#u and i on the gdoc

[idorukiss]

Heres a sorta drabble/headcanon kinda thing of how I picture MC's relationship with Zayne could develop~ I'm not much of a writer but i very much plan to do ones for the other boys as well because the brainrot has consumed me, so please enjoy~ 1,039 words || You can also read it on ao3 ‧͙⁺˚･༓･˚⁺‧͙⁺˚･༓･˚⁺‧͙⁺˚･༓･˚⁺‧͙⁺˚･༓･˚⁺‧͙⁺˚･༓･˚⁺‧͙

Xavier ・ Rafayel ・ Sylus

You are without a doubt the reason for Zayne's existence and his driving force all through school into becoming a Cardiac Surgeon. And all of that lead up to him finally becoming your personal doctor, everything he studied for is so he can finally fulfill his purpose to help you and your heart

At first, Zayne puts up a wall between you guys- trying his best to keep things as strictly professional as possible. Seeing your face in person again only brought back all the feelings he's boxed away and then some, and he was scared it would somehow come in the way of your treatment.

But he can't hold himself back for long, especially after you find yourself seeing him outside of the hospital more and more often. Going from quick hellos in passing, to checking out new Cafe menu items together, to even showing up at his place unannounced to make sure he isn't working on his day off. Somehow you've worked yourself into his daily life without any effort and everything just feels like that's how it was always meant to be

Of course your own feelings start to develop too, you aren't even sure when they first appeared. Could you have felt this way when you were both kids and didn't realize it till now? Or is it a result of getting closer and seeing so many different sides to him lately?? It all happened so naturally you almost didn't notice it at first until you sat there staring at his profile in the car one night in content silence and it clicked. You love this man with every fiber of your being

Nobody made any moves for the longest time, any plans you guys had made together were seemingly still platonic- much to the groans of those around you who were very aware about both sets of feelings. One night as he is walking you to your apartment door after spending the day together, you mention something coming up- Maybe its another Twinkle Toy's event, or even just a new movie coming out that you are dying to see. But he smiles as he listens to you excitedly talk about it, obviously deciding in that moment he was taking you to it no matter what

"So what time does it start?" "I think the site said 8pm" "Alright then, I'll pick you up at 5pm. Does that work for you?" "Why 5? We don't need to be the first ones to show up you know" He smiles at you "Well I figured it was only right to take you out to dinner first if we were going to be out that late. We don't have to if you don't want to though-" "No, dinner sounds great" you say with the biggest grin "Its a date then" he responds as he lifts up your hand pressing a gentle kiss on it before walking back to the elevator leaving you stunned

Did he just call it a date?! You spend the foreseeable future with your head in the clouds, practically floating with excitement for the date- which goes amazingly once it approaches. It's just like every other time you guys have hung out, but also nothing like it at the same time. He helps you in and out of his car and offers his arm to you while you walk side by side. Every little action he does is seen in a new light. There is no way you could ignore the flips your heart does every time you see his absolutely smitten face- not even aware of your own equally smitten look in return

And any plans from now on have all become official dates as well, with him treating you like an absolute princess the entire time. He never takes that next step forward though, only going as far as holding hands and gazing lovingly at everything you do. It looks like you have to be the one to initiate anything more at this rate

Once again he walks you to your apartment door, and he lingers just a moment before he turns back around and you grab his arm in that moment. Stammering a bit before giving a determined sigh and placing a quick kiss on his cheek. Out of sheer embarrassment you tried to enter your apartment quickly, but its your turn to get stopped. And this time its with his lips crashing onto yours. It was brief, way too brief, but absolutely electric- he apologizes and you shush him and give him the goofiest in love smile before you part ways for the night

Zayne is constantly in battle with himself as to not move too quickly or do anything that you might not be ready for. He usually lets you make the first move, or tests the waters in a way where you can take the lead in whichever direction you are most comfortable. And without a doubt, like with the first kiss you guys shared, as soon as you show him that you are okay with something he won’t hold back (of course always asking permission the next time)

Brief pecks goodnight, turn into deeper kisses in the car before you get out. He grabs your hand every chance he is able to as if its second nature to have your fingers linked between his at any given moment. You only had to invite him inside once at the end of a date before it was a given that after every subsequent date you would spend some time on the couch cuddling and making out before he went back home

Even when things started getting more intimate between you, he always made sure you were the one making the first move and continued with caution- always getting your consent before doing anything. It was touching knowing he cared so much about you, but sometimes you wished he would just stop holding back and have his way. There's nothing he could do that you would say no to at this point, you love and trust him with your entire being

You wouldn't change anything between you guys. You are Zayne's entire world, and he has easily become yours as well

[drakyns]

im so amused, most of my best writing are just ns/fw replies. im so sorry to all of shipping partners, this is just who i am i guess 😔

[odnson]

fic - operation starling [9/9] (zosan anastasia AU)

“You’re going to become a king,” Zeff says as a reminder, his eyes now on Sanji. “My stupid little eggplant never forgot you, and you were just a prince then. So far down the line of succession that it hardly mattered, but you were still one. And now you’ll be a king.”

At ten, Zoro didn’t want to become a prince. At twenty-one, he has no wish to be king.

[ao3]

[parkitaco]

sucksss when u have such good material to write an essay abt but literally no reason to write an essay

[nikomedes]

it rly is like this w me

[surejackson]

i. we have always lived in the castle, shirley jackson // ii. the braindead megaphone, george saunders // iii. the heart is a lonely hunter, carson mccullers

      a broken ruler.  kofi siriboe.  cis man.  he/him.  ⸻  𓆏   how  you  doin',  explorer?  woah  ...  no  need  to  get  all  shaky,  'kay?  just  gonna  throw  some  easy  questions  your  way!  nothing  too  serious  —  standard  procedure,  comprende?  so,  first  things  first:  jackson evans,  twenty-seven,  former counselor?  awesome,  awesome  ...  you  wrote  in  your  application  that  ─  oh  my!  ─  you  see  yourself  as organized  and  rigid?  sheesh,  talk  about  a  killer  combo.  oh,  yeah,  and  let's  not  forget  your  abilities:  collecting vintage books, playing in chess tournaments, woodworking.  well,  aren't  you  just  a  jack  of  all  trades?  but  even  the  strongest  oak  in  the  forest  has  a  soft  spot,  right?  thunderstorms  and  losing your sense of control  ...  woah,  hey,  this  is  a  judgment  free  zone!  scout's  honor!  welp,  looks  like  we're  ready  to  wrap  this  up.  ah,  wait!  knew  i  was  forgetting  something.  remember  to  slip  that  notebook with your ‘magic words’  into  your  bag.  oh,  how  do  i  know  about  that?  pssht,  you  told  me,  silly!  see  you  'round  camp.

QUICK FACTS:

full name: jackson graham evans

date of birth: january 18th, 1965

zodiac big three: capricorn sun, capricorn moon, virgo rising

gender & pronouns: cis man & he/him

sexual + romantic orientation: bisexual

ethnicity: black

nationality: us-american

religion: atheist

languages spoken: english (5), french (4)

enneagram: 1w2

mbti: xstj

alignment: lawful neutral

character inspiration(s): mary katherine 'merricat' blackwood (we have always lived in the castle), arnold waite (hangsaman), marilyn perlman (the road through the wall), the reverend (lincoln in the bardo), ...

BACKSTORY

triggers: death, magical thinking

maybe i will make a pretty version one day

i am realizing now that it reads like he was there during the 1987 massacre. i would go edit to make it read like that was when he started working with his dad and just like. generally heard word of all the frequent campers he knew FLHKDJS but then it gives that ugly "edited at" and im a silly goose so

TL;DR

13y/o boy made a joke about his sister dying and then she died shortly thereafter, enter magical thinking that colored every part of his life. parents of the same boy, only he's 17 now, had an idea and made him go be a camp counselor. being very rigid and unerring with odd rules wasn't seen as weird, just annoying! on the side, said boy/guy trained to become an essayist like his father. then people started dying at the camp because they were saying his magic words - the words you cannot say - and then the biggest form of protection fell off a tree the first year he didn't go (bc he was working with his dad tbh his dad is more of the arnold waite one here) and everything went to hell :\ guy spent the following year as a senile man, then got his act together a little more. then the camp opened again and he was like 'actually-'

HEADCANONS

The words this month are plurality, palindrome, and parallelogram. It felt like a P month.

The day he gains a sense of humor is the day Hell freezes over.

just as i was rushin to get my app in im rushin to post this i will have to find my lil list on my notes app later tn!

CONNECTION IDEAS

tba!

EXTRAS

interview/playlist/pinterest tba!

[bronanlynch]

my biggest grumpy old man opinion is that two factor authentication is evil. can't get into my school email bc the app isn't compatible with my phone, and I can't submit an IT request abt it bc I have to be logged in to access the request form

[3416]

puttin some bullet points in a gdoc with that one. thanks man

you're so welcome. hbFIJKMDLS i have also been chatting with various other people about those things so i hope SOMEONE anyone comes through. we need more fic in general

[burinazar]

My take on translating Belaf’s Lullaby. Original Japanese text posted earlier today to Tsukushi's twitter here. At the time of my writing this, early this afternoon in the hours after he posted it, the only translations available were machine-based, and even with my poor language skills I could see some things were being unfavorably, un-lyrically chopped up by autotranslate, so I put this together for friends.

For my notes on a few potentially quirky choices as well as some limited analysis on the song itself (warning: rambling. but i could ramble a lot more about this), please see the comments section on this document: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1HJi6GNl2T2-9V44ue5mRIqhEGKevoPMvw-dWjqALO28/ Commenting is enabled if anyone has constructive criticism.

[chrysalizzm]

this is not an acau update acc btw im just a korean thats vry passionate abt kmcyt kdhfke

[hannie-dul-set]

im done reading almost all of your works (only 1 soobin fic left) and wow hannie-dul-set YOU HAVE ROCKED MY WORLD youre one of my most favourite writers ever i worship u i think about you daily thank you so much for sharing your GODLY writing talent with us i love you. i just finished reading the interlude of 'it takes for years to grow a peach tree - pjm' AND MAN AM I SHAKEN i have no words im so so speechless youre so admirable this is perfect THIS IS ART i swear 'nabi/mogi - cbg' and this jaemin series have become a part of my personality now just WOW i'm gonna be thinking about these everyday now. you have ruined my life in the best way possible and your writing style and the way you design the plot im mesmerized !!!! you were born to write, you're a fucking ARTIST. thank you SO MUCH

HSUFHDUF PLS!!!! 😭😭😭😭 peach tree and nabi/mogi are definitely in the same category of mundane yearning, no plot just emotions and i always worry that people won't find it as entertaining as my sillier fics, but i'm so so happy to hear that you love these two works that have essentially parts of my soul embedded into them BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

[stilettobitearch]

🥀 ooc. crawls out of the carrd editor: ta daaaaah

[starstruckodysseys]

you could be happy too… losing my mind over my own writing

[uhzuku]

love that i slapped 1k into professor!nanami at 4am within like 20 min after ignoring it since december <3

[yangjeongin]

wrote over 6000 words in the last 24 hours shoutout to my new adhd med thank u queen

[whimsicalcotton]

Radio Anon — something else I enjoy about Marrow Max: the fact that going back to Seattle is THE sticking point it's like

Max: [has been silent the whole day, drifting in and out of awareness like a boat with no anchor]

Someone who is not Chloe or Rachel: You should probably go back to Seattle—

Max: [cocks shotgun that suddenly appears in her lap] This mosh pit ain't big enough for the both of us, shaka brah.

But I also love that her first instinct was to run from Rachel and Chloe. It does feel like it genuinely stems from her need to be an “everyday hero”, and her desire to atone for everyone else’s mistakes. Reminds me of 15 and Mrs. Flood’s convo in Church on Ruby Road:

“You look like you've lost a pound and found a sixpence. What's wrong?”

“Just wondering… Maybe I’m the bad luck.”

I also think she definitely picked up on Chloe’s self-sacrificial habits in the loop; you can only hear “there are so many people who deserve to live… way more than me” before you start trying to prove them wrong in the most self-destructive ways possible. And maybe too it’s a way to circumvent the question of “what happens AFTER you’ve won?” I think she’s been through the loop so many times, she’s forgotten (or blocked out) that there’s a date beyond October 12th, 2015

Finally: New Max song — Exile, Vilify by The National (https://youtu.be/G-Vg2YS-sFE?si=u8YIXuYV1pC4FVzL)

ksdhgfshkdfhsdj Exile Vilify it's been so long... will absolutely give it another listen but i Know it's good bc it was on my very first homura playlist way back in the day <3

also yeah she does not take kindly to the notion of leaving Arcadia again. to quote my other friendly anon, "For Max, home isn’t a place, it’s a person and that person is Chloe Price!!!"

imo she's never considered Seattle as anything close to home. it's just a place she used to stay. somewhere she was stuck in. the word home had little meaning to Max until she came back and got close with Chloe again; and by that point the idea of having to go back to Seattle is a threat and a torture. going back means giving up, abandoning Chloe again (and by her own choice this time.) going back to Seattle means letting go, and Max Caulfield is not good at letting go.

I think she’s been through the loop so many times, she’s forgotten (or blocked out) that there’s a date beyond October 12th, 2015

ohhh Ya for sure. my girl doesn't know what January is anymore. summer sun and spring breeze and winter snow have become strangers to her. she knows only autumn and wind and rain and trying again. but it's fine she's fine <3

also also

drifting in and out of awareness like a boat with no anchor

obsessed w this phrasing. The Imagery,, perfect. also reminds me of one of my songs for her; The Anchor by Bastille