my amazing spectacular skibidi English, yes! natural English a1-er ^_^ well actually it was only up till like eoys where I got my first DEVASTATING B3, but apart from that, I've been doin good for English. call me. idk Shakespeare. idk. ALSO SHARING OF YAP.. whenever you gain the courage to ask on main, I'll gladly yap with you... I'm online literally 24/7 now that I've got nothing to do with my life, so it'll be nice to speak with someone in the same timezone and who has the same interests that I do.

about my primary school, yeah it was a little bit of a nightmare academically. coming to think of it, because of all I experienced, it doesn't seem that bad because I experienced it. but on paper it's terrible. wow. anyway, not to be trauma dumpy or unskibidi ^_^ struggling to make friends in my current school, and MOE's school system is unrelentless as always, but ball it we fuck, I am okay.

about marker mediums.. I see... that's really cool.. yeah, all my markers are like. dried up and I haven't bothered to go buy new ones or ask for new ones </3 I'd love to see the weed smoking kazuha one day... very excited

about my skibidi HBG wallpaper. I feel like my layout is hella cramped, but its what I have to work with because. I don't know how to organise my phone. maybe I'll sit down one day and figure out how to make it cooler </3 also, very mongeyful, very beautiful. I am filled with mongey joy. ome

not sure if it's obvious, but fein has also cultivated my usage of the word 'skibidi' specifically?? it's very obvious because I say it every 5 seconds :') and because of one specific mime clip, fulham has influenced me to say the word 'peculiar' very very often 😭😭😭 like instead of calling someone weird, I'll say 'dude! you're soooo peculiar.' yeah, I'm a little normal!

bout the upcoming BAC stream, yeahhh I don't blame you... mime released that fact like. a couple streams ago, and even then nobody knew he was live except for like. 20 people? so i dont think it's just you who doesn't know, dw! I'm just caught in the loop :3 besides, it's on either November 22nd or 23rd, and it'll take at least 24 hours, so don't worry about not catching it for at least a little ^_^

about my. haha. very terrible learning of how to speedrun. despite getting all the help I could ever want to speedrun, I'm still absolutely terrible at it, and I can never find the motivation to do so </3 I'd love to be better and gain more confidence or motivation.. I just don't know how to do that. also, fuck hoglins, suck it pigs >:(

ALSO. FUCKING FART JOKES?? I'm drawing the line...anon... you are behind bars now........ STAY AWAY!!!!! (/j please stay they're funny) as someone who's purely true neutral, I have no comment and will nod my head, saying 'normal ass Tuesday in singapore'

about which HBG members people.. fuck it you get the point I'm tired of this format. yeah! Singaporeans and their short fuses, it is so normal and I am no exception </3 it's awesome tho, I can keep boundaries as someone who says yes too much 😎 hell eyah

HBG FOOTBALL. couriway breaking his arm, silver r runs spraining his ankle and tapl harvey also. straining his ankle iirc??? that shit was so chaotic. IF YOU WANT HBG PLAYING LIKE. FOOTBALL. THE MINECRAFT KIND. here's a feinbergfunny/feinberg rocks video. enjoy.

I haven't done too much amath, but. ohhh it's so. clear cut?? it's very inchresting. I think it's not terrible so far... but I can't say for myself </3 must keep grinding forward and see

GOLDS DAILY DOUBLE.. why is mime my favourite HBG member.. and how did I come to that conclusion... man, it's been like 2 months.. I think it's cuz i watched the silverrrunsfunny video about HoN? and it's a lot of mime n silverr clips... the 5 minutes that they were trapped doing parkour in a cubby hole tryna get the last easter egg made me extremely intrigued like.. who is this MIME GUY... he's so peculiar... and then I finish the video, and see talkingmimefunny recommended!! I watched all his videos. and I got hooked. SO FAST. ended up finding people who also like him, and found out he did BAC, and. the rest is history. or historix. haha. Hahaha. I like mime because of how smart and organised he is, I also like how he take initiative in a lot of events that he's participating in together with friends. I also like people who are snarky and have a very interesting voice but you didn't hear this from me. at all. aaanyway, apart from mime, I also really like nEmerald and fein? I like emerald because he reminds me of lifesteal cc mapic, which drew my attention to him. he's also really silly. and I'm a sucker for people who have green as their colour pallete. feinberg.. he's just. silly. and he's feinberg man I don't know what else to say bout that 🤷

Holy yap. happy 11pm! NEVER UTTER THE WORDS 'HAVE A BEAUTIFUL MONGEY PYUN PYUN MORNING' EVER AGAIN. I CRIED. SO HARD. it's fucking hilarious. I'll start using that with my friends. anyway, as always, have a skibidi-tastic, mega ultra kawaii, animefied morning if you see this, and an alpha, rizz master night if you're seeing this at night and you stay up.

here's your daily mime doodle :)

[magicaii]

Can I ask your top 10 fav characters ever from any media? Why love them?

i thought long and hard about this, cause honestly, i dont really have a list of favorite characters. but this is me trying to compile a list of characters that have really stuck with me anyway. also, 1-5 and 6-10 on this list are pretty interchangable. this ended up being so long that i need to make a part two so uh SORRY anon its always why my response took forever

near, nate river (death note) i LOVE near. i love the hidden complexities to his character. near is collected and rarely shows outward emotion, but the hint that he's secretely very sensitive leads to interesting implications. it almost feels like the identity of L has saved him from having to attempt to live a normal life, serving as both a blessing and a curse. because who is near, without the intelligence and duty? what is the difference between the things we care about and the things we are good that, the things that are serviceable to others? near, unfortunately, is doomed to be stuck doing something he doesn't particularly seem attached to for the rest of his life. he's the only one of death note's main cast to survive, and i think a certain sadness comes with that fate. a certain emptiness, and lack of direction. his character is a great example of how being smart can contribute to your detriment and isolation, rather than bringing you fulfillment.

obito uchiha (naruto) obito is interesting because when he continously failed to salvage the only things he cared about, it broke him, and he rejected reality completely. i love stories about pure hearted, optimistic people becoming the opposite of what they sought out to be, and how their greatest strengths are used to turn them against the world. because only people who try harder than anyone else to be good are able to understand how ultimately futile their efforts are. obito did not become evil over a single girl. he became disillusioned with shinobi society and its disregard for lives, and no longer wanted to exist in a world that allowed such cruel things to happent. what else is there to be done when you are too weak and powerless to protect your allies, and the world doesn’t seem to care? you become stronger. you fight against the entire world. you do what ever it takes, because that's how deeply you care. and yes, he is an irredeemable person. and fun fact, i loved him for years before even watching naruto (not sure how that works but ok 12 year old me)

zero (drakengard 3) i'm so excited i get to talk about her!! zero is evil. she has no regard for human life, kills as she pleases for a meager amount of supplies, and wholeheartedly believes than no one will look out for you but yourself. so why on earth does she care so much about saving the world, which has only ever wronged her? zero has a skewed view of the universe, and the idea of give and take. she belives only in repaying the fair due already taken from her. this is why she kills, and this is why she accepts the partnership with michael, as a mutual means to an end. the five intoners, as far as zero's concerned, are entirely her responsibility, so it becomes her life's mission to kill them. however, watching her slowly grow to begrudgingly care for mikhail, despite everything she has ever known, is a beautiful representation of human nature. our desire for connection and ability to love others often wins out in the end, because that is what humanizes us. even someone who has grown callous and desensitized is inevitably drawn to genuine, unadultered love and affection.

noctis lucis caelum (final fantasy 15) the appeal of noctis is how he's this socially awkward prince who is really seeing the world for the first time. however, it becomes very apparent that noctis is way in over his head. he has never taken his role as the future king of lucis very seriously, and when shit hits the fan, he's suddenly overwhelmed. he's supposed to be a leader, but he's been used to relying on servants and shields his whole life. this is when noctis is made to properly examine himself. growing up can happen over the course of a lifetime, or it may happen in one, decisive moment. noctis's actions in the end are reckless, self-sacrificing, and desperate, not necessarily the mark of a good king, but of someone who would do anything to protect his people, regardless. i think most of us, deep down, only hope to experience the simple joys of life, and noctis was only really able to over the course of his road trip before the entire world was thrown into disarray. and as someone who had only just begun to realize how much love he had for the world, he still gave all of himself up just to save it. just... UGH... he deserved to be HAPPY

blue (pokemon special) blue's development throughout the manga is magical. for the first arc or two, she's a simple character, a petty thief who seems mostly concerned with herself. her eventual backstory of being a manipulated orphan does flesh her out and provides reason for her self-centered nature, but the frlg arc is what truly elevated her character. blue’s story is all about feeling bitter about the hand life gave you, and not liking the person it forced you to grow into. how much of the person that someone becomes can be attributed to their free will? all along, she quietly carried regret for how she might've turned out differently. blue just wanted to be a normal girl with a family that loved her, a normal girl who never needed to fight. her eventual emotional breakdown serves to teach her that she has room for weakness too. frlg is all about breaking down her self-perception and realizing that she isn't fundamentally broken, all the while accepting the person she was forced to grow into. (i really need to write my own post about her soon jeez)

[away-ward]

wow, i read your alex's character analysis and i got some anon response to it. Disclaimer, i respect your opinion, just wanna share my thoughts, and also go off a total different tangent about how i see some scenes differently. Thank you for posting so much contents for dn, are you gonna do more of this with other characters?

now going back to the main point of this ask:

i think i know why i feel kinda tired about nightfall if i read it in your perspective: i feel like the way you read it is like you're emory before she met aydin, and i'm emory after she met aydin. The Feeling of dead and alive. Like in corrupt, michael said something: if you don't own it, it will own you, and i think the reason why emory doesnt mind much about anything anymore at that point of life and keep going forward despite the hurt and all that were caused by everyone around her, were because

1. She's so tired of waiting, she was trying to take more control of her life now, instead of just decaying, at least in the romantic and sexual aspect of her life,

2. she doesnt care about the specifics about who is hurting who anymore, because there's only so much to blame and expect from the things or people around her to fall into place like you / readers would expect them, but she can just do whatever things best she thought she could do at that time,

3. She wanted someone to guide her and be patient with her, which not even will was patient enough to learn how to love life with emmy, he only complained complained complained, and i hated how weak his character was, because he had everything, and she had nothing. All talk, but no action. Will was never patient with emmy, so i dont understand where did will's audacity was coming from? (This was a rhetorical question, no need to answer, i understood his pov, i was just voicing my thoughts when i read his words and actions). these charactrs (especially emory aydin will alex) were all very prideful people, so something has to give. They can't be like that forever, right? Something big has to happen to breakthrough these dramatic and extreme people. It's unfortunate it was aydin that we had to see emmy bonding with like this, or it was alex that she trusted and wanted to be in a sexual intimate situation with in fornt of everyone, instead of will and damon in the locker room, but it's just what it is, the timing wasnt right for emory will and dmaon + the horsemen were never really close to her either, so that train scene was more like how she was opening herself up and accepting their poly situation from there onwards. It wasn't just a show of trust, it's a show that her lifestyle was the same iwth them, and she wasn't ashamed of herself or them. That's why i guess it's easier for michael to help her later and talk a bit with her when they catch martin because her relationship now is beyond "just will's girl", but she is truly family. She accepted them, they accepted her. That's why rika had no doubt when she said "thank you for being my family". Emory might not have understood what that meant at that time, or even the readers, especially the ones who only read nightfall and not the books before, but rika expected emmy to show up from now on and fight for and with them like family just like how they would for her. (Side note, Unfortunately for us willemmy stans, even willemmy is poly-coded, we cannot get away from pd's sharing and poly dynamics' clutches). Do i think they look like clowns who take themselve sto seriously? Yes. But does emmy like this? Yes, 😭 unfortunately.

In this situation, as i read it (like emory) emory was the one owning them, and letting them join, not always the other way around. She is not being passive or expecting perfect detailed things from imperfect people to happen anymore, she can only deal with imperfect situations by owning who she is and go for it, even if it sounds stupidly unfair to us or she kept on hurting again (which is not true because we saw the moment she gave in, thinsg were chaning, sides were switched, and she got more allies instead of being isolated again). She was perfect for will and everyone when she just be herself and be what she wants or when she let herself be, instead of being someone she was not, even though it took her nearly a decade to admit (understandably because of her situation). By the time they got married, i believe that's why there were no resentment anymore from hee to the world or towards anyone really, for her part. A part of her that was hurting and self-destructive was finally growing up, and that where she wants to let herself be was still like a child in neverland. She never left thinder bay, she just grew up and accepted it. l feel very similar with her though, if i was her, after 10 years of disappointment by will and everyone around me including myself, i'd be so fucking tired of this self-destructive guy grayson and everything else too, but then i still wanna be with him and the past was not just one night, so i must have figured out that i really had to initiate things and have to do something to breakthough this shit, because unlike michael, kai and damon who were dominant and more outgoing with their pursuit of their S/Os, will was more submissive and tolerant, and coupled up with him being weak from ptsd and self-worth/confidence, they became his deadly passive combos, so willemmy's relationship would be at a stale point if emmy didnt do something. Unfortunate, by sigh what do you expect from a weak character/ love interest like will? That's why i like damon' line in the pool with kill switch when will threatened to hurt damon if he hurts winter, and damon replied "you dont have what it takes to be me" or something like that because as much a si hate damon, i agree. At leats damon worked for what he wanted despite how disgusting and cruel he was, will was only sitting on his high horse, coast through his life and expect things to fall into perfect place for him. And when it failed, he complaint complaint complaint. Like, will, how about you shut the fuck up sometimes?

4. since she felt like a dead leaf before aydin, always waiting, and never fighting for some of the things she wanted so much in life: like will (as opposed to her grandma's rights to heathcare and her own access career and education, that she fought for everyday, which was the opposite of banks. Banks fought for damon and kai, so she got damon and kai, but she was never as independent as emory or fought for her own things or demand education or other basic needs from anyone even though she grew similar to emory. She could even fought for these basic needs and beleive she didnt deserve to be happy to have them like emory, until emory apologized to will and resolved her (underdeserved) guilt, but banks never did. I was waiting for a breakthrough from banks like emory, but it never came. Even though emmy's wrap was hushed, it was there, but banks' never came.

We saw Emory had limits to what she can deal with, and while she would take a beating (only while she was still in the haze of abuse feeling like love, and when she still couldnt be fully financially independent from martin), emmy wouldnt let anyone take her basic rights to education, healthcare and safety away from her. These are things that i found very interesting about her, because if you ever have had to survive in the real world, even not to the extend of how emory had to, you'd know how hard it is to even do 10% the things she did without any support from anyone. Out of everyone in the series, emory scott will always get my utmost respect for this. Emmy had to be independent even though it was very scary, and had to lose so much if she chose these rights more than she chose will. This was why, even though i love nikova second from this series, i will always love emory more than her. It's just a personal preference tbh.

5. now, finally coming back to the main topic from my long tangent, Instead of letting things happen to her again and again and again, EMORY is happening to people. EMORY is taking the spotlight. And idk, i feel like a lot of your meta about alex in general gave too much expectation and unecessary light to alex, and it counter whatever things that emory was trying to do, if that makes sense? Idk, that's why i said we had very different way of looking at these scenes and prioritising which meaning we chose best how to see it, so it affects the way we saw them. Even after writing this long ask, i still agree with a lot of your points in your alex meta, but i guess i'm more delusional than i thought so even after reading your post, i still don't put too much emphasis on it. Idk, i feel like emory might have the same amount of delusion like me, that's why we move on easily? 😭😂

Granted, i still believe, it's pd who didnt write ir right, and fucked up their story, but like you said, i understand where you came from and i respect that, i'm just responding because you ask for opinions. Maybe i'm just a self-centred person so i never saw it like you? A but tired and self-propelled delusion like aydin and emory after blackchurch? Idk, but this is so interesting to me. What i know is, i feel everything, from jealousy, to envy, to sadness, to grief, to joy, yo happiness, to love, to list, to desire, and to all the weird feelings that i spcannot describe about this series. I hate it, but i kinda like it? Idk. But i do know emory hates to love it, lmao!

I guess when i'm reading nightfall, i was just reading it with a lot more positivity and delulu than you (?) and i didnt get caught up in these perfect details so much (like emory), but i feel like if people kept on reading nightfall like you, i can see why they would hate it so much. Pd already did a bad job with alex's character, especially in regards to her relationship with will and why the fuck cant they just say theyre only bffs who fucked a few times and never had anything more to emory?? And they always had to rub the fact they hooked up so many times in front of her too? All those time that will can put himself to care more about emory and starts to give a fuck more about what she needs. He had time to fuck alex and build a friendship and trust with alex, but no time to call emory? Nah, will grayson can die in a fucking ditch, not a real man to me. When aydin called him out in the shower, i fucking cheered. Cant believe will's dick even got limp when alex was moaning his name, willalex was so fucking embarrassing. Like willalex so fucking stupid, cant even do shit, two brains, but no single braincells spotted, they made me root for aydinemory instead, especially everytime willalex was fucking shit to emory. Like how can emory come to a point where she thought she was laying in a bed with will's gf alex? Why the fuck cant will just said he didnt feel the same for alex like he felt for emory? He only pined for her in his head! What, he though she was a mind reader or something? Stupid as fuck, god im such a will grayson hater honestly, i hate alex, but i will always hate will more, because he was the on who promised her the world, not alex, even though she was em's friend. Will was the one who owed her something 🙄 Serve them right when they were jealous af of her and aydin. Idgaf at that point if it just guves whatever aydin wants, but like a said, it's the matter of perspectives, i guess if you're delusional enough, it's not always about aydin. It's one of those "let women do whatever they want and let them define what they need instead of telling them how they feel".

at this point, idk anymore, what do you think? Just call me 😶‍🌫️

Hey! No worries about having a different take. I totally get that I come at this from an odd standpoint and do my best to respect and listen to other’s opinions. Thanks so much for taking the time to write such a long comment.

are you gonna do more of this with other characters?

Probably not. As you mention later on, I feel PD sort of messed up in writing Alex, specifically in Nightfall.

Throughout the entire series, the readers are reminded that Alex is beautiful and special and different. She’s warm, everyone's sister and mother. She’s a sexy vixen, but with a heart of gold, who’s experienced the worst life can throw at her, but managed to walk through the fire – in heels! And everyone between Rika and Emory says they can’t resist her charms. So why is it that whenever she opens her mouth in Nightfall, I hate her more? What are the characters seeing that I’m not seeing?

This seems like a conflict between the writer and the character, so I wanted to analyze Alex’s character scene by scene, to determine exactly why it is that I’m so dissatisfied with her, when, based on what is written, I am supposed to love her. At the same time, I’ve been asked previously if I could change any storyline what would it be, or what could have made certain aspects of Nightfall better. While I was spending the time analyzing, I figured now would be a good time to add in what I would have preferred. In this scenario, I would prefer if Alex had a clear motive for showing herself to Emory and actually followed through. When I read the scene, focusing on her instead of Emory, I found that I was irritated with her being dodgy and secretive. It also felt like Alex didn’t really want Emory there when they went into the passageways. So, then, what was the point of revealing herself?

Anyway. I don’t have a reason to do it for the rest of the characters, because I don’t feel the same conflict with them as a reader.

Reading farther into your comment, I agree with just about everything you’ve said regarding Emory, or at least, I’ve heard those opinions/interpretations before and see them as completely valid! There’s not a lot for me to reply to because I’m mostly nodding and agreeing as I read. Still, I’ll try to pull out some bits that I find interesting.

she was opening herself up and accepting their poly situation from there onwards. It wasn't just a show of trust, it's a show that her lifestyle was the same iwth them, and she wasn't ashamed of herself or them. That's why i guess it's easier for michael to help her later and talk a bit with her when they catch martin because her relationship now is beyond "just will's girl", but she is truly family. She accepted them, they accepted her.

As far as Emory being accepted into the family, I’ve always felt that they were meant to be close. I was just frustrated that we never got to see it. I’ve also always thought that all the couples shared each other sexually, but I would love some more Willemmy moments because they’re my favorite and I thought some of the opportunity for them were given to less important scenes.

However, I was surprised to find out that the “sharing” began again so much later? According to PD, Michael, Rika, Kai, and Banks don’t engage in this activity until the ten-year later mark. I mean, what?

will was more submissive and tolerant, and coupled up with him being weak from ptsd and self-worth/confidence, they became his deadly passive combos, so willemmy's relationship would be at a stale point if emmy didnt do something.

I think this is an excellent point. Many times, we’re reminded that Will doesn’t act on his own, and he likes it when Emmy is the aggressor and is forced to admit that she wants him too. Additionally, in Nightfall, he’s at the peak of his weakness, which causes him to be even more passive than usual. He also feels that he has a valid reason to hate her, so he's even more resistant to moving forward with her. Emmy did need to make the moves that drove the plot forward.

What I meant in my Alex post when I said they were at a standstill, was just that. I could see how, if Alex hadn’t come in, Emmy and Will would have continued to circle each other, making a little progress and then taking two steps back because they’re both too prideful and confused at the moment. Aydin would continue to pull their strings, never satisfied, because, as it would turn out, revenge isn’t actually what he wanted. And I know that, because throughout the entire series, revenge has never been what these guys truly wanted.

They wanted the girl.

Aydin wanted Alex. Making Will suffer was just his way of feeling better in the meantime. Even Aydin was surprised to see Alex at Blackchurch, so he wasn’t expecting her to come for Will. What was happening between Aydin and Emory was never about helping Emory, even if she did benefit from the things that he said and did. It was about making Will hurt.

Without Alex coming out of hiding, I think the story would have dragged. I just wish she was brought out of hiding with an actual plan/motive, instead of forced out by the author to move the plot along. That was my interpretation of the scene.

Banks fought for damon and kai, so she got damon and kai, but she was never as independent as emory

I thought this was interesting commentary on Banks. So often, Banks is herald as a queen of toughness and independence, especially since she inherited Gabriel’s fortune. I’m not saying she isn’t tough or independent, there’s something about how she’s never had to go out on her own; she never tried, even when Damon was in prison. She went from her mom’s to Gabriel’s under Damon’s care to Kai’s. And when Damon wasn’t there, Banks was still watched over and cared for by Gabriel’s staff.

I’m not going to try and compare Martin to Gabriel, but I can feel for Emory not having even a single person looking out for her, and I think it speaks volumes about Emory’s strength that she made it through so much.

you'd know how hard it is to even do 10% the things she did without any support from anyone. Out of everyone in the series, emory scott will always get my utmost respect for this. Emmy had to be independent even though it was very scary, and had to lose so much if she chose these rights more than she chose will. This was why, even though i love nikova second from this series, i will always love emory more than her. It's just a personal preference tbh.

I absolutely agree with this statement. Emory deserves all the recognition for what she managed to accomplish without support. As I’ve said before, Emory is the most accomplished, talented and skilled of all the girls, and she gets the least amount of acknowledgement for it. I will never be moved from that opinion.

i feel like a lot of your meta about alex in general gave too much expectation and unecessary light to alex, and it counter whatever things that emory was trying to do, if that makes sense?

I’m not quite sure what you mean.

As I mentioned earlier, my whole purpose with analyzing that scene the way I did was to figure out specifically why Alex was annoying me personally. It’s one thing to say she’s being annoying, but what is she actually doing that’s irritating. Characters can be irritating, and for reasons that make sense. Sometimes that's the case. In this situation, I don't think her actions make sense and not in a way that the character is just making decisions that are different from what I would want, but that... her presence in the scene doesn't make sense.

Emory in that scene is fine. She handles everything the way I’d expect someone in her situation to do, even if she is a lot more tolerant than I would be, and I wasn’t bothered by her at all – except for the moment she starts to talk about how wonderful Alex is because I’m so tired of being told how wonderful Alex is without understanding why Alex is so wonderful.

i was just reading it with a lot more positivity and delulu than you (?) and i didnt get caught up in these perfect details so much (like emory), but i feel like if people kept on reading nightfall like you, i can see why they would hate it so much.  

If this is one of the few things you’ve read from me, I can understand why you’d think that, but truthfully, I approach Nightfall with so much hope and positivity. I usually try to talk about the potential that is there; how much I love Thunder Bay, and the world, how the characters (in my idealistic and delulu world) could be a great example of a chosen family. There’s so much here to build on, and I find that it’s enjoyable and fun to joke about if people can get over how much they hate one or two aspects of it.

You went on a little Will rant, which is fine. I've heard it all before 😂

I'll circle back to Aydin, because I think there might be a misunderstanding about why I dislike Aydin, though I’ve touched on it a few times.

I fully understand that Emory needed guidance, and someone who cared about her and validated the decisions she made. Emory put herself first for once in her life, and she carried a lot of guilt for the consequences of it. She never wanted to hurt anyone. Aydin told her what she needed to hear to finally move on from that misplaced guilt, so that she can start to fight more for herself instead of just letting things happen around her.

The part that I get stuck on is that Aydin gets the credit for making Emory feel better. People celebrate him for validating her, and taking her side when Will "never did." Which I also don't understand what that means, but that's for another time.

The way I see it, nothing that happened between Aydin and Emory was because Aydin wanted to build Emory up. She was a pawn to him. As a review: Aydin had Emory drugged, kidnapped, and put on an island inhabited by criminals, because he wanted to hurt Will. Emory is forced into a terrible situation because of something Alex and Will have done, but nobody blames Aydin for thinking this was a way to deal with his jealousy.

Another thing that bothers me is how Aydin knew about Emory in the first place. Will wasn't being vocal about his feelings for Emory. As many people like to point out, he didn't call or reach out, or do anything to involve himself in her life. For five years, he spent his time drunk, high, and buried in women, most often Alex.

Nine years since he'd seen or spoken to Emory. Will's feelings for her would not be so obvious to people on the outside. At that point, there should have been only two things that connected them.

One was Will burning her gazebo. That could be written off as Devil's Night antics.

The other was the video of Will assaulting Martin. However, Martin and Will had issues outside of Emory, with the way Martin had constantly been pursuing him because he was the "stupid" one.

To even get to Emory being Will's weakness, someone would have to dig deep. Because of how deep they'd have to go, I am not convinced that Aydin wasn’t at least somewhat aware of Emory’s abuse. Even if there isn’t a record of it, Martin was obviously a dirty cop. Emory taking her college money to take care of her grandmother while she’s in school, and figuring that out on her own, never returning home or acknowledging Martin in any way, would be a clear indication that something wasn’t right with the Scott family. Aydin is intelligent, manipulative, and has experience with men like Martin. He’d know the signs.

Aydin used her history of abuse to manipulate her. Just because some of the things he said made her feel better, and she was able to improve her mental and emotional state, doesn’t erase what his motive was.

Emory benefited, and that’s great. But she only benefited, because of the way she looked at the situation – not because it was Aydin’s goal to help her. He wanted to get into her head and be her reasoning, so that he could hurt Will, because of Will’s relationship with Alex.

I won’t give him credit because Emory improved her condition. I put him on the same level as Alex and Will in the way they did Emory wrong. The reason I give Will any slack is that he apologized for what he did, and tried to make amends. Aydin and Alex never did; Emory gave them her acceptance because she's genuinely a kind person, despite everything that's been done to her.

But that’s my unpopular opinion for the day. Thanks for sharing your thoughts! I really enjoyed the ask and hope you didn’t mind my rambling as well.

-KO

[rinadragomir]

Okay let's talk about it🤗✨

So Cassandra Clare posted that Fairstairs art yesterday or sth where Cordelia was obviously whitewashed. We all know what art was that🤷🏼‍♀️

So people started being mad about which is obviously fair cause it was our first official chot art and that's what we got. What happened next:

People posted these CJ's arts talking about whitewashing. ⚠️As a person who spent LOTS of years being a part of tsc fandom, I remember that these ones were created around 6 years ago, before the first book came out, cause Cordelia was supposed to be a white girl⚠️And that's what i said. Did i support new fairstairs art? No, but if you don't believe me, you can always read what i said.

⚠️Next thing: i defended CJ saying that it's CC who controls how these characters should be depicted.⚠️Why i did it: cause that person spent years and years creating beautiful arts for this fandom, adding those works to whitewashing post seemed weird.

My fault: i focused my words more on protecting CJ. That's absolutely true, i said that new Fairstairs art is a fckn joke, but for some people who also have emotions, my answer looked like I don't care about the whole point of the post. That's not true at all and for that I really wanna apologize.

⚠️Next thing: people who really know me and cared about me showed me some of CJs arts where Cordelia has a really really dark skin and some of her weird answers about "why cordelia always has different skin colour on different arts" (she didn't take it seriously). AND THEN i saw that CJ is problematic. WHITE PEOPLE ARE STUPID AND NEED TIME TO EDUCATE THEMSELVES DUH and i really appreciate those people who just explained everything. Now i know that it was wrong to defend CJ that time.🤝

Was it too late? Of course it was🤗 Did i say that we deserve new versions of Cordelia AND Alastairs flower cards? Yes, and you can find it. Did people notice? Of course not, it's not that entertaining✨💅Happy Hunger Games🤤

Was i stupid when i started talking about CJ when the post was about CC? YES OF COURSE literally no ones surprised)))))

Am i gonna apologize to those 6-7 people i dont even know (lmao who are they really), who started to send 535842 hate asks to my friends (wishing them death of course?) when i didn't even insult anyone? I'm so sorry you were left without an individual apology letter. It will happen again ❤️

Oh and FUN STORY ABOUT ME BEING TRANSPHOBIC, that's really entertaining 👻

For the record: I DON'T CARE WHO YOU ARE, CIS BOY/GIRL, TRANS BOY/GIRL, NON BINARY, SAD SEAGULL you're always welcomed on this page, it's not a cheap drama channel🤗

So remember that day when that fantastic beasts trailer came out? It's a short story:

I, person who never even watched any of these movies (talking about fb not hp), saw that Mads is playing grindewald. AS A HUGE HANNIBAL STAN ( i love this fandom too much, you don't understand), i was like: lmao mads just can't stop playing evil gay killers🤣😭

And i made a post about it (i didn't even tag hp, only mads, grindewald and hannibal)

BUT UNFORTUNATELY I'M TOO FUNNY😌 so it became popular. That day Mads deleted his inst page and i made a post saying: STOP WISHING HIM DEATH, THAT BITCH ROWLING IS ALL YOURS, SAY IT TO HER CAUSE THAT'S WHAT SHE DESERVES.🤬 People started making posts "one note - one terf dies" and one kid tagged me and told their friends I'm a terf and I was UPSET YOU KNOW but again

As a person who spent lots of time here i just know that justifying yourself is a useless thing, cause people see what they wanna see. They don't understand that some might really commit su*cide. (But not me, you can't hurt me if I don't have a soul😌)

👉This post was made for 3 reasons:

1 - to clarify this situation for those who still don't understand what's going on.📍The thing is: some people who follow me now receive million asks where people wish them death, so if you don't feel safe please just UNFOLLOW ME cause I'm worried. And if you stay, please turn off anon asks for a while, people only send hate when they can hide.

2 - explain what really happened, so you can hear it from me, NOT MY WORDS DISTORTED BY OTHER PEOPLE WHO JUST ENJOY ALL OF THIS~~~

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[wonwoonlight]

📣: Dad!Wonwoo // fluff // cont of this... kinda haha // 1000~ words // [ft. Uncle!Seungkwan, Shua, and Seokmin]

A/N: Happy weekend!!! thank you for the request anon <3 i kinda continued from the last dad!wonu prompt bc why not :p enjoy ^^ anw i dont think ive ever said this but, dont hesitate to ask me if theres anything abt my fic that confuses you haha

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“Are you nervous?” Seungkwan asks Jiwoo who’s gripping his hand.

“Just a little, do you think they’ll take long?” she frowns in worry. It’s been almost half an hour since you’ve gone into labour with Wonwoo in tow; Seungkwan, Seokmin, and Shua have come to visit and look after Jiwoo because it’s an emergency labour even though thankfully it’s only a few days too fast than what you’ve expected.

That said, Wonwoo’s parents and yours are still on their way to the hospital from outside the city, which is why Wonwoo has called and asked if anyone’s free a few hours prior because the doctor has said you might need to get into labour early and he’s reluctant about leaving you by yourself even though you probably don’t mind. The rest of the members are unfortunately busy, though they promise to come as soon as possible.

“Well, Haru and Hana’s mom needed a few hours, but it’s possible that your mom might come out earlier,” he gently explains to the kid, crouching down so he can assure her better. Maybe he should’ve brought his kids so Jiwoo can play with them instead of being worried.

“Mom and Baby will be okay, right?” she asks again. She has seen how worried her dad looks and how you won’t stop grimacing earlier.

“They will be okay,” Seokmin smiles at her before taking her in his arms. “Now I heard someone wants to wear her princess dress to meet Baby?”

At the mention of her dress, Jiwoo nods excitedly telling her uncles she will be the bestest princess-slash-sister for her sibling.

Nearly half an hour later, Wonwoo comes in by himself. He greets his members with a slight smile before crouching down to accept Jiwoo’s hug. There’s a tired but content smile in his face when Jiwoo circles her short arms around his neck.

“Where’s Baby, Dad? What about Mom?”

“Mom needs to sleep for a while and the doctor and nurses need to make sure that Baby is healthy before Baby meets you, okay?” he explains slowly, getting that she might not completely understand. But Jiwoo simply nods even though she still seems jittery. “I see you’ve changed into your princess dress?”

“Yes! Uncle Seokmin helped me!”

“Really? Did you behave well with uncles?”

His child nods happily, telling him Uncle Seungkwan video-called Auntie so she can babble with Haru, and then Uncle Shua let her play a game in his phone with him. “And Uncle Seokmin says Minjoon and Uncle Mingyu are on their way here!”

At the mention of his name, Seokmin chirps in to ask if you’re okay, and Wonwoo nods, explaining that they just need to monitor you and the baby some more, and that you’re still asleep under the anesthesia.

“So is Jiwoo having a brother or a sister?” Shua asks as he hands him a cup of coffee.

Wonwoo lets out a chuckle with a shake of his head. “Wouldn’t you like to know, huh? How much did you bet with Jeonghan?”

“Enough to reserve a five-star restaurant with Sooji and my wife,” he shrugs casually.

“You two just don’t change, do you?” Seungkwan huffs to himself, putting his phone back in to his pocket.

“Is Baby a boy or a girl, Dad?” Jiwoo asks this time, climbing to his lap after her short ‘princess photo session’ with Seungkwan is finished.

“Do you want me to tell you?” he gently asks before leaning forward to kiss her forehead. “Or do you want to see yourself later when Baby comes in?”

Jiwoo furrows her eyebrows in all seriousness, which makes all the adults laugh. “I want to see Baby by myself!”

Her dad nods, praising her for being patient even though it’s okay if she wants him to tell her. But Jiwoo firmly shakes her head, telling him she wants to be surprised.

When the door opens again, the nurse is pushing your bed in with you and the baby on it. Jiwoo goes tense in her father’s lap, her hand gripping the front of his shirt as her gaze follows you and the bundle in your arms.

“Hi, big sister,” you greet her hoarsely once the nurse is done settling you and leaves the room. “Baby is here to see you.”

Jiwoo looks up at Wonwoo, and he can tell at once that she’s both nervous and excited. He lets her have her moment before eventually asking is she wants to get closer and see Baby. After she nods, he stands up with her in his arms and walk closer to your bed, Jiwoo looking at the tiny bundle against your chest with fascination.

“Hi Baby,” she whispers very softly, as if afraid she’d wake the baby up even though she doesn’t even know whether the baby is asleep or not. “I am your sister Jiwoo. I will help Mom and Dad take care of you.”

You share a look with Wonwoo, tears pooling in your eyes at the way Jiwoo’s trying her best to lean down from her dad’s arms so she can see her sibling better.

“Dad, Baby is very small. Even smaller than Minjae,” she says, remembering Seokmin’s youngest son and how Wonwoo has said Baby will need to be carried around like that later.

“Do you like Baby?” you ask instead, very glad that Jiwoo says a very amazed ‘yes’. “Can you tell if Baby’s a girl or a boy?”

Jiwoo turns to her dad again, but Wonwoo just points at her sibling as if to tell her to see for herself. “I think Baby is a boy?”

“Very smart,” Wonwoo exclaims as he kisses her cheek, and Jiwoo lets out an ‘woah, a brother,’ as she continues to stare at the baby some more. “We’re gonna call him baby Siyoo from now on, okay?”

“Baby Siyoo,” she repeats after him like a mantra. At the background, Wonwoo can hear Shua letting out a strangled ‘yes!’ and he turns to see the older guy happily typing in his phone with a grin on his face, probably telling Jeonghan he owes him money.

Wonwoo rolls his eyes, though he can’t really be annoyed at this moment, not when Jiwoo is happily asking about her brother to you and you’re answering her just as happy, if not more, with your hand automatically rubbing Siyoo’s little back as you do so.

He doesn’t think he can be any happier than this.

[ur-jinji]

141+levi

ps. have a lovely night (: and dont put preasure on yourself. u are great!

thank you very much anon!!! have a lovely night yourself <3 ur greater :)

someone to spend time with

levi ackerman x gn!reader college au

summary: in which two lonely people share an unlikely friendship and some confused feelings for one another

word count: 2.2k

song: someone to spend time with // los retros

“i got you boba,” you announced as you approached a small, square table in the library where your classmate, levi, resided.

“what the fuck is that.” he asked.

“tea.”

“say less.”

you handed him the drink and sat down across from him, watching him slurp away. his attention quickly moved back to the book in front of him.

“how’d you find me?” levi questioned, his steel eyes glancing up at you for a quick second.

“you’re always here,” you replied, shrugging. “plus, i need help with our reading assignment.”

“you always need help.” he sighed and closed his book.

you and levi shared a shakespearean literature course and somewhat became friends by default because your assigned seats were directly next to each other. he was very reserved in class, but your boredom got the best of you, so you’d talk his ear off. he wasn’t very amused initially, as he took his schoolwork and class time very seriously, but he eventually warmed up to you. after forcing levi to help you once, you just kept coming back. you enjoyed his quiet company, and he appeared to be just as alone as you were. except his was by choice, you assumed.

“i just can’t keep up with all of macbeth’s drama,” you joked. “i figured i’d pay you with tea and my presence to help me for the millionth time.”

“yeah, your presence was starting to not be enough,” levi said monotonously, yet a small smile forming on his lips.

“you must like my company a little if my presence was enough of a payment before now,” you replied as you leant your elbow on the tea, resting your chin in your palm.

“i guess you’re okay,” he said simply. “what do you need help with.”

“listen, i tried to read act 2, but i was at a loss,” you stated. “oh, and i forgot my book.”

“you’re an idiot,” levi mumbled, shaking his head. “c’mere.” your eyes widened, but you complied, getting up from your seat across from him. as you made your way around the table, he grabbed the back of the chair next to his and pulled it out for you. you thanked him and took a seat, in which he replied with a simple “mm-hm.”

“take some notes. i don’t want you calling me tonight saying you’re confused,” he told you. you nodded and grabbed your pencil and notebook from across the table. levi started summarizing the text for you, and explaining the shakespearean language that constantly left you feeling perplexed. you silently listened, jotting down notes for a while before getting bored and doodling on the sides of the paper. he quickly took notice in your drawings. he glanced down, seeing an outline of an angry face, along with an arrow pointing to levi. his eyebrows furrowed when he saw the word “stinky” accompanying the face and arrow. he swiftly picked up his own pen and drew an x through your doodles, then scribbling “brat” down on the paper. you giggled and nudged his knee with yours.

“tch. you should be paying attention. we’re being quizzed on this,” levi commented, causing you to groan. you folded your arms and let your face fall forward into them.

“i didn’t even hear the professor say anything about a quiz,” you grumbled, your voice muffling against your skin.

“you didn’t hear because you’re always talking my ear off. she said there’ll be an essay, too,” he added, only making you groan once again. you relaxed slightly when you felt his hand pat the back of your head. his head pats were his quiet way of trying to comfort you. they always felt nice.

you suddenly perked up, his hand falling off your hair, in which he moved to rest it on the back of chair.

“okay, okay. let’s get serious,” you said, nodding towards his textbook.

“i’ve been serious,” levi replied blankly. he continued his little lecture, and you wondered if he realized his fingers had started toying with the ends of your hair. his touch sent chills down your spine. you started to take note in your mind of how he sometimes did those little things. those little gestures and touches. you liked them a little more than you should have. maybe you were just touch starved, or maybe they just felt good coming from him. levi wasn’t an easy guy to read, so you normally brushed those kinds of moments off. but as he droned on about some witchs’ prophecies, all you could think about was how the tips of his fingers were getting closer to the skin on your nape.

“you’re not taking notes,” levi stated the obvious, sighing and turning his head to you. “like i said, i don’t want you calling m-“

“what if i called you anyway?” you asked gingerly. his eyebrows furrowed, and the hand behind you disappeared. “like, what if I called you, but not to talk about macbeth?”

“what else is there to talk about.”

ouch. okay. now this is fucking awkward. should’ve just kept my mouth shut and let the kid keep playing with my stupid hair.

“hah, nevermind. i was just kidding. keep going,” you managed to get out, despite the feeling of an invisible hand around your neck to keep you from continuing to make an ass of yourself. you shifted your attention forward, your gaze falling down to your notebook.

“um, yeah. you can call me,” levi spoke, his normally uninterested tone sounding off. there was the tiniest hint of....desperation? tenseness? it went unnoticed by you.

“no, it’s okay. i don’t wanna bother you more than I have,” you replied. i need to get out of here. “i actually gotta go. i told my, um, roommate i’d help them with something.” you swiftly stood up, reaching out to gather your things, when levi’s hand was suddenly grasping your wrist.

“i...want you to call me,” he said, his volume low and his gaze shifting around, appearing to be quite nervous. you froze, and his grip on your wrist began to loosen before letting it drop. you nod slowly, pushing your head downwards to hide the embarassing blush creeping on your cheeks.

later that night, you were left alone, as your roommate was out with their friends or participating in a study group almost every night. you were sat at your desk, drumming a pencil and fidgeting around nervously, wondering if you should call levi. the phone works two ways, and you always seemed to be the one making the effort to hang out or talk to him.

what if he thinks i’m desperate?

you sighed and swallowed your pride. you pulled out the headphones from your ears that were playing loud music and found yourself staring at his contact in your phone.

knock knock. knock.

your head snapped in the direction of the noise coming from outside your door.

“hey, brat. let me in.”

you froze, your mouth dropping. you sat there for a few moments, debating whether or not you should pretend you went to bed.

knock. knock.

you took a deep breath and stood, making your way to the door and cracking it open. you saw levi with his usual stoic expression. before you could even say a word, he raised his hand, pushing the door open and walking past you. he stopped in the middle of the room, his gray eyes scanning the area.

“i’m assuming this is your side,” levi said simply, pointing to your side of the room. you felt embarrassed when you realized your bed was unmade and a plushy was propped up against your pillow.

“hah. uh, yeah,” you replied. the nerves in your voice and laugh were evident. you crept to your desk, wanting to hide anymore embarrassing evidence. you quickly found a cringey picture frame of you and a friend from your hometown, your hand grasping it and gently placing it facedown.

“what brings you to my dorm?” you wondered, taking a seat in the desk chair to hide your shaking legs. unfortunately for you, your shifty actions only grabbed his attention, and your question went ignored. levi strolled to your desk and pressed his hand on the wooden top, leaning nonchalantly. he reached out for the picture frame you were desperate to hide, and picked it up. you looked up at him as he observed it with a small smirk.

“tch. cute,” he commented before propping the frame back on the desk. you hurriedly slammed it facedown again, mumbling a sheepish ‘thanks.’ you continued to stare up at him as his eyes looked over your desk. his attention turned to you, his eyes falling onto your pink-tinted features.

“want some tea?” you offered.

some time later, you and levi found yourselves lounging on opposite sides of your bed, both sitting with legs criss crossed. he held a large tea cup, sipping quietly at his second drink as you let him in on some gossip about your roommate’s friend’s cousin. you don’t even know how you got to this point, but after offering him a drink and busying yourself, your nerves simmered. it felt a lot more comfortable after that.

“and then they said that she said that he got caught sexting not one, not two... but twelve other girls. then his girlfriend tried to burn his house down. and now she’s in prison for attempted arson,” you finished. levi lowered his cup after taking a long sip, and continued to stare with a blank expression. but despite his bored appearance, he was rather invested in this story.

“that’s rough,” he commented.

“i know right?” you replied as you picked up your phone. you clicked to see the time. “jeez, it’s already midnight.”

“tch, is that your way of kicking me out?” levi asked, smiling ever so lightly.

“unfortunately, yeah. i have an 8am class tomorrow,” you said, putting a little pout on your lip. “we should do this again, though. feels nice to just hang out with someone.”

“isn’t that what we’ve been doing in the library?” he questioned.

“i don’t count me making you help me with shakespeare as hanging out,” you explained.

“that’s fair.” he shrugged.

“also, this is the first time you initiated being around me,” you boasted, feeling pretty satisfied with yourself. “that means you think i’m fun.”

“i never said that.”

“well, you being here says otherwise. sooo...”

“whatever, brat.”

levi stood from his spot on the end of your bed, handing you his empty cup. you stood as well, following him to the door.

“i guess you’re okay,” he offered. “this was okay.”

“that translates to, omg y/n is the best, they’re sooo much fun,” you teased, nudging your elbow against his. “anyways, i guess i’ll see you in class on wednesday.”

“i guess you will,” he replied plainly, raising his hand to touch a strand of your hair, putting you in a state of shock. your mouth gaped slightly as you studied him curiously. after a few moments of silence, levi abruptly started leaning forward, your eyes widening. before you could react, his lips were against yours.

is this actually happening? you wondered. oh, my god it’s actually happening. this is real.

it took you no time to respond to the kiss, your eyes quickly fluttering shut. you hadnt been kissed a long time, and you remembered first kisses always being a little awkward as you both had to adjust to the way the other’s lips moved. but there was no awkwardness. there was no needing to adjust; it was perfect.

his movements were surprisingly fast and needy, his hands moving to hold your jaw as both of your quiet, desperate noises were swallowed. your hands came up to grip his neck, pulling him closer to deepen the kiss. you could feel little tingles everywhere he touched you, and a knot starting to form low in your stomach. you felt his tongue slip into your mouth as he moved his hands down to hold your waist, arching your back slightly. levi started to redirect you, pushing your back against the door, causing a loud thud against the wood.

“y/n? what was that?” a voice from the other side of the door called. your eyes flew open, seeing his steel eyes already looking back at you.

“shit!” you hissed. “my roommate.” you pulled your face away and took a deep breath, your hands still holding levi’s neck, and his still gripping your waist. you gazed at him for a moment, admiring his features. you hurriedly leaned in again, giving him one final, quick kiss.

“sorry! hold on!” you finally responded to your roommate as they started turning the doorknob. the two of you let one another go, quietly stepping away from the door that started to open.

“you won’t believe the night i-“ your roommate started, but freezing once they saw levi. their mouth dropped open and they glanced at you, shocked.

“sorry, he was just leaving,” you said, rushing to push levi through the open door. you followed him out, closing the door behind you. you sighed loudly.

“i’m sorry about that,” you told him quietly. he shrugged and slid his hands into his pockets. “i knew you liked me.”

“you’re okay,” levi replied, his eyes holding a warmth you had never seen from him before. “i’ll see you on wednesday.”

“yeah, yeah, see you wednesday,” you said, grinning as he turned around, making his way down the hallway.

[twstmemories]

use the magical qooapp !! OR if youre on ios just make a new apple id !! AND AND (i saw this in a prev ask) yumekuro is a pretty newish joseimuke !! i played it since launch but im too stupid and i dont know whats happening BUT

Yumekuro (or Dream Meister and the Recollected Black Fairy) is a game where its basically like theres guilds and rlly hot guys!! (some VAs from enstars/twst can be seen in the casting) its kinda like helios like a turn based game, im too stupid to explain the story unfortunately </3 its kinda like a sequel? not sequel? to Yume100 (an otome game with like 100 guys?) it just takes place in the same universe kinda thing AND YOU CAN CHAT THE HOT GUYS BTW, theres interactive stuff too kinda like YEAh (and the mc is hot imo)

-adonis anon

i do have an android so i'll play engstars on that! JP enstars is the only one I have on my ipad since that's the one i play seriously hehe ~

adonis anon your way of promoting is hilarious: THERE'S HOT PEOPLE! THE MC IS ALSO HOT! and i love it- I have it downloaded because taku threatened me to install it but i have yet to actually play it HAHAH but I will check it out once I have time! I know there's a guy there that shares the same va as Leona and Keito so :D

:D

hehe

[outro-tearist]

paws of paradise - chapter 3 {bangtan ot7 x reader}

hi!!!!!!!! it's been a little longer than i thought to update this, but here it is! it's also summer so updates hopefully will be more frequent as i dont have school to worry about!

as per usual, i'd appreciate comments, thoughts, suggests, anons, anything! have a great day!

~silver🤍🌙

chap 1 chap 2 chap 3

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Thinking.

That was what (Y/N) was doing, and had been doing for the past- How long had it been? The coldness that crept up onto Jimin had only happened yesterday, but the guilt overwhelmed her the more that she had thought about it. It felt like the incident had happened days ago when all she could think about was the crestfallen look Jimin had given her before he raced out of her shop.

It wasn’t his fault that he looked at Taehyung like he hung the stars in the sky. He was a gorgeous man, not to mention the genuine kindness he had shown any person he came across. It was hard to admit, but she had been very obviously jealous. Not only did that embarrass her, but it also made her feel worse for thinking those awful things about a dog owner just wanting to get his precious baby’s hair cut.

She decided to close the shop for today, officially saying she “needed more supplies”, but privately she knew she would not be able to focus.

Oh my god, Yoongi definitely saw her acting like a fool too! The blood that had flooded her cheeks seemed to swirl restlessly even more, just begging to be noticed and called out. He luckily hadn’t mentioned anything, probably to spare the shame she would feel in the moment.

Poor Jimin… He hadn’t done anything.... (Y/N) was being selfish and she recognized it as soon as they made eye contact. His appearance had startled her.

“Jimin! Hey..” (Y/N) started nervously as she saw the man enter through the back door like he usually did. He seemed shocked that he had been found so quickly, but awkwardly smiled back at his coworker.

“Oh. Yeah, hey.” Jimin said shortly. His curt tone had honestly hurt (Y/N) a little bit, but she took in a small breath and persevered.

‘It’s your fault he’s being distant,’ a horrible voice whispered in the back of her head. ‘He deserves more than you, someone better… someone more like Taehyung.’ It whispered again.

“I am so sorry about yesterday… I didn’t mean to dismiss you like that, I just- well, I got some bad news?” her last sentence sounded more like a question than an excuse, but Jimin had obviously softened after hearing her jittery voice.

“(Y/N), it’s not a problem. It did hurt my feelings, but I’m glad you’re telling me this now. I wish you would’ve told me earlier, but I won’t force you to tell me anything you don’t want to,” his smooth voice had felt like honey to her ears, slowly melting all her fears and anxieties that she had about not being forgiven.

Unfortunately, they quickly appeared again when rethinking her shitty excuse.

How was she supposed to explain that the “bad news” she had received was watching the man in front of her look so happy with someone else? It was an awful excuse and Jimin might be worried about her. (Y/N) would have to tell Jimin more about it later, she figured. All she had cared about at this point was just to get on speaking terms with her crush-- no. Her coworker.

“Thank you so much. Seriously. I don’t know what I would do without you, Jiminie.” (Y/N) tried to express her sincerity, but she was never the best with words anyways. It was all that she could muster up even with her head clogged with the image of Taehyung and Jimin practically glowing as they stared at each other.

Still, Jimin could seemingly read into her soul, knowing that she was as genuine as she could be through her words. She could not take her eyes off his kind eyes and perfectly shaped eyebrows and structured face and plump lips and...

“You know I’d do anything to help you, honey. All you need to do is to say the words.”

Pulse quickening and face warming, (Y/N) knocked herself out of her trance once the word “honey” had left Jimin’s lips. Maybe this little work crush was turning out to be a little bigger than she thought…

She giggled like an airhead in response, and if Jimin had seen the bright flush that had spread across her face and neck, he didn’t show any signs other than a slight smirk.

“This is kinda sudden, but um… Can I hug you?” (Y/N) shyly asked. If Jimin’s excited face said anything, the warm hug that had enveloped her completely confirmed everything she thought she saw.

He gently cradled her head in one hand as his other arm pulled her into his surprisingly built chest from the shoulders. He smelled of vanilla and another gentle sweet scent that (Y/N) couldn't put her finger on. It didn’t matter now. What did matter, though, was the feeling of Jimin’s head digging into the top of her head and how he deeply inhaled. Letting out a content hum, (Y/N) wrapped both her arms around his waist and snuggled into the crook of his neck.

“Out of curiosity… where did you have to go yesterday?” (Y/N) asked into Jimin’s neck. He shivered for a split second, before responding:

“Oh, Taehyung asked me if I wanted to spend the day together. That’s why I popped in yesterday, he told me we could meet up in the shop then grab some food or someth- is everything okay?” Jimin’s perplexed and concerned voice inquired above her.

As soon as he said Taehyung, (Y/N) froze up. He skipped work, where he would be with her and the cute dogs and be getting paid, just to see Taehyung.

‘It doesn’t mean that much,’ she tries to reassure herself. ‘He’s just wanting to see possibly the most gorgeous man you have ever seen in your life. It means nothing.’

‘Liar. He doesn’t want to hang out with you.’ The mean voice in her head spat back.

“(Y/N)?” Jimin tried to pull away and bent down to see her face. “Was it something I said?”

“NO! I mean, no. I’m just. Glad you got to get out for the day. How was it?” (Y/N) forced herself to smile and look back into Jimin’s furrowed eyebrows.

“I guess it was good, but I was still pretty worried about you. Are you sure you’re okay…?” Jimin tried again, but (Y/N) shook her head defiantly.

“Yes, I’m sure I’m good right now. Give me the juicy deets about you and Tae yesterday!” (Y/N) once again forced herself into the supportive best friend role. Jimin deserves a great person to be with him, and if that person is Kim Taehyung before it’s her, she will help her coworker in any way she could.

(Why did it hurt so much when she referred to Jimin as her coworker?)

A blush formed its way across his cheeks as he thought about the patience his TaeTae showed him after he was swamped with thoughts of (Y/N) and if she was ok.

“It was really nice… he’s a great guy and I really like being with him. He just- he gets me in ways I feel like nobody else does, y’know?” Jimin softly admits as he finds a seat next to one of the grooming stations.

(Y/N) feels faint. She basically crumbles onto the ground right in front of Jimin. She looks up at him expectantly, waiting for more information that would completely destroy her heart.

‘That was you. You were the person who got me as nobody else has.’ She thought somberly, wishing she could voice out her feelings to Jimin. ‘Was I not enough?’

“He’s so patient and understanding and… I could talk about him all day,” Jimin sighs dreamily as he rests his beautiful cheek into his palm, “It might be a little soon, but I think he might be my soulmate.”

(Y/N) physically recoiled. This was the slap in her face that she had been expecting, but him voicing his feelings was like a horrible moment of finality. She tried to play her flinch off as getting dog hair off her clothes, and Jimin hadn’t even thought twice about it.

Fuck. That cut way too deep, way more than she had prepared for. She keeps her head low so Jimin can’t try to make any eye contact.

“I’m really happy for you Jiminie.” (Y/N) says dully, but with some sincerity. “You seem to be so much happier when he’s around. You deserve this.”

Jimin’s adorable teeth flashed at her as a full smile graced his already perfect face. “You really think so? Wait, is it that obvious?!”

“You look at each other like you’re meant to be. You two must be soulmates!” (Y/N) grits out despite the tears wanting to well. “You have to tell him and let me know what happens!!”

“I’m gonna call him and see if he wants to hang out again tonight! You’re the best, honey, I love you!” he shouts as he runs out of the back.

She can’t even manage a response as she walks to the back door, shuts it, and locks it.

(Y/N) can’t see straight. She can’t think straight either, as she whips out her cell phone and dials the first contact she sees on her phone. She hadn’t even meant to call anyone, truly, but it was too late to stop her sluggish mind from pressing onto a name.

“Hello?” Min Yoongi answers the phone. A response doesn’t come, except for a loud sniffle and another sob. “(Y/N)-ssi? What’s wrong?”

The dog groomer barely knows this man, how he even got into her contacts was beyond her, but all she wanted was somebody next to her.

“Can you- can- come here please? The shop?” (Y/N) barely got the words out of her sore throat but Yoongi seems to understand them.

“I- Ok, I’ll be there in about 10 minutes. Do you want to stay on the line with me?” he asks the sobbing girl gently. His soft voice was soothing and nice, but it didn’t matter much.

She couldn’t respond. Her head was filled with three words. Three words that meant so much that hurt so much just because of the context.

I love you.

Taunting and repeating in her head for seemingly hours, until the front door jingled. She saw Yoongi burst into the store quickly and that was the last thing she saw before she closed her puffy and swollen eyes.