#tulpa chase 1

[quilt-cove]

I got so sad last night i visualized myself being with my otter so vividly that i forgot everything bc i thought i was still in a relationship

Draw request from @runawaygel! Based on this post.

[wearenemies]

dashboard simulator

mutual 1: *poor quality image of pete wentz* does anybody know where i can buy a crowbar. for sexual purposes

mutual 2: my mikey way tulpa is coming along well

mutual 3: its so over after this mcr is breaking up forever theres no hope for us didnt you see the messaging in their staging. god. fuck its over

mutual 1: *image of patrick stump’s bulge*

mutual 4: im killing myself tomorrow

mutual 5: both of these blog posts may seem innocuous at first, but in fact when considered in relation to one another we can observe several similar phrases, and a pattern emerges in the pacing of his prose that proves without a doubt that he’s having an extramarital affair with his singer. first, the recurrence of the phra

mutual 1: i need to get a man pregnant

mutual 4: *joe trohman image* killing myself cancelled hello gorgeous 😍😍😍😍😍

mutual 6: mcr is releasing new music next week i know this deep in my soul the messaging in their staging is unmissable guys we have never been so fucking back in our lives

mutual 1: *image of patrick stump’s bulge*

mutual 3: *image of two members of my chemical romance publicly beating the snot out of one another* do you remember how we used to run

mutual 1: *image of patrick stump’s bulge*

mutual 7: frank iero is like a delicious steak to me i need to rip him apart like a feral dog

mutual 8: *the most stunning lovingly rendered drawing you’ve ever seen in your life of two middle aged musicians making out nasty style* just a quick doodle :)

mutual 4: my fucking bus was late killing myself is officially back on

mutual 5: *web weave consisting of sections of beautiful niche literature, medieval biblical illustrations, 17th century oil paintings, james baldwin quotations and peterick interviews*

mutual 1: *image of patrick stump’s bulge*

mutual 7: do you guys think i could cite unholyverse in my applied religious literature thesis i cant ask my professor because she blocked my email but idk i think it counts as a good modern text

mutual 2: guys i think my mikey way tulpa might be starting to crave blood

mutual 6: *ray toro image* im experiencing divine ecstasy i need her to [DATA EXPUNGED]

mutual 9: i cant listen to fall out boy anymore guys i had a nightmare where andy was chasing me in the dark forest it seemed really real

mutual 10 (unattached to bandom): out of the beatles john would for sure have the biggest boobs

mutual 1: what if it was called when we were freaky fest

[thefourpointedstar]

You know who.

Question, Since you are top #2 chase fan in the world How long is his muzzle? Id assume around a little more than half a foot? Y'know. Since he is 5ft 7inches~ish.

probably! real talk im not good at math and shit so taking his sprite and doing pixel measurements and all of that is not going to happen. if it wasn't 3am i'd 100% message a friend to get him to do it, but he probably isn't online rn soooooooooooo maybe in the morning

half a foot seems like a good estimate !

[apocalypseornaw]

Meant to Be (Pt 1/5)

Dean Winchester x Reader

You're Sam's best friend. That's the only connection you'll ever have to Dean...isn't it?

Warnings: cursing, mention of death. The usual

@lacilou s idea and I kind of ran with it

Also Bobby's alive past the Canon storyline cause I said so

You'd gotten dragged into hunting at a young age. Your aunt was your legal guardian and a full time hunter meaning you were raised bouncing between motel rooms much the same way Sam and Dean had. That was how you met them, Bobby may never have had his own kids but he had no issue in stepping in to help with both you and the Winchesters. When you were deemed too young to leave alone, too young to hunt you'd end up being dumped off at Bobby's.

You'd met Sam when both of you were ten and had gotten dropped off at Bobby's due to the flu. Your aunt had been mid hunt when she realized you were too sick to keep in a motel and Dean had demanded Sam be taken some where he could actually rest and get meds in him.

A quick friendship formed over the course of the next week while Bobby kept the two of you confinded to the living room. You both slept on the couch, curled up on opposite ends. Bobby would keep a schedule to meds that you both had to take along with feeding you enough soup to feed an army and constantly remind you both to drink more water.

When the week ended and your aunt along with Dean and John came to retrieve the two of you neither of you had wanted to leave each other's side, finally finding a friend that lived a similar life.

Your aunt and John ended up synching schedules on the three of you getting dropped off at Bobby's. Dean needed more training while you and Sam were just starting.

Dean was a smart mouthed fourteen year old, he didn't know why he had to get dropped off "like the little kids" he didn't want to train on the guns or knives with you and Sam, made fun of any movie the two of you watched and just seemed like he couldn't wrap his head around you being trained as a hunter.

You tried to be nice to him because he was your best friend's brother and you thought he was cute with his bright green eyes and splash of freckles.

Over the next few years you and Sam grew closer and Dean even started to accept you as a hunter and a friend of sorts. When Sam graduated high school with honors you were in the stands next to Dean, when you got your ged a couple months later they popped up at Bobby's to take you to dinner as a surprise.

While Sam was at Stanford you and him spoke regularly. You knew about the falling out between him and John when he'd headed for college. You'd encouraged Sam to chase his dreams outside of hunting, he deserved it.

You never told Sam how often Dean would track your most recent number down to check on him. You didn't mind Dean calling but seeing him was an entirely different story, the smart mouthed fourteen year old who was "kind of cute" and didn't quite get females as hunters had turned into a twenty five year old with a smirk that made your knees weak and a swagger that made women throw themselves at him no matter where he was.

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You would never admit under torture to the crush you had on the eldest Winchester brother. You told yourself it would go away and it was easily buried for years after all dealing with loss after loss and an apocalypse or two would push anything to the back burner.

You had assumed the feelings were remnants of the fact that Dean had been your first actual crush. Over the years you'd had a few boyfriends here and there and as most hunters a few hookups under your belt as well. Hell Dean had more than a few hookups under his belt and had taken a year off hunting when he'd thought Sam was dead to be with Lisa. You had gotten over the feelings for Dean or so you'd thought anyways.

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What pushed you back fully into the Winchesters' gravitational pull was when you'd gotten hurt on a hunt. A damn tulpa of all things. The embarrassment of getting rolled by something that only existed because a certain number of people believed in it was horrendous. What was even worse was the fact that while you were recovering at Bobby's he'd given you am ultimatum, find a hunting partner or quit.

"Bobby I've only ever been a hunter. I don't know anything else" you'd argued and he'd come right back with "Yeah and I've done lost too much to lose you. Please, I promised your aunt when you were just a kid I'd look after you. This is me looking after you"

You'd given up after that. Two days later Sam and Dean had rolled through Sioux Falls. Bobby had brought up wanting you to have a hunting partner and before Sam could agree to it Dean had spoke up "Hunt with us Y/N. You'd a damn good hunter I've seen you in action. You're Sam's best friend plus me and you get along"

You tried to ignore the little flip your stomach gave when he'd smiled at you, those green eyes as mesmerizing as always. "We'll do a trial run. I'll hang with you two for a few weeks and see if the dynamic can work full time" he'd grinned at that almost as if he'd taken your words as a challenge "Oh sweetheart. I'm a delight to be around and you know it"

You'd rolled your eyes and told Sam "Your brother is too damn full of himself" Sam had laughed and teased both of you by saying "Gee thanks Bobby for recommending me be with these two all the time"

@lacilou

[goferwashere]

PUNCH-OUT!! (Wii) MONSTER AU 🗣️💥

FIGHTING FOR YOUR FUCKING LIFE IN THIS RING. LETS GO 🔥🔥

It’s a bit long so I added a cut 😭 I spent the past three days on this

THIS IS SUBJECT TO CHANGE BUT OH LORD I FORGOT HOW MUCH FUN MAKING AU’S IS

ALSO PLEASE PLEASE ADD MORE HC’S AND STUFF IF YOU HAVE ANY

Please just assume that just about every monster on this list comes with super strength unless stated otherwise.

Glass Joe:

Human - Monster Hunter/Boxer

- Wants to retire, but knows that without him some of the more unruly and dangerous monsters would dominate the circuit.

- Not everybody knows that *he’s* the infamous monster killer within the WBVA. Some do, but he doesn’t want it to be common knowledge. He needs the edge of “Poor, weak Glass Joe” to get the jump on his opponents.

- He doesn’t kill often, only if things get extremely out of hand. He’s basically the only thing keeping the humans and monsters from starting a full out war in the WVBA.

- Despite his job, He’s friends with a couple of the other boxers. Some knowing that they were monsters, some that he assumed were human and were actually monsters, and some that were just human.

- He doesn’t have anything against monsters, only those who try to take advantage of their power.

- He still trains and goes into the ring, trying to enjoy himself. To be fair, he does still enjoy boxing despite everything else he’s doing. Even if his record does stand at 1-99.

- On that note, his one win wasn’t an accident. He fully intended to win that fight, lacing Nick Bruisers gloves with Garlic so he’d be fighting with his hands essentially on fire.

- Even though he’s got a serious job, he far from a serious guy most of the time. He’s friendly with just about everybody, and tries to be civil with the people who treat him like shit.

- He’s also still clumsy. Almost died a few times as a result.

Von Kaiser:

Vampire - Boxer

- Being turned during his military service, he’s gotten good at hiding the obvious signs. He covers his bite mark and eye bags, and excessively dyes his skin using turmeric. (It fades fast though, leaving his skin looking a healthy colour.)

- Claims he has a garlic allergy, which makes him sad because he quite enjoyed garlic before turning.

- Enjoys the perks of being a vampire, but just can’t seem to keep up with the amount of blood his body demands. So he often twitches and looses focus, being sluggish and tired quite often.

- He enjoys the chase when tracking down his prey. It makes him feel powerful.

- Is 100% on the monster’s side. He believes that they’re superior, and will often be snarky with the human boxers (even if they’re ranked higher than him).

Disco Kid

Human (Possessed by Kid Quick) - Dancer/Boxer

- Disco is being possessed by the ghost of a boxer that was killed during one of his matches (yes that’s his unfinished business)

- Whenever he’s doing anything involving boxing, that’s Quick’s doing, but personality wise that’s always been Disco

- Disco is surprisingly chill with it, always wanting to try boxing but never having patience to train (so Quick does it for him lol)

- His personality leaks into Quicks movements and taunts, since despite liking boxing he’s got ‘no flair’ (As Disco puts it)

- Doesn’t have any super strength, but if they work together they can pull of some nasty combos, with Quick grabbing them and pushing them into Disco’s attacks (Disco isn’t a huge fan of that though, so it’s only really a last resort.)

- He’s honestly nervous when he finds out about the monsters in the WVBA. Quick assures him that they’ll be fine as long as they keep their heads down.

-…Which of course, Disco would never do. So when he gets mixed up in the drama he doesn’t really have anyone to blame but himself.

- He knows that he should *technically* count as a monster, but him and Quick are in support of the humans.

King Hippo

Tulpa - Boxer

- He was created by a little boy who loved boxing, and created him. Giving him a backstory and a cool design. He thought about him so much that he just. Spawned one day.

- The only thing on his mind was boxing, so that’s what he did. He has no idea that he was just a figment of some random kid’s imagination, but I doubt he’d care (or believe it) if he was told. His only goal is to box.

- Not really involved in any of the WVBA human/monster drama. He’s rather quiet outside of the ring.

- Nobody is really clear what he is, but everyone has mutually agreed that he’s not human. No way.

Piston Hondo

Human - Boxer

- Everyone who knows him has a lot of respect for Hondo. He fights fair, and his technique was able to beat actual superhumans (granted, some of those wins may have circumstantial).

- Some of the other boxers are really confused as to how he can keep his ranking, and make speculations as to how he does it, but no one can come up with a solid theory.

- Unless he’s exposed to be a dirty trickster like Ryan, or doped up like Soda, everyone just has to respect the insane effort he puts in.

- Hondo is oblivious to the fact that the WVBA is infested with monsters, and has always thought that international boxing would naturally have more difficult opponents. Nobody knows what would happen if he found out, but nobody wants him give up if he did. Just about everyone (regardless about what side they’re on) will band together to keep Hondo in the dark.

Bear Hugger

Werewolf - Boxer

- He’s more or less happy with being a werewolf. Obviously he’s mad when he has to lock himself up during the full moon, but otherwise he’s chill.

- Essentially a Disney princess with how well he gets along with wildlife. Like. It’s actually insane.

- Thought he’d do well in boxing, so quite literally trained with bears before going to NY. He thinks it’s noisy and polluted, but stays to hopefully bring down the champion and take the belt home to show his friends.

- Cheers on everyone, regardless of what they are. He doesn’t really care about the fate of the WVBA and is just there for a good time.

Great Tiger

Human - Informant/Boxer

- A skilled magic user. He’s been learning since he was a little kid, and the jewel on his turban gives him a good chunk of extra power.

- Uses his tricks to get intel and feed it to Joe.

- He *LOVES* to stir the pot. He knows that he’s safe, and may even stick out his neck for Joe, but will never do anything that’ll put himself in harms way.

- In the same vein he’s always listening to drama. He will gossip like a high schooler, and he knows everything about everyone. He loves being cheeky and keeping other boxers in the dark about what he knows.

- Literally the personification of “🎶I know something that you don’t know~🎵”

- He’s basically on an even playing field, so has no trouble keeping his place in the major league. Honestly, he’s more in it to see how this drama will play out, and who’ll come out on top.

Don Flamenco:

Siren - Matador/Boxer

- He very much using his ability to charm people all the time.

- This includes getting the ref to give him decision wins (even if he doesn’t deserve it), and always to leave a good first impression on just about everyone he meets.

- Yes, sometimes it’s also to pick up ladies (and men? Sometimes? Depends on his mood…) but will never go too far with it.

NOTE: While I think it would be totally in character for him to sleep with them, I don’t want that for him since that’s not consensual. so let’s say that despite seeing humans as lesser he doesn’t want to cross that line. (For his *own* sake of course. The last thing he would do is use tricks to woo “lesser creatures” to bed with him.)

- He’ll whisper under his breath after taunting, convincing the opponent to throw the match. But he’s not great at it, and will sometimes encounter someone who doesn’t have great hearing. He usually loses those matches.

- Wants an all-monster WVBA. He can manipulate just about anybody, and generally sees humans as lesser (Unless they’ve proven to him otherwise, like Joe and Hondo) so he wants them out.

- He’s very charming and friendly, but if you get on his bad side he is NASTY. Like ruin all your relationships and steal yo girl/man nasty. (He keeps all that under wraps though, he can’t have his image be tarnished.)

Aran Ryan:

Human - Boxer

- To everyone’s surprise, he’s actually human. But for all the craziness he projects out in the ring, he’s a smart guy.

- He taunts boxers by trying to get them to hit him because he knows that one wrong move and they’d expose themselves. If they hit him too hard (he figures that one punch would be enough to kill him with their strength) he might die but knows that it’ll be hell to pay for their opponent as well.

- Same with the headbutts, it throws them off their rhythm because they need to react, even if they didn’t feel it.

- That’s why he cheats, because he knows that without it he’d stand no chance.

- But still, you can’t be asking people you know could kill you easily to hit you and be mentally stable. He’s still eccentric about making it as a boxer, this is just an extra challenge to him.

- Has a disdain for monsters, and will do just about anything he can to gain in upper hand in those fights. That flail has gotten him out of a few sticky situations.

Soda Popinski:

Human - Boxer

- He can only compete fairly (at world circuit level at least) because he’s doped up to hell and back.

- Way into the idea of the ‘indomitable human spirit’. He truly believes that human ingenuity can overcome any challenge, and this is no exception.

- He 100% wants to get monsters out of the WVBA. But because he knows that he’s already got a big enough target on his back for cheating he can’t make a big fuss publicly.

Bald Bull:

Minotaur - Boxer

- Nobody’s really sure where he came from, but some people have seen him in his Minotaur form and that’s been enough for the others to accept them onto their side.

- He’s close with a lot of the other monsters, and follows along with their plan to have monsters take over the WVBA circuits. He only does so for them, he doesn’t have a personal agenda.

- This is the first place he’s really felt accepted, so will do what his friends ask of him even if he isn’t entirely on board with it.

- That said, he does belittle the human competitors quite often. To their face and while they aren’t present.

Super Macho Man:

Dragon - Supermodel/Bodybuilder/Boxer

- Got tired of living in a cave, and made it to LA to see what had become of humanity.

- By god, he loved it. He’d chosen a particularly handsome form (even though he didn’t know it at the time) and loved the attention he got from the ladies. He quickly picked up on our customs and had plenty of gold to sell (after years of hoarding it up in a mountain somewhere, he figured that now was the time to use it).

- Always wears enchanted golden jewellery, because the last thing he wants is for his facade to slip. He doesn’t need all of it, but to him it’s a necessary precaution.

- He can breathe fire. He does it often as a party trick, and has even figured out how to change its colour.

- His skin is also very hot to the touch. You’d think he was always just finishing with an intense workout.

Mr. Sandman:

??? - Boxer

- Nobody knows, and nobody is brave enough to ask. He seems to beat monsters with relative ease, so everyone assumes he must be one as well, but nobody can figure him out.

- Everyone wants to keep him out of what’s happening, because he’s a loose canon. Nobody knows who’s side he belongs to and nobody wants to find out they’re his enemy.

PLEASE HELP ADD ONTO THIS IF YOU HAVE ANY IDEAS BECAUSE IM EXPLODING OVER THIS

[duketibbitswaifu]

🌸 DUKE DID NOTHING WRONG!!! 🌸

💗 🌸 I would say I support Duke's rights and his wrongs, but I believe all of his actions are justified. ^-^ 💗 ✨

💕 - Kidnapped and tried to kill Chase? - 💕

🌺 Well for starters, he might have already started to succumb to the hysteria?? 🍰 HELLO??? 🍰 Plus, he's trying to solve this massive problem the way he's always been told. 🚬 He's been seeing the tulpa around town, so ofc he's gonna try to rid of him~!!1 🌺 He even had the mercy to question him first. 🥰

💕 - Disabled Arturo's card and attacked Devon - 💕

🌸 He was clearly just pissed as all hell, and I would be too!! He said it himself!! ❣️ They really came to just piss with the "methheads" and the whole tragedy of the place~!! >:((( 🌺 ✨

💕- Associating with Brian for so long. - 💕

🪷 He was USING BRIANNNN. ❣️ 🍰 You can tell he hated his fucking guts and used him only to maintain power. 💗 ✨ He's a giant ass bear. That's a huge asset. 🌺 💞 Plus, after he found out what he did in Arches, you could tell Duke went go pump some lead in his head. 🍦 🚬

💕 - Calling Chase a queer. - 💕

I would too. Have you seen him? 🙄

[agentcable]

Supernatural Season 1 Ep. 17 "Hell House"

Sam and Dean investigate a house haunted by Mordechai, a man who killed his daughters in the 1930s. The brothers find a website about Mordechai and realize the town is making the evil spirit come back through the site.

If you want to watch the series for yourself, stop reading! This post contains spoilers to the storyline.

A group of teenagers in Richardson, Texas, visit a haunted house and find a girl's body. The body is gone by the time the police arrive.

Sam and Dean, who are playing a prank war, decide to investigate. They track down Craig Thursten, who tells them the story of Mordechai Murdoch, a farmer who killed his daughters in the cellar to spare them from starving to death during the Depression.

Sam and Dean visit the house, which has new symbols painted on the walls and floor. While searching the house, the boys meet Ed Zeddmore and Harry Sprangler, paranormal investigators.

Sam and Dean do more research but find no evidence of Mordechai Murdoch. They're leaving when they hear a girl died in the house the night before.

The next night, they return to the house, but it is blocked by police. They see Ed and Harry trying to get into the house. Dean shouts, alerting the officers to the Hellhounds. They give chase, letting the Winchesters get inside. They go into the basement and meet Mordechai, who chases them from the house and is not slowed by rock salt. As they break down the door, they run past Ed and Harry, who capture Mordechai on video before being arrested.

Back at their motel, the boys try to figure out what's going on. Mordechai's spirit had slit wrists, which wasn't part of his legend. The Hell Hound's Lair website has also been updated.

Dean recognizes a symbol in the house and goes back to see Craig. The symbol is from a Blue Oyster Cult album cover.

Craig works in a record shop. Craig says he and his cousin painted the symbols and spread the rumour about Mordechai as a prank.

Sam thinks Mordechai is a tulpa, a thought made real. One of the symbols painted in the house is a Tibetan spirit sigil, which helps focus the mind. Sam thinks people make reality what they read on the website. The boys tell Ed and Harry that Mordechai can be killed with iron rounds. They wait for the boys to post it online, and it becomes real.

Sam and Dean go back to the house to kill Mordechai, but Ed and Harry are there. They say the server crashed, so the new legend won't happen. Dean sets the house on fire to stop Mordechai.

Sam and Dean say goodbye to Ed and Harry. Sam prank calls them as a Hollywood producer, and Dean puts a fish in the back of their car. The boys stop their prank war.

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[leos-soggy-wolf-nuts]

Here's some homework after finishing the sidestorys.

Now that you have seen most of the game, it's time to reflect on what happened before Flynns route.

1. The idea of moving in circles is introduced very early into the game. Explain what that metaphor means for the game overall and for the side characters.

2. Every character has a signature flaw. Explain what these flaws are for each character and how they can overcome them in their respective routes. (Tip: overcoming these flaws leads to the good ending)

3. Predict what Flynns biggest flaw is and how he might be able to overcome it.

4. There are still figures in this play where we don't know who they are or what they want. Explain who these are and how some of them could be connected.

now this is homework i'll do. LONG POST WOOT!

When it comes to circles, a few things come to mind. Firstly, there's the fact that Chase, TJ, and Jenna are literally circling back to Echo - returning. The things they'd experienced had followed them out and festered, only to trigger the curse as they return. Leo's "circle" is his possessiveness over Chase. And this is partly Chase's fault. Several times while Chase was at college he stoked Leo's love through dirty sexting, for completely selfish reasons. He was possessive before Chase left, he was so possessive that he accidentally created a tulpa, and he was absolutely possessive when Chase returned. Carl's "circle" is ancestral. Just like in the previous century, The Hendrickses are the top dogs of Echo, and the Begays are scorned and impoverished. Carl is completely ignorant of this. He bathes in the riches that injustice brought him, and it bites him in the ass through Jenna's judgment of him, through the possession, through the Clue Set (i still don't have a better term for the ghost-house in his route). TJ's "circle" is victimhood. 2015 TJ is absolutely not a victim - he's self-sufficient and doing very well. This is definitely the most obvious circle. The same thing that happened to him in childhood happened to him in young-adulthood - Chase killing somebody on his behalf. Jenna's "circle" is a lot less obvious to me, as is her signature flaw. There's a lot going on with Jenna! Her ancestral ties, her family, her personality. I think...the ways she coped with an abusive family in childhood: mean-spirited pranking, giving herself a very 'adult' role in any given situation, etc, all return as she comes back to Echo. I noted in her route that she sort of wants Chase to go back to being his "old self". She's just...kind of toxic. Very subtly so. Chase's "circle" is...god. A lot. The entire continuing Echo thread of narrative is wrapped around this stupid faggot otter. This answer has already gone on way too fucking long. As for the overarching story, "circles" are sort of the nature of a literal echo. The source creates the sound, the sound becomes warped somehow, and it returns to the source through their ears. There's also the circle of me going through a route then circling around and restarting. That's why I like the theory that Echo's curse is the presence of Real Life. The "echoes" that they experience are very often somehow tinged with technology. When Janice was telling her story in TJ's route, there was an experience back in the 40s - before audio recordings as we know them today - where the entity in question had a voice that sounded like it was coming from the radio. There's also the demons - the highway monster, for example - who Chase notes as having muzzle-less faces. If there's one species I know doesn't have a muzzle, it's a human being, who don't exist in Echo's world, only outside of it. And the monsters very rarely try to kill the cast. They almost...help the story along. The highway monster keeps the cast in Echo, because the story of Echo can't continue if they leave prematurely. The demon in Jenna's route seems...fairly helpful. It kills Brian, and would've killed Heather if she hadn't agreed to not flood the town. Anyway, all that is unrelated to the question. And notice how we only see outside of Echo when it pertains to the effect that Echo has on the characters. The short stories, I mean.

This one's easy, comparatively. Leo's signature flaw is his delusion. He's so delusional he psychosis'd himself a submissive&breedable chunter ghost. It's only after Chase outright rejects not just Leo, but Leo's behavior, that he's able to move on. Carl's signature flaw is his dependence. He's dependent on his parents, he's dependent on Flynn (and vice versa, kinda), and he thinks he needs Chase. At the end of Carl's route, it's pretty clear. He finally gets over the idea that he can't be an individual. The way to get to Carl's good ending is telling him to reject dependence on James. Jenna's signature flaw...is hard to describe. It's like I said before, she's just kinda toxic, but when I think to what really happened in her route, what comes to mind is her decision to go after Heather and stop her from flooding the town. I think...for a long time, Jenna refused all sentimentality. She disrespected Chase and Leo's relationship, she completely turned her back on her family (which wasn't wrong of her, but in Runaway she didn't even seem that broken up about it. Like, not particularly emotional. But she'd get emotional if prodded about it, like she was just holding it back), and even littler things like, her exploitation of Chase's fear of spiders. Which, his arachnophobia is absolutely kinda funny, but it comes from a really dark place that she doesn't really acknowledge. It's only when she became sentimental, enough to try and stop Heather, and save Echo, that the good ending happened. TJ's signature flaw is his soft backbone. He's too shy. There's something to be said about how much Chase was acting like Leo during TJ's route. Leo's good ending only happens when Chase outright says "the way you're acting isn't right, and I'm leaving you over it." TJ never says that to Chase. He runs away. TJ leaves people wondering about him. He lets them get the wrong idea. He can't just...say No. That's why he kept agreeing to manual labor with Janice, and why he couldn't make it clear to Chase that he's not interested. And obviously Chase shouldn't have kissed him, but it stemmed from Chase's misinterpretation of TJ's thoughts, which isn't really the otter's fault, just his mistake. Chase's signature flaw is the way he positions himself like a bystander, like he's just not culpable for any suffering, and yet is entirely the cause of all of it. Everyone's trauma (except Jenna, I think) is at least partly due to Chase. He's so incapable of taking responsibility that he FORGOT HE FUCKING KILLED SOMEONE! Just like TJ, he never made his feelings clear to Leo, choosing to ghost him then lead him on for 3 years, and he never owned up to how fucking mean he was before college. Even when he got caught watching porn, his instinct was to avoid his parents for as long as possible, rather than just...have a conversation. An uncomfortable conversation.

Fuck, I don't know. There's a lot I don't know about Flynn. For basically everyone else's routes, he's absent for the majority of the story. I think Flynn...holds on. He holds grudges and theories, which is why he flips the fuck out on TJ in particular, because he suspects that TJ killed Sydney. He holds his grief for Sydney down tight. He lets it isolate him from the others. He lets it turn him bitter and aggressive. His fixation on Sydney's death is why I'm scared to pair him with Sydney's killer. He's only going to let go of Sydney if he finds out the truth, I feel like. And by then, he'll have bonded with Sydney's killer to some degree.

Another toughie. The first thing I think of is the smoke monster from Carl's route. What first comes to mind is how elemental the smoke monster is. The curse has been in the land since before anybody inhabited it. It's determined not just to harm our cast (poor Raven!) but confuse even the ancestral spirits themselves. Because even when those people were alive they were contending with whatever came before them, whatever the Indigenous Meseta people were cooking in the Echo shitpot and such. I keep also coming back to that connection I made between the smoke monster, which is present alongside the ancestral spirits, and the fact that the characters' ancestors are present in The Smoke Room. I still feel like that's related. There's also the fucky demons, like Jenna's Closet Monster and the Highway Monster, but I've already mentioned what I think they are.

[thequietmanno1]

TheLreads, Vigilantes ch 103, Replies Part 2

1) “…

They fucking WHAT now

I hope I got that wrong, and you mean to say that Koichi is keeping track of McBee even at higher speeds, because otherwise…”- It seems that the shots somehow follow Koichi’s intended target, albeit with a low curving turn to them. It’s more noticeable with the softball shots, but it makes sense if Koichi’s firing them half on instinct at the indistinct blur Nomura’s become at high speed without really being certain of what part of him to hit. 2) “Bahahaha- McBee got defeated once again by the weakest of shits, oh my god man, AfO did a damn good job with this one, didn’t he?”- Koichi has been beating Nomura back with a nerf gun, when he actually has a genuinely dangerous arsenal hidden as backup. When Nomura finds out that he’s being handled with kiddie gloves this whole time, he’ll flip. 3) “Oh do you Phelps? I thought that you didn’t worked with Vigilantes, and rules and you let this run for too long and blah blah blah just let us see Koichi chasing McBee already.”- It’s actually a task that falls well within the purview of ordinary citizens, albeit rare because of the onset of mobile communication these days: Call for Help. 4) “oh, you mean the guys that you could’ve used before? what a fascinating fucking idea McBee, shame it’s too late for it now.”- It does clear the area of Nomura’s backup to allow him and Koichi to have a solo one-on-one at long last. 5) “Avoiding wasting them… like you did already against Aizawa? Oh my god man, he’s even talking to himself, I think the O'Clock tulpa started to grow sick of his shit.”- Between him and Tomura’s headspace, it seems the writers of the MHA verse have a real thing for giving their main villains multiple mental issues and personalities. 6) “HE FUCKING BETTER NOT

YOU HEAR ME FURUHASHI. YOU BETTER NOT.

IF YOU DO THAT I’LL STEAL YOUR FEMUR AND USE IT TO PLAY XYLOPHONE WITH YOUR RIBS”- Crises has been averted…for now. It’s kinda funny how summoning All Might is as much of a threat to our enjoyment of reading the story as it is to the villains. 7) “YES YES YES THERE’S STILL A CHANCE TO SALVAGE THIS STORY YES McBEE GO AFTER KOICHI AGAINST YOUR BETTER JUDGMENT”- Didn’t have to this time, as Koichi came to him for the final showdown. 8) “OH MY GOD THE O'TULPA JUST WENT “WELL, YOU’RE A LOST CASE, I DON’T KNOW WHAT I CAN SAY TO MAKE YOU NOTICE HOW STUPID THAT IS””- Hey, if rational arguments won’t cut it, indulge in his emotional breakdown so he at least cooperates a bit more, rather than standing still arguing with his imaginary friend, which helps nobody. 9) “OH THANK THE FUCKING GOD!

IT WAS KOICHI

…

WHY IT WAS KOICHI?

IS THIS PART OF THE PLAN SOMEHOW? HUH?”-  Koichi: I Am Here!....to draw Aggro! 10) “McBEE IS LIKE >)

NOW THINGS ARE STARTING TO LOOK PROMISING ONCE AGAIN”- Koichi is the only one not looking forward to this upcoming destined showdown. 11) “And that’s the end of the chapter, and boy did we just dodged a bullet there. Not like McBee that is.

But now that they put that card on the table I’m really fucking concerned that this is how it’s gonna end, with All Might showing up. I’m feeling scared that Koichi is there to cause a distraction while Soga leaves on his bike to call for backup.I’m terrified of that possibility.”- The one time we don’t want the mega-hero to show up and rescue everybody, because that’d mean stealing Koichi’s thunder. @thelreads

[cambriancrew]

You say it's a slippery slope except we've seen it happen. It happened with natural multiplicity changing to endogenic, it happened with system changing to collective or crew or any one of the many alternatives, it has even happened with tulpa changing to parogen before. We Crew use endogenic, refer to ourselves as a Crew far more often than we use the term system, and use parogen/parogenic for our created Crewmates, and guess what? People STILL insist we're faking or delusional or psychotic, insist we can't possibly be plural (and oh yeah, there's people who want only DID/OSDD-1 systems to claim ownership of the term plural too) and insist it's impossible to create a headmate the way we created ours, and try to chase us out of the plural community. We get hate and sui baiting and death threats and threats of doxxing and we don't even use the so-called "problematic" language for ourselves.

It's not a slippery slope when we KNOW where all this leads, has led before, and will lead again.

If it was only about the terms, we'd be left alone for not using any of those terms ourselves. But we're not left alone, because, at least for a significant amount of those people pressuring for different terms, it's actually about wanting to silence us and keep us from being part of the plural community. Not that everyone on the "just change your terms" side is like that, but enough are to make this a problem.

(this post is made by a white person, feel free to correct any misinformation.)

i don't mean this disrespectfully, but when people say "it's not about the terminology, they want us gone" when it comes to not using the word tulpa... no? it is very much about the terminology. if you use something else, well everything wouldn't necessarily be fixed, but it's a great step in the right direction, from what I'm being told.

it's okay to be wrong, it's okay to make mistakes, but stop doubling down?

i hope this is worded okay. i'm finding it hard to words things right now.

[leoalvarez-clowncarcommittee]

Two ‘Content’ Questions

1. I’m interested in doing some micro fics about a hypothetical TSR/Echo crossover AU set in 2015. I think developing this FULLY would be an actual nightmare and would potentially be endless/hard to manage. As such I’ve decided that ‘micro’ fics (like that Jeremy/Carl alternate Trip one here) would be a good idea. I think a small writing exercise to try and ‘force’ me to write will help speed along Silent Echoes as well. Is there any interest for that, and if so should it be hosted here or on @kane-the-fed-pinkerton-tulpa?

2. Was thinking of doing some micro fics and/or extra explanations from my Chase/Leo playlist. Just a collection of wild Chase/Leo stuff all tied together with music. I don’t have the knowledge/vocabulary to disect music so I figured this would be a better option. Spice things up with what I write and allow myself to throw in some Chase/Leo chaos/love every now and then. So just gauging if that’s something people would like to see too.

I’m going to try VERY VERY hard to start working on this stuff this week, and hopefully kick-start Silent Echoes writing as well.

[ghostmary]

I just followed you back (hi this is my main for smalltowncas) and I really want to know what your long fic is about 👀

hi bestie new mutual <3 the longfic you speak of is truly a Lot i could go on at length abt any and all of it. it has all my favorite early seasons characters (jo, bela, jimmy novak </3, missouri moseley, anna, so on + so forth) 

my long fic starts in season 1!! pre-canon, or thereabouts. Dean has been spending his time hunting or with Cassie. they barely have time for each other beyond spare minutes of phone calls, though. he’s after a shapeshifter but something is after him. 

Sam is with Jess at stanford. he thinks that it’s average June stress dreams. it’s not. she burns and he leaves even though there’s no one to find him because, and this is key, it feels like his fault. all that golden fire and filthiness in him. in more dreams, he sees Reapers haunting towns through the Midwest and it makes him think of his home and his childhood. especially because being out on the road again, chasing after monsters (himself) is sending him cascading through a million thoughts of what it was like when it was him and Dean. 

i think that even though Sam’s powers are everywhere, he’s too young for all this. he keeps burning cars on accident and he’s scared to keep on going in Jess’ car because it runs on gas, he’s scared that his pyrokinesis gets to be too much and he’ll be up in flames too, even though he’s under so much pressure he could turn into a diamond, he’s just too young. he’s a baby all he wants to do is watch star wars and make his girlfriend cinnamon rolls. it’s not like the real season 1, where Dean could always be trusted to come in at the last minute and get the monster together. it’s not like that. Sam’s alone. 

on his own, he takes out a nest of wraiths. that’s when, driving through Kansas, he finds the Impala outside of a haunted house. without Dean or anything. I’m sure we can come to the obvious conclusion about that. (Dean would never abandon his car) he lets go of Jess’ old car in exchange for the Impala and in Dean’s old journal he finds out about a psychic- Missouri Moseley <3 she’s the next stop in his destination trip because she might know something about his powers, or the smell of death around these towns. 

she doesn’t know what he means when he tells her about the Reapers. there’s a case, though, a Tulpa. it’s perfect for Missouri since!! she has a sense for seeing those things and finding them out! A TULPA <3 Sam doesn’t get to the Tulpa though. instead he gets taken and tied up. it’s a s1 AU. Sam is always getting tied up. 

the demons that have him tell him things. how he’s Hell’s prize racehorse and they’ve always been watching and someday, if he doesn’t win (and the next arc is all about him wondering just what he’s meant to win) there’s only one real destination he’s meant for. Sam’s powers aren’t under control, so the ashes of the pyrokinesis are more inside his mouth and filling his body than bursting forth and saving him from all the demons surrounding him with taunts and truths that he doesn’t quite know what to do with. 

in the end, it doesn’t matter. John finally arrives at the last moment with the Colt. (my favorite part is coming up now <3) the angels drag Dean out of the dirt. Raphael kills John while he’s at it. (good riddance and goodbye <3)

all of it feels like a dream to Sam. i’m so just. feeling emotions about how he’s alone to the point where reality disconnects and he can’t get used to having Dean’s solid presence beside him. and Dean is different too, he’s full of undying post-Hell rage and fear. and Sam hasn’t actually had such a constant person next to him since two or three months ago, when he spent every morning and night tucked into bed with Jess. 

they ARE reunited though. and that counts for something here, as Dean takes off with Sam riding unwilling shotgun to find the angel that killed his father. 

AND <3 THAT’S THE END OF THE FIRST ARC!!! right now i have like 4 more planned. this is already soooooo long and i promise i PROMMY that it’s not all about sam i could talk about the other 4 arcs but i don’t wanna answer this ask a billion years late so i’ll put it here. like literally though i swear it won’t just be abt Sam

[gilmesc1]

Sacrificing my remaining braincells to the void

Ok friends, you requested it, you awaited it, I’ve cleaned out my ears to remove the melted remains of my brain, here we go, we’re doing this, tell my partner I love them. It’s time...for syscourse analysis.

So this is a very bare bones run through of syscourse, it’s as basic as it gets and if need be I’ll focus on components of it after I recover.

So, syscourse is literally the words system+discourse. Bet you guys never saw that coming. 20 seconds into this fucking mess and we already have a major plot twist. And I know what you guys are thinking. A bunch of traumatized people not getting along? Another plot twist!

Jesus I better tone down the sarcasm.

Anyways, what the fuck even has to happen to have syscourse, apparently two types of systems. Yes friends, two types of systems, and I’m not talking DID and OSDD (which are really quite similar).

Our players are traumagenic systems and endogenic systems. Traumagenic systems are systems that formed out of trauma, like DID and OSDD systems. Naturally this plunks me down in the traumagenic catagory, thanks to my big fucking mess of trauma. So we got that down, moving on to endogenic.

So an endogenic system is a system that supposedly split without trauma. No idea where the word endo comes from. Or like, what the fuck endo even means as a word like trauma. (Maybe I want to endo myself after reading a bunch of syscourse? Ok, ok that was bad.)

The biggest issue once you get down to it is who is the Real System tm, and do other systems belong in each other’s tags. This is the part where I’d smoothly bring you all to a good starting point, but *insert deity here* help me, there isn’t one.

Syscourse seems to be older than mankind itself mongrels, because I cannot find where it started and who the tags belonged to first. So for those of you who like to visualize, picture two dogs chasing each other’s tails, running in a circle, and that is syscourse.

So let’s break it down more. I, and I’m sure many others, flocked to tumblr to find others who experience what I do, that being traumagenic system stuff. Again, we have trauma that results in our system’s creation. And that’s all fine and good, sure not everyone gets along with each other but for the most part all us systems are vibing and sharing memes and posts.

Now like I said, to be an endogenic system you are a system without trauma, and to me this is a little confusing. Brains aren’t made to be multiple and I’m the clusterfuck I am because of trauma, but to just magically thanos snap a system into existence? That I have a harder time wrapping my mind around.

There are a lot of examples of endo systems, but the ones I’ll be looking at today are tulpas. What is a tulpa? Well at first I thought it was a ghost thingy that you get by thinking about it, (supernatural anyone?) but now that I look into it, it’s apparently a Tibetan religious practice.

So we have science vs spirituality. This spells disaster already for syscourse.

So to get a better idea of tulpas than I could give you, I’d recommend looking at tumblr posts on tulpas because I’m in sarcasm mode and not really in a position to educate about those. Long story short it’s a thought process where you can essentially create a second being that is similar to an alter, as it exists in a headspace and can switch in.

Now I said headspace and switch in on purpose, because that is where the issue lies. Endos and traumagenics fight about words like that, and who they belonged to first. Can an endo use the words system, fronting, ect when they are scientific words specifically for DID or OSDD, or can traumagenics use the word multiplicity when it supposedly came from tulpamancy?

Side note: Guys do not lecture me on words, I’m trying to give examples, sorry but I don’t have my words for traumagenics dictionary on me rn, that’s in my other hoodie.

The majority of day to day syscourse is endos and traumagenics “infiltrating” each other’s tags and safe spaces, and ruining everyone’s day. From what I have seen, many traumagenics do not want endos to interact with them, and personally I see a few good reasons for this.

1, mental illness is not a trend and DID and OSDD are very very rough to live with. With there currently being a lack of scientific evidence on the existence of tulpas, I understand how it can seem that some are cashing in on the “DID hype” and giving off this romanticized view of being a system.

2. People with DID might be looking for specific DID info, and having to strain through irrelevant topics to them might be heavily stressful.

3. We’re traumatized and random things can set us off. This is the internet and I think everyone is at least a little toxic, and both sides have said shit to each other, but when people get triggered its easy to lose control. Not an excuse, tis merely a fact.

I’ve seen endos post things like “all systems are valid” and it’s a nice sentiment, in my heart of hearts behind my black toxic drama loving one, I’d like it if systems could just get along, but on a topic as complex as mental illness I don’t think that’ll happen.

I’ve seen both sides say things that were really uncalled for, and there’s no right or wrong answer overall in a fight like this. Naturally I’m team traumagenic but as for whether or not I feel like endos are valid or not, jury’s still out on that.

Hear me out, I have heard the theory that endo systems can help deal with trauma despite not being formed by trauma, and I’ve met a few people irl and seen things that confused me. Maybe they were traumagenic systems who didn’t know their trauma, idk.

I really don’t want drama. I’m sure systems on both sides are good people but like I said, the internet is toxic. (btw I love you mutuals, you are all good people)

In my humble opinion syscourse is stupid. I think there definitely should be a discussion about endos and traumagenics, but like can we talk like adults and not be like “WE’RE ALL VALID UWUUUU” with a string of toxicity behind it.

That level of back and forth is dizzying and irritating, and quite honestly I don’t want to deal with it. This is me trying to be neutral and give an overview, but that’s hard as I am traumagenic myself, and I don’t really understand the other side.

That’s why I’m not going to say I reject endos. I need to figure out more for myself and since this does leak into my personal life i want to do it carefully. I’m open to polite discussions, but I really want to keep out of syscourse drama.

Another side note: Something I think that is especially stupid is the amount of outrage over users saying they dni with endos. It’s a choice for that person and it should be respected. Like how I have personal reasons for keeping discussion open, others have personal reason for closing it. That should be respected and not ranted about. There are thousands of tumblrs, find one that isn’t dni and leave those people alone.

Additionally, if any endos do want to talk I’d prefer if you dm me, as I want to keep my blog traumagenic focused, both for my followers and for me, out of respect for those who don’t want any endogenic content and for me so i don’t wear out my three brain cells (I’m accepting name ideas for them)

To end this, I don’t want drama, nothing makes it easier for me to cave to my vices then drama, and syscourse is so freaking tiring that it would be like rolling around like sandpaper to get involved.

So there it is, my useless, sarcastic post on syscourse. Let’s see how many followers I lose, and if need be I can look into more stuff about syscourse since this is an overview.

Again this was supposed to be neutral and not necessarily all of my views, I’ll get more personal on it later maybe, but tbh I’m too fucking tired for that rn. Chronic illness, hell yeah.

Anyways, hope you enjoyed, I’m impressed I wrote it all, have a good day guys, I have to go to a party while feeling like my body is leading a rebellion.

I don’t even like people, why am I going XD

But hey shout out to social distancing, I’m using my personal space bubble and NO ONE can stop me.

Ok, time to give the braincells a rest. See you guys

[dualumina]

Day 1: 3rd of August (Monday) Who are you? What’s your Zexal story?

Ohhhh… fine I’ll cave. I might lose followers for this, but whatever. Easy come, easy go, I guess. (checks count for future reference: 34 👀💦)

I don’t know what the general mentality of tumblr is concerning this subject but… sigh, here goes nothing. This is going to be a long post.

MENTAL HEALTH-RELATED TRIGGER WARNINGS AHEAD

I learned early on that my imagination was the safest place I could be in, and for a time, the only environment I had any semblance of control over.

As I hit my adolescence, I realized that the environment around me was worse than I’d initially feared. On my own, I knew I wouldn’t make it, so in the only place of safety I’d known all my life, I sought help. Wished for it, dearly. In any shape or form.

It took some time, but, help did come.

At first, I would dream of them. Always a boy around my age, always different in appearance, but every time, they were familiar to me. Their mannerisms, their personality. I didn’t know anyone in my waking life like this person; they were unique, despite having no appearance, or name, to call their own.

These dreams of the two of us together would consist of us doing incredible things, sometimes dangerous and exciting, other times calm and serene.

I looked forward to these dreams, considering the alternative was… the nightmares.

Always myself, alone, chased like someone’s prey, with no one to help. Constantly… struggling to stay afloat.

The dreams gave me life, and hope, while the nightmares would take those same things away. It was always a gamble when I closed my eyes, but, my curiosity to know more about the dream boy made me willing to place down my bets.

At some point, I started writing my own stories, putting my imagination into a physical form. I’d been drawing since as long as I could remember, but this was my first time putting a story to the drawings.

I soon realized that my stories contained interactions between characters, and while I could imagine the grandest mountains or the tiniest insects, my ability to imagine connections between others was lacking. My solution to the problem ended up being to treat the interactions between characters like actors rehearsing a scene together.

I would play one character, and… someone… played the other character.

It’s odd I never put much thought into this.

Years went by, many stories were written, many more never made it onto paper, but one thing was certain; I became very good at these “practice conversations”.

It’s now 2013, and after graduating high school, I experienced my second depression. My best friend was growing distant, I could tell it was only a matter of time before the “end” in “friendship” was fulfilled, and I wasn’t looking forward to going to the local college in the slightest. I had no idea where my future was going.

In my daze, I happened to notice a familiar name in the list of shows airing during that time; Yugioh. I remembered once watching DM and GX excitedly before, though never had much interest in 5D’s. Zexal it was called, might as well see if it’s any decent.

Hearing this protagonist’s voice was akin to listening to a blender for no reason, but at least he was interesting to watch. That blue character beside the new “Yu” though… why is his crotch glowing like that? Apart from the holy crotch… “he” does look cool, and he seems to have an interesting story to him. I’ll probably tune in again if I happen to see it in the channel listings.

I didn’t see many episodes of Zexal around this time, maybe five at max. I could tell that the dubbers had butchered this poor show, but it wasn’t until later that’d I’d feel compelled to seek out the sub.

This is where I suspect I may lose followers.

Considering the entertainment in my small town was limited, and I had essentially lost the one person I’d normally hung out with, the internet became my new pastime.

And by accident, I was introduced to the concept of tulpas.

I’d consider myself a nerd for psychology and other things involving the brain, so upon my discovery of this concept I did a bit of reading on the subject. “Mental companions with their own autonomy” as the subreddit described them. Neat.  

I had no interest in trying to make one for myself.

But suddenly, I had one.

It didn’t help that this tulpa decided to assume the form of Yubel in that moment. Suffice to say I was convinced my imagination had finally gone off the rails and was trying to trick me into thinking I had one of these tulpa things.

I tried ignoring them. That failed, as they were exceptionally chatty, and curious as to why they were suddenly there. I should mention, that this occurred around midday, so my hope that they’d go away after I went to sleep was still several hours away.

Suffice to say, after I woke up the first time, I realized they weren’t going away.

Time went by, and they’d dropped the Yubel form, which certainly helped in getting me to stop thinking that there was a chance that they were actually a demon. Now I had a new problem.

They’d chosen Astral’s form.

By this point I had no idea what to call them. Astral? Yubel? Tulpa? They didn’t like any of those names. Oh, apparently they’re a he, alright sure, I guess.

“So what name do you want then?”

He thought for a moment, before this naked-blue-floaty-elf-creature-living-in-my-imagination responded very matter of factly with, “Clay.”

That certainly wasn’t a name I would have chosen for such a being, but that was one of the things that helped convince me that perhaps this… entity, does have thoughts that are separate from my own.

This tulpa territory was very unfamiliar to me, as it would be several years before the realization would dawn that the dream boy, the other “actor”, and Clay were one and the same. At the time, I hesitantly trusted him, but the depression kept me doubting this “stranger”. I asked him at one point if I could put him through a few “tests” just to see how much Clay was both apart of and distinct from my imagination.

At first the tests were simple, like what happened if I pictured a rain cloud above Clay, would he get wet? (he did) Several similar, harmless, tests occurred. However, I was getting frustrated; Clay’s reactions were ones that I’d expect. Part of the purpose of these tests was to determine just how autonomous Clay actually was, or if he truly was just my puppet on strings.

I proceeded to do something I’d immediately regret;

Imagining a handgun into my “mental self’s” hand, and I shot a bullet towards Clay.

Either he dodged it or I intentionally missed. It’s been too many years to remember for sure. Probably a mix of both.

The reaction I witnessed from Clay that day cut straight to my core. The poor guy was in tears, scared out of his mind, and questioning why I’d do something like that in stuttered words.

I learned three things in that moment:

1. If I ever set my mind to it, I had the capacity to kill Clay.

2. Despite his appearance, Clay possessed real human emotions.

3. I could never bring myself to try and kill Clay.

After apologizing repeatedly and consoling him to the best of my ability, I made a promise to him that is now quite literally tattooed on my skin; I will not kill you, and I will not kill myself, for my death is your murder.

This promise, and my inability to bring myself to harm another sentient creature, would be the same thing that prevented me from doing several irrevocable acts. If I harmed myself, I was harming Clay, and I couldn’t bring myself to do that.

While I could draw Clay to help with visualizing him, I quickly found that I needed some sort of reference to improve. Just some sort of a base so I knew which elements to add to make my drawings more “Clay-like”. Eventually the obvious answer came; I needed to watch Zexal, or more specifically, I needed to watch Astral.

Clay originally looked identical to Astral, but with time he modified his appearance to be something unique to him, even if one could still see the Astral inspiration behind it.

In a truly “chicken or the egg” situation, as I watched Zexal I saw similarities in the relationship between Astral & Yuma and Clay & myself. It wasn’t long before my interest in keyshipping spawned due to both the warm fuzzy feelings I’d get for being reminded of the person who’s supported me for 7 years (and counting), and from the memories of such a wholesome (and potentially gay) partnership in an overall compelling shonen story.

An older photo, but still one of the better ones I’ve done of the guy. Like the shapeshifter that he is, both the wings and tail can appear and disappear as he pleases. Generally, Clay keeps them both hidden for convenience.

Seeing as it is a side view, I’ll clarify that all of Astral’s markings and piercings are GONE, the sort of exception being the “fake eyebrow” markings which Clay did keep (which are indeed markings rather than actual eyebrows).

And no, none of Clay’s appearance I have direct influence over. At one point I implored him to wear clothes, which Clay did try doing briefly. …That didn’t last long though.

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[vixthefantheorist]

Is Anti the Shadow of the Egos?

First of all, I know what you’re thinking. What the hell are you talking about, woman? And I mean both senses of the phrase; the ‘what do you mean’ aspect and the ‘what the hell is a shadow’ aspect; as both are valid questions.

Well sit down, fam and lend me your ears for a bit. 

Now the kind of Shadow I’m talking about is the kind that come from  Megami Tensei’s Persona franchise! Specifically Persona 3 FES, Persona 4 and Persona 5, mostly because those are the only ones I’ve played; as I have never gotten my hands on Persona 1 or 2 so I can’t say what information they could have. Now Shadows are the lower parts of the psyche everyone has. I have them, you have them... your dog or cat has them (maybe). Jack and the Egos have them. Those lower parts are suppressed human thoughts given physical form. Suppressed negative thoughts of the heart and mind. Remember this. When people are unable to face their darker selves, they break loose, free from all control. Sounds a lot like a certain someone right?  Anyway, Shadows eat a person’s psyche. Now... this is where things get tricky. Depending on how powerful the Shadow is and its intentions are. As well as which Persona game Seán is going with, seeing as he is a Persona fan. I actually never knew that, and I just discovered that last night on a dev call with a friend of mine. And now that I looked back in some videos Seán did... I was surprised I didn’t notice before. OR I did and completely forgot. 

See that background behind Dr. Jack? Persona 5′s Joker~ Anyway, from that I Can only guess he has only played Persona 5, and from there probably became interested in it further and went into looking it further. Whether or not he has played Persona 3 and 4, I honestly don’t know, the fact he knows of Persona may have led to some ideas for Anti.

Now back to the Shadows, depending on the power and of course the intention of the Shadow when it eats psyches... can lead to two routes. A vegetative state or... Death.

Now, I know based on this leads me to think that Anti is a shadow self of Jack... and possibly the other Egos. Possibly. The reason I say this is because of the clue Seán gave when someone asked him if Anti was a tupla (tulpa? whichever) and he said, “Close but not quite.”

Interesting~

See, tulpa/tuplas are being made of concentrated imagination. It takes an extensive amount of practice to do this... though for some its easier, depending on how complex they are. So basically they’re imaginary friends you had as kids, just with the option to hurt you or not. But there are many other variables to go with them.  Now, Seán said it was close but not quite, so if that’s the case... then if we take into account his interest and love of Persona, then it makes sense. Shadows are concentrations of emotions, ones humans reject and hide within themselves to avoid facing them and revealing them to other people in the world. Because you know that means facing the possibility of friends you have rejecting you for what actually think and feel. All the little ugly thoughts you have... yeah.  As its true, no matter how much know a person, you will never know everything about them. You only learn a percentage of what they want to show. And what has Jack been doing the entire time Anti shows up and what does he do when the community points Anti out to Jack?  He ignores him. Or acts like he doesn’t know what we’re talking about or pretends to not see him. But he knows... He knows damn well Anti is there, can hear him... see him but actively chooses to not give Anti attention. Which infuriates the little bugger. In Persona 4, if one chooses or actively denies their shadow self, the shadow goes completely berserk, laughing at ‘being free’ and attempts to kill them to take their place. ...Anti did that twice. In Say Goodbye, he succeeds in killing Jack and took his place in the channel up until a certain point when Jack was revived and retook control. We do not notice the shifts until the PAX East message where Anti raves about being tossed aside. The second time was in Kill JackSepticEye video. But it seems that Anti realizes that killing Jack isn’t going to do much of anything since the Irishman would eventually come back to life and kick him out. So... what’s the next best option to render him helpless and take his place? But deny him being ‘revived’ again?  A coma.  Or in Persona 3′s case... inflicting Jack with Apathy Syndrome. Apathy Syndrome is an illness that reduces the victim into a vegetative state. Or close to it, its purely in the game. But the illness’s cause is a shadow eating the victim’s psyche and stealing the soul. That’s the general idea of the illness. Now it doesn’t exactly give details on it further but in the game and observing “the Lost” its a term people in the game give to the victims inflicted with Apathy Syndrome, its safe to say that the Lost are aware, but... well ‘lost’. They can’t move, eat or take care of themselves, mumbling or moaning. But they do sometimes speak in return but in barest of words.  So... think of Apathy Syndrome as a type of paralysis, you’re aware but you can’t do anything or barely speak if you’re lucky enough to. And if you can speak, your thoughts are so jumbled that you can’t form a coherent sentence together. You’re literally trapped in your own body. 

Now, knowing Anti wants Jack to suffer, so its likely he stole Jack’s ‘soul’ but only enough to keep Jack helpless but alive and aware. He just can’t move or give a signal to the Egos that he can hear them... can see them.  If Anti IS a shadow form of Jack, his direct dark self that he refuses to face; then it makes sense as to why Anti desires attention. He was suppressed and ignored and wants to be acknowledged. Now... that does paint Anti as a victim more than a villain, which is fine since we honestly don’t know who plays what roles if there even IS a role to play.  As Seán had said, “Protagonists aren’t always heroes,” and he’s very correct on that. Protags are just the main focus of the story, not always a hero, just a main character. The same can be said for Antagonists not always being the villain. Antags are there as hostile oppositions but not villains.  But what does this mean for the other Egos? And why does Anti mess with them given he already ‘won’ against Jack? Well, honestly I don’t know. Anti only knows negativity so he’ll just react and do things negatively and given he’s not as bound to Jack, he can do whatever the fuck he wants because he’s a dick. He knows all of Jack’s fears... maybe he wants to know all of the Egos fears and does know them if they had talked to Jack often about their troubles and such and wants more of that.And wants to mess with them because he can? Maybe force them to accept him as the new Jack, turn them into Shadows like himself?  Hell if I know.  But could explain Dr. Jack’s appearance... Henrik’s fear of being replaced by someone ‘better’. Dr. Jack being Henrik’s shadow. -Shrug- Maybe that’s the whole reason for the time loops and such, the Egos trying to get Jack to stop ignoring Anti before he gets kill or stuck in a paralyzed state. In Persona 5, people that you go... deal with act more closely to how their shadow selves are and don’t care, thus suppressing the positivity. And its your job to get into their hearts and kick their Shadows’ ass and tell them ‘No, that’s a bad thing, realize that. Apologize and admit your crimes and stop being a dick.’ Which in a way Jack is being... excluding Anti completely and being a dick to him. So Anti returns the favor and does a better job at it. Though Anti needs an ass kicking himself to be told to stop being a dick. Maybe. So its likely Jack understands what he needs to do but he can’t do anything to fix it because he can’t move or speak and Anti’s too pissed off at him to listen. That and Anti’s riding high on the attention, fears and reveling in the feel of *freedom* that he’s going to refuse giving it up.  Again its just theory I have. That Anti is/was a Shadow self of Jack but evolved into something more. Hell maybe Anti is the shadow of all the egos, absorbing their fears and darkness that they refuse to face... with the exception of Chase to a degree. Chase is a ball of negativity and acknowledges it, but likely refuses to face the reason of why or do anything about it; and Anti finds it funny or hell thinks of him as a battery to drain energy from. Who knows. But yeah, there it is, my possibility of what Anti could be. Now mind you, its just a theory and a possibility. So highly likely I’m very wrong, but it was a fun trip to think about. As ANY of this can be altered and changed by Seán to fit what he needs for the Lore. If it is indeed that he’s taken some inspiration from Persona as well. So not all the info I did share is what he thinks or uses. AUs people, you can rewrite the rules to how you want it. XD What do you guys think Anti is?

[ambaralbatros]

Multiverse Timeline

Hi, and welcome to my writing of what kind Multiverse the JCU (Jacksepticeye Cinematic Universe) might be. Please take a note this is what I think about the flaws of the multiverse, and maybe not the exact plot of his multiverse. I beg you bcs I kinda use this plot to my own multiverse.

Before we go, I want to say that we have our irl timeline call Our Timeline, this timeline is the one that the egos cannot change. Let’s say this is the original timeline. And thats why every videos has Seanface in the particular time (as in 2018!Chase has brown hair from current Sean than lime green hair from his Bro Average videos).

And there is Branches, and the branches divided into two type, Fan branches and Official branches (or Videos branches). Fan branches is timeline branches that we had in mind, what kind of realities we agreed on, and the branches are what makes Anti close into Tulpa Theory. Video branches are the branches that made into the videos we see in his channel and some that happens in his social medias.

And apparently, Anti is aware of this.

Okay, lets start with first timeline we see in the channel.

Says, if Anti is a tupla (or other kind of thought forms theories), he need to have very first ideas, right? Thats why I put Fanon Anti into our timeline. And when Jack acknowledged Anti? Thats when we can’t go back from our fault of creating him into a sadistic branches by Sean himself. And maybe he himself doesn’t want this so he always blame us.

His birthday, is the very first timeline he actually born into an actual danger in the first timeline we get. And that first timeline? Got rekt in Say Goodbye.

Anti hopped into new timeline.

We still can see he still doing things, starts from 25 January 2017. He start farming powers by keep himself known by us in original timeline. He aware that anything he doing in the parallel timelines, we will know it because he always doing it in the videos Jack uploads. When Schneep’s Bio Inc. series starts, we get a scenario of Schneep being a doctor who handle Chase and Jack at one point. And when Anti knew the moment he handle Jack, thats when ‘that Jack’ meet his end, as we can se in KJSE video.

Ambar, he yeeted a janitor that time, why did u say no one killed?

Says Anti hopped into new timelines, and still farming those powers. In Overnightwatch, he shows us that he is manifested in so much universes, so much timelines that we dont know every glitch that happen during that night is from one timeline or not.

Now we are going into more serious matter. I don’t write much Anti appearance because he just farming those power, so let me explain this timeline.

We get more scenario. A scenario that ‘that timeline’ Jack is in coma. Also Chase, Schneep and Jack are friends scenario. Don’t forget that we are also drawn into some extra Chase scenarios in this timeline.

Dark Silence is when Anti doing something that we don’t really know, every 5W + 1H. All we do know is Chase meet a ‘physical’ Anti in red hallway with a lighter. And that’s why there’s a gap between yeeting incident and next phase.

And also I propose that next phase Anti said in the end of Quit the Game video means that he already can hopping into next timeline without killing Jack. or killing other Egos.

What if in observation + 1 more vid is actually two Jack from two different realities, and what we actually see is Anti travel between timelines

HE, THE CHASE YEETER IS YEETING OUT FROM THE LOOP So, apparently what happen in Observation series is a time loop. Why we can see the opening of game in the end of the video? That’s a time loop trap, probably made by another people who don’t want Anti doing whatever he wants to do.

But Anti (who have been more powerful than before) have something under his sleeve to force himself out of the loop, like when Emma jump to the 'other' station . He jumped and find a non-looped timeline that is FNAF VR series, or second video uploads (as Observation is called as first vid), and trying to adjust himself there, thats why we see the glitches. There is two other video during Obervation series, but those video (maybe) are not the ones that Anti jumped into.

I also remember that someone in theories channel from Jack’s Discord says that Chase is also trapped with Anti because he is the one who playing Observation game.

This looks like the time is not broken, but it’s just our timeline, just because we only have one chance.

The time in the videos branches are not. Mark my words, this timeline is what follows our timeline, not what actually happen in other timelines. The reason is no story actually follows the future before we know it in our timeline if they are not scripted from years ago. Maybe the older timelines will be revealed as the future of recent timelines. Or maybe JJ is actually come from 1600, or whenever the time before Sean was born.

I call Sean-alike people here as Seanface rather than Jack’s alter egos because we have Jack as a character and Sean as the owner of the story

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