#u_u we love a baby

[chika-nyan]

Oh snap it’s Mitsuki Shirota of Jack Jeanne, the otome I am currently playings’s, birthday. Here take a quick phone doodle done mostly with my middle finger (unrelated, he is a good boy). Happy birthday Quartz mother u_u

[shrews-things]

Life update: Vini and I started the project of greenhouse-ifying our home

[survivorsfm]

*       ANONYMOUS   ASKED       :       too  silly  to  ask  in  the  discord--  but  would  any  members  be  interested  in  an  emma  corrin  or  morgan  davies  for  any  wcs ?  ( siblings,  relatives,  students,  etc. )

well,  sadly  my  most  beloveds  weren’t  very  helpful  this  time,  as  i  imagine  you  already  saw  on  our  server  ( some  of  them  tried  tho,  so  thanks  for  that ) .   but !   you  have  to  know  i  lit  shrieked  when  i  saw  this  question  bc  i  love  emma  and  morgan  to  my  very  bones,  they’re  such  beautiful  faceclaims,  and  i’d  k1ll  to  see  them  here.   no  joke.   so !   aside  from  one  of  killian’s  siblings  connections  ( emma  is  part  of  one  of  his  suggested  fcs  list,  in  fact ) ,   and  a  possible  sailor  for  reuven’s  from  back  in  his  seal  days,   admin  nina  is  still  looking  for  josephine’s  roommate  in  the  dorms  wing  ;  gabriel  would  be  thrilled  to  have  more  trans  folks  around  and  turn  their  official  queer  friend  into  a  whole  queer  squad  ( but  they  can  easily  be  their  work  friend  or  riding  companion,  as  well )  ;  astoria  could  use  an  apprentice  at  the  farm  ( i’m  really  lacking  that  dynamic  and  want  it  badly ) ,   and  i’d  be  ecstatic  to  have  jack’s  complement  ( or  another  fwb,  altho  this  would  be  open  to  emma  only ) .   both  emma  and  morgan  can  fill  one  or  more  than  one  of  these  connections,  so  i  really  hope  you  bring  any  of  them  in  bc  like  i  said,  i  frfrfr  love  them  : ' ) 

[murfeelee]

inZOI - Madzie & Max Lightwood-Bane (Shadowhunters)

After making Magnus Bane, I decided to make his kids to try out the kids for the demo.

IIRC, the TS4 CAS demo didn't let us make kids (did they even effing HAVE kids as a lifestate back then, or was it just zero toddlers & bassinet babies?). So we're already off to a better start than effing EA.

I'm sad that Krafton didn't let us have access to any sliders to really customize kids in the demo. The presets are ok enough, though some of them look like mini adults or something--the eye bags are too much (at least 3 poor kids looked like they'd been huffing a pack of cigarettes a day since the effing womb).

Kids have no nails & accessories, which is bogus. They get all the adult hats--fedora included--which is...interesting. We need some clips & barrettes & scrunchies etc--real 90s Throwback At Claire's.

Even TS3 gave kids earrings & bracelets & watches etc, so Krafton needs to step their game up, this is unacceptable that kids barely have EFF ALL.

The kids' clothes are also woefully low--no SKIRTS or DRESSES?! Just one set of PJs for outfits, why? They're all basically the same choices for adults & kids, which is kinda cool but kinda lazy? Give kids their own unique sense of style & identity--Asia has the cutest stuff, come on, don't be generic like this. U_U More kawaii, less Baby Gap. 4/10.

But it made me realize that I like the shoes options on the kids waaaaay more than I do on the adults. The adults need better shoes; that was my least favorite part; TS4's demo had much better shoes.

General

Two things I realized I'd overlooked on the adult zois:

EYES & TEETH: we need to be able to recolor the eye sclera, and the teeth. Both are just way too yellow for my liking, which I noticed as soon as I made Blueberry, and the blue made his eyes & teeth look like he had jaundice.

CUSTOM PATTERNS/TEXTURES: This is so frikkin cool! It's basically a lightweight version of TSRW's Pattern Tool (without the recolorability, sadly); allowing you to directly import DIY textures onto clothes. You can change the tiling & X/Y axis position, it's great!

I added the constellations & skeleton on Blueberry's tops. We need more GOTH fashion representation, Krafton! \m / (^0^) \m/

One of my favorite features is the hair that you can cut. Max's hair is gorgeous--you can make it really long, or really short. I went with medium-ish. And I LOVE the highlights options, iirc it had like 4 or 5 parts. Again: ALL hairs need AT LEAST the highlight function, if the length feature can't be universally implemented for whatever reason.

(I'm posting links to this & my first "review" on inZOI's Discord, so hopefully someone over there gets this feedback. I bloody doubt it, but yolo.)

[celestialsymbiosis]

Love and Mercy p.1 - Rick Grimes x reader

I know it's October.

But here's a little something on the group's first winter in Alexandria:

u_u

“What’re you doin’?”

Rick’s voice is heavy with sleep, quiet but enough to break the silence in the house as he shuffles closer to where you’re kneeling. You don’t need to see him to know he’s got that almost permanently etched frown on, the soft dip between his eyebrows. 

You tilt your head up in greeting, focused on your task, skillfully wrapping items with old newspapers you’d found on a run earlier that week. “Nothing,” you mumble, as if it were enough, your fingers pressing down on the paper with a sleepy determination. You hunch over them to shade from Rick’s view. “Go away.”

Rick hums, depositing himself onto the couch. “No. Missed you in bed. Don’t think I don’t know you’ve been sneaking away from me. I’m onto you.”

“You’re not onto shit,” you reply, hands splayed over your projects. 

“Hey,” he lilts, nudging your back with his knee. “What is it?”

There’s a soft noise you release at that, something like annoyance. “Can’t say. It’s not time yet.”

“Time for what?”

You groan, turning around to put your chin up on his knee, looking up at him. “Christmas.”

“You’re still on that?” Rick’s eye twitches a little.

It had been a few weeks ago when the cool air starting breezing through Alexandria. With Winter on the brink and the group relatively settled and sheltered for the first time in years, you’d off-handedly mentioned the season’s festivities. 

Rick hadn’t been too keen on it however. He was everything but settled into the new Alexandrian lifestyle you had found easy to slip into. On edge and restless, as if the universe would detect his comfort and throw it’s next disaster his way. He’d informed the rest of you all, with a hand poised on his belt and fingers itching for the Colt Python Deanna had stored away. Be ready, we can’t let our guard down. 

That may have been weeks ago, but Rick never truly looked comfortable here even now- though you’re not sure he ever did. So between his stubbornness, the fact that Judith hadn’t ever celebrated a holiday, and your proclivity to do first and ask for forgiveness later, you were set on doing something small for the kids at the very least. 

Something to finally look forward to. 

You had gone to Deanna first, telling her of your plans to bring some cheer for Carl and Jude. Her eyes sparkled in that way they seemed to do when she was inspired by something so normal- but she sadly revealed they really did not pack shiny wrapping paper in the community. You weren’t derailed however. 

Any time you were on the run, you tried grabbing things the family would’ve enjoyed that would be painfully human. Glenn laughed when you handed him a new baseball cap, Tara nodded appraisingly at the palm tree snow globe, shaking it around aggressively to see the tiny white flakes swim around. 

So, you had immediately pushed the few issues you’d found of Y: The Last Man for Carl inside your backpack. The stuffed lamb you came across would need to be cleaned and fluffed, but it had made the cut for Judith’s gift. 

Rick noticed when you started crumpling newspapers into your bag, though, raising an eyebrow. 

“Figured we could do something for the kids,” you had said, moving to the next aisle to get some actual supplies too. 

“For what?” Rick’s gruff voice intoned, a hint of a warning behind it. You weren’t quite sure why he even had an issue with the idea of a gift-giving celebration; it’s not like the rest of you haven’t passed items to each other before. 

Kneeling in front of him now, the soft sound of snow pattering down outside and the hum of one of Deanna’s heaters, you nose at his knee. 

“Baby, you gotta- can you relax?” you say a little exasperatedly. “I cannot believe this is even a conversation we need to have when we literally deal with the dead. Is this like, Christmas related trauma or something that I need to be aware of?”

Rick rolls his eyes. “No.”

“Then what’s your damage?”

He scratches his arm, looking at the gifts you’ve wrapped with a suddenly weary sigh. “No damage.”

You tilt your head up at him curiously, tapping his hand to pull him out. 

“I just don’t want…” he groans softly, looking down at you before tangling a hand in your hair. “I don’t want to give them hope so soon. We don’t know how well these walls are gonna hold up when a hoard comes by. We don’t know if this community will survive anything yet. I don’t want to give Carl and Judith this and then have to take it away again.”

When you continue to just stare at him impassively, he nods with a huff, leaning back further back into the couch. “I know, I know,” he waves his hand vaguely. “Trust me- I can hear myself too.”

“So you’re aware that you’re being… difficult?” You choose your words carefully. Rick must find it amusing at the very least because he smiles almost sheepishly. “They need to know there’s more to life than everything we’ve gone through. You’re not taking anything from them. You can give them these moments, the time to just be children.”

“I’d just… feel bad if anything happened. ” 

You hum, his baby blue eyes glazed over with some far away memory for a mere second before they focus back on you. “Everyone’s okay, Rick. We’re all okay here. You don’t need to be so on all the time anymore,” you drop a kiss on his knee. “You’ve done so much for us already. Just- slow down.”

He considers this, considers what you’re saying to him. “A day,” he concedes. “I can slow down for a day. Only tomorrow.”

You let out a startled laugh. “So you’re declaring Christmas to be tomorrow? You’re just choosing?”

“Yes,” he nods once, rubbing his jaw like it’s a hard decision to make. “You get your day, and then I want you with me to assess the barricades. I can’t do it alone.”

You nod easily. “I’ll need help on the decorations. We don’t have much,” you gesture at the crinkled paper and frail twine on the ground. “Don’t suppose we can cut a small tree down with your hatchet?”

“I’ll figure out your decorations, just-“ he beckons you forward, pulling you up easily to straddle his lap, “come here for now.” 

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Title's from the Gazelle version of Love and Mercy that plays in the show!

part 2 is nsfw and posted here!

and all together on ao3.

[gaiaxygang]

I CAN FINALLY TALK ABOUT THE FIRST EPISODE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

going to put it under the cut since not everyone has ^^ i watched the first global premiere in december so i've been sitting on this for So long

sakiko is my sweet baby who has done nothing wrong in her life and deserves only good things. her side of the story with crychic broke my heart the first time i watched it and another time today u_u she never meant to leave!!!!! she loved the band!!!!!!!!! it was somewhere she felt like she belonged, something she genuinely enjoyed being a part of. but life is not kind to my poor little meow meow.

when i watched it live the audience collective went Aww :( when she got that beer can thrown at her. very relatable, me too. i just wonder where she's going to go next.

with ave mujica unmasked, they've lost their escape. uika says that being part of avemuji is refreshing compared to her sumimi activities. aside from how her dream of being with sakiko forever has come true, it seems that avemuji and the character of doloris were important forms of escapism to her. and now because she has been unmasked, she has lost that. even if she continues playing the character of doloris, people will see her as sumimi's uika first and foremost.

this can be further seen when oblivionis and doloris take off their masks willingly: sakiko smiles despite her obvious distress and although i am not very familiar with uika's character i got a very strong sense of Fakeass Idol from her smile. very interesting.

the whispers from the audience when they're all unmasked intrigued me. aside from sakiko, they all have another identity attached to them. amoris is livestreamer nyamuchi (part of the reason why anon was interested in the concert), doloris is sumimi's uika, timoris is known as another band's umiri, and mortis is the daughter of two well known entertainers. sakiko isn't recognised as any particularly notable person to the public (likely because she is no longer affiliated with the togawa group) but of course anon and soyo are shocked by her reveal.

of everyone, mutsumi seems to be the most distressed at being unmasked. i wonder if this ties into how she has only ever been known as her parents' daughter. very excited to learn what the hell is wrong with her.

the next episode is titled "the outcome justifies the deed" which makes me 🤔 because it also seems like nyamu was proven right (that unmasking them would make even more people aware of avemuji) but we also see soyo's conflict and mutsumi's misery...... very interesting indeed.

[zackstriker]

dyou have any surrealist/absurdist/adjacent short story recs? 👀 i’m interested in the style but don’t tend to have the brainspace to commit to a novel u_u

YES I AM SO GLAD YOU ASKED !!!

I’m actually going to start with a novella rec and a narrative poetry book rec before i go into the short stories, bc they’re quick reads and fundamentally changed the way i read think and write.

NOVELLA REC: The Past is Red by Catherynne M. Valente— a cli-fi (climate sci-fi) absurdist story about Tetley, who is the most hated girl in garbage town. I love this story with all my heart.

POETRY BOOK REC: Autobiography of Red by Anne Carson— PLEASE IF YOU READ ANY OF THESE RECS READ THIS ONE. IT CHANGED MY LIFE AND IS ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IVE EVER READ. An anachronistic queer retelling of the story of Geryon and Herakles, with translations of the fragments of the original story.

Who Will Greet You at Home by Lesley Nneka Arimah— this is a beautiful story that touches on classism/capitalism, motherhood, and generational trauma. it’s beautiful and tragic and captivating and has lived in my brain since I read it.

Blur by Carmen Maria Machado— eyes, gore, lesbians, horror, brilliant. tw for implied domestic abuse.

The Husband Stitch by Carmen Maria Machado— probs their most famous story. it’s beautiful and tragic and I have read it for four different college classes.

Inventory by Carmen Maria Machado (can you tell i like her work)— my second fav story by CMM after blur. Does super exciting things with form.

St. Lucy’s Home for Girls Raised by Wolves by Karen Russell— so entertaining and fun and sad and brilliant and lovely.

The City Borne Great by NK Jemisin— literally one of the best literary voices of a generation and i will die on that hill. SO unique, so gorgeous. If you like this short story the author expanded it into a book series that’s also brilliant called The City We Became.

How to Talk to Girls at Parties by Neil Gaiman— lonely and funny and exciting and weird. I like the way it fucks around with dialogue.

Bullet in the Brain by Tobias Wolf— super short but brilliant story that completely fucks with how time can work in a story. brilliant.

Melancholy Play by Sarah Ruhl— this is a play not a short story but it’s a quick read and one of my favorite pieces of literature ever. Sarah Ruhl is a huge inspiration of mine and a brilliant writer who does crazy cool things with absurdism and stage directions.

Baby Teeth by Lina Rather— very niche story i read for a class bc the author was my professor’s friend but i LOVED it.

Brokeback Mountain by Annie Proulx— pretty different vibe from the movie imo but very good and does beautifully tragic things with cycles.

anyways i have so so many more but i will leave you with these for now!! i love love love love literature.

[elmaxlys]

9. For the ts ask! (I’m pretty much sure I l’ow the answers of all the others lol)

9- Favorite fanwork (fanart, fanfic, edit, etc)

This is so hard tbh aaaah

I admit I don't read any fanfic apart from my own because well. inexistant ships oblige, so I'll only mention fanarts. I'll mention a few artists and a few pieces I particularly love 🥰

First gotta be Purple (amehiki)!!! Known Aikawa lover and fucked up scenarii enjoyer, she brought upon this world many many many absolutely bonkers and wonderful fanarts. To even choose a favorite would be mission impossible but i'd like to show some of them

we all know my obsession with Juo and every artist who draws him has my favor lol - but this??? and actually Purple has drawn a bunch of Juoikawa pieces!! Absolutely amazing, makes me live in times of hardship

I also looooove love love this drawing of Oribe with Rika!! it goes in a pair with Senya + Sniper, very very cool

And there are so many dark dark ones I absolutely adore but I'm containing myself and choose this one as my 3rd and last:

babies 🥺

Another wonderful artist we all know and adore is @space-diablo and my overall favorites I think are these two:

Third and last I'll mention will be ikoi and my favorite of hers are of course

because hey. i am nothing if predictable lol

no for real, I also love love all her Rika arts and all her Juo (arrive) art as well, I particularly appreciate putting them in dresses u_u

TS questions

[bonebabbles]

A Forest Divided: BEGIN

I'm so happy im finally at the book where Clear Sky's mom calls him a bitch. I cannot wait for this. I'm kept alive on fumes.

Also wolf mention;

This is less "ecological nitpick" and more wondering what they think of wolves? DOTC is like... a weird mix of America and England. Appalachian Scafells. Scaffalachia.

Wolves are extinct in England but we do have them in America... though I'm not sure if we had them between 1910 - 1950, when DOTC takes place.

Anyway, big dream thing again where all the leaders are called together so StarClan can hand them the plot again. This moment stands out;

fuck you mean, "If he hadn't let her leave"? She left because he was getting people killed, throwing disabled people out of his Clan, and fighting with her publicly while bossing her around, why the hell are you phrasing it as "LET HER LEAVE"?? She left BECAUSE you were so controlling

"If only I had been even worse u_u" -Clear Sky

Anyway the StarClan cats are angry that no one has followed their vague order to "grow and spread." ok. At the very least, we get to watch Clear Sky get yelled at by a baby so that's cool

"It's so good to see you, my very first fridged girl :D"

"FUCK YOURSELF SIDEWAYS"

I love you Fluttering Bird, BEST Quiet Rain kit, no contest, I love you I love you I love you.

Clear Sky sees everyone hanging out with each other in the dream but no one wants to talk to him, and for the FIRST time, EVER, SOMEONE FINALLY TELLS HIM IT IS HIS FAULT.

This is building up to how he needs a wife though, btw. Star Flower is a reward for being good now, so he'll have "someone to care for him" and defend him against the horrible ordeal of People Being Mad At Him. She is an object for Clear Sky's narrative.

As cathartic as it is that finally, someone's mad at him, you're supposed to feel bad that they're being so harsh. To the dictator. Who got more than half of the dead cats in this dream killed.

I'm not being hyperbolic about the wife-thing btw. That's just what's written.

Spoiler alert for the rest of the book: He tries to control his family again and they say no, because what he's supposed to do is find contentedness in Star Flower. His new wife. She becomes a Clear Sky Stan and acts as a writer mouthpiece for how cool and strong he is.

And THAT. THAT is why they were always going to waste Star Flower. They aren't telling a story about how Clear Sky is just like One Eye, and that he effectively got out-dictator'd by a bigger boot, and that he has to reflect on that. No, they're playing this completely straight, One Eye was a point of reference. He's what ""EVIL"" is supposed to look like, to contrast Clear Sky, who was NOT evil.

So they don't think there COULD BE a person who encourages his worse instincts, the way the fandom wants Star Flower to do. He doesn't HAVE worse instincts, his ""abuse"" was just love misapplied. Or, more accurately, it can't be abuse if it was based in real love.

Star Flower is not a person. She is a sexy lamp for Clear Sky to win.

[bumpin-thatbeat]

1/26/2025

HAI BABY ^o^

today, we woke up preeeetty early! we did our usual thing of having a ciggie outside. then we did our morning routine, did our dailies, and ate. it was really good!!! we had strawberries with nutella and the strawberries were a lil frozen and it was so :3

we also took a really short nap and all three kiddos came out for it. it was suuuper cute! bao bao kept checking our phone to "see if papa messaged" and he was worried on if he would be able to read if jo did message us!! claire and yoyo were chattering to themselves. we told them that they're lando's girls and they got soooo happy!!! it was so cute!!! but then we woke up and started our day again.

we watched a lot of the basement yard! it's our new fav podcast rn. they remind us so much of mikey and tia!!! it's so cute. then you woke up and we got so excited!!! if we had a tail, we would wag it so often :333 even at moments u cant tell we're happy bc we're autistic.

and then we called!! it was sooo fun! one of the amis managed to draw something for dad and also our part of the base!! i think it looks rlly cute!! she was stressing about the everything tho but u guys reassured her so well :333 then u had to hang up and we want u guys to have fun but we miss u guys so bad :(((

we saw an ig reel u liked !!! it was smth like "me wanting to marry this person even though it's been one month" AND IT MADE US SO HAPPYYYYY!!!!! we love u guys sm :333 im not really good with words but we LOVE LOVE u guys!!!!

then we went grocery shopping! ngl i cant remember most of it but we got stuff for lunch at work :3333 and soda... and maybe some energy drinks... we might have a bit of a problem u_u a girl needs her little drink treat!!! and im tired of buying it at work and having no creamer or syrups!!!!

im so excited to cook!!! i can feel kev itching to make our ravioli rn!!!

BTW WE LOVE U GUYS SO MUCH!!! ALL OF US!!! TIA TALKS ABOUT HER BOYS ALL THE TIME AND WE ALL LOVE TALKING ABOUT U GUYS!!! IT MAKES US HAPPY ;W; ivee talked to bao about her crush and he tried helping and uuu. AND ALSO SELENE DOESNT SAY MUCH BUT SHE'S BEEN OPENING UP EVER SINCE U GUYS CAME INTO OUR LIFE!!! AND WE'RE SO CONTENT AND FULFILLED AND EVEN WHEN U GUYS THINK U CANT FULFILL US U DO IM GONNA CRY WAAAHHH

ANYWAYS THATS IT. love u guys from here to WAYYYYYYY over there :3

to: @thepaddock

[pastlight]

S3E2 nbc hannibal livetweet from 2015

sooo.. Hannibal tonight *forgets about all the stress caused by uni for a second*

10:06 AM · Jun 11, 2015

is there anything better than seeing Aaron Abrams livetweet Hannibal? nope

11:07 PM · Jun 11, 2015

i can't waaiitittkjgfkl

11:07 PM · Jun 11, 2015

alright is the ep up in hd w english subtitles already. sorry I'm super impatient today ok.

12:23 AM · Jun 12, 2015

*gently strums guitar* ep is halfway downloaded :)))

1:23 AM · Jun 12, 2015

gonna watch the ep even tho I couldn't find subs u_u

2:31 AM · Jun 12, 2015

[all this buildup isn't relevant but i thought it was cute how excited i was]

"You were supposed I leave"

"We couldn't leave without you"

ill never be never over this

2:33 AM · Jun 12, 2015

I'm nearly crying again god fucking damnit I haTE THIS SCENE

2:36 AM · Jun 12, 2015

I'm shaking even just rewatching it just fucks me up holy shit

2:39 AM · Jun 12, 2015

ah Will my beautiful tortured son

2:41 AM · Jun 12, 2015

Abigail has survive two throat cuts already like damn

2:42 AM · Jun 12, 2015

also her character development like daamnn

2:45 AM · Jun 12, 2015

it's been three seasons why is Will Graham not being protracted at all costs

2:47 AM · Jun 12, 2015

such a great scene ahhhhh

2:48 AM · Jun 12, 2015

at least now Will's up and walking and Abi doesn't have a bandage anymore and looks good :((

2:50 AM · Jun 12, 2015

"That's His design."

god I missed this show

2:51 AM · Jun 12, 2015

Bryan Fuller tweeting always in all caps is so funny cause I just keep imagining him screaming or speaking too excitedly

2:56 AM · Jun 12, 2015

so do they just walk all around the pews, above-whispering without anyone being bothered??

2:58 AM · Jun 12, 2015

LOOK AT YOUNG HANNIBAL OH MY GOSH

3:08 AM · Jun 12, 2015

they did a really good job w that pic

3:09 AM · Jun 12, 2015

don't know what brand of body horror this monstrosity is but I'm all for it

3:16 AM · Jun 12, 2015

it's so beautiful in the most fucked up and macabre way. god I LOVE this show!!!

3:17 AM · Jun 12, 2015

((u know I'm gonna draw it for DAYS))

3:17 AM · Jun 12, 2015

"He left us his broke heart"

*spits drink everywhere*

oH m y dgo

3:19 AM · Jun 12, 2015

on a second thought maybe it shouldn't have been Anthony who got shaped into a heart.

3:21 AM · Jun 12, 2015

more like a dick. or a tongue. the joke is he was thirsty af

3:21 AM · Jun 12, 2015

"What if we all left together, like we were supposed to"

I'm????¿¿¿?? Will don't make me think about it

3:26 AM · Jun 12, 2015

Will: "what if au of our life in which we were a happy cannibal family w two dads"

3:26 AM · Jun 12, 2015

not that he killed her but how much of that conversation metered to him and how

also where's Abi??? she did travel w him right?

3:30 AM · Jun 12, 2015

NOOOOOO NO NO NOOOO NO I SHOULD'VE KNOW

3:32 AM · Jun 12, 2015

can't believe I was fooled by that. I totally believed it. fucking fuck.

3:34 AM · Jun 12, 2015

"He's gonna kill you, you know? I'm usually right about these things"

baby :(

3:43 AM · Jun 12, 2015

"He sent you his heart" im having trouble feeling the severity of the situation with lines like those

3:44 AM · Jun 12, 2015

noooo italian detector guy, you shouldn't have come, this is personal between the two of them...

3:48 AM · Jun 12, 2015

"Buona notte, commendatore"

WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT

3:51 AM · Jun 12, 2015

Hannibal wearing a leather jacket again *sweats nervously*

3:55 AM · Jun 12, 2015

"I forgive you"

me: *puts hand on screen so fast and hard I knock it over*

3:56 AM · Jun 12, 2015

and he just *sensed* him *there* like shiiiiiiit son

3:58 AM · Jun 12, 2015

my focus on s3e1 of Hannibal: thirsty scarf dad

my focus on s3e2 of Hannibal: mutilated stag corpse abomination

4:32 AM · Jun 12, 2015

((and hannigram but shhhh))

4:32 AM · Jun 12, 2015

tho somebody should tell Bryan Fuller to ease up on the homoerotic BLATANT TEXT

5:37 AM · Jun 12, 2015

like dude I love you and it's all very fun but you're walking a fine line here

5:38 AM · Jun 12, 2015

so either you or someone in text should acknowledge the messed up, twisted state of their relationship and the blurry limits

5:39 AM · Jun 12, 2015

cause "straight dudes with a weird connection" just doesn't cut it anymore

5:40 AM · Jun 12, 2015

[this whole section is so funny in retrospect. im sorry for not trusting you Bryan Fuller & co, i had been hurt too many times in the past]

his while ep felt like a build up an I won't say I'll be disappointed but I'll be a little

5:40 AM · Jun 12, 2015

I don't ship hannigram for real, much less in canon and honestly wouldn't care about their relatship aside from their character development

5:42 AM · Jun 12, 2015

-or like, plot. but i do enjoy their dynamic. and I feel like the "pampering" to shippers is getting a little out of hand.

5:48 AM · Jun 12, 2015

["nooo i don't ship them i just think they have an interesting dynamic" oh my godddd shut upppp live a little and have fun with the toxic yaoi]

I appreciate A LOT that the whole cast&crew recognize, accept and embrace the shipping and fandom

5:49 AM · Jun 12, 2015

but one thing is saying "yeah I see your point but it won't happen" and other thing is p much writing it in with no further intentions

5:50 AM · Jun 12, 2015

also, cause we still haven't gotten a textual queer character / canon ship

5:52 AM · Jun 12, 2015

((I'm not saying preller IM JUST SAYING))

5:52 AM · Jun 12, 2015

I hope Alana and Jack are ok :((

5:54 AM · Jun 12, 2015

well anyways that was all my rant. I'm gonna take a shower and sleep for once cause I'm v tired byeee

5:54 AM · Jun 12, 2015

[lol. lmao @ everything here]

[moonsinkfoxgirl]

Do the emojis that are things you could conceivably keep in a wallet

sure I can try that^^

🐰 cannot fit the bnnyu -- X

💌 folded up love note should probably fit... -- diary or journal?

journal, a diary is like casual and conversation themed, and while I could put elements of that in a journal it could never escape the air of faux-professionalism and flawed attempts at accuracy I would instill in it; not that I have the diligence to commit to either

✨ stars might be just a teensy bit too big, even if they look a little bit like the Revstar ones I see no hairclip attached to them -- X

💕 hearts are too big for wallets in all circumstances -- X

💋 lipstick mark can fit sure, just put it on paper or kiss the wallet directly -- kissing in the dark or kissing in the rain?

both are good, the former I do somewhat regularly so the latter is more exciting probably^^

🐝 I am so sorry Bee-chan this is gonna hurt and might be deadly but Em is forcing me to do it, goodbye ;_; -- describe your aesthetic in emojis

already answered but I can copy them I think: 💜❤️🦊🍵🦈🦊🌕🌗🌑🌦🌊👖🦊🚋💻🩷💜💙

🍼 baby bottle too big -- X

🌸 flower getting squished but maybe it will be fine -- what is your favorite flower?

hydrangeas, snowdrops, lilies and spider lilies^^

💖 you see, they simply cannot fit, for a cute girls heart is vaster than the sea -- X

🍰 caki.. the wallet would be so ruined if I tried that, nope -- X

🍯 a whole pot could not possibly fit, but I shall make an exception and say it's just honey in general so Bee-chan has some food in there if she's still alive, spoonful goes in-- describe your favorite smell

it's a cute girl smell I have absolute no idea how to describe it whatsoever in other terms

🎂 yet more caki, this time with added fire hazard, nope -- X

🍪 I can squeeze a cookie into the part for the coins, sure -- cookie dough or cookies?

I have never been in a situation where there was a cookie dough in eating distance where the idea of eating it seemed appealing, maybe I haven't been near the right ones?

☕ coffee cup does not fit nope, no exceptions for such a bleh liquid, maybe if it was tea I would consider it... -- X

🍃 a leaf fits for sure -- would you rather live in a sea with mermaids or a forest with fairies?

those are both incredibly excellent, how am I supposed to choose... hmmm mermaid option let's me accompany my girl for sea serpent searching so maybe that

🍂 and even more leaf... - what’s your middle name?

that's a secret because I am not doxxing myself that hard lol

💫 I can fit a shooting star no problem, just gotta wait until it's down here and cool enough to pick up-- what is your sun, moon, and rising sign?

I googled this and the first calculator that came up gave me the creeps, no thank you, here you can have your shooting star back

🌧️ raincloud way way too big -- X

🍭 lollipop can fit if it's a small one -- how tall are you?

167cm^^, average central europe girl size, hehe^^

💒 even if I was willing to try fitting in that playmobile looking church the hearts could never fit -- X

🎄 christmas tree way too big -- X

🍦 whole icecream cone too big --X

🎶 *girl awkwardly sings into her wallet while being incredibly bad at it*-- favorite song right now?

this season has way too much music for that, have 4 of them (also cries in Sasakoi music still not having released u_u):

💘 again, you cannot fit something larger than an ocean -- X

🍩 round tube caki also too big -- X

❄️ this is gonna melt real quick, but it should definitely fit -- what is your favorite season?

FALL!

💍 gods I would buy my girl a ring that looks so much better than this, this trash may go into the wallet -- your current relationship status?

happily girlfriends with @collectivenothingness, though we would not necessarily be opposed to get a third

📷 my camera is significantly bigger than my wallet -- X

💅🏻 better hope that that fresh nail polish smell keeps Bee-chan from stinging me... -- do you like being spoiled?

hehe, of course I do, getting cuddles and scritches is the best^^

🕊️ dove with olive branch too big --X

🦄 unicorn head too big as well --X

🦋 butterfly-chan too??!? sure bee-chan seems fine in there rn, but a butterfly would definitely die, those wings are way too fragile for that, no no and no -- X

🌈 rainbow vast and in the sky -- X

🍓 yet more food for my bee i guess --one secret about yourself

I think I've mentioned my imaginary ex-girlfriend called Emily from when I was a teen a bunch before, but I never described what she looked like, so she's a ~20 cm tall girl with silver hair and rainbow colored fairy wings, and she usually wears a plain white dress, and she's an outwardly super optimistic genki girl who secretly thinks she's never good enough^^

🍒 a feast of fruit for one lonely bee-- how do you act when you have a crush?

I deny it, I imagine what could be while cuddled up in bed, I deny it some more, I like their posts on tumblr and never say anything until they do; or at least that's how it's been the last time, it's been a while

💔 even if you split an ocean in half like some kind of heartbreaking girl moses, it still will not fit in a wallet -- X

💬 *awkwardly mumbles apologies to Bee-chan into the wallet, asking her if she's okay and whatnot*-- what your last text message says?

"gonna shake it a bit more often too maybe" <- this is about air fryer fries, they turned out pretty good with one extra shake

🎥 film camera also too big -- X

⛅ the cloud is too big and the sun is even bigger I heard -- X

💗 another heart, another sea -- X

🥀 maybe another flower to sit on in there will make her forgive me... -- last time you cried?

hmmm.. it's been a short while, was just the usual neet depression feels iirc

🎁 present package big --X

🔪 that would ruin the wallet if I tried --X

💤 the concept of a girl's sleep is at least mountain-sized -- X

🎀 a small bow fits probably, but this does not provide a question, I shall have to make one up uhh -- can you please let that bee out of your wallet?

sure ^^ 🐝 〜☆

[gratuiciel]

(making a new post so i don't have to scroll for days getting to the bottom of it skjdfh) @ttkinnie

hell yea i've started writing it (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠) except now it's hanma, takemichi AND naoto being dads skfjsh i just HAD to include that guy. i thought it'd make sense (somehow) for all three of them to get transported to the past after a time leap gone wrong. long story short naoto and (unconscious)takemichi got kidnapped shortly after naoto killed mikey, and izana wants to use their power to prevent shin's murder in the past. except izana's been torturing naoto while waiting for takemichi to wake up bc he's not exactly the most stable guy out there, esp after mikey's death. when he sees naoto's state, michi runs to him and tries to shake his hand so he can make sure this future never happens, but hanma (who was tasked with guarding takemichi while he was out cold) tries to stop him, and the moment the three of them come into contact they get sent to the past, in like 1998. now they have nothing left but the clothes on their back, and they'll have to start from scratch in this nostalgic era... and eventually realize their past friends are still there, but they're all baby. i think hanma and naoto would have some nice parallels, each living essentially for one person, giving away everything for them (hanma following kisaki's orders and naoto trying to save his sister) but now that person is gone and their version in this world doesn't even know they exist... the angst. plus naoto really looks like kisaki at times. he's got them cold blue-grey eyes too. i think hanma would like him (he's got a thing for short (average-sized but everyone's short to him) kings with murderous thoughts). naoto would just wanna kill him & kisaki & izana though (even though the last two are still kids. getting tortured really didn't help fix that side of him). takemichi is gonna have to handle these two absolute menaces to society now skfhdf (watch me make this a romantic comedy + found family somehow despite the fucked up setting i started out with)

i understand the need to make your special guy suffer u_u that's just how it is sometimes (my current fave guy to hit with hammers is naoto, i hope i can write some good stuff with him for the server too)

absolutely love these murder plots for kisaki (a normal sentence) especially the part where he makes takemichi watch helplessly *giggles cutely* and him jamming communications is a+ evil mastermind stuff (people being completely at a loss for what to do the moment you take away their usual technology from them is always super fun and scary to think about). mikey being used to lure the others into a trap?? hell yeah B-)

hehehe there's just something about villains being a little good and heroes being a little bad :^) it's unexpected it's exciting and it just freaking rules tbh

wakui writing tr's main antagonist and tr's main love interest: "what if they were both obsessed with takemichi, to the point where we find out that even a dozen years later they still hadn't moved on from him at all? yes perfect." (need to write ot3 fic for them eventually... either this or hina gets a gf. i have GOT to stop making her sit it out in the cuck chair when she could have two utterly dedicated and loving husbands instead)

[notallrobots]

what is it with inside out and its tendency to burn out fanartists… i’ve seen it here and also on discord. i’ve never really had an fixation before that spanned beyond one character (besides maybe OFF the game which has similar psychology elements although the presentation is vastly more ambiguous. i recommend it!) this is the first time where i’ve become TRULY obsessed with a world / story / a ton of its characters. what has drawn me in? maybe it’s the element of psychology exploration ?

it probably has to do with the fact that soon after i fell in love with io, my household went through some emergency health stuff (everyone is well now though!) and my anxiety then was at an all time high. ahhh anxiety as a character… it is very comforting to compartmentalize her as like a neurotic orange coworker. Like ahh get away from my console ya silly. i feel like beating her freaking ass sometimes though! i’m very sick of hyperventilating!

ennui needa get off my console too i’ve been spending SO much time on my phone. -_-)/

AND FEAR NEEDS TO STEP BACK TOO!!! Baby i love you but you’re smothering me!

feel fatigued but i still want to make random io stuff.. all day all night when i’m not working u_u i think i should take a break. fear will you still love me if i chill out for a second. Fear can we go on a break? 😋 I promise we’ll get back together..

[murfpersonalblog]

IWTV S2 Ep2 Musings - KING LDPDL 🤴🏾

WTF was going on with Louis this episode!? My guy was frikkin FERAL! Jacob! The ACTEURE that you are~! 🤌 Sir Anderson! Eff an Emmy--he's British, someone KNIGHT this man already! 👑

Louis was deflecting AND flexing on Daniel, I could not WITHSTAND the charisma uniqueness nerve and talent!

Daniel was LITERALLY shaking in his boots--call in Dr Fareed again; whatever "medication" y'all gave him is wearing off.

Armand, are you gonna give Daniel a CHOICE my guy?

The LOUMAND of it all--they were SERVIIIIIIING~~~~

These two banter like an old married couple, it's SO GOOD! ^0^

And it's SO EFFING FAKE! XD

Jacob/Louis has unleashed yet ANOTHER persona(lity): this heinous bougie AF trophy wife wench whom I absolutely LOOOOOOOVE. 😭

The pretentious snobbery of it all. <3

Armand and Lestat should be fed to a BLENDER! Stop ragging on my sweet baby Louis for not wanting to lay around killing/sexing all night! Then y'all get mad at him when he sits around the house all depressed, not wanting to go out and do anything but read books!

But Armand confronting Louis was so adorable--thinking they were either insulting the coven, or toying with them/playing hard-to-get.

And Louis talking about how much Armand looked like a BOY playing dressup (just like Claudia)--he's so condescending sometimes, this 33-y/o who had to grow up too soon; vs. an ancient vampire who'll forever look too young. U_U

Oh how the tables have turned; but history still repeats itself!

It's so wild how with Loustat, Les was the one pretending to be a regular human, in his awkward frumpy clothes; while Lou was struggling to hold on to his high class status during their bidding war over Miss Lily ("admiration and emasculation"). But with Loumand, Louis' the one tryna pass as a regular human in his layman clothes, while Armand "masquerades" as Gentleman Death.

Both times, Lou has to contend with the power imbalances of two overpowered vampires outclassing him over & over again. But while Lou was hostile & offended by Les; he's scared & meek with Armand.

He's been humbled & broken down so much, and he knows firsthand what older/ancient vampires are capable of--

--esp. since Armand confronted Louis intending to threaten him (b4 he realized how pretty Lou was and changed his mind, LOL).

But I do wonder how Louis sensed his "ancient power" exactly? Other than Claudia he's only been around Les & Daciana; so how could he tell? (I bet Daciana's as old Armand.) This was something that always irked me in the books, cuz TWMBK weren't sensed by Lestat until Marius brought him right up to them. Is it cuz Les was too young, or TWMBK just didn't bother projecting their presence to anyone?

Cuz we know Armand was always sending out signals with his Mind Gift (but he's a pro at it, ofc).

Sometimes it seems humans can sense the undead better than the undead can; they can just tell something's OFF.

But I'm just curious exactly what Louis was feeling from Arma--oh wait!

Yeah, never mind, stupid question! XD

Lou's REACTION, I cackled. Chile, you know how cute you are, stop acting coy! XD The man was so painfully gorgeous in this episode, like--

HE WEARS WOE LIKE VELVET, Y'ALL. 😭

He wears neck ties like the French in France, y'all! 🤣 LOUIS! You're KILLING me! 😍 The Village is waiting!

Santiago's 100% right--I am COMPLICIT in the misery of others; I just wanna see Louis break down and have a total fit (and kill Daniel while he's at it--UNWORTHY in SanFran, UNWORTHY in Dubai!).

DRAG HIM, LOUIS! Pack this closeted geriatric butch queen TF up!

I have no clue WTF is going on here, but if Daniel hates it, then I LOVE IT; keep pulling humor from HIS pain for a change, yeah!

The SKULL-DRAGGING, jfc!

My guy is UNHINGED, and I'm here for it!

Armand, why are you INTERRUPTINGGGGGG??????? 😩

OOP!

Nevermind me, Armand, put him in his PLACE, yaas!

[shirogane-oushirou]

OMG RENNIVERSAY???? HAPPY ANNIVERSARY AGAIN YAYYYY GUSH PASS IF U WANT HEHE 🎫🎫🎫

😭💕💕💕 THANK YOU NIIICK!!!!!!! for both the oushiversary and the renniversary (and honestly all of the time), your tags on rbs make me so giddy and emotional and i'm always so thankful ;w; wah.

i have a hard time expressing just how much ren has done for me this past year so... it's rambling time ksjdnfjk...

[pet death mention] my baby boy cyrus had lost his battle with cancer just a week prior to The Dream. i won't ramble about him here, but he was my biggest support when home life got fuck-y; losing him was like losing a part of myself. [/pet death mention end]

unfortunately i didn't have much to focus on afterward... i was trying to keep busy, but the art parties i'd been attending went on a long hiatus shortly after this, and while i TRIED vrc for a bit i found The Social Anxiety meant it wasn't the best choice for me ;;

and then i had this long, cinematic dream, about befriending and getting flirty with a dorky, fruity scientist from the c.dc (lol. lmao. i would NEVER!!!!! that's the very first thing i changed about him KJASNDKJN) who was fun and goofy and was so so loving to his niece who followed him around everywhere ;w;

and then he did a little villain heel-turn after being infected by a sentient parasite (also lol. lmao. my brain trying to bully me and make me feel bad... but it does it in the form of a cute bisexual man? 🥴). and of COURSE when his niece and i acted afraid of him he did the whole "i'll destroy everyone powerful in this city. and i won't let anyone or anything harm you." thing and i just OOUGHHHH. there's more to it than that, and i don't want to ramble TOO much, but he was so clearly twisted-justice-but-loves-people-so-hard core. that's the good shit ughhh.

and so! according to the document timestamp, i woke up at 5:45am, opened my ipad, went into procreate, and went to town scribbling down a vague idea of his face and mannerisms before passing out again. i KNEW i didn't want to forget this guy; i immediately felt he was special. most of my ocs come from dreams in some form, but he was already almost fully formed. The Ideal. To Me...

and when i woke up for real, i spent the day nailing down his design. and i was Officially Doomed from then on u_u

he's changed SO MUCH in the past year (just the fact that i had to revive his supernatural villain form as a separate AU a few months ago is proof of that KJANSDKJN)... as have i. he gave me someone to focus on as i healed, a reason to continue drawing in spite of the aforementioned art party hiatus, pushed me to join the selfship community For Real, lead to me meeting so many people and making so many friends outside of my teeny tiny a-couple of-friends-from-college circle, helped me appreciate the oc creation process and AUs so much more, pushed me to do monthly art challenges that i haven't done since before i fell ill...

and just... made me love myself more. made me appreciate the things i didn't like about myself. helped me realize the potential of selfshipping in general, to be a tool to see oneself as deserving of love, even if it takes making a fictional character play messenger between the self-doubt and self-acceptance bits of your brain.

i likely would have just stayed in my own little corner -- my quiet little oushirou blog that i didn't have linked anywhere, chatting in stream chats but not talking to any chatters outside of that -- if not for ren. i've met so many people who have similar struggles! different struggles! similar and completely different interests! gone completely outside of my comfort zone and found such a good circle of people who uplift each other!! HELL, my art blog has multiple times the followers as i have here, but they only ever interacted with my umi.neko art LMAO -- here it feels like we all want to support each others' art and writing and other creations and rambles and and and.

and it's because ren gave me a reason to make that step. start tagging things, start following people and reaching out, chatting with people who reached out to me... he's genuinely changed my life for the better. ;w; i don't think i'll ever be able to express just how thankful i am that he came to me at the exact moment i needed him most. i love him so so much rghhhrgh. gripping him in my fist and kissing him all over his face forever and ever. 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕