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This is Tomas, Tomas loves his personal space
This is Marcus-
-MARCUS ALSO LOVES TOMAS'S PERSONAL SPACE
#marcus x tomas#marcus keane#tomas ortega#tomarcus#he loves his space#like bro#let the man breath#like đđđ#i love them#trying to revive u lot to life
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UNDERSTAND | park jongseong smau (ongoing)
now playing âžââşâđ§âŠÂ°ď˝Ą understand by keshi
"maybe we could try, if you let me"
PAIRING: idol!jay x idol!yn (femreader)
SYNOPSIS: coming fresh off your debut, you get invited to be a part of the revival for the beloved variety show 'We Got Married'. what happens when you find yourself falling for your "husband", as he's the perfect partner on and off screen?
FEATURING: enhypen, son jiwoo, moon chanelle, choi jihyun, bang jeemin, + other idols!
GENRE: smau, crack(ish?) (its just me trying my best to be funny but i have the humor of a 12 y/o boy), fluff, angst, idol au, fake dating?
WARNINGS: suggestive jokes, suggestive content(just making out and lots of TENSION!), couple stuffs, will specify in chapters if needed, ignore timestamps and dates!!!
MESSAGE FROM NIC: ahh my first smau!!! sent this prompt to @enmayz on anon and now im bringing it to life :3 IM SO EXCITEDD it's my first smau and im getting the hang of things, so pls be nice!! feedback is always appreciated as well :D
TAGLIST: OPEN (send a ask or comment to be on it!)
PROFILES: worst group ever | ENHA ENHA ENHA
CHAPTER 1: ill choke you in your sleep
CHAPTER 2: we live in a Society . đ
CHAPTER 3: that's not very pride month of u
CHAPTER 4: u mean *OUR girlfriend
CHAPTER 5: jay pookie nation???
CHAPTER 6: mentally physically weak .
CHAPTER 7: im a sensitive little fella
CHAPTER 8: the eyes chico, they never lie đ
CHAPTER 9: bros got attachment issues idk!
CHAPTER 10: JAYYN NATION RISE
CHAPTER 10.5: see you loverboy!
CHAPTER 11: copium đ
CHAPTER 12: omg i love jungkook sunbaenim
CHAPTER 13: eunchae... đĄđĄđĄđĄđĄđĄ
CHAPTER 14: call that idgafism
CHAPTER 15: ch*emin happend
CHAPTER 16: floppy disk or balls
CHAPTER 17: the dots are connecting...
CHAPTER 18: he's MENstruating
CHAPTER 19: a lovers quarrel đ
CHAPTER 20: â
Š fakeuwus 2023 do not repost, translate, or plagiarize
#nic's library â Ë・âŕ¨ŕ§Ë#fakeuwus#fic: understand#enhypen smau#enhypen social media au#jay enhypen smau#park jongseong smau#enhypen fic#enhypen x reader#enhypen x yn#enhypen fluff#enhypen angst#lee heeseung#park jongseong#sim jaeyun#park sunghoon#kim sunoo#yang jungwon#nishimura riki#son jiwoo#moon chanelle#choi jihyun#bang jeemin#r u next?#fanfic
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Does anyone remember sagau from 2020? Back when it was just mondstat Liyue and inazuma to work off of. Weirdly enough I'm not a fan of the imposter au and I'm pretty sure it didn't exist back then. I remember they're being a fic about honkai impact third x genshin impact where Otto would try to get you there using a kallen revival type of thing. Or another one where the characters trapped you in the serenitea teapot because they were afraid of u getting hurt and you'd slowly go insane from it. There was even a fic where to the best of my remembering ability: characters are confused because you look like the creator but choose to ignore you or be a little bit rude to you. Childe sees you in Liyue and is like đł you go to inazuma and accidentally save signora's life because the shogun got distracted because you look like the creator. Signora then helps you escape, childe gives you his jacket, you sit on signora's lap and Scaramouche is kissing you feetđŽ(something he'd never do but he did it)
It was a crazy but enjoyable time. I miss it since a lot of the fics were deleted and I can't find any of them. So bring back the old sagau, the fanatic worship sagauđŤĄ
That's all I had to stay
#yandere#fyp#fypfypfypfypfypfypdypfypfypfypfypfypfyfpfyfpfyp#platonic yandere#genshin impact#yandere genshin impact#yandere genshin impact x reader#genshin impact x reader#sagau#genshin impact sagau#genshin sagau#sagau cult au#sagau x reader
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Story Idea That May Never Be Written
Danny almost 18, decides to leave home, Tucker has a new identity ready for him and everything. With help of Jazz he plans to finish his hs classes online.
Right before he leaves his parents find out/he got sloppy/ his mom freaks but his dad stops her and just hugs danny. He is confused, guilty, and hurt by maddies reaction. Tells danny heâll handle maddy and to just go as he planed
Danny moves to Gothem, for its high ecto levels and basically chill not give a fuck attatude. And other than the petty crime which he knows he can handle it will be great. He finishes his hs classes and gets a job at a mechanics shop.
Jazz is in college in Metropolis as she thinks the rivalry between the sister cities is interesting to study. And now she can use it as an excuse to visit Gotham and Danny.
Sam and Tucker graduate and move to college. Sam goes to Gotham U where Danny is taking night classes as he is now a full time mechanic at the shop. Tucker is at MIT, working at a tech help store.
A year and a half after he ran Danny gets a message from his dad. Jack is now living in Metropolis near Jazz. Maddy lost it, something about everything hitting her at once, the knowledge that her son died in her machine and that she continued trying to end him for years after, and all the things Phantom had to do hit her at once and shifted something in her mind. She was not sane anymore. She wanted to get Danny legally marked as dead because a part of her knew he died. Jack tried to fight it until Jazz told him that it would be good for Danny to lose that last tie so he finally agreed. Shortly after Jack had her assessed and committed to the hospital and then pleaded to the courts for a divorce so he could focus on his last remaining child Jazz instead of watching Maddy rot away. The courts granted it and Maddy became ward of the state. Jack moved to Metropolis and got a job in helping design security systems.Â
By the time Sam and Tucker were graduating Danny had risen to running the shop only below the owner. Sam got a job with a Dr. Pamala Islie working on keeping plants from going extinct and trying to revive ones that were. Tucker was still working part time at that tech repair shop but was really working on getting his own tech/coding business more widespread.Â
Danny finished his night classes shortly after them and got a good pay raise with it. Right around this time a big bomb hit Gotham in the form of Gothams Prince Bruce Wayne had returned. No one officially knew where he had gone, lots had begun to doubt he would come back saying he was probably dead. So it was a shock to everyone. And soon gotham gossip came to life with the stories of the himbo playboy. Danny could care less but it was fun getting Sam wound up about him.Â
Tuckers business officially took off with big names using it such as (Queen Industries, and other companies associated with future heroes) he moved permanently to Metropolis to be close but refused to move to Gotham saying the lack of sun would kill his complexion, which sam returned with like you spend any time outside anyway?
As a year passed Wayne Enterprise started expanding, small at first building up their departments before adding new ones. Then the Martha Wayne Foundation hit the streets. Founding food kitchens and clinics and pharmacies that were cheap to free for anyone. It made a difference for some. Danny started to question the Bruce Wynes' himbo status as it was clear that this wasnât just a pr move.
Then two years after the circus that was Bruce Wayne's return as the city quieted back down to its normal levels, the people began to hear about a monster, a demon that had been hunting the criminals of Gotham, a shadow that would leave criminals tied up for the police to find. He was a story that word of, would not spread outside of Gothams borders. Now this was something Danny watched and listened for news of. This creature or man was taking over the city little by little and Danny was protective of the city that had become his home. But he was retired and happy so he waited and observed.
Eventually they got a name, Batman. The cost for them gaming the name was that villains, not just criminals were popping out of the woodwork every other week. It was getting concerning to team Phantom, and all of Gotham in general. The press started to blame Batman for these villains' existence, calling him a menace and demanding his arrest. And Danny was conflicted. This man, for he was just a normal human as far as they could figure, was trying his best to save people, stop a problem that was not his fault but he probably felt responsible for, and now the city was against him for it. Danny did not enjoy the parallels and the reminder of his old life, but he sympathized with Batman and became a very vocal supporter of him.Â
Eventually others joined Danny in his support of Batman. Eventually the people calling for his arrest were drowned out by those thanking him for trying to protect them. Eventually the police stopped chasing him and started working with him, even asking for help at times.
Time passed Gotham adjusted, as it always does. Danny was getting bored, he loved the mechanic shop it had become his baby, he trained the new hires and even got a couple to tinker and build things with him. But he got home and was bored, so he started experimenting with baking. He had learned how to cook over his time of living in Gotham and quite enjoyed making food for his family, Sam was always stopping by to raid his fridge since he started experimenting with making vegan food. They even got Tucker to admit to liking it. So the natural next step was trying baking. His first few attempts werenât a disaster but they werenât very good either. But as time passed he got better but then he faced a different issue. What to do with all the deserts. Everyone he knew was given some, and then the rest were donated to a food kitchen. At Jazzes' suggestion Danny applied to work part time at a small bakery. It was right on the outskirts of Crime alley run by a couple of older ladies and their son. Danny got to bake and work on improving recipes and they got to sell what he made. Though they did try to set him up with their son several times after finding out Danny was bi. So life settled.
Then Batman got a partner, a child partner, and Danny got upset. He had been a child vigilante, he had barely survived being a chile vigilante. Danny who took in and trained as many street kids as he could at the shop. Danny who proudly watched those kids become adults and make it in Gotham. Danny who kept an eye on all the heroes popping up around the globe, and knew that none of them had brought kids into it. Danny who thought about âhisâ kids as he dug into Robin and realized that Batman was trying to protect the kid in the ways he knew how, and that Robin probably just like his kids didnât really listen when you tell them no if theyâve set their mind on it. So Danny was still worried but no longer upset with Batman.Â
Then Bruce Wayne started showing up at the bakery.
Bruce is a total dork who struggles with basic human interactions at times. So at a cafe/bakery he tells the 17yo cashier, ��Compliments to the chiefâ like a weirdo. She awkwardly hollers back to Danny, who comes out confused.
Bruce has oh fuck hes hot.
*story happens in between but I don't know what*
Something happens Danny speeds away on his bike. Eventually taking it off a bridge into the water before going invisible and flying to his dads in Metropolis. He goes to the realms to lay low for two weeks after visiting with his dad for a couple days. He has to come back because one of his kids is getting married
Bruce who is crushing on Danny, is worried and talks to people. The ladies at the bakery point him in the direction of the mechanic shop. No one there is worried, they say Danny built that bike from the ground up, he has complete control of it, it couldnât do something if he didnât want it to. Plus Jerramy is getting married next month and Danny wouldnât miss that, heâll be back. Bruce thinks these people are delusional and still worries and tries to find anything. He finds nothing but dick and Alfred have figured out that he definitely doesnât have a crush guys, the mission.Â
Danny shows up two and a half weeks later just in time to pick up his suit for the wedding. Bruce is kinda losing it.Â
#dpxdc#dcxdp#Danny is older than Bruce by 5 or more years#mechanic Danny Fenton#Sam and Ivy are besties#good Jack Fenton#he loves his kids so much#Danny is single handedly training and employing most of the Crime Ally kids#he does not have a problem guy's#Jason Todd is 100% one of his kids#it why he has the tire iron and knows how to take the tires off the batmobile#the batmobiles tires are not easily removed#Bruce x Danny#it's optional#they could just be pals#im ace and can't write romance anyway#Danny might have committed insurance fraud to get money for college before his old identity got declared dead#please use any of this!#i may write this or beg someone to tag me if you write it
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ROUND 5 MATCH 4
Derek propaganda:
âExtreme hot take but Derek is the best OL1 love interest. He has the best and sweetest confession in the game. You play video games together. He seems reserved until you actually start dating and find out that he's actually just a gentleman who didn't want to be overly forward with someone he's not in a relationship with. He's a family man. You get to blatantly abuse your 'dating' privileges in front of his brothers. He's just so insanely sweet and caring and makes me wanna cry whenever I play his DLC.â
â- Impossible to dislike
- No, like, literally impossible. OL1 will allow you to be indifferent to it's two other LIs, Cove and Baxter but you actually can't pick that option for Derek. Game decided that You Will Be (at least) Friends With Derek
- This boy is so good!!!! He's a sweetheart and has your back in the best way and he's constantly doing his best to make sure the people around him (especially you) are happy
- This is also a complex flaw of his because he feels like he needs to be the best that he can be and to be worth something
- This both manifests in how he treats others (he's exceedingly well-mannered and does everything for others because he secretly hopes that someday someone will do the same for him) and his career prospects (he takes on excessive practice to get good at football/soccer so that he can potentially get a scholarship and become famous all so he can potenially feel like he's worth something. This is actually a major conflict in his Step 4)
- His DLC also has some of the best moments in the game
- He also has a family and they're also really good and you get to see a lot of them
- His dad is hilarious, his mom is gorgeous and their relationship is very cute
- Meanwhile, Derek's brothers are great. I wanna gush about them because I love them but also play Derek's DLC yourself!!! See how good they are for yourself!!!!
- I will say that these three have a really good relationship dynamic and the development it takes in the 10 years between when you first meet Jorge and Nico as little kids to Step 4 where they're adults (and a teenager, Nico is 16 in Step 4) is genuinely very well written
- If you're into the steamy stuff, Derek also has the best make-out session out of all of the boys
- He's also just. Very funny. This boy will invite you to a waterpark and then ask you if its a date so he knows whether or not it's ok to check you out in your swimsuit
- Or, if you aren't dating by that point (but you do want to to date him), the narration will note how he's trying so so hard not to check you out, he's just trying so so so hard
- Puppy dog face. Look at it. Tell me you can look at that face and not want to smooch him
- His confession is also the best, did I mention it's the best? Because it's absolutely the best one in the entire game
- He has a whole thing about having to confess to you on a ferris wheel and he's so committed to it that he actually avoided ferris wheels for a long time before this confession because he promised himself he'd do it the next time he went on one
- And then he went on one...and he literally doesn't confess when he does it because he lost track of time and he had to get off
- so he asks you to go on the ferris wheel with him again so he can actually confess this time
Just. Just vote for him!!!!â
âHe's sweet, polite, and out-going and is always willing to put you first (sometimes too willing).â
âpolite responsible jock u r NOT immune to thisâ
Asra propaganda:
âHe GIVES AWAY HALF HIS HEART TO REVIVE YOU okay but like. He's the MCs roommate and they were together for a few years before the MC caught a plague and died and he obsesses over a way to bring them back before succeeding by making a deal with a god to trade half his heart for MC and betraying the emperor. And then when MC comes back but without any of their memories, he takes care of them and teaches them how to live all over again and he never asks for anything in return. On all the routes where you don't choose him he's really supportive and helps you out despite your history and overall he's just really nice and supportive of the MC and is their rock no matter what route you go down. Also he has a pet snake named Faust and I love her she's so <33Â
Idk I just appreciate him so muchâ
"He gave you half his HEART!! He would literally go to hell and back for you!! He wants to take you on adventures all around the worldâdoesnât matter where, as long as heâs by your side!! AND heâs nonbinary!!!"
#Derek Suarez#Our Life#our life: beginnings & always#OLBA#Asra Alnazar#The Arcana#The Arcana Game#Round 5#MDDC 2
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â imagine being loved by me! â˘
pairing: xiao | alatus x reader
summary: the one where your best friend gives you ten tattoos over the next ten years. the problem? you fall deeper in love each time the ink stains your skin.
word count: 7.1k words
tags:Â modern au, tattoo artist!xiao, childhood friends to lovers, angst with a happy ending, relationship study, non-explicit smut
warnings: emotionally stunted xiao but i fink everyone knows that already, mentions of needles, there's smut but it isn't detailed
notes:Â this blog's been dead for Months but i thought i'd revive it with this fic that my beloved @delvalentine commissioned me to make! i love u to DEATH, v, i hope i did your requests justice :')
header art cr: yuca7302 on twt
01.
âOw, fuck! Can you be more careful?!â
âI am careful. You just have a shitty pain tolerance.â
âWow, thatâs not something you should say to your first willing client,â you huff, trying not to pull away as Xiao repeatedly punctures the skin of your forearm with pen ink and a not-so-sterile sewing needle. âMy family could sue you if I die from a blood infection, you know.â
Xiao rolls his eyes. âSomething this small wonât kill anyone. Plus, you came here on your own volition, so stop complaining.â
âAre you saying youâre just going to let me die of sepsis if everything goes to shit?â
âPretty much.â
You didnât know what to expect when your best friend of several years asked if you wanted a tattoo of your favorite constellation. Itâs been a running joke between the both of you that the two moles on your forearm looked a lot like two-thirds of Orionâs belt, and that maybe, in another life, you wouldâve been born with all three of its stars on your skin.Â
You shouldâve known that Xiao likes to blow your expectations out of the waterâwhether he intends to do so or not.
Itâs sundown when he finishes embedding black pen ink beneath your slightly inflamed skin. Xiao doesnât comment when you repeatedly complain about how much that fucking hurt, and that youâre never agreeing to do it again, but you donât miss the way his eyes occasionally flit up to the starry sky before shifting to your new âtattooâ as he walks you home.
You donât think youâll ever forget that night. How you admired the amateur handiwork in the soft glow of your nightlight while thinking about the boy who gave you a star fashioned with his own fingers where others wouldâve given flowers instead.
But then you remember Xiao is nothing but your best friend, and itâs a littleâŚweird to be thinking about him like that.Â
Must be the sepsis fucking with my head, you muse before flicking off your nightlight, and the room is plunged into pitch black darkness.Â
02.Â
Youâre eighteen when you realize Xiao is completely serious about this tattooing business.
It comes as a not-so-pleasant surprise to you one day when your high schoolâs guidance counselor approaches you while youâre hurrying over to your next classâasking if youâve seen Xiao around these days because apparently, your best friend hasnât been attending his classes for a better part of the semester.Â
Of course, you receive the news with a scowl. While you donât exactly see him all that much at school because of how different your schedules are, you never expected to find out heâs been playing hooky all this time.Â
You donât particularly like sticking your nose into other peopleâs businessâespecially not Xiaoâs, since you know how he likes to keep to himself better than most. But for some reason, you arenât able to resist, and end up calling him after excusing yourself from your two-hour Biology lecture.Â
Once your classes are done, you head over to a nearby tattoo parlor whose address Xiao texted to you right after you squeezed his whereabouts out of him during that phone call. Itâs located in one of the more run-down parts of town that your parents wouldâve detested Xiao for inviting you to. But whatever prejudice you mightâve had about the denizens of this district all go up in smoke once you meet the owner herself.
âYou shouldâa seen Xiao practicing with our machines a few months ago!â Beidou, as Xiao had sheepishly introduced earlier, barks out a laugh before slinging an arm around your best friendâs shoulders. âSaid thereâs someone he wanted to give permanent tatts to. Iâm guessing youâre the guest of honor?â
âBeidou,â Xiao groans. âItâs not a big deal. I already practiced on her before.â
You donât completely catch it when Beidou makes an inappropriate joke as a response to what Xiao just saidâeyes trained on the fading dot on your forearm. Itâs been two years since Xiao gave you your first âtattooâ, and even if the receding ink makes it look like one of Orionâs stars are starting to die out, itâs still there.
âOkay,â you say in the middle of their bickering, startling both Xiao and Beidou in the process. âIâll let him ink me if he wants to.â
Xiao stares at you with brows furrowed. âYou sure?â
No, youâre not sure because as much as you want to support Xiao in what seems to be a budding passion of his, youâre certain that your father is going to kill you when he sees a full-blown tattoo on any part of your body. You barely got away with the artificial mole that Xiao did for you a few years back.
âPositive.â You back your words up with an indignant huff before sifting through the pre-made designs on Beidouâs catalog. âYou just have to put it somewhere not everyone can see, I guess.â
Beidou snorts out another jarring laugh when Xiao clicks his tongue to alleviate the embarrassment thatâs painting his face just a touch of red.Â
Earlier in the day, you intended to scold your best friend for not taking his studies seriously, but ended up going home that day with a new piece inked onto the skin of your left hip: a little spruce twig that you last remember seeing in your old hometownâyears before you even met Xiao.Â
Thereâs no particular meaning behind it, apart from a hint of sentimentality and rebelliousness. Itâs your first actual tattoo, and one of your best friends gave it to you, free of charge. Even if it hurts ten times more than Xiaoâs novice needle method from two years ago, you end up loving it more than you thought. One time, you stare at Xiaoâs intricate handiwork in the mirror for so long that you nearly run late for your first class of the day.Â
(Another thing that makes this particular piece memorable is the process itself.
Xiao is a person whoâs always been startlingly precise in everything he decides to put his head into. When you learned that he wanted to become a tattoo artist, you instantly felt like thereâs no other path more perfect for him than this.
Yet you couldnât help but notice how his fingers sometimes trembled as he gave you your first pieceâwith you lying chest-down on Beidouâs tattoo chair in nothing but your shirt and underwear. It shouldnât have been strange. Xiao has seen you dressed down like this dozens of times before.Â
But when allâs said and done, he refused to meet your eyes, and you donât have the slightest clue why.)
03.
You just canât stop staring when you see Xiaoâs half-sleeve for the first time.
Itâs meant to be a phoenix, he said, but you canât really see it because the patterns are too abstract to make sense of. Still, the azure ink sits nicely on top of his built bicep, and you have to tell yourself that youâre just trying to find the stupid phoenix as an excuse to keep ogling him.
Thankfully, your weird fascination lasts for only about a week until youâre back to shitting on him like you always do.Â
By some miracle, Xiao manages to graduate high school despite being on probation from his excessive absences. Heâs actually smart if he makes the effort to hit the books, but youâre not sure if heâs planning on going to college with how comfortable he is with being one of Beidouâs most in-demand tattoo artists.Â
You ask him about his future plans at a party being thrown by the previous captain of the football team in his parentsâ lavish penthouse somewhere uptown. It took a great deal to force Xiao into tagging along with you as your plus one, and youâre going to make good on his acquiescence by interrogating him about things he normally skirts around.
âI told you, I didnât take any entrance exams,â he grumbles against the rim of his red cup. âIâm managing just fine working for Beidou, so I donât see any reason to go to college.â
Youâre about to argue that Beidouâs tattoo parlor wonât be open forever, and that he needs to think about broadening his career options until a bunch of girls with linked arms shuffle closer to where you and Xiao were lounging on the couch. You donât talk to them a lot, but everyone in your grade knows the infamous Pyro Trio.
âHey, Xiaooo,â Hu Tao drawls with a smirk, pushing up her sleeve to reveal the branches of a cherry blossom tattooed on the delicate skin of her arm. Behind her, Xiangling and Xinyan snicker like itâs some sort of inside joke.Â
You intend to shift your gaze elsewhere. Clearly, youâre not the person these girls want to speak with. But the sight of the ink on Hu Taoâs skin makes the back of your neck prickle with misplaced irritation. Xiao mustâve been the one who did her piece, which shouldnât be a surprise. Though heâs this yearâs most notable absentee, rumors about Xiaoâs handiwork havenât gone unnoticed among the students in your (now) alma mater.Â
That doesnât mean you have to like the idea of your best friend inking other people that aren't you, though.
You decide to excuse yourself from Xiaoâs companyâgiven that Hu Tao is giving him plenty of attention already as is. Your best friend utters something you donât quite catch as you walk away, and you donât bother turning around to ask him to repeat himself.
(As you stuff your face with shot after shot, you force yourself to just keep dancing to the rhythm of whatever song is blaring to the speakers. You didnât give two shits about the fact that Hu Tao keeps feeling up the stupid phoenix tattoo on Xiaoâs arm. Nor did you care about the fact that your best friendâwhoâs normally evasive when it comes to casual contactâseems like he doesnât mind at all.)
The night ends with Xiao begrudgingly getting behind the wheel of your car, since youâre obviously in no state to be driving anyone home. When he announces that heâll bring you back to your apartment, you slur out a drunken protestâasking if he can take you to the tattoo parlor instead.
âWhat?â he asks incredulously. âWhy?â
You huff, curling in on yourself on the passenger seat. âThe cherry blossoms you gave Hu Tao were ugly as shit. You can do a better piece on me. Yâknow, as practice.âÂ
Both of you know that youâre bluffing. Xiaoâs pieces are one of the most intricate youâve ever seen, even if he is a rookie tattoo artist, and that you donât have a lot of points of reference to compare to. But instead of taking offense at your mindless jab at his work, Xiao slots the keys into the ignition with a defeated sigh.
âFine. You mentioned wanting spider lilies a while back,â he says before propping his arm against the car seat as he backed up on the street. Itâs the perfect angle to moon over his not-so-phoenix tattoo, and if you were any more intoxicated, you wouldâve reached out and squeezed his arm.Â
âWhere do you want it?â
You know he meant to ask where you wanted him to put your prospective tattoo, but the question sends your mind straight into the gutter. Thankfully, you still have some semblance of coherence lingering in your drunk thoughts, and you answer with:
âRight hip. Opposite end of the spruce twig.â
When Xiao heaves another sigh and steps on the gas pedal, you donât think much of itâstill convinced itâs completely normal to expose such intimate parts of yourself to your best friend so he can tattoo a fucking flower just above the swell of your thigh.
04.
âYou have been watching way too much anime.â
âCome on! At least Iâm not having you tattoo the names of my shitty ex-boyfriends on my ass, right? Just give me my modified Tanjiro hanafuda and Fullmetal Alchemist flamel!â
â...Is this your way of coping with taking up a nursing course? Is it that stressful?â
You whine as you hold your phone closer to your ear, already picturing the look of disbelief in Xiaoâs face when you asked when heâs free to give you your next tattoos. You still go to college in the same city, but itâs been weeks since you last saw him.Â
âYou have no idea,â you groan. âItâs like my first year, and Iâm already burned out! How is that even possible?â
Your best friend grunts on the other line. âMaybe if you stopped being such a perfectionist, then maybe youâll learn to be more content. Less stress on your part, too.â
âAh, no can do. I never do anything that isnât perfect,â you chuckle. â
âYeah, I saw you score at the top of your class during your, uh⌠what was it again? Biochem exam?âÂ
For someone who doesnât exactly give a damn about anything outside tattooing and other similar forms of artistry, you find it endearing to know Xiao actually remembers all the things you rant about in the wee hours of the morning. You donât hate biochem, but if you have to draw another chemical configuration, you might just pop a vein.Â
âOkay, letâs say I agree to tattoo those weird doodles you sent,â Xiao propositions, âdo you even have any free days? You usually study on weekends, right? I donât think youâre free to drop by the shop even if you wanted to.â
Fuck. Heâs right. You still have a few major exams coming up in the next two weeks. If you wait that long until you get your silly weeaboo tattoos from Xiao, you wouldâve already gotten over your momentary hyperfixation on the TV shows that were salvaging your sanity in the middle of the semester. It wouldnât feel as thrilling to get them anymore.
âIâm freeâŚâ You trail off, eyes darting to the digital clock by your desk then to the course notes you have opened on your laptop. You havenât studied as much as you wanted to for your upcoming anatomy test, butâŚ
âRight now, actually. Can you pick me up?â
You can hear him frowning. âDonât you have a car?â
âI do, but I donât wanna drive when I have plastic wrap all over my body.âÂ
âYouâre exaggerating. Itâs not all over yourââ
âJesus, get the hint, Xiao. I miss my best friend, and I want to have a quiet evening cruise on his motorcycle before he gets me inked again!âÂ
Xiao falls silent, and this time, youâre having some difficulty picturing what expression heâs wearing on his face. You like to think youâve startled your un-startle-able best friend, but thatâs pushing your influence too much.Â
âOkay,â he says, more agreeable than you thought heâd be. âIâll be there in thirty. Donât you dare fall asleep on me.â
05.Â
When you introduce your first serious boyfriend in a while to Xiao, youâre a bit annoyed with how prickly heâs being.Â
Sure, itâs wired into his system to be the snarky asshole everyone knows and loves, but if thereâs anyone else who knows about the tragedy that is your love life better than yourself, itâs Xiao. When you finally land a decent guy to settle down with, you at least expect him to be a bit more supportive. Â
âActually, we came here âcause we planned on getting matching tattoos,â your boyfriend, Yin, explains with a dimpled smile. âIsnât that right?â
You stifle a soft laugh, a bit embarrassed to agree, but too in love with your boyfriend to protest.Â
A few years ago, you distinctly remember drunkenly rambling to Xiao about how stupid it is to get couple tattoos especially when relationships these days are built on flimsy foundations.Â
If you break up, what then? You have a physical reminder of that person on your body for eternity? No fucking thanks!
âSorry, weâre closed right now, as you can see,â Xiao grunts before jabbing his thumb at the sign he just turned at the door. âYou can try some other time, though.â
At the time, you were pissed at Xiao for denying your little request. He always agreed to ink you during ungodly hours of the day, but now heâs playing the âshopâs closedâ card just because he doesnât like your boyfriend?
But then, you end up grateful for his attitude exactly a month later.Â
âFucking cheated on me with some bitch from his Physics lecture,â you sniffle on Xiaoâs ratty sofa as he makes you some tea in his kitchen. âI canât believe I nearly tattooed our anniversary on my wrist! I wouldâve had to fucking amputate it in the end.â
Xiao sighs before placing a piping hot cup of honey lemon in front of you on his coffee tableâcrossing his legs together. He doesnât tell you I told you so, like others probably would if they were in his shoes. Your best friend just stares at you with withering understanding, no matter how stupid the choice that got you here in the first place turned out to be.
Thatâs one of the many things you loved about him.Â
âYou were supposed to have âXVâ inked together, right?â he asks.Â
You huff before tossing some of the soiled tissues you used into the bin. âYeah. We made it official on September 15th.â
âWell, if you still want the tattoo, you could just give it a different meaning.â
Scowling, you stare at Xiao as if he just grew a second head. âWhat the hell are you talking about?â Is he really suggesting for you to get the same tattoo that he denied you and your ex a month ago?
Xiao shrugs noncommittally before taking a sip from the tea he prepared for you. âItâs been fifteen years since we became best friends. Thatâs worth commemorating, at least. Unless you suddenly donât give a shit about that, too?â
Your jaw hangs agape at the sudden reminder. October 15th. When you were four, you accidentally spilled orange juice all over Xiaoâs teletubbies backpack, and when he forgave you on the spot, you crowned him as your first bestie.Â
That was fifteen years ago. Holy shit.
He startles when you abruptly shoot back to your feet, earning yourself a perplexed stare from Xiao who just wants you to sit down and drink your damn teaâ
âIs Beidouâs shop open?â you ask. âI want her to do our matching tatts.â
Xiao grimaces. âOur?â
You nod brusquely, tugging at his arm. âYeah, Iâm allowed to have matching tattoos with you, âcause youâll never walk out of my life, right, Xiao?â
Heâs always been a stubborn little shit, so you donât really expect Xiao to relent as quickly as he does. You nearly stumble to the carpeted floor when he lets you pull him upâfaces hovering so close to each other, you nearly choke on your own breath.
It doesnât help that Xiao has definitelyâŚput in a few inches of height. Back then, you used to tease him a lot for being taller than him, but now?
âNever,â he whispers so softly, you wouldnât have heard it if you weren't as close to him as you are. âNow drink your stupid honey lemon tea so we can head to the shop.âÂ
About two and a half hours later, youâre sitting on the vacant seats in the shopâs waiting loungeâa familiar sting still sizzling beneath your ribcage from where you had your first matching piece with Xiao permanently inked. You made him swear to have his own âXVâ tattoo made on the same place, and he makes good on his promise when he emerges from the workroom, wearing nothing but his dark-washed jeans.
Unlike yourself, you rarely see Xiao in various states of undress. The most skin you could get out of him on most days is the lean muscle of his tattooed biceps, and sometimes those are enough to have you staring dumbly at him for several minutes.
Now, though?
You learn that he has several tattoos on his torsoâspread across his skin like patchwork. It makes you wonder if he did some of them himself, or if he had Beidou work on them for him. Still, despite the plethora of new ink stains to gawk at, his weird phoenix tattoo remains as your personal favorite.
Along with the newest piece he got not five minutes earlierâthe tattoo he shares with you.
âAre you happy now?â he grumbles, letting you marvel at the perfect roman numerals just below the jut of his ribs. âItâs a good thing Beidou gave it to us free of charge, you know.â
You giggle. âAll of my tatts so far have been free of charge.â
âThatâs only because youâre special to me,â Xiao sighs before freezing up in the next momentâlike he didnât mean to let that slip aloud.
You smirk. âMm? What was that? I didnât hear you.â
âFuck off.â
06.Â
Much to Xiaoâs disappointment, your shitty taste in men doesnât exactly end with Yin.
About three months after getting the tattoo to commemorate your fifteen years of best friendship, you meet Kaeya. Heâs an exchange student, and you know better than to form any sort of attachment to someone who isnât going to be in the same continent as you by next year.Â
But you let him in anyway.Â
You allow Kaeya to get to know you in ways that not even Xiao is familiar with. The smooth-talking foreigner likes to kiss every single one of your tattoosâlamenting the fact that theyâre all inked in spots hidden from view. You laugh every time he brings it up, saying your parents are going to kill you and Xiao if they saw any of the pieces your best friend did for you over the last six years.Â
âThat best friend of yoursâŚâ Kaeya muses once heâs done bringing you to paradise and back, smoking a cigarette that makes you wrinkle your nose with distaste. He wouldâve been perfect, if only he wasnât such a chronic chainsmoker. âHeâs in love with you, isnât he?â
You nearly fall off the bed at his bold declaration.
âW-What the fuck are you talking about?â you stammer. Xiao? In love? With you?Â
Kaeya shrugs. âI dunno, sweetheart. If I was a tattoo artist, I wouldnât let anyone freeload my craft as many times as you didâeven if you are my best friend. Unless I was down fucking bad for you, of course.â
Xiao doesnât like Kaeya, but the reasoning behind it is a bit different from why he doesnât like your ex. He knew Yin wasnât a good match for you. Kaeya, though? The two of you had inarguable chemistry. The only problem was he was a free spirit that didnât like to be tied down by commitmentsâsomething you clearly struggle with.Â
When you reassured Xiao that Kaeya is nothing but a way to scratch a passing itch, he merely scoffed and told you to do whatever you wanted.
Could his dismissiveness be becauseâŚheâs in love with you?Â
That canât be right. Youâre the one who knows Xiao best. If he hypothetically does catch feelings for someoneâmuch less, youâyouâll surely be the first to notice, right?
Right?
Kaeya chuckles before tracing the XV tattoo along your ribcage with a cold fingerâalmost like heâs teasing. You roll your eyes before crawling back on top of your midnight lover, kissing him just to shut him up.Â
When you drop by Beidou's the next day, Xiao is nowhere to be found.
âDidnât he tell you?â She gapes. âOur boyâs starting his own shop downtown! He had the soft launch and everything a week ago. I was wondering where you were.â
âUhâŚâÂ
Youâre not sure how to break the news that Xiao has been giving you the cold shoulder ever since you got together with Kaeya. But finding out that he put up his own tattoo parlor without even telling you?Â
If Kaeya turns out to be right, and your best friend really was in love with you, he sure as hell wasnât acting like it.Â
Deciding to play along with whatever game heâs playing, you make an appointment to get a new piece inked under a fake name. Xiao accepts it right away and schedules you for an early evening slot. You make it a point to arrive twenty minutes late just to get a rise out of him.Â
When he sees you at the entrance to his shop, you almost let yourself feel smug about the unadulterated surprise on his face. Almost. Youâre still pissed off that he didnât invite you to one of the most important milestones of his life.
He fulfills your request in silenceâthe French word for green inked unassumingly on the underside of your shoulder blades. Xiao doesnât say a word about his evasiveness, nor does he address the fact that you, his literal best friend, are standing in the shop heâs kept a secret for god knows how long.Â
When he still refuses to talk, you slam your payment on top of a nearby tableâintent on storming out of the building even if he hasnât wrapped your newest piece in a protective layer of plastic yet. Xiao barks that he doesnât want your fucking money, and you end up throwing your hands in the air, asking:
âThen what the hell do you want?â
You expected him to blow up in a fitful of rage. Heâs never been good at anger management, you knew this well. But instead, he crosses the distance separating the two of you and crushes your mouths together.
âYou,â he whispers hoarsely, desperately against your lips. âIâve only ever wanted you.â
Kaeya calls you multiple times that nightâeven leaves a text message asking where you are and if youâre free. You arenât able to answer any of them though. Not when youâre busy being railed into the next life by your best friend of fifteenâgoing sixteenâyears in the same bed that Kaeya just had his way with you a week ago.Â
When Xiaoâs lips graze each and every tattoo he personally inked onto your pliant body, itâs leagues different from when Kaeya does it. Itâs like your best friend is leaving a trail of fire sizzling beneath your skin everywhere his mouth trails along your hypersensitive flesh.Â
Even the way he makes you fall apart from a blistering orgasm is ten times more intense than every session you had with Kaeya and Yin combined.
Thereâs no affection nor is there adoration in Xiaoâs gaze as he fucks into youâgolden eyes fueled by something carnal and zealous, but you knew better than to call that love.Â
When morning comes, Xiao isnât here with you, and you donât know which emotion to feel.Â
Kaeya, at least, has the decency to leave a note whenever he has to depart early. But all that your best friend leaves you with is a sinking feeling in your stomach, and a glaring realization that you did not want to make when youâre crying all alone in your apartment at the crack of dawn.
Kaeya was wrong. Xiao isnât in love with you.
Youâre in love with Xiao, and you immediately know youâre in deep fucking shit because of it.
07.
Itâs two weeks into your mission of complete radio silence when Xiao finally breaks.
Youâre in the middle of a pharmacology lecture when your phone buzzes in your pocket. You knew it wasnât Kaeya because heâd already packed his things last week and headed back to his home country. The bastard even asked you for a quick farewell fuck, but you turned him down right away and gave him a kiss goodbye instead.
When you find out itâs a text message from the same person youâve been trying to avoid all this time, youâre all too quick to parse through its contents.
Xiao: I'm sorry. Can we talk?
Thatâs how you wind up standing right outside of his new tattoo parlor.Â
You havenât been able to take a good look at it the last time you were hereâtoo frustrated with your best friend to really make sense of your surroundings. But heâs put up his new shop in a pretty good part of town. You wonder how Xiao managed to afford it all.Â
Then again, heâs been working at Beidouâs shop for years. You knew he had a decent number of regulars, as well as potential clients that are highly interested in his work.Â
For once, you let yourself be proud of him. Even if he didnât put your name on the guest list for his soft launch.
Xiao looks a little sheepish when he lets you inside and flips the sign on the front door to give the two of you some privacy. You arenât faring any better. The last time you saw him, he was balls-deep inside of youâfucking you like youâre the most despicable woman in the world.
âSo thereâs thisâŚcollage piece I wanted to try,â he starts, and you fight the urge to roll your eyes.Â
Of course when Xiao invites you over to talk, you shouldnât have expected any actual talking to take place. Thatâs just not his style. Heâd rather make up for whatever mistakes he made by inking another stupid tattoo on your body, but honestly? Youâll take whatever you can get.
When you saw his sketch of a Statue of David peppered with four-leaf clovers, you couldnât even dream of parsing the meaning behind the piece. The only thing that makes you relent is an old memory of you and Xiao hunting for four-leaf clovers in your motherâs gardenâeven putting the effort to plant whatever you could find in a pot in hopes that they would grow bigger.
It takes him hours to complete the entire thing. This one is probably the most realistic piece heâs done for you, and you canât help but watch the intense concentration on his face through the mirror on the wall as he inks it a few inches above the last tattoo he did for you.Â
Youâve never really realized howâŚbreathtaking he looks like this.
His fringe falling across his pretty gold eyes, the comfortable set of his jaw as he focuses on his work, and the soft slope of his cupidâs bow despite how harsh the words that come out of his mouth can be.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.
You really are in love with this guy.
When heâs finally satisfied with his work, Xiao puts down his machine before wiping a sheen of sweat off his brow. He already looks so fucking good while heâs working. How is it fair for him to look even more gorgeous right after the entire process?
âCome on, letâs wrap it up,â he says before stretching his limbs. The action makes the cropped shirt heâs wearing ride up his torso a little, and youâre teased with a glimpse of the tattoo he matches with you.
Your heart nearly leaps to your throat, and if it werenât for the dull sting of your newest tattoo, you wouldâve been entranced by the sight of him entirely.
âSure,â you say, even if your heart is begging for you to just be honest with him. To let him know how youâve felt all this time because frankly, you canât keep carrying the weight of your own feelings for much longer.
But then you remember howâŚapathetic Xiao looked like the night he dared to tell you he wanted you. There was no love to be found in his animalistic gaze, and you fear that heâll turn you even further away at the slightest hint of more-than-friendly affection from your end.Â
You can live with this. His fleeting yet heated touches. His deep, piercing stares.Â
Youâll do anything to preserve what you have with him nowâeven if that means sacrificing everything else you could still dream of.
08.
Sometimes, you think Xiao is making you hope on purpose.
Sure, your friendship was more or less salvaged after offering your Statue of David tattoo as a quiet apology. Youâre back to teasing him for all the most minuscule things, and Xiao is back to being your voice of reason in no time.
These days, though, you donât really have much time to hang out with him like you usually do. Youâre in the last year of your nursing degree, and your shifts at the hospital on top of your regular academic workload render you much too exhausted to catch up with any of your friends. Xiao included.
But there comes a night when he visits you in your apartment when youâre busy studying for a tricky surgery examâa bucket full of fried chicken, and a bottle of sparkling water in hand. What kind of fiend would turn away an unannounced blessing like that ?Â
You munch through the midnight snack Xiao brought for you all while forcing him to do your flashcards with you. He knows the drill, anyways. Though heâs been out of school for years, Xiao is still familiar enough with your study habits to be of substantial help during these trying times.
While youâre in the middle of differentiating the different types of sutures, though, he proposes an idea.
âItâs been a while since I inked you with a sewing needle and pen ink, isnât it?â
You narrow your eyes, taking a swig of your carbonated drink as your gaze flickers to the pseudo-Orionâs belt on your right forearm. The third star has all but faded from view over the years.
âYeah, why are you asking?â
Xiao rummages through his knapsack for a few seconds before bringing out what seems to be a small sewing kit, and a jar labeled âIndian inkâ. You gulp in equal parts dread and anticipation.
âI figured out how to make the tatts stay longer,â he says, a gentle smile settling over his face. âYou want me to give you a new one? I can even revive good old Orion, too.â
You sigh. Who are you to turn the love of your life down anyway?
Xiao gets to work while youâre lying sideways on your bed, flinching every now and again because he decided to outline the spitting image of the flower vase sitting on top of your nightstand along the curve of your waist.Â
Unlike your first experience with manual needling, your pain tolerance is much better. The only reason youâre squirming every time Xiao embeds the ink into your skin is because youâre fucking ticklish. All those years of being intimately acquainted with Beidouâs tattoo machine were all the sensory training you needed, it seems.Â
When Xiao is done with this piece, he pulls you into an upright position, making you hold out your arm so he could resurrect the first tattoo he ever gave you. You roll your eyes, but let him do as he pleases anyway.
At this point, youâll let him do anything with you.
Itâs nearly three in the morning when youâre putting away the dishes and glasses you and Xiao used for the night. Heâs kind enough to throw out the trash while you clean up in the kitchen, and when he meets you back in the living room to exchange farewells, you donât really want him to go.
âYou have morning classes tomorrow, right?â he murmurs as he pulls you into a firm embrace, careful not to press down too hard on your new tattoo. âTake care. Donât burn yourself out too much. All your hard work will be for nothing if you end up keeling over before graduation.â
You canât help it. The soft timbre of his voice coupled with the fond look in his eyes tears all your defenses asunder. As you look up to meet Xiaoâs uncharacteristically doting gaze, your chest twists more and more as you keep yourself from lunging in for a kiss.
âYouâre such a pessimist, itâs almost funny how caring you sound,â you chuckle. âGo on, now. Shoo. Itâs late.â
Before you can push him out of the door, however, Xiao catches you by surprise when he leans down to peck your lips. You stay frozen in place even as he pulls awayâsmiling so prettily, you can hardly believe this guy is your perpetually pissed off best friend.
âGood night.âÂ
Unlike the last time he left you all alone in your apartment, youâre filled to the brim with an emotion you canât quite name. Itâs far from the emptiness that made a home in your heart when you thought you were in love with someone who didnât love you back. But youâre not about to call it happiness either.
Whatever this strange feeling is, you let it sit in your chest for a while longer, and it lingers even when the memory of Xiaoâs lips stops prickling against the skin of your own.
09.
On the day of your graduation, Xiao asks you to drop by his shop after the rites have concluded. You tell him that heâs self-centered as fuck, and that this is your day, so if he wants to use your body as a practice canvas again, heâs going to have to wait tomorrow.
You donât tell him that youâre sulking because he didnât even show up to congratulate you for surviving four gruesome years of nursing. But you suppose that someone who never went to college in the first place wouldnât be the best at sympathizing with this particular milestone in your life.
He shows you his latest sketch when you make it to his shop the next morningâand you canât contain the look of disbelief that colors your features when you realize what it is.
âA bouquet thatâll never wilt,â he chuckles, one finger expertly pointing out the flowers heâs drawn on the neat page. âOrchids and hydrangeas: your favorite. Violets: you press a bunch of these in books every summertime. Pink babyâs breath âcause you wouldnât stop gushing about them at your sisterâs wedding.â
You arenât able to stifle the flattered giggle that spills from your lips. âCanât believe you actually remember all that. Whatâs the lily of the valley doing there though?â
âOh, this?â Xiao hums with one brow raised. âYour mom had lots of them in her old garden. Those are my favorite.â
âAnd, pray tell, why is your favorite flower going to be permanently tattooed on my body?â
Xiao doesnât humor you with a verbal answer right away. Instead, he wheels his revolving seat closer to you so that heâs close enough to press your foreheads together. Your breath hitches when his mouth curves into a loving smile youâre starting to get used to seeing.
âBecause youâre mine,â he says simply. âNow, are you going to tell me where you want me to ink your eternal bouquet or not?â
10.
Youâre a complete sap when it comes to weddings. Everyone knows this.
Itâs for that reason that none of your guests are surprised when you end up crying in the middle of exchanging vows with your fiancĂŠ. Xiao sighs before taking out a handkerchief from his front pocket, dabbing at the tears streaming down your face. For someone who comes on so tough to other people, youâre awfully sentimental.
âSorry, sorryââ you sniffle, thanking every single god out there for the invention of waterproof mascara. âOkay, Iâm ready now.â
The rest of the session proceeds swiftly. You get to kiss your best friend of more than two decades and call him your husband in front of some friends and family. The matrimonial rites were held in a private resort at the base of a mountain. Both you and Xiao wanted to preserve the intimacy of your wedding as much as you could. After all, you didnât need all that flashy and grandiose wedding prep to prove to the world just how much you want to spend the rest of your life with Xiao.Â
Your thoughts stay the same even as he lays you down in the king-sized bed of the cabin you had to yourselves. He sighs in between kisses as he strips you off your wedding garbs. Youâre surprised heâs taking his time with you. Xiao has been eye-fucking you since you started walking down the aisle. It was so bad that even Beidou made a few off-hand remarks about the sexual tension during the reception.Â
âI was thinking,â you breathe as he grinds his hips against yours, âof getting another tattoo. My last one.âÂ
Xiao lifts his head for a moment, one brow arched. âYouâre married to a tattoo artist, and you think the tattoo youâre getting after the wedding is your last one? Youâre dreaming, princess.â
âFine. Point taken.â You roll your eyes. âBut anyway, I want a dragon tattoo riiiightâŚhere.â
Your husband watches with rapt attention as you guide his hand to the spot youâre talking aboutâjust below the collection of your favorite flowers inked above your waist is a blank stretch of skin. Xiaoâs lips twitch into a fond smile as his calloused fingers graze your flesh.
âStill against having showy tatts?â he asks before pressing a soft kiss on the spot you pointed at.Â
âMhmm. You see, my dad doesnât care if Iâm married and have my own life. If he sees that I have tattoos, heâs still going to murder me,â you chuckle. âSo yeah, tatts are staying under my clothes until he grows old enough and forgets that he hates seeing ink on other peopleâs skin.âÂ
âIâll keep that in mind then.â
When Xiao ravishes you for the first time as your husband, your chest overflows with love for him. Not everyone is lucky enough to have their best friends by their sides for as long as you did, yet you ended up tying the knot with yours. Although the entire process was more than twenty years in the making, you suppose thereâs no point in rushing anything.
After all, Xiao is as permanent in your life just as much as the ink stains on your body.
âLook,â you chuckle once Xiao is done cleaning up in the bathroom and settles down right next to you on the bed, âKaeya sent us a postcard. He says congrats on overcoming the emotional constipation.â
âThrow that thing away,â your husband grumbles, pulling you away from the pile of postcards on the nightstand. âWhy are you even keeping touch with him still?â
âSo I can use him as an excuse to get you jealous, and have you fuck me rough?â
âOh, princess. If you wanted it roughâŚâ he starts with a sigh, rolling his neck with a smirk. You gulp, wondering if youâve bitten off more than you can chew this time around.
âAll you had to do was ask.â
⢠end notes: it's been a while since i wrote for genshin, so i hope you liked it! thank you sm for reading ^^
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are you excited for the big role sammy's going to play in Cage?? im apprehensive... i love him a feral amount and i was real disappointed with his 2 seconds of screentime in BatDR
also just saying ur sammy drawings give me life he looks wonderful in hats
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Hehehe aw thank you!! :D
Thereâs a lot of things in Dark Revival I ended up disappointed about, but despite my love of Sammy Lawrence, Sammy barely appearing was not really one of them. At the time, Iâd commented to friends that the complete lack of Sammy mentions in the hype leading up to BatDR meant he was either very important or had only a cameo appearance, and I was actually pretty delighted about the Cyclebreaker cameo â itâs a moment that takes him startlingly seriously, that wasnât just him quoting one of his four catch phrases; itâs... a kind of moment we havenât seen from Sammy before. The part where he gets shot was like, where my expectations were, so the cyclebreaker thing was a pleasant surprise.
But like, ever since The Cage was announced⌠we knew Sammy kind of had to be in it. Like, Henry says âhow did WE escapeâ and itâs set in the SPECIFIC place and time that Sammy also is; literally the only reason for Sammy to not be a significant character is if the creators actually didnât want anything to do with him. So I have to admit the announcement that WE CAN CONFIRM that SAMMY WILL PLAY A MAJOR ROLE IN THE CAGE!!!!!!! RESTORED TO HIS CHAPTER 2 CREEPY GLORY! is justâŚâŚ ugh, itâs hard to articulate why this tweet frustrates me so much.
LikeâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚ.. "he's in it more" is not the only thing people care about, surely! What is he doing? What is his role in all this? What does he even WANT? In a review, "he's back to his chapter 2 creepy glory" would be a powerful recommendation; in a tweet from the creator right after preorders go up, it feels more like, "Hey, remember the thing you wanted? we DEFINITELY did that thing you wanted and we did it SUPER WELL so preorder our game please!!" Give us an intriguing line of dialogue or a hint about what he's doing (opposing you? helping you? uneasy truce? trying to find bendy?) and you wouldn't even need to promise us that he plays a major role; we'd be curious to learn more.
So this reassurance ends up doing the opposite, for me, because I still don't know if the creators even understand what I like about Sammy. The thing is that the circumstances of BatDR (there's a little Bendy running around, the Ink Demon is claimed dead but actually it's not, Wilson is trying to become the Lost Ones' new Big Brother) could've been INCREDIBLY relevant to Sammy -- that's why people wanted him to show up in BatDR, to see what he thinks of these developments and how he would react to them!! So if you're interested in Sammy, the character, then it would not be hard to hint at like, what his deal is â "Sammy knows the Ink Demon is out there somewhere and Henry is the key to finding him" or "after the disappearance of his Lord he's become a desperate man who's as much an obstacle as an ally" or even "Sammy was defiant when he went into the Pit -- what will Henry find when he encounters him now?" or w/e -- simply insisting HES LIKE HE WAS IN CHAPTER TWO, THE ONE YOU GUYS LIKE instead of being able to think of a single character-based hint that we might find compelling is, tbh, rather un-reassuring!!!
My complaint about Twisted Aliceâs role in BatDR was that ultimately, it felt like they were just trying to capture the vibes that Twisted Alice had in BatIM instead of really exploring what that character would be doing HERE, in THIS situation. Nothing sheâs doing really makes sense, and what IS there seems to have forgotten what her actual deal is, but sheâs doing it with the right flair, so it feels like sheâs in-character enough for the scene to be fun. Like an episodic cartoon that just forgets what happened in previous episodes depending on whoâs writing this one. So⌠I think thatâs a real risk for Sammy. For the people who just want him to show up and whisper cult-ish things so we can hear his voice more and go HEHEHE ITS HIM, this isnât really a concern lmao, that will probably happen. I donât have high hopes that heâll make sense as a character, but tbf I donât know that he ever has.
And IDK, its still early, its possible the cage will come out and I'll look up spoilers and be like OMG NM I LOVE WHAT THEY DID WITH HIM. A game that's supposed to be psychological horror could, in theory, be a really fun place for Sammy!! Maybe the people actually writing him will give him more care, haha. It's a little silly for me to be so worked up about the marketing for a game that I am not going to buy b/c Iâm still not interested in giving JDS, Inc. my money. AND YET DESPITE IT ALL I STILL⌠CARE ABOUT SAMMY LAWRENCE LMAOâŚ.. I think my main emotion about The Cage is just curiosity, though. I do want to know what they do with him. Iâm curious if heâll play a major part in the story, or if heâs like Henry or Porter in BatDR, with one big scene where he gets a bunch of lines and then runs off. A lot of people really want to see Henry and Sammy team up in this, but Iâm not writing off the possibility heâs an antagonist of some kind, so Iâm curious which way thatâll go. But I donât feel like I have any strong expectations, so I guess weâll see!
#sammy lawrence#i know you have questions you always do#bendy saltposting#finally makes a tag so u can mute me being salty abt the franchise if ur not here for that!!
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helloo i was wondering if u have any tips on how to start learning how to draw?? iâm gonna try it for the nth time and force myself to not give up and since i absolutely LOVE ur art i was hoping you could help me?? thank you in advance and have a happy new year đĽ°
omggg i just saw this :O!! i havent been around here so i didnt see :C but anyway!!! im not sure what advice or tips to give tbh so ill just share some things that helped me đ
knowing what im drawing (basically...using reference lol ) u might've seen this tip a lot but its true đ think of it as like... training wheels on a bike AHSAHSAHHA u use training wheels for some time until u can be good enough to ride a bike without them or something like that.... its the same with using reference. u have to know and get familiar with what an object looks like first before you're able to draw without it and with confidence. tbh i dont always do this bcos sometimes i just wanna mindlessly draw ykno đ and thats okay as well!!! just remember that reference is very helpful when u hit a dead end with ur artwork :D also learn from real life!! look around u! sometimes id stare at something and nod in understanding. ----------------------------------
draw what u love <33 honestly, i only got back into drawing when i went down the vtuber hole a few years ago LMAO i would draw vox akuma eveyday đââď¸ and then my love for one piece got revived so now i draw my favorite characters every chance i can get bcos its all i can think abt!!! its honestly a good motivator. ----------------------------------
accepting and learning from mistakes ive always struggled with perfectionism and that really took my enjoyment and love for creating𼚠and that also stopped me from experimenting and exploring coz id always think that it wont come out as i hoped it would. SOOOO for the past 2-3 years i think?? i make it a habit to STOP â being super critical when i see or make a mistake. the perspective is wrong? noted. the anatomy looks wonky? okay!! i let them exist in my artworks bcos how would i even know where to improve in if i dont know what it is đ
i also make sure to keep those errors in mind so i know what areas i should be working on. u can always correct them on ur next work!! and the next!! again and again!!! its never-ending! ure always improving, always learning. ---------------------------------
i also have a board of artworks and styles that i really really like and i look at them when i need inspiration hahaha sometimes u just have to scroll thru pinterest for hours and draw nothing lol
personally, i think one doesnt have to draw everyday to be good. i mean, you can if u want to! but u might burn out fast if u force urself to draw everyday. just.. pace yourself. remember to rest and be good to yourself as well :))
thats all i can think of right now. i feel like i could share more but im just not good with words or explaining things. forgive me đđ our experiences may differ and what helped me may not be of use to u,,, but i hope this can help u even juuuuust a bit :"D be proud of every piece u make. u worked hard on it after all <33
(also sharing my art throughout the years!)
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how do you handle friendships changing? not being able to talk to the people you could talk to before? looking at text threads with your friends and they havent been updated in months? how do you know if itâs over? sorry if this is out of the blue, i just have no one else to ask and iâve always thought of your blog as a kind of older sister presence :â) thank you for answering this yaz
hi hi hi! đŚ˘Â hmm⌠i think first of all itâs important to remember that things are not always as cut-and-dry as u feel they areâthere are lots of cases in which a friendship can be revived and shaped into something different from what it was before but still beautiful and important. reaching out can be mortifying when conversation has stilled for months but if you know an old friendâs in town and you havenât spoken in forever but you miss them and want to hang out you really can just tell them so. sometimes they respond & tell you they miss you too & then you have the chance to turn a friendship youâve both outgrown into something that better suits the needs of the people you are now! i recently reconnected with my elementary school best friends & though we donât share the same easy, effortless, consistent bond we did when we were small children once upon a time, we make sure to grab coffee together whenever weâre all back in our hometown and catch up on whatever weâve been up the last six months and itâs actually really nice and was so worth the process of reaching out. it is kind of awesome to see how theyâve stayed exactly the same & how theyâre come into their own.
if you do end up trying this & donât find that your friend is receptive to it or willing to put in the same effort, or if things ended on negative terms & you feel one party or the other was wronged in a way thatâs not possible to come back from, or if youâre not really feeling it for whatever reason, then maybe it really is over & it really is best to try letting goâwhich is easier said than done of course. but it is always a worthwhile task to grieve a friendship that meant something to you⌠even if sometimes the grief lingers longer than it does for others and even if there are some friendships you never really âget overâ in the sense that thinking back on them leaves you with a dull ache for years to come. but i try to keep in mind that the fact that a friend is no longer in my life for one reason or the other doesnât undo the ways in which we touched each otherâs lives or were important to each other when it most mattered. as long as you are alive people will not stop entering and then leaving your life, so i feel like the best thing you can do in the wake of any relationship is honor that you had that time together and cherish the people you once were, allow yourself to think on old memories fondly when it feels right and when youâre no longer waterlogged with longing, and then return to the work of tending to your current relationships and to the person you are growing into day by day, reassured in the knowledge that you will always contain imperceptible but very real traces of those who once loved you and who were once loved by you in return.
i am wishing you well! i hope your life is always filled with the most wonderful friendsâboth old & new đ
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A bit of a hot take; I hope if Frida gets introduced properly with an official name, it will be something other than Frida?
(omg this rant became so long please read it tho iâm going insane)
I hope so because I feel like it would characterize her life (assumably) being raised by Big Mama a bit more, since her design tastes as we see through her hotelâs decor leans a lot towards old money art deco motifs combined with gothic architecture. I feel like Frida Kahloâs primitivism and surrealism would be a bit out of character? Or at least a missed opportunity for some characterization.
(Okay maybe itâs not quite gothic but idc, let me speak-)
See here all the difference between Big Mamaâs taste and Frida Kahloâs paintings, Iâm not saying she wouldnât like her work, I just think that if Big Mama designs all her estates with such a clear creative vision & what seems to be her own personal tastes (*cough cough* old money ass fashion sense *cough cough*) I feel like sheâd be more knowledgeable and/or more partial to a different area of the art world for Kahlo to be enough of her favorite to name her personal assistant/maybe I hope surrogate daughter after her?
I like to think if Big Mama named her after some artists she personally liked, I think she might lean more towards artists from the art deco scene like Tamara de Lempicka, or Sonia Delaunay.
Or maybe gothic architects could give her a name truer to the hidden city and battle nexus architecture that sheâdâve been surrounded by her whole life. All those gargoyles and sprawling jagged designs once you push past the illusion of Big Mamaâs normal hotel front make such a dichotomy! Julia Morgan (the lady who designed Californiaâs Hearst Castle which, âmixes Spanish Colonial, Gothic, Neo-Classical and Mediterranean Revival style all in one property.â I think that would be such a good combination of styles to reference with Big Mamaâs choice on what to name this person omg) and Odile Decq are such pretty names!!
I love Odile Decqâs personal style and work on one particular building sm, the Phantom Restaurant of the Garnier Opera.
LIKE OMG THAT JUST SCREEAAAMMMS BIG MAMA, she would absolutely name a girl after the lady whoâd design that and you cannot convince me otherwise. And Odile would fit in with âMichelangelo, Leonardo, Donatello and Raphaelâ so well omg. And look at this woman, look at her style, she NEEDS a ninja turtle named after her omg.
And finally, a bit controversial but I never really liked the name Frida in the first place?
Donât get me wrong, her work is legendarily meaningful and skillful. Itâs just that in recent years, sheâs been packaged and sold as this âgirlboss feminist icon�� because of her suffering, and because of that, her image in pop culture has kind of been watered down to the point where it feels like if they were to name her Frida, iâd think like, all the thought that went into it would be, âokay sheâs a girl, what girl painters do we know?â Which (although well intentioned-) kinda feels like reverting back to stereotyping her as âthe girl oneâ even though thatâs what they were trying to avoid by not naming her Venus? If that makes sense? So Iâm glad her name isnât concrete yet lol.
And OMG I WANT HER NAME TO BE ODILE SO BAD NOW YOU DONT EVEN KNOWđâ¨đâźď¸â¨ I only found her work literally as I was typing this but I just love that building and how much Big Mama would absolutely love that building, she needs to be named Odile, look at her face, thatâs an Odile face <3
Michelangelo, Donatello, Leonardo, Raphael, and Odile, (and maybe Kirby? :D) i love itt
#tmnt#tmnt 40th anniversary#rottmnt#rottmnt frida#disscussion#rottmnt lost sister#the app lost almost all of what i wrote when i was literally almost done it nearly killed me#rottmnt textposting#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the tmnt#tmnt 5th turtle#aaaaaaaaaaaa
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Hey I'm an old tubbling (dsmp days) that hasn't been really keeping up with the qsmp but knows some of tubbo's lore. What's all this about a revived tubbo? If you don't mind explaining of course.
Hiii anon!! As you hopefully remember tubbo does a lot of subtle lore so the only way to understand the revival is if u get some conext before that. Sorry if it gets just a little bit rambley
I will do my best to explain but for some background ever since maybe purgatory 1 qtubbo has been spiraling. Then he got sunny and genuinely tried to be good for her. And he was!! Hes a great dad to sunny but qtubbo is very mentally ill.
Then he got kidnapped for purgatory 2 and came back significantly worse. He became very passively suicidal, like he didn't outwardly say he wanted out, but from his actions you wouldn't know any better. At least from chats pov. Like he would jump off the top of tubchunk and get downed and sunny would be forced to revive him. "Accidentally" falling off the wall when hanging with phil. Going against the eye workers and just not caring how many times he died. It was pretty bad.
He started feeling like all his friends didn't really care for him and only wanted to use him for the factories he made and the supplies he had created. Then fit and pac got together and again he got significantly worse. So because the relationship that is morning crew changed even tho they claimed it wouldn't. Tubbo started actively pushing people away. Like he would purposely be suppppper fucking annoying and loud and abrasive. It was like he was testing who would stay with him even if he was being a dick. And basically no one passed really. Like even sunny would constantly go to fit or pac or bagi. Saying she doesnt know how to help her dad, he needs help, plz help him. And they would all respond in some variation of "aaahhh its just tubbo!!! Hes fine. Hes just being dramatic." Or assume its about fred.
On top of that because of tubbos mental stability. He couldn't really help Sunny's with her feelings and mental stability.
And I wanna mention all the eggs could see him rotting away and they would mention it too their parents, but they were like "well keep an eye on him" but didn't exactly do much. At least from tubbos pov
But moving on to the new island/spawn point.
For the most part he didn't really interact with morning crew at first. He was with foolish and the town of fobo and he was so fucking happy!!!! It was awesome!! Like even sunny was so excited that tubbo was happy again. Foolish and town of fobo was a new start for him and he felt appreciated. But everything changed when create was put behind a pay wall (I love atla lmao)
So foolish got to get to work on town of fobo projects but tubbo was feeling extremely useless. He couldn't participate in the only way he knew how. create.
He felt useless without a purpose, and was trying hard to get the money for create. He had his high with the beginning of town of fobo but this new create playwall would be the star of a new low. He was once again actively rotting in front of his friends especially his daughter and only she and a few eggs really noticed. His friends would laugh and giggle that hes being dramatic. He was rotting away again in real time. Faster than before really. Tubbo was lacking purpose, he was useless in his eyes and started looking for a purpose, a reason to keep living.
How did he find that you're wondering??? By getting two lives. So one day we had a bunch of the eggos with him. One being empanada and he brought up the fact she's the only egg with one life. How that sucks and if he could he would give a life up for her. Empanada of course refuses. But he keeps going and was like "oh you know what would be really cool..... Only having 2 lives and if I die I don't come back for good." *stares at chayanne*
Empanada is refusing and hes like "naaahh it would be really fun and cool tho." She even tries to get him to stop by bringing up sunny. And he stops for a millisecond and says something like "sure she wouldn't like that too much but I'll be fine" so now he's on two lives.
The thing is tubbo was not hiding this information, like he brought it up all the time. "I have to be careful I only have 2 lives" then he lost one. "I only got one life then I'm dead dead." Feb 13 he almost lost it due to radiation (he will never escape the nuke aesthetic lol) and the next day valentines day he dies.
And I have to make it very clear tubbo keeps telling everyone hes working on one life. He only has one life. Hes doing hardcore. Everyone thought he was joking. So on valentines he went out with a group consisting of sunny, fit, ramon, phil, chayanne, chunsik, and richarlyson. They wanted to compete a dungeon together and tubbo was down for it.
Tubbo ended up making a beat with richarlyson that he ended up losing. Richas killed him, qtubbo ended up dying begging for fit to help him but he died anyway. But it wasn't like last time he didn't come back. Fit basically left immediately sunny was left just standing over her dads body in shock. Chayanne also thought he was joking this whole time but unfortunately learned that he was being serious. And phil was there to just laughing saying tubbos being dramatic lol. No one took his death seriously, like they were all joking and laughing in front of his daughter saying he was having a tantrum and would be back when create is back. The only other person who understood sunny was chayanne.
People only started takeing his death kinda seriously was after creation showed up. The eggs did at least
Now creation is a robot that a ~version of~ qtubbo made to protect the eggs. More importantly protect sunny. Especially in the event that "primary protector" aka tubbo is gone. So late during the valentines stream on phils end, creation shows up confirming that qtubbo is dead dead and hes not coming back unless creation has the proper data. His purpose. The only way to get tubbo back is to bring him back with his purpose
And now I can finally talk about this weeks streams. Creation comes and we are shown the message that was left for sunny. Saying he doesn't know how he got himself into this, and how sunny shouldnt have to hear this message. How he expects any of the adults there to care for her. He knows he hasn't been a good example of self care. But he explains that he will have no idea that he left the message, he will have no idea that the message will even exist. There's only 2 people that can show u this message, and he promises that he will make sure she will never see either of their faces. He apologizes and explains that he never expected to have to take care of anyone else. Goes on to say if he had known he was going to care for someone else he would have never signed up for this kind of "scheme" or "operation." We don't exactly know what hes talking about tho.
He again emphasizes that the friends that we have will take care of her. And how he refuses to believe that they would let anything happen to her. And tells her to keep going and have fun in life because she's just a kid. Then we were cut back to creation who finds sunny saying he needs to find people to help bring him back. They end up with a group consisting of bagi, sunny, empanada, and chayanne and they work together to get what creation needs to bring back tubbo. Its old smooth stone, form a mod, thats before the rest of the islands time. The old order creation stated. And eventually find a secret room in town of fobo, that bagi decodes a book to get the data needed to bring tubbo back. Builds a contraption and creation dies but tubbo is alive again!!!
Then we have the next stream and tubbo is back,,, but he's different-
he comes out of lava and only remembers dying and he thinks he's been gone a day at best. He learns that only fit helped sunny. He doesn't want to believe, but its mostly true. But oddly enough he plans to murder people cuz how dare people not take care of her. Hes more aggressive, he keeps making threats of murder and only sunny is safe it seems. Hes massively holding grudges as well.
they woke chayanne up and hes basically jumping on him and yelling lmao. Claims chay doesnt care cuz he didn't wake up immediately and isn't happy hes back. And like chatters know chay was genually fuck up after losing tubbo. But dude is s c r e a m i n g at sleeping chay.
Chay wakes up, they go outside and end up talking, learned he was gone a week but hes very loud not understanding the vibes of 2 depressed children who missed him very much. He keeps trying to speak but the windchimes are pissing him the fuck off to the point he rips them down. Noises in general is really pissing him off, like things that normally would be really quiet like fire places and the motor boats he gets really angry cuz he claims its really loud.
Just overall being a Menace. Like Chayanne apologized for hitting him and Tubbo was like "oh it's okay it's okay I understand but I will simply take note of that and you'll never know when I'll Strike Back." So he's threatening even the eggs even If he is joking. Qtubbo never use to do that, some.of the eggs ruined his farm and it sent him into a tirade of just talking about how things build up and up and up how they turn into large cracks in the wall and eventually the wall will break. But as he's doing this he practically yelling but aggressively. Also threatened chat saying he can prove how scary he can be lmao.
And was constantly asking people who they think the worse parent of the island is. Sunny and chay were just tryna see where he is mentally. But hes like cornering chay "DONT I LOOK FINE, IM ALL GOOD, WHATS WRONG???"
In other words hes very angry???
Fit was just existing and man's dogged on him "what you think you're so much better than me with your spit shine bald head of yours" and anytime any of the group would try and talk away from him hes just "ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT ME???" "WHATS HAPPENING, IS THIS ABOUT ME"
Oh and he keeps mentioning the little time people have left.
Like I said some of the eggs ruined Sunny and Leo's farm and he starts off calmish??? But just gets angrier or aggressive is a better term?. Planning to just stand over richas's bed and stare at him. Hes giving arg kinda need to draw that ngl.
He gets mad that the lil group of fit, chay, Sunny, and ramon for fixing the farm that the other eggs destroyed. And fit is trying to like convince him that it's okay like they're just kids it's a mistake. And fit is like it isnt your house so it's okay and tubbo is like "fit I think you're undermining my feelings how is that okay." And fit is just like "oh but it's just like a little thing so it's no worries." And this is how tubbo goes on his "chips and cracks in the walls monologue" that sums up his character perfectly.
Soooo yeeeaaaahhh revived tubbo something else
#qsmp tubbo#yes I could have constricted what I said more but I feel like that be really hard considering how tubbo presents lore#for me at least#qsmp creation#tubbo#imagine ctubbo's passive suicidel idiation but way worse#tw self destructive behavior#tw sui ideation#tw death#i know theres words wrong here and i can only fix so much#took me forever to write these i just feel like theirs so much context needed#this took me a hot minute to write#it's my magnum opus#asks#i wrote all of this and still feel like i didnt really asker the question
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Gently leaves this on the ground and runs đââď¸
#tomas ortega#tomarcus#the exorcist#i need sleep#I'm making marcus next dw#trying to revive u lot to life#with pretty drawings#they won't be in coloir cause thats a bit too advances for me#yh
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really sweet post from ur fave guy ever who disappeared for two years âŹď¸
the thing is. i will never be cody 2020-2022 again. and that sucks cause id honestly love to experience everything from those 2 years again (expect for the shit parts) but i can't. and cody (20-22) isn't me anymore cause surprisingly u change a lot in 2 years like some very impactful life events happened such as: completing my gcses and leaving high school. my nana dying (1yr anniversaryin 5 days). applying to university and getting all my offers. etc. my interests have all obviously changed a bit like i *liked* tl/oz but now i *love* tl/oz. i got really into tl-ou and yellow-jackets etc etc
im not perfectly content w who i am now that's just not a thing in my blood. i am generally a person who is never happy w themselves and ive always thought that there's ways for me to change and be different and more palatable for other people (important life event: im assessed for autism). i am a guy who is generally stuck in the past while also looking to the future and hoping its better and i have to live with that (im starting to accept it). im also generally embarrassed that people can see and interact with me and can form their own interpretation on me. and i am slowly learning i cannot control that cause not being me is BAD. and it makes me feel BAD. and it's okay that i have cringey interests so whatttt who fucking cares cringe culture is officially dead cause i say so.
the d/smp is incredibly important to me. it's insane that they decanonised the nuke ending n that me n ctom are generally on the same path of 'Getting there' r.e being happy. and i don't want to give that up anymore. so what that 1 of my fave characters of all time is ctub. im allowed that no one's going to kill me for it. and if they do im sure it'll have been motivated by something else. (quite literally had an au/still have an au based upon mostly c!b w the lovely grape t_hq but that was all disc. based and we also made a bunch of ocs so it was less an au more of an ocverse that we stole the characters from - all that to say I DID STILL LIKE THE CHARACTERS. I WAS JUST SCARED AND DID IT IN PRIVATE AND TRIED TO DENY IT TO MYSELF x)
i also js thought it'd be sweet to like. revisit this blog (i was planning to revive an old blog but not this 1) cause im doing a full rewatch im on day 5/6(tubs pov) which were days i wasn't actually around for i joined abt a month later lol. but idk. yeah. i am Getting There it's hard work and im not actually very good at it but id like to not worry abt what other people think of me. which is difficult while im still trying to figure shit out vis a vi my general identity. but i know i miss lmanberg like a mf
(general extra disclaimers: i don't support abusers i don't like ccwil or support lovejoy or drm but if u thought i liked that green fuck then wth :( askme abt my au if u feel inclined i am gonna post abt anything that takes my fancy which actually doesn't change much now that i think abt it and if uve read all of this um here's some pictures of my kitty to make up for all the rambling YESmychristmas tree is up. sorry i think it's been up since setempber)
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HIII I JUST WANTED TO SAY I LOVED UR UNREQUITED LOVE FICS I ATE THOSE UP SO GOOD
this isnt a request btw just some food for thought but how do u think chuuya and yasuko would react if reader came back but they werent exactly. themselves yk? like they got revived but almost like a sentient doll with no memories of the past? do you think they would leave the reader alone or would they try to reconnect with the reader ? again this isnt a request im just curious because sometimes my daydreams take a sudden turn !!! :D
HIII ANON AJSSHHSH AND I LOVE YOU FOR MAKING MY DAY BETTER đĽşđĽşđ
And oooh... actually, I have already been thinking about making a bonus part similiar to your idea :) I just haven't had the time and creativeness to write it recently since school is keeping me very busyđ
BUT in response to your question, I think Chuuya might initially keep his distance from the reader first. Partly because he blames himself for their death because he didn't finish his mission sooner, and also partly because he doesn't want to lose them again. It hurts him a lot, but he convinces himself that it's the best decision to make to keep reader safe. However, I can see him secretly keeping a close eye on them so that if they were in danger, he could save them this time and not make the same mistake twice (Chuuya honey it wasn't your fault ajshahs đ)
Then after bumping into him a few times, you wonder sometimes; why does this ginger-haired man seem so achingly familiar? And why did you feel this pain in your heart whenever you looked at him? Almost as if... he was a past lover you never got to be together with. But you shrug it off; there was no way you could've known such a handsome and rich man in your life, because if you did, you'd be sure to remember him for eternity ashajhhasj
Whilst Yasuko would feel immensely guilty upon seeing you. Even as you tilt your head to innocently inquire what was wrong, she can't bring herself to articulate all the shame, sorrow, and remorse that she felt ever since the day you died. I can see her accidentally forming a sort-of friendship with your revived self, but also keeping you at an arm's length because she thinks that she doesn't deserve to even call you as her friend. Half of her wants to atone for the wrongdoings she committed against you in the past, but the other half wants her to suffer with your unawareness because it's all her fault that you were gone. However, I can totally see her trying to get you and Chuuya together in this life đ wingwoman Yasuko for the win
Anyways, I can see both of them keeping their distance while also trying to rekindle those pleasant memories with you. But sooner or later, you'll come to question why they treated you differently from the rest of their friends. And when you confront them about it, maybe then you'll finally learn the painful truth as it all pours out of Yasuko's lips. What you do afterwards is all up to you.
WHEWW sorry for making that kinda angsty :') but hey, at least reader has a chance with Chuuya now. Just that they'll have to break down all those walls he has formed around himself, and finally win his heart that their past self never got the chance to hold. While Yasuko, Dazai, and the PM will be wingmanning the entire way.
I hope this was able to answer your question anon! :D
#silverbladexyz#bsd x reader#bungou stray dogs x reader#chuuya x reader#chuuya nakahara x reader#bsd x gender neutral reader#unrequited love fic#angsty but happy ending?#hope you guys liked this hehe#ask#lovely anon
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hey so I have literally no idea what Ride The Cyclone is all I know is that itâs a musical Iâm pretty sure?? anyways, you like it and Iâm very curious, so what is it about?
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ASKING!!! OKAY SO Ride the Cyclone is a musical about a dead choir who sings for a new chance to live. IT SOUNDS DUMB BUT ITS PRETTY GOOD I PROMISE đ there's 6 main characters and one of them is a misterious member of the cyclone accident (THE CYCLONE IS A ROLLER COASTER AND THEY DIED ON IT BTW) whose name is Jane Doe since her body was not identified (she has a very popular song called The Ballad Of Jane Doe !!!). the other members are
Ocean, the most succesful girl in town
Noel, the most romantic boy in town
Mischa, the angriest boy in town
Ricky, the most imaginative boy in town (HE'S MY PERSONAL FAVORITE & ALSO MY PFP!!!)
Jane Doe, the unidentified body of the cyclone accident
and Constance, the nicest girl in town
there's also 2 additional characters, Karnak, a fortuneteller machine who has the power of revive one of the members (that's why they sing for their lifes basically lol) & Virgil, a rat that plays the bass
THERE'S A LOT OF VERSIONS AND MANY PEOPLE HAVE THEIR OWN DESIGNS OF THE CHARACTER BUT my personal favorite is the most popular version (2016 cast with Alex Wyse & Gus Halper) !!!
IF U LIKE MUSICALS YOU COULD GIVE IT A TRY!!! its pretty short (like 1 hour and 30 minutes i think???) and simple đ
AGAIN THANK U SM FOR ASKING, RTC was my hyperfixation for all 2023 and I lowkey still love it HEHEH
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hi can you tell something abt your sandstorm aus? :3
heyeyeheyey i can try !! most stuff is in my head so its kindw hard for me to put in uh words ?? anywqysw, not rlly sure what to swy so have some silly stuff
for my main au take some silly hcs, i have a strong hc that morro is lactose intolerant, and for me cole is a good cooker, so like, everytime zane idk forgets that they have 3 lactose intolerants at the monastery(the others being lloyd and sora) and does smth that morro cant eat, cole goes there and cooks smth for him !! after morro revived post dotd, cole was willing to help him with changing to the better and brought morro a cat for him to take care of(not sandstorm but i think its important to mention that my kai is allergic to cats
in my brazillian ninjago au, its kinda funny the lore of how they met, because like, they were in a footbal stadium watching a corinthians x flamengo game, and like, cole cheers for corinthians and morro for flamengo . THEY WERE BASICALLY ENEMIES HERE . but anyways things happened cole went to get a water and saw morro standing there with his flamengo shirt and thats how they both met and started hating eachother, basically a enemies to lovers but instead its a "MY CRUSH IS FLAMENGUISTA:(( *cries"
i dont know what silly fact to share about my pirate au sandstorm but they met after cole was yeeted into the ocean by chen, he managed to reach the shore and there he found rumis ship all destroyed and shit and morro(he was like. one of rumis generals btw) was there with a fucking stab wound and cole was like "i think i should help this guy ." things happened and later they found out that by helping eachother, they were helping the enemy because rumi was sided with chen
in an unnamed au, they met during childhood(before morro meeting wu and bla bla bla) like 1 year after lillys death ig ? not going into full details because i am lazy to ... for short, morro started living with cole for a while because he was homeless and bla bla bla cole felt bad, a while after cole ran away with morro and both were found by wu, this au is pretty angsty because just like wu, cole also suffered A LOT when morro left andddd he only found out later he ended up having a crush on morro
not rlly an au, just a concept for like. a time looping au? where either cole or morro are destined to smth(also they wont date on this au, it will be basically one sided !!) and the other one knows about it so they made a deal with an entity to have a second chance to save the others life, everytime the other dies, the loop will repeat . anyways, this au is highly inspired by witchs heart btw(a game !!)
i was going to tell stuff about my cole, morro nya villain trio au and cultist cole au aswell but ... i am lazy to jwfkjwqjkfqwjkf and i think u meant like . little silly things . sorryđđ
also, thank u for thwha ask!!!!! i love twlking about my aus<3
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