#tumblr is my therapy

[smiggles]

Do you want a lick too? I have plenty of shit to go around < 3

[so-sensitive-juki]

For 7 years I have used an leuchtturm A5 journal as a diary. I would spend hours writing in it, drawing little illustrations and pouring my sad heart out. I felt ‘safe’ in it, as those thin pages were my home.

I had a serious breakdown today and spent hours crying and laying on the carpet in between scattered old and present diaries. Every book has about a year’s worth of various feelings - they felt heavy as I picked them one by one. I couldn’t make myself read old entries. Every book was rotten from the inside out.

As I glanced over my present diary in such positive pastel pink cover, decorated with flower stickers, I couldn’t ignore the overwhelming feeling of it being a lie: optimistic from the outside, but oh so dark from the inside… I felt ready not only to let current diary go, but to let go of the format itself. Those broad big pages let me linger on pain for too long, made me write about hostile surroundings or unpleasant people and… I want to let go of those too.

Tomorrow I will buy a new diary from a different manufacturer. It is going to be an A6 with less amount of pages so I could finish it in around 6 months. I hope to finally prioritise myself, my own plans and daily life. I want to write about important and silly things, without focusing on the hurt other people caused.

Maybe Im just ready to let old sad sentiments go… maybe I just miss the hope that only new journals can bring 🍀☁️

[sematarygirls]

i don't remember who i was before this deep, aching sadness. i don't think there is a me after.

[misssclumsy]

Bruh you need therapy

Naah bro I need to be euthanized

[coffeeandconstellation]

I uninstalled the stupid instagram and you know what, it's the best fucking decision I have ever made. Damn I was so tired of it and it was only when I took a break I realised how much of it was weighing me down. Phewww....

Tumblr and pinterest will forever be a safe haven, I tell you.

[dear-mahal-ko]

I wish i knew

It hurts knowing I lost you in a short amount of time. I don’t know if ill ever be okay. But i know you are my guiding angel. I think about holding you in my arms. I had a name for you with Gods whisper telling me what to name you. I miss the small talks in the mornings. Mama ❤️

I don’t know how to to be okay right now. It pains me enough to block the pain God has reasons for to take you away from me. I feel like its karma. Looking at the days you would call me Mama and tell me you want something in your sweet voice.

You heartbeat will always live in my heart as I heard it for the last and first time. I will miss you Zion. Mama loves you Zee 🤍

Have arthur take care of you there cuz he knows i would love you as much as I do with the people that I love.

[luigi-lover-blog]

Tumblr is like… a guilty pleasure kinda app for me. Let me explain:

It’s like, you can have your own interests, and you go “woah, nobody hates me for it!? Omg?”

And it’s this… indescribable joy that only invokes within your body when you post on Tumblr, and people agree with you or disagree in a polite way. It feels… oddly pleasant. No toxicity! No hate! People finally understand me and my autistic desires and rambles!

Like, I get all giggly and shit bc of it im all like “heheheheeheheheheehehee look at my tisms and my art :3” and theres an audience that connects with you… its unreal 😭

I love Tumblr

[uupdirector]

i did the dirty on elon ^^^

two check marks is a great deal tho-

[aubreysdeardiary]

i guess i stay around waiting for something good to happen but dont we all.

[erlandious]

Forgot that when you follow someone on tumblr, their icon literally just flies across your screen??

Pen, if you see this, I just want you to know that I will be thinking about your blog avatar leaping across my phone for the rest of the day. Thank you :’)

[lastnightswritings]

I read the afterword from an author of a romance book and she talked about how she wrote this book during 2020, when she was at a cottage that she and her husband stayed at over that summer and I just died.

Died. Because ofcourse life works that way for her. For others.

It couldn't be more perfect. Well there's a pandemic. Time to stay at the lake for the summer, of which the owner let you because everything is shut down.

Time to write a book. Time to tell everyone in the publishing industry that you're doing that because oh ... Right. You only been working as an editor for over a decade so ofcourse finding an agent, editor and publisher is just a matter of pulling up who you know.

Might as well be pregnant too while doing that.

You know what I did during 2020?

No. Not write a book. But barely function as my family members died. One by one. Watch each of my aunts uncles cousins godparents sisters parents get it. Zoom call with my grandma as she's in the hospital.

All while trapped and not being able to see anyone in a rented house where the landlord is just waiting because they're afraid we're going to stop paying rent.

Then seeing everyone else after and getting so many comments like what did you do on your pandemic vacation?

Or hearing about how people did things. Explored hobbies.

Must have been nice.

I still have issues with that.

Kinda hard to let go of that.

I gave the book 3 stars.

[sabriherreras]

I love how when life sucks I immediately come to Tumblr.

Like, "Yeah! Those people get me!"

Is so cozy and wholesome

[bipolarsteaparty]

Tumblr is legitimately my virtual diary. My blog is filled with every which way of how I feel or the things I want to say but can’t. There are so many things I want to speak out loud but I don’t know how to word my thoughts.

[heyiappreciateyourshoelaces]

I fucking love this hellsite.

[misssclumsy]

In Tumblr, I have bunches of best friends, but in real life, why am I considered as an alien?

[dogerthefennec]

You know what I love about tumblr? I can silently exist in my small cave like the little gremlin I am and STILL get greatly entertained and overjoyed by fics, head canons and SO MUCH ART (and funny relatable posts)