#undiagnosed anxiety gang

[frameconfessions]

I’ll eat my own shirt if the update isn’t out tonight, tomorrow, or the 16-17th.

[icedteaandoldlace]

Some realizations/observations gained from reading The Outsiders after seeing the movie first:

Ponyboy doesn't actually like Dallas very much. Funnily enough, my feelings about Dally mirrored Pony's as the story progressed, and he started to grow on both of us around the same time.

Steve has more of a presence (and thus, more personality) in the book, and isn't just there as extra padding for the cast. Also, his and Soda's friendship is one of the best things about the post-fire portion of the book. I'd kill to see them embroiled in a game of Monopoly or Pit with the rest of the gang.

Dally and Johnny both give Ponyboy the opposite advice the day they die because they both want to protect him, but in different ways. Dally tells him to get tough and hardened so he won't end up dying because he helped someone, like Johnny; Johnny tells him not to change, because helping people and getting excited about things like sunsets makes life more worthwhile (and he wants him to rub off on Dally so Dally can have some joy in his life).

"I hate fights" was partially the truth, but I am convinced that the reason Cherry so quickly switched gears and agreed to leave with Bob was because she was thinking about what Ponyboy had just told her, and she was trying to protect Johnny, because she already knew that Bob was the one who had attacked him and given him his scar.

Johnny was held back a year in school and Ponyboy was bumped ahead, which puts them in the same grade.

I've already mentioned this before, but I'm still not over Ponyboy being a Pepsi addict and Sodapop being horse crazy. Boys, you had one job.

Sodapop is middle child syndrome and undiagnosed ADHD personified.

Johnny was jumped in the spring, four months before the story begins. At some point Ponyboy mentions that it's fall when the story is taking place, and this is also evidenced in the fact that it's cool out and school is in session, placing the events of the story in September. And Mr. and Mrs. Curtis died eight months prior, which would be in January, so Ponyboy's just straight up having the worst year of his life.

I could not, for the life of me, figure out why Johnny "the most law-abiding of us" Cade idolized Dally so much when so much of Dally's personality and behavior is in direct contradiction to Johnny's personal values—and of all fucking things, this post is the thing that made me finally understand it.

The newspaper article's existence makes so much more sense when you know the boys were talking to a bunch of reporters in the hospital.

The gang's dynamic makes so much more sense, too, partially because they get more actual scenes together, and partially because of Ponyboy's narration explaining stuff.

Ponyboy hates to watch movies with other people because he likes to get sucked into the plots without any distractions, and having anyone else with him feels like having someone read over his shoulder. AND YET he went to see Gone With the Wind with Johnny AND later read the book aloud to him.

Some scenes in the movie make Johnny more relaxed than he was in the book, and some make him even more of a nervous wreck, and it's interesting how he reacts to the same scenarios differently without ever seeming out of character. In the movie when Two-Bit sneaks up on him at the drive-in, he does jump out of his skin initially, but he quickly recovers and goes right to sassing him, but in the book he has a full blown anxiety attack that it takes him several minutes to recover from, because he legitimately thought he was getting jumped again. When the Socs approach him in the park in the book, Ponyboy can see that he's panicking on the inside, but to anyone who doesn't know him well, he appears calm and tough on the outside. He also stays steady after killing Bob, even while Ponyboy's screaming his head off. While in the movie, he's outwardly jumpy when the Socs show up, and he's in clear shock after killing Bob, with a lot of shaking and stammering. There are quite a few more switch-ups like this, but book!Johnny and movie!Johnny both still feel like the exact same person regardless.

[alittlebitofloveliness]

Darry Curtis hc because I love him

-Absolutely 100% has undiagnosed anxiety (it’s the 60s so no mental health awareness but I know it when I see it)

-Is actually as strict with Soda as he is with Pony, Pony just doesn’t see it

-Has crazy nightmares like Ponyboy, just wakes up in a cold sweat instead of yelling

-Has a high pitched scream and has been RELENTLESSLY teased about it by the gang

-Of everyone in the gang he clashes with two-bit the most, because two is almost the same age as him and refuses to ever take responsibility for anything

-Hates driving to work with Sodapop because Soda is a reckless driver, even after what happened to their parents

-Loves fried chicken

-Worked overtime for three weekends to save up to get Ponyboy a really nice birthday gift when he turned fifteen and didn’t say a word about it.

-Before his parents died he actually got into a lot of fights, usually defending his little brothers, but sometimes just for fun. Obviously, that ended as soon as he became Pony and Soda’s guardian (except when someone hurts his brothers- then he’ll flatten them)

-Knows Ponyboy is tough but forgets sometimes because Ponyboy is SO much smaller than him, and always has been, and it was already Darry’s job to protect him before their parents passed and before Ponyboy started growing up. To Darry, Ponyboy will forever the wide eyed kid who used to look at him like he was a superhero

-Him and Soda got a lot closer after their parents died and he clings to that fact, because it’s the only sort of good thing that came out of losing them

-Never goes to the hospital, even when he’s literally dying, but if Soda or Pony get anything worse than a sniffle he forced them to go

-Sometimes when he tells the gang he’s going to the gym he just drives around for a while so he can get a few minutes of peace and quiet to himself (bonus: sometimes he finds somewhere to park and just cries for a while because no one can see him and he’s TWENTY and this is too much)

-His first girlfriend told him he smelled nice once and it stuck with him. He likes fancy(ish) colognes and Soda and Pony pool their spending money to get him a new one every holiday

-Actually loves helping Ponyboy with his math homework

-Was the original Curtis heartthrob. Girls used to chase him a ton in school, and he was proud of Soda when girls started liking him too 

-On the topic of relationships, Ponyboy went to him instead of Soda the first time he had a crush and Darry was secretly really pleased (until he found out WHO Ponyboy was interested in and then he was HORRIFIED)

-On an unrelated note, he once had to physically restrain Soda from straight up murdering Curly Shepard (but he let Soda get a few good hits in first)

-Loves baking, but rarely has the energy when he gets home from work and Pony and Soda only ever want cake so that’s usually all he makes

-Eats chocolate chips out of the bag

-Checks on Soda and Ponyboy at least three times a night because anxiety is a bitch and he’s TERRIFIED of something happening to them so he needs to make sure they’re ok

-Has tried everything under the sun to try and get Pony to quit smoking and never succeeded 

-Visits his parents graves once a month, and just talks to the headstones as if they can hear them because he misses them so much but feels like he has to be strong for his brothers

-Has a scar on his palm from burning himself pulling a pan out of the oven

[vaporclan]

For the other anon ppl are probably using the word ableist for how Fern is being currently to Beetle because he's belittling his mental facilities saying he's "stupid" and saying he "doesn't even have the capability to look where he is going" which is in fact rather cruel, even if his resentment is justified. Insulting someones intelligence can easy be rather ableist due to the fact that some people do have disorders that make them that way. Not saying he is or isn't but if anon wanted to know why I thought I could explain oops.

Yup

See . I find things much easier to portray if I've been through something similar and I went through being called stupid and belittled due to my Autism + ADHD + Anxiety + the undiagnosed learning disability I got going on that sounds suspiciously like Dyscalculia

The Arc 3 gang (Brindle, Serpent, Fern, Beetle, Sorrel, Bug, Yew + Hyacinth) all have some partial inspiration (not 1:1) from irl experiences which is what gives me the confidence to write it

Such as Sorrelpaw’s learning difficulties are based off my own, as well as Hyacinthpaw's tendency to hyperfocus and not eat/drink, Yewpaw's monotone voice + expressionless face, Bugpaw's anxiety disorder (which we haven't seen much of Yet, but trust me we will get into that)

[inazumaeleven-headcanon-space]

Ok. You know what? Thats enough.

ITS ANGST TIME

And since inazuma japan is in my top 3 teams ever in ie.

Here are 20 headcanons about what each Inazuma Japan player struggles with!

1. Endou Mamoru:

He struggles with overworking himself, often pushing his body beyond its limits during training and games. This results in minor injuries that he hides from the team.

2. Gouenji Shuuya:

Gouenji deals with chronic knee pain from years of high-intensity training, which he manages, but he hides it from everyone even if the pain is very strong

3. Kidou Yuuto:

Kidou struggles with insomnia due to his perfectionism and overthinking strategies, often staying awake late into the night worrying about the team. He takes pills but he sometimes forgets and he just ends up tired as fuck.

4. Kazemaru Ichirouta:

Kazemaru has exercise-induced asthma, which he carefully manages during matches but occasionally flares up when he overexerts himself.

5. Kabeyama Heigorou:

Kabeyama has low self-esteem, stemming from being underestimated by others, despite his strong defensive skills. He often questions his value to the team.

6. Kurimatsu Teppei:

He has anxiety in high-pressure situations, which sometimes causes him to second-guess himself on the field. This led to many panic attacks before matches

7. Tachimukai Yuuki:

Tachimukai struggles with imposter syndrome, feeling like he can never live up to Endou's legacy as a goalkeeper. He feels terrible when he cant help everyone around him.

8. Fudou Akio and Someoka Ryuugo.

Fudou and Someoka deal with anger management issues. For Fundou it stem from unresolved family trauma and tor Someoka abandonment issues. Both of them channel much of this frustration into their gameplay because of this they are often aggressive for no reason.

9. Tsunami Jousuke:

Tsunami has seasonal affective disorder (SAD) and becomes noticeably less energetic during colder months, longing for the ocean and sunlight.

10. Fubuki Shirou:

He struggles with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) from his past, especially regarding his family. Certain triggers (like loud noises or screaming) can leave him momentarily withdrawn.

11. Sakuma Jirou:

Sakuma has migraines, which are sometimes brought on by stress or overexposure to noise during games.

12. Domon Asuka:

Domon struggles with guilt over his past actions, particularly the betrayal of his friends at Teikoku. He occasionally isolates himself when those feelings resurface.

13. Ichinose Kazuya:

Ichinose deals with chronic pain in his legs because of his accident, which still acts up on particularly strenuous days. But un like Gouenji he isnt realy ashamed of that and calls himself grandpa.

14. Kogure Yuuya:

Kogure has undiagnosed ADHD, which makes it hard for him to focus during long strategy meetings, though his impulsivity makes him quick to act in-game.

15. Hiroto Kiyama:

Hiroto struggles with survivor’s guilt after the destruction of the orphanage, leading him to feel like he always has to prove his worth.

16. Rika Urabe:

Rika has body image issues, often comparing herself to others and feeling self-conscious, despite her outgoing personality.

17. Hijikata Raiden:

Hijikata struggles with joint pain, particularly in his shoulders, from his aggressive defensive playing style.

18. Afuro Terumi:

Afuro deals with perfectionism, feeling immense pressure to always be composed and flawless, which sometimes takes a toll on his mental health.

19. Tobitaka Seiya:

Tobitaka has lingering trust issues from his time in a gang, making it difficult for him to fully open up to his team mates.

There will be more cause i love angst ;3;

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Ano Keargreaves

First Appearance: Death Be to Me at age 11

DOB: 8th February

Age: 11 - 19 - 23

Height: 4ft 8 - 4ft 11 (142cm - 151cm)

Pronouns: She/Her/Hers

Sexuality: Demisexual

Personality Type: ENFP

Curious

Perceptive

Enthusiastic

Good-Natured

Optimist

People pleasing

Unfocused

Disorganised

Ability: Hydrokinesis

She can manipulate and control water through psychic means but only existing bodies of water. (She can't create water out of nowhere - She's essentially a water bender from ATLA)

She could use the water within her body as a resource but that's a recipe for disaster.

One of the main drawbacks of her ability is dehydration which can cause her to faint.

Her ability awakening happened when she was a little kid and wasn't nearly as dangerous as some others in the world. I'm thinking it was probably something like making the bathwater make shapes as a toddler. She inherited her ability from her father who raised her until she was 10 so she had somebody to teach her.

Mental Health Issues: General Anxiety

Scars/Injuries: Large scar on left forearm from breaking it

Likes: Cute things, Decca-de, chocolate, sweets, water, cuddly toys

Fears: She has Acrophobia (Fear of Heights), she worries for Decca-de and him losing control of his ability. She doesn't want him to die because he's her best friend.

Kill Count: 50+ (Majority were indirect while using her ability. She's never killed anybody on purpose that I know of)

Originally inspired/Influenced by either personality or design wise:

She was inspired by cuteness lol. No, because literally I was like I want an adorable character and came up with her. Originally, she had a shit ton more hair clips too!

I wanted a sunshine character to balance the cast within the story. But don't get it twisted she can be very serious if the situation asks for it.

Voice: Light, bubbly, sweet

Characters: Rikku (Final Fantasy), Toga (Mha)

Songs:

Pure Love (Mother Mother)

Getaway (Mother Mother)

the perfect pair (beabadoobee)

ちゅ、多様性 – Chu, Tayousei (ano) (It's a coincidence I swear)

bomber minmi (Serani Poji)

スマイリーを探して - where is smiley? (Serani Poji)

ラヴァーズ – Lovers (Seven oops)

Lost Kitten (Metric)

Wanted for: £4.5 Billion

Reasoning: Insane ability, daughter of Silas Keargreaves, apart of the Lietronite gang

Extra Info:

She has a twin called Maly

She has undiagnosed ADHD

She says she's 5ft when she's actually 4ft 11

She was born with her cyan blue hair

Her eyes are naturally golden

Her favourite colour is yellow

She will yap to anyone that'll listen

Her love language is physical touch and quality time

Decca-de and Ano grew up together in the underground because their parents were members of the notorious Lietronite Gang. Any character that has two black lines across their nose signifies that they were born into the gang. Fully joined members have another black line under their eyes. Ano got her line at 7. (Btw the marks aren't tattoos, they come from another ability user in the gang who can create permanent marks on anything with a flick of their wrist. It didn't hurt. The lines are a signifier and usually feared by the general public.)

Decca-de calls her Shortstuff. She calls him Mr Lanky.

Since she’s first introduced as a child and then ages up to an adult I have to make the distinction between her child self and adult self clear as crystal even if she still retains her bubbly personality because I don’t want people infantilising her because she’s a short lady.

She’s always gonna be cute but that doesn’t mean she acts like a child when she’s an adult. Plus she will kick your ass if you call her a kid when she's fully grown.

[thepig16]

now presenting; the most feared gang in the Splatlands: Red Fang

they are definitely a normal group of pals

totally

Isaac definitely doesn’t have undiagnosed anxiety

definitely not

[pudgy-planets]

Has anyone ever tried messing with Flowerchild and Umi because of their association with Stheno? Like a revenge by proxy sort of thing, where they can't do anything to her so they'll settle for her siblings.

These two face an immeasurable amount of harassment, threats, and intimidation from their peers on account of Stheno’s draconian policies. Ever since joining the Apples Gang, these bullying tactics have all but ceased due to the group’s reputation (and the fact their leader is an eleven foot, 1.2 ton goth woman.)

Flowerchild once ran a fundraiser campaign for her favorite animal shelter through selling therapeutic incenses, home crafted moisturizers, and all-natural elixirs made from fruits, vegetables, herbs, and oils that were rich in vitamins and minerals.

It was a rousing success. Not only was she generating an exponentially increasing profit, but it was fulfilling sharing her passions and ideals with those willing to lend her an ear.

However, on the day she planned to amass the accumulated funds to donate them… her booth was trashed, her items were smashed, and the money she raised that day was stolen.

Worse so, when she returned home- the briefcase containing all of the money was gone. Unbeknownst to her, Stheno had taken her money and deposited it into an account. Refusing Flowerchild access on the basis of “irresponsibility with money.”

Yet, Flowerchild never raised her voice or her hand. She simply conceded, forgave her sister, and apologized to the shelter for being unable to help out financially.

Flowerchild is first and foremost, a pacifist. One who believes in forgiveness and charity. No matter how much you wrong her, she will never stop loving you or loving people.

Umibozu’s issues… run ocean deep. Riddled with extreme social anxiety, pitifully low self esteem, and undiagnosed PTSD, he’s been the subject of much badgering and torment from other students.

In addition, he has a short stature with little confidence, meaning unlike Ryuunosuke, Himiko, Hojiko, and Gou… he can’t really stand up for himself. Years of Stheno’s verbal abuse have waned on his psyche to such an extent that he’s always on edge and rarely relaxes, always tensed up to prepare him for every and any situation that arises.

Once, a classmate swiped his masks and held them above his head, setting them on a high place he couldn’t reach even if he stood in his chair. The mocking laughter, all of their condescending eyes upon him, and nobody coming to his assistance left him in tears.

He refused to leave his room for nearly three weeks. It was a traumatizing event that still lingers in his mind to this day. His masks aren’t just for dissuading bullies, they’re a coping mechanism. An aid in his daily life. They calm him down and enable him to actually look people in the eyes.

Without them, he feels… naked.

[bandedbulbussnarfblat]

Alright y'all, I'm going do something I don't normally do and get political for a minute. I mean, I reblog things that are political sometimes, but I don't make my own posts about them.

So, I was on Kamala Harris' wikipedia page. Bc she's running for president. And I'm gonna vote for her bc she's not Trump. But I wanna see what she stands for or whatever. For what that's worth in American politics these days. (btw how fucked up is it that everyone refers to Biden and Trump by their last name, but Kamala by her first? like with Hillary there was the excuse of her last name being tied to a former president aka her husband. but with Kamala Harris there is no reason to justify it? it's just plain old sexism)

And I found this:

That's a screenshot from her wikipedia page. Oh shit, screen readers won't be able to pic up what that says. Let me copy and paste it here:

In February 1998, San Francisco district attorneyTerence Hallinan recruited Harris as an assistant district attorney.[55] There she became the chief of the Career Criminal Division, supervising five other attorneys, where she prosecuted homicide, burglary, robbery, and sexual assault cases – particularly three-strikes cases. In 2000, Harris reportedly clashed with Hallinan's assistant, Darrell Salomon,[56] over Proposition 21, which granted prosecutors the option of trying juvenile defendants in Superior Court rather than juvenile courts.[57] Harris campaigned against the measure, which passed. Salomon opposed directing media inquiries about Prop 21 to Harris and reassigned her, a de facto demotion. Harris filed a complaint against Salomon and quit

For those of you who don't know what Prop 21 is, here is a summary from the wikipedia page:

California Proposition 21, known also as Prop 21, was a proposition proposed and passed in 2000 that increased a variety of criminal penalties for crimes committed by youth and incorporated many youth offenders into the adult criminal justice system. Major provisions of the proposition, as summarized by Attorney General of California are:

Increased punishment for gang-related felonies; death penalty for gang-related murder; indeterminate life sentences for home-invasion robbery, carjacking, witness intimidation and drive-by shootings; and a new crime of recruiting for gang activities; and authorizes wiretapping for gang activities.

Requires adult trial for juveniles 14 or older charged with murder or specified sex offenses.

Elimination of informal probation for juveniles committing felonies.

Required registration for gang related offenses.

Designation of additional crimes as violent and serious felonies, thereby making offenders subject to longer sentences.

As someone who works with kids, let me just say that charging a literal teenager as an adult is absolutely horrendous. Because they are not adults. Studies have, in fact, shown that the adolescent brain is only about 80 percent developed.

I have worked with teenagers. They are not children, but they aren't adults. Like Britney Spears said "Not a girl, not yet a woman" Except you know, replace girl and woman with whatever your gender is.

And it's tough for these kids. I think a lot of adults forget how hard it is. Puberty. Hormones. The social hell that is high school. And there are so many of these kids walking around undiagnosed. Bc a lot of mental illnesses can trigger in your teenage years, most commonly depression and anxiety. Which is like, just a natural fear response to the American education system, tbh. Not only for mental illness, but also for disorders and disabilities. There are parents who refuse to get their kids help. I'm not talking about the 'I don't want to medicate my child' people, though they are annoying af too. Like, there are parents who will be told somehow by the school system that their child is showing delays, etc. And they just...refuse to process that. They can't accept it, so their kid goes their whole life until adulthood without getting the help they need. Some of them get help as adults. Some of them don't. And that's not even to mention the dozens of kids who fall through the cracks.

So I personally think it's a good thing that our possible future president was opposed to it. Like, she's got that going for her. And in today's political hellscape I take my wins where I can.

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Hmmg I wrote somethig

My top 8 favorite almost naked animals episodes:

8. S1E35 “Candid Camaraderie” - Although I don’t really like certain aspects of the episode, I do have to admit, it really does show further into Octo’s social anxiety, and it would really dishonor it not to mention it here. I almost have a love-hate relationship with this episode, where some parts story-wise fill the Octo-shaped gap in my heart, while others make me want to cringe out of existence. Not bad.

7. S1E3 “There are no small parts” - This episode marks the start of the Howie and Octo friendship arc you all are so acquainted with. When Octo accidentally gets casted into a movie, Howie becomes jealous, but then realizes a further issue that isn’t of himself: Octo absolutely does not want to be in it. As a plan, he takes Octo’s place in the movie, benefiting both parties involved. An amazing start to an arc, establishing the true care that Howie has for his bud.

6. S1E47 “Howieween” - La cretura. In all seriousness though, I really enjoy this episode. It shows Octo exploring a side to him he never thought he’d see: scaring people for fun. Alas, this uncharacteristic behavior alerts the rest of the gang, causing a witch-hunt and yadda yadda yadda. Octo’s costume is also super cute. I digress, this was a pretty good episode.

5. S3E21 “Sun Scream” - Multiple things to say. The main thing is that it really does establish the whole ‘misfit crew’ theme here. As weird stuff happens to the gang, as usual, the character of Cali-o-Mari straight up disrespects the different-ness of everyone there. In the end, Octo steps up to essentially tell Mari to shut the fuck up, and that she’s wrong for being an asshole to literally anyone who strikes her as “weird”. Also, the concept of Octo trying to maintain the hotel all on his own is literally the best. Also we get to see Octo actually painting this time around so YEAH!!!

4. S2E7 “Octo vs. Batty” - I just LOVE the dynamic between the two characters. Both characters have a similar motive with the same root: Ratty, and thus band together to get rid of the problem. Another thing is their characters, which click together in some ways, and hardly mesh in others. It also shows that even someone as peaceful as Octo can become chaotic under certain circumstances, but not without borders, of course.

3. S2E18 “Narwhal’s birthday” - The establishment of the fact that Octo and Narwhal being cousins really deepens their dynamic in such an interesting way. It does make one wonder why Narwhal seems so… ashamed of what is now established to be his own cousin. Perhaps just knowing he’s related to what he most likely perceives as a ‘spineless coward’ makes him feel a sort of guilt, or perhaps it’s sort of an internalized bias against octopuses. Either way, it eventually does get resolved in the end as Narwhal eventually accepts the fact Octo is his cousin, and hell, even embraces it. Great episode that deepens an already established dynamic.

2. S1E32 “Imaginary fiend” - I love this episode solely for the scene where Howie and Octo meet, and also for the chimpaloon scene. But primarily the scene where Howie and Octo meet for the first time. Not only is it adorable, but it also brings up some implications, when considering chimpaloon. Perhaps delving into my theory that the main characters are autistic, and being an undiagnosed autistic child can be an isolating experience, which leads me to believe that is why the two of them have imaginary friends. Most likely not canon, but fun to think about.

1. S1E33 “Who inked the bed?” - My all time favorite episode. Of course, it is about Octo, and exploring his more specific fears. It also shows Howie’s relationship with him; although it may seem that the two are incompatible at first, they actually connect in ways that are more hidden. And then there’s the jokes, but I won’t elaborate. For reasons.

This was gonna be a script for a potential video but I got lazy

[cold-dragon-europehsr2]

Sorry I haven't been posting, gang.

This is my first post in almost 2 months and like 2 weeks ago or whatever I got smacked in the face with mild depression. Yes, I got diagnosed for it. Yes, I've been living with it undiagnosed for a while (more like 2 years).

Because of overall stress factors, almost no motivation, and my crippling social anxiety, I haven't been writing smut, which is why my most (not-so recent) one was posted way back in November.

I'll see what I can do right now, but now I gotta see about the cost of antidepressants and other shit that's gonna help me feel better.

My hair's been falling out, I'm having really bad insomnia (the point where I get the sleep but I still feel like shit), I've lost maybe 3 pounds because of my appetite loss, and of course I've been having one Monster (or some other form of caffeine) a day Mondays to Fridays so I can fight my depression and survive another day.

Sorry for the MASSIVE rant, I'm just letting y'all know what's been happening and giving an update. I know that ranting's not my thing.

[key0-m0ve-al0ng]

"unmedicated undiagnosed ADHD gang" bitch our ADHD ain't even unmedicated despite being undiagnosed, it's not Adderall or anything but technically our anxiety meds get prescribed for ADHD as well..... Would be so cool if I remember to take it more than every few days

[newcronomicon]

whatree your HCs for Satan and the Gang

cracks knuckles

gary :

bisexual. worlds most cisgender man ( he/him )

canon PTSD but I also KNOW he's got that autism adhd on him too

I think he was ABSOLUTELY a stoner before he died. Also he died in THE most cartoonish way possible. like piano falling on his head shit.

he's got a limp canonically too so I feel like he uses a leg brace when he's outside of hell ( satan won't know !! )

claude :

he/it/they butch lesbian I Will Not believe anything different

I think his behaviour in Conceal and Gary could possibly hint at his death being gun related. Honestly he's probably the only main guy I don't have solid death hcs on.

autistic girl swag.

He was probably about 31 at MOST when he died I think ( my personal age hc is about 29 though ).

They're on HellRT, no top surgery cus it just doesn't want it ( nor does he trust the doctors in Hell for. obvious reasons ).

troy :

pansexual. worlds first cisgender transsexual man ( he/him )

death via drunk driving in the mid 90s. he was a lawyer for tobacco companies AND an alcoholic, just makes sense to me.

My reason for why he wasn't in season 1 - 2 is that he was simply in a lower level of Hell and got a promotion come season 3.

Top and bottom surgery, prefers living stealth for his own comfort.

Absolutely has some undiagnosed anxiety disorder idk I can smell it on him.

Satan :

any pronouns genderfluid CANON BI I'LL NEVER SHUT UP ABOUT THAT

suffers with delusions but yk that's BASICALLY canon. finally some good fucking delusional rep

autistic as fuck too, btw

she was probably human once but has forced herself to forget it all, her "real name" is the last reminder of it all.

soft spot for "ugly" animals :) d'awww

7 feet tall❤️ cus I'm normal

their horn dysphoria is a transgender allegory. to me personally

just SUCH a little nerd ( specifically about schlocky horror movies, sitcoms, musical theatre, fanfiction and other things like that )

[tantricangels]

𝑨𝑺𝑺𝑬𝑺𝑺𝑰𝑵𝑮  𝑪𝑯𝑨𝑹𝑨𝑪𝑻𝑬𝑹   𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑻𝑺 &  𝑯𝑰𝑺𝑻𝑶𝑹𝒀     ...    CHARACTER,  GIO CAMACHO   ( ALIAS: BABYFACE,  MALFLORA  )

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𝑳𝑶𝑨𝑫𝑰𝑵𝑮…

BASICS

Full  Name:   Giovanna  Marcella  Camacho

Known  Alias(es):  Gio,  Giovis,  Gi,  "babyface"

Age:  Verse  dependent.   Between 24 - 32

Gender:  Cis  female,  she/her

Birthday:   Jan.  12,  1974,  capricorn

Heritage:   Mexican-American.  Chicana.  USA  resident  (  noncitizen  )  in  on  bracero  program.

Religion:  Roman-Catholic

Kids?: Yes, a son ( age verse dependent )

Sexual  &  Romantic  Orientation:  Bisexual,  homoromantic

Status:  Alive

Residencies:  San  Diego,  CA.  Location  is  job  and  verse-flexible

Highest  Education  Level:   Community  college  drop-out

Occupation(s):  Border  coyote    ( ... )    aids  those  seeking  passage  across  the  us-mexican  border  without  documentation.    Formerly  gang  affiliated.  Associated  with  cartel  members  in  Sinaloa,  MX  as  well  as  Micah,  no  last  name,  of  whom  she  used  to  work  for  exclusively

PHYSICAL  EXAM

Facial  Features:   Heart-shaped  face,  big  brown  eyes.  Natural  RBF.  Plump  mouth,  slight  overbite.  A  scar,  small,  on  her  forehead.  Long  eyelashes,  dimples  in  both  cheeks  whenever  she's  smiling  or  trying  not  to

Faceclaim:  Alexa  Demie

Voice:  Typically  soft,  capable  of  being  honeyed,  husky,  dulcet.  Stentorian  at  times.  Chicana,  so-cal  accent.  Might  veer  into  Spanish.

Eyes:   Light  brown.  Almond-shaped.  Like  olive  oil  when  she's  standing  beneath  the  sun.

Hair:  Dark,  near-black  brown.  Wavy,  favors humidity  —frizzes  in  desert  heat.

Body  Type:  Petite,  typically  athletic.  

Distinguishable  Marks:  Bullethole  scar  in  her  left  shoulder.  Burn  scar  on  her  right  ear  from  straightening  iron  incident  with  mom.  Noticeable  scar  on  her  right  side.   Casaerian  section  scar.   Tattoos  have  been  removed.

Weight:  130 lbs

Height:   5'4"

MENTAL  EVALUATION

Mental  Illnesses  (if  applicable):  PTSD,  C-PTSD.   Substance  abuse  disorder  ( moderated ).   Anxiety  disorder  ( undiagnosed ).

Psychological  Profile:  Work-horse  mentality.  Compartmentalizing  queen.  Prioritizes  the  "us"  over  the  "i"  and  is  prone  to  feeling  selfish,  undeserving,    unworthy.  Has  some  anger  issues.   Fought  a  lot  in  school  to  the  point  where  anger  management  counseling  was  encouraged,  and  then  required,  by  her  elementary  and  middle  schools.  Trust  issues  run  deep.  She  resents  allowing  anyone  to  get  too  close.

Positive  Traits: Generous,  kind-hearted,  seasoned  advocate,  trustworthy,  clever,  strategic.

Negative  Traits:  Judgmental  of  what  she  does  not  understand,  insecure,  envious,  quick-tempered,  impulsive.

Alignment  Type:  Lawful  good.

Personality  Type  (MBTI):  ENFJ-T,  ( protaganist )

Phobias:  Doesn't  like  the  dark.   Claustrophobic.

Mannerisms:  Uses  hands  frequently  to  express  feeling.  Emphatic.  Her  accent  gets  thicker  when  she's  excited  or  upset.  Rolls  her  eyes  —a  lot.  Tends  to  play  with  her  hair,  smack  her  lips. 

Hobbies  &  Interests:  Videography,  documentary  filmmaking  and  video  journalism.  Kids.  Teaching  classes  at  her  local  rec  center.  Going  to  garage  shows.  Getting  sucked  into  the  pit.  Punching  the  shit  out  of  something  or  someone  and  feeling  a  little  better  for  it.  Scaring  people  and  liking  it,  but  never  being  able  to  scare  the  right  people.  Dogs,  big cats.  Pajaritos.  Animals,  in  general.  Dancing  at  cumbia  night.  Making  more  tips  than  anyone  else  at  her  job.  Being  better  than  you  and  aware  of  it  so  everyone  thinks  you're  kinda   a  cunt.  Motorbikes  and  vintage  muscle  cars.  Being  handy,  learning  to  fix  things  on  her  own.  

DIG DEEPER?

[notolux]

Blog Introduction

Hello!

I'm Brittany, a 20-something autistic small business owner and writer. I'm Canadian and half-Guyanese.

Here you'll find posts about my autistic experience, what I'm reading, writing, or blogging about, my black void Darcy (occasionally), and whatever other nonsense I can come up with.

NOTOLUX

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Tomorrows by Brittany Luckham (A Poetry Collection)

Tomorrows is a collection of poetry written between 2017 and 2018 by Brittany Luckham while she struggled with mental health issues such as depression and anxiety, as well as being undiagnosed as autistic.

Inspired by contemporary and classical poetry, Luckham offers rich visualizations and explores her endless curiosity and creative imagination through poetry and prose.

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WIP: Unnatural Secrets by Brittany Luckham

Unnatural Secrets is about Iliza Lysander, a master thief living on the south side of Karuq, a city ruled by two gangs: the Wild Wolves and the Crimson Crows, more so than its Royal King. When people start vanishing and the Royal Officers are of no help, the community tasks Iliza with solving the case before somebody else goes missing or another body washes ashore. There's only one problem: those missing all worked for the Wild Wolves. And the Wild Wolves are led by none other than Oliver Quinn, Iliza's childhood best friend, whom she hasn't spoken to in ten years. Repressed feelings and shenanigans ensue.

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[4ng3l-ch1ld]

uhm gang i was just chatting with my friends and i was yapping right about my everyday life and all and i said smth that sounded lowk very bad so i like clarified i wasn’t trying to self diagnose myself with depression, my only diagnoses are social anxiety, anxiety, and adhd, then my friend straight up told i probably have depression

like yeah there’s been signs and it makes sense but being told so bluntly was so humbling and like eye opening

like the medication i’m on is a form of straterra that is an anti depressant that also focuses on the same brain crap as adhd and anxiety, and it isn’t primarily used to treat depression but it has the benefits (which lowk explains why everytime i get off schedule and forget to take my meds i relapse)

and like, literally my entire middle school experience (before i was medicated) only proved this more

however, i’m still undiagnosed and it could also just be anxiety based issues which lead to overthinking. like i’ve kinda suspected ive atleast had depression like episodes for a while, but having the disorder entirely makes sense but is also wild

idk if i’ll ever get diagnosed, and i don’t wanna sound like im trying to gain pity or anything, just needed to yap