#trust me bros she has a LOT of lore

[asmrbrainrot]

So I noticed my recent fic, The Gator Boys & The Moon Witch, was getting a bit of attention. (Wow, you post stuff and people see it? That’s crazy!)

I was considering doing a character blurb on Esther (my oc the fic is centered around), but I didn’t wanna get into too many spoilers~

So as of now the ask box is open to questions about Esther! (Or any of my OCs really:)

[kaeyachi]

So...I finished the Arlecchino story quest...

Spoilers below!

TW: Mentions of Suicide, Child Experimentation, Child Abuse, and Murder/Death

This is, by far, the best story quest I have ever done!

First of all, CHILDE?! CHILDE ESCAPING HIS PERSONAL AMBULANCE TO SNEZHNAYA JUST TO COME BACK TO FONTAINE TO ASK SKIRK A QUESTION? Bro is so funny, please-

please save him.

Wait, actually, yeah please do save him. Pulcinella and Pantalone are both plotting in the background, and they got Childe involved...

I also loved the children! Look at how terrifying they are! They're my absolute faves!!

Lyney cementing the reason as to why Arlecchino chose him as the next King is wonderful to see as well. For some time, I thought Freminet and Lynette had a shot, even with reading their lore. What I have failed to realize is that Lyney really is the inspiration for all of the people in the House of the Hearth. His frustrated and disappointed spiel about Freminet not trusting him with Clervie struck me to the heart. This is an older brother at work here people!

Also if I had a nickel every time a cryo younger brother hid a dangerous secret from his pyro older brother which got them into an argument once the truth came out, I'd have 2 nickels ✌️ (somehow gave me war flashbacks to a scene that doesn't even exist lmao)

LYNETTE IS THE FUNNIEST SIBLING BTW. SHE'S MY QUEEN FOR THIS.

Clervie! Our dearest! I'm not fully sure what part in her design did it, but she barely looks like an NPC somehow. Like, yes, this is still an NPC base model, but... is it perhaps the hair? And the extra lashes??

Also, her calling Arlecchino "Perrie" made me sob. I wasn't ready to hear nicknames!!

The mention of Snezhnayan auroras also made me sob again as well. You know what? This entire thing made me sob.

Clervie's dread and horror at the thought of her own mother, her unrelenting spirit that kept her going in her fight for her fellow peers freedom despite the abuse that she will receive, and her unfulfilled dreams repeatedly being mentioned throughout this quest was heartbreaking.

I do have to say- the animations they released for Arlecchino helped a lot with the emotions we are supposed to feel for this quest. Not only was that good Advertising and promotion for the Arlecchino banner, it also set up the plot that would have not been well presented ingame had they chose to do that instead.

Crucabena and Clervie part of this quest were not the only ones mentioned in this quest, but also that damn dude that she killed with her heels! I personally like the way they released all those animations because the quest feels more emotional and alive now, and we could follow with the story better than before (and it effectively increased the hype)

Speaking of more alive, the facial expressions have definitely improved! This quest had them utilizing various expressions well, specifically for the playable characters, so, again, this really helped with the feel of the quest.

Additionally, adding a picture to scenes also set the tone really well. It's not that pictures have never been included in quests before, but the way these were framed(?) made it look way better than the ones before.

By the way...is it just me? Or did Paimon's voice somewhat mellow out for this quest? I had recently played some other story and world quests, and Paimon's EN voice is admittedly high-pitched and painful to hear in those, but for this quest, it's as if her voice was toned down (like Mondstadt Paimon, but with current Paimon energy). I'm hoping this was them taking the criticism from past and adjusting their instructions to Paimon's VA accordingly, because I loved Paimon's voice in this quest (that or I'm delulu)

Quick lore tidbits before I go back to gushing about this quest:

1. Arlecchino confirmed not from Fontaine (like I legit thought she may be Khaenri'ahn due to the blood moon thing she has going for her, but it's nice to confirm her non-Fontainian status)

2. Crucabena was the one who had a deal with Dottore on sending members of the HotH to him for experimentation. Anyone who was physically impaired or left alive after a duel to death are automatically sent to him. Clervie has described this as a fate worse than death... Peruere rejected Dottore's partnership offer once she became the next knave. Also, Crucabena used Clervie as an "example" for those who wish to escape, meaning Clervie received the most abuse (which apparently worsened as the years went by). Clervie lost hope sometime along the way and was basically suicidal as well by the time she and Arlecchino had their duel... Her mindset by that time is that the only hope for freedom to her is death. The popular theory of Clervie letting Arlecchino kill her is proven in a horrifying way with this discovery... (yes, she wanted Arlecchino to be the king, but at the same time, she took this situation as a chance to hit 2 birds with 1 stone)

3. Project Stuzha is apparently something highly dangerous, and Pulcinella and Pantalone are trying to get Childe and Arlecchino involved (Childe was told to aide the project by Pulcinella, while Arlecchino says she doesnt want the HotH to be involved in it)

4. Here is me reannouncing that I am in fact taking the L on the Freminet and Crucabena situation. Basically, the timeline is that at age 16, Clervie dies, and we are left with a 1 year time period for a 6 year old Freminet to enter under Crucabena (I'm guessing this is either a retcon or a means to hide the Arlecchino plot by not having them directly say mother in Freminet's character story 4). After that said 1 year, Peruere kills Crucabena and has spent several months in Snezhnaya before reviving the House of the Hearth and adopting Lyney and Lynette (perhaps the children of Crucabena's HotH simply stuck together during that time)

Basically, yes, Arlecchino is in her mid-20s. Not my personal cup of tea, but hey, genshin ages are confusing most days (Ayato is older than her, and Ayaka may actually be older than her as well... ugh I need a moment please... I MAY BE THE SAME AGE AS HER. NO-)

5. Freminet used to also call Lyney "brother". What changed that, I'm not sure (and if I had a nickel...), but the thought of baby Freminet following around big bro Lyney and big sis Lynette makes my heart melt. Freminet actually cried after Lyney basically told him how important Fremi is to him, so whoever made Freminet think otherwise... 😡 they better square up because we ride at dawn

ok back to me gushing

THE BOSS FIGHT? IT WAS SO COOL! It was beautifully animated, and the fact that they added this at the end?

The fear on the traveler's eyes upon realization of what true power Arlecchino held was amazing imo. We canonically cannot defeat Arlecchino in her boss fight! She will be a weekly boss that we can defeat, but in actuality, we really cannot beat the number 4 of the Fatui Harbringers.

We now have actual proof that harbringers 1-4 are not within our capabilities to challenge, and to add to that horror, this is us fighting Arlecchino with Lyney, Lynette, and Freminet. This is also actual proof that we, the traveler, cannot defeat a ton of other characters as well! (were cooked if we never get a power boost and plot armor✌️)

Also let me sneak in this picture:

Cunty as fck. Powerpuff girls energy. They're the Heathers, and we, the traveler, are Veronica.

And finally, the last part of my commentary that cemented this quest as my top 1:

Everything Arlecchino has done for the House of the Hearth, it was all thanks to Clervie and her dreams.

Arlecchino has shaped the HotH into a more honest relationship between her as the father and them as her children. Everything Clervie hated about the old HotH is now nonexistent in this version.

The children could be set free.

Duels are not to death.

They will not be sent to their doom if they lose.

This is everything that Clervie dreamed of, and this is everything Clervie tragically never got to see and experience because she lost all hope.

Clervie's story ended in tragedy, but Peruere lived and breathed Clervie's dreams for her anyway. Seeing the aurora was the start of Peruere finding the goal of living Clervie's dream, and now, Arlecchino strives to do her best to see those dreams come to fruition.

And the qualities that Peruere admired in Clervie are the same qualities that made her want Lyney to become the next king. Hopeful, caring, protective, passionate, and full of conviction. Lyney will take the mantle and live and breathe for Clervie's and Peruere's dreams someday.

Honestly, I have more to say, but I think this is a good place to stop for now. The dynamics of all these characters have made this experience worthwhile, and I hope that genshin continues with this sort of style in the future. Here's to more amazing stories from genshin!

Bonus screenshot while we are still here:

[thingsidrawgohere]

I just finished my first run of DA4 and let me say- I probably got my money's worth. If one wants to view the experience via a purely mercantile lens. I found many bits of cheese and touched the insides of many angry creatures. But if one wishes to frame the thing as Art- Hell, if one wants to solely discuss it as the Fourth in a series of lore-dense, narrative RPGs, then, Cousin, We've Got Problems. Three interconnected niggling ideas that kinda all lead to the conclusion- for me, at least- that modern design practices simply do not trust the player. News flash, right?

Anyways, I think I'm going to have some thoughts on this subject to avoid other thoughts, thank you.

Full-Throated Spoilers Beyond. And a lot of them. It's long.

Idea 1: DA2 is my favorite of the series. That's not the problem; it's the setup. I know what I'm about and it's interesting characters interacting over time. Flawed characters. Abrasive, opinionated, STUPID ASS ANDERS characters. The story was scaled well for a handful of total losers and it was political. The most humanly political of all the games, I think. That's a very low bar, particularly for AAA, but it felt better to stand in a street, to be personally effected by events, than to look at a literal map of icons and notes and distant decisions as in DA3. It's important, I think, for DA to be about Being, Getting Dirty. You aren't a king. You shouldn't be.

Side Note 1: DA2 is a fucking miracle. The old gag that FO New Vegas, blessed be, was made in 18 months is trotted out to display Can-Do Attitude and DEEPLY unethical labor practices. DA2 got less time, fewer reusable assets (due to a different art style), and had to rebuild most of the engine. A. Miracle.

DA4, on the other hand, has a series of supportive, well-adapted people who have all worked very hard on themselves in therapy and know all the fucking right words to say. They chat with one another with kindness and sober fondness. In the One Instance of interpersonal friction, it is resolved with grace and speed. I find this Horrid. They fucking forgot to give these people negative traits. It's likability slurry. They experience no hard growth, hold no horseshit ideas, suffer no lingering doubts. It's not only unnatural but it's lifeless. It becomes Written. I can see the fucking author waving at me. I've got a note from my run that reads 'Rook told the man who is forcibly living inside his head "Thank you sharing that" and I want to scream.'

And that would be bad enough except the ideas are there. You've got a reluctant father story. Someone trapped between two cultures. A older man, already terrified of aging, of death, taking a Much Younger lover. That's Fucking Meat. I can see the writers straining against something but what they deliver is still person-shaped missed opportunities that repeat, that repeat, that repeat. It's So Frustrating. There's flashes of Good Writing. Of good character beats. But Also- from my notes, a character had just held her brother as he died, inexplicably for a second time, and Rook gives her a little pep talk that ends with him asking "You good?"

And the fucking woman says "I'm good" in response. She seemed to mean it.

How does one- react to that as a viewer? I told a man who wanted to be a lich more than anything to Not and he was cool with it. He never brought up being a lich again. He wasn't even upset. I let a man's city die and he's like I Get It, Bro. No Harsh Vibes. It rings hollow.

Talking over Solas' memories, collectively pulling out the meaning behind them- that was some of the best characters-interacting writing in the whole thing. And it's HOURS into the game. A shame.

Side Note 2: A lot of a loved-one death as motivation in this old refrigerator. If you get a name and one line, Oh Boy Brother, you are prolly gonna die bad. Lazy.

If I'm going to talk about Emmrich, let's talk about his romance. I honestly thought it was bugged. I Am playing through another run as a comparative but Wow. Larian and BG3 absolutely reconfigured what's acceptable in these types of story beats. This particular romance felt regressive, in a sense. Like a last minute addition. The very definition of love coins. No charisma or honest affection between the characters. Nothing allowed to percolate (more on that in a second). Just- now you are ROMANCED. Which means on the Blue Moon instance he has anything to say regarding being in a relationship, the best you can get is a 'dearest' at the end of a sentence. I was Excited by the idea of Emmrich really struggling with a May/December situation but he Doesn't. He has a few lines implying that he Could but it leads nowhere.

And they fuck in a coffin (???) and it's not even hot (!!!). Unforgivable. Double Unforgivable. I heard there was spice in this game? This is baking soda.

Related, a few lines awkwardly dodged the question of Emmrich's previous relationships and I have an inkling, without experiencing the other romances, that this is the world's largest case of gun-shy after the backlash with DA3's non-playersexual romances. This man can not be confirmed to be Anything but Into Rook, whatever they might be. There was also a throwaway line with Taash how she prefers women and that's as much as I saw of explicit preferences. I don't envy anyone trying to address the rabidity of fandom but it feels like unnecessary acrobatics.

Side Oh No: It's so bad that I'm honestly thinking of doing a fixit fic regarding the romance/character writing. And God, I can't right now. I have to finish my other project first.

Idea 2: The pacing. That's what ruins so much. There was a scene of a gnarled, fucked-up gate, torn from its hinges. And my guy says "Something Big must have torn apart that gate" all ominous, building a sense of- Nope. The very big darkspawn is standing ten feet away on the other side. I hadn't even swung the camera around the hall to see it before my guy goes "That big darkspawn must have torn apart the gate!"

Yes, I know there's an issue in open world games these days wherein devs are allergic to a player's millisecond of not knowing where to go but this feels applicable across the whole game. A problem isn't allowed to fester. It is brought to attention and then swiftly dealt with. If there's a locked door, a difficult decision, a feeling beyond Protestant determination, it will be dealt with, Post Fucking Haste. It's like the game doesn't trust the player to hold tension.

This happens not just in barks or small set pieces. Whole arcs work this way. Like Harding's longterm personal quest. She gets a handful of lines about feeling vaguely angry or perhaps thinking she Should be More angry about Lore Dump Retcon and then at her culmination, she's fighting her own anger. A vicious, hot, searing thing- and it wasn't earned. At all. There was room to telegraph this theme, bury it in the dirt to let grow roots. They didn't. One Line was given about her people pleasing tendencies And she's not really shown to be people pleasing to her own detriment. This is Chekhov's Gun in running shoes. It doesn't work. It feels like it comes out of left field.

Hell, there was a mission that was like SURVIVE IF YOU CAN and it was like- literally a long hallway. The Pacing is all Off.

Idea 3: I don't like that I must do this but DA4 doesn't understand its own flavor. The One Thing you Cannot Do is have Minrathous, the city of slaves and blood mages, seem nice. Particularly in the poor parts of town. You Cannot have the Crows be a lovely dovey band of scamps. You Cannot have the Blight be reversible. You Cannot CANNOT say "elves have it pretty good" as my Elvish Rook said with his face flaps. No. NO. You Cannot side-step the politics of this setting. These are the bones on which these characters are hung. To lessen the world is to lessen, to decomplexify them.

You know what my elf didn't hear in the town that canonically trades in bodies that look his? Knife ear. Eh to fantasy slurs but my point is no one said a cross word to my guy. The Qunari living in the town that had been warring with the Qunari for Centuries seemed totes fine. There were no alienages. There were no proper templars- even from other regions. No Mage Circles. No mage issues at all. Hardly anything whatsoever regarding the Chantry or Andrastianism, even as the game takes place in the Super Anti-Pope town. I had a literal demon-possessed man in my party and the world did not react.

I had a friend describe this Thedas as feeling smoothed out and Yeah. It feels like all the nasty bumps have been deemed undesirable. I don't know what to make of it. Is this simply taking the world in a different direction? Is it a mandate to tone down the unpleasantness, for sales? A shift in design ethos? Is this a sign of a very troubled project as it was with Andromeda?

I don't know. Is this still a Dragon Age game without its politics? There's enough here for me to wonder if Bioware is even Bioware anymore. There's a TREMENDOUS amount of work, of skill in DA4. Just Absurd. The environments are thick, Thicc. But work alone is not a virtue. Have we ship of Theseus'd so far that the people- the real people, not the logos- who have interests aligned with what made DA1 special are no longer there? Something went wrong with this project, narratively. Something I don't know how to fix without addressing basement level assumptions I'm clearly not privy to. I hope they can.

Final Thoughts: Game development is a fucking hole into which one pours one's relationships, time, and health, physical, mental both. It gives satisfaction very rarely. They shipped. In that way, huge success. It's not even, fundamentally, a 'bad game'. But it is a victim of a modern philosophy of pre-chewed ideas and player distrust. VGs are ultimately a business and, in these last few years, there's been a unimaginable devastation to the workers in the industry- even as the money flows ever upward. The desire to sell well has morphed into a NEED to sell well, even among the 'kept' studios. Big studios, Grand Dame Studios sitting on top of past critical and financial successes, been killed by their overlords recently. No one is safe. It's suddenly quite dangerous for large studios to make anything remotely niche, remotely unclear and Bioware has both Andromeda And Anthem under its belt. They're probably feeling the pinch. They needed a hit and hits, these days, are increasingly smooth. And DA4 is very smooth.

That's just my feeling on the matter. I'll see what a second run yields.

Smaller thoughts:

I don't care about the combat but that was- odd. The illusion of depth with all the skill trees and types of damage and subsystems of attack- all boiling down to a one button push. It's odd. I played rogue on PC so perhaps it's different for other classes, on console. But I pressed the button at the man and when I got a halo, I pressed another button and then pressed the first button again. No matter where I was on the skill tree, it never changed, never felt different. I don't know. It felt. Odd?

There was a Honest To God "It's quiet- Too quiet" and it just Happened. I would have pulled out every one of my teeth to avoid that. I get the jokey-okey but fuck, man.

Where's the chest hair? WHERE? Body hair? ANYTHING? Davrin has plastic chest. It's freaky.

Gloom Howler Gloom Howler Gloom Howler. Frankly, that whole storyline had a large gulg of the farcical. I laughed my ass entirely off when, upon her defeat, the Gloom Howler said "I'm sorry" and took a nap so hard that the scene wiped to 'some time later'. That was insane editing. PACING. And- naming. Gloom Howler. Gloom. Howler.

Teeth. Dear God, the teeth.

The devs were in a real pickle here, no doubt. My great sympathies. There's an Overwhelming abundance of world states that DA3 could have left on the board and I understand the balancing act between acknowledging the events of older games and staying generic enough DA4 could apply to All of them. Is Cassandra the White Divine? Or is Leliana? It's a nightmare of choices. Any of the people that Could be Divine can not be mentioned without lore issues. Who's on the throne in Orlais? Ferelden? Where's beloved so-and-so? Dorian canonically did return to Minrathous so he can 'safely' appear in game- but he fucking can't talk about Iron Bull, who may or may not be alive. Isabela canonically goes back to piracy but she can't talk about events in Kirkwall because she may not have been there for them. Oof. That's not a lot you are Allowed to acknowledge. The Poor Bastards.

Watched a braid slip off a person's shoulder, organically, as they were talking. Started at the bottom and look where we're at, technologically. And speaking on the technical, a lot of textures didn't load right. For the entire game, my guy's left shoulder armour thing had a much lower rez texture than the rest. Three hard crashes, which isn't the worst. One Wonderful mission wherein Lucanis' hair and his knives were the only bits of him to render.

I'm not touching the non-binary storyline. It was clunky, for sure, but the greatest sin was using Our words. There is canonical words for NGC/NB people in fiction and to not use them shows a fundamental distrust towards the source material and the players both. It's the linguistic version of the quest marker or the barks telling you where to go.

I still don't know how I feel about the dead Varric twist. Feels goofball but he got to hang out in his little pajamas. I wish I was in little pajamas.

Solas was pretty fucking tight but I think a lot of that was due to his VA. Something about the voice direction, in general, felt- flat? But old Solas was doing it good.

Ending. God, I get it. People are tired and satisfying endings are hard. And DLC exists, more cynically. But Hells Bells, I'm getting to the point wherein even the slideshow is annoying. Give me a fucking Ending to the Choice Game. Don't you fucking 'Spider-Man Will Return' at me, you bastard. I'm a child of fucking god.

Yes, I got the secret ending. I know. That was Also bullshit.

I feel better getting that all out of my system. Thank you for sharing that.

[night-market-if]

just binge-read TNM and your writing has finally gotten me back into reading (and spending!) on interactive fiction again :) i have a couple of Thoughts™️ ...... i have too many feelings to express how much i am OBSESSED with your lore and worldbuilding and characters .... i love them all so much (even milo, that little rat) and i want to put all of them in my pocket to keep them safe <3 i have a couple of questions if you don't mind !!! no pressure

Do your characters have any special meanings of their names? i ask because of my best bro Caliban; my first thought was linking him to Shakespeare and "You taught me language, and my profit on’t / Is I know how to curse. The red plague rid you / For learning me your language!"

How would the characters feel if the MC was religious? Would anyone either be interested or wary or uncomfortable?

And now I gotta talk about my girl, my best baby, the love of my life, my girlboss, my reason for existing: bella <3 i find her as a character soooo fascinating. as THE biggest lesbian you'll meat, usually i find strictly dominant characters a turn-off, especially male characters, but that's a personal thing ofc! that being said, bella is just .... *chef's kiss* she is 100% in control, but ... she's not cold. i almost would describe her as "warm," for she dazzles as the brightest light in every room, her flirting and smirks easily given away. but of course, that's her persona, how could we forget the murder plans hello??? BUT with the MC? those touches 👀 those feelings 👀 how can a woman be so cold yet so warm?

will we ever see our beloved bella in a submissive role? or the better question is: what does she consider to be a submissive role? like, I'm not even referring to the bedroom, would she allow the MC, either now or in some distant future, to take care of her—acts of service, physical touch, words of affirmation, etc. is her dominance an intrinsic part of her nature, or is it caused by her past trauma (because i know miss girl has a lot)? is it just one and the same? to her, is receiving love and affection the same as being submissive? because to me it sure isn't! 🤔 i think I'll stop this essay here lol, but just wanted to say i love your writing and the complexities of figuring out your place in life <333

I'm sorry this has taken so long to answer! Thank you so much for such cool questions.

You are right in thinking of Shakespeare for Caliban. Though, that character is far more dickish in the Tempest than what my inspiration is for him. I read a book in college called Prospero's Daughter. It is a phenomenal book that is a retelling of the Tempest. That was more of where the obsession for the name came.

As for the characters of the Night Market, they don't actually have any special meaning. The name Belladonna was rolling around my head for a while because I love the idea of a poisonous flower. But, it wasn't something I pulled from somewhere. Milo's true name does have meaning but that has only been mentioned once on a specific path in Book 2. Gabriel is a little bit of a nod to the more Christian angels but only loosely. Because I do associate the name Gabriel with a Supernatural character and the two of them are nothing alike. LOL

2. If the MC was religious, Milo and Malcolm would be wary as fuck. Milo's father was a very religious man and hid behind his religion. And Malcolm has seen a lot of duplicity in the world of religion before and has not had a lot of good experiences. Both would be incredibly hesitant to trust a religious MC. It doesn't mean they can't, it just might take time.

Gabriel would of course be on board, as long as it was to the Knowing. Another religion would cause him some turmoil due to the Knowing being the only true god in his mind.

Belladonna would be fine with it. She is an incredibly religious woman at heart and she would be open to a lot of discussions with it.

Hazel would be more curious than anything else. She would want to know why the MC believed and what it entailed. She may or may not agree.

Pen would just laugh.

3. So for Bella, I had a very specific idea in mind when I started her characterization. I want her in control and I want her to be someone who has her shit together, but I wanted it to stem from confidence. Not trauma. I think we see a lot of cold characters being cold due to their past shaping them into that. I wanted Bella to just know her self worth and go from there. Hence the warmth to her but the ability to ice out anyone that pisses her off.

Submission for Bella is complicated. I don't think she ever sees herself being submissive but she would use it to describe clients in the past. I don't think she would use it to describe MC. But, you will be able to see her in roles where she has to lean on someone else for help. It is not that Belladonna doesn't want to show that side to anyone. It is more that she assumes that she can take care of it. Even while sick, she believes herself above it all. That she can do this herself. When she can't, I think it comes as more of a shock to her.

But, for a romanced MC, there are some moments coming up that I think will speak of this. I am very excited to write them.

[dead-roses-formy-valentine]

Okay, I know I don't post much, BUT I'm feeling festive so y'all get my Billy Lenz HC (remade cause my phone deleted the one i had for 3-4 YEARS and I'm salty abt it >:(.), so William Edward Lenz, or Billy Lenz is a grown man, we know this, he has a sister, Agnes Lenz, now, during my little tedtalk of my favorite stabby boy, I'm gonna sprinkle a bit of the 2006 Billy lore in here, but it's mainly 1974. Personally, with how sexual Billy is, I think that, like in the 2006 ver, his mother was s/a'ing Billy, resulting in the birth of Agnes. His mother was a drunkard and neglectful in my own opinion, but Billy did try and make her happy, craving his mother's love. I like to think his mother never wanted Billy or a baby boy in general, but his father (again like the 2006 ver.), loved Billy a lot, but left him when he was about 10-13 (?) years old, thus why in the scene when the taxi driver angrily drives off after Ms. Mac doesn't come out, he flips his lid, because his father left after a heated argument with his mother only to never return. Now I don't think he's yellow by any means, nor does he have a liver disease, but from research and my own observation, Billy has some form of DID, probably stemming from his childhood trauma, resulting in the very obscene and crazy phone calls. For his mother and father, I'm going to go with the 2006 names, Frank and Constance Lenz, now here I'm just gonna say, that since this is the 1974 ver., Billy's father is not dead, just gone from the picture, (and divorced from his psycho wife), and that's when the S/A of Billy started, resulting in more trauma for Billy. Do I think Billy loves his sister/daughter? No, no I don't, the reason is, after his sister was born Billy got locked away, barely being fed unless he snuck down for food, and even then, what he did eat was nothing but junk because he can’t cook, (DON'T TRUST THIS MAN IN THE KITCHEN, YO HOUSE WILL BE BURT TO THE GYATT DAYM GROUND), and again, she's a result of what his mother, of all people, did to him. Think of that, you're locked away while your mother plays happy family with your sister/daughter, while you're trapped in a cold attic, and starving, that would make anyone crazy (crazy? I was crazy once. They put me in a room, a rubber room, a rubber room with rats, the rats made me crazy) Now, for my own headcanons for Billy himself, I think he's English and German, due to the name William having English roots, and Lenz is a German surname (Thx Google!), I think he has pastey ahh skin, due to being locked away in an attic, but if he got out, he'd have a more of a limestone skin tone

Like in the picture above, now Billy, Billy is skinny, but he is strong, more in theory that before the events of Black Christmas he was skinner cause he didn't have much muscle mass due to not eating much, but since the sorority girls were there (and he was probably in a mental institution, getting three meals a day), he stole food from the fridge n sweets. Now Billy, my personal opinion, loves sweets, bby boi gotta big sweet tooth (🍪🍪). I think Barb and Jess are the main ones Billy is stalking after, but he kills the others cause he's kinda... Snapped?? (Bro def. Escapes an asylum every year fr) Barb reminds him more of his mother with her drinking problem. Clare and Jess probably reminds him of Agnes due to her innocent nature and looks. Now I think Billy killed his mother, Agnes was asleep so no harm was done to her, Billy wouldn't harm kids (personal opinion, then again, most of this is my personal opinion jabdmshdjd), I think Billy doesn't mind the cold much, noting that this movie took place in Canada, so Billy grew used to the cold temperatures. I also rlly love the idea that Billy wears a green sweater, tho in the movie it's black, now in the 1974 film, Billy says to Jess "don't tell them what we did, Agnes", maybe he woke his sister up to hide his mom's body or smt, don't have to be sexual in anyway. So this will be the end of my mutterings, it's 1 am rn, I'm tired, posting this when I wake up, goodnight, merry Christmas, thank you for reading my craziness

[sabrondabrainrot]

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@peachyfnaf your reposts are so OMINOUS

WHY ARE YOU SO OMINOUS

What do you MEAN you're looking at me with your big ol' sad eyes??? What's gonna happen????

I just paused my current progression to go back and watch the laes eps I missed and BRUH I'm in SUSPENSE

MOON GLAZER???

Rants on lore for TSAMS and LAES below spoilers beware!

I'm at the part when he had a really confusing nightmare and now he's spiraling. Old Moon said some really messed up stuff to him too and that's helping his spiral. I really didn't like how Old Moon told New Moon to die for his family. Old Moon also said Sun would try to die for the family but Sun doesn't really act like he has a death wish? Like I think a lot of ppl don't understand Sun. Also, Old Moon.... technically speaking not only is New Moon your legacy but he's in a way like your wish child? You wished to be a better brother and in a way New Moon inherited that. Idk I also feel like that dark Sun fellow is really targeting New Moon?

I am also sad at the lack of Sun. He shows up every now and again but he's barely present in the 3 shows I'm currently watching. Where's my boy?

With LAES lore I'm now at the part when Earth is kind of having to decide if the Creator is a liar. I think it's actually so understandable that Earth is struggling to accept the fact her dad is a chump. Lunar getting frustrated by the training and getting no answers is also neat. The episode where Solar and Lunar made a device to help Lunar with his mind power was so sad and so sweet. I didn't expect Solar's mind to look like the tv kid moment from the Tim Burton Willy Wonka (I love that movie and knew right away).

I feel like Solar himself is in a lot of weird denial. Like, is it just me to be bugged by how he describes his Sun and how little he mentions his moon? Isn't it canon that he watched his Moon basically die twice? (When he met Lunar way back when he told Lunar about his Moon disintegrating from removing KC?) but back to his Sun..."he knew the consequences" bro that's all you have to say? A homie died for you and you can't even say one nice thing about him? I think it's just Solar avoiding his grief like 1000% but I swear it's so disrespectful. You love him and he loved you just say something nice about him.

It's so odd to watch old episodes to get caught up to the eps I'm at in the other shows cause I know Solar dies and I know what Ruin does, so it is bittersweet to see one alive and the other one sinless respectively. Puppet on site kidnapping Ruin for their podcast was so funny.

I'm still on the fence with Earth giving people 'Therapy'... Like on one hand she's giving her family a place to be more open and vulnerable free of judgement but I'm also just like not sure if she should be the one to do it? Like, her therapy protocols as far as we know are ones the Creator taught her 'on a whim'. Can we even trust the things she was taught were legit?

Also Sun 6th sense looking right at invisible Lunar was the funniest thing ever. I love him he's the biggest brother ever.

Should I keep making posts overanalyzing the quirked up YouTube show? Too bad, I will keep going. You can't stop me.

[variousqueerthings]

DOCTOR... WHO???? (siiiigh)

ok. ok. so. ok. alright let's do this. i have a sneaking suspicion this will rate higher than some other M*ffat episodes, but don't let that fool you about me thinking it's good"

sexism rank objectification (female character is ogled/harassed/turned into a sex joke by the doctor and/or a lead we’re supposed to root for and/or the camera): 8/10

sexism rank plot-point (lead female character is only there to serve plot, not to have her emotional interiority explored): 3/10

interesting complex or pointlessly complex (does the complexity serve the narrative or does it just serve to be confusing as a stand-in for smart, this includes visually): 1/10

furthers character and/or lore and/or plot development (broader question that ties into the previous ones, at least two of these, ideally three should be fulfilled): 5/10

companion matters (the companion doesn’t always have to be there, but if the companion is there, can they function without the doctor– and overall per season how often is the companion the focus or POV of the story): 3/10

the doctor is more than just “godlike” (examines the doctor’s flaws and limitations, doesn’t solve a plot by having it revolve entirely around the doctor’s existence): 3/10

doesn’t look down on previous doctor who (by erasing or mocking its importance, by redoing and “bettering” previous beloved plotpoints or characters, etc.): 6/10

isn’t trying to insert hamfisted sexiness (m*ffat famously talked a lot about how dw should be sexier multiple times, he sucks at writing it): 4/10

internal world has consistency (characters have backgrounds, feel rooted in a place with other people, generally feel like they have Lives): 1/10

Politics (how conservative is the story): 3/10

FULL RATING: 37/100 (if I can count….)

OMFG NO IT'S THE LOWEST RATED BOY OH BOY OH BOY AND IT DIDN'T EVEN DO BAD ON OBJECTIFICATION RATING AND YET!!!!!! IT'S SO STUPID!!!!!!!!!

OBJECTIFICATION: Amy wears a suit in this one. River Song is also wearing a suit in this one. because this secret society thing? (I am unclear what they're doing in it in this world, but I mean... the world-building is rated one out of ten so we'll get to that) people wear suits

there is this weird fucking interaction between sci-fi Churchill and the Doctor:

Churchill: What’s she like? Attractive I suppose The Doctor: Hell.... in high heels Churchill (leering): Tell me more

PLOT-POINT: ok so like. this episode is called "the wedding of River Song." it's about... not River Song. it's technically about how River Song (REMEMBER HOW RIVER SONG IS SECRETLY AMY'S AND RORY'S KID AND SHE WAS STOLEN AFTER AMY WAS FORCED TO GIVE BIRTH TO HER IN ORDER TO BREED THE "PERFECT PSYCHOPATH FOR THE DOCTOR" SO SHE WOULD KILL THE DOCTOR FOR A REASON WE STILL DON'T KNOW BUT LET'S FUCKINDFG DKLJSLÖKGFHSK BUT THEN OFC SHE BREAKS HER PROGRAMMING BECAUSE SHE FALLS IN LOVE WITH HIM BECAUSE SHE'S INFORMED SHE WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM AND SO SHE DECIDES NOT TO KILL THE DOCTOR BUT THEN THEY FORCE HER INTO AN ASTRONAUT SUIT THAT WAS BUILT IN 1969 BECAUSE THIS SECRET SOCIETY SENT HUMANITY TO THE MOON SO THEY COULD DESIGN THIS SUIT FOR RIVER SONG TO KILL THE DOCTOR THE MOON LANDING WAS ABOUT THE DOCTOR SDFJJJLKJÖARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH OKAY AND SO EVEN THOUGH SHE'S NO LONGER INTERESTED IN KILLING THE DOCTOR THEY CAN JUST KIDNAP HER AND FORCE HER ITO THE SUIT TO KILL THE DOCTOR BUT ALSO NOW SHE'S NOT BECAUSE LURVE MAKES HER BREAK TIME TRUST ME BRO JUST DON'T THINK ABOUT I- *tears M*ffat apart With My Fucking Teeth*)

okay so it's about how River Song broke time in order to not kill the Doctor, which is supposedly a fixed point in Time, even though it definitely is not in show canon up until this season decided it was, and then the whole episode is the Doctor building up to telling River "actually I've found a way to not die," and she's like "oh good" and then he doesn't die

that is the plot. why is this a season's worth of plot and then 48mins? I will get to the FUCKING MONTAGES in a bit

so River's Thing is like. she's in love with the Doctor. in fact according to this episode "I cant let you die without letting you know that you are loved, by so many and so much, but by no one more than me"

which, if you're into River/Doctor is fine, personally I think Matt Smith looks like a child and Alex Kingston for all her acting (and hindered by so much bad "sexy" dialogue) cannot convince me she's into this baby-looking person. maybe if they'd done this during Capaldi, but that would require doing more things with River Song and M*ffat isn't really interested in her beyond the fact that a. she's in love with the Doctor and uh... 2. she was raised by a secret society. or she lived with her mother while she was growing up? (how did that work, when she was a child, weren't there people wondering who this kid's parents were????) and 3. she's sexy and she knows it

it does not fucking matter how she feels about the brainwashing of it all. it Does Not

I give this SOME points, because finally Amy got to have an emotion about her baby being taken away from her, I had fully forgotten that: "You took my baby from me and you hurt her and now she’s grown up and she’s fine (is she, we'll never know), but I’ll never see my baby again," and then she straight up, deliberately murders the villain who's helplessly tied to a chair

wonder if her feeling about murder will affect the plot in the future (they do mention it at the end of this episode), and she hints that "River didn't get it all from you" so like. Amy care to explain the execution you just committed?

she also mowed down a bunch of The Silence, but they're creepy monster people and not real people, so that's fine

uhhh what else for Amy? idk, she's there, she still loves Rory

COMPLEXITY: Stupid! Fucking! Plot! wait I already did this in the above point, okay so after River Breaks Time to not kill the Doctor at this supposed fixed point (lol, no it still fucking isn't M*ffat, there's loose continuity, and there's not caring at all about making your shit make sense, because LOLLL it's scifi after all and you can do what you want I fucking guess), Time just... stops

and all of Time happens at the same Time, except some people are noticing (are people ageing? or experiencing the same day again and again? or.. hte same second again and again? why is Churchill really the guy we want representing this idea??? why are there cars being carried around by big balloons????? why is it all earth? no time to explore any of this world- wait that's below point IT ALL BLEEDS INTO EACH OTHER BECAUSE IT'S SO STUPID)

WE DON'T HAVE TIME TO EXPLORE ANY OF THIS BECAUSE WE NEED TO GET TO THE REALLY INTERESTING PART OF THE EPISODE!

montages

the Doctor is explaining what happened up to a certain point and does so through the artistic format of montage. that means that Every! FUcking! Episode! M*ffat wrote for this season has a montage at the beginning!!!!!!

and then at the end of the montage, they're like oh no there's The Silence around us, for some reason, and then the Doctor gets kidnapped by... Amy, who's in the secret society now?

but now they're good guys, dedicated to figuring out why Time has stopped (except it... I mean it clearly hasn't, things are moving and changing and why is this done in the Stupidest way possible)

and they captured some Silence. but actually they were never captured just waiting, and now they're free and they go up to the top of a pyramid, the Doctor gets married to River, time restarts, River shoots the Doctor, but the Doctor had a Plan all along, using the little guys in robot-people we met in Let's Kill Hitler to get that body shot instead

the end

except for setting up THE NEXT STAGE OF THE MYSTERY because aaaalll of this happenned from WAY back in s5, because of a Question that mustn't be asked... and that question is Doctor Who

this episode is doing like. 2 things. "I know I'm going to die, and I stopped it easily (not so fixed a point after all I Guess, M*ffat)," and River and Doctor got married

oh and Amy KILLED PEOPLE but this will not be important, that was just to make her More Badass

and for all that it is presented like it's so fucking complicated

CHARACTERS/LORE/PLOT: um so plot as above is nothing, as said, it's just another bit of silly mystery on top of an already unwieldy house of cards standing in a drafty room

characters. not much actually, I mean, yes the Doctor and River got married now, but it's like. anti-dynamic. it's just there now the characters are meant to get married for the set-piece

lore um... checks notes. fucking. "Doctor Who." Trenzalore is a place something is going to happen. yeah so, fuck off nothing

COMPANIONS MATTER: lol see above. nope they're still basically "The last Centurion and the Girl Who Waited"

which, defining Rory as the Last Centurion outside of the particular episode in which another version of him was the centurion never made sense to me, sure that's something he did in a part of the story, but it's not really what his character... is. it's just that M*ffat loooves a moniker and it sounds impressive, and also in the last episode, the Doctor said "it's time to stop waiting" there's just nothing! new here! they're never going to be anyone else, or like... just their flipping names

Rory in this version of events/this other different universe is a soldier, and Amy doesn't remember him (I'm assuming Amy remembers the Doctor because they have a bond from back in s5 where her remembering him brought him back from non-existence, I can accept this as an already-established thing), but she does remember someone who she draws completely differently to Rory (hearkening back to Rory not being as manly as Amy's ideal fantasy and I thought we were past that but whatever)

anyway, the Doctor goes up to soldier-Rory and says this: Loyal soldier waiting to be noticed, always the pattern

IS Rory a soldier ever outside of two episodes in s6, both written by M*ffat????? M*ffat has a different, less caring, more "masculine" version of Rory that he writes that is so different from Rory in near every other episode... I don't like this Rory much, because he has no personality outside of "shoot gun/be badass and run after Amy"

I do appreciate that he is about to die and Amy returns to save him (although I have questions about how easy it is to kill "the bad guys" in M*ffat's era)

I will take this from the same exchange as above:

The Doctor (trying to get Rory to go for Amy): she said you were a mr hotti…ness and she would like to go out with you for… texting and scones..."

“GODLIKE” DOCTOR: this episode is all about how the Doctor is so special that everything bends towards this Moment In Time, but wait, That Moment is actually all about an even more important Moment that is still to come, also about the Doctor

and the tension of the episode is simply everyone waiting to see what clever thing the Doctor has already done in order to stave off the events this whole season has ostensibly been building up to

River Song at the Doctor: You’ve decided that the universe is better off without you, but the universe doesn’t agree

I mean yes, I enjoy the narratives favourite chewtoy type characters as much as anyone, but the thing is this Doctor isn't that, because the Doctor already has the solution. it's just. doing the exact thing that the episode The God Complex was deconstructing! S I L L Y ! ! !

PREVIOUS DOCTOR WHO: there's a moment here that's kind of quick succession, and goes like this -- the Doctor is avoiding the moment of his death (that is easily avoided), and has a throwaway bit in which he say that Liz the First is forever waiting in a grove to elope with him (gross, stop gross stop with the ongoing Elizabeth the First banged the Doctor jokes stop! It!) or he could just "go and help Rose Tyler with her homework"

I can read this either as M*ffat's penchant of writing whatever he wants in terms of how the timelines of this series go (which is how he does it with Eleven constantly jumping forwards and backwards, up until the point it suddenly can't be done, because M*ffat only has rules when they serve a particular plot point), but I also can pretend/enjoy it from the perspective of "actually I could never go back and help Rose Tyler with her homework, because it's not possible to change how things went down or mess with her timeline, and that's the point, I'm pretending I can do what I want, but I know I can't"

ofc the episode then undermines this point, but still... it's a sweet point

also Brigadier Lethbridge-Stewart dies. I didn't remember this in the episode, but I assume it just didn't land with me back in the day because.... who is the Brigadier if you haven't seen classic!who? it's something for the classic!who fans I suppose, but it's literally the moment that makes the Doctor stop running and it's completely unestablished why the Doctor cares about this character or even really who this character is

I'm being pedantic now perhaps, but I think if you're going to bring up classic!who (which I do enjoy) it needs to either be an actual Easter Egg/not affect the plot, oooorrrr it needs to be re-established in this text why this matters, and this does neither

I was sad watching it this time, because I've met the Brigadier now, but it's easy and lazy nostalgia bait

“SEXINESS”: so like. this isn't the worst episode for this, but the worst episode for this is so bad!

aforementioned gross mention of "Liz the first," River Song and the Doctor do boring, annoying flirting in which she mentions his past with Cleopatra (strike two, but at least??? Marilyn Monroe isn't also mentioned)

INTERNAL WORLD: none. nothing. montages of places that will never matter and a pocket universe world in which it seems like they thought two seconds about the functionality of it, I went on a rant above, I'm resisting ranting again, this whole thing is Stupid

POLITICS: there's not really politics. I mean, it's not a very big episode, it's just pretending to be, but in the end it's a couple of specific plotpoints inside a carnival that's on fire

but let's see, there's obviously the complete lack of interest in exploring female characters (including in episodes in which their names appear in the title)

oh and they mention psychopath River again

River: Take a child, raise her into the perfect psychopath, introduce her to the Doctor… who else was I going to fall in love with? fuck offffffffffff fuck off with all of this forever

also the plot culminates in a marriage -- now I was more annoyed when I thought the marriage literally solved the problem, when really it's more a sort of... segue into solving it, but the idea that this is a more important relationship than any the Doctor ever had or is ever going to have is what this plot works so hard to make the central conceit, and the way to prove this is by getting married, which segues into Fixing The Universe

and to be fair, it walked itself into this corner (on purpose) from the moment River Song was introduced, but the way it pretended at mystery as if the answer wasn't always "yeah they got married I guess, in an episode so boring, trying to be so big, that presents the Idea of marriage as the event that is more important than any other in the Universe (not like... individually, in the Universe) that for the Doctor in the same season as we had The Doctor's Wife is framed as more important than any other relationship because it is now defined by Getting Married...."

it's kind of a central problem with River Song and the Doctor, in the end it's... terribly normative. it tries not to be, but its structures struggle to break out of it, even when we get told that River has other partners (never seen, never important, often more of a throwaway innuendo to show how sexy she is), even with the tragedy of them moving backwards (sort of) in their respective timelines, it's still performing alloromantic heteronormative relationship hierarchy (big words meaning They're Straight TM writing)

the possible upside (we shall see) is that maybe now the stupid flipping marriage build-up is done River can be doing other fucking stuff, like being a character

FULL RATING: 37/100 (if I can count….)

okay so, the good. low on literally objectifying female characters on the whole, and isn't the worst on previous doctor who (except for of course saying a big fuck you to every past Companion and important relationship the Doctor has ever had)

and the bad is. that it is bad. bad across the board. it's a bad episode, made worse by everything that was bad before being doubled down on, so that in hindsight all the other bad stuff is also worse, like a horror ride funhouse mirror of non-linear watching reflecting backwards and forwards in time (kind of like M*ffat wishes the River Song and the Doctor's story managed to do, but in bad)

and that is s6. what a wild ride. epic highs and lows indeed!

[loominggaia]

(me disculpo de antemano si incómoda la pregunta) ¿Cómo serían los fgg en la cama? (En ese sentido)

(Translated via Google Translator)

(I apologize in advance if the question is uncomfortable) What would fggs be like in bed? (In that sense)

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Trust me, no question is too uncomfortable for this blog! (Seriously, we get some doozies 'round here lmao)

But the following text will probably be NSFW, so I'll place it below a cut:

Evan: Apparently slops the D like a ⭐CHAMP⭐. He will act awkward, slobber and sweat all over you, and say weird shit that totally kills the mood, but he does care about his lovers and tries his best to make them happy, even if it means doing things he's not comfortable with. 6/10

Lukas: His emotional hangups make him detached and dispassionate. His list of "won't do" is longer than his list of "will do", really picky about the types of sex he'll engage with. Decent technique, but no romance. 4/10

Glenvar: 50/50 chance he's drunk and can't get it up. Regardless, he's determined to have a good time any way he can! Not very romantic, but lots of laughter and teasing, probably some kinky shit, and he's up for damn near anything you can throw at him. Maybe he's not packing the biggest sausage in the meat department, but he's good at working with what he has. 7/10

Alaine: Literally a professional sex-haver. Likes it rowdy and prefers to be on top. Her techniques are impeccable. She will do things to you that you've never even heard of. Listen, they call her Wet 'n Wild for a reason! 8/10

Jeimos: Totally cringe and fail at seduction, but once they get down to business they apparently got the magic touch. Jeimos' main problem is their uncontrollable pyromancy, which flares up whenever their emotions are high. Lust is a strong emotion, so any lover who isn't flame-resistant is getting fried. 5/10

Isaac: Isn't interested in sex, is actually quite uncomfortable with it. Does not know what to do with himself. Just wants to get it over with and go play with bugs or whatever. If it's someone he really cares about then he'll make an honest effort, but bro's got no game to work with. 2/10

Linde: Slightly kinky. Demands to be worshipped. A bit selfish in bed. If you're the submissive type then she's your queen, otherwise meh. Has a high libido and usually dtf whenever. 5/10

Balthazaar: Leaves his socks on, never heard of foreplay, couldn't find the clit if his life depended on it, probably hasn't showered in a while...He's a ten-pump chump and then he's out like a light. 0/10

Skel: He's a germaphobe, so bathing before or during is a requirement. Won't kiss, won't lick, won't do anything with his mouth except make noise. Can achieve some fun positions with telekinesis. May or may not poke his lover in the eye with his nose. 3/10

Javaan: Knows how to treat his lovers right. Willing to do whatever, wherever, with whoever. Fun, sexy, romantic, more game than a sports arena. Incredibly well-endowed (you know, being a centaur and all...) and has an insatiable libido. 10/10

Elska: Repulsed by sex. If you touch her, she will reach down your throat and pull you inside-out by your asshole. 11/10

Mr. Ocean: Can barely put his sandals on the right feet, yet he's apparently some kind of legendary fuckmaster. Telepathy allows him to feel what his lovers feel. Who needs genitals when you have 6 perfectly good tentacles? His ugliness is off-putting to most people, but hey, if they don't like it they can always close their eyes. 8/10

Zeffer: Vampires have bad circulation, so Zeffer probably can't get it up half the time. His skin is as cold as a corpse. Tons of stamina though, and no one can call him selfish. If he really loves someone, there is nothing he won't do for them...Just don't let him nibble your neck. 5/10

Zacry: Cold robot hands. 2/10

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[goodieghosty]

hey could you do arcane scar x collette relationship headcanons their the cutest scar deserves all the love

*gently hold* ily, thank you sm!!! I'm just going to dump my lore and hcs here in one post-

I hc that Scar has at least one biological child, the lil Chirean baby we see him with in the show.

We also just-see him with a lot of kids in general. There are a lot of orphans in Zaun. You cannot toss a single pebble without hitting at least three of them/hj

I'm hcing that the kids just kinda-gravitate towards him whenever the Firelights take them in. He gives 'chill older bro' vibes, I feel like he definitely freaked out once it hit him that he'd be soloing the parenting, and he feels like he's fcking up constantly-but he's doing just fine

HC-The other bio parent is likely deceased, or decided "nah, actually-your problem now" and dipped. Feel like he wouldn't talk about it unless the person was v close

Colette did not start out with the Firelights, she started out working for Madame Margot.

This lady-

It was a total coincidence when I initially designed Colette, but I'm now using their similarities for Lore Purposes, lol. That being said, they are not blood related.

(More Colette backstory below the cut, warning for mentions of drug use, alcoholism, and prostitution. Back to the Colette and Scar hcs)

Colette-loves kids. Used to watch the brothel workers' small children. Never imagined herself having any. She has a pet burmese python named Baby though. Which uh-funny story, Scar heard her say the name and he assumed she had like a really rambunctious toddler or something.

C: "Baby will not stop climbing the walls and opening the doors" S: "Probably time to start childproofing everything." C: "I'm worried she's going to figure out how to unlock things now.... She opened a window the other day, found feathers all over the place. Pretty sure she ate a bird." And now he's convinced her kid is Vastayan because he at least hopes the woman would be more concerned if her human toddler ate a bird.

He seems to be the last to know that Baby is a snake, so whenever she says something like "Ah, she's so cute when she yawns and her jaw unhinges so wide-" he is equal parts concerned and confused like "... is... is that normal???" Thinking that humans are fcking terrifying, or this is a Vastayan thing

S: "How big is Baby again?" C: "Oh not big at all, she's still pretty young. Like... seven feet, maybe?" S: ".... ex-fucking-scuse me??"

When he finally meets Baby, he is so relieved.

Colette did not want to learn how to ride a hoverboard. She likes being on the ground, thank you. Scar had to teach her. Yes, she almost accidentally sent it flying. Yes, it almost hit him in the face. Yes, this was immediately after she said something cocky. And yes, she did feel terrible, in between horrible giggle fits.

They annoy tf out of each other, your honor. It's their love language. That's how they flirt. She's shorter than him so he'll use her as an armrest. And she'll give him a light jab in the side acting all annoyed but "wait no-put your arm back ;A; ". Love nips aplenty

Lots of her physically leaning against him. Or just, staring. She likes physical touch. But only with a select few. She trusts him.

Scar likes to share his food with her, and loves having his hair played with. Makes him melt. Maybe his ears wiggle-but don't call attention to it, lol

Colette forces the man to take a damn nap after rough patrols. Totally not an excuse to hold his baby. They all like to cuddle together. Colette is practically wrapped around the man. He doesn't mind too much, especially when it's cold-but he yelps when she touches her ice-cold hands to his back like a fcking gremlin.

Colette is not good with social cues. Scar tends to be blunt and direct-unless he's around the kids, he's a bit of a softie around them.

Colette doesn't often understand sarcasm or when someone is joking or not. Scar picks up on it easy.

Imagine Entrapta from She-ra, but with snakes and other serpentine creatures, tbh

I love Scar sm, but before we found out what his name was, I was gonna just call him Rufio. From that one Peter Pan movie, idk why I just love the name

That's all for the relationship hcs(for now)

Madame Margot is one of the chembarons and owns all the brothels in Zaun-she runs the prostitution ring. We don't get a lot of info on her or her backstory, so I'm winging it. All we know is that she's v business minded and does not like anything that might impede her.

Margot is also older than she appears, the valves on her body are used to tighten her skin-ouch. But I'm saying she never gives a straight answer on her age. But she is at least 5-10 years older than Colette

Back on track-Colette's mother was the whole reason for Colette wanting to work with venomous snakes in the first place. Although she always had a strange affinity for them-it was witnessing her mother's death to an especially venomous snake bite at the ripe ol age of ten that solidified it.

Her family used to travel a lot for her father's archeological work, and her mother's own herptology research. But after her mother's death, her father moved them to Piltover to be closer to his side of the family. And so Colette could go to a good school

Her father's side of the family weren't particularly fond of him. And by extension, Colette. They offered little in the way of compassion after his wife's death.

Things steadily went downhill from there. Her father buried himself in work and other things to distract himself, neglecting her. She spent many dinners alone, soon finding companionship in her mother's snake specimens. To the point of her preferring snakes over people.

Instead of using his vast wealth to get some damn therapy, her father took to the bottle. And then chems. Eventually shimmer. And then-anything that would make him feel something. Which Eventually lead to the brothels. This was over years, mind you, while Colette is still attending school. Top marks, splendid GPA, gal is intelligent af.

Father stops working during this time, subsisting off of savings and whatnot. And then when that runs out-oh? What's this? The money they set aside for Colette's fancy tuition and other such needs? She wouldn't mind if he just skimmed some off the top. Just a little-oops

Colette is around 16/17ish when her school tells her "yeaaah so, your tuition is due? If you can't come up with the money, we'll have to boot you and kick you out of the dorms." And she is so confused, it should already be settled. Okay, time to visit dad-

She had no idea he'd gotten so bad, he was able to keep face for the most part. And she was always busy with school. So when she starts asking around, trying to find him, she's worried thinking he up and Died on her. Only to piece together that, no, he's an addict who apparently owes a Lot of people a Lot of money, and spends his time at a brothel, where he wastes more money he doesn't have

And when Colette does, eventually, find him at the one brothel Madame Margot happens to be attending to that day-Colette lets him have it. There are a lot of emotions. She's furious, upset, betrayed-she doesn't know how she's going to afford her own tuition now because "obviously I can't depend on you" and he's completely out of it, which just makes her more mad

Madame Margot, sniffing out some prime Emotional Vulnerability, comes along all "So, This is the daughter you were talking about?" I like to think she saw herself in Colette, probably being in similar circumstances. Betrayed by someone who was supposed to help her. And, well, people selling their kids in a place like Zaun is uh, unfortunately a thing. This likely isn't the first time someone has offered their daughter to her.

Now, whether her father was aware of it or not, remains to be seen. Man is high/drunk all the time.

Colette, ofc, scared af-but-oh? Madame Margot isn't actually forcing her into prostitution? Her father signed over his rights the second he was sober-ouch?

Madame Margot wanted someone she could mold into her replacement, should she ever need one. More flies with honey tactic. It's a little tedious, Colette just wants to study her snakes. But when she starts warming up to Margot, eventually seeing her as an older sister/ aunt figure(after several years ofc)she starts keeping Margot's books for her. Helping out. Never participating in any drug or illicit activity. She's just, there.

Madame Margot does force her to start training, it's just common sense to know how to fight and defend yourself in this line of work.

Colette's work with venom scratches at Margot's "how can I use this to make money" brain. But Colette explicitly says she "doesn't want to use her venoms to hurt people, period" and damn it, Margot would usually roll her eyes and do it anyways, but now she's attached and actually cares about the "brat"

Somehow, fcking Smeech, gets his hands on Colette's venom stash. He's got people he really wants to kill. And Margot likely told him offhandedly about Colette's "little hobby". He ends up using the venom to kill someone whose family has a good amount of political power-basically, if you sneezed on this person, jailed for the night.

It gets traced to Colette. She gets blamed for it. Stillwater it is. And she knows she only told Margot about her venoms, so she assumes it was her who screwed her over. And she is Livid. Just another person she grew close to betrayed her.

Colette has a whole plan on how she's going to get back at Margot. But she has to get in close again, ofc.

Margot is furious that someone framed Colette, she knows it had to be Smeech, but she can't risk accusing him without definitive proof. Ends up having to find some poor soul to pin it on instead just to get Colette out of Stillwater. Which takes longer than anticipated, because Smeech had his goons go and wreck all the evidence so Margot wouldn't have her proof.

When Colette does get out, she plays along with Margot-all while not believing her for a single second. She trains harder, glues herself to Margot's side.

All the while noting down everything she sees and hears. But she can't just start dismantling supply chains, she's one person, and it's be suspicious if she just so happened to be AFK. So... she goes to the Firelights.

It does take her a long time to gain their trust, but she eventually becomes their informant on the chembarons and shimmer distributors.

She "starts working" at one of the brothels, but her "clients" are Firelights, she's exchanging info. Code phrases and everything. She is so careful with this

Eventually, she'll be found out and joins the Firelights completely. Using her previous studies to act as a medic of sorts. Gal wanted to follow in her mom's footsteps, dealing with snakes, had to learn first-aid.

[sillygoofyqueer]

The Untamed review: episode seven!!!!!!!

I should be fucking revising, instead I'm watching gay people

Nice scenery

LAN YI!!! My idol. I love you.

You're a one woman army and you're so so strong

She is shooketh by the thought of meeting another Sanren disciple awwww

I'm sobbing violently, she's so happy

SHE LIVED IN SECLUSION BECAUSE SHE MISSED YOU!!!

Who let Wangji and Wuxian in?? They're like stray cats

Nooo, Lan Yi....

Literally, Wuxian asking the right questions

THE. WHAT.

Xue Yang, you WORMHOLE

They ARE being silly, aren't they.

So how does one get the fuck out of them

The WHAT?? COLD POND CAVE

L-Lan Yi??? Don't go??? Please!!!! I love you so much

GET DOWN, WUXIAN, ON WANGJI'S BEHALF

Go on, Wuxian, you're stuck together

Hahaha the jutted chin towards Wangji

EW KILL IT WITH FIRE

WEN QING!!

WEN NING?! MY BABY NO

The boys have to work together now, hahaha

Wen Qing is honestly so so pretty, and so so ingenious

They're both looking for him toootalllyyyy

Only Cheng could recognise Wuxian literally screaming around

Hola pretty boy, let me fall on top of you. PLATONICALLY.

Maybe...untie him??? Also, stop dragging him around, Wangji.

Of course you didn't, Wuxian.

They look so gay like that, I think Wangji's in shock

"Wei Wuxian!" I don't know why Wuxian is smiling, I'd rather face an army over an angry sibling

What a gay situation you two are in hahahaha, not suspicious at all

A WHOLE DAY AND NIGHT??

Oh shit. The whole family has been looking

Wen Qing looking so pretty in the back.

Wen Qing, you aren't actually allowed to know. It's a secret.

Wangji looking at Wuxian for his reaction.

WUXIAN BEING THE LITERAL BEST LIAR AND THE SMILE TOWARDS WANGJI.

Wangji looks very pleased...

Wen Qing, stop it, I love you

The fuck is going on? We being treated to Xichen's expert flute playing.

They are all horrified

Wuxian looks terrified hahaha

THEY KNEW AND DIDN'T TELL YOU??? Booo.

Everyone's telling Wuxian he's smart, he's going to get an ego.

Okay, so, there's a lot of lore going on, but I'm guessing that Qiren has been going to Nie clan (Nie Mingjue) to talk about this growing issue, and Xichen has been holding down the fort here. They knew about the Yin Tiger Tally (that's what it's called in the danmei, I've forgotten it's name in this) but didn't expect it to reveal itself to Wangxian.

Wen owl thing, this can't be good

Is it trying to break through the border??? What the fuck?

WEN CLAN IS GOING FOR IT

It's hard to make funny comments when this is just lore 😔

Although, I do respect that Qiren is finally letting Wuxian be in the tea party (gossip session)

Ah, using it as a tracking device!!

The nod between Wangxian is so sweet

So just...hide it away? As if.

Wangji is literally bringing up good points, don't try and ignore them!

Wuxian is so eager to pledge promises, he's like a little kid. I love him.

"WEI WUXIAN!!! WEI WUXIAN!!!!! Second young master Lan. WEI WUXIAN!!!" Huaisang, my beloved

Huaisang has way too much trust in Wuxian, I would not trust this dumbass to look after himself

Literally throwing Wangji under the bus, no remorse hahaha

Wangji is so stoic, HE'S MEWING!!!

Cheng looks so suspicious lmao

Bro is about to tell Huaisang something and Wangji looks either concerned or jealous, I can't decide

BRO IS MAKING UP LITERAL BULLSHIT

The way Wangji relaxes

Wuxian gets the strangest joy from scaring the shit out of Huaisang and I am living for it

"never mind, don't tell me, don't wanna know" me too, Huaisang, me too

Lanterns???

Cheng approaching from behind like the next boss fight

Ohhh, he's jealous of Wangji lmaooo

The little exhale and smile on Cheng's face as Wuxian reassures him 😭 they're brothers

AND WANGJI'S JEALOUS OF HIM HAHAHA

Oh, he looks so sad, I feel really bad for him now. I want to cry.

Or maybe he's realising he's in love. One of the two

XUE YANG, YOU'RE LOOKING PARTICULARLY SLUTTY TODAY /pos

One of the Wens, who fucking knows which one at this point

Oh, Wen Chao.

Xue Yang has literally no chill.

HE LOOKS SO PLEASED OH MY LORD.

How the fuck is Wen #243 sitting like that?? Cannot be comfy

Bro is going to go feral in Yueyang

Literally just you wait, don't underestimate the Lans

HAHA YOUR FATHER DOESN'T LOVE YOU.

Awwz they're all making lanterns

Jiang Yanli, you are such a sweetheart but you can do better than Jin Zixuan. If he's who you want, I love you for it, but WEN QING!!!

"shall we make a lantern together and wish because we've been through so much together?" "I'm used to being alone" WANGJI MY BABY, YOU DON'T NEED TO BE ALONE ANYMORE

"you can change your habits."

"my lantern is made specially for you" Wuxian you fucking flirt!!!

HE DREW A BUNNY ON IT, I'M SOBBING

WANGJI SMILED!!! LIKE!!! AAAAAAAGGGHHHH!!!!

Bro was startled by his own emotions and took it out on Wuxian. Now chaos will ensue.

NIE HUAISANG, AWWW, I'M SO SORRY!!

"you can't afford it" he isn't wrong....

Qiren and Xichen coming to watch the show, actually quite sweet.

The lanterns look so pretty

WANGXIAN HAD A LANTERN TOGETHER

Wuxian looks so pleased, I am in love with this man

These are so beautiful, I wouldn't want to let mine go

Wuxian sneaking a look at his boyfriend

The little look between Zixuan and Yanli is adorable

I'm upset Qing was on her own, WHERE'S WEN NING?????

Ooh, everyone's wishing now, this is very wholesome

Hahaha "I don't want to fucking come back here" Huaisang, you're so real

"I want my little brother to be safe and sound his whole life" Qing 🥺🥺 the world doesn't deserve you

Cheng hearing and giving her the sweetest little smile, maybe they are in love

"I wish that I can stand with justice and live with no regrets" adorable, innocent sentiment, but that does not go as planned

That is the gayest look I think I've ever seen Wangji give Wuxian yet.

Man's is quite literally in love. Period.

Make a wish, dumbass!

Don't look at the Yin Tiger Tally, your wish should be GAY

Wuxian looks so happy and peaceful

This is such a sweet little scene, really breaks from the fucking lore

"what did you wish for?" "I wished you'd fucking grow up" YANLI I LOVE YOU. SO MUCH. YOU'RE SO ICONIC.

Wuxian's adorable ass pout, I love him

NONONONO THIS CAN'T GO SOUTH. PLEASE. NO.

Women. I love you. Stop it.

I'M FUCKING LOSING IT, GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER JIN ZIXUAN. SHE'S SO PERFECT AND BEAUTIFUL AND YOU'RE FUCKING IT ALL UP FOR YOURSELF.

Wuxian, kill him. Launch attack.

HOW FUCKING DARE YOU. HOW DARE YOU?!??!

WEI WUXIAN, ATTACK MODE. KILL.

GO FOR THE FUCKING THROAT.

RAAASRRGHRHRUSISBDISO

Smack him to pieces. Kill him.

What's going on??

Hahaha, Wei Wuxian's beating the shit out of Jin Zixuan.

HE WASN'T PICKING A FIGHT, HE WAS PROTECTING YANLI'S HONOUR

You two are barely fighting.

Look at how many people it takes to hold them back lmao.

WANGJI TO THE RESCUE!!!

Literally just wants him to stop, listen to him!

Holy shit, Zixuan looks like shit.

THAT'S WHAT I'M SAYING. GOOOD SNITCH. GOOD.

The muttering of distaste. Yanli looks so upset, I'm going to beat Zixuan myself.

The way they all fucking glare at him. Good

Wangji thinking that Wuxian is crying and going to make sure he's okay 🥺

Also, don't think I didn't notice that you're calling him Wei Ying now, you sly dog.

...... Don't worry, Wangji. He's just a a fucking idiot..

Wangji can't even comprehend what goes on in Wuxian's brain

He's in love hahaha

"these ants are so cute" Wuxian, I love you

The goofy ass music that plays when Wuxian is doing anything stupid is very special to me

What is he even doing???

Bro, no need to be so harsh, Jiang Fengmian

The glare bro gives him, hahaha

Cheng just wanting to mock Wuxian, I love him

Wuxian receives joy at the thought of Zixuan in pain. What a guy.

"I'd change my surname if he didn't cry because on kneeling" Wuxian is a very loveable dumbass

He's been scolded loads by Qiren, bro ain't scared. He's plotting his revenge.

GRRGRRGRRRR FUCK OFF JIN GUANGSHAN. I mean. Hello.

Nice moustache

The lads having a get together hahaha

Basically telling them to sort their shit out haha

"Wei Ying is a naughty boy" Yes, and an idiot, but not a toddler

Jiang Fengmian doesn't need to apologise on Wuxian's behalf

"I'll scold him" "no need lmao, I did it for you"

"Tell me of your request." "ABORT THE WEDDING. ABORT ABORT."

Fuck off Guangshan, let them decide.

I like Fengmian's style.

Don't blame Wuxian for everything!!!!

I love how Cheng went literally running to Wuxian

The worry on Wuxian's face 😔

STOP TRYING TO BEAT PEOPLE UP!!

He just wants to make sure Yanli is okay...

They're just being suspicious now haha

THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT THE YIN TIGER TALLY!!!

Dramatic ending to that scene

Wei Wuxian sprinting to make Jiang Yanli feel better

AWWW, STOP, I FEEL SO UPSET FOR HER

He's trying so hard, I love him for that

Paper thingy moving aaaaaghhh

I'd probably squash it

Stop, this is so sweet, Yanli looks a little happier at least

YANLI THINK ABOUT YOURSELF FOR ONCE

Go on Wuxian, you know what someone needs

I'd beat him if it were me

YES SHE WILL!!!!

"I don't want a wife" you want a husband called-

They're literally so so sweet

Back to old men gossip (and Xichen)

THEY'RE SPEAKING ABOUT XUE YANG AND HIS RAMPAGE

They've shown their cards now, you can fight back

Guys, you can't look so worried, it creates a bad mindset

HAHAAHAHA HOW LONG DID THEY PRACTICE THAT HAHA

Cheng feeling jealous 😔

Nobody can discipline Wuxian hehehe

I love how Fengmian doesn't even try to disagree

WUXIAN LOOKS SO UPSET WHEN WANGJI DOESN'T LOOK AT HIM :(((

What's up now? More shit?

I bet he's not looking at Wuxian because he doesn't want to cry

Wuxian literally has to be dragged away from Wangji

HE'S NOT HAPPY!!! HE'S VERY UPSET

Cheng is so easily calling our gay man out haha

They're literally not even out the doors and fighting already awww

I love them

Playing tag

MOCKING QIREN HAHAAHAHAH I LOVE THEM

Wangji.....you look so very sad. You're entering gay mourning now

YOU HAVE TO TELL HIM. He'll find out anyway, he's a slippery little snake.

Awww, Wuxian with playing with rabbits, that's fucking adorable

He wants them to be happy :((

He's thinking about Lan Zhan all the time. How cute.

See, he's already figured it out haha!

I wonder if we'll go back to the future yet...

[mannliker]

Some Scout tf2 props I made for a friend this year

..and the final comic dropped whatttt

I will indeed be yapping about it under the cut.

Made this from one of those big Arizona tea cans.

Arizona Beverages USA, fighting inflation since 1992 😎

not actually sponsored 😔

And my Atomizer is made from a real one-handed trainer, so if you hit people with it you can actually easily do lasting damage, just like the game wow! No triple jump though, wasn’t in the budget.

Designed these bad boys to print off, too ⬇️ I finally saved up to get a 3D printer on sale baby 😎 (and shiny ass filament babyy) It took me like half a year to save that 300 bucks but hey I’m not as broke as I once was bc I could even think of saving for something extra like that lmao. So that was absolutely hype as fuck, and calibrating it was a bitch to begin with, so the whole time the job was printing i was just staring at it, watching it go lmao. It’s literally the future. For better or for worse, we’re living in the fucking future man. Took a couple runs to get the scaling exactly where I wanted it, but i fuck w how they turned out. Blender and Cura are wonderful things. Bought the printer thinking maybe I can take on some projects, make some business here and there, make it a worthy investment, feel me?

I read the final comic today too. Spoilers ahead. I’m gonna bring up a lot of specific details/easter egg type shits that I liked. If you’d rather it remain in artistic subjectivity for your own perception and interpretation then skip to the burrito (this burrito -> 🌯 well not actually this one. the next one. looks just like this one. can’t miss it)

Ok. I want to appreciate:

1) The dedication to Rick May

2) Scout’s mailbox. The way his own family structure has come to mirror the way his mom’s was, the way it was when he was growing up.

3) Spy still doesn’t call himself Scout’s dad to other people, though I’m sure he and Scout both acknowledge it between each other at this point. And he’s shown taking his stinky ass sheisty off in front of everyone casually, which I’m sure he never would have done for most of his life. But he’s come to trust and care for Team Fortress ™️ after all these years. And he seems to have mellowed out. Reprioritized some things.

Scout is being like the father he never had, for his own kids. And he’s forgiven Spy for all that, enough to welcome him into his home, trusting him, allowing him to attempt to make up for lost time, to meet his grandkids. Scout’s forgiveness is honestly wild. I don’t think I would do the same, and *if* I did forgive, I wouldn’t forget. Well, I’m sure Scout hasn’t forgotten either. But Scout’s got a gentler heart than he’ll ever admit, through all that tough talk (and actually beating the shit out of people with baseball bats and stuff lol). And the fact that spy still won’t even call himself the kids’ grandfather.. the way he hesitates.. he probably thinks it’s better at this point if he doesn’t take up the title he doesn’t feel worthy of. He’s so irritating for that, the sad asshole. They really been serving us up some Spy and Scout lore. Comic 6 was the main course and this was the dessert man

4) They kinda acknowledged Pauling as lesbian. She was like “other women are way hotter than me” and then she and scout were like “hell yeah hot women”

5) They definitely acknowledged heavy/medic. Not in an over-the-top way. Just in a the-sweet-side-of-old-man-yaoi-medic-gently-put-his-hand-on-heavy’s-shoulder-and-they-walked-peacefully-away-together kind of way and then a they-brought-their-child-baboon-to-the-swissmas-party

6) Pauling’s conversation with Engie and the way she decided to end things, even for the Administrator. Especially for the Administrator. She had had enough bro. For herself. For the Administrator. For everyone.

7) all the fucking callbacks to previous bits and goofy shit that happened in the previous comics

8) Soldier and Zhanna naming their kids goofy ass America names that I’ve seen in fanon for years

9) the ending Olivia had, and the one Saxton and Maggie had

10) even Merasmus and Tom Jones get to be together

11) love the way the administrator’s story ended tho. She never let go, gaslighting gatekeeping her way to the end. Very fitting for her character. And all the parallel imagery they did for her parts, like the cover pages at the very beginning, the parts with Zeph’s grave, etc. And the artists really drew her well tbh. We saw a lot of her in this comic, way more than any of the others. And even at the end she had such stark features. The pencilers outdid themselves with her expressions, man. Tbh I like the art style for all of them, rly, but especially heavy, the administrator, and spy. Actually fuck that, the way all of them are drawn characterizes them so much. To me, so much feeling is captured in the way their expressions are drawn, especially in comics 6 and 7.

12) Heavy’s mom and demo’s mom as drinking buddies

13) Bronislava still got the hots for Sniper, flirting with him at the party with the mistletoe lmao

14) Bidwell and Reddy.. room for TF2 2: The Sequel when they fight to settle ownership of mann co?

🌯 burrito

The release of this comic is a bittersweet kinda thing, I think. They’re finally closing a book that’s been open for so long, one that the fans pushed hard for them to keep open as long as they did. Had we left it, they would’ve let it shut years ago. I couldn’t help but feel they were acknowledging the FixTF2 stuff in one of the final panels, when Scout was thanking the reader for sticking around through “a lot.” Unlike the preceding comics, this one was done 100% for the fans, not for the franchise. It was done for closure. They finally finished for us what they would have just ended unceremoniously years ago.

And the game will probably continue to be updated here and there for a little while, and the bots are fixed for now, but I think anything Valve has continued with tf2 is purely because of fan demand. With this final comic they’ve presented us with an end to accept. That’s just my interpretation of it, but then again it’s not that deep in the grand scheme of things. it’s just a game.

But damn if it ain’t one of the games ever. No other playerbase can hope to match the complexity of the tf-tism.

And hopefully it’ll be around a while longer bc I know damn well the lot of us will still be playing here and there as long as it’s even 1% playable lmao. The fanbase has such a grip on this game fr

Actually a shit-ton of players have returned to the game since fixtf2. the player count is fucking insane for an almost 18-yo game. Yessirrrrrr

[superpyodan]

In Regards to Chapter 43

I have a lot of Thoughts about Alex and Kenny that came out in this chapter, but I need to ramble about them a little bit because I never got the chance to fully flesh those Thoughts out in the fic.

Alex:

I imagine Alex as being very lonely, pre-Farmer. The lore for my specific version of Alex is that he's always struggled to make friends. Like... He was a high school jock, right? But the other jocks on the gridball team didn't get him. Beneath his athleticism, he is a NERD, first and foremost. This boy cares about history! Is he good at reading? No. But he cares so deeply about the intricacies of gridball :( It means so much to him :( So the other boys weren't very nice to him (I feel like i wrote about this before actually, in one of the earlier chapters?)

& Alex was super intimidated by Abby, Sam and Seb. Abby less so, considering her frienship-turned-relationship with Haley, but Alex was like 'Man! They're so cool and effortless and nice, they'd never wanna be my friend!'. This boy has SELF-ESTEEM ISSUES! (and a praise kink)

Turns out, Sam and Alex get along super well. I'm probably going to write this into the sequel, because it's important to me, especially considering Kenny and Sam's.... History.... And Abby loves Alex so much. Like, that's her boy! She adores him!

Anyways, Evelyn worries a lot about Alex being lonely. He's been lonely his whole life. Not anymore, though, because he has Kenny :3 (I KNOW THEY'RE NOT SPEAKING RIGHT NOW BUT OBVIOUSLY THEY'RE DESITINED TO BE TOGETHER. THEY'RE SOULMATES, GUYS. EMILY SAID SO.)

Kenny:

'Found Family' is so, so, incredibly important to Kenny. He doesn't know it, pre-Pelican Town, because he's all like... ''Oh I'm cool and independent, I don't need anyone and also I don't trust anyone.'' but he is shown so much unequivocal love by the people in Pelican Town that he's eventually like... ''Damn :') These people are my family. I don't need my parents, because I've got my friends!''

He gets emotional about Evelyn referring to him as 'family' for that reason, and also the fact that he's obviously completely totally deeply in love with Alex. Like, Evelyn knows that Alex is gay, she's known it, and before anything is even revealed to her or made official she's just like ''Yup. Kenny belongs to the Mullners now.'' and Kenny's so.... EMOTIONAL about it, bro.

Evelyn had such a strong bond with Kenny's grandpa and it really shows. She's so proud of who Kenny is, and sees a lot of his grandpa in him. She's just so happy that Kenny and Alex found each other.

This one's not fully fleshed out but I like to think that Evelyn knows that Kenny's dad is a bit of an asshole. Like, with Kenny's parents, his dad is the problem, which I explore more in the sequel. Kenny's Grandpa is on the paternal side, and it's as if the nice gene just... skipped a generation.

I think that's it.

[alatismeni-theitsa]

https://www.tumblr.com/genericpuff/720535211825381376/you-mentioned-multiple-times-that-persephone-is-a?source=share

Came into this post that analysis Rachel the author from Lore Olympus and...some of her writing choices make sense now..

I mean she has in her interview saying her previous words had lolita themes....and you can clearly see the same vibes into LO and also other toxic relationship themes that are portrayed in the series.

Again it's an issue when the author sexualises their protagonist a lot when the target audience are mostly teenagers

This was an interesting read! It shows the bigger pattern of "trust me bro I know exactly what I'm doing, and I'm doing something deep" while doing none of that. Thank you for sending it! I will reblog it later! I really like how OP went into detail before they say their opinion, and didn't just speculate out of the blue.

I disagree a bit with the end of the post because I don't put it against Rachel that she has types of characters she prefers and that she can be self-indulgent, and I think when she writes her characters doing problematic things she is aware of that. Of course the critique here is that she's doing that a lot, creating some patterns that are not as nice as she thinks.

I agree a lot with that statement, though: "Rachel's own beliefs and values [....] that women should be as cute and innocent as they can be until any degree of opposition or questioning comes their way, in which they are justified in exercising outright cruelty and abuse towards those in their way, with no in-between." Because yuppp, I've noticed that a lot with her "good" female characters.

[ataraxiaspainting]

we 👏 need 👏 more 👏 aya 👏 lore!!!

of course! <3

i've recently have been getting back into hades, baldur's gate 3, disco elysium, and fear and hunger. fields of mistria still has me in a chokehold though...... it's just an amazing game. james from team rocket will be mine.....

i've been having nothing but machi thoughts recently. she's just so... pretty... and deadly... i can cook. i can clean. (trust) i've been saving fanart and official art of her on my phone for a few weeks now and i think my storage just be at least 10% pics of the phantom troupe in general. rat king one (chrollo) and rat king two (feitan), move aside. she'd treat me better. (copium)

i'm watching the new uzumaki series. the first episode: amazing, round of applause, pure artistry. the second episode: ...i'm sorry mr. ito, but there was no budget. maybe five dollars. it was disappointing but i'm trying not to lose hope. i love uzumaki and junji ito's stories in general!

on my tea kick. i love unsweetened tea, but i'm attempting to warm up (heh.) to sweetened tea with milk and stuff. nothing can ever beat black earl grey with lemon though (with a small pinch of sugar if the aya gods are begging for something sweet for once). i would become a missionary just to spread the message of this godly beverage.

i used to take a lot of self-defense classes when i was younger. a lot of sports too. i was on my way to becoming a gym rat bro thing but alas; covid hit. a travesty because now i have forgotten most of the stuff i learned. i would like to take them again eventually. my 5'4 ass cannot square up with anything.

[aerixwri]

everything Important lest i forget

Title: On the Class Mayor's Records Genre: Mystery Thriller

Theme: Is the truth worth revealing if people would rather accept the lie they live in? Characters: (more to come)

Kathleen Razon (protagonist, detective, burnt-out fuck) Henry Gustillo (antagonist, class mayor, pompous two-faced bitch) Gabriella/Gabi Mendoza (victim, art kid, was minding her own business until she didn't) Mackie Nuevo (victim's lover, student athlete, siMP SIMP) Ingrid/Iday Arellano (reluctant ally, math wizard/treasurer, anger issues to the hundredth power) Jude Aguilar (second-hand man, vice mayor, so loyal it's gay) Sereine Lin (no drama pls, popular nice girl, probably the only sane one. probably) Ezra Razon (sickly brother, emo guitar player, affection-starved; feed him) Crisanto Espiritu (witnessed something, the choir kid, abandonment issues go brrrrrr) Javier Enrique (reluctant accomplice, photographer aesthetic, alexa play good luck, babe by chappel roan) Seb Lawrence (actual accomplice, school celebrity who's actually a celebrity, bro why are you playing good luck, babe by chappel roan) Eleodora Bautista (who is she?, face of the school, she definitely commited trust me bro) Setting: If you're wondering why the surnames are vaguely mexican/spanish sounding, that's because all of my characters are from the Philippines! Their story takes place in the municipality of Asalorez, which I recently found out is the Philippine equivalent of a town, you learn something new everyday. However, the main setting where all the stabby stabby things happen would be in Colegio de Santa Mariana, a private catholic school on the outskirts of the municipality that has a much more prestigous branch in Manila.

I'm still working on the lore of my worldbuilding because while Asalorez is a fictional mix of my surroundings the political scenario plays a heavy role in it, especially in the school, and I, like so many people out there, have a love-hate relationships with politics rn. ================================================ There's definitely more important stuff that need to be added, a lot of things have to be taken into considerations, but so far bear witness to what two to threeish years of daydreaming gets you to.

[1moremilgram-enjoyer]

Continuing on "Haru's quest to annoy FF about every character in Milgram because they had the bad luck of getting interested in it basically at the same time he did" (/lh) Next on the list of prisoners is Fuuta. I remember you once said that he's one of your favorites along with Amane, Mikoto, and Muu, so I'm interested to hear you cover him !

Ah, so that’s why you’re doing this, your character motivation. The lore thickens. /lh

Yeah, I like Fuuta quite a bit. I’m always a sucker for protag foils, and since we can consider Es and even ourselves as the protag(s), then obviously I was going to love Fuuta. His views on justice are really interesting when considering we kinda do the same thing he ended up in Milgram for, deciding on people’s fates with horribly incomplete information and trying to justify to ourselves why we’re in the right for causing these people psychological pain. Not like it’s gonna stop me from voting people guilty when I think it’s deserved though lol.

CW: Cyberbullying, mention of suicide and murder.

(T2) Q9: How do you feel about the first trials results?

F: You’re the same as me.

Oh yeah that’s the good shit right there.

That is certainly a huge factor, Fuuta is great as a reflection to some of Milgram’s main themes and I love him for that. Even if his personality is maybe reminiscent of some other characters I’ve seen (when did Xander Matthews and Ace Markey have a secret love-child and why does he have a Bakugo complex), he’s still unique enough that I don’t see it as much of a problem.

And let’s not kid ourselves. Part of me enjoying a character sometimes comes from loving their song, and not only is Bring it On a banger like no other, Backdraft is probably my favorite Milgram song.

There’s also just a certain amount of hilarity that comes with the fact that people in Trial 1 managed to inno someone they believed to be a damn organ harvester then turn around and guilty my guy for having a Twitter account. Truly the most unforgivable of crimes.

It’s especially interesting now with Backdraft the theories around his “murder”, because I actually think it may be one of the more unclear ones in terms of what happened. You might have seen there’s a theory he wasn’t the one to start the witch hunt on the girl that ended up dying, which I find is quite believable even if we still have to explain what was going on with that photo he took of someone’s home in his Undercover silhouette thing. But what’s even crazier to me is the goddamn Undercover kill shot where his victim has both shoes on, unlike Mahiru’s and Kazui’s. Does this imply it wasn’t a suicide? Is it because whoever has the orange spray paint that shoots really straight at the one graffiti’s forehead actually murdered the girl themselves? But Fuuta still got blamed for it?

Hey remember when I said the more headache inducing a character the more I’m going to love them?

Anyways, I also think it’s cool how much Backdraft references the events during Milgram themselves. I love Es appearing in a prisoner’s song, too, especially with the whole “the one shadow from Purge March kinda looks like Es thing”-

Oh yeah Amane! I love her dynamic with Fuuta so, so much. They’re so cool and awesome and great and I hope Fuuta doesn’t get too indoctrinated but also I think it’d be kinda funny. I don’t think it would happen though, I trust big bro Fuuta will help Amane reject her cult’s teachings please I need them to have a wholesome ending where they just eat cake and play video games together you know Amane would beat his ass in any game even though she’s probably never touched a videogame in her life-

I am immensely normal about them, as you can clearly tell.

Anyways, some other things which I find really interesting.

(T1) Q1: What is a friend?

F: Folks you can get hyped over the same thing with

(T2) Q16: Do you have a lot of online friends?

F: I don't know if we were friends or not. There were times when we had fun together. But I don't know if I can call it that.

Am I reading this wrong or did my guy change his definition of what a friend is specifically to exclude his old friends? Because that’s some crazy character development right there.

(T1) Q9: Do you have apologetic feelings for who you killed?

F: I never killed anyone. Didn't you hear me? I thought you were a guard!

(T2) Q6: Do you remember the name of the person you killed?

F: I'm pretty sure I do. I saw it often after all.

So he’s admitting he did kill someone in a way. More character development.

(T1) Q10: Which prisoner do you get along with the most?

F: I'm not anyone's happy friend. Well Haruka's younger, so I take care of him.

(T2) Q2: How do you feel about Haruka?

F: This isn't the time to worry about other people. Plus it's not like he's a kid either.

More changes, my guy really is very different from trial 1 himself and I think that makes him extremely compelling.

Okay I need to stop or I’m gonna be here forever, this guy is just all kinds of silly. Anyways, love him. Please don’t get indoctrinated into Amane’s cult.

(T2) Q14: What are you thinking about now?

F: Maybe because I'm anxious, but I want something to rely on.

Please. Fuuta you’re like the only one there who might be able to reach her Fuuta please.

Anyways, I gotta go before those two rot my brain further. Hope you enjoyed! Take care!