#ugh i used to truly believe 'you can do anything if you put your mind to it!'

[yuikomorii]

Ayayui date♡

// I'm not sure why, but I suddenly got a burst of creativity. There's no special occasion for this post; it was really just an excuse to edit Yui in my favorite Princess Collection outfit. I like how the merch line was released right on Ayato’s birthday, so I really wanted to see an Ayayui date in those outfits! 😌💕

I was in the mood to write a special scenario again. You just have to click on ‘Keep reading’ to find it. This one is set after the LE events, particularly after the After Story, so I hope you enjoy it! ( ˶ˆ꒳ˆ˵ )

Ayato: Haa… finally!

After all this time, I’ve managed to sort out every single problem in the Demon World.

Geez, I’m gladly taking a break!

( Ever since I became king, I’ve been buried in an endless pile of documents—so many that I’ve grown sick just being in that place. Things seem to be getting better in the Demon World, though I’d lie to say it’s perfectly stable. )

( Well, whatever. I shouldn’t bother too much about that… for now. )

( Right now, all I can think about is her. Ugh, these stupid king duties have kept us apart for way too long. I’m sure she must’ve felt really lonely, huh…? )

( Damn it! That was never my intention, but I know it must be boring as hell to be stuck in the castle all day by yourself. )

( That’s why, I’m definitely going to make it up to her today and take her somewhere nice~! )

Place: Their room

Ayato: Chi-chi-na-shi, guess who’s ba—

( Hah!? She’s not here? )

Oi, Yui!

( She’s still not answering? )

Yui, where are yo—

???: Ayato-kun..!

— hugs his back —

Ayato: What the—!

Yui: Fufu, sorry for taking you off guard. I was just thrilled to see Ayato-kun again!

Ayato: Geez, next time I call you, answer me, understood? You’re still in the Demon World, anything could happen when no one’s around, y’know?

Yui: Ah… I’m sorry for being careless. I hope I didn’t make you worry…

Ayato: No need to sulk now. What matters the most is that you’re alright.

Now… about the thing you’re wearing. Where the heck did you even get it from? It’s the first time I’ve seen you in it.

Yui: Oh, actually I bought it last time we went shopping together. You see… I didn’t show it to you back then because I wanted it to be a surprise, but uuh… does it not suit me?

Ayato: Haa… normally, when a woman wants to surprise her man, she wears lingerie or something sexy, but I’ll forgive you this time. Why? Because you look hella cute in that, can’t deny.

— Yui blushes —

Yui: Ayato-kun… thank you! I’m really happy…!

Ayato: ( Is she seriously almost on the verge of tears for that? )

C-C’mon, don’t get all emotional over every little thing. The date hasn’t even started yet! You really want people to see you with red eyes and puffy cheeks outside?

— Yui shakes head —

Ayato: Good, now let’s go!

— He takes her hand —

Place: Kaminashi City

Ayato: Can’t believe I’m gonna say this but I somehow missed this place.

Yui: Is that so? I thought Ayato-kun didn’t like the Human World.

Ayato: I don’t mind either of them, but right now I’m sick of the Demon World. If I see one more document, I will end up throwing up on the spot.

Yui: Ayato-kun…

( That’s right, he’s been working a lot ever since he became king. I’m sure it must truly be tiring spending days in front of all those documents. )

I’m glad you put a lot of effort in your role, but take it easy, okay? I can’t do much in this situation, yet… If you ever need help, I want to be there to support you!

Ayato: Hmm… anyway. I’m not here to talk about work again. I just want us to enjoy some time together for once.

Yui: ( Ayato-kun really sounds exhausted… He’s matured so much these past few months, which isn’t bad, but I just wish he could relax a little. )

Then, let’s make the best of this day!

— tugs onto his arm and starts walking —

*Timeskip*

Yui: Haa… it’s way better outside.

( Ayato-kun is still waiting to pay for our things, but it was way too hot in that store, so he told me to get some fresh air. )

( Now that I think about it, vampires are always cold, so I doubt the heat bothers him as much as it does me, right? Even so, seeing him care about my comfort makes me really happy. )

— warm breeze hits —

Yui: Mm… so ni—

— something suddenly hits her —

Yui: Kyah! What on earth was that!?

Eh? That’s—

Familiar: Greetings. Pardon my interruption, but could it be that you are Komori Yui-sama?

Yui: ( ‘Sama’? Uuh… I feel like that’s an exaggeration. )

Yes, I am. Did anything happen…?

Familiar: Rest assured, there is no need for alarm. My purpose here is simply to entrust this to your care. Unable to find Ayato-sama, I must rely on you to deliver him this letter.

— Yui takes it —

Yui: But, what’s this letter about?

If it’s possible to tell, of course.

Familiar: In essence, a new set of documents has been prepared for Ayato-sama. Please inform him at your earliest convenience, as his return is eagerly anticipated.

Yui: Wait! Does it mean that he really has to return now—!

( Oh no! The familiar is already gone! )

( To think that Ayato-kun was finally starting to relax again… )

( All this letter will do is ruin his day, that’s for sure. )

( But at the same time, not showing it to him… that would undoubtedly get him in troubles. )

( Uuh… This situation is so complicated. What should I do…? )

Ayato: Chichinashi!!!

Yui: ….!

— suddenly hides the letter —

A-Ah, Ayato-kun, you’re back!

Ayato: Duh, and I kept calling your name but it seems you only answer to Chi-chi-na-shi~.

— He starts pinching her cheeks —

Yui: Whey dwont, staphh!

Ayato: Hehe, that’s what you get for spacing out and ignoring me.

Anyway, you weren’t approached by any creeps, were you?

Yui: N-No, not at all!

Ayato: Hmm… that doesn’t sound too honest. Are you lying?

Yui: No way! I… I’m just hungry and my stomach won’t stop growling, which is really embarrassing…

Ayato: Haa… you never change. Always getting embarrassed over everything, but no worries, I didn’t hear anything. Though, if you’re really that hungry, I guess we could get something to eat.

Yui: Y-Yeah, that sounds great!

* Timeskip *

Yui: ( After the restaurant, we went to the mall, then back to the center. Ayato-kun… we walked a lot today, but instead of getting tired, he just got more and more energetic. )

( I suppose he was really in need of this break, so maybe hiding that letter wasn’t entirely bad, no…? Still, I’ll have to give it to him today, otherwise I’ll surely put him at risk… )

Ayato: Oi Yui, look!

Yui: W-Woah! I’ve never seen such big Takoyaki before!

Ayato: Heh, right? It’s even bigger than the ones from the Demon World!

Also, Ore-sama got you this, so I better see you eat it all.

Yui: Eh-? This is such a big donut! T-There’s no way I could eat all of it!

Ayato: So you’re refusing my donut? You’re way too ungrateful for a Chichinashi. Well, in that case, I guess you don’t need it any—

Yui: No, no, the donut is good!

— starts eating it —

Come to think of it, today you’ve spoiled me quite a lot, Ayato-kun.

Ayato: And why would that be bad? I thought women liked that.

Yui: It’s not bad, but I really didn’t do anything special. You’re the one who’s been working all day and night, for this reason I believe you deserve this treatment more.

Ayato: Haa… getting all self-conscious, just like always.

Look, you know I’m not good at sentimental shit, but after everything we’ve been through, your presence is special enough for me.

I guess I just want to cherish you, that’s all.

Yui: Ayato-kun… I feel the——

A-Ah, oh no!

( The chocolate… it melted on my hand! )

I-I’m sorry, I’ll be right back!

— tries to stand up —

Ayato: Nah, nah. C’mere.

— grabs her and sits her on his lap —

Yui: Wait, don’t!

— he starts licking her hand —

Yui: A-Ayato-kun, stop it! We’re in public…!

Ayato: Mnn… Mm…

— slowly bites —

Yui: Uuh…

( At this rate, people will definitely start watching!)

— starts moving —

Ayato: Tch, you’re making this way too hard for both! Just stay still and stop acting like I’m about to kill you!

Yui: ( I know his intentions aren’t bad, but this is getting too embarrassing…! )

( I’m sorry, Ayato-kun! )

— tries to push him away but falls down —

Yui: Oww…

Ayato: ( Geez, what a klutz. )

Haa… are you hurt?

— grabs her arm and picks her up —

Yui: Ah, I’m alright, no worries.

Ayato: Oi.

What’s that?

— picks something up —

Yui: ….!

Ayato: Is that… a letter for me?

— starts reading it —

You… you had it all this time with you and didn’t say a word?!

Yui: I… I can explain!

You see, I thought—

Ayato: Shut up!

Do you even have the slightest clue about what you just did!? I seriously doubt you understand how important king duties are, do you?

Hah, of course, you don’t! Why would you?

You sit around doing absolutely nothing all day while I’m working my ass off to make sure you and everyone else can live comfortably!

I’m out here putting in the effort, grinding to create a decent life, not just for you, but for everyone, even if I didn’t ask for this shit. And you do this to me!?

I thought you matured too, but at the end of the day, you’re nothing but a selfish bitch!

Yui: Wait! Ayato-ku—

Ayato: Don’t touch me!

Yui: …!

Please, listen to me!

— grabs his clothes —

Ayato: Quiet! I’m not risking to go through that again only because of someone like you. Get lost!

— pushes her away and leaves —

Yui: …!

No… No… this can’t be the end…

How… How could I be this stupid…? Hhn… Ngh…

Kuh… Ayato-kun.. Nhn…

Place: Avenue

Ayato: (Fuck! I can’t return to the Demon World right now. )

( On top of that, why the hell am I the one feeling guilty now!? )

( She… Yes, she deserved that treatment. That’s what she gets for sticking her nose where it doesn’t belong. Besides, what she did could lead to something dangerous. )

( It’s not the first time she pulls such shit on me anyway, but… )

( Why can’t I stay mad at her no matter what she does to me…? )

Tch, such bullsh— Hah?

Guy 1: Aww, she’s playing hard to get~!

Guy 2: Aren’t you a bit too feisty for a crybaby?

???: S-Stop it! Leave me alone!

Ayato: …!

( That voice… Yui! )

Place: Alley

Yui: I-I told you to stop!

Guy 1: Just come with us, it’ll be fun~.

Yui: No, I don’t want to!

Guy 2: She keeps struggling, isn’t she cu——

— gets punched —

Guy 1: What the—

Guy 2: Such strength!

Yui: Eh?

Ayato: Get out of my sight, you bastards! If you don’t leave this girl alone right now, I’ll make sure your already disgusting faces get even worse!

— they start running away —

Yui: Ayato-kun… thank you!

( He came back for me… )

Ayato: ….

— grabs her hand and starts walking —

*Timeskip*

Yui: ( Ever since Ayato-kun saved me, he hasn’t spoken a word. )

( It’s obvious that he’s mad… )

( But if both of us keep quiet, this conflict will never be solved… )

Ayato & Yui simultaneously: I’m sorry.

Yui: ( Eh? Did he just— )

No… I’m the one who should apologize. I hid that letter, knowing full well the consequences it could have.

However… I only did it because I wanted Ayato-kun to have some free time for himself too.

Ayato: You…

Yui: I’m aware of how much work you have to do, and being king is definitely not easy. That’s why, I really admire your for that.

Nevertheless, it saddens me seeing Ayato-kun so stressed out and exhausted. I want Ayato-kun to be always as energetic and cheerful as he was today, but… I do realize that I’m just being selfish.

Ayato: No… You… You’re not selfish, I am.

I was the one who didn’t listen to your side of the story. It’s just... I’m afraid of failing as king. There, I said it!

I don’t want to put the people I care for in danger, nor can’t I accept being a worse king than that old fart, so all I have to do is carry out my duties. Hell yeah, they’re a pain in the ass but that’s my responsibility now, which is why I can’t back off.

Yui: ( Ayato-kun… I never thought you felt that way… )

N-no, the way you reacted was understandable. Anyone under that much stress might have done the same, and I can’t blame you for it.

Besides, I can’t say your words were wrong. I am indeed incapable of fully understanding the challenges you face, however… no matter what happens, I want you to know that you’ll always be the best king to me…!

Ayato: …!

Heh… you really never change.

— hugs her—

Yui: W-Well, I suppose I can’t change if I do nothing all day.

Ayato: Hmph, are you throwing shade at me for what I told you?

Yui: Eh? No way, it was just a coincidence! I swear!

Ayato: Pfft, proved my point. You'll forever stay the clumsy, stupid, and oddly adorable woman that you are.

Yui: Hey, that’s backhan— Mm…!

Ayato: Nn…

Yui: ( Ayato-kun… his kiss is so gentle… )

( I really missed Ayato-kun’s kisses. I’m so happy…! )

Ayato: Oi, don’t tell me you’re about to cry again.

Yui: I’m not but…

I just want to know, will the letter get Ayato-kun in troubles…?

Ayato: I might get some weird looks for not showing up on time, and maybe a lecture or two, but it shouldn’t be too bad. I was supposed to start on them today since there’s a lot, but... I think I’d rather spend my time with my girl instead.

Yui: Is that so? Thank you.

But doesn't that mean you'll have to work even harder to make up for today?

Ayato: I guess it can’t be helped. I don’t want to think of tomorrow, all I want is to focus on the present.

Yui: Fufu, I see. By the way…

Will you uhm… stay overnight too?

Ayato: Heh~? Is that supposed to be a sex invitation?

Yui: I… T-That’s—!

Ayato: Heh~, don’t even try to get out of it, it’s written all over your face.

Rest assured though, the invitation is accepted~.

— Smooch —

[mourninglamby]

god it's so nice to see your takes on things genuinely

As flawed as it is, i think dsmp is still an incredibly interesting and unique narrative about abuse, how it affects different people, and how it's spread and normalised. It's not a satisfying or clean narrative by any means, but i still think that it approaches its themes in a way that's fundamentally different than any other form of media and it's still worth it to spend time analysing it.

i don't know if the fact that actual abusers worked on it has anything to do with it (i would hazard a guess and say yes, but i digress), but oftentimes it genuinely feels like a look into the internal machinations of abusers, and i think it can make people more aware of the warning signs. and good analysis is the #1 way to actually bring that lesson to the surface, since the story wasn't written with that moral in mind but just stumbled onto it.

so, thank you for giving this smpand its story the time of day, i think that it's genuinely something that's worth doing and it's nice to see someone put themselves out there like you do (since i know how a lot of fans are), have a lovely day!

Ugh this is all worded soooo perfectly. This story is truly the most unique look into abuse and it never even used to word …….forgive the long tangent I’m about to go on but it’s important!! I know there is a bigger conversation to be had, particularly about the meta and the way Tommy played ctommy/how he interacted with the adults on the server, which greatly influenced the delivery of the abuse plotline. Tom Simons played Ctommy epistemologically, so the characters’ knowledge, for the most part, extended only as far as his did. Which created a devastating story ! Especially concerning cwilbur!

I wanna actually talk abt how the word “abuse” was never used, despite it permeating thru the entire narrative. This was on purpose of course. Tommy The Guy was 16. His outlook on abuse and the nuances of it likely weren’t developed enough for him to ever really understand what was happening to his character until it was too late. And in that vein, Clayton Ray Huff and william gold also didn’t think harder about the harm they caused not just Tommy, but everyone else they hurt irl. And I’ll never forget Tommy’s cry for justice before that HORRIBLE ending, saying in his twitch chat that “cdream drove ctommy to suicide!” Or when he told his chat they were Also being manipulated by c!dream, after his first prison visit. It’s so complicated and so difficult to talk about, but it’s absolutely necessary when the story itself never really…. Understood the topic it was portraying. The level of abuse apologism and victim blaming present in this fanbase had such an awful effect on me and my friends, and again, that was intentional. Send the audience they curated to silence any conversation that might allude to blaring red flags. BUT! I’m in a better headspace to discuss the intricacies of its harm and how it failed, and simultaneously investigate how it managed to be so Real.

As for the story being written by a handful of actual abusers … well……. It’s no wonder it ended like a punch to the throat. Absolute horse shit spun from the mouths of men who know what they are, and want to keep being that way. Wilbur thinks he can just Leave for a while and everything would go back to normal. Dream thought he could Start Over so that no ACTUAL consequences would ever reach him. They learn NOTHING because they don’t believe they have to. It’s sick. But it’s always necessary to remember when analyzing the train wreck of an ending both men concocted. Dsmp failed as damage control because they played abusers in that story too. And abusers don’t think they’ve done anything wrong. Completely incapable of introspection.

Okay I’ve talked enough lmfao but . I’m rly thankful I get to receive anons like this … I do not think I’m the smartest person by a long shot and seeing other people articulate these thoughts and introduce me to new things has been very healing and validating. It’s much better than the ppl who would flat out deny it or harass me lol.

[letstalkaboutshtufff]

Not Weak

Highschool Gojo x reader classmate

Pairing: Gojo x reader (this can be seen as romantic or platonic since I didn’t really specify. I do like platonic friendship stories a lot tho)

Summary: You are trying your very hardest to catch up to your classmates and not get left behind.

Warnings: language, mentions of a little blood, fainting kinda

Hope you guys enjoy!

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Pathetic. There was really no other way to put it. Truly and utterly pathetic was what you were. All this training and yet you could barely summon any energy.

At this rate you’d only be able to defeat a raccoon.

“Ugh why can’t I do it…” you slump down on the tree, the target in front of you barely scratched.

You were a first year like your classmates, Gojo, Geto and Shoko but for some reason they were all improving and you were still stuck in the same place like a fly in mud. Your family had a technique, ice manipulation (excuse me while I make things up) but for some reason you were the only person who wasn’t an instant prodigy. It was extremely discouraging, especially when Gojo and Geto were so strong already.

“Hey snowflake, you’re getting better, almost felt a little chill there for a second”

“Gojo… did you come here just to make fun of me?”

“Aw cmon I wouldn’t do that, just wanted to see what you were up to, you weren’t at breakfast.”

“Just training… I’m close to a breakthrough I can feel it”

“Well do us all a favor and figure it out soon because this heat has been killing me- would love a personal air conditioner”

“You threw a rock aimed at his head which of course bounced off thanks to his new trick, infinity.”

“Rude” you just rolled your eyes and moved to stand again, ready to try again.

“Satoru stop picking on y/n” Geto emerged from the trees.

“Huh? I’m not picking on her, if anything she’s bullying me!”

“Yeah like that’s believable…” Shoko popped out behind Geto. Cigarette hanging from her lips.

“Great you’re all here…” you mumbled. Now you can all witness my patheticness…

“We didn’t see you all day, we got worried” shoko ever the sweet one looked at you concerned.

“Well I’m fine” you said with a bit more bite than you meant to.

“Ooh someone’s in a mood”

“Leave her alone Gojo she’s working hard unlike you”

“Why you little-“

“It’s not exactly a lie though is it”

“You to suguru?!? I thought you guys were my friends!”

During their little scuffle you snuck away. Your mind on one thing and one thing only. Getting your damn technique to work.

Once you were far enough away you positioned yourself towards a large boulder.

Ok breathe in

Breathe out

Focus

You raised your hand towards the boulder.

Focus

Focus

Prickles travelled up your arm towards your hand.

Ok now build the energy in the palm

Hold it

Hold it

Don’t lose it come on!

Focus!

Focus!

You trembled trying to control the energy

“FUCK” you felt your body jerk heavily and the energy disappear completely, like it did every damn time before you could even send it out.

You doubled over breathing heavily.

Why?! Why couldn’t you do it!? Were you always going to be this weak??? No, no you couldn’t… if you did they’d leave you behind… you couldn’t be left behind….

Again. You had to try again.

“Ok, focus” you repeated this cycle about a hundred more times or so it felt. It was nighttime but you were still at it.

Just……one……more…..time…..

“Urgh” you collapsed onto your hands and knees. Blood droplets coated the grass. You coughed a few more times before continuing your ritual.

Again… one more time…

But this time when you rose you stumbled and fell again.

Pathetic. Come you useless sorcerer get up. Every bone in your body was screaming but you ignored it completely and rose once more.

Focus

Focus

Foc-

Suddenly your target boulder blurred and you felt yourself tipping to the side.

“Woah hey, you ok?” Gojo…. What was he doing here. And most importantly why couldn’t you speak.

He held you upright and leaned down to look at your face,

“You look like hell…” his eyes gleamed in the darkness, appraising your sorry state.

“Mmfine” you slurred unconvincing.

“Hm yeah sure you are…” Gojo said sarcastically.

“Come on, let’s go find Shoko.”

“I don’t nee-“ your world spin again and gojo gripped you tighter so you wouldn’t fall.

“You were saying?” He raised an amused brow.

You sighed, there wasn’t really much training you could do when you couldn’t stand…

You nodded half heartedly in Gojos direction. You tried taking a step and stumbled,

“Alright stubborn Bambi up we go”

Ah!?

“Gojo I can walk, let me down!” His long legs easily carried you both across the training field in record time.

“Stop moving or I’ll drop you geez”

“Gojo-“you sighed in defeat. Hating yourself even more for getting dizzy again and being forced to lean your head on his chest.

“Don’t wake shoko… just need sleep…” you whispered but you knew he heard it”

He looked down at you and thought for a moment.

“Uh you sure? You were coughing up blood you know…”

“Mm sure…” you mumbled already halfway to lala land. For trash like him, he sure did smell good…

“Ok fine but in the morning you should at least let her-….aaaaand you’re asleep.” He sighed, watching the steady rise and fall of your chest. He frowned a bit at your state. He knew you were trying but some people just weren’t cut out for this line of work. He wasn’t trying to be mean or anything, it was just the truth…

He knew you wouldn’t take that well if he told you that though. Ugh why did things have to be so complicated!?!

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The next morning you felt like a hundred bricks were weighing you down.

You groaned as you tried to sit up. Every single part of you ached.

You vaguely remembered last night with Gojo. Heat rose shamefully to your cheeks. How embarrassing it was that he had to carry you and to top it off you fell asleep on him!? How were you going to face him ugh…

It took about a hour for pain meds to kick in enough for you to shower, change and promptly make your way to the training grounds again. You would make sure this time though you wouldn’t push yourself to the point of collapsing.

Ten minutes later you were in front of the same boulder in the same position.

Familiar pinprickles soon formed in your palm

Focus…

Focus…

Focus…

Foc-

“What do you think you’re doing?”

Fuck

Your concentration was abruptly broken by the unmistakable voice of your midnight savior.

“training duh” you said it like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

“Are you really that eager to fall into my arms again?”

You rolled your eyes and turned towards him,

“That was… well I guess I should be thanking you… sorry for the trouble last night…” you mumbled scratching the back of your neck.

“Mm I’d believe you expect for the fact that you seem eager to repeat last nights fiasco.”

“I’m fine now… I’ll know when I should stop…”

That was a lie, you both knew it.

You turned back to your target hoping that Gojo would leave you alone.

Palm raised up

Focus

Focus

Focus

Just a bit more…

Almost there…

Ah! Your body jerked like it did every freakin time and you let out a labored breath.

Gojo watched silently from the sidelines

You tried a few more times, your breathing and now coughing getting worse and worse each breath.

Finally when he felt you truly were at your limit again he decided to stop you.

Your eyes widened in surprise at the hand clutching your wrist because honestly you thought he had left awhile ago.

“What ….are you ….doing…?” You asked between heavy breaths.

“You’re gonna pass out if you keep going”

“I won’t… I’m ok really, just a few more then I’ll stop…”

“Yeah no, that’s not happening,”

“Let go, seriously it’s fine, I need to train-“

“When did you become more stubborn than me huh?” You tried pulling but he wouldn’t budge.

“If I let go are you gonna stop?”

“…… yes”

“You’re a horrible liar” he deadpanned.

“Ugh just quit it Gojo! Don’t you have better things to do than babysit me?? Can’t you see I’m trying to train over here??” You were starting to get really annoyed now.

“….” Should he say it? Should he say that maybe you weren’t cut out for this life? That maybe you should quit trying? Could he say it? It would break you he knew but better a broken you than a dead one….

You saw the change in his eyes and gulped suddenly uneasy, “what…?”

“Maybe…. Maybe it’s time to stop…” in his defense, he really was thinking about what’s best for you.

But you on the other hand…

Your eyes were wide as saucers. His words echoed like a deadly bell that sealed your worst nightmare. He said only a few words but you understood the deeper meaning behind them in an instant.

Weak

Pathetic

Useless

He and everyone else knew it

And now you were going to be left behind.

Against your will tears beagn to burn in your eyes.

“Y-You-“ but the words choked in your throat.

“I w-won’t” you whispered, hot tears now streaming down your cheeks while you yanked your hand away from him and he finally let you.

He looked at you with a face you hated more than anything, pity…

“Stop it….” You felt your emotions start to rise.

“Stop looking at me like that! I will get strong! I won’t stop! I can’t stop! So don’t you of all people tell me to stop!”

“Ok, listen I’m sorry, just calm down alright,” he held his hands up trying to calm you but it just make you angrier.

“No- I won’t calm down! You don’t get to come here and tell me I’m weak when I’ve been trying my hardest to get stronger! Not everyone is a prodigy like you Gojo!! But mark my words I’m going to kick your ass one day and make you regret ever underestimating me!!”

“I’m not trying to call you weak-“

“JUST SHUT UP ALREADY, CANT YOU YOU’RE ONLY MAKING THINGS WORSE! JUST GO ALREADY!”

“Y/n-”

“NO-ENOUGH! IM NOT WEAK! IM NOT WEAK IM NOT WEAK!!”

“CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASH”

Both you and Gojo froze, eyes wide at the sudden noise. Slowly your heads turned simultaneously to the left where your hand was outstretched, towards the boulder- sorry correction- the pile of very teeny tiny rubble.

Wha??

“Gojo….”

“Y/n….”

You both slowly turned around to each other

Then promptly burst into excited smiles and loud laughter.

“I did it!!!”

“You did it!!!”

“I did it!!!!”

You jumped onto each other hugging and jumping up and down like children.

“See I told you I could do it!!!”

“You did didn’t you!?!!”

“I’m gonna be strong Gojo!! I will!!”

“You’ll be kicking my ass in no time!!”

You both were laughing like crazy people

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“Uhhh…. What the hell did we just walk in to….” -Shoko

“I’m not sure I even wanna know….”-Geto

- How I imagine them hugging lol

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Hope you guys enjoyed! This was just a quick thing I wrote, was in the mood for some friendship fluff.

[etheries1015]

Hellooo 1st I just wanna say that I love how you write! The fics you post almost always puts a smile on my face when I’m stressed and I just wanna thank you for that <3

Anyways I’ve been accidentally rizzing my friends up lately on accident with sweet words and I ended up thinking what would the biggest tsundere (literally) in twst do with an s/o who’s very generous with compliments and poetic with words and is shameless with how cheesy they can sound sometimes

I’m so sorry if my request is too vague huhu, have a good day! <3

THHAANNKK YOU *SMOOCHES* *GNAWS ON UR LEG* I LOVE U and may happier and less stressful times come ahead for you!

although you didn't specify which character...I picked who I believe to be the top three tsudneres of the game. Heuheuehu.

The prefects muse~

In which you find yourself utterly bemused by him, throwing out compliments and lines of infatuation that leave him a flustered wreck. How does he react to someone as valiantly passionate as you regarding your sweet words of honey?

Featuring: Idia, Riddle, Azul

Idia

Idia convinced himself you were just another introverted loser who had no care in your mind for other people, keeping to yourself, enjoying video games, and always open for degernate hours of playing video games.

what he did NOT know he was signing himself up for, was some sort of weird poet club bullshit. Yet there he was, sitting on the couch of the ramshackle dorm playing away at the new console he had gifted you he could feel your gaze burning the back of his head. Turning around slowly and almost with dread, your shit-eating grin blinded him with words of sweet-sweet cringe.

"Watching you play video games you can truly see how serious you are, it's adorable," Idia groaned with cheeks burning a bright shade of pink, burrying himself into the couch, "Ah~ I wish you would look at me like that, with such passion..."

"ugh..whhyy..." Idia murmured embarrassingly avoiding your gaze and remaining strong in holding himself together at your routine daily compliments.

"I can't help it!" You cried out theatrically, "Idiiaa...I can be like a video game. Play me, too!" That comment broke something inside of him that was supposed to be stayed hidden, his blue hair changing a bright shade of pink to signify the extent of his flustered state. You only giggled at this, as Idia attempted to hold in all self control by taking his hoodie, hoping the couch would just take him then and there.

Over time he became used to the fact that you would openly flirt with him, although that never stopped the second hand embarrassment that came along with it. What he wont tell you, though, that behind the rosey cheeks and tsundere display of dislike for your antics, was a heart that beat quickly and mind that secretly enjoyed your poetic and "old cringy" way of loving him.

Which just means your flirting is working, keep it up! <3 But maybe try to hold back in front of other people, he isn't sure how much more he can keep deflecting their raised eyebrows and teasing remarks...

riddle

Being someone who is well versed in the world of poetry and literature, he could often pin point where some of your lines may come from. His way of deflection is either correcting your sentences, or retorting with the next line. What he DOESN'T know how to deflect, is the string of compliments you give him on a day to day basis. At first he simply thought you were being kind in complimenting the way his hair shone in the sunlight- until Cater pointed out that your remarks were anything but the norm. That's when Riddle took more notice to it, realizing that your lines of poetry was not an exercise of the brain, yet an actual technique to flirt with him.

and it was working.

"Riddle~" You sang in the halls of heartslabyul, skipping much to his annoyance.

"Do not jump around in the halls," He chastised you, "What is it?" You gave him a mischievous smile with a toothy grin to match, clearing your throat and standing straight.

"My bounty is as boundless as the sea, My love as deep; the more I give to thee, The more I have, for both are infinite."

Silence reigned for a few moments as Riddle blinked a few times, squinting his eyes to give you his typical "poker face."

"Is this another one of your attempts to 'flirt' with me?" He asked, you leaning against the wall and running your fingers through your hair in a flirty and playful manner. You nodded eagerly, to which Riddle gave a sigh and walked past you to continue whatever he was doing prior to your poetic interruption. Your jaw slacked open and you skipped (again, to his annoyance) to catch up to him.

"I swear I saw a smile! Turn around and show it to me, Riddle! Was that one good? Did I capture your heart finally?" You giggled, seeing how Riddle was obviously ignoring your feeble cries of searching attention.

Yet you were correct, he couldn't help but find his cheeks as red as a rose and lips curling up in a bashful smile. He would not allow you to see how you affect him, however.

Riddle tends to just ignore your flirting, now that he has come accustomed to it. Even in front of people when you would openly compliment him, Riddle continued sipping his tea seemingly unbothered. Whenever he would get strange looks to find an explanation to your questionable behavior, he simply shrugged.

"Do not mind them, they are always like this."

But at night by his lonesome, he was repeating your words in his head a million times over, that same rose colored tint upon his cheeks and smile with a blanket hard on his grip. Perhaps giggling a time or two to himself...for he never met someone as brazen as you. Not that he was actually complaining, though.

Azul

Flirting with Azul was always a treat. His reactions were the most flamboyant out of the other tsundere boys, he never failed to get some sort of remark and complaint out of his mouth whenever you sang praises his way. He attempted to be calm and collected, but the blush that painted his cheeks betrayed his cool demeanor.

"Is that a new coat, Azul? Ohohoh you do look dashing, If I do say so myself. Did you style your hair? The way it frames your face really brings out your features-"

"Stop, stop stop! Why must you feel the need to shower me in complimets?!" He cried out, burying his face into his arms upon the deak. The pink on his ears was also unforgiving for the poor merman. You chuckled and sat next to him, patting his shouders.

"I can't help it! If I see something I like, I must voice it out. Is it too plain? I can try and be more poetic. Let's see..." You used your hand to pull his chin, forcing his gaze to meet with yours. You inwardly teased him at the vibrant hue of his cheeks and flustered face, keeping it in as you leaned forward to gaze deeply into his eyes.

"Your eyes," you started, "Shine far brighter than any I have seen, even the most silver and sparkly of diamonds pale in comparison to your-"

"e-e-enough! W-what is this?!" Azul pulled away, tucking his head back into his arms and groaning, "Just...go back to what you were doing before! None of this...diamond...and..." He trailed off, words failing him. Azul was not used to such praises from others, he spent his entire life believing the worst every moment he caught glance in a mirror with a life time of self esteem issues. So hearing you so openly compliment him always left the man flustered and blushing, cringing at every moment you tried to stroke his ego.

He never truly get's used to it, only finds ways to ignore you. When you're around others and began to make a sly comment about how his hands look nice or how his skin looks that particular day, he closes his eyes and avoids anyone's gazes with a face full of color that even the coral of the sea could not compare. He often gets teased by his fellow classmates for this, but never actually speaks up in distaste to you. He could never admit just how much your persistent compliments thoroughly means to him, and how with every word he finds himself looking in the mirror with a little more enthusiasm than he once had.

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yes I like to use the headcannon that Idias hair changes color when he has really strong emotions aosdjflkasdjf

[lunajay33]

The Only One🩵Part.4

Summary: Y/n is from the forest but when she was a teenager she felt too much pressure and left her tribe and found shelter with the Metkayina where she meets Tonowari, the future chief! What will happen between them?

Pairing: Young Tonowari x Omitacaya f! Reader

Part.3

•Masterlist•

I woke up, but Tonowari wasn't there, I got up feeling a bit off but just chalked it up to all the emotions from yesterday

"Tonowari? Baby are you still here?" I called out as I walked out of our room just to see him walk back in

"Hey where'd you go, you know I hate waking up without you" I said as I wrapped my arms around his waist, leaning my chin on his chest so I could look up at him

"I'm sorry love I had to go talk to some of the older woman of the tribe" he said as he ran his fingers through my hair

I flutter my eyes shut just taking in the moment

"Are you feeling okay?" He asked

"Ya, why? Can't I just enjoy being held by you" I laughed

"Of course baby, just making sure you're okay after yesterday"

"I'm...feeling better about that, just having you hold me close makes me feel a thousand times better, just knowing you still want me means everything even though you had to put everything on the line"

"I'd lay my life on the line for you my goddess" he said kneeling infront of me as if I were holy for him to be in the presence of and it made me giggle

"Oh stop, I'm not worth that much" I said leaning forward placing my hands on his shoulders

"Don't say that, I truly would die for you if I had to, I'd do anything to make sure you and this baby are safe"

I looked at him, not knowing if I heard him right

"Wait what did you say?" I asked my fingers shaking

"I felt it last night when I placed my hand on your belly and that's why I went to talk to the woman, I believe you are carrying my child" he said standing back up looking deep into my eyes

It felt like all the air was taken from my lungs

"A baby, I'm having a little baby" I cried, I've always wanted a little bundle of joy, to love and give all my affection to

"We are having a baby"

"How do we make sure, how do we get hard proof that I'm pregnant" I asked as I gently placed my hand on my belly

"My mother would know but I don't know if we should go to her yet, she barely took our mating well, to spring this on her right away might change her mind about us together"

He then placed his hand over mine

"Ya you're probably right, we can wait, I just can't believe this" I said still trembling with adrenaline, love and excitement

"Come the water will help calm you" he said as he picked me up and walked down to the shore, we got strange stares from some members but I really didn't care right now

He walked into the water gracefully, gently laying my down, so I was floating but he still had his hands under me helping me stay on the surface

He moved me around, so the water rippled around us but not enough to splash

I looked at him smiling

"I can swim"

"I know but I just want you to relax, plus I love watching how the water welcomes you like you were always meant to be apart of it" he says smiling

He continued to pull me through the water for about an hour and it did really help me calm down

"Feeling better my angel?"

"Much, can we go to the beach now?"

"Of course" he scooped me up effortlessly and walked up back to the beach

He sat down and laid me so I was laying in the sand with my head resting in his lap

"Do you think it'll be a boy or girl?" I asked

"I don't care, either or I'll still love the baby no matter what"

It's been about a month since Tonowari told me I was pregnant and after a while we didn't even need his mom to confirm it, my belly got a tiny bit bigger, my breasts became tender and my emotions were all over the place, and since I was mostly always with Tonowari he'd be the one to endure my mood swings

I woke up early feeling groggy and a pounding headache, I sat up rubbing my head

"Ugh" I groaned

Tonowari rolled over and wrapped an arm around my waist

"Angel why are you up you need rest" he said tired

I laid back down resting my head on his other arm

"I have a headache, and I feel like I fell off a cliff"

"I'm sorry I wish there was something I could do"

"Could you....maybe..."

"What is it? I'll do anything" he said sitting up and looking down at me

"Can you rub my legs, they've been feeling sore" I said a little embarrassed

"Of course baby" he took my legs into his lap and started rubbing with his strong hands

It really helped it made me feel sleepy and I was about to fall asleep when he stopped

"Awe why'd you stop" I whined

"My hands are tired I've been at this for an hour" he laughed

"Really? It's been an hour?"

"Ya the suns already high in the sky"

"I'm sorry I didn't even realize" I said sitting up

"I was the one who wanted to do it, plus I don't mind touching these pretty legs" he said making me blush

"Oh stop, also I don't wanna ruin the mood but, I've been thinking about the baby, do you know much about pregnancy and the things we need to do while I'm pregnant, because if not then we might have to finally go to your mother, I'm surprised she hasn't realized it during our tsahik lessons"

"Ya I've been thinking that too recently, it's time to tell them, i don't know why I'm so nervous, I'm gonna be a dad and I'm scared to talk to my mother" he said laughing nervously

"We can do this, I'm sure your dad will be really excited though!" I said standing up

"Ya hopefully, now let's go do this"

We walked to their pod and saw them sat talking

"Tonowari, y/n, to what do we owe this pleasure?" His dad asked

I squeezed his hand feeling the nerves rise

"Mother, father we have something we need to tell you"

"Please sit" his father instructed

We sat in front of them and his mom was giving me a deathly stare while his father seemed excited

"We we've known for about a month but we just wanted to wait till everything settled but...." He looked at me with worried eyes

"I'm pregnant" I stated sitting up straight to show that I am strong and I'm an adult now

It was silent, I swear I could hear Tonowari's heart beating so I rubbed his hand to try and calm him, I knew even with what has happened between us and his parents, he still cared for their relationship and I don't blame them they're family

"Congratulations!" His father finally said making me break out into a big smile

"Thank you father" then we all looked at his mom, wondering what she could possibly say

"I've known, I'm Tsahik I've just been waiting till you both said something" she said plainly

"Are you mad?" Tonowari asked

"Before yes I was a bit mad but I've grown to accept y/n and I'm happy I will be getting a grandchild" she smiled, it was the first time I saw her smile

After telling Tonowari's parents I was pregnant it felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders and that was about a week ago but....there's this feeling I've been having, deep in my chest and it makes my throat tight sometimes

I didn't know if it was just hormones but I've had this before when I lived back in the forest, when I was so overwhelmed and sad, I didn't understand why though, I was finally free from my parents, I had Tonowari who has made my life a dream come true, and his parents are finally excepting me, so why do I feel like this

"Angel, are you alright you've been starring at the sand for a while" he said as he sat next to me, breaking me out of my depressive trance

"Oh I'm fine" I said looking back down at the sand

"Are you sure? Is it the baby?" He asked getting nervous

"No Tonowari I just.....I'm fine physically the baby is fine....I just don't wanna talk about it right now" I sighed as I rested my head against his shoulder

"Okay my love" he said as he pulled me closer, using one hand to rub my little bump, he took any chance he got to do that

He always understood me and never pushed me, making sure I was always comfortable, his love overwhelmed me in a good way but right now I felt like I didn't deserve it

The tears welled up in my eyes and my lip trembled and I couldn't help but start crying

He picked me up and brought me back to our pod, he didn't say a word until he sat me down

"Baby please tell me what's wrong" he asked wiping my tears

"I don't know what's wrong with me, I'm just so sad, I feel like I'm back in the forest where I felt like nothing" I hung my head low feeling so stupid

"Is there something I can do, have I done something to make you feel like this?"

"No my love it's not you, you make me feel so loved but it's just this feeling in my chest, I don't what I'm suppose to do"

"Maybe we should go talk to mother maybe this has something to do with the pregnancy"

"Ya maybe I guess it wouldn't hurt to check"

He held me by my waist as we walked to his mother and fathers pod

"Mother we need your help" Tonowari said as he led me inside and sat me down

His father seemed worried

"What is the problem?" She asked

"She's been depressed, overwhelming sadness, does this maybe have anything to do with the pregnancy?"

She came and kneeled infront of me, placing her hand against my belly

"Your hormones are out of place, they're making you feel like this, the best thing to do is take some seaweed, it'll help maintain and balance your hormones for the rest of your pregnancy, I got like this when I was pregnant with Tonowari, it'll get better" she half smiled at me

I'm glad she was warming up to me

She went through her jars and took some seaweed out, wrapping it and handing it to me

"Thank you mother!" Tonowari smiled as he helped me stand up, we went and sat on the beach since the sun seemed to help me sometimes

He unwrapped the seaweed and handed it me

"Eat, hopefully it works" he said as he looked at me with hope

I munched on it and I didn't feel all that better but after a few minutes I felt a little better, enough to relax, I just hope it passes and I'm back to my happy self so I can enjoy this pregnancy

It's been a few days since I told Tonowari about how I was feeling and the seaweed was actually helping a bit I just had to be patient

I was wrapping up some food for later when my love walked in, he never failed to take my breathe away

He sat down next to me and rubbed my lower back

"How're you feeling today my Angel?" He asked as he kissed my cheek

"I'm feeling better I can tell the seaweed is helping" I smiled at him

He still looked at me with concern in his eyes but I loved it, he made me feel safe

"I'm glad, I was thinking maybe we could go to the trees of voices tonight, maybe connecting with Eywa will help"

"I'd love that, I think being away from the village for a bit to clear my head, when should we leave?"

"Well the sun will be going down soon so whenever you're ready we can go"

"Okay I'll pack some of this food and a blanket and we can go!" I said as I started packing a basket

The sun was still high in the sky so we had plenty of time to get to the tree of voices, and relax along the way

"Are you ready my love?" He asked as he reached for my hand

"Of course!" I said as I held his hand and he took the basket from me

As we walked through the island, seeing all the wonderful animals and nature I couldn't help think of how lucky I am, the seaweed was helping me realize how fortunate I really am

"You okay?" He asked breaking me out of my trance

"Oh ya, just thinking of how amazing you are!" I said holding onto his arm

"Not as amazing as you my Angel" he said smiling down at me

After another hour of walking we finally made it, and immediately I sat down

"Ooh my feet are so sore"

"I've got it!" Tonowari said putting our stuff down and sitting infront of me and rubbing my feet and legs

"Thank you!"

"I'm happy too, anything to make you feel better"

The trees were beginning to glow and illuminate the beauty in front of me

"Do you want to connect to Eywa, it may help"

I nodded and he helped me stand and walked me too the nearest tree, I took my braid and watched as my queue connected

Usually I would just feel connected and hear my ancestors but this time a new voice came through

"This is your sign my child" it was Eywa, she was speaking to me

"Y/n! Y/n can you hear me?!" I heard and I opened my eyes realizing I was back with Tonowari

"Baby? Are you okay?" I looked to see Tonowari over me as I was now laying down

"Everything is perfect!" I smiled up at him

"That must having taken a lot out of you, let's get some rest" he said as he laid next to me, pulling me into his chest

I quickly fell asleep, being held by him and being pregnant made me fall into sleep almost instantly

I didn't feel good my stomach felt different, I placed my hands there and my bump was gone, my stomach was flat

"Oh no, NO NO NO PLEASE NO TONOWARI" I screamed for help

I looked down seeing blood surrounding me, my heart was beating so hard I could hear it, was this the sign Eywa meant, that I wasn't meant to have a baby what kind of sign is this, this was all I wanted, this baby gave me hope and now that hope was ripped away from me

Tonowari looked at me seeing the blood but he left

"Tonowari where are you going, please I need you" I cried trying to reach for him

But he didn't come back, everything was gone I'm alone again, I could only hope that Eywa would take me, take me away from this pain

I woke up to see I was still tight in Tonowari's arms, the realization that it was a nightmare, the tears already rolling down my face, the images vivid in my mind, I sat up screaming my heart out, I've never cried this hard, the fear of losing everything

I felt arms wrap around my waist

"My love baby what's wrong, what happened? Are you okay?" He asked panicked

"I....I, I lost him, he was with me, and then he was taken from me" i cried looking back at him

"What? Lost who?" He asked scared

"The baby, my nightmare....I lost him and then when I called for you....you left me alone, all alone"

"Baby listen to me....listen" he said grabbing my cheek gently making me focus on him

"I will never ever leave you especially if something like that happened, and I will do everything in my power to keep this baby protected okay, everything will be okay as long as I'm here with you, I love you" he said as a tear escaped his eye

I nodded calming down

"Okay.....I'm sorry it was just...a scary dream"

"You don't need to be sorry Angel, I understand, I sorry you had to see that, do you want to try and sleep again?"

"I can try" i said as we both laid back down, I curled into him as he held me close rubbing my back

I placed my hands on my bump, feeling more secure that it was still there and for the rest of the night I had a dreamless sleep

It's been a few months and I was close to popping any day now but that dream stuck with me I could vividly remember it when I closed my eyes but with Tonowari at my side it helped ease the memory

We laid in bed, he propped himself up on his side looking at my bump, rubbing it gently

"I think they'll be a little boy" he smiled

"I think so too, a little Tonowari that'll be adorable!"

"Maybe one day we can have a little you causing chaos running around" he laughed

"Oh stop you know if we had a little girl she'd be quiet and kind" I said running my fingers through his hair

"I know my love I'm just messing with you"

"Tonowari, are you...nervous?"

"Nervous about what?"

"To have a baby"

"Not at all, I'm so excited to be a dad, to have a family with you, it's all I've ever wanted" he said excited but his smiled dropped when he looked up at me

"Why are you scared?" He asked

"I'm scared I won't be good enough, I don't wanna be like my parents"

"You're nothing like them trust me and I know you're gonna be an amazing mother, you're so full of love, this baby is incredibly lucky to have you" he said placing a bunch of kisses on my face making me laugh

"Say you're gonna be an amazing mom"

"I don't know..."

"Say it my love" I sighed caving in

"Fine, I'm going to be an amazing mother"

"There you go, now just keep saying that and soon you'll believe it, plus I'll be there every step of the way"

"I love you Tonowari"

"I love you too baby"

Part.5

Taglist: @hvroldtime @zoexme

[heartfullofleeches]

Do it!! We love your ideas chief, that’s why we’re here!

Also ghoul reader is hot as fuck

[Light body horror. Angst]

Well- two important factors about ghoul reader are both their body and mind deteriorate over time, but can be rebuilt to full structure by eating human meat/brain healthy meals.

This led me to think of a "healer" ghoul reader who can sorta transfer/reconstruct the healthy cells to others and heal people that way. Lose a kidney? Ghoul Reader can create a new one and negate most side effects by eating some ground beef left in the freezer. A personal sacrifice of their flesh for another being.

Given the nature of their healing properties, Ghoul Reader is extremely caring and always puts others before themself. They make friends with the wrong person- someone who hardly cares about their well-being and uses Reader for their personal gain. They had been scarred horribly by mistakes they'd already made and without them even asking Reader starts to slowly heal them. Their body needs more work than reader's can take, but they just write the ghoul off as lazy and trying to keep them around. Reader's body mass continues to shrink no matter how much they eat. It hurts them to put so much strain on their body... it hurts so much... but they still try. They still keep that "friend" in their heart and notebooks so they'll never forget them when their memory blanks. They care about their friend. They love them. They want them to be okay and love themself for who they are-

But they never knew how truly rotten that person was - inside and out.

"Finally... All those horrid scars were a damper on my social life. I'm even more beautiful than I was then. That being said, I can't be seen around something like you. It was fun."

That isn't what friends are supposed to say.. After all they did for them... Gone without even saying goodbye. That was the ghouls first time being betrayed to such caliber- and it crushed them. They wouldn't feel this pain if they were just another mindless creature, but they were proud of the person they'd become. The "normal" human being who walked around same as everyone else. They were just like them... only rotting... maybe that person wasn't so wrong to leave them behind...

Ghoul Reader shuts off from the outside world after that. They stick to their routine as it's all they've ever known, but they've lost that rosy view of the world. Is it worth making friends anymore? What's the point of trying if they'll just be abandoned again? They were more human than the people around them. Unlike them - they felt pain. They wanted to forget it all - so they did. Most of it at least.

While out one night reader notices a musky scent in the air. So faint only their nose would catch it. They follow the trail to a body lying behind some dumpsters - stab wounds having torn deep holes through their vital organs. Their pulse was weak - fading. Despite all the pain they've been dealt, Ghoul couldn't let someone die for another's mistake. They fixed up the near corpse and waited for them to wake up so they couldn't get home safety.

"Ugh....I'm still alive....lame...who the fuck are you?.."

Ghoul Reader explains everything that lead up to the encounter and their healing capabilities.

"Eh....with how my nights gone - I'll believe anything at this point. Thanks for the help, bud."

It was nothing. Ghoul Reader gets up to leave.

"Aye! Where ya going? You save people's lives on the regular and expect nothing back? Lemme treat you to dinner. Know a good spot close by and I still have the wallet I was gutted over. Let's get going already!"

Reader learns more about their new acquaintance. A petty thief trying to get on the right track in life. They spun some wild story about seeing a guy dropping his wallet and them trying to return it with the guy flying off the rails and accusing them of stealing it. The details were spotty, but Reader nodded along to every word. They needed a place to stay for the night as their home was too far to trek back too at that hour. They give Reader the rest of the cash in the wallet in exchange for their couch and they become the first real friend Reader makes.

Everything Reader gave they always tried to give back double. The near death experience gave them a new outlook on life. It was something to be cherished and not thrown away so easily as they had in the past. They wanted to share that new view with their only friend. Reader was a better companion than people they'd know their entire life. A little bitey when they got hungry, but everyone gets a little cranky when they're starving.

The friend gets a call over. Reader had skipped breakfast and wasn't sticking to their usual diet. They sat alone, unable to move and succumbing to the painful cramps of hunger. They begged their friend to bring them meat from the store, but their friend wanted to end their suffering as quickly as they could. They pulled out their trusty switchblade, embedding its teeth in their pinky finger. Ghoul Reader tries to stop them.

"Y/n, you saved my life. It's as much yours as it is mine. I'd give anything to properly replay you, but I'll never be able to and I don't mind living with that debt on my shoulders if it means we're together. This is the least I can do for you- so shut up and eat my damn finger."

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A week after Reader tries them their finger back there's a knock on the door. Their friend refused treatment seeing it as a marker of their loyality to reader. They make sure reader is well fed at all times. A face reader has seen before stands behind the door. Some model they've seen on billboards and flyers. What could someone like that with them?

"Y/n. I know you probably don't want to see me after what I've done, but I need your help. I got into an accident after a few drinks last week. Nothing serious before you ask, but I've got these bruises and I have an important party to attend this Saturday. I'll allow you to be my plus one if that fixes things."

....

"I'll be out with a friend Saturday, but thank you. I can still fix you, but if you don't mind me asking - how do you know my name?"

Reader leads them to their couch and heals their spotty face all while the stranger is left bewildered. They're acting like nothing happened. Why are they acting like nothing happened? Who was this new friend and who the hell was that standing by their bedroom door?

"Are you seriously going to play this game?"

"What do you mean?"

"Pretending like you don't know who I am. That's harsh even with everything that's happened."

Ghoul Reader backs away from them.

"I've seen you in pictures, but that's it. I don't know who you are."

"It was cute at first, but I'm not playing whatever game you're trying to start. You know who I am."

Ghoul Reader racks their brain for answers, but there's no result. They begin to hyperventilate. "I don't....I don't know who you are....Stop it, please!"

"Not til you say my name. I'll own up to my part when do that simple thing."

They grip at their face, talons catching on their softened skin. "I don't know who you are...Don't make me remember..... Get out.... GET OUT!"

As the stranger leaves and heads towards their car a notebook flies out reader's window - aiming for their skull had they not stepped out of the way in time. Inside are pages of filled with scratched out ink held on a weakened spine. It was a miracle they held together. The pages stick togethered, water damgaged by crusted specks of blood and smaller dots of a clearer fluid. The words written were near illegible, but there's a few key points they could make out. A birthday, the begining and ending characters to a person's name, a repeated phrase pieced together over the various pages. Don't forget. Never forget.

They'd been erased completely from reader's conscious mind. This notebook had been kept to prevent that very thing from happening. All those precious memories thrown away. The stranger was happy with the life they'd been robbed of - but no one had ever been their for them like Reader had. A new stain falls to the page.

Flipping to the final page, a note slides off the back cover.

"Come here again - and I'll erase you permanently."

It wasn't reader's hand writing. The person in the window holds up a new journal - comforting a sobbing ghoul on their shoulder.

[gingerjunhan]

boyfriend headcannons - kim jungsu

☆彡 letting the delusions win once again so Jungsu stans come get y’all juice!!!!!

word count: 713 | pronouns used: none | genre: fluff, established relationship | cws: all caps used, he’s blushing, I’m blushing, we’re all blushing, let me know if I missed anything!! 🩷

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starting off by saying that in my head Jungsu is the most Boyfriend™️ member of xh and nobody can change my mind!!!!!!!!

he’s also the most beautiful man I’ve ever seen??? okay moving on

he strikes me as a romantic!!!

not like, Seungmin type of romantic though (although there can be some overlap)

he’s the type of romantic that knows your coffee order by heart

watches “chick flicks” with you over and over again

always puts your needs before his

willing to drop everything for you

gives you his hoodie the second he sees you shiver

does absolutely nothing without asking if you’re okay/ comfortable with it!!!!

that type of romantic

“that’s literally the bare minimum-“ SHUT UP it's the little things that count

anyways moving on

I know I’ve mentioned this before in a fic somewhere but Jungsu is so so so SO respectful and he just wants to make sure everyone is happy and safe so I can see him wanting to have a long, in-depth conversation with you about boundaries

you’re both in this relationship because you love and care for one another, and he’s not gonna let you forget it!!

he is so madly in love with you it physically hurts him

like,,,, YOU chose HIM???? he can’t wrap his mind around it

he knew you were “the one” shortly into your relationship

hype man

imagine him wrapping his arms around you while you’re looking at your outfit and he just makes eye contact with you in the mirror and hits you with the “you look so pretty today baby” and then gives you a little kiss wherever he can reach UGHHHHHH THIS MAN

MATCHING OUTFITS MATCHING OUTFITS

“Oh you’re wearing blue today? Okay good to know.” and then he immediately goes and changes

I can picture Jungsu as the type who finds it really hard to sleep without you

like,, he needs a cuddle buddy

but in public?

people would never guess that

I talked about this in my PDA fic, but I don’t think Jungsu is big into PDA

like, aww you’re holding hands? that’s enough 🧍🏻‍♀️

he gives me the vibe that he doesn’t like seeing other people’s PDA so he doesn’t do it either LMAOOO (me too)

okay I talked about this with Gunil so I feel the need to bring it up again

your family loves him

if you have siblings or cousins who are younger than you?? they ADORE HIM

Jungsu gives me lovely big brother energy and in my head I think he’s be great with kids (ignore those Rock The World episodes lol)

give this man a toddler I need to see it

imagine coming home to Jungsu and your kid and Jungsu is dressed up in some silly costume, too wrapped up in the child’s land of make-believe to realize you walked in the door

he’s just so sweet :(

okay okay okay so if you couldn’t tell by the fact that I think I’ve mentioned them in every single Jungsu fic I’ve written… I love Jungsu’s broad shoulders

Jungsu is just so big and strong and I’m swooning right now

he’s so tall and pretty and UGH what if I cry

you can’t reach something?

he’s picking you up

you’re feet hurt?

piggyback ride

he’s giving you the Princess Treatment™️ truly

I also feel like Jungsu gives the best hugs in xh

those arms of his 😵‍💫 hugging machines

the feeling of being wrapped up in his strong arms and broad shoulders oh my god

safety

he’s like if a fuzzy blanket was a guy

he’s just so awesome I love Jungsu dude

I can also imagine having some good late night talks with Jungsu

telling secrets and sharing stories

he’s not afraid to be emotional in front of you!

within the first month of your relationship you saw him cry and tbh he’s so real for that

he can put up the front that he’s all tough or whatever but that facade cracks with you around

he’s just so blushy and giggley with you!

Jungsu totally believes that you bring out the best in him, and he’s so glad to be with you

he commonly fantasizes about his future with you

he’s so excited to spend forever with you :(((

taglist⁉️: @dazzlingligth , @mini-mews , comment to be added!

[cherrypikkins]

FE3H OC: Kitt Burgess (they/them) - Academy Phase Art

Featuring some canon characters :3

cw: mild body horror for some of the images

The first part of their backstory can be found on my previous post!

I've also included some additional support and quote information under the cut :3

Dining Hall

Flayn - B/C Support

Flayn: "I do enjoy having these meals with you, Kitt. …Though, not so much the awkward silence."

Kitt: "Better than awkward conversation, if you ask me."

Flayn - A Support

Flayn: "You should allow me to cook something next time, Professor! Kitt here agrees, do you not?"

Kitt: "You know I always look forward to your inventions, Flayn. But let's make sure it's something that the Professor can actually digest first."

Seteth - C Support

Kitt: "Look who emerged from the office. Don't you have work to do? Some poor soul to lecture about the dangers of falling from divine grace?"

Seteth: -sigh- "So that's how it's going to be. Very well, then."

Seteth - B Support

Seteth: "There's no need for those sidelong glares, Kitt. Can we at least sit and eat together in relative civility?"

Kitt: "Oh, I don't know. Can we?"

Seteth - A Support

Kitt: "Well. I suppose it isn't so bad sharing a meal with you every now and then." Seteth: "Any small amount of improvement is better than none at all."

Linhardt - C/B Support

Linhardt: "By the way Kitt, there is something I've been meaning to ask you-" Kitt: "Do you really expect me to split my attention between the food on my plate and the topic you have in mind?"

Linhardt - A Support

Kitt: "I'm glad that you're chewing your food in silence, but must you stare at me all the while?" Linhardt: "Oh, does that mean you're finally willing to hear out my questions? Wonderful."

Lysithea - C/B Support

Kitt: "I wonder if there's cake on the menu today. No? That's a shame." Lysithea: "You could have picked some other way to poke fun at me without getting my hopes up!"

Lysithea - A Support

Kitt: "Seriously though. Why is there never any cake on the menu? I want to know what all the fuss is." Lysithea: "Oh, alright. I'll share some of mine with you later. Then you'll finally know what you're missing."

Working Together

Flayn - C/B Support

Kitt: "If anything goes awry, I'll never hear the end of it from Seteth." Flayn: "Then we must simply see to it that he remains blissfully unaware."

Flayn - A Support

Kitt: "You've been pulling your weight a lot more these days. You're more capable than you look." Flayn: "Did you not think me capable to begin with? Truly, I'm hurt."

Flayn - Result

Flayn: "Did we do well? I think we did well. Please say that we did well, Professor." Kitt: "You're not going to get any honest praise acting desperate like that."

Felix - Picking Weeds

Felix: "For someone who's always avoiding the training grounds, it's alien to see you put in this much effort." Kitt: "Who says I'm avoiding that place? You're always there, so maybe it's you I'm treating like the plague." Felix: "That's… ugh, forget it."

Felix - Clearing Rubble

Felix: "I don't get it. I never see you at training, so how are you hauling more rubble than I am?" Kitt: "Excuse me? Sounds like you're the one who needs to train a little harder." Felix: "Unbelievable."

Felix - Result

Kitt: "Why the sour look, Felix? We got the job done. You even helped a little." Felix: "Hmph. I wasn't about to let you make a fool out of me."

Marianne - Cleaning Stables

C/B Support

Kitt: "Hello, Dorte. You look fine today." Marianne: "Kitt? ...Are you talking to the horses?" Kitt: "I've seen you do it, thought it wouldn't hurt to try."

A Support

Kitt: "Oh Dorte, we're really in it now." Marianne: "Kitt… That's not Dorte." Kitt: "…Wait, have I been talking to the wrong horse this entire time?"

Result:

Marianne: "Um. We finished, Professor. Kitt was the one who did all the real work." Kitt: "Oh, please. You don't expect the Professor to believe that, do you Marianne?"

Hapi

Kitt: "Just a little sigh, Hapi. Something to help us get away from all this work." Hapi: "Watch it, Kitty-Cat. I might actually take you up on that offer."

Result

Kitt: "I'm just saying, a monster showing up would have made things a bit more exciting." Hapi: "Would've been more of a hassle to deal with too."

Bernie - Clearing Weeds

Kitt: "Don't pick up any dangerous-looking rocks, Bernie." Bernadetta: "Wait, r-rocks? Why rocks? Don't you mean dangerous-looking plants?"

Result

Kitt: "We're done, Professor. Bernie did really well today." Bernadetta: "Hey, don't put me on the spot like that! Even if it means I get to have a little more credit…"

Seteth - Sky Watch

C Support

Kitt: "If you're going to lecture me, Seteth, I'm just going to look the other way." Seteth: "Actually, I was going to comment on how you seem to be putting in more effort these days. But… I suppose silence works just as well."

B/A Support

Kitt: "How about a race, Seteth? You and me, just like old times. Seteth: You know I will do no such thing, Kitt. Although, I suppose if no one is looking…"

Result

Kitt: "All done, Professor. Seteth did his best today." Seteth: "A little condescending, but I'll take it as praise regardless."

Generic Quotes

Dining Hall

Favorite: "Now that's an interesting dish. I can't wait to try it." Regular: "Do you ever get bored eating the same old thing every day? Makes you glad for the variety here." Disliked: "I don't hate this kind of dish… just feels a bit plain is all."

Gifts

Favourite: "For me? I must be dreaming!" Regular: "I'm grateful." Disliked: "...Is this a joke?"

Cooking "I know a thing or two about cooking. Can't promise that our tastes align though." "Back where I'm from, we did all of our cooking outdoors. Why don't we try something like that next time?"

Choir "There's no need to think too much when singing. Just do what feels right."

Tea Time:

Greetings:

"I'm here, Professor." "Hello there."

Favourite Tea: "Do you like this kind of tea, Professor? It's actually my favourite."

Expensive Tea: "Ooh, you brought the fancy stuff! For me? You shouldn't have."

Conversation Phase:

"Professor, did you know that you can use tea leaves to divine the future? Looking at your cup, I'd say… good fortune is heading in your direction!"

"How much do you know about Demonic Beasts, Professor? Oh. Sorry, I guess that's not something I should bring up over tea and cookies."

"You know, I often get super anxious when things are this quiet. But for some reason I feel perfectly calm when you're close by."

"I know I shouldn't skip sparring. But aren't you worried that things could get… I don't know, dangerous?"

"Whatever happens in this war, you're the one person I trust to set things right. Try not to let me down, okay?"

"I'm not fond of these small dorm rooms, but yours isn't so bad."

"The others may call me superstitious. But when the future is so uncertain, what's wrong with hedging your bets?"

"I try to be nice to everyone. But not too nice."

Observation Phase:

"Is my face really that fascinating to look at, Professor?"

"Just so we're clear, it's only fair that I get to stare right back at you."

"This scarf? I've had it since I can remember. I take extra care to keep it looking good as new."

"I always keep this knife around. With all due respect, Professor, you don't need to know what it's for."

Leaving: "I had fun today. Let's do this again some time!"

Thanks for making it this far! Here is a theme song for Kitt for your troubles. :3

Fast as you can - Fiona Apple

[supercorphypes]

The Value of Love by @autisticlenaluthor

Read the fic here.

First of all, I would like to state that I'm always such a fan of Lex having kids. It would be all the sweeter still in these AUs if Lex were alive or out of prison, so he and I could raise the Luthor heir to be the best weapon possible. But I digress.

As it is, Lena having to take care of Lex's child would be such a bad idea. Can you imagine the havoc she would wreak on their lives? Her little boxes only go so far, and she never uses them to their full potential. You'd think I had trained her to withstand better.

Ooo, Miss Danvers the elementary school teacher. How the mighty have fallen.

Miss Danvers is already rambling on about how My Granddaughter, Lori needs to show her work when she's busy with her equations. Please. If I were teaching Lori, this little girl would be truly challenged, and yet instead she's forced to waste away under Danvers' teaching.

I have one (Okay maybe I have multiple) criticism about Lena's parenting. What kind of parent tells their child they love them without them first earning the affection!? Is Lena out of her mind?

Surely this Miss Danvers has better things to do than give My Granddaughter her college work. And besides that, shouldn't Miss Danvers already have her degree? What's the point of getting Lori to correct your answers for no point value?

I don't get it.

Why my husband's spawn is so concerned about Lori getting lost in a park is beyond me. Free yourself of the burden of raising greatness, Lena. Leave her to me.

WHY IS MISS DANVERS COMING UP TO MY DAUGHTER AND GRANDDAUGHTER IN THE PARK? Does she have NOTHING better to do than bother the Luthor girls? Please.

Lori was right to be suspicious of Miss Danvers and Lena talking to each other, and that's all I will say about that.

For now.

And another thing-- why does Lena find her peace with socializing with a ten year old? Is that as high as her intelligence, and conversational skills can manage? I paid for those Cotillion lessons, and for what.

She's such a disgrace.

Oh no. Oh, oh no. Lena and Lori are discussing My Prized Child. Lex-- Lori's father. Surely Lena knows better than to besmirch the Luthor name by disgracing him with her beliefs.

Apparently not.

Okay, and now Lionel's bastard has not only managed to make My Granddaughter cry, leave work early (all things considered) and she agreed to a "coffee get together" with Miss Danvers, who she has been suspiciously calling Kara for some time now.

This just keeps getting better and better.

As the kids of this generation (Perhaps even Lori) would say, "smh"

Wait. A. Goddamn. Minute.

Lena takes medication for anxiety? Depression? That ratbastard. Next, she'll send Lori to a therapist. God, what I would do to her....

In all seriousness, go read this fic right now!

Oh joy, now the teenage-pregnancy CFO is here. Woopity doo.

Between this and the insightful conversations with "Kara" and her adopted sister, Alex, I'm going to be sick.

Ruby Arias does not deserve the honor of being My Granddaughter's first friend. Sigh. How the mighty have fallen.

The ninth chapter ended on quite the cliffhanger.

I do believe I know who's coming onto the scene, dear scrappylittlegleek. And all I have to say about it is:

Fucking Finally

If Lena Walsh, or whatever her original last name was, thinks she can get away with keeping Lex's child from Me she has another thing coming to her.

And that's final!

My God, does this vapid blonde ever go away?

I'm aware this is a "Super" Corp fic but let's put more emphasis on the "Corp" part. As in LuthorCorp. It deserves more attention than Lena is giving it. Big Sigh.

Ugh, I don't think I'm going to win this custody battle, assuming the writer has anything to say about it. Pity, I would have molded Lori into something truly great.

Instead she will have to waste away with Lena.

kArA DAnvERs yoU arE My HerO

GONNA HURL-

And now, to make everything ✨even better✨ my daughter is sending Lori to a therapist. God, what kind of madness is this? Everyone knows you're supposed to suffer silently.

Oh yay! I'm back in action. Let's get this show on the road- Lori, you're coming with me. Lena, my lawyers will see you in hell.

Or not. God, why must all SuperCorp writers insist on portraying me as weak? Should have just had one of my men grab the child.

At least the one good thing about this is that "beloved Kara" already has a date. No more messing around with the brats!

Careful Lena, one more denial and you might end up in the Nile.

Can't wait to break out of jail and bring Lori with me. Sigh. Her potential---

Why is Lena kissing the Danvers teacher?

Why - also - is she complaining about how I weaned her off of her teddy bear? She was four! Plenty old enough to be without.

I hate this. This is godawful. Why oh why do I continue reading this?

I'm holding out hope that I break out of jail with Lex at my side.

End of the story, and yet....

I didn't break free.

What a disappointing end.

In all seriousness, go read this fic right now!

Feel free to recommend fics to me here!

[enha-hype]

maeumi & me - ch 21 : something love

a/n : this chapter alternates between written parts and tweets/texts so be sure to read them in order!

w.c. : around 1.5k

Even though Jungwon brushed off Jake's concerns, the truth is that the pain is starting to really bother him now. But he doesn't want to trouble anyone and besides, it isn't so bad that it's unbearable, so he decides to just put up with it until the morning when he could go buy himself some pain relievers. The late nights and work stress must be getting to him. He presses his fingers to his temples, massaging himself, which helps a little. He puts on some light music and leans back against the couch, closing his eyes and hoping to maybe fall asleep, but to no avail. It's partly because of the pain and partly because his mind is still buzzing with the image of you from earlier in the evening – the way your eyes lit up upon seeing him, your wide grin that made his heart skip a beat, the way you complained that you had missed him in an almost accusatory tone like you somehow knew he'd been avoiding you on purpose...

His thoughts are interrupted by Maeumi licking his ankle. Smiling, he bends down to scratch his ears. “Oh hi Maeumi, what's this you've got here?”

You don't know why, but you find it hard to not smile every time your phone pings with a text message from Jungwon. Especially since they've been a rare occurrence these past few days.

Won : Why is Maeumi suddenly so determined on bringing me every sock he can find?

You chuckle, thinking about all the times Maeumi's done that with you as well, ever so diligently. And then you remember why he does it and frown.

You : He used to do it with me whenever I was sick or upset about something.... Are you okay, Won?

Won : Ahhh

A couple of minutes pass and there's no other reply.

You : Won???

Won : Hi sorry. Um, would you believe me if I told you that I'm completely fine and he just started doing it out of nowhere?

Nonetheless, that is so freaking sweet 😩 I feel all warm knowing he cares about me enough to want me to feel better (even though I'm fine, really). I thought I was just some dude he liked hanging out with but he's truly accepted me 🥹

You : 1) Nope I don't believe you one bit

2) I think he accepted you long back when he marked his territory by peeing on your carpet

He chuckles, absentmindedly massaging his throbbing forehead. The light from the phone screen makes it worse but he wants to talk to you.

Won : Damn Y/n, you didn't even hesitate 💀 So it's his bark word over mine huh? 😔

And lmao yayy me

You : In certain matters I trust Maeumi more and it's not surprising as to why – you were lying, weren't you?

Won : Okay yeah but it's just a little headache so I was practically right

Ugh, how did it not strike you earlier? You were so happy to see him that you didn't even pause to question why he was home on a weekday. Or how tired he had looked.

You : Is it bad? Did you try taking any painkillers?

Won : Nahh, it's nothing really. And no, I ran out of Ibuprofen like a month ago and forgot to restock lol. But it's fine like I said, I can hardly feel it.

You : You want me to believe that you took a day off over nothing? Really Won?? Fine have you had your dinner at least?

Won : Umm I'm not really hungry rn

You : It's pretty late, you should still eat something

Won : I'll feel nauseous if I eat

You : Alright that's it

When you didn't say anything else after that last message, Jungwon just assumed you had gotten tired of trying to be helpful while he dismissed all your questions, and had gone on to do other work that was actually important. The last thing he expected was for you to show up at his door.

And yet here you are, less than 10 minutes later. Jungwon stands in the doorway gaping at you. You wait for a while, and when it doesn't seem like he's going to unfreeze anytime soon you decide to just let yourself in.

It's impossible not to smile when you hear the tap tap tap of Maeumi's paws hitting the floor as he comes running to greet you, wagging his fluffy little tail excitedly. “Hi babieee!” You crouch down to pet him and let him lick you to his heart's content, because God knows he's not gonna calm down until you give him the attention he needs.

You sneak a glance at Jungwon and gosh, there's that confused bunny face again. It's so insanely cute you want to walk over to him and squish his cheeks. Your cheeks turn red at the thought, and you immediately brush it away. Straightening up, you head to the kitchen. You fill a glass with water and walk back to Jungwon, handing it to him along with the Ibuprofen you'd brought with you.

“I've ordered Jjajangmyeon for the both of us, it'll be here in ten,” you announce as you turn towards the kitchen again, with both Jungwon and Maeumi trailing behind this time.

“Wha– what are you doing?”

You fill the kettle with water halfway through. “Making chamomile tea. It helps with headaches,”

“You came all the way here at 10.30 pm for this when you have an assignment due tomorrow???” His eyes are wide with incredulity.

Seriously? He's not well and your stupid assignment is what he's worried about? “The assignment can wait. You clearly don't know how to take care of yourself because at this rate you'll only end up making the pain much worse,”

“I can take care of myself just fine! I am fine!!” he protests, trying to take the kettle from you.

“Sure, you look it Won. Those dark circles and your ghastly pale complexion are truly the epitome of pink health,” you retort and he sulks. You have to resist the urge to smile because God, why is he so adorable? “Now come here,” you grab him by his arm and drag him back to the living room. The contact makes his skin tingle, and he tries not to give it too much thought. “No moving from here until I say so,” you sit him down on the couch and head back to get the tea ready, ignoring his whines of protest.

After dinner, he assures you that he’s feeling better already. He tells you he’ll be fine if you leave, and he's so convincing you almost believe him. That is, until he goes to fetch your bag and stumbles and almost falls flat on his face. Needless to say there was no getting you to leave after that. Jungwon wasn't too happy about it but he sure wasn't upset either.

Fortunately, you had brought your laptop with you, predicting that you might end up staying over. You look at the time – it's just a little over 11, which is not too late, at least not by your standards. If you stay up for an hour or two, you should be able to finish the assignment. You honestly don't mind - you're just happy you were able to help Jungwon in some way. And selfishly, you kind of like that you get to spend time with him at least this way, especially after not seeing him for so long. Well, it felt long anyway.

* * *

“No offense, but I’m really more of a coffee person,” Jungwon says, scrutinizing the beverage in the cup he’s holding.

You sit on the opposite end of the table, your gaze stern. “I don’t care. You’re drinking it.”

He sighs and takes a tentative sip. Scrunches up his face. “Nope, definitely not my cup of tea,” he confirms, and then laughs at his own unintended pun.

You have to suppress a laugh of your own but don't let it show. “Plug your nose if you have to. Finish it.”

He rolls his eyes. “You’re no fun,” he mumbles but does as he’s told.

* * *

After a lot of fussing and arguing, Jungwon finally concedes to letting you sleep on the couch. There's no way you would have him sleep anywhere but on his own bed, where he would be most comfortable, especially when he's not feeling his best. Besides, you remind him, you need to stay up late to finish your work, and the couch would be more practical. He starts apologising again for inconveniencing you, and you threaten to make him drink more chamomile tea which effectively shuts him up.

So it's no wonder that when he's all settled in bed and turned off the lights, he's a little surprised to see your silhouette walk in. He watches curiously as you pull up a chair next to his bed and take a seat.

“Where exactly does it hurt?” you ask.

He frowns, touching his forehead. “What are you– holy crap that feels good...”

You chuckle, relieved that he can't see or feel the way you hands are slightly trembling from nervousness. The side of your palm brushes against his warm forehead as you gently press the ice pack onto it – you had brought that along with the tea packet and the pills. You hadn't thought much of it before, but now that you're actually here doing it, it suddenly feels so intimate. But weirdly, it feels natural too. You brush some of his hair out of the way so you can cover all the spots - temple, forehead, temple. You alternate between the three, a comfortable silence settling over the two of you.

“I can do it myself you know,” he says quietly.

“I know. I also know that it feels better when someone else does it for you.” You're glad you waited until he turned the lights off to do this, because you get the feeling you would've been a blushing mess otherwise.

Jungwon is glad too, not just because the darkness helps alleviate the pain, but also because for some reason his eyes have gotten a little misty now, and he's glad you can't see it.

“Thank you,” he sighs, his pain and consciousness drifting away soon after.

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[dialovers-translations]

Diabolik Lovers LOST EDEN ー Azusa Dark [09]

Monologue

ーー The next day.

Taking a depressed Azusa-kun along with me,

we went to the hall to meet up with the others,

and inform them of his return.

ー The scene starts in the Big Hall at Eden

Azusa: ...My bad, Ruki. I failed to deliver the thing you forgot...

Ruki: No problem. More importantly, good job making it back here safe and sound.

Azusa: ...Yeah. I managed somehow...

Kou: Oh come on, don’t put it like that! It’s plenty amazing that you managed to get away from the Vibora Clan!

Yuma: Exactly! Ya can be hella proud of yerself, dude!

Azusa: Thank you, guys...

But...It seems like I can’t be of help to you all after all...

You were all counting on me as well...

Yui: Azusa-kun...

( I guess we can’t blame him for feeling down... )

( I do believe that getting away from the Vibora on his own should boost his confidence a little, but he did fail to fulfill the task he was originally entrusted with... )

Azusa: ...

Yui: ( ...I’m worried. )

( He’s been sighing more often than before as well, so I hope I can be there for him. )

...Azusa-kun, are you alright?

Azusa: Eh...?

Yui: If there’s anything weighing heavy on your mind, you can ask me for advice.

Azusa: ...

Why are you always so worried about me...?

Am I really that unreliable...?

Yui: ...!

I-I’m sorry. That’s not what I meant.

Azusa: ...Sorry. I was pretty harsh just now.

I don’t exactly dislike it. I’m obviously happy to know that you’re concerned about me...

But...Whenever you say those things...It’s like I’m being confronted with the fact...that I can’t be counted on...

Yui: ...Y-You’re wrong! That was never my intention...

Azusa: No, it’s fine. I’m the problem here, don’t worry...

Besides...I have to realize the truth soon, don’t I?

That as long as you’re with me...You can never truly be happy...

Yui: ...Ugh...Why would you say that...?

Yuma: Azusa. The fuck do ya mean by that?

Kou: ...Exactly. Why are you assuming that she can never be happy with you?

Azusa: ...Sorry. Seems like I’m still a little exhausted...

It’s still early, but I’ll go rest, okay? ...Goodnight.

ー Azusa leaves

Yui: Azusa-kun...!

Selection

→ Go after him (❦)

Yui: ( I can’t leave him alone. I better go after him...! )

*Rustle*

Yuma: ーー Hold up.

Yui: Yuma-kun...

Yuma: Leave him be for now. I’m sure that sometimes he just wants some time alone, no?

Yui: ...Yeah...

→ Don’t go after him 

Yui: ( I probably shouldn’t go after him, right? )

( I’m sure Azusa-kun wants to think things over by himself every once in a while too... )

Yui: ( But...He was hurt because of me. )

( What should I do...? )

ー The scene shifts to the guest room at Eden

Yui: ...Haah.

( In the end, the more I try to be there for him, the more he loses the opportunity to work on boosting his confidence... )

( I have to be more careful. I had only just decided that I wouldn’t cause him any more trouble as well... )

*Tick・tock・tick・tock*

Yui: ...It’s already this late.

( I’m pretty sure Ruki-kun is making dinner, so I better help out... )

ー She gets up

Yui: ...?

( There’s a commotion happening at the front door...Could it be the Vibora Clan!? )

( ...No. This isn’t a fight I’m hearing and the voices seem somewhat familiar as well... )

( If there’s no immediate danger, it should be fine to go out there, right? I’ll go check up on the situation. )

ー The scene shifts to the entrance hall

Yui: ( Over there, is that...? )

Yuma: For the millionth time! Calm the fuck down!

???: Shut up! Whose fault do you think this is!?

Yui: Kanato-kun!? And Reiji-san as well...

Kanato: ...You! You’ve arrived just on time.

Where is Azusa? Drag him out here in front of me!

Yui: Um, why...?

Kanato: Why does that matter?

You simply do as I say.

Yui: B-But...

( I can’t let him meet with an enraged Kanato-kun. )

Kanato: Excuse me? If you want to oppose me, thenーー

Kou: Okay, time-out! Calm down first, Kanato-kun. 

We don’t know what’s going on either.

But we can’t let you see Azusa-kun while you’re throwing an anger tantrum, can we?

Kanato: ...Ugh...

Reiji: ...Well, I suposse there is some logic in Kou’s statement.

Could you escort us to a guest room? We will explain the situation in full detail there.

Ah, furthermore...Please call Ruki and Azusa over all well. That would save me the trouble of having to tell the same story multiple times.

Yuma: Aah? And how can we be sure that this gremlin won’t try to harm Azusa!?

Reiji: If you are worried about Kanato, I shall make sure to keep an eye on him.

Either way, we are pressed on time. Kanato, you understand?

Kanato: ...Yes.

Monologue

I wonder why exactly,

Kanato-kun and Reiji-san have come all the way to Eden?

Both of them showed signs of exhaustion (疲労),

and it was clear from their expression that they were overwhelmed. 

I wonder if this is related to Kanato-kun,

being chosen as the Vampire King...?

Or perhaps, there’s another reasonーー

I am also curious as to why (理由),

Kanato-kun asked me to let him see Azusa-kun. 

To unravel the whole truth,

we chose to invite them inside the Castle. 

ーー TO BE CONTINUED ーー

[shiningwonderland]

Ren Jinguji (Repeat)

Translator: Mimi (Twitter: _mimisaurora)

September — Countdown to the Moon's Surface

It seems Jinguji-san likes the song I wrote, and has been putting in serious effort to practice it lately.

Haruka: The way you sang it this time was seriously the coolest.

Ren: …I see. You like the way I did it this time…? Alright… then, let’s go at it again. I don’t want to forget this feeling….

Haruka: Got it!

Ren: You are really….

Haruka: ???

Ren: …Oh, it’s nothing. Anything else you’d like to share?

Haruka: Ah… Well….

Select the phrase!

About your breathing technique… (+20 love, +5 music)

Haruka: I think… that if you could find a way to better control your breath, it would help to add the subtle nuances to your singing that would improve how cool you sound….

Let’s see,  it should be good if you try to be mindful of your midsection. 

Ren: My midsection…? Like here?

Jinguji-san pokes my belly.

Haruka: Ah.

I let out a noise in surprise.

Ren: Hm? What’s wrong? Why did you make that noise?

Haruka: I-I’m ticklish.

Ren: Hmm. You’re quite sensitive. Then, what about over here…?

Jinguji-san runs his finger along the nape of my neck.

It sends a chill down my spine.

Haruka: Ah!!

T-That tickles.

Ren: This is fun. Let’s go in for a little more…

Jinguji-san’s eyes narrowed.

Haruka: P-Please stop! It tickles way too much!

Ren: When you put it that way, it only makes me want to do it more, you know?

He lets out a gleeful laugh.

Haruka: Ugh.

Ren: I’m joking. I only teased because you were so responsive. Are you really that ticklish?

Haruka: Yes…. It’s pretty bad. I was so ticklish when I was little that the hairdresser would complain that she couldn't trim my hair…

Ren: You are fascinating, lady. I never get tired of being with you. Truly charming.

Then one day.

Hyuga-sensei instructed the entire class to draw lots during homeroom.

Ryuya: Alright. Everyone’s drawn one.

Syo: Yeah, we drew, but what for? What is this lottery deciding?

Ryuya: Right, well….

Hyuga-sensei is about to explain when a loud bang was heard.

The school principal bursts through the floorboards into the classroom.

Saotome: I will answer! It’s been decided! S Class Only! Overcome the Saotome Academy Principal! A championship where the one who defeats him will debut immediately!

This is what the lottery is for! Dodonpa!

Silence.

Everybody in class fell quiet, clueless as to what he was talking about.

The silence was broken by—

Tokiya: …What a joke.

Ichinose-san mutters under his breath, rips up his ticket, and throws it away.

Saotome: Woah! What are you doing all of a sudden!!

Tokiya: Nothing, I don’t agree on making my debut like this.

I want to follow the proper order and achieve my debut by winning the graduation audition. I just wanted to make that clear.

The principal sulks a bit and lets out a groan at that.

Saotome: You’re very stubborn, Mr. Ichinose! Then you can sit on your hands and watch as your classmate debuts first!

Tokiya: Please, be my guest.

Saotome: Grr…. In any case, I am pleased to announce the results. Congratulations to the winners... Lottery number 5... Ren Jinguji.

Ren: That’s odd. I didn’t say anything. How did you know I had lottery ticket number 5?

Saotome: Hahaha. I am all knowing! Now, let us be off!

Ren: The fact you knew everything leads me to believe this was set up from the very beginning.... But, well, it would be silly to complain about every single thing you do….

Jinguji-san shrugs his shoulders, smiling softly.

Saotome: And YOU will be coming too~.

Select the phrase!

Alright, I’ll come with. (+20 love)

Ren: This is a mission straight from the boss. To be honest, I don't know what he's got up his sleeve. You're still willing to stick with me?

Haruka: Of course, we’re partners.

Ren: Well, then, I won't stop you anymore. The only thing I ask is that you leave as soon as you see it's dangerous. Okay?

Jinguji-san places his hand on my cheek and stares straight at me.

He must be worried about me. 

Ahhh. He's so kind! 

I'll do my best to not be a burden!

Haruka: Okay!

When we head for the back garden, we find Hijirikawa-sama already there for some reason.

This is kind of similar to what happened in June....

I have a bad feeling about this. I hope it's for nothing...

Masato: Tsukimiya-sensei instructed me to come here… but… for what?

Saotome: Hahaha. For this!

The principal suddenly grabs both Jinguji-san's and Hijirikawa-sama's arm before shackling their hand to a chain.

The length of the chains were about a meter, which means they didn't have to stick so closely to each other, but it’s still a little cramped.

Ren: What!! Boss, what is the meaning of this….

Masato: What is this prank?

The principal ignores their questions.

He then approaches me and picks me up.

Haruka: Huh? A-Ah! W-What are you…!

Ren: Wait, Boss, what are you doing with her!

Jinguji-san panics, rushing to reach out for me, but just short of making it, the chain pulls him back and away from me.

Then, the principal proceeds to strap me to a rocket marked with the phrase, "to the moon".

Haruka: Uh…

W-what should I do?

Select the phrase!

Ask Ren for help (+20 love)

Haruka: A-Ah, Jinguji-san. What… What’s going to happen to me…?

I'm not sure I could survive on the moon.

Ren: Nothing. I promise I will save you. I don't want to lose my partner over something like this. This is such a terrible thing for the Boss to do.

Haruka: T-Thank you. I’m so sorry…. for being so clumsy. I must give you a lot of trouble….

Ren: Forget about all that. This is not your fault. Besides, I’m also stuck. I’m in no position to talk about others.

Saotome: World peace is possible if you two work together. Love is the key to saving planet earth. Friendship leads to the eradication of war!

Ren: Hah…? What are you going on about? Y-You… You don't expect me to be friends with this guy, do you?

The principal's abrupt and mysterious remarks cause Jinguji-san's eyes to widen.

Masato: It is fair to say that if the Hijirikawa and Jinguji conglomerates were to partner together, the general idea is possible.

Haruka: But that it could achieve world peace…. Of course he’d say something like that. The ask is too big.

Saotome: By the way, the rocket will launch in 3 hours.

If you don’t want to lose your dearest and most precious partner, you have to do your very best! Since she’s so important to you!

Haruka: What!!

T-Three hours until launch….

If this continues, I will undoubtedly be assured a one-way ticket to heaven.

Oh, God! I still have things I need to do.

I want to live a little longer...

At the very least, let me survive until the graduation audition.

Hijirikawa-sama's face grows tense, and Jinguji-san glances at me.

Ren: So you're saying that at this rate, in three hours, we'll have to say goodbye to the lady for good.

He clenches his fists tightly and murmurs to himself with an expression uncharacteristically serious.

Saotome: The only ways to stop this rocket is to defeat me or to press those switches here and there at the same time.

The system operates on a fingerprint authentication system, so it will not respond if someone else presses the button. Be sure you both do it!

Ren: Both of those switches…. We can't just do it normally, regardless of how hard we try. Well, I’m at a loss.

The two switches the principal pointed out were each further than 2 meters away from the rocket I was strapped to.

It would be impossible for the two of them to press the switches at the same time while handcuffed together.

Haruka: U-Um….

Select the phrase!

I’ll be okay. (+10 love)

Ren: Okay…? Do you plan to go to the moon without any equipment and come back in one piece?

Masato: In your condition, you'll be dead before you even leave the stratosphere, let alone before you reach the moon.

Haruka: But I can't let something like this be a problem for the both of you.... I’m sure that I… that I can manage on my own….

I know I can’t manage it on my own.

I really want to be rescued.

But I couldn’t bring myself to say the words out loud.

I didn't have the confidence in myself to be able to ask for "help" in such a near-impossible situation.

Ren: If that’s true… then why are you trembling like that? You can act tough all you want, but your shaking and blue face give away how clearly frightened you are.

Hey, lady. You know there's no need to put up a front in a crisis like this.

Jinguji-san smiles faintly, a troubled look on his face. 

He then looks me in the eye, grins fearlessly, and points at me.

Ren: You are now like Andromeda, awaiting Perseus' aid. A hero never abandons the princess. Engrave this gallant figure into your memory.

J-Jinguji-san….

T-Thank you….

It was then that—

Jii: Young Master~~~!!! I’m finally here to save you~~!

The ground trembled. 

And with a cloud of dust in the air, Hijirikawa-sama’s butler, Jii-san, rushes to the scene looking frantic.

Jii: It looks like you’re in trouble.

Then, a little later, George-san arrives with graceful strides.

Masato: Jii…? Actually….

Hijirikawa-sama explains the situation in detail to the two of them.

Jii: I see, leaving the young girl aside, I cannot allow for the Jinguji child and you to remain bound together!

George: I could say the same thing. It’s a terrible pity that my young master has to be stuck to the Hijirikawa boy like this.

Jii: What was that!?

George: Shall I kill him?

Jii-san and George-san almost had their foreheads pressed against each other, glaring intently. 

Jii: Mmm. Behold the power of the Hijirikawa conglomerate!

George: Hmph. The Jinguji way is 100 times better. Allow me to show you….

Masato: Jii….

Ren: Hey, George…. Ha… There he goes….

They both manage to sigh at the same time.

Jii-san and George-san return a few minutes later.

Between the two of them, they carry shears, a drill and a saw.

George: When it comes to a good cut, this Jinguji-made tree pruner is the only way to go. There is nothing a high-performance diamond cutting blade can't handle.

Jii: Not so fast there! That’s for young boys! Men use drills!!

This Hijirikawa model super-electromagnetic drill is capable of shattering even rocks!

George: Absurd, these clippers are superior!

Jii: No, no, this drill is truly remarkable!

George: Clippers!

Jii: I said it's the drill!

George: Grrrrr.

Jii: Grrrr.

George: Clippers!

Jii: Drill!

George: Clippers!

Jii: Drill!

They both continue to glare at each other.

Ren: I don't care which one you prefer, but can you make it quick?

George: Alright then….

George takes the tree pruner to clip off the chains… but….

George: What! Dear goodness… this is…. Was it able to put a chip in it?

The chains did not chip the slightest bit, but it was rather the blade of the tree pruner that did! 

Jii: Hehehe. Fool! I knew we should have used the drill all along…. 

The destructive power of this product is 3 times stronger than our previous model, and that's not just for show! Now, let this baby whirl!

Jii-san turns the drill on and applies it to the chains.

However….

Jii: What is this! Is this drill really doing nothing! I can't believe the drill lost!

Both George-san and Jii-san fall to the ground on their knees in disappointment.

George: There is… There is still a way.

Jii: That’s right…. This still isn’t over.

The two continue to try various tools, like a universal saw, a chainsaw, a light saber, a legendary demon sword, and many others….

They use all kinds of blades, but nothing worked.

George: …! This can’t be. The Jinguji family's scientific technology shouldn't have been defeated….

Jii: Curses! There are no other options…. I’ve failed!

Ren: I guess this means we're gonna have to… take down the boss.

Jinguji-san sees the condition Jii-san and George-san are in and murmurs to himself, "Oh dear...."

Haruka: Fight the principal? You can’t do that.

Ren: It's the only way, right? We don't have time to pick and choose.

He licks his lips.

Masato: Are you out of your mind? Do you even have any ideas?

Ren: No, not at all. Then again, there are times when things just have to be done.

Saying this, Jinguji-san chuckles.

Masato: You… truly haven't changed a bit since you were a child. Even back then, you would charge ahead with no plan and get yourself into terrible trouble.

Haruka: Back then…? 

Masato: I remember once when we were kids, we both snuck out of a party hall and headed to a nearby beach.

The two of them? At a party hall….

Ah, that’s right, they were childhood friends.

If I’m remembering correctly….

Ren: Yeah, you’re talking about the one where we were swept out to sea in a boat. So what about it, I mean, we got out of it in the end.

They were swept out to sea in a boat!?

T-That must have been scary….

Masato: It wasn’t fine! I thought we were going to die.

Ren: But it was you who wanted to go see the ocean. Considering how close it was.

Masato: While that may be true… it was your idea to get on the boat.

It looks like things are taking a turn for the worse. The quarrel between the two of them starts to heat up a little bit.

Ren: We were already out of an otherwise dull venue. It would have been a waste if we didn’t at the very least enjoy our night. Was I so wrong to think that?

Masato: What I’m saying is that you should keep others out of your asinine plans.

Ren: It’s not like I meant to drag you along. I asked if you were coming, and you followed.

Jinguji-san smiles coldly.

Ren: Well, it was a miracle that we made it out of such a hopeless situation alive with no food, no water, and our boat washed away.

Masato: All it took was a fishing boat that happened to pass by. One wrong move and we really would have been dead.

Ren: And yet, we're still here. It's our destiny, don't you think? We are meant to be alive.

That continues to be true even now.  We can't lose in a game like this. Don't you agree?

His smile turns into a grin.

Masato:  Surely, we could just be done with this if we were to give up now. But if we don’t… I see.

Ren: Good, so, now this is where we go after the boss. And in order to do that, we’ll have to partner up. Think you can handle it?

Masato: Who do you think you’re talking to? I know all of your quirks. Don't worry.

They had been fighting just a moment ago, but now Hijirikawa-sama wears a smile brimming with confidence.

Could it be that the two of them share a mutual understanding somewhere in their hearts?

I had a feeling this was the case.

It would make sense.

They may not be close now, but they were childhood friends.

I'm sure their hearts are still connected. 

It's a nice thought, isn't it?

Ren: OK! I still can’t stand you, but let’s set that aside for now! My only enemy right now is the boss.

Jinguji-san goes to strike the principle.

However…

Woosh.

The president easily dodges his fist with a light step.

Ren: I see…. If power alone won’t win us the fight… then….

Jinguji-san uses his link to Hijirikawa-sama to his advantage, making clever use of the chains on the handcuffs to drive the principal into a corner.

Masato: Oho, so that’s how it is. Well then….

Without Jinguji-san needing to say anything, Hijirikawa-sama reads his next moves, and relocates himself into the best position.

Likewise, Jinguji-san observes Hijirikawa-sama's actions and steps accordingly.

The two of them were in perfect sync, approaching the principal with such quick footwork that it’s hard to believe they were bound together by handcuffs.

At times, Jinguji-san and Hijirikawa-sama both simultaneously threw their fists.

A coordinated double kick has the principal at their mercy.

Saotome: Heh. Not bad, not bad. However… it won’t work!

They made good use of the rigid parts of the handcuffs and chains, and had their opponent been a normal person, they surely would have had an overwhelming victory.

It was easy to think so, their teamwork is brilliant.

But none of them managed to deliver a fatal blow to the principal.

Saotome: Hahaha. We’re not done yet!

The principal remains almost completely unharmed.

In comparison, Jinguji-san and Hijirikawa-sama were both breathing hard, and at times received blows from the president himself.

Saotome: Take thissssss. Shining Kick!

A kick….

Saotome: Come on!! Saotome Punch!

Ren: Agh….

They were already wrecked after taking the principal's fist.

Masato: Guh… He’s on a completely different level. He is beyond the capabilities of mankind. No human could stand against him….

Ren: No kidding. I don’t need you… to tell me that. But…

A glance.

I feel as… Jinguji-san looks at my face for a second.

Ren: Every man has to face whatever challenge he's presented with head-on, regardless of how difficult it may be. Don't you agree? For me, that time is now.

Saotome: Five minutes left until launch!

Haruka: F-Five minutes left….

Where did the time go? The moon….

I looked up at the sky and gulped.

The rocket will ignite and fly rapidly through the air. 

I'm sure when that happens, the force of gravity will knock me out....

But if I remain conscious.... The air will gradually become thinner and thinner. When subjected to the piercing cold of the sky above, a vacuum will eventually form, and my blood will boil....

Just imagining it is terrifying!

Ren: Lady….

Jinguji-san bit his lip and let out a deep breath.

Ren: ….Is this… the end? Hijirikawa! Cut off my arm!

Masato: What!?

Haruka: Huh!?

Saotome: Ha!? You’re own arm…?

Jinguji-san, why would you take it this far?

Ren: If I cut off my arm, the handcuffs are useless. We’ll be able to flip the switches at the same time. Am I wrong?

Masato: And you will be one arm short as a result…. Don’t be so ridiculous. 

Ren: You’re right. But if this is the only way to do it, then so be it.

He talks about it like it’s the easiest thing in the world.

Haruka: Y-You absolutely mustn't! 

Ren: This is something I want to do. Let me go through with it. Besides, isn’t it a price worth paying if I can save your life with just one arm?

Masato: But you'll be cutting off your arm because you have no other choice….

Ren: If you can't cut it for me, then I'll do it myself….

Masato: No, why don't you just cut off my arm instead of yours? Aren't you the one who's always concerned about the way you look?

Ren: Wouldn't it be a problem if you couldn't play the piano anymore? And isn't it the job of the upperclassmen to play it cool at a time like this?

Jinguji-san picks up a fallen machete off the ground and swings it down on his arm.

Haruka: D-DON’T!!!!

Saotome: Stop!

The principal stops the machete with a single finger.

Haruka: Huh? Principal? 

The principal tosses the machete away with his fingers and stands in front of Jinguji-san and Hijirikawa-sama, his eyes going wide.

Saotome: That is love!

Ren: Huh?

Masato: It’s… love?

Both of their eyes go wide too.

Saotome: I found world peace at the sight of you both. Thank you…. I have lost.

Through this crisis, the three of you have finally developed bonds with each other! A truly precious treasure!

Happy friends, happy life! AND fighting is a no-no!

I could feel your love, therefore, I will stop the timer.

With that, the principal removes the handcuffs, turns off the rocket's launch switch, and walks away.

Ren: Hey, now. How could you make this such a big deal to begin with, and then end it like that? That was awfully simple….

… Geez. It makes no sense whatsoever. He's still an indecipherable gentleman, but I suspect this was his own way to put an end to our fight. Well, who knows?

I guess he may have seen through our convoluted rivalry and wanted to mess with us. Or, he could have just been trying to be funny.

Whatever the case, one thing is clear. We are God's favorites. 

Haruka: God…?

Ren: Yeah. The winds of miracles will blow before those who never give up. 

Staring straight ahead, Jinguji-san asserts in a bold tone.

Ren: Even if you don't qualify to get through the door, you can always pry it open.

Masato: Door? That reminds me, you once said something like that before... I believe it was during a conference between the two conglomerates.

Conference?

I do recall Jinguji-san talking about that a while ago….

He hadn’t been allowed inside, but Hijirikawa-sama was present.

I remember how Jinguji-san was so upset by this that he began to make an enemy out of Hijirikawa-sama.

Masato: Indeed, only heirs were allowed to enter that room, but… it's not a place you should be envious of.

Ren: Whatever the case may be. It doesn't matter to me now. It's just like you told me back then.

Masato: I agree. Now there is no disparity in our standings. We should put our best foot forward for the graduation audition despite our differences in musicality.

Ren: Heh. I’m sure I'll be one of the victors.

Jinguji-san flashes Hijirikawa-sama a grin, who looks a bit annoyed.

Masato: I'm not one to enjoy conflict, but... this is different. I swear, my music will prevail over yours.

Ren: What a joke. Of course I will win. There wouldn’t have been any meaning in me putting my body on the line otherwise. Right, Lady?

Haruka: Huh?

He suddenly looks at me, and for a moment I had no idea what he was talking about.

Ren: Are you playing around? You're writing my song, aren't you?

Haruka: I-I am!

C-Could it be that he'll put in more effort from now on?

I’d be overjoyed if that is the case.

Even if it’s to beat out Hijirikawa-sama, if it gets him to face the music, then….

I will give my all to write him a song!

One that is suitable and attractive.

Ren: I risked my life to save you. Of course, you’ll make me the best music.

Select the phrase!

I will definitely make this the best song. (+10 love, +10 music)

Ren: Great. Then… let's get you started on writing it right now. A song worthy of even a God.

Haruka: Of course! I’ll do my best!

Ren: Ok, Lady. That’s what I like to hear.

Jinguji-san reaches out his arms to untie me from the rope holding me to the rocket, lowering me down.

Haruka: I-I’m free….

The moment my feet hit the ground…

That’s when it hits me that I have been rescued.

Haruka: Ah…

I was strapped on for so long that I couldn’t stand very well, and I stumble.

Ren: I see your legs are still shaking. That must have been scary. You did a great job.

I couldn't keep myself upright, so Jinguji-san held me tight and patted me on the back.

Haruka: Ah… I’m sorry. Um… I… was scared….

Ren: It’s alright. I'll hold you like this until you are comfortable. There's no need to try to stand up right away.

Haruka: Thank you.

I cling to Jinguji-san as I cry.

He continues to embrace me tenderly in his arms until I stop crying.

He risked his life to save me.

So, I too will do my best at the risk of my own life. For his sake, I will….

No matter what the cost, I will do it.

Mini Game

Ryuya: All right, let's get started. How is it, getting used to your private lessons?

Well, this is the final one for this assignment. It sounds like you're getting a better understanding of the song as you play it.

Your arrangements are also improving. Keep up the good work when you write your own compositions!

This will be a comprehensive test using the assigned song. I want you to use all the instincts you've developed up to this point, and play it nice and calm.

Heh. Are you ready? 3, 2, 1, start!

S RANK

Ren: It sounds like you're getting used to it. There is a sense of stability. I suppose it's the result of hard work. I hope you keep it up.

Haruka: Of course. I will. 

I want to debut together with you, so let's strive to do even better.

Chapter End

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Sneak Peak to Solar Opposites in Mighty Solars Issue #20 Cheer Up Jesse

Jesse collapses on her bed cries into her pillow as Yumyulack runs up to her and started to feel sorry for his sister. He rubs her back softly back and forth with his hand as comfort thing to do for Jesse. Phoebe comes in the kids’ room and gasp in shock as she sees Jesse crying. Korvo and Terry, who is carrying Pupa came up the stairs after hearing about what happened at school.

Yumyulack: Oh sis, I am so sorry about all this. Our adults and I had no idea about all this.

Phoebe: comes towards the Replicants Aw Jesse, sweetie, are you okay?

Terry: What’s wrong Jessebear? Did something terrible happened at school today?

Jesse: sniffles I didn’t what was going on with these nine girls but it turns Morlak manipulated those girls into thinking I’m a fungus spewing pink monster! cries back into her pillow

Korvo, Terry, Yumyulack, Pupa and Phoebe gasp in horror as Terry dropped his coca-cola can as it spills soda on the floor.

Korvo: What?!

Terry: Ugh! That bitch! How dare they manipulated our little lady!

Yumyulack: Morlak?! How could she?!

Pupa: Oh no. Jesse.

Phoebe: Those motherfuckers! kicks a lamp If they make one more insult on Jesse, clench her fist furiously I swear to God.

Korvo: We can worry about it later. Right now, to Jesse you have to tell us what’s wrong Jesse.

Terry: Yeah, what’s the matter sweetie? You’ve been depressed ever since Morlak attacked Earth-4. You gotta tell us what the fuck’s wrong with you sweetie.

Yumyulack: Yeah, we’re family. You have to tell us.

Pupa hugs Jesse in worry as Phoebe puts her hand on Jesse’s shoulders in a concern manner. Jesse sighs and gives in.

Jesse: Fine. I’ll tell you guys. It all happen when those nine princesses ran away. Cuts to the flashback of issue #19; voiceover They didn't really get too far, they only made it as far as the alley way. But then they started hearing voices stating everything in their lives meant nothing and everyone would abandon them. They were so scared, they didn't know what was going on, but then some vortex opened up and pulled them in. After that, they blacked out, they didn't wake up for a quite a while, but they must've gotten petrified or something because they couldn't say anything or move. When they were eventually able to move again, the girls found ourselves back at an abandoned Castle. Sadly, that's when Morlak show up. They tried to stop her from starting whatever her plan was, but she use the illusion spell on them before we had the chance and lied to them that I was a total pit of control monster and that I would completely destroy them and Earth-4 and that everyone didn't truly care about them. They tried to resist her, but it was no use. She was too strong for them to resist. Their memories after that are a bit of a blur. But from what you recalled, that bitch used fake memories of me with fungus powers to scaring them into giving into her control. And once she told them to give into the darkness within their hearts, they did so without a second thought. When they returned to normal and then two weeks later, when they told Monica what they had become and how, I felt awful. Marlok was making me look like a monster and they were used as weapons to fucking murder us and destroy the entire planet.

The flashback ends as Jesse sighs and lies down as tears stream down her face. Terry places his left hand on Jesse’s head as he soothes it with his fatherly love for his daughter while Korvo sat down sadly, Yumyulack and the Pupa gently pats Pupa and Phoebe continues to look at Jesse in concern

Jesse: I just don’t know how I’m going to live with this... What am I going to do now?! sighs Everywhere I go, I just feel weak….

Korvo, Terry, Yumyulack and Phoebe: WHAT?!

Pupa: gasp in shock

Yumyulack: Weak? Jesse have you lost your mind?!

Korvo: How dare you call yourself weak?!

Terry: Yeah honey. That’s not true.

Phoebe: I can’t believe you would say that about yourself. Why would you think about yourself as that?!

Jesse: in a depressed tone Because I… I always feel like I am a weak person all the time. Throughout our lives. I’m just a kid. I just don’t have the right stuff. I’m not even a superhero. I’m not as strong as Terry, or smart as Korvo, or brave like Yumyulack. How am I supposed to be a brave teenager, help people, stand up to the Stacies, tears burst from her eyes if I can’t even feel courage inside of me?

Jesse tearfully fell on her haunches as tears fell from her eyes, leaving the rest of the Solar Opposites staring at Jesse in sadness, concern and disbelief, this was worse than they thought. She were doubting everything she knew. For Korvo and Terry, it was the aftermath of the Knothole Aftermath incident all over again. But now, Jesse is the one that has even worse emotional trauma than Yumyulack had before, and the fact she has been plagued by nightmares didn't help with her depression at all.

Jesse: tearfully All this time, I thought I could do those things, but I was wrong.

Jesse continues to cry as the family pulls Jesse into a comforting embrace.

Korvo: Don’t be silly Jesse. That’s not true.

Phoebe: If anyone can do it, it’s you.

Jesse: sniffles But, how do you know?

Yumyulack: Are you kidding?! Look what you did for the past years.

Terry: Fight a bunch of zombie teenagers with your family like a teenage badass!

Yumyulack: Save me from a giant dick and saved Korvo and Terry before they were about to be devoured from napadoodles!

Korvo: Did an amazing job at the pronunciation bee!

Phoebe: Defeated an evil Deenosaur!

Korvo: Even a white goobler and how you set me straight with how much you wanted to me to treat you.

Terry: hugs Jesse You’ve grown up so much Jesse. You’re not my little girl anymore, but you always will be in my eyes. You can do this.

Phoebe: Just don't feel too down, I know your well-being and feelings aren't in the best shapes right now, but we'll always stay by your side and support you no matter what happens.

Yumyulack: Yeah, if you ever feel down, just remember that you've got us, because we’ll always have your backs.

Korvo: And no matter where you go, or what you’re doing, we’ll be with you the whole way, points at Jesse’s heart right here.

Jesse: sniffles Oh, thanks guys. I can always count on all of you. Come here.

The Solar Opposites and Phoebe gets into a group hug as Jesse finally cheers up.

Phoebe MacCarthy belongs to @themagicwolf6677

[nadvs]

Hiiii ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა

First of all, I just wanted to thank you for existing and for using your talent to create amazing masterpieces for all of us ♡︎ I love love love every single work by you. I strongly believe your writing belongs in the museum. I hope that one day we will have a physical copy of your work because they are so beautifully written, every single one!!! I love the way you write Rafe so much, he’s different in every story, yet he’s the same. I don’t know how you do it but you slay!!!! If I really have to choose a favorite out of all masterpieces, I already know it’s gonna be home before dark because of the angst and Rafe’s vulnerability ૮ ⸝⸝o̴̶̷᷄ ·̭ o̴̶̷̥᷅⸝⸝ ྀིა!!! I keep going back to read cam girl chapter 10-12 just for the angst while waiting for the next chapter of hbd hahah ദ്ദി (ᵒ̴̶̷᷄﹏ᵒ̴̶̷᷅) I feel like I’m being spoiled by you because while reading cam girl (and it’s also my favorite) I was secretly hoping to hear more of Rafe’s struggles and backstories why he is the way he is etc. because I’m his biggest sympathizer and now with the recent story I got all of that from first chapter till now (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)!! The realness, the angst, the vulnerability, the raw emotions, the yearning, the mutual pinning got me crying screaming kicking my feet! THANK YOU TRULY. You ATE every single chapter ︎♡ I feel like I can’t thank you enough for what you do. Grateful and thankful for you, really. Lastly I just wanted to ask that do you write a chapter at a time and see where the story takes you or do you write couple chapters ahead or have you already finished writing the series? Because I don’t know how can it be possible that every chapter is better than the last!!!! Ugh I love the way your mind works. Anyways I can’t wait for more to come, whenever it may be, thank you thank you thank you!!!! You are a gem!!! Have a lovely weekend ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ Muahhhh xx

BESTIE THIS IS SO SWEET OMGGG 😭 i can’t put into words how much i appreciate this??? i can say with full certainty that as thankful as you are for my work, i’m just as if not more thankful for the support 😭 i’m such a broken record but i genuinely would not have the motivation to keep writing if it weren’t for the messages and replies that readers take the time and effort to share with me so THANK YOU 💘

wrt my writing process, i start every series with a very loose plot outline and usually write each chapter as i go. for home before dark though, i had the first three parts done before posting anything because i wanted to get all my ideas out and was v determined to get the backstory out slowly instead of dumping it all in the first part. i usually stick to the biggest plot points i outlined but all my series so far have dramatically deviated from my original outline bc the story/characters ran away from me and did what they wanted to lol 😋 i also get rly inspired by comments and love to add little scenes to incorporate ideas readers share with me if they fit with the vision i have for the story 🥰 my original idea for watch and learn did not have rafe yearning nearly as much as he was but when readers were like “make him suffer” i was like bet 🙂‍↕️

thank you for your amazing message 😭 i think every writer can agree that the work you put out there feels like a little part of you and it’s kind of a vulnerable act to share your creative writing so it is THE BEST PRESENT EVER to hear such nice feedback 😭 and i know i’m not the only one who gets unsure/insecure about their work every so often so feedback like this makes me feel so good!! i already know i’m gonna keep coming back to read your message!! i love you and i hope you have a wonderful weekend 💘 THANK YOU ANGEL

[athenaholmesartistsguild]

Ugh. Finally out of my slump. I dunno what was going on, but I was struggling so hard to get a card finished!!!

Absolutely ridonculous.

But I really like the way this card came out! I struggled a bit to figure out what I wanted to pose to be. I had some alternate ideas that I liked, but I felt like they just didn't fit with the card lol.

I might end up finishing one (or both) of the concepts I had and post them here or on Patreon because they were pretty solid.

I also changed the bottom of the border. I felt like the red misty-parts in my original were waaaay too large. I'll have to modify the other cards that I've already done, but that'll take a bit of time so I'm gonna do that later :')

As always, I got my interpretations under the cut. This one's pretty interesting. I go from talking about video games to the power of restorative justice. Pretty neat~~

One of the main themes of the Strength card, I feel, is the coexistence between raw force (as demonstrated by the lion in the original Rider-Waite-Smith card) and a more quiet inner strength (demonstrated by the woman closing the lion's jaws).

In this card, we see our understanding of lions flipped on its head. Usually considered an untamable, savage beast, the lion is happy to yield to the woman. She's shown the animal a sort of patience and kindness it's not used to and as such, its putty in her hands.

But there's an air of benevolence to the woman's actions. We get the feeling that she's not looking to take advantage of the lion's eagerness to please. It's almost as if the company of the lion is enough reason to tame it.

In the woman's actions, we see a sort of bravery and confidence that isn't often depicted in pop culture. This woman has balls of steel to put her hands and face close to a lion's mouth, but she isn't looking to dominate or force the lion into submission.

So often, we see someone who's considered 'brave' resort to violence or anger and while there's not necessarily anything wrong with that if someone truly believes they're doing the right thing, the Strength card suggests that maybe the better option is to be patient and kind.

You'll never close a lion's mouth if you're trying to snap it shut. But if you have the courage, you can coax it shut over time.

Overall, pulling the Strength card is a sign that you've got way more courage and bravery than you think you do. You're tough as mother fucking nails, regardless of whether or not you show it on the outside.

Maybe with this sign, you can take that step you've been scared to take.

Reversed, the balance has been lost. While that inner strength is still within you, there's something (whether that be outside voices, your circumstances, or even your own thoughts) that's convinced you that you're weak.

Pulling a reversed Strength card suggests that you're feeling self-conscious about yourself. You feel you're missing that 'It' factor that separates you from the Confident Ones. There's likely people around you who seem to have their shit together. Who don't put up with the shit being thrown at them.

The important thing to remember is that we have no window into their minds. It's probable that these people feel the same fear that we do. After all, it's not brave to do something you don't fear.

Fear doesn't make us weak and the reversed Strength card urges us to reevaluate ourselves.

Toughness takes many forms. You're not any less brave just because you don't beat people up.

Being able to coax a lion's jaw shut, or say 'no' when you don't want to do something is just as valuable.

For this card, I wanted to focus more on the coexistence between the woman and the lion in the original.

I feel like something that's kinda glossed over in a lot of interpretations is that the lion appears happy to have the woman close his jaw. This is a mutually beneficial partnership-- the woman has a companion and the lion loves being her company.

Yellow is the primary color this card uses which implies a joyfulness to their interaction.

In regards to Kiryu and Haruka, I feel this applies really well to them.

In the first game, Kiryu's been essentially thrown to the side once he gets out of jail-- no one visited him pretty much his entire time in prison, no one was there when he got out. He's been abandoned and treated as the reason for everyone's problems.

He's forced to rebuild his life while everyone's trying to kill him.

But then he meets Haruka and those rough edges begin to soften.

Something that sticks out to me about Kiryu in the first yakuza game is that he's initially hesitant to feed a starving puppy. Kiryu's convinced that there's no reason to help it out since it's going to go hungry again. "That's just how life is."

This sounds like a really small detail, but it's a huge departure from how we understand Kiryu now. Even just a game or two later, he wouldn't even hesitate to help out.

The message that comes across to me is that everyone is capable of loving and being loved. But for some, they've been treated so poorly and have begun to believe that the world is cruel and uncaring. In those cases, it takes someone showing kindness and not just trying to shut them up and shove them to the side.

And I feel this is really important to the meaning of the Strength card.

The woman isn't taming the lion just cuz. She sees that the lion desires love and companionship and is happy to give it.

I think the card is also implying that the act of loving and caring for those deemed 'violent and unlovable' is a more universal, cosmic act than an individualistic one.

If you squint at the original card, the perspective looks kinda wonky. The woman and the lion look like they're towering over mountains and shit. At first, I thought the tarot cards as a whole just had a poor grasp on perspective, but looking back, that's not really true at all!

I think the woman and the lion in the card are supposed to be towering over everything because they're not literal representations of a woman and a lion; they're a metaphor.

We have a very unforgiving view of people who don't meet society's image of the 'upstanding citizen'. It starts in school where 'bad kids' are considered irredeemable and not worthy compassion or understanding and it extends all the way out to our treatment of the poor, or the homeless, or those in prison, or any other group that's blamed for everything wrong with the world.

It's easy to shun those we consider undesirable. Having a scapegoat to blame all of society's ills on is convenient and great for pushing agendas, but is that actually how we should be treating people?

What if instead of shunning and punishing people, we treated them with love-- taught them that the world is good and people care?

What if we showed the value in small acts of kindness? What if giving a dog a meal meant more than just the food and water you purchased?

How many good, loving people have been convinced that they're not worthy of goodness or of being loved?

Why are we okay with even one person not seeing their value and their worth?

[caitlinposs]

i’ve been hitting my cart to fall asleep so i can get through these days as fast as possible. getting high is the only thing i can cling onto anymore, it gives my life the interest and color i’ve been needing currently. i was on the right track to quitting but i guess ive crashed back into it.

i wonder. if we were still friends would i be over at your house right now? would you be at mine? would i be miserable? or would we be cuddling? i’m not the type of person to confront my thoughts. i let them decide for me, i let them take over because i tend to believe they’re in my best interest. if you ask me for the reason i dropped you, id tell you it’s because i didn’t want you to leave me, but honestly i did it out of instinct. it was one day in february, a switch flipped in my mind and i put no effort into turning it back on.

i guess i realized it wasn’t just the two of us anymore, everytime id come over there’d be 5 extra people invading our space. i only loved you when i was alone with you so i always wanted you to myself. i have no idea why that is. it’s not like i was in love with you or something. :/ but all these people i’ve done wrong, i never did it out of spite or hate. i did it because i don’t know how to fully let someone in.

dont be mistaken, i’m still very evil. ;3

an example of my evilness: one day i’ll confess my undying love for you, and the next i’ll completely forget about it. interest can spark inside of me which will usually burn out fast. the only rare exception is when it doesn’t. my fps. the ones i’ve loved so heavily i could easily set the world on fire for them. obsession taken way too far. but i’ll always have a soft spot for my favorite people. they know my chaos.

in the paragraph you sent me before you blocked me, you told me my only motivation is male validation. honestly, yeah. i agree. i wouldn’t call it validation, but something similar. anyway it’s not like it’s something i can control.

when i was younger i had devoted my soul to my dad out of fear and possibly a little trust. every time i did something wrong in his eyes, my body would shut down and i was unable to feel or think anything. soulless. a certain type of numbness where i could practically feel a reaper touching me. one upsetting response from him and my purpose was ripped out of my chest. even if his demeanor was off, if he was driving a little faster and a little more aggressive, i could immediately feel his mood switch—which would end up causing mine. i felt this feeling again yesterday, over something so small. i was telling my aunt how i applied for a job and he immediately said no in a stern ass voice and shook his head. that shut me the fuck up because i could already feel it flushing into me. a weird feeling of confusion has always come along with this numbness, because i can never truly understand what makes him so upset. he was asking me if i wanted to apply at starbucks the night before? maybe it’s because i applied for the job my mom wanted me to do. actually yeah that’s probably it. my dad’s always been so jealous of her because ‘i treat her better than him.’ it’s totally true, i do, but that’s because she was always there to hold me when i cried and she took the time to understand my soft spots. she tells me she loves me everyday, while i don’t have a memory of my dad saying i love you.

so that’s it. that’s all i want from men. i know now, i don’t crave their validation, i crave their care. their sincerest love. i really yearn for someone to put their hand on my head and pull me into a hug every time they noticed i looked a little empty. someone who doesn’t become demented or begin ignoring me when i mess up. someone who will stay by my side even if i reject them just because they know me better than anyone, someone who doesn’t let me push them away. someone who’d never get tired of dealing with my guilty tears. someone who would rather hold my hand than stick it in. ugh. unconditional love.

and basically, i guess id do anything for this kind of care. i’ve fucked plenty of people over just to experience it, even if all of it was bound to end up temporary. but, of course, all that it did was remove more people from my life. make me more lonely. i’m begging please don’t blame me forever. i hope you understand this uncontrollable urge is not something im close to mastering. when im attached, i would rather rip all of my hair out before i allow you to slip through my fingertips, even if i just met you a day ago. when i start seriously thinking about someone, there’s absolutely no going back. until i break and my brain becomes weak from allowing the thoughts to consume it. just thinking about a guy’s potential in caring for me so gently gets me messed tf up. that’s why i try to see guys as weird creatures so i don’t get attached to any. my lips feel like poison, causing damage is all i’ve ever known.

but, i know im young. the so called “men” im talking about are actually boys. when i grow wiser and develop into somebody i can actually be proud of, i can only pray that god will bless me with this type of undying love.

god please please please give me your strength