#tw// hand mutilation

[cinematicnomad]

THE TERROR ▸ 1.10 we are gone

crozier looks through the camp and comes across an alarming sight: a man is actually sitting up inside one of the halfdowned tents. crozier crawls in to see who it is. it’s little. and he’s alive, his lap full of cold, greasy rags. crozier gently lifts up little’s chin so he can see his face. inexplicably, little’s been pierced with gold chains from various pocket watches. they connect parts of his body to his head. his eyes are open, but he does not recognize crozier.

[cydanite]

"You remember that you are a distinct being with a finite form and a mortal body."

!!SPOILERS for the ending of StP!!

Concept sketch for my interpretation of Slay the Princess’s protagonist. I like the canon vagueness of his design, but I came up with a concept I wanted to explore c:

He has 2 pairs of wings, one on his head and one on his back. The "Narrator", in trapping him, clipped his wings and disguised them as hair and a cloak. Best to not to give any reminder that flying out of the woods is even an option.

The smaller pair wrap around his head like hair, the few remaining primaries folding over each other as bangs. On the “thumb” of the wings are birds feel, decoratively chained together. Don’t be fooled into thinking that chain isn’t meant to hold, though.

The larger pair drapes limply off his shoulders like a cloak. It’s fastened by an X shape. You know the one, when people are lazy with drawing medieval clothing (myself included) we use it as a closure, a formless cross drawstring. You don’t question it when you see it. You wouldn’t suspect it’s two massive metal staples puncturing his flesh.

He can’t see his wings for what they are, so he doesn't feel through them. Not until he can manage to remember...

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(also i wrote a snippet hehe)

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The Narrator: The pain is threefold.

First comes stiffness, an ancient ache creeping in from the edge of your perception.

Awareness of this newfound sensation latches on to your mind and pulls, quickly fracturing into a sprawling map of new body parts.

It’s your hair. It hurts, in ways hair shouldn't be able to hurt. Every fiber protests against you despite being just hair mere moments ago.

The fabric of your cloak betrays you as well. You're inescapably aware of the space you now take up. New, itching, uncomfortable, ugly sensations form all down your back.

Voice of the Hero: It's like we just regained blood circulation there. We're being stabbed a thousand times over.

The Narrator: It doesn't end there. Injuries that previously gone unnoticed now make themselves known. You recall running sharp fingers through your hair. Only now can you feel the dried blood. You would've taken better care of that cloak if you'd known it was made up of you.

Voice of the Hero: But what's happening to us?

The Narrator: The web of pain maps out its shape. Two pairs of feathered wings become part of your body once again.

Voice of the Hero: 'Once again'... having wings makes sense, I suppose. But how could we have forgotten this? It seems so inescapable now.

The Narrator: But as you go to reign motor over your limbs once again, the third pain rears it’s ugly head… cold, harsh metal digs into your flesh.

It pins your limbs in their poses. A tiny set of cuffs pull small wings taught around the circumference of your head.

The closure of your "cape" is two enormous staples, staked through your flesh and clamped down hard. There's no blood here, the wound long since healed.

...Who or whatever did this to you, it was never intended to be removed.

Voice of the Hero: Maybe we should keep more vigilant in the future. If we can't trust our own body... I don't want to think about it more than we have to.

[bones-of-a-rabbit]

Afton Virus’d Y/N AU: Inciting Incident !

(don’t worry tho they’re ok they’re just murdering ppl now 😌)

(Alternative take on how the blood could’ve looked and a fun fact abt the au below!)

Fun fact, in the very first original babies-first-au-concept of this AU, reader’s ‘inciting incident’ (aka what would’ve started them on the path of Violencing) was finding an old spring lock suit while clearing out some storage! They found a piece of the instructions on how to operate the suit, got curious, tried it on, and got spring’d! Ain’t that just the worst. They survive, but are now traumatized and covered in grisly scars, and FazCo, being completely and utterly unable to read the room, is like ‘heyyyy so we know u almost died but uh. What if we fire u and make u sign an NDA buuuut u get a nice check out of it <3’ and reader is like wtf no????? Ur gonna promote me and let me stay here or im telling everyone and FazCo is like ‘Jesus fine be like that’ AND THATS HOW IT STARTS IG LMAO

(Also, yes, reader’s hands were destroyed by this machine (no idk what it is exactly sorry lmao) bc they thought it was off when in reality the light that’s supposed to indicate when it’s on was busted or burnt out lol rip)

[little-bloodied-angel]

As someone who's permanently physically disabled as a result of an abusive relationship some of y'all's takes on Izzy are fucking UNHINGED. Like "I hope you never go near an abuse survivor, EVER, in your life" levels of revolting. I shouldn't be struggling for breath with a panic attack after trying to scroll through a blog for pictures but here we are.

Nobody, nobody, can ever deserve being physically mutilated by someone they trusted. Nope, not the assholes either. And nobody can do that to someone else and claim it was their fault for being an asshole. And nobody can traumatize MULTIPLE PEOPLE and point to that other person as the source of the problem. What the FUCK are you talking about.

(ok to rb but if you start arguing that "well, actually" I'll block you)

[cupcakes-and-pain]

Imagine Whumper gifting pieces of Whumpee to their friends. Just a fucked up present. This is especially good if Whumpee is still alive and just losing fingers, toes, or things like that. Maybe a tongue is given away from a whumpee who just wouldn’t shut up? Cut off a bit of the nose from one who was getting too nosy? There’s a lot Whumper could chop off. Eyes. Ears. Chunks of skin.

Even better, Caretaker being the one to receive the pieces <3

[casxuls]

i don’t care if others don’t believe in what you see, if you truly have a vision that you believe in more than anything, never stop until you reach what it is you crave so deeply. the same people that treated you like shit and never believed in your mindset will see what it is you had planned all along. i believe in you all more than anything, this post is the universe telling you to to keep going or start what it is you wanted all this time.

you are more capable than you think, this world was created by people no smarter than you, go for it.

[mottinthepot18]

Another commission for the wonderful @i-can-even-burn-salad <3 posting here instead of my whump blog because this is my art blog… I should probably start using it like one lol

Commission sheet can be found here

[yun-jin-noona]

"Your days are still young, child. Why do you despair so?"

The mortal sobs, they know few could ever understand what drives them to this place. This place of longing, of hatred.

"This body." They say. "This flesh, it is not my own!"

The voice tuts, soothing; like that of a mother to an infant.

"Flesh can be moulded, child. Of that much, I am certain. I can show you."

They look around, desperately; seeking the voice in the room that promises their hearts desire, the one thing they would need to feel whole.

"Please! Whatever the price, whatever I must sacrifice, I would give it all for this body to be my own! I scorn The Lord! I scorn the creator! In making me in his image, I have been doomed to a life of misery!"

The voice chuckles, and a clawed hand stretches out from the inky darkness of night.

"Come, childe of mine. I will show you that which your creator does not want you to see. I will make you whole."

[gutz-radio]

Anytime I see a post about how Izzy hands deserved what happened to him or how it was totally justified for Ed to be a horrible person to him I get so damn angry. I get so angry and I need to just speak my mind at how angry it makes me.

To me, Ed in season two has shown abusive behaviours. Plain and simple. He has shown a pattern to physically assaulting Izzy. One toe is a single instance, but two more is a pattern. He tells Izzy if he doesn't do what he wants he is easily replaceable. And it isn't just abuse to Izzy. It's the whole crew. He's horrible to all of them. They're all scared of him. The scene where Ed is talking about the vibe on the ship shows me no one at all is comfortable around him.

I love Ed as a character don't get me wrong. I relate to him in parts, mostly how he can't handle his feelings and how messy it is and his self hatred. And also the abuse he faced. I love Ed. But to just close your eyes and slap hands over your ears and go lalalalala at all the shit he's done but then put all the blame on Izzy angers me. Yes, I'm not gonna deny Izzy fucked up. He is toxic as hell to Ed as well, and I never justify the stuff he did because it was bad. But never, ever, does that justify being abused. The only person responsible for how Ed has treated everyone is Ed himself. Ed isn't a fucking toddler who doesn't comprehend what he's doing. He's a grown adult man. Izzy cannot force him to do shit. At the end of the day, the only person who has a choice to what to do is Ed himself. Yes, Izzy was horrible to Ed when he was the most vulnerable. He said vile stuff, and kicked him down when he was weak. And that is shitty and the blame for Izzy's own actions is on Izzy. But the same goes for Ed. Ed chose to hurt the crew, and he chose to hurt Izzy. This was all his choice. No one forced him to do anything. Outside factors all contribute to it, yes, and it all worsened his mental state. But it is still his fault. And as far as I'm concerned, Ed owes the crew and izzy a MASSIVE fucking apology and a hell of a lot of change. Izzy realised what he said to Ed was wrong. He knows he fucked up. He tells Stede as much. But Ed is also at fault and I'm pissed how people keep just acting like he had no say in it whatsoever and he was purely at the mercy of his fucking subordinate.

Personally? I hate how serious discourse is in this fandom and this is a fictional show and I don't treat fictional characters like real people. But the victim blaming, and the blatant hypocrisy of how people treat Izzy compared to Ed angers me. Either they all suck and we should hate them both, or we stop giving a damn and stop blaming characters and harassing people over a fucking FICTIONAL CHARACTER.

[freakythecry]

waggles my finger at myself no no no isaac, you cannot be making mads have an extreme g0re fetish no no no isaac no no no.

[petrifiedcrange]

New headcanon after I thought some things over: Spanish Jackie gives Ed a cold shoulder when he and Stede come to her bar in 2x07 until she sees Izzy, but even then she is less friendlier than she is in the show

Because, considering the last time she saw Izzy he was plotting with her help to sell Bonnet to the English, she logically assumed Ed killed him for it, and while she understands it because Izzy did betray him, it doesn't mean she has to be friendly with him, not when:

1) she likes Izzy, like really likes him (I mean, she considers him husband material of high quality + calls him "Handsome")

1) she's seen enough of the two to know how loyal and devoted Izzy is to Ed, how much he would give and did give of himself for him, how he is ready to kill and die for Ed both, and that's in her book, much like it is in Jim's, is the show of love of highest quality, so she very much do not apprecaites the idea of Ed killing the man who loved him so

When she sees Izzy, she relaxes a bit because he is alive, but she doesn't miss his new leg and it's not that hard for her to put two and two together (and, among other reasons why she doesn't like the fact that Ed took his leg, she knows how Izzy prides himself on being one of the best swordsman, how important it is both for him and his safety, and the loss of leg must have impacted his ability to swordfight a great deal)

[disintegore]

[dustbunnystudios]

Hey folks, it's Spooky Month!

Here is a horror comic I've made, I'll post some more through the month (you can read them all here: tapas.io/episode/1941...) Here's Finger!

[bells-of-black-sunday]

Going to be very up front with the warnings for this one, because it involves Damian: Do not read this if you cannot handle discussions of self harm and mutilation. This is a man who took the 14th century practice of harming yourself to get rid of sin to a very extreme level, there will be a lot of that being discussed with sexual undertones. I mean it, I will be delving into uncomfortable topics involving it and while I won't be going into detail, I am still discussing it.

With that out of the way:

Damian is a very troubled person, he obviously had to have some reason that pushed him to live on the streets and take the path he did. Now I am not going to sit and speculate on his history or mental health, quite frankly I don't really care that much. What I do want to talk about however is his obsessive dedication to suffering to the point where you cannot have multiples of him in one party, because as he puts it "The burden of suffering can't be shared".

How I personally read it from his in game barks and what they come from, I think it's something very sexual for him that he's tricked himself into thinking is holy. I mean he literally was beat half to death by drunk people leaving a tavern and "forgave their sins" finding power in the pain that was inflicted on him. But with lines where he is practically begging people to hurt him it's hard not to read it as having sexual undertones. He wants to be hurt. He calls it ecstasy and hints in his amorous lines he wants to be hurt in the bedroom too. Still, he is a deeply religious man and calls it his holy path and says his blood itself is holy even going as far as telling people to drink it.

I don't think it's a mask for any deeper depression or anything like that, I think he's just a freak who doesn't know what kinks are, because it's a vague medieval/victorian period setting and their isn't even a label for it yet. It's easier to label it as God telling him he's on a holy path, because he can bear the suffering for others and carve out their sins on his own skin while enjoying himself in the process.

Okay onto actual "I literally have no in game supporting evidence for some of these" headcannons:

To be very up front and blunt; he self mutilates a lot to pretty extreme degrees. This is very obvious with his trinkets and level portraits. You have trinkets that are the pliers he used to remove some of his teeth, in the second game you have the part of his face he cut off himself, and lets not forget the brand he has that he burns himself with. I think he chases the pain, he loves the extreme forms of it, why else would anyone skin part of their own face off? Still, it did lead me down a rabbit hole that made me wind up on a study about eunuch's from the various cultures that practice it which talked about a extremist religious movement in R.ussia and S.lovakia from the 1800s where they'd practice it on themselves to make their bodies pure.

I think it makes sense that he'd be the same way with how he speaks about his body being holy and him being a part of a extremist chapter of the church, though to be a tad more tactful about it, I think he just gelded himself. If he's willing to remove his face for supposed holy reasons, it makes sense he'd go far in the other direction too especially with how dark the game can get. I don't think he regrets it at all and I doubt it comes up much and he absolutely is still a freak so obviously it did not do much. I don't think other people care much either, he can still enjoy himself. He's also a stupidly devoted lover, that man is an abandoned dog that attached himself to them. He is begging at their feet and wagging his tail every time they compliment or insult him, when he loves he falls hard just in his own ways. He's still very weird about everything he does, so expect him to ask them to hurt him or ask for their confession. He also holds grudges, so you better treat him right.

I think he's also extremely pleased with the symbol he carved into his chest and hates when he's not bleeding even minorly. He will absolutely be weird about other people's scars and get too far in their personal space to call their scars beautiful especially if he's into them, he pretty much preens himself over every wound and scar he gets. This man will never shut up if you get him started about it, he gets excited talking about it and will start pushing caltrops into his skin idly while he does so.

He is very anemic. Do not let him stand up too fast, he will get so dizzy.

Every inn room he has basically is his own penance chamber, he sets it up that way and rubs vinegar into his wounds when he's done praying. He has to confess nightly, it's a routine for him for all the harm he's done on the road, he has to keep his path holy. He would never be led astray which also makes him quite the stubborn party member and probably makes a lot of them hate mornings, because it takes so long to leave. This man prays a lot every day. Him and R.eynald probably do it together sometimes, but I don't think J.unia will ever like him very much with him torturing her and all when they were still at the abby.

For as much as he hurts himself, I don't think he pushes it onto others beyond an occasional comment about telling them to find power in the pain. He is very pushy about his religion though, that much is very obvious. I think with his whole line about not wanting to share the suffering that he just doesn't push it as the only correct way to worship, but he will also hear the parties confessions and carve their sins into his flesh so that they may be pure. It's weirdly a very nice gesture if a little disturbing.

[vocesincaput]

Wishlist: Izzy Hands

I've got an idea in my head that ties in with this headcanon and this starter idea that just...

What if, instead of Ricky standing on the side of the ship and seeing the crew of the Revenge (either pushing Izzy over board or showing his leg to show he's captured him),

Ricky sends them Izzy's gloved hand with the spider tattoo underneath as proof he has him.

Would most likely be to Blackbeard specifically, or Ed would be nearby when it was opened/revealed, as he would be the only one who would know who else had the tattoo.

(This is a dark one I know and I don't know why it's in my head now, but it is.)

[nightfallsystem]

tw very triggering vent in tags