#trying to type this on here and not my priv twitter

[xbomboi]

misc. bribelle thoughts

prefacing this by saying bribelle is my favorite ship. actually might be one of my favorite all time ships considering whenever i catch 11:11 i make a tweet on my priv twitter saying “11:11 bribelle and rarijack” because i’m insane.

anywho…

i think it’s a lot easier to justify saying faybelle potentially has feelings for briar in a canon context because even aside from her diary, her behavior in epic winter can most definitely be read with flirtatious undertones, especially after witnessing the dream sequence

but i’m always trying to justify things to myself in accordance to canon without feeling ooc, because i’m the type of creative who would rather write my own original thing than make alterations to a pre-existing work. that’s just me.

and briar is trickier to do so with. in the show alone, she only actually verbally responds to faybelle once and it’s a line that also adds exposition. “but it’s forbidden!” girl come on throw faybelle a bone at least…

by epic winter, i’d say briar could potentially have had surface level attraction to faybelle, but it isn’t until having that dream and probably especially post-epic winter when she’d get time to actually reflect on it that she’d start to develop palpable feelings for her.

i’ve kinda noticed something about briar: she likes attention. i guess she’s kinda like faybelle in that respect.

briar grew up with neglectful parents. fill in the blanks. why wouldn’t she want attention when she lacks it properly from the two most important people in her life?

along this line of thinking, briar especially values explicit displays of affection, particularly from a potential romantic partner.

so, regrettably, let’s look at her relationship with hopper.

i.e. briar’s behavior in the webisode “Here Comes Cupid.”

when she first confronts hopper about his unconventional advances, she’s disinterested and borderline repulsed.

but after hearing him profess his love via the recording, she’s taken aback and actually grows endeared.

until this BAFOON fumbles the bag and does some really creepy shit by leaning into her personal space and calling her hot. understandably, this miffs briar and she once again loses interest.

(side note, too many people ignore how blatantly creepy hopper is to women, ESPECIALLY briar. he needs to be held accountable, not rewarded by getting the girl.)

even then, despite not necessarily returning his affections, she’s somewhat comfortable in the status quo that he devotes his attention to her. which is exactly why i think in bunny’s diary (bunny is wrong btw she doesn’t know a damn thing so idk why the one wiki that’s not the official wiki list hopper as briars crush when the source is bunny’s word like fuck all) bunny mentions observing briar appearing disappointed when ginger asks hopper to the dance and he accepts.

to briar, it’s like she’s losing one of the few things she’s familiar with, the few constants in her life. in this case, her only plausible option who she’d have reason to believe would accept. and we all know how briar is about losing things.

briar sorta settles into this state of fondness towards hopper’s affections, despite them being unrequited. because at least he gives a damn about her.

faybelle—at least, outside of her diary and up until epic winter—might as well be any villain; faybelle just wants to cause chaos for the sake of ruining somebody’s day. and i don’t think briar likes it that way.

i’d assume around the time of faybelle’s introduction to the series, briar’s stance would be one of upset towards faybelle, believing she doesn’t take their story as seriously as she(briar) does. that her role in sleeping beauty isn’t as important to her as being evil in general.

i have half the mind to say that this could potentially be read from briar’s behavior in faybelle’s diary.

first off, that underlining wasn’t added; the underlines are in the official print. meaning briar is putting emphasis on those words specifically. sure it’s a lesson to faybelle about not being an asshole, but also it reflects on briar in a way. like it could be her saying, “you’re supposed to be my villain, but you act like i’m no different to you than anyone else.”

now, this next part is obviously a surface-level gag about faybelle making a malicious act seem so thrilling, but if we close our eyes and pretend that we’re in a different world called I.D.G.A.F. dimension, we can now analyze this in a different light.

briar’s confused by faybelle’s verbal expression of almost-affection. it doesn’t help that she’s most definitely barely awake. but i’m willing to say her confusion is partially born out of actually having heard faybelle say such a thing. it’s gotta be surprising and hard to believe in that moment, because briar has every reason to think otherwise.

in the show, like i said, faybelle just does whatever the fuck. open a sweat shop? sure why not. assist her peer’s mom in attempting to turn the entire world into her own dictatorship? count her in. make a deal with the mafia? just a regular tuesday. but god forbid she focus on being the one to make the sleeping happen in sleeping beauty.

i think that irks briar. or at least make her generally act indifferent when faybelle comes waltzing around to do god knows what; if she won’t care, why should briar, right?

then there’s epic winter. or, as i like to call it in bribelle terms, “they finally fucking interacted”

when briar explains faybelle’s inclusion of herself to crystal, she simply says it’s her thing and cites the sleeping beauty story. like “hey crystal this is my villain btw, trust.”

later when briar’s yapping about the story, some may say it’s counterproductive in relation to briar’s arc that ashlynn brings up the miserable part of it only for briar to talk fondly of it, but i know briar personally, and have been filled in as to what the truth is.

briar dropped that attitude because faybelle was there. she started talking up the story, almost as a cue to faybelle, like “hey remember how you’re like a big part of my life’s purpose???”

faybelle butts in about it. and briar doesn’t get the chance to respond, but i think she was almost expecting faybelle NOT to gaf, so her doing so threw her off just a little. maybe she expected to hear something like “who cares?” instead.

then of course when they get to the castle briar’s little act is dropped and her deep fear of the sleeping beauty destiny is once again present. and of fucking COURSE that’s when faybelle decides to CARE ABOUT THEIR STORY.

listen to me, LISTEN. briar looks at faybelle BEFORE faybelle actually says “no, there’s another room far more important to our story. isn’t there, briar?” she looks at her BEFORE she actually talks. she was looking to see if she’d react, then when faybelle does speak she looks away, then she bumps her to get her attention so briar has to fight the adhd and lock in.

and faybelle just keeps instigating which honestly kinda takes briar out of her typical sulking over her destiny mood and more of like ‘what is your game here exactly’ mindset.

there’s so much to that look briar gives her. so many emotions in there.

after this they go up and faybelle taunts some more only for briar to almost actually prick her finger yada yada. and like i said, it’s a lot easier to understand faybelle’s pov. it’s very clear she doesn’t actually wanna go through with cursing briar, teasing and all. she makes as much obvious by her reaction alone when briar gets too close.

but once briar’s fine she’s like ‘yeah, okay, back to normal,’ meanwhile briar is kinda just done because faybelle is acting a fool. but she never shoves faybelle off of her unlike she did when hopper intruded on her boundaries huh briar why is that what’s that about briar still, briar has yet to have any indication from faybelle about how she actually feels in regards to their story and her role in it. or how it pertains to their relationship with each other. rather, faybelle doesn’t take it seriously much to briar’s chagrin.

then the dream sequence happens.

to me, this is the turning point.

it’s a stupid music video for an insert song, but goddamnit it confirmed darabella and even hunter got to be there with ashlynn so i’ll die standing on business.

this is what briar’s been waiting for from faybelle. that frenemy status is something i think briar wants to figure out which one to see faybelle as, depending on how she really wants to proceed with the story. and i’d say faybelle surprises her; hell, she even shows her a side of her rarely seen.

like with hopper, an outward display of affection such as this is something briar is drawn to. faybelle’s display towards briar in the dream sequence is something briar would be endeared by, as she goes out of her way to prevent her from experiencing the very thing she’s been dreading for so long. that’s gotta fit briar’s love language.

side note, i think it’s very very interesting to note that faybelle is the one to swoop in and save briar in this case, without any other characters present to show a significance in the ending of the story. i say this because hunter gets to be in ashlynn’s sequence and the bears are in blondie’s, despite none of them being in the tower asleep. all this is to say, if briar really did have feelings for hopper or really was gonna end up with him or some guy, they’d be there, right? but nope, just faybelle. I Understand.

after that we don’t really see them interact at all again, but there’s the general disdain for faybelle’s actions as a shared sentiment amongst the others. either way, by the end she shows remorse and seemingly ends on good terms with everyone, meaning i don’t see why briar wouldn’t be left thinking about the dream, seeing her in a whole new light. honestly briar would probably be kinda intrigued by the idea of the bad girl having a soft side for her. briar and i actually spoke about this the other day.

either way, this is briar learning that despite the general ignorance faybelle portrayed, she actually does care about her.

faybelle demonstrating, proving to briar that she is capable of showing affection and actually does care for her is what i think is enough for briar to begin to start falling. (which is kinda reflected in how i approached their relationship in fable fest.)

because briar knows there might actually be something there.

or maybe it’s a kid’s cartoon and one girl mean other one nice, idk.

[maiavonsneeper]

Am bored so heres my headcanon on what kpop artists Yakuza characters would listen to.

Disclaimer: I'm not that familiar with anything recent in the kpop. The most recent you would see here is around mid-2010s.

Kiryu

Of course his no. 1 idol is Haruka. But for kpop it would have to be Girls Generation.

Its all because while playing Y5 where hes a taxi driver and takes place in 2012. I concluded that he has to have listened to Mr Taxi and was like "thats me :)" and i guess from then on he considered himself a SONE (or just a fan idk if he would know about fandom names lol)

Majima

A girl group/solo artists stan.

Definitely a huge inspiration for Goromi and her performances lol

And his collection of albums played for all the Majima Construction crew while they work.

I made a Goromi playlist (priv atm) which I just put in a bunch of female kpop artists in.

This includes artists like Kara, 9Muses, EXID, Miss A, Sunmi, Hyuna, AOA, Sistar, T-ara, Brown Eyed Girls, Lee Hyori, After School...and yeah alot of artists i put in lol

Akiyama

This was all based on a meme I saw on twitter where Akiyama is a Blackjack on stan twitter lol

So I can see Akiyama being a fan of 2NE1. Started listening to them when he saw it was popular with the hostesses and staff of club Elise and they shared it with him.

Tanimura

He would listen to a general amount of artists but would have a lot of interest in artists that have an international appeal...Wonder Girls "nobody" anyone?

(...OK that is the thing with kpop lol especially since it has a presence in Japan for awhile)

I mean like a multicultural image or just have non-Korean members. I can see Tanimura immediately taking interest in those types.

And of course anything that's popular with the Little Asia community lol

Artists: Miss A, Super Junior-M, f(x), Twice, U-Kiss, Wonder Girls, Momoland, 2NE1, Blackpink, 2PM, Big Bang

Shinada

Definitely into girl groups. Particularly ones that would have sexy dance moves which become popular and iconic later on.

And look Shinada has certain assets...

So he really likes to try out popular dances that usually involve using his tush in some way lmao.

Ex. Girls Day "Expectation" "Female President", Sistar "So Cool" "Touch my Body", AoA "Miniskirt", Kara "Mister"

Mine

This is probably very biased of me XD giving my favorite character my ultimate bias group.

Ahh yes Infinite the "Idols of Obsession" ...hmmm..

I imagine he isn't the type to follow celebrities nor have the time or interest to.

BUT BUT one day he listened to one of their songs and couldn't help but think of...a certain someone...

He doesn't considers himself a inspirit but he did walk into a music shop and bought a few albums, went home and spent his break listening to their discography while having AMVs take place in his brain.

Daigo

I'm aware of his emo taste so I tried here ^_^*

I decided to go with that Daigo listens to kpop bands. From my head it'd be CN Blue, FT island, LEDapple.

A non-band it HAS to be Dreamcatcher, another one maybe Vixx'; their dark concept songs mainly.

Haruka

I can see the idol herself listening to some idols for inspo lol

Few artists I thought of were Orange Caramel, Crayon Pop, Twice, f(x), Wonder Girls, Blackpink..

I can see her getting into some boy groups especially when it's what her friends and peers are into.

[seawolftyping]

okay um heyyy haiii intro post

i am akita! im 18, i use he/him pronouns. i’m a trans dude as well just in case you’re unfamiliar w my swag

i write! sometimes! but right now i do for a class so! that’s awesome! i’m way more into writing stories and prose rather than poetry, but i try my hand at it every now and again. im a slut for modern fantasy and my main oc universe (in which i shamelessly shove into multiple medias of course) is a modern fantasy type deal. you’ll commonly see me refer to it as DSC (Demon Slaying Commission), and i’ll eventually post my world building and character builds here.

as i said before i’m also a shameless oc x canon shipper because it brings me joy- DSC is intertwined into the marvel universe with interactions (and ships) mainly dealing with characters in the Daredevil and Punisher shows. probably an off mention of hawkeye in there bc he’s my street level fave duh.

i am a huge enjoyer of all things lycanthropy by the way! it’s incredibly rare you’ll see me make a human character. that’s just how the cookie crumbles.

i may also end up posting here my x-men and criminal minds ocs stuff and tidbits of that as well. and also expect drawings of my characters too since i’m an artist as well!!

my other socials are @/pupcinonyx (public) on twitter and @/ltfaolan (priv) on instagram.

i would love some mutuals if anyone has actually read this far :,D

[sumplysilly]

ZEKE UPDATE

Zeke life update. I never make life updates because it's top secret information & none of your business. But I am changing up where I post my art online so I guess it is currently some of your business. Readmore contains super interesting Zeke information. Skip if you hate me & want me to die

SUPER SHORT VERSION: I am no longer on twitter (I have a priv but it's for friends/people I know only). I have made instagram & furaffinity accounts, which I will post art to. All these account links are in my pinned post. Friends can add me on discord at SUMPLYSILLY if you want. I will continue to post here to tumblr. Thank you have a good day

Ohhhh thank you for clicking my readmore ohhhhh thank you yippee!

LONG ANNOYING VERSION: Image with some info bc I was just going to type a lot of shit in the tags but then realized there's a limit to how much typing the tags can take

I still have my private twitter, which is just actual pictures of my buttnaked ass & drawings of my OCs in compromising positions (you can follow me there if we're mutuals. I also let followers that I recognize in). I'm not making a new twitter main, I am no longer posting art to twitter, for the reasons in the above image. I will continue to post art here to tumblr, I am considering making an art only blog. I am now posting to instagram & furaffinity aswell. All the links are in my pinned post.

My 25th birthday is in 4 days & it feels strange to me making new accounts trying to branch myself out when I'm conflicted about being alive. Attempted suicide in june & I'm currently having blackouts because I don't eat because I don't have money to pay to live. I am incredibly angry as always, ontop of my usual yearly birthday depression. But I will continue to be lonely with no purpose for no reason. Thank you for not reading

[p00fie]

||UPDATE/PINNED POST!||

||I FINALLY GOT ACCESS IN THIS ACCOUNT, I WAS PANICKING AND I THOUGHT THAT I LOST OR SOMEONE STOLE MY ACCOUNT AND EMAIL! Nope, I uninstalled the app for no reason, but finally I managed to get my account back by typing my recent username on my priv Twitter account. So how you guys all doing? Sorry for not being active in this account, I was highly active on Twitter/X. Right now, I’ll at least post something that I’ve already posted on Twitter. It’s mostly gonna be doodles I’d done on IbisPaintX and also, I haven’t drawn anything full colored in a while since at the end of May.||

||Anyways, I’m glad to be back in this account, I might aswell say my full introduction about me while I’m here typing this full on paragraph about me not being active and accidentally deleting Tumblr off my device.||

||♥︎||

||Hello, I go by as ame (kim if you’d like to call me). I’m quite shy, quiet, and silent when it comes to talking or posting my artwork. I mostly talk and comment a lot on anyone who comments on any of my posts, mostly I don’t if I don’t feel the need to. I am 18 years old and go by any pronouns if it’s fine for you all and my nationality, I got a COUPLE (seriously…) 🇰🇷🇻🇳🇺🇸. Most of my English grammar was somewhat broken, because of my rough childhood that I’ve been raised by my speech pathologist and having trouble speaking, but I’ve been getting and trying my best to express and communicate to others the right way.||

||For the art, I drew a lot of times doodles, comics, and animations for both IbisPaintX and Procreate. I’m also began learning how to draw in an anime style on Procreate since it’s quite easier for me to do than in my tiny ass device.||

||Anyways enough with me chatting, here are my username socials you can follow on different platforms: ||

||♥︎||

Instagram: mintasi_ <- old main… new main -> soon…

Twitter/X: _pffi

Discord: soon…

||♥︎||

||Fandom interests I’m in: ||

~ Cookie Run

~ Pretty Blood

~ The Battle Cats

~ Project Sekai

||I’m also will be willing to be busy in school soon for next week, so I’ll not be as highly active cause of that. Anyways, I might add more of my introduction and update incase I needed to bring out.||

||Well, I finally am back and it’s nice meeting you all again :>||

Edit update: Soon I’ll start working this Friday so just an fyi!!

[fiymywings]

sooo i pretty much only?revived this blog because i wanted to post my alma/karma and hollow tls (+ little bits amongst their guilds and other interactions)

since ymkr is now shutting down however uh. obviously that might not be feasible unless they pull a 1014 and revive with a new game (which, not off the table considering i imagine with how well ymkr did it wouldnt be poorly anticipated or anything) that means i'll be going back into hiding o7

for anyone who might want to keep up with me i have a yume account on twitter called cantoVl (L instead of I), i dont really post my ymkr riako/yume stuff there often and im sharing for hollow but totally understand if anyone else isnt (no NS yume hate here btw we respect yumes of all types)

in the mean time i am gonna be archiving what i can of hollow and alma/karma's stories !! if i do upload them to youtube, they'll be unlisted and i'll link them here respectively but i don't really wanna put em out in the open since even though the games ending there might still be some IP protection stuff and i dont wanna step on the toes of JP fans either who might see it as encrouching

for any nonfinished story tls, im not sure if i'll ever finish them since i preferred posting summaries/small translations where i was confident in than fully fleshed out tls but if i do decide to give them a try i'll post them here

for anyone wondering if i might go back to akaseka/ym100 the truth is this kinda made me a bit too salty to want to go back to akaseka and i kinda said farewell to ym100 a while ago mentally so my yumesekai path ends with ymkr o7 i do still love vashti though. weird lil fella that guy is

ANYWAY this is just to clear the air about the future of this account, it wont be closing or going priv or anything since i might come back for some other mobile game in the future so no worries about TLs disappearing unless tumblr decides to nuke me but yeahh . rip ymkr i still have no idea why youre EoS'ing when you were doing so well but i guess some stuff behind the scenes with costs/feedback were causing issues

[adminsoffice]

random thoughts as i write fics w hoh/asl gordon idk. trying to justify certain concepts in writing.

was thinking about disabilities in black mesa. because ive read fics that either just have characters knowing asl (probably more for narrative convenience than anything and i dont blame em) or characters who probably wouldnt know asl (most of them) not communicating with gordon clearly due to it until someone can translate.

i was thinking about whether or not any scientists at black mesa would know asl. this was on my brain because of the fact that the transit cars have space for wheelchairs and the intercom mentioned disabled people and all that. we dont really get to see this in game (iirc there was one man in a wheelchair, i think keller? i havent played decay yet), but it does give the info that disabled employees exist and black mesa accommodates for them in some form.

of course out of many disabilities, its still quite unlikely asl would be one of those things required to be known. but i keep getting this idea that there were potential requirement to make the workplace "fair" and that easily could be one of those language things thats like, 'alright prove you can do the bare minimum and then never use it again and forget everything you were taught' situation.

im mostly thinking about this bc there are annoyances with writing a mute character who also cannot communicate because no one knows asl "realistically" and id definitely use that at times to highlight specific struggles of a character like that! but also theres a point where i gotta try and say someone fuckin knows asl ya know. and obvs a big thing is lip reading- im not concerned about how gordon could understand others, just more about him communicating to others. i settle on selective mutism but i would want to overdo that just for the sake of making his communicate easily either.

regardless. i enjoy reading people's take on mute/asl gordon. i didnt know it was such a thing in the fandom until i played the games and started looking and i think its nice to see what is an under represented thing written quite commonly in a fandom.

[ghoultales]

hello, you, amazing cool person! may i request some snapmap relationship hcs, please and thank u in advance💖💗🔥

hello, dear!! yes, of course! :D i wasn’t sure what exactly u wanted so i did all fluff, i hope that’s okay!! lemme know if u want something else <3 i hope u enjoy! i’m also posting this super late cause… i can’t sleep so. here i am ;(

Sapnap Relationship HCs | GN!Reader

cw: none! :) just some fluff. quotes in italics is sap, bold is you. :)

he would definitely be such a good boyfriend, like nobody can fight me on this. i don’t take any arguments.

i feel like he’s the type of boyfriend that if you’re both in bed and you’re trying to get up finally, he’d just cling onto you and legit pull you right back down

for sure would bury his face in your neck and/or chest and just. chill there.

i think you guys would be the couple that will not hesitate to make fun of each other at all times

legit the most unusual insults at the most random times

or if you guys are cooking together, i can see him trying to take over and the two of you fighting back and forth about it and just… a mess. everywhere.

he’d blame it all on you of course

“look what you did, dumbass.” “what? me? you started it, asshole!” “you kept it going!”

i think he’d love for you to be in the room while he’s streaming a lot of the time

he’d probably look over and be like “look at how good i’m doing, are you proud of me?”

definitely would mess up right after he says that

he’d also love to teach you how to play certain games if you don’t know how

and he’d be so proud when he sees you doing so well

and maybe get jealous/competitive if you start to be better than him lmao

omg and he’d love to do the little challenges of like, you control the mouse and he controls the keyboard or vice versa

best kisses

and a lot of them

would kiss you at the most random times

he’d pout for so long if you didn’t give him a kiss when he wanted one too

the cuddles also,, would be top tier okay

i can see him definitely loving to lay on top of you, his hands probably resting in your hair

his head would be on your chest, and he’d melt if you started to rub his back

once you rub his back once, he’d be asking for a back rub nightly and claim it was because he’s stressed even if he isn’t

just wants to be close to you

he would also love for you guys to lay on your sides facing each other

the type of boyfriend to just walk over and sit on your lap when he wants attention

“can i help you?” “nah.” “i’m watching something..? you’re in my way.” “sounds like a you problem.”

very pleased with himself when he gets his way

talks about you all the time to the others

literally never shuts up

“oh, and the other day, y/n and i-“ “y/n said the funniest thing-“ etc. etc.

simp posts on twitter from him on his alt or priv

so protective over you

would do literally anything for you

i just love sapnap okay. he’s so sweet

10/10 boyfriend energy :,)

thank u for coming to my ted talk

[romijuli]

so i had to kill off a character in an rp. the circumstances that led to this point are a long story in and of themselves and not entirely the point here, but it was deeply sad and EXTREMELY gay and basically everyone in the rp was screaming. it took me Hours to finally kill him off because i kept crying while i was typing

anyway. the deed is done, i get to fuck around in the afterlife, MORE misery happens in the afterlife, i'm crying

i check twitter

a friend of mine who's watching the rp tweets on their priv that they were playing p5r with their sibling, were trying to read the death scene in the rp and were about to cry when ryuji suddenly piped up "keep on bonkin'!" and absolutely destroyed their ability to be sad. so now i'm incapable of being sad. every so often for months afterwards our respective brains go "keep on bonkin'!" and nearly kill us with laughter. neither of us can even look at ryuji anymore without thinking of that rp death scene

anyway like last week my fiance and i were playing p5 tactica and as soon as ryuji showed up said fiance (who had heard this story) yelled "keep on bonkin'!" and i nearly fell on the floor laughing.

the pathways our brains form that connect things together are truly astounding in that sometimes they are COMPLETELY fucking inexplicable without like four paragraphs of backstory

[omegawolverine]

I know you posted it days ago but you said something about wanting to rant about either karl or his fanbase and its been itching at my brain. Ive no clue whats happening or what is happening at all cause no one seems to be making clear points?? Or explaining anything?

Obviously you do NOT have to talk about it im sure it might be a sore point to rant because people can get SO needlessly rude to others over it. But if you want to idk explain? Just rant? Im definetly curious what it was over or about.

The "you dont need to talk about this" is amplified by the fact i am DAYS late and you are probably over it by now.

okay hi yes im happy to talk about this but i think i should preface with two things:

1) even tho it may seem like im biased towards him or being very defensive of him im actually a super casual karl viewer and the only reason i am super defensive of him sometimes is bc we act a lot alike irl and that is mainly because of our neurodivegency. when i say a lot i mean we share traits like "annoying" stimming (jumping around, making loud noises, repeating the same phrases until everyone is sick of hearing them), the difficulty reading situations, the very obvious issues with volume control and not just bouncing from subject to subject to subject as we fucking please. basically anything you've seen karl do on stream that is Very Neurodivergent ive done the same in my own way which is why i get defensive when i see people calling him annoying or saying they dont like him, usually for these types of reasons. that being said, when i say im a very casual karl viewer, i fucking mean it. i usually only watch him when he's streaming with other ccs i like or when he's doing chill alt streams bc even with the annoying donos, he's pretty relaxing and comforting when he's just fucking around by himself and he isnt trying to get as hype as he would on a main channel stream. so yeah, it may seem like im biased and sure, i guess i am on some level, but it's not coming from a place of me hyperfixating on him or me even loving him as a cc, it's coming from me being a neurodivergent who likes him just enough to get upset when i see people basically being casually ableist towards him.

2) i dont have all the facts or even a great understanding on what the fuck has been happening recently with his "drama"...mostly bc he talked about it on his priv, which im not on, and people are gatekeeping the tweets, as they always do, and basically making you "dm to see them" (which is already a problem in and of itself bc apparently in these tweets he said he didnt want them being ss and shared, yet they are being shared thru dms over and over and over again like. at that point just stop withholding the information and post the fucking shit, you clearly dont care that he said "dont share"). additionally, most of the threads ive seen on this situation havent actually explained the initial issue, just talked about his apology (a lot of people have said "it's bad" but havent said why and with no screenshots ((i havent asked for someone to dm me them and i still havent seen them posted, which is mildly surprising, but incredibly frustrating at this point)), i only have a few basic details i can actually assess it on) or they talked about the initial issue in very vague details so um. excuse me trying to explain this now, but ill try and make it make sense with how little ive actually pieced together.

(oh, also, here's my first rant about the ableism in this fandom which is way more broad. this is a pretty different rant from that one, but they're both pretty big reasons why i hate this fandoms treatment of karl)

so basically the problems started with mr beast being apart of a charity stream that donated either to autism speaks or to a similar company, im unsure on that part. im also unsure on if the people participating in the stream actually knew of this or not bc, from what i remember, the money was being donated to a separate organization that was like. under the bad company or some shit like that, idk how stuff like that works and also i read about this shit months ago bc this originally happened months ago and just sorta came to a head recently.

anyways, i think karl was supposed to be apart of this stream but pulled out of it right before (that or these were two separate streams and karl was supposed to participate in the first but pulled out while mr beast did both?? idk. regardless karl did not actually participate, just mr beast). from there people started doing the guilt from association bullshit they always do, this was also doubled by the fact that the chris being racist stuff came out sometime around then and basically he got dragged all over twitter for "being ableist" and "supporting racists" and i cant remember if he actually apologized when this originally happened or not. i vaguely remember him apologizing about something back then but i genuinely dont know if it was this or something else.

basically that died down eventually, a good chunk of people unstanned him but him and honktwt didnt end up getting the lovely lil technotwt treatment and they still havent yet, surprisingly. good for them honestly ajsksk

but now we get to the past few weeks and apparently something happened with him "laughing at someone saying the r slur" (it was mizkif, i believe), specifically when it was directed at other people, which is a big yikes, obviously, but when karl was called out for this a lot of people kind of. made this into a situation that it wasnt bc um. basically karl didnt laugh at it, he gave a few nervous giggles, as people often do when in a situation like that (and karl specifically said he does this in the one part of his apology tweet which i did stumble upon, although it wasnt the important part of the apology thread bc why would it be) and people fucking crucified him for it. they quite literally dragged a neurodivergent man for supposedly "laughing at the r slur" when he can literally reclaim it and also he was just nervous laughing.

and this is where the situation just gets really bad because they. basically forced him to admit that he was autistic on his priv to apologize for this. i havent seen the screenshots of him saying this, but i saw people discussing it and i am frankly so fucking pissed about this because sure, it was a bad situation, and i understand people wanting an explanation, but an apology? for a neurodivergent man nervous laughing at a slur he can reclaim? and then forcing the man to admit something he literally said in that tweet he didnt want people to know which is why people were being so gatekeepy about it while also LOUDLY discussing the situation, as if that wouldnt drive MORE PEOPLE to look for screenshots and ways to get ahold of this information? and then people had the audacity to call it a "bad apology" when they had quite literally just violated his privacy by forcing him to admit something that he shouldnt have needed to share in the first place if he didnt want to, which he didnt.

and this is why im so pissed off. karl is already constantly picked at and made fun of and called annoying for his neurodivergent traits, things which he literally cant help, things which are generally harmless, and now he was forced into a situation where he can now be further picked at and made fun of and called annoying bc they forced him to admit something private instead of just understanding and accepting that he had been nervous laughing at someone using a slur he has definetly been called for his neurodivergency.

tldr of my thoughts: yes i think karl needed to address this situation, it definetly looked bad, but twitter stans have this sense of entitlement with their ccs and because of that, they consistently take it way too far and harm the people they claim to care about so dearly. we've seen it happen time and time again with dream, but this is the first time ive seen them basically force someone to out themselves to make their apology "valid" and most of them still seem to not want to accept it anyways, which just makes me feel bad for him bc now that info is out their and people are just disregarding it to continue "holding him accountable".

anyways, i think that's all i can really say on this topic rn tbh, if anyone else knows this situation better please feel free to lmk clarifications and ill add them in since, like i said, i know fuck all thanks to twitter being so goddamn hush hush about the important details while simultaneously being the loudest mfers about how much they hate karl now instead of just fucking unfollowing and moving on.

thanks for the ask and im sorry if this is confusing!! i just think this is one of those weird situations where like. i think karl deserved some criticism for what happened and how he handled it or at least he shouldve been asked to address it but that just. isnt what happened, at all. he was harrassed. karl got harrassed and because of that he handled this situation even more sloppily than he probably wouldve and exposed private info about himself that he didnt feel comfortable doing and it just. fucking sucks tbh.

[domjaehyun]

Do you have any idea how hard I laugh at your tags on your other account? You are like, famous Twitter account type funny. You could be famous. It’s insane bro ur so smart and witty and ELOQUENT. AHHHHHHHHHHHH SICKENING!! I love you hahah you’re MUCH funnier than me. Also I knew you’d demand actual business stuff from Mr. Lee Sooman JSJSJSJ exactly girl FIX NCT - 👄

DSFGJFDLJKDFS REALLY i'm honored omg,,,,,, i'm glad,,,, no i don't think i'd be successful on twitter i'm too Opinionated i'd have my main acc then a priv for that acc then that acc would probably have another priv bc too many ppl found the other one and i'd feel bad declining,,,, then....... you see where i'm going with this.....

this was all a set up to say that i actually DO have a more private acc on here that literally no one knows abt and i deliberately don't rb things to it bc i don't want ppl knowing it exists dfjksghkl but i don't really use it That Much?

but no ppl would try to cancel me the second i showed up to twt ://// they'd prob analyze my behavior and realize i don't acknowledge a bunch of neos sjdfglkjdk THEY'D LOOK AT MY ACC WHEN TEASERS DROP AND REALIZE THAT THE ONLY TEASER PICS I ACKNOWLEDGE ARE OF MY FAVES :// if i'd liveblogged the concert on there like i did on here last night they'd be like YOUR SILENCE DURING THESE PERFORMANCES WAS INTERESTING and i would have to be like "bc i simply Did Not Care abt them idk what to tell you"

tbh though i prob wouldn't even have a cc on there :// like maybe we do Not need to speak i will just talk at anyone willing to listen 💖 also as you can see i talk WAY too much for twitter :// ALSO that shit is way too public like . imagine i'm lusting after haechan and i say some fuck shit and ppl start tagging nct's official accs in my replies? i'd have to beat everyone's ass !!!!!!! twitter is like walking down the street talking to yourself out loud and tumblr is like muttering under your breath in a shady alley

ANYWAY sorry i rambled dfjkskj i love you too heheheh thank you for thinking i am funny :D and yes i'm so serious LSM let me fix it please i will enroll johnny in remedial rapping or smth but tbh i think that while i COULD help him i wouldnt rly want to bc that would require speaking to him 😭he'd prob crack a joke to try and break the ice and i'd be like "😐😒... anyway." (he would also figure out it's a specifically him thing bc he'd leave and haechan would come in or smth and i'd start making an absolute fool of myself) but THANK YOU YES i could help, LSM,,, i could do it,,,,,

[enthusiastofthegreat]

(Me after finishing this! uhh did not mean at all to make it this long,, summary, I think there's a lot to be said about what leads to that kinda thing - point abt disagreements, infodumping, and being over-familiar with others, the first two seem less like something to discuss and instead immediately shut down - and it would definitely benefit everyone involved to have some sense of common knowledge / ones on the other end and doing said overstepping be more conscious or try being aware of the ways they talk to others and how that may be coming off.) I know I struggle a lot with being like,, overly friendly

don't always realize how it might come off for me to approach a conversation online like I would one in real life - where I hope in, make a joke or remark of some kind - maybe get a lil engrossed in it or involved but usually just say my piece then step back and continue with whatever else I'd been doing. Compounded by the fact I'm in this constant stream of consuming something or other, because I purposely try having as much content on my feed as possible, and that results in me seeing / interacting with tons of differing pieces of media from all sorts of people (esp on twitter) and also makes it harder for me to recognize when I might be writing messages to the same person's tweets like 10 times over the course of an hour

For me its a habit and one I definitely need to watch.

So I don't know about anyone else, but I think the main problem might be a direct disconnect. Sometimes online conversations can be as engaging / fun / bouncy as face-to-face, but the difference between one that is and one that isnt, is that when having those face-to-face talks you're actively announcing your presence by showing up. On the internet someone coming into a conversation can be entirely out of left field. Two seconds ago this person didn't exist - now they're talking to you, and because its the internet they're doing so without introduction. What they're saying IS the introduction. Which can be extra blindsiding the more traction you get or bigger you are, or hell just having a conversation that starts getting the attention of multiple people and have this new person cut in (something that'd usually be annoying in real life, but thats how places like discord, here or twitter literally operate. talking to multiple people all at once - jumping in at any given time with little indication of your oncoming presence aside from disc's typing system -- actually I think thats how all social media sites work for that matter, unless you're having a priv convo) and on the flip side there's people actively minding their own business, see something they find interesting and want to comment on, and don't usually have it in mind that hey! this might actually look a little weird for me to do! maybe even because subconsciously, might be aware that no body actually has to respond to anything. like there'll usually always be expectation but online its way easier to just,, not say anything and step away making things like that feel more innocuous

sure, it can be weird for a stranger to just pull up to ya and start talking to you out of nowhere, but face-to-face its more organic. Easier to feel natural and ease into it - if the person wasn't off-putting or something else made you not want to talk with them. And if you directly choose not to engage with that person its easier for them to go "oh shoot I might've just made you uncomfortable" or "this person doesn't want to talk to me" because you can directly see that without being told. Online that kind of thing (the naturalness of conversation) usually comes after you've already interacted with someone at least a few times in the past, and you actually have to tell people "hey! what you just did / said didn't feel too great! couldya maybe not?" because its all text.

Speaking of which - then there's the road block of it being really hard to read someones tone off the bat when online!! You can get a sense of someone's general demeanor after interacting for a bit - and ik from experience its hard face-to-face too depending on situations or whatever - like its not exclusive, its a situational thing. but particularly when talking to someone you don't know anywhere on the internet its like - 'kay this ramble already started getting real long, so warning this next bit is an example that has to do with this topic, but isn't me furthering the opinion feel free to skip over the paragraph (whoever ends up reading this jumbled mess I'm sorry its so disjointed I did not plan on doing this but it evolved as I kept typing)

There was this recent experience I had on twitter. I expressed my disbelief at someone who'd apparently been making a thomas the tank engine fanwork and someone else who'd apparently been following the person read that as me shitting on the concept. Explained that I wasn't actually trying to and actually liked the work, nothings come of the interaction from there so far but it kinda hammered that home for me.

You can't really know what someone's trying to convey with their text until you get a better sense of that person and in most cases that just isn't gonna to happen

no one plans on making friends - or even just becoming semi-frequent acquaintences - with every random person that passes you by or have a conversation with, and that applies everywhere so there isn't really a fix for that. Only thing anyone can do it try being more self-aware and even then its hard to recognize seeing as somethings are just what you'd always do. There's tone indicators but being such a new thing, not everyone knows what certain ones mean (can look 'em up and certain ones are easy enough to gage, but some are more obscure) and if you're like me, you just plain forget to use them or it feels weird to. But another thing for me I don't think as many people might have - or maybe do? is I'm just not used to it. It feels off, because I try to have my words / text match the way I speak and say things, have it actively reflect where I would stop and feel like you're actually hearing me talk rather then write out fifty pages of the last random thought I had. And that sorta immersion (which has as much an affect on me as I'm trying to get with others) breaks when I stop and state the way I'm saying things. Its stupid and I know tone indicators would make life so much easier on all sorts of sites esp ones where texting is the only option but its tricky. Its a thing to get used to, and when I'm writing longer posts like this they just don't feel fitting?

not to mention when situations take a more serious tone, I don't feel right doing that. And I just realized I lost track a little but I think this still fits with the initial topic so I'll leave it in for now - maybe edit it out later and make it its own post? But anyway,

I definitely agree, there should be some sort of like - common courtesy thing goin' on, especially since new people get introduced to the online-sphere every day, droves of 'em who have no idea how to really take all that into perspective with no experience.

Ultimately, I dunno. topic I see spring up every now and then and I hope it becomes a discussion more often, because a lot of people could really benefit from having talks about this.

there are no hard rules for human interaction but honestly i think everyone online would benefit hugely from operating under the assumption that, unless you have been given a specific reason to think otherwise in discrete instances, internet strangers do not want to be approached with:

your trauma, illnesses, or deep-rooted self worth issues

any come-ons or sexual content

over-familiar playful rudeness

information about your dnd characters/ocs

disagreements with their harmless subjective opinions

if it is your first time speaking with someone i can not highly enough recommend that these do not be your opening topics

[captain-lonagan]

omg another discourse post but what’s this it’s a heavily medicated discourse On the discourse omgggg some bitch trying to understand and summarize both argument while also being biased by what side of the argument they’re on omgggg i apologize in advance

i feel like there are two primary points of divide in the dsmp fandom over whether dream replying directly to assholes on twitter is okay.

the first is:

1. Team Dream Is Correct refers to the twitter assholes nearly exclusively as the ones that do death threats and try to dox him or reply with gore

2. Team Dream Needs PR Aide refers to the twitter assholes that are just standard people being bitchy on the internet as well as the death threat/dox/gore squad, although the primary focus is on the standard bitchy people

and divide two is

1. Team Dream Is Correct completely separates fandom from dream. each encounter between dream and the people he replies to is 1v1 and any fandom interaction that follows is coincidental since dream has no control over what fans do. + he has publicly disavowed those of his fans who harass and dox.

2. Team Dream Needs PR Aide says that since dream has (on his priv) tweeted about getting satisfaction from seeing assholes he replies to going priv because of harassment and he knows what happens to people he directly replies to it’s his responsibility to put some amount of distance between his response and the original asshole’s tweet. his public tweets about disavowing harassers are contradicted by his private encouragement of the behavior that makes assholes go priv. he knows what the consequences of his actions are and should plan his actions accordingly.

like i think most of us agree that the people being god awful in his replies and qrt’s suck and the whole situation is messy. the things that divide us are what kind of people are fair game to be harassed/doxxed and should dream be answering that first question based on someone’s replies to his tweets. his priv tweets have really boosted that second question because now we all know that he knows the people he replies to get doxxed, harassed, death threats etc.

the first divide from above i get why it exists. Team 1 refers to the people who do the most awful replies and Team 2 refers to the people most frequently caught in The Swarm. whichever type of reply you’re focusing most on changes the context quite a bit.

and then there’s the animosity between sides which is just. wonderful really wow we have such an understanding and empathetic community here on tumblr dot com wowowow both sides are doing soooo great.

Team 1 (but #NotAllTeam1) has a tendency to call Team 2 obnoxious or self-absorbed for not being able to put themselves in dream’s shoes and see how much pressure and hate he’s getting. dream easily gets more hate than any other cc at the moment and that no doubt fucks with his head.

Team 2 (but #NotAllTeam2) has a tendency to call Team 1…well there’s not as specific a set of common insults as Team 1 but there’s a lot of implying that Team 1 are just crazy parasocial stans or naive sheep.

so the discourse is going Great.

i don’t know where i’m going with this anymore god help me

Team 1 says “It’s Dream’s replies and his own life, he’s under a lot of pressure and he’s constantly harassed, he should be allowed to dish it out a bit himself,” or, as quite a few people on my dash have said more concisely: “Talk shit get hit”

Team 2 says “Eye for an eye makes the whole world blind. Dream is under pressure so he should see a therapist and set a time limit on his twitter app instead of setting this kind of example for all his fans to follow. He called watching his fans harass people a petting zoo.”

i’m trying to represent team 1 fairly but yeah i’m. im on Team 2 in case you couldn’t tell.

tldr: i think calling everyone on Team Delete Twitter an obnoxious asshole is disingenuous and i think treating Team Dream Good like they’re stupid babies is unhelpful.

[fanficksandimagines]

“So you’re team Edward then?”- G.D.

“So you’re team Edward then?” – G.D.

Reader x {Werewolf} Grayson

Word count: 2119

Concept: Supernatural

Warnings: noun.

A/N Sorry this one took this long. I know I talked about it right after Halloween, but I just had may other ideas in mind that I wanted to work on.  

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“I had the worst dream last night. I swear.” I claimed as I was talking to my best friend. “You say that every time.”  She groaned as we walked down the hallway in school. “There were werewolves chasing me and then ‘GD’ jumped out of nowhere and he had fangs and claws and everything.” I told her, using our ‘code name’ for my crush Grayson Dolan. “Wait, GD had fangs and claws?” confusion was obvious in her voice. “Yeah, he did.” I confirmed. “So he was one of them? Like a werewolf?” I nodded answering her question. We were standing by my locker so I could get my books. She looked at me with the ‘are you fucking kidding me’ face before speaking up again “Why can’t you dream about hot, naked guys on unicorns? Or at least vampires, not werewolves!” She exclaimed a bit louder than I would like.”Shhhh. Shut up!” As I tried to get her quiet a locker besides us was closed and a confused Grayson Dolan was looking at us. There was a brief moment of silence as we three stood there looking at each other. “Awkward.” She whispered making me want to disappear in thin air. “You have something against werewolves?” Grayson asked {y/f/n}. Shit, he heard it. “I prefer vampires.” She announced confidentially. Grayson made an o shape with his mouth as to say ‘oh’. “Well I think that werewolves are better.” Ethan suddenly spoke up from behind us, making me jump slightly. He gave me and {y/f/n} a smile as he had got our attention. “Eyes.” He said seriously as his gaze was to Grayson now. Me and {y/f/n} were about to turn our heads to see what he meant when he spoke again. “So you’re team Edward then?” He asked bringing back the conversation and {y/f/n} attention. My head wasn’t completely turned to Grayson but with the corner of my eye, I swear I saw his eyes glow a golden yellow, before he turned his head down. “Definitely team Edward.” I heard their conversation and decided to speak up. “I like Werewolves more.” I bumped in my opinion. “Yeah, Team Jacob!” Ethan smiled putting his hand in the air for a high-five which I gladly returned. “They’re just overgrown dogs.” She rolled her eyes at us both, whilst Grayson stayed in the back not talking. “What about you, Grayson? Team Edward or team Jacob?” {y/f/n} decided to bring him in the conversation. I couldn’t believe I’m having a twilight related conversation with my classmates. “Team Jacob.” He simply answered leaning against his locker. “Seriously? I’m alone here? Gosh, thank you. More vampires for me to date.” She joked acting fake hurt. The twins chuckled as I let a giggle slip past my lips myself. “We should probably get to class.” Grayson said before starting to walk down the hall to the English class. “What’s up with him?” {Y/f/n} asked Ethan who was walking slowly with us, whilst Grayson was already out of sight. “Someone he cares about may or may not be in trouble, and even though nothing has happened this far, he’s still pretty stressed about it.” He explained answering the question. My heart skipped a beat. “Well that sucks.” {y/f/n} said. “Actually,” Ethan turned to me “would you mind if I stole your best friend for a few minutes? I have some questions about the history project we have to make.” He asked referring to {y/f/n}. I found it slightly weird that they couldn’t talk about it with me by their side, but I shrugged it off and nodded a yes. “I’ll see you in English, then.” I said before walking the rest of the way alone.

 “Are you sure you can’t come over to my house?” {y/f/n} asked for the ninth time that day. “How many times do I have to tell you? I wish I could, but my mom wants me to stay at home, because she has a night shift and I need to cook dinner for dad.” I explained once again. I was closing my locker as I said so, wanting to get out of school and go home. “And why do you want me to come over tonight so badly? We can arrange it for tomorrow.” I suggested. “No. I need today! I just- it’s urgent, okay? Something bad might happen tonight.” She kept arguing. “Yeah my dad might starve to death, if I don’t make him dinner.” I retorted before slamming my locker closed, she was making me slightly angry. {y/f/n} groaned out of frustration and I noticed how nervous and frustrated she actually was. I let out a breath, thinking about it once more. “Okay, I’ll go to your house. Just let me bring take out to my house first.” I said and she let out a breath of relief.

 “Okay, so uh- God, why is it so hard to explain?” we were sitting in {y/f/n} car in front of her house, but she didn’t want to get out yet. She said that she has some explaining to do before it happens. “I can’t do it. I just can’t. No. Nope. I’m not- you know what, they can explain themselves. It’s not my job to do it. Yeah, that’s right. Not my job to do it!” she kept talking to herself loudly. I just sat silently, confused. “What do you mean?” I bluntly asked. “Let’s just say that Ethan has some explanation to do.” She smiled sarcastically making me even more confused about the situation. Her phones notifications went off, making her check it. “Great. Okay.” She said putting her phone away and starting the engine once again. “Where are we going?” I questioned buckling my seatbelt. “I swear, you’ll understand later.” She claimed driving. “Okay.” I nodded. If it would’ve been anyone else I would’ve already left, but it was my best friend and she seemed real frustrated and scared.

 About 10 minutes later we arrived at {y/f/n} grandmas old house which was about 30 miles outside the city and into the forest, by a lake. She parked in the driveway that was filled with 3 other cars. She quickly got out of the car and I followed. She locked it as we both made our way into the house. When we walked in I heard people talking in the living room. “How did she even get involved in this in the first place?” an unidentified voice said. “Grayson likes her, that’s how. I don’t know how exactly, but somehow they found out about it. They want to get her to hurt him.” I heard what sounded like Ethan speaking. {Y/f/n} took me by my hand and lead me in the room where I saw Ethan talking to 3 other people who I recognized from school. “We’re here.” {y/f/n} announced and they all looked at us. “Great. Did you tell her?” Ethan questioned and {y/f/n} shook her head no. “Can you at least once do what is asked?” a girl, I knew was named Lucy, asked her tone annoying me already. “Oh, I can’t do what I’m told? I can. In fact I always do so. I just couldn’t tell my best friend that she might die, because someone-” I cut her off “I might die?” silence fell over everyone. “Wow, you’re all big pranksters aren’t you? How long did it take to rehearse this?” I asked chuckling, but their faces didn’t change. “There’s a lot of explaining to do, Ethan.” My best friend said her voice sad and quiet. Ethan let out a deep breath he had held in and walked towards me. “Can I just show you?” he asked his hand towards me as if he wanted me to take it. I looked at his face, then down to his hand and slowly gave my own hand to him. He lead me through the house to the stairs, I assume we were walking to the basement, as the stairs we approached lead only there. “You like werewolves, right?  I mean you said so yourself this morning.” He said as we slowly made our way down. I didn’t answer. Why am I even doing this? This better be a prank. “You see, they exist. We exist.” He claimed making me chuckle slightly. We came to the basement door and stopped there. I could hear weird noises coming from behind it. It sounded like roars and chains. “Okay, before we go there, do you trust me?” Ethan asked facing me. “You want the truth or…” I asked back. “Stupid question, yeah. Just don’t get too scared of what you will see. Okay? I swear he won’t hurt you.” He said and turned the doorknob. He pushed the door open and we walked inside the next room. There was Grayson; all chained up to the wall like some kind of criminal, trying pull his hands away. But there was something different about him. I couldn’t see his face, but I did notice the claws. “He’s having trouble with keeping in control. He needs something to make him human and sustain that way, but as I said, he’s having trouble with it.” Ethan said standing in front of the door. I kept looking at Grayson who kept struggling to get away, his hand never rising from the ground. To say that I was shocked would be understandable. “The reason why you’re here, is because of the given circumstances you seem to be our last hope to get him in control.” Ethan kept his voice low as we were still standing by the door. I didn’t dare to walk closer to Grayson. “What do you want me to do?” I asked not taking my eyes away from Gray. “Talk to him, maybe. See, the reason why he can’t change back to human is because of anger. Maybe, you could get him to calm down.” Ethan was concerned for sure. “But why me? Why can’t you do it?” I asked my hands still shaking. “Because- because he likes you, which means that you have a different type of connection with him.” He explained making my heart skip a beat. Grayson looked up from the ground, revealing his face. His eyes were glowing the golden yellow that I saw in the morning and he had fangs. “Okay, I can try.” I said to Ethan letting go of his hand and taking a step forward. “I’ll be right behind the door.” He said and walked out of the room leaving me and his brother alone. I had no idea what I was doing. Taking a few more steps closer to Grayson I tried to stop my hands from shaking. He kept struggling to get out of the chains that were holding his hands back, but within every step I took he stepped back. “Y/n, don’t.” he said looking down to the floor as he had backed up to the wall. I looked at him slightly confused. “I’m a monster.” He added, it made my eyes tear up. I raised my hand torwards him to touch his face. “You’re not a monster, Grayson.” I said touching his cheek. He closed his eyes at my touch. “I am, I could kill you out of anger.” He added not daring to look in my eyes. A tear slipped from my own. “But you wouldn’t, right?” I didn’t know what to say, “No.” he answered “Please, go away. I don’t want you to see me looking like a monster.” I took his face in both of my hands to make him look at me. He seemed to be in pain. “If this is what you think a monster looks like… A monster or not, I still like you. I have liked you for a long time and it’s not going to change that easily.” I said looking in his eyes. “The sun, the moon, the truth.” He said to himself and repeated it again. I joined in, “The sun, the moon, the truth.” The yellow glow seemed to fade away, making Graysons eyes turn back to his actual eye color. His claws disappeared next and lastly his face went back to normal. “You’re alright?” I asked as he let out a shaky breath. “Yeah.” As Graysons said it Ethan came in the room with keys in his hands, {y/f/n} following right behind them. “I told you this would work.” Ethan informed her with a smile as he came to us and unlocked Graysons hands. “Thanks for not eating her alive.” She said to Gray giving me a hug and checking if I really am okay. “I wouldn’t dare to.” He gave me a weak smile.

[djpri]

[FT INTERVIEW] Allure Korea, January 2018: Rock Chic

<Lee Hongki’s Kiss The Radio> DJ, <Night Goblin> comedian, <Hwayugi> actor and forever an FTISLAND member, Lee Hongki’s delightful days.

Knit top (J.W. ANDERSON BY TOM GREYHOUND), Fur Coat (KYMER)

Top (CALVIN KLEIN), Checked Jacket (PAUL SMITH), Pants (PRIV. SPOONS.CLUB), Fur Slides (EMU SLIDES), Socks (Stylist item) When Hongki walked into the studio, he was carrying a small trunk with a baggage tag. He had just returned from a solo concert in Japan. If this is not the life of a star, what else can it be? Lee Hongki had recently finished a few permanent programs, FTISLAND’s 10th anniversary Europe tour and solo concert in Japan. He is always honest and direct. The only time he hesitated was when we asked what’s his favorite program lately.

“What should I say? I love all of them. I like the radio and <Night Goblin> because I’m close with all of its members and the show is doing well. But I also can not talk about the drama that’s about to air...”

This unique and charming man’s clock is expected to tick away in the new year.

We met between 2017 and 2018. How was 2017?

2017 was really busy. It was FTISLAND’s 10th anniversary and I wanted to spread our name. So I said I’d do everything that calls for me. So I got invited to many variety shows. <Night Goblin> came first and because I found the format to be really funny, I thought it’d be fun. It really is.

Today’s concept is ‘celebrity’s life.’ I asked the stylist to dress you like Elton John and you pull off fur coat really well. For the selfie concept, I saw you take an actual selfie and upload it on Instagram.

That wasn’t a photo shoot. It was a time to take a selfie. (Laughs) When I heard that this is about showing a concept, I said I’ll do it for real. I don’t even really look at scripts. I like facing situations as they come. But that fur coat was super heavy.

Aren’t you too trusting of people? How do you know what’s going to come at you?

I trust myself. I change a lot based on each moment. If the mood isn’t good, I can’t do well. My pictures don’t turn out well. Today was really fun.

This concept was inspired by drama <Hwayugi>. It’s your first drama in 3 years and you are back on a top star role.

I acted a celebrity several times but each one was different. In this drama, I go back and forth a lot but it’s a likable character. I signed up for <Hwayugi> because its synopsis was fun and I worked with Hong sisters before.

What is it like to act a celebrity as a celebrity?

It’s actually hard. I don’t really live like that.

But you’ve seen a lot; admirable and not.

Since I see a lot, I do incorporate them to my acting. I tend to imitate my friends and seniors. First of all, I hate two-faced people. I also don’t like people who don’t listen to others. I can keep talking to those people but if they refuse to listen...that’s too bad. I admire people who are kind of sly but likable at the same time. Those type of people always give back what I give. So I can’t dislike them.

Ha ha. Is someone like that in FTISLAND?

Nope. Not in FTISLAND.

Don’t you have dynamic fans? You have FTISLAND fans, musical, radio and drama fans. How do you interact with all of them?

I’ve always been thankful of my fans so we’ve stayed close like friends. Sometimes, I post things like “I’m going to delete this in 5 minutes but I’ll buy meal for whoever comes here in the nest few minutes!” I really eat with them after that. We argue on SNS. But now, I have drama and musical fans so they all say different things. Some fans say, “I hope you keep acting in dramas. When will you do a musical?” I just have to do well with whatever I do.

I enjoy listening to ‘HONGKIRA’ while driving. Many guests come on the show. You are an excellent host.

Before, it was always about me. I used to think that I needed to be happy and satisfied for everything to succeed. But while hosting a radio show lately, because all of my guests are juniors and younger friends, I found myself changing. I want to make them feel comfortable just like how my seniors treated me. I can be more understanding because we work in the same field. 

Blouse: (YCH), Coat (JUUNJ)

Top (COS), Pattern Suit (SEWEINGBOUNDARIES), Jacket (CUSTOMELLOW), Sneakers (NIKE)

What do you want to say to the rookies?

I always say this. If you are a group, you have to unite first. The most successful member in the team shouldn’t change. But that’s not just up to that member. Everyone needs to help. And that successful member shouldn’t be proud. If you are successful alone, you are nothing.

I can’t imagine you were a nervous type even when you were a rookie.

No. There was no reason to be afraid. I enjoyed everything from the start.

You have an honest image. That can start scandals. Do you have any fear or regret?

There’s nothing I really regret. I get disappointed for not doing it. But I say everything after I think about it. I ask myself multiple times, can I say this? I can, right? 

It’s not easy for a celebrity to be honest.

I sing and act because that’s what I like. But people call me a celebrity for that. But it’s not like celebrities are obligated to follow rules. Sometimes I ask why I did this. But if I put it that way, there’s nothing I can really do. I did try to fix myself. But then I thought I was going to die.

Do you tell your juniors and friends to be honest?

No, I tell them to purify it. (Laughs). I say, I was honest but don’t be like me. I tell them to just be true to their image. For example, I had a junior who didn’t get a break for 2 years. I told him to ask for vacation like “if you give me a vacation, I think I’ll be able to work harder.”

Oh, is that how FTISLAND earns vacations?

No, I pick a date and ask them to not schedule me for anything that day!

I have to ask about musician Lee Hongki. How was the solo concert in Japan? You came here directly from there.

It was a mini live and it was really fun. I had something happen in that past and that made me be afraid of doing things alone. Yesterday, I had 2 shows on a Thursday and 5,000 people had to come to each of them. I was scared nobody would come on a weekday. But the venue was full. I was really thankful. At the end of my concert, I asked them why they came. They said for my song.

That must’ve been heartwarming. Isn’t that the best answer for a musician?

To my relief, they said for my song and I was really happy. So I said, “I can forever sing a song that you want to hear. But if you want beyond that, I can’t promise you. That’s because I could date many people and even though I’ll follow the law, I could party. I don’t really understand a celebrity’s fate. My dream is to be free and I want to live freely. But I’ll sing forever.”

That means you could betray them but never with music.

Yes, I got a long applause (laughs).

You also went on a 10th anniversary Europe Tour, didn’t you?

We went on our first Europe tour 3 years ago and it rocked. So many fans said they couldn’t get tickets so we rented a LIVE house with 300-400 seats and performed for them while drinking. But it’s hard to do a Europe tour because their prices are different. We got to go this time because we said, “we don’t care about getting paid.” We visited 6 countries over 2 weeks. It was so much fun.

You have so many songs now. It must be hard to put together a set list.

We don’t perform songs that the company made. The songs we did when we were young. I make all of our set lists. I think its ridiculous for a company to make it. I imagine how we are going to get to the next song after this, how we are going to rearrange it, how we are going to interact with fans, the mood...etc. I check all of them, discuss with the members and finish the set list.

Where do you think FTISLAND is musically?

We still have a long way to go. I like that music has no end. When I feel like I’ve come to a certain point, I keep meeting more talented people, new sound and new performance. So it’s amazing, fun and I have to continue studying.

Are you sensitive about how your song does on charts?

I don’t care about that. There are songs I don’t care how they do online, and there are songs I want to do well.

It’s not easy to be in a team with same members for 10 years. What’s your secret?

FTISLAND members get along well with each other and everyone is nice. When I was young, my seniors always told me that many bands disband because of their vocal quits. So I decided I won’t be like that. I like performing the most. I really enjoy the 5 of us performing together. So I don’t want to break this.

Do all 5 of you have the same musical direction?

No, that’s impossible. If you listen to our albums, each member has a different musical color. We color it FTISLAND together. Jaejin’s song can turn out different if I sing it. I may be singing them but it’s important to FT-fy them.

What do you dream as a musician?

It’s always the same. To be a ‘rock star.’

What’s Lee Hongki’s rock spirit?

Freedom. Not the rough kind but a peaceful freedom. Peace. I hate being complicated.

How will you be spending 2018?

I’ll have to be busy until I enlist in the army. Now that Soohyun (Kim Soohyun) has gone to the army, I feel like I need to start getting ready for it. I want to be the singer and actor that people can wait for. I want people to ask, “is Lee Hongki done serving yet? I want to hear his song again.” That’s why I plan to work even harder.

How will you describe today’s shoot with 3 SNS hashtags?

First of all, #OffEarly. I had so much fun that it ended fast. And #FurCoat #Allure_MustHave

Knit top & pants (ACNE STUDIO), Pants (NOHANT), Sunglasses (GENTLEMONSTER) *** Cr. Allure Korea + DJ. Pri @tumblr.com ;; Twitter @ChocopieK 

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