#tw anamia

[dead-dove-doesnt-eat]

YOU SHOULD NOT HAVE FOOD IN YOUR HAND AND MOUTH AT THE SAME TIME!!!

Put the protein bar down between bites! Wipe your hands off before that second handful of popcorn! (Or eat popcorn with chopsticks!) Set down the fork and put your hands in your lap while chewing! Come on!

[skiiinnyy-lovee]

[watchthemshow]

TW: Mention of Su*c*de and SH

I keep typing “su*c*de” into my search engine…

I look at what comes up, like I have 1,000,000 times before and I wail in disappointment at the lack of knowing what to do.

“Text 988”

I think about it.

But what would I say?

“Hey I am going to end my life tonight.”

no… they might send someone to my house.

“I need help. I keep cutting myself.”

no…they might send someone to my house.

“I can’t breathe, my thoughts are drowning me and I’m in the bathtub thinking about how I could kill myself right now.”

no…they might send someone to my house.

Not that they shouldn’t.

Yet not that they should.

They tell you to text or call if you want to die.

I want to die but I’m too afraid to text or call in fear that I’d be wasting their time.

Something I was taught strictly not to waste growing up.

Something I seem to waste without trying

along with other things such as space and air.

I want to die.

But I’m too afraid to text.

I’m too afraid to call.

So I only search up “su*c*de” on my search engine

and

wail at the disappointment of not knowing what to do.

[deaddietcoke]

coc4ine moss my inspiration💋🚬🎀✨🪩

[antisocialbutterkat2]

I miss hearing ,“you’ve lost so much weight”

I love hearing, “have you eaten anything today?”

I hate having to leave food in my room overnight then giving said food to animals outside in the morning.

I hate feeling lonely

I didn’t realize how much I’ve missed it till I got left alone again.

I miss next morning full body pains

I miss having time to myself

I hate being left alone

I was sick for 2 weeks, ate almost nothing. Now mum’s attempting to makeup for lost meals

I’m tired

I can’t stop

My life holds no structure

My life knows no proper boundaries

My life lacks self made choices

My life needs order

I’ve lost control

I will have water or tea for breakfast

I will have Red Bull for snacks and lunch

I may eat if mum cooks

I will not cook for myself except vegetables or beans

I will eat only when I’m sure that there’s nothing left to do for the day

I may not be able to control anything

I will control one thing at least

[thinenough]

125lb->103

close ain’t close enough

[anaadiarys]

dream body

[lovelylittlebuggy]

omfg i miss my skinny face so much.

me then

me now

“you’re two/three years older” NO!!! IM JUST FAT AS FUCK

save me anorexia SAVE ME ANOREXIA PLEASE

[edjourneys-blog]

lost 2.5kg in one week!! Finally back on the right track😆

[hummingbird-050]

So, I’m going to do a thing…

I’ve decided I’m going to do the 75 “hard”. I have to modify it because I have lupus and the sun hates me but I’m going to do it while also being in a cal deficit.

I want to keep my self accountable, so I’m going to post on here.

My personal rules are:

1. Cal limits- I don’t want to exceed 900, except on metabolism days but no more then 1200(the number makes me want to vomit)

2. House work/ Mowing will be considered a “workout” I know myself, i like to push myself until it hurts and then I have to start back at the starting point.

3. Due to the sun being a bitxh I plan on doing yoga or Pilates indoors unless l feel up to being outdoors. No sense in making my self sick

4. Daily weight checks - I know this will trigger me, yes I’m okay with it.

I’m considering making a YouTube channel to share the progress. If I do and that is something you would want to see leave a comment or a like on this post ( I am overweight so please be kind )

[dead-dove-doesnt-eat]

The best time to start starving was 6 months ago.

The second best time to start is NOW

[skiiinnyy-lovee]

Workout Tips

Hi loves! Here's a few workout tips just to keep everyone motivated! Stretching I know it doesn't seem very important but doing the right stretches can burn upwards of 50 calories for a somewhat short stretch routine! It is also a good way to maintain stamina throughout your workout and to give up part way through! Short Workouts Try dividing a long workout into multiple shorter workouts. For example, instead of doing one 45 minute workout do a familiar 15 minute workout three times back to back. Yoga A good idea is to cool down from a workout with 30 minutes - 1 hour of guided yoga. You can find simple yoga routines recorded and guided online! Scheduling Exercise Here's a good schedule I often follow that I find easy to use: MORNING: 15 minute stretch, 30-45 minute workout, 30 minute yoga AFTERNOON: Optional stretch and small workout (less than 30 minutes), optional short yoga. EVENING: 15 minute stretch, 1 hour workout, 30-45 minute yoga.

[watchthemshow]

When Billie said

“I’m sad again

don’t tell my boyfriend.”

I fucking felt that.

[witch-of-thorns]

I can’t believe I let myself gain so much weight back

Like all of that progress I made just got thrown out in the fucking trash

I was so happy when I hit my lw I let it get to my head and ruined it

But I will get back down, and go even lower

I just have to get back on track

I just have to get back on track

[borderline-unstable]

so full disclosure

my little sister also high key has an undiagnosed ED

and it actually breaks my heart because i recognise all the signs and symptoms of it, including her lashing out at me when i express my concern about her eating habits etc

on the other hand though, it’s actually fucked because eating disorders are so competitive and she’s always boasting about her losing more weight / always asking me if i think it looks like she’s losing weight

actually fucks me up, because it makes me wanna starve myself more because i get upset that she’s skinner than me 😩

p.s. i NEVER ask my sister if she thinks i’m getting skinnier or tell her about the amount of weight i’ve lost so this was a mini rant ig bc she always does it to me and it’s triggering af

[3am-murderspree]

ew icky 3am is posting b0dychecks now 🤯🎉🪦