#tw bummer

[anna-kitsun3]

I haven't been able to draw for a while

The passion straight up left

I was in a position where I had to keep drawing to keep housed but it didn't matter and I lost it anyway after my dog became life threateningly sick VERY fast and we took a 12k hit because it was an emergency vet, yall don't know me but I do NOT have that lol so I owe ppl a lot of money on top of owed commissions

But my girl lived and is lying in front of me now

A friend let us live in their basement, and I've found a job that's been working for me anxiety and pain wise. It just doesn't pay very much and I don't have a lot of hours yet so I maybe get like 200 a week and I have a lot of bills to catch up on, rent for where I'm staying and trying to put back to get out

Our car is down, but I can walk to work. My gf isn't able to make that walk, so she's stuck at the moment

Aahh sorry for appearing again with dower posts. But I am happy to say I have started to sketch again. I'm working on my relationship with art so I can try to kick start into work again. Or everyone is getting refunds

Things are looking up, i think. I'm just going to be as positive as I can and just deal with things as they come

I have a Stan I'm gonna post after this, so he's not attached to the bummer post tm.

[ghost-type-dan]

Why don't my clothes fit me the same way the way they fit skinny non binary people?

[deedjre]

hunted tries teaching beast to hunt. thankfully, she already knows how to! in a way! a very animalistic way.

[ryoun]

flick·er /ˈflikər/

verb

(of light or a source of light) shine unsteadily; vary rapidly in brightness.

▸ twinkling watermelon episode 6 and episode 13

requested by @whenthegoldrays

[tart-miano]

re-entering the cirque du freak fandom in 2023 be like

[daisukerine]

urghfhhhhh you know, being in space like. really hits you in the face when you realize it. like, you're so far away from home, and you're literally outside your PLANET, bro. no parents with you on board, just a bunch of geezers... food sucks when it's not homemade. man, you can't even party and drink up here! boring as shit, just a bunch of work everyday... is this what it's like to be a real adult?

like, even though i'm living it, i don't even know if i see a future in mechanics and shit. mom was the one who wanted this for me. but fuck, i don't even like this job that much. as dumb as it sounds— i really really wanna go pro for baseball. i was gonna get a scholarship for it, but mom didn't want me to waste my time on sports too much. told me to get a "real job", if you can believe it. like, seriously, dude— i don't get it! being a pro still counts as a real job, right? i'm even in the regional junior team...

"such a slacker", she said back when i came home from a game i didn't win. i didn't know how to respond to that, and honestly still don't. i wanna work hard, but how? and for what? for my mom? for this internship? for myself? shit really goes down in your head when you have the time to think, i guess.

after this internship, i'm gonna make my mom proud. i'll have experience under my belt. i'll go pro, and show her that what i wanna do is a real job. i'm going to take care of this. i'll take responsibility.

[alibonbonn]

Of all mythological characters, Thetis' grief resonates the most with me. The loss of her son is so final, more final than mortals losing each other- mortals might still meet each other in the land of the dead when all comes to pass. Somehow her sorrow feels the most like grieving a loved one who was of a different religion, you know what I mean? Like...we're not going to the same place! and I hope they've made peace with that before their time.

[north-wilkesboro-moonshine-cave]

Yeah yeah twitters the bad place but also if you comment on an nhl team’s tweet for Hanukkah with two Jewish players “please tell me they aren’t Zionist” that’s not like. Progressive. That’s literally just antisemitic and you should be embarrassed and go be sad in your basement bc no one invited you to their holiday party.

[jenthebug]

Home early with migraines.

Had one this morning, took my new meds (Ubrelvy), got motherfucking brain fog. 😭 Sounded like an idiot on air.

Got another migraine around 1300 and bounced. I’m done. I told Burly Man that I’d bitch at my neurologist and get better meds, and I will eventually, but the mychart app doesn’t have dark mode and I can’t hang with light mode right now. Will bitch later.

We had two terrible calls today, a preteen in cardiac arrest who didn’t survive, and a shooting. Everyone else gets all geeked up about shootings. I don’t. They’re stressful and they suck. If I never had to dispatch another one, it would be too soon.

I called Jay* after the cardiac arrest. Knowing that my own kid is okay helps me feel better after sad pediatric calls…but it doesn’t help that poor kid’s mom.

* “What’s up, just wanted to say hi and I love you! Doing okay? Oh good. Okay, love you, bye!” (I don’t actually tell him what happened, he doesn’t want or need to know that.)

Anyway. I’m gonna be a piece of furniture until bedtime.

[babacontainsmultitudes]

80 or so years of life really ain't enough can I have an elf lifespan instead please? Or at least a dwarf's... I need at least a couple hundred years... Oh and a new spine every 5 or so years, if that's not too much to ask. 3. 3 years actually. Yeah, a new spine every 2 years, and a lifespan of 350-750 years, that's all I want really.

[adventuretimelover1]

I think one of my moots, @takingshotsofapplecider got suspended, does anyone know anything/how I could reach her again?🙏

[losinmortalesperdidos]

@coinquinatvs asked:

[ Gabriel, for Nico~ ] ❝ That's a terrible idea. ❞

"Un coñazo." He muttered under his breath after his offer to turn the funeral parlor's hall into a nightclub in late hours was turned down so abruptly. "That's a shame to lose all this ambient and leave it for spirits." A moment later, with a slight and barely noticeable delay, his lips stretched with a smile, "Come on, of course, I'm kidding. That would be vulgar, wouldn't it?" He thought about the reason for his visit, the young woman who died recently and happened to have no living relatives to take care of her funeral. He was going to pay for it, the decent casket, the make-up, the dress, the cremation. That was risky, but he couldn't help himself. He wanted to spend more time with her, the time he hadn't given his mother when she was dying far away on the other continent. His thoughts returned to the silver catholic cross hanging over the black lace of her lingerie, and how he'd torn it away before squeezing his hands on her throat. "My involvement should be completely anonymous, I hope we agree on that."

[this-onegoes]

How have you been? Update us on your life 🙏🏼

ummmmmmmm 2024 was an absolute shit show for me tbh. crazy timeline from January until now: moved in with bf, then dealt with the domestic violence that followed. I got laid off couple days right before that. then strep throat kicked my ass, then my grandma died. a psycho was elected. now my new job is killing me, I won’t get a Christmas bonus, and have like two dollars to my name until pay day. I FEEL LIKE I HAVE LIVED EIGHTY LIVES IN ONE YEAR.

[feathers-little-nest]

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[pseudomonaslisa]

GOD of all the things i jettisoned to survive high school. writing is the one i miss the most

[universalcas]

Had to call the s- line after a while and after all that time it still feel like everything I do is a step back