#trying to reclaim my muchness

[smokeandallure]

[gremlingirlsmell]

i thinkt the core issue is that femboy is effectively a transmisogynistic slur, it absolved trap as a more socially acdepted alternative, and it is similarly constructed to other transmisogynistic slurs like shemale. it's a degrading third-gendering term

that means most people using it, will use it as such. most people claiming to be attracted to "femboys" or calling people femboys, who don't self-identify as such, are fetishizing transfeminized bodies.

and the people using it as a self-identifier, can use it in a fetishizing way, or in a reclaiming it as a tma person way. and there's a lot of the first that are just transmisogynists, and a lot that are just eggs, and of course some overlap

[starflungwaddledee]

Starstruck! Wher are you now? How is the tourney journey going thus far?

we all lost track of time a little there. -several months worth of propaganda making time. thanks for checking in! it looks like her tourney journey will continue after a little nap! << prev || [masterpost] || next >>

[team5ds]

the worst part is i can't even say he's wrong. they certainly did figure out how to contribute the city by joining the wrgp. but like. this is one of those things where it literally does not make sense. this is insane levels of logic. "we're not sure how to contribute to the city. we think entering a magic the gathering tournament will help." like. imagine saying that fr when your parents ask what you're going to do after you graduate college. "idk. thought i'd play card games and figure it out, man"

[muzsmocsing]

Fantastic botanical body horror? In MY crackhead danmei? More likely than you think!

[lxghtofthephoenixx]

As someone who acknowledges that it looks like an edgy teen caricature, certain antis try so hard to be offensive. Try again, calling people the r-slur doesn't make you cool or offensive in a way that counts. You're literally just going to be reported and blocked because you're too uninteresting to engage with.

[seaweedstarshine]

Sometimes I think of Amy Pond, who grew up being called mad by those who wielded the word as a tool of exclusion and shame —

Amy Pond, who though forced into the hands of four psychiatrists, still clung to that which they called madness until those systems which elevate psychosocial conformity above humanity stripped it from her —

Amy Pond, whose imaginary friend reappeared for a single hour after twelve years and reignited that faith before disappearing for two more years —

Amy Pond, who spent those those two years under the same implicit threat ingrained in her through psychiatric violence, and thus began to believe the man who stopped the invasion was “just a madman with a box,” only for him to agree, and to also call her “mad, impossible Amy Pond,” reframing madness as non-negative for the first time in her life —

Amy Pond, who ignored the disembodied voice of her imaginary friend even as she ran away with him for real, who still lived each day with the traumatic internalization of deviancy dictated upon her by the psychiatric-industrial complex that shaped her from childhood —

Amy Pond, who wouldn't acknowledge the Doctor's voice, such that it took an Angel in her eye that was literally killing her to ensure she couldn't reality check herself —

Amy Pond, who stood before a room which muttered about “the psychiatrists we brought her to,” and though afraid, escaped their rigid parameters of acceptable existence.

[nerdy-nonbinary]

Thinking about Inu-Oh… thinking about how Inu-Oh was ostracized from society from the moment he was born and made a game out of his ostracization but was at his happiest when he found acceptance in Tomoari…thinking about how Tomoari had a system in society which accepted him as a blind person but had no desire to remain in that system…thinking about how Inu-Oh only received “full” acceptance (safety from the emperor) when he disowned Tomoari and their work, and made that choice not because he cared about acceptance but because he wanted to save Tomoari’s life…thinking about how Tomoari refused to give up his creativity and was killed for it… thinking about how institutions in power don’t care whether marginalized people fight the system or succumb to it, we are all torn apart and our works forgotten in the end…

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

every time i see someone claim the ancients were a magical indigenous utopia to aspire to (with 'a few little problems'), and any criticism of them as a society is apologia for native genocide, i clutch my head in agony. never change, twitter

[sunsetforestzone]

its like, hard for me to fully understand what my feminine identity is linked to. ive seen a lot of trans guys say that its their way of reclaiming their old self before transitioning, but it's not really that way for me.

my old self (pre-transition) was NOT like this. i wasnt this hyperfem when i was a lesbian girl. in fact i was the fully opposite. i was more of a baby butch/tomboy than anything

but then, transitioning into a man changed the way i felt about femininity. i'm still trying to figure out why but i might've discovered it (sort of)

i didn't just transition into a man. when i discovered im a fully binary trans man, i also discovered im pansexual. meaning: i didnt just transition into a man, i transitioned into a queer man.

and i feel like... a big part of being a queer man is having a unique relationship with both masculinity and femininity. i know there's queer men that are still masculine, but i know that a lot of them are also feminine.

i think that's where my femininity comes from, maybe. transitioning into a queer man makes it so my relationship with being fem suddenly becomes linked to my sexuality and general queerness, not my gender. like i said, i wasnt like this as a girl.

simply put: im masculine because im a man, and im feminine because im queer.

[toytulini]

you know whats more annoying than dems calling vance and trump weird is all the condescending posts justifying it actually. like im a bit annoyed about "weird" being used this way but also like man if it fucking works i guess

but do i have to keep seeing daily posts exhaustively justifying how normie midwesterners use weird different or whatever the fuck man just shut up and call them weird then, stop justifying it to me

[patron-saint-of-emesis]

todays concepts to grapple with are “accept Done over Perfect” and also “change is an inevitable constant”, both are very good sentiments that will better my life when i accept them, but it also means not restarting my crochet project and to stop staring at my face so hard in the mirror, and ima be real both of those r suck

[fagdykevash]

i love being a chubby tranny faggot yippee wahoo horrayy yay!!!!!!!!

[mishkakagehishka]

Every time i notice the fucked up ratio between male-female subjects of ryona and eroguro i think to myself "i have to do my part"

[ollierachnid]

'z*ppertits' being used as a derogatory term towards people who've had top surgery is so funny bc you could've picked something less appealing to the large group of people who revel in being called frankenmen and faggots

[dragongirl-casca]

Yoooooo I actually feel like I ate too much!!!

This sounds weird but this is HUGE for me. I've been taking Mirtazapine for depression and anxiety and it had played havoc with my appetite, to the point that every evening I would eat a bag of chips and an apple and a bowl of rice and still feel hungry. I think I gained like 20, 25 pounds since starting it.

Recently I stopped it (after doctor visit) and I feel just as good mentally as before. But I can trust my body again with food!!!! YES YES YES