#unapologetically queer

[goblinsama]

New Merch Drop!

What if I told you: you could get this and some of my other art on a nice sweatshirt? Check it out here!

EDIT: Updated the link above ☝

[scarlettshazam]

THE STORY STARTS HERE.

Tomorrow This Dissonant Princess finally comes out. It’s a story for girls who are “too much,” theater kids, queer people coming together, and anyone whose healing has been nonlinear.

Look yall once again I don’t know how to work tumblr anymore but I’d like to think my book is worth reading 🫠

[clownrecess]

I want to talk about my identity as a queer person, because it is a lot more complex than what I usually present it as.

On a base level, I am a gay trans man. When people in person ask my pronouns I typically give them the answer of Xe/He/They.

However, my identity is so much more complex than that, so I wanted to take the time to talk about it.

Sexuality: I am gay, which in a basic form means that I am a non-woman, who is attracted to other non-women. I identify as a boy, and I am attracted to people who also identify that way, as well as masc leaning nonbinary people. Along with being gay, I am also greysexual, which is an identity on the asexual spectrum.

Gender: I am trans (FTM). This means I was assigned female at birth but am actually a boy. Whilst my gender CAN be dumbed down to just "boy", it is a lot more than that. Imagine a square, and what is inside that square is boy. My gender fully takes up that space, it is fully boy, but then a small bit of my gender overflows out of the square. Typically, this would fall into demiboy, however, I am not a demiboy. The part of my gender that falls outside of boy is so so little, that I don't feel comfortable using the label of demiboy to describe myself. So why is my gender complex then? I am a person that very much believes that gender as most people think of it is a human made concept, and that "true gender" is only experienced by the one experiencing it. My gender, as a boy, feels like a boy in the way that animal bones feel like a boy. My gender, as a boy, feels like a boy in the way that the concept of being dead feels like a boy. My gender, as a boy, feels like a boy in the way that frogs feel like a boy. My gender, as a boy, feels like a boy in the way that You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison by MCR feels like a boy. And more! My gender being a boy has absolutely nothing to do with what society deems a boy. My gender being a boy is ONLY a boy because for me, all of those things feel like a boy, and all of those things feel like me and my gender. I am also autistic, and my autism also wildly changes the way that I experience myself, and of course, part of myself is my gender. Due to this, I also identify as autigender.

But, that still isn't super complex. What I just described is an autistic boy who uses xenogenders, and that IS what I am! However, it is messier than that, because I am in a system (which typically isn't something I talk very much about online, but it is important for this post) and we all experience gender differently. Some of us are nonbinary, some of us are girls, some of us ONLY use xenogenders, and some of us identify in a way that I didn't list off. Some of us use she/her pronouns, some of us use auti/autis pronouns, some of us use he/him pronouns, some of us use they/them pronouns, some of us xe/xem pronouns, some of us use frog/frogself pronouns, some of us use fae/faeself pronouns, etc. Point is, we all have unique, complex genders, sexualities, and identities.

So why do we not say we are genderfluid and pansexual, as a way to make all of us feel represented and truthful in our identity? Because being a xenogender using, gay, complex identity boy is what describes us as a whole the best. Yes, we are absolutely separate people, but as a whole, this is who we are. We also label ourselves as a multipluralic boy, which is another way to show that we have different Identities whilst still having one whole identity as a system.

All of these aspects of my identity as a queer person intersect and influence each other in complex ways. It's not always easy to navigate, but it's also incredibly rewarding to be able to explore and express myself in a way that feels true to who I am.

[xjustasupernovax]

I’M GAY!

And guess what I’m sick of hating myself over it!!!!

And the first kiss I remember fondly wasn’t my actual first kiss with a man.

It was my first kiss with a woman. Because that’s the only one that felt REAL.

SO I’M DONE PRETENDING WORLD!!!

[ohwaitwhatdamn]

Zzzzzzzz

Looks like I'm punching myself to wake up

[sunnylittlebisexual]

It's *yearning to be platonically (with a romantic undertone) kissed on the cheek by my fav celeb while I blush* hours again

[plutonianawareness]

If a queer person is saying that a fictional character is queer, there is a basis for that and if you are not queer, you do not get to come in and go "yea, that character isn't queer." There are plenty of queer coded characters out there that we embrace and relate to, but the minute that we say that shit out loud, someone has to come in and go "WELL ACKCHUALLY" well actually, shut the fuck up. Not everyone is heterosexual and cisgender. Get out. Let us have our queer characters. Especially the ones that aren't villains.

[nico-thenecromancer]

This is genuinely so stunning and just raw and personal holy shit I'm in awe.

This honestly makes me feel so seen and a body like mine just being so projected into the world in this way like this is just so ahhhh.

happy tdov, y'all

i'm from texas and i had to move away after coming out in middle school, due to it being unsafe to be a trans man in texas. with the recent news going on i wanted to put this in bluebonnet fields. i hope everyone else doesn't forget about trans rights for rural and southern people, because it really does feel like a whole other world between city and country sometimes and we have got a lot of work to do

[id: a trans man in a field of bluebonnets. he has a cigarette and a cowboy hat, which is tipped over his face. he is pre-op, and shirtless, with blue jeans on. he is reclining and wrapped in a trans flag. /end id]

[ar-redux]

I'm putting this here because it's the only place I can, and I need to release it into the ether to be able to fully let it go.

To make a very long story short, I recently discovered, probably without him meaning to communicate it, that my boss views my department as one that is not of high priority. That my subject isn't a high priority is not a fact of which I am ignorant. I don’t teach a core subject. But just like the fact that I've got thick thighs and am a little hefty doesn't mean I would ever expect someone to call me fat to my face, I would never expect my boss to say that to my face.

I work hard to a fault. I have put literal blood, sweat, and tears into my job. I bust my ass to help my kids find value in themselves and talents they never knew they had or loved. To hear him say that, someone I trusted enough to tell that I'm queer when only two other people I worked with knew, someone I have looked to as a leader and whose praises I have (sometimes quite literally) sung, is almost physically painful. It feels like a violation of that trust and makes me wonder if he even understands that I told him because I had a safe space with him, even when I told him that.

And so, into the abyss, I leave this message. I refuse to quit. I refuse to leave my kids. I refuse to feel small when I know I matter to the little (and not quite so little) people in my life. I will not take away a room in a small town that is covered in rainbows and is an actively safe space for my tiny queer population. Fuck that shit, and fuck him. I'll be here with my rainbow flying, big old butt putting on a show long after he's moved on to disappoint someone else.

[hierodulamantidae]

I'm not alloaro but I wish I was solely bc you guys have an awesome flag. Oh I love it when there's yellow and green.

Beautiful, stunning 🍋

[witchygaymer]

Let’s reverse the trans genocide and turn it on transphobes cause I’m fucking tired of this shit

[taeminie]

The Heart Killers (2024) dir. Jojo Tichakorn

[stargirl230]

I’m so late to this but i started watching ofmd and jim has stolen my whole heart 🍊

(no reposts; reblogs appreciated)

[jraqn]

a gay wet cat and a trans kid fuck shit up, become a family, and overthrow a religious institution whats not to love

[rwuffles]

if you have internalized guilt about hoarding, using neopronouns, xenogenders, microlabels as a whole, or for just being queer:

i love you.

i love you with all my heart; whether you're in an / were raised in an unsupportive environment, whether your friends wouldn't be supportive, whether you simply feel like a faker for identifying the way you do: i love you.

you're cared about. there will be people who accept you, and love you, and care about you — not in spite of your identity — no matter how you identify. you are not dirty, you are not a faker, you are not hurting the community for identifying the way you do.

you use a select few microlabels because those describe your identity well enough? that's great! you use an umbrella label because you don't feel the need for a hyperspecific one? awesome, i do too depending on the part of my identity! you hoard tons & tons of labels because your identity is so vast and / or complicated it can't be described in one or two? i have an entire google docs hoard!

i get sappy and emotional at this topic.

because, when i first started identifying with liomogai terms, hoarding labels & npts: my friend group at the time hated it. they made fun of me behind my back, deadnamed, mispronouned & misgendered me, and refused to tell me why they were acting like this.

i realized i didn't deserve to be treated that way — no matter how much i cared about those people, or how much they claimed to care about me. and, even if i got out of those friendships, i still deal with the internalized guilt today.

the guilt that maybe i am faking. or that i'm doing something wrong — no matter how happy microlabels make me, or how comfortable i feel in my identity, or how much fun i'm having in the community. that i'm inherently wrong for being queer in the 'wrong' way.

i hoarded unapologetically for the first time in months last night. i had fun.

so, what i'm trying to say is: you're going to be okay, because you are loved & there is nothing wrong with you for identifying the way you do. being queer is amazing & beautiful & filled with such vast experiences that i'm a firm believer in there is no wrong way to be queer. i love you, and everything's going to be okay.

[uncanny-tranny]

Honestly, the "gay voice" and the "tranny voice" are both so fucking beautiful and stunning. Frankly, those are the voices I would rather hear than somebody who is complaining about the way queer people exist and speak. Those voices are what I want to hear serenaded to me, to hear express joy and pain and love, and hear exist. Those are the voices that are most gorgeous.