#u_u we love a baby

[chika-nyan]

Oh snap it’s Mitsuki Shirota of Jack Jeanne, the otome I am currently playings’s, birthday. Here take a quick phone doodle done mostly with my middle finger (unrelated, he is a good boy). Happy birthday Quartz mother u_u

[shrews-things]

Life update: Vini and I started the project of greenhouse-ifying our home

[itoshi-s]

the way i’d bribe reo with kisses and other way less innocent endeavors so he’d do all my uni work for me without HESITATION is so real it’s not fun being an overworked uni girlie in these trying times!!!! i just want to be a spoiled baby!!!!

LMAOOOO river thst is sO REAL 😭 my broke ass would empty my pockets out 4 this man& he’s just staring like ??? umm????? reo please sort this thing out i.. i cannot do this lend me a crUMB of your knowledge & irresistible charm as well :(

[survivorsfm]

*       ANONYMOUS   ASKED       :       too  silly  to  ask  in  the  discord--  but  would  any  members  be  interested  in  an  emma  corrin  or  morgan  davies  for  any  wcs ?  ( siblings,  relatives,  students,  etc. )

well,  sadly  my  most  beloveds  weren’t  very  helpful  this  time,  as  i  imagine  you  already  saw  on  our  server  ( some  of  them  tried  tho,  so  thanks  for  that ) .   but !   you  have  to  know  i  lit  shrieked  when  i  saw  this  question  bc  i  love  emma  and  morgan  to  my  very  bones,  they’re  such  beautiful  faceclaims,  and  i’d  k1ll  to  see  them  here.   no  joke.   so !   aside  from  one  of  killian’s  siblings  connections  ( emma  is  part  of  one  of  his  suggested  fcs  list,  in  fact ) ,   and  a  possible  sailor  for  reuven’s  from  back  in  his  seal  days,   admin  nina  is  still  looking  for  josephine’s  roommate  in  the  dorms  wing  ;  gabriel  would  be  thrilled  to  have  more  trans  folks  around  and  turn  their  official  queer  friend  into  a  whole  queer  squad  ( but  they  can  easily  be  their  work  friend  or  riding  companion,  as  well )  ;  astoria  could  use  an  apprentice  at  the  farm  ( i’m  really  lacking  that  dynamic  and  want  it  badly ) ,   and  i’d  be  ecstatic  to  have  jack’s  complement  ( or  another  fwb,  altho  this  would  be  open  to  emma  only ) .   both  emma  and  morgan  can  fill  one  or  more  than  one  of  these  connections,  so  i  really  hope  you  bring  any  of  them  in  bc  like  i  said,  i  frfrfr  love  them  : ' ) 

[murfeelee]

inZOI - Madzie & Max Lightwood-Bane (Shadowhunters)

After making Magnus Bane, I decided to make his kids to try out the kids for the demo.

IIRC, the TS4 CAS demo didn't let us make kids (did they even effing HAVE kids as a lifestate back then, or was it just zero toddlers & bassinet babies?). So we're already off to a better start than effing EA.

I'm sad that Krafton didn't let us have access to any sliders to really customize kids in the demo. The presets are ok enough, though some of them look like mini adults or something--the eye bags are too much (at least 3 poor kids looked like they'd been huffing a pack of cigarettes a day since the effing womb).

Kids have no nails & accessories, which is bogus. They get all the adult hats--fedora included--which is...interesting. We need some clips & barrettes & scrunchies etc--real 90s Throwback At Claire's.

Even TS3 gave kids earrings & bracelets & watches etc, so Krafton needs to step their game up, this is unacceptable that kids barely have EFF ALL.

The kids' clothes are also woefully low--no SKIRTS or DRESSES?! Just one set of PJs for outfits, why? They're all basically the same choices for adults & kids, which is kinda cool but kinda lazy? Give kids their own unique sense of style & identity--Asia has the cutest stuff, come on, don't be generic like this. U_U More kawaii, less Baby Gap. 4/10.

But it made me realize that I like the shoes options on the kids waaaaay more than I do on the adults. The adults need better shoes; that was my least favorite part; TS4's demo had much better shoes.

General

Two things I realized I'd overlooked on the adult zois:

EYES & TEETH: we need to be able to recolor the eye sclera, and the teeth. Both are just way too yellow for my liking, which I noticed as soon as I made Blueberry, and the blue made his eyes & teeth look like he had jaundice.

CUSTOM PATTERNS/TEXTURES: This is so frikkin cool! It's basically a lightweight version of TSRW's Pattern Tool (without the recolorability, sadly); allowing you to directly import DIY textures onto clothes. You can change the tiling & X/Y axis position, it's great!

I added the constellations & skeleton on Blueberry's tops. We need more GOTH fashion representation, Krafton! \m / (^0^) \m/

One of my favorite features is the hair that you can cut. Max's hair is gorgeous--you can make it really long, or really short. I went with medium-ish. And I LOVE the highlights options, iirc it had like 4 or 5 parts. Again: ALL hairs need AT LEAST the highlight function, if the length feature can't be universally implemented for whatever reason.

(I'm posting links to this & my first "review" on inZOI's Discord, so hopefully someone over there gets this feedback. I bloody doubt it, but yolo.)

[celestialsymbiosis]

Love and Mercy p.1 - Rick Grimes x reader

I know it's October.

But here's a little something on the group's first winter in Alexandria:

u_u

“What’re you doin’?”

Rick’s voice is heavy with sleep, quiet but enough to break the silence in the house as he shuffles closer to where you’re kneeling. You don’t need to see him to know he’s got that almost permanently etched frown on, the soft dip between his eyebrows. 

You tilt your head up in greeting, focused on your task, skillfully wrapping items with old newspapers you’d found on a run earlier that week. “Nothing,” you mumble, as if it were enough, your fingers pressing down on the paper with a sleepy determination. You hunch over them to shade from Rick’s view. “Go away.”

Rick hums, depositing himself onto the couch. “No. Missed you in bed. Don’t think I don’t know you’ve been sneaking away from me. I’m onto you.”

“You’re not onto shit,” you reply, hands splayed over your projects. 

“Hey,” he lilts, nudging your back with his knee. “What is it?”

There’s a soft noise you release at that, something like annoyance. “Can’t say. It’s not time yet.”

“Time for what?”

You groan, turning around to put your chin up on his knee, looking up at him. “Christmas.”

“You’re still on that?” Rick’s eye twitches a little.

It had been a few weeks ago when the cool air starting breezing through Alexandria. With Winter on the brink and the group relatively settled and sheltered for the first time in years, you’d off-handedly mentioned the season’s festivities. 

Rick hadn’t been too keen on it however. He was everything but settled into the new Alexandrian lifestyle you had found easy to slip into. On edge and restless, as if the universe would detect his comfort and throw it’s next disaster his way. He’d informed the rest of you all, with a hand poised on his belt and fingers itching for the Colt Python Deanna had stored away. Be ready, we can’t let our guard down. 

That may have been weeks ago, but Rick never truly looked comfortable here even now- though you’re not sure he ever did. So between his stubbornness, the fact that Judith hadn’t ever celebrated a holiday, and your proclivity to do first and ask for forgiveness later, you were set on doing something small for the kids at the very least. 

Something to finally look forward to. 

You had gone to Deanna first, telling her of your plans to bring some cheer for Carl and Jude. Her eyes sparkled in that way they seemed to do when she was inspired by something so normal- but she sadly revealed they really did not pack shiny wrapping paper in the community. You weren’t derailed however. 

Any time you were on the run, you tried grabbing things the family would’ve enjoyed that would be painfully human. Glenn laughed when you handed him a new baseball cap, Tara nodded appraisingly at the palm tree snow globe, shaking it around aggressively to see the tiny white flakes swim around. 

So, you had immediately pushed the few issues you’d found of Y: The Last Man for Carl inside your backpack. The stuffed lamb you came across would need to be cleaned and fluffed, but it had made the cut for Judith’s gift. 

Rick noticed when you started crumpling newspapers into your bag, though, raising an eyebrow. 

“Figured we could do something for the kids,” you had said, moving to the next aisle to get some actual supplies too. 

“For what?” Rick’s gruff voice intoned, a hint of a warning behind it. You weren’t quite sure why he even had an issue with the idea of a gift-giving celebration; it’s not like the rest of you haven’t passed items to each other before. 

Kneeling in front of him now, the soft sound of snow pattering down outside and the hum of one of Deanna’s heaters, you nose at his knee. 

“Baby, you gotta- can you relax?” you say a little exasperatedly. “I cannot believe this is even a conversation we need to have when we literally deal with the dead. Is this like, Christmas related trauma or something that I need to be aware of?”

Rick rolls his eyes. “No.”

“Then what’s your damage?”

He scratches his arm, looking at the gifts you’ve wrapped with a suddenly weary sigh. “No damage.”

You tilt your head up at him curiously, tapping his hand to pull him out. 

“I just don’t want…” he groans softly, looking down at you before tangling a hand in your hair. “I don’t want to give them hope so soon. We don’t know how well these walls are gonna hold up when a hoard comes by. We don’t know if this community will survive anything yet. I don’t want to give Carl and Judith this and then have to take it away again.”

When you continue to just stare at him impassively, he nods with a huff, leaning back further back into the couch. “I know, I know,” he waves his hand vaguely. “Trust me- I can hear myself too.”

“So you’re aware that you’re being… difficult?” You choose your words carefully. Rick must find it amusing at the very least because he smiles almost sheepishly. “They need to know there’s more to life than everything we’ve gone through. You’re not taking anything from them. You can give them these moments, the time to just be children.”

“I’d just… feel bad if anything happened. ” 

You hum, his baby blue eyes glazed over with some far away memory for a mere second before they focus back on you. “Everyone’s okay, Rick. We’re all okay here. You don’t need to be so on all the time anymore,” you drop a kiss on his knee. “You’ve done so much for us already. Just- slow down.”

He considers this, considers what you’re saying to him. “A day,” he concedes. “I can slow down for a day. Only tomorrow.”

You let out a startled laugh. “So you’re declaring Christmas to be tomorrow? You’re just choosing?”

“Yes,” he nods once, rubbing his jaw like it’s a hard decision to make. “You get your day, and then I want you with me to assess the barricades. I can’t do it alone.”

You nod easily. “I’ll need help on the decorations. We don’t have much,” you gesture at the crinkled paper and frail twine on the ground. “Don’t suppose we can cut a small tree down with your hatchet?”

“I’ll figure out your decorations, just-“ he beckons you forward, pulling you up easily to straddle his lap, “come here for now.” 

------

Title's from the Gazelle version of Love and Mercy that plays in the show!

part 2 is nsfw and posted here!

and all together on ao3.

[murfpersonalblog]

IWTV S2 Ep7 Musings - Loustat Ep5 Revisited (Spoilers)

I decided to do this one first, cuz I have the least to say about it.

It was pretty clear cut and showed exactly what I expected/hoped it would: CONFIRMATION ON EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED IN S1--

THE FIGHT WASN'T RETCONNED AT ALL. 😤👏

Diabolical frame, cuz it's pretty much like, Welp, you're here in Europe, after I distinctly told y'all the European vampires were vicious and not to come here! VOILA! 😬

And I love how his back is to the audience, cuz this bit REALLY isn't about the performance--this is Lestat venting, talking right to Louis, even though he's clearly having difficulty meeting his gaze.

Mild way to put it, but wtvr.

There's that word again: "compromise," which Lestat blamed Louis for leading to "spite--" both Claudia's, AND Lestat's own spite towards THEM. Cuz Lestat was constantly holding back; "fought my nature, controlled my temper."

TOO EFFING BAD, you woke the sleeping effing DRAGON!

Backflip into the coffinroom, omg, I accidentally cackled. 😅

Amen! Lestat put his hands on Claudia first, now you gotta PAY!

"It will end in your death"--excuse me, Lestat?! DEATH THREATS!?

That's right, bash his head into the effing coffin! Now we know what the dent was from! Look at that blood stream! Yeah, you BETTER hold back, Lestat; take this arse whoopin!

I like how S1 focused on the blows Lestat dealt to Louis, as it was from his & Claudia's perspective; but now we're seeing more of the blows Louis dealt to Lestat as he gives his perspective. But it still shows that although Louis' fighting, he's still on the defense, cuz Lestat is often just LETTING Louis hit him--LOUIS can't AFFORD to just LET Lestat hit him, cuz "mighty...most ancient blood...godlike strength" Les will REALLY injure him whenever he does! This is NOT an even fight, even if the perspectives are now more evenly shown.

Exactly! You wanna KILL Louis!? But Lou, don't get cocky now; Les is LETTING you do all this to him, cuz he knows if he gets serious that's your behind. 😬

Bites all over Lou's jaw & neck, gosh--look at YOUR face, Louis. U_U

(I can't WAIT to read the fanfics that come out of this; they're gonna make me cry.) No, unfortunately. I don't think Louis had any intention of going anywhere, even after all that (LOUIS GOT THE DEED, that's HIS house--YOU leave!). And congratulations; thanks to you, Les, Lou wasn't even able to WALK for three effing years afterwards.

Claudia calling for her Daddy Lou, I can't. 😭 This poor baby girl has regressed to her inner child--she's so dang scared.

JUST LIKE YOU DID OUR DAUGHTER--PAPA BEAR LOUIS STOOD UP! 😤👏

I've been in this exact situation IRL, and y'all want me to feel sorry FOR LESTAT!? AFTER HE CHOKED "built-like-a-bird" Claudia and beat the mess out of her Daddy Lou right in front of her!?

Chile, the sword-cane's right there; let's get to choppin! 😤🔪🔪🔪

Apropos for Lioncourt, but that's way too good for him--take him to the EFFING SWAMP and let the GATORS feed on him! I want SWAMP KING LESTAT. 😭🐊

I'm gonna LAAAAAAAUGH, oh he's cracked and I love it! You KNOW they talked to a woman who's been in this EXACT situation.

Oh, this is every woman who talks big to her abusive husband right b4 he lands her in the effing hospital (or the morgue); we all saw the Ray Rice footage when he knocked her TF out WITH EASE when she got up in his face talking smack in that elevator. 💀

Your FATHERS temper, but this is the coven writing his lines "teased until you toppled;" they don't know about the Marquis vs Gabrielle.

THE DROP REALLY HAPPENED, THANK YOU, AMC.

It wasn't cuz Lestat was tryna spare Louis or save him from himself or protect him or whatever--LES WANTED TO BREAK LOU.

It could've been 2 effing FEET. "A hard fall, nothing more;" eff you Santiago!

Yeah, gaslight us some more whydontcha; half the fandom LOVES using that reasoning to handwave aside "abuse" when it's done to the character they DON'T like. 🙄😒 Then it's just awful takes about how Louis & Claudia deserved what happened to them and it's "karma" and it's not Les' fault cuz they're monsters & Lou bloodied Les' face.

And biting w/out consent is RAPE, clown! AR said it over & over that it's a violation of the most intimate act b/t vamps who share emotions, memories & sexual pleasure thru the blood! But watch some braindead takes use Santiago's words as gospel just to Gotcha! anyone who says anything against Louis for Ep5. 🙄😒

CRICKETS. Cuz LESTAT TRIED TO KILL LOU, just like Claudia said! "A wolf congratulated for not killing her pups"--that was scripted. But "you can't script a hurricane!" NO! That's right; set the story straight!

Look at him crying, I love how they do the blood tears effect, as their eyes get redder & redder. The sound of Sam's voice as he's crying is just making me wanna yeet myself into the sun--but it's the middle of the night, alas. U_U "I couldn't force him to love me so I broke him. What is worse than that? Crushing what you cannot own." But I thought Louis was saying "Come to me" and luring you with his wicked vixen ways~! The math ain't mathin, Santiago! 🤭

FINALLY AN APOLOGY OMFG

Claudia said it best: "Let's meet vampires WORTHY of your love!" Unworthy in NOLA, unworthy in Paris--cuz he's STILL gonna throw CLAUDIA under the bus to save Louis, and she KNOWS this.

WAY too effing late--Les had his chance to apologize sincerely the night he dropped Louis 20000 leagues from the frikkin stratosphere! Claudia DGAF, LOL. And Louis looks away from Lestat; bye Felicia!

CONTINUE.

Chile, I need SLEEP! I been up all dang day rewatching this episode & screaming at the ether!

[elmaxlys]

9. For the ts ask! (I’m pretty much sure I l’ow the answers of all the others lol)

9- Favorite fanwork (fanart, fanfic, edit, etc)

This is so hard tbh aaaah

I admit I don't read any fanfic apart from my own because well. inexistant ships oblige, so I'll only mention fanarts. I'll mention a few artists and a few pieces I particularly love 🥰

First gotta be Purple (amehiki)!!! Known Aikawa lover and fucked up scenarii enjoyer, she brought upon this world many many many absolutely bonkers and wonderful fanarts. To even choose a favorite would be mission impossible but i'd like to show some of them

we all know my obsession with Juo and every artist who draws him has my favor lol - but this??? and actually Purple has drawn a bunch of Juoikawa pieces!! Absolutely amazing, makes me live in times of hardship

I also looooove love love this drawing of Oribe with Rika!! it goes in a pair with Senya + Sniper, very very cool

And there are so many dark dark ones I absolutely adore but I'm containing myself and choose this one as my 3rd and last:

babies 🥺

Another wonderful artist we all know and adore is @space-diablo and my overall favorites I think are these two:

Third and last I'll mention will be ikoi and my favorite of hers are of course

because hey. i am nothing if predictable lol

no for real, I also love love all her Rika arts and all her Juo (arrive) art as well, I particularly appreciate putting them in dresses u_u

TS questions

[bonebabbles]

A Forest Divided: BEGIN

I'm so happy im finally at the book where Clear Sky's mom calls him a bitch. I cannot wait for this. I'm kept alive on fumes.

Also wolf mention;

This is less "ecological nitpick" and more wondering what they think of wolves? DOTC is like... a weird mix of America and England. Appalachian Scafells. Scaffalachia.

Wolves are extinct in England but we do have them in America... though I'm not sure if we had them between 1910 - 1950, when DOTC takes place.

Anyway, big dream thing again where all the leaders are called together so StarClan can hand them the plot again. This moment stands out;

fuck you mean, "If he hadn't let her leave"? She left because he was getting people killed, throwing disabled people out of his Clan, and fighting with her publicly while bossing her around, why the hell are you phrasing it as "LET HER LEAVE"?? She left BECAUSE you were so controlling

"If only I had been even worse u_u" -Clear Sky

Anyway the StarClan cats are angry that no one has followed their vague order to "grow and spread." ok. At the very least, we get to watch Clear Sky get yelled at by a baby so that's cool

"It's so good to see you, my very first fridged girl :D"

"FUCK YOURSELF SIDEWAYS"

I love you Fluttering Bird, BEST Quiet Rain kit, no contest, I love you I love you I love you.

Clear Sky sees everyone hanging out with each other in the dream but no one wants to talk to him, and for the FIRST time, EVER, SOMEONE FINALLY TELLS HIM IT IS HIS FAULT.

This is building up to how he needs a wife though, btw. Star Flower is a reward for being good now, so he'll have "someone to care for him" and defend him against the horrible ordeal of People Being Mad At Him. She is an object for Clear Sky's narrative.

As cathartic as it is that finally, someone's mad at him, you're supposed to feel bad that they're being so harsh. To the dictator. Who got more than half of the dead cats in this dream killed.

I'm not being hyperbolic about the wife-thing btw. That's just what's written.

Spoiler alert for the rest of the book: He tries to control his family again and they say no, because what he's supposed to do is find contentedness in Star Flower. His new wife. She becomes a Clear Sky Stan and acts as a writer mouthpiece for how cool and strong he is.

And THAT. THAT is why they were always going to waste Star Flower. They aren't telling a story about how Clear Sky is just like One Eye, and that he effectively got out-dictator'd by a bigger boot, and that he has to reflect on that. No, they're playing this completely straight, One Eye was a point of reference. He's what ""EVIL"" is supposed to look like, to contrast Clear Sky, who was NOT evil.

So they don't think there COULD BE a person who encourages his worse instincts, the way the fandom wants Star Flower to do. He doesn't HAVE worse instincts, his ""abuse"" was just love misapplied. Or, more accurately, it can't be abuse if it was based in real love.

Star Flower is not a person. She is a sexy lamp for Clear Sky to win.

[moonsinkfoxgirl]

Do the emojis that are things you could conceivably keep in a wallet

sure I can try that^^

🐰 cannot fit the bnnyu -- X

💌 folded up love note should probably fit... -- diary or journal?

journal, a diary is like casual and conversation themed, and while I could put elements of that in a journal it could never escape the air of faux-professionalism and flawed attempts at accuracy I would instill in it; not that I have the diligence to commit to either

✨ stars might be just a teensy bit too big, even if they look a little bit like the Revstar ones I see no hairclip attached to them -- X

💕 hearts are too big for wallets in all circumstances -- X

💋 lipstick mark can fit sure, just put it on paper or kiss the wallet directly -- kissing in the dark or kissing in the rain?

both are good, the former I do somewhat regularly so the latter is more exciting probably^^

🐝 I am so sorry Bee-chan this is gonna hurt and might be deadly but Em is forcing me to do it, goodbye ;_; -- describe your aesthetic in emojis

already answered but I can copy them I think: 💜❤️🦊🍵🦈🦊🌕🌗🌑🌦🌊👖🦊🚋💻🩷💜💙

🍼 baby bottle too big -- X

🌸 flower getting squished but maybe it will be fine -- what is your favorite flower?

hydrangeas, snowdrops, lilies and spider lilies^^

💖 you see, they simply cannot fit, for a cute girls heart is vaster than the sea -- X

🍰 caki.. the wallet would be so ruined if I tried that, nope -- X

🍯 a whole pot could not possibly fit, but I shall make an exception and say it's just honey in general so Bee-chan has some food in there if she's still alive, spoonful goes in-- describe your favorite smell

it's a cute girl smell I have absolute no idea how to describe it whatsoever in other terms

🎂 yet more caki, this time with added fire hazard, nope -- X

🍪 I can squeeze a cookie into the part for the coins, sure -- cookie dough or cookies?

I have never been in a situation where there was a cookie dough in eating distance where the idea of eating it seemed appealing, maybe I haven't been near the right ones?

☕ coffee cup does not fit nope, no exceptions for such a bleh liquid, maybe if it was tea I would consider it... -- X

🍃 a leaf fits for sure -- would you rather live in a sea with mermaids or a forest with fairies?

those are both incredibly excellent, how am I supposed to choose... hmmm mermaid option let's me accompany my girl for sea serpent searching so maybe that

🍂 and even more leaf... - what’s your middle name?

that's a secret because I am not doxxing myself that hard lol

💫 I can fit a shooting star no problem, just gotta wait until it's down here and cool enough to pick up-- what is your sun, moon, and rising sign?

I googled this and the first calculator that came up gave me the creeps, no thank you, here you can have your shooting star back

🌧️ raincloud way way too big -- X

🍭 lollipop can fit if it's a small one -- how tall are you?

167cm^^, average central europe girl size, hehe^^

💒 even if I was willing to try fitting in that playmobile looking church the hearts could never fit -- X

🎄 christmas tree way too big -- X

🍦 whole icecream cone too big --X

🎶 *girl awkwardly sings into her wallet while being incredibly bad at it*-- favorite song right now?

this season has way too much music for that, have 4 of them (also cries in Sasakoi music still not having released u_u):

💘 again, you cannot fit something larger than an ocean -- X

🍩 round tube caki also too big -- X

❄️ this is gonna melt real quick, but it should definitely fit -- what is your favorite season?

FALL!

💍 gods I would buy my girl a ring that looks so much better than this, this trash may go into the wallet -- your current relationship status?

happily girlfriends with @collectivenothingness, though we would not necessarily be opposed to get a third

📷 my camera is significantly bigger than my wallet -- X

💅🏻 better hope that that fresh nail polish smell keeps Bee-chan from stinging me... -- do you like being spoiled?

hehe, of course I do, getting cuddles and scritches is the best^^

🕊️ dove with olive branch too big --X

🦄 unicorn head too big as well --X

🦋 butterfly-chan too??!? sure bee-chan seems fine in there rn, but a butterfly would definitely die, those wings are way too fragile for that, no no and no -- X

🌈 rainbow vast and in the sky -- X

🍓 yet more food for my bee i guess --one secret about yourself

I think I've mentioned my imaginary ex-girlfriend called Emily from when I was a teen a bunch before, but I never described what she looked like, so she's a ~20 cm tall girl with silver hair and rainbow colored fairy wings, and she usually wears a plain white dress, and she's an outwardly super optimistic genki girl who secretly thinks she's never good enough^^

🍒 a feast of fruit for one lonely bee-- how do you act when you have a crush?

I deny it, I imagine what could be while cuddled up in bed, I deny it some more, I like their posts on tumblr and never say anything until they do; or at least that's how it's been the last time, it's been a while

💔 even if you split an ocean in half like some kind of heartbreaking girl moses, it still will not fit in a wallet -- X

💬 *awkwardly mumbles apologies to Bee-chan into the wallet, asking her if she's okay and whatnot*-- what your last text message says?

"gonna shake it a bit more often too maybe" <- this is about air fryer fries, they turned out pretty good with one extra shake

🎥 film camera also too big -- X

⛅ the cloud is too big and the sun is even bigger I heard -- X

💗 another heart, another sea -- X

🥀 maybe another flower to sit on in there will make her forgive me... -- last time you cried?

hmmm.. it's been a short while, was just the usual neet depression feels iirc

🎁 present package big --X

🔪 that would ruin the wallet if I tried --X

💤 the concept of a girl's sleep is at least mountain-sized -- X

🎀 a small bow fits probably, but this does not provide a question, I shall have to make one up uhh -- can you please let that bee out of your wallet?

sure ^^ 🐝 〜☆

[zackstriker]

dyou have any surrealist/absurdist/adjacent short story recs? 👀 i’m interested in the style but don’t tend to have the brainspace to commit to a novel u_u

YES I AM SO GLAD YOU ASKED !!!

I’m actually going to start with a novella rec and a narrative poetry book rec before i go into the short stories, bc they’re quick reads and fundamentally changed the way i read think and write.

NOVELLA REC: The Past is Red by Catherynne M. Valente— a cli-fi (climate sci-fi) absurdist story about Tetley, who is the most hated girl in garbage town. I love this story with all my heart.

POETRY BOOK REC: Autobiography of Red by Anne Carson— PLEASE IF YOU READ ANY OF THESE RECS READ THIS ONE. IT CHANGED MY LIFE AND IS ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS IVE EVER READ. An anachronistic queer retelling of the story of Geryon and Herakles, with translations of the fragments of the original story.

Who Will Greet You at Home by Lesley Nneka Arimah— this is a beautiful story that touches on classism/capitalism, motherhood, and generational trauma. it’s beautiful and tragic and captivating and has lived in my brain since I read it.

Blur by Carmen Maria Machado— eyes, gore, lesbians, horror, brilliant. tw for implied domestic abuse.

The Husband Stitch by Carmen Maria Machado— probs their most famous story. it’s beautiful and tragic and I have read it for four different college classes.

Inventory by Carmen Maria Machado (can you tell i like her work)— my second fav story by CMM after blur. Does super exciting things with form.

St. Lucy’s Home for Girls Raised by Wolves by Karen Russell— so entertaining and fun and sad and brilliant and lovely.

The City Borne Great by NK Jemisin— literally one of the best literary voices of a generation and i will die on that hill. SO unique, so gorgeous. If you like this short story the author expanded it into a book series that’s also brilliant called The City We Became.

How to Talk to Girls at Parties by Neil Gaiman— lonely and funny and exciting and weird. I like the way it fucks around with dialogue.

Bullet in the Brain by Tobias Wolf— super short but brilliant story that completely fucks with how time can work in a story. brilliant.

Melancholy Play by Sarah Ruhl— this is a play not a short story but it’s a quick read and one of my favorite pieces of literature ever. Sarah Ruhl is a huge inspiration of mine and a brilliant writer who does crazy cool things with absurdism and stage directions.

Baby Teeth by Lina Rather— very niche story i read for a class bc the author was my professor’s friend but i LOVED it.

Brokeback Mountain by Annie Proulx— pretty different vibe from the movie imo but very good and does beautifully tragic things with cycles.

anyways i have so so many more but i will leave you with these for now!! i love love love love literature.

[gratuiciel]

(making a new post so i don't have to scroll for days getting to the bottom of it skjdfh) @ttkinnie

hell yea i've started writing it (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠) except now it's hanma, takemichi AND naoto being dads skfjsh i just HAD to include that guy. i thought it'd make sense (somehow) for all three of them to get transported to the past after a time leap gone wrong. long story short naoto and (unconscious)takemichi got kidnapped shortly after naoto killed mikey, and izana wants to use their power to prevent shin's murder in the past. except izana's been torturing naoto while waiting for takemichi to wake up bc he's not exactly the most stable guy out there, esp after mikey's death. when he sees naoto's state, michi runs to him and tries to shake his hand so he can make sure this future never happens, but hanma (who was tasked with guarding takemichi while he was out cold) tries to stop him, and the moment the three of them come into contact they get sent to the past, in like 1998. now they have nothing left but the clothes on their back, and they'll have to start from scratch in this nostalgic era... and eventually realize their past friends are still there, but they're all baby. i think hanma and naoto would have some nice parallels, each living essentially for one person, giving away everything for them (hanma following kisaki's orders and naoto trying to save his sister) but now that person is gone and their version in this world doesn't even know they exist... the angst. plus naoto really looks like kisaki at times. he's got them cold blue-grey eyes too. i think hanma would like him (he's got a thing for short (average-sized but everyone's short to him) kings with murderous thoughts). naoto would just wanna kill him & kisaki & izana though (even though the last two are still kids. getting tortured really didn't help fix that side of him). takemichi is gonna have to handle these two absolute menaces to society now skfhdf (watch me make this a romantic comedy + found family somehow despite the fucked up setting i started out with)

i understand the need to make your special guy suffer u_u that's just how it is sometimes (my current fave guy to hit with hammers is naoto, i hope i can write some good stuff with him for the server too)

absolutely love these murder plots for kisaki (a normal sentence) especially the part where he makes takemichi watch helplessly *giggles cutely* and him jamming communications is a+ evil mastermind stuff (people being completely at a loss for what to do the moment you take away their usual technology from them is always super fun and scary to think about). mikey being used to lure the others into a trap?? hell yeah B-)

hehehe there's just something about villains being a little good and heroes being a little bad :^) it's unexpected it's exciting and it just freaking rules tbh

wakui writing tr's main antagonist and tr's main love interest: "what if they were both obsessed with takemichi, to the point where we find out that even a dozen years later they still hadn't moved on from him at all? yes perfect." (need to write ot3 fic for them eventually... either this or hina gets a gf. i have GOT to stop making her sit it out in the cuck chair when she could have two utterly dedicated and loving husbands instead)

[notallrobots]

what is it with inside out and its tendency to burn out fanartists… i’ve seen it here and also on discord. i’ve never really had an fixation before that spanned beyond one character (besides maybe OFF the game which has similar psychology elements although the presentation is vastly more ambiguous. i recommend it!) this is the first time where i’ve become TRULY obsessed with a world / story / a ton of its characters. what has drawn me in? maybe it’s the element of psychology exploration ?

it probably has to do with the fact that soon after i fell in love with io, my household went through some emergency health stuff (everyone is well now though!) and my anxiety then was at an all time high. ahhh anxiety as a character… it is very comforting to compartmentalize her as like a neurotic orange coworker. Like ahh get away from my console ya silly. i feel like beating her freaking ass sometimes though! i’m very sick of hyperventilating!

ennui needa get off my console too i’ve been spending SO much time on my phone. -_-)/

AND FEAR NEEDS TO STEP BACK TOO!!! Baby i love you but you’re smothering me!

feel fatigued but i still want to make random io stuff.. all day all night when i’m not working u_u i think i should take a break. fear will you still love me if i chill out for a second. Fear can we go on a break? 😋 I promise we’ll get back together..

[shirogane-oushirou]

OMG RENNIVERSAY???? HAPPY ANNIVERSARY AGAIN YAYYYY GUSH PASS IF U WANT HEHE 🎫🎫🎫

😭💕💕💕 THANK YOU NIIICK!!!!!!! for both the oushiversary and the renniversary (and honestly all of the time), your tags on rbs make me so giddy and emotional and i'm always so thankful ;w; wah.

i have a hard time expressing just how much ren has done for me this past year so... it's rambling time ksjdnfjk...

[pet death mention] my baby boy cyrus had lost his battle with cancer just a week prior to The Dream. i won't ramble about him here, but he was my biggest support when home life got fuck-y; losing him was like losing a part of myself. [/pet death mention end]

unfortunately i didn't have much to focus on afterward... i was trying to keep busy, but the art parties i'd been attending went on a long hiatus shortly after this, and while i TRIED vrc for a bit i found The Social Anxiety meant it wasn't the best choice for me ;;

and then i had this long, cinematic dream, about befriending and getting flirty with a dorky, fruity scientist from the c.dc (lol. lmao. i would NEVER!!!!! that's the very first thing i changed about him KJASNDKJN) who was fun and goofy and was so so loving to his niece who followed him around everywhere ;w;

and then he did a little villain heel-turn after being infected by a sentient parasite (also lol. lmao. my brain trying to bully me and make me feel bad... but it does it in the form of a cute bisexual man? 🥴). and of COURSE when his niece and i acted afraid of him he did the whole "i'll destroy everyone powerful in this city. and i won't let anyone or anything harm you." thing and i just OOUGHHHH. there's more to it than that, and i don't want to ramble TOO much, but he was so clearly twisted-justice-but-loves-people-so-hard core. that's the good shit ughhh.

and so! according to the document timestamp, i woke up at 5:45am, opened my ipad, went into procreate, and went to town scribbling down a vague idea of his face and mannerisms before passing out again. i KNEW i didn't want to forget this guy; i immediately felt he was special. most of my ocs come from dreams in some form, but he was already almost fully formed. The Ideal. To Me...

and when i woke up for real, i spent the day nailing down his design. and i was Officially Doomed from then on u_u

he's changed SO MUCH in the past year (just the fact that i had to revive his supernatural villain form as a separate AU a few months ago is proof of that KJANSDKJN)... as have i. he gave me someone to focus on as i healed, a reason to continue drawing in spite of the aforementioned art party hiatus, pushed me to join the selfship community For Real, lead to me meeting so many people and making so many friends outside of my teeny tiny a-couple of-friends-from-college circle, helped me appreciate the oc creation process and AUs so much more, pushed me to do monthly art challenges that i haven't done since before i fell ill...

and just... made me love myself more. made me appreciate the things i didn't like about myself. helped me realize the potential of selfshipping in general, to be a tool to see oneself as deserving of love, even if it takes making a fictional character play messenger between the self-doubt and self-acceptance bits of your brain.

i likely would have just stayed in my own little corner -- my quiet little oushirou blog that i didn't have linked anywhere, chatting in stream chats but not talking to any chatters outside of that -- if not for ren. i've met so many people who have similar struggles! different struggles! similar and completely different interests! gone completely outside of my comfort zone and found such a good circle of people who uplift each other!! HELL, my art blog has multiple times the followers as i have here, but they only ever interacted with my umi.neko art LMAO -- here it feels like we all want to support each others' art and writing and other creations and rambles and and and.

and it's because ren gave me a reason to make that step. start tagging things, start following people and reaching out, chatting with people who reached out to me... he's genuinely changed my life for the better. ;w; i don't think i'll ever be able to express just how thankful i am that he came to me at the exact moment i needed him most. i love him so so much rghhhrgh. gripping him in my fist and kissing him all over his face forever and ever. 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

[c-hrona]

okay omg. OH. MY. GOD. I'VE BEEN JUMPING AROUND THE PAST TEN MINUTES COLLECTING MY THOUGHTS BUT STILL NOTHING

I'm euphoric to say the very least???? like so so happy to 1 hear you've enjoyed my little silly things i care for them so so much they're my comfort babies so really. thank you endlessly for it. AND 2???!!!! OMG OMG I HAVE NO WORDS THAT'S FUCKIN PERFECT YOU'RE AMAZING SO TALENTED AND I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU BROUGHT THEM TO LIFE LIKE THAT????

I'm so honored humbled and thankful idk how to just..... let you know how happy you just made me😭😭😭 how do i pay you back for all this joy???? omg I'm so incoherent rn sorry brain not even working i keep staring at your art and I'm so smitten so in love i have no words just wow. thank you so much?????

(a bit of lurking always pays off, it seems🥺🥺)

THEY ARE THE FANDOM COMFORT BABIES and the fact that we torture them with a lil bit of angst and LOTS of comfrot afterwards is very very sexy of us u_u like. In the last reincarnation fic you literally killed me!!!! I was like NO NONONONO 90% of the time, but oh god if I was enjoying it :3c the FLUFF AND THE TEARS AT THE END GOT ME IN A CHOKEHOLDDFNGFKGNDFKGN

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa THANK YOUFGNFDKJNGKN I like drawing him so much you have no ideadfng çwç knowing that I'm doing him a lil bit of justice makes me go over the fucking moon

[murfeelee]

End of Year Asks

Saw this questionnaire on my dash, and couldn’t resist!

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1: Song of the year? The Rumbling (Attack on Titan OST). AoT started 2022 off CORRECT, lemme tell you.

2: Album of the year? The Bleach Thousand Year Blood War OST. That Quincy Imperial March gets me going! I can’t wait for the official release.

3: Favorite musical artist / group you started listening to this year? Kaho Nakamura, from the Belle (2021) OST. Every song she sang was EXCELLENT, her voice is LITERALLY a bell.

4: Movie of the year? The only movies I’ve watched this year are anime, and Belle was my favorite, even though it came out in 2021.

5: TV show of the year? TV: AMC’s Interview with the Vampire. Anime: Bleach.

6: Episode of tv or webisode that defined the year for you? Bleach TYBW S01E01, the hype was real--Bleach is BACK, baby! \(^0^)/ This has been the year of astounding adaptations. We waited TEN YEARS for this, and it was PERFECTION.

7: Favorite actor of the year? Jacob Anderson. My mind was blown, seeing Grey Worm from Game of Thrones turn into THIIIIIIIIS sexy AF vampire, WTF?

8: Game of the year? God of War: Ragnarok. Only been waiting FOUR EFFING YEARS for the sequel.

9: Best month for you this year? June & July, when I was on Summer Break.

10: Something that made you cry this year? So much anime, too much homework.

11: Something you want to do again next year? Go to an anime convention.

12: Talk about a new friend you made this year. I met a nice girl in my Greek class who’s super sweet. We study together and spend most of the time fussing about how much we hate Greek. XD

13: How was your birthday this year? I don’t even remember. My Halloween was lovely though.

14: Favorite book you read this year? The only books I read lately are for school, and none of them are what I’d call favorites.

15: What’s a bad habit you picked up this year? Getting fat off of junk food. I’ve never been this big in my life. I’m depressed.

16: Post a picture from the beginning of the year:

I really didn’t sim much this year--the only pic I posted in January was from my New Years miniset. U_U

17: Post a picture from the end of the year:

My newest hyperfixation--I make myself tired.

18: A memorable meal this year? I ate raw fish at a sushi place for the first time. Never again. At least I wasn’t the one paying. DEEP FRY my food, please, thanks.

19: What’re you excited about for next year? My fave professor’s coming off sabbatical next year, so I’m stoked! I was dead bored this year.

20: What’s something you learned this year? A lot. How much of it will be relevant to my research though....? HA.

21: What’s something new about your place of residence (room, home, or general location) now vs the start of the year? The extra layer of dust over everything, cuz I ain’t in the mood to clean.

22: Favorite place you visited this year? My mom’s is the only place I ever travel to.

23: If you could send a message to yourself back on the first day of the year, what would it be? Get more sleep, idiot, and put the Pepsi down.

24: Did you keep any New Year’s Resolutions? Not really U_U I didn’t get around to doing any Dragon Age or Cyberpunk stuff this year. And I only did a little bit of the Untamed gameplay. The most headway I made was with Bleach, but I didn’t even finish the Substitute Arc--I really wanted to get to the Soul Society stuff.

25: Did you create any characters (in games, art, or writing) this year? Describe one: I REcreated plenty of sims from a bunch of new fandom INSP gameplays, including: Bleach, The Old Guard, Critical Role, and Interview with the Vampire. I think my favorite has been Caduceus from Critical Role.

I had a lot of fun making him and his CC with all the mushrooms, and the lot I built for him, full of plants and stuff. So rarely do I indulge in High Fantasy, because it’s HARD to do fanciful gameplay--especially for MEN, since everything’s female-oriented in The Sims 3 communitty--unless I make the CC myself--which I hate doing. But I really wanted Caduceus in my game, so, alas.

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Thanks for reading!

Happy Simming, and Happy New Year!