#ty so much for tagging me bby!!

[forhyune]

𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐬, 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞𝐬!・h.h.

𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬・1.3k | 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠・idol!hyunjin x makeup artist!reader | 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠(𝐬)・VERY suggestive so mdni, swearing | 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞(𝐬)・fluff, flirting, humor, big fwb vibes, basically hyunjin Wants You and you're just trying to do your job

𝐚/𝐧・this took me less than half an hour to write i am actually the biggest sucker for this trope. also, we hit another milestone recently!! i appreciate all of you immensely; look forward to more ♡

“Four ‘til!” A crew member calls into a walkie-talkie, and you’re so surprised by this information that you stumble right over him, your heel ungracefully ramming into the poor man’s toes. 

You apologize hurriedly, bowing yourself out of the awkward situation—and then you check your watch.

7:56 P.M. You curse under your breath; you'd completely lost track of time.

Briefly, you contemplate your predicament, drumming the palette of makeup you’re holding in your right hand against the palm of your left: do I have to? Is it really necessary?

But you know your answer even as you’re asking yourself the questions. You’re damn meticulous—sometimes to a fault, but always to your own satisfaction.

You had a vision, and you’re going to see it through.

With impeccable timing, your supervisor appears out of nowhere, and you fasten a hand around her arm. “Where are the members?”

“Stage left.” Then she registers your question in full, and snaps her eyes to your face. “Hang on, are you out of your mind—”

“I won’t be a minute!” You call, already scurrying away.

“You won’t be employed!” She returns, but you’ve already disappeared into the curtains’ dense shadows.

You jog a short distance, turn a few corners, and finally spot the eight members clad in outfits of varying amounts of silver and black, every inch of them so sparkly that they’re reflective, even with how little light reaches this part of the stage. You’re looking for one man in particular, though, and you single him out right away: long, black locks falling into his eyes as he adjusts his microphone, broad shoulders and tall frame flattered perfectly by an obsidian suit, looking like he fell off a Paris Fashion Week runway and into a wormhole that teleported him to Osaka.

All your doing, by the way.

“Hwang Hyunjin!” You shout, and he (along with several of the other members) whips around at the sound. And Hyunjin furrows a perfect brow when his stylist materializes before him, wielding a palette of makeup like it’s a baseball bat.

“Are you out of your mind?” He calls.

“Why does everyone keep asking me that?” You lift a pointer finger into the air and curl it twice. “Come here. Hurry."

Hyunjin gives the others an apologetic glance before hurrying over, and you are met with a blast of Byredo Blanche when he arrives in front of you, the expression on his face equal parts amused and confused.

“Down,” you say, flicking open the eyeshadow palette with one hand.

And then Hyunjin understands. A loud, uninhibited laugh leaves his lips, a sound you’ve become so accustomed to by now that you’re completely oblivious to the fact that only you bring it out of him.

“You really are something,” he says, spreading his feet apart until he’s brought himself to your eye level.

With that, you get to work, one hand gathering some eyeshadow on the pads of your fingers, the other moving to hold his shoulder. Brushes are luxuries you can’t afford right now.

“Close your eyes,” you direct, your voice softer now that your face is only inches away from his, and Hyunjin heeds your words obediently. You begin to dab the crimson powder against the curve of his lids, careful to avoid messing up the rest of his eye makeup. His lashes flutter involuntarily at your gentle touch.

“A shadow to match the lip,” you murmur absently. “I pictured it and knew it had to happen."

Hyunjin makes a sound of approval, and then there is that smirk on his face, the one you’ve learned only means trouble. “You’ve been thinking about my face the whole night, then?”

“No. I’ve been thinking about whether vegetables can feel pain,” you deadpan. “Yes, I've been thinking about your face. It’s my job.”

“Is that all?”

“Sure is.” You blow gently on his finished eye and move on to the other. “Now save your voice for the stage.”

He obliges, but that dreadful, self-assured expression remains on his face, and you're immeasurably grateful that he can’t see the blush that you’re well aware paints your cheeks.

“Done,” you say a minute later, straightening with a confident flourish. And you think you could squeal when Hyunjin opens his eyes, and you see that the exact effect you’d hoped for has been realized: a splash of maroon that is both subtle and seductive, sleek and suave; that not only accentuates the shape of his eyes but pulls attention to his lips, which are dyed a similar hue. Damn, you’re good at your job.

“I don’t have a mirror,” you say, looking around. “I can use my phone if you want to—”

“It’s fine,” he says. “I trust you.”

You grin at this. “Good, because you look sexy as hell."

Upon hearing your words, he straightens to his full height. You don’t think much of this at first, too busy re-examining the masterpiece you’ve created on his eyelids, but in the blink of an eye you’re suddenly aware that Hyunjin is standing conspicuously and intentionally close to you. You instinctively move away, but you’re too late; he’s already guiding your back to the wall behind you, his body enclosing yours against the smooth surface.

You send a panicked look over Hyunjin’s shoulder, only to realize that the two of you are completely out of anyone’s line of vision. That doesn’t stop the sharp hiss that leaves your lips: “Hyunjin, are you cr—”

But then there is a familiar gust of breath against your skin, a thumb over your cheekbone.

He knows he shouldn’t, but he can’t help himself when you get like this; all bossy and concentrated, an ambitious glint in your eyes, an air of confidence in your gait. He always thinks it’s ironic that your job is to make him look good when all he’s ever done is admire your beauty, so effortless and profuse that it feels timeless, like freshly bloomed forget-me-nots.

He knows he shouldn’t—but he does.

When your lips meet, they move together with an ease and familiarity that reveal how many times you’ve done this before. Hyunjin brings a hand to the small of your back, and you tangle your stained fingers in his luscious hair, the delicious pressure of his mouth upon yours rendering your reluctance (and the eyeshadow palette, which clatters noisily to the floor) momentarily forgotten.

As the kiss deepens, the bridges of your noses slide together; your every sense becomes overwhelmed by the slippery plush of his full lips and the warm caress of his large hands; you drink in the rosy musk of his cologne like your cells need it to live as opposed to oxygen. The tip of Hyunjin’s tongue teases the seam of your lips, as if requesting access, and you grant it to him with a light moan that is both blissful and thoroughly exasperated. When he hears the gorgeous sound, he has half a mind to scoop you up and leave the venue then and there.

Then, a voice bellows from not too far away: “One minute, everyone! Places, places!”

You’re so startled that you not only break away from him but jump a meter into the air, giving Hyunjin’s shoulder a hearty slap on your way down. But he is entirely unbothered, dipping his head to press a trail of light kisses along your jaw instead.

“You’ll be watching the performance, yes?” He murmurs against the sensitive skin.

“Of course, what else—”

“Don’t take your eyes off me.”

And the words throw your heart against your ribs like uncooked French fries in a vat of oil.

He is just about to walk away when you realize how decidedly disheveled you’ve left him, and you yank him back to you with a fresh wave of panic. You wipe at his smudged lipstick with the cuffs of your sleeves; nitpick his hair until every strand is back in its proper place. Only when you’ve gotten rid of every piece of incriminating evidence do you permit him to leave.

“Thank you very much,” he says, bending into a gracious bow, the perfect image of professionalism. The facade is given away only by the upturned corner of his still-flushed lips.

“Break a leg,” you return drily.

The last thing you hear is that stupid, bright laugh before Hyunjin rejoins his members, and they step into the strobe lights together.

Even when the concert begins and the stadium is drowned in fanatical screams, the heartbeat in your ears remains the loudest sound of all—and you bury your burning face in your hands.

Hwang Hyunjin will be the death of you.

© 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐱 (est. 090323) · all works are pieces of original writing and all characters and relationships are purely fictional. please do not repost or reuse for any reason.

[fruityindividual]

sash's *bangs gavel* divorce!! recs

lil collection of some faves + tbr's for anyone keen for fics of the sickeningly fond wolfstar exes variety <3

hurling crowbirds at mockingbars @wrapped-up

jesus where 2 begin. the 'then' vs 'now' of it all GAH.. it's sweet and funny and angsty and beautifully written. the characterisations n lil details n the Jealousy.. laurv when rj lupin is w someone else cos we're all like 'hm. sure.' n sirius is all 'sure well. for now.' massive ty 2 @whorerific for reccing this one!!

dreaming of after @del-stars

perusing the r/s + divorce search tab as one does, this one caught me off guard i was NOT PREPARED 2 luv it as much as i did.. sirius my LUV. the angst the miscommunication the lovely ending. well i sure did enjoy this one. the most divorced un-divorced couple 2 ever never divorce undivorceably

rolling in the deep @kaaaaaaarf

present 4 me!!! karfster, whilsttt ur hatefuck r/s saga has my heart, this is delish!! SAUR hot angry n unhinged n i'm v glad u shared this w us. ur writing is..mhm it's just so. like so very. x

orange juice (i've been ready for you to come home for so long) -raggedypond

lads. lads this fic bangs. miscommuncation? No communication!! giggled kicked my feet they should never communicate ever actually. they should exclusively use smoke signals at night or whtevr they should always b this frustrating n wonderful.. luv this lil thing v v much

fault lines @greyeyedmonster-18

think abt this one all. the. time. they're so sickeningly fond of each other.. the depth of their relationship is just. well i don't cry when reading but i rlly wanted 2 w this one. r/s separate n raise harry n well. this is a 4evr fave.. heartbreaking n soso heartwarming n beautiful

bound (series) -shiftylinguini

will always n 4evr rec this series. exes 2 luvrs bby the girls they r fighting!!! angry sirius eeeek.. smiling just thinkin abt when i read this for the first time.. sirius comes back from the veil n his ex-husband has married his cousin n absolutely no one is having a nice time. well. well that's not- [major moon emoji]

here we are again -dykesiriusblack

this was the first r/s muggle au i read so don't remember it teww well but. sexually charged wine tasting ('i tell u wht folks that is really nice. that is- that is bloody loveleh') .. the memories, the banter, the lovely awkwardness of 'hi it's me. n u. well here we fucking are again' ....whimpering

a grave mistake @soloorganaas

PA-LEEK !! another sirius is back from the dead au n rj lupin (chronic loserboygenius extraordinaire) has married his ex-husband's cousin (swotting his nose w a newspaper).. oh they're so messy n flawed n wonderful. (also. well. this fic is rlly hot. mhm.) HEARTBREAKING n LOVELY fic

of memories and milk thievery @mayescapade

if u haven't read this i assume u live under a v hard, soundproof rock. deserves every single bit of love .. it Bangs. silly ex-husbands steal each other's groceries n veg n it's all soso fun n beautiful.. luv it so bad, they should divorce again i think

what's in the tbr....

penciled in -nordicsun

think i'll be leaving sum big fat comments on this. it's this feeling i have.

through the gaps of sunlight @pancakehouse & art by @belleandsaintsebastian

victorian exes2luvrs r/s. r u JOKING. wht the heck this looks gorgeous

right back where we started from @soloorganaas

magic + divorce ..HIHELLOHOWRUUU. cannot believe i haven't begun this yet

you can have this heart to break @anouri

yas, u can deffo have my heart 2 break, this looks delish

labyrinth @mayescapade

'he wasn't you.' .....biting my lip.

read the tags, leave the authors love, etc.. kay bye <3

[akielzx]

Hello, May I request a onshot including cuddles with Johann Chu at night? Ty. <3

YESYESY I LVOE JOHANN VERRY MUCH, OUR 'ROBOT' BOYYY also HELP IM SORRY I FORHOT I HAD THIS IN MY DRAFTS

bro i'm so sorry i had this in my drafts i think for a month, i'll then write the other submission later :sob:

maybe i just wanna be yours ！✦

＃；oneshot, johann chu x reader

tags // just tad bit spoiler (the info abt shavee in the chat n all and only that i think, maybe also abt his dad), comfort, slight misunderstanding but it's fine in the end, understandings, johann bby muah muah, also johann might be a bit ooc so bear with me, this is kinda long [keyword: kinda]

johann chu wasn't the one to be expressive of his feelings, and understand his feelings. hence why he felt bemused about [name], they certainly made a huge imprint on him.

yet shavee had also had an impact on him. but [name]'s case was slightly different. even if he had missed an opportunity to have her, it was okay now. he was healing a bit.

when they were chatting and johann had slipped this information to [name] and some other emotional turmoil, he yet puts training first once again.

nonetheless, all was well in the end. it was night and johann thought of something. [name] was doing quite well in their training, but he heard from a little birdy that they weren't quite doing well in draconic history.

maybe stress was getting to them? either way, as their senior, he felt obligated to help them out. it wasn't in a negative light, but he somehow felt like it.

as they were conversing, he then brought up their history course. [name] surprisingly did mention how they were struggling to understand a little and he offered to help them.

they asked where the both of them should go and he bluntly said at his dorm. [name] was confused at first why they wouldn't be doing it at the library.

he simply said it might be a bit troublesome for them as to referring to the girls that swooned over him, even if some girls do have self-control, he still didn't want to risk it.

and he wanted to spend more time with [name] not in training. he wanted to know more about them. miscellaneous things would suffice.

as the day passed, it was finally the time they decided to meet up that johann proposed. he asked [name] to meet him at the basketball court so he could escort them to his dorm.

when they finally came, he started to escort [name]. it was a bit awkward at first, given how the girls they passed by would look at them in envy.

[name] would try and flip them off by either going to scratch their cheek, getting something out of their eyes, or tucking their hair behind their ear using the middle finger.

but johann caught on and said that it doesn't matter and just ignore them for the best. they slightly grumbled, but begrudgingly complied as he is their senior and they didn't want to hear a lecture from a certain someone.

johann sighed, slightly amused but it went unnoticed. as soon as they entered the lionheart's club base, there susie was. she exchanged words with johann until she spotted [name].

she then asked if they were going to join, but johann answered for [name] that they were just looking around and dismissed susie. that made them confused, but thankful either way for their senior for answering for them.

he then led [name] to his dorm, and there they both discussed where they were struggling a bit. they shyly confessed that even tho they could've said that they would just research it, they were thankful for his help.

they can, but it was much more understandable if someone was there teaching it because they could get their possible unanswered questions answered.

johann nodded understanding. it is preferred that most should have a study group so there's a chance someone knows the subject they're studying and can answer simple questions.

as time passed, [name] started to understand more. they scribbled in their notebook while listening to johann. "so.. only the light king, priest- 'inazami' possessed equal power to nidhogg?"

johann nodded, confirming the statement was true, [name] scribbled again and continued, "but she also failed to rebel and renounce his position.. right?"

"yes. you are correct, i must say i am impressed by you..- not only you are quite the fast learner when we train, but also a good listener." [name] scratched their head a bit, "eh.. haha. it's just that i- wait no, you're a good guide and tutor is all.."

'and i like hearing your voice..' [name] felt a bit awkward and looked at the time, it was getting a bit late. they then start to stand up from their comfortable position.

johann was a bit confused at this sudden action, he still wanted to ask some questions. the not-too-personal ones. he couldn't think straight this time and grabbed [name]'s wrist.

"where.. are you going?"

[name]'s eyes widened a bit and looked at him.

"johann?"

his grip on [name] wavered a bit, his action seemingly getting him off-guard. he then loosened his grip and backed away. he pondered about something.

"..i don't know what this feeling is… i feel a sense of euphoria when i see you or… sometimes everything's better when you're here."

"huh?" [name] looked at him dumbfoundedly.

"i'm really glad you're here, but at the same time, i'm not because i'm scared. i'm scared i might lose you too."

"johann senpai? what are you-"

"i hope you know how much you mean to me. i wish you could see in you what i see in you."

[name]'s eyes widen at the sudden statement. they stood in their place shocked. "i… i don't understand you johann.." they ask, their brows furrowing in confusion.

"i don't either. but.."

"i'll hear you out on this. but i don't want it to be too long."

"..why?"

"…"

johann looked at [name] in anticipation, yet they stayed quiet. he asked once again, and [name] suspired.

"because… i don't want to make more assumptions and fall harder."

"why would you fall harder..?-"

"johann senpai, i've had harboured feelings for you. it feels off sometimes. i don't know if- if it's okay given your circumstance and mine."

he looked at [name] expectantly, yet stunned. he didn't expect his junior to also like him. but his brows furrowed. when [name] decided to speak once more, as he had an unanswered question.

"it's not just an infatuation i have for you, it's not just any epitome that i admire. but the way, you are you senpai. i've never loved anyone the way i love you before..''

[name] then took a deep breath before continuing.

"i'd accept your flaws in any way possible, i'd try and understand you better with how you act and maybe i understand.. but i don't. i don't understand how you feel about me. i appreciate you for you-"

"and i do too."

the sudden intervention has [name] stunned. they decided to look at johann, just to see him furrowing his eyebrows. his grasp went back to [name]'s wrist and slightly pulled them closer, but not harshly.

"i like spending time with you. it's nice. i feel calmer when i’m with you. it’s weird. i never thought i could feel like this, but you showed up. now, it’s like i don’t wanna go on knowing i might lose the feeling. and i might end up losing you."

[name]'s hands slightly quivered as his voice wavered. he felt their hands slightly shaking and he held it with the hand he grasped their wrist with.

"..are you okay [name]?.."

[name]'s breath hitches for a bit before taking a deep breath from their mouth and shaking their head, "yeah.. i'm- i'm fine johann."

"no. you aren't fine, did.. did i say something wrong perhaps..?"

johann squeezed their hand gently and rubbed circles on it, this action made [name] tense but relaxed a bit after they snapped out of their trance.

"wha- no!- no, you didn't. i just-"

johann took both of [name]'s hands and held them close to his chest, making the both of them close to each other, but not too close.

"i'm sorry if that caught you off-guard. i just couldn't-"

he was cut off as [name] hugged him and nuzzled their head close. they hummed to themselves and hugged him tighter,

"i like spending time with you too.."

"..then spend the night with me"

"of course."

-

ok bro i know that wasnt really cuddling but man idk :sob: thats all you get please accept it p;ease. im beiggin you

[thedeadthree]

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MISUNDERSTOOD VILLAIN

prepare for an onslaught of both the most dehumanizing and hateful takes, and flood of thirst comments. you are chronically misunderstood. whether or not you're actually evil is debatable. you may be acting out for revenge, to defend someone you love, or even just to protect yourself. you're a pretty jaded person. you don't trust or even really like most people. maybe you did at one point. but that part of you is gone, and you don't go a single day without grieving it. you think a lot about what your life could have been. you're stuck in the past. you're angry and maybe you don't even want to be, but this is the only way you can see to survive. you're open, but less in a trusting way and more like a wound. you don't like to let people see you, but the hurt spills out of you before you can stop it. you're impulsive, even as you try hard to plan and prepare. maybe someday your side of the story will finally be heard. until then, you can convince yourself that being hated is safer anyway.

DESPERATE NARRATOR

this story is a cycle, and you're spinning around it like a hamster in a ball being tormented by a cat. you know how this story ends. after all, you've told it a thousand times. but you try to change it every time. you love the people in this story more than anything. so watching them fall victim to the narrative breaks you in a way you can't begin to describe. but all you can do is tell the story── their story── with tears in your eyes. you're prone to anxiety and feelings of helplessness. you have so much love in your heart, and for once you wish it would change something. it didn't. it doesn't. it won't. but you refuse to stop telling the story. and you refuse to stop loving the people in it. in this way, no one is stronger than you. you just wish being strong hurt less.

UNASSUMING EXTRA

you had maybe 3 lines but you will forever own my heart. you play a very minor role, one often forgotten about (not by me tho bby, i'll love you forever). however, your significance in the story is pretty big. something about you propels the story forward in a way no one else can do. you tend to blend into the background, and you probably like it that way. you want a simple life, free from the drama of the main characters. unfortunately, your story is almost always cut short. your role is usually a death that kickstarts the plot. going unnoticed did not save you, but it probably did bring you some peace of mind.

TORTURED LOVE INTEREST

you're so hot. sorry about the horrors. you're the kind of person people immediately notice. whether you have a distinct style, are more outgoing, or are just plain beautiful, you make an impression. people usually feel the need to protect you, which probably frustrates you to no end. you're not weak! you're not fragile! you're not helpless! but the people in your life tend to disagree. maybe it's your lover, the protagonist, trying to keep you out of their own turmoil. maybe it's someone responsible for you in some way, keeping you away from your lover, while they head down an increasingly dark path. regardless, all you really want is a sense of autonomy! unfortunately, you're very likely to die before that happens. the audience will be so caught up in the grief your death causes the protagonist that they forget to grieve you as a person. you deserved better, but unfortunately this is not your story. maybe it should have been.

SWEET SUPPORTING CHARACTER

i wanna be your grandma so bad, please let me pinch your face and knit you a sweater. you're most likely the best friend of the protagonist, and there's some possible overlap between you and the narrator. you're sweet and try very hard to be selfless. you watch the ones you love descend into darkness, and make every effort to help them through it all. it's not enough. you keep trying to make it enough. you provide comic relief, a listening ear, a hug, advice── any method of support you can think of. your own personal tragedy isn't documented. sometimes you wish it was, even though you're the one who ensures it is not. you want people to care for you the way you do for others. but you refuse to ask for it, so you wait for others to read between the lines. they usually don't. at least you're the one who gets to survive the tragedy. no matter how many times you beg to trade places, it is always you at the end, sitting at someone else's grave.

BOLD PROTAGONIST

you're the star of the show, baby! and boy does that come with a lot of emotional turmoil. you have a seemingly endless supply of determination. whether you have a lot of goals, or one big one, you're constantly working towards it. you're pretty restless, and struggle with imposter syndrome and generally feeling like you should be doing more. your insecurity might not be immediately obvious to others, however, as you come across as very strong and bold. vulnerability is not your strong suit, and that's likely to be your downfall. if only you had just let people in, and asked for help... well, maybe this was always gonna be a tragedy.

[celestie0]

Hi ellie sweetie im so sorry abt that anon and that u receive that kind of pressure regularly

You and your mutual did not deserve that bullshit

If you dont mind tagging their account then id like to check it out im sure their a very talented writer just like you

You’ve built this platform for yourself and us and im very proud of you seriously I find it incredible what you do because again i’ve sent an ask previously about how much I adore kickoff it’s literally become the love of my life rn and it hurts that it’s not published bc obviously I want to have my favourite book displayed on a shelf

I’m so grateful that I discovered this gem (and you too 😘) meanwhile your just another human being somewhere else in the world living your own life and choosing to share your work with us for free and that’s not something that should be taken for granted so ty bby for giving us your time and gracing us with your immaculate brain (*smooches* 🧠)

anyway it was probably just some bratty little 13 year olds sending those kinds of asks because they haven’t yet figured out that the world doesn’t revolve around them so please don’t let it get to you

Tbh I was wondering why you hadn’t been responding to asks very recently but only because interacting with you has become a cute little part of my day so I was just a little bummed to not hear from you

Mainly I just panicked that I’d accidentally been blocked or something lol

and ofc I’ve been waiting for chapter 11 of kickoff and also the ihm update as well and I’m really excited for that but you take your time love it’s your precious work

hi babe!! i saw your follow up ask too and yes indeed my mutual is the one that writes symptoms & causes!! @/lostfracturess <3 HIGHLY RECOMMEND THE SERIES IT’s one of my FAVE fics ever!!

omg idk why but u saying you are proud of me hit me in my titty 😭💕 in like a wholesome way LOL…yea these entitled anons can make us feel like slaves sometimes but thank you for giving me a feeling of being proud of my platform i’ve built n my works too :”) that’s so sweet. and PLS tysm for the love for kickoff too aaa <33

it’s my pleasure to share my works w my lovely readers like you :”) it’s hard to stay positive w hate n negtivity but i remind myself most of my readers are literally walking angels on earth so PLEASE!! i should be thanking YOU!!

and hahah yes darling also referring to your follow up ask, i was just a lil busy on vacation so i’ve been hella behind on asks 💀 sorry to cause any concern!! i’m so happy to hear interacting w me is a cute part of your day pls 😭💕 you’re adorable

i’m so glad you’re looking forward to my updates bb <3 so sorry this ask took me a while to respomd to but i had such a huge smile on my face when i read it for the first tiem :”) sm love from me <33

[badassxbirdy]

Oooh!! That was a strawberry, I think? 🍓! For the meme. Also, ily sm, ty for your support, kindness, and generosity. You're the real MVP, name twin.

Meme: Send me a strawberry, and I’ll compliment you. Because you deserve it. ❤️

NAME TWIN, MY BELOVED. YOU ARE TOO SWEET, GET OFF MY LAWN. 😤

Azzie’s tag on my blog is “Rae of sunshine” because puns, but that also applies to you because you are an absolute delight who puts so much love out into this little corner of the internet. Thank you for letting me and Ty write with your sweet bby, she’s wonderful and we both adore her. ❤️

[ve1vet-cake]

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That's 148 more posts than 2021!

32 posts created (19%)

139 posts reblogged (81%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@bunnystar777

@hatchetmanofficial

@14dayswithyou

@my-quirk-is-fred

@nkuri37

I tagged 47 of my posts in 2022

#john doe game - 13 posts

#john doe - 13 posts

#oc - 11 posts

#john doe horror game - 10 posts

#yousona - 9 posts

#my dear hatchet man - 8 posts

#mdhm alan - 7 posts

#mdhm - 7 posts

#youtube - 5 posts

#john doe fanart - 5 posts

Longest Tag: 42 characters

#bestie's art improved so much i'm so proud

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I made a John Doe playlist on spotify!

I hope you guys like it! And if the artist of the pfp I used wants it removed or proper credit (cuz I couldn't find the artist) just dm me ^^

64 notes - Posted May 2, 2022

#4

MY BBY

I drew Doe in my artstyle! Might draw his cute side with a makeover later ^^

His reaction to you shrieking

225 notes - Posted May 4, 2022

#3

Sleep positions with my sona and the yans

270 notes - Posted September 23, 2022

#2

John Doe Headcanons pt2

Aight sooo I've ben stalking looking at the twitter acc of Doe's creator aannnd got new info which debunks my previous post. Because I'm a sucker for accuracy here's a new headcanon/imagine thingy

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Bc his body apparently dissolves when in water (I think it's basically clay) he'd more likely just watch you while you bathe or shower while keeping a safe distance. I suppose it's cute having little conversations

Taking baths with his true hairball form is possible sooo you can play with him or wash that form if you'd like

Considering he was never a child and the Uncanny Valley is filled with peculiar... Specimens.. I have a feeling he'd be confused on how children work or what it's like being one like.. "Wdym you had to learn to do all this???", "How did you survive??", "What's it like having parents?"

Just a small question.. Is he capable of having children????? If yes... Jesus christ get every parent book on the planet and try to explain a being that never had a childhood how to take care of a baby

If Doe is able to have a baby I bet he'd try being a good parent and listen to you properly for advice

Imagine his hairball form is really warm and when you're on your period he can just lay on you and warm you nicely

What if he melts or bakes when exposed to heat

I bet he'd eat pretty much anything you cook, even if it's not the best food. You made it and that's enough for him

Given he loves bugs I had to think abt him betting sad when you squash one in front of him or idk douse it in anti-bug spray

Will be you goth gf or bf or anything in between-Please someone style Doe hella goth, bby needs to realize it

On the other hand imagine pastel Doe like in all pretty colours with stickers🥺

Nsfw

Not only his tounge is long bit also his dick. Be careful tho, he might manage to impale you💀

Once you're actually having sex he would be scared of hurting you, taking his size into account and this bih is probably stronger than he looks.

From what I can gather he can change his body so he more than likely knows what generally makes you feel good

T i d d i e s

See the full post

368 notes - Posted May 11, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

John Doe Headcanons [outdated]

(That nobody asked for)

This will prolly contain nsfw stuff sooo.. BEWARE

Haven't done stuff like this before so uhm enjoy anyways💀

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He would probably be kind of pet like when he's in his all lovey dovey form once you're dating or more romantically involved (got that vibe from the Dream ending he looked like a cute lil pup there)

He would take care of you very gently. Having learned from his past mistakes in previous loops he will more likely know how you wish to be treated and what your no-gos are. Plus he specifically said he can be whatever You want. I feel like he would sit down with you to learn more just so he can make everything perfect

Tying in with the previous point I think he's a complete perfectionist when it comes to your relationship. He wants you to adore him as much as he does and-most importantly-feel comfortable! So you can expect him observing you carefully, trying to match you perfectly without changing too much (as you still love him for him but it's cute how he tries to adapt to your behaviour in order to make the relationship work out)

Talking to my depressed folks or others incapable of taking care of themselves-he got you. First of all he doesn't (obviously) bother if you haven't showered regularly or can't keep up with cleaning in general-he doesn't either. But I feel like he will try to cheer you up and be a goddamn... Whatever he is-blessing. Although he hates baths or being clean he would bathe with you and shower you in love in an attempt to make you feel better. I feel like he would also feed you or gently push you to do something that wouldn't be out of your comfort zone.

He will reassure you that you're beautiful the way you are whenever you feel insecure. Bodily "flaws"? Nah. Smell/Sweat? He likes it. Personality "flaws"? He'll help you through it. In his eyes you're a beauty (not only in his though, be confident bestie<3) that needs to be cherished

He only showers or bathes when you're joining him. He needs your extra warmth and enjoys you washing him. Running your fingers through his long hair, scrubbing his skin or massaging him. He LOVES it. Might end with some steamy sex though-

He fidgets a lot when nervous or talking to you. Even if you're dating for a while he will still fidget as if he were to ask you on your first date whenever he asks for cuddles or how you like his presents (this time normal ones unless you like gore haha)

His hair is suuuuuuuper soft. Like, fluffy and silky. It's usually all greasy bc.. You know him. But when you wash his hair and take care of it for him your hands want to stay tangled in them forever-much to his pleasure

This is also seen in the game but I love those little hair-eyeballs that watch you. One is always on your body when you're off to work and he can't come with you. It always sits in your pocket or bag and stares at you with little hearts in its pupil

Nsfw~

He can control himself or his sex drive just fine but when you move a certain way, look at him all seductive or cute or just wear his clothes with barely anything underneath he loses it. He'll probably rail you to hell and back while the environment changes rapidly due to his lack of control

He enjoys oral, especially giving and having you tug on his hair. Do it a little rough though and he might glitch a little from anticipation

Definitely a switch, more sub leaning I assume because of his... Trying to be dom but not really dom behaviour. Say he will gladly top and command you in bed, maybe make some more confident advances or remarks in a well developed relationship, but just one strict look and he'd probably melt back to his puppy demeanor.

Ties in with the point above; I feel like he prefers giving over receiving as he gets enough pleasure from you being happy or satisfied. He will whine a little though and of course noone will just leave him frustrated (except fellow sadists perhaps, but even then be careful or he might switch to his sadistic side)

Feel like he's very into bondage, knife play and breeding. Basically anything violent and close. Seeing you bleed or bruised and enjoying it? Fuck yes. All tied up like a present for him to open? He'll lose his remaining sanity. The thought of you filled with him, his name leaving your mouth in soft moans, enjyoing his closeness? He could die. Doe would also very much enjoy receiving cuts, bruises etc

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Aight that's all I could think of rn

516 notes - Posted April 27, 2022

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Damn I really am obsessed with a living hairball😩

[itoshi-s]

this is so lateeee omg but zari your tags have got me eating my fingers one by one </3333 mans is so obsessed (tbh the only characteristic that the itoshi brothers have in common despite how much they hate the similarity) both of them are insane in diff waysss just ..... the great itoshi sae buying you multiple (expensive) plugs for you like it doesn't cost anything ..... i want this man so carnally </333 ty for putting this sexy sexy thought in my head bby <33

hehEEE DAWN !! dawn i am looking at these plugs at work rn and when im telling u i cannot stand this .. just thinking of him coming into the store w u and depending on what set u pick out today,, he settles for a matching pretty plUG WHAT THE FUCK SHSJKAAKLS HE’D BE SO NONCHALANT ABT IT TOO LIKE.. one day he comes in and he’s like 🫤 huh we have all of them already don’t we.. AJAJAKAJAKA he’s so insane it’s lowkey funny (i want him up my ***)

[lix-ables]

くriri's bias lineろ ( tagged by @heesuncore ty bby ‹3

honest to god this whole post made me question my bias line SO MUCH SO FINE UGH / tagging @bbujiikseu @comet-falls @hanjibug @lilyuwon @pochaccoups @st4rlingz @hobivore + anyone else who wants to do this ‹3

[asteria7fics]

No okay but this should be studied.

Is there something about shipping Kyman over shipping, say, Style that changes the way we depict Kyle?

Uh... Strap in and strap on, because my theory might surprise you.

Now y'all who know me know that I am a Style girly. In fact, I have Kyman tags blocked because I dislike seeing the ship so much. Genuinely, I do not understand the appeal of such an objectively toxic pairing in a romantic sense, nor do I like the idea of sanitizing Cartman for the sake of making him palatable and 'good enough' (however you may define that) to be with Kyle.

HOWEVER!

I think the reason Kyman remains popular has less to do with the ship itself, and has more to do with how goddamn fun the dynamic between Kyle and Cartman is.

Let's be honest, those two carry the show. They are nearly perfect foils that are both fallible enough to flex their morals juuuust enough to put them on the same side just as often as they're pitted against one another.

Anyone who has written an interaction between these two will tell you it's fun as hell. I'm constantly thinking about arguments they can have, and how to escalate them into some pretty ridiculous storylines.

I think this is where the separation of Style and Kyman shippers comes in.

Y'all might hate me for this take, but I think a lot of Style shippers... Do not understand Kyle because they don't actually know how to reconcile with his negative traits.

Kyle is a self-righteous, shrill little prick that, above nearly all else, loves to be right. Is he also compassionate and kind and intelligent and (typically) a decent friend? Sure! All of these things can be true at the same time, though.

In the same way that I dislike how Cartman often gets sanitized for Kyman to work, I really dislike the way Kyle gets sanitized to make Style work. I think that's where we get this divide in depictions of him. Style shippers are showing Kyle as a sweet little bottom that occasionally gets a little mad, but can't really hold his own in a lot of situations. He is a prize for Stan to win, or something precious for him to protect. Meanwhile Kyman shippers see Kyle as an antagonist towards Cartman; someone for him to butt heads with as an equal.

At least, that's what I sort of assume. There are certainly many exceptions to this, but I won't get into the general damselification of Kyle Broflovski here. (But I see you Kymannies tying that man up in a basement somewhere. Just read Killing Stalking dude like damn leave my son alone).

But anyway, the reason that many Kyman shippers seem to understand Kyle because, imo, they don't shy away from those negative traits. They're already shipping him with Cartman for Christ's sake, the closest thing to a literal piece of shit since Mr. Hankey (love you though bby mwah), and as I previously expressed the dynamic between those two is just more fun when they're both assholes to each other, albeit often in different ways.

I could literally talk all day about why I love Cartman and Kyle's dynamic, and why one-sided Kyman is supported by the canon (on Cartman's side), but I've already done too much here. Sorry OP, I had thoughts I needed to get off my chest apparently.

Why is it always on X:

- coolest fucking Kyle drawing I have ever seen

- the artist ships Kyman

Does kyman open your third eye or something? How’s every kyman artist understand Kyle so well???

[unbridgeabledistances]

i was tagged in this a couple of times & did not have the energy to do it but my beloved @livinginsunnyhell just tagged me again this morning ty so much bby!!!!<3

(i’m not going to tag people bc i am weeks late to the party but if u haven’t done this & want to consider urself tagged!!💗💗💗 i am sorry if u tagged me & i did not acknowledge it last week ily)

1. why did you choose your url?

i’ve had this url since i was 15 and it is based on a line from a VERY embarrassing YA novel and i have simply never changed it

2. any side blogs?

i have a side blog for various animation stuff that i am into!! but otherwise this has become an amalgamation of both a personal blog and a shameless blog lol

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

8 years😳

4. do you have a queue tag?

i don’t!! whenever i am online i will reblog a billion things in a row and i deeply apologize for that lol

5. why did you start your blog?

...again, originally a fan blog during the v cringey part of 2013 YA literature fandom on tumblr, but then i became super active in the skam fandom (<33) in 2016-2018 and this was a skam blog for a while! and now shameless has taken over lol

6. why did you choose your pfp?

my pfp was a blurry little art icon for a long ass time until i started writing fic stuff & panicked people would think my blog was fake so i made a picrew bc i am deeply unoriginal😅

7. why did you choose your header?

it’s a line from my favorite love poem & i’m a sappy bitch!!

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

i believe it is hilariously a tie between my lip pov fic and the locket meme of mickey throwing a chair😅😅

9. how many mutuals do you have?

i have no idea of the number but i love u all dearly & my interactions on here truly bring so much light into my day<3

10. how many followers do you have?

top secret (and unimportant!)

11. how many people do you follow?

lmao around 700 (this number has accumulated through the years)

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

oh baby i am unhinged and my love language is locket memes of gallavich

13. how much time do you spend on tumblr?

i feel like just enough time? this community and the creativity we all share is deeply important to me and i am so grateful for this place for our brains to land<3

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

people on here are the kindest and most supportive humans i know! definitely not!

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

i feel like i have not seen one of these in years

16. do you like tag games?

yes!!! i love learning more about all u amazing beautiful people<3

17. do you like ask games?

yes!!

18. which of your mutuals do you think are tumblr famous?

i am literally in awe of every single one of you all of the time

[suguwu]

I read maw. I’m shaking rn. SHAKING. How are you real?!?! HOW DO I EXIST ON THE SAME PLANE AS YOU

GRACE PLS SLDJFLKSDF UR SO SWEET AND ALSO LIKE I SHOULD BE SAYING THAT TO YOU SO

i'm 😳😭 pleassseee i'm gonna have to h*ld ur h*nd if you keep this up my lil heart can't take it!! your tags were so sweet too klsjdfklsjfd AHHH

also tho the tag about pretty and sweet but dripping with blood made me laugh bc like,,,i wrote it and was like 'okay there are some slightly darker elements but rlly it's mostly sweet!!' and then i went thru again so i could make sure i tagged everything for content and i was like ah. okay. this is mayhaps a bit darker than i thought.

also also thank u bc it is solely thanks to ur intervention that maw is formatted in a way i like lmao

[badassxbirdy]

March Activity Update (Pinned post)

It’s time once again for an activity update! If you’re new here: these (usually) monthly posts help me to keep track of what the frick I’ve been doing, particularly when tumblr breaks or the brainfog strikes. The last few months have been bonkers, so we’ve missed a few. That being the case, this update includes things posted or in drafts for December, January, and February. Everything else can be found in previous monthly updates under this tag.

The full activity update (along with OOC house keeping) is below the cut. Bold text = links.

If you want to see all IC interactions without the other stuff, click here. If you’d like to start something new, there are opens, memes, and the wishlist, or you can just hit up the DM’s. You can also add Ty on Wire for IC texting.

Now onto the update!

OOC Housekeeping:

I have a biiiiig queue posting over the coming week or so. Thank you all for your patience while I got things sorted. ❤️

If you can’t trim our thread, please let me know so that I can fix it. A lot of my access is on mobile, so the extensions get a bit iffy at times.

I’ve lost the login for Ty’s discord. 🤦‍♀️ If you want to reach me, whether that’s IC or OOC, then tumblr DM’s or Ty’s Wire are the best ways.

My todo list for Ty’s blog is absurdly long, but I’m getting started with updating rpthreadtracker. I’m on a mission to get it updated and check in with folks this week!

Lots of OOC madness happening, but the most positive one is this: I’ve moved! 🥳 After 2+ years of trying, I’m out of the HMO bedroom I’ve been in, and into an accessible flat. Still in my beloved city and actually in a bit more of a convenient location.

I’m much better since my hospital stay. Follow up appointments still to come which I’ll no doubt post about on the ooc sideblog, but overall things are moving in the right direction. Thank you for the kind messages during that alarming few days. ❤️

Threads, replies, and other IC interactions:

(In alphabetical order by username)

At the motel (drafted) - @demcnsinmymind

Car trouble (queued) - @demcnsinmymind (and I’ll just be over here crying about Sasha)

Serial killer ghosts (drafted) - @derschwarzeengel

Making their escape (link) - @derschwarzeengel

Starter from @demonstigma (link)

Jeremy/Jonathan meet Hyde!Ty (queued) - @harkcr

Ty is very confused by Wednesday (queued) - @hvbris

Meeting the Captain (link) - @hvbris

FBI!Fish babysits human!Ty (queued) - @imprvdente

Image meme starter for @indyflanery (queued)

Boring bucket list (link) - @innerwar (Lucius)

Monster encounter (queued) - @lcbcshcart

Demon problems (link) - @magaprima

Ty is angy and Proteus is bby (link) - @nightiingaled

“I was just trying to help” (link) - @normallyxstranger (Casey)

Under pressure (link) - @normallyxstranger (Casey)

“Get down!” (link) - @normallyxstranger (Mason)

“Does it still hurt?” (queued) - @normallyxstranger (Mason)

“Are you following me?” (link) @normallyxstranger (Jamie)

Low expectations (link) - @normallyxstranger (Jamie)

How many fingers? (link) - @normallyxstranger (Tabitha)

Banishment gone wrong (link) - @normallyxstranger (Victor)

Lost in the compound (queued) - @razorfst

“Guess I’ll drink my sorrows away.” (link) - @sanguinelupus

Kiara to the rescue! (link) - @thatevester

Meeting Teine (link) - @timelxrd-victorious

Headcanon, dash games, and assorted silliness:

Character arc dash game: romance/friendship arc (link)

They’re a 10 but… (link, link, and link)

Da bby is growing up. 🥹 (link)

“BUT WHAT IF YOU’RE PEEING?” (link) (Okay, I take it back, she isn’t growing up that much.)

Holy water + humidifier (link)

Holy water + candles (link)

Teaching Eli about human things be like: (link)

When main!verse Ty gets to let out some of her darker side: 👍👌👌👍👌👀💖 (link)

Peanut the Racoon! Expect him to be riding shotgun in Ty’s car until further notice. (link)

90’s icon on 90’s icon violence ☠️ (link, link, and link)

Ty’s Christmas mischief, featuring gifts and assorted nonsense. (link)

I think that's everything, but if I've missed something then please do let me know. Stay safe, lovely people!

[kingkaizen]

ty for the tag bby <333

started writing: i think around 2020 ( i was 16). i made an account on wattpad and was doing fanfiction for i think my hero academia??? (i was a huge bakugo and tamaki lover i miss those days) but i kind of just started to get too overwhelmed and stopped after my move to tumblr.

started blogging: sometime last year. i made an account for demon slayer and i just got bored of it and stopped. now, ive had this one since april and im loving it so far! the jjk community is a nice one to be in, and i do plan to expand to demon slayer and others later in the future

followers: im currently at 679 <333 you all make me sooo happy. im very proud of myself for getting this far considering that ive only had this blog for about two-ish months now, i cant wait to grow an even bigger family through you all one day!

communication: i reallyyyy love when i get asks in general, it makes me so excited to see people interacting with me! i only really get asks from my moots (love you guys) and the rest is just requests so id definitely love more interaction but i know that it all comes with time :)

likes: i appreciate every single one. obviously also including reblogs and comments. things like this really motivate me to continue writing, even making one person happy with my writing is enough to satisfy me

requests: they are currently open!! pls send any in if you'd like! they really help to get my creativity flowing if it inspires me enough!

writing: i havent been writing much the past few weeks just because im very busy in my real life, but i absolutely love it and i try to get a little bit done here and there. when my schedule is back to how it normally is, i should be able to get more out faster!

works that im proud of: i dont have many out but these are some of my favessss :)))

focus w/ nanami - i had so much fun writing this!! everything came very easy, probably bc this is an actual fantasy of mine (and i love me some nanami)

pussy got power w/ sukuna - i think this is my only sukuna fic rn and ive been wanting to do some sort of ceo trope for the longest so this was also very fun to write for me

reflection w/ geto - who doesnt like mirror sex??

Behind the scenes of a Tumblr Writer - Tag Game

Hey there, I love behind the scenes and since this is something that's rarely talked about, let me start the chain... if you feel uncomfortable with a question, just skip it. You can add some if you want as well.

Started writing: I wrote my first Harry Potter fanfic at age 10. Started posting around 15,16 years old. I'm now 31, so...

Started blogging: I started on a German fanfiction site around 2010/11 I think. Might have been earlier too, but back then I was mostly reading, no posting. I really started when I got into One Direction (very late, tbh)

Followers: Currently at 961, which is wild to me. I don't even know that many people IRL. I convince myself that half of them are bots tbh, so I don't freak out all the time.

Communication: The people I talk to regularly are: a few writers who answered after I constantly reblogged and commented on their works and a few people who commented and reblogged my work. Writing and blogging on here can be pretty lonely, depending on your personality and the time you're active (I'm from Europe and a lot of my followers seem to be living in Northern America, so there's the Timezone thing) ... And I found that the best way to strike a conversation is to reblog, comment, and to not be shy. I do wish I got more asks, though....

Likes: I actually filter them out. I have 793 original posts up at the moment. It doesn't give me anything to know how many likes a fic has other than to tell me which characters are liked more than others or maybe that one fic does especially well. My activity only shows me comments, asks, reblogs with tags, and answers to my own asks. I live for the tags and the comments.

Requests: I love talking to people about ideas. That's how I started the plotbunny game because I have so many ideas and so little time. And sometimes an idea just doesn't want to be written out fully. Requests are fun because YAY, I get some mail... but then I freak out because I don't really know how to write this NOW and then I freak out because it's been a week already, two weeks, wait, two months? I'd rather have suggestions where people tell me vague things like "I'd love to read something about this side character" or "Have you ever considered this character with a soulmate trope"? because then I don't have the feeling of failing the request when I write it a little bit differently.

Writing: I am a fast writer. I know that's one of my talents. I can churn out a oneshot of 1k words in less than an hour. People read slower than I write. That can suck sometimes because you've just posted this and you want to know what people are thinking but they're not as fast as you are. I do have a lot of ideas. I want to write constantly but my brain doesn't always want to. I am trying to respect that.

There are also certain things that I just feel wrong writing. I cannot write anything suggestive (I also don't like reading it) and everything past that gives me panic attacks. I can hardly write mean characters and jealousy feels so wrong to me that I cannot write it. I've also overdone it with the soulmark trope and now I feel like everything I write about it feels lifeless.

I write best in the mornings before going to work, but I don't have much time there. I don't need special music (but it helps), but I need to have at least some energy left and at best, no distractions. But I have been writing for over 20 years, so I will say experience helps a lot.

Tagging: @revasserium @shoulmate @lemurzsquad @screamin-abt-haikyuu @toomanygoldfish @satorisoup @emmyrosee @reverie-starlight @alienaiver and @writingsofanomnivore and everyone else who wants to join

[dearjiminah]

hiii, omg! okay, so both your gifsets for dinsdag 16.31 are so amazingly beautiful, i mean WOW! 💜🧡 they literaly takes my breath away and i could just stare at them all day long. you really are the queen of coloring and i'm so amazed by your talent and your creativity 💜🧡 i absolutely love the last gifset you did, the purple and orange in contrast with the b&w is just so gorgeous, and once again just wow! thank you for blessing my day with them and i'm wishing you a wonderful day! 💜🧡

kdidhdhd my loveee... im sorry i’ve only just seen this now but thank you sooooo much!!! 🥺💜✨ you are the sweetest and this means the world to me, im so glad you like them!!! ✨ sending you lots of love and many kusjes 💜✨💖💫💜✨

[finalsinners]

takes his hand; kisses knuckles, ‘ now what’s this talk of being lonely? ‘

LONE  WOLF  ,  so  unworthy  of  this  warmth  offered  so  freely  ,  raised  heavy  head  to  gaze  into  hues  of  a  clear  sky  ;  the  heavy  anchor  that  tied  him  down  loosened  it’s  hold  on  his  lungs  clenched  in  barbed  wire  ,  just  enough  that  he  can  breath.  The  silence  is  broken  and  although  his  features  are  hardened  with  indifference  ,  he  is  grateful  to  the  astute  observations  of  dear  lover  who  could  annoyingly  read  him  so  well  (  still  ,  stop  reading  into  his  misery  ,  IT’S  A  DARK  WASTELAND  that  doesn’t  deserve  to  be  touched  by  his  trusted  companion’s  light  ).  This  burden  is  his  ,  the  lives  of  the  world  dripping  down  these  fingers  in  drops  of  crimson  is  dirty  ,  traitor’s  hands  that  shouldn’t  even  be  touched  in  this  reverent  way  ,  as  if  he  should  be  cherished.

❛    Who  said  something  so  stupid  ?    ❜  Gloved  digits  pull  away  from  tranquil  grasp  (  don’t  dirty  those  palms  with  this  Ichinose  scum  ,  it’s  better  to  keep  the  distance  )  ,  finding  the  safety  of  his  uniform  pockets  ,  ignoring  the  tingling  of  nerves  that  trailed  up  his  spine  and  down  to  the  point  of  contact  where  lips  had  briefly  lingered.  Fangs  of  bitterness  flash  IN  A  PAINTED  SMIRK  ,  a  mask  he’s  worn  so  well  for  almost  a  decade  in  silence.     ❛    I’d  prefer  if  I  was  but  no  one  can  leave  me  alone.   ❜  Sigh  of  exasperation  followed  ,  eyes  cast  up  to  the  stars  to  avoid  that  knowing  look  of  Shinya’s  that  he  would  react  to  somehow.  That  alone  would  give  too  much  away.  Aloof  personality  may  say  otherwise  but  he  needed  those  he  cherished  beside  him  ;  it’s  impossible  with  the  hidden  secret  that  poisoned  his  veins  with  isolation.  Steps  carry  him  away  from  beloved  friend  and  lover  ,  false  disguise  of  indifference  crumbling  away  with  back  turned     –––––––––––     stay  away.    

☾・゜ @imitorisus / UNPROMPTED ANGST