#truly tho i don't even remember where i got this one? i've had it for. at LEAST eight years probably closer to ten

[andsotheuniverseended]

@queerical replied to your post:

butyanother one?

and it’ll be a whole new life when i do!

[barblaz-arts]

Stephanie Beatrice had played my 3 favorite characters (Rosa Mirabel and Vaggie) and since I watched Encanto and B99 I have my head canon that Vaggie have both Rosa and Mirabel personalities.

Any way, I just want to know what is your head canon or theory about her? ( specifically about Lute calling her weak and why the other exorcist hate her)

Since she is your girl, I would love to read your essay about her.(I’m joking you don’t have to write that much I just like to read your post)

Thank you

"My girl"... Am I just "that one artist who's the biggest Vaggie stan" to you guys? (I won't mind it!)

Oh man! I do have some ideas! A lot of my headcanons were already kinda sorta mentioned in my fic/art tho, so sorry if you're not getting a lot of new info

- I have this headcanon that Vaggie's always been "softer" than the other Exorcists, which is what I assume Lute meant when she said she "always knew [Vaggie] was weak". I know it probably has more to do with how little time each episode has, but what if Lute was so ready, already behind Vaggie when she let that kid go, because she knew this wasn't the first time Vaggie spared a sinner? Maybe that was just the first time Lute actually caught her. Maybe she's always had her suspicions, when Vaggie's kill count would lower every year, and she'd sometimes find Vaggie saying a sinner got away somehow despite cornering that demon moments ago.

- although she's gotten used enough to her lack of depth perception when it comes to her hand eye coordination, especially when fighting, i like to think her reading ability could never truly go back to the way it used to be, so she has trouble reading/ writing/texting (if you notice, i always showed instances of this in my fic ;> )But because she's the hotel manager she still has to deal with them because of paperwork and shit, so she has prescription glasses that help. I'd wanted to include a scene in the First Guest where Vaggie almost cries after seeing Charlie thru the glasses for the first time, because she didn't think Charlie could be any more beautiful, but i scrapped the idea because I couldn't expand the concept enough to an actual scene that could be relevant to the overall fic. I probably should have just mentioned it in a paragraph or something, but by the time i remembered id already posted the chapter I intended to add it in. Maybe I'll use it for another fic.

- she prefers femme clothing so she doesn't really have a reason to do this, but she learned how to do all kinds of ties so that she could do Charlie's whenever

- she grew her hair to compensate for her lost wings

- she wasn't exactly a great cook before she Fell, but she was pretty capable when she lived alone in Heaven. Cooking for Charlie tho gave her the motivation to get better and actually enjoy it

- an angel trait that she could never truly abandon is being a stickler for rules. She's very strict on everyone and herself with these things, within reason. So even when she and Charlie started dating, she insisted that they can't sleep together until they've had their third date. When they're on the clock, they have to be professional and avoid flirtatious advances in front of staff and guests. Charlie didn't mind because she prefers privacy too.

- Vaggie's physical appearance slightly changed gradually the longer she stayed in hell. As an angel, her sclera was paler, her incisors duller, and her skin grayer. But as time passed, her sclera got more and more peach/pink, fangs sharper, and skin more purple toned

- i still like to think that Vaggie's old backstory back when only the pilot was out (having died in 2014 in her early twenties who worked as a sex worker in El Salvador) was still true. Maybe it's just because I've liked Chaggie since pilot, and I've grown really attached to that backstory. I also just really don't want Vaggie to be Heavenborn for some reason. Among the cast she just seems the most grounded to reality to me, so having her revealed to have never been human and born "divine" just doesn't seem right to me. I also just think it'd be cute and funny if it turns out she's chronologically the youngest in the hotel even tho she's basically everyone's strict not-mom.

- idgaf what Adam says, I wanna think that "Vaggie" is short for "Evangeline". I used to have these 2 coworkers in their late 50's to 60's who had Evangeline as their government name, but one of them goes by "Vanj" and the other "Vajee". Being older Filipino women who aren't really too fluent in English, they never thought there was anything wrong with that when they grew up with their nicknames. I like to think that the case was the same if Vaggie used to be human. I'm not sure how common English is in El Salvador, but I'm willing to bet it's possible she could have been given that nickname as a kid by an older family member who didn't know a lot of English. Also Evangeline makes more sense to have been the name of an angel cmon now...

[profounddefendorcrusade-blog]

I feel bad for Starlo. (pt. 3)

Starlo's friend, his BEST FRIEND, the woman who he's been in love with long ago (maybe he still is, we don't know because he's so nice as not to act on his feelings or even show them), the person who was supposed to be there for him, be understanding even tho she doesn't share the same passion, be considerate of the feelings Starlo's always been dealing with (hating being born a farmer, hating himself, hating feeling worthless and unappreciated)... Now, don't get me wrong, there were instances where she did try to understand his obsession and pretend she was into it, but it kinda just... fell flat. Even Ceroba herself admits:

Then there were moments like this:

Yeah, Ceroba's not trying too hard to "roll with his punches" here. It feels like she's constantly trying to figure out whether to be accepting of Star because he's so passionate, or annoyed because they're not on the same wavelength.

Then we get these:

Well, based on all this, you'd think she'd be understanding of him later on, at least on an emotional level (aka understand as to WHY he's been more 'selfish' and 'reckless' ever since Clover arrived,) but...

What now??

You mean how, instead of being miserble like when he was just a farmer who couldn't do much for his community, he now pretends not to be miserable by entertaining you all? Right??? Or do you mean he's changed in a DAY because of Clover?

But what?

huh

So you want to see the farmer who feels worthless, just being the Nice Guy™ he always has been (I decided to check out TV tropes for Star, and found out how he's basically been the "Nice Guy" archetype before Clover came. So I repeat: what's the issue with him stepping out of that for a day? I explained already how the guy's NOT to fully blame here and I really mean it. Yeah he has flaws, yeah Clover's presence brought out the "worst" in him, but we mustn't forget who he's been before that and that his true motivation has always been lifting up everyone's spirits).

The guy made all the sacrifices he could (not only worked hard to make the entire Wild East thing come to fruition, but basically became a rebel, when you remember humans are hated by monsters, and he's basically openly idolizing them) for his loved ones and even strangers. It's always been him relying on outer validation and doing stuff for others in order to feel important. But he never felt truly understood. By training Clover, he actually got to spent time with a human kid who's so much like him and shares not only the same love for westerns but the same "justice" quality. Sure, Ceroba had tried to understand, but ultimately failed and Star himself had to explain to her why he'd been acting the way he did, after Showdown.

You don't want him to have pride in himself and feel cool for a single day, Ceroba? She mentions how he's never been as ecstatic as he was that day. So in other words, Star's always been a wild card when it came to the sheriff business but not THIS wild. Which I'm sure means how other monsters have always been his main focus, and not him acting all arrogant (ties in well with that "Nice Guy" archetype). Even the training didn't feel too crazy to me, tbh. He only locked Martlet up because of the potential of his town being shut down. It's a town that he's been working on for so long, the town that makes him feel like he's more than just a nobody. Plus, he says how locking Martlet up was only a temporary solution:

I feel like I've said this a million times before, but Starlo's not a bad guy or a jerk, he just wants to be appreciated and loved and understood. Yet even his closest friends couldn't put themselves in his shoes and think: Why? What's the true motivation of Star idolizing Clover? Of him apparently acting "out of hand"?

I'll post the last part of this huuuuge rant sometime soon

[oekaki-chan]

hey c! can i ask how do we get over the feeling of embarassment when drawing self-indulgent shippy fanart? i've seen most of your amazing art and i've noticed that you don't seem to hold back when drawing fanarts, it's really beautiful with the way you portray characters' intimate relationships.. be it thru manga, illustrations, sketches. I have quite a lot of ideas on my mind that I want to draw similar to what you've drawn in terms of shipping characters, but I can't help but feel embarassed most of the time when I attempt to draw, thinking that it's "cringe" or I should draw something else with more deeper meaning into it, not just shippy stuff.. so I get very hesitant posting said art online or even starting the sketch (i haven't drawn 95% of my written ideas for nearly a year ;_; pain lol) since a few of my friends might see and question it lmao but deep down i really want to draw them ofc! i'm just very scared with what others think, but I do want to show myself more through my art and what I really like to draw.. Have you had a similar feeling of embarassment too c? I'm sorry if this got too long, I don't rly have any artist friends to talk to this about :')) I'm just so amazed at how you're able to fight the fear and just draw what you want in the end ^-^ I hope I can be like that too with myself and art, there are rare times where I just say f*ck it and post it anyway but 99% of the time is just me overthinking on whether it's cringe or not but I want to be cringe so bad so I can just be free and draw whatever the heck I want! ahh so many conflicting feelings ;_; i hope you get what I mean, thank you again for responding to my previous asks with the colors and numerous questions! I'm sorry for being so curious lol i just want to draw my favorite characters to kiss and cuddle so bad but im too scared to even draw them so intimately like that so i dont even draw majority of my ideas for fear of being judged :'D :') :(( hope u had a nice day c!

I might never show it but actually I relate to you so hard, it's not once or twice that I keep overthinking if my art is too self-indulgent and cringe, everytime I'm about to post my art I'm one click away to post it but I always have this nagging worry of people judging my art (even tho there's nothing wrong with it, for god's sake!!!) so I just spend another 30 minutes worrying about it until I close my eyes, flick my finger quickly, and close the tab.

And oh god in heaven put a curse on meme culture for this because there was this one instance when someone made a corny meme out of my art (that's not even a funny drawing) and dared to send it to me, I know it's only one person but it's enough to crush my confidence in drawing and posting shippy/emotional art.

Whenever I draw my favorite characters looking all seductive and cool I always worry people would think it's cringe, whenever I draw characters kissing I always worry people would think I'm weird, but then I remember about the other artists I like who post (their own) self-indulgent stuff and they make me joyous, I want people to feel the same way about my art when I post my own self-indulgent art too, so I guess that's what keeps me doing what I do today 😂

My 2023 resolution is just to stop giving a single damn about what people think of my art, if they think it's cringe then so be it, I can't control the mind of people, at least the cringe art gives me the happy brain chemicals and that's what truly matters 😊

[astronomergrump]

unsure if people have ask you this but like have tips (or tutorial) for draw grumpuses? /nf

Nope! I've never had anyone ask how I draw grumps ur the first! :3

ill try my best to explain how I draw grumps and some tips, even though I'm not very good at explaining stuff.

But also, fair warning there are headcanons of grumpus biology and other things. :P

But I have...2-3 ways I draw grumpuses, more animalistic or more of a cartoonish way.

But I'd have to say that you'd have to really study the cast we've got in bugsnax, study their body types. Such as with eggabell and my drawing of her.

Her original body shape is eggie, such with her name hehe.

But with more rounder grumpuses (especially more in the stomach and hips area), I've interpreted their round side with fat. In eggabell's body shape you can see how her bottom area is more big than the rest of her body. In the drawing that I made, her body is large in the bottom but makes it way to be thinner just like in her og body. But with more plump grumps they have dewlaps. (Which if I remember properly are made of fat and fur for nesting)

Even with grumpuses like floofty (including other rounder grumps such as snorpy and beffica) >>

In their original yk body and proportions, hips are big, but slowly move up to become thinner. But unlike eggabell they're not yk egg shaped.

But ofc their are....thinner grumpuses, such as wambus or wiggle. Unfortunately I've not drawn them, but I will show my skinnier ocs I've drawn before.

These two grumpuses (even tho they're both undead might I add) have similar proportions as a human would. Mostly with the ratio hips to chest.

But I draw their bodies segmented, say with my skinny grumps you can see how both of their bodies/torsos are made up of three shapes. But with grumpuses like Beffica and Floofty, their bodies are segmented into two main shapes.

But getting into faces and jaw lines...thats always threw me off a bit. But generally speaking I mostly draw faces for grumpuses to be more canine like, either that or to be an animal that more or so fits the characters's.

While I don't really and truly draw much of the actually cast, I fully believe that a character like uh... Say lizbert, if I'm writing this down incorrectly please tell me, but with her I'd imagine she'd more or so look like a seal in the face. A buff seal.

But in general, either more canine or feline like.

With jawlines tho, grumpuses without over/underbites are flat faced. So take that into consideration especially, as their snout would probably point out a bit it wouldn't point out as far as a grumpus with an under/overbite. Say like a pug or smth, they're faces are mostly flat and not as long as dogs with long snouts. Grumpuses with over bites as we all know have teeth that rest above the bottom jaw, causing their teeth/tusks to poke out from their lip. Ditto with underbites, but their bottom jaw goes out more than the top jaw. (Poodles is meant to look like a poodle so that's why her snout points out, BUT I PROMISE THAT'S NOT HOW I USUALLY DRAW IT)

Oh and hair! And eyes as well. Hair, as I assume for grumpuses, can grow on their heads. But it would have to majorly have to deal with genes if a grumpus baby does have hair or fur that grows similarly to fur.

Such as with my two grumpus ocs, one has fur, the other has hair. Again as I've stated, I believe that a grumpus probably needs some type of recessive gene from both parents to successfully grow hair. But it's not really and truly a very rare thing to have. Like I'd assume 45 out of 100 grumps have hair that does differ from long fur.

With eeeyyyeeesss thooo, I imagine it's very similar to what humans have. Such as different eye shapes, sometimes even different patterns of pupils, but that would depend on where the grumpus originates from and how far they we're in the food chain. So yes again, genes. In my own hc I believe grumpuses have 3 different pupils that depend on their gene origin, round pupils (like humans), slit pupils (like cats), and squared pupils (like horses or goats).

We could also get into fur. But again like everything else I've stated before, genes and origins play a huge role in that

But um... For tips, I'd say mostly try and study their anatomy. As well facial structure especially with animals.

As well, take in consideration of characters body shape and anatomy. Even ur own characters.

[charmspoint]

idk if i'm poking a hornet's nest, if i am, feel free to ignore this ask. i just wanted to know: what are your thoughts on jjk? i'm genuinely really interested because i've started reading it and i'm really enjoying it so far. and i love how it's inspired so much fanwork and analysis, but also, a bit of criticism. idk ... what's your response to it? sorry for sending such a vague ask!

Oh don't worry at all, if there is one thing I can be counted on is to share my opinion on p much anything I can have an opinion on, loudly and in length.

So here are few things to consider before giving my opinions any weight

I don't read shonen because I think it will be good hjbhbh this sounds mean but like, as frustrating as it is, shonen not being As Good As I Would Like It To Be, is kind of the point. I almost NEVER write fanfics about manga i really truly love. If i asked my followers now I don't know if they would be able to name my fav manga n anime. I read shonen to have something to write about, to have something to fill out and develop.

Shonen focuses a lot on fights. I don't care about fights. My primary interests when I'm reading are A. Characters B. World building. Shonen has these but they are never the focus, the focus is setting up a cool way to have a cool fight, whatever that means in the world of the particular story. This of course doesn't apply to every shonen manga, don't come for me, but it applies to a lot of the popular ones and it applies to JJK

All that to say: I'm not the target audience and I know it, if you are looking for an opinion of someone who really really really likes shonen manga and is into the major aspects of it that's not me and I won't give you any useful insight on that.

Onwards with my thoughts:

JJK is really really fun at the beginning! If you just started reading it you are in for a fun time for a good bit. The characters are interesting and show a lot of promise, the central themes are cool, the designs are badass and it has one of the better adult supporting cast which I, as an adult who can no longer really identify with teen protags, really appreciate. It has amazing villains, some of the better treated women in shonen (tho keep in mind that is a very low bar) and enough emotional content to keep you digging for more. It had me teared up at least once! It's world is very interesting and the psychology and the make up of it are just MADE for someone like me who specializes in studying pain and grief and death to splash around in.

It's just that after a bit...it stumbles. I think it's p much unanimously agreed at this point that the shibuya arc was the high note after which the manga very very slowly started getting dull. The nature of where it was headed meant that a lot of new characters had to be introduced only to be immediately discarded. It was a death game where it didn't really feel like the main characters were in danger which, after Shibuya which had a high death toll on known and bellowed characters, just had me kind of disinterested. Death game with no stakes is BAD. It's hard to explain all the ways i just kind of stopped caring. Combination of the inflation of the cast with characters I didn't care about while leaving the old ones by the wayside. Feeling like the most interesting of new characters got sidelined (suspiciously mostly women...remember what i said about the low bar), while the boring ones stuck around. It started feeling rare that the manga hits an emotional point (it did happen, it was this era of the manga in which it almost brought me to tears) but even the hits would get undermined with something later that made them stumble and fall flat. A lot of promising, cool things, conversations, backstory details, interactions that were expected and predicted from the first half just kind of fizzled out, didn't happen, or were done so quickly and offhandedly that it got me saying 'is that really how he's gonna do this'. It was just a pile of small disappointments that grew and grew until I found myself not as excited for the new update like i once was, till i found myself completely forgetting to check if the new chapter was there or not.

All in all, I would place JJK very close to BNHA in terms of my feelings for it: Very promising but can't live up to its own ideas. Or to be fair, can't live up to my ideas. Every time I check in Gege seems to be having a blast and in the end that's what's most important. I'm just someone writing in the blanks he left behind according to my own interests lol.

[our-future-is-up-to-us-2]

Chain Reaction

Kinda just posting fics on both Tumblr and AO3 now? It's fun <33 (I've posted WAY MORE on my AO3 tho, and I'm consistent there)

BUT BUT BUT IT'S ANOTHER DAY OF THE JACKAL FIC, YAYYYY!!!

PLEASE BEWARE THO. SPOILERS FOR EPISODE 8 ARE AHEAD. IF YOU DON'T WANNA BE SPOILED THEN DON'T READ THIS <3

Word Count: 878

Relationships: Bianca Pullman & Vincent Pyne

Warnings: Murder, blood, canon-compliant things related to episode 8 (which are triggering to most but I won't spoil)

~ Read the fic under the cut ~

“Hey, hey– Bianca. Listen to me. Listen to me, I swear to god, you’re ok!” 

The bathroom is cramped and she is shaking, trying to breathe again. She’s spinning out of control, and she hates every second. How the fuck does this happen?! And to her, of all people. 

It drives the knife right in. 

The images flash through her mind, unrelenting: Larry, there, in prison, actually talking to her, talking to her– And she swears she hears something rattling, but that could be anything, anywhere. And the poor guy scoffs at her and refuses her help, her genuine check-in on his life and wellbeing. 

Well, so much for a truly spoken apology. With her reputation, it doesn’t get her anywhere. 

It’s fair enough that Bianca Pullman, black, woman, MI6, is treated poorly. People look the other way. Most don’t expect someone like her at the investigative helm, and the rest don’t expect her to be this fucking ruthless. 

It’s in her nature, with what she’s surrounded by, and what she’s dealt with. 

This mission is worse than the last, though, by far. Her determination to track down The Jackal has led her to murdering a family, one by one. 

Emma was the first to fall. A cardiac arrest killed her, but who got her into police custody in the first place? 

Second was Alison, if she even remembers correctly. She remembers the clouds forming in the sky, grey and dismal, as they inspect the hotel where her body remained. 

“Yeah,” Bianca had said, “That’s Sparrow. My asset.” 

Not just an asset, a friend. But it doesn’t feel like that. 

She only fell thanks to Larry, and Larry wasn’t even the next one to go. 

Norman Stoke. The gunmaker. Right, he was a fine fellow. Taking his sweet time in Belarus, only to rush like the wind… Hosting The Jackal in his company, too. 

She wonders, in that moment, how people even become friends with an assassin. 

Someone killed Norman before they could get him to talk. She shudders at those dull tones that rattle through her skull, “ I don’t have the foggiest idea what you’re talkin’ about… ” 

And finally, Larry. Brothers to the end, they were. 

And he admitted it to Bianca, exactly what she’d done: The connections, she’d used Alison to get to Emma, and vice versa, and the same cycle with himself and Norman. 

That drove him to one place, a place she didn’t expect him to go. 

The rattling noise grew louder, until the man yelled something, and he was gone. 

‘Rattling noise’ was, of course, the cause of death. 

The blood is on her hands with that one, well and truly– 

“I’ve got you, Bianca.” Vincent has to repeat, “You’re in a fucking bathroom, with me, and nowhere else.” 

The MI6 agent gasps and rests a hand over her heart, hearing its erratic beats. She is alive. She is safe. Her best friend is here. 

“Fuck…” She whispers, tears blurring her vision, “Vincent, you don’t get it, I’ve got blood on my hands. Fucking blood! ” 

Vincent takes a deep breath, holding her hands tightly. He only does so because the blood has been washed away. Because Bianca stood at the sink and let the water run and did not remove her hands for thirty-odd minutes. 

“This job is difficult. It’s complicated as fuck, and you of all people would know that. I’ve never seen you this affected before.” His eyes narrow while his voice softens. 

She shakily nods her head, “I wonder why, Vince. Everything’s finally caught up to me, and I thought I’d fucking escape it! God!” 

“But you’ve dealt with the targets constantly. When you know nothing about them, you take hits, you do whatever is necessary, easy. When it’s your next-door neighbour, it’s harder. And then, imagine if it’s– I don’t know, your mum.” 

“ Bad example. ” Bianca hisses, giving his hands a forceful squeeze as though to punish him, “ Really bad example. And now I’m all out of shape, and it’s like I can’t go on.” 

“You can go on, though. I know you can. You nearly got shot the other week and took it like it was a regular Tuesday!”  

“Because it was a regular Tuesday, Vince, but this?! It’s hardly the same.” 

He lets go of her, gives her the distance she must be craving. The last thing that Bianca Pullman is, is touchy-feely. But Vincent knows her better than anyone, knows her limits and what is safe. 

“I’ve got something that might help.” He steps back towards the bathroom door, “What if I told you I had Alexander Duggan’s file in Conference Room Two?” 

Her eyes brighten as she looks down at her hands. They’re shaking, of course. She balls them into tight fists and sucks in a breath. 

“Don’t fuck around with me, Vince.” 

“No, I’m serious.” He says, “With Isabel and Osi, probably. We can always reschedule if you need more time. You’re entitled to more time.” 

“Fuck it.” She sighs, motioning her head towards the door, “You lead the way. Fucking need some advancement on this.” 

“To clear your head?” 

“Yes,” She hums, cracking a smile as he holds the door open for her, “Yes, to clear my head, mate. Why the fuck else?” 

[tobiasdrake]

One last task to take care of before we infiltrate Fort Fleshy.

I was twiddling them earlier when I was flying around the map just to see what I could find. This place is definitely an intricate combination lock.

Could be the key to releasing Duke Aventry. Might just be Roro's porn stash. Either way, we won't know until we've cracked it. Personally, I think we should forego the lock and just bring Yolande in to blow this support column to hell.

Sure, we can also do that. Yoyo knows everything and is loyal to no one, so there's no reason she wouldn't assist us but no guarantee that she would either. Worth a shot.

Your swamp is a maze and I hate it. Give me useful information or I'll make your other eye look like the one I'm wearing on this necklace.

...

I mean. Good afternoon, Yoyo. What a pleasant day we're having. Could you possibly help me break into your sister's porn stash?

Yep. Got it. Just like the Watchmaker. Not motivated enough to directly assist us but also not motivated enough to put up with the violence that's going to ensue if you don't. One whole "Not My Fucking Problem", served and delivered.

I've seen these runes before. I remember wondering what they were about. But the Roro Heist was so long ago, I'd forgotten.

Thanks, Yoyo. This was a fairly neutral level of non-assistance. Your cauldron didn't even tell me anything new; Just reminded me of answers I've already witnessed.

Here we go. The most closely-held secrets of the embodiment of evil incarnate....

...are a backdoor into this vault we've already been in. Okay but why tho.

What is even the point of this? The combination to the lock is written on the wall, and if you take that combination to an island off the coast and enter it into a secret crypt, it will open a passage to bring you right back here but now the treasure's unlocked.

This is the most roundabout key I've ever seen. Only a truly despicable mind would come up with something so needlesly convo-

...

Oh.

That's what the convoluted circuit loop lock is guarding? Roro makes this whole trip every single time she wants to write a new entry?

Well. We did not find her porn stash. Instead, we found her daily workout regimen. An awkward way to get your steps in but credit where it's due, it means she can't skip out on the routine.

Hold up, she repurposed your journal into her own? That is a whole new layer of domineering.

You need to get out of this relationship, my dude. Like. I think it's pretty clear at this point that she does not respect your personal space at all.

There is a vacancy. We butchered the creature that was occupying it, so if you want to go back, you can.

Oh cool, new Ferry ticket.

Honestly, not 100% sure why Aventry wanted us to come here. Unless this is the place he has fond memories of or something.

I dunno. We'll smash and grab first, then sift through the loot and figure out what we're supposed to do with it later.

Oh shit, it's Roro's private residence. That's what he gave us. I guess that other place was just her work office.

...do you think she'll be happy to see us? I guess there's really only one way to find out. *clears throat* HEY BESTIE--

How have you been? Raised any cool horrors lately? I saw your sister the other day, she seemed to be doing... adequately.

Anyway, we gotta talk about your boy. You're keeping the leash wound a little too tight and--

Okay, but was it really your journal? He had it first. How does that saying go? Two wrongs balance each other out and make everything ultimately fine.

But also that's lame and I prefer it when things are unbalanced in my favor, so now I need to rob you even more.

You heard her, team. We're looking for a locket. Fan out and--

Oh, yeah. We're old pals. It's just too bad she keeps her place in such a miserable state. Look at this place. Bones and flesh just lying strewn about.

I'd offer to help clean up but honestly, that sounds like too much work. Zale, you're pretty good with clutter, why don't you sweep the place.

There we go. Nice and spotless.

Ah, this brings back memories. There's something nostalgic about it. You never really forget your first armed robbery.

Pleasure doing business with you.

You know, we have to stop meeting like this. You going about your day. Me, beating the shit out of you and taking your things. It's getting stale. Why don't we do lunch sometime or something, just for a change of pace?

I think we hurt her feelings. Do... do you want to talk about it?

Uh, Roro says you're fired, by the way. Can't say I've ever been given a gift-with-purchase for a robbery before but she handed me the pink slip right along with the locket.

Yeah, I thought it was weird too.

Better luck in the next life, man. Hope the person waiting for you will treat you better.

[thelikesoffinn]

Hey friend❤️

I got to start off by saying that, I've been loving your writing and your perspectives on different aspects of the game and mixing your personal experience and expertise into your statement. It's just 🤌 amazing and a great night time read

There has been a quote that been dancing in my mind for a while, when ascended Astarion stated to the Tav later after their break-up "You will regret leaving me, more than anything you live to regret". And how Neil delivered that line... its all i can think about. There was so much bitterness, contempt, and melancholy in his voice 😭

I feel that after he sought out his revenge on Cazador and reached ascension, he realized that still feels/remembers his past, still remains deeply insecure and that internally, not much about he as changed, but during that conversation with Tav, he doubled down on how his has more powers, and can call on wolves 🐺 just like a scornful Ex stating that they are doing fine (or even, much better 👀 ) after the break-up to just make their ex-partner feel just as miserable as them (he may also be projecting 👀, and maybe he regrets ascendening since it mayhave been the cause of the break up of the 1st person he had ever cared about and didnt bring him everything... well, atleast not the stuff that truly mattered to him)

I was wondering what did you think of this line and the conversation surrounding that line🤔

P.S ( I would love to hear you talk about why you hated Astarion's reaction to Tav sleeping with Mizora 😃 )

"A great night-time read". Duck. Lovely. That's basically the highest of compliments, I'm melting! I'm so happy you enjoy it 😭❤️

I know exactly which line you mean! I think that was actually one of the first ascended lines I ever stumbled across.

I love how ambiguous it is, because the timing is the way it is.

It could mean "you will regret leaving me because look at me now! I'M AWESOME!"✨️ *throws glitter*

But the moment he says it is just fantastic, because half a second before he was like "I should've made you a spawn to teach you that I can have everything I want" and then he follows it with "you will regret leaving me" and I love the correlation between those two phrases. They can both stand separate, but they can also stand together and hint at a possible future.

You know, it leaves us wondering a bit. Will we regret this? Or will he make us regret it?

(Personally, I 100% can't see Astarion let Tav go. I just can't, I don't. He already shows obsessive behaviour right now, just after ascension, and that likely won't stop just because Tav's like "Nah, love, thanks tho.". Vampires just aren't that lenient when it comes to things they desire. And, despite being ascended, he still is a true vampire.)

I don't think he regrets ascending, really, mostly based on the fact that I don't think he actually CAN regret anything anymore. I think I mentioned it in another ask, but regret seems to be a difficult emotion for true vampires - and thus our true vampire+ babe - as they can't really process it the way a normal person would and anger overshadows everything. So, at best, I think he'd be angry at Tav for not seeing how grand he is now and how it's "their loss" when they refuse him.

I do agree, however, that his insecurity likely stays. It's just overshadowed by ascension, blanketed and kept hidden in the deepest, darkest place where it won't be reached.

Ascension doesn't completely eradicate the very core of his being, it just twists it into the worst it can be.

Love becomes obsession.

Fear, pain and despair become anger.

Shame and Guilt become blame.

So the very core of who he was is likely still there, suppressed and dulled by what ascension has done to him, and his trauma and the resulting insecurity are a huge part of who Astarion is.

In a way, I can even see it seep into his life later on in a repeated cycle of abuse.

As I said at another time, most of the time those who have been abused don't want to abuse others. They don't want to inflict the same things they've gone through on anyone else - albeit they may become abusive in other ways - and will likely shy away from repeating the same things they've experienced.

But ascended Astarion is probably not part of said "most". It could potentially become a way to...well, to cope with the lasting scars Cazador has left him with. Although "cope" is already putting it very very kindly.

Hurting others the way he was hurt can underline the exact difference on who he was and who he now is. It elevates that feeling of power (and safety) he always craved because look at him now! He's the strong one now and no one will ever hurt him again.

He was just like them. Screeching and flailing, flinching and suffering - a weak, pathetic, disgusting wreck. But look at him now. Who could hurt him now?

No one. Not a single living being holds a candle to what he's become.

He's above everything.

Regarding his boasting I do agree - he probably wants to show them how awesome he is (✨️) so that they regret it, but all he does is prove why leaving him was a good idea.

What I find interesting is that he actually does show a lot of joy and excitement for the powers he will attain and the things he will be able to do. He uses it to boast, but it does seem like real excitement and I can not tell you how interested I am in what happens once he notices that it's not enough.

Once he can turn into mist and command werewolves, what's next? Where will he find his next dose of serotonin? Because I think we can all agree that this won't be enough.

It won't ever be enough.

Astarion will forever be in a state of want, and he'll always be greedy for more and more and more, and one day, this greed will be the reason for his demise.

All in all, that entire conversation is a very well chosen way to show us who he's become after ascension. It's just a few sentences, but god, they can imply so much and carry a surprising amount of weight if one is willing to listen.

[bisluthq]

I enjoyed Sabrina's album more than I thought I would. A little hit or miss, but overall pretty solid!!

I also enjoyed it way more than I expected to. There were a few things I really enjoyed about it: firstly, as always, her voice. Sabrina really and truly has one of the most, if not the most, beautiful voices of the Gen Z pop stars. Secondly, I liked the length. I liked that it was short and... sweet lol. Thirdly, well... let's get to the contents and do a track by track breakdown lol.

Taste - strong opener and my first thought was like "damn what a sick bop" but then I started thinking a little about what she was actually saying and I'm... what a fucking bizarre concept for a song. On the bright side, it's a little bit gay, which I really like, because okay girl yes she'll taste YOU on him - this is not a totally original concept and it's always a bit gay when girls start saying this kind of thing ngl and I'm into that aspect of it - but... the part that truly baffles me... is the "I heard you're back together and if that's true". I was following the whole message, and really vibing with the subtextual gayness, until that specific detail. Sabrina's essentially saying: "Camila, I know I got your sloppy seconds and he dumped me for you but I stole all his clothes in the period we were together and now even though he's back with you, you're gonna have to remember I had him in between you having him the first time and having him now." Which is... kind of a self-burn? Or is it? Is she like reclaiming being the August girl in this song lol? What is she actually saying? I'm baffled by this song, I truly am. Sick fucking vibes though if I turn my brain off and just vibe and don't think about the lyrics at all. I will listen to this song again. But I don't understand what the fuck she's saying lol.

Please Please Please - I disliked this song the first time I heard it, and I still dislike it now. I'm not sure if it's meant to be purposefully funny. "I beg you, don't embarrass me, motherfucker" could be funny? But the whole song isn't really that funny? Also it's about Barry, clearly, with the whole "you're an actor" bit and I'm just like... is this woman addicted to self-burns? (Saltburns? Self-burns? Both seemingly lol). Because he sure as shit looks like he'd embarrass you, and y'all have now apparently broken up, so idk that you got what you were begging for here. I'm also going to be honest, the first time I saw the title I expected it to be an orgasmic thing like "please please please [get me off]" but it's not (that disappointed me the first time too) and idk I just don't vibe with this song at all. 2/10 maximum. Sorry. It's also just not vibey enough for me.

Good Graces - another solid bop. Kinda boring tho. Very standard like hype up gym music but feels deeply inauthentic based on the rest of her album and also her overall vibe because "I won't give a fuck about you" is... seemingly not true like at all lol. I feel like she phoned it in on this one tbh.

Sharpest Tool - this was the first song on this album I REALLY actually genuinely liked. I enjoyed it beyond just "yes it'd motivate me to keep running/rowing/stepping/cycling". I really like this song. I also must say, it sounds like Shawn really fucked her over. I think the confusion and the hurt is relatable and feels authentic and I just... I like this song. I also love the fact that she's like "you're a fucking idiot and I guess that makes me an even bigger idiot for falling for you" because I've definitely felt that way/thought that about some people but I am not certain I've heard it expressed in a song as directly and I just... really dig this song.

Coincidence - okay so I can see how if you're in a situation where someone you're seeing goes back to their ex, which is not an uncommon situation to find oneself in, this would be on repeat. It makes sense on account of how, as Sabrina has now repeatedly told us, Shawn went back to Camila. I do like the continuation of the Sharpest Tool thing where she's like "guess this makes me a bit of an idiot but not as much as you apparently think I am" and it's boppy af but yeah not my fave.

Bed Chem - I actively fucking hate this song. My first problem is that I just can't not see Barry in my head as she's singing it and I keep judging her for that. I know I've judged Swifties for that kind of thing before but I just... it's a pretty accurate description of Barry's vibe, same as Please Please Please, and I'm just sitting there like... "Sabrina, are you seriously telling me you looked at BARRY KEOGHAN AND POPPED OFF LIKE THIS?" Then I think like, actually yes, I can imagine that because despite her trying to make this probably the sexiest and most explicit song on the album it's super fucking unsexy. I hate positions and 34+35 (Sabrina also tells us the thermostat is set at 69 in this song and I'm genuinely asking if either Ari or Sabrina have ever had really good sex because thus far nothing has convinced me that they have) but I somehow hate this song even more ardently. It also sounds like it got lost from a shitty long forgotten 00s/10s one hit wonder's album. I just fucking hate this song. Everything about it is terrible. I wish I could unhear it. Then again, this appears to be a recurring theme for me and things to do with Barry - I wish I could unsee his "big bad mmmm" as Sabrina called it but here we are, I live in this timeline now.

Espresso - I've obviously heard this song before and look, it's cute enough but originally struck me as utterly forgettable. There was nothing to like or hate about it because it sort of just exists. However, the rest of this album has made me kinda reassess this stance because it has some unintentionally hilarious lines. "Too bad your ex don't do it for you," sings Sabrina, seemingly totally unironically, on an album primarily about how Shawn went back to his ex. I also find "I can't relate to desperation / My give-a-fucks are on vacation" very fucking funny, again because of the contents of the rest of this album. Bestie, all of your songs about Barry are desperate as fuck. You can't get over Shawn going back to Camila. When have your fucks ever taken a vacation plz stop lying to us. Also, on the bad sex thing like the whole Nintendo metaphor makes me... unconvinced she's ever had good sex because idk if I've ever been like "woah that was incredible, I got played like a Nintendo." It's also unclear to me from the lyrics who's the one playing Nintendo and while I can see how you could sorta do that vibe on a vajayjay if she's keeping HIM up by playing him like a Nintendo then that sounds like it'd be very fucking weird.

Dumb & Poetic - I'm not lying when I say to you guys this is one of my favourite songs I've heard this year. It is so fucking funny, it's so relatable, her voice sounds grand on it, I just love it. Honestly a 10/10 song. This is one of the songs I'm not totally sure is purely a Shawn smackcam - it's obviously inspired by him, but parts of it remind me of us. so it could also be a bit DoB. I think that's partly why I love it, because there are SO many guys like this in the world lmao and this song sums them up so so so so well.

Slim Pickins - RIP Gaybrinas, she just killed y'all dead. Aside from being one of the straightest things a woman has ever written I guess I can see why it'd be relatable to girls and gays who are feeling frustrated with their dating options bc boys are menaces, this is true.

Juno - Sabrina is truly at her worst when she tries to make sexy songs. This song is terrible. It is marginally less dreadful than Bed Chem, on account of how the title and concept is kinda funny to me (and that's intentional unlike with the accidental jokes on espresso, like she's making a funny intertextual reference and it indeed is pretty funny, I'll grant her that) but there's just NOTHING sexy about it? It's also another Barry song, evidently, and another funny thing about it is imagining his "whole package" somehow fitting inside Sabrina lol ngl.

Lie to Girls - like Dumb & Poetic, this feels like it could be an amalgamation of several arseholes she's had the uncertain pleasure of meeting. I also think it's a (mildly) mildly original and legit relatable concept in terms of us lying to ourselves if we like someone well enough lol. I think we've all lied to ourselves in order to justify being with someone we're into or to justify being into that person in the first place. It's not even just girls, everyone does this. It's also just a pretty song tbh.

Don't Smile - I like that she's honest in this song. Yes, girl. We know you're a petty and vengeful bitch. That's been evident on this album lol. It's much more like her based on her personality that I gleaned from this album than "my give a fucks are on vacation" when I don't think they've ever taken one in her whole life ever. I also like Sabrina best when she’s not trying to be a cool girl or a sexy girl because what I get from this album is she’s not naturally either of those things. She is deeply, almost painfully uncool. It’s funny that Olivia had an issue with her being too cool because Olivia naturally is fuck cool lmao and Sabrina is a whole ass nerd and very desperate to be liked and petty and vengeful and insecure and when she leans into that side of herself, she has some cool songs. Like as much as she wants to be sexy and nonchalant and brazen, she actually just hopes that no guy smiles that it’s over with her and it really disappoints her - deeply - when they leave.

I haven't listened to this one because it wasn't part of my Apple Music album but I went into Genius to make sure I remembered the lyrics right to make this post Needless to Say really makes me want to tell Sabrina to keep my lil sis/niece Olivia R's name out her skanky donkey dick sucking mouth. Genius tells me it's about her ex but idk it sounds like a pretty direct Olivia smack cam and she should stfu and stuff another donkey dick in her plastic mouth. (Jk, clearly I kinda like her now and I just wrote a very nice thing about her in the para above, I just like Olivia a loooot more lolol and actually on Needless to Say she is once again being uncool and petty if - as I think it is - it’s about Liv lol and that’s not cool of her but Sabrina at her best isn’t). I also don’t like that she had 13 songs as her deluxe album, feels very Swiftie of her but then again that’s also uncool and lowkey as I say likable re her. She should lean into that more.

IN SUMMATION: This is a solid album. I really like some of the songs on it. It's a solid 7/10 for me. I also respect just how much tea there was on this lol she really fucking is very upset that Shawn went back to Camila lmfao and I... respect that lol I guess.

[hotmessteaparty]

2 in 1 uquizzes

I got tagged by my love @josephseedismyfather and now I'm finally gonna catch up to it! Thank you sm for thinking of me with all the tags 💖 I chose my OC Diah Talugmai (Citras and Vaas' mother) and Carlos for these tags. I know, he's not really my OC, but technically we don't have any information of him besides his name being dropped in the far cry experience, soooo at least how I imagined his character to be kind of is my OC, if that makes sense? Idk 😂

Again, of course tagging without pressure and only with love in mind 🥰 @piratekingvaas @jasonsnowwhitebrody @vaasonsson @insanityofvaas @merryandrewsworld @blaze13full @littlemissawry @alexredgrave @ball-pen

What is your OCs true role in the story?

Diah Talugmai

The Fallen Prodigy

Hello old friend, it's been a while hasn't it? I remember when you were just a child, gape-smiled and beaming like the sun. Where have you laid your youth to rest my love? Is it buried beside your heart perhaps? I know how deeply life has wounded you, it took away everything, didn't it? Oh poor soul, you held onto happiness with bloody, shaking hands but still fate ripped even that away from you. Your past lovers are dead or did some betray you? Turning away in fear of what they once admired. Your comrades have been slain, or their priorities shifted. I've heard you too have changed your way of thought. The people fear you know, do they normally cower at the sound of your name? Ah don't fret, that makes two of us. the masses tend to despise the things they do not have the will to comprehend. The villian finds sympathy for you don't they, well I could have seen that from a mile away. You two are the oldest friends, you made a deal with them correct? To save your late love, they tried to hold their end of the bargain, really, but I fear you are cursed to forever be despondent. Oh what a sad and miserable life without love. Is that why you chase loneliness? For is it truly a life of sorrow if you yourself has chosen it? But don't become bitter from the pain. Trust when I say I have seen wounds unfold a man, turning the gentlest spirits into seething beasts. Please, keep seeking love, even if it seems you are forbidden from it. You are the master of your own fate, I see how tired you are. the scars never healed, they twist and wrap around your entire person. Your eyes are dark and lifeless, rest. But keep fighting, not with the sword you have forsaken so long ago, but with your heart. I'll be rooting for you my friend.

The "Oh" quiz

Carlos

the first meeting

Life is normal. It's scripted. It's functional. Then one day, you meet them, and... Oh. You fix your posture, you're a little nervous, and it's totally possible you're just projecting -- But this could be something. And the only thing that makes this different from the hundreds of other times you had that exact same thought only to be disappointed is... This is the time that counts. Things change. You were looking for someone whose very existence re-contextualized yours. Which is not to say that you were incomplete, but... aren't we all? Isn't that the essence of being a being who changes? And what completes us if not the love of something or someone beyond us? Sure it's still new, and anything could happen from here, but there's something in your shared brain chemistry that makes it feel like good things are in motion. How exciting!

How intresting are these results? I think both of them fit pretty well and I actually was plenty surprised that Diah got the same result as my friends @josephseedismyfather OC Harley Jane. And tbh j think it fits them both very well, but for entirely different reasons!

Also for Carlos I think it's a pretty good fit, tho obviously you guys don't know yet what's in the cards for him 😁

[horsefreek151]

Hair Dye is Part of My Gender (or lack there of)

This is gonna sound wild, but Hair Dye is probably part of my gender expression that I feel wrong without.

I started dyeing my hair on and off in 2018 before I knew I was Agender and started with blue but moved on to greens and even to reds. I'm a natural ginger, so I soon figured out what worked for me. I cut it in Jan 2020 for a work position I moved across the country for and then got fired for being autistic. I crashed. It was two years before I dyed it again, this time professionally for the first time, it was just after I came out.

I remember manically giggling with my boyfriend (now husband) about how now that I had my undercut/side shave I felt Gender. I was giggling with the styles about how much this was gender. She was so kind I went back to her two years later to get my hair done for my wedding. I got an ombre from dark red to orange to light yellow like FIRE and it was so GOOD. I felt amazing. I had waist-length FIRE-colored hair like ginger! I looked awesome. I felt awesome.

My health had majorly declined over these last few years, particularly physically, and I was struggling to keep up with that hair, now past my bum. I was in loads of pain and couldn't keep it up, so I kept it all braided up, but it was a mess and so hard to care for. I was washing as little as once a month. It was too much to keep up. I had to cut it. It is now shoulder-length in the back, sweeping forward an inch or two longer in the front. It reminds me of the second usher kid who died in the fall of usher in style. It was causing me some brian issues because all the colors had been cut off. It was starting to cause me some real distress so I decided to look into hair dye again. Cant get it dyed professionally (Im disabled and poor), and I cant get more dye until I'm payed so I decided to just grab my leftover dye, Ill probably have a muted brown green tinted with my blondest hairs (ginger tends to vary between dark red brown and light pale blond, from hair to hair) being the bright green. Even tho it will probably look trash I imidately felt releaf when dyeing it. Its the first time I've felt what I can consider gender dysphoria. I have had body dysmorphia, I bloat so bad I look like I'm nearly 6 months pregnant 90% of the time, but never gender dysphoria that I could pin down. It was one of the moments where I realized that for me, as an agender person, I only felt (lack there of)gender conformation when I dyed it. Without it I felt too much cis fem presenting, not only do I look more like my abusive mother, but I just looked too..... before I was out. Too different than how I feel. I also hate swimming in fem-bodied swimsuits unless I'm particularly trying to look cute rather than swim. I would rather just swim in practical cloths of shorts and a swim shirt (again, I'm ginger, I burn sitting in the window). I use boxers 99.9% of the time unless I want to look cute or have an ouch that makes it uncomfortable. I know that I don't really identify with gender, Women, or Man. That's why I ID as Agender. But that doesn't mean that things can't be gender comforting. I've found over the years how much what I wear or what I'm forced to wear. I have a wacky haircut cause I'm modifying my undercut, but I feel very uncomfortable if my shave part is longer than an inch. I do strive towards things that help represent my lack of gender, point towards somewhere in between, at least, let alone the cave in the mountain of gender that I sit in. Its very interesting to me how that has changed as I have found more of my identity and what I truly feel about myself. Gender how you want and let yourself trust your feelings.

[the-doodly-noodle]

🖊️🐶💚🍛 for any oc (can be multiple) :)

Okie dokie! I'll do this with...uhhhh.... Mike, Fritz, and Becky! (I don't remember if I've truly introduced them, they're OCs for an original story called Crooked Teeth).

I'll put in a readmore so it doesn't clog up the dash.

🖊️ BALLPOINT PEN — does your oc have any tattoos? do they want any (more) tattoos?

Mike: Mike went through a rebellious phase when he was in high school, and he got a rabbit tattoo on his arm in memory of someone he was super close to when he was young. He's settled down quite a bit since then, and even though he's not actively planning to get more tattoos, I think he'd be down to get another one if he can easily cover it up for work reasons. I think he prefers abstractly sentimental ink.

Fritz: Fritz himself? He has no tattoos and doesn't plan on changing that. However, he was super encouraging when Mike got his and went to the tattoo parlor with him for emotional support (probably calling him a good boy for how well he can take it--Mike just rolls his eyes). And he'd do it again by golly.

Becky: Between taking care of her parent (haven't decided which parent yet) and her job, she never really has a lot of free time to herself. So she doesn't have a tattoo...yet. I think she'd want to get something pretty, like flowers and/or birds on her leg. Fritz and Mike, of course, would absolutely go with her if she got it, but she's a tough cookie and I don't think reassurances would be necessary. She's still appreciative.

🐶 DOG FACE — does your oc have any pets?

Mike: If plants count as a pet, then yes, he is a great plant father. Otherwise, no animals in his life. I think he appreciates loyal dogs tho, as long as he doesn't have to care for them.

Fritz: If Fritz had a pet, he'd most likely have a bearded dragon or a gecko, some kind of lizard. He'd either name it after an inanimate object like Fork or Garbage Bag or he'd give it a human name like Bernard or Susan. I think it'd most likely be the latter, and he would delight in the confusion it could cause.

Becky: Becky has a stray black cat that she feeds regularly. She calls it Blackberry and I think she lets it inside the house sometimes if she can, such as in moments of inclement weather (sidenote: I think it's a thing in her family to give each other food nicknames, one of her relatives called her Peanut).

💚 GREEN HEART — does your oc prefer being inside or outside?

Mike: Mike's a pretty solitary individual. He prefers being indoors, but if he does go out, he goes to green spaces like the woods or the park, somewhere natural and with very few people.

Fritz: Fritz likes going out and about, but he spends most of his time in urban spaces. You could probably find him soaking up the sun outside of a coffee shop, and he'd chat with you if you sat with him. He just likes tidy spaces where he can chill with people.

Becky: Becky spends most of her time indoors, so whenever she gets an opportunity to be outside, she makes sure to take her sweet time doing things. Running errands, hanging out, anything like that, will probably take longer than it needs to with her because it's a freedom she doesn't experience often. It doesn't matter to her if it's urban or rural, she just likes being out and about.

🍛 CURRY AND RICE — what does your oc’s typical dinner look like? do they usually eat dinner?

Mike: Mike sometimes forgets to eat dinner, especially when he starts doing things in the plot. When he does eat the food tends to be takeout or microwaveable, but always spicy. He knows the basics of cooking and his food is passable (if not bland--man doesn't own anything more flavorful than salt and pepper really), but for the most part he just can't be bothered. He's the victim of habits borne of college and night shifts.

Fritz: This man's dabbled in just about everything, so of course he knows his way around a spice rack and eats well-balanced meals. When he first moved out, he tried to keep a kosher home like the one he grew up in, but he started getting lax when he went out to eat with coworkers. One thing led to another, and eventually he fell out of the practice. However, he still doesn't eat pork (he doesn't like the way it smells when it's cooked) and he maintains "parent cabinets" where he stores everything he needs (cookware, serving dishes, cabinet covers, etc) and doesn't touch on the day-to-day in order to make kosher food for his mom and dad when they visit. They tend to give him sufficient notice so that he can take time to make his appliances kosher too. Oh, also he knows all the best hole-in-the-wall food places around town; if you wanna try something new, talk to him.

Becky: Becky cooks nutritionally balanced meals. Since she provides care for her parent, her dinners tend to meet their dietary needs as well. It's easier to cook a double portion, y'know? If, on a rare occasion, she makes plans to go out to dinner with someone, she makes sure to cook for her parent first and set them up for the night before she leaves. Her foods of choice tend to gravitate towards sweet or acidic flavors.

@yuyubake thank you for the ask!

[jubilantwriter]

Well heelllloooo my beloved~

Let's go wiiiithhhh 4, 8, 16, 26, 55, and 68!

Helloooooo my darling~

4. Where do you find inspiration for new ideas?

Usually through music, but nowadays I've been drawing inspiration from hefty quotes on tumblr and comics where there's a certain Flavor to it that I really like and wanna try with my own takes.

8. Do you prefer the beginning, middle, or end of a story?

The middle! That's where the meat of the fic is, and where my general creativity really goes loose and uncontrolled lol. You can bet that my excess writing collects in the middle and just continues to unravel from there. Beginnings tend to be rough, but once I get a start, I manage to keep on chugging.

Endings are where I really struggle. Don't- [grabs your face to look away at my incomplete but published fics] -don't look over there.

16. How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Share one of them?

Oooohh so many. Granted, all of them tend to be centered around my and my friends' OCs, but the one I'm nursing right now is:

Clay (from Pokemon Black and White) has to deal with the grief and guilt of his younger cousin going missing (my OC, Rod, of whom you know), and processes it as healthily as he possibly can. Which is to say, he processes it poorly. There's blame tossed around and angry jealousy/envy towards another figure who's lost a family member.

Takes place just before Legends Arceus truly kicks off, but is set in that universe. I've actually been working on this fic for AGES, and it's only recently returned to bother me in the corners of my brain.

26. Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

GOD. I would have to say... "The Space Between". It was my first true horror fic where I pushed myself to really experiment with my writing. Building the atmosphere, figuring out how to word things just right to drive home the pure terror David was in was a struggle, but a well fought one! I remember putting myself in David's headspace and freaking myself out with horror stuff to get me to really feel and experience what David felt to properly translate the terror into words. I even thought about reading a Stephen King book or two to understand how to write horror! Needless to say, I didn't end up doing that LOL

After all that build up tho came the downhill climb from all that horror tension, which honestly is what got me put into a standstill. Like, how do you write a satisfying conclusion to all that build up? That's still something I need to work on for that fic, and one that's been nagging at me for ages. Hopefully, I'll figure something out. I know how it ends, after all.

55. Of the characters you write for, which is your favorite? Has that choice been swayed at all by your followers/readers’ reactions to certain ones?

...........r Od, my pokémon OC. loL. Writing my own OC has been a pleasure and a joy, just because I can put him into so many situations and throw him into so many AUs with my friends. But also, the biggest appeal of Rod is that he's my own character. I know who he is and why he behaves the way he does better than anyone else - his motives, his drives, his weaknesses. Not only that, but he's a character who can change and grow into something else! He used to be a cis man before my friends and I talked more and more about him until we realized... no, actually, he's a transman. He leaves so much room for experimenting, for discovery and building that it's so much fun to work with him! It's less constraining to work with him than with established characters, and it's also SUCH a breath of fresh air!

My friends DEFINITELY had some part in my choice to write about him. They all just... loved him so much??? Right from conception when he was nothing more than a sock puppet with googly eyes and a fishing pun for a name. They loved him so much that they all breathed the life into him, until I actually had something to work with.

And then they kept playing with him!! Lord did they play with him. So I played dolls with their OCs as well, and this interconnected world with OCs just kinda grew and expanded and became so much fun to explore that I just couldn't not enjoy writing fics about him and their OCs falling in love or being a family or struggling together. A lot of the fics I write of Rod tend to be shared only amongst my friends, but maybe... some day... I'll post something here.

68. What, if anything, do you do for inspiration?

Listen to songs in hopes of getting my writing spunk on. That, or daydreaming! Daydreaming scenarios really helps.

The other thing I do is write my fic on minecraft which is a sane and nor Mal thing to do,

[todayisafridaynight]

I didn't really get a chance to say it yesterday (or the day before lol) but I've been having tons of fun with the new stream schedule and with revisiting Judgment with you and everyone! Excited for today's stream too of course; Admittedly I Did Giggle And Kick My Feet A Little about you considering drawing Tsuruno BUT I'll of course be just as happy to see Masato/Aoki <3 or anyone else <3 I actually don't remember ever seeing you draw Aoki's scars in spite of The Controversy...

ALSO PLEEEEEEASE I Am SORRY For Shishiposting (<- It Is Fine And Will Happen Again) 😭😭😭 a bitch predictable... I do genuinelyyyyyy want to comment on every other post you make though I just wish I still had that kinda time right now </3 I will say it was funny as hell seeing you post about Daigo's correct estimation of the threat Shishido's charisma poses (SUCH a Father and Son Intelligence vs. Wisdom moment between Daigo and Kiryu btw) while I was in the middle of having an argument with someone saying Shishido wasn't charismatic lmao

judgment streams have been real fun even if i do run around my room five minutes before every one LOL it's been swell so far playin through the game the first time with everybody :]

i truly aint got any idea what to draw specifically for stream, there's been a whole lotta things ive been wantin to draw so it's gonna be hard boilin it down to one. i might just do a random sketch pile, tho it will def be annoyin havin to run and grab ref images every so often LOL BUT it'll be fun regardless :) i hope :))

i don't really get a lot of chances to draw aoki's scars. i can count of all the times ive done so on my hand and those drawings were preeeettty old, so i try Not to think of them lol. even comics where i wanted to Poke at his post recovery i've already done, and even in THAT i still had him bandaged. world wasn't meant to see him post op i suppose lol (´▽｀)

AND AS YOU SAY IT'S FINE LMAO im always happy to read whatever you got to say (❁´◡`❁) i make a lot of posts broski, it is very understandable that theres no time to comment on a lot of them. because i have little else to do outside of my Silly Posting LOOOL so i appreciate the time you can find to write in :)

[abysscronica]

What do tou think about the big 3? Do you think there are new shonen lately that can compete?

Hey, thank you for the question! I can't remember if I was asked about the Big 3 before, so here we go. Please remember this is solely my opinion, everyone should be free to enjoy what they prefer.

They all started pretty close to each other, One Piece in 1997, Naruto in 1999, Bleach in 2001. Despite being bonded to the classic shonen traits, they all have different narrative dynamics.

Obviously I think One Piece is the unmatched best (and also the only one still ongoing). I always talk about it, so I'm not gonna spend too many words on it here, but basically I think it's strengths compared to the others lie in the world building, memorable scenes, and ideals.

It's no secret what I think about Naruto, I was asked before. I believe Naruto part 1 is AMAZING. Compared to the other two, Kishimoto had a head start. Buuuuut then, for me, Shippuden was a complete let-down. The crafting of shinobi battles introduced before, where each player had a (more or less) precise set of skills and had to find a way to make it work against the enemy, was discarded in favor of divine powers, together with many characters introduced in part one. Plus I found the plot boring, and the final part a total mess. It had its moment, don't get me wrong, but not enough to keep me entretained.

So Bleach. I have to confess that I haven't finished Bleach yet, so maybe I shouldn't even talk about it, but there's a reason I got stuck. Even though Kubo wrote what I think is one of the best shonen arcs ever written (the Soul Society arc), then he... kept going back to the same plot. That's why I stopped reading at the Espada arc, I felt like we were doing the exact same thing, just swapping Rukia with Orihime. From there I felt it got really messy, with forgotten characters, storylines, and repetitive cliches.

I hope I won't upset anyone with this, as I said before it's just my opinion, and all three manga must possess great qualities to even be defined "Big 3".

Now, about the new generation. Shonen are slowly evolving as well, so it's hard to compare the new ones - and I haven't read many, I have to admit. My Hero Academia, Demon Slayer, Attack on Titan (is it even a shonen?), Beastars, One Punch Man (dropped tho), and Chainsaw Man. I've watched the first season of Jujutsu Kaisen and I tried Dr. Stone, but I dropped it soon because I found it boring, despite the great art. Most of these suffered (or are suffering...) of a bad/rushed finale, which is a common issue for this type of manga.

In short, no, I don't think any of the new gen's peaks matched the Big 3's peaks. MHA had a shot for a moment, but then declined. (and Chainsaw Man is too particular and plays in its own league). Maybe the heirs are among the ones I haven't read (yet), like Black Clover, Mashle, or JJK.

But the only one that truly had a shot, in my opinion, is not a new gen. It's Hunter x Hunter. If it weren't for its serialization problems, it'd probably be one of the Big 3 (knocking out Bleach I guess?).

BTW I did thoroughly enjoy Demon Slayer and Beastars, and I'm currently enjoying CSM.