#ugh i miss the east coast

[beatsboy]

had a real conversation with my therapist about moving to new york, and it was so....reasonable,,,, and not like any other time i have talked to her about moving to a far off city after a trip. made me realize that i have become far more responsible and clear headed even if i still feel like i'm drowning in my adult independent life. and it also made it feel so real? the only reason, to be honest, that i have considered not going is because i feel a sense of guilt leaving my community/friends/support system behind. i can't people please my way out of this one though folks

[peachhcs]

Could you do a social media post of Will and Samy from the wonder years, before they actually get together! Cause I feel like it would be so funny to see them be so oblivious and everyone in the comments would be so sick of them 😂😂

the wonder years archives → social media post

YES it would be the most hilarious thing EVER bc neither of them ever catch on but all of their friends do. i imagine this taking place sometime in their senior year of hs

(finding the old pics of will and everyone is so funny)

au masterlist

samyhughes gonna miss this place & these people

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lhughes_06 “this place” as if you aren’t going to school like 30 minutes away

| samyhughes can u let me live and be sad??

| lhughes_06 no

marcieevans11 STOP ur gonna make me miss it and it’s not even may yet

| samyhughes i’m already mourning the loss

marcieevens11 ugh i love u girl

| samyhughes I LOVE U why do u have to be going across the country on me 😭

lauren11 BABYYYTT ur all grown up now

| samyhughes BRING BACK MOES WEDNESDAY’S

hannahduke MICHIGANNNN UP NEXT!

| samyhughes YUPPPPPP

user1 omg little hughes is graduating hs already???

user2 awww she’s so old now

jackhughes skyline i’ll miss you

| samyhughes gurl u didn’t even go to skyline

_quinnhughes skyline 😵‍💫

| samyhughes u and jack CANNOT talk bc u did not go to skyline like luke and i did

| lhughes_06 YEAH exactly 😤

ryan.leno_4 😱😱😱

| samyhughes what does this mean??

gabeperreault44 tbh i am going to miss sitting in 30 degree weather watching u play soccer

| samyhughes just wait until college 😉

tyler___duke5 cool stuff samy

| samyhughes thanks tyler 🤝

drewf2 aw thanks for letting me live vicariously through you for 2 years

| samyhughes ofc always a pleasure drew

aram_minnetian nothing will ever top the high school ragers

| samyhughes TRUTH

user3 she’s soo adorable aw

user4 i forget she knows like half the hockey boy population

markestapa wolverines soon!

| samyhughes can’t wait!

edwards.73 UGH i’m old ur already a senior

| samyhughes ugh tell me about it

dylanduke25 hughes x duke 2.0

| samyhughes YUPPPPP me and hannah > u and luke

| lhughes_06 NOW i wouldn’t go that far..

_willvote freshhhh stuff sam

| samyhughes voteyyyyy thanks 🤭

jacob_fowler24 wait this is kind of an emo post

| samyhughes IKR???

zeevbuium28 #grad

| samyhughes 3 more months 😢

julianne_gelinas wish u were coming to the east coast with us 🥲

| samyhughes oh expect MANY visits

_willsmith2 damn no feature?? harsh

| samyhughes we don’t have any pics 😣

| _willsmith2 YES WE DO TF??

| samyhughes those can never see the light of day unfortunately

user5 the banter she has with will smith is sooo funny

| user6 i swear they should date i say this every time

| ryan.leno_4 @user6 u can say that again

| user6 LMAOOOOO omg??!!

rutgermcgroarty see ya in mich

| samyhughes can’t wait!

graceccsmith aww adorable sam!

| samyhughes CANT WAIT TO SEE U IN 5 WEEKS!!!

_willsmith2 last half 🥇

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gabeperreault44 so lean gets 2 features but i get 1??

| _willsmith2 forgive me gp

ryan.leno_4 ayeeeee love ya smitty 😍

| _willsmith2 love ya lean 😘

jacob_fowler24 last half best half

| _willsmith2 u can say that again

_willvote see ya in boston

| _willsmith2 next stop 💯

user1 aww omg these are so fun

user2 howwww does samy meet these hockey boys???

aram_minnetian good good stuff smitty

| _willsmith2 such good stuff

rutgermcgroarty fresh smitty

| _willsmith2 reunion soon??

zeevbuium28 damn no feature??

| _willsmith2 forgive me z 😔

hannahduke what an interesting combo of pics

| _willsmith2 and what does that mean??

marcieevans11 did samy choose these for you?

| _willsmith2 alright it was one time

| marcieevens11 right

graceccsmith can’t wait to see u back in beantown

| _willsmith omg ew i have to see u again

samyhughes why do u not look real in the 3rd pic??

| _willsmith2 what does that mean??

| samyhughes whoever edited those did u so dirty im sorry 😭

drewf2 take it or leave it

| _willsmith2 yupppp

hannahduke ok will

| _willsmith2 ok hannah

user3 i wish i was friends w them they all seem so funny

user4 to be a fly on the wall in their friend group 😭

lhughes_06 shoulda come to mich

| _willsmith2 i’m sorry 😢

jackhughes AYEEE good shit smitty

| _willsmith2 thinking about the days back on the rink together

julianne_gelinas samy is so right u look like ai in the 3rd pic

| samyhughes RIGHT???

| _willsmith2 alright i get it i look bad 😐

_quinnhughes they grow up so fast 😓

| _willsmith2 i wish i was 7 again tbh

tyler___duke5 good good 2 years with u big boy

| _willsmith2 back at ya duker good sharing the ice with u

[kordyceps]

OK I mean obviously I'm reading your steter stuff on AO3 but I'd love to know if you have an all time favourite? Either your fave of your own work, or fave of another author's that you rec/reread/still think about a million years later (or both lol)

Oh man, okay, sorry for taking so long to reply to this ask! But it's such a good one and I unfortunately have the memory of a gold fish, so I needed to do Research™ (aka reread all my favs again lmao) so I could answer it properly. 😂

I only have one Steter fic of my own atm, so I guess that's my de facto personal fav for now…

But as for other folks' work, god, there are sooooo many great Steter fics out there!! So these are just a handful of my top favs, and definitely not a comprehensive list!

Five Times Peter and Stiles Troll the Pack by taylorpotato Rating: M | 2.5k | requires an AO3 account to read Stiles and Peter yell at each other in Polish, misleading the pack into think they're fighting, when in reality it's all just like completely fuckin' filthy dirty talk lmao. Short, but very funny, and such a perfect capture of their mischievous dynamic. 10/10, would recommend!

The Devil You Know by Twisted_Mind Rating: E | 11.6k Peter is there for Stiles when no one else is, and uses that to slowly manipulate his way into earning Stiles' explicit trust. And ooooh boy, is it so delicious and spicy. God damn! Cards on the table: this fic definitely won't be for everyone since it wades into some darker waters. But oh my god do I love love LOVE Peter's characterization in it. God, I feel like I could write a whole damn essay about this fic, but then I'd just end up spoiling the whole thing LOL. Just--if you like darker, manipulative Peter and enjoy your sweetness just a wee bit twisted, then 10/10 would recommend!

The Prince and the Pease by luulapants Rating: E | 47k | requires an AO3 account to read Medieval/Royalty AU where Peter is forced to cede his claim to the throne and become a "guest" of King Deucalion's as part of a peace treaty between the two kingdoms. Stiles, who is suspiciously far too mouthy for your average servant, is gifted to Peter as a bedwarmer. This one does such an incredible, masterful job at translating the characters into its setting and time period. The sass, the wit, the wordplay! You can definitely tell the author knows their shit, and my god is it fantastic. The plot itself is also so satisfying -- lots of great ups and downs, and, ugh, just so good! (Be sure to read p2 for the full ending btw!) Needless to say, 10/10, would recommend!

Keeping him (It's all about intent) by sittinginmytincan Rating: M (& E for oneshot sequel) | 121k Stiles winds up slingshotted into his own future, where it turns out he's married to Peter Hale of all people. His only way back is with Lydia's help, but she's gone mysteriously missing somewhere on the east coast while investigating some strange disappearances. Man, this fic….. I feel like the writer for this one must have received a checklist of things I'm into and decided to mark nearly every single one of them lol. Time travel, woke up married, magical theory, an enthralling af plotline -- and it's so thorough. Like, everything is so incredibly well thought out, the characterization is on point, and the development of Stiles and Peter's relationship is just chef kiss. Definitely 10/10, would recommend!

The Striking Complication by aurevell Rating: T | 118k I don't even want to write a summary up for this one because the mystery of it all and peeling back what's happening piece by piece is, imo, the best way to experience it. This story is intense as fuck, near relentlessly oppressive, and impossible to put down. It keeps you constantly at the edge of your seat as you try to figure out what is going on and how Peter and Stiles will survive it, with these heart-wrenchingly sweet breather moments sprinkled throughout. If you enjoy time loop stories, this one is an absolute must read! 10/10, would recommend!

build-a-beau by veterization Rating: E | 41.5k Tired of his dad always worrying about him being single, Stiles decides to pay for a fake boyfriend service so he can finally get his pops off his back about it. It goes about as well as one can expect a fake texting boyfriend you accidentally catch real feelings for can go lmao. This fic is wonderfully witty, with really fantastic banter between the two of them, and it's just so very fun getting to watch the pretend part of their exchanges slip more and more into something genuine. 10/10, would recommend!

Under the Songbird's Wing by mia6363 Raing: E | 87k Stiles is captured and held in captivity alongside Peter, Deucalion, and Satomi Ito. To survive, Stiles runs through lacrosse drills and tells stories, eventually persuading his fellow cellmates out of their shells and establishing a profound, unbreakable bond between them. This one is HEAVY, folks. Like, heavy heavy. But, god, it's also such a beautiful exploration of the characters and the bonds they develop through shared captivity. I don't even know what more to say, really, it's just haunting and lovely and awful and wonderful all at once. In the mood for something that hurts? Then 10/10, would recommend!

[ladylooch]

Afterthoughts and Alcohol- Liv X Luca

A/N: Part 1 of Liv & Luca's LONG teased angst....

Word Count:3.5k

Stop here & here before continuing on.

Part 2| Part 3| Part 4

The timezone difference between the West coast and East coast has Livia Meier banging her head against the wall of her bathroom stall. Well, metaphorically. 

Luca and the Minnesota Wild have been on a long, road trip. Although Liv doesn’t live with Luca in Minnesota, his road trips still feel like a burden on their relationship. They talk less. He is out with the boys more. Then add in the three hour time difference and they both feel like two ships passing in the night. Liv fights the frustrated tears growing in her eyes as she fixes a smudge of her freshly applied, mauve pink lip stain. 

Heading for my nap. Text you when I’m up 😘

Liv sighs as she slowly walks out of the women’s bathroom inside UBS Arena. She looks down at the message, wanting to tell Luca how much she misses him and how distant things feel with them right now. But it is not the time. Not right before a game and when she is out with her friends for a fun night.

Instead, she sends back: ❤️💋😘

Camilla and Harper, her good friends from freshman year and now floor mates, await outside the bathroom for Liv.

“Ready?” Harper asks, sliding her arm through Liv’s. They begin to walk to the left.

“I think we missed warm ups. Will he care?” Camilla wonders. She nervously bites her lip as the girls weave arm in arm through the busy concourse to the Isles family seats. 

“No. I don’t think Ryder Hughes noticed we missed warm ups on a rivalry hockey night.” Liv laughs at the mere thought. He has the same focus and intensity as his dad, Jack. His ability to block out the rest of the world has always been admirable to Liv. 

Tonight is Girl’s Night Out sponsored by Ryder Hughes. He has been begging Liv to come watch a game to show her some “real East coast hockey” for the past several months. But class and flying to Minnesota and Devils & Rangers games, have taken up most of Liv’s time. She figured it was time to throw Ryder a bone. He has been so helpful and supportive as Liv has begun the process of starting her second book. He is constantly checking in to make sure she has eaten or has enough coffee or has taken a shower in the last three days. Only a year and a half has passed since Liv’s first book was published, but she had forgotten how difficult and stressful it can be to meet her publisher’s demanding deadlines. 

Enter Ryder Hughes as Superman.

And Luca, of course. His role is shaped more by distance than Ryder’s, but Liv tries to shelter those details from her boyfriend. She doesn’t want to make Luca feel bad for missing out on “Librarian Livy”- his nickname for her because of the blue light blocking glasses she wears while she writes.

“Where is Luca tonight?” Harper asks as they sit down in their seats. Liv can feel eyes of the WAGS on her- the Devils and Rangers and Wild and now Islanders girl? The puck bunny label practically writes it’s self across Liv’s forehead. 

“Um, he is in Seattle.” Liv clears her throat of the awkward phlegm setting in from the stares.

“Ugh, I love Seattle! It’s all moody and dreamy.” Camilla murmurs. “Do you ever visit him on the road?”

“No, the road is sacred.” Liv rolls her eyes. “It is where all the bonding and real focus on hockey happens. You know without the distraction of their loved ones.”

“I wanna be a WAG so bad!” Harper whines. “Livy, how do I get Ryder to notice me?”

“I think you need to be European….” Camilla teases, eyeing Liv from the side. 

“Stop.” Liv shakes her head. These two are good friends and always tease Liv about the “hot, hockey men” entranced by her aura.

“Livy, will you sponsor me for Swiss citizenship?”

“It doesn’t work like that.” Liv laughs, bringing her mixed drink to her lips for two quick sips.

“Maybe Lio will marry me.” Harper jokes.

“He is a mess. Stay away from him.” Liv mutters. She likes Harper too much to allow her to enter Lio’s puck bunny trap. Camilla and Harper share a look, shamelessly bonding over their admiration of the oldest Meier child. 

The Islanders win the game against the Buffalo Sabres 2-1 in regulation. The girls want the experience of waiting for an NHLer and no amount of whining from Liv can get them to move along. So they wait, and wait, and wait for Ryder to poke his head out from the tunnel. He gives a wave and big grin, then climbs the stairs by twos.

“Great game!” Harper blurts immediately.

“Thanks for the tickets, Ry!” Camilla cheers as he enters the row.

“Hey ladies, thanks for coming.” He goes in for a quick hug with each one of them, ending with a longer one for Liv. “Good hockey, eh?”

“Looked similar to what I have seen.” Liv pokes his side, shrugging like she is unimpressed. He actually played well tonight. 

“Better colors though.”

“Mmm, I like green. Brings out my eyes.” She narrows them at him when he rolls his back at her. 

“Trust me, you look better in blue.” He points to her plain blue shirt with no representation of his team. “What are you up to after this?” He seems to address the group, but his attention stays on Liv. 

“I don’t know that we have decided.” Liv murmurs.

“Well, we have a green light tonight, so a bunch of the guys are heading out. You wanna tag along?”

“Yes!”

“Duh!”

Both girls chime in for Liv. She sighs, tilting her head back towards the arena roof to consider. She really didn’t write enough this week. She should go home and try to get a couple thousand more words done to feel good going into the weekend. Luca is coming into town next week and she wants to spend all her time with him, not worrying about her next check point.

“Livy, your deadline will still be there tomorrow.” Ryder winks, knowing her inner turmoil. He very dramatically juts his bottom lip out at her, then looks up towards the rafters as he bats his eyes. He looks cute and boyish, earning a smirk from her.

“Wow.” Liv snorts. “Fine, but you’re buying my drinks all night. I’m not paying.”

“Beautiful girls never pay with me.” Liv ignores the way Harper and Camilla giggle as they head down the stairs to leave in Ryder’s swanky, black Porsche. 

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Inside the VIP area of some bumping club Liv has never heard of, she lays her head back on the booth and belts out the lyrics to Party in the U.S.A. Ryder is next to her, nursing his second whiskey neat as the rest of his teammates scatter through the upper area of the club. Camilla and Harper are long gone, mingling with the single members of the Islanders while Liv was sitting by herself. Ryder just came and plopped himself down after doing a lap around the level. 

“Are you glad you came?” Ryder smirks as the song finishes.

“Mhm. Thanks.” Liv says genuinely.

“I knew you would feel better if you came out. You’ve been working hard. You deserve to have fun too.”

“I do have fun.”

“Yeah, but I mean have fun here, in New York, not only when you’re jet setting off to Minnesota. You live in one of the best cities in the world and you never do anything the city has to offer.”

“Life for me here is temporary.” Liv shrugs. It is. Once she is done with school, she is going to Minnesota. She wants to build a life with Luca. 

“You’re gonna throw away a whole life here for someone else’s dream?” Ryder asks. “Kinda shitty of him to ask.”

“He didn’t ask.” Liv shrugs her shoulder slightly, feeling defensive. 

“But he also didn’t tell you to stay in the best city in the world for your career.” Liv pauses.

No, Luca didn’t tell her that.

“Maybe Mr. Perfect isn’t so perfect.” Ryder suggests.

“If I wanted to stay, he would support that.”

“Come on, Livy. You think he loves being hundreds of miles away from you for most of the year?”

“What is he supposed to do, Ry? He can’t control where he plays. You know that.”

“Sure, but I hope you know you deserve more than to only be someone’s girlfriend in some shitty, fly over state. I can’t imagine that’s what your parents want for you either.”

“That’s harsh.”

“Maybe, but at least someone here wants what is best for you.”

“So does he.” Liv finishes with a whisper. They both look away from each other, taking drinks to cool off some of the tension. Liv avoids the pull of Ryder’s gaze a few minutes later, wondering if she should head back to her apartment instead of continuing the night.

“Hey.” Ryder murmurs softly. He reaches out for her hand, giving it a squeeze. He watches his thumb brush over her fingers. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to get so upset.” He forces a smile. “If you’re happy, I’m happy.” 

But are you happy? An internal voice asks Liv. Are you happy with how many more months of long distance? Or the fact that you and Luca have only talked once on this five day road trip? Or how short the conversation was and the way he goes hours without responding to a text? Will this be how it is in Minnesota? Is Ryder right? Will you only be Luca’s girlfriend, a WAG, and not a published author with a bachelor’s degree and working towards a master’s?

Liv swallows down her nerves, squeezing Ryder’s hand back while pulling in a steady breath.

“It’s okay. I’m okay. I’m fine. Great even.” She finishes, groping for her glass on the table and slamming the rest in one huge swallow.

But the rest of the night, Liv is swimming in and out of reality. She has a hard time being present with the group. The amount of alcohol she consumes doesn’t help. She gets upset when realizing Luca never texted her before he headed to the arena. She was in the bathroom, scrolling through Instagram when she saw his arrival picture posted on the Wild socials. His phone is right there in his hand, but she has no new messages from him.

How is this so easy for him? How is she sitting here spinning her wheels, waiting for any sliver of attention, and he is walking into that arena without a care in the world? Before she thinks better of it, she sends a text to him.

Going to bed. Sweet dreams.

Then she fills her Instagram story up with all the pictures she can take of every Islander and her. She takes shots with their star center, captain, and goalie. Her and Ryder snap tongue out, ultra posed pics. She shoves at Ryder’s face as he tries to hand her another shot. Camilla and Harper join in on the pictures too- sexy, pouty faces as Liv sheds her jacket and runs around the hot VIP area in her black tank top. 

Liv is catching her breath off the dance floor with a fresh tequila soda when her phone buzzes on the bar top.

Your bed looks different these days. Have fun, baby! Call me when you get home?

He is as sweet as ever, which is so annoying to Liv. 

She sees Ryder on the dance floor with Harper, who is falling all over herself at his attention. Liv scoffs. Pathetic. Harper throws her arms around his shoulders. His hands go to her hips, holding her up and in place as her upper body sways. Everything feels like it is getting sloppy. Harper pulls herself into his chest, cuddling up into his arms. He lets her, but his eyes wander up to where Liv is. He raises his eyebrows at her. Liv shrugs in response. Ryder leans down to Harper’s ear, saying something that has her nodding. 

Liv scans the crowd as they wade through to get off the dance floor and to the stairs leading to VIP. Every woman turns their head to look at Ryder as he passes. If he notices, he doesn’t let on. Liv shakes her head in awe of it. She can feel their hot gazes judging her when he stops next to her. He throws his hands on the railing she is leaning on, smiling in greeting at her.

“Another night where you have your pick of the place.” Liv cocks a brow at him. A piece of hair falls across his forehead and instinctively, Liv reaches up to brush it away. Ryder goes still with her skin on his. He closes his eyes for a moment, then slowly turns fully towards her, setting his blue eyes on her face.

“They aren’t the girl that I want.” Liv holds his gaze for three breaths, then looks away, taking a gulp of her drink. She ignores his words, unable to comprehend fully if that was insinuation or not. She can feel the way her body responds to the alcohol. She is a little unsteady on her feet, feeling her inhibitions fall away, and the anxiety dissipate until she feels completely comfortable in her skin. 

The feeling doesn’t last as Camilla and Harper get downright sideways. Camilla is in tears crying over her ex-boyfriend with a rookie who looks like he wants to run through the brick wall to get away from her. Harper is falling asleep on the bench and the bouncer is throwing his thumb over his shoulder that she has to go. Ryder helps Liv get them back into his car. 

“Are you okay to drive?” Liv wonders before getting in.

“Yes. I’m sober. Saw you three getting wild and stopped drinking so you would be safe.” The consideration touches Liv. She is contemplative as she gets into the passenger seat. Her seatbelt clicks into place then Ryder pulls out into traffic. As the car shifts, Liv feels something shifting inside of her too. A softness is growing where she felt jealous and out of control earlier. 

Camilla rushes out of Ryder’s car as soon as he puts it into park. She tosses a wave over her shoulder leaving a passed out Harper to Ryder and Liv. They each take an arm, working together to get her into her apartment. Once inside Liv helps get Harper into bed as Ryder waits in the living room.

“Livy, do you think Ryder fell in love with me tonight? Is that why he is here helping?”

“I think he cares about you, Harp, but maybe try again when you’re sober.” Liv says to her friend. Liv ignores the twisting in her stomach at the thought of Ryder interested in someone. What audacity her tummy has to be churning right now.

Liv’s boots clack down the hall as she finds Ryder by the couch. He is looking at a picture of the three girls on one of their first weekends at Columbia. He seems out of place with his big shoulders, dark hair, and masculine presence in the overly feminine living room.

“That feels like a lifetime ago.” Liv murmurs, stopping next to him. Their shoulders brush. 

“You have lived a lot since then.”

“Yeah.” Liv smiles. “Can’t believe I’m graduating in a few months. It flew by.”

“The best years do, especially when you find a safe place to spread your wings.”

“I know it’s going to be hard for you when I leave.” Liv murmurs, sensing the sad undertone to his words. They haven’t spoken about this before, but the implication has been there.

“Yeah, it will be. I’m losing my best friend.” To comfort him, Liv laces their fingers together, tugging him towards the door to leave Harper’s behind.

“Come on, knight in shining armor. No need to get sad and sappy tonight. We have months left together.”

“True. Plus, I’ve got one more drunk girl to tuck into bed.” 

“I’m not drunk.”

“Sure, but you aren’t sober.” Liv doesn’t argue about that. Ryder makes sure the door is locked to Harper’s apartment, then puts a guiding hand on Liv’s back to walk her the two doors down to her place. 

Antsy anticipation intensifies in Liv as she pulls her keys out. Her other hand is still laced in Ryder’s comfortably. His thumb brushes along her fingers and she feels butterflies sweep the walls of her stomach.

“Liv. I’m serious. I know you’re trying to change the subject and move on, but I don’t know what I’m going to do without you. You have this effect on me. I am better when you’re around. I’m scared of who I will be without you.”

Warmth and appreciation spreads out from Liv’s chest to her extremities. That feels so good to hear. She has spent so much of the day feeling like an after thought, a throw away item when other things are more pressing. Right or wrong, Ryder fills her cup right back up. She smiles softly at him.

“See? What am I going to do without that smile.” He reaches out for her face, then drops his hand, remembering what they are to each other. Remembering who she has waiting for her in San Jose or whatever West coast city Liv said he was in. 

“We will still see each other.”

“Like this?” His voice gets huskier.

“What do you mean?”

“Just me and you. Like this. Like…” He trails off, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. He gets bold, cupping her cheek with his hand. Liv closes her eyes and leans into his touch. “I’m trying so hard not to kiss you right now.” Her blue eyes open again at his confession. 

Liv should say goodnight. Right now. Danger signs bolt upright in her mind. Red flags whip in hurricane force winds. Alarms bang through her head like cartoon cymbals clamoring together. And yet, her eyes drift, down the bridge of his nose, over his slightly red cheeks, to the full, red flesh of his lips. Her top teeth tug her bottom lip into her mouth, then she runs her gaze back up those features to his eyes again.

“Livy…” He whispers her name like a secret. 

Her eyes gravitate to Ryder’s lips again, wondering what it would feel like, for one moment, to kiss someone else. But not just anybody, him. Ryder. Loneliness whispers like a siren to feel warm skin against her mouth again. To be held for a moment, desired, not put on a shelf to be taken down when hockey or school isn’t demanding attention.

Ryder leans in, keeping his eyes open, locked on Liv. Her heartbeat blasts through her ears like a freight train as he stops at 80%. All that is left between them is a slim slice of stale apartment air. His warm breath collides with hers right in front of their noses. She tilts her chin up more, perfectly evening up their mouthes. 

Buzz, buzz, buzz, buzz, buzz

Liv’s phone vibrates in the back pocket of her tight jeans. Her and Ryder stare at each other. Without even checking, they both somehow know it’s Luca. She never told him she was home. Now he likely worries, three thousand miles away.

“I should go.” He sighs dismally. Liv can taste his words in her mouth, feeling the flutter of the air of them on her lips. Then he turns and walks away. 

Liv doesn’t answer Luca’s call. She couldn’t speak if she wanted to anyway. 

Guilt crawls through her veins, icing her chest and making her unsteady on her feet. Ryder disappears into the elevator. Her back hits her door as she clutches her keys to her chest. 

Why did that almost happen?

And what is that sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach that mirrors disappointment?

Read more Liv and Luca here.

[translucent-at-best]

Scatter-brained...

I told myself I'd start back on dating apps on April 13th. I've also told three friends. I'm like... 50% ready and 50% regretting mentioning it to them because I know they'll hold me accountable (which is, of course, why I told them in the first place). Welp. We gon' see.

Bought myself a vacuum mop combo cleaner that got delivered today and I'm irrationally excited to use it. This feels very 30s of me. I also made myself an Amazon wishlist of things I want to get for my apartment and am going to buy myself something off it every month. Next month, I'm looking to get a stool for my shower (because I've had one too many close calls standing up and masturbating with my shower head). Shit, maybe I'll get two things since it'll be my birthday month. We'll see.

I really live in LA. I was driving on the freeway over the weekend, on the way to visit a friend, and it was warm enough to roll my windows down. It's March. And this is my reality because I live in LA now and not the east coast city I grew up in. I wanted to do this shit and I did it. And I've built community out here. That thought hit me hard the other day. Thank you, God. Thank you, me.

I need a new job and I don't want one doing what I went to school for. Fuck. I'm over having a front row seat just to watch all the ways this world and this government are fucking these kids up every chance they get.

I said I was going to schedule and go to all my doctor's appointments this year. So far, I've had two appointments and I've got more scheduled. I said I was going to travel and see my family more this year. So far, I've gone home for my uncle's funeral, I'm going to Hawaii with my family next week, and in May, I'm traveling to NM for my cousin's college graduation. I said I was going to join a gym and I did that. I said I was going to start taking more walks and I've been doing that. I said I was going to get my retirement accounts in order and I've done that. I said I was going to get a travel credit card and I did that too.

I trick myself into thinking that I'm not making any progress on my goals just because they're not all accomplished right now today and that's not fair to me. I be doing shit.

I miss watching it grow from soft to hard. I miss a lot of things, to be honest.

These stores really just up and stopped selling plus sizes without a word about it. Now it's, "not in store, but we have them online." Fuck good is it doing me there? Especially when there's no uniformity in sizing. Ugh, they make my ass itch. I'm trying to shop for vacation clothes and this shit is blowing me.

Listen... I ain't never had any interest in dating outside of my race, but uh... if I get to Hawaii and a tall and sturdy, bearded Samoan get to winking at me I'm gonna need y'all to mind your business, hear?

This is long as shit, ain't it? I don't know why I have it in my mind that these Scatter-brained posts have to have at least ten bullet points. Who is that rule for? I don't even know when I came up with it. I can literally not do it at any point, but for some reason...

[hctsummernights]

time zones are so crazy to me. i hate when people are sleeping while im up and vice versa. like ugh im missing everything!

i get that :( that’s how i feel when the triplets stream as an east coast girlie LMAO

[vampyr3wife]

ugh I miss visiting my brother onthe east coast. I was a disaster but it was such a fun adventure n everyone I encountered was so nice 2 me..

[bairenalenko]

Holy Shit it's full on thunderstorming here!! 🤩⛈⚡⚡⚡ First time in three years that I've been in one since I left the east coast. I just left some friends after watching Alien: Romulus and everyone is all 😨and I'm 😍at the strom. The wind, the branches in the middle of the street, the smell, the FULL HEAVY rain drops with extremely low visibility while driving 🥰Ugh I missed you so much 💛 I'm at home now and it's too bad my bed time is hours away cuz it'd be SO DAMN cozy to sleep to this. It's nice to have the windows open and let the storm winds come blowing through and relaxing though.

[swaggypsyduck]

thank u for the tags my loves @han-merlin @cherishlalune.

rules: tag 10 people you want to get to know better

relationship status: single(?) possibly might change if i dont get the ick

favourite color: blue

song stuck in my head: blicky– fresh x reckless (dont ask)

song i last listened to: stone wall stone fence– gregory and the hawk (i love this song so much its so green and foggy)

three fave foods: maghrebi couscous w lots of smin, canadian costco poutine, and shfinj (a moroccan doughnut) but i dip it w maple syrup instead of honey (EVERYONE IN MOROCCO MADE FUN OF ME FOR IT UNTIL THEY TRIED IT AND BEGGED ME TO SHARE... yes i brought my own maple syrup to morocco. sue me!)

last thing i googled: all quiet on the western front wins. eeaao deserved everybit of praise it got! but the book for aqotwf holds a soft spot in my heart.

dream trip: i want to go to japan and/or scotland. not like big cities i wanna be by the seas or in the mountains or walk near the plains and stay in old family run hotels. i love walking and exploring. for those asking why not someplace warmer? bc im terrified of bugs. (but i do want to visit peru and chile for the same reasons) oH and i have to visit italy and brazil for @mchiti and @lesbionel!!

anything i want right now: to visit my family on the east coast. i miss my aunts and uncles. also to have deep fried calamari. ugh im craving tunisian calamari sooooooo badly (i think they got it from the greek but like tunisians do it better imo. or maybe its just the tunisian families and restaurants ik)

uuuh idk who to tag so if u did it already that's chill. feel free to do it if i dont tag u!! @mchiti @mrs-bellingham @mavieesttriste16 @kylianmbappeh @karotland @anchyxsblog @liverpool-enjoyer @prettypleiades @roobylavender @rashbeans @lesbionel

[storiesofsvu]

happy thursday! thoughts under the cut!

Okay, here we go! we’re back!! We’re BACK!!

And for some reason citytv is finally airing them in a more correct order, though mine thinks I’m on the east coast and is starting now. Mothership first so we all know I might not pay too much attention.

Woof what a cold open…

Jesus christ why is it always Hudson U

Who’s this new detective? Did we get rid of one of the white men I didn’t like? Lol. Oh.. we did… good lol.

Det shaw is so fucking hot.

Nov 10th?? Don’t they usually keep the time stamps pretty accurate to when they air?

Uugggghhh Samantha I have missed yoooouuuu. Glad to see she’s handling the arraignment herself this time, let’s give her more of that pls.

God this chloe girl’s annoying

That stiletto tape holder on sam’s desk came from rita, I know it in my soul. (it also came with a custom pair of manolos…)

Oh shit…

Yeah I dunno how I feel about this new cop either…

Ugh I just love that maroon suit

**

Svu time

BABY BENSON!!!!!!!!!!

Okay I like starting s25 off like this.

Loving that liv is back in her black nail polish era. It’s prime

Velasco being the one of the squad without his own kids/being the youngest and being the one dunked with babysitting duty and loving every moment of it is perfection.

Omg all of them fighting over the baby. lol.

Where tf are all the rest of the carisi’s? or amanda’s mom? Isn’t she in nyc now??

“maybe we could adopt each other…he could use a brother, too many sisters LOL omg noah

I’m not saying liv should’ve like, pulled a u-turn and immediately gone after the van, esp with noah in the car, but she knew in her gut something was off, memorizing a plate number probably would’ve been a good idea.

ALSO WHILE WE’RE HERE. I’M FUCKING SALTY ABOUT CHURLISH. WHAT THE FUCK. (especially if there isn’t a single mention of her in this episode/where she’s gone.)

Oh Velasco… baby boi, I have missed you

Does Bruno have a medical alert bracelet on? And if so is that his or is that the actors?

Okay, at least Velasco was smart enough to keep hands on the perp instead of letting him run off like they normally do.

What the FUCK is going on?

Why am I still watching this show? LOL

 Okay, see, this is the kind of amanda content I want to see, her popping up every so often in her professor role/mother/wife role, or just showing up to give carisi lunch kinda thing, not full time, not back on the force cause ESP after having a third kid there’s no way she’s coming back to be a cop.

The way olivia didn’t even bother to run cause she knew he wasn’t going far LOL, just all “bro, you’re gonna hurt yourself, and don’t make me hurt you…”

Okay but is olivia wearing the bracelet that she found in the van? (cause that should be in an evidence bag) or is she wearing one from one of the dolls? (cause that should also be evidence? And is lowkey weird…)

Have I just missed them or have there not been any/a lot of the dun-dun’s/time stamps, cause like…how long has madi been missing? How long have we been looking for her cause there’s no way that they kidnap her, make her into a doll, and make THAT many of them and produce them/that many people bought them in like a day or two….

Okay… we’re lacking detectives, with muncy and churlish gone is this new blonde gonna be joining the team? Will she last more than one season on the show?

God the politics side of jobs like this are infuriating

Okay imma assume that we’re gonna retouch on the case next week?  Cause that REALLY wasn’t a solid wrap up, like I get the metaphorical idea to it, but that coulda been done so much better.

Episode was meh overall.

*

OC time, yay! It really is playing them in order. Now if only the subtitles would fucking work. I’m so congested too, that’s not helping lol.

This theme song is the best out of all of them and I will die on this hill.

Oh right, we’re diving into fucking AI shit. It honestly better end up being a bad thing cause AI will destroy the film industry…

Omg bobby. I love you so much. God the cast of this show is all so incredible.

“god I love not being the boss” LOL

“welcome back detective ive missed you too. Can we take a breath and try that again.” Bell.. seriously… I fucking love you. How v Donnelly of her.

I absolutely love that bell isn’t afraid to call stabler on his shit. Like she is constantly reminding him that *she’s* the boss and we stan her for it.

The writing on this show is SO much better jfc. Jet all “that’s artificial intelligence.” To stabler lolololol

UNDERCOVER JET IS SO FUCKING HOT OMG. And like… ALWAYS not just now, but woof.

If they don’t start diving into more of bell’s personal life this season I will riot. Like, we’ve got out first main cast openly queer character on the show and all they’ve done is break up her marriage and family and rarely touch on it again. Like, does she even get to see her son? (son, right lol) does she ever talk to denise? Are they friendly? Can we PLS see her start to branch out and date again to get some fucking representation cause fuck knows we’re not getting it anywhere else in this universe.

Omg not the piece of fucking duct tape over the apple logo on the back of this dude’s computer LOL.

What was that little shoulder touch? And why was there so much focus on it?? Sus

“you’re just gonna walk into that beehive” ma’am… this is Elliot we’re talking about. You’ve known him three years now, you should know he likes to play by the seat of his pants. AND THE FIRST THING HE DOES IS MAKE DIRECT EYE CONTACT WITH SOMEONE WHO LOOKS IN CHARGE?! DUDE. You’re dumb

Bobby and jet comforting each other and finding that comfort/coping with jamie’s death by fucking each other honestly makes perfect sense.

Okay, as much as I don’t ship eo and absolutely do not want it to be canon, I am thankful for more little mentions of the characters on the other shows. Like it didn’t make sense to bring back Elliot and have all the crossovers that we got and then pretend like they didn’t talk or keep up with what the other was doing in the eps that weren’t crossovers.

Okay. Now that’s done.

Fun fact: randall, this brother that we’re going to meet I now assume last week is being played by Jamie Gray Hyder’s husband. Cause like, I was suuuuper surprised to see Jamie at the 25th anniversary party, like, truly shocked that she would show up until I found this out LOL.

Honestly… SVU was the weak link of the premiers. If we had gotten more cute personal moments at the beginning with the baptism then it would jump up but we barely got any. It really seemed like a two part-er episode and I don’t think it is, or at least not one that will be continued next week. Either way, it was kinda meh.

[eldritchamy]

What is your favourite thing to eat when you're feeling down?

the most customizable answer is probably "whatever's easiest"

but since it was actually on my mind already with yesterday being one year since my dad died, I can tell you that while 99% of the daily minutiae of that time is a kind of timeless blur of emotion and mixed with nothingness, the thing I most clearly remember eating from that time was pizza.

A really nice pizza with a bunch of toppings. Me and my brother each got one of those single-serving pizzas. Because our dad used to get pizza for us every once in a while, and it just kind of happened naturally that it was the thing we both wanted.

That was when I started experimenting with toppings other than just pepperoni, and we each got our own because I was trying out new stuff and wanted to see what was worth doing as a full size pizza.

The combination I ended up settling on after a few months of experimentation was pepperoni, black olives, artichoke hearts, dried scotch bonnet, and literally the most absurd amount of the freshest garlic I've ever seen put on a pizza.

There aren't many things I miss about Florida, but god damn do they do food better than Portland. I think about that pizza all the time. It's easily the best pizza I've ever had.

And the SEAFOOD. Living in a major east coast port city really spoiled me on seafood. Ugh. I dearly miss the food options in Fort Lauderdale. Poke is supposed to be like a west coast thing but even for that I haven't seen anything on doordash that compares to the poke I got back there. There's one place here that most of my orders are from because it's easily the best place I've found and whenever I feel like spending money enough to actually GET doordash, that's the thing I usually feel like it's a waste not to get.

But when I'm feeling really bad, the first thing I'm probably going to go for is whatever's easiest. Whatever takes the least effort while still putting something in me. Sometimes it's ice cream. Sometimes it's ramen. Sometimes I'll doordash myself something a little nicer, especially if I've also got a particular craving.

Sometimes it's just a yogurt or some chips.

It depends.

[withleeknow]

JENNNN HOW WAS NY??! god I missed you on here but also knowing you were living your best life on the east coast <3 what was the highlight of the trip? + pls spam your fav pics!! ♡

I swear I had so much spam from MFW- THE MICROWAVE WAS ON FIRE without you:(

anywhomst- I lowkey teared up seeing this earlier: the most devastating UPPIES! tinyurl.com/4z6rax9y + also teared up for an entirely different reason for this whole other undefined genre of hyunjin that rendered me speechless vm.tiktok.com/ZGd1TVA8j/

sending you all my love throughout your post-holiday blues era 🤍🍙

hellooooooo i’ve missed you too 🥺 the trip was wonderful i had the best time in new york, i’m already looking at tickets to go back next year :((( we really lucked out with the weather bc it was so nice and sunny and warm the whole trip. i did love everything sm (except for times square, that place is Evil lmao) :((( but yeah i always thought i would move there by 28,29 maybe but ugh after the trip i really really really to speed up the process bc i genuinely do not know how i can keep living anywhere else when i’ve caught a glimpse of what it’s like to be there 😔

and look!! this was literally one of the last things i saw before i left for the airport and i had to snap a pic. it youuuuuuu!! :(((

OH MY GOD THEY'RE HOLDING HANDS 😭 you had no right to devastate me like that bc the trip distracted me from the urge to buy 1 million uppie skzoos but this is really throwing me back into that black hole oh my god

look at our hyune oh my gahhhhhh he's SO fluffy i could cry. for the love of GOD please get rid of all the scissors 😭

you need to catch me up on the microwave!! i missed everything and i still haven’t caught up lol i have no idea what even happened during those 10+ days!!

[virtualtomboy]

I made such an amazing friend at this summer program I am so so so sad that we aren’t going to see each other anymore :((( they live on the west coast and I live on the east coast. I truly will miss them so much 💔💔😢💔 UGH why didn’t we hug more this summer :((((

[notebookmusical]

Hi! I hope you had a good week this week! How was your 4th of July? I hope it was good. I got to see a few fireworks from my window haha. Also yes it's been very hot here..ugh. I think I still prefer that over cold weather but it never gets really cold here either and I can't really handle the cold. I have to put fans on and drink cold drinks all the time now..but mostly it's fine haha. How has it been for you? I hope you're staying cool as well!

Haha wow..cuz Aaron is coming back? I totally thought of you when I found that out. But I guess how common is it for actors to come back to a show? He must love it a lot and his El Tango Roxanne is amazing! I know he won a Tony for it haha and I don't really remember people making a big deal like with Jonathan Groff. I did see it and enjoy it on tour but it would be fun to see him in the role! It's also just a fun show to see and I do love shows like that so I'm glad you enjoyed Pretty Woman as well. Wasn't the tour cast with Adam Pascal from Rent? I remember debating seeing it cuz of him lol. I do know what you mean..and I'm a little jealous you have some shows lined up. I'm not sure if I will see Wicked yet..but also Mrs Doubtfire is touring here with Rob McClure from the original role on Broadway and I guess I'm a fan of his but idk if I will see it but it would be cool to stage door. I did see a bootleg of the musical though which is fine and I do like some of the songs so idk yet but I liked him in Something Rotten. The only other upcoming one I would wanna watch is I think Hamilton and idk when that is maybe December and I apparently already missed Company lol.

Aww how sweet that he did that for your friend! Oh I've heard of Jasper in Dead land but didn't know too much about it. It always seemed like a cool show. The only story I have is that I went to one of Jeremy's concerts and me and my sister actually saw him walk out. It wasn't like a stagedoor so he wasn't meeting people but my sister shouted that he was so good or we love you or something like that and he looked back and said thanks I think. About 5 to 10 minutes later..people started chasing him since he was just walking on foot somewhere lol. But it was so crazy and it was like my peak Newsies and SMASH Jeremy obsession in like 2018. That's the only cool thing I have but I hope Aaron stagedoors for you!

I agree about the West End stuff..I think it's similar with Back to the Future? You'll have to let me know how it is when you see it on tour. But with Cabaret, one of the things is that Sally isn't supposed to or has to be a good singer so I'm not sure if that has to do with it. It could just be that people aren't that familiar with the show. Omg wow thanks for the video. I can't even guess how his voice would sound. I will definitely watch the video later and tell you what I think. Well they did it with that movie Boyhood by the same director so it could just be something the director does and things were fine in that movie but it also didn't really add to the movie..idk. like that's the only thing people remember about that movie now. I will send more in a part 2 cuz I worry about leaving it up and not sending or it accidentally getting deleted cuz it's getting long.

hi hi friend!! it was pretty hot last week but it has cooled down slightly here (thank goodness). i am also a summer person but am not the biggest fan of the heat — but gladly welcome summer (and the heat, and wildfire smoke and asthma, etc) over winters here.

haha aaron is part of why i'm going, but i also just really want to see stereophonic & the notebook and more importantly, some friends that i haven't seen in ages! three of my closest friends are on the east coast (one in new york, one in boston, and one in philly) so it'll be a little reunion. it's not super common but i also wouldn't say it's uncommon — thinking of drew gehling and his many, many returns to the brooks atkinson for waitress back in the day. since we last talked, i've solidified my plans a bit more — seeing moulin rouge on thursday, the notebook on friday, once upon a mattress for the saturday matinee, moulin rouge for the saturday evening show, and then on sunday i'll be seeing stereophonic for the matinee and hadestown for the evening. i must be a little crazy for doing a three hour play, then a quick dinner break, then another musical, but at least i roped one of my best friends into doing that whole sequence with me!

and yes! tour cast with adam pascal! you should definitely see wicked if you get the chance; it'll be fun — especially with the movie coming out soon! i'm seeing it in november with my mom, and am briefly entertaining the idea of doing an LA trip in january (might see it in LA then too — not the reason i'd be going down to LA, just is the only show that would be there the days i'm thinking of going to LA). i saw the pre-broadway tryout of mrs. doubtfire when it was here in seattle, and i didn't particularly love it, but i'm curious to see what your thoughts are if you decide to see it! i'm so bummed on your behalf that you missed company :( i hope you get to see something soon! do you see shows regionally too? have you ever seen a show at the sacramento music circus? if you're near there at all? i've heard they do really good productions!! one of my friends lives down there and just saw spongebob there! i really want to see something there someday (and my aunt doesn't live too far from SMC) but the idea of going to california in the summer is not the most appealing thought!

jasper is a fun show! not a good show! but i loved it dearly! — which is really how i would describe a lot of my favorite shows that never make it to broadway, or even the ones that did make it to broadway. and that's so cool that you saw jeremy! speaking of smash, did you see the peacock tweet about smash? i'm so intrigued what that's about. and sooooo excited (and anxious and nervous) about the musical. ahhhhh. i love smash. i always tell myself i should do a smash rewatch. and then i don't. i was talking to jamie last night about smash, actually, so maybe i will do a smash rewatch soon. i haven't really been reading this month; i've only read one book — and i haven't been listening to music or watching tv really (still haven't watched season 3 of the bear, although i did watch my lady jane) so i have no idea where my time has gone. i just feel like i have been very busy? oh well!

[steamishot]

tired

i felt so tired/stressed this past week, from work, PMS, and secondhand stress from matt - he had 3 interviews back to back (tues-thurs) and i basically listened in on everything (also my fault, i like to be nosy lol). another hospital in redlands will be flying him out for an in-person interview mid-september. because we already had a double date planned with S&I, and G will actually be in town for a couple days for work, we decided that i won't tag along this time and matt will only go for 3 days. i've literally lost count of how many flights to CA he'll have for the rest of this year.

since last wednesday, i was internally freaking out about having slacked off so much at work in the VCP aspect, that i went hardcore at getting the tasks done. we just had the last academic affairs meeting in which i'll be in my current role today. dr. m touched on my leave at the beginning of the meeting, and joked saying "i'm quitting" in response, which was cute. but i was like, i hope you mean it and you're not complaining about me behind the scenes lol.

after the blood, sweat and tears from this one week of "hardcore" work, i felt content that i had a clear presentation with where we are with everything. honestly, i'm not sure what is better. when i'm really busy, it's stressful, but i feel like i'm contributing and making a difference. on the other hand, now the pendulum has swung back to being on the boredom side. anyhow, i'm excited for my new role and to learn new things!

recently, i've also been experiencing health anxiety. i accidentally missed my radiology appointment when i was in town earlier this month. i was NOT looking forward to doing a transvaginal ultrasound and was slightly relieved when i missed my appointment, but now that i've been having these weird aches/tension, i wish i didn't miss my appointment. i'll need to wait until i'm back in town late sept/early oct to get a checkup for peace of mind.

this weekend, matt and i did a last minute trip to the hamptons and montauk. we used our chase points to get a hyatt hotel at riverhead, and my capital one travel credit to get a rental car from manhattan. i decided i wanted to go this weekend because it would be the only time we could go while the weather is still warm. we got to visit four farms/farmstands, go to cooper's beach twice (one of the prettiest beaches i've been to), see how some people live in the hamptons, and eat a yummy beachside lunch at hooked.

being in southhampton/cooper's beach, the scenery was so pretty i was able to forget about life's stresses for a while. i think long island/driving towards montauk is completely underrated. i would say southampton/cooper's beach is now one of my fav places of the east coast. the trip was quite nice, but very tiring because of all the driving. i also couldn't sleep much the first night in the hotel because i had drank too strong of a milk tea earlier that day lol. pms + sleep deprived + stressed from work + being under the sun in the car too long = grouchy me.

life updates:

R&TL are moving to NYC this week! TL is already here securing an apartment, and R will be flying over this saturday. we're planning on hanging out with TL for a bit this thursday for dinner, and i may go see them over labor day at their new place

went to my first cuculi event last weekend with T - bbq at governors island. i met a new chinese friend J, who moved from boston and spoke to me a lot in chinese. also, there was a black guy M who made me feel really uncomfortable. i was chitchatting with people and i think he misinterpreted my friendliness as interest. he ended up leaving the event the same time as me, T&J, which meant i had to take the subway back with him as we were both going towards brooklyn. he asked me 3x about plans to hang out even though i didn't show interest after the first time. ugh.

we have a trip planned to boston next week! i wanted to visit K in her element before leaving the east coast. obviously, i'm trying to pack everything in before winter comes lol. i've only met her once before for a couple hours when she visited nyc, but we've been chatting online for like 3 years now. it'll be matt's first time meeting her. i foresee that this trip will be tiring as well due to the driving but hopefully chill in terms of activities. we'll be doing 2 nights in boston and 2 nights at the getaway machimoodus :)

my friend G told me about the mouse jiggler so i bought one off amazon - that has been quite life changing haha

my parents are on their alaskan cruise right now, matt's parents are traveling on their 21 day african trip, and my friend K is vacationing in vancouver (her first vacation in 2+ years)

i got my bridesmaids dress altered (who knew this would be so expensive), and have a wedding guest outfit for the remaining two weddings this year

matt and i joined a running group last wednesday, south brooklyn running club. it was really nice, even though my knees were destroyed the day after lol. the roundtrip walk to the meeting point in carroll gardens was 2 miles, and we ran about 4.5 miles on top of that. the award for the slowest runner goes to.... me! a nice white lady kat helped keep me accountable. i would have given up after mile one if she didn't continue subtly peer pressuring me to run haha. although it was fun, i'm not sure if i'd return because most people who go are really fit and can easily run 9 min (multiple) miles, and have done or are training for a marathon. however, i'm glad to check "running club" off the bucket list.

[italianexotiicbeauty]

-> SMS; delivered: ugh i do NOT miss the east coast at ALL this time of year! -> SMS; delivered: i grew up in fuckin' Connecticut, so i know how cold it can be. -> SMS; delivered: next time bring thermal long johns. like the pants you can wear under your pants. -> SMS; delivered: those actually work ! -> SMS; delivered: oh right, we were talking about our first face to face meeting ... weren't we?

(msg): I’m visiting my parents in Pittsburg. Of course with my luck a snow storm would hit the second I got to town. 🙄😭

(msg): that’s so sweet, but you don’t have to do that. I’ll probably be gone before the package gets here lol