#tw: tbbt

[probably-autistic-moss]

Moss vents

JUST A LITTLE SILLY

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I saw this TikTok and a lot of other videos made with that sound, and it makes me so angry, because it reminds me of everything people said to me when I talked about my suspicion of being autistic.

I'm not autistic, just a little silly!

I can't touch some texture without feeling pain, I can't sleep comfortably if the sheets don't have the right texture, I have to avoid certain foods despite their good taste because of their texture, but that's unrelated!

I can't go to certain places without getting a bad headache because the lights are too loud, I can't sleep or focus because the washing machine on the other side of the house is vibrating too much, I have to wear earbuds everytime I walk outside because all the noise will make me nauseous, but that's unrelated!

I can't handle parfumes because they're so strong they make my skin crawl, I can't have flowers because I love the smell but it's too much, I can't wear deodorant or I'll feel like I have fire on my skin and the smell is uncomfortable despite being good, but that's unrelated!

I'm not autistic, just a little silly!

I don't like gifts or watching new things unless they're part of my special interests because I need to know what's gonna happen or what kind of reaction people expect from me, I need to plan conversations and I panic when I can't follow my scripts, I don't handle well surprises, but that's unrelated!

I need to regulate myself by doing repetitive things, I need to mask said stims to not get mocked even if it's painful and my emotions become too much, I can only eat my safe foods unless it's a weirdly good day or I'll rather starve, but that's unrelated!

I can't stop thinking about my special interests even when I really need to focus on something else, I use characters I love or songs lyrics to express myself because sometimes I don't know how to do that, I only relate to character that I now recognize are all aliens and/or deeply autistic coded, but that's unrelated!

I'm not autistic, just a little silly!

As a child I was mocked for what I now know are autistic traits and I still can't easily make friends, people often find me off putting because I hate eye contact and because I over-explain what I mean, a friend of mine got her diagnosis because she relates to me and her doctor was convinced I must have a diagnosis since I'm clearly autistic, but that's unrelated!

Every single time I see something relatable I see the tags and it's an autistic thing, my mother gets angry at me and calls me Sheldon Cooper just because she hates the fact that I have evidence of me possibly being autistic, all the real people I heavily relate to end up declaring they're autistic, but that's unrelated!

I've always related to animals more because they don't judge me, I sometimes can't talk and express myself in noises, I experience sensory overloads and meltdowns, but that's unrelated!

I'm tired of this shit.

I'm tired of having all the pain autism can bring me, and yet- I'm not autistic, just a little silly!

I'm AFAB, I can't be autistic. Only cisgender white men can be autistic.

I don't look autistic, nah, I'm not ugly or odd looking. Autism makes you animalistic and ugly.

I can talk about sex, think about it, even read or write smut. We all know that autistics are too pure and childish to do that.

I have a job and I can do serious things like chores and pay bills. Autistics are all unable to do that, obviously I'm not one.

I can't talk about ableism.

I never knew much about autism before my journey of self discovery, but I never thought ableistic things about autistic people. But now I know more, now I'm discovering myself, but I still can't talk about it, because "you're just trying to fit in a group you don't belong to".

I can't even talk about the researches I did, or people will say I'm influencing myself.

I stopped doing active researches for that reason, so I wait to randomly find a relatable post, when I see it's an autism thing I look it up, and I can't influence myself if I relate to something I didn't know before, right? People say it's still all in my head.

For them, I'm not autistic, just a little silly! All the proof of me being autistic are there, but that's unrelated!

[meep-meep-richie]

❛ 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘦'𝘥 𝘳𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵, 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘴 ❜ A Devoted Father || George Cooper

[clouds-of-wings]

0307 is the strongest contender of my TBBT rewatch so far for "episodes that wouldn't come across as comedy if they didn't have a laugh track". Damn. Literally no part of that is funny.

[justarandomllamacorn]

NVM I just spoiled myself bcz I'm impatient and the curiosity was unbelievably hard to bear 🐻 (ha bear 🐻 get it? *ahem* anyway)

So I'm reading Not Your Typical Reincarnation Story and I know we can't see the Author's face yet but I'm sure (I'm sure you guys) that mother is the author.

Hear me out:

The "confidential" documents are leaked + organized the way FL does, with FL's falsified writing

Rhize gets poisoned by the thread FL gifted her but neither FL nor the monstrous maid did it

Who had access to both the documents and Rhize's room? Mother.

Now please consider:

Author obsesses over Rhize and wants her to be the happiest, perfect little romance lead forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and.. Well you get me *ahem*

Author has more or less authority over everyone . Most of all on the leads but also on the secondary characters and very little if none at all over the unnamed background characters like Anna or Mr. Butler (I forgot his name sorry (◞‸◟ㆀ)). We can clearly see Father is under the influence. He's hostile to FL, he doesn't trust her and is quick to condemn her the moment she's the least bit suspected of anything. Yet mother, who plays quite an important role, much like father, doesn't resent FL when Rhize is falsely accused of poisoning her (FL), or when FL is accused of poisoning Rhize.

Isn't that weird?

How can you trust someone so suspicious, and claim to believe in their innocence when this stranger, who entered the family less than a year ago, is apparently the one who poisoned your beloved ward child ?

Who would benefit from the story going on for ever and watching Rhize fall in love with What's-His-Name-Creepy-Bro again and again?

Why does the author seemingly have no influence on mother's affection for FL?

Me rn:

[ladyvesuvia]

OUR WHOLE UNIVERSE WAS IN A HOT DENSE STATE THEN NEARLY FOURTEEN BILLION YEARS AGO EXPANSION STARTED WAIT

THE EARTH BEGAN TO COOL THE AUTOTROPHS BEGAN TO DROOL NEANDERTHALS DEVELOPED TOOLS WE BUILT A WALL WE BUILT THE PYRAMIDS MATH SCIENCE HISTORY UNRAVELING THE MYSTERY THAT ALL STARTED WITH THE BIG BANG

BANG

[theasexualgeekblog]

If you consume media, I’m sure you’ve seen it. If you’re on the asexual or aromantic spectrums, I’m sure you’ve been impacted by it. It’s the first anti-asexual trope I discuss as part of my blog’s trope series - the idea that being non-sexual or non-romantic means you are childish, or worse, prudish.

There are many examples of this trope throughout popular media, but for the purposes of my analysis, I focus mainly on television series “The Big Bang Theory” (where Sheldon Cooper could literally be the posterchild for this trope) and the video game “Dragon Age: Inquisition” (where spirit-boy Cole both circumvents and succumbs to this trope)

Content warning: Mentions of aphobia throughout, as well as analysis about why words like “prude” are so harmful.

[oculus-scriniarii]

u fuckin kidding me of course this is the top search result for “is Sheldon Cooper autistic”. 

[zaxal]

I know your not in the Big Bang Theory Fandom as much anymore but if you still are a little bit is it alright if you tell me headcannons about Leonard's abusive childhood? Cause we all know it affected him greatly but the big bang theory doesn't like to talk about serious stuff like that especially for characters other than sheldon

sure thing! sorry this took me a few days to get to. some of this might not be canon compliant but honestly tbbt never gave a shit about their own canon so why should i

leonard grew up in a very cold environment. beverly was Withholding, to put it nicely, or emotionally neglectful to put it more plainly. his father was complicit. it was more important that leonard be treated as a sterile subject rather than a child at all points.

his usefulness as a tool to help his mother’s research left leonard with a deep need to feel Useful. it’s what makes him deeply codependent with sheldon – sheldon wants someone who defers to him and meets his impossibly high standards, and leonard feels a fucked-up sense of accomplishment when he meets sheldon’s needs, even if sheldon immediately moves the goalposts.

beverly did use a different name for leonard for her book/s, and it’s now a trigger word for him. anyone getting his name wrong is enough to make him unbearably anxious, but that specific name will cause him to absolutely shut down. it takes him back to when he was an object of interest rather than a person, when he was supposed to be quiet and let people talk about him, above him, and never offer his own insight or opinion while everyone else formed their own of him.

leonard identified what he went through as abuse while he was in college, but he’s inherently distrusting of all psychologists and cannot open up in therapy without feeling the way he did when beverly was prying his emotions and experiences from him. ergo, getting treatment is actually impossible.

it takes him a long while before he finds it in him to cut his parents out of his life entirely. it feels impossible – the scientific community is small, sheldon likes his mother and speaks to her more regularly than leonard does, and beverly herself feels like this omniscient, omnipresent part of his life that he can’t fathom the idea of her not being around. but he gets there. she won’t risk making a spectacle of herself in public, so he’s relatively safe there, and he makes it clear in no uncertain terms that if sheldon gives her any updates about him beyond ‘leonard is alive’, he will leave. sheldon never quite realizes exactly what leonard went through in terms of emotional damage, but he doesn’t have to. his communication with beverly wanes on its own with time as he realizes he’d rather have leonard in his life than her.

thanks for asking!

[webuiltthepyramids]

“Have you calmed down?” “No.  I’m not calm.”

[probably-autistic-moss]

Is it an autistic trait?

SPECIAL INTERESTS

So.

I used to obsessively talk about my main interests, when I was a child. I spent hours talking about The Lion King and Marvel, to the point where I was constantly told to shut up.

But I couldn't help it, I found it hard to focus on something else and I struggled to be able to do other things if I didn't indulge in those interested for a while.

I still love The Lion King and Marvel, I consume various media about them every now and then, but not as I used to. (I still know The Lion King's dialogues by heart, every single word.)

I read the definition of "special interest" and I think it fits, and it also fits with my current interests.

The only thing that makes me unsure about it, is the fact that sometimes a "special interest" last some months, but others can last years.

For example, during quarantine my "special interest" was Buzzfeed Unsolved, while now I don't really think about it, even if I watched it all. It started to not be a "special interest" some months before it ended.

The Big Bang Theory and Marble Hornets are, one the other hand, things I think about constantly since I was a teen. Like my other few "special interests", they would have their own isle if my brain was in pure Inside Out style, they shaped a big chunk of my personality and I watch my favorite episodes periodically. Same thing with Marilyn Manson since 2015, but more intense since I listened to his music literally 24/7, search informations about him every day, collect things about him, and all...

But before saying I had/have special interests, I want your opinion, so please, autistic community: Are those special interests?

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I'm here to learn more about autism because I suspect I may be autistic myself, and I'd like to interact with other people on the spectrum.

Feel free to correct and educate me if I say something wrong or offensive!

[meep-meep-richie]

❛ 𝘚𝘰 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘥𝘰 𝘐 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥𝘣𝘺𝘦. 𝘛𝘰 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘰'𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘥𝘢𝘮𝘯 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦? ❜

George Cooper & Sheldon Cooper || How Do I Say Goodbye

[mysharona1987]

[classicalbughead]

me: I will be so productive this summer

also me: *gets up for the first time at three p.m. to get some snacks and then goes back to binging Netflix*

[therapizing-to-the-void]

So I'm watching the Big Bang Theory (I know, it's trash, I hate myself, etc (I don't actually hate myself, I'm a narcissist, that never happens, I just find it amusing and I enjoy getting indignant sometimes)) and I finally reached the part where Leonard goes to a psychiatrist, who tells him how horrible his mom was/is. There was also a good part earlier where Sheldon's mom took her down and she decided to provide Leonard with "unconditional love", but too little too late.

They haven't actually used the word "abuse" but Leonard finally got his anger and hurt that he had from his mother acknowledged and validated by a professional who actually had the authority to say his mother was full of shit - everyone else was just like "oh she's such a renowned psychologist!" even though she follows the theories of Freud, for god's sake. And now he's finally being told, for the first time in his life, that he has value, what he does has value, and what he says has value. His friends have told him he had extremely low self esteem, but hardly ever (Raj is a sometimes exception) did anything but reinforce that. I'll get to Sheldon in a minute*, but just - Leonard was emotionally abused by his mother, and no one told him. No one validated him. No one comforted him. No one told him she was wrong. No one told him he deserved love. How fucked up is that. So after nine seasons, finally seeing the show acknowledge that was really nice to see.

*Sheldon was a terrible influence in this regard, as he worships Leonard's mother and is constantly stating how jealous he is of Leonard's upbringing. That said, he always described Leonard's upbringing as cold and his own as loving, so Leonard can pretty easily tell that that doesn't translate to "this was a good upbringing for anyone who didn't want to be a Vulcan as a child". Sheldon is also the one who ultimately convinced Leonard's mom that she should change her parenting style when he said his mother always provided him with love and validation, and he still turned out brilliantly. He also brought up his and Leonard's siblings as a counterpoint though. But I do think someone should have noticed that Leonard would virtually shake every time his mother came to visit, while Sheldon seeks comfort from his family, and everything that makes him happy that isn't fandom or physics either happened as a result of his friends on the show, or are strongly associated with his family.

[theindieflash]

Pease like or reply with a specific choice of muse for a starter of varying length. My muses include canons from Glee, Teen Wolf, The Arrow-verse, MCU, Once Upon a Time and The Big Bang Theory, plus a number of OC’s, you can find links to their bios here.

[tbbt-confessions]

“I love Leonard so much and feel that he struggles with depression and self injury :\“