#ty once again for the ask Anon!

[sketchingstars03]

sorry for rambling but uhrrmmm ig continuation of the mirror room ask: if ink re-entered i think the many soulless "him"s would just reinforce his hopeless worldview even more tbh. that he's doomed to end up tgis way always. oh yeah on an unrelated note on his backstory yk that 1 tidbit ab how he initially tried to "make his world a better place" but no one answered and like he did try everything in the book before resorting to destroying his soul. the other inhabitants of _____tale just went numb and accepted their fate and he grew hateful other those other sketches bc of that iirc. i think about that a lot. something something _____'s undoing is caring too much and Ink's flaw is not caring enough. something something he became the thing he hated the most, and how it's implied he's not so happy w/ who he is ig this ties in with the reason FTFO!Ink (Healer) and Prism being more good-aligned is because *somebody came* so he still retains that urge to help and to change yk.

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I always love getting rambly asks like this Anon never apologize (even though I take a while to answer them abkskskskjjk)

That’s literally SO interesting. I’ve thought about the irony of Ink going from being the only being in his world with a soul to one of the only ones without it, but I never quite made the connection between that and the whole “ink probably doesn’t like who he is” thing (which I really need to think about more in general aughhh).

It makes sense though! Though Ink obviously doesn’t remember anything from his life before he ripped out his soul, so I think that “”self loathing”” so to speak (though I don’t think Ink HATES themselves) would be subconscious. They just, feel unsatisfied for some reason, not quite being able to put their finger on exactly WHY but it’s just a gut feeling. Like the feeling that no creation should be abandoned he probably gets that I’ve discussed before, not knowing why he feels this way just that he feels it’s innately wrong.

Though even still, even if Ink doesn’t like the way he is, he can’t exactly easily change the part of him that, well, doesn’t change the world around him too much. They don’t really see anything wrong with how the multiverse currently is (as long as nothing is being tampered with) because, well, it’s all just stories right? And even if they did, it would interfere with the scripts far too much to even TRY and change things, making him fail at his job. Kinda stuck between a rock and a hard place in a way.

Doesn't mean Ink is incapable of personal change (I’m tackling that subject myself 👀), but still! Becoming the very thing you used to hate the most, not liking yourself for it deep down (though also probably trying to suppress that dislike cuz it gets in the way of other things), and yet not exactly able to change that part easily so you’re kinda stuck like that one way or another.

God Ink has so many problems what a great character. Who put all this illness in your mental sir? Oh right your creator

ALSO I’VE ALWAYS SLIGHTLY WONDERED TO MYSELF WHY EXACTLY HEALER AND PRISM WERE LIKE THAT BUT THAT LITERALLY MAKES A TON OF SENSE!!! FTFO being well written once again 😎

[suffarustuffaru]

Scrolling through your blog is such a fun experience, you bring an absolutely great vibe to this fandom and I love it SO MUCH. Could even say you restored my hope in it, since there has been some aspects that made me force myself to leave it, and I hope me bringing one of them up here won't upset anyone.

Now I completely understand if you wish to not answer my ask, but I figured it's worth a shot. So, one of said aspects was a controversy regarding one of the rezero characters that made me feel like you can't mention them without being called names (mostly on tiktok, but other social media also, tho not as much).

Yeah I'm talking about Felix. I'm not transphobic by any means, and I'm fine with people headcannoning whatever they want, but seeing thousands of people calling others transphobic for calling Felix a 'he' made me so unsafe I forced myself to look for other interest. Which is funny since most of the people saying this weren't even part of the fandom. I was wondering if anyone else here had similar situations and just.. how do you deal with it? It seems silly, I know, but feeling like I can't speak about a rather important character from a media I love made me so upset.

No matter how much I tried explaining it, they either dismiss it or say Tappei made him a trans girl without knowing.

Now, if you do decide to answer this and say that Felix indeed may have been 'trans coded' a little bit (Did I used that term correcly? Idk) I'll understand (hell, I would probably agree, you character analysis are great), I'm just upset at the absolute lack of respect for any other way of referring to Felix other then she/her.

(Also in case people don't know, their proof of Felix being a trans girl is the scene from EX1, with the whole calling himself a girl in front of a mirror thing)

Sorry for this is being long and probably messy I just had to get this off my chest.. also I hope I didn't came of as offensive in any way, if I did I'm really sorry.

hi there anon! first of all - aw thank you for your compliments about me and my blog. im super passionate about rezero (though thats probably super clear to anyone whos seen any content i make for a while aljsdlkf) and well. ive been lurking about in this fandom since summer 2020 so i definitely understand having to leave/distance yourself from this fandom because outside of tumblr, the rezero fandom is kind of . well. to put it simply, theres a lot of metaphorical landmines unfortunately!! T^T and admittedly i wouldve left this fandom a lot sooner if i didnt stick to my own corner and curate spaces with other people who were super chill (like lots of people lurking about here on tumblr + rz tumblr in general!!). so i totally understand how you feel anon (and youre not silly for being upset, i promise!), though admittedly im not super super familiar with some rezero spaces (such as rz twitter) bc i 1. dont speak japanese and 2. i try very hard to avoid the negativity whenever possible!! T^T

and also i apologize for taking a while to answer your ask!! you're one of my older asks that kinda got lost in my drafts hah but i also just wanted to like. take extra care with your ask bc its a super important topic. like not just to me (though its definitely important to me) but its important in general. and i really like felix so. <3

a quick disclaimer is that i myself am not transfem. i am however afab and most likely genderqueer!! (im winging it as i go hah.) felix is also not a character id say im as well-versed in yet, but i do like felix a lot and ex1 changed my entire brain chemistry. and ill also be defaulting to he/him pronouns in this post because thats what he uses in canon.

felix is - at the end of the day - a fictional character, and tappei is a cis man who doesnt Entirely write characters like felix through a queer lens. arguably tappei is Self-Aware when he writes characters who are into other characters of the same sex (though the Representation is arguably a little bit questionable at times depending on how you look at it), but when it comes to characters like felix or subaru who have some Gender Stuff going on, it's more nebulous there. i dont know if tappei 100% realizes he's made characters that could be read as Trans/Genderqueer (emphasis on "read as", because i support different interpretations of these characters), but tappei Definitely Is Very Aware that gender and gender presentation and gender roles are super important when it comes to characters like felix, subaru, and crusch.

i think tappeis own perceptions of gender and gender roles do bleed a bit into the text as much as tappei is pretty purposeful with themes surrounding gender in rezero, but rezero itself still has all sorts of identity issues to explore with a lot of its characters and gender is a big part of that!!

so first and foremost im gonna be examining felix the best i can Purely Off Of The Canon Text, though i do like viewing rezero from a queer lens myself (and it is arguably very queer). im gonna talk first about felix and then ill move onto talking about my personal feelings on rezero fandom stuff :o !!

so felix's relationship with his gender is complicated and he Absolutely does not fit into traditional gender roles or gender presentation right now. these are undeniable. and if people headcanon felix as transfem thats totally understandable and valid!! but to say a headcanon is 100% canon and that other interpretations of a character as complex as felix are invalid isnt exactly it. for sure. i mean i myself interpret him as nonbinary haah. but felix's relationship with gender is so so so So complicated that i dont think you could just say hes transfem and then Not Elaborate More.

but regardless of how Exactly you label felix, i think you could possibly say that hes trans coded. tappei, even if he probably doesnt entirely know hes made pretty genderqueer characters, is Aware and Purposeful of how gender affects felix and his perception of himself and his identity and other peoples perception of him and this is brought up Over and Over Again in canon—felix’s gender identity, at the moment, aligns more with femininity in his presentation in every way, though he still perceives himself as masculine. felix’s case is complicated, and while im not entirely sure on this i think you could argue that hes trans coded—“coding” suggests a level of intent when making these characters, and i think that intent is present in some way with tappei. because tappei Knows just how important gender is with felix’s character and you can tell with how often and how Integral it is to felix’s entire character.

(more under the cut) (i do have a habit of being rambley/wordy sometimes if. if you couldnt tell already. but i hope this response is up to your standards!!)

these three analysis posts on felix's relationship with gender have all discussed this topic in-depth before i have, and i 1. really like the rezero content i see from all three of these people and 2. they All have slightly different takes based on the canon we have but also some similar points. because felix is complicated!! of course our takes are probably gonna be a bit different - he's a multifaceted character with such a complex relationship with his gender that it's hard to tell what every single one of his personal feelings on it is (especially when at the moment he hasnt appeared in the main story since arc 5 and he still has a Lot of character development to do). and of course fiction is fiction, we can all take away any sort of meaning from a story like this.

but you know. this is my post so im gonna try to analyze felix right now and say my two cents on what i think of his relationship with gender.

so im gonna try not to retread too much on what liquidstar, sufferu, and gourmet of gluttony have already said about felix (and i think theyre all very smart people with interesting analysis posts and theyve all explained their thoughts pretty well) and instead add on with my own thoughts - theres this felix excerpt from arc 4 wn that i think about sometimes. im gonna put it down here!!

and also important to note—like other people have mentioned, crusch and felix made a “deal” of sorts in the past where crusch takes on felix’s masculinity and felix takes on crusch’s femininity. and also like other people have said—and i myself have said in the past—i do have some mixed feelings on this wkdndn and as i said before also i do wish tappeis feelings on gender bled a little less when theyre Not Integral To The Story. bc i dont think tappei 100% knows hes made trans coded characters, but. anyway yeah so thats the whole deal with crusch felix. and in its own right i think it has So Many Interesting Implications!!

i think when it comes down to it, gender presentation IS a bit of a performance, isn't it? like i love to wear dressses and skirts and i love to keep my hair short and wear suits, but you know - these sorts of things tend to be gendered. our gender is often perceived through how we present ourselves, but in recent years gender roles being attached to clothing has gotten a bit less Rigid. but these rigid roles associated with presentation are even more dialed up to Eleven in a medieval world like the rezero fantasy world. and i dont use the word "performance" in a negative way -

what i mean is that when it comes to felix's character, does felix think he's a boy because that's what he's been told? does he think he's a boy because he TRULY sees himself that way, or does he THINK he has to see himself as one? does felix try to present and perform femininity, ie as or like a traditionally feminine girl, purely ONLY for crusch's sake, or is it because felix ALSO WANTS to? what does felix think of gender outside of crusch? who is felix outside of crusch? who is felix outside of tying his entire personality to other people? does felix’s femininity show the “radiance of ferris’ soul” bc of the deal he made with crusch or bc this truly is felix’s soul? these are like the big questions behind his entire character and character arc that would determine in the end how felix identifies in both his gender and In General.

so what is felix's identity at the moment? bc right now, felix is stuck between his feminine self, tied to crusch, a symbol of crusch, tied to his own reliance on crusch and worship of her—and his masculine self, someone broken off from crusch. felix is tied to crusch right now to worrying extents with his obsessive devotion to the point of changing himself to mold into her image, and beyond that, hes still tied to guilt surrounding fourier’s death. gourmet of gluttony puts all of this way way more intelligently than i ever could, but at the end of the day, i think the best narrative decision here would be for felix to accept himself in ALL of his entirety.

healing in rezero is noted to be a kind power, specifically by fourier and fourier saying this right to felix when hes the most talented healer in lugunica, and healing itself is often stereotypically feminine activity. knighthood is stereotypically masculine, and on top of all this, we see in ex1 that biehn argyle twists the power of healing into something grotesque—trying to bring back the dead and revive what cant be revived, which is once again another reoccurring theme in rezero.

how far can “from zero” go? what HAS to stay dead and what can be revived? who is allowed to live? HOW do you live freely? felix is someone born from a horribly abusive and neglectful family who twisted healing magic’s kindness into cruelty, felix is someone who was taken into a family that showed him kindness and now hes desperate to pay them back with everything he has and everything he is, felix is a healer who lashes out when hes cornered and a healer who treasures life and a knight who cant physically fight like the others, felix is someone stuck with the horrible knowledge that he cant save everyone—that some things just Couldnt end better no matter how much he wished for it to.

felix is stuck between all kinds of worlds, and in terms of gender, hes quite literally still stuck between boyhood and manhood in the biological sense—hes purposefully made it so that he hasnt hit puberty yet so he can better pass as feminine. he hasnt Physically Grown past puberty—which is the mark of becoming an adult. and he hates himself in a number of ways, but he also hates himself for failing to be traditionally masculine. his abusive family stole ten years of his life and the torture left him physically weaker, so he cant be strong physically, which is something associated with traditional masculinity. felix is the best healer, a traditionally feminine job and skill, but he cant save everyone. felix becomes more feminine as part of his deal with crusch, but while crusch accepts her femininity and masculinity readily, and while crusch’s memory is erased by gluttony—felix is left behind, alone, still holding onto femininity while not entirely being able to hold onto it while he also cant entirely hold onto the traditional masculinity he expects out of himself. and with arc 3 on, felix feels hes failed both fourier and crusch. the two most important male and female figures in his life.

felix is basically stuck in this liminal space where hes not Enough for himself in literally every direction, and the only way out is to accept every part of himself and move forward by trying to define who he is without other people—his birth family and his found family dont define him. they can shape him, sure, but he has to stop shaping himself to meet them and figure out how to let himself just. Be. and take up a space thats firmly his. from a queer lens, this kind of thing is pretty queer—because to stop being in between worlds, you have to accept everything instead of splitting yourself into halves over and over again. killing or maiming yourself or parts of yourself is no way to live, and felix is Life itself.

and i think regardless of the Exact Labels you could give felix, i think his arc—which is perfectly in line with all of rezeros themes—is inherently about self acceptance and the bridging of the gap and combination of femininity and masculinity. felix is both and identifies, in one way or another, with both, similar to how he loves someone who identifies with both (crusch) and just as hes loved her and fourier. imo it wouldnt be right for felix to choose one or the other in terms of feminine vs masculine—he needs to be the one learning and navigating his honest feelings on both sides bc i think he Yearns to be both. hes a boy who dresses like a girl and its up to him to know if he wants to be a man and/or a woman due to his own internal desire or if parts of that is Only due to external pressures.

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and alright now that ive said all my thoughts on felix atm im gonna address the other questions you had in your ask!! note that this is just my opinions and thoughts regarding my own experience in the english fandom, you dont have to agree or anything 👍

but i AM very sorry about your negative experiences in this fandom. T^T people calling other transphobic for using he/him for felix (and also people being transphobic about characters like felix or subaru/natsumi in general) is something ive seen as well. the rezero fandom is sadly very often toxic and Bigoted in a lot of ways (with the exception of rezero tumblr and certain segments of rezero ao3, from what ive seen), which is Ironic for a story thats so clearly about love and self-acceptance, which is also ironic because arguably tappei and otsuka and the rezero marketing team (i Love the female characters in rezero but theres just so much sexualized or vaguely sexist merch/moments that dont add to the story, you know? kind of just. misses the point of their characters sometimes.) sort of contribute to it a little bit as much as tappei does do some really great things with his writing.

rezero is the first fandom ive been active in but its definitely not the first ive ever been in, and ive been in some insane fandoms before. like i said earlier though, i think i just cope by curating my experience to what i like, yknow? liking posts i enjoy, looking at stuff i enjoy, etc :O !! fandom is a hobby so i try not to look at negative stuff when i can help it wkdnd. which im sure youre aware about already but i always have to keep reminding myself of this bc places like rezero reddit or twitter get pretty rough!! but its really helped me just following artists and creators i like, enjoying their content, chatting with cool people i vibe with, rezero tumblr being the chillest rezero space in the whole fandom, and its also helped me a lot making rezero content of my own—like this whole blog!! its really shocked me how much people seem to value my thoughts enough to ask me things frequently but i appreciate it pfft. and i hope you guys like reading my posts!!

but yeah like. curate, curate, curate. it helps a LOT and it gets me excited to experience rezero not only by myself you know? not that i didnt have fun by myself but its its own level of fun finally finding spaces to have fun with others!! and i LOVE finding beautiful fanart!! chef’s kiss. and trying to be the change i want to see is satisfying on its own :,) i want to post random shit about rezero, so i post it. i want to make fanart for fun and share it. i want to brute force people into loving otto more so i ottopost (dont worry, i still hate him bc true otto fans also hate him at the same time <3 /lh). i want more queer rezero content so i try to make some more!! brings more personal power i think and its very fun!! and it helps with lessening the quiet despair of fandom toxicity ;-;; (which is something ive done many times and will continue to do sometimes so i feel your pain 🫂) and i promise theres cool people in the fandom 👍 i may reply late to asks or dms but im ALWAYS down to talk about rezero things its so fun 👍👍

and its really really hard sometimes to deal with fandom toxicity especially if its forcefully knocking at your door—definitely dont force yourself to stay or look at things if you cant, bc thats totally understandable!! and i myself have been harassed a little in the past. but definitely having some sort of coping—the block button, backing out of things you dont agree with or like, lots and lots of curating, etc—helps me a lot. and i think mental health wise i feel much better trying to look on the bright side of things!! its MY hobby goddammit!! ill fight people subaru-style if they try to poison it!! and however long anyone reading this decides to spend with rezero and rezero tumblr—you are welcome here 👍

but yes my very Long rambling aside - i hope this post somewhat helped you!! felix is a very important character that i like very much and need to learn more about and i have Many Feelings on the english side of this fandom, but im very grateful to all the cool people ive met over the years here for sure!! :o

also ill probably post the finished version soon but if youve read this far here is a sneak peak of felix art i did recently (just as a reward for once again reading all of my Endless Yapping)👍👍

[klanced]

katie do you know any other blogs that are still voltronposting in anno domini 2023 cause im in my vld rennaisance and i need people to follow. much thanks

(pulls up the list of people i recently starting following)

@treesbian i've been following arbor since 2016 but im still putting them at #1 because i personally feel like arbor is not only a mutual but also a close member of my family. it's like i'm arbor's much-older cousin who is starting their professional career and arbor goes to college in the same big city i live in so i invited them to live with me so they can save up money. do you see my vision. love you arbor im always proud of you <3

@heynhay mint is honestly the meanest voltron poster i know.

@leenfiend colleen is a rare example of an actually nice voltron artist <3

@bleh1bleh2 i just started following them last week. their version of keith captivates and enraptures me

@voltronrenaissance + @alluraaaa hank and atlas are so funny i consider them my in-laws through arbor

@klance-daydreams + @mothmanavenue + @pidges-lost-robot + @nobamol are more voltron artists i've recently discovered and adore <3

[birgittesilverbae]

avatrice + in the next

"Bea, please."

The Soldier winds up, drives their boot into the woman's chest, sends her flying back into the wall with a crunch. She stays down in the cloud of drywall dust for a moment, long enough for them to cover the distance to her. Their hand closes around her neck just as her eyes open, and the woman claws at their arm as they pick her up by the throat and shove her up against the wall. 

A flicker of colour at the woman's wrist draws their eye for a moment, and it's all the time the woman needs to catch them under the ribcage with a jab. Their concentration flickers, and she follows the move with an uppercut that has them stumbling back, blood dripping where they've bitten through their lip, the taste of iron heavy on their tongue.

They spit blood to the side, wipe their mouth with their forearm as they close in on the woman, shifting along the wall to the right, towards the shield. Their boot lands on the edge just as her fingers close around the strap, and when the blonde looks up they give her a steel toe to the face for good measure. The kick topples her back so she's wedged up against the base of the wall.

"Bea–" the woman pleads. Her nose is splayed across her cheek, and her exhalations bubble out through a mouthful of blood. 

They drive their heel into her cheek. 

The woman reaches up, pushes weakly at their ankle. "I'm with you," she mutters, rolling onto her front. They unholster their pistol, level it at the back of her head. "Bea, I'm with you."

Their index finger tenses on the trigger. 

"Our m– Our maybe someday, Bea. I'm with you."

They take the shot.

The bullet ricochets off the battered shield as the woman wrests herself up onto one knee. She catches the second shot, then the third, and struggles upright, listing back against the wall. 

She gives a lopsided smile as she pulls off her helmet and drops it. "S'okay, I'm done fighting." She casts aside her shield. "You can still finish your mission. Just wanted to die on my feet." She reaches out, wraps her fingers around their wrist, raises their hand until the barrel of the pistol is pressed into her forehead.

Their arm shakes. "What are you–"

"Don't worry, Bea. I'm done surviving." She's still smiling, swaying forward and driving the pistol harder against her skull. "I'm not afraid anymore. Pull the trigger, Bea. If this is the end, pull the trigger. I'll see you in the next."

"This isn't–"

"Take the shot." 

[blackjackkent]

your favorites poll made me have to choose between Karlach and Morrigan (who just barely eked out; mostly bc I've loved her significantly longer) but while I was struggling my brain was just like. what if they kissed and dated maybe. so thank you for introducing me to this new concept in a roundabout way, I will either have to carry this ship upon my shoulders or make some ocs about it<3

Heeeee. :D Highly entertained by this message, thank you for telling me about this.

My immediate instinct is to try and write something about this for you since you brightened my day by sending me the message and I want to be the hero you need and deserve (and also bc it's been ages since I tried to write Morrigan's voice :D ). Tragically, I am not very good at writing crossovers but I did my best. 😭

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"Stand back," the strange dark-haired woman says warily, peering up at Karlach, brandishing a quarterstaff in one hand. "If you are no rage demon, you had better speak quickly, before I act as I must."

Karlach blinks rapidly. "Whoa, whoa, whoa now," she says - her tone's as good-natured as always, but shot through with a line of equally wary tension. "Rage I know all about, but I don't take kindly to anyone calling me a demon."

The stranger relaxes. "Ah. One theory disposed of then. 'Tis a pity, for it would have been the simplest." She raises one eyebrow slowly, examining Karlach from head to foot. "I meant no offense," she adds grudgingly. "I am unaccustomed to being greeted in my travels by flaming women with greataxes."

"Yeah, well, I'm unaccustomed to people popping no-warning out of mirrors in dingy basements I'm trying to loot," Karlach says with the flash of a grin as the moment eases. She doesn't lower her axe but her grip on it loosens. "So I guess we're both having kind of a weird day. You wanna tell me who you are?"

A slight pause. "I am Morrigan," the woman says slowly.

Karlach cocks her head. "Just Morrigan?"

"'Tis a good enough name, is it not?" Morrigan answers acerbically. "Will you return the gesture or no?"

"Karlach Cliffgate," Karlach says promptly. "Two names for the price of one." Slowly she lets the axe drop to hang loosely in one hand at her side. "What's with the mirror, then?"

Morrigan examines her thoughtfully for a moment; it's hard to tell if she is still wary or merely skeptical that Karlach will understand. Then she shrugs. "It is an eluvian," she says, pronouncing the strange word with a graceful sort of elegance that gives Karlach a strange shiver up her back. "A node in a great network that crosses many miles and many worlds."

"Huh." Karlach purses her lips out thoughtfully. "So you're... just in from another plane, then? The Astral or something?"

To her surprise, Morrigan seems puzzled. "I do not know of the planes of which you speak. The land I have traveled from is known as Thedas - but it is clear enough at a glance that I am not there now."

"You're in Faerun," Karlach says. "Never heard of any Thedas, although I'll be the first to tell you I didn't pay a lick of attention in school. Were you trying to go somewhere particular? Or do you just like to pop out randomly like a rabbit out of a hat?"

Morrigan ignores the jocular tone; her dark eyebrows knit together pensively. "Where I am bound is no concern of yours, whoever you might be," she says tightly. "This Faerun... my arrival here was unexpected. A tremor in the Fade, no doubt... some irregularity. 'Tis no matter. I will depart again."

Without so much as a goodbye, she turns on her heel and presses her palm against the mirror behind her...

...and then just stands there, unmoving.

Karlach raises her eyebrows. "Is... something supposed to be happening?"

"Peace," Morrigan mutters. "Something is wrong. I cannot..." She trails off, and in the quarter-profile of her face that Karlach can see, there's an abrupt and quickly-masked flash of fear. "The path is blocked."

Karlach's expression softens. This is the weirdest thing that's happened to her all week - which is saying something, under the circumstances - but she's picked up the general gist: this woman just got tossed out of her home plane and can't get back. And Karlach, unfortunately, understands all too well about being trapped like that.

"Uh... look, I don't know much about this sort of thing, but I'm traveling with a wizard who's smart as a whip. Bet he could help you out," she offers cautiously with a faint smile. "If, y'know, you're the accepting help sort of person."

For a long time Morrigan says nothing at all. Then her hand slides slowly down from the mirror's surface, clenches into a fist, then releases. "I have not always been," she says slowly. "But it was not the least of the things I have learned in my travels. I will accept your help."

"Great!" Karlach says brightly, hoisting her axe back over her shoulder. "C'mon, then, let's get out of this basement; place is giving me the creeps."

[thebrainrotsreal]

I’m interested in the idea of Mark and Kate interacting. With how the story focus on Mark’s journey it’s easy to forget he’s not the only punching bag character in the series. They’re both people who have been beaten down by life, who have fought against opponents stronger than them and lost spectacularly but somehow move forward and try to do good despite the odds being against them. Kate also seems to be dealing with some family drama too if the S1 imprisoned supervillain with duplication powers shares any association with her. I just like the idea of Mark talking to other superheroes his own age besides Eve.

OH SAME! They're such an underrated, if not like non-existent dynamic that would be so good, like hello????

Agreeing with every little thing you said, anon!!! They're both determined as fuck to do the right thing and keep moving forward, and if they both have family drama, that'd be perfect because they know exactly how the other feels! It's perfect scenario for bonding!!! Another shoulder to lean on! Considering there's drama with Eve & Rex, I'd image they'd be a breath of fresh air to each other! Plus, I always pondered how Mark, who often gets beat to the verge of death and keeps living anyway, (which hello high pain tolerance? or forced to have a high tolerance???) AND Kate, who feels every single clone death in agonizing scrutiny (which DAMN GIRL, SAME QUESTION BUT ALSO HOLY SHIT), can ALSO bond over those kind of death-like experiences. They can pop right back up, yeah, but that kind of agony has gotta fuck with you severely.

Kate especially whose been a hero longer than Mark has, and as probably felt herself die so many times and still has to fight anyway, just feeling yourself being ripped apart mid-battle is insane. WHICH IS TO SAY: MARK AND KATE DYNAMICS, PLEASE. Like unlike Rex whose shown to be dismissive of Kate's clones, Mark, in the very little 0.8 seconds of interaction, is polite! He doesn't dismiss them, and just outright asks who to face to be respectful! Granted he never gets his question answered, but still. Their dynamic could have bloomed.

Every day I wish they could talk. Kate get away from The Immortal, please, I promise there are better people to lean on, holy shit. Not to mention that so far her only intimate, or just more than friend/coworker dynamics are either the Immortal, which, man you are like over 100 grandpa, GROSS, or REX who used her to cheat on Eve. She needs a relationship that isn't romantic/sexual outright, which is not to dissuade shippers, but like holy shit she needs some friends. And so does Mark! They just feel like both incredibly isolated characters!

Basically their friendship would make so much sense! And it would do them both some good! Kate gets someone to lean on who can actually understand and empathize with the struggles, in family drama, in agonizing deaths, in pushing forward anyway because she wants to do the right thing, and Mark the same!

Plus, with s2 finale's leaving Mark fresh off the morality crisis of taking a life, and yet Future!Eve tasked him with confessing to Eve like he doesn't have other shit to process makes talking to Eve a fuck ton of pressure. The timing is almost comedic istg.

This scene will never not be utterly insane and hilarious to me. Like side step the fact you almost stayed stranded out here for years, ignore the fact there is a version out here who survived and became someone you "wouldn't like", ignore the fact you just killed someone exactly like how your dad nearly killed you, confess to me, Mark. LIKE GIRL. HELLO?

They just feel like perfect, potential friends! Like come on, please? Please. Let them interact for more than 0.05 nanoseconds. Fanfic writers where are you. Please. WE WERE ROBBED I TELL YOU! FUCKING ROBBED!

Ty again for the ask, invincible anon! :DDD

[miyakuli]

thank you so much for translating huskerdust comics <3 every day I see beautiful art by jp fans and I’m like “I WISH I COULD READ THESE DAMNIT” and your existence and what you do for this fandom makes my life significantly better because I can understand the beautiful art so many people make. /gen

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa//////////// omg anon what a lovely message <33 I'm so happy you could enjoy those japanese comics :) I also think they are amazing and they deserve so much more attention and really it makes me happy if more people can enjoy those as well :DDD thank you so much for your support (;v;) english isn't my mother tongue so translating from japanese to english may take me a little time to find the right wording (it's fun but hard haha). So that reassures me to read message like yours and prev anon :')) <3333

[sickmachete]

are you okay ? you haven’t posted for ages

ahh yea just goin thru a bit of a rough patch atm and its srsly been draining my social battery to hell but 💪 we persevere 💪ill be okay :'-)

[cryingforcrocodiles]

please tell me about what you think about mounts new look (i think he looks bad 😵)

he looks absolutely awful and i cannot see him for longer than 4 mins without a sickness brewing inside me. he looks fake. that motherfucker back there is NOT REAL. he looks childlike. he looks babyish. he looks uncanny.

^ my drafts bc i think i took this a little far but it perfectly encapsulates how im feeling about it.

[sqwdkllr]

I stare at you with starry eyes and excitedly dilated pupils as you talk about work on QSMP canon divergence ideas so so hard... I've also been curious about it but I wonder what your thoughts on Madagio are and what ideas and concepts you'd come up with for them design wise or anything else.... 👀 Also it just came to my mind but I had a thought of maybe how a potential dynamic them and Baribal would go due to their shared hatred of the feds among other things...

Oh actually I've had a few ideas how I wanted to tackle the Madagio storyline based on what we already have and since Fit seems to want to expand on that someday in the future, I'll be waiting before giving my own spin on it,,,

BUT !! I have a current idea on how I personally would fit it in with the rest that also semi aligns with the Antoine plot. If anything I want to make Madagio's distaste for the federation reasonable ? Like you can totally understand where this person is coming from and would have done the same if placed in the same position.

I also really like the inhuman, no face, cat design that is pretty common ! Like a distant cousin to the species god-like entity that Antoine is (i think that's the best way to explain it until i fix up my diagram again to add new stuff and eventual linear timeline)

Based on the stuff we already know about Baribal (egotistical, sadistic, master manipulator) i think these two share same motivations but, to get along-

It's like putting two starving wild animals in a box and a sliver of meat between them. That would be super funny to put them in a same room and see who comes out crying first LMFAO but honestly Madagio seems to want to be very secretive and undercover while Baribal wants everyone to know they are the one to ruin the federation plans. BUT !! If we do ever get more stuff from Fit then maybe I am wrong ! Just putting some thoughts out as one does <3

[daisychainsandbowties]

Was scrolling through the halo!lilith/fic: strife tag on your page and was wondering, does Lilith get a Shannon dream/vision, and if so, how would it be compared to the one Ava has in the show?

oo this is a great question… lmao unfortunately i’m really not a person who plans things out that far in advance. i always first draft with no plan, and since fic is eternal first draft territory for me i like to just figure out what happens as i go.

that said !!! i’m always intensely interested in the relationship between shannon as halo-bearer and lilith as her heir. considering what happens to the halo in fic: strife… i think lilith struggles to have that sort of avatar-state thing that happens with ava, so she might hear whispers from shannon, especially as things get worse, bloodier, until the only person who can safely touch her is beatrice.

i think then it’s shannon who acts as a tether to the halo’s better nature, to it as a searchlight and a shield, not just a weapon (and a broken one at that). certainly any halo vision lilith gets would be different from ava���s, but i think there’d still be that edge of bitterness, of shannon holding lilith’s blood-smeared face in her cold hands and begging her not to die for the mission, to forgive herself for loving beatrice. to be selfish, for once, because there’s strength in that too.

[usuallymyenthusiast]

Imagine: Buck helping Chris with math homework - eddie teasing him about being bad at math - buck gets intense head pain - worried!eddie - buck knows math - eddie takes him to hospital - they explain how he’s suddenly good at math - eddie takes him to poker so they can get rich. Win!win!win!

nonnie YOU GET ME. always looking for that whump potential lol. listen if the math theory is true then I will manifest a headache and worried!eddie. for u and me bestie.

[birgittesilverbae]

dads: libby's first breakup oh the teenage angst

"Hey, MJ," Mary says, leaning out into the garage. "Your dad just called wondering if you'd stopped by." 

Libby pushes her helmet up onto her forehead and takes a swig of water from the bottle resting on top of the net before responding. "What'd you tell her?"

"That you're here talking shop with Shan."

"Talking so much shop," Shannon agrees, flipping the puck up onto her stick blade and pulling it back and forth through the air in front of her with increasing speed. "All shop, all the time. Right, Libs?"

Mary rolls her eyes but can't keep her fond grin off her face. "Do you wanna have a chat about why you're actually here," she continues, turning her attention back to Libby, "or should we keep pretending you haven't been crying?"

Libby's shoulders sag. "You're not gonna let me choose the second option, are you?"

"If you wanted emotionally-stunted, you should've gone home. Come help me with dinner."

"Fine." Libby nods sullenly. "Fine. Thanks for shooting on me, Shan, and for the talk. I'll be in once I've got my pads off."

"Don't take too long," Mary cautions, and heads back into the kitchen. 

Shannon joins her a few minutes later, when she's got ingredients arrayed on the counter. She hugs Mary from behind, hooks her chin over her shoulder, kisses her cheek. "Be gentle with her," she says as Mary leans into her touch.

"I'm always gentle."

"I know, babe, but on this especially. She's very Bea in how she's going about it."

Mary clicks her tongue. "If that isn't the most concerning thing I've heard tonight. You sure you don't want to handle this?"

Mary can feel the stretch of Shannon's grin against her cheek. "The little shit told me I was, and I quote, 'probably too gay to be able to give helpful advice'."

Mary nods her understanding. "So it is boy trouble. Lily didn't seem sure. She was mainly just concerned MJ hadn't checked in with them all afternoon."

"You're not gonna defend my honour?"

"Was she wrong?"

Shannon pokes her hard in the side. "You know she wasn't."

"If it makes you feel any better, she said something similar to Bea that time she got in a fight with Kumquat."

"Caleb," Shannon corrects with a long-suffering sigh. "Honestly, you're all going to give that kid an identity crisis one of these days."

"Was it him?"

"No, no, no no no. She was clear on that, at least. But I know she's been hanging around with a couple of the guys on the boys' high school squad lately."

"The ones you've spent the past month bitching about?"

"The ones I wouldn't have a problem with if they didn't exemplify everything that's wrong with hockey culture."

"Ah." Mary's jaw goes tight. "Right. That's– I can see why she didn't go to those three for this talk."

Shannon hums her agreement. "I don't imagine there'd be a rational response in sight. And if this involves who I think it might, I don't know that I'll be able to respond appropriately."

"So it's up to me."

"So it's up to you." The door to the garage is flung open, loudly enough to be heard across the house, and Shannon flinches. "Thank you, darling. I'll get out of your hair." She kisses Mary's cheek and heads for the hallway.

Libby slumps into the kitchen in the wake of Shannon's departure, dropping onto a stool at the counter island with a heavy sigh. "What're we making?"

"Just a stir fry and rice, a side salad. Lots of chopping for you." Mary pushes the cutting board and chef's knife across the countertop to her, watches the stranglehold grip Libby puts on the knife handle. "Don't go stabbing the carrots."

Libby grumbles something under her breath, not quite loud enough for Mary to make out, but she loosens her grip enough that the colour flows back into her knuckles and aligns a head of broccoli on the cutting board. 

Mary sets up opposite her, hands making quick work of a row of chicken breasts while her eyes linger on Libby. "What's his name?" she asks after a few minutes of quiet chopping. "The boy?"

Libby's knife freezes in the middle of pushing florets to one side of the cutting board. "Carter," she replies, not meeting Mary's gaze. "I don't want to talk about him."

"Why not?"

Libby shrugs. "Because it's embarrassing? Because I was too stupid to see it coming?" She lays her knife down and scrubs at her eyes with the back of her hand. 

"What'd he do, MJ?" Mary pivots to the sink to scrub her hands clean. 

"Nothing. Everything. I don't know." She shrugs helplessly. "I just– He said I was too smart for my own good, and didn't tell him anything, and–" her words disintegrate into low sobs that slowly climb in volume. 

Mary wipes her hands on the kitchen towel slung over her shoulder and circles the island. "C'mere, I got you."

"Everything sucks," she sobs into Mary's shoulder. 

Mary rubs her back, makes soothing sounds. "Yeah, that about covers it."

"I think I was in love with him, and he just–" Her hands clutch at the back of Mary's shirt. "He just–"

Mary huffs out a laugh. "No, you weren't." 

Libby pulls back, rubs a sleeve under her nose. "You don't know that," she says, voice pitching higher in anger.

"Hormones, MJ. God help you." 

 "It's real, I'm allowed to feel like this."

"You are. I'm not trying to minimise that." Mary steps to the side to reach for the tissue box. "You're allowed to be hurt by it, and sad, and miss him. That's normal. He just sounds like a dick, and if he's saying that shit to you then you're better off without him." 

"Is it supposed to hurt physically? Like, I feel like I took an elbow to the ribs or something."

"That's your body telling you you need to take a breath, babygirl. Nice and slow, like Shan taught you, alright? Can you do that for me?"

"I'll try," Libby forces out between ragged breaths. She flattens her hand over her diaphragm and takes a deep breath, the exact same way Mary's seen Shannon centre herself dozens, if not hundreds, of times.

"Well done, babygirl. What're you feeling for dessert? I think we've still got some of those brownies from the other night, if Shannon hasn't dummied the rest, or there's ice cream. Both together, even."

"I'm in season, Mary," Libby replies primly, picking up her knife again as though her face isn't still streaked with tears. All Mary can see is Beatrice all those years back, getting food on a table set for four instead of five, face damp and mouth drawn into a thin line. "No dessert except on game days."

"Pretty sure that's not a team rule. You deserve to give yourself a break once in a while, alright? Especially on a day like this. So, what's it gonna be? Ice cream or brownies or both?"

[mysimsyuri]

hi! could you inform me on what a bi lesbian is? don’t mean to come off as rude and you’re not obligated to explain if you want to, but if you could redirect me to some resourced pls do, i’m curious and have seen this term one or two times before! i tried looking but almost everything ive seen either has a confusing definition or is negative, and i’d like to educate myself if possible. ty! :D

hi, tysm for the ask! while im definitely not the guy to speak for all mspec lesbians, i can definitely try my best to help you :]

mspec lesbians are when a person identifies as a lesbian while simultaneously being attracted to other genders, hence the "multi spectrum" (mspec) part of the term. i myself am a bi lesbian, so im just going to use that as an example, but there are also pan lesbians, omni lesbians, it goes on. (there are also mspec gays, but people dont seem too pressed about them, and im not gay, so i wont speak on them.)

there are a lot of reasons someone could identify as a bi lesbian, like if theyre romantically a lesbian while being bi*sexual*, or a bi person with a preference towards women. personally, while i do think lesbianism inherently includes nonbinary people (speaking *as* a nonbinary lesbian), my attraction to nbs is separate enough to warrant the label for both mine and other nbs' comfort. (also i think some guys are attractive lol). but it does vary from person to person!

as for the history, bi people using lesbian as an umbrella term (much like, for example, a bi guy calling themself gay) since *at least* the 70s.

and as for resources, heres a really helpful carrd i found, as well as just going through the 'mspec lesbian' tag on tumblr has quite a few good posts about the historical usage of the label!

also um. sorry for giving you an entire essay (hyperbole) lol, queer identities and history are a pretty big interest of mine XP

[zillyhoooo]

hiiii!!! is it possible to show us all your art you’ve done? especially karkat i love the way you draw him!!

hii!! <3

all my art should be in my #zillyart tag, though i'll be sure to make an intro post at some point with a direct link to the tag ^ ^

(i'm very glad u like my karkat, i made sure to draw him for this ask!!)

[another-corpo-rat]

Victoria / Evelyn Parker for the alternate ship ask?

I am actually toying with the idea of Vic and Evelyn having a night in Victoria's canon storyline!

But tbh Victoria has a god awful view on a lot of things, joytoys/dolls being one of them - she sees them something to play with, dress up and mess around. But she barely considers them worthwhile, if she even considers them at all.

If Victoria knows about what Evelyn did (the BD of Yori's apartment) she'd be interested certainly, but her interest can be a dangerous thing. Especially where 'over-reaching dolls' are concerned.

They'd work as a one-and-done, but an actual relationship wouldn't be viable between them.